non-lucid

Side note: I was really sick when dreaming these and the dreams I get when I'm sick are often very vivid so I usually recall them easier than my other dreams. I seem to have forgotten a lot about these dreams, though.

Slenderman survival w/ a friend
I'm outside along with a friend. We own a mansion for shelter which is in the middle of the forest with paths leading around from the mansion through the forest. The next thing I remember is that we see static and start sprinting into any direction in the forest. As the static grows more intense, I remark that I don't want to play this 'game' anymore and that I don't like horror like this, before the slenderman popped out in front of me. I ran back towards the mansion, going in before my friend closes both doors, then swearing and quickly turning on the lights in the entrance hall. It's night now. We wait and I am scared of the fact that the slenderman can come out of the darkness and that the mansion is mostly dark.

Next day, I go out wandering for some reason, before later on my way back hearing strong breathing coming closer. I don't know what it is, but luckily it's staying in the bushes for now. Shortly before the entrance to the mansion, my friend tells me that what I heard is something which has a generic male name which I don't remember.

Skip to the monster running towards the house now. I run to the front door and quickly close it in third person view, using a cursor to close the doors. It's lagging so it's hard for me to hit the door, but I manage to do it, relieved as the breathing is right in front of the door but nothing came through. Though then I remember the side door left of me and also try to close that, but this time, it's lagging too much so I back away to a small table with a light on it. I think about going upstairs to hide, but it was too late. The breathing reveals itself to be a creepy dog-like creature which suddenly storms towards me, then I wake up. Soon after this, though, I fall asleep again. I don't remember the dream I got then, but when I woke up from that, I fell asleep once again and I remember that dream in many fragments.

Fake lucidity, false awakening
The next thing I remember is that I am in a strange place, a tiny bit of water seemingly flowing between two sidewalks, surrounded by brick walls running along very far. I do a reality check with my hand which doesn't work, so I try a nose reality check and I breathe through my pinched nose. Though, for some reason, I don't get lucid, I just dream about being lucid. I try controlling the dream, but nothing happened. Then I get a false awakening, before reentering the previous dream scene. I see another person who tells me something, while I try to control the dream again. I then end up in a sort of Subnautica scene, and then I don't remember anything else.

Morning of June 18, 2019. Tuesday.

Dream #: 19,174-02. Reading time: 36 sec.



While in subliminal to emerging liminal mode, I engage in the imaginary pursuit of attempting to discern technology, including text, as a factor of cognitive arousal. I look at my computer in an undefined location. I have the idea to search for the most common words and imagery on the Internet.

Following a complete search with an unknown program, I see the most common image is one of two types of yellow pennant flags. One appears as a regular triangular form pointing down, and the other has a comma-like curve to the left. They are about the size of avatars, in random order.

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My dream includes three emergent factors. Yellow stands out when returning to consciousness. Flags represent confirmation of territory (in this case, upper liminal space). My use of technology comes about when I try to heighten my awareness while in the dream state (the same as trying to read).

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Wow is this site dying?

Time travel?

Me, Jamie, Asuka and Data enter one of those dream movies or something that Me and Asuka watch where we go right into the screen and participate in the scenario. The movie seems to be about Jamie. We apparently travel into Jamie's past to save her from certain things that would cause her to make bad decisions or something. She looks in her teens again like from the lucid where I found her. she's wearing the white shirt she used to wear under her work vest from when i worked with her. Jamie says to me in the middle of this, "You're saving me, are we going to get married?" and smiles. Well yes, if I have to. Might wanna really talk about this to me first.

Strange fight

Just remember I was in some downtown marketplace or something and got into a fight with some guy. He pulled out some circle thing like from doctor strange or something. It was a portal to himself from other dimensions. So if you punched him, he would deflect with the circle thing but himself from another dimension would block the punch or take the hit. He kept saying I was never going to win because I was fighting all of him from all dimensions.

Bus

Dreamed I was on a bus or something. Jamie was in the back with my cousin. they seemed to be ignoring me. I was sitting near the front arguing with some bald woman who was being really mean.

