false awakening

I had just awoken from another dream which i could barely remember. I think it was something about a video game, but wasn't completely sure. I had plugged my nose and tried to breathe, as i usually do when I wake up, and good thing, it had worked and I became lucid! The dream was a little "iffy" and felt really strange. I figured that it was starting to fade, so i rubbed my hands. I focused on the warmth and feeling of the hands, thinking the dream was going to fade away, but it didn't. Instead, it became one of the most vivid and real dreams i had ever had.

I contemplated what to do, and, like usual, the TotY popped into my head. I thought about what to do. It was a choice between racing grease lightning and casablanca. Having never seen Casablanca, i decided to try grease lightning. I wanted to try out my new way of changing the scenery, by just snapping my fingers and not even closing my eyes. I thought, "drainage pipe, classic cars," and when i snapped my fingers, the scene instantly changed and i was in the large drainage type thing where there were a bunch of people dressed like in the movie talking and fighiting.

I walked up to who i thought was grease lightning and told him that i would whoop his butt in a race. He laughed and scoffed at me. I took it that he gladly accepted my challenge. I nearly started crying... He had one of those little plastic electric cars that you see little kids driving around with. I looked over and summoned a Lambo, birhgt red and ready to race. I hopped in and started it up. It was awesome. Never being in a lambo before, i was eager to see how it preformed. I drove over to him and told him, "Hey! Nice car!" He just laughed again and said, "watch this." He suddenly reved the engine and it sounded just like mine. WTF!? The little plastic toy was going to compete with a lamborghini!?

We both pulled up to a crack in the pipe and all his friends drove up along side me. They were in their normal '50s cars, like they should've been in. One guy stood there with a checkered flag. He yelled, "Ready, set! GO!" And we took off. I was way ahead and noticed that the other's hadn't even moved. I was nearing the end of the pipe and saw the others already there! WTF again!?!? They were cheating! I quickly turned aroudn the pipe and could hear them finally driving. I floored it. The others had caught up to me and were on the side. I have to admit, it was kind of funny seeing a little plastic car going over 200 mph, but I was starting to lose focus. There were passing me! I imagined a nitro button right next to the shifter and, of course, it appeared.

I quickly pressed it and was launched back into my seat. I saw the speedometer quickly rising. 300, 350, 400, 450. The finish line seemed to move further and further away the faster i went. I was still catching up on the others though. I decided, "the heck with this." And i teleported myself to the fnish line. The guy was still there and waved the flag again. I won! or so i thought... I looked around and noticed the other people were sitting there drinking and laughing. I had lost! The guys started to walk over to me, but i could feel the dream fading. I jumped out of the car and tried to spin to stay in the dream, but it was too late. I woke up in my bed, a little disappointed that i didn't get to stay in the dream.

I am getting home from hanging out with my best friend. I am not sure what we were doing
but he is still with me. I go to open the back door but it's locked, we rarely ever use the front
door. I don't remember pulling out my key or anything but I somehow managed to get it open.
I was slightly angry because it was not nighttime so my parents were awake and the door should
have been unlocked. I open the door but there is resistance. I push against it and overpower
it, prying it open to find my mom trying to push it closed. I manage to get inside and she is
laughing as if it is a joke. I become very angry and start spewing obscenities and storm up
to my room. I close the door and go over to my clock which is in the correct corner of my room
but the dresser it is sitting on is on the wrong wall. Also, the clock light is yellow as opposed to red
and it is huge, like an old piece of technology that requires a lot of mechanics. The housing is
about the dimension of a large book and the top is open so you can see a bunch of electronics.
I pull the clock closer so I can see the time better and it shuts off. I look at the connections inside
and push on a couple of the connectors until I find one that was slightly out. I push it back in and
the clock turns on again. I look. 8:58. It is in the morning. This was actually roughly close to the time
it was in real life, probably around 7:30. I remember doing something else then lying down in my bed.
I sort of went to sleep. Didn't have a "dream within a dream" or anything, but when I woke up, the layout
was normal. Everything reflected how it really is in my room. Then a thought popped into my mind. A
thought that crosses my mind in waking life quite frequently by my own intent. "Am I dreaming?". I
looked at the red digits on my alarm clock and it was a little fuzzy but I could make out 9:04. As soon
as I read and understood what time it was however. The clock sort of glitched. At first the digits just
flickered a little. Then they changed to Japanese characters. I became quite excited. "I am dreaming"
but I did not feel lucid. I thought to myself how I knew I was dreaming but it did not feel vivid at all. I
tried to make it that way but it did not work. I became disappointed and woke up.

I feel like I was so close to becoming lucid Damnit!

