false awakening

Drank some beer last evening so no recall until the second half of the night, but wow what a night.

Freaky Room
0652: C. I'm laying in a bed at one end of a long room. It's almost pitch dark. I can just make out the silhouette of some bedroom furniture and I sense there is a doorway at the far end of the room. A creepy little girl is running around the room. Her face glows like a dim candle. As she gets near me I'm a little frightened. Maybe I'm a little lucid because I tell myself this is just a dream and I should just stay calm and watch. The girl giggles and says "Come, you should see!" And then she exits the room through the door. I still haven't moved. Then I see a large man sitting at the far end of the room. His face is also glowing dimly. He stands up and slowly walks toward me at a zombie's pace. As he gets close, he stretches one arm out toward me as if he intends to grab me. I'm afraid and turn away, still laying in the bed. Dream fades.

Bridgette?
0733: C. I'm in a dark room. Seems like a bedroom. There's some light coming through a door near me that leads to a hallway. I think I'm looking for something in a dresser. A girl walks in and asks for my help. At first, she seems to be Bridgette, a very attractive coworker IWL. She's talking about a forum post about collecting all the images from the game loading screens. She's holding a piece of paper and she wants me to burn it for her. I tell her this is a dream. Again, maybe I'm a little lucid but the vividness and control are low. She says, "Oh, I'm dreaming with you?" I get a closer look and she looks Asian, which Bridgette is not. I say, "Yeah, help me take of my shirt." She does but as the shirt lifts over my head it blocks out my vision and the dream ends abruptly.

Kiting Sleep
0830: D. For about 30 minutes, I'm drifting in and out of sleep, false awakenings, wake, and hallucinations. Here's a bunch of fragments, I'm not sure which was which. I'm calling this "kiting" for lack of a known term. Some fragments were lucid, so I'm counting this as one lucid dream.

Watching two people play chess. The person playing white is making illegal moves but no one else notices and I don't say anything.

FA in my own bedroom. I hear music coming from my computer. It's not supposed to be on. I recognize the artist is Jimmy Eat World.

Riding in a car with my father driving. It's his old pickup truck. We are exiting a covered parking lot. Maybe a sports stadium. He's arguing something. I say this is a dream and I'm just going to fly away to avoid him. I try to jump through the roof of the car but fail.

I'm at a store paying for something. I pull out a black Visa card. Supposedly it's a "Visa HILL" card and it's very hard to get so I must be a VIP customer. The cashier is impressed.

My underwear is on backwards.

Sisyphus in Wonderland, Dream Guide?!
0930 A! This was an incredibly weird and memorable lucid dream. It's much more fantasy and strangeness then my average dreams.

FA. I'm in a bedroom. It's mostly dark. The room is arranged a bit like my real room. But there is a TV mounted on the far wall where there shouldn't be. I become lucid early on but my control is poor at the beginning. My father is in the room and we're arguing again. I'm so sick of this recurring theme with my father. I'm aware in the dream that I've already been through this on same night. I tune him out and think what I want to do now that I'm lucid and have some control.

I get outside somehow. It's night outside in a residential neighborhood. But the houses and trees are all cartoonish colors. The trees are purple and blue. The houses are crazy colors like yellow and red. It looks like something out of Dr. Seuss or Alice in Wonderland. But since it's dark, the bright colors aren't as noticeable and it seems somewhat realistic. The street is dimly lit with street lamps and moonlight. I walk in the middle of the street to the corner of the block, still upset and without a plan. At the corner, there is a building that looks like a drive-thru fast-food restaurant. On top of the building is a big neon sign styled in black and white with a font like Corner Bakery. The sign reads "difficulty, inc." which I think is kinda funny.

My father is following me and we start fighting with our bare hands. I try to fly away but he can fly too. My flying sucks today. I can hover fine but I can only thrust by pushing off things for short distances. We're still wrestling in the air and through the neighborhood. After a minute or two I am fed up and just try to fly away. The dream starts to feel unstable. I land next to a brick building with vines growing on the walls. I feel the vines and brick to get some sensory stability. But I still wake up.

I try to DEILD. I'm imagining the same scene, trying to re-enter. I'm about to give up, but I hear my father's voice describing the scene. He says things like "brick wall, restaurant down the street, grassy lawn" and this helps me get back into the scene. As soon as I'm back, I'm fighting with him again. But now I'm just walking away, trying to ignore him. When he gets close, I push him a way and continue walking. I don't want to waste any more of my lucid dream on him so I start spinning to teleport away. I try so hard that I wake up and turn my physical neck. At least I think I was awake. I'm in my bed and stop moving my head.

I try to DEILD again. Again, about 20 seconds pass and I'm about to give up. I'm about to switch to recalling earlier parts of the dream for my journal. But I suddenly feel like I'm going through a tunnel. I'm back in the dream. The edges of the tunnel turn into leaves and I find myself hiding in a bush peeking out through a hole in the leaves. It seems like time is going really fast around me for a few seconds. The tree leaves are rustling and street lamps are twinkling really fast like time-lapse photography. Things slow down to normal. I'm in the same dark cartoonish neighborhood but a different area. I'm in the middle of the quiet street. My father is gone and I'm in the deep in middle of the block where there are just houses, no restaurants or retail buildings.

Phew. Ok. Now, what to do? I start walking down the middle of the street, looking at the crazy colored trees and gingerbread houses. I see an old lady outside. I walk toward her but she enters her front door. I think of Mother Goose. I keep walking and start to see the end of the block in the distance. I see a paint store far off across the intersection that advertises two kinds of paint: "DRIED" and "WET". I think that's pretty funny and congratulate my subconscious for the joke.

Then a short goat-man jumps out at me from the shadow of the trees to my right. I'm startled but he quickly seems friendly. He's about 4 feet tall with goat legs and yellowish-brown fur. I guess he must be Pan from Greek mythology. He asks me what I'm doing. I remember my plan, I'm going to practice teleporting by spinning or opening doors. He says, "Cool! I'll try too!" And he starts spinning like a playful child. I start spinning as fast as I can. The world becomes a blur and unrecognizable. I slow down my I'm still in the same place in the same scene. Hmm, didn't work.

Another character approaches Pan and me. I don't get a good look at him, but I sense he is friendly and familiar. He says, "There's a portal in the boat" and points toward the nearest house. Later, recalling the dream, I think that maybe this character might have been my Dream Guide! I still don't recall what he looked like. Somehow though, I was left with three separate vague impressions: A man-size yellow dinosaur (think Barney), Homestar Runner, and Ronald McDonald. I lead the way as the three of us walk up to the house he pointed out. It's yellow with red trim. It looks like a life-size gingerbread house or a cartoonish McDonald's. The front door is only about 3 feet high and I get a strong Alice in Wonderland feeling.

I'm puzzled. This is a house, not a boat. There's a lunchbox next to the front door. I bend over to look at it. "Is this what I'm looking for?" No, I sense my DG gesturing into the house. I look in a window where I can see through to the backyard. I stoop down and we all walk through the small house to the backyard. In the middle of a small patch of grass, there's an inflatable kiddie pool with a plastic toy boat floating. Okay, this must be the boat but where's the portal and how I am supposed to get in such a small boat? DG says exactly what I'm thinking: "Shrink down to size." Okay, never done that before. I bend over to get a closer look at the boat and see a USB port on it with some text printed under it. I squint to read the words. My alarm goes off and wakes me up.

October 2, 2010

Asleep somewhere between 3:30-4:00am

Waterpark
I vaguely recall visiting this waterpark by myself, earlier in the dream, but the solid recollection starts with mum and I visiting together. Earlier, I remember being able to just walk into the change rooms, but it was busy today. We lined up, and it was mum's turn to go in.... the one that was free had a large gap between the end of the door and the wall. Mum was uncomfortable with this, but I told her to hurry up, there's a line up. She slid the lock mechanism across to secure the door... it was surprisingly quite long.

