lucid

I just wanted to add this really quick, it's not much but it counts. I had this dream when I fell asleep in mid-afternoon while watching anime with a friend (who also fell asleep).

When my memory kicks in I was already lucid, and the dream was a little hazy. In my previous lucid I had successfully increased the vividness by repeatedly taking off my glasses without ever putting them back in, so I decided to try that again. It worked several times in a row, but I'm not really sure if the change stuck around for long as that's the last thing that I can recall.

I feel like there was more to that dream and I probably did some totally badass things just to make me feel about forgetting out now, as usual. Maybe more will come back over time but we'll see....

Tonight I took a break from goals and I feel like that paid dividends!..explanation at the end...

8/7/14***
11 355am Being chased by a big Ebola virus caricature. He shows up in several locations. Oh no not Ebola again!?? This time in dark house with fireplace going. Previously in another house. Didn't feel particularly scared. Explanation that if he shows up more than 18% of the time, you have the virus? He was like a big long dreadlocks wig standing maybe over 6 feet tall. Weird day residue from the Ebola virus news story. / I am looking up at constellations in the sky and notice one is particularly bright. I point it out to someone and all the sudden it looks very normal no longer super bright and I realize that I'm dreaming. When I first saw it it was like almost as bright as the moon. It was mostly semi circular in shape. I haven't had one of these night sky based DILDs in a while and was excited to see this. Took a walk last night during sunset and could already see some beautiful stars and the moon and afterwards watched two tv shows about space on the
Science Channel. Anyway, I flew up into the sky wanting to head closer to the constellation but, I started experiencing strong vibrations...possibly day residue from reading Sensei's dream journal. I play with the vibrations trying different levels of softly or more aggressively clenching my eyes to check the effect and I start to see a scene form but I lose it and wake up. / I travel through two big rectangular levels of what seems most like an apartment building. I pass many different DC's. In one area on the first floor near where I started there's a party going on that seems somewhat Mardi Gras themed. I give a few head nods to the party goers as we pass. I am with my wife and son. I get down to the end of that hall coming down towards the next level and there is another party going on mostly younger crowd than the previous one. As I am observing the second group I notice my son and wife has left but I retraced my steps and find them and get mad at
them for leaving me back there not telling me that they were walking away. / there's an appointment before 5pm Wednesday that I need to make for a side gig that is in conflict with my work schedule. / I am in this club-like or party setting and there is some kind of neon sculpture on the wall of a woman's butt. I think about the earlier party dream and the connection between the two seems to be what makes me lucid. I go down to the right and then right again into a little wing of this club or whatever it is and there is this beautiful petite thin black woman sitting between two big black guys. At first I ignore them but then I decided it's a great way to test or prove my level of lucidity to myself and strengthen it...and it's better not to have any interference from any unfriendly DC's. I say something like hey you don't mind if I borrow her for a moment (more like a Jedi mind trick statement...not a question). Cool! I reach over and give a handshake (dc interact) to the big guy on the right. She gets up and approaches me and I asked her to remove her top. She was wearing a bikini-like top and she revealed beautiful smallish perky breasts. I whip off both her bottom piece and my clothes in one TK swoop of my hands as if the clothes were never there. I lift her up and she wraps her legs around me, with me inserted inside of her. I walk around the club lifting her body up and down occasionally on my (ahem) enjoying this awesome scene for a while. I just remembered this detail > I see another woman, maybe latino, with large breasts and I ask her to remove her top and as she does I see man boobs and look up and she is now a chubby black guy. I poke at his man boobs and joke with him in a friendly way. < I walk back towards where I first entered and over to my left is a different wing that looks like a bedroom. I approach it and there is another beautiful woman inside slouching on a bed and the first woman has disappeared off of me. I approach the second woman she has dark hair , she is white and wearing pink lingerie. The bed coverings are also in silky pink. I lay down on the bed and gently start making out with her then straight to intercourse for a little while before
waking up...I think for real. / I doze back off doing some mental recall but wake into a false awakening and my wife and son is there and I start to tell them about becoming lucid but then I remember that they don't like the idea of "messing with dreams" like that (memory was slow to catch up and I am not lucid). I instead told them about the dream regarding the appointment before 5pm since it is fairly ordinary and it shouldn't take any offense to me remembering an ordinary dream! The transition after the above is not clear in my memory, it must have either another FA or a transition within that last scene but I saw the woman from the bedroom in the earlier dream and instantly knew I was dreaming again! I walked over to her as she was walking away into a hallway and I caught up with her. We started making out they're in the hallway end another blonde woman who was apparently her sister comes out of the bedroom and I start kissing her as well! We are making out (dc interact) in the hall and they start inching me towards the bathroom. For once the DC's are taking charge and I don't mind! We get into the bathroom and it seems as if their idea was for some privacy and I think for a moment about closing the door behind us but remind myself that there is no need, this is all a dream. They both go down and my pants and underwear are gone and they both started going at my (ahem) and I am just looking down fascinated at the realism and highly enjoying the two of them who both seem very skilled! I wake up smiling ear to ear and after trying to go back in, I roll over and pulled out my hidden paper dream journal to write down a few quick notes so that I don't forget any details. After some quick notes I experiment with getting to sleep quickly using two short (combined senses) SSILD cycles that take no more than about 5-7 seconds. I do quickly get to either advanced dreamlets or the beginnings of dreams that I seem to be scaring away
being a little too alert. This night I was reminded of my other theory that I was experimenting with two nights ago but forgot to log that basically says that if you maintain awareness into HI's and then go to sleep then you are more likely to have a DILD. That has probably been said before but much of this process is all about discovering things for yourself. 185-187

