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After failing my WILD and getting some tips from Forceez, I tried to get some sleep. I had one dream, vivid and long too.

Detention
Non-Lucid: It's night in my high school. I'm going to my locker and realize I'm shirtless. I see some article of clothing lying in front of my locker, obviously must be my shirt. I pick it up, play around with it, they are red gym shorts. Time rewinds, I'm walking to my locker again. My brother is there, along with a bag of dirty clothes and a bag of dirty towels. (these are here because our washing machine is currently broken in real life) I pick up the bag of dirty towels but we're stopped by a bald man, he's taking us to a classroom that has a TV in it. We sit down, there's another person in the room but I down give them any thought. I ask him why he brought us here. He says he is on the police force, and that he is holding us here to show us what our crimes are doing (even though I haven't committed any of these crimes). The video plays, and I take the role of one of the people in the TV.
It's night, I'm manning a gun on some sort of armored car. I think we are in Mexico, most likely tracking down drug cartels. The car in front of the one I'm in shoots into the windows of the buildings we are driving next to. Blood splats onto the windows. This continues for a short time until I find myself somewhere unknown.
I'm no longer in the video, I'm in an abandoned house. I walk outside. (This area seems to be reoccurring, either that or I've visited this area in this one dream more than once and forgot) There's no grass here, in front of me is a pit (man made, more like a moat) beyond this is the town I know. A voice speaks to me, of a girl I know, she says "Truman can see it every time, crazy right?". I instantly know what she's talking about. On the far right of the pit is a barely visible staircase hidden by a bush and half buried. I run up it.
I'm now behind a shed the shed has an opening in the back large enough to squeeze through. I do just that. I'm no in a little undeveloped area.
Teleport again, I am in a shop. I realize I have to get back to that classroom or the officer is going to be pissed. I run out, it's raining, as I'm crossing the street (four way intersection) every single car stops. The rain stops falling too, and instead just floats where it was. I'm now running in slow motion, this is extremely frustrating for dream me. In front of me I see a Russian/gypsy woman crossing in front of me. She is speaking in gibberish and seems to be cussing at me (that was actually pretty creepy for me).
Teleport again, I'm at the school. It's daytime now, but I don't care, I need to get to that classroom. But my friends will stop me, I have to avoid them. I go behind a large dumpster (that isn't there in real life) and as I'm about to make a run for is, two friends of mine (we'll call them John and Rachel) suddenly pop up in front of me. "HEYY JENOS! WHAT UP?!" they're smiling like the actors from the Truman Show. I shout at the top of my lungs "Get out of my way, I need to get inside!!" I run inside. The dream ends here and enters into another one.

I wouldn't call it much of a nightmare, but it wasn't the nicest setting. I was at an old school, but I've never gone to this school, all I know is that my friends are there. Friends from a longer time ago, like middle school, there isn't much going on. I wander the halls, seeing people I know. Not talking to them, and not being talked too. The greatest memory/high point of this dream is I was standing in a hall way. Looking down, I was at a door, much like an office in the main office itself. The hall leading to the reception desk maybe, and to my right an open door. That's about all I can remember. But it is a fragment, for I've had several other dreams like this, all in different settings, but I have no idea what they mean.

I had the craziest dream the other day, I can't find out what it means. All i know is it was so real. This had to be when i was in a deep sleep to about the time i was going to wake up. I remember waking up and turning my alarm clock off, and i went straight back to sleep. I was on a hard surface- pitch black, couldn't see anything, i couldn't move, and i heard a fan on the ceiling. not just a normal fan- but a rather heavy duty one, one made of a nice hard metal suited to last for a long time. I also heard my heart, beating very fast and loud. I also felt it- it hurt a bit, a sharper pain not a heart attack or nothing, but was simply too fast.I don't want to make the dream stop- but to find out what it means. Also- after waking up I didn't have any pain or anything, it just scares me. Is this a good thing, or bad? I'm no professional so i don't know how exactly to translate my dreams into meaning. As for my reasons behind not wanting to make them stop- maybe it means something and by getting further and further I'll find my answer.

I dreamed I was with S.t. We were in bed. I rolled into position so that "I" was in S.t.'s hand. It was a very short dream, but the one I was waiting for.

