non-lucid

Morning of February 28, 2014. Friday.



My brother-in-law Bob (much younger in my dream, possibly only forty, while I seem to be only about twenty) and I are out near what first seems like the ocean, but should actually be the Black River area of the Mississippi in Wisconsin. He tells me that it is too windy to fish, but I am not concerned. I cast my line out anyway and the hook blows back into my hair a few times (but does not get entangled or injure me). Eventually I drop the line closer to shore where it is rocky just under the water. There are several fish about the size of a larger bluegill. They have orange bodies with black stripes and are like a mix of striper, bluegill, and crappie. Bob calls them stripers, I think, though there is possibly another name I do not recall.

We go a short distance north where the water and shore is very different. There are people all in a line along the high bank overlooking darker water and it almost seems like we are inside a huge building. I notice a large fish in the water and so I swing my line down near to where it is. I watch the fish come up and take the bait in its mouth. The water is murky, yet I somehow perceive everything clearly.

“Pull back,” says Bob, “Set the hook.”

I pull back and the weight is extreme. When it comes out of the water, it looks just like Monstro from Disney’s “Pinocchio” movie, angled more upward over time, even with the sketchy (cartoon) appearance. Everyone else is watching. It seems unlikely that I would be able to pull it up and out of the water (especially considering that the embankment is fairly high from the water’s surface), yet I do, and as I do, it becomes smaller and more like a large largemouth bass as I swing it around and to the other side onto the ground. For some reason, I get the impression that people think I had never caught a fish before. Bob does not seem to have started fishing yet, but I consider that there will be more to catch here.

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The whale is the emergent consciousness precursor, though its transformation into a largemouth bass is typical dream state transmutation by way of RAS mediation and neural gating in subliminal awareness of being in the dream state. My dream also features the common water lowering waking symbolism. The whale appears as the image from “Pinocchio”; Monstro. This is autosymbolic of the dream self being akin to a marionette, that is, not the real conscious self identity in waking life, though with the potential to be controlled within the dream by the conscious self identity. However, in subliminal recognition of being in the dream state, the whale does not swallow me (which would otherwise be autosymbolism for my dream self being coalesced into consciousness), and instead, passively becomes a largemouth bass as the emergent consciousness factor by way of neural gating.

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Journal Entry non-lucid #47 Dream, non-dream (Comments)
Background: I fell asleep by accident too early.

Dream fragment 1, 8ish-2:00 am." A successful college student":
I found myself a class room, MA, head of the STEM organization peaked into our classroom. She walked inside and she walked next to this guy that I saw one time in the math department, in Waking Life. They brought him cupcake, and congratulated him on finishing college in 2 years. He had double the classes said my counselor. I turned around and saw my friend, AL, talking to my cousin SA. I started talking to him, he walks out the front door, the front door was made out of glass. We walked out into the grass my cousin and my friend were trying to do back flips. I thought if I should do one but I didn't want to show off. My cousin AL showed up, he joked about how he could do a back flip.

This little boy showed up and and smacked a little girl. We didn't notice that children stood next to us. We picked her up and shamed the little boy for hitting her. He ran around the premise with food in his hand. I became angry for some reason and took the food from his hand and started throwing it at the wall.

I turned around and see my chemistry teacher cutting wood with some sort of contraption. He backed me up in what I did. He said something that both made me laugh and made me happy. I went around him and I saw my friend GO from High school. He asked me how much money I made and he tried to sell me a PS3 game. The cover of the game had a picture of a guy, most likely a motorcycle guy wearing a helmet and black leather outfit.

I realized that a lot of dreams do connect, the transition was a simple head turn. I would have thought that each of these dreams were separate from each other but they were all in the same dream.

So after I got up for WBTB, which I use now to study for an exam. Since I found out that dream state help with memory. My premise: If I get up in the middle of night and study I would retain most of it.

Dream fragment 2, 4:58am-7:00am." Mathematical dispute":
We were in Calculus III class, the class room looked small. A guy went up to my math teacher and asked a problem. He is a smart guy and pretty confident in waking life. But in the dream he stuttered and shook. My friend showed up and started explaining how he solved it. I argued with my friend about a problem the math problem. The problem had a sec^2(t) and he said that he got sec^3(t) when he took the derivative of it. I said that is integration. The derivative of sec (t) is sec (t)tan (t). I became equally frustrated and angry.

