non-lucid

Oh man, this was weird dream morning. I dreamed I was in Africa and was standing on a dock when something started bubbling under the water. I had a stack of lumber at the edge of the dock that apparently I was moving with a fork lift. When, all of a sudden a huge hippo surfaced and took a bite out of the wood I had stacked at the dock. All of the wood went under water and swirled around underneath. One of the old managers I used to work with was standing there and he was from Sierra Leon ( which is probably why the dream was in Africa) he told me to not get close that the hippo would eat me. All of the lumber was gone as I stood there in awe as this massive hippo surfaced again and spit out the entire load of lumber. all over the water, I thought to myself "no way I'm going in there to get that..." I remember seeing a piece of the hippo's tooth on the dock and it looked like a baseball bat ( that's how big this thing was..think jaws of the the hippo world". I had some other dreams, but this one in particular was the most vivid, and I remember even the smells of the dream, and the water splashing on my face as king hippo went back under the water. Crazy to say the least.

NON-DREAM
DREAM
LUCID
FALSE AWAKENING
NIGHTMARE
FRAGMENT
HYPNAGOGIC SOUNDS
HYPNOPOMPIC SOUNDS
(Unconnected dreams indicated by a *. Connected dreams indicated by a •. )


* I'm trying to sell a toy set for a fictional book, but the main character is missing.

* A giant worm is destroying an underground area in a place vaguely resembling Hogwarts.

* I seem to have travelled back to the early 1900s. I have repeated run-ins with two horses named "Neighborhood Horse 1" and "Neighborhood Horse 2". I am wearing a dress and seem to be much younger (about 10 or 11). Somehow, I am captured on video and spread all over YouTube, but the majority of people don't beleive what they're seeing.

* A news broadcast is remembering the five things they will miss at that station.

* I'm on a secret mission to find someone. An alarm goes off (not my wake up alarm). This scene repeats itself.

Again, my dream recall has been pathetic lately. I can remember the key points of my dreams, but I cannot link everything together (my dreams are usually very cohesive, when my recall is good).

So there was this bit where there was a pool at night and there were lots of body parts in it. However, that was not shocking to us (no idea who "us" is), we were all focusing on the FULL body there. Who was all blurry, cause the spirit was doing something?

So then I saw this film/TV show where a girl from the past was trying to figure out what had happened to the girl in the pool. When she was almost done with her investigation, another girl started digging too. The first girl had done nothing wrong, but she looked suspicious from the other girl's POV.

I tried to get the spirit to settle down and be calm, but I couldn't find it. It wasn't evil, but it seemed lost and angry at what had happened.

So I was at this school-ish place. I kept trying to make it seem like I studied there and I had to show my grades to my parents, so I had to fake them and it was stressful.

Then I had to go from one place to another, but I didn't want to? I think I was going out with my girlfriend (I don't have one in real life, though), but I needed to do something else first, something about the body/spirit. My girlfriend was bitching that she was waiting for me at the party. My parents went out (I'm pretty sure I was in dream!Lucas's house), telling me to take care at the party. Instead of going, I got the baby (?) and told it I'd take care of it. I think that's what they spirit wanted, so I watched the baby all night.

I feel like there was also some running around. But I can't remember anything about it, other than I was running a lot.

I went to bed around 01:00. Not sure what time I woke up. It's now 10:00

Pool
It's quite dark, though I can still see around me. I think I'm indoors, though I could also be outside. There's a private pool. I'm with 2 male friends [of them is my friend in reality, the other I don't know], one of them is Asian, the other is white. The Asian guy has drowned in the pool, but it still alive. We panick a bit and my white friend asks to borrow my phone to make a call. I give him my iPhone. He makes a call to New York. I can hear something about paying for extra charges. He's calling some of the world's best doctors on this area. Damn. I knew he was rich and spoiled, but this... In the mean time I look at a map on the wall. There's a number there of some local paramedics, who should be very close by. It feels like they are on the other side of this huge building which is my friend's house. I make my friend hang up and I call them instead, partially motivated by the costs of calling to NY. He tells me that those guys are worthless. I relent and he makes another call to NY. While the call is busy connecting, he tells me that I should put our friend laying on the ground, nose downwards. I do so, and he starts coughing up some water.

