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I was upstairs in the computer room when I saw my brother in law going out the front door. It looked like he was going on a backpacking trip. Suspecting I was dreaming, I went downstairs. I thought to myself how I could see with my sleep mask on. Is it on correctly? Then I did a noseplug RC. I could breathe! I'm dreaming! I walked out the front door and woke up.

Thoughts | Non-Lucid | Lucid | Techniques/Aids

Nothing to eat after 6PM Actually I totally skipped dinner. I wasn't hungry. We had a late lunch.
Bedtime 10:30PM
300mg B6, 3MG Melatonin
SSILD at beginning

#90 The White Void 11:30PM

I did SSILD in rapid cycles and eventually got to where I would either notice all 3 at once or hold sight while cycling sound and touch. I probably did this longer than I should have. I eventually rolled over to my right side. I would guess it was 30 to 40 minutes. Then still noticing HI I counted 1-10 until...

I feel SP Vibrations. My thought was that it was too early to have a dream so I didn't do my normal getting out my body routine. I just relaxed and waited.

I find myself in a pure white void. I hear in my mind but almost spoken to me at the same time, "Ancient Indian spiritual wisdom." I feel like I am a different person. I am lucid but I don't think of myself as I am in real life or this life. I think I am a tribal shaman.

SP takes me again. I think I am on my back. Again, I wait and enter the white void. I DEILD chain 3 or 4 times. On the last one I look hard into the white void hoping for a dream or image to appear. I eventually wake up.

I have a hard time going back to sleep after that.

Vivid Sex 1:48AM

I have very long detailed and vivid sex with my wife multiple times. At some point another woman joins but I motion for her to leave. There are impossible positions and distortions. I see the woman yell at a kid in the distance. I wake up and fail DEILD.

I remember this dream like it really happened.

Dentist 4:24 AM

I am at the dentist office. They keep saying my name wrong. At one point they call me by my mothers maiden name. I just go along with it. I get a huge run around. Eventually the dentist comes and I think I finally can get my cleaning done. He asks me my last name and has to fix it in the system while I go to another waiting room. It's in a different building and the interior is dirty and dilapidated. I wake up and try DEILD

WBTB a few minutes. Bathroom water.
additional 300MG B6
SSILD to WILD

I can't relax my mind enough to WILD I start to think the extra B6 was a mistake. The furnace is set too high. I am hot. I try to ignore it but I end up having to get up and turn the temp down. I have spent too long on this and I decide to give up and sleep normal.

Dream WBTB 5:46AM

I am doing a WBTB in the middle of the night but I am in the house that I lived in Luling, Texas. I am making a sandwhich or something. Really I'm just lost in thought and mucking about. I see the living room light is on and I assume that my dad left it on.

The baby woke up for a bottle. I tried to go back to sleep with him for a bit but I could not relax enough and he was squirmy fussy.

It started as a non-lucid dream which included my freaky dream sign, getting in trouble, but in an expanded edition including the fear of responsibility. Because they were dreams in a row, I can't properly recall all the really cool details or how all happened, but I have reconstructed a suffecient part of what happened.


At first, I find myself being father of a child in this age (15) engaged to another 15 year old skunk which I have got pregnant, without remembering any details. My parents and family were there aswell, and everybody was cool, just accepting this, without any grin at all, but I was starting to get depressed thinking how could I ever do this thing, and even was planning to kill the little fuck, who was just born, just to get rid of the responsibillity and keep on with my life. I was thinking all of those things and was frustrated, shocked that this has happened, because I am not that kind of person, I was slowly getting lucid.

Suddenly, I decide to perform a reality check, I do the noseplug and bam, I'm lucid. Thank god! It was all a dream! And now it's a lucid dream! So I roam around my house slapping my imaginary DC "wife" till she bleeds yelling "that's right bitch! It's aaaaall a dream! Where's the little bastard I wanna kill it!" And she didn't tell me because she was protecting it. It was my expectation. I didn't want to keep on wasting my dream, so I thought I'd stab her to the heart, but I couldn't do that to an innocent person, even a DC. So I jumped outside the window.

I tried to fly on fall, but no luck, I just landed slowly on the ground like a chicken. I decided I'd fly, no matter how, I have to. So I raised my right hand like superman and tried to accelerate myself to the front while roaming in the street. It worked while I was in the ground, I was super speedy, so I decided to lift up like an aircraft and that's what I did. I flew effortlessly up on to buildings and jumped from one another for fun! I even kinda climbed a transmission tower and jumped! Then I return to a close-to-ground attitude and flew around the city on places my brain was creating at the moment, and not anything existent. Then I saw a guy with a bicycle on an empty road and I started picking on him because I was flying and he had a bicycle! So funny...