I went back to sleep and had a fragment of a dream I have had before:
2011-01-15.3F | NONLUCID

I had a dream I bought the lucid dreaming iPod app. I was about to go to bed, when I put it in my ear and started to drift away, in the dream. At first, it was a catchy song that rhymed with "You are dreaming." That only played until you fell asleep. Then, once I fell asleep, in the dream in the dream I heard you are dreaming. So, I was lucid but not in the dream, in the dream of a dream. Confused?
Meeting AlexAlex is a guy I met on Facebook who is obsessed, with Bratz dolls. We some how time traveled and I saw myself when I was younger. She had blonde, straight hair? Whatever, it didn't look like me. She was at KMart looking at Bratz horses. I moved her to the side to see for myself what they had. It was 2006. Alex told me why there were Moxie Girlz there, and I said "okay." We left, with another store clerk there, the little me had to go back to see Mana (my other grandma) because she called her. Alex looked like a blonde chick, because I always think it's a girl. Alex's profile pic is always a girl, anyway.
Dream Fragment: Joel is Pissed
I saw Joel on the couch yelling, because he had to travel to my mom's house.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID FALSE AWAKENING

Good morning! Last night was intense, or actually it was this morning, but still. I figured I'll try to become lucid two days in a row, and it worked. I used some galantamine at a WBTB and the dream I had after that was one of the longest dreams I've ever had. First time ever that I actually didn't want to stay in the dream after becoming lucid.

23.30: Sleep

05.00: Fragment
*I'm watching an interracial couple having sex.

05.00-05.25: WBTB - Mantra: I will lucid dream

06.40: Adventure indeed MILD
I'm in a couch with my brother and two of his friends. We're partying or something similar. I get up and walk around the place. We seem to be at some kind of convention, kinda like Dreamhack. I spot a crowd of people and decide to check out what's going on. "He beats them at chess while walking around!" a guy tells me and I can see a chess table and three guys playing. The younger one is walking around the table while he's playing. Apparently that's supposed to be very hard. The crowd cheers and I realise he's beaten them. I can tell his move was very clever. "You walked right into that one!" one of the guys in the crowd tells one of the losers.

I start walking away from the table and suddenly I'm in a grocery store. I walk along the isles and find Monica standing by the freezers. "We should get something we can just snack on at night" I say and I've got pizza in mind. We check out several different kinds of pizza and similar things. I find a very cheap one. "2 kronor for a pizza is amazingly cheap" I say and show it to Monica. She agrees but the brand is something we've never seen before. A guy shows up and is looking for the same kind of food.

The dream skips. I'm in the car with Monica on our way out of town. I spot a stable and know there's a supermarket just a kilometer behind it. I don't know how, but I make the car fly. It's very dark out but I imagine the place just as it looks like. I can see several streetlights and as we fly, the landscape gets clearer. We land outside of a small grocery store, just where I knew it would be. I go and get a ticket for the car. It expires in just two minutes. Weird. A girl working at the store comes up. "Don't worry, he never checks anyways" she tells us. "Ah damn, money well spent" I think. The car is making a very annoying sound.

We check the car for a long time. We open different doors and close them, push all kinds of buttons but the beeping sound won't stop. My brother Martin comes up and shuts it off. We're just about to walk into the store when he grabs my arm. "Buy me two milky ways and some beer". I look at him and I'm getting angry. "When YOUR friends come to MY place, THEY buy ME stuff!" I yell at him. He disagrees and I leave him there. Entering the store I notice it's being renovated. All walls are grey and the floor aswell. I enter a big room and accidentaly kick away a golfball coming towards me. Two employee's are playing mini golf.

"Hey, where is the place you buy food at?" I ask them. They laugh at the accident and points towards a few stairs across the large empty room. We walk across the room and down the stone stairs. We do not arrive at a grocery store, but a swimming hall. My family is there and so is my coworker Björn. They're swimming around a pillar and the water starts at the end of the stairs, there's no place to stand. I notice Björn's got swimming goggles and I put mine on too. They're blurring my vision alot, but I still keep them on when I jump in the water.

The dream skips. I wake up in the dark. We're still in the swimming hall, but sleeping in different beds all around the room. The water is gone. I try to check my alarm clock, but alot of stuff is in the way. It's standing ontop of a TV in the dark and I make alot of noise as I clear the TV. "05.00". People start waking up. My brother Morgan is up, and so is my dad. Soon the lights turns on and everyone but me is up. My dad is standing by the entrance of the room. "My toe has cramps" his toe wiggles. My sisters and my mom wants to wake me up and starts harrassing me. I want to sleep some more so I can dream. "Get out!" I tell them.

They start poking me in the mouth with nail files. My vision is split, and even though I've got my eyes closed, I can see myself on a monitor. I start biting the files they poke at me and bite off little pieces. They keep doing this and I can taste the files, they taste like licorice and they feel very unpleasant against my teeth. I finally get up and start writing down my dreams in my DJ on DV.

I wake up. I get on the computer and onto the chat. I am about to write something like: "Omfg I just had the longest dream ever" but all I manage to type is a very long "-_-" smiley. I realise my DJ entry is there and I read something in spanish. Looks like a poem or something. I am confused and decide to take a walk. I've got a weak memory of just flying and I'm wearing a white shirt. I check my belt for the internet browser buttons. I press one and intend to get on a train site to check for train times. The load is way too long so I open a new window. Which makes me get another white shirt on. Just like internet explorer usually is, it is completely white (?). I walk down the road with my two shirts on, feeling weak and a bit dizzy. I stop at a sandbox for some reason.

A girl clad in black down the road is coming towards me. She's wearing black leather and has a very "emo'ish" look. I look away for a second. When I look back, the girl is gone and replaced by a white cream cake. It's rolling down the road on wheels it seems, and just as it's next to me, the cake changes colour from white to dark purple. A second later the cake starts disintegrating and blows away in the wind in layers. A man shows up. "Hey, did you just see that?!" I ask him. "See what?" he tells me, and the second later, he also disintegrates and blows away in the wind.