Class
I'm with some classmates. One of them was in an accident of some sorts and I was among those who saved him. He can't remember a thing from the ordeal. I tell him I'm not that surprised about it. I recall something about a picket white fence which I climb over to get to a seat. We're all seated for a special event that's going on today. It's a good thing I decided to dress the way I did, with the dark blue sweater that I'm wearing. At least I look presentable. I'm also wearing my All-Stars, but it looks quite decent.

Sitting in the same area, we have a sort of training event. Two girls, Roos and Chayenne are acting out a scene. Roos is working from a caravan which has been converted into a bar. Chayenne comes by to order a coffee. Everything is quite chaotic. At the end my teacher (a woman wearing a hijab I believe) asks us what went wrong. Either she asks me directly or I volunteer to give an answer. I first consider pointing out a mistake of Roos, but I focus on Chayenne instead. I say that she was in a hurry. My teacher tells me something along the lines of me being wrong. I get annoyed by her reply and turn into a wiseass. I tell her that that's my perception of what is occurring here and add some more philosophical statements to it. She then tells me that Chayenne didn't listen to Roos. Yeah, I know, I was getting to that. Not listening in this instance was an extension of being in a hurry. My friend Jor is seated to the left of me. He tells me that if I hadn't argued with the teacher he could've backed me up by saying 'I think what he is trying to say...'. I tell him that I don't really care. I just didn't like the teacher's attitude.

I don't remember the exact dream details but I think it was some continuation of the catastrophe fragment from yesterday.

I slept about for 2 hours. Woke up 5 to 5PM.

I recall the last dream:

I dreamt about being in a house, the house of my grandfather, and going to the bottom of the hall, where there is a bedroom. The beginning of the hall was very similar to a house where i lived 15 years ago, when i had five. In the bedroom which was more or less as an earlier bedroom is, i was with my cousins talking about soda, and how you need to wait 24 hours after you have drank some to do sports or something like that or else you die or something similar. I drank some so i was at the beginning interested and i wanted to know more, so they were explaining me taking turns but one told me one thing and the other told me another so at the end i got really angry and i didnt hear any of them and walked back to the hall. I entered my grandparents room angry and there were some tickets about soda which i wanted to read or destroy and i saw my grandparents layed down in their bed, so i said sorry really angry even with them and i went away and in the room i was saying to myself never to trust them again, although the dying thing was true i think.

The room has changed its size and form. It was bigger now and it was like a barn. I was in a bunk and i had some ice in my hand, and i saw my cousins on the floor. It was a tall bunk and i had no better idea to throw it to their backs so they felt the cold, so i did it like joking. But i got a retaliation from them, specially the youngest one which got angry and had 6 times more ice than i did. She started throwing to the wall and it always bounced and hit my head. She did that about 5 times and then she picked up the ice again and did it again. She was angry but i was just joking. But since i noted her anger i decided to escape that tall bunk and get off the room. So i did it, while she was throwing me ice cubes i began to get down the bunk, that i imagined tall so i was more or less scared to come down so sudden but then i had like a sparkle of lucidity where i thought something like "people have to sleep in here, how can it be so tall?" so i jumped directly to the floor with full confidence in my reasoning and it resulted not to be so tall after all.

I ran down through the hall and i saw a man standing at the end of it. Like if it were a school where the parents were waiting their children to come out. What was i doing in a place like that?! I thought, but since he saw that i was kinda playing he smiled, maybe remembering his infance. Would that old man be me in a future when i get old? I don't know but i knew someone was coming. It was my cousing but it transformed into my youngest cousin. I stopped paying attention to the ugly man's face and my cousing grabbed my hands, and he was furious he wanted to hurt me. He had like 5 or 6 years more than he really has. At that moment i had another sparkle of lucidity, for the worse of my mental state /which is a state in which i would hurt the child/ but it was more or less helpful for the situation. I thought "well, i am older than he is so im probably stronger in spite of how strong he is" so i started to put my thumbs into his palms and do strength until it hurted him, and after some seconds it really worked, so i did it a couple of times and he realeased me and he stopped bothering me seeing that i could respond and i was stronger. Like i said mental states like that, probably reaction of anger, which produce the potential for action are not desirable, since i have experience /with my sister/ that it doesnt bring good results, but it was needed for the situation so i decided to act and free myself. And in the kitchen where we were the dream ended.

