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Journal Entry Lucid #70 Dream,Lucid, thoughts in dream,(Comments)
Background: no meditation for this one. Before going to sleep after WBTB I watched avengers and I did RC since most of my dreams are me spectating. While going to sleep I listened to Robert Monroe Lucid dreaming audio. I was also pretty determined for LD.

Lucid Dream # 70, day: 08/03/14, time: 4:24-5:30 Am " Water Zero Gravity":
I see scarlett Johansson getting beat up by rogue agents. I intervene. I soon realized it is a dream Every agent pointed their gun at me. I chuckled and told them to stop joking. I then used telekinesis on every one in that room. Their leader asked for mercy, and he doesn't want to die like this. I let them down and I left. I see my sister in the kitchen. I tell her it is a dream. I started to fly/float to prove it to her. She got spooked by it. I tell her it is ok and anybody could do it. She burst into tears of joy and she said, "All of us could do what you did?". I land and I wanted to create something I have never done before. I started rotating my right finger in a circle expecting for water to form from thin air. And surely it did. Not only that it kept going like perpetual motor. I then create another and throw them at each other. They started to interact with each other. It was beautiful. It had diffraction like water and it reflects maybe not as accurately but it reflects. I am getting overexcited. I then wanted to taste if it is close to water. I then float like an astronaut and put it into my mouth. I am overjoyed and excited that such a world exist inside all of us. . I woke up due to excitement.

8/9/14

Last night bed at midnight - 8am.

WILDing 10am - 1pm.


I waited for cats to fall asleep then laid down on my sofa. 5 min into it they started growling at each other, but I was already super relaxed and didn't want to break it, so I let them growl it out. They stopped soon after that.

I got into a WILD via a huge head sensation. Like falling backwards while a waterfall flowing through my head.

I did one ToTM, which now I can't remember. But I remember recapping it in my LD, before remembering the "Pull your eye out" ToTM.

Just before bed, I practiced getting naked, pulling out my green banana (don't want a ripe mushy banana as a weapon) and robbing a bank while yelling "this is a stickup! Gimme all your lucid dreaming vouchers".

Then I practiced getting naked and pulling my eye out. I said this is gonna be gross, and I proly don't wanna do this one.

So after recapping my ToTM, I remembered the "pull your eye out." I put fingers of my right hand around my eye and pushed in slightly while thinking "this is not gonna work". Grabbed the eyeball and pulled it out. My hand is kinda closed and I'm thinking again that it didn't work. But I see a shiny white ball with black dot in size of a pupil between my fingers. I'm totally surprised. (I have also practiced putting the eye behind me and looking at my butt) but I kinda lose it here and don't remember what happened next.

Then I stupidly slept for 2 more hours.

Dream started with me waking up in Father room, my Father had just enter in the room while sweeping. I got up and first thing I did was a reality check by looking at my hands as I did I tried to see if any of the fingers would change or not. It became hard to focus so I grab my hand so it wouldn't wander off my mind , that's when I began counting how many fingers I had. It would mostly come up as 5 but after a few more checks I could see another finger and it was much smaller from the rest. I got up and walk in to the bathroom to look at my face. I could hardly stare at myself as it kept shifting and was way too blurry even for me. I left the bathroom and approach my Father with a question, I ask him if I was dreaming but he didn't respond and only continue to sweep. I think I am dreaming I said and that's when this pressure hit my head which allowed me to become fully lucid and certain that this was a dream. I left Father room and went in to the living room and quickly unlock the back door to begin walking outside.

It seem like it was fall now due to how all the orange leaves on the ground , I was amaze by how real walking on them felt. The sky was grey as I continue walking forward to the road then turn left to continue walking till another I made another right turn to continue where I was going. That's when I notice a person walking behind me but decided to not pay much attention to them. That's when I cross the road and walk on the sidewalk whiling passing 1 guy who said something that I could no longer remember but I do remember agreeing with what the statement. I continue walking till he came back and said hey I replied with sup and notice the guy who was walking behind me stop on our spot as well. The guy started showing a lot of money, I ask him is he hiring anyone? He look at me and seem like he was thinking about it but that's when the scenery change in to a gloomy cafeteria that had no lights on but the windows reflect what the outside look like that gave us light in the school. The sky was grey but started looking a little darker. The DC's all change in to different people as well , one was a scout I use to know and I realize we were standing next to a table now. We began fighting over who gets to take what type of food, once that was over we all sat down and began eating however I didn't like that I didn't get the chance to pick out what I wanted and was left with a ham sandwich.

I took 1 bite out of it and felt awful , There was a teacher at our table she started talking about hoping the kids were liking their meal. I then realize that I never did like the cafeteria back then, I got up and told her I think it's time I leave before I run out my dream time. While I am walking I hear her say ok as I open the double doors leading to the school hall ways. I decided to have some fun by knocking everyone who was in my way, first came someone who look like mickey mouse but was color greenish blue and wearing a yellow shirt with a tie and had just close his locker. I push him out of my way continue till I saw some guy having trouble opening his locker . I punch him in the head and shove him on to the floor, I could tell from all the DC's reactions when everyone on the hallway turn around staring at me that they were mad. The guy I shoved to the floor quickly got up and ask me what was my problem and did I want a fight? I look back at him and smirk before pushing a small girl aside. I open a door which took me to a place that seem less crowded I also analyze the colors of this school and it was all brown and blue with no lights except counting the mirrors casting out the greyish whether from outside. Seems nice I open another door to where I find there's not a floor anymore. I try to think of a safe way of getting down so I jump on a wood ledge while keeping my balance in till I jump down again.
I was really enjoying how quiet it is here, I open another door and started walking upstairs as I am doing so I notice a orange light with students using the computer. I went up and look at an empty seat that show the computer screen then suddenly I heard a student calling out for the teacher. The teacher got up and was in a black coat with black slacks. He started saying hold on and that's when I woke up. Lucidity Time : 9 mins

So I hit on this website and this tasks and decided to directly giving them a try!

