21:30 put on my new blue-blocking UVEX safety glasses, wear all the way to bed time. People with chronic bed-time insomnia report these help better than sleeping pills. I don't have bed-time insomnia but figure every minute of getting to sleep faster is more dreaming during the night and better rest. I also wear them for WBTB where I need to turn on some lights. 23:00 100mg 5-HTP hoping for REM rebound and deep restful sleep for first half of night + bedtime Prepared 2x4mg Galantamind, 1x300 choline bitartrate, 2x300mg Alpha-GPC No REMee tonight, in anticipation of long BTB after taking the G. 00:00 Monday 2014-05-05 LD #36 Galantamine, TOTM 03:47 alarm, took G mixture and banana (to ensure pills actually hit stomach, and get some additional energy to brain for epic long dreaming) 04:45 wide awake, take 0.3mg melatonin to help with getting back to sleep 05:44 not sleeping yet, feeling a bit hungry, eat 3 small corn tortillas with about 1/3 of an avacado and small glass of milk, to prevent staying awake from empty stomach rumblings and to provide fuel for anticipated epic long LDs. Lots of HH: mostly faint dark blobs flashing in front of my eyes. A few HI: 1) a box of breakfast cereal on a shelf, 2) a newspaper with a headline, and 3) beautiful blonde shepherdesses with some goats in a pasture. 07:45 somewhere around here finally fall asleep. Indulging in stimulating daydreaming too much. Finally stop that and put full sleep relaxation kung-fu into place. Try hard to enjoy where I am, "not trying" to sleep but just float in relaxation. Somewhere in there my thoughts finally subside and I sleep. + watching TV and I knew the time on the TV was wrong, it showed 03:00 but I knew I had been up for hours so it should be more like 07:00 + TV show: (scene from the Sopranos?) Two guys in some sort of tropical hut open to the outside, one guy is saying "we're done for, they're going to find us", the second guy (in Hawaiian shrit?) is important (Tony Soprano?) I'm pretty sure they won't wack hiim, another guy walks in from the left, I focus on him, a somewhat hazy gun is in his left hand he's holding it up pointing it into the room, then somebody off-screen to the left shoots him (the one with the gun), he has no shirt on, I see the bullet shoot through his body, entering around his right side mid-ribcage and exiting from the middle of his chest, bright red blood starts gushing in a stream from the entrance wound, his face goes slack, his hand starts moving slowly to cover the entrance wound, I think that won't help at all because if he covers it up it will just start gushing from the exit wound. + wife tells me something and I respond like it doesn't matter (because I'm dreaming?) + I'm in a cluttered room in a random house. I'm reaching for a large round cookie tin at the top of a tall cabinet (raided my folk's extra freezer for a tin of frozen brownies yesterday IWL...mmmmm, frozen brownies!), I grab it and am bringing it down to me, and my mantra hits for no apparent reason, "I'm dreaming..."...HEY! I AM dreaming!". Quick nose pinch confirms it, I can breathe! I try to put the cookie tin down on the ironing board to my left but I miss and it falls to the floor, for a brief instant I consider picking it up but I laugh at myself and realize I shouldn't give a sh*t cuz this is an LD and just turn away from it heading to the right. Feel unstable, vision is fading to white, I instantly rub hands. I rub them and feel for them and look for them, this always works wonders for me but not today, I feel them but can't see them. I try my full-body pat-down but only get a few pats in before stopping, I see my dream body a bit but I'm still in vague whiteness. I "bring out the nukes" and spin around counter clockwise for a while [I haven't done this since LD #1!] still in whiteness, I wonder if I'll end up somewhere different, I stop and I'm back in the room. I continue forwards out of the room, there's a small hallway there with a darkened room to the left. What should I do? TOTM! AH! Shots with Angelina Jolie! What is the other task??.....ah ok, the force, I think I'll start there it's easier, just TK something as there's nobody around, I look around and see some notebooks lying on the ground at my feet. I take a few steps backwards into the room I started in with my eyes on the notebooks, hold out my left hand and will one of the notebooks to come to my hand, AND IT DOES! Woohoo, first mindful TK. "That's awesome" I say and toss the notebook back down where it started. OK, SHOTS TIME! I start thinking about Angelina and begin working up a summon for her, but I wake up.