"Oh, I am still dreaming!?" I ask myself. This is getting too much. I'm standing outside of a very dark forest and I don't like the feeling of the dream anymore, I want to wake up. I start screaming ontop of my lungs, at first I can barely hear myself, but soon my voice is booming, "WAKE UUUUUUUUUUP!" I start floating upwards and I laugh a little at the entire scenario. I don't wake up right away, but I slowly start to.

I can see my hand infront of me. I am completely paralyzed for a few seconds before I can move again. I get up.

I wake up for real and do a RC right away.

06.40-07.20: WBTB - Mantra: I am dreaming

8.45: Short lucid MILD
I'm by a lake with a few other people. A man, apparently very powerful, is standing infront of me and my friends. He tells us something and two huge green wings emerges from his back. Only one is fully stretched out though, but that's enough for him to take flight. He flies straight up, laughing. I can feel the wind picking up and I decide to follow him. I let the wind take hold of me and my two smaller wings and I start to fly. I fly around the lake two times in a wide circle just for the fun of it, I never get tired of the feeling.

I position myself a few meters above the evil man. "Hmm, perhaps fire will work?" I ask myself as I realise his wings are made out of green paper. I imagine them catching fire and to my surprise, fist sized circles of fire form and eats through the paper in seconds. The man starts falling right away but so am I. We both crash into the water and I get a faint memory of being in the water earlier. I lose lucidity and suddenly we're having a "smoke break" on the dock with my two sisters.

8.45: Insects
I'm sitting at a table with my two sisters. I spot a cross spider spider to my left on the wall. It's curled up in its web and I blow some warm air on it to make it come to live. I know it isn't very aggressive and it fascinates me alot. It starts to crawl out and when I can fully see it, it's alot bigger than I first thought. We all shy away from it and a woman takes it in her hand. "Don't worry" she tells us. Her husband is there and she puts white glue on his head and face. She takes a wig and some fake beard and puts it on there. The glue drips down his face and they tell me their story.

I feel like looking at the spider again. She tells me it's on the ground somewhere. I spot several spiders that looks just like it, but after a closer look, I can tell the difference. They aren't moving either. A cool bug comes running with one its mouth and I flick it away. My hands starts stinging and I notice a few fireants. I flick them away aswell and look where I'm standing. I'm in a fireants nest, and they're crawling up my boots. I shake them off and stomp my feet to prevent anymore from going up my legs.



10.30: Party
I'm at a big house by a lake. There's a party going on around me and they've put up tents. The sun is shining as I walk around the place. I spot a very hot girl in a yellow bikini. I'm having a hard time keeping my eyes off of her, but I force myself when her big latino boyfriend gives me a stare. I walk for a few meters and then turn around. Felix tells me that the girl was checking me out for a long time. "I don't want no trouble" I tell him. I get a text message, it's my dad.

10.30: Party ended
The dream doesn't skip, it's a new one. I'm at the same place, but the party has ended. It's dusk out and everything's very quiet. I know the world is about to change real fast, and I have to find some survival gear. My brother Morgan is there and I grab him. Some other boy, who looks like a tiny orange/brown alien shows up and I realise we have to take him with us. I chase him a bit, we all plunge into a pool and I help him up. Earning the trust of the alien boy, I can finally start looking for gear. I enter the house and my two sisters are on a couch. "Where is the gun?!" I ask them. They point at a box by a drawer.

I open it and take out two guns. They're very heavy. Morgan grabs one and I tell him he can never, ever touch it. There's still ammo left in the clips, but I want some more. I rumage through the box and find a few keys, an army swiss knife, and sharp metal objects. All of a sudden, my vision changes. I can see the lake and I can hear someone on a radio. He's over the lake in the town and he's on his way over. I shoot with a mini-gun and he laughs. "That's gotta be heard halfway across town". An old man across the lake appears in the enormous hole I just blasted in his house. "You leave me alone you teenagers!" he yells at me, waving his shotgun.

10.30: Fragment
*I'm at a table and my sister Malin is singing. Her voice is amazing. When she's done I remember her being in a choir. "She's great at both singing, and drawing" I say.

Amount of sleep: 10 hours

Supplements before bed: 2 x Omega-3, 1 x Lucid Dreamer at WBTB

That's it! Awesome. My sisters were in almost all my dreams last night. They just came home from Egypt and I'm seeing them for the first time in a few weeks. Also why I dreamt of survival was because I thought for a while about it last night, what to buy and so on. Pretty amazing, perhaps thinking about it before bed would be even better? Inducing a dream that is. Gotta try that...

Keep on dreaming, HARE BRA!

January 15, '11,
I had a false lucid dream.
I was in a neighborhood, lying in a hammock. There may have been a cat lying with me. I was thinking of my childhood until I fell asleep. I felt vibrations in my body and somehow focused on a point in front of my face, and I exited my body (my dream body).
I don't remember what happened next, but then I had a false awakening in which I started writing down the dream I just had. (should have done a reality check after waking). I wrote that I had thought I was Homer Simpson.

Then, in a later dream, I was in school, looking at an online comic. Parts of the comic moved and I thought it seemed very dream like. But I didn't pick up on the hint to become lucid.