I did the first basic task last night but it wasn´t as exciting as I hoped...

I was suddenly in school again wich confused me because I have holidays for like a week now and a moment later I knew this had to be a dream. Just for fun I looked at my fingers and I saw eight of them. For some reason I had some fun with it and tried to do a 'most fingers at one hand' - world record and failed pretty much. When I had 11 fingers at one hand further tries of manipulation just rebuild my hand in weird way so that it looked nearly scary. But then I remembered my task an went down the stairs where I found a woman. I just asked her for a word in a different language but she seemed to be a bit...dense wich forced me to explain it all again. But then she finally understood and said with a little delay 'nicht'. Then I asked what that means in our language and she answered with the same unsure delay 'not'. 'Yay, that is right!' I answered in an ironic way because this was nothing new for me and the woman was just plain dense... Originally I wanted to get a new magic spell from her but I refused when I saw her first confused reaction.

Well, that is it for this task. Lets go on to the next!

I was hanging out with my uncle, helping him fix a car. These two people appeared and were supposed to do some kind of maintenance work, I don't remember. I just remember that I looked up and there were tremendous, red clouds that were swirling around each other. After a few seconds they turned dark blue, then red again. I heard a loud rumbling and the earth shook. Water came pouring down from the sky and waves rolled down all the streets and everybody ran into the garage for some reason. Cars were floating around me, I just stood there in disbelief. I was all alone at that point when a neighbor boy ran up to me and yelled something that I could barely hear over the torrent. All I made out was that I could come with him if I wanted to. I asked him what happened. He said that it was a combination of secret, advanced weaponry and inter-country trading. I felt disappointed, then I realized that it was just a dream.

I told the boy to not worry because it wasn't real, then i started walking over to the garage. I noticed a giant chocolate shake in my hand, I took a drink from it. It tasted like...an imagined taste that I made up when I was a little kid, reading some book about a giant. A combination of sweet flavors and magic. I wanted to make sure it was really a dream and I hadn't just snapped under the madness of what was going on, so I tried to make a glove fly into the air, didn't work, tried to make paper fly into the air. The piece of paper jumped off a table in the garage and someone caught it really quickly. I took another drink of the chocolate shake, yum. Then I decided to manipulate some of this water for fun. There was a stream of it that was falling from the roof. I made that stream fly into the air, forming a spiral pattern, then I froze it like that. I then looked at a DC of a neighbor lady that was with us and tried to make her slow down, didn't work until I got really close to her but even then I could only slow her down for a couple seconds. I put my hands on her boobs and she got really angry in slow motion. I really wanted to make time stop completely, so I asked myself, "how do I do that?" a voice responded, "you just do it". I made time freeze and I laid the neighbor lady and her daughter on their backs so I could do naughty things to them >: D. I thought for a second about what would really happen if I were able to make time stop and then move things around. I came to the conclusion that either the kinetic energy would destroy the universe or there would be no net energy from the action at all. The dream started to end, time went back to normal. I said out loud, "noooooooo, not yet". Then tried to think of something else to do to switch up my dream control skills. I made a miniature, young Jerry Lewis as the Nutty Professor appear on the shoulder of someone that was in front of me. He was in the full costume with a white lab coat, glasses, and a messed up face. The miniature Jerry Lewis just cross his eyes and said, "OYyyyYyyyyyeeeee". Dream ended, woke up.

I am in high school again, and am walking to my bus after school. Already lucid, but not very much -- don't remember how I got there! I am walking with a short, chubby black kid. I have just done something not very nice (don't remember what) and think I need to make it up to this DC. I give the kid a big hug.

"What are you doing?" he asks in disgust.

C/R my response. I think of how I might win this DC over. I reach into my pocket, hoping for some candy. I find instead a toy from childhood:



I give this to the DC and tell him it is a chocolate bar (?) DC takes a bite and complains that it is not a chocolate bar, and that it is indeed a plastic toy. I take the toy back and try to morph it into a chocolate bar. It's outward appearance changes somewhat, but not enough to be food.

The DC then asks, "Is this that kind of candy that once I chew it, it becomes candy in my mouth?"

"Yeah, sure," I say, still searching through my pockets.

He begins eating it again.

"Oh my god," he cries, "It's glorious! It's like I'm flying through space on an imperial starship!"

I look down and see a piece of the action figure/candy on the ground. Yep, I pick it up and eat it. It tastes sweet but nothing spectacular. Definitely not flying through space. I wake up.

After some non-lucid sequences in my hotel room, I found myself in the kitchen of my house. I knew I was out of town on a trip, so I felt like I was just checking in. However things were a mess, even I knew the catsitter had been coming. There were lots of bowls of food out but they looked old and uncleaned, and the water was dirty. I went over to the sink to start washing them and I noticed that the sink was already full of dirty dishes. However, I distinctly remembered that I had done all the dishes before leaving on my trip. "Does this mean I'm lucid?" I thought to myself, and decided, "Of course, certainly," and felt that I had been aware that I had been dreaming all along even though I evidently had not been until I noticed the discontinuity. (In one of the earlier sequences I had been confusing about whether I was awake or dreaming to the point where I felt convinced that dream events were impinging in impossible ways on waking life.) I wondered if there were other discontinuities and looked around. I noticed that the catsitter had not taken the check I left for her, and that seemed odd. Wouldn't she have taken it on the first visit? However, I realized that this wasn't necessarily a discontinuity, because there might have been plausible reasons for her to have left it until later.