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I was at my friends house getting armor on, like bomb armor. All of a sudden I was in this trail that I used to go in all the time, and I remember looking at myself in the suit and I was like "damn." But anyways. There were bad guys and I was talking to them, I didn't want to shoot because I wanted everything to be peaceful, then they turned into my friend Darius (dari-queen) and the dream ended.
I was in a store alone (I never am) trying to find the ingredients for hotdogs but they were no where and I woke up. Lol
I remember laughing and spending time with someone
5/5/14* Epic for me!..the part I am referring to starts at the ocean/beach further into the first lucid (blue) section. Got a great balance of self-awareness and dream environment attention and vividness! Weirdness induced second night in a row, but this time intentionally. This may be too personally felt for anyone else to get it. Also I was getting HH's while wife was getting up to get ready and there are only two of us in the house but I could hear the door closing on the other side of the house at the same time I felt my bed bouncing a little bit like when someone gets in or out of bed and that was a little bit freaky but I took it as HH's and I stay calm (which was it...was the bed movement or the door closing the HH...or both? ha ha!). Dream: We are in a big group seem to be traveling and we are in like a passport or visa line in Paris (the dream tells me this but I am not sure how, perhaps from earlier in the dream) but I am disappointed to see that we arrived in one of the suburbs and at first there is a huge line I see over to the left and I hope that that is not the line we're getting in but no we are dropped off to another place. There doesn't seem to be a line and we just have to go down this series of stairs, more and more stairs until finally I'm in this line but it is an amusement park line for some ride. It is a train of 4 to 6 cars each half-dome shaped with space for two. I've lost everyone except for one girl that is with us. But then I notice that I got out of line somehow on the exit side of the ride and the ride operator wouldn't let me get back on with the person I was with so now she was on the ride and taking off and the ride operator said something smart and I got upset at him and I thought it makes me just want to punch the guy and as I think about actually punching him I realize wait a minute that's a dream-like scenario taking control and punching someone and I realize I'm dreaming and I think about the musical performance task of the month and how I had already planned on doing it, but first I punch the guy. So I start playing air guitar and I the guitar appears and then I started doing air drums imagining the song by Phil Collins "I can feel it coming in the air tonight" I forget the title. Everything goes fuzzy but the crowd, I can start to hear the crowd getting louder and louder forming around me and there was already a crowd in the line of the ride but then I imagine them cheering and continue playing the drums and I am having a blast when I feel the dreamscape fading and I remember to try to spin and I fade into the void. In the void I tried to go back to where I was, with me performing, but nothing was happening fast enough so I remember my old reliable happy place, an ocean beach. As I imagine the scene I can start to hear ocean waves very gentle but repetitive rolling in along with seagulls calling and I patiently wait and it feels like I'm starting to float in slightly undulating water and I decide I don't want it to be too deep I want to be close to shore so I can explore the land and I do feel the water shallow...success! I feel the water up to my shins and the scene appears around me it is a grassy ocean with long green something not really kelp but it looks more like thick green grass and it grows above the surface of the very calm waters a little bit maybe half a foot or so and at the edge of the short beach (or high tide) it is like a big ruins wall with an arch opening in it and a column rising up from it up to the right. It looks like what remains of a wall or maybe the façade of a structure. It is maybe 50 yards wide (~50 meters) and maybe 25 or 30 yards high. I decide to fly up to the top of it and have a look around on top of the ruins. At the top of one smaller column I take a closer look and notice that the bricks are made of thin layers of tiny bricks joined together in sheets almost, kind of like reddish adobe clay perhaps, each layer is very intricate there is what I estimate to be about 10 little bricks going across one way with a thin connecting layer between each and then I guess that it must be about 10 going across the other way but when I count I get beyond 12 and I think that there are a few more than that and this layer of connected bricks looks to be only about a quarter-inch thick and it is pliable and I'm kind of messing it up like it is not dry yet and I decide to move on. I fly