Conclusion:

To conclude this entry i might say that i dreamt about a low changing scenario where i remember the details of the changes. I also payed attention to some changes in regards to dream characters which one has to notice in a dream. I had sparkles of lucidity which is the most important part of the dream, meaning that im exersicing my reasoning mind, not outside dreams with methods such as ADA or ADSA but rather in dreams, in situations. The scenario could have been more vivid, well actually at the end it more or less was since when i saw the old ugly man, probably of age 55 to 60, i saw a television in the corner and a door some steps to my back. But anyways that was not enough, it could even be more vivid than that. For example the walls or the floor with more details although it is unnecesary.

Alright, I'm really itchin' to go so I won't write much.

I created (or found?) this new species of animal that was similar to a rhino. I got to sort of make up the taxonomy for it/what phylum/class/order/etc I wanted it to go in (even if it didn't quite fit for a rhino-like creature). Once I decided, it sort of changed a bit to fit the taxonomy I decided on.

There was a rabbit-like creature that had "shadow" powers that basically enabled it to double-jump. It could also spray like a skunk. It was trying to get away from these barbaric carnivores, and there was a timer in the bottom middle of my vision, like a video game. When the timer ran out, the carnivores were no longer allowed to pursue the rabbit, so it just had to evade them for that long. (Like, two or three minutes I think.) However, when the timer had about 5 seconds left, the rabbit got cocky, and the carnivores caught it with one second left on the clock. He panicked, then.

A person I was at TK with (can't say names, but for my own reference: she was transferred to our lodge because of a "physical altercation" and she wore a grey sweatshirt with her hair in a bun) was in my dream at some point, and she used this "outdated" device that was about, uh, like, 2/3 the size of a brick. It was white, and it was some sort of communication/sensing device, but I don't really remember what it did now. She was in the same dream as a person who I think may have also been from TK (loud voice one who likes red velvet cake and hockey?) who wanted me to back them up as they went into this criminal place where they worked in case their colleagues decided to jump them. She would walk onto this glowing colored square and disappear (apparently to her workplace), and I was to follow if she didn't come out after a little bit.

Another time I find myself in this bathroom which is apparently a navy bathroom or something, at, like, a navy base or something, and it's freaking me out. Everything's wet, there's a whole bunch of growth on the floor lining the bath and lining a lot of other things. There's an extremely sticky reddish substance (kinda like old tree sap now that I look back on it, but even more of it comes off on you) at the base of the neck of the sink. When I look in the mirror, I see that I have a horrific wound on the right side of my forehead, though I can't feel it. It's as if the skin was ripped off roughly. It's old now, but still exposed. I don't touch it half out of disgust/horror and half just in case it might make it hurt. There are unbelievably large zits (maybe more like white boils?) on my forehead to the left of the wound. I guess they were about the size of, uh, like, an entire eraser from a pencil? Like when you pull it out? Maybe a bit bigger. Anyway- and lining my left jaw was some sort of greenish growth- like barnacles or mold, like an extremely infected wound. My hair was long, unkempt, and greasy/wet. I had to push it out of the way to look at the growth on my jaw and the wound on my forehead. I popped my zits at some point.

I was eventually let out of the bathroom to a spartan (in decoration, not time period), grey room that was apparently part of this navy base. It wasn't so disgusting, and it was a little less dim than the bathroom. I'm apparently let out by Matt Young, an improv guy who's a part of some podcasts I listen to. There with him is the rest of the people who form Improvised Star trek, all in their Star Trek outfits. They're apparently improvising a scene, so I begin to improv with them, and I think I may have even thought that my wounds and stuff were "just improv".