Awake, Non-lucid, Lucid, Dream within a dream, [Commentary made while awake]

[This is a catch-up post. These dreams are from December 24-27, 2010.]

Night of December 23-24

I'm playing Neopets, and I somehow obtain an item that makes a particular level of a particular Flash game easier.

I'm with P. in a hotel/bookstore. It's 12:30 A.M., according to an analog clock. [That's what my handwritten notes say, anyway.]

I'm at my high school, once again visiting the second row of portables located a little distance to the west of the main campus. [These portables don't exist in real life, but did appear in a previous dream, namely, the last dream in this DJ entry.] I'm walking around with no shoes on. As I climb up the steps into one of those distant portables, I wonder whether I'm going to get in trouble for that.

Night of December 24-25

[I only have a very vague memory of this dream, especially now that I'm reconstructing it from handwritten notes this long after the fact (1/15/11). I've reconstructed it from my handwritten notes as best I can.]

I'm at dream!Disneyland, watching a video in a theater. I also have a lucid dream within a normal one. When I first realize that I'm dreaming, I try to fly, but I can't. There are three DCs there, one of whom introduces himself to me and to the other two, and says something about how he isn't sure if we've met in reality or not. [Hmmmm... very interesting.] I actually tell the three of them that I'm dreaming. I get a second shot at completing a mission, and this time, I succeed. The mission involves saving the son of some teacher from someone. To complete it, I have to go into a room full of computer workstations and press a red, rectangular button that I find on someone's workstation. I couldn't find it the first time. At the end, when everything around me is blowing up [I think], I'm lying face down, going, “Please be a dream... please be a dream...” because I'm convinced that it's reality.

I wake up out of my lucid, back into the regular, non-lucid dream I'd been having before.

Night of December 26-27

I'm riding along on my bicycle. A mechanical arm attached to an overhead conveyor belt grabs my bike and pulls it into this big, elaborate, two-story construct that's a combination of a maze, a play structure, and an amusement-park ride, with me still on the bike. I think, I thought things like this only existed in dreams! I didn't think anyone had actually built one as a ride! [LOL, more dream sign fail...] I'm excited to be going into it, though, because I know it's an amusement-park ride/activity and it'll be fun. The conveyor belt goes up at an angle, taking me up to the second floor. When I get there, I get off my bike and go inside a room. Other people are there, including some real-life friends [I think; I don't really remember who now]. We're all role-playing that we're scientists in a laboratory [I think], because that's part of the ride.

The next thing I remember is realizing that being put in [artificial] danger is also part of the ride. I run toward the double doors through which I came into the room and open them by punching them. They swing outward, and I see that I've opened them just in the nick of time – just after the doors open, I see a locking bolt on one of the doors shoot out automatically. If I hadn't opened the doors when I did, we would have been locked inside.

[I don't remember the transition to the next scene.] I'm in a large bike repair shop. My red bike [the one I have in real life right now] has been taken here, and I want it back. The female DC who runs the bike repair shop gives it back to me, along with a brand-new pair of long black-and-gray bicycle shorts, which are lying in a particular spot on the floor, waiting for me.

[Fragment] Something about a [different] female DC who is infected with some kind of microbes that, when active, cause her body to become excessively warm.

Lucid,non lucid,comments

I attempted a wbtb but lost awareness along the way. I was in some kind of bus, driving through the country side and it was very relaxing. I wondered why it was night time because I recalled waking up but dismissed the thought. Then I felt like sleeping so I fell asleep on the bus. Then I was watching a video depicting a demon or the devil himself coming down and mating with a human woman..wtf.then I fell asleep again ( so I was now in a dream, within a dream, within a dream, only I didn't know). Then I woke up from that dream and was now in my bed but something felt off. There was someone sitting beside my bed, it seemed like they were waiting for me to wake up. I lift my eyes and an exact carbon copy of myself is sitting right beside me smiling. I get too excited and have to calm myself down..relax..relax. why is He holding my hand?, I think to myself. He smiles again like he understood what I just thought.

Me: who are you?.
Me2:....
Me: Ok listen..I want an extremely long and epic lucid dream, can you help me with that?.

He does the same mannerisms I do when I'm thinking things over(It unnerved me a little bit). I reach up and feel his face,it felt exactly like mine. Then he smiles again and starts levitating. I remembered that I hadn't stabilised the dream because it was starting to fade. so I leap out of bed and start rubbing my hands together. The other me then rotates in the air and telepathically informs me that he's accepted my request. I can feel the energy and start levitating as-well...but before anything happens I wake up. I look at the time on my phone; 10:30 am damn it..wait what...I wake up again, oh man I missed a false awakening, I grab my phone; 6:30 am huh?. I wake up again

I woke from a non-lucid dream, and tried to go back to sleep. I did so and became instantly lucid. I examined my hands, rubbed them together and said, "Stabilize lucidity NOW!" and "I am lucid, the world is vivid." I didn't yell it (until later). It seemed to work. I walked out of the room I was in, along the corridors, and realized a horde of zombies was coming at me from across the hallway. With a sweep of my hand I said, "Make this place a nice place." Everything turned nice - the grey/crimson-ish walls became green and pink, even though the zombie-turned-nice-people were still hunched and going "Groar".

