non-lucid

It's over a month since I had 2 lucid events (not great events but something nevertheless) The weather has generally stayed moist and grey but it's far grimmer up North so I'm not complaining.

I've recorded 15 dreams since then, none lucid and three reasonably long and vivid (but nothing to really shout about) A couple were negative (I get one or two now and then) A few I could relate to something I'd done or watched, the rest were mainly just a mish-mash of obscure events.

I'm good though...generally the results are the same whether I self-condition or not...maybe the basics are now well-ingrained and other influences (as yet not detected) make the difference.

Every day...some time between 16.00 to 17.00 I retire to my bedroom, sit upright by the bed in very subdued light and with Thom Brennan's “Submergence” playing very softly in the background I meditate for about 40 minutes. I use the music because it's drone-music, always the same tune and therefore not a distraction.

I think I eventually drift towards sleep...not too close because I “snort” like a pig when I'm slipping into sleep or start to fall sideways and neither of those happen. Maybe I'm in deep meditation ...personally I think I'm maybe moving into hypnagogia (although I don't ever get a “start”).

Wherever I am it's useful...once a saw a flash of a vision of a person...too quick to identify...today I say what looked like a very clear Youtube video of a house frontage in a suburban setting It was as if I was watching from a passing car (although it never actually went out of vision??) It was so vivid I thought for a second I was watching on a pc, with my eyes open. Dark room, eyes shut, no pc.

I realised that I wasn't and I was a bit confused. Was a dream building and I merely needed to slip into it? I felt too awake to do that but I tried to relax and the image gradually faded. A hypnagogic vision? It was very clear and seemingly moving.

I cannot normally think of an object and visualise that object clearly with my eyes shut...maybe few people can... But I try to visualise a wire-frame square...no go...except I've discovered I can sometimes do that during meditation... also I can infill with colour...and several times now a rectangle with various shapes inside pops into vision...where does that come from?

So...something different again...and that's what keeps the dream alive for me...

Still planning for an expected trip with my new mate Psi, sometime in the Autumn...

I was running thorugh the city. At first I ran with a friend called Fran, because cars were going fast and they wouldn't stop for us. Then someone else, a random DC, joined for the run. We were already on a street called Bv Roca and there were few cars in that Boulevard. I saw in front of the street a woman with his son of about 2-3 years of age. He was talking out loud that this couldn't be possible, that we weren't supposed to be there and that she would complain to police or whatever. She was entering a shop. I saw at that time in my side of the street a big supermarket and beyond some trees and houses, in front of that houses a fountain, the other street and a school. We planned to be in front of the school, at the fountains, and there we would think what to do next. But since this woman was complaining perhaps we would get caught before we reached there. To my right there was a large sidewalk and some houses. At that time i was feeling angry and impotent. So when i saw a man entering his house i looked at him firmly, and i shouted at him "look at me!", i was mad, because i wanted to try to explode the shop of the woman.

Then i dreamt with entering a house backyard. There was a dog by the door who jumps at me. I push it off nicely at first. Then he comes back and jumps at me again. I push it off now more seriously. He seems to get angry and he bites my hand.

Then i dreamt about some friends from the school, they were mainly girls and just one boy called Fran who was taking pictures to one of the girls.

Then i dreamt about travelling to Europe i don't know how could i but at few days before travelling to Europe my dad was taking me to school in his car, by the street of "Centro 11". I didn't have doubts that he would pay the trip, so i could go.

Then i was in year 2007 entering the house of my music teacher. I was thinking about the economy of this country that it went down since the rise of Menem. But now things maybe could change, but we are very behind in economic growth, we would have to be more efficient than other countries to actually advance. It was a challenge, and if that happened i could think again about economy.

>I dreamed I was in my grandfather's kitchen and someone's ashes (note my grandma's body was cremated but I don't think the ashes were hers as I've seen her in dreams post-death) were in a container above a humidifier. A ceremony was about to take place, the ashes were in a container which had a trap door bottom. It took place, the trap door activated and the ashes put into water in a humidifier.