After all these, I can't remember what really happened, I just remember that I woke up. I was on my bed thinking "wow, really cool DILD! I did some stuff on this one!" and I performed my regular noseplug reality check I do when I wake up. I was in a dream! It was a false awakening! I couldn't believe it! I was thinking "how can I be still sleeping?" It was crazy! Then I exited the house using my favourite route, the window! But I found myself in a totally different street, with many cars passing near me, so I went in front of them and started dancing! Some yelled at me and others slowed down, so I punched every car that passed near me. I broke some glasses with the punches, but they kept going.

Then I found some cops on the way hanging around with some traffic control cops. I thought I would take the gun from one of them and start shooting, but I didn't. I didn't care that much, but I tried to project a gun through my pocket, but no luck. I was too excited to think about doing stuff! But I had a talk with them DC cops! After that I can't remember anything else than waking up and finding myself on the sofa watching TV. My father was there aswell. For no reason I can remember than just questioning reality, I reality checked with noseplug.

I was still asleep! I couldn't believe it! Third dream in a row? Thats crazy! But I thought I wouldn't be able to remember all of the dreams I saw before, so I started dream recalling inside my dream. Meanwhile I was playing around and tried to switch on a light, It didn't work! But a totally different light switched on, so I went to switch that light's switch, hoping that the other light lights up! Nothing, but then I tried to switch it on with magic! Wooohooo! My hands started vomiting smoke and sparkles, like they were a tesla coil or something, and finally, it switched on. Then, I woke up.

This time it was real, I tried to deild, but no luck. I reality checked many many times, but it's reality. I'm still unsure! These dreams were long, really long, 10-15 mins each and really vivid, I just miss too many details because I was jumping from one dream to another. I'm sure I did a lot of other things I can't remember, but those ring a bell. But I felt like a god! I finally figured out that my hypothesis is confirmed, It is INTERNAL FRUSTRATION that wastes dreams. Nothing else, it doesn't matter if you are excited or furious, just don't do any bad thoughts about the dream, like how it's gonna end, if it's gonna last long. Avoid these and you're half way to perfection!

I start off at an abandoned house. I am mildly lucid. I go through the hallway and see my mothers old dolls on top of a dusty old bookshelf. I continue on and end up in a room. I then decide to do a reality check. I do the nose plug reality check and it does not work. I then try to push my finger through my palm and it doesn't work either. But I am lucid anyway. I had no goal in mind but the idea of speaking to my inner awareness as Robert Waggoner puts it comes into my head. My nose is stuffy in this dream. I look up and ask the 'dream awareness' "can you heal my nose?" I get no response and my nose doesn't feel any different. I then say "Change the dream scene..." once again nothing happens.

I am now dissapointed and I lose lucidity since I did not even ground myself or stabilize or anchor myself (my mistake) After some exploration I find myself outside on a balcony with a balloon. I thought about going to space with it. I grab the balloon and jump and I begin to float. I end up going to some guy that has a crap load of balloons. I ask to borrow some and he allows me to. I grab a handful of balloons and I wake up.

Castle dream 10/18
I don't remember much, just being in another country looking at this huge castle owned by my grandparents, then coming home and seeing a huge mansion where another family member lived.

Quest 10/18
This was sort of a mix of Heroes of Olympus and The Hunger Games. Seven people, including me, had to go on a quest. Actually, this is more like the Tri-wizard tournament, where they all come in, but only one can win. I remember looking around and there was about 3 guys and 4 girls. The portal to start the quest was through my closet. Someone said something about grabbing a hook to go through. I am second in line, watching the first person go through. They touch something then walk through an invisible gateway. Now it's my turn. I go into the closet, and try touching hooks on hangers utterly failing, then I reach for a pair of antlers at the top of my closet, and nothing happens. I grab a few different "hooks" and try walking forward, only to hit the wall of my closet.

I wake up, then go back to sleep, and see 3 girls flying on giant birds. Actually, I only see two, but I know there are three. One starts humming a familiar tune, then the other scolds her telling her NOT to hum, as it is very annoying. The girl in the back tries throwing the humming one off to rid competition only to have it backfire and fall off herself.
I wake back up and go back to sleep. This time I am lucid.