I was considering what to do about my extended RC's specifically for the competition having become so rote. During my RC's I invoke the feeling of becoming lucid, slow myself down and then run through my goals for the competition. I had been doing this since maybe the 2nd or 3rd night and I had a long list of items to complete. I completed roughly half of the ones I had worked out ahead of time quite a number of nights back while lucid. After that I just worked on the 2nd half of my goals during the extended RC's during the day...but since the last half was the same as it had always been, it felt worn out and tired so yesterday I decided to just focus on doing anything fun for my next lucid. I think this made me more excited about getting lucid and resulted in a very fun triple!

Wow! I had my very first lucid dream last night! It was brief, and I didn't have as much control over it as I would have liked, but I'll take this small victory for now and keep on working at it.

Three Fingered Hands (LD)

I was in a large classroom after hours with a few of my co-workers, specifically Jason, Rebecca, and another female who I can't remember. I was goofing off with Jason, I believe making paper airplanes. I remember looking down at my hands, and seeing my ring and middle finger disappear, leaving behind nothing but stubs when I would focus on them. I looked at them for awhile, not realizing I was in a dream, until it finally dawned on me. “Holy S***, I’m dreaming,” was the first thing I said as I felt the dreamworld immediately begin to fade. It started to blur at the edges, almost like a water color painting that had too much water. More like washed out. I remembered reading that rubbing your hands together was one of the best ways to get the dream stabilized, so I rubbed my three-fingered hands together, and felt this smooth, cool, electric like feeling under my skin.

The room became crisp again, and I ran up to Jason and said “Dude! You’ll never believe it, I’m actually dreaming right now and I can control it!” Surprisingly, for my first conversation with a DC, his response was pretty true to his character. “No s***,” he said, “that’s awesome.” I tried to get Rebecca’s conversation, but she was wrapped up in her conversation with the other girl and kept telling me off. could it be that I don’t remember this other girl since I didn’t interact with her at all before or after lucidity? I remember that the other two characters at this point were well known to me from the beginning, but their identities were crisper once I achieved lucidity. I picked up one of the paper airplanes and threw it, not making it very far. Jason came up to me and said, “Have you tried looking in the mirror yet?” and I thought, you know what, no I haven’t. Thanks Jason.

Looking around the room, I couldn’t find any mirrors, as two walls were covered in windows showing dark night sky outside, and another wall was covered in an oversized green chalkboard, still dirty with white chalk dust. So I walked out of the classroom, and entered a dim hallway. I saw a mirror at the far end, but ignored it as it was dark there. Instead, I entered a doorway that led into a large bathroom. Inside were two other gentleman, but I can’t remember who they were. The back of the bathroom almost seemed to turn into a large maze of a locker room, with many showers and lockers just out of sight. In retrospect, this room is something I have dreamed about before, except it has always been empty. I know it is like a maze, because even though I didn’t explore it this time, in the past I have in a non-lucid dream. I remember that there are doors further back that lead to more showers/lockers, and more doors, etc. I walked up to the mirror and looked at myself, not finding anything peculiar about my appearance is this normal? The dream started to fade yet again, and I tried to focus myself on something. Once it stabilized, I tried to let the other gentlemen in the room know what was going on, but the dream began to fade yet again, and this time I could not control it.

What a completely crazy night!!
I wonder if I might sometimes really forget these things - or it's an absolute new one: four lucid episodes - I kid you not!!
I did a WBTB relatively early in the night - after hardly four hours.
They were all reasonably long, even if I didn't get something done, not overly much. But I went about stabilizing exercises - and sometimes to good effects!
Recall was excellent again directly upon waking - but I didn't dictate in between and so former normal dreams are lost, which I did have upon middle of night waking.
Oh - edit: And what is really funny - I was pretty tipsy if not drunk upon falling into bed - friend of mine had been coming around for playing darts, and drinking is somewhat traditional, at least I indulged in it despite expecting negative effects on dreaming - nope!


LD #1: I get lucid out of the blue, while looking at an intricately patterned curtain, do a nose-plug and yepp - lucid. Thinking of the last one, I do as if nothing was and walk out of the building. It is a pretty lucid - not of otherworldly shine and beauty - but compared with what I often have - half dark and visual troubles of some sort, something dissolving when I look at it - it's really good. So I decide this is going to be it - walking about and looking for a while. I remembered the comp, but didn't care - what counted for me was keep stuff as is and not endanger it with being ambitious.

It's not a DEILD-chaining, the next one - but I woke up drank a sip of lemonade and rolled back on over and start to dream normally and then

LD #2: Almost directly after starting to dream, I notice it again and do the nose-plug. This time, I think 5 senses - again not comp, really - I just want it fully realistic. So I look about, which again works nicely enough, if nothing special, and I hear things and then I go to a cabinet and smell it - doesn't smell - so I take a bite - tastes like rice-crispies or something, makes crackling noises as well. Then - mistake - I pat myself down and the cabinet, which leads to an absurd attraction - I have to admit it - I get "involved" with said cabinet and wake up in the process - dayam - don't even need people for this sort of mishap...