At some point I'm in this green yard in the daytime. Like, we're outside my house, but the yard is much bigger and flatter. Me and some other people are under this white, open, tent/tarp or whatever, and I don't remember what we're doing. These creatures that kinda look like big, stocky, capybara-ish people walk over. I don't know their intent, but one of them comes towards me with open arms. The people I'm with say I shouldn't interact with them, but I'm curious and hopeful. However, it turns out the "open arms" gesture led to picking me up over their shoulder and carrying me off. I call for help and my friends begrudgingly save me.

Aaaand THAT'S the SHORT version!

Morning of December 26, 2015. Saturday.

Dream #: 17,904-02. Reading time: 2 min 26 sec.



I am with my wife Zsuzsanna in the hospital, not due to illness or injury, but we need to fill out numerous documents before the authorities can approve our marriage. It has to do with blood type and other factors. We both have applications to complete. I am annoyed as we have already been in the hospital for at least five days. I am aware of Zsuzsanna’s extraordinary beauty and familiarity in our friendship, yet we are also impatient with hospital staff. I decide that we are going to leave without filling out the last of these papers. I had written an obnoxious response to one question, which I think was all I had written on the document. I fold it up, and we get ready to leave without saying anything to the staff. It seems our examination is partly because of our lack of integration with mainstream culture.

Zsuzsanna (my wife-to-be in this dream) pushes through another patient’s thin curtains that somehow lead to the hospital’s main entrance. She sits down, facing away from the big front window (to the right of the entrance from the inside view). I admire her beauty while I am standing by the hospital’s entrance. She lights a cigarette. I have a false recall she has occasionally smoked before. I am uncertain I could marry a smoker.

My awareness changes. I show off by carrying a long and heavy ladder from the hospital grounds. Many couples are sitting together at small round tables, including several athletes. I shift the ladder to carry it with one finger. Farther to my right is a river or set of railroad tracks or both. I am aware only a few people are looking at me, but I also know that no one else would be able to do what I am doing. I am not sure where I am going, but I feel very happy and assertive.

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In an earlier scene, I am at WWTI in Wisconsin. I do not think I have classes here, but I am exploring the southeast area of the building. It seems to be an auto repair class in the same area it was in real life. (Although I did not go to it in real life, my friend Rick had.) There are classes on two sides of a big (and otherwise unattended) semi-dark room. I think about going to the class on my left, whether or not I am assigned to go, and I seem to in an offset dream. However, I am eventually back in this “mysterious” room in what is likely a “reset.” At this point, I do not feel like going to any classes, assigned or not. Instead, I want to leave through the front entrance (that is somewhat like a machine shop). It seems I may have instinctually sensed my dream’s reset (without fully understanding what it was) so I want to leave the area.

I go to the double glass doors with three black horizontal bars on each pane about halfway up, but they do not fully open. (The bars may relate to a remote or magnetic function, perhaps implying the doors cannot open manually.) There is a set of three double doors in the direction of the public sidewalk, with a space between each set with barely enough room to stand. (It seems the doors might crash into each other, especially if someone let go of the outer ones). I use telekinesis to throw all six doors open at the same time (though with slight difficulty in getting them to remain open at first as they crash into each other without breaking). I confidently walk out of the building.

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My dream recall has been terrible lately. So there'll be no details:

There was some shooting, lots of running. I hid inside a car. A girl I hooked up with years ago was in another car hiding. We met, she was mad at me cause I was apparently killing people. We ran together. There was some more shooting and hiding.

F1 - Its a brightish day and i'm in a carpark. I help some woman with long blond pony-tail with getting stuff into her car.

F2 - Travelling along a tightish tubular tunnel. Along the sides are snakes similar to those in prometheus (alien babies). I feel very threatened and spray acid from a gun at them. They die, melting in a very gory way. Still looking at me with one eye and one melting into just a dark eye socket.

F3 - Still near tunnel, i'm in futuristic train compartment. I need the toilet and find a strange retangular door that opens wahlaa! but am to embarressed to use it.

F4 - In dark classroom watching a video. D & M are sitting back observing. Feeling very nervous. Older kids are there, Na moves but other kid lays sprawled refusing to move. Sit down next to kid slurping a drink. I try and persuade/coerse him to behaviour. All very fraut. Feeling of low self worth.