I try completing one of my goals, but nothing is working. I see a circular castle tower and try removing the top off with Telekinesis but it doesn't work. I try flying, but I can not take off. I decide to continue with the dream. I have 5 others with me, and one spots this small house. We go inside. They all sit on couches while I go to the kitchen. I see my brother eating salad and my mom has a small pizza in front of her, cut into 4 pieces. I go to grab one, but then get picked up by my dad by the scruff of my neck. He sits me into the living room and asks what we have done so far, what we are doing, and what we will do, battle plans. I get woken up shortly after.

Creatures from the other side 10/20
I was in this grocery store with my brother and after getting a few things I see this door in the corner of the store. Various black strage shaped things go inside and outside, with others on waiting chairs outside the door. The door reads "Employees only." After watching for a bit, the dream ends.
There was more, I just don't remember.

Short dream before waking 10/21
I was told I did not have to take a shower and was wondering why not, then I got woken up by my mom... telling me to take a shower.

Tubing 10/22
I walked into a lake then realizing I couldn't swim. Well done genius. Luckily I found an inner tube. I laid on it and floated on the water relaxing until the dream ended

Church remodel 10/22
The church I go to had a completely new look to it. Irl they are working on a new worship center. I remember the entrance looking real cool, with glass etc. There was a coffee shop inside with an interesting floor. The coffee shop was really suspicious, and a name I had never heard of before. There was more, but alas, it has faded.
There was a lot more, I just don't remember because it has been a few days. :/

Abandoned store 10/23
Me, my mom, and my bro walk up to this strip mall. Once inside, on the left side I see this abandoned store with no signs, no security, nothing. The doors have like 3 strips of rubber over the door in a horizontal fashion. I squeeze inside, and find some cool stuff inside. But there are no tripwires, no locked doors, no price tags, no cameras. I take some stuff and walk back out. I remember at one point seeing 3-4 pizzas, and tasting one. It was really good tasting, and filling. We went back to the store at a later time and it got a name on it, with someone inside, but no items inside. They say they lost all their stock and can no longer open.
I know there was more to this.

The bar 10/23

I worked at a that gives you patches the more you drink. The more you buy their alcohol the better rewards you receive.
This too was a very detailed dream, but I forgot.

A minecraft store 10/23
There is this mall owned by an admin on a minecraft server I used to play, and I looked around seeing my and my brother's shops. Nostalgia hits since the shops no longer exist. I remember at one point looking outside seeing everything colored gray. There was this pyramid and many mannequin looking things come off of it and walk toward the mall. They come inside and walk inside clothes displays inside the mall. One looked like Beethoven the dog as a statue inside of some clothing.

Working at a school 10/26
I walk into this school that only has one room. There is the teachers desk, various student desks, and then a small chair and chalkboard in the corner. Turns out I work here, but never come in for work. I should be there 5 days a week, but I come in maybe 1-2 times a week, or whenever I feel. The teacher says she doesn't really need my help, but wont fire me. However, I won't get paid unless I show up. She tells me I could very well sit in a corner and play my laptop, I just have to be there. I sit in the corner and wait, then this other guy comes in. The teacher and this guy discuss this book that I happen to have with me. They tell me I must study this book and recite things from it. I get pissed off that I have to actually do work. After work I return home to a trailer park. I see two people that look like bulk and skull from power rangers, so I follow. I see this huge stage, and almost everyone on stage is dressed in all blue. There is a guy in the middle getting a helmet put on. I look around and see a couple of people dressed in red and many people dressed in yellow. I conclude this is a power rangers convention or something. As I take in my surroundings two guys dressed in red signal me their way. Guess I'm a red ranger. The two that look like bulk and skull walk by us and the dream ends.

Assasin's creed III Time travel 10/27
I get the game Assassin's Creed III (Never played an assassin's creed game irl) while helping out my parents with storage stuff. If I recall correctly, I am taking things out of storage, and then my grandparents' friends come over with food and the game. I start playing the game (I am part of the story, instead of just watching a screen) and I am on a dark street. I see these collectibles and information bubbles, but I walk right past them, collecting some coins. I eventually go back to collect more coins, then get killed by something. I realize the game is set near the end of the game, right before the final boss. I reset the game, and find myself in an empty old room. I look in the closet, and there are tons of shelves, but they are all empty. I notice the whole room is just...empty. I see one bookshelf with stuff on it, but it is full of dust.