Then there was a regular dream or anyways more time in between and then:

LD #3: Meanwhile I think - heey - wow - lucid again!! No dreamsign and no RC needed to find out - it's simply obvious within, that it is again a dream. I dutifully do a nose-plug for the point, and this time I want to do something for the comp. But I was too stupid to in the middle of the night or the evening before incubate something, definitively not expecting even more lucids. So I stand there and remember parts of the long lists of dream-control stuff to do - and nothing takes my fancy. Forgot my rest of the 3-stepper completely, and my personal task - so I think I try telekinesis again, because that wasn't easy, but did work. I try it with different things - with a stool first, and it doesn't move - with a cushion - and it also doesn't move. I remember the leaves then, and that I had waved my arms about wildly in front of a heap of them (but from a distance). So I do that again, with the cushion, shout at it, too - and it levitates a bit, ruffling about in itself, but it's not exactly satisfactory - and I wake up.

Similar like the first couple - I don't stay still or fall asleep instantly again - but right in the next dream I get lucid again.

LD #4: This time I had reminded myself of the superflight stuff still being open, do an RC and take to the air from standing, which was satisfying, a bit with imagining gravity reversing for me and with the usual swimming thing as a means to direct the path - but - I lose optics and wake up. I guess it's good to stay on ground for a while for stability's sake...

Dream #1: A story with my ex-boyfriend, and the flat from last night played a role as well - he was totally over-tired after having worked through more than 24 h, and I put him in my bed in the flat from last night, the one originally belonging to my gay friend there. I could write more, but I hope this is enough for now - no - nothing happened in that bed, at least not that I remember, I just put him there to sleep.
Edit: And I mentioned the details because of the in-dream-remembering of a prior dream element, which I find to be a curious phenomenon. Some features even seem to take on a sort of life of their own in dream-land, become a fixture, almost...
Na - the story was more of me convincing him to stop working finally and give over to somebody else and come rest somewhere. Now upon editing much of it is lost, and I'm not even sure, if it's true, that I woke up, when he fell asleep, more or less..? Whatever.

Dream #2: Horrible nightmare - birthday party for me supposedly, with family, and an ex-stepfather of mine is there, plus a supposed new one with my mother, my grandmother, my real father with my two half-siblings and a couple of others. It's a hate-fest, lets say it so - my mother and her (ex-) partners are positively mean to me and each other, my father sits there perplexed and half amused, half taken aback. I get quite angry, try to hold it down and not explode. I know if I do, they will demolish me, expecting it, baiting me.
After a while I jump up from the table and say to my brother and sister - lets go mountain-hiking - which we do. We've been in an open air restaurant directly in the mountains - they are relieved and happy to get away from it, too. So does my father - he leaves as well.
There's a funny scene with a little girl showing us the way, maybe 4 years and in traditional dress, but with shining orange eyes - like an evil sprite - but we know, she wants no bad - she's just too fast for us - jumping like a mountain-goat from stone to stone, so she disappears in front of us. We're hiking, and it has several scenes, but finally we come back down to that party. Still everybody is there, my father is back, and still people are insulting and reproaching each other, but they happily turn their attention back on me again, too much recall for my liking...
I woke up in a huge sweat from that - the last scene was my mother holding my hands tight in hers, and I knew, if I wanted to get away, I'd have to break hers, or mine, or both our bones. I wake up before anything breaks, while still straining and trying to figure out what to do.

I almost never have a proper nightmare with some sort of monster or danger or something - I believe I journalled only around three of such a tendency over my whole time on DV. Oh - and one monster I remember now was a "horror-rabbit" in black with red eyes - not even overly big - but one sinister rodent that was - it needed only look at me to curdle the blood in my veins...
My nightmares tend to be of a social kind, if I have them, which is luckily also rather rare - but that was one!!



Fragment #1: Trying to find my glass with dry red-wine back, there are lots on the table, but all have sweet wine and belong to somebody else - I don't find it, but people get pissed off because of me touching their glasses and leaving prints. Not that I tried their wine - nope - dirtied their glasses...

Fragment #2: My grandmother in hospital, very sick...

So I had my first lucid in months!! And the first lucid in Sensei's competition. It was so much fun! Yay!

