non-lucid

so my dream started out with me and some random people chilling at a water park, when suddenly i realize i have no towel so i go back to the hotel room me and the people were staying at. i walk into the hotel room and grab my towel to see 5 baby hyenas walking toward me. my dream self decides that these things are horribly ferocious and they could kill me at anytime. so i stop moving and let these guys just walk around me for a while until my mom shows up and starts telling me to be careful because were going bowling in a little bit. then out of no where the baby hyenas start talking saying they want to go bowling to(i for some reason didn't turn lucid ) my dream self then decided this was my chance to get rid of the hyenas. so i led them outside and told them they could bowl in a little hole i found. they all crawled and i put a giant rock over the hyenas. my mom walked over and asked why i did that and i said "because it had to be done" and then i woke up.

[Saturday, September 22nd, 2012] [AI is Viral]
(I feel like my soul has just returned from the most extensive adventure... I just got done living another life...)

I remember a futuristic city- Me and Alex witnessed the discovery of a new type of energy that unlocked the secrets of AI. Professors and
Cid-like people gathered around a small machine. They clapped and applauded the arrival of the plasma-like substance that gathered electric
currents out of nothing. The little cylinder music-box-sized machine danced with sparks and lightning. It spread to every thing in the room that had
certain false AI that humans had invented. AI's intelligences advanced so fast and replicated beyond our imagination... within minutes the city was
under attack by our own technology. People were being killed instantly. Alex ran as fast as she could. I was knocked down... I saw people being
impaled... melted... sliced... I crawled into a pod-machine with a red force field that cloaked my presense and protected me- and I waited and
watched. A giant red tenticle of energy whipped around the plaza and killed countless humans. I watched it kill every thing it could detect with
lightning precision. I was watching a masacre- and was the only one in this area to survive. I sat there and watched something evil looking whip
it's bladed arms across the forcefield and slash and slash- but I stared and watched. This was a bad idea- I was stuck in here and Alex was lost
somewhere. I closed my eyes and went back in time- to before the AI made the change. A few minutes before.

I didn't go far back enough. Alex had already run... and Nathan was with me now. But instead of crawling into the safety pod, I grabbed Nathan
and ran. We took turns through the city's hidden corridors and tried to imagine which way Alex would have gone. I felt that she took a left, a right,
another right... then we were at the edge of the city. We were on a giant island ship of metal. Water spread out as far as the eye could see. There
were teleporters on the edge of the ship- and we chose one and it sent us to Manhattan... I could feel that city was already destroyed... so I
reversed time and chose a smaller city. One that Alex was in. We were catapulted through space-time and arrived within moments

This city was dark and depressing, rainy and poor. It reminded me of a late 19th century England city with no modern technology existing, or
perhaps just out of sight and not so advanced. Shingles were falling off roofs from dilapidation, and wood was rotting away. Nathan was here
somewhere in the city, but now he wasn't with me. Dammit. Now I had two people to find. I turned down one alleyway and it led down to a
hidden replica neighborhood of our apartment complex. The parking lot was filled with potholes of rainwater and a few doors were off their
hinges. I went up to number 8 and knocked, SHE ANSWERED. <memory skips>

It's been a few days of us living in safety. But there were memories of her being uninterested in me anymore. I was to be replaced by figures such
as Pompous, Brandon, and more. I felt like she gave the attention she used to give to me to everyone else. A nightmare in itself. I was devastated
but she thought it was only fair. We got in a fight that was very unclear to me and just as we went inside, some kind of shit went down. During a
party, AI had arrived in THIS town. It must be trying to exterminate humans or something. I grabbed Alex by the hand and everything we might
need- and we ran with our backpacks. People were being slayed that came out of hiding- but our neighborhood had been compromised. I saw
Nathan too and I shouted at him to follow- and we headed to the teleports. We all got in one and tried to leave to the place with the least amount
of population. That must be the safest place!

The machine malfunctioned and sent us up into the atmosphere. We all flew up where we could land on an airplane. But we all did grab on until it
landed. Where we did land, it was a tropical island- big, but not as populated. The technology here hadn't been quite affected by the change yet,
so we were sort of safe. The first building we entered shut us in when we walked inside, and a trial began. A box wheeled itself into the room with
supplies for a battle. There was a battery recharge, a weapon capsule, and another thing I don't remember. I grabbed the weapon capsule- it was
kind of old and damaged, I tried to heal it with my mind and it worked. Just then, a robot/cyborg arrived in the room with the intent to destroy me.
I chucked the weapon capsule with all my strength at it and busted the attack machine. That was easy, I thought.