I turned and walked away, looked at my hands and YELLED, "Stabilize lucidity now - I mean NOW!" I remember worrying if I was actually yelling this while sleeping, and if my parents could hear me. I remember someone in a red shirt, then the dream began to close in. I tried to see my hands, but it was darkness coming from the top and bottom of my vision. I lost lucidity but I struggled and it came back. I went down to the lobby of the hotel. Sex with Syn in mind, I told myself to go to a beach, and fell backwards while imagining a beach dreamscape. But when I hit the floor, a blue error screen with the black pixelated words "The Rev wants you to end this" appeared. I got up, and the black hotel lobby guy also told me it was time to end.

I was shocked and ran out of the lobby into a skiing place. I ran around the hills yelling, "The Rev! Where are you?" Then I saw, at the front gate, my classmates and strangers surrounding the squirrel in a carriage that I knew was the Rev's reincarnation (from the previous dream). A stranger said, "Don't move!", but I think we let him escape.

Later I walked up a hill to an exit of the ski park with Victor and a Nathan-like guide, telling them about what had happened. On my way I saw a suspicious-looking guy in a red shirt whose head looked like it was cut out of cardboard. Nathan said that on his way here there was also someone who told him he should "start over". He shrugged.

Then I had a false awakening in the hotel room where the dream had started. I remember picking up my dream journal and seeing it shared with my math notebook. There were so many interjected math notes between the dreams that I tried to find a new DJ. Then I actually woke up and realized I didn't share my DJ with any other notebook.

I don't get lucid to near the end, and my dream control was horrible
our marching band was going on a field trip. somebody left a whole bunch of groceries in my spanish class, the egg yolks were floating, and the teacher got really really mad. my cat's leg has a piece of metal stuck through it, and this old medicine woman heals it for me. someone in my shop class throws a saw blade at her head, and she is seriously wounded, but my friend and i save her life. as thanks, she has sex with my friend, and i have sex with her beautiful daughter. both pairs have children, mine is a wolfman.

i become lucid, i try to to control my son, the wolf's body, but then i realize it would be easier to control my own body, so i go back to my own body, and i wind up in my own bed, possibly awake. i take a chance and get out of bed, everything is very dark, except for what i'm looking at, i try to turn on the lights but they have very little affect. i try to fly, but i just end up falling down, and then walking becomes very difficult, and i sort of panic, and stumble around all the upstairs of my house. my cell phone is on my desk, but the battery is not in the phone and i have a bunch of text messages from the police accusing me of crimes but it's really just a scam, and why am i even looking at my phone i'm dreaming!? then i try to lay down in bed so i can re-stabilize things but i just end up tackling my trashcan and then i wake up

after that i might have had a dream about writing this all down on paper, because i went to read it when i woke up but i still had to write it, idk about that part

i think right after i hopped out of bed i got to excited and panicky because of the dark, and then the dream world just started to destabilize

So, I tried to WILD last night. I kept getting distracted by wondering thoughts and ended up falling asleep. But I still managed to have a brief lucid dream. I found myself in a dimly lit room lined with rich mahogany colored wood. I looked down at my hands to make sure I was dreaming, and saw what seemed like six fingers (a usual sign). I have never before counted my fingers, but only noticed that there were too many. So this time I decided to count, and as I counted I grew more fingers. The final count was ten, and I opened my waking eyes and dreamed no more.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

So, this was my second lucid dream...

Dream: When the dream started I was looking at some buildings and somehow I knew that was a dream. But, I was not there it was a "Free look".Then I thought: "Hey, this is my dream, why I'm not in it".It was like some kind of a game.I've had the feeling that I was looking at some screen and playing that game.
Then I thought "I must be here somewhere.I looked at some map at top of that screen and found myself on the map.I went there but there wasn't me. There was some other man, but I had control over him. Then he started to fly, because I said that to him.
When he flew I saw it's Paris, because I saw the Eifel's tower.Then he land on some bridge, still under my control.I was looking at some river.I was thinking how awesome is that I can control my dream, and I stopped everything and just enjoyed the dream.
Then my heart beat started to get louder, and I said to myself: "Calm down, you are going to wake if you continue like this".Then I took a deep breath - it was awesome, it was better than the smell of a fresh-mown grass. I was, like, transforming into first person, but everything seemed blurry. I looked at my hands and said out loud: "INCREASE CLARITY".
Then I woke up, but it was a false awakening.I was so excited that I had another LD and I told that to my brother.
I woke up again, this time for real...

Date: 14/1/11
Lucid
Non-Lucid
Tried a VILD last night when I went to bed and when I woke up but they didn't work
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My dream began with Jessie and my family surrounded by people wanting to take us hostage. They were yelling at us. "Now!" Jessie yelled and used her knife to cut loose three or four kites that were tied to posts. I leapt forward and grabbed the end of the kite and Jessie did the same. The kite lifted me up off the ground and I started blowing across the valleys that dipped and rose below me. It was hard to hold on and I kept slipping, I was worried tha tI would fall off before I made it to our safe destination but I managed to hold on. Jessie landed next to me and then my "family" followed. In the dream they were my family but they aren't in real life. My "sister" a dove faced girl held onto her kite but only with one hand and with the other she spread her arms out and assumed a flying position.