I woke up at 7.30 this morning and I wrote down 3 dream fragments. I probably could have dug deeper and remembered at least on of them fully, but I'm stuggling with the motivation to write the dj. and so they stayed only fragments. I then lay awake for a bit thinking I would do a WBTB, I was awake for maybe 20 minutes? Then I got comfy again and tried to go to sleep. I repeated a mantra to myself for a minute or two about how I would fall asleep and realize I was in a dream. After a while of twisting and turning, not being able to fall asleep I did a nose plug, and I could breathe! Only through one of my nostrils, but I could breathe!! But how could it be? I was still in my bed trying to fall asleep! But wait, was I? I looked around and realized I wasn't in my bed after all. I was on a mattress on the floor somewhere else. I got up and went to the bathroom, doing another nose plug (I couldn't believe I was lucid) still could breathe, but only through one nostril. I kept my nose plugged for a while, wondering how I could do that and not "choke" in real life, I then realized it's only my dream body that's got its nose plugged... Even though I was lucid my awareness was low at this stage. I suddenly realized I was standing in a bathroom scrubbing the toilet and I thought "I'm not using my LD to scrub down a filthy toilet!!" So I stood up and tried to remember my goals. I remember the competition and some of the tasks. Should I try flying? I have had a plan that if I did become lucid I would summon a 'musical muffin', eat it and try to sing! So I placed my hands behind by back and thought "when I bring my hands in front of me again there will be a musical muffin in my hands. And there was! It was a bit unclear/hazy, but had a creamy cheese topping with a 'musical note' as a decoration. I hurried to take a bite, and as I did I wondered how it didn't taste anything. After eating a bite of it I tried to sing - very quietly, because I was afraid someone might hear me. And I was disappointed, my voice was even poorer than in real life. LOL! Here the dream gets a little blurry, I can't remember quite what happened, but I think I had a FA where the nose plug RC failed.

I also remember dreaming about writing in my dj about both the lucid dream and some other dreams - it's so frustrating waking up and realizing you have to do it all over again, haha. All in all I remember 4 fragments, 2 dreams and 1 LD! A very, very good night! I'm so happy!

A question though: Did I just have my first WILD, or was this just a regular DILD? Did kind of feel like a DILD, but then I really thought I was still awake so it might have been a WILD... I've heard so much talk about the weird sensations one gets when wilding, and I didn't feel any of that...

After my WBTB it took me a little while to get back to sleep.

1. First dream I remember at all I was walking in a neighborhood that I lived in when I was growing up. I missed the street I lived on but realized I was dreaming and woke up pretty much at the same time.

2. I was with my wife, dad and step-mother. My wife was talking to them about my lucid dreaming (she still thinks its weird). She was saying how it was a little strange and we were all standing around this box. The box had a little lizard head poking out of it. My wife is deathly afraid of lizards and could hardly bare to watch. As I was concentrating on the box the lizard head got bigger and bigger. After a little bit the lizard came out of the box but was some kind of large, lizard/caterpillar/mouse hybrid. It had the head of a lizard and at least 6 to 8 legs and walked like a mammal and a kind of mouse tail. It ran up my arm and I experienced dream pain. It didn't hurt just felt like pressure I guess is the best way to describe it. It wrapped itself around my lower arm and my skin kind of absorbed it and it vanished. This made me do a RC and I did a very thorough one since I wanted to be SURE I was dreaming. I sure enough counted 6 or 7 fingers on one hand. LUCID: I though of the foreign language task but then decided to do eyeball task. I turned toward my dad and put my fingers around my right eye ball. He immediately began to back away disturbed at the sight. I really focused on this and in my right eye I could see like white light shooting around blackness, kind of like when you push on your eye a bit in waking life. I was trying to get my fingers in deep enough to reach the back of my eye ball to pull it out. I didn't seem to be getting deep enough to get leverage to pull it out and began to get frustrated. The frustration caused me to wake up.

3. This one was very long and vivid. I was with my daughter and I took her to work. I was going to be gone for several months and I talked to my wife who asked when she would be coming home, I told her I wasn't sure. I didn't even know how I was going to get her home really. I was supposed to make sure some training was going on but I had to find where the classroom was. I was a long way from the class room and took a few wrong turns to get there. I found an elevator and went up in it (of course I never got in one last month at all), when I got to the top I realized I went one or two floors higher than I was supposed to so I took the stairs down. I think my daughter was still with me at this point but not a large factor in the story at this point. I went down flight of stairs and tried to go into a door. Someone was working on the other side of the door and I couldn't go through. I said this was find and went down another set of stairs. I ended up giving up on this and wound up back in my room with my daughter (still at work). I put her down for a nap and went to get some food from the cafeteria. I ran into another guy I used to work with and he had his family with him. It had seemed like I was gone for a long time and I remembered that if my daughter woke up and I wasn't there she would be very upset. I got back to the room quickly and I could hear her crying. I got her from the room and took her out to the living room area where there were a bunch of toys. Somehow the room I was in transitioned to the cab of a truck that I was driving down the road. I was more riding in the truck and not driving, there were a bunch of pillows and toys spread all over (like a living room almost). I saw a policeman coming down the road and I was worried that he would see that her seat-belt wasn't on. I had her sit and we pretended to be buckled in. The cop car passed us and I realized in front of us that there was a sideways car that we were approaching quickly, I sat in the drivers seat and pulled into the dirt median next to us to avoid the sideways car. As I began passing the sideways car I realized it was still moving down the road and I wasn't passing it but staying even. The dirt was hard to drive on and I began to lose control, the sideways car straightened up and I pulled back over to the road. I did a RC and became LUCID: I looked out the car window and thought of jumping out and the traffic and my daughter, I convinced myself again this was a dream and hopped out of the window while the truck was cruising down the road. I landed right on my feet and was facing oncoming traffic. There was a truck coming right at me and as it approached I barely kicked the bumper and it flew backwards onto the car behind it. I was pretty proud I was able to do this with ease. I then thought of the word in another language task and looked for someone. Behind me a bus was pulled over and a girl was coming out of it. She had long dark hair and I ran up to her and asked her to tell me a foreign word, I wasn't sure if this sentence came out clearly (I thought I might have slurred it), but she understood me. I cant remember the exact word but it started with F and had some Rs in it, something like Farrer or Fourier, it sounded very foreign when she said it. As soon as she said it she was walking away and I followed. I repeated the word and she said 'yes', I then ask her what it meant (still following) and lost the dream.