I had another dream where I was by the water. I never actually swam in it, but at one point I was concerned because I was swimming in it, something was swimming after me, and the thing knew which way to swim because the water had a memory of where I had gone, and the fish thing that was after me could read the water. (This comes from something I saw on youtube of how water really does have a memory.)


I saw the water retain the swirls of where I had swam, and knew the fish creature would follow the current and find me.

Then I saw some tadpoles. I looked at them in my dream. They were kind of evil looking. That was the most vivid part of the dream. I really focused on the fish. I saw them in very shallow water, and they looked like some other kind of fish. Kind of evil looking. They were kind of long and hand round heads like Alien.

I was afraid of a tadpole.

dream : comments : lucid

17th of January, 2012

Had some failed lucidness early in the night.
I was sleeping and Nooks woke me up saying "it's 9pm, time to wake up!" I was all "Why the shit would you be waking me up at 9pm?" at which point she proceeded to start putting fish on my feet. By that stage I was all "nup, this is stupid, this is obviously a false awakening" and when I did my hand-check I mustn't have been deep enough into the dream and the movement actually woke me up for real. Almost immediately after that I went back to sleep and back into a dream. Not quite a WILD, but I was almost instantly aware. Quasi DEILD, perhaps. Again I was lying asleep except I was a bit deeper in and was this time at a beach. I was in the sand when I woke up again. Did a RC and wasn't dreaming. God damn it!
Back asleep again and THIS time I was still at the beach but could really feel the sand and water. I focussed on sinking into the sand so as to stimulate my senses a bit and really tried focusing on Nooks' face to become hyper-aware. It all sort of worked but then the dream began to fade and I couldn't get it back. Ah well. Close.

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I was at some dodgy apartment block and was meeting all the neighbours.

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I was at a birthday party and drinking champagne. Some hippie type girls offered me LSD which I accepted. The acid was on these plastic strips that had different phrases printed on them. The one I took said “Spiders in your mouth”. I half dissolved the strip and suddenly realised I didn’t want to be tripping on acid and remember that it said anything about spiders being in my mouth so I spat it out and asked for another one, which they didn’t let me have. I wanted the one that said "Ice cream".

We went outside where people were drinking and partying in the back yard and I hung around drinking my champagne and having a good time. Presently, I looked up into the sky and was struck with awe. The moon was enormous but different. It was covered in gigantic ice crystals- all perfectly formed like giant snowflakes. The arms of the crystals spread out far into the sky, about twice the diameter of the moon itself. I was totally blown away and ran screaming to the other people to come and have a look. When they came over the crystals had begun dropping off and falling through space towards us. While they fell, they broke into smaller pieces and snowed down on us as snowflakes the size of dinner plates. It was a beautiful experience and I remember turning to Nooks and asking if it was the acid or if it was really happening and she just smiled and nodded before catching one. It was nice.

Later on there was something to do with hot air ballooning in a cave and finding magic mushrooms. That lead into my family having issues with a neighbour shooting arrows into our yard. The neighbour became one of my younger brothers who stabbed one of my other brothers with an arrow and when we told him we would call the police on him he suddenly became really cute and baby-faced. I asked him to apologise and when he did he became a manchild with a seedy ass beard and looked totally creeper. He started apologising in this weird rhyming slang and I decided I hated him.

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Aliens invaded in cool space/aquatic ships. They were all spiky and black. As they landed in the water, huge waves flooded large parts of the city and the street we were on was suddenly awash with buses coming towards us. We narrowly avoided being crushed by the sliding buses and ran up a hill into a park. There, some people offered me cheese and I said, in a very posh voice “no... quite alright thank you” which they scoffed at. I asked if they’d prefer a more bogan approach and said “aw, fuckin’ aliens and shit invading, hey!” then left. We went into a house that had a smaller house inside it and I climbed onto the smaller house’s roof. All of a sudden I realised my teeth were loose and they began to fall out and break apart.