Someone comes in and tells me what is going on. Turns out I am dead. Not only that, I died in August and it is now December. I was resurrected. I remember nothing about my past, but I do not feel I belong here. I go downstairs, and talk to some people. I am in the 1800s. People know me and wonder where my memory went and why I don't remember anything. I remember doing things others thought was strange, because I am from the 21st century but present in the 19th century.
Everything is so strange to me. I remember having like 4-5 powers. One was taking chakra from people, one was giving. Then there were 2-3 types of stuff I could send shooting out of my fingers at people. One was purple, one was red. I forget what they did. At one point I had like 4 swords. One was slightly longer than a butcher knife, and I gave it away. Another was actually two swords, twin swords. They were also kinda short, but they were curved and looked really cool. Another was a longer sword, one that I truly loved. It had an amazing design on it, and I held it well.
There was a lot of fights in the dream, lots of action. I recall at one point being given 4 books to read, all 300-400 pages, but with big text. I was told to read them all, out loud, in that day for story time.
Lastly, at one point there is this man that appears to be Gandalf, but I am not completely sure. He has a large, white beard and a huge cloak on. He staggered about a foot or two higher than me. He is talking to this enemy who says that he was here first. This is his people's land not ours. According to him we should not be here. We were in this huge ship that looked like it was crashed outside the village. Gandalf says that he has a boat in the West, one in the South, one in the East, and one in the North, in the wide open area of the North Pole. He explains where the other three are, but i forget what he said. The enemy then seemingly kills Gandalf. I then put a wand to the guy's neck and say "Avada Kedavra!" And he falls over dead. Gandalf wakes up and asks what I have just done, and that they had just called a truce. The dream ends.

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Some Alcohol

Bedtime midnight-ish - Wife, her mom and sister were up making Halloween costumes for the kids. I got cranky tired and took Riley to bed with me.

To tired for inductions
WBTB 4:00AM alarm too tired to even get up to pee.

I wanted to sleep later but after a 7AM feeding he snoozed and I sort of fell into a half LD half daydream with lots of really strong HI. I can't say for sure if I was actually asleep but time seemed to pass quickly. I was slightly uncomfortable the way he was snuggled against me. I didn't dare move him. I have been really tired and 6-8 hrs sleep is no good for a person that requires 10. I just enjoyed him letting me lay in bed a little longer. It was nice bonding time nevertheless.


She Doesn't Trust You - 5:52AM

This dream was way longer but I only remember the last bit. I am in a cow pasture and there are two unpainted barns. Cows are all around and I am moving living room furniture from the right one to the left one. There is mud in the barns and I am stepping in it but I see I am wearing rubber boots so I don't mind. I see a rainy misty green countryside out side. I have a folding chair in each hand. They are black metal. The cows freak out and get scared of them. They act skittish like my cats do and some are small like dogs. One cow gets its head caught in a folding chair and trashes about to get free. I make it to the other barn. There are couches, recliners, other folding chairs, and an old cabinet style TV. I am moving furniture around and I keep seeing my deceased grandfather as a reflection in the TV glass. I make a mental note to investigate when I am done. I see and old black leather recliner. I think I ruined it by putting it in a barn. I look closer and see that it is cracked and the color is worn in places. It was trash already. I make a final adjustment and look at the TV. Pawpaws reflection is sitting down in the chair. I am partial lucid here as I dream of the dead a lot but it feels so natural that I don't totally get it. I look at him and ask him, "Where is Nanny?"
His simply says, "She don't trust you yet."
"But...Why?"
He is looking in the distance and I get the feeling that he can see her and hear her. He says to me, "Because."
Then the world folds in on its self and I totally and consciously experience every detail of waking from a dream. I was a very odd feeling and one that would be hard to describe. I thought to DEILD but I had to pee really bad and the clock was 8 min away from my wife's wake up time so it was pointless to try.

This is odd because the last time I remember her in my dream I became lucid. See: http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/xano...d-deild-37105/ And a brief NLD:

Dead Grandma- Fragment
I experience strong HI untill a full non lucid dream occurs. Funny there was no SP
I am looking in the filing cabinet on the bottom drawer. My wife comes close to me and bumps her pregnant belly on my head. I look up and caress and kiss her belly. Then I look at her face and it VIVIDLY distorts into my dead gramdma. I am reminded of how it happens in Grimm. She telepathically tells me that she is reincarnated into my unborn son. I ask her how can that be he is a boy and you were a woman. She tells me things like that don't matter. I wake with a startle.

I am not sure if I have seen her since my son was born. That's some Goddamned crazy shit!