I don't like the dreams in which I am doing mathematics although I like math. It is my nightmare. I am always frustrated or angry. The equations never make sense or the numbers are off. And I am off on a wild goose hunt trying to solve, what seem like an unsolvable problem.

Dream fragment 3, 4:58am-7:00am."":
I had a dream and I had a girl I liked but friend too her from me. I saw GO's brother. I talked to him and asked if he seen GO. *environmental change* I am now inside of my house the walls looked like walls of a cave. I wrote stuff all over the wall and I wrote it in a circular fashion. I don't recall what it read. My sister walked up to me and she said I should have been awake earlier.

Possible dream sign:

Emotion: Angry (x2), Happy (x1)
Context: Doing mathematics. Environmental change. Dream Character appear after turning(3x)

There was a beautiful naked girl standing on the sidewalk. The only thing she had on were reading glasses. I looked at her and kept walking where she said I had to go. I turned around and said "Let's do something tonight" she responded "I'm not hooking up with you". I told her "That's not what I said. I said let's do something tonight. She agreed and I can't remember what else happened.

The only thing I remember of my dream was getting a boobjob from a blonde girl I was hitting on. She didn't wanna go further but I do remember driving around a suburban zone and C. Alexander, L. Hernandez, and T. Jackson. I also remember holding my dream journal

I walk through a door and come out in my IRL yard, thinking about how to get out of this situation (what that situation was, I no longer remember), when I remember this is a dream. I start flying, which I think of as a useful way of escaping that situation - my first instinct is to continue the dream storyline. Then I realize that since this is a dream, there's no reason for me to continue to deal with that situation at all. I'm looking up at a gibbous moon (it's in a different phase IRL. Also it was night in the dream; and there was no snow on the ground, though the trees were bare; and there was a bush that IRL was cut down years ago). Looking at that moon, I immediately (and accurately) remember two lucid goals that have to do with the moon, and I decide to fly up there. However, I get distracted thinking about those two different goals - the second one doesn't necessarily have to be done on the moon, and I wonder if trying to focus on both at once could throw me off.

Slight memory gap. While flying, I've somehow wound up getting entangled with some Christmas lights my IRL neighbor put up near the power lines - red, white and blue ones - and I've managed to damage the string of white lights. Although I'm still aware I'm dreaming and still intend to fly to the moon, I've lost some lucidity - I think I have to fix these lights first.

But after accomplishing that, I find something else that distracts me - a Bowie album called 'evil on sale' - and lose lucidity entirely.

(Woke up. Back to sleep.)

There's a child who's the young, orphaned, lord of an estate. He's been asleep or unconscious for some days after some incident that put him in danger, and now that he's woken up he's found that his servants - one in particular, who's also a magician or something similar - have changed things about the house while he was unconscious. This house used to be full of secret, magical things - taking care of them was part of the duty of the lord of this particular estate - and now they've all been removed, for his own protection. The lord doesn't like this at all. He's run down to the cellars, where a locked door used to open onto a place where they kept a pair of unicorns, which are no longer there - that magician servant is here in the hall outside that locked door, up on a step ladder, dusting a lamp. The lord's talking to a young, blonde servant girl who'd been the one to inform him about the changes in the first place, he's desperately hoping that she'll tell him the unicorns are just outside in the fields, but he knows that won't be the case - they're gone.

Had a dream, that some new law passed and then once the law passed, my house turned into a giant warehouse and the security doors closed and there was a whole population living in here. aliens and some types of rapid dog wolves were killing people and we were all trying to survive. killing the creatures anything we could get our hands on.

drempt damien came to visit and suddenly he was like OHHH i got to go. it was very sudden and weird exit which he attributed to the weather.

later i offered to take my sister and her friend out to diner. they said i cant pay for everything but i insisted

then finally i was at this bar type of place sitting accross from a girl when jerry came in and started hitting on her really hard and she couldnt ressis

February 27th, 2014

6:45 am non-lucid

Dream 3

Traveling, perhaps in Japan, all sorts of weird weather phenomenon. Such as a rainbow that half way through turned into heavy clouds.