up over the wall and there are so many miniature things, toys and what not and I fly over to another ruin wall and stop and then fly down again to take a closer look there's this one set of toys that is all in an Arabian theme. There are several guys on camels and they look like royalty, nicely dressed with attire hooded over their head as you might expect from some Arabian tales and not dissimilar to the wise men typically seen in a nativity scene. These are very nice figurines. They were obviously set up in an array perhaps like a kid might set up to play with but neatly or like set up for a museum miniature display. These figures look like they were a good 12-18 inches tall or so. I'm really loving this and decide to keep exploring and go past one of the other ruins and it becomes like a room with a little window box on the far end and more displays inside there. I think about whether or not to fly or phase into that window box display thing but I just think why?..it could cause complications for the stability of the dream. I turn around and there are so many different things in this room and as I head towards the door-like opening I see there is a big glass display case like a curio cabinet and I can see part of my reflection and I notice I'm only wearing underwear and I say well let's see what my thing looks like in this dream. I pull down my underwear and it is kind of a retracted and not much 2 speak of...more like a child's. This dreamscape is so fascinating (and I think that it is some kind of representation of my child-like fantasies of exploring ancient ruins and also the imagination that went along with playing with toy figurines when I was a kid. This was a feeling I recently recaptured when doing the open beta exercises. It is like how when you were a kid you could look at an area under a bush and imagine it as a cool world for your figurines to play in or for your toy soldiers to fight in and I think that is how this world came to be even though I started off imagining the beach and got the beach with the grassy ocean.) As I go on through the door-like arch the dream feels like it is fading but I decided not to fight it because I don't want to forget all of the details of the dreamscape I just explored or the dream before with me performing musically. When I woke up I was quite pleased with myself, and though it may not sound that interesting to many people, it was utterly fascinating to me and I absolutely loved it! It felt like playing somewhere in my subconscious! I can imagine that this is one of those dreams that may only mean a lot to me. I also don't want to consider counting it as TOTM completion because I have more I want to do with that task and I am afraid I won't go back to it if I already have the wings. Awesome fun! 142 Never put last nights LD in my DJ: 5/4* (copying from the TOTM post. I was on a cruise ship vacation in two different dreams this night but only including the TOTM related one here.) Had an attempt at advanced ii...but I am most happy with my self-awareness during the LD and also breaking away from my typical LD slant (though that kind of sexual thinking helped me realize it was a dream). I am back on the cruise ship and I see some movement involving a woman in this big glass windowed room/atrium and I think about going in but then it occurs to me that this is a dream scenario for me...I might be...I must be...yeah...I will float up and prove it to myself. Sure enough I float up maybe 20 feet in the air and think that this is a great location to do the musical performance task in front of a large audience on a cruise ship. (Dream control poison removed to protect the dream schema of the innocent). I am now flying over an odd version of a vast ocean. Instead of a realistic ocean it is very light blue for as far as I can see in all directions with symbols in a symmetrical pattern throughout. The repeating symbol was kind of like a yin & yang symbol but with a dolphin on one side and a graphical representation of a wave on the other. I try flying in different directions and still thinking about how to find a large audience and I tell myself that I will begin seeing a city. The seascape starts to change but instead of starting to see a city I suddenly find myself in a large dark, dusty room with a fireplace mantle on one end and a few decorations hanging around it and several old dusty chairs sitting on the right and left side of the room. I find this very interesting to have such a drastic change in scene and look around in amazement. This place looks most like an abandoned retirement home and I feel like this room is probably the recreational room where they would play bingo and what not. I decide that I can still make this work, I just need to summon a bunch of people like I did in last months TOTM, but I tried to summon everyone in with one idea. The idea was that I could hear the crowd building and cheering flowing into the room and I could start to hear it when I felt the dream quickly dissipate. Perhaps I should have brought groups of people in, one at a time, like I did last month thinking I may have tried to do too much at once or perhaps I was coming to the end of my REM anyway. 141