My recall is still pretty low.

bbCreated Friday 14 June 2019

Lots of things today, though a number of dreams have been reduced to fragments.

Spoiler for Got too much to say again...:

Scrap Group 1
In an urban apartment building. Newman from Seinfeld shows up, and starts acting like a jerk. To keep from his unwanted company, I jumped out a window, then flew over the city's streets.

Walking around a suburbs during daytime. I later fly up to a clear blue sky. I've feelings of becoming lucid at some point, but can't seem to recall that. There were also a bunch of other forgotten scenes.

Dream 1 - College Bomb Scare and Random Junk

The visuals were a bit blurred. I was wandering through a crowded hallway within a college. My brother, Amir was there as well.

Commotion stirs when people nervously double back past us. The source was an exposed maintenance room at the end of the hall, an area others took pains to avoid.

As we turned back, I stumbled upon a supposed friend of ours, a security guard, a white guy about 6'3" tall, athletically built, and a few years older than me. Seeing him off-site from his patrol route, and, more pertinently, fully equipped in black body armor, was great cause for alarm. A bomb scare, I assumed. I urged him not to go. His eyes hinted dread, betraying his otherwise stoic expression. He glanced over for a second, before marching onwards. Several more guards followed suit. A fire alarm then sounded, causing some panic among the crowd. My brother and I hurried out before thins could get out of hand.

We arrived at a wide lounge, blue carpet and like-colored cushioned seat spread about between dark wooden constructions (including pillars). Things seemed to have calmed down once we stepped foot there. I walk to the far end, while Amir goes off to do something else. Mom and my sister Miranda also happened to be there, each at opposite ends of the place, as was Felicia, who was seated on a sofa in the middle. Then, a thin black lady with braids, a supposed professor of mine, took a seat next to Felicia. She waved at me, and I returned the gesture to her and my niece. I then went over there to play pranks on Felicia, poking her and such for fun.

Later on, I'm watching a rather explicit video on a phone. I really didn't want to see more than I had to. Eventually, the video cuts to some ad from the college itself. This informed viewers on the various offices on-campus. There was a clip of a secretary handing a student paperwork and an ID card. Scroll out to reveal the student was actually Amir. I was suddenly warped into the area. Once I did, Amir disposed of both items.

Don't recall how this ended. DEILD attempt after, but I lost awareness.


Dream 2 - Quick Urban Flight DILD

The visuals were dim. I was walking through urban streets during midnight, a downtown area visible in the distance. Amir was also with me.

We pass near a Hispanic fried food eatery (the type that serves fried plantains, pork rinds, and the like), light flickering under its yellow canopy. A figure steps outside. It was dad. He glanced over towards us momentarily, then continued on his way. Seeing him alive and well instantly made me aware.

Remaining calm, I took Amir by the hand, and flew us towards the starless sky. I was nearing skyscrapers, when the dream began to collapse. Rubbing my own hands only helped so much before it faded.

Scrap Group 2
In a bathroom. I stare at the mirror. It seemed my face was stuck in a menacing frown, no matter what I did.

Dream 3 - Guide Department Store Brawl

Scene 1 - First Nuisance, Then Nemesis
The visuals began rather blurred, but clarified over time. I was in a mall. Seems I was a security guard, my uniform an intimidating, military-esque, all-black long-sleeve shirt and cargo pants ensemble plus combat boots. I encountered some family members at some point, but I don't recall how we interacted.

Later on, I take a round through a department/clothing store. It was there that I was stopped by this short middle aged white lady in a black dress, brown hair combed in a beehive, and face in a perpetual scowl. Even at a glance, she obviously looked the 'I want to speak to your manager' type.

"You!", she screeches. "Can't you see I'm lost in here?! I need you to tell me where to find what I want, right now!"

I mentally rolled my eyes. "Lady, I'm a security guard. You'll want to find someone employed in the store."

""So what?! You work at the mall, so you need to help your customers!"

She continued on a nagging spiel ladened with causticity, belittlement, and obnoxious self-entitlement. Sighing, I thought "If only this weren't real. Then I'd..."