Dream 2

Visited a Japanese store in the U.S. with my husband, met with a young teen who goes to the same high school my husband went to. He was being bullied, so I invited him to sit with us. We had our tablets out and talked about Graal. Fourth person entered discussion. I was tempted to download it again and explained I'm from the PC generation and don't really like the Android version. Harder to control and some people there are rude. Boy was sitting on opposite side of the table then moved to my side. Got out his portable DVD player or something like it and started playing a music video in which a girl is naked, her breasts clearly exposed. I though it was weird he had no shame in watching it in front of us. He got out a 2nd device and started laying Pretty Guardian Sailor Moon (drama version) and I told him I haven't finished that drama yet but have seen that episode. He had four devices total out.

Earlier in the dream before meeting him but still in the store, I got out my 3DS from my backpack to turn it on sleep mode so that I can meet people in the shop. Screen had notably more scratch-like smudges than before. I wanted to wipe them off but had no felt. Blamed my husband for taking the felt.

After we all left by train, the boy, who was only in the U.S. for the weekend, took the train going south, while my husband and I took the train going north. We got to the train by going up the stairs. It was so crowded. I got separated from my husband who was in a booth. I went to a crowded seated area and sat in a long single seat with a feet rest facing the window. I thought it was weird, but then I saw a close friend of mine in a different train below from the window in the same kind of seat but not facing the window. I let my husband know I made it on the train, perhaps through a text.

A little girl from the daycare I work at called out my name from behind. She was sitting in the same kind of seat. Stranger was sitting next to her. I wondered why she was all alone. She looked so excited.

Dream 1

Snowy day (?), ordered pizza. Pizza guy was mad, perhaps because we were close to the pizza store (?). But my husband and I thought we were justified.

Finished writing at 7:06 am.

9:53 am non-lucid

Woke up many times from alarm, just didn't want to get up.

Had a dream that I went to see a live show. I think the scenario repeated itself twice. Went to balcony floor. Performer complained, but more people started coming up anyways.

Classmate was in the dream. Was given a prize trip to Connecticut and rolled his eyes. As the next prize fell I grabbed for it. I think the prize was cleaning supplies. I gave it to the person next to me. When I went to grab for it, it was going in that person's direction and I kind of leaned over to grab it. Though, my classmate, even though he doesn't know what the prize is, looked like he wanted to trade.

Performer asked Andy from The Office what he thought of the show, and he gave a good response and dropped my name in appreciation for reasons I don't remember. He used my internet alias, lumiina. Attention was on me. I tried to make a nice comment, but didn't appear sincere. I didn't really like the performer and thought he was a jerk.

Dream 1
not lucid

I was watching the scene first like I was watching a movie as the camera rolled along the side of a river. There was a splashing in the water as somebody I know was swimming in the water. I saw them pop up for a breath of air but soon after re submerged under the water. I began to panic and fear for him as I saw an alligator in the water above him and it too went under water. He popped back up a little further downstream as I still as well kept moving with him keeping him in the middle of my view. He went under again but this time the 2 alligators went down. I shouted out to watch out for the alligators. He turned and came to shore and was instantly dry. We walked to a barn nearby and went inside. There was an older man in his mid 50’s probably and was holding a small black suitcase. I knew there was money inside of it but I also knew there was a bomb inside and it was triggered to blow if it had any sudden movements/impact. We talked to the man and it seemed he was trying to blackmail us about something but I don’t know what. One of the people that were with us snuck up behind him and tried to stab him in the neck with a needle that would knock him out but he reached back and grabbed the needle. I reached out grabbed the suitcase in 1 hand and pushed the back of the needle with the other. The liquid shot out and landed into his mouth he just swallowed it and spit some of it out as well. We waited but it didn’t affect him at all as it wasn’t going into his blood stream. The group of us wrestled him down and I managed to get the suitcase from him and me and another person left.