I started washing a dirty bowl at the sink, one that the cats could use, but then I reflected, "If I'm lucid, maybe I should go do something else. I know! I'm in my kitchen, it would be a great opportunity to go outside and leave a trail of breadcrumbs to try to do the Hansel and Gretel task. But first I'll just wash this bowl and leave some fresh food and water for the kitties." So I stayed at the sink and continued washing the bowl, and also washed and refilled a water bowl.

Even though the dream felt very stable to start, I was a bit paranoid that it wouldn't last long enough to let me get to my more interesting task, and I felt like this anxiety about waking was pushing me closer to actually doing so, and tried to put it out of mind. However, I soon felt my senses disengage and half-woke. But I didn't lose the mental image, and after a moment felt my senses re-engage and knew I was back in the dream. So I rushed to get a can of catfood and put it in the bowl I had now cleaned. A dream version of one cat came out and didn't seem interested in the food I had selected, though I figured, maybe this is a good thing, because if the catsitter feeds her food she likes better, the cat (who is very skittish) might feel more friendly to her. Just as I had finished this and was ready to start on my new task, I woke up again, and though I held very still, the dream state was too disrupted to re-enter.

I was a bit annoyed with myself for wasting a lucid opportunity, but I understood my rationale. Even though I knew I was dreaming, I was not comfortable with the idea of leaving my dream-cats ill-tended, so that took priority over any other task. However, the error I made was in tending to them using the tedious methods of waking life: actually standing at the sink and washing bowls, actually going to another room to get the food and walking back with it, opening the can and using a spoon to empty the food into the bowl. I guess I did it this way out of habit, as it certainly felt like I was going through very familiar motions. I should have just manifested some clean food and water and then gotten to my task much more quickly.

Dream - Lucid

I was reliving my past, though it was an alternate version. Honestly, I'm not sure where I was, I just know I was inside somewhere. I was watching the guy that I first kissed, Nick, taking these girls into the bathroom with him. I was jealous because I really liked him. I think at one point I went in there with him, but we didn't make out or anything. He was showing me something in there.

This alternate past went on for quite awhile, mostly it was me watching Nick, wishing he would be with me. There was a brief point of lucidity, though it was hard to grasp. It was like I was having trouble letting go of the dream plot. I finally grasped the idea that I was dreaming, and started trying to do other things, when I woke up.

~

I was in Nick's house, though it was a weird house; it was like a mixture between a house and another location. I saw that Nick was in his room, though I did not go in there. I was in a dark, basement-like part of the building, but I could clearly see the entrance to Nick's room, and I could see the kitchen. We were older now. I had been in this building with him for quite awhile, it seems like years, and he had been in his room for mostly the whole time. I did not see him come out. I didn't want him to see me.

I then had to go in there to give him something. I was afraid he wouldn't talk to me. I believe we did talk, but I can't remember for sure.

I then was "remembering" a part of my alternate past again, though it was when we were older and in college. We were talking and having a great time. We weren't together as a couple, but we were quite close with one another, closer than we ever were IWL. We were sitting on some stairs, just talking and having a great time. I looked into his eyes, and saw him for who he was; his light brown eyes were quite happy.

I then was "remembering" us writing letters to each other. At some point during this, I started to "remember" the past more as it really happened IWL, though not to a T; I wrote him a letter that upset him, and he never spoke to me again. I was now back in the present moment. I then had another "memory" of me in a dark room that was lit with starlights, and it was full of small models of the orbiting planets. There was also a picture on the wall of all the planets that apparently I had made. It looked very realistic, as if it were a computer rendered image or a very realistic painting. It wasn't accurate as far as their orbits went, and I had more on on there than the ones we know, but still, it was really good. It was really quite beautiful. I tried to telekinetically take control of Neptune, which looked like a grey rock with an indentation in the middle. I was not doing a great job at it. As this was happening with the planets, I was thinking about Nick and how close we had been and how upset he was at me.

Then, I was back in the present moment, considering whether or not I should write him more letters, though I was receiving no response. I wanted to write poetry to him, but I then thought about how inappropriate that would be since I'm married.

Dream skip, though the Nick thing was still relevant somehow. I was working at a grocery store, the same one I work at now, though I was not in the bakery, but I was doing something else. I was in a different section. It looked like produce, but was not all produce; there were other things besides fruits and veggies, like rice and such. I was working on setting up a display, when a woman approached me, an older, Asian woman with glasses. She asked me about a bag of rice that she had that was slightly opened. I told her I'd get her another one. I took the one from her and gave her another one. She examined it very carefully to make sure it wasn't opened. The bag was VERY slightly torn, and she noticed. I told her it was fine, it wasn't opened like the other one was. She still needed another one, however. Before I left, she told me she needed a 1-pound bag because the one she had was 3 pounds, and she wanted 4 pounds of rice. She was holding up two bags and showing me how one said one pound and the other said three pound. I took them from her to look, one at a time. For bags of rice, they were extremely lightweight. I gave them back to her. As I was leaving to go get one from the back, she shouted after me
"One pound!" as if I didn't hear her the first time.