That's when I telekinetically lifted that whiny shrew off the ground. Awed, I looked at my hands, and asserted the dream state. I then chuck that now frightened nuisance out of sight.

I immediately set about looking for my guide E to spar with her. First, I check the clothing aisles, though she wasn't readily present. So I took a moment to shadowbox, thinking she'd jump in at any moment. Suddenly, I was shrunken down to a few inches. A now gigantic figure looms in. I look up to see it was indeed my guide, smirking down at me. Incidentally, she was completely nude.

E gestures at me, goading me to attack. I started with a quick energy blast. But, it disperses harmlessly on her. I then ran circles around her, taking potshots anywhere I could. Yet E stood firm, hand on hips. Uh, oh. This didn't fare well.
I strode a good distance further. E, in turn, slowly strut towards me. As she approached, I fired a much more powerful energy wave, yelling for added melodrama. And yet, with a mere huff, E drew the beam straight into her mouth, and began gulping it down like a draught. But I would not stop here. Pushing beyond my limits, I charged the beam with even more power! Blinding light filled the room. I momentarily go unconscious...

It felt like a long time passed before I came to my senses. I look ahead, and find... that my efforts were in vain. E was perfectly unphased. She was on a whole other level. I scurry under some clothing racks, anxiously looking around for a hiding place. If a direct assault wouldn't work, I suppose I'd have to use guerrilla tactics. Not very sportsmanlike, and it probably wouldn't work anyway, but I was desperate...

Things deteriorated. I lost lucidity. Unknown warp.

Scene 2 - Two Clones Play Capcom vs. SNK 2
The visuals were blurred. I falsely awakened on a large bed in an unknown bedroom. Several figures were watching/playing video games. Amir was one of the viewers, while an old friend, Jordan, was one of the players. In fact, it seemed that two Jordans were at the controls. But, I got too distracted by gameplay to acknowledge such. Speaking of, Capcom vs. SNK 2 was on screen, set in the desert stage. One of the Jordans, who used a K-Groove team with Kyo, was running away with the match.

Later on, a Jordan placed a pillow on my head, and sat on it as a joke. Furthermore, a minute later, I was hit by a gust of hot air. Did he just pass gas? I held my breath for a while, just in case. This was all really annoying, but I was too tired to move.
In time, my breathing faltered. Rather than say anything, I fired an energy shot, and, through its recoil, slid right out the bed.

Things get very unclear. There's something about the Koosalagoopagoop from Dexter's Lab praising SMB's Luigi as a king. The dream faded soon after.

Unfortunately. No Jamie dreams.

I had some HH imagery of Bjork smiling at me. Haven't dreamed of her in a while.

Hiding

Me and some woman. (might have been jamie but not sure) Are up against some fortnite player in a game. We are in a giant building. We just go really love in the building where there are hundreds of rooms. We realize he's gone after a while.

A bizarre fragment:
Seemingly, an anime-styled woman asks me something which I don't remember. I also don't remember anything else from this dream.

Dori, what are you doing?
I am standing in the living room. The TV is on, but I don't remember what it showed, but I think I see two people, close to each other. Likely an event in a series. Dori, my cat, plays around with an object in the doorway to the living room, which I remember as disc-shaped and Ronja, her sister, is sitting on a towel on the living room table. For some reason, Dori doesn't react to what I want her to do and I am despairing, I think I remember even almost crying.

Sheesh, I should really start posting entries more often. Anyway, got some dreams, fragments, and LDs to note today.

Spoiler for I sure do type alot...:

Dream 1 - Counter Phase Hands

The visuals were a bit blurred. I was at home downstairs, glaring sunlight seeping through the windows. Both Uncle Emil and mom were there, the two talking about something or other.

Soon, I gained awareness. I floated around, looking for anything of interest. I unwittingly imposed on mom while she was crossing through. This gave me the idea to try replacing her with my guide, E, but I preferred not doing that if necessary. But things were becoming unstable. I had to act as soon as possible.