Why, if there's a reason?

Later, I dreamed of being in a building and in a doorway I asked (as if I were on Skype, since I couldn't see his face) "Is this Chris Ballew?" (Musician) and he answered "Yes". Chris is bald, and a few other people were there including one other man a bit older than Chris and this other man is also bald, but who was wearing glasses and had a beard and also had hair on the sides all unlike Chris. Somehow at this point I decided to feel a bald head so I put my hand on this second man's head but I also felt his hair and he said something noting that.

01.07.16

Had 5am-1:30pm shift yesterday and have a 6pm-11pm shift today.

I slept a lot last night.

DR:

Very chaotic, fast paced, no leader, nobody knows whats happening or how to solve it, everybody doing his own thing.

I'm in some very tall and big structure. Modern building, maybe like office building. There is water on 2 sides.

A girl I'm babysitting goes in the shallow water and is dragging a huge black sheet of plastic behind her. I grab it and reel her in.

Later on the other side of the buuilding, we look out the window and some huge tornados are in the sky. They ar skinny and they have some cross sections on them. They are weird. We get in the corridors and away from doors and windows. I try to go back and look at the tornadoes again, but I sense danger like I could get sucked out at any moment.

Some strange, bad force is at play as well. We look for ways to neutrilize it. We look in cabinets and drawers and other pieces of furniture.

Date: Thursday January 7 2016, 12:43 AM
Important: No

Cool Painter Skater
LD #/ >

Total sleep: 3:00
Daytime Techniques: Relax, Be, and Do (No thoughts or thinking)
Lucid Techniques: "I'm a Lucid Dreamer." + WBTB + (1-10) + plan a title
Recall Techniques: "I remember my dreams when I wake up."
Asleep - Awake: 9:43 AM to 12:43 PM
Vividness: (scale of 1-15, 10 is waking life vividness): 8
Awareness: (1-10; or lucid): 4
Length (how long it felt like! Because that matters): 25 mins
Emotions: happy, disappointed
Dream Signs: unknown place
Lucidity Trigger: /




-DJ, Willy, and I are in some guy's house. He's about 23 to 25 years old and lives with his parents. He has a really cool painting above the door that leads to his room and he works on a little bit every day. We go in his room and it's pretty small. But, it's a very cool room to me. The walls are a coral color. I see CDs on hangers. I turn around and see a closet. I say, "Lit. Lit. Everything in this room is lit." I step outside of the room back to where the painting is and I hear that the guys parent's are getting divorced. I hear that the wife is leaving the husband for a lady. The husband finds it outrageous. The wife asks, "Well, will you do all of the stuff that I want you to do? Because you will have to swallow it. And she will." I remember some light skinned woman having fangs. I know feel sorry for the guy with the painting because he's not going to get to finish it. I feel like the transportation vehicle that the guy uses to get around is in a video game that I've played before. But, I don't remember it. I just know that it was an amazing video game. Something happened and the dreamscape changes...

Takeaway:
-Spend a little more time looking at individual things for a little longer

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Court Show
LD #/ >

Total sleep: 1:07
Asleep - Awake: 8:19 AM to 9:26 AM
Vividness: (scale of 1-15, 10 is waking life vividness): 7
Awareness: (1-10; or lucid): 4
Length (how long it felt like! Because that matters): 12 mins
Emotions: confused, admiration, disbelief, relief
Dream Signs: when I'm talking, when I'm around people
Lucidity Trigger: /




-I am in the basketball gym and the lights are dimmed down. There are people there including DJ, Willy, JJ, and Looby. If you do use by me talking to someone sitting down and ice it down and say, "I don't know why they wear sneakers shields. Especially to a Spartan Race." DJ says, "That's ridiculous." There is now a circle of people formed around this huge gym. There is some woman dancing in the middle to music that is playing. She takes her top off and is wearing nothing but green leggings. She seems to be doing ballet. I say, "She has gorgeous legs." She gets from out of the center of the circle and the next person starts and I think they take their top off as well. I see JJ in the circle and I look at her like," What the hell?!" She gives me a face that says,"Oh. No! I'm not doing that. I am just standing in line. They are going to skip over me." Then, that says, "Oh. Ok." Something happens and the dreamscape changes...