So close!!

Good morning, Dreamviews. Lots of dreams and fragments last night, but in particular:

2:33 AM: I am trying to win my ex-girlfriend back. I know she will be on a tour of this castle (she is thinking of buying it as a home) so I plan to be there as well and also take the tour. I am somehow under the impression that we planned to take this tour together, but when she shows up, she sees me and then looks away, as though she is pretending I am not there. She tells the guide she is here for her tour. I think about staying quiet and just leaving, but then decide to speak up. I tell the tour guide I would also like to take the tour. She seems uncomfortable now.

We head up through the castle, until we finally get to a section with a garden walkway and a well. At this point, my ex's mom puts her hands under my shirt and rests them on my torso. Her hands are cold and I squirm. She tells me it feels like I have been working out. I assure her I haven't been She then comments to my ex that "she might as well hold hands with the guy who is trying to win her back." We hold hands, but I am now conscious of her crying quietly. Very odd dream, Dreamviews! Any ideas?

9:52 AM: I am in my mom's dining room. My wife and one of her friends is here. A kid suddenly shows up. He looks a bit odd but I seemingly mistake him for a former coworker. We begin discussing a dream group. I tell him his brother has already signed up, and that he should as well. We talk a bit about lucid dreaming. He says "A girl I work with does that stuff."

"Have you talked to her about it? I ask.

"Nah, she is too thick," he replies.

I ask him what he means. He then replies in a bunch of mumbo-jumbo, and then salutes me. I find this exceedingly odd, but don't want to be impolite. I ask him how he is enjoying his job. He tells me he has only been there a few weeks.

"Aren't you still working for the zoo?" I ask.

He now looks oddly at me. "Who do you think I am?" All of a sudden, I notice he is not my friend and I nose pinch.I can breathe, but all of a sudden, I go deaf! I am now uncertain of my status--is this a dream? I look at my hand: it is wobbly and weird, but when I look again, it is stable and normal. I show my hand to my wife, as though to say, "Look! What do you see??" She ignores me and continues her conversation. I decide to settle this once and for all. I set off down the hallway to find some text. However, I do so discreetly, so in the case that I am not dreaming, I don't act like a nut in front of everyone. I accidentally bump my wife's shoulder as I pass her and I wake up.

So competition goers, I'm asking you guys: was I lucid? I wrote it down in my paper DJ as a lucid immediately upon waking, but I don't want to take advantage of the system! Let me know what you think!

Non Dream
Dream
Lucid

Lucid #5 (DILD, FA #4)-"I don't have much visual recall right now, that's the problem," I said, continuing my conversation with a dc from the previous dream about my dry spell. I found that I had woken up in my bed. I do a nose plug and I can breathe! Yay! I get on the floor and start to crawl, trying to transform into a dog. I crawl to the glass door so I can see my refection. I'm not making any progress. I see a small cat behind me. Stupid cats! I turn around and bark at it, still trying to transform. It approaches me and bites me. I grab it's mouth shut and throw it around. We continue to fight for a bit before I wake up.

Dream - Lucid

I was in a very large room with many people. The walls were a cream color. We were singing in some sort of choir. I was standing towards the front, and turned around to look behind me. There were people ducking and screaming.
"It's a bat!!" I heard someone scream.
I then saw a bat swoop down behind me. I was trying to get away from it myself, when it landed on my hand and bit me. It left three small puncture wounds on my hand. I was panicking a bit, because I knew I needed to go to the hospital.

There was more to this one, but I can't quite recall.

~

I was working in a jewelry store. I went to open shop. I got there, and Rachel was there, too. Her parents owned the store (I worked for them at a coffee shop 7 years ago IWL). They were there as well.

The store opened, and a girl I knew in high school, Amanda, came inside. I think she was returning something. I thought about it, and thought I had heard that her fiance' was dead. I didn't say anything to her, but approached her and gave her a hug. She didn't hug back or say anything, but I wasn't offended. I finished hugging her and walked the other direction.

I then remembered that I had forgotten something at home. I asked Rachel's parents if I could run home and get it real quick. They said I could. I left the store.

Then, I saw this scene of a stag in a beautiful forest. He was sitting in a tall grassy area. Sunlight was peeking through the treetops, and everything it touched shimmered. I then saw some glowing thing. I do not know what else to call it but that. It was a round shape and was glowing in faint rainbow colors, but you could mainly see white. There was another one in the back room of the jewelry store too. I think it also acted as a portal. Rachel touched it, and turned into a scarecrow. She could then approach the stag. She stroked his fur, and he let her.

It then got to a point where I did the same thing. At first, I could see myself in third person being the scarecrow and approaching the stag. But then, it was first person, and I was stroking the stag's fur. At first, I was expecting him to run, but he didn't move a muscle. I started to speak with him. He spoke to me in a deep, male voice, talking about scarecrows and how we came to see him (he did not realize that all the scarecrows who had seen him were all different humans). We spoke of other things as well, though I can't remember.