Dream 2
not lucid

I was in some kind of apartment or hotel the walls and everything had a grayish tint and was very blah. The room we were in was very modern looking and the furniture looked very nice. I was talking with a man that reminded me of Liam Neeson and told him that there was a person coming up the stairs to get us. He was like okay I got this. He hid behind the door as the person walked in. He did some baddass moves and knocked the person out and the person just kind of vanished. As a little time went by There was another person that was coming up that I could sense and I opened up the door and saw them trying to hide in a closet across the hall. I was like Yo Liam come check out this loser….he is in the closet across from us trying to hide. So liam went over and kicked his ass as well. As I went back inside liam got jumped and the person had a chain around liams neck and was chocking him out against our hotel room wall. I opened up a drawer and pulled out parts of a pistol and started piecing it together. Liam was like help me…..I’m like I am….just give me a minute ive almost got it put together…. As I was finishing putting it together I woke up.

Dream 3
Lucid(but went with dream)

I was on the road and heading into this strange forest place when I arrived and got out of my vehicle and went inside of a cabin. I walked around with my fiancé setting stuff up and getting ready and we decided it was late and we would just go to bed. We got into bed and started to go to sleep I closed my eyes for a second and was thinking to myself. I should just try a reality check to keep myself use to doing them as I go to sleep and wake up. I reach up and plug my nose and attempt to breathe in. *wooosh* a rush of air comes rushing into my nose. Wait what????? I plug my nose again this time a little harder and attempt to breathe yet again. *woosh* another rush of air goes in as I breath in just fine. Wait a minute…. I’m dreaming? IM dreaming! I closed my eyes and thought to myself I wonder if I can levitate myself? I could feel my body leave the bed but for only a moment and I fell back down as I said no no no I can’t do that who am I kidding. I sat up and looked around like thinking am I really dreaming? I look down and rub my hands together the sensation is just as amazing as I remembered doing it the night before. I got up and walked around but the dream faded to darkness and I woke up in bed. Crap… I totally could have had that for longer if I would of tried to I said to myself as I opened my eyes. Well since I’m awake I might as well attempted to do a RC . I poked my finger against the palm of my hand and felt the hard surface of my hand but seconds after my finger pushed through my hand like it was going through silly puddy or jello. I looked down at my hand Wait what??? I’m dreaming again? I look around and I’m inside the cabin still somehow I came back into the same dream! I Sat up and looked around again and thought well this is weird.. As I stood up everything went black again. I thought to myself gawd that sucked I just missed out on two different chances to be in control of my dreams but I didn’t do anything about it. What the hell one more RC doesn’t hurt right? Got to get in the habit… it seems to be working so far. I poke my finger into my palm again the firm feeling of my palm hits my finger as I feel the resistance. But then this Sucking / liquidy sound come fills the air as I see my finger start oozing pushing through my palm yet again. Holy crap I’m dreaming still? I lay there and think to myself. Well my last attempts didn’t really work to fight the dream so let’s just let this play out… I laid down for a few minutes just staring at the ceiling. The sun rose up into he sky outside and my fiancé got up and we walked outside to our Jeep. I climbed around on the outside of the jeep trying not to touch the ground acting like it was lava. I finally asked are you ready to get going to my fiancé. She nodded and I got into the driver’s seat and gunned it. We went flying over a hill and we floated across a huge cavern. It felt like several minutes went by as we just hung out in mid air flying across this cavern until we landed on the other side. We hit hard and started to roll backwards I tried to pump the brakes but nothing was working. I turned us around and the momentum from going back words made us go up the hill in reverse. We made it to the outside of the tunnel we landed in and I turned our jeep around and we both got out. Another driver pulled up and asked if we needed any help I said yeah for some reason our vehicle broke down and I couldn’t break. He got out and walked over. My jeep was now a motorcycle and the wheels were not really wheels but rather a bundled up roll of what looked like carpet/ foam. The man removed the front tire and took out a disk that looked like a saw. He then pulled out a piece of plastic like a zip tie and said there’s your problem. You hook here is broken it probably broke from landing a hard jump or something. I looked at him yeah we hit a really big bump. He smiled and said well it’s an easy fix all you need is something to hook this back together like a fishing lure or something will work. I thanked the man and he went on his way. Shortly after I woke up for real 

I didn't have the issue of constantly waking up in the night although I still had a number of dreams last night, some very bizarre ones, but at least one of them I think was lucid. I don't recall doing the movements or any tingling, however this is how it went.