I reached as far as the kitchen. Right before the dream collapsed, I held on to the counter. My hands phased through it, but I could still feel its surface on my arms. Concentrating, I tried projecting my guide through it. Something did form, a holographic figure somewhat to her likeness, but it was too mutable to hold. The dream collapsed shortly after. DEILD transition a few minutes later.

Dream 2 - Zombie Attack and Brief Summoning

The visuals were dim and blurred. I was walking through a long, dark hallway in an unknown facility (a mall or hospital, perhaps?). Didn't take long to get aware.

I arrived at an opening, rows of balconies spanning three or more tiers above. Suddenly, zombies (the agile, limber kind) rushed in from nowhere. I responded with super-powered strikes, punching, tossing, and kicking each of them up to dozens of yards away. When the pack thinned, I started combo-ing individual enemies. I started by tossing them away. As they slid/tumbled on the ground, I'd deliver a few good kicks, which would eventually either blast them away, or launch them high enough to juggle them with a few more kicks and punches before knocking them out of sight. Once cleared, I continued my walk undeterred.

Later, I encountered my sister. Continuing my plan from the previous dream, I replaced her with my guide, doing so by gripping her shoulder and concentrating.

But then, things quickly destabilized. I suddenly found myself as a shrunken figure. So noted, as I was standing on the hands of an unknown woman. Before I could react, the giantess devoured me whole.

Warp to spectator mode. Several similarly themed clips were in view. This went on until the dream collapsed.

Scrap Group 1
Several false memories of the dreams above. One of these mentioned Hero Rankings from One Punch Man. A later dream transitions to below.

Dream 3 - Flower Picture Jumping

Scene 1 - FA in An Unknown Hallway
The visuals were blurred. I falsely awakened in the hallway of an unknown home, closet door behind me, a bedroom beside me, and the living room just ahead. I entered the latter. Bookshelves and other heavy furniture lined the walls, while a long, knee-high table constrained movement in that space. Mom was somewhere in the area.

False memories led me believe I previously dreamed all this. As I gathered, a blonde, moon-faced woman in her early forties would attack me, jumping out at me from a corner. Sounded like it could be a thrill.

Immediate transition.

Scene 2 - After the Picture Thief
Similar visuals as above. I was in the same locale above, only at a different corner of the living room. Soon, a few kids walked in view. This let me "remember" that not only were those the blonde woman's children, but also that this was her house, of which I was a tenant. Anyway, the kids had a message for me. It seemed their mom needed my help with something. So I went off to look for her.

I winded back in the hallway. I peeked in the closet (its entrance now switched with that of the bedroom), spectacularly deep, yet somehow cluttered with endless rows of shoes and hanging clothings. Anyway, I eventually spotted the woman, dressed in a mauve wool jacket and (olive?) spandex pants. She sifted through a few of her belongings before addressing me. From her jacket, she pulled out a simplistic oil painting of a flowery field (looked awfully similar to one we have at home).

"A thief jumped out of this painting earlier.", she explained in a far too composed tone. "He snagged that other painting. You know the one? Same artist as this one?"

"Yeah, its also a flower painting.", I mumbled. "We researched him the other day, right?"

"Uh huh. Well, he jumped back in and escaped before I could catch him. I need you to jump in after him, and get back my painting. I was just about to sell it, so you have to be quick." This hardly sounded that urgent to her. More like I was ridding a spider than anything wondrous. Anyway, I dived right into the held picture.

I was instantly warped into the artwork's scenery, an endless meadow of colorful flowers, many depicted as the oily blots as they appeared in the painting. It wasn't going to be an easy search. These stalks, in addition to being hard to traverse, were also rather tall, a few reaching up to chest high. That thief could've been anywhere.

A few minutes in, I overheard the round-faced woman shouting impatiently from above. Eventually, she got fed up, and bounded in after us. More alarmingly, she entered as a gigantic figure, her feet and lower leg bare. Whether she was clothed above that is beyond me; I couldn't even stare up that high. Anyway, she stomped around intently. More voices called in from above, those of the kids. They warned that their mother would flatten everything there if the picture was not returned immediately. I hid beneath the flowers, hoping that giantess would miss me.