I went and found one, I think asking someone about it on the way. I made sure that it said 1 pound on the bag. I went to bring it to her, and she swore it said 3 pounds. -_-'

She then directed my attention to another woman, a customer, who looked like she had chain smoked all her life, who was standing at a microphone at a podium to make an announcement. Only associates were supposed to use those. I saw some smoke trickle from between her lips. She was announcing something. The customer then asked me
"What's your joystick policy?" she asked as if she was quizzing me; she knew the answer, but wanted to see if I knew.
"I don't know," I responded. I had never heard of a "joystick policy" before.
She then directed my attention to an associate, a girl wearing the uniform we have to wear, who was standing behind a different podium with a microphone, but she was standing a bit further a way. The customer asked her to tell me what it was. She started to speak into the microphone, but her voice was no clear at all and I could not understand a word she said. I told the lady I couldn't understand what she was saying.

~

On average, I dream about Nick 1-3 times a year. It's usually something vivid too.

This dream was from yesterday morning, August 8th.

I'm in a small apartment with the drummer from Rage Against the Machine. He's cooking omelets. I'm thinking about what the band's politics likely mean about his beliefs when I become lucid.

I had a theory the previous night that talking to DCs would draw me into the dream and increase stability, and anyway I wanted to attempt the basic task of the month. So I turn to the drummer to ask him to tell me a word in a foreign language, and its meaning. Before I can ask, it becomes clear that he's morphing into my dad.

I don't worry about this too much. "Can you tell me a word in a foreign language?" I ask.

"Maybe," he says.

"Maybe?"

"Spelled m-i-g-h-t."

I either interpret this as a success or decide to give up. I must decide to try flying, because I hop and realize I float a bit on the way down. I start hopping higher and higher. My dad looks impressed. Finally I get airborne and am flying around the small apartment. I make a tight loop. It's pretty fun.

I decide to go looking for other DCs and try to fly through the wall. My eyes are closed before I reach it and I feel this "bonk" feeling, like I slammed right into it. This drops me into something like the void. I try to use Xanous's gladis trick but I'm having trouble controlling my body.

What comes next is either a real or a false awakening. Everything looks black, but I see a small triangle of light that looks like the aperture at the bottom of my sleep mask. I try to lift it with my hand, but I don't think it changes. This probably means I'm still dreaming, but at any rate I decide to settle in for a DEILD.

The next I remember, I'm having a false awakening where I'm journalling the dream I described above. However, I get all the details wrong (i.e. it's not the drummer from Rage Against the Machine, but rather the guitarist) and I have to keep crossing them out. The dream evolves in typical non-lucid fashion from there.

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

It was night, I was walking on a street near some grocery stores and electronics as I wanted to spend some of the money I had when I began to realize most if not all stores were unavailable and that the lights were all off. The strange thing about it though was that 1 of the doors were open so I decided to enter it but quickly realize no one was inside. I left the building and continue walking on the sidewalk when suddenly I heard someone yelled zombie apocalypse and once I turn around a zombie was nibbling all over my hand and crutching my fingers. My reaction when I saw this instantly made me become lucid, I quickly said I should've never watch that movie as it brought me in this situation. That's when a FA happen which made me lost lucidity. Another dream happens where I wake up and was searching for my dream journal to write it down but could not find it. However I forgot about it when I realize my flight plane was coming up again so I could meet up with my parents. I was about to miss it so I hurry up but was stop by two guys who seem like they wanted to ask me a couple of questions. They ask me if I had an electronic I responded yes and show them this blue handheld that I didn't recognize too well. The two guys began talking about different type of handhelds and which were better. That's when I began quickly packing my stuff in a case, they notice that I was in a hurry and ask if I was leaving. I told them yes I had to get on a plane and that's when I realize I was forgetting my brother. I ran and quickly left the unknown hotel to where I found Father room out in the open of a road. I open the door and saw a woman dress like a soldier watching tv, I told her she had to get going and if she could help me find my brother. That's when I notice a machine gun in her hands so I approach her slowly trying to show that I was not a threat and needed her insistence on this. She agreed as we continue to leave the room where now the road change in to the living room. I saw my brother and told him we had to hurry as we're about to miss our only flight left for today. But before I could continue to set my intentions on running I woke up.



I wake up in another dream where I quickly realize I was poison as I heard some person in my head telling me all the people who got in contact at that area will die. My Father came in the room and I could hardly move, I try to yell his name but my voice was so weak. I tried yelling for a couple more times but he couldn't hear me as when I would yell it would come out as a whisper. My Father then left as the poison was feeling stronger, I began panicking and force myself to get up and had a very difficult time walking. I manage to get to the bathroom and saw my face. Everything was wobbling so I open the door in to the living room where I saw these two old women. I told them I needed help and to get me to a hospital however the two old women didn't do anything and one began laughing saying that's my life 24/7 so atleast you get to feel how it is now. This anger me so I began running with ease toward them and began choking the one that laugh about me dying telling her if I'm as good as dead then you're coming with me. But before I could finish her I fell down as the poison was too overwhelming , I began crawling on the ground till I didn't have enough energy to do that. I pass out and woke up. Lucidity Time 2 seconds

Date: 08 Aug

Pre bed: 1/2 cup soy milk, 350 mg arginine (combo)

Wbtb: 1/2 latte, felt discomfort due heat which made it harder to concentrate. I tried doing 1-2 ssild cycles to relax, but mostly gave up due discomfort.