Eventually, I went back to the jewelry store.

Then, I was shopping at a grocery store in the produce section. I was looking for grapefruit so I could eat it with my breakfast for a healthy kick. I saw these small fruits inside these circular holders, kind of like the ones cups are in at fast food restaurants. I went to pull one out, and it was cutting it into a square shape as I pulled it. I saw that it was a type of melon, so I decided I didn't want it. I went to put it back, but it wouldn't go back in now that it was cut; it kept sliding out. I then kept looking, and spotted a bigger white fruit in a similar holder, but I read the sign and saw it was cantaloupe. Ugh, why couldn't I find a grapefruit? Someone, a female I believe, came up to me and asked what I was looking for. I responded
"A melon. No, a cantaloupe. No, a grapefruit."
I think she showed them to me. I can't quite recall.

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I was laying in my room, but it was a part of a much different apartment than the one I'm living in currently; it actually seemed to be a mixture of my apartment and my dad's old practice. It had many rooms all lining the same hallway on either side. In fact, my old roommate, Cherie', still lived there. So did her boyfriend, Jeremiah. I was debating on whether or not I had time to get up and shower.

I then got up, and walked into a bathroom (there were a few bathrooms in this apartment). Jeremiah was in the shower. I got in with him and started washing my hair. We were laughing and having a good time. I think I put my arms around his neck. I noticed that the water was kinda cold. I guess he liked showers the way my husband likes them. I didn't mind the cold much (though I do IWL).

I then had to get out, I guess Cherie' was coming home and was going to shower with him. I had only washed my hair though, and still needed to shower more. I saw my reflection in a mirror of my hair. It was already dry, and looked very wavy and shiny. I figured I could get by with just shampooing my hair and it wouldn't be a big deal. I needed to wash my face, though. I couldn't get to my shower stuff anymore because Cherie' and Jeremiah were showering. So instead, I pretended that I had my bottle of face wash in my hand, and started to pump some on my finger. I felt nothing. I kept trying however; I put it on my face, rubbing it around. I felt it a little, but not much. It felt dry. Probably because it was.

I then walked by another room, which was actually an office. I saw a computer on a desk in there. It had a flowery background. Now that I think about it, it really resembled my dad's old office, though the furniture was switched around. I saw my therapist in there. She smiled and closed the door. I guess she was working. I think the bathroom I normally used was in there. Crap.

I then found myself showering in another bathroom in the apartment. I looked down and I was standing on a couch/lounge chair.



It looked similar to this, only it had two cushions instead of just the one, and had a curtain-type pattern on top of the navy blue.

I watched the water hit the chair.

I then was out of the shower, and approached a mirror in the bathroom. To my surprise, I was looking at the reflection of a young skinny guy with a white tank top on and short, dark dreads. I knew who I/he was in the dream. At this point, I became semi-lucid. I noticed that behind me, stood...me. When I moved in the mirror, the guy me moved, but the other me, the girl me, was moving of her own accord. This part was extremely vivid.

I then turned around and saw Cherie' was there too, but she also was a guy! She looked similar to me. I knew who she was supposed to be as well. I said to her
"I wonder if I have a penis."
I looked down to look. I didn't see a bulge. I did notice I was standing in a white bathtub though. I then pulled open my basketball shorts and saw...my vagina. I even saw my birthmark on my belly that I have IWL. Boo. No penis for me.
Cherie' then checked to see if she had one, and she did. She said, in her voice, I might add,
"I do. It's long enough to impregnante someone!" I saw a glimpse of it. It was hard. Damn, son. She was right.

Then, either I woke up, or lost my semi-lucidity.

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I slept super well last night, and I know there were more dreams, but I can't remember them all right now. I just kept thinking about how I needed to sleep more. I was dog tired.

Sorry I was gone these past few days, I was on an awful, awful dry spell.

So we have all heard of a false awakening, but what about a false falling asleep?