Things collapsed shortly after.

Scrap Group 1
Watching an episode of Avatar - The Last Airbender. The team were crossing a bridge during a sunny day. Suddenly, pirate sloops cruised in sight, and rained arrows at the protagonists. Katara shielded her friends with an ice barrier.

night

Vague dream. I was on a hill at night time with someone. We look down the hill and see lights running along a path going up to us. When the lights arrive it turns out they are lions. But friendly lions.

Jamie seems disturbed.

I was walking along some street in a city. I found the gravity was light going up some steps and I started bouncing and floating up. Became lucid here and looked at my hands. The were blurry and so was the rest of the dream. I instinctively wanted to find Jamie. I kept walking around intending for the dream to change to find her but it didn't. I wound up in a market place with a bunch of blue faced people with large heads. "Does anyone know where Jamie is?" I asked. Most people walked by and said nothing. I kept asking and some blue faced guy said he knows her. He held up a picture or a mirror to me and I jumped in.


I found myself in a room. Jamie seemed to be in a corner by a mirror and she was writing something on a paper. She also seemed in her teens. I called her name. She seemed upset that I was there and wasn't saying anything. Oops. I held her shoulders and she transformed into a small animal that seemed to be dying. It was in my arms. I was just petting it saying sweet things. Can't remember what but i was just trying to be very kind. She began to transform into a human again when I woke up.

Other non lucids are too vague to even remember. One, i was just working with my dad.

Was in an unfamiliar house that I guess I was moving into. There wasn't much light except that coming from some side lamps. There was lots of stuff everywhere. There were other people living in the house. I was talking to someone in another room while I moved someone else's stuff out of the room I was going into. I wasn't sure who it belonged to but I hauled some of it to a room upstairs. At the top I heard someone coming out of the shower and the door was open. I realized it was Amber and didn't wan't to appear like a peeping tom and so literally slid back down the stairs.

Next I was starting up my jeep which was full of people. Amber was in the rear passenger side seat. I asked if she had any suggestions for chill music to listen too while I drove. "hmm you could listen to what I'm listening too." she said. I realized she had earbuds in. I asked what she was listening too and she started to get really embarrassed. I think she was listening to a soundtrack to some very soap-opera-esk show.

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At Cambridge (never been actually there). I am looking for the buildings and spaces I had seen in some movie. I go up a terrace to look for a sportsfield that supposedly existed outside the walls of the campus, but it is not there anymore. Instead, there is a poor workers' neighborhood. I see a dog running like crazy and an owner trying to catch it and I go running down because I think my dog Hachi is somewhere on his path and I am afraid he might attack this dog. I get there on time and the other dog owner catches his dog as I reach for Hachi and avoid confrontation.

With my mom, we are having a brunch, delighted with some buttered croissants and watching tv. There is a live show where a young Björk and my friend Joakim are being interviewed. And I yell "how does that guy know Björk and why he has never spoken of it??" They are talking about some funny episodes from the past, how they met and somehow they had some role to play in each other's life. I rush to the studio where they are live and I catch them backstage when it's finished. I catch them having a personal conversation when they think they are alone. They admit the stories they told weren't true, but they did it to counteract some bad publicity and a negative image that Björk had gained with some story that had been on the news. And they didn't really know each other from before, they just had meet recently and arranged this. I feel so disappointed I don't even go talk to them, just go back to my mom and eat some more croissants.

2019, 06-05

Regular Dream - Semi-lucid Dream - Lucid Dream - Notes

Fus You, Donald Trump!
I am on top of a tall building, perhaps the Empire State Building. There is some kind of gathering there. I get closer and I see the president of the United States is there. Donald Trump is surrounded by secret service people and reporters are gathered. The president is standing near the edge of the building where there is a really tall railing designed to keep people from falling or jumping off. I get closer and I hear Trump saying something about opening a new coal mine that will employ hundreds and make money for him and all his rich friends. When a reporter asks about air pollution Trump says the coal burns clean. I get closer and Trump sees me, then says he can have whatever woman he wants. He reaches to grab me. I tell him if he touches me I'm going to fus him. He grabs a breast and laughs. I drop down to get a better angle and I fus him... FUS-RO-DAH! Due to my angle he flies up into the air and right over the barrier at the edge of the building, disappearing from sight. I wonder if he will make a crater when he lands, or maybe he will bounce? Secret service seems at a loss for what to do.