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---Getting ready with a wannabe
LD #/ >

Total sleep: 3:15
Asleep - Awake: 12:50 AM to 4:05 AM
Vividness: (scale of 1-15, 10 is waking life vividness): 5
Awareness: (1-10; or lucid): 4
Length (how long it felt like! Because that matters): 4 mins
Emotions: neutral
Dream Signs: when I'm watching a screen
Lucidity Trigger: /




-I don't know where I am. But, apparently, DJ is trying to re-create the movie, "The Loft". I remember seeing Bradley Cooper with wavy longhair almost reached his shoulders. I say something like, "You're doing it all wrong." Something happens and the dreamscape changes...

I was in the left rear seat of a Four-Door 1977-1990 Chevrolet Caprice in Beige which was parked in a parking lot, thinking it was my own. The owner and a few other people came by and I got out, realized it isn't my car and talked with the owner who wasn't mad at me. At some point I said "I don't know how I'm even staying alive" or something similar to that (I know those aren't the exact words) and he laughed.

I’m leaving a store and on my way out I see one of those stuffed animal game grabby machines and it’s really large. All that’s in it are two black body suits with cutouts for the eyes and mouth. On one suit the holes are outlined in lime green, and the other is outlined in orange. There’s a man leaving the store behind me and I turn back as I’m walking and tell him, “those are really creepy.” And laugh. He kinda chuckles and I wonder what he thinks of me. That was bold on my part and not usually something I would do. I get outside and have to wait for a car to pass before I can walk to my car at the very end of the parking lot. There’s a woman sitting on the car that passed and someone runs up to her as the car is driving. Once at my car there is a starbucks across the way but they have updated their logo and it’s now a triangle. People have to mix up their own drinks now by shaking them. I drive away and swerve in and out of obstacles in the parking lot. I start speeding down a curved road where there is traffic and there are cars passing each other by swerving into my lane. I hope nobody hits me. My husband is stressed out by my driving. Out of nowhere tons of police cars fly past me and stop right in front of me. I stop and see them approach another car with guns out. They open the trunk and there are two girls in the trunk in body bags, but they’re alive and they were just having fun.

My husband and I are in the kitchen channeling Native American spirits that live in our house. My husband becomes a spirit animal of a bear and I become an eagle. We’re still in human form, but acting and feeling like those animals. A shaman appears and thanks us, telling us that the spirits won’t have to come back for at least 3 more years. So I give them 3 spoons. Afterwards on my bed I tell my husband that I had fun because I haven’t played fun, intuitive role games like that since I was a kid.

I’m at D&B’s and we’re getting dinner ready. All I have is leftover potatoes cut into squares and covered with sauce and mango or egg chunks. There’s not much so I try to divide it as evenly as possible. A.W. asks me to scoop up some grease and hand it to her with a slotted spatula. I try but all the grease falls out. She gets annoyed and says something snarky about my ability to do a simple task. I get really angry and vent to my husband about her ridiculous request and expectations.

Snack around 2200
Quick shower
Bed @ 2235


Waiting for the Sparkfun tour
I'm in a large room waiting for a Sparkfun tour to start. The room has some kind of partition going most of the way down the middle, and there are a pair of counters and a door on the other side of the partition from me. A line has formed at one of the desks and at the door; I'm leaning against the wall near some other people waiting for the line to get shorter. I'm being careful not to wait too long; I don't want to lose my change for the tour.

Now I'm standing at the counter further from the door checking out with some electronics. The first thing I hand over to the cashier is a box with a multimeter, though I tell her to put it to the side, since I'm not sure if I'll actually be buying it. I see that it's $35 and am surprised; I thought it was $25. I'll only need it if I can't borrow a battery tester from someone else. I need to test the batteries of something my daughter has, but this is Sparkfun; I expect you can't go more than a few feet without tripping over someone's multimeter.