Gloomy school
I saw Mike outside, and he wanted to hang out. I told him I have class right now. He mentioned he does too, but he's out at 4:30. I'm out at 5:00 if he doesn't mind waiting. We agree to meet after school. I decided to take a short cut entrance to get to my classes, since I was late.

The school was very dark and gloomy. It was gothic in structure and colouring. To get to this door I wanted to use, I had to creep along the second floor edging of the building. I reached the door and noticed it was small-ish. Undeterred, I opened it to find another door. This went on for about 3 more doors. When it finally opened, it was no bigger than a mail slot. Only paper can fit through here, how am I supposed to!

I remember going back across the edging to use a proper door, but the dream faded at this point.

Field fragment
I'm running through a field and I notice many different colours of spiders sitting on the grass. I hope they don't jump on me as I continue running.

WBTB at 11:00am-ish. Natural wake up. Hadn't meant to do one, though, so, it was really just a washroom trip, but I thought about the previous dreams, and that I should've noticed the mail slot door and the changing room door as dream signs. Back to bed, I decided to use the first couple of WILDing steps to put me out. When I started feeling that heavy SP feeling, I rolled over and thought "This is a dream" as I passed out.

Cute pet! - Lucid - 3/5
I had this pet cat that kept bumping me on the nose to wake me up. But, instead of getting up, I cuddled with it and went back to sleep. I remember being in a group of people, and talking with mu, but this part is kind of fuzzy. But during this point I had gradually become lucid. I left the group with mu and I wanted to show him the gloomy school from a previous dream, cos I bet it'd be haunted. We flew to what looked like the scene from my previous dream, but the school was just a hill-mound.

"That doesn't look quite right," I told mu. "It should be here, it was dark."

I tried to see the building in my mind's eye, and the hill started to morph into the school. It still didn't really work, and I gave up. I decided to teleport to somewhere else by closing my eyes and snapping my fingers, but I don't recommend doing this without a destination in mind. The dream "ended."

False awakening. My nose got bumped by my non-existent cat, again. I remembered this happening before, and decided to RC (nose pinch) I could breathe! Remembering that getting out of bed tends to wake me up (remembered this conversation from chat last night), I decided to teleport out of my bed, instead ( I wasn't supposed to teleport, I was supposed to WILD!). I closed my eyes and snapped my fingers again (again, no destination). Oops... I could still feel myself floating, half in the dream, half awake. I tried to imagine myself floating outside my window, which kind of worked, but then Jack woke up, which caused me to wake up.

The Truck
I'm outside, talking with some DC friends, in a field. There's a bike path running through the field, and farther off in the distance are cars. But I still let Buttons, my dog, off her leash, because she was good at coming back when called (IRL, she never was, lol). Buttons was across the path, visiting with a group of people there, when this massive truck swerved onto the bike path, and barreled straight at me. It then changed direction, and was heading for my dog. Paralyzed, I couldn't move. But it swerved again, missing Buttons by inches and drove off. I picked up my dog and held her close as the dream ended.

Restful, but light sleep this night with many short interrupted dreams. The lucids are barely worth counting. I'm giving myself credit for at least recognizing some dreamsigns that made me lucid.

Food and Robots
0523 C. Hazy and jumpy. Two girls are competing for my attention. We are in a two story house. I'm resting on the couch on the first floor watching a boy singer who might be a robot. One girl is on the first floor and the other on the second. They are both cooking things for me. One cooks a steak but it looks like a big raw beef roast. Around it she puts a bunch of small Philly-style cheesesteak sandwiches. The other girl made something too but the first girl blocked her from showing me. I go to the bathroom and I think the second girl meets me in there to tries to tell me something. Something about the cartoon charactor Lisa Simpson. Maybe she is Lisa. Then the boy robot singer starts singing again but he's terrible. The first girls is upset about this: "Did you reset the game back to beginning?!"

Meanwhile, I recall cut scenes in between my plot to a different character. It's a guy pretending to be a robot. He's dressed a bit like the Tinman from Wizard of Oz but really skinny. He's trying to blend in with other robots that all look that same. The robots greet him in a robotic voice (think the infantry droids from Star Wars) saying "Left-hand side of you." To which he is supposed to salute his right arm across to his left side. Then "Right-hand side of you" and salute with other arm. The pretend robot catches on to this greeting and fools the other robots. At one point he is drinking from a water fountain. I sense he is my friend.

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0654 D. Short dream. Not sure what to make of my notes: I'm baking a special bread that will make me lucid. Carry inside my body? The Simpsons.

WBTB+MILD 10 minutes

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0748: D. I'm Homer Simpson and I'm practicing MILD. I go into a dream world with simple geometric-shaped objects like Tron. I'm being chased by men in suits with pistols like the agents from The Matrix. I can stop their bullets just like Neo.

Trouble sleeping, turned it into a WBTB+meditation and reading DV for about an hour total

False Awakening Chain
1018 C. This was about 20 minutes of false awakenings. In my own room. I can see through my sleep mask. I see my desk and alarm clock in the wrong place across the room. I'm lucid but can barely move my arms and legs. I manage to sit up in bed. At this point IWL, the garbage truck shows up and makes a loud banging noise about every five minutes. Each time, this either wakes me up or triggers an FA. Some times I could move my arms to nose-plug and I was awake. Other times I couldn't move my arms. I'm unsure how many times it happened but I recall a couple more lucid periods.

False awakening. I can see but the view is dark and blurry. I sense a small dog jump on my bed to my left. He gets close to my face and I can feel the heat of his breath. I can't move to look at him. I'm just trying to be patient for the scene to solidify. The dog starts growling. Interrupted by noise.

False awakening. I'm laying on my back and can't move my body. I can tilt my head down and look at my body. My view looks like an X-ray image highlighted with electric blue. A blue line extends along my body like my spine but continues all the way down to between my feet.

Eventually, I reach a real wakening and give up on this futile chain so I can note it in my journal.

False Awakening, Dreamsign
1044: C. Another false awakening. I can see through my sleep mask. I notice my bedroom door is open when it shouldn't be. I hear my roommate in the next room, whisking eggs I think. I can't move.

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1000: F. I recalled this dream after/inside the dream that followed it all I remember is a fragment. A blond man?

Doomsday Program, Customer Complaint
1114: D. Really jumping with very short and fast scene cuts. I'm at work. I woman comes in and tells me I have to get out fast. It's like near the beginning of The Matrix when Neo needs to sneak out of his office. The woman leads me to a car and I'm driving. We are chased by some bad guys. I tell her to reach in the back seat and grab a special cell phone. I tell her to dial a special sequence of numbers. She does and it activates a doomsday program. We are on a bridge over water and parts of it collapse but the section we are on is intact. Buildings around in the distance all blow up and collapse. The bad guy car can't follow us but we're stuck on this section of bridge.

Cut to what feels like a ransom exchange with the bad guys. I hand a guy a brief case. He looks like Andy Garcia's character in Ocean's Eleven. He hands it to another guy who then runs along a the bridge cable but there's no bridge.

Cut to a big warehouse building with a dirt floor. I have my shirt off and I'm fighting the bad guys gladiator style. One of them is still the Andy Garcia character.

Cut back to me at work. I'm dozing on a couch in the kitchen (not real IWL). I keep thinking of the previous dream about the blond man. I'm trying to keep it in my mind so I can recall it later. I look up at the bulletin board and see a red poster with a very angry customer support email complaint on it. Something about a guy who lost his credits after they went over 4000. I ask, "Hey, has anyone looked into this?" A co-worker (IWL he's just an artist) gets angry at me. He says it would be so easy to look up the guy's account and he describes the few keystrokes that it would take. But he says he knows it's probably just a fraudulent claim and it's a waste of time. He's angry at me because he thinks I care too much and it's a waste of time. I'm taken aback my this.