I was having a dream that my life had reverted to the year 2003, meaning that I was a small child once more. My subdivision looked a little bit different. All of the cars looked extremely square and boxy. (Not to say a lot of older cars look boxy.) But I mean these cars looked ridiculously square.
A false memory rolls in: Apparently this was not the same reality as the one that I had experienced in 2003, but I had simply traveled to a different one, and in this alternate world having the most boxy car was considered prestigious. Our neighbors had a rotating table on their yard with an extremely square car on it. The car looked something like a miniature box and was one large red cube with windshields, windows, wheels and a radiator on the front. They were trying to show off the square-ness of their car.
I get very excited at the thought of having many years of my life back, and forget about the boxy car fad. I begin thinking of things that I want to do differently in this new life. Just as I do, my mom comes outside, picks me up, and takes me inside to go to bed. As we walk inside I notice that the sun is setting. I lay down and notice how sleepy I feel.
Then I think to myself, maybe in this new life I can start lucid dreaming earlier. Lucid dreaming is supposed to be very easy for young children to learn as their dreams are of better quality, and their minds are more awake. I lay still and begin thinking to myself that I will lucid dream tonight.
After a minute I find myself in a 'lucid' dream. (It was kind of funny, because I knew that this was a dream relative to the boxy car reality, but I didn't know that the boxy car reality was in fact a dream.)
The dream is that I am in a city street. There are a bunch of large white cylinders of varying heights made of a metal like material juxtaposed in the street. There are no cars or dream characters anywhere from what I can tell. I begin thinking about what the cylinders might be. Perhaps they contain something. I approach and touch one. It feels cold, it is covered with condensation.
The city breaks away but all of the cylinders remain. I am now floating in reddish-black a void with the white cylinders still scattered about. They begin to drift in random directions. I begin to hear a screeching noise growing louder and louder.
False awakening. Back into my 2003 alternate reality bedroom. It is morning and the sun is shining through the windows. I lose recall for some time after that.
...
I am at my grandparents house with K. My grandparents want me to eat some strange new food, but I tell them I am not hungry.
...
I false awaken into my bedroom, and my heart is racing as if something time-sensitive is going on. I am being shook by someone. Manei is leaning over the side of my bed trying to get me up.
"Wake up, Hurry!"
"I'm awake!, I'm awake!, Stop that!"
"No! Wake up!"
"Oh!"
I look into her eyes for a moment then wake myself up.
...
I am on a beach. There is a terrace made of packed sand at the upper end of the beach with several small drainage creeks running into the sea. I realize that I am still dreaming and wake myself up once more.
...
Wheu! Not dreaming anymore.

I'm sitting in class and interrupt the teacher two times in a row. I resolve not to do it again but find the urge almost overwhelming. I also notice some jaw pain, which is one of my dream signs, and decide to do the finger-push RC. My hands end up in a configuration with weird geometry and I realize I'm dreaming.

I leave the classroom, which has become a room in my childhood home. My goal: finally take a bite of that Krispy Kreme burger. Things appear a little flickery, and I attempt a light stabilization by feeling my forearms and paying attention to the scenery as I walk. This seems to work, and I realize that the flickering is just a result of the fluorescent lighting.

I briefly attempt to look for the burger in the fridge before remembering I don't want it to be cold. Next I try the pantry. Before opening it, I close my eyes and picture the bag the burger will come in. But then I get nervous that I'll wake up if I keep my eyes closed for too long and stop. I open the pantry and the bag is there. But by this point I think I'm rushing, and things are not very vivid.

I look inside the bag, but instead of the fat donuts and juicy patty I'm hoping for there's a really sloppy burger with a disheveled, stale bun, a greyish patty, and two tiny strips of limp bacon. I'm a little disappointed and resolve to re-try the summon, with more concentration.

I re-stabilize and go into the living room, expecting to find a better burger on the piano bench. It's not there. I take a couple of seconds to visualize the kind of burger I want and tell myself it will be under the bench, but again I get nervous about closing my eyes and rush the summon. The burger is not under the bench.

I decide time is running low, and I should just take a bite out of the burger I already have. I do. If it had a taste at all, I don't remember. Likely I wasn't focusing on it at all.

My goal achieved, more or less, I don't know what to do next. I notice a small package on top of the piano. After doing a quick RC just to verify I'm not going around opening other peoples' mail, I open it up. There's a chocolate inside! I take a bite, and this time I think it does taste like chocolate.

Now I don't know what to do, and decide to try to summon my girlfriend. But before I can, I feel myself start to wake up. I prepare to do a FILD/DEILD but my IWL girlfriend is moving around and I wake up for real.


Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

DILD
7:00am
I'm in a game and I see the enemies shooting their shock rifles towards me. I fire back and try to combo their energy balls before they reach me. Im up higher now in a building and still fighting. I think I become lucid or semi lucid around this point and must wake up shortly after.

I catch the False Awakening. I'm in a house and decide not to do anything fancy but just stay aware of my surroundings and check stuff out. I see a fridge with writing on it and have a look at what it says. It looked like if made sense from a far but as i get closer, I don't think it makes sense. I hear someone in the kitchen and go and check who it is. As I'm about to walking towards the kitchen I think about eating some chocolate. There's shopping bags all over the floor in the entrance and decide to step around them. I see my brother in the kitchen and don't bother worrying about him too much. I look in the fridge and see a cake. I try to get it out but I almost drop it. My brother comes up to help. I forget about the cake and think about something I wanted to do in a lucid dream. I'll try and convince my brother his dreaming. My speaking in lucid dreams as been slurred since starting again and I try to talk. It works no problems this time. I sound pretty clear. I begin to try and work on my brother. I grab him and tell him his dreaming but he tries to walk away and doesn't want to hear it. I tell him to watch what I'm about to do, which was going to be levitating/flying but I never got the chance to do it. [i felt the dream fading multiple times. I didn't stress too much about it and just focus on what I was doing and it bought back the dream clarity]

Dream Fragment:
1. Im with Kayley and. Marleigh. I need to buy a letterbox. I check a few out as there's all diff sizes. It's a factory.

2. Dad must win some money on the horse racers and I ask him about the other week if he had won. He didn't win.

3. Dad fills the dog bowl with tap water.

Side Notes:
Struggling to remember dreams. Woke up at 5:30am and couldn't sleep for an hour+ which probably worked as a WBTB. Took sleeping mask off as I struggled to get back to sleep and it seemed to do the job and woke up with eyes closed without the assistance of the sleeping mask. Pretty happy with the small progress in lucid dream length as they usually last under min. This one felt as if it lasted 3 mins. Mantras for RC upon awakening is paying off.