WILD: First was a transitional stage of me in bed and my body rotating, as I was trying to figure out which hands I'm moving. Kind of blurry memory here.

This later switches to another scene in parents' old bedroom where I appear feeling rather floaty and unstablish. In front of me are wooden shelves, so I run my hands on the surfaces multiple times to anchor myself. At the same time a glass case catches my attention, where I can see my reflection - averagely normal with something weird lurking behind. As I turn around to see what it is I am faced by my own doppelgänger and she is somewhat aggressive. She throws herself on the ground initially in some sort of a unexplainable act. Then approaches menacingly but I put her on hold - at an arm's distance with my mind.

As I manage my own reactions she calms down and now I decide to look at her more closely and make some manipulations. What if I were taller and she is now much taller. I examine her with curiousity but still have a bit of an after feel of aggression so decide to make sure she is harmless. I give the overly tall DC a hug around the waist and watch as she changes features to a different DC.

Then, I see the door behind her and feel like doing some tking. I look at it in order to will it open but the dream slips away. Back to my body and still for a DEILD

DEILD: I appear on the balcony, the one that looks over to neighbors. Quite excited about being here as this brings memories of past non-lds. There is a guy that pushes me ahead (as to move further, him being quite active) as I examine the neighbors' balcony. The dream is rather unstable at this point but I'm glad to have a companion and cross over to the other balcony where there is some sort of mattress, thinking both of us can sit here for a bit and plan the dream.

Forgot the exact words now, but told him something like "let's talk about adventures" or so and was waiting for him to sit. He disappears in the kitchen (neighbors) but then is back again, wearing the same red t-shirt as I make a mental note (resembles somewhat Michael Cassidy).

My voice is barely coming out as I say the adventure sentence and I wonder if it would count if I ask him about the basic task telepathically. But how is he going to answer? Too complicated and I decide to go with normal speech, struggle to speak but finally ask him.

His reply is "Woof" which sounds as if he is barking.

Me: "Woof?", are you sure?

He: Uhum. (as in yes)

Me: Ok, then. So what does that mean?

He: Hoof.

I ask for confirmation and he gives me another uhum. Oh well. The dream soon falls apart. I'm not feeling quite in shape to deild so let it go at this point and after a brief ld review go to sleep.

Non-memorable dreams, something vivid that forgot and then.

LD: I am near this familiar building. Something clicks and I recognize this as place of older dreams. There was a false memory or thought about the place too. I get inside and decide to experiment with door summons to see where they lead. I open a door - there are two DCs coming out of something that looks like a sparsely furnished bathroom. I don't quite like it, so close the door and wait a bit till it changes to try again.

In the meantime, more DCs appear around me and one of them makes aggressive moves towards me. After an initial super strength outburst, which comes out like some sort of a force push, I decide to chill out and try to calm them down while taking a moment to examine my inner state. I'm still slightly apprehensive of them, so try to control my own reactions and feel more at ease. From the tense situation I work on my indifference, relaxing more and at some point I start walking around freely and making funny zen moves (but not the Xanous move alas!). Don't remember when but at some point the dream ends.


Lucid FA: I wake up at home, the room looking very realistic and bf is walking around. I decide to play a bit stupid and ask him if I'm dreaming couple of times as if I've lost my mind and can't tell that this is reality. He reacts almost normally but I am still unconvinced. There's something in his reaction that is a bit off. "Hey, am I dreaming?", I continue shouting as he vanishes behind the corner. A female DC with a dark red cardigan comes in and then there is no more doubt. I feel a bit euphoric about being able to catch this fa as it felt like quite the thing I would have missed.

Contrary to other times when I have entered the other room, it now turns to a different place altogether. At first I don't catch the clues, but after more examination of the classical wooden furniture, it clicks how this place can indeed be the interior of Howl's castle.

Without any intention from my side, I notice that there is a fireplace to the side and the fire is as real as it gets. It dawns on me after seeing it that it is calficer. I approach the dream fire with astonishment for it is one of the most beautiful things I've ever seen. It's not just a regular fire - there is so much light in it, it shines like a little star, while at the same time being surrounded by flames. I feel almost mesmerized by the sight of it and am so happy to have it in the dream.

Spontaneously, I place my hands around the fire and try to absorb some of its heat and energy. As my hands get closer to the little fire, there is slight tension as in heat related sensation but insignificant to dwell on. In the meantime, the fire gets smaller and smaller as if this process is really draining it. I don't want to do away with it altogether so stop whatever it is I'm doing. The thought crosses my mind that I have spent way too long playing around and risk not completing the task because of that.

I face the room and see that the girl is here again. Now she has a pony tail, blue top and and slightly disturbing facial hair. As I approach her, her face clears a bit and I ask her couple of times if she is Sophie, to which she replies yes.
Perfect, now all I need is a door.

There's a small door on the wall that I open, but it turns more into a small window, plus I need to turn the color dial wheel first. I face the other wall where there is a white door and look to see if there is a dial next to it - there isn't. I recall couple of techniques I thought of using in such case, but instinctively pick another one. Bf's DC is just nearby so I ask him to hand me a dial wheel to put next to the door.

He gives me a round knob-like white object that I place next to the door, cover with my hands and start spinning, until the second layer of it starts to reveal multiple colors. Initially it stops on blue, then it moves to orange. I feel like I want to pick a particular color but am not quite sure which one. I rotate it to yellow, remarking to myself this is taking way too much time. Curious whether the outside will be the same as what can be seen through the nearby window (garden), I think it's high time to stop messing with the wheel dial and open the door.