01.10.2010

D Riding Motorbike (Non-lucid)
01/10/10
NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I went to sleep. Didn't try to wild. Just fell on the bed and sleep.
I 've seen many things but i recall only the last dream right now.
I wake up (first false awakening) and get ready to go to school (i finished school 2 years ago). I see a text message on my cellphone. It's a friend D. He asks me if i can pick him up to go to school. So i go to pick him up. I recall he told me he would be waiting in a specific adress, which i don't think even exists, but i knew the way there. So i am driving and then i pull over to pick him up. He told me something like "Why did you come to pick me by car?". So all of a sudden, i am riding a motorbike (wtf?). So he sits in front but i still hold the steering wheel (not sure i use the right word :p). So i say "whatever, you can drive". D: "are you sure". me: "yeah". D: "wooohoooo". He speeds up, making a one-wheel thing, but we were on higher level than the road. So the bike lands on the front wheel and we fall down. When we get up, there is a pretty big police motorbike stopped in front of us and a cop on it. So D is like "wow i hope he didn't see us. I got no lisense". I was scared he would arrest us or sth. :p We ride the bike (with me driving this time) and try to pass him, but he stops us "Lisense please". The next thing i remember is him, running some checks on my lisense and seeing some numbers on it. I can recall there were many "nines". Then i woke up.

29.09.2010

Septemeber Basic ToTM Completion (DILD)

★★☆☆☆

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Two people of questionable intent and origin accosted me after I went lucid. Here to ensure I kept my end of the bargain (which I made in my last lucid with some dude while everything was destabilizing), they began their tests. For my first "lesson," they escorted me to an elevator, and the woman stepped inside. Then they took my body away.

Left with nothing but a single perspective and my consciousness, my first task was to maneuver my way in front of the elevator with no legs, no feet, no physical self whatsoever. Great. Using miniature jumps in perspective, similar to teleportation, I was eventually able to work my way into position. The woman inside smiled as the elevator doors closed in front of me. Erm, I thought, as I easily opened them with a burst of will, wiping the smile from her face. My body was returned to me.

With all of us now inside, the man in their pair informed me my next test will be one on movement. As the elevator rose up, my sense of gravity in relation to the floor started gyrating. It threw me off balance for a moment, but I quickly positioned myself in the center of the elevator and began methodically twirling about, adjusting my footing as the spinning continued. The suited pair, standing off in the leftmost rear corner, was not amused. "What?" I state, "This is normal elevator behavior for me."

The elevator doors opened, and we made our way out into some kind of. . . social gathering? Well-dressed adults sat at benches and tables, while equally well-dressed children frolicked about the well-lit skylight room. Sure enough, they had another task lined up for me. . .

September 29, 2010

G/C

Asleep by 1:00am.

WBTB at 4:00am. Took 8/400 G/C and this sleep aid called Melissa, which is 900mg lemon balm, 180mg l-theanine and a combo of B-vitamins. Ate a small 100-calorie bag of baked Cheetos to help swallow everything. Back to bed.

My recall is kind of low, because I didn't experience much in the way of dreams. Everything tipped off with an INRALD. I was laying in bed, listening to Jack breathing next to me (which made me think I was awake). I also thought I heard my dad thumping around upstairs, getting ready for work. Regardless, I heard ringing in my ears... the volume would sometimes jump. I relaxed and saw a swirly void behind my eye lids. When I focused on it the first time, I felt my body whoosh into a full on SP transition. The noises got louder and my entire body felt like it was buzzing. It subsided, but the swirly was still there, so I focused on it again, and the same experience happened again.

Tentatively, I wondered if I was asleep, but kind of lost myself, and drifted off a bit. I felt a book at my feet. I don't remember falling asleep with a book on my bed, but I guess I did? I pushed the book off my bed, gently, so it wouldn't slam to the floor. I realized my head felt kind of voidy, so I decided to reality check by biting my tongue. My tongue didn't feel any sharp piercing where it should (since I use that pointier tooth that sits next to the first molar)... I tried biting a few times, and it was the same. I knew now that I was asleep, but I decided to nose pinch. First time, I could breathe, second time, I could breathe. Sweet, alright. Now to move. The SP was still kind of strong, so I started moving with my ankles first, but unfortunately, it woke me up

I tried to fall back to sleep, but couldn't, as my dad actually was getting ready for work at this point

About 6:20 I decided to move to the couch for a bit, and by 6:40 I was waking up more, so I took a half-mg of melatonin and passed out at some point.

I had a series of false awakenings again. Each one, I tried to catch by biting my tongue, but each time it hurt like it should have, so I missed them all But at the same time, I knew that it was a false awakening, throughout the whole thing... it may have just been low-level lucidity. It's kind of confusing.

I had a dream that Jack was cleaning up our apartment. I noticed our bedroom door was closed. I opened it, and there were boxes piled about shoulder-height to me (I'm 5'2"). I went to our kitchen, and everything had been cleaned out. Except there were leaves covering the floor (probably because I was watching Glee last night, and one of the music scenes had leaves all over the floor).

Another dream, Joe's sister, Becky was at my house for some reason. I don't remember much about that.

I remember being at work, and trying to follow my family. I was trying to leave through the loading dock door. Each time, I would open it partially, and attempt to duck under the door as it was closing, but before I could even set the door in close motion, it would fall shut on its own. I finally got out, and I noticed some dodgy teens in the alley. I started jogging, and they didn't want anything to do with me.

Overall, I don't think I'll do 8/400 again. The night wasn't too much different than the first time I did 4/200, but this time, I woke up with a massive headache and I feel a bit nauseous.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID FALSE AWAKENING NIGHTLY ADVENTURE

Good morning. Didn't recall any dreams in two days, but tonight was a big success! I woke up at 9.00 and did a WBTB. Went to bed again at 9.45 after some breakfast, and the dreaming started. I also had my first annoying session of False Awakenings. It wasn't as fun as I thought it was, but still I'm glad! I will now start doing Reality Checks everytime I wake up.

Nightly Adventure - The walls are caving in
I wake up and get on my feet in an instant quick jump. The walls are caving in! I start yelling "Oh shit, oh shit!" While holding my hands out towards them. With telekinetic powers I manage to stabilize one of the walls, but the other one is still instable. I look real closely to make sure this isn't my imagination, and sure enough, the wall is full of cracks and it's swaying. I decide to try to control the telekinesis without using my hand and I put it down. "Baby... What are you doing?" Monica asks from beneath in a tired voice. The walls are finally stable and we're safe. I go take a piss.

Nightly Adventure - End of the world
The world is ending. I don't know why but I decided I needed my snowboard for this. I get out of bed and walk up to it where it's hanging on the wall. My waterpipe is in the way, on the shelf below so I decide to take it down first. There's alot of stuff on that shelf and a deck of cards fall to the floor. "What are you doing now?" Monica asks. "It's okay, I just gotta fix this" I tell her. Suddenly I wake up for real, and put the waterpipe back in place.

9.00: 45 minutes WBTB

11.45: Scared babysitter
I'm at my parents house and apparently I'm babysitting two kids. I don't know the kids and I'm very jumpy. The little boy runs upstairs and I follow him. I tell him that he can't just run off like that. We're standing at the top of the stairs and I look down. Suddenly a girl shows up, and I scream in terror. She looks up at me and starts crying. I realise it's the girl I'm babysitting and I comfort her. Not only am I babysitting two kids, but also a few pets. Including a small rodent. The door opens and my mom comes back home. The little rat sneaks out and I chase it down. Outside I see several other animals, including a huge possum, a few dogs and a cat. They all try to sneak back inside and I try to stop them. It's all very frustrating. When we're back inside I try to explain everything to my mom, but she's totally ignoring me. So is everyone else and I scream out loud for a few seconds in frustration.