I look over to see how my wife is doing; she's still feeding the baby, and it looks like she'll be a few minutes. Hopefully the tour won't have gotten far before she's able to catch up.

Now I'm in the parking lot outside Sparkfun. A few cars are scattered around. The building itself is a huge off-white cube which isn't remotely attractive.

Bug book
I'm looking through book of common garden insects. Most of the pages look like they're coloring pages, with simple, bold line drawings of each insert accompanied by a short paragraph describing it. Some of the pages have odd white-on-black icons in one corner. I'm currently looking at the page for ladybugs. The text mentions that there are actually two main families. The icon in the corner of this page seems to be indicating that they're a hazard to humans and animals, but that can't be right; there's no way a ladybug could hurt anything. I must be interpreting it wrong (but someone really needs to come up with some better icons).

Now I'm looking at the last page, on water snakes, and it's done in a totally different style: it's a huge block of text along with a smaller grayscale photo. Now I'm watching video of them. First, I see a clip taken from a reedy bank into a body of water. The snake swims by, and it looks nothing like what I expected. It's about 6" wide, at least 10 feet long, and has a ridge running along its back. It's kind of a muddy green color, and it's got a very smooth, dull skin. Now I'm seeing large rocks jutting out of the water just beyond a sheer cliff, and I know I'm seeing footage from Hawaii. This must be the snake's native habitat. Now something is describing the snake's attack: it likes to bite a leg and hold on for about 20 seconds before actually injecting the poison, since this increases the heart rate and helps the poison spread through the body faster. Once it lets go, it waits for the victim to instinctively slap a hand down on the wound before going after the hand for a second bite. The information continues, saying that even with quick medical care it's rare for victims not to start to show symptoms of paralysis. Normally, people can keep their arms synchronized to within a third of a second (that seems way too long), but that'll quickly deteriorate to seconds between movements; they'll start drooling; and typically one side of the body will be affected more than the other.

Dangerous race
I'm in a strange car race. We're all going down a gentle incline on a straight street, driving normal cars - except that every car has a large, heavy-looking blade mounted to the roof spinning dangerously. Now I'm quickly pulling left into the small parking lot of an anonymous business to avoid an oncoming bigrig.

Crazy Brother Attacking Us
I'm in a house, it is fairly large and modern looking. It is dark inside, it's night, but there is some light coming from little cracks in doors and from streetlights shining through windows. I'm in trouble. I'm with a woman I don't know, she is my age, and her brother has gone insane and is attacking us. We have lost him as we ran away through a hall leaving him behind. I try to think of a way to lock him in a room to trap him. I close a bug heavy door like something in a bomb shelter, thinking he is trapped in the room ahead of me.

The woman leaves, trying to escape just in case. I stay behind. The brother appears, he is a skinny and crazy looking guy. He attacks me and he feels very weak. I put him in a sleeper hold and keep on squeezing, I know I have to kill him, it is the only way he won't chase us. I keep him in the hold, squeezing really tight, feeling very sad that I'm killing the guy. I sense that he too knows why this has to happen, or I try to explain it to him? At the last moment I let him go, I can't do it, the guilt would destroy me.

He's limp on the floor, unconscious but still alive I think. I reason to myself, he must be alive. It is now daytime, morning. The sister is now there as well with a mutual friend of ours (not in real life but in the dream). Now that things have calmed down we can relax. I see the brother's jacket, a red college jacket, and the pocket is full of cigarettes, reds. I join the sister on the bed, what a crazy night.

Old Apartment
I'm in my childhood home. I'm in the stairwell, it is a summer day, I see the golden sun shining through the windows. I get up to our floor. I see they have put a new outdoor entrance to the right where the stairs are. That will be convenient but how did they build it? We are on the second floor!