Dream 1

I was lying in bed with my eyes closed in the position I was in when I went to sleep. Everything was now all quiet and I had the sense that this was not real. I began to think to myself "I did it, I think I made it. Wait, can I still breathe through my nose?" I pinched my nose and I was still breathing. "Yep, I can breathe. Let's check that again..." I pinched my nose again, definitely breathing. I opened my eyes and I could see the bedroom which was like daylight despite it being in the middle of the night. "ok, now how do I do this?" I began to wonder. I pushed myself out of bed but there was a fair amount of resistance. It was like peeling myself off a leather sofa. I looked down to where I was lying to see if I could see myself there but I wasn't, just the imprint of where I had been lying. I walked around the bed to the door. "I wonder if I can just walk through doors" I questioned. I walked towards the door but I bumped into it. "ok guess not, I'll just have to open it" I said to myself. I turned the knob and opened the door onto the landing. I got to the top of the stairs and looked down. "I wonder if I can fly" I asked myself. I jumped in the air and there I was floating horizontally. "Oh my god, I can fly, I can fly!" I shouted excitedly. I was no longer in the house but on a small hill coated in daisies, the sky looked like a drawing rather than something real, and I was flying just a couple of feet above the hill. I could see other bodies floating in the air too laughing like children. They had a bright glow to them that was either pink or blue and were leaving trails as they flew over the hill. Their bodies were glowing so brightly that I could only make out facial and upper body features, and despite they were laughing their faces were motionless. I was too was laughing excitedly, but then the dream came to an end. This image closely resembles what I dreamed.



The rest of the dreams didn't appear to be lucid, some were so short and blurry that I couldn't remember them, but these are the ones I could fully recall.

Dream 2

Since I had been watching Black Adder Goes Forth just before going to bed it was no surprise that my next dream was about Black Adder. Edmund decided that he did love the nurse he condemned to death after all and ran into a room where she was being held in order to free her before she got executed. She was on a hospital bed wearing a straight jacket. He burst into the room and looked at her with both love and apology in his eyes, upset at what he had done to her. "Oh Edmund, you do love me!" she shouted happily. "Yes I do" he said running over to her. She was able to pull her arms apart enough for him to slip under her arms and kiss her. "Even if I was an axe murderess you would still love me?" "Until the very end" he replied. Then George burst into the room and rolled his eyes. "Good god, are you making love to her?" he laughed. He pulled Edmund away and pushed him aside. "Come along madam, time for the execution!" he said, grabbing hold of her. Edmund rushed over to her and pushed George off. "You're not going to execute her!" he shouted. "Oh yes we are!" said George, shoving Edmund off him. "No, she isn't the spy!" Edmund shouted, protecting the nurse. "But you said she was" said George. Whilst they were arguing some other soldiers came into the room and took the nurse away without Edmund noticing. "Here's what I'm going to do" said George. "I'm going to tell you something that's going to make you feel jealous and forget all about her." "No no, I don't want to hear it!" shouted Edmund, covering his ears. "Fine, then I'll draw it then" said George. He began drawing naughty images on a white board, one of them looked like he was about to draw a male genitalia but instead it was of a dolphin but the implication was still there as he drew arrows on where it was jumping to. Edmund looked angrily at the board which had now changed into a glass board, his moustache began to twitch, and then he remembered that the nurse was going to be executed any second. He bolted outside quickly to go save her.

Dream 3

I had just done some shopping and one of the items was of a fruit pie. Tony went up to bed and I was feeling hungry, so I opened the fruit pie and started to eat it with my bare hands, scraping at it and scoffing it like a pig. I sensed someone across the road was watching me from their window so I ducked down below the window frame so they couldn't see me eating. I could barely finish it but I could hear Tony coming back downstairs so I folded the box in on itself and crumpled it down and hid it under a chair. Tony came into the room feeling a bit peckish and wanting something to eat. He went for the bag that the fruit pie was in and asked where it was. I told him we didn't have one and that maybe we left it at the shop. He looked disappointed and confused as he was looking forward to having some of it.

23:45 bedtime -- finally, a decent bedtime. Took 1mg melatonin 40 mins ago to help in readjusting the schedule. Fell asleep pretty quickly.

Set intention to wake up after every dream and recall, and try to DEILD back in.