Dream
Lucidity
Nightmare
False Awakening

I was having a nightmare and woke up. I said "Wow I had a false awakening; if I would of wrote on my dream journal, I would of known it was a dream!" I thought of the nightmare and figured I was stressed out. Suddenly, a monster came into my room. It was a Black warewolf-like creature and it started attacking me. I was scared and said a prayer but it didn't work. It kept on attacking me and I tried to talk to it but I couldn't move or speak. I was finally able to speak and ask why it was attacking me. The warewolf stopped for a second and showed me empathy but quickly began attacking me again. I got up and started fighting it. As I used magic, I realized I was dreaming.
I tried using fire magic to kill the wolf but my magic didn't work until I started using water magic. I tried drowning the wolf but nothing would affect it until I wrapped a circlet of water around the beast's waist and snout and said "Once I pull this string, the wolf will be cut in half". As I pulled, the water tightened around the warewolf until it cut it in half. The snout didn't cut so attempted to use a sword to kill it. I swing my arms but I had no sword in my hand. I had an image of what my sword would look like, which I remember imagining it when I first started lucid dreaming. The sword was a longsword but the cross-guard had white angel-like wings and between those wings, there was a blue orb, which in the waking world I wanted it to have water in.
The wolf wasn't a problem anymore so I thought of what to do. I asked my dream to show me someone so I closed my eyes and when I opened them, there was no one there. I walked out of the room and saw Valery and took her into a bathroom where there was a bathtub with clear water in it. The bathtub had water stains and I asked what the water represented. She said "It represents the happiness you have with your community" "The happiness I have with my community," I repeated. I said it a few more times and said "I need to wake up!" so I closed my eyes and woke up.
I went into Valery's room and asked her if she woke up. Then I really woke up.

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #228: The Fall from Orbit

I’m lying in bed when I sense a shift and suspect that a WILD has begun. Something feels not quite real about the situation. I rub my hands together. It’s close, but it feels like I’m dreaming this rather than experiencing it in the waking world. I feel Wife stir next to me and wonder if she can sense me moving around.

I try to speak but all that comes out is a strange, reluctant croak. There’s no doubt that it’s a dream now. The sense of being in bed becomes less and less clear and I feel like I’ve at least partially entered the void.

I wait for a while, relying on hand-rubbing to keep me in the dream but finally call out: “Dreamer, pull me out of here!” I feel the sensation of a hand grabbing my right arm and pulling me down toward where the “bed” would have been, and I get the sense that I’m rotating. When I’ve turned about 180 degrees I suddenly feel massive acceleration ahead of me and slightly downward, like something attached a rocket to me!

The acceleration halts and a new scene comes into view. I’m flying high above the Earth in lower earth orbit! The clouds look slightly pixelated but convincing enough that the effect is very dramatic.



I remember that all of my goals are on the surface of the planet, so I point myself downward and imagine myself shooting forward at top speed. I take off like a rocket, the ground rising dizzyingly fast to meet me. I’m shooting toward a bunch of buildings, headed directly for a house!

I’m prepare to plow into this house, but my fall stops short, my feet rotate back under me and I’m now standing gently on the ground next to a miniature house and a cluster of miniature buildings. What looked like a city seconds ago now looks like a bunch of little model buildings. The room is fully enclosed and dimly-lit but I can still see well enough to do what I want.

I want to summon Dreamer but there aren’t any DCs around to use. I remember my behind the back summoning tech, but I’m not feeling sure about how I executed it. It fizzles. I walk to another corner of the room and try it there. Still nothing.

I approach another part of the room where there’s a bar and a broad mirror above it. When I look into the mirror, I see myself standing there but in a completely different scene. My reflection is on some cobblestoned street, outdoors and it’s daytime. I strafe back and forth to test the reflection and he reacts as expected.

Now I spy the building’s glass front door and through it I see the cobblestoned scene I’d just viewed in the mirror. There’s a guy trying to get into the room, an Asian guy in his mid-twenties wearing glasses. Not the easiest DC to transform to Dreamer, maybe, but nothing I can’t handle!

I go up to the door to let him in and start messing with the lock. Then I realize what a waste of time this is. Why not just phase instead? I start the phase, my right arm passing straight through the glass but as I’m about to go the rest of the way, the dream ends.

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #227: The Dream Queue

I’m holding my oldest child E’s hand as we make our way down a crowded hallway. Something feels off to me and I realize that I’m dreaming. E pulls away from me and runs off down the hall, disappearing into the crowd.

I try to follow him but the dream feels very unstable to me, almost as if I’m drunk and can barely walk properly. I realize that the people ahead of me in this hallway are all waiting to have a lucid dream, but I’m having mine right now. I don’t belong in this line with them. I stagger to my right, crashing into a wall and fall into the void.

I rub my hands together, making my way through the dark. I can feel people passing close by me on all sides, so I still feel like I’m in the scene. After enough hand rubbing and lurching around, I finally get my vision back and find myself standing near a corner wall near a bin full of envelopes.

I reach out to touch the envelopes but ungracefully bat them onto the floor. They scatter everywhere. I flail out my arms to grab something else but the dream ends.