So Very Cold
I am in a strange place. It looks like an old style castle or fortress. I am not very focused on what is going on around me because I am so very cold. Not just cold outside, but cold inside. It feels like I might have swallowed some liquid nitrogen and I am currently freezing solid. I walk through the halls looking for some possible source of warmth. There are people around but they all seem distant and cold. They look like Assassins from Assassin's Creed. I need to find warmth or I will freeze through. I go through some more halls and rooms not sure of where I am going. I enter a bed chamber. There is a bed there with an Assassin sleeping in it. I feel warmth from there. I need that warmth. I stumble over to the bed and practically fall into it, crawling under the covers and up against the sleeping Assassin. He wakes and looks at me. It is Altaïr Ibn-LaʼAhad from Assassin's Creed. He puts his arms around me and holds me, I feel his warmth and now I am able to fall into a peaceful sleep.

Design a Game, Design a Reality
I am in a school, I am in a computer class. Everyone is working on our projects. My project is to design a video game, and I am working on a creepy one. I have just finished modelling a student desk and I am placing multiple instances of it in an empty and creepy looking classroom. It is coming out quite good. I make the room dark and add spots on the wall that are cracked and peeling, just enough to make it look abandoned. I add some marks that could be blood stains near a door that will lead to the next room. I need a bathroom break. I lock my computer and get up. I head out the classroom door… and I find I have walked right into the room I was just creating! How can this be? I haven’t even finished making it yet! I walk into the room and the door closes behind me. I turn back and the door is gone! I am thinking this might warrant a reality check when I wake.

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Next door is a guy, which I believe to be a demon. He has a crush on me and has been trying to be my friend but I feel creeped out and have been avoiding him. Me and mom we go to his house on his absence, looking for some evidence, but we have to leave on a hurry and we forget a light on. I imagine him arriving and realizing what we did, and coming full force at us, so I decide going back and take a different approach in case he finds me there, which he does. I pretend to actually wanting to bond with him and say sorry for having entered his home uninvited. He is obviously pleased and invites me to stay. Not sure how well he bought it, but I end up spending some time with him, we watch something on tv and he gets uncomfortably close to me. I look at him and realize he is actually very good looking, with black hair and piercing blue eyes. I decide to focus on that and the fact he's been so friendly, but I can see his true nature just below his skin. I try to be compassionate, but at some point I argue that I really must go. I fear his reaction and for some time later at home I fear he will somehow come after me, like an obsessed psycho, but nothing happens.

Watching the first episode of a new Gilmore Girls season, but so totally different from the original. Luke and Lorelai are divorced and she became a nun. Rory is blond. And the whole story is sad and boring.

At my mom's and there is a lot of people with us. My dad is sick in her bed, my friend's daugther Leonor is eating lunch that I provided, but I leave her for a moment and when I come back she is eating a can of cat food. I am shocked at first but then ask her if it is any good. She says it's ok, but not very thrilled. I remove it from the table and scold her. Then some stupid guy is burning things with a lighter, since he heard many household products have flame retardants and wants to test it. He burns the tip of a bed duvet and then the mattress itself. I scold him hard and he just feels disapointed that things really don't go up in flames. But the fact is that they slowly burn anyway and the combustion of the mattress is spreading. I ask my mom for a fire extinguisher. She says the only one she has is being fixed. I then ask for buckets and ask everybody to help. By now, the entire mattress is burning inside and generating heat that is starting flames in the surroundings. We remove all covers and drench it in water and cover the outside flames to extinguish them. I just want to punch the stupid guy who did this.