00:00 Thursday 2014-02-27

04:20 intention worked, I woke up with some recall, I haven't woken up at the 4th hour in some time. Decided after trying to get back to sleep without success that I'm still no so keen on waking up a lot, but I'm going to do it for the hope of increased lucid moments.

+ outside looking at the walls of some houses/ buildings. I don't like the boarded/cemented up windows and I know my younger son doesn't like them, either.

+ inside a house, we'd just moved in, I see a young Indian boy walking through the house wondering what he's doing here he wasn't invited, I walk down the corridor to the entry way I see through the clear glass front door that other people are waiting just outside, I step back to the hallway so they won't see me so I won't have to deal with them. They come in anyway, they're the Indian (asian) family that owned our place before us, they came for a visit. They say it looks very different. It's very messy, lots of stuff on the floor. I say yes with different furniture a place can look entirely different. I look at some of the furnishings, they are odd, like solid 3d mathematical shapes (spheres, cones) made out of a mottled brown granite, stacked on top of each other. My sister says something about the crystal chandelier. I say something about it too and I hear my mother's voice say, "Oh, <my name>!".

We're in a family room looking at a TV mounted high on a wall of from the ceiling. It's showing some (news?) program, the reception is terrible it's really static-y. The conversation topic is about how I don't like cases around TVs because if you're sitting to the side the side of the cabinet blocks some of your vision, I imagine a cabinet that opens by itself automatically. I go up to the TV (which now has a cabinet around it) with a piece of paper to measure the loss of screen space from the side, and show this (about 1/4 inch) to the others in the room.

+ I'm DO? in the back seat of a car with dark/black upholstery, there's a super cute fluffy young puppy sitting in the middle of the back seat, my view position is eye level with the puppy, the owner is in the front seat and is feeding it little treats and saying doggy things like "goooood boooy...". He gives the puppy in the end a little doggy bone treat wrapped in a plastic baggy.

+ I was holding a shovel/trowel in each hand in some fictional backyard scraping the dirt picking up the last poops of my recently passed away dog (who actually died 4 years ago). I thought these would be the last ones I'd ever clean up and I'd never see him again. I said to myself "he lived for 17 years [true], and he lived for 5 years after getting cancer [false]", I got quite upset. One of the handles in one of the shovels didn't fit the shovel head well and came out.

I woke up very upset and emotional. Intention worked too well, after recall, recording, and quick bathroom trip, couldn't get back to sleep.

Tried "relaxing SSILD" for a while and started getting some imagery, but external noise always prodded me awake.

09:00 back to bed....fell asleep eventually in there somewhere.

12:15 woken by wife to fix the internet, solidly asleep, argh!

+ saw a cute girl from the pool, checked her out a bit as she walked by. She walked through the opening of a low square metal fence and said I shouldn't stand so close (to the fence) so people could walk through. She goes to sit at an outdoor table (night time)I see a bunch of young ladies also sitting there. I move to a different place away from that table and realize my computer fell out of my backpack, I pick it up.