The Voice in the void

Later I am in strong HI I manipulate and interact with it hoping to actively WILD. It feels like a LD but I feel my body in bed still. I thin about the past dream and want answers. I see my grandfather and ask him why again. I can't remember what he said to me but it wasn't an answer. So I ask, "Will you be my dream guide? I would be nice to have a relationship with you and be something we never could have when you were alive." I think about how religious he was.
I don't really see anything now. I an in a black void. I hear a voice reply, "Yes, I will be your dream guide." The voice sounds flat and emotionless. I does not sound like my grandfather did. I ask to be clear, "Will you be my dream guide?"
The same voice, "Yes."
"You are not my pawpaw are you?"
"No." Now the voice sounds deep and sort of like a high class English man.
"Who are you?" He replies but it gets garbbled. I ask a second time.
"Edward Godrich the second."
"OK will YOU be my dream guide?"
"I told you yes."
"OK when?"
"When you let yourself go in a dream, I will be there."

There was more of the conversation but I can't remember it all.
My son squirms and wakes me out of my trance.

That wasnt the type of LD I wanted but both the NLD and the interaction later was fun as hell. I don't really know what to make of it. I suppose it's all just in my head but I hope Mr. Godrich helps me out tonight!

Dream - Lucid

I was with Ryan. Apparently, his marriage didn't work out, so he went back to me. I was leaning and cuddling on him.

We were then watching some news clip I think of a Middle Eastern or maybe a Spanish guy in a bike race. Something happened, and he started shouting in another language, took a gun, and blew his face off. I didn't look at the part where he killed himself.

His white shirt with various little logos on it was then laid out in front of us. It was clean of any blood, surprisingly. I thought to myself that maybe they washed it. I touched it. I then caught a whiff of sweat. It was from the shirt. I thought about how very hauntingly strange it was that his shirt still smelled like sweat and all that, but he was no longer alive. It was a bit unsettling.

Then, we were outside this small house, and moving on some sort of train with it. I think we were sitting down. The train then picked up speed, and we were then going so fast, that everything, including us, started to look polygonal; the best thing I can compare it to would be N64 graphics. We just kept going faster and faster.

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I then woke up for a bit, tossed and turned, then, when I got comfy and I got my brain to stop going a mile a minute, I felt the buzzing in my head associated with SP. I knew I was going to be in a dream soon, so I concentrated on staying calm so I wouldn't jar myself out of it.

I then was sitting in my living room, staring at an orange cat sitting on the floor. It looked like Pounce, a cat we had to put to sleep last year. I thought that was odd...I must be dreaming. To check, I stared at the cat, and concentrated on changing its appearance. It then changed into an orange and white cat that looked like a cat named Kira I looked after one time. Definitely a dream!

I looked at my hand, and I counted 8 fingers. That's...a lot more extra fingers than I'm used to seeing in dreams. Oh well. My mom then walked quickly by, and down the hallway. I went after her, about to tell her we were in a lucid dream, but I couldn't really talk...it was weird, like something was blocking my voice from coming out.

I then went into the bathroom instead, and looked in the mirror. My face looked weird and dark at first, and was slightly covered by my hair, so I got closer to the mirror, and...my facial features were all mixed up. As I continued to look, some features disappeared completely, and my face looked almost like a blank sheet of skin. Very, very strange.

I woke up after that, but kept my eyes closed, and soon enough, I was feeling the buzzing again. I decided to experiment, and tried to concentrate the buzzing to my heart to see what happened. I didn't notice much difference, so I concentrated it to my head instead. I buzzed for awhile, then, I was again in a dream. I don't remember much from this one, except for there was a point that I was outside, flying amongst the green trees in the daytime, little by little gaining height. I still don't think I could talk.

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I then was in a non-lucid. All I can remember from this is that I was "remembering" a dream "memory". As I was "remembering" it, I wondered if it had been real memory or a dream memory, but ultimately decided it was real. I was "remembering" going to an Asian man's house for sleep therapy. He was in his thirties, and had glasses. I "remembered" sitting in a big living area with him on lots of pillows that covered the floor. I then "remembered" sitting on a bed with him, and watching him smoke heroin out of a glass pipe? It was so weird. I did not join him in partaking of the dangerous drug. I don't think I was supposed to tell anyone about him smoking the heroin.

That's really all I can remember though, is "remembering" going to sleep therapy at this guy's house, and watching him smoke drugs, wondering whether or not it all really happened. I'm sure there was more to it than that, but that's all I can really recall.

I have had a majorly busy week at this new job. I absolutely love it; I am SO blessed to have this job. It's had to be the first thing on my mind though, so dream recall has had to take the back burner. Next week won't be as busy, so I'll be trying to remember more dreams.

Oh, I'm making a Tulpa. Sounds like fun, and it can help make college less bullshit.

10.27.2012

Dr. No can't get his Thing up (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Pretty sure is a dream frag.