Realising that was how you were meant to fly, I tried to do that without a kite but face planted into the ground. My mum and dad landed as well.
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This is sort of a continuation of the other dream.
Rain was bucketing down but I was still at the safe area. Most people ran indoors into the big centre but Vivian and I stayed and got drenched. "What're they doing?" I asked.
"They're calling our grade one class," Vivian said.
I didn't really know why, but I accepted it. "So everyone is going to have to come here?"
"Yep," she nodded.
I thought about that for a second and then headed back towards the centre.

Inside, everyone was drinking warm, milky, sweet drinks. I took one and slurped it up. Then I headed to the cabins that were opposite the centre. The dove-faced girl disappeared from our family and was replaced with my brother, James .My mum, dad and James chose a place for us to set up our things and we had a whole section of the cabins to ourselves. It was actually quite luxurious.
"Auntie Kate is here," my mum told me.
"Really?" I said excitedly and ran towards the centre.
It was no longer raining, instead it was actually quite sunny. I found Auntie Kate at the back of the centre sitting behind a table with a few other people. I went and took a seat next to her, hugged her and said hello.
A mid-aged woman arrived at thte table and looked at me and sighed, "I hope other kids aren't going to come here and want refills," she snapped.
"No, they're not," I said as I realised that I was going to get another one of the hot drinks.
The woman got to work and filled some foam cups with shredded cheese. I was surprised and sort of grossed out - cheese. I hadn't thought that the drinks were made out of cheese.
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Another continuation of the other dream.
Auntie Kate seemed to have disappeared from this dream. I walked into the cabin with Vivian, "This is the best school camp ever!" I said. Vivian nodded and eagerly agreed. Then we split, and I went down to my family's section of the cabin.
"I don't think I'll have a shower today," my mum said to my dad as I passed them.
I hopped into my bunk bed and it was extremely comfy. It was all set up because I had been living there for the past week.

Later on that night there were heaps of people in the showers and I really couldn't be bothered.
"I don't think I'll shower tonight because there are so many people, I'll shower tomorrow mornign," I said to my mum.
"You can't not shower tonight," she said and then introduced various arguments supporting her view.
"But you're not showering tonight," I said and she went silent.
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This was a dream I had after I woke up and was pissed at myself for not going lucid so I thought I'd try again... I wasn't successful.
I walked into a dimly lit room where there stood a beautiful woman who was counselling a boy who looked to be about 17. When she saw me she dismissed him. (Btw, in this dream I was a guy...) "I brought something for you," I said and handed her a skull. Her eyes lit up and she opened a jar and took off the top of the skull. She tipped a runny yellow liquid from the skull into the jar. Then the adolescent boy returned and he was holding a skull which he had taken the top off and was now trying to put it back on upside down.
"Why are you putting it on upside down?" she asked.
"I don't know," the boy said and turned it around. He had watery eyes and looked completely out of it.
"What have you been doing?" she asked him.
"I played a drinking game," he admitted.
"What drinking game?"
"I had to drink this lemon drink and I didn't know what was in it but I got a lot of money," he laughed.
"Why would you drink something if youdidn't know what it was?" she asked. She reached for another skull and tipped more yellow liquid into the jar and continued talking to the boy.

Suddenly the yellow liquid reached the top and she quickly stopped tipping. She smied with satisfactiona and screwed the top on the jar.
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I woke up then and tried to go back into the dream by re-imagining that place but I just fell asleep.
When I next woke up I kept my eyes closed. I was annoyed because my attempt to re-enter the dream had not been successful. I felt my cat, Misha, curled up in my arm and I breathed in but got her cat hair all into my mouth and throat so I opened my eyes spluttering.

When I opened my eyes it was strange. There was no cat, and I did not have any cat hair in my throat. Then I was extra annoyed that I had not done a reality check because it had been an FA... *sigh*

These dreams threw me off massively. My boyfriend left me sleeping in his apartment for the first time. He told me he'd lock the doors so I didn't have to worry about anything. So of course I went back to sleep seeming as it was 7 am.

The first dream it did not seem like a dream at all. I heard our bedroom door open, slowly like in one of those horror movies. However I could barely open my eyes, I had to literally force them open to watch the door slide open. Some where in my dreaming mind I couldn't help but wonder if we'd gotten a cat... My eyes went to the floor and nothing was there, then I realized that either way I cat wouldn't be able to open a closed door. The door just kept creeping open slowly till it hit the wall. I can't remember what I was thinking, just that my heart was pounding and I could hear it out loud.

Then I woke up, at least this time I really thought I was awake. The door to the bedroom was still closed, I got up easily thinking I'd go check the doors to make sure they were locked this time. I was walking up the stairs to the main door and I realized that it was still dark outside, but in my head I thought that my boyfriend left when the sun was starting to come up. Then I looked at the door and realized none of the locks were on. I walked up to it taking the ear plugs out of my ear, which in reality I would have done before getting out of bed, I opened the door and my boyfriends car was still there. I remember dropping my ear plug by the door and calling into the house for him. But he didn't answer. So I put my boots on, I was only in a tank top and some boy short panties, and went out to look in his car, but he wasn't there. So I went back inside and left the doors unlocked and got back in bed under the sheets crying.