11.45: Chasing Harry Potter
I'm a flying observer of some kind, and I'm watching Harry Potter and his friend Ron run for their lives. A bunch of people are chasing them through the city of Stockholm, and they're in the older quarters. They reach a cliff overlooking the water and jump in. With magic they alternate between flying and gliding on the water and they enter a canal. They start shooting red sparks with their wands on the nearby mountain walls and try to bring some of it down for some reason. I decide to stop caring about them and look around some. The feeling of flying is awesome as usual, but the view is even more so. The canal disappear into the city and on its sides are old houses. It's all very beautiful.

11.45: Travelling
I wake up on a bus. I've been sleeping, trying to achieve a lucid dream. (so close to realising I'm in one already!) The driver asks me if I had a nice nap, and I tell him it was ok, but I didn't accomplish my goal. I check the time and realise I only have 10 more minutes before the bus will reach its destination. I'm in a seat facing backwards. The driver calls out in the speakers. "Seems like we got a sleepy head on the bus" and everyone starts laughing at me. I drop my headphones on the floor, and Monica helps me retrieve them. They roll around and I drop them several more times before I finally get a proper hold on them. We arrive at a customs of some sort and after some time, we enter a building.

I walk around the building with my luggage and an Australian man comes up to me with two of his kids and ask me something. I drool on his leg for some reason, and they take off. I run into the bathroom of the place and splashes my face with water. "God damnit, what about hepatitus B?" I think for myself. "Wait a minute... We haven't even been on a plane yet, we must still be at home" I leave the bathroom and end up sitting in a corridor, waiting for the plane to depart or something. A woman in a phonebooth tells me she will freak out if the phone doesn't work this time. "I've put in as much money as possible" Ofcourse it doesn't work and she starts screaming at it. I get up and leave.

I enter a restaurant and I find a Linus from work sitting at a low table in a sofa. "Hey Matteh! Come over here" he tells me and I walk over. I take a look at what he's eating. It appears to be some kind of dessert made of chopped up, roasted almonds, cream and alot of colourful fruits. It looks delicious, but doesn't taste very much I notice after taking a bite. One of the chefs comes over with another plate. It looks like a paella of some kind with mussles and rice. He also puts a glass filled with some white liquid on the table. I ask him what's in it. "Cream, milk and a few spiders" he tells me. I can see the six or seven small black spiders in it, and they are sinking into the milk, one by one. When all the spiders have disappeared, the liquid in it starts bubbling like crazy and it turns transparent. The spiders in it turns into slices of starfruit with a touch of red. "Awesome!" I exclaim.



13.00: False Awakenings
I wake up in my bed, and I think about what I've dreamt. I decide to write some of it down but something's not right... The light is totally messed up and Monica isn't here. I wake up. Monica is next to me this time, and I put a hand on her ass. "Damn that was a False Awakening" I think for myself while lying there, trying to remember what I've dreamt. I wake up. This time Monica isn't there, and I remember why: She's at work. I count my fingers and pinch my nose and try to breathe. Nope this time I'm awake for real...

13.50: Unstable shop
I enter a shop of some sort, and the entire shop is vibrating. I enter a small room and I can see thousands of cans of coke. I shut the door and a woman walks up to me. "You can't enter there! You have to be careful, or the whole place will colapse!" She's really freaking out, but I'm not the least worried. I calm her down.

13.50: Smart girls know when you're lying
I'm in a car with some girl. She's driving and somehow I have to explain what I've done recently to her. I make up a story and try to convince her. She knows I'm lying straight away, and tells me to tell her the truth (I think she was my wife or something). I tell her the truth. "I stabbed a man to death" I can recall doing so, a knife to the back. "Come on! Tell me the truth! Now you're just rambling" she tells me and I sigh.

13.50: Fragment
*Something about my electric bill being over 500kr.

Amount of sleep: 11 hours

Food before bed: 1 can of mackerell, 2 eggs, 20cl applejuice, 30cl protein shake, 1 omega-3 pill, 100mg B6.

9.15: Porridge, 15cl applejuice, 1 omega-3 pill, 50mg B6

That's it! One hell of a night. I thank the B6 for that. I don't really know how effective B6 is. But I think it amplifies dream recall and vividness, and if you have a bad night, B6 won't help. That's what I think.

Keep on dreaming, HARE BRA!

I woke up around 9.30 and decided that I would have an LD if I could just fall asleep again. Didn't do any MILD or VILD techniques really, and couldn't even remember any previous dreams from that night, but somehow I still felt certain that it would work. At some point I must've fallen asleep, can't remember having any other dreams before the first LD.

1. I'm in my room in my new house (or something similar), as usual just knowing that I'm dreaming. I do the nose pinch RC just to be sure, and get up. As it dawns on me that I'm having another LD, I have to concentrate not to get too excited and wake up. As I walk around the house, I keep rubbing my hands and doing RCs to stabilize. I then go outside. I'm not really outside my house, I'm in a street of an unknown city, with a park straight in front of me, and DCs walking around. I keep telling myself out loud that I'm dreaming, and that this is all my creation. I walk around for a little while, just looking at all the people. I walk over to the park and feel the grass. I can now feel my eyes getting shut and the dream fade away, but I do not panic. I feel that this may just be a false awakening, since I had something similar happen to me just a couple of nights ago.

2. I realise I'm awake, by the nose-pinch. Get up again. On the way out I do the finger-through-palm RC, which is now really disgusting cause the hand is covered in blood. I get out there, and I try to fly. I get up maybe 50 meters in the air, and have the most amazing view. It really is incredible, the whole world is in front of me, under a beautiful blue sky. I fall down again, and decide not to try that again any more. I try to run, but it's like my feet are dragging through syrup. Instead I walk over to the park, where there's a lot of students or hippies. I speak to them briefly, I then ask if there's a lift somewhere nearby, because I want to do task of the month. I think to myself if maybe it's too late, but realise it's the 28th. I think to myself, "there should be a lift around the corner, on the side of this rock. When I get there, there's a big door, but it doesn't lead in to a lift. I walk in to it anyway to see if there's any buttons, but there's none. I go out again and try to summon something, but wake up from the concentration. Or FA, that is.

3. Once again I'm in darkness first, and realize I'm not awake, just having an FA, or the end of a dream. I just wait for a while, then do the nose-pinch and open my eyes. I walk out in the corridoor, still not 100% sure that I'm dreaming. I don't wanna wake up my housemates by talking loud because I think I'm dreaming, so I do the finger-through-palm. Goes straight through of course, so I celebrate by smashing up my housemate's Xbox. I then go outside again.Still the same park. This time I'm thinking maybe dream sex, so I start looking for a good partner. Can't find anyone, and my eyes are forced shut again. Another FA.

4. This time I let the dream just manifest itself around me, as I remember from the DEILD guide. I'm now already outside. I see a man sitting on a bench with a small dog in his lap. I go over to him and play with his dog for a little while. I then say "did you know this is just a dream?". He looks at me with a strange look in his eyes, and silently shakes his head. "Yeah, I'm dreaming you see, and you are only a figment of my imagination. How does that make you feel?". He just looks at me with quite a sad look in his eyes, as if it saddens him that he's not really real. I don't really feel for him, as I know that he's not a person at all, just my subconscious trying to make me feel bad. I look at his very strange glasses and wonder about just stealing them, but I loose interest and walk to the park instead.
I can't remember excactly what happens here, but there's yet another FA, where I'm still in no doubt that I'm dreaming.