Date: May 5 Sleep Length: 7h Techniques: DILD Summary: (1) I was in a classroom with a bunch of people (about 50), I sat on a seat on a platform, about 3 meters above the floor, together with a friend of mine (v) I remember seeing the ceiling from above, as if I was inside it. We were drawing stuff. A friend of mine (jt) drew mice with blood around their mouths and I drew a naked lady and said "It's a leftover from the last international women's day"... I'm normally not sexist or anything. There was more, but I forgot the rest because I didn't write it down (2) I was on a journey or something, it was summer I think. Well, it was night and I sat on a table with my father and some strange people (guests, probably friends of my dad). The chairs looked like the chairs from my elementary school. For some reason I had to go outside and walk a few miles. (3) It was drizzling and I locked a car. very grey, so many clouds. I was in a small village I think. I forgot so much because I didn't write it down. Vividness/Awareness: 2/2 emotions: indifference tags: classroom, v, ceiling, drawings;; vacation, guests, table, hiking;; car, drizzle
5/5/14 Last night bed 9:30 - 7am? Working afternoon shift, so slept in : P DR: I'm in NorthKorea with some others. We are crouched in a ditch in the fields somewhere. Looking up, there are railrad tracks in the air. There is also some kind of a huge tube. The northkoreans are sending train wagons someplace through these tubes, so it's invisible from spy satelites. Later we are hiding in basements of some buildings. The train wagons are going by at blazing speed and they are very loud. (standing near trains in WL always scared the heck out of me.) (I also wonder, if the loud sounds in dreams are same as loud sounds while transitioning.)
22:10 bedtime, 3mg melatonin hoping for REM rebound in morning, looks like it worked! 03:14 + in frozen yougurt/ice cream shop I'm at counter a man (and woman) clerk are on the other side of the counter the man is to the right, a woman with a child arrives to my left into line. I'm fumbling with my wallet and money, I'm choosing what to get. I'm trying to see what flavors are available. I ask "what's in that one?" and the man offers me a cookie, I say "no, what's the flavor of that one." It's a mixture: cookies, bizet, caramel, chocolate, he says "the flavor is whatever you put in there", it's not really an ice cream more a dessert mixture, you're supposed to add ice cream to it. I notice that while I've been choosing a long line of people has built up. 05:32 very long series of dreams including a lucid + in a car with wife, I'm driving, driving on a road, which is a narrow shelf between a hill sloping up and to the left and a river off to the right. I see 3 animals on the hillside to the left we're approaching them, one is a small orange fox poking out of a hole, and there are two other animals above (1 below) the fox. Immediately after that I see a mother rabbit holding back its baby rabbit with its teeth so that the baby does not jump into the road. Just after that I see a hedgehog walking slowly across the road I don't want to hit it I maneuver the car so that the hedgehog passes between the wheels, I turn around and look behind me out the rear window to see if I hit it, I see the sandy road but nothing else. Going farther forwards I miss a turn-off to the left, now I'm concerned because this road is narrow and there likely will be nowhere to turn around. I eventually do encounter enough room and turn around. I'm thinking the next time I'm lucid in a car I shouldn't bother with just simple flying, I should summon a Star Wars hyperdrive control and use it to launch myself into a random place deep in space in the galaxy and just turn it off randomly and see where I end up. I think several times about pushing the hyperdrive control to do that. Approaching the turn off I missed earlier I look up the hill to the right and see city buildings, I think this is the right road and keep heading towards it. + With wife fixing something at an outdoor maintenance place, my wife is pumping out water, I'm just standing there watching, 3 guys come up and do something. I see two blue backpacks on the ground against a wall, I think they're mine, I start touching them, the 3 guys get upset I'm touching them, they're their backpacks it turns out, I say "excuse me" in a foreign language. They're still looking at me I say "well I said excuse me." I'm concerned they think I'm not a native because I speak their foreign language with an accent probably. I tell my wife we should get out of here because I'm nervous about these guys. Then I think hey I'm a man I should do the work, I get down and take over the pumping. It's a bicycle hand pump, and we're pumping the water out from another (stand-up pump), so I screw the stand-up pump together with the