<I faded from the dream and woke up.>

[Saturday, September 21st, 2012]
(I dream, and I recall it... but I try to avoid spending too much time recalling and recording dreams when Alex is here. She spent the night with me
last night and while I love her, I'd just rather avoid it all. Recall is gone by the time I'm typing this. Oh well.)

[Thursday, September 20th, 2012]
I remember being at Safeway towards the far right corner of the store with Brent and Casey... I wasn't sure what we were up to- but we left and
headed off somewhere.

We were back at my Mum's old house and I was being picked on by Brent. I got fed up with it and finally screamed at Brent that he's a fucking
jerk and then I turned to Casey and told him that he's fucking dumb for following Brent- and being buddy buddy with him. Whatever else I added
on top of that was enough for him to be seriously hurt. I tried apologizing to them both- mostly to Casey- and we both got in the Brent's car and
were headed to a baseball gate at Sunset Park. We arrive and park and I we all split up at that point. I find Mom in the bleachers and hang out
with her for a bit before wandering off towards the Little League game. I realize I'm in the way of the game- I WANDERED INTO THE FIELD.
And I try dodging a baseball that was hit by a little leaguer. Embarrassed, I run off the field and can't remember anything after that.

I end up in a house just up the hill that overlooks the whole park. The park is shaped much differently than usual. Inside me and Brent start
playing a Mario game- It's a Weather/Element themed Mario Adventure game with a hint of similarity to Super Mario 64 at least in the way the
game mechanics worked. We were on an island, working our way up to a Volcano Mountain to beat the game, but suddenly a HUGE dark-grey
Bowser stormcloud loomed over our heads. We was going to kill us! We saw a multicolored "light" mushroom on the ground that was so
important, if we didn't grab it, we would lose the game and have to start over completely. It must have been a weapon against Storm Bowser. It
was on the ground just a few feet away, but at that moment, Storm Bowser blew as hard as he could and me and Brent both went flying along with
the mushroom. It was pretty fun getting blown through the air like a feather, but I scrambled for the mushroom along with Brent and we almost
grabbed it mid-air multiple times, but it kept getting away. We were all flying towards the ocean, unable to grab it. Then we all plunged into the
ocean and felt the currents pushing and pulling, back and forth. Bowser would be on us at any time now, with his lightning, and it would probably
be the end. I could almost feel the mushroom in my grasp multiple times and I watched Brent come just as close. DAMN- We lost.

Suddenly, I realize we're still in the Sunset Park's building. I get up and walk outside, and see that it's now dark and everyone is leaving soon. My
Mum is outside with a few of her work friends... I go back inside and see that there is a delicious looking chocolate cake with pink or turqouis
frosting. I'm not even sure whose house this is, but I see a kid who reminds me of "Penguin" aka "Nick" take a slice. He tells me to dig in so I grab
a slice myself... so I do and head outside, it crumbling all over in my hand. It tastes delicious, but I can't remember the specific taste. I head over
to the truck that I somehow now have and try to pull out of the dirt parking spot and try to avoid the countless holes and ditches surrounding me. I
make it back to the Sunset Park's house and try to find everyone.

Apparently there's supposed to be a celebration! Most likely for a wedding of some sort. Everyone that I remember is gathering around a bonfire
and circling around it and dancing. I see countless ladies, but not very many men among the Bonfire Circle. We continue counter clockwise for
sometime, and I notice a few girls waving to me, they seem very familiar. Alot of people wave to me at once- I remember them all and snap my
fingers and point, making a "click-click" sound with my mouth to each person. I feel very content-

<I wake up.>

So let's begin this:

Well last night in my dream it began with me coming out of portal and seeing a kid and his family in a spaceship car. I walked up to the kid and say "you're my grandson and also you're the last "who" (like an entire different race, Dr.Seuss created) their is". That's all I remember of the beginning, but I do have some more fragments.

I think I was running out of the drivers ed class because I was running out of time to save my grandson (who was considerably more attractive than me, and many people told him that throughout the dream). My other grandson, his little brother, ran into the class and told me "we have to do this, NOW!". So that's why I was running out of the class. We ended up at a balcony and just as we were going to use the time machine (the really spaceship car thing) broke. The other grandson pulled out a handheld time machine and said "just for backup" we jumped over the ledge and just as we were going to hit the ground he clicked the button and we were on top of a falling rock, the rock hit the ground and softened the blow. The view switched and I saw what happened when the rock hit the ground, well when the rock hit the ground it hit in a way that the cracks created a date or an address I think it was something like 7/12/1... or an address. After that I remember thinking "I am a genius" and after that it gets blurry.