THEN, I finally woke up to a text from him at 9 am telling me he'd locked the doors and he'd left a spare key for me by the bed. K, I realized after texting him that I had a horrible dream, that my ear plug was missing. I figured it was somewhere in my bed, so I got up to turn on the kettle, and went up to the door to make sure it really was locked like he'd told me it was, it wasn't and my ear plug was by the front door and my boots were wet from snow. So I opened the door and saw my foot prints barely covered by the fact that it was snowing leading to where the car so obviously wasn't. Yep, scary stuff.

Where do I start?
Lucid? Hmmm, it wasn't good. There was something you took to help you adventure and fly around the world. I took it. Mom tried to talk me into it so she could do drugs behind my back. I saw what others had to say about it. Scary witchy stuff. I took it, flew. I saw how late it was on the digital clock. I then watched a movie (apparently it turned real in the dream), about sharks and fish stuff. In the movie, evil was taking over the world. Side note: This movie I watched, because it was apparently a very, very popular one like Forest Gump, etc. Then, a guy with a skull-like mask came out. I knew I had the witchy powers to make me do anything, and this skull guy was evil with blood on him. So, I used my witchy power stuff so I used my powers to make everything good again. I flew over the sea. i went and Mom told me I was screaming and woke me up. FAKE! I woke up in the dream, not real life. I had way more than one sleep paralysis event though. I tried to wake up, once I knew I was dreaming, and I woke up and could not move. My heart made like a weird vibrating thing. I couldn't stop it, I put a bible under my pillow. BIG help! Also, in the dream there was a candle that I put a sticker on it. It ripped as I tore it off. It was Belle from Beauty and the Beast. Then, with my witchy powers I flew into the room (my grandma's) and looked for spells. o.O I then woke up. I told myself I'd know I was dreaming if I see the same stuff again. I fell asleep, again. I knew I was dreaming, but I also knew I was in a nightmare. So, I screamed really loudly as I saw this guy with black hair trying to help me with my powers. (How is that even scary??) I entered sleep paralysis again. Of course! I screamed really loud as I knew I was awake and saw myself fly over the sea once more. Mom woke me up, she heard me scream. I told her this. ^
Nightmare II
This was, pretty cool actually. Stephanie, Lulu, and I were in a machine thing at my step-dad's house. Next door is a preacher lady (crazy) named Kathy. She is nuts!! When we were in the robot machine, we saw people fly out of the house, and me and Stephanie laughed. Another one went flying off the top of the house and landed straight to the ground. They were dying, but we didn't care as we continued laughing. I got the window seat, and it was entertaining. "What are they doing, why?" I thought. "Wanna switch?" I questioned Stephanie as she said yes. She switches seats, looked and we switched back. Then, there was like an explosion, killing almost all of mankind. The world was nearly empty. I moved from the spot I already was b/c the explosion moved me, I was unharmed, though. I got up, remembering people I saw lived. I went by Tony's street. 50 Cent was there mowing the lawn. He said I was brave for going to that house. I went through a forest-like thing and saw a few people. Then, I went to explore Mrs. Kathy's house. I wanted to see what killed them. I found a phone and called 911, but it was so screwed up, when I dialed it, it said E 4. It was busted -___- I crawled up the cave in their house, that leaded to the parachute thing that shot people there. I saw skulls. They looked like toys. I picked one up and observed it. I looked for a made in China sign on it, but no luck. (I am TERRIFIED of skulls, and since they represented real ones I'm surprised I did not scream.) When I picked them up, much like this dream they were very, very vivid. Once I made it to the top, I saw where people were falling from. I was about to go through it, but I didn't feel like dying. Note: When I climbed near the cave on the ground, a news reporter in the backround from an unknown source said: "People have been tricking locals into coming in their house for a parachute ride. Many people killed, almost no human life left. If you know ANYONE still out there, you must find them NOW!" I was brave in this.
Side Note: I was wearing a purple Monster High shirt, and I found huge, plastic purple earrings on the floor in the witchy dream. They are purple skulls with bows on them. I put them on and Stephanie said they were cute. Also, I had a dream where I was in a yellow shirt, and a certian thing got bigger. Strange.

1/13/11

1- Failed Planning
I have gone to take the SAT, and for some strange reason Mitchell, my friend's ex-obsessionboyfriend, is with me. He is supposed to be taking the test, too, and my mother is going to pay the fee for him. However, his name does not seem to be on the list. "Can't you just print him off an answer document?" My mom asks the lady.

"Did you even sign up for this, or were you just planning to take it on a whim?" I ask Mitchell in annoyance.

"Sign up?"

I try to explain to my mother that he didn't sign up and that no, they CAN'T just print off an answer document because the College Board deals with that and they would need all of his information. She refuses to listen to me and keeps arguing. I glare at Mitchell, who still does not appear to know what's going on.

Later, he has somehow angered a mob of crazed tourists. I learn that there is some sort of zombie virus outbreak, and that he has tricked the tourists into giving them these tickets that are used to gain passage into a zombie free zone. I snatch the tickets away from him after I chase off the mob. "Why did you take all these in the first place?"

"I needed them for autographs!" Oh my god, what an idiot, I think in disgust.

"Autographs? What the hell are you talking about?" I notice that all of the tickets have the initials RL scrawled on the back of them.

((Also, it seemed like Samael was involved in the whole ordeal, but I can't remember how.))