[Comments]
Underlying feelings still remain regarding work.
Snakes may be symbolic of kundalini supressed by xmas over eating (stomach acid).

Frag1 - famous foorballers outside a glass fronted restaurant. An area with lots of tables, I go over and talk about something,

F2 - In a large school house trying to get away/hide from someone. I fly up onto a low ceiling at back of classroom it is sculpted bumpily like a rockface. I clamber as far up as I can precariously. Something is outside.

F3 - In a stationary cupboard? small room getting paint for George. Loads of forms and handwritten envelopes with nice stamps and wadges of money.
F4 - Zi comes into classroom after lesson to give me pencil sharpener, i am warey of him.

25/12/15: Some pretty detailed dreams .

Dream 1: I was a teenage or twenty-so girl and I started working at a hospital. I walked through a bit of a tiered garden at then walked into the hospital. I got shown around the hospital a bit and then I started working there. After a little while though I started getting a bit suspicious about the hospital, the patients seemed to be held there against their will and it seemed more like an experimental mental asylum than an ordinary hospital. I confronted my supervisor and asked him about it. He got very defensive and threatened me unless I kept silent about this. I agreed, but my conscience wouldn't allow me to keep silent about this so I ran out of the building and tried to get help from the local people. The town I ran out into was sort of like Venice, with tiered layers and canals. I ended up getting dragged into some big boat race along the canals along with almost a hundred other people. I think that if I won the race then I would have the platform to tell everyone about the injustices going on at the hospital. The boats were large yachts with a single mast, everything made out of polished wood, and the canals were extremely crowded with boats jostling each other for position. I'm not sure what happened with the race, but I remember seeing some of the hospital staff chasing after me on the shore.

Dream 2: I went into a cave in a sandy desert, alone. I thought there was nothing in the cave, but I soon found a trapdoor at the back. I climbed through and went down the ladder, and after 20 metres or so A large cavern opened up. There was a huge open area surrounded by red-brown rock with rows and rows of computers and people milling about everywhere. A large screen on the other side of the cavern was partially covered by a large missile, and I realised this was a secret weapons bunker. I heard voices coming from beneath me, so I silently crawled down a bit of the ladder until I came upon a door going into the wall. The door was slightly ajar and inside was a meeting room with half a dozen people in it. 2 of the people were talking about how they had just perfected the nuclear decay ratio and they would be ready to launch the missile in 24 hours. I gasped. this was a nuclear bunker! I clambered back up the ladder and ran out of the cave to try and warn people about the impending disaster.

The scene jumped a little and I was at a McDonalds with a couple of friends, talking with them and trying to figure out what to do. Our plan of action lied with talking with some super powerful guy who was behind a locked door in the McDonalds, but we would have to defeat his minions first before he would allow us to speak with him. I knew that there was a special vial containing 3 fire demons down at the lake, so I ran out to get them. I fished my fingers underneath the water and found the 3 vials, surprised at how easily I had found them. I ran back to the McDonalds and met back up with the others and asked a staff member to let us into the locked room. He begrudgingly agreed, and we walked in full of trepidation. Beyond the door was a small, dark room with a single light bulb illuminating a door on the other side of the room. That door slowly swung open and a horde of ghosts swarmed through. I threw down the vials on the floor, but as they broke some yellow stuff crackled around them and they didn't really form like they were supposed to. Realizing we would be killed if we stayed in there we sprinted out and slammed the door shut. I was really shook up by this, but one of my friends suggested that the radiation I had received in the bunker was messing up the stuff around me. I had begun feeling sick from the effects of radiation poisoning and I knew my time was short.

Luckily, as I walked outside I saw my Chinese teacher and a few of the people from the class. I ran over to them and quickly explained the situation to them, begging the teacher to drive me back to the bunker. He agreed and soon I was back in the cave. My sickness was getting worse and I knew I didn't have much time. I wasn't sure what I was going to do but I started going back down the ladder to the cavern. This time I went all the way down to the ground floor and started sneaking about, hoping to find a main control area. A few scientists in white coats spotted me and started asking some questions. Soon enough an alarm started and I began sprinting towards the missile, hoping to knock it over or something. My head was feeling ready to explode from the sickness and I began stumbling, hoping I could close the distance before I gave out. At some stage before the guards caught me and before I reached the missile however I woke up.