[Wednesday, 19th, 2012][12:30 PM]
I'm in a giant open house filled with clutter. The lights are very dim and there are two main rooms. On one side of the house there's just a
windowed wall that overlooks the sunset scenery of trees. The house is slowly getting darker and there are no lights. Alex had just left me- I'm
alone.

Nothing is wrong, I'm just alone. I sit down and start to just relax on the couch. I slowly drift off to sleep... I wake up a minute later, a noise
springs to my attention. On the dark side of the house, where the shadow's hugged the corner, I heard a noise. I figure it must have been my
imagination. I shrug it off, but feel a strange alien thought in my head. I feel so alone... so... so alone... I just want something to hold on to- or talk
to-

I slowly trudge over to the shadow side of the house... I hear dull clicking noises, reminiscent of Amnesia. In the far right corner of the dark side, I
bend down to pick up a stuffed animal... there was a lot of them, but I choose one that I'm most familiar with. It was a cute patchwork animal-
yellow with purple and green... Alex had gotten it from the claw machine. I pick it up and hug it- and look at it. I could have sworn I saw it move.
I let it drop to my side and I pick up another... I set them back down and watched them come to life. I was amazed- but didn't think anything of it.
I must be seeing things, but nothing too out of the ordinary. It's just little movements, like an arm twitching, or an eye blinking.

I bring the patchwork with me into the other rooms and set it on a table. Walking into the other room, I see shadows flicker and move, and things
shift around the room. I'm convinced I'm going crazy. But I'm okay, I accept it. "It won't be forever. And this isn't so bad. It's kind of interesting.
It's like I can control what I see." It reminds me of a lucid dream. My hallucinations started to become more real and vivid. Now I'm hearing
whispers. The patchwork shakes violently in my hand and drops to the floor. It begins crawl around... Oh my... then it stops in its tracks... and...
and it turned its neck to me. It whispered, "Don't be lonely. I'm here for you." I blink a blank stare back at it. (My subconscious didn't know how
to react.) I dismiss it- and forget about it.

With an empty mind, I drag myself across the house, like a ghost haunting eternity. I had no aim or goal, just to exist. Minutes passed and I knew
that I was fully insane, and descending extremely fast. Everything was talking to me now. More stuffed animals were alive, but only ONE at a
time. Next thing I know, I see a human in the room. It's- a waking life friend of mine that I know fairly well, but I don't remember who in specific.
I know it's just in my head, and I'm making him up though, so I'm not exactly freaked out. I'm just so interested in the fact that I have this much
"control" over my reality- I start to talk to the hallucination, "What's up, man?"
"Not much." He replies.

I take my attention off of him and he vanishes, and I begin to search around the house... playing with my hallucination power.
I could stare at something and focus on it, and it would begin to move. I have "control" over this at least. I scan the back wall again, seeing
stuffed animals that I recognized from real life and some that I did not. The house had gotten pretty chilly in the last few minutes. I can feel the
cold wrap around my skin. It's very very quiet. Dead silent. Not a noise in the place, save for my breathing. Out of the corner of my eye I see the
hallucination take a human form again. It's another person who I know. (but don't remember. I wasn't paying extremely-close, conscious attention
yet at this point. He follows me around the house as I start to pick things up and clean the cluttered house. He watches me closely like a hawk. That's when the
dream becomes extremely real. In fact... It ISN'T a dream anymore. There's no way something this real is a dream. It's a full-blown reality. I can't
tell the difference one bit anymore. I'm semi-lucid too... I have control of my body- but without realizing it was a dream.
I look back up at my hallucinated visitor and he smiles at me.

That smile... it's the most horrible evil fucking smile I've ever seen. One that stretches across the face and make me choke back tears of impossible
fear. I'm descending faster into the deepest and darkest corner of my mind. I'm very uncomfortable
"I can't believe how insane I am." I reach into my pocket and pull out my phone to call Alex- the only person that I want to talk to right now...
even if I was bat crazy, she would talk to me. I call, with my eyes on the hallucination that was smiling so wide, his black eyes were chinked
behind his grin. Straight to voicemail- "We're sorry... the number you-" I hang up.

The hallucination now has a long boning knife in his hand now. He's at my neck before I even have a chance to react-
"Do... you know who... I am?"
"No-" I sob.
"As long as Alex is... gone... I get to... come out and... play."
He casually drags the knife loosely against my neck. He vanishes when he finishes the knife's trail. I'm shaking uncontrollably. But at the same
time stilled by my muscles. Everything is frozen in fear. My open eyes scan the room and notice new stuffed animals that I don't recognize-
countless of them. The sun is almost gone, the light choked by the horizon. I turn around slowly 'til I'm facing a third room behind me. I watch the
opening for a whole minute... waiting... swaying back in forth in silence... then-

I sprint to the third back room... I jump into the room and stop... panting for second. This room closely resembles my old room of my Mum's old
house. The TV is on and static lights up the room with white noise. I slowly make my way to the far end of the room, where I put my phone on the
charger and try to call again- that's when I saw Alex had left her phone on the charger. I won't reach her at all now. My heart sinks so deep into
my chest. "Oh my god... I just want to talk to Alex... I just want to talk to her... please oh god..." I cry hysterically

My head feels very hazy, and I'm having trouble remembering the situation. What had just happened? I remember a stuffed animal... I'm crazy... a
man in my house... I took in a shallow breath- and walked back out of the room.