hand-pump. We have a sleeping bag/roll spread out on the ground under the pump. These guys are pumping out water over on top of our stuff through a tube of water, over our bags, etc., I'm moving their water hose to the side away from our things it keeps coming back. I keep adjusting their hose and finally make it stick in a better position. While pumping I look down closely on the ground and see a big frog/toad. I say "Hey, froggy!" I see it close up. I hold out my left hand and it jumps onto my hand. It's gooey/squishy, think I may catch something from it so I turn my hand over and plop it back to the ground. + leaving a museum with my mother can't find her, I realize I don't have her cell phone, I think "I want my mother!" I'm carrying a lot of packages, a woman clerk is helping me get out, there are people in my way, I'm pushing through them. Outside there are a lot of people standing around, and there's a guy with glasses who looks a lot like TZ, I think it's TZ at first but I look closely and decide it's not him. There are several guys who look like him. He's teaching a science lesson to a group he's leading. + Standing inside my childhood home sister's old bedroom (where I'm sleeping IWL this night) and TZ (really him) is standing also, he's there to collect his things. I look around the room and I see pure white walls, I say "hey did they paint the walls of this room recently?" Then I get a fake memory of them painting this room. I don't know if I should speak to TZ because we've (IWL) had a falling out. Now we'rd both just heading down the stairs I'm in front, I"m still trying to decide if I should speak to TZ. I decide we've been family friends for so long I should say something. I turn around the look up at him and say in a friendly voice, "Hey, how's it going?" He gets upset we're walking down the stairs, he sticks his elbow out at me and says "what you're really doing is this" (his gesture, meaning I'm keeping him at a distance), he's insulted that I"m even trying to speak to him. He's really rude. He keeps waving/poking his elbow at me to brush me off. I'm tremendously offended and upset by this. He goes out on to the deck via the back porch, I go into the kitchen and look at him standing on the deck through the kitchen window. He's with his new girlfriend and I want to set things straight with him, so I go to the back porch door and look out but he's kissing her so I come back inside and say "oh never mind". I'm looking for something in the refridgerator and there's some kind of a book club meeting going on in the house. + standing in a sporting good store, talking to several young guys (brothers) and their father, I say if you're working out (with weights) and build up some muscle you'll feel good about yourself and you'll have better luck with the ladies. But the most important thing is confidence...confidence, and .... (can't think of anything else), just be really confident. One of the guys says "but what if they don't choose me?" And I say "Well, you know, then YOU go and choose THEM, be confident and assertive." These guys all look the same and I'm kind of creeped out by this and leave. Then I'm walking down climbing under ground through very short narrow openings. I have this idea, "Oh, no, not the Jared's again" (they're the guys I was just talking to in the store), "I'm tired of dreaming, I just want to have some restful sleep (and I'm lucid). I'm continuing through the area. I look into one room with huge fat old naked swollen women (like monster ticks or cows), I say "Hello, ladies!" and keep moving on. I continue on walking and come to an open area in a mall, a cosmetic/perfume area. A girl is sitting at a desk to my right. I look at her, she's young & attractive, I say "ok," and walk up to her, while I'm walking she suddenly appears old. Then her face becomes fluid and unclear like her face is switching between many different faces very quickly. I will her to be young again and she is young. I stand her up from her chair with a hand on each of her shoulders and say "OK, come stand over here" and I put her a bit to the left of the desk, on the first step leading up to another part of the cosmetics department. I put her there so I'll be able to embrace her easier. I start getting the waking up feeling and I instantly take several steps backwards away form her saying "Oh, no" (with inflection like "I'm not going to allow this to happen, no way" ). I recite my sivason dream yoga immunity to shock mantra, "My mind controls my reaction, my mind controls my reaction." I step up to her again and I wake up. 08:06 another grand adventure + I was with some people and I wanted to show that I was Captain America. My costume was down in a back room, with other giant hockey jerseys lying on the ground. I summoned the Captain America bouncy ball, a child's small bouncy ball (1/2 inch diameter) painted with the emblem on Captain America's shield. I felt things in my pockets and I wondered which pocket I should check. I decided that I expected to find it