Didn’t do a dream check because apparently I’m an idiot and don’t recognise my own dream signs.
Anyway, I woke up shortly afterwards.

i have always had strange dreams,my whole life,not just strange dreams tho...the stranger they became the more real they would become... until they did become real...there would be times when i would be afraid to sleep due to such a strong sensation of knowing that it would be real.... unable to mentally handle the situation.. unable to grasp the concept that i can dream the future..Always asking my self if this real....this has got to mean something,and there has got to be a way to control this....what if dream of something bad....and it happens to me? How do i stay focused on positive things? Am i alone with having these sorts of encounters? am i the only one like me?

...one of the most vivid dreams i have had in quite some time. it was spring time and it was storming, raining very hard and the wind was blowing and i can remember the sound of the wind howling through the cracks in the window...and i can remember water droplets running down the glass....i don't know where we where... but the dream was mostly black and white...only parts of it in color, you where smiling and laughing, and i can remember thinking that it was very nice to see you smile....and clouds of fog circling around the room...you held your hand out to me and asked if i like to dance... ii stuck my hand out to grab yours and i can remember blushing , and very embarased because i knew i could not dance, but i didn't want to turn down the offer.
the most vivid part of the dream was the feeling of your warm hand on my lower back pressing me up against your body, spinning and twirling around and around in circles and then i began to laugh like a little kid...
i then awoke to a loud whisper of some one calling out my name......i rose out of bed and my body was covered in goose bumps and no one was around...the house was still and quiet......

I'm not sure why, but this one stuck with me very hard. It was an extremely emotional dream compared to most.

Seal Chasing
Non-Lucid
Very Memorable

Non-dream Non-Lucid Lucid

The scene starts off with me and my pet seal walking down the street, looking for somewhere for her to play. We come across a gym/olympic training center for swimmers. We go inside, and see no one, so we make our way down the main hall, past an empty reception desk towards a room with large wooden doors. On our left, there is a large trophy case with glass shelves. We cautiously open the door. NO one is inside, so we make our way in. The room is extremely large, in the center is a pool, which has a layer of ice over it. We decide to hop onto the ice and play around for a while.

After several minutes of playing on the ice, the seal finds a small hole, and jumps on it, widening the hole, and allowing her to slip beneath the surface. I rush over to the hole and peer down inside. The seal is playing in the water, swimming around. I decide that the swimming will be good for her, so I slide around on the ice for a while longer. After a few more minutes, I return to the hole and look for my seal, who is nowhere to be seen.

I search around further for the seal and see, at the bottom of the pool, a hole and a very large tube/pipe leading further down. I head out of the room and search for a way down.

Jump.

I'm downstairs now, searching for the seal. I run down the hall, peeking into the rooms on each side. Each room is very long, several hundred yards. They're all filled with water slides, pools, diving boards. Some of the larger slides stretch to the ceiling and large pipes like the one I saw on the surface end just above them as if to go directly from the pool above down to these slides. I continue running, and see more and more of the extremely large rooms on the left and the right.

Finally, I reach the end of the hall, and turn back to go into some of the rooms.

Jump.

Now I'm being chased by large men wearing suites and sunglasses (Secret Service types) I grab anything I can find to use as a weapon. Unfortunately, for the most part, I can only find pens and pencils. I find a maintenance bay, and grab some screwdrivers. As I leave the bay and continue down the hallway, one of them starts running the opposite way down the hall towards me. I pull out my improvised weapons, and begin to chuck pencils and pens at him like throwing spikes. I throw knives in RL, so I'm not surprised to find frequent allusions to knife throwing in my dreams. I stick a couple of pens in his chest and torso, but nothing deep enough to be more than a nuisance. Then I throw a screwdriver, and stick him deep in the collar/shoulder, and he goes down. I continue running and come to a rolling tool cart. I refill by picking up a screwdriver and another pen.

I'm back upstairs now, and I am entering the room we skated in again. Inside are two guards, and behind them is something shining with bright yellow light. I throw my screw driver at the further guard, and stab the closer with my pen. I run over to the shining light, and it is a dear on a pedestal. There are laurel wreaths to each side of the deer. The whole setup looks like a grand shrine. I shouted 'Chani!' There you Are! And the dream faded.

At some point the seal became a deer. The name I called it is that of a character in the Dune series by Frank Herbert.
I don't know why this was so important. I had a lot of emotion invested into the search for the seal. The whole experience stuck in my mind.