5. This time it's time for sex, even though that's a stupid decision and I know it. Before I go anywhere I start to realise that I may not remember all of my fantastic LD stuff though, so I try to summarise what I've done. I also do have a feeling that attempting dream sex might wake me up, but I'm fine with it. I then get out and look for a partner around town. I find her, not all that amazing, but good enough. Rest is not that great tbh, and I wake up for real in the middle. I don't mind really, it's time to just feel good about having had half an hour of LDs, and write it all down. Looking at the time, it seems like the total LD time must've been around 30 minutes, which is a new record

DJ Log: September 26, 2010 – Morning, 8:15AM (USA Eastern)
Text color legend: · NON-DREAM · NOTES · DREAM · LUCID ·

(Note: Before going to bed around 12:30AM, I smoked a pipe full of Calea Zacatechichi, took 800mg Piracetam, 500mg L-Tryptophan, and 40mg Ginkgo Biloba with a full glass of apple juice. During WBTB around 4:15AM, I smoked 2 cigarettes of Calea Zacatechichi and took 8mg Galantamine, 400mg Choline Bitartrate, and 300mg Alpha-GPC with a full glass of apple juice. I attempted to WILD, but gave up because some part of my body would twitch, or I would feel like a bug was walking on me which caused me to move and ruin the oncoming SP. This happened twice, but there were no bugs.)

Airplane ride #1
(Note: This is a fragment, probably lost a lot of detail in this one due to the amount of time I spent logging the next dream. I wish I had better recall of this one because I've never been on an airplane in a dream before.)

I boarded an airplane and flew for quite a while. The plane landed and I walk through the airport, looking for baggage claim. After getting my bags, I started to look for the exit door.

A huge hotel room and a covert operation. #2
(Note: I'm fairly certain that I awakened momentarily and re-entered the same dream, or it could have been a FA. This second part is quite possibly my most vivid dream to date. I also had more control than I usually do during the moments I was lucid, not to mention that I was able to complete one of my long-term dream goals. Stabilization was super quick and remained rock solid, with the exception of a brief moment that was quickly recovered from. My recall lost some of the environmental details, as I was paying close attention to the clearly understood technical details in this dream.)

I am checking into a hotel room, after getting off a long flight. My brother is also checking into a room just down the hall. Upon entering the room, I could tell that someone had been there before. There is a piece of luggage and some clothes laying around. The room is huge and had a full kitchen, two separate bedrooms, and a huge living room. There is a long hallway that connects all of the rooms, which have no doors on them. There are also several doors along the hallway. The living room has a full entertainment center with a very large flat-screen TV and a surround sound system. There are at least a dozen remote controls sitting on the table in front of the couch. I walk down the hallway and into the bedroom, where I put my luggage on the bed. The bed is a king size water bed with black satin sheets and huge fluffy pillows. I look at my AAA club card and smile, knowing I got a good deal on this room. I leave the bedroom and go to the door across the hallway. Opening the door reveals a garage bay with an old taxi cab sitting in the space. I ask myself, "Why would there be a garage in a hotel room? This is ridiculous. I must be dreaming!"

I open the door of the taxi and climb in to look around inside. The interior smells musty like an old car. I found an older digital camera sitting on the rear deck. When I turn on the camera, the lens motor is broken and will not deploy/retract the lens. I give the lens a tug and it comes out properly. I point the camera out the window and it has a difficult time focusing. Moving the lens around manually fixes the focus problem. I take a couple of pictures, then point it at the dash of the taxi and take another picture to make sure the focus motor is working correctly. I turn off the camera and the lens retracts properly. The camera works perfectly when I turn it on again and take another picture. I stuff the camera in my jacket pocket and walk back into the room, realizing that I had just completed one of my long-term dream goals. I stop and stabilize for a moment by looking at the ground and closing my eyes, then run down the hall to my brother's room and told him that I had just fixed this camera. He didn't seem too excited. I explain that I just accomplished one of my long-term dream goals by doing this. He is still not too excited, so I give up trying to explain and return to my room.

I am digging around in the bedroom and find some clothes on the floor beside the bed. I find a couple of black and gray striped Zentai suits that are made from a super soft and stretchy fabric.

I examine them for a bit, then place them on the bed. Digging further reveals a set of black cycling bib-shorts, cycling jersey, arm warmers, and a pair of cycling shoes. There are some other clothes on the floor, but I seem to be only interested in the soft stretchy ones. I immediately took my clothes off and put on one of the Zentai suits. The Zentai is very tight and feels amazingly soft and stretchy, just like a second skin. There is a medium tan tweed cloth suitcase sitting under a computer desk along the wall. Behind it is a huge camera bag with some various electronic equipment laying around it. I pick up the camera bag and find that it is empty. I felt the dream fading and could feel that my arm is going numb under my pillow in real life, so I concentrated on where I was just at and opened my eyes.

(Note: I lose my lucidity at this point, but the dream remains extremely vivid. There is a large time gap in the dream here.)

I walk into the kitchen and find a machine that appears to be a portable dishwasher for baby bottles. It had a small rack in it, a heating coil in the bottom and a hose with a hookup to fit a kitchen faucet. There is a window in the door and a control panel with lots of buttons. It is about the size of a large toaster oven. I push a button on the front panel and it starts to fill up with water. After a moment, it starts sloshing the water around and the heating coil heats up. I pressed another button and more water squirted into the machine, filling it slightly above the bottom of the window. I find this quite boring and walk away.

The kitchen sink has two small cabinet doors above it. To the right is some counter space and an over-sized bread box with two large cabinet doors above. The stove is a gas stove with two small cabinet doors above it. The range hood has a lot of extra buttons and switches on it. There is something that just doesn't look right about the cabinets between the kitchen sink and stove. I try to open the doors, but they will not open. I become irritated that the doors will not open and bang on them with my hand. One of the doors falls off and reveals a lot of electronic equipment hidden behind the doors. There is a video camera with some strange adapters on the lens. The adapters connect to a pipe that goes outside through the wall. I unscrew the adapter and lower the camera to the counter. The adapter has the brand name "Olympus" on it. I unscrew and remove the other half of the adapter to reveal the pipe through the wall. I look through the pipe and I could see the courtyard outside the room. There is a large green grassy area with a couple if sidewalks going around a fountain. Short bushes lined the sidewalks, and there were a few small ornamental trees. A couple of DCs in the courtyard immediately stop whatever they are doing and stare at me through the pipe. Directly across the courtyard, I could see a similar pipe with a lens installed in another room. I asked myself, "This is crazy, am I dreaming or something?" I unplug the cables from the camera and trace them back into the next cabinet where they connect to a Harris AN/PRC-117F military two-way radio.

I cannot read anything on the display, as the numbers are scrolling like a slot machine. I unscrew the connector from the radio and pull the cable out. I fish a couple more cables out of the cabinets and place them all on the counter with the camera. Directly under the radio is a Harris VRC-104 RF amplifier. The antenna cables from this amplifier go into the cabinet above the sink. There are two directional antennas on the cabinet doors, which point directly to the other room across the courtyard. One of the antennas has a label that says "440 MHz, 39 dBi" and other antenna says "2.2 GHz." I disconnect the antennas and the rest of the cables from the two-way radio and place them all on the counter. I thought to myself, "How am I going to fit all of this stuff in my luggage when I have to catch my flight out of here?"

I walk back into the bedroom to grab the luggage and start filling it with all of this equipment. When I walk back the hallway, everything quickly fades to black. I can hear the echo of my own voice yelling, “Stabilize now!”, but it is too late. This was the dream's exit.

Hello I just can't stop laughing. Yesterday, after partying around with my friends (which I unfortunately don't see often enough) I had a few dream fragments which again seemed so real, that I didn't realized that it were just dreams

1. I'm with my friends in my favourite pub (although that night I wasn't there). I fell really drunk, like it was reality: Everything spun a bit, I had trouble to stand etc. Although I was drunk, I saw every single detail, I remember that all lights were on, it was so bright and clear, just like a film in HD. I stand next to the bar and listen to what my friends are saying. Suddenly the barkeeper gives me a beer. I'm confused, because I didn't order anything. Or least I didn't remember. The barkeeper wanted that I pay my beer, because he knew that I ordered it. And instead of arguing with the barkeeper, I took my purse and tried to grab a few €. But I lose a few of them and they end up lying on the ground. I stand up, I feel really dizzy, I concentrate to not fall and finally pick them up.
2. Suddenly I'm on the back seat of my own car. A friend of mine drives my car, another friend sits in the passenger seat. I don't know how I got there but I thought that I just fall asleep for a few minutes. (haha false awakening). My friends are trying my CD's. They complained that my music is creepy, but I didn't listen at them and started singing a few lines. So they changed at least 5 times the CD's. They stopped at one song: Baby when the lights (David Guetta). They complained that it is such a crappy song. But they don't change the song and start making fun of it. Suddenly, there are screens everywhere who show the videoclip of this song. The song changes and doesn't go like the original song. I'm a bit confused of it.