But it's too late - the dream abruptly ends and I find myself in bed, moving my hand and feels like I've lost the opportunity to go back and complete the task.

Sensei's Competition night #12

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I find myself in a room, it is pretty dark but there's not much to see anyways. I can make out an old table with a wooden chair next to it. I don't know where I am and do a nose RC. I become lucid..
I look arround and try to stabilize by running my hands together, I take a few steps but the dream abruptly ends and I wake up.

The next scene is in a forest. The light shines through the leaves and everything is dimly lit. I am calm
and walk arround. It seems like I have a destination but I don't remember where I wanted to go. I remember I was just doing SSILD and do a nose RC. Again dreaming.
I instantly remember my master plan but get too excited and wake up.
(I thought I was past that phase)

I am on walking through some
streets where I live. Again not knowing where I was planning to go.
I decide to walk on the street and notice the lack of cars. I do a nose RC and become lucid..
I remember to ground myself and drop on the floor, I scrub over the ground with my hands, and demand
clarity. The world turns from
kinda sharp to super HD and I am baffled by how realistic everything looks (that was by the far the most realistic dream experience ever!).
II look arround and everything looks like it's supposed to look. I notice that not only my vision is really clear, but also I really feel my body in the dream and feel the wind blowing past me. (I think I woke up then, but I might also have lost lucidity or even lost my memory of what happened then. I think I remember reaching behind me to summon Cobb but that could be a false memory)

I want to record more detail for this particular dream because it was so much fun and I want to remember it . I was traveling from Los Angeles to somewhere in Europe by air. I was with my family and an old friend. There weren't many other passengers on board but we didn't seem to mind. After traveling for maybe 12 hours, we were almost there. We were flying over some mountains. The trees were lush with leaves or pine needles, the grass was green, and there was no snow on the ground. I looked out the window and noticed that we were super low to the ground. A wing hit a tree and the plane made a crash landing in a small valley. The plane caught on fire and the cabin began to fill with smoke. I felt my way to the nearest door, opened it, and began working to help as many people get out as I could. When I couldn't see anybody else I ran far away from the plane. Blast doors came down, completely encompassing the body of the plane. I heard a loud, "Boom", the blast doors contained the explosion. The doors opened back up and about 10 people ran out, coughing. I thought to myself, how the hell are they alive. The fire slowly died down and it was getting dark, so I decided it was time that we set up a temporary shelter near the plane. It was chaos, most people were just wandering around. I saw my old buddy and he was completely out of it, he looked like he had taken some serious prescription drugs. He pulled out a gun, pointed it in my face, called me a monster in heavily slurred speech, and shot at me. He missed so I charged him and took his gun away. I told him, "What the hell are you doing? You're out of your damn mind, we need these bullets for hunting not killing each other".

It was now dark, we had a fire set up, and there were no wounded miraculously. I was going through our inventory when I saw a digital camera. I thought, "awesome we can start fires with this". I turned around and this girl was standing behind me, taking pictures of me with her own camera. She showed me the picture and was sad that it was all black with barely an outline of me. I could barely see her because it was so dark, so I took a picture of her. I looked at the picture and she was completely naked. My buddy was nearby, acting crazy still. I went over to bring him a blanket, he still seemed so fucked up. He grabbed me by the shirt, pulled me close, and yelled in my face, "I Neeed some WEED". We had a huge supply of it in our inventory so I gave him some. He took some papers out of his pocket, deftly rolled a joint with one hand, put it in his mouth, lit it with his finger, took a deep inhalation, then laid back all relaxed as he exhaled. I couldn't go very far from the camp before it got too dark to see but I still tried to scout a basic perimeter of our immediate area. I saw a giant fox and I was going to shoot it but one of the survivors decided that the fox was now his/her pet. I said, "fine, but when we run on food your giant fox will be dinner".

The sun eventually rose and I could finally see what was going on around us. We split into a couple different groups. The first group was going to further loot the plane and try to set up a more permanent shelter nearby. The second group, which I was in, was going to further split into groups of two to explore the surrounding terrain for food and water. My partner was a really cute Asian girl (different from the naked one that took a picture of me). She had a bow and arrows with her luggage. After a lot of talking and walking around, we ran into the other girl and they started to fight over me. The girl that had taken a picture of me was hurt and she started to verbally rip me apart. I didn't mind. I said to them, "please don't fight, we really don't need dissension right now". The picture girl left and we continued exploring until we found a small lake that was connected to a stream. We reported back the great news, a stream for fresh water and a lake for potential fishing. I knew that there would likely be some line and hooks in the survival equipment from the plane. The lake was really pretty too.



Back at the camp some older gentleman had decided that he was in charge, but he wasn't discussing his decisions with the group and he was giving out way too much food. I told him that we needed to ration our supplies and focus on building our camp and finding more sources of food. He didn't agree. The giant fox came over to me and rubbed up against my leg like cats do, too cute. I woke up.

Some other dreams-

1:

My brother was going to a concert with his girlfriend but she didn't want me to go so I didn't. They got back and he was 30 years younger, he looked my age, and he was sad that I didn't go with him.

2:

I was at a party when I somehow chipped my tooth, I asked a girl if it looked bad. Her face said it was awful. I picked up a giant piece of tooth and was sad.

3:

I was hanging out with Jon Stewart. We were making each other laugh, was a lot of fun. He eventually left and my sister decided it was time to throw a huge party. I didn't feel like it but dozens of people showed up. ~_~ I recognized one of the guys there, he was an actor from the 80's.