in my left pocket and reached in and pulled out the ball! The ball I knew has the poweris that if you hold it up against a dream character's head, they do exactly what you want them to do. It takes all the work out of DC mind control. I showed this ball to a guy and I joked that I would throw it and it would fly around the corner into another room and that it would give me control over one of the cute girls in the room. I was returning to the jersey room to return my costume and the ball and I come across a strange table circular saw with many wavy saw blades built into a cube frame. In a closet there were about a dozen replacement blades (3D) for the saw. Kind of looks like a room fan. I think this is a safety hazard since someone could walk into it and cut off their leg accidentally. So much going on hard to remember it all. With a group of people, in a room, we're travelling somewhere, we're on a quest. I'm sitting behind one of the girls in the next booth, behind her, and I move my face up to her right ear and nuzzle against her right cheek through her hair trying to put a move on her, I say "are you concerned for your parents? It's OK because Captain America is on our side and he will help us." Our group is in a car, we approach a large open expanse of water, it is night, I'm sitting in the back seat of the car. We need to get over to the other side of this lake/ocean. There are dozens of highly bizarre ferry boats and water vehicles in every direction ahead of us. Someone (my sister?) in the car says: "isn't it funny that in dreams your car can always driver over water?" (we're already heading out on to the water in the car. I'm looking around, the view is fascinating and bizarre. To the left I see a 3-foot tall Tyrannosaurus Rex about 10 feet away wading through the water. I exclaim "Hey guys there's a 3-foot tall dinosaur to the left! It's a Tyrannosaurus Rex!" Nobody responds. This huge slug-shark thing with a long body and shark-ish face is approaching us I yell "Step on the gas, the shark-thing is heading right for us!". We're across the water and it's day time. I'm racing up the stairs heading into the city with one of the group. He's on the stairs I'm on the hill to the right of the stairs. I think this dream is long, I can't wait until I wake up and can compare notes with [my stair racing friend], since we're shared dreaming (fake memory), I want to see if his memory of this dream matches mine. We reach the top of the stairs and we need to find the alligator statue to prove this is the right city. I think where it will be, to the left or the right, where should I expect to find it. I choose the right, I turn there and see strange painted emblems on the ground, I think I say "I've found it!" but my friend says no that's not it. I look into the city and it is covered with billboards and banners, all written in (what I think is) Itailian. I say 'Look the writing's in Italian this must be the right place".
So, after some things happening here and there (I'm skipping them as this is an entry for the small LD), I suddenly realize I'm dreaming. I'm in a room, either on a rented mountain house, or a rural hotel, but I was looking at a wonderful mountain view, with people walking around. It's a huge window with a big glass. Everything is crystal clear (or that's how it looks like), full of colours, and I'm once again amazed to how nice and perfect does the brain create this dream-world. I don't know why but I didn't do any RC. I think that even if I was lucid, I was somehow trapped on the dream, like "drugged". I decided to jump out and fly. When I stepped outside, I saw one of those alarm-control boxes on the wall, with a disconnected orange light. I turned it on with my mind, as some kind of RC. i have my shoes on but laces are not tied. I decide to tie them, but as I'm doing it I think I'm just losing precious time, and look away trying to remove the feeling of loose shoes, and pretend they are tied up. I can't remember if I did it or not. Next thing is a nose-pinch RC before jumping, once again I think "it's really amazing how I can feel I'm holding my nose, but I can breath!". I jump and start flying in horizontal. I scream in joy. I move over some small paths with people walking around. I reach an area with a couple small buildings. There's a shop, and on the reflection I see myself, but I'm walking, not flying. I think "it must be because my brain is used to see me walking...", and then I see another guy flying around. This is really stupid, but on the dream I though that maybe it was some other like me having an LD. I wonder how many time more I have left because last time I looked at the clock it was 6.30, and alarm hits at 7.00am. Then I "wake up", but I'm on the street. I notice nothing weird and fall for the false awakening. I drink from a bottle of water (as I alwas do with the one I got next to my bed), but I think that maybe it wasn't a good idea keeping in mind someone else could have used it "while I was away". Then I wake up for real.