I awake and it's 4 am. I do a RC, I'm definitely not dreaming and fall asleep again.

3. I'm in a bar. There aren't my friends any more but my mum is there I'm really confused. She orders something to drink: I get a soda and she a beer I don't know what to say. I take my soda and she disappears. The barkeeper comes towards me, my soda has gone and he gives me a towel. I have to clean the bar. I have to give him all the empty glasses, but I never give him those which he wanted. I don't know what happens after: I can just remember that there were tickets for a plane or a train....

4. Another fragment (I just scribbled down a few words) which I don't remember involves an elevator and a reception.

Well that's pretty much of it.

Experimenting with some dream titles to break up the wall of text a bit.

0230: F. Two sentences of illegible notes.

Birthday Girl, Bro Code
0337: C. Even in a dream, I obey the bro code. I'm at a girl's birthday party. I came with Lance. It's indoors at a house. There are about a dozen people there. It's dark outside and mostly dark inside. Lance and I pull the birthday girl aside to give her the gifts, so the three of us are alone in a dark room. Lance forgot to bring a gift, but luckily I brought two. I say they are from both of us.

The birthday girl has short black hair. She's tall and pretty. She's wearing a dress. She opens the presents. One is wrapped in purple, the other in yellow. Yellow is her favorite color? I don't remember what the gifts are but she really likes them and is very happy. She starts making out with both of us. (Not the arrangement I had planned for my first threesome, but whatever) As things get heated, it's clear the girl is more interested in me. She pulls off my pants and ignores Lance. Lance gets up and paces around the room upset. He keeps saying "That's not cool." I stop her and get up. She wants me to come back. I leave with Lance.

Hell Is An Amusement Park Line
0510: C. I need to raise half a million dollars, fast. Maybe I'm in debt to a loan shark.

Scene change. I'm in purgatory. I guess I'm dead. I'm waiting in line to be judged to go to heaven or hell. The focus changes to someone else, like I'm watching the movie of some else's life. The main character is a man who died while trying to solve a crime. He's destined to go to heaven, but he chooses the go to hell instead. He hopes he can find more information in hell to solve the crime. I think that's heroic. His partner tries to stop him and says he's crazy. Our hero says he's from San Francisco. Somehow that makes sense to the partner and lets him go.

Scene change. Now it's hell. People come sliding down a big ramp into a large red cavern crowded with people. It's lit by flames and it's fairly bright. Our hero comes sliding down. The focus switches back to me in first-person. I'm already in hell when the hero arrives. In hell, everyone is standing in tight groups in little pens formed by metal railings. It's just like waiting in line for an amusement park ride. I'm standing near some elementary school classmates and they are talking on and on about boring stuff. I think, this IS torture. I think that's funny.

I yell to someone who just arrives down the slide. "Hey, I hope you can come up with the money, by the way. Just because I'm dead doesn't mean I don't have bills to pay. But it's not like I can do anything about it from down here."

Birthday Gifts, Annoying Ice Cream Girl
0716: C. I'm indoors in an unfamiliar place but I get the impression that it's my own bedroom in a house. Apparently, it's my birthday. I'm unwrapping presents. Most of the presents are children's toys like dolls and figurines. My sister gives me a new Blackberry. I walk across the room to plug it in to charge. Another gift is D&D-like role playing game. Hugh wants to play so I unfold the map across the floor. I remark how big the map is. It's about 6 feet by 3 feet.

Scene change. I'm in a outdoor mall in a food court. I'm wearing a blue shirt with faded white lettering that says "BIRTHDAY TODDLER." Everyone is gone except Hugh, but he starts walking away leaving me alone. There are other random people in the food court though. A girl from the crowd walks up to me. I'm not attracted to her. She says she want to satisfy some urges and then walks away somewhere, as if to go fetch something that she will bring back to me. I feel awkward. Another girl walks up to me. This one is attractive and I want to talk to her. She wishes me happy birthday. I ask how she knew it was my birthday. She says it's written on my shirt.

The first girl comes back and hijacks the conversation. The second girl walks away. I'm annoyed about that but I try to be polite. The girl has a variety of ice cream and she starts feeding it to me. She want me to guess the flavors and pick my favorite. I play along to be polite. The first one is dark cherry. The second is strawberry. There are two more that I haven't tasted yet. The next one is green so I'm thinking it will either be mint or pistachio. Dream fades.

0740: False awakening. I don't RC. I roll over to write in my dream journal about my last dream. I write something but I don't note the time. Then I wake up for real. I RC. I roll over to write in my dream journal. I think, wait! Didn't I just do this? Damn it! I write: "False awakening. I dream of writing in my journal."

Unstable DEILD
0811: D. Again, I'm in the food court of an indoor mall but this one is different. I'm with two friends but I don't recall who. We sit at a bench near the actor who played George's father in Seinfeld. But he doesn't say anything. A young blond girl walk up to us nervously. She says "Did you guys know there's a dance coming up?" We say nothing and she walks away.

Another group of girls comes and sits near us in the same set of benches. One attractive blond looks at me and says "Hi I don't know if you remember me." I don't but I guess just to keep the conversation going: "Did we meet last night?" She says no. "I'm on of the 'Real Players.'" I have no idea what that means. Then she starts talking about a family and farm animals. Scene fades.

I wake up and DEILD into a lucid. My view is totally distorted. It's like I'm looking at a blurry TV, off center and from an angle. On the TV it looks like Street Fighter and I struggle to recognize one of the characters is Guile. I turn my head to try to center the view. Instead, I enter a rocky tunnel. I'm floating through, like I'm being carried underwater. It's like in medical films when they stick a camera down a person's esophagus. I look at my hands and rub them. The view still sucks. Dream ends. I think, damn, another difficult scene. I guess I need to be more prepared to face anything that comes at me. Or maybe I just need to be patient and let the dream solidify before trying any control.

I wake up randomly in the night so I go back to sleep telling myself to remain calm and to lucid dream, i go into a very fast sleep paralysis and feel myself starting to dream. I start getting up and I had a real hard time getting my right eye open and my right side out of bed, so i rolled over on my left and stood up. I was in my bedroom but all of the lights were on. I saw that it was dark in the other room so I tried spinning and changing my surroundings. While i was spinning everything was black and white blotches and i was thinking about going to the mountains. God Bless the USA was playing in my head. When I stopped spinning I was still in my room, and I just woke up. I did a reality check and sure enough i was still dreaming. When I rolled out of bed again there was a figure in a black robe with a black hood looking at me from in front of my bathroom door. I tried yelling at him to go away but he just sat there. I started freaking out so I started trying to wake myself up by yelling and screaming. It worked. I woke up a little startled but hey, it was my first lucid, somewhat of an accomplishment

Okay, so let's start it. I already posted in on the regular forums, but I want it registered on the DJ. This is my first lucid (at least, the first after I started trying to induce them). Some characteristics of this one are recurring in my dreams, which will be easy to perceive after a few entries.

The text is essentially the same as posted on the Newbie section. I only cut off the hey-this-is-me part. Here it is, a rather long text for a rather short dream:

Since I was not gonna work today, I went to bed thinking I wouldn't have to wake up so early and realized: "this is the perfect opportunity. A change in the routine like this is certain to end up affecting my dreams (it always does)." So I gave myself that strong auto-suggestion (first time I was so sure of it): "yep, this is the day (night? )".