A body flickers into existence and blocks my path. Nathan appears very suddenly in the doorway, like a scream piercing silence. He has a
wicked grin on his face. He cocks his head to the side, and smiles more, almost saying, "Where were you?" Then he vanishes again. I push my
eyes closed to blink a few times- they were getting dry from holding them open so wide for so long. The house is caked in twilight- but this time
I'm back in my Mom's old home. I emerge from my room into the computer room. To my left is the futon. I walk into the kitchen and hear,
"Unwell" playing by Matchbox Twenty.

"I'm not CRAZY, I'm just a little unwell- I know, right now you can't tell- but soon enough of you're gonna think of me, and how I used to be." I
listen to the words and begin to sob. "This is so real. I can't do this...

The music stops playing and Nathan is there again. He's right behind me, smiling his cold smile. It shocks me again how suddenly he appeared. I
keep my eyes on him and slowly backtracked... then I stop. I'm suddenly filled with HATE for this DEMON. HOW DARE HE USE THE IMAGE
OF MY BEST FRIEND!? Tears slowly well up in my eyes..

...until I scream and lunge for his throat. I use every bit of my strength and force him onto the futon and begin to choke him. I shake and shake
and squeeze as hard as I can. He just smiles. I choke him for a full minute, letting my hate seep out onto his neck, before I realize there is no
effect. I stand back up and take a step back.

Suddenly, the futon vanishes and so does he. It repositions right where the computer used to be- to my immediate left... where we had moved it
the second time, when we lived there. Now, Tyler sits there on the futon with a smile on his face. The lights flicker in the house and then the
power fails. It's pitch black, but I can still see his black eyes. He can change form, but he can't change those beady black eyes.

Alex had gone away and wouldn't be back for three days. Three days of hell... My soul was going to rot here
<I woke up.>

(I cried for 10 minutes upon waking. I called Alex right away.)

Last night I had quite a few dreams, but my recall has been lacking lately and I remember the main themes of two of the dreams.

In the first scene, I was visiting my friend Marykate and her mother Wendy in a trailer home of theirs. In the dream it had been about seven to ten years since I had last seen them. It was a very pleasant visit. After a while I began to wonder where Marykates younger brother Kyle was. In real life he's currently in elementry school, we used to be somewhat close in a psuedo older brother type way when I was over at their house a lot- and I wanted to say hello. I asked them both what Kyle had been up to, to try to gain some information about where he was at. Marykate didn't say anything, and her mother's face went dull. Wendy leaned in a little closer and said, "You haven't heard what happened?"...
"What do you mean?" I asked, and became a bit conserned. They both paused, and Marykates expression became very strained. "He died, Zech." She said, and began to cry. Wendy chimed in, "He had an accedent on a nature trip, he got attacked by an animal."
"Oh my gosh..." I gasped... I couldn't believe it. It was so horrible, I sat closer to them and began to tear up myself. "I'm so sorry, I didn't know." I added. It was a terrible moment in the dream, but my dream turned it around thankfully. Wendy then flipped a swhich in emotion and said, he's in the other room- we were just messing around. (Now, in the dream they weren't at first. But the dream made a swhich, that meant they were all along.)
"No fucking way you guys just made me think Kyle was dead. You guys are dick wads, major ones." I said relieved and pissed at the same time. An older version of Kyle then walked in the room and said Hey. I got up and hugged him and said Hey man, what's up- thank goodness. He said, "Yeah, they're assholes." and sat down with us. That was as much as I remember from that dream.

The next dream I became lucid in some random place, walking down a suburban sidewalk. I remembered that I wanted to find out how well I could actually 'Hear' in dreams. Because I usually remember conversations and people talking, but I don't remember the voices or hearing their words after I wake up. So I yelled "HEY!... I'M DREAMING!" I could hear it loud an clear, it was pretty awesome. It made the dream more life-like. I began to float around checking things out, still yelling on the occasion. Then I got an idea. I've been curious about these things people call "Dream Guides", and I wanted to see if I could find one for myself. So I began going around, realizing there were no people around. I found a few people in the distance and cars driving by, and yelled at everyone "Hey! Where is my dream guide!?", "Hey you! Where can I find my dream guide."
While doing this, I was playing around , trying to make little 'Resengan' like energy balls from that show Naruto. It worked like once, but my attention wasn't all the way there. I continued to fly around for awhile, and... I thought I might have found someone who knew something about my dream guide, but they got in a car and drove off. I was going to hunt them down, but my dream dissapated shortly after. I'm sure other things happened but like I said, not much dream recall lately. I'm hoping to fix that somehow. But that's it for now.