The Doorman at the Club. Meeting Trump
I enter a dingy club in a far-off part of town. It's evening, a grey day. I go up the stairs until I reach the jacket check-in. The light is a stained, dirty type coming from dirty fluorescent lamps overhead. I see a doorman by the jacket racks. I say hi and he tells me to check in my jacket. I'm reluctant to but I confidently give it to him. I'm weary a very fine leather jacket and I take it off and give it to him. He says that the door charge is 7.50. I have a wallet full of money so I pay him with a 10, asking for a receipt, I'm on business. Am I meeting Donald Trump?!? I tell the doorman I haven't been to this club in years. It has really been run into the ground, I think to myself.

On the Hood of a Car
Suddenly I'm on the hood of a car. It is a grey day, looks like a place out further from the city. I think the car passes a McDonald's. The car suddenly stops and I almost fly off the hood, I'm just able to stay on. The guy who is driving it, a friend of mine, a guy my age (but who I don't know in real life) apologizes he had to stop to avoid hitting someone. He turns to the right and starts accelerating. I notice he is now on a road leading to the highway. Uh oh. I look to my right and see a man yelling, what am I doing?!?! I see the ground is raised by to the right of the road, I try to find a place to jump off. We pass under a small overhead bridge made of concrete. On the column to the right I see someone had made a 3D picture of the Illuminati symbol, very impressive. Street art?





Stop at the Machine Shop
It's dark, could be late afternoon, the sun sets so early. I'm at the machine shop. I see many rooms in there, lots of people I don't know. A woman who works there has dreadlocks now? Even has a tab of a can in it. Weird. I see the actual dreaded hippie person who works there. She is about to go for a cigarette. I go outside, circle around the back of the shop where the cargo bay is. I see my boss there, I flag him down and tell him about the model I made for him. He is excited but I get carried away and as I follow him to his office asking for more details he is obviously annoyed. I try to tie my questions up and leave to not annoy him anymore.

It feels like I'm back in the big house from the beginning, a fancy modern building in the night, in the kitchen, the lights are on. The kitchen is large. I stand there with my own sister and a friend of mine I know a little bit. I talk to him, I think my sister is pushing me to, asking why we don't know each other that well. He seems to feel awkward about the question. He says he has always tried to be social with me. I tell him I know him quite well to be honest, more than others.

I went to bed around 23:30. Couldn't sleep until at least 00:30. I woke up at 08:00. It's now 08:40I

Fragment
I'm with two friends I met in Indonesia. We're sitting in a small restaurant in Indonesia, the three of us at one small square table. It's raining outside.

Supermarket shenanigans
I'm in a supermarket it seems, though no one who is present is using it as such. There's a gymnastics mattress on the ground. We've been told to do a roundoff -» backhandspring. I'm with a few guys. Most of them nail it. Damn, I haven't even done a roundoff for so long. I do the roundoff on the floor. I nail it. Ok, guess I'll go for the combo. I run up to the mattress and perform the roundoff perfectly. The backhandspring is miserable though. I think we're supposed to do it five times. I go back in line. I get skipped a few times for not really being in line. I don't really care, though I should probably practice a bit more before the instructor gets here. I think it's my taekwondo instructor.

At some point the lights are out. I'm moving around on touch after a while as my eyes haven't adjusted to the dark. At some point they suddenly do and I go from no vision at all to a decent amount of vision.

Castles
It's daytime. It's nice weather, a bit sunny. I'm outside, though I think at this stage of the dream I'm more of a bodyless spectator. There are a few people near a balustrade made out of grey stone. From the look of it, it's an old building, like an old city hall. Two white people behind the balustrade are arguing with two white people in front of the balustrade. The people standing on higher ground are an older man and an older woman. The woman has short, grey hair which makes her look like a man. I wonder for a moment if she's not a man. I check her shoes. Female boots. Well to be honest, that doesn't mean a thing. The people standing on lower ground are a 20ish year old girl who is filming the woman and a guy about the same age. The girl is working for a gossip media platform. The woman has already dragged the boss or the girl to court once and won a big amount of money. She intends to do it again now. I think the reason for filming was something along the lines of the woman's husband's death. The man next to the woman at some point is friendly to the two, though it is a kind of friendly that you reserve for people you dislike.