Went to bed at usual time. Woke up at usual time. This is some darn good biological clock I have! Unfortunately, it only works when I don't want it to.

However, I barely moved. Woke up, realized my brother was at the kitchen and thought "too early, let's get back to sleep". I thought of going to the bathroom, but my bed felt so good I decided I just didn't want THAT much to go. So I blacked out.

Next thing I know, I wake up by myself, go to the bathroom as usual. After washing my face (strange... why I don't feel the water cooling my hands?) I raise my body and look at the mirror, which is strangely deformed. I see a shadow behind me, reflected on the mirror. Although I can't see the face (the mirrors are distorted and bent downwards) due to the pajamas he is wearing I realize "It's my brother! What is he doing here? He wasn't here when I came in!"

For some reason, I panicked. My brother (at least his image on the mirror) was standing still, arms loose by the side of his body, facing me (still couldn't see his face). I don't turn around, instead, move the mirrors away (they are those bathroom mirrors, you know? Actually cabinet doors, I believe everybody has one of these in their homes). Then it comes to my mind: "I am dreaming", just WHAM and I know it. I put my hand over my mouth, pinch my nose and try to breath: nothing! I try it a little harder, and there! I am breathing. Breathing so hard I think "well, surely I am breathing hard on my bed now, everybody will hear". Using the same hand (how??) while still holding my nose and breathing hard I manage to open the door and dart out of the bathroom. All I want now is to wake up. All I need is help to wake up, because I was trying hard with no success.

I am on the corridor. Unlike my usual dreams, this time the house is not dark. The lights are not on, but the, hum, "luminosity" is correct for this time of the day. I let go of my nose and see my mom going to the other bathroom, down the same corridor. She also has her arms relaxed, body facing the (other) bathroom door, but she is looking at me with no facial expression. I tell her that I have to wake up, to which I have no answer. No change in her face. I am already in panic, now I start to get desperate. I "feel" that my dad is now up and leaving their room, which is now behind me. Now I don't know anymore if I was yelling or just thinking harder and harder: "I must wake up now!" I grab my mom's face, the thumb on one cheek, the other fingers on the other side. No reaction. "Sure she won't react. This is a dream!", I think. I start to (try to) squeeze her face. No movement. Although I am trying to tighten my grip, I can't move my hands. I can't feel anything, actually. Nothing but my sense of urgency. I then realize that I can't "force" myself to wake up. I relax (but don't move my hand) and stop trying so hard to wake up. Then I wake up, just like that.

Surely enough, I wake up half scared. I realize that now I can feel the touch of my bed sheets, feel again that I need to go to the bathroom, realize I feel hot under my blanket, God, how I'm sweating now. My dad comes to wake me up. I'm a little afraid of what I'm going to see, but I'm half convinced I'm awake. He comes, speaks to me and I answer. Look at his face: normal. A couple of RCs (nose-pinching and digial clock - three checks each! all passed!) I am now sure that I am awake. I get up, (half-)empty my bladder an tell my mom about the dream. I am shivering from head to toe, literally.

I spent the rest of the morning a bit "jumpy". Avoiding looking at mirrors, getting startled at every little everyday noise, feeling a bit numb. Scared, but satisfied with my lucidity and my semi-control.

September 24, 2010

Asleep by 1:30-ish

Expeditions
I was at this camp of Na'vi like people, and also with two other humans (DC's). There was an inner camp surrounded by an outer camp that was filled with water. The colours were amazing. A beautiful blue for the water, and the oranges and pink one would normally find at sunset filled the entire landscape. We didn't have too much to do with the Na'vi, other than they were tolerant enough of us to stay with them. But specifically, they were more tolerant, and even somewhat helpful towards me than my companions. I wondered why, and false memory reminded me that when I slept, in the water, a light tendril connected itself to the back of my head (at the base of my head and neck) and had done something. But it meant that I was "chosen."

We needed food, so it was decided I would go out and get us some fish from the pre-camp. I was looking for blue-scaled fish. However, the water also housed pink-scaled fish, which tried to attack aggressively when I went into the water. I waded in and out a few times, then the scene dissolved.

My companions and I are facing off with this crow. We're in a desert. We edged closer to it, and it didn't fly away or back off. In fact, it's eyes had a look of daring, like, "One step closer and I'll attack you!"

One of my companions informed me that in the desert, the crows are more desperate for food, and thus are a lot more bold than the city crows we're used to. Our group split up (I vaguely recall hearing that mu was in the other group). There were two paths to take: a top path and a bottom path. Mu's group took the bottom half, and mine took the top. We were in a mine shaft, jumped into a mine car, and rode it like a rollercoaster!

Short WBTB at 6am. Long enough for washroom; sat on the couch reviewing some goals and starting up my MILD mantra to bring back to bed with me ("This is a dream," followed with a visual of hand-checking). Back to bed.

Post office/Dispatch - Lucid - 4/5
I start off working in an office. My replacement comes in to take over the Dispatch part of the job so I'm free to do the post office side. I'm feeling guilty though, because I've been slacking off, and hadn't done the check ins for the last two hours, and he will hear them (IRL, the check ins are on voice mail, and it holds up to 20 messages, so he'd hear the 8pm's, 7pm's, 6pm's etc, and however far back until that 20 is reached. If I was on the ball and doing them, I would delete them as I listened to each check in message). I hung around the office, in the back, and tried to phone the check in line and delete the 6 and 7pm messages before he could get through the 8pm ones... He saw me hanging around, though, and got suspicious AND upset that I hadn't moved onto my next job. I was stuck.

I remember sitting at a desk, and date-stamping things... I was getting a lot of excess ink on my stamp, and started writing with my stamp on the bottom of parcel waybills and documents.

My boss finds me, and he seems edgy and upset. However he needs to show me and my co-worker some new procedures (I guess we were the senior staff). He and my co-worker are slightly ahead of me, and as I get up from my desk, I realize I'm topless. Feeling a bit awkward, but trying to be nonchalant ("It's normal, walking around work without a top on, duh!") I follow them. Then it clicks in my head, "Waiiiiiit a moment! I'm topless at a job? Good chance I'm dreaming." I stop and consider the situation. "Really? Wow, yes, really!" And I'm finally fully conscious too. But I decide to follow the scene, instead of forcing control.

We go into the office and my boss gives me this weird look (I'm still covering my chest), but continues on with his spiel. He's using funnels and pouring liquid from one funnel to another. His explanation makes no sense to me. I look at the window, and I consider going through it. He notices me looking at the window, and pulls the blind, which makes me giggle, inwardly.

Suddenly, we're in a cab. I'm still topless, and I decided not to fix it, cos it's reminding me that I'm dreaming. We're driving through a neighbourhood and I figure this is a good place to be let off to accomplish my goal of summoning Quinn (I got this idea from Akono to pretend that Quinn will show up at the front door, since I'm having troubles summoning him). However, the cabby ignores my desire to get out, and we keep driving. We reach the end of the road, and turn around, only the cab leaves without me. "There's still houses around, I can work with this," I said. Any will do. I find this one house and approach the front door. The house morphs as I approach it, though, and it's now on stilts. As I reach the door, I realize there's snow on the ground, and I'm wearing a hoodie and my winter jacket ("Thanks, dream."). I open the door and the house is merely a tree house. "This won't work," I thought to myself.

I turned around and tried to find another house. I'm walking across a snowy field and I approach a swing set. There's only one swing, and a girl with bright lime green pants is happily swinging away. There's a line up of kids behind her, waiting their turns. The dream dissolves. I tried to chain back in, however, it was gone.

I mantra'd again, and I could feel myself getting swirly and being pulled away from consciousness a few times, but losing it and snapping back a few times. I eased up on the mantra and lost consciousness at some point.