Ok so my dream last night was pretty much all over the place, and I'm sure the following structure is artificial due to my mind's desire to make the story more followable, but you get the picture this way at least.
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15/1/12
As far as I can remember, the dream starts with my family having just come into some money to take us out of our life-long debt (which we do not have IRL), of which my dad wastes on something extravagant [in some sort of Family Guy manner]. Angry with him, we all get into a rusty old car and set off.

Our journey takes us to a rollercoaster-shaped path - throwing us up into the air over every hill. The car disappears without us noticing, and I realise the small cart I'm sitting on (now detached from the rest of my family) is rather unstable! I put all my effort into keeping it stable, but I'm more concerned about my more less-well-balanced family, particularly at the speeds we're all going.

We all make it safely to a platform in the water (apart from my mum, who had to swim the last bit) which features a set of bungee ropes and two body straps. In my mind I know I've done this before, and that it catapults you across the body of water to another rollercoaster, yet there if you don't strap yourself in fast enough, you risk serious injury. I barely save my sister as she slowly attempts to go first. The ropes snap off violently into the distance and we wait for the next set to arrive.

The rollercoasters then appear to be a video game, and we're all back in my front room back home, with the addition of my cousins and aunt. I get a brief glimpse that this is an Adventure Time video game, seeing Finn and Jake, while also finding out the aim is to deliver an extremely sugary cake to a group of rappers (given to me by P Diddy himself - I don't even like his music). My sister and spoilt cousin try the game but do not even reach the rollercoaster level, so I offer to try. My aunt gets stressed and says my cousin has another go (rather unfairly, yet I go along with it as the elder) before she breaks down into tears, claiming she doesn't want another go! A tense family feud ensues, and I unfortunately never get the chance to deliver the cake to those disappointed rappers

I was in a tub taking a bath. My sister was in the bathroom sitting on the toilet. She was talking to me about something when I watched her set her phone next to me on the tub rail. I interrupted her and told her she should move it because I'm no good with stuff like that near the water. She then swept the phone on the floor with an attitude that I didn't understand. I woke up.

DreamLucidAwake

I learned 5 new abilities during a great fight last night. I learned the fire element, ice element, lightning element, earth element, and how to morph into a dragon.

Dragon Morph

I was in the sky high above the clouds in the middle of the day. I was being carried through the sky by some sort of wind current. I stopped screaming when I noticed there were many animals flying through it peacefully. There were buffalo, horses, and rabbits just flying along with it. I then made an attempt to gain control of myself and fly along with it. I noticed a sharp turn in the current ahead and I flew out of it before I could turn with it.

I started falling and screaming again. I noticed a small floating island below me in the direction I was falling. After falling for about 3 seconds I grabbed onto the edge of the floor. As I was starting to lose my grip I realized I was dreaming. I was about to activate super strength, but I fell before I could activate it. The funny thing is I'm great at flying but completely forgot about it in this dream. I decided to let instincts take over and save me. I did a roll as I was in the air and morphed into a dragon through it. I wasn't a very big dragon. If I were to stand on my hind legs I'd only be a little bigger than I am right now.

I started flapping my wings and I was now hovering a few hundred feet or so below the island. I started laughing because of how cool it was to have morphed and how it felt to have a tail and wings. I used my wings to quickly fly back up onto the island floor. When I got up there I met a strange man wearing dark robes. I'm just gonna call him shadow man for now. I then started to hear a woman's voice in my head.

"Be careful around him." She said.
"Why?" I asked.
"His magic isn't natural."

I saw his eyes glow yellow as he started charging purple balls of lightning in each hand. I charged towards him to try to stop his spell. I was too late though and he blasted the hell out of me. The spell knocked me back and out of my morph. He then taunted me with a laugh at how powerless I now was. I knew I wouldn't be able to fight him as just a human so I tried to recreate the morph technique. I jumped towards the ground into a roll. Halfway through the roll I quickly started morphing into my dragon form. I came out of the roll on four paws again feeling confident. He tried throwing anothing lightning bolt at me, but I jumped out of the way and started running towards him.

As I ran towards him I heard the voice say, "You're a dragon now, remember to use your elements. Try to breathe fire."