4:

This was actually a series of dreams but it was kind of the same dream over and over. There was a nuclear bomb somewhere in the city that was about to go off and I had to run as far away from it as I could while guessing where it was. The bomb would eventually go off, my skin would melt, then the dream would reset. I couldn't win, no matter where I'd go the bomb was always nearby. For some reason it was kind of fun though. A very morbid, twisted dream game.

5:

I was driving a car, quite fast and quite poorly. I eventually got into an accident and all these kids started to burn alive. I was semi-lucid and I knew that it didn't matter so I ignored them and began running towards my destination, Chicago. I was on top of a large hill and I could see the city shining below. This homeless guy walked up to me and we started talking (he was John Witherspoon). I fully realized I was dreaming and thought to myself, damnit, right when I'm about to wake up. I woke up.

6:

This was a very long dream but I don't feel like typing it all out ^^. I was hanging out with some friends, we were driving somewhere. We stopped at a gas station and I started talking to these girls that were there. They liked me and thought I was charming. They asked to hang out with us, fine. When we got in the car they were really into one of my friends that usually doesn't do that well with the ladies. Then he went in the front seat with one of them (the one that I thought was really cute). The other girl started to kiss my ear and my neck, felt good. We made out for awhile, she was a really good kisser. We eventually came to our destination. I started making out with the other girl that I thought was really cute. She was such a bad kisser that I became lucid from it. I walked around and tried to think of something to do then woke up.

7:

I was getting frustrated that I hadn't had any good lucid dreams so I decided it was time to try to WILD. The dream started in complete blackness, I formed an image or rather a photograph of these cliffsides and a red bird. After a lot of concentrating I eventually jumped into the picture and everything became very vivid. I looked around and it looked like I was in some canyons in Utah. Looked just like this.



Woke up almost immediately. Oh well! Plenty more nights for fun lucid adventures ^^

Dream - Lucid

I was in a grocery store with many other people. Two people had been let in that wanted to murder us, an older guy and a younger girl. One person had already gotten pretty much killed; his head was being held on only by this full body cast. I knew that once that was gone, his head would fall off. I "remembered" it as if it had happened before. I was being pursued by the girl, probably of about 18-20 or so. She was skinny and had her blonde hair pulled up into a ponytail. I was on the ground in one of the aisles, and she was trying to stab me with this sharp, yellow crystal. I kept avoiding it and was trying to fight her off. I think I may have gotten hit a couple of times, but I can't remember for sure. I was yelling for help quite a bit, hoping someone would hear me.

Eventually, I fought her off. I got the crystal from her hands, so now, she had no means to kill me with. We were both standing up now, facing one another. I remember looking at her face and she just had this evil smile. I also noticed she was wearing some sort of uniform; I remember dark red being one of the colors in it. We somehow got her and the guy out of there. I remember speaking with the guy whose head was beheaded and being kept alive.

Later, we locked the front glass doors. We were standing by them, and I saw the two murderers standing outside, trying to get in. I was talking to someone, telling them NOT to let those people in no matter what. They would try to coerce their way in. They'd try to play on their pity. But they were NOT good people and would kill us. I knew the girl would come back after me. I thought about her getting another crystal. I believe the guy fought with a crystal as well.

I remember at one point seeing the guy who got beheaded without his body cast. His head slid off his body, or almost did.

I then was in a garage somewhere. I saw Dallas in the doorway, and realized, out of the blue, that I was dreaming. I said
"Dallas! This is a dream!"
He had started to speak to me during my exclamation. I wasn't sure if he had heard me. He then said something about it being a dream, so I knew he had.
I went up to him, and felt the dream was going to end soon; it felt a bit unstable. I examined my hands, focusing on their detail, and it worked for a little bit. I was standing with him and started to remove my clothes, when everything around me gained a faint white aura.

I then woke up.

~

I was at the skating rink I used to frequent in my youth. The rink was much smaller than I remember; they had re-done it so it now it was much more cramped, and you could barely skate on it if there were too many people. There were many people there, mostly kids. I looked at the rink from the side area and thought about how cramped it looked, and that it wouldn't be nearly as much fun now that it was like this. I'm pretty sure I had skates on. I remember seeing some of the employees that patrolled the rink, skating around on the crowded rink with the kids, guiding them over hurdles and such. There were just too many people. I wanted to skate freely, not cramped up with a zillion little kids. I also had a point where I wondered if I was too old to be there. I felt kind of weird being one of the oldest people there.

I was there at some point before the rink opened. I wondered if I could skate even though it was closed. There was no one there at least, so I'd have it all to myself.

~

I was dreaming something this morning when my husband was about to leave for work. He was stroking my shoulder IWL, and I kept falling in and out of sleep. I finally woke up so he could tell me goodbye and that he'd see me later.

~

I know I dreamed way more than this last night, and I told myself I'd remember, but alas.

Though I am happy for the lucidity I've been having lately, even if it's just brief. I have been lucid WAY more lately than I have in a very long time, dare I saw ever. Usually I'm lucid on average once per week when I'm focused on it. I've been lucid every other night just about. It's been a huge change of pace. I'm happy for it. Hoping it continues. I guess I just need to keep doing what I'm doing, meditate more regularly, and use more intention.

Dream 1

I'm outside standing in an open area. I can see the trees, and if looks like botanical gardens. I get a message from Germain telling me they're lost. I get another message shortly after from my brother with a similar message.