At the same location, this place is now part of a castle I think. I'm sitting on the balustrade. Just to my right is a white or a very light skinned girl. Her hair has a lot of small curls. I can see the make up around her eyes. We start talking. She mentions liking puffy cheeks. She moves her hands up to her face and then on to play with her hair. I tell her that for a moment I thought she was gonna touch her non-puffy cheeks and start complaining about them. We talk some more. I ask her if she's heard about the bee which delayed an airplane of Garuda [true story]. She tells me she's heard about it. I take a look to my left. We're on an island and in the distance I can see some awesome castles. The image zooms in for a few seconds and then back again, as if it's on a tv. I tell the girl to have a look, but just then it zooms out. I tell her to wait a moment. We both think it's awesome and we want to go there. Any moment now we might be called to board our plane though. There's a bench just below my feet, where at least 3 girls are sitting. One of them is kind of holding me in place. I push on her back with my feet, pushing my weight onto her. Then I let go. She, or one of her friends, asks me how much I weigh. I answer 65ish kg. They are all very surprised that I'm so light.

I'm walking with the curly girl towards the castles. To our left, again we see more castles and some other stuff. There's a kind of maze as well. There are also some bleachers, from which people are throwing things. Somewhere at the end I can see my Dutch language teacher from high school. There's a gap somewhere between two blocks and instinctively I go into parkour mode. I precision over it, though I can tell my balance is a bit off. I've placed one foot a bit further than the other on my landing. Next is a block to the left, which is higher than the one I'm standing on. I run towards it but I don't have full power. Instead of landing on top of it I catleap and then pull up. My pull up is quick and strong, though I linger around for a moment. Somewhere further on there's a dude standing. There's a naked white dude who is climbing his back for some reason.

There was an invasion of aliens. Structures destroyed. I was looking at a post-apocalyptic world. The color theme is not dark; it's sunny, with lots of vegetation and ruined buildings.

I traveled to an area with lots of ruins and some people and dinosaurs/animals. There were even apes. One in particular has developed human-like intelligence, and he keeps it to himself. I dropped a nail cutter, and he found it. He knows what it is. I was thinking I should get it before other apes see it and develop intelligence, but he gave it back to me. I then asked him if he doesn't want the others to become like him. It seems the ape likes his position over the other apes.

I was in a small village where some humans gathered. There were two children who has not gone out of the village because they weren't permitted. Only adults can go out because of the danger outside. Still, I led them out and asked them about the plants around them. One said he called one shrub/tree an "apat" (four in our language), and he went on to point out other plants, but he hasn't seen most of them. The mother came rushing in to bring them back. Then there's a falling debris/alien object. I punched it away. The parent realizes that she can't keep her children safe forever. Not in this world at least.

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Notes:

- I saw a trailer for an alien invasion movie before sleeping.

Jan 6, 2016

There zombies. I was running at night on the right. It was dark and hard to see. I was going out of our hometown, heading south.

I was in a dormitory, trying to find a place to sleep/hide. There was a vampire. I moved/led to my parents' room to hide.

I was traveling in a bus from our hometown, heading south. I was with mom and sis. There was a lady behind us on the bus that was talking. We know her. I can't remember her name now but I did in the dream.

Bold is me, italics is a wolf girl I ran into..





I guess I have no choice do I? *Sitting down on what appeared to be a stone bench in a cabin*

Of course not. *walking toward me to sit beside me*

well you obviously notice I'm not normal so I guess I have to confess.

We've known each other for months now, Why can't you tell me?

Well because I thought if I did, You might claw my insides out.

Is It that bad?

It could be to you.

It won't be

It might

Tell me please, I saw it. Whatever you did back at the village was definitely something none of us have seen before. Is it really that hard to te-

Anathema. *I stand up slowly*

What?

I am an Anathema.

Bu-But impossible, those people are-

*I turn around and look at her. She looked in my eyes. Apparently they were different then before. Everything grew much more clear.*

H-How? I thought....They were extinct...