+ some struggle, forgotten

+ other stuff, forgotten, quite a bit, due to shock of waking, dang

I start off in a closet of an old house I don't know. I just remember I was upstairs and in a big room, it was time for me to sleep, but instead of being on the large bed in the middle of the room, I was in the closet with a small pillow and a sleeping bag. I suddenly realized that I was going to be late for work. I got up really fast and ran to the bathroom to take a shower, but when I looked in the mirror, my hair wasn't a mess except for a little tuft sticking up. I decided that I would skip my shower and just go to work. I ended up outside standing in the middle of a busy road. The sun was still rising, so I knew I wouldn't be too late if I ran, but I ended up running to the house I came from. I remember thinking that I was filling in for someone at another pharmacy, so I would just skip because I couldn't really get in trouble since they haven't called me yet. The next thing I remember, I was in a pharmacy and working. It wasn't like any place I've ever been before... it seemed like it was a library that had walls of which were set up like obstacles in a pinball machine. I remember the wood being dark brown, and there were four, big monitors on the back wall. I also had a pogo stick. I was at work (at least, my dream work) but I still had an overwhelming feeling that I was late for another place I was supposed to fill in at. I took my pogo stick and hopped outside. I was a fast hopper. I could hop probably 20 feet forward in each hop. I remember that I had GPS vision as well. Wherever I went had a line I was supposed to follow. I hopped down a street and got to a large parking garage. The garage was also a ramp to get onto the highway. I remember seeing the GPS lead me to the highway, but I thought it was dangerous, so I took the stairs on the side to go up and hopefully around. Hopping up stairs on a pogo stick was surprisingly easy. On my way up, there was a red sports car speeding around the ramp and I was afraid it would not see me and crash into me. I didn't see it after the first time it passed me. Just before the highway entrance about half way up the ramp (there was more than one entrance to the highway) I saw a few kids (I'm uncertain of how many exactly there were) playing in a small, secluded space. They were trying to throw stuff at each other like cans and bunched-up newspapers. They spotted me and approached me. I thought I'd humor them, so when they threw stuff at me, I dramatically acted as if I was shot by a gun. They laughed, but I told them that I had to go. Eventually, I was one level short of the top of the parking ramp, but there was an exit that led to an area outside near a small town just outside an ocean. I hopped out there and there was sand on the road that had blown up from the beach. I then followed the signal from my GPS, but I didn't think it was right, so I zoomed out and it was just a big rectangle around the beach and its outskirts. I decided that I would walk out on a boardwalk. There was a small shack at the end of the boardwalk on the right hand side of it, and a small picnic table just in front of it. I took a seat. There was an old man serving food. I then realized that I was old and British. The man serving food first brought out a large bucket of what seemed like dark reddish-purple spaghetti. The texture was almost that of canned cranberry sauce, just a little more durable. I took some out and splat it on the table. I don't remember eating any of it. Then instead of me being an old British man, I was myself, but I was sitting across from the old man I just was. The man serving food offered me a beef sub. It was like a french dip, but it looked like a normal sub. It tasted amazing. I remember that french dips are really good with au jus, so I asked for it. The man said he had never heard of that before, but he had some apple juice. He poured me a cup. I got pretty upset about it, and that's all I remember before waking up.

Dream
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I was in a warzone in a city. We were fighting the enemy with no clear objective. The city was big and it had buildings like that in New York City. The sun was setting and the fire and flames from the battle made the area even more orange. I ended up on a roof and shot someone I then went to shoot another person that was in the building across from me but stopped. I was a women wearing the USMC dress uniform. She had no cap and her hair looked like C Sanchez's hair but I don't think it was her. I knew she was an enemy. She stood over the chest were an ally of mine was and put down some flowers. I knew she was paying tributes to him. She looked at me, waiting to get shot but I dropped my weapon and stood at attention and saluted her. I was wearing the Air Force dress uniform and there was a man behind me to my left. I think he was an ally. I jumped off the room and committed suicide. I was teleported to a street and say an armored van driving by. I jumped on it and tried to hijack it. The drivers, who was a man and a woman, got out and I asked for a ride. After a while, they agreed. I got dropped off at a trailer home where a skinny man and two fat women were. I prepared a sandwich with cheese and lettuce and I think chicken. The man was leaving and I went outside. Alex was there and she hugged me. I knew we were dating and I told her to be careful and we kissed good-bye. The woman in uniform was in a building and she was standing in an office with the window blown off. I committed suicide because I saw compassion in the enemy and didn't want the fighting to continue, hoping others would see and stop fighting.

Dream
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In my first dream, I was standing in the middle of somewhere and it was raining. This scene was very similar to the dream I had the night before.

In my next dream, I was an assassin and was in a place that looked like a temple. There was water between the walkways that were made of stone. That's where I was hiding. Instead of killing people, I would have sex with them.

A helicopter crashed in my next dream and me and three other people were in it. We got out and zombies started attacking us. It was like Left4Dead but I had no useful weapons. We went inside a building that looked like a mall and I struggled to find weapons while killing zombies. My team didn't seem to care about me and would advance even if I was in trouble. I managed to grab and electric razor and that's what I used as a weapon even though it was useless.

I was in a western-looking town in the middle of the desert with the class I was in while I lived in Venezuela. Jennifer was there and so was Desirae. All three of us were then in an elevator of Nona Enza's former apartment. Jennifer was trying to convince me to get back with her and Desirae was mad about it.