Morning Showers

Groggily, I stumble to the showers of the hotel where I'm staying. I can't seem to think straight or keep my eyes open for more than a split second, so it's a moment before I realize I'm standing under the water, holding a paperback book. A book! Quickly, I walk a few steps away and set the book on a shelf, hoping the water damage won't be too bad. I go back to the shower and stare at the wall for a few seconds. Suddenly I wonder if I'm wearing my glasses--are those its rims that I can see around the edge of my vision? I put a hand to my face. Yep, I'm wearing them. Wow, I must be really tired. I take off the glasses and put them in a basket nearby. I continue with my shower for a few minutes, but something's bothering me. I feel like there's some part of the showering process that I've forgotten, maybe something that I forgot to wash. I look down at myself. I'm wearing pants. Argh.

I [falsely] wake up in a hotel room. While I'm still in bed, my sister comes in to talk with me about lucid dreaming. I tell her that in a dream last night, I was scrolling through tumblr. She seems surprised, but she believes me. "So there really is a tumblr in there," she says. ("There" refers to "the dreaming world.") She's been trying lucid dreaming herself, but apparently she still has trouble believing how closely dreams can imitate real life. Right now she seems to be imagining all of the things she could do while she's asleep, all of the stuff she could get done. "There's so much time," she says. "You could fill out forms." She's always seemed rather results-oriented to me.

My sister starts getting ready for the day, but I keep lying in bed, thinking about how much I DON'T want to take a shower. I know I'm being lazy; I just really, really do not want to take a shower. Internally, I wonder how long it's been since I turned off my alarm at 7:00. [IRL: I meant to get up at seven, but when my alarm went off, I decided I was just too tired.] Out loud, my sister says in a surprised voice that it's already 11:00. Dang, that's late. It's time for me to get moving, whether I want to or not.

I enter the long, windowed hallway that leads from my room to the showers. Sullenly, I consider taking off my clothes and walking there naked. It seems an appropriate punishment for the world that made me get up when I didn't want to. But I don't do it. I reach the end of the hallway, which dead-ends in a pair of double doors. Confused, I realize I must have missed the turn. When I start going back the way I came, I look through a window and see a dome-shaped structure off to the side of the hallway up ahead. That must be the showers. I vaguely recall that the architecture looked dome-shaped from the inside.

Soon after, I actually do wake up. I'm amused to note that I'm actually NOT strongly opposed to the idea of taking a shower. And it's only a little after 8:00.

Non-Lucid
(Sidenotes)
Lucid Dream
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(Holy shit...TWO lucid dreams in one night? Wow...I'm getting lucky!)


Well this is how it starts -

I was at school waiting for a delivery. A Teacher was preparing a pizza and chinese food my mom and I. Apparently "Casper" (the friendly ghost)
had ordered it. I remember said Teacher came out all "casper! Casper, where are you?" And I thought it was funny. Then she tried to give me the food and I for some reason, freaked out a little and left. I was wandering around the parking lot upset and wanting to go home then I heard the Backstreet Boys and "remembered" that they were there for some reason. I walked to where I thought they were, couldn't see them...so I turned around THEN I realized "I am dreaming! This is just a dream!" Which immediately led to a false awakening.

I woke up in bed. It was dark. I knew I was dreaming and I was clam for once. I sat up (and sometimes in my LD's, things seem...heavy...or slower. Like there's a resistance to my movement or thought process.) I decided to do a reality check and instead of my typical poke-finger-through-palm, I pinched my head and it didn't hurt. It felt numb, though. I got up and decided to walk THROUGH my bedroom door. I focused really hard in my head that I'd walk through it and stared at it all while keeping my breathing even so I didn't get too excited...

AND I WENT THROUGH! There was a tiny bit of resistance and heaviness, but I walked through my door!


The living room was dark and there are some really nasty bits that happened regarding a random dog but I will leave those out.

I made it outside and hopped into the car. I drove off my road and to a bridge near where you turn ONTO my road. I decided to summon someone. I was feeling a bit tired, so I did have random moments of rubbing my hands together and spinning in a circle outside the car to prolong lucidity.