I think I get in contact with my brother on the phone and he tells me to look for a green sign (highway direction sign). I look around and eventually see it in the distance. I think Kayley was with me at the time and she has gone towards where the green sign is. She finds a car with Germain and my brother. I think there was a couple others with them.

Dream 2 - DILD

I'm standing in a bathroom with my top off. I'm looking at my body and flexing and posing. I look more muscular and ripped then I look IRL. The bathroom doesn't look familiar but has a nice fresh look to it. I see a few odd things happen which makes me wonder if I'm dreaming, so I so a reality chick. I see that I am missing a finger but I'm not fully convinced and check check again. This time I have half a finger.. K I'm convinced now and realize I'm dreaming. I leave the bathroom and see that I'm at Germain's house. I don't stabilize the dream but try something that I haven't tried before but thought it would be interesting to see if it works. To find that pill which prolongs a dream. I reach into my back pocket and don't feel anything, but instead of give up I turn it into a false memory and think to myself "it's not in my back pocket, it's in the kitchen drawer. I walk into the kitchen and open the drawer and can't seem to find it. I awaken shortly after.

Dream 3 - DILD

I'm near a bush/tree and it has a massive sack of liquid around it it. Like a massive ball of puss. It ends up being cancer. Not sure if it's the trees cancer or someone's cancer. I walk around the tree and have a closer inspection.

A story starts to get told to me and I see scenes etc. it's about a aboriginal man that had everything going for him. He had a career in the NFL and was a nice healthy muscly man. The man comes into my view in front of me and see that he is not the man he used to be. He has his shirt off and looks pretty thin and notice his skin is sagging. I ask him what happened and he tells me he got sick (I assume his cancer was what was on the tree). I see flash backs of his life and see him at a party. One of the scenes is a photo of him in his day and he looked totally different. He was a lot faller in the face and didn't look like he has aboriginal in him. The scene is now showing me more of the party and I see Bruce Buffer (UFC ring announcer) in his younger days. He's connected to a human train.

I'm now in my house and I let my dog outside without supervision. I freak out and quickly go and check on him as i don't usually let him out by himself. I see him up the street. I walk towards him but see a lot of cars and I start to panic as my dog has no road sense what so ever.

Im inside my house and I see that Dad gets off the computer and heads over towards the front door. I see that someone is still in the computer room and think that's odd that it's only myself and dad that is here. I do a RC and notice finger is half missing. I'm only lucid for a few moments before awakening.

Dream 4
7.15am

I'm outside in someone's backyard. It looks familiar. I'm watching a 4WD driven by I think Luke Stool. He's spinning the wheels and doing 360's on the grass. I decide to jump on the side of the 4WD. He starts spinning the wheels again and I think a child is now driving the 4WD. I start to worry about he dangers of me being on the side of the 4WD while they're driving like this and eventually get off it. I see them drive off into an extended area out the backyard. It's as if they have their own track. I think about Ash Comp in the garage waiting for them to get back.

I walk inside and Kayley tells me that Daniel was in the 4WD, drunk and as a passenger. His friend Barlett was driving. I walk into the lounge room and see that Daniel is sitting down and Barlett is laying on a beanbag. It looks like they're playing Xbox. I shake both their hands and start a convocation with them. Dani offers me a beer but I decline. He gets me one anyways and I take it. I look at can of Victorian Bitter and notice that it looks weird. It's wider than a normal can and looks to have curve going downwards between 2 cans. The hole which you drink out of looks flush with the can. A nice smooth finish. On the right hand side of the can looks like someone has punctured a hole in it. I become suspect that he may have put something in it without telling me.

Daniel asks if me if I would like to play cricket in the lounge room. I grab the bat off him and line up at the end of lounge room. The item that's placed on the ground in front of me that was marking the crease falls over as he bowls the ball towards me. He bowls out but I tell him I was distracted by the falling crease and was about to fix

It as he bowled. As I'm fixing the crease I see a lot of random shit on the ground that could be used for a crease but i pick something simple like a straight piece of plastic, the size of a ruler. I hear voices in the background, and soon realize it's guests. I recognize them, it's Jane and Sonja. Jane looks pretty good looking and has toned her body up nicely. Sonja invites me to come for a smoking session with them. I explain that I don't handle most weed too well, it tends to make me anti social and dumb. They tell me about one of their friends who is quite similar when it comes to smoking.

Dream 5

I'm walking with Daz up Germain's court and we see a white car. I think about stealing it but soon realize there's a man in the front seat. Daz doesn't care too much and decides to attempt to steal it anyways. I jump in the passenger side and rip the man out of the car and throw him in a pool which is 5 meters away. A man walking in the distance saw what happened and calls the police. I jump in the drivers seat and try to drive away. The man that called the cops is running over to the car to stop me. I try to drive faster but the car hasn't got much acceleration. I get away and head for the main road. I see a group of people half way down the court. One of them tries to stop the car but I avoid him. It looks to be raining and turns dark as I reach the main intersection. I feel as if I'm still getting chased and am in a hurry for traffic to allow me to cross the road. I see my chance and go for it. As I'm driving I notice that Daz isn't in the car with me but is on a motorbike. I ask him if he wants to come inside the car did to it raining. He likes the idea and tries to come to a stop and ends up going straight over the handlebars into a pond. I don't think Daz was wearing any protective clothes that would keep him warm either.

Side Notes:
Alarm hasn't been waking me up. Seem to be having natural awakening. Kept forgetting to continue sleep breathing upon awakening to try and bring on a dream. Tried it once but I think I was too awake. Time to follow a routine and stick to it without changing things up.