Not all of them. My family still live. However only me and my sister remain now.

I just..don't know what to... *The look on her face, confusion, and a tinge of anger*

I know my people...they slaughtered most of your kind years ago. So I understand your rage... I understand you want to now grip my neck and rip my throat out.

*she looks up at me with her eyes glowing an alarming yellow. her teeth showing. She wants to*

I want to...You lied...

I know.

WHY!? *Jumps up from the bench, with tears in her eyes.

To protect you, I didn't wan-

All you did was corrected my thoughts! Your kind....All they do is cause pain! What did my kind ever do to yours!? What did we do to deserve such mass genocide...

*All I can do is just look at her. Her eyes giving tears, her voice cracking in each scream she let out into words.*

TELL ME!

I don't know, I wish I knew...But let me ask you a question before you sink your claws in me.

I don't want to listen to your questions. I just want you-

Do you think someone like me would commit such things like my people?

*Long silence*

WELL! Because obviously your quick to blame your best friend! This is why I did not want to tell you. I knew even if you were close to me, You will still find somewhere in your heart to resent me because of the past. Something I wasn't even born in, I only knew about it! So how can you think of killing me!? Do you now just see me like them?

No, I just-

Forget it! I'm wasting time. Len and Griffith are still back in that war. I have to leave. *Walking away from her*

No please...you'll die.

Isn't that what you want. For me, an Anathema, to cease to exist finally?

NO!

Either way, I need to know if they are okay. *Opening a door*

NO NO! I wont let you go out there, You know you won't survive! Why do you choose to do these irrational actions!?

Cause I'm the only that can survive this!

You won't survive against Enon! You know that! Stop being arrogant!

*She continues to grab my arm to pull me back. There is so much intensity and fiery tension, even then, I almost walk out until...*

You know your saving an Anathema from certain death.

I know.

Why?

Why?

Yes.

BECAUSE I LOVE YOU! I can't kill you because I adore you! Even though you are an Anathema, you are still someone I care about! Im sorry okay, I just let my emotions slip out! do you know what it feels like to lose so many friends to-

*I just grabbed her and kiss her. She hesitates to reciprocate at first but soon follows through and holds me as well.*

I just wanted to hear those words....Cause I wanted to love you this whole time, Because I'm sure everyone you use to love is gone. So I just...

I...need you. I don't want to go out there. They will be fine, I'm sure of it. *Her head on my chest. The amount of emotions I'm feeling is just...*

I still need to.

But...

I promise...I will be back here. I won't be long.

.....Just get back as soon as possible, please

I will.

*I kiss her forehead. and then the dream fades.*


For a non-lucid, this was such an emotional and intense dream. I only wrote down the dialogue because that was literally all I cared about. Just the amount of feelings that were going off, and I just felt such a connection to this beautiful wolf girl, like we been through thick and thin. I had no idea about the plot or any of the names mentioned, I felt like I was watching, but from a First person perspective. I woke up just feeling so sad, cause I think I really left her and I will never see her. I could just tell her bond to me was very sincere. It seems short, but trust me, it felt way longer.

Either way, It was a very memorable and great dream.

I am in my brother's room, looking at two of my deceased pet hamsters, Clover and Ginger. I remember being very confused but happy to see them. Sometime later in the dream, I was getting ready to go out to eat with my siblings and grandma. My dad then came into the room, bursting out happy bubble by telling us he is coming along.
"We are going to the Chancery to eat." We were all groaning when he said this. "But, we are going there so I can get myself a hamster, and you can get pet rats at the pet store. There was a hamster there that looked like Clover." At this point I considered telling him that I had just had a dream about Clover, but decided not to. I wanted to get two pet rats, but for some reason, my mom wouldn't let me. (She really will in real life.)

In another dream I was doing "homework"(really playing around on dreamviews) at the kitchen table, along with my mom, brother, and sister. My siblings and I started telling my mom about LDing and keeping dream journals. I remember being about to tell her about doing reality checks, but for some reason decided not to.

Journey To Get Lucid.