Jamie Dreams

First one is a flash of Jamie standing in front of me wearing a wedding dress, she is smiling. We're getting married? Okay, these dreams are really out there now.

The next few dreams mainly consisted of me trying to visit Jamie but she wasn't available and/or was avoiding me. Definitely a pattern here. Even when I knew her this was her: Wanting to get closer. I say: yes, okay. She: Backs off. Gets closer next time. Asks for more. I say: okay. She: backs off again. Wash rinse repeat. I think this is to be expected by now.

Next I have a dream where I confront her. I remind her of how she would say things that highly indicated she really liked me/ felt close to me. But then would cover up a moment later and down play it. the most comical being she was suggesting sending me a picture, you know the kind long distance couples might send. Then after a long pause for what must have been a full minute or so. She says, "Well a PG version anyway." Still waiting on that one BTW. And after so long She better send the full version . Kidding.

Anyway what she said back to me in the dream was really disturbing. "Well, I was just messing with you because it was funny." Um wait. What? Is it really necessary to say such a thing? I almost believe her. But then i remember When I spoke to her last in person and said, "I'm really gonna miss you," She looked like she was hit in the stomach, almost fell over and said something quietly that i barely even heard, "I'm gonna miss you too." Followed by a cover up a few seconds later as if she had said nothing at all. Yeah, who does she think She is fooling? That looked like it hit her pretty hard too.

Next day: First, I have dream where she apologizes for saying that. She's almost crying, her face in a weird smile, or more like a grimace of pain. I always forgive of course. Next dream is us just laying in bed cuddling
. Maybe a second one like that.

But how would she know over the span of a few days that she said that? I never posted dreams until now. So how would she know? I remember I once had a dream where she was talking to voices in her head that sounded like me. Does she really do that? I do. And this weekend we argued a lot. I really should have my head checked I think. I mean how deep does this rabbit hole go? I've linked the voice directly to my dreams, and also her doings directly to my dreams. so either it's actually her sometimes, or... Familiar spirits, (demons) that sometimes repeat what she is saying to herself. I dunno. I wish I had answers... If they are demons. They REALLY have her personality down.

Val

I'm working with Val, The lesbian. She asks me if she is the kind of girl I would marry. I say, "Yes." she looks really offended at that. Then why ask? When I said ,"yes," i mean the type of person not their orientation.

Death Squad

I'm in a gymnasium with a crowd of people. Some blond guy in his early 20's is being voted to be put to death. The vote goes through. I go hide in another room somewhere as they take him outside and shoot him because I don't want to see it.

also why am I getting ads for women's lingerie on DV?

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A tv showing some house full of abandoned stuff, neighbors talking about the people who died or left, cops going around. They say they'll open up the house to people interested in taking things away. Me and mom apply. it's like a game, they choose people and divide into 4 family teams each with a coach / guide who explains the rules and guides us orderly into pre-selected divisions. We feel very anxious because there is a team who is being clearly favored, they are some 6 people and they are the first ones allowed in the house, while our coach is just stalling us with talk. We pressure her and she starts saying she will block us if we pressure her too much. She finally takes us to the living room and explains what we can take. We look around to choose because we can't take everything. I look at the bookshelf and see some books I really like, but leave it for the end. I'm certain the other contestants won't care about books. I find family pictures and realize our late friend's Nela family members and there's pictures of her so I grab all I can. I tell mom and she agrees the pics should stay with us.

I am at home. Riverstone arrives. It's a summer storm like we never seen. Strong winds. I suspect by the sounds I hear that our gutters are not holding on. I check through the window and they break, ending up pieces on the roof and others on the ground. I go outside to pick it up but it's very dark, so I ask Riverstone for a flashlight. He hands me a wet sponge. I'm puzzled and say how did he heard sponge and why would I need a sponge? Then he goes back and brings the flashlight.

This was a scrap I had while on 1100mg of choline (totally legal dietary supplement to help cognitive functioning and dream potentiation that I got from walmart a long time ago). My dream was unmemorable, but I remember it involving me getting choline from a guy and then waking up and writing a dream log about it.