Even though i couldn't see from my peripheral, there was a guy sitting next to me. I guess my dream-self felt frisky because I remember grabbing his crotch and he said something like "woah, kid" or "watch it, kid" and I got scared thinking I was somehow a little kid...

Then he like leaned in and started kissing me. And it ended.



I ended up waking up for real and looked at the clock, then went back to sleep.

I believe this LD was also from a false awakening, so i just hurried and went outside. My neighbor across the street was out and I remember feeling paranoid she was studying me. I hopped in the car and it wouldn't start. I sat for what felt like 10 minutes trying to start it and feeling annoyed because I wanted to continue with the dream.

Then I remember going to the lawn and there was an old station wagon there, so i got in. There were people I didn't really know in it but they felt as if they were supposed to be family. I looked in the rear-view mirror and I did look a bit odd, so i decided I wanted to be pretty. I changed my looks. I stared into the mirror and focused as I like...morphed my face. It wasn't working too good cuz I kept looking really weird, so i decided I wanted to base my looks off of ariana grande, so i got a picture out (and she didn't looked quite the same as she does irl, but still pretty) and took a few minutes to help get a face I liked.


(I ended up waking up not long after. I have had some random and short LD's these past few months that I never bothered to post. I am really happy and proud of myself though! I get them without even trying, really. They are slowly lastly longer and I finally am able to do things or have "powers" in them. I am excited and can't wait become even better at this! xD)

Non-dream Dream

I am at work or school. There is a huge hill off in the distance and there are giraffes running down the hill. There are tiny baby giraffes on their backs - just standing there. It does not seem possible for them to be able to balance like this.

People are being cruel to me in a classroom.

I am on ED's (flag football ref) cell phone calling people. I look through his contacts and there are a ton of in depth categories for people. Under friend there are many sub categories like true friend, etc. There is also a category for hookers.

So these are dreams that happened over the last 2 days, surprisingly they have at least a small reason as to why my brain is going to them.


This one was 2 nights ago, I had been talking with a coworker Henry that day about an issue for like a half hour, though I usually never talk to him so it was odd when he was in my dream.

I was getting ready to go on vacation to see some family in Florida. My parents and wife were all going and for some reason Henry was coming to join us. One problem though, Henry was wearing a freaking Bear costume, I'm talking like full on bear costume.



Not sure why, he didn't say why and we all kind of just assumed it was normal. Well we were all the sudden out eating with my Florida relatives in some fancy restaurant. Henry meanwhile was like frolicking outside and like jumping around in his bear costume. Then this bear comes out of nowhere and we are all yelling for henry to run. For some reason the bear doesn't care about anyone else outside, only the dude in the bear costume. Henry is running away and then he throws his hat from the costume at the bear and it stops it momentarily. Henry things he's in the clear and starts walking, then the bear runs at him again, pins him and literally bites his face off. I just remember screaming and being sad but then the dream ended.


Same night I do not know where this came from at all really. Though I feel it is slightly offensive to people from Russia.

I was in the middle of some secret undercover spy thing going on in some submarine in the ocean. It was between like Russians and Americans except I was like a double spy on both teams I guess. The Americans were searching on the submarine for secrets i guess with some reconnaissance robot, it would like come back to them and give them the info. The Russians however had a pet squid that would search around as well then come find them and I guess tell them the secrets somehow, I guess they could talk to squid.

Last night I had two dreams, one of them I literally was just patching around fiber optics cables throughout my house to get internet connected to like the upstairs part. I have been running fiber cables at work so I guess my brain really liked the idea of this mundane task. The enxt dream I do not know what the hell happened.
I was at the grocery store and there was this cupboard there that was like chained shut. I went up to it and I touched it and apparently was cursed. I got like threatening letters at home and I didn't know who they came from. I went back to the store and like every worker told me it was a terrible thing and I needed to stop it. I ended up breaking into the cupboard to see some monster and he made me play some endless game to get rid of him. It pretty much involved me playing a slot machine against him until I got like a bigger jackpot I guess. I don't think I ever beat him though I think I ended up playing for a long time and then woke up.

I adopt a large, black dog from a shelter, and take him home to my apartment. I find that the responsibility of taking care of him is more than I can stand, and I don't enjoy it at all. I feel like a horrible, awful person, but I decide take him back to the place I got him from to ask them to find a different home for him. He's too big for me to pick up and put in my truck by myself, though, so two of my neighbors help me.

I get back to the shopping center where the shelter is located and walk through it, but by the time I get to the shelter, the dog has wandered off on his own, and I don't know where he is. I was such a lousy owner that I didn't even get a leash for him.