The odd swimming pool
I remember first, working at some retail type job. I was getting along really well with this girl who kind of looked familiar. Then, I learned that she and I used to work together at Linen's n Things. She told me the staff there had a nickname for me when I left. They called me "The weak one." This really depressed me, because I was honestly miserable when I worked there, and left the job because of it. I remember rummaging through drawers, looking for something, but all I could find were hairbands, elastics and other hair accessories.

Scene change and I was in my backyard (of an old house, or maybe a non-existent one, I don't really remember). I see a swimming pool that was no more than 3 feet in diameter, covered with a tarp. I pushed on the tarp to see if it would hold, so I could lie on it like a water-bed. It gave way from the sides, and water leaked onto the top. This won't do.

I was suddenly surprised by the arrival of this short-haired girl. She spoke in a deadpan voice. I can't quite remember what she said, but I didn't fully trust her sanity, and here I am, standing next to a swimming pool with her. Suddenly, three girls jump into the pool and everyone's laughing and cheerful and happy. They ask me to join, and I'm suddenly in a bathing suit, so I do.

Somewhere in here, I had a false awakening. I even remembered to pinch my nose too, and couldn't breathe. I looked at my watch and it said 10:10. My alarm was set for 10:30, so I drifted, while waiting for it to go off.

The school battleground
There were two teams of about 15-20 people, and we were stationing ourselves around the school trying to capture bases. I found one "base" (a classroom) completely deserted, so I crept into it and hid behind some desks. I see three guys from the other team enter the room and they see me. Suddenly, it seems like the whole class piles into the base, and they decide not to "kill" me (via rock, paper, scissors battle). The teacher/leader of this group declares mid-game victory, because they currently hold all the bases. He tells me to get out of here (and calls me a "snot," too! :sob: ). I get a head start and then his team will hunt me down. I was resourceful, though, and got away by running down this circular staircase and swinging myself around the corners. I found my group and I told them their plan. They are leaving about 3 people behind at each base, and doing a zerg with the majority of their group (anyone familiar with Warcraft's Eye of the Storm battleground may recognize this). We agree to attempt the same strategy and the dream ends.

Woke up again, nose pinch, can't breathe. I was surprised at the length of the dream for only having 20 minutes, and checked my watch. 9:52?? I nose pinched again. Awake.

24.09.2010

3 (WILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

The first thing I remember is being at a school that was kind of like a mix of Flory (my old Elementary school) and my middle school. I was in a classroom with my Pre-Calculus teacher, and there was a bunch of little kids around the age of my brother, (12-13ish). Next thing I remember is seeing two of the little kids starting a fight. They both turned the whole classroom into a huge fight. I suddenly remembered my little brother was in the class, and went to go find him in the circle. He was alright. Then I took all of them outside, angry that these little punks started a huge fight. Then my Calculus teacher switched to one of the football coaches, Mr. L. We all were outside his class waiting to go in. When he said "I'm suspended, I condoned a fight in class." And he shut the door.

Next part is fuzzy for a little.

Then I remember sitting in some room with this beautiful girl. I kept looking at her and she started doing all these weird poses because I noticed her. She sent me a text message saying that she drank a lot and wanted to have do stuff with me. ? Haha. Then I remember being in another room with S and and J sitting on the floor next to me. I was on a laptop looking at Facebook. S was trying to flirt with me and I noticed something on Facebook about her saying she wanted me, so I scrolled up so she didn't see that I noticed. Then S got up and walked away for a second, and J was telling me how I shouldn't flirt back if I didn't want to lead her on. Then J was laying on my back and we were both laughing at something...nice.

THEN. I was at a large hotel, I only remember the interior first. There were a lot of people there. T, N, B, and some other guys that are all friends of mine. J and I were on both there together, dancing in the hotel/casino's ball room. We were both laughing and having a fun ol' time. When we walk down a hallway, I get cornered by all the previously mentioned guys. B comes up to me, in tears, and yells at me cause I ratted on him for something about drinking. N was backing him up. I was trying to tell them I didn't do anything. I told J to go back to the room. I was about to go ape shit. I threw a punch into one random guy's face, they all came after me. I somehow blocked all their blows and kicked or punched them all down. I started running, and saw T walking down the hall away from me. I sprinted after him and did a wall run. I lunged off the wall and kneed him into a large glass picture frame, knocking him out. Badass, I know Then I proceeded to run to the elevator. I slid inside and hit the 1st floor button. Once on the first floor I was in the parking garage of the Casino. I ran outside sprinting, thinking these guys were still after me. It was dark.

Later I forgot about them chasing me, and I was in a desert type place, still outside what I think was the casino and some other house with silouhette's dancing and watching TV inside. I was looking for a nice car to steal, I almost kind of knew I was dreaming here. I couldn't find a BMW, so I just took a Honda. I jumped in the car which was already on and the setup was weird. There was 3 pedals at the bottom, but it wasn't a manual. Left to right, there was a super speed gas pedal thing, a normal gas, and brakes. I drove out of the parking lot on a narrow paved road, passing a cop. I glanced breifly at the mirror, and noticed I still had my backpack on? So I took it off and threw it in the other seat. After driving for a while, I stopped at a red light. Here is where I think I went semi-lucid.


I realized, I'm dreaming, and should be in control. I didn't even RC, I just knew. (Even though I still wish I reality checked) I said, let me just park the car somewhere so I can get out and explore. I think I crashed and got out somewhere by a river. I kept looking at my hands and rubbing them together. The dream was still dream-like to me, therefore not fully lucid, and I had no control. I started to climb up this rock face by the river, and I did a nose-plug reality check. I was amazed that I could breathe.

Dream skip.

I was in a parking lot surrounded by one or two large, 20-30 story buildings. It was slightly dark. I still knew I was dreaming, and I constantly was looking at my hands, thankfully. They looked normal, until the right one morphed and looked like it was beaten with a hammer and disfigured. I said, eh whatever, and noticed the large buildings again. I thought i should try to fly to the top. I jumped forwad, flying extremly fast. I didn't reach the height of the building, and fell back down. I was afraid it was gonna hurt to land, but it didn't actually. I tried two more times, on one try I made it over the building but then fell back down. Still a nice attempt though. Then there was a gang meeting in this parking lot, there were guys in black hoodies all meeting at the center. I could jump really high, about 30 feet. So I hopped over one guy and hit him on the head playfully. Then I hopped away. It was peerrty sweeeeeeeet.

Skip forward.

My good friend RT was with me outside my High School. We were walking to class. I said, R, we're dreaming and can do whatever in class! He said something doubting it, and was said, "But you can also wake up and your dream world will conform to the real one, and you'll suffer the consqequences, so be careful."
I replied, "That's not true, and remember to keep rubbing your hands and spinning to stabalize."

I then ran in the classroom and said, watch this R! I ran up to the hottest girl in the class and pulled her shirt off. I did it to two other girls, and R was laughing. My teacher, Mrs. D, Actual teacher of mine, told me to stop and sit down. I grabbed a pen and launched it at her face. It made a plasma like explosion and vibration and the class laughed. She didn't flinch when it hit her though. Then I dreamed about feeling light headed, and I dreamed I was in the same class, but it merged into real life. Mrs. D sent me outside and told me I was in a lot of big ass trouble. I walked out and said something to R, damnit! When outside, I tried to explain to Mrs. D what lucid dreaming was. She said she knew, smiling. I told her I was sorry, I thought i was dreaming. Fade out....


Wow. Amazing dream. All I did the night before was go on DV a lot, and I was extremely confident. I told myself on the computer, I will lucid dream. And really felt it. I also watched a subliminal lucid dreaming video. The main point was that I was extremely confident before going to bed.

I also woke up to my alarm at 4:00 and tried to WILD but dozed off. I had the dream after I WILD'd and fell asleep.