A friend of mine is asking if I wanna go with her for a trip. I'm not sure I want to go with her and I pretend to be tired. But she insistes we'll go to Las Vegas. The idea is really tempting and we talk a bit about what we can do there. I decide to go and I go home to prepare the suitcase. My boyfriend asks why I'm preparing to leave him and he starts to prepare his suitcase. I'm happy, as I know my friend would have asked to marry me, once in Las Vegas, but with my boyfriend around it would be impossible. We call a taxi, a blue one, with yellow line. I think that Ryan Air is exaggerating! We get to the airport and my friend is there waiting for me with another friend of mine. She announces they are going to marry in Las Vegas. I'm relieved, even if I think that I was really stupid to think she would have asked to marry ME! Instead of getting in the airplane though, we get the stairs for going down the beach. I forgot the bikini, but someone in the ebach is naked, so I think that no one will notice a tiny girl wearing nothing. We don't even have the beach towels and we put on the sand all the clothes from the suitcase and we laid on. I take my tablet and start to play sudoku.
vaguely remember hanging out with alec for a little bit. can't quite remember anythind about the dream other thenbeing in a wilderness camping type of place. seeing some girl who was lke o heeyyy matt
Since my last lucid dream I have been actively trying to wake myself up during a dream so I can become lucid. I have found that it seems to be something that takes some practice! I've been thinking about lucid dreaming a lot during day to day activities and doing some 'reality checks' to test if I am awake. In this dream I was walking through a dim narrow corridor with a work mate called Raechel. There was a slim middle-aged man wearing a blue/grey shirt bald with glasses who was telling me to constantly question if I was awake (something sunk in haha!). I walked with Raechel through a doorway and looked down to find that I was holding a cup. I became lucid at this point and tried falling backwards and spinning to stay in the dream. When I looked up from the cup, Raechel was gone so I looked back to the doorway I had walked through and called out her name. Then I turned to the door in front of me and called out "Rose", the name of the first girl who I loved and who broke my heart. (I am currently trying to get over her in my real life). I touched the walls of the corridor and discovered they were covered in snow so I wrote in large, looping, connected capital letters "ROSE I <3 U" before waking up to write down the dream.
Morning of May 5, 2014. Monday. My computer (the older one in the front room) does its thing of crashing and shutting down after being on for about a minute until a few attempts at restart by either dropping it sideways a few times or wiggling the CPU and partly broken fan around a bit and adjusting the fishing line reel succeeds in it working correctly again. Still, as is sometimes the case, the “recovery” window comes on, but it is not quite correct. I am used to incorrect random “error” windows, blue screens, multicolored mosaic random messes, and DOS screens of plain text (resulting from the fact that the CPU is malfunctioning until cooled down a bit more), but this one is eerily familiar. It reports (in a rather atypical font) “Your computer has recovered from an occurrence…” Next, it happens again. The computer is so screwed up that the blue screen strings are longer and part of one hexadecimal value “carries over” onto the side of the vase-like black desk lamp fairly close to the right side of the monitor. It is getting pretty bad when a computer error message expands out onto the surface of another electrical item (a different one altogether), but it seems perfectly normal. Another attempt or two and the “Your computer has recovered from an occurrence…” window displays again. Where have I heard that before? The desktop is full of identical icons. They are all of slightly painting-like owls, body a quarter turn to my right and head turned facing out towards the viewer. Only one desktop icon is different and it is of a painting-like well on the lower right corner; the “old-fashioned” kind with a rope and bucket and even a little roof. Then it dawns on me that something funny is going on. I must have the “Owl Creek Bridge” virus (which I do not think is a real one). Thus I realize that my computer has “suffered” from “An Occurrence at Owl Creek Bridge”. The “wishing well” icon must be clicked on to get rid of it. Terrific… However, I leave it as is for a bit…and decide to see what other people had experienced with it. I visit a forum where someone says that the “payload” of the virus is waking you up from your dream - which does not make sense. Another says that the “payload” is making your computer disintegrate, whereby someone argues that it “disintegrated” because it was a dream and did not exist in the first place, but the other person posts a pile of ashes saying that is what is left of his laptop. The argument seems to continue for several pages and seems to go into a tirade about who is controlling the missile launches. I then make the decision to click on an owl and see what happens. There is the odd electronic clacking of the computer-simulated “mouse click” sound and my head jerks back. I wake up with my wife touching my lower face, some sort of odd partial reversal of the actual “An Occurrence at Owl Creek Bridge” movie. (“waking me up from my dream”). Ever since earliest childhood, I had wondered how in the world dreams sometimes seem to amusingly and very “cleverly” build up to a not-yet-unfolded event or sound and have plots or themes that come way before a “concluding” real-life environmental event. That is probably one of the most unusual paranormal-like aspect of dreams (for example, I once dreamed of seeing myself, or a “copy” of myself, holding a broomstick near an overturned washtub and ready to hit it like some sort of odd musical task. After a fairly short time when I had fully “absorbed” the imagery and was already aware of it, I heard a sound in real life on the carport that sounded just like a wooden object hitting metal - my mother confirmed that was the only instance of the sound that woke me up). Not all dreams work like this of course, as some are “caught by surprise” in the middle of a dream, but many are not, too many to be coincidental as such, and too correct in the continuing detail to be chance. It is an odd type of precognition I suppose, of the several different types. Many people would claim the sound caused the dream, which is of course, a ridiculous cop-out. How can a dream come before the sound that supposedly caused it (although, obviously, this does happen at times in other cases)?