[This dream stemmed from an ad I heard on the radio yesterday for a kennel that really does find new homes for dogs. By the way, I don't even have a truck in real life, just a car.]

[Different dream, later in the night.] I'm playing Hidden Chronicles and I notice, for the first time, that the river on the main map continues further up than I had thought, and there are all kinds of buildings on the other side - a whole town for me to explore. There's a sailboat dock across the river from my estate - obviously, you're supposed to get to that part of town by sailing across the river - and a second bridge for me to repair.

Suddenly, I'm standing among the buildings of the town on the far side of the river. When I turn and look back down the river, I gasp - from this ground-level point of view, looking in this direction, I can see that there's a whole city over there to explore, complete with its own skyline of skyscrapers. I'm really excited to explore it, but I think, Looks like I'm going to keep playing this game for the next couple of years.

[Different dream.] I'm with my parents, and my mom needs me to translate some text from Japanese into English [or vice versa, I don't remember] for her. She needs it right away, and all I have is my phone, but I plug away at it anyway. We're visiting the home of some friends, and we're sitting down to have dinner with their large family around the light-brown, round table that my parents have in their house.

I almost had success but ended up not having any last night. Counting my breaths helped me become completely relaxed and still while also keeping my awareness level where it needs to be. My first dream I was instantly aware I was dreaming. The only problem was I was also half awake! I realized this as I was started to stabilize and ended up just waking up. I found it tough to sleep as I couldn't find a comfortable position and I believe I was anticipating the dream too much rather than going to sleep naturally. Regardless of this, I still managed to enter sleep paraysis to enter another dream! I was not lucid however because as my dream started, my tv (which was turned off) was blaring loud with baseball commentary. I immediately rushed to turn the tv volume off and therefore forgot to stabilize which quickly ended the dream.

So, I make some adjustments-

Adjusted technique-
1.During my day, practice all day awareness and work on my visualization when I can.
2.Wait until I naturally yawn to go to bed. Review my dream goals in my dream journal.
3.Lie in my bed and clear my mind. Once mind is clear, take 10 deep breaths while mentally counting each one.
4.Lie on my side, close my eyes, take 10 more deep breaths while counting each one.
5.Take 290 slow breaths, trying to relax my body and mind more with each one. Count each breath as well. If I lose count, I get up from bed, work to increase my awareness and start over.
6.Think,"The next thing I see will be a dream" and go to sleep normally. Think, "The next thing I see will be a dream" if my mind starts to wander.
7.When I enter a dream, look at my hands and say,"stabilize now". Increase clarity if neccesary by saying "increase clarity".
8.Say, "This is my dream, I'm in control, and anything's possible."
9.Stabilize every minute or so by rubbing my hands and saying, "stabilize now, anything's possible".
10.While in my dream try to keep control of my emotions.
11.When I wake up, lie on my back with my eyes closed and mentally gather all the details of my dream. Slowly get up and write down dream in dream journal.
12.Repeat steps 3-11 if still tired. If not, go back to step 1 and repeat.

I also need to work on finding a comfortable and consistant position to sleep in. Working on these adjustments, I'm sure I'll find success tonight!

09.23.2012

I'm a Disappointment + Was That Windhover?? (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm inside of a house, and I'm holding a shiny gray metal bowl, it looks like the same bowl I have in my apartment that I use to mix pancake ingredients. The house itself resembles the one in waking life that I went to for summer vacation by the end of my Freshmen year.

There walls in the living room are Pastel Green, the flooring in that same area was dark brown with a nice wooden polish. I think my mother was there as well, which is really something I keep forgetting isn't a part of waking life at all....

I can't remember the details in between what I did inside of the house, but I think I tried to get out of the house again and escape for some odd reason. I ended up coming back because I was afraid of someone, like my father, catching up and finding me.

When I came back to the house, I played it off as if I just went outside for fresh air or something like that. Then the dream shifts to where I'm walking with my father in a completely different place, and he tells me,

"You're a disappointment."

I looked at him weirdly, and I can't remember what exactly caused him to declare, but I kept trying to talk to him and try to understand what it was that I did wrong. However, random things in the dream keep distracting me from trying to give him a rational explanation.

This next part is confusing, I can't even tell if I'm in my dream body, or if I'm watching Windhover, or if I'm taking the embodiment of Shiro that's on her avatar from Deadman Wonderland.

And here's my horrible sketch in the morning of Shiro....aHHHHHH....but it's really how I saw Shiro/Windhover/Me/I Don't know who!!! :c
(And those hands are Shiro's/Me/Windhover/Idk's hands...the hands look weird..but...don't worry about it xD)

Spoiler for Horrible Sketch of Shiro:

Even my thoughts started to become a distraction as well, because the more I tried to formulate words, the more a tingly sensation in my mind would initiate, as if it's telling me not to declare whatever thought came first.