Okay, Dr. No, who looks nothing like Dr. No, apparently, based on what I'm recalling on random images, he has ED.

Yeah, weird. Dr. No's Thing is basically saying No to Erection.

LOL.

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10.27.2012

I can Duplicate Money & Eva is a Miner (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm near a brown table, pretty generic, nothing added to make it look a ltitle more appealing. I can make money appear by holding it with my left hand, and then take my right index finger and thumb to flick it around the center.

Flick....money....another flick, MONEY. MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEEEEEEEEEEEHHHHHH!

Literally.

I started out with coins, pennies, nickles, then quarters, and finally dollar bills, 10 dollar bills and ultimately 100 bucks. The 100 bucks came out of random when I was flicking the 10. Then I looked at the money duplicates, and they were fake. Either way, I'm still having fun creating fake money.

I'm REALLY into this, it's so amazing destroying the dream economy like this, keep flicking and raising the inflation rate Link!

I do a nose plug reality check, hmmmm, can't breathe through properly, or maybe I'm just not plugging it hard enough and breathing in.

After a while, I head to an office to the right of me, it's a casual environment, quiet and empty. The carpet layer seems to be a mix of smoky gray and violet. The walls are probably a light gray color, and I stumbled upon Julia Louis-Dreyfus from Seinfield.

She's wearing a black office suit, with a white dress shirt underneath. Her hair is tied about a bit.

I literally asked her, with a full awareness for once,

"Am I dreaming?" She holds the office phone, which is vanilla colored, to her chest, and does a nod.

Guess who's dreaming? This guy.

Then I finally, for once, get the urge to ask Julia if I can meet Eva right now. She responds,

"Um, she won't be here until 17 minutes?"

I asked her, "Why for such a long time?"

She replies,

"Because she's a miner."

Me: "What?!?!?"

I just stand there for a while, and then started to walk rapidly into some door to my right that led to some dark area, probably the mining area she's in apparently.

I lose lucidity from this point, I think, maybe I'm semi-lucid, but whatever.

I'm at the mining area, and there's this black cave hole to my right. It has Minecart tracks coming out, and SWOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOSH, in comes Eva.

Now I'm seeing things in third person or spectator view, Eva is wearing her default costume from MGS3. I think she's coming close to me, and then wraps her arms around my waist and looks up at me.

I look down at her, and I can't remember anything else after that.

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10.27.2012

Alyzarin and her Vision (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I meet Alyzarin apparently, and she tells me how it takes a while for her vision to come into full color.

First she starts out with Red, Blue, Green Vision, and the Purple finally comes in to make her see things perfectly in full color.

There's some other thing I did with her, but it was random.

I was sitting on a huge hill overlooking a city, a complex of villa-esque buildings behind me which I knew to be my school. It was a good view where I could see each street and building but not get a lot of noise. A map flickered into mind, indicating the location of the city.

Then I turned to someone sitting nearby, not caring who, and said: "Hahaahaha, this isn't real, is it? I live in England, this is like New Jersey or something." I didn't look at who it was or pay attention, but he just acted confused, I think.

So I immediately ran away, not losing breath or bumping into people or attracting attention. I knew I could do anything but didn't care much, I just ran and sometimes made a jump to see if it would set me in flight. After a few bridges and footpaths I ended up on a steady route. I noticed something and said: "What are you?"

It said: "Antagonism."
I said: "Like your inner darkness or something."
It said: "No, just resisting things. So I"m working against running further and going back and other small things."
I said: "Oh, okay then." and talked to it for a while.

Real Life;Thoughts / Dream / Lucid

I had a lucid dream last night!

I stayed up until 3 listening to the DreamViews podcast. I finished the episode and went to sleep. As I was going to sleep, my body started to feel lighter and I could tell that my body was falling asleep (also, the sound of my fan was fading out) but I got too excited and I woke up. I sat up for a few minutes and went back to sleep.

I was cleaning my retainer in my bathroom. I was accidentally using hot water instead of cold water. I didn't notice and I set the retainer on the sink and looked into the mirror. Everything was vivid and I was trying to remember how I got there. I looked fine in the mirror. I looked at my hands. They looked.... a bit off. I began to think I was in a dream. Just to make sure, I did an RC with the clock on the wall. I was lucid dreaming! I turned to face the door. Before I opened it, I was thinking of my school so I could transport there. It didn't work. I closed the door and covered my eyes so I could teleport to the school that way. But when I opened my eyes, I woke up. I looked at my alarm clock and it was 3:33, I remembered going to sleep around 3:20. I just had a 10 minute lucid dream! I went back to sleep.