Updated 07-18-2017 at 02:29 PM by 1390
*It was a little bit stressful day, I was more tired than usual. I got to write some notes. It was what I got: - .../chimps, like porn actors who don't know how to think but how to reproduce... - .../a police officer in civil clothes tries to follow me. I let him to get confused and lost away... - .../I see some people gathered like in a TV show. It's something about a game of telling stories. They broke up the vessels. That way, there's no sequel, just 2 episodes... - .../It's once again the creepy lady's house where I rented a room, it's mixed with one side of the stairs of my school. I'm playing with some cards on a drawing table. then I'm talking with one of my new neighbors who is testing me. Then he dives into the water that appears around the table. I see him getting back dressed in a Fred Flintstone costume. It looks similar although the feet don't match, it's like an inflated rubber costume. He pretends to push the table-boat using his feet to propel the way the cartoons do to move their cars. I laugh because of his feet got stuck inside the costume, at the end it gets deflated on the table with a pair of scratches in the feet, when the real Fred Flintstone jumps out of the water yelling his classic "yabba dabba doo". Then he propels our boat and his boat with that funny movement of the feet. I end standing on the upper side of the stairs which is adjacent to a window. I see from above a couple going upstairs, to the room which is one level down from my point of view. He looks like Woody Allen and he's talking about a test I have to take by killing somebody. That idea disgusts me, I see them reach the door and get in, my Aunt-mom lets them in. Next to me, there's a woman speaking something about Architecture. I realize she forgot to mention something about the walls. I see her graphic floating on the air, then she splits it in two, explaining something about its design. It's like a tutorial or some... - .../I hit like in a post, then my wife asks me how could I do that if that's a racist post. I review it once again. It's on a newspaper which shows some pictures of a sad Batman comic. I scroll down the comment to read more. It shows a progression of pictures that lead to some UFO's flying on the pyramids. I couldn't like something like that! I should have read it all first, how stupid! Then I want to write an idea which should stand for something like "in order to dislike some facebook post, one must like it first". We are sitting on a table in a park. There are clothes racks with white sheets all around. I cannot write the idea on the paper. Then my wife tells me I have to hurry up because of the bus is coming. I try to write it down with no success. Then she stands up and goes to the bus station. I want to put all my things back in my bag, but it's all a mess on the table. I know I'm missing the bus and she told me she's leaving without me if I'm not ready. I see the bus, and realize it'll be impossible to put all the things inside the bag, I want to pick all things together up and arrange them in the bus, but my mp3 player and some other things are still on the table. I give up, I miss the bus, feeling horrible. I think I can reach the other station first but I don't know how. I leave the things fall on the floor, thinking for what should I do now. I think perhaps I should wait for her at home until she gets back, I'm confused...
Updated 05-06-2014 at 03:52 PM by 18736
I don't actually remember much of anything. I'm pretty sure the girl I like was involved and that it was a good dream.
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