I saw someone in spectator mode having their arms folded and hands open as if they were really trying to come up with something to say, but failed. I think the Shiro counterpart was wearing a khaki jacket and a white shirt underneath.

Unfortunately, that's all I remember for that dream.

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09.23.2012

Exam Review? (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm inside of a lecture room, and it's pretty spacious. There's a huge screen that takes up nearly 90% of the whole wall that's far away from me. There's a downward slope, probably to be efficient with spacing, and there are a few people in here already.

I believe I'm already sitting down, writing things whoever is tutoring us at the bottom left corner is writing.

It was some math problem, but it seemed it had some Organic Chemistry with Equatorial and Axial positions. I remember the number "5" next to one of the two axis labeled:

X axis:______

Y axis:______

It seems the tutoring session for the exam review was coming to a close, and there was something about the problem that bothered me, so I raised my hand and asked.

"If you were to put the 5 on the axial rather than the equatorial, wouldn't it be reversed?"

Something along those lines, and whoever it is I'm looking at, I can't remember their visage well, but they nodded.

I guess I was right about something.

:shrug:

Dream - Lucid

This first part wasn't a dream, but it scared the bejeezus out of me.

I woke up and opened my eyes. I started trying to move, but I barely could; it was like an invisible resistance was in place against my arms and legs. I started to panic a little. I tried to scream for help, but barely a sound came out. I kept trying as hard as I could, but all I could get was a rasp. I almost started feeling like my breathing was messed up too.

Then, it just went away. It was like I was experiencing partial SP. I can't say that's ever happened to me before; it was terrifying.

~

I was at the coffee shop I used to work at to ask my old manager for my job back. Only it was very different in there, now that it was under new ownership; it was in a different location, and it was more like a restaurant than a coffee shop. It was kind of dark in there; everything seemed to made out of a dark brown wood. I specifically remember an old couple sitting at a bench by the counter, waiting to be seated.

I kept seeing my old manager running around, and she saw me there as well, but she was so busy, it was hard for her to talk to me. There were a lot of new employees there, people I had never seen before when I did work there. For some reason, I went in the back and put on some work clothes: Black straight-legged pants, a black shirt, and a green apron. It looked like a Starbucks uniform, but the coffee shop wasn't a Starbucks. I saw myself in a mirror with it on. I then thought better of just jumping into work, and left the back room.

I finally caught my manager as she was leaving. We were in the parking lot. She was walking fast and quite a ways in front of me. I asked her
"So, I doubt you can get me my job back, can you?"
She stopped for a second, turned around, and replied
"No. I'm not in charge anymore."
I guess the new owners didn't want her doing the hiring anymore for some reason.

After that, I wanted to go home, then I "remembered" that our house had been sold (we are trying to get it ready to sell IWL) to a couple of guys. I pictured the inside of the house being emptied of our things and replaced with barely any furniture or anything at all. It was kind of sad, since I grew up in this house.

Then, I was back inside the coffee shop, sitting down at a table with my laptop. Everything looked lighter now; even the wood wasn't as darkly colored. I looked up from my computer and to my left, and there was a cute guy staring at me. He had the build of my friend Daniel, and had dark brown curly hair. He had some scruff, but no real facial hair. He was smiling a little as he stared. I smiled back at him, feeling a little flirty.

Apparently, he was one of the new owners of the shop. His name was Solomon, and the shop had been renamed "Solomon's". His wife, Annie, was the other owner. I wondered if it was really Solomon, since he was married and kept giving me flirty smiles. Hmm...

I then learned that he was a huge flirt and a womanizer; he slept with lots of women who came into the coffee shop. For some reason, that didn't really bother me.

I was then approached by Solomon. He asked if he could kiss my neck. I said sure. He then went in to kiss my lips, and I realized I had terrible morning breath for some reason. I could taste it in my mouth, which also felt pretty dry. He then stuck his tongue in my mouth. When he pulled away, he said something about my mouth, like, he asked me if I had done something specific, and if that was why my breath was so funky; I can't remember exactly what it was that he asked if I had done. I said yes. He then kissed my neck. All in all, the breath thing didn't seem to bother him too much.

Then, I saw him standing up by the bathroom with another guy, talking. I knew he was going to try to get a woman to come sleep with him in the bathroom. I wanted him to pick me for some reason. I want to say he somehow messaged me about it or something.

I also remember him being seated again, and giving me another flirty little smile, and me returning it. I felt really good about myself then, like I was desirable. It made me feel confident.

I know, at some point, I wondered about his wife, and if she knew about what he was doing.