Cold medicine screwed my dreams up, they all bleed together into a soup of nonsense.

I remember me and a group of people we were outside this really old stone mansion. Parts of the home still had wooden interior but it was water damaged and stunk. Someone had purchased the home and I got the feeling they made a big mistake. There seemed to be no roof and while sitting on a swinging bench with some woman, I looked up to see the huge full moon. There was a cabinet with 13 shotguns, and a weird device that was dripping water. When I walked back outside it was day light and I began moving some fallen limbs from nearby trees. I saw that one of the limbs had fallen with a bird house and I started removing the pieces when i heard a hissing and a snake came out. It had been eating the baby birds and was trying to get away. It was about 6 feet long and silver with yellow spots. I tried to chase it, and that's where the dream turned to me being indoors at my parents house and the snake retreated to the spare bedroom.

The next hing I remember was riding around on what looked like a small motorcycle that someone had gotten for Christmas. There was this stranger there and we started talking about cars. I asked her to tell what the fastest stock model Mustang was, and began to tell her about the 1992 Fox body mustang the police used to drive. For some reason I was convinced that this model was the fastest ( probably because I used to have one)

Later in the morning after i had awaken a few times I tried to focus on the target mission of the great pyramids but only briefly did I actually see them, and there was no one there. Diphenhydramine was playing a number on my concentration as I found myself in the weirdest places and not able to stay connected to Egypt....at all. I'll try again tonight.

I was walking through big city. Concrete everywhere... High buildings. I felt lost. I felt gloomy, without connection. There was one young man going after me. He was quiet. I told him some of my thoughts, from time to time, but he was quiet.
Then I found big parkland. I told to young man:Look nowhere anything green, no tree and here, here is big old park. It was like small dense wood growing in concrete jungle. I felt connection to that piece of land. I walked into park... in between the trees. And I saw end of that park. It may be some 200 m afar. And I saw that park was in fact valley. Valley ended with wall of soil, with growing trees on it. And I walked there. I told to young man: This is wonderful do you feel it? Do you hear it? It is as if there is no city close by. Walls of valley were growing higher as I went deeper into valley. I almost wasn't able to see buildings. After a few minutes of slow walking I came to the end of valley. The wall was maybe 30 m high with about 70 degrees slope. It was overgrown by old trees. I didn't hear city anymore. I didn't see city through trees. It was calm. It was quiet. Sun was shining in between trees. And I sat down on roots of big old tree facing the Sun. The starting end of valley we came from had the same slope overgrown by old trees... I felt great. It was joy of balance. I took quietness inside of me. Meditation. No thoughts. Feeling of belonging. The slopes of valley had grown to maybe 100 m high.
Young man, which was following me, was in panic mode. He was thinking that he is trapped there. He ran around in panic.
And I saw myself sitting on air maybe 1 m above roots of tree I was sitting before. There was pale blue aura around my body going into deep violet further away. My eyes were closed. I had strange clothes... like sheets of textile.

Remarks
It started nonlucid. I achieved lucidity when I saw the Valley.

There were two transparent spheres. One had a pink core and another had a green core. Extending from the core to the surface were things that somewhat resembled nerves.

I was hauling a camper from my grandparents' house and an old rusty bike. I was unsure about hauling the camper because I didn't know how but I safely made it to my parents' old house where I used to live and parked it in the laundry room somehow because I wanted to hide it.

I was waiting in a store at a checkout counter which was actually two guys sitting at a computer. I wanted to purchase my items but the cashier guys were just paying attention to the computer so I slowly placed my items on the counter and waited but then one of the guys grabbed me and was about to have sex with me but I jumped up and ran into the living room (sudden change of scene) and told my boyfriend what had just happened. It was like a dream within a dream because I was telling my boyfriend about my dream but I was still dreaming and didn't know it at the time.