2- Street Punks
I am riding the school bus, and for some reason my dad is sharing the seat with me and this other girl. She asks my dad why he's coming to school with me. I suddenly wonder the same. What in the world is he doing on the bus? Without learning the answer, we arrive at school and I wander down the hallway. What class am I supposed to go to...? Something is wrong with my memory. I end up at my AP United States History class. "Oh yeah, I have APUSH first period," I remind myself.

But where is all my stuff? Is it in my locker? I go to my locker and find that someone else's stuff is there. "Did we have a locker change again?" I ask a nearby student.

"Yeah, it's really annoying when they do that. Should have waited 'till the next semester."

I remember that my alternate locker number is on my schedule... which is in my locker. Great. ((BTW, there is no such thing as a locker change or an alternate locker number. Yet another false memory.))

I go to the office and find a bunch of band students playing jingle bells very unenthusiastically to a tall, official looking lady. They finish as I enter the room, and she claps happily. I hesitantly approach the lady. "Um, I don't know if you're the right person to ask for this... What is my new locker number?"

"You're number 18," she says cheerily, without even looking at a list. "I placed you myself. See, we try to position everyone based on their abilities."

"Okay... 18. Thanks." How does she know who I am? What abilities? I mull the question over and walk out the wrong door. I get it right on my second try. "Great," I say to myself, embarrassed, "I definitely have 'special' abilities, alright."

At that point I "wake up" in my car, pouring sweat. Ugh it's so hot in here... I look around and note that I'm in the student parking lot. Weird... I don't think we even have school today. Was I sleep driving? I'd better call my mom and let her know where....

My thoughts trail off as I RC and become lucid. All worries assuaged, I observe my surroundings. It is sunny, and though the parking lot is empty, there are people walking everywhere. I happily get out of the car and decide to go on a walk. No telling what might develop along the way.

It isn't long before I come upon a gang of boys who are playing with a yoyo. The youngest (who is about 10) accidentally slams it on the ground and breaks it. "Oh no," he moans. "If Carlos finds out about this, he'll kill all of us." I notice what is in my hand at the same time they do. One of those rubber yoyo's with the flashing lights inside of it. Well, then...

I break into a run, and they all jump on motorcycles and come after me. I'm fast, but they're faster. I make it to a bridge several miles from my house before they catch up with me. Well, I gave them a chance. They chose not to take it.

With an evil grin, I leap into the air just before the bikes would have run me over. They skid to a halt and glare up at me, unfazed by my unnatural performance. I am suddenly hurdling through the air directly at the largest gang member. My foot slams into his chest with enough force to knock him off the bridge to his death. NOW they look appropriately frightened. I make short work of the others. Now only the youngest is left. I do not intend to kill him at first, but then he holds one of his dead comrades in front of him as a shield. This angers me. "Stupid street punk!" I yell as I beat the life out of him.

3- Playing with Energy
I am listening in to the Elders' meeting without their knowledge.

"What? The youngest son of the Uria clan has run off?"

"He is a disgrace to his family."

"What of the eldest?"

"Her position in this matter is unknown. When asked about it, she merely said, 'These things happen.'"

I roll my eyes and place the headphones back on the table. Stupid old bags. Is it really so difficult to understand why my brother ran off?

My uncle walks in the room, and I look as innocent and meek as possible as he goes into his usual speech of upholding the family values, blah blah blah, and I'd better not end up like my "wretch of a brother."

At this point, I RC and become lucid, exiting the role of this Uria character.

I go to the back door and walk outside, thinking about the Queen (yet again) and wondering if I should try to contact her. I am still contemplating this when I look up and notice Sadie sitting nearby with two other cats. One of them seems to be massaging the other's shoulders. At first they look similar to cats I'd previously owned, but then they change slightly and I no longer recognize them.

The one who had been getting the massage runs over to me and bites my hand affectionately. I pet her and ask her what her name is. No answer. "Come on, you can tell me." She still doesn't answer. I look at her black and white companion. "Hey, cat. I know that's not your name, so speak and tell me what it is." No answer. "Sadie?" Sadie turns up her tail and ignores me. "Hmph. Fine, be that way." I ask the cat that I'm petting one more time what her name is, and I hear my stepdad's voice behind me say "Betty."

"Betty?"

"Yeah, that's her name."

He and my brother walk up and start horseplaying. I notice that whenever my brother goes to throw a punch, I can see his energy fly from his hand and hit Chris before the physical impact. "That's interesting," I say. Chris takes some of Steven's energy in his hand and forms it into a ball, then throws it at me. "Ow!" That really hurt. He throws another one, but this time I catch it and examine it closely. I let my own energy flow into it; the ball goes from being clear to swirling with black and purple energy. "Interesting," I say again. I throw the ball at Chris. At first it sticks to my hand and absorbs back into me, but I make a new ball of my own and throw it. I have terrible aim; it lands several feet away and creates a mini explosion.

I notice it's getting dark out, which is a good indication that the dream is getting unstable. I wake up before I can do anything about it.

4- Canoeing
I am watching from above as PJ and a few other people are canoeing in a beautiful wide river surrounded by an evergreen forest. The dream tells me that this is in Detroit, Michigan or maybe Delaware, I can't remember which. I know it started with a D.