I was at my school at night. Everyone was there and everything seemed normal. During lunch, one of my friends came up to me and gave me this weird lollipop that had poprock/firecrackers in it and tasted sour. I decided to take it to my homeroom teacher so it wouldn't melt. I walked down Main Street (which is what we call the main hallway in our school) and put the lollipop in the freezer that was on her desk. When I left her room, I walked past my crush but I thought this was real life so I didn't say anything to him. I walked out to the school courtyard and there was this couple that was breaking up with each other (in reality, they break up about once a month.). When the rest of the students burst into song and started to sing "Womanizer" to the guy that broke up with the girl, I was in the sky watching the whole "performance". Dream began to destabilize.

I woke up.

[Friday, October 26th, 2012]
(Later that day.)
(WBTB... I was trying a new technique where you are supposed to wake up after 6 hours of sleep, get up and get a
drink and go back to bed. Then you will wake up off and on- and you must tell yourself that you won't move upon
waking. If you wake up without moving, correctly, then you'll be free to try a series of techniques for spurring on
OBE's and lucid dreaming, directly from it.)

I got to a state on the edge of the twilight dream world... I could feel my body vibrating slightly... accompanied by

another familiar feeling that I recognized, but couldn't quite explain... like a strange numbness.

I tried rollling my body- didn't work... tried levitating my body and it worked. My legs began to float up into the
air.

I floated up above my body and saw a yellow clothes hamper in my room with a face on it.
I became excited and threw myself towards it.
Then I flashed forward to a door way, and some figure was folded into himself in a ball on the floor.
It made unintelligible sloppy growls- but I decided that it wasn't unfriendly.
I began to growl sloppily back, as if I were conversing with it.

<I woke up.>

This LD started off with some incredible promise. But for reasons that still aren't clear, I wasted the majority of it yammering about lucid dreaming. A strange and extremely embarrassing mistake, but live and (hopefully) learn!

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #25: A Little Less Conversation, a Little More Action

My very close friend F is a famous rap star and I'm his manager. I'm driving him to the marina in a black Escalade, arguing with him not to buy a helicopter for "one million dollars". He's adamant that he needs this helicopter and he brushes off all of my objections about his spending vs. his record sales. As I park the Escalade, I suddenly remember that F is an IT consultant with two kids, not a rapper -- now I'm lucid.

We get out of the Escalade and I see that we're parked near an absolutely pimptastic white yacht. The day is bright and clear and the sun is high over a calm ocean. And in spite of my earlier helicopter-related harangues, there's also a nearby helipad with a helicopter waiting on it. F and I have been friends since we were kids, so I'm psyched to be hanging with him in an LD. And with all of these cool toys just lying around!

I follow F as he heads toward the yacht. I stop him on the gangway, saying, "Hey man, I'm having a lucid dream." He nods and says, "Cool." But F and I have never discussed lucid dreaming IWL. For some reason, I'm overcome with the desire to explain it to him right now. I ask him whether he knows what LD is and he tells me not to worry about it.

But for some reason, I cannot let it go. I go into the whole thing, talking about the sleeping brain, how consciousness is activated, the role of serotonin, all kinds of stuff. At one point I even start rambling about acetylcholinesterase and its role both in dreaming and nerve gas. I'm feeling terribly pleased with myself for recalling all of this information while having an LD and I've lost all regard for my "audience" or my own experience.

Suddenly, a shudder seems to run through the whole dream world. The gangway starts to shake and the sky flashes black for a moment. F grabs the handrails and shouts some kind of profanity. The dream ends immediately afterward. I try to DEILD back in but I come up dry. Curses!

WBTB into a Lucid Dream

I was laying in bed thinking about things when I suddenly heard an ice cream truck. It sounded really close. I glanced over toward the front of the house. I had no view of a front window to see out on the street. But suddenly I could see the truck anyway. I realized that is was traveling down the hallway of the house. That seemed really strange. I wondered if this were a dream. I decided to climb out fof bed and test it. So I jumped up. I hovered just slightly longer than I would have in real life. I then was sure. I decided to find a window and fly out. I ran to a large room and flew out an open window. There was a deck or patio outside the window. I could see several people, including Jeff sitting at a table eating. I didn't pay them any attention, but kept on flying. I suddenly realized that it felt like I had not shirt on. I looked down and saw that I was indeed topless. It was no surprise since my dream self seems to be happier when I have my shirt off. I touched my breasts to see what it felt like.

I failed not from lack of lucid abitities, but because I was pure chicken haha!

Ok, so I did a WBTB at 6:30am and had a really rough time falling back to sleep. I finally did, then woke up around 9:30am. I fell back to sleep thinking about the annoying shift I was about to have to do (meeting plus 1 1/2 hour close shift). Anyway, I was imagining myself going through closing drills, then my thoughts phased into a dream of me actually running through the halls at work. I stopped and thought to myself, "Hey, I was JUST thinking about this while lying in bed, I'm dreaming!" That's happened to me once before that I can recall, and it happened in a work dream too. Anyway, I immediately thought of the TOTM. Since I've kinda been working down the list from easiest to hardest (for me), I thought I'd try the pumpkin head one. In the dream, I was in the back hallway but not near the bathroom. So I just imagined that the next door to my left would be the team member bathroom, and sure enough the little restroom sign appeared next to the door. Oh, I wanted a bathroom so I could use a mirror for reference when popping off my head. I went into the bathroom, and closed the door. I even locked the door because I didn't want a random DC to come in and fuck up my task. So I looked in the mirror and thought of CanisLucidus and the lego-head thing. I tried to lift my head from my neck, but it didn't pop off. Instead it stretched a bit. Like silly putty (was it paigey who did something similar? Somebody had a silly putty neck). Anyway, it stretched a few inches, and then I was just like "Oh FUCK no" and quit! It was just too real feeling. I mean, I knew I was dreaming still, but it felt too real and morbid. I felt as scared as I did when I had the first pleiosaur lucid. I had the same "omg RUN AWAAAAAAAAAAaaay" feeling. Damnit.

But I didn't want to waste the lucid, so I thought I might try to finish where I left off in the last one, and regrow my vamp teeth and bite someone. I looked up close into the mirror, and looked at my incisors, willing them to grow long and sharp. They grew longer, but stayed blunt. And with the bumpy edges like when you lose your baby teeth and the new ones come in with those little bumps. So stupid. So, on to plan C: get some nookie.

I left the bathroom, went down the hall, and head some voices in a room. I walked in on a guy talking to a woman who I assumed was his daughter for some reason. As soon as I entered, he shut up. Like he knew what I was gonna do lol. The woman had fallen asleep in a chair. I picked her up and moved her to a nearby sofa. I then spent waaaaaaaaaaaaaay too long deliberating over how the pillows were situated under her head, and other random things that I forgot. I didn't even have time to switch gender and get us naked before I woke up.

[I'm just gonna tell you about the lucid with the TOTM. The lucid before that consisted of le sexy time so. Yea.]

I start to notice myself waking up for real. The dream starts to fade and I start hearing ambient noises from the outside world. With my eyes closed, I move my real arm a bit, for comfort, without thinking too much about it. I focus on the the dream and slipping back into it. The ambient noises start to fade and I am once again inside the dream scene – fully lucid.

I walk outside my house, thinking about my goals. I remember the TOTM. Immediately, I hear the sound of sirens from a distance. I look, and I see that people are running around in a craze. I notice that there are some people walking really slowly, dragging their feet. ZOMBIES! Their faces look disfigured, and utterly horrifying. Saliva is dripping from their mouths, and their skin has a certain pallor to it – with small holes secreting pus.

I have second thoughts about my plan. Even though I know it's a dream, I don't think I can do it. I realize I can't change the dream scene, so I run toward my house, hoping to teleport through a door. As I am running, somebody grabs me by my left arm and pulls me, making me fall to the ground. It's one of the zombies. I push him away, which is easy because he doesn't seem to have much strength. He grabs my right leg and bites me above my ankle. I could feel the squishiness as his teeth make contact with my skin. I cry out in pain – it feels like he just tore off a chunk of my leg. I realize he actually did. There is a gaping hole, and to make things worse, the zombie spits into it! WTF. I kick him in the face, and run to the door, limping.

I get inside and I totally forget about teleporting through the door, so I just end up in my living room instead. By the time I look back, the door is gone (along with the other doors) and there are no windows anywhere too. The floor turns into soil. The furniture is still there though. I look at my ankle, but the bite mark is gone. I walk to one corner, where there is a full-length mirror. I look at myself. My eyes are starting to look green, my eyelids feel so droopy, and my jaws feel slack. My skin is turning pale and rough, and it's very itchy too. It's that type of itch where even if you scratch it, it feels like it's never the right spot, and it never goes away. It isn't painful, but it feels uncomfortable.

I head to the couch to sit down. I feel sleepy now. I tell myself I'm not gonna sleep because I need to stay lucid. Okay... Maybe I'll just lean back a bit to get comfortable...This cushion is so soft... Mmmmm...


I wake up in my room. For real.