Instinct kind of took over again and I gathered an intense heat in the back of my throat. I took a deep breath and breathed this heat out slowly into a large flame. It looked like I damaged him, but he considered it nothing compared to his abilities. He quickly teleported to the other edge of the island to stay at a safe distance from me. I didn't let the distance stop me though and I started to shoot fire balls towards him. Unfortunately he was too good at dodging to land a clean hit. He then stopped and waved his arms in a downward motion. He flew away as the island started shaking violently apart. When I relized that the island was about to collapse I flew up high above the danger zone.

"You can't defeat me! I'm invincible!" I heard him yell with an evil laugh.
"Quick, get over to the other island. He's summoning something." The voice told me.
"I don't think I can beat him. I've never fought anyone so powerful." I said.
"You're a lot more powerful than you ever were before. You can do it." She said reassurring me.

I made a left turn in my flight and flew over the second island. There was shadowy village on the island that looked far from natural. I saw the shadow man fly into the village and hide in one of the houses. One thing I found strange about the village was the buildings were only about 4 times my size.

"Did he summon that village?" I asked the voice.
"Yes, you should destroy it quickly." She said.
"Why would he summon a village of all things?" I asked.
"It's best we don't find out." She replied.

I swooped down towards the village and flew close to the buildings. I started breathing fire on a few buildings. I soon landed inside the village because flying close to the buildings was becoming too difficult. I breathed more fire and it blew apart the buildings. Suddenly a bunch of soldiers that looked like mini shadow men came out of the houses. They came at me with spears and swords and surrounded me. I started to fight them off with my claws and tail until I remembered that there is more than the fire element. As several of them surrounded me again and got closer I charged the energy inside my body. A sphere of electricity started to form around me until I released it in a wave of lightning in all directions. It effectively wiped out my enemies.

I now knew why the village needed to be destroyed. It was creating little shadow minions that would do the shadow man's evil work. I decided fire was too slow and I needed to try the earth element. I released green waves of seismic energy from my mouth at the houses. They blew apart and shattered quickly. I held this new breath for a while as I mowed down several houses. I stopped when about 20 more of those little guys showed up. I quickly flew up into the air to avoid them and surrounded myself with a green sphere of energy. When I came crashing down towards the ground it had the effect of a meteor strike. The wave of earth magic destroyed many more houses and killed nearly all of the minions. By this point I had destroyed most of the village and the shadow man gave up on hiding in it.

The shadow man then flew up to a third island above us and I flew after him. When I met him at the top he sneak attacked me with a spell that blasted me back into the wind current. I was thrown all over the place inside it but quickly regained control. I started flying against the current with all my strength to get back to the fight. With enough determination I soon flew back out of the wind current and back towards the island. On my way I decided to plan my next moves with ice magic. I knew he wasn't going to expect me to be back so soon and I would be able to use a sneak attack.

I landed on top of the island and he looked very surprised. I quickly focused the cold energy in the back of my throat. I took aim and fired 3 quick short bursts of ice magic at him. All 3 ice sickles hit him and froze his body in a couple places. I then charged in and released my ice breath in front of him. It knocked him back onto the edge of the cliff. He was hanging there by his hands unable to pull himself up. He was unable to fly because the ice on his body limited his movements.

"I can't be defeated... I'm invincible..." The shadow man said shivering.
"That shield on his side! That's what has been protecting him this whole time." The voice said.
"Okay, I'll get rid of the shield." I said.

I swooped down towards his side and swiped the shield off his side with my claws. I watched it fall down through the clouds. The shadow man managed to climb back onto the island when I wasn't looking. I landed in front of him to fight him once more. He tried to charge a spell, but I raimed him, swiped him with my claw, and then smacked him with my tail to combo. That's the last thing I remember. I know a little more happened, but I think I won.

End

15.01.2012

Tennis Locker Room, Become lucid Found a GUIDE, but they didn't say if they were my DG....

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Afternoon nap (~4pm-6:52PM) I slept while using the Mouse Plugin for the FIELD method, but I woke up with the mouse near the left side of my pillow (when resting on my head and look to my left that is) instead of being on the lower left side of my left hand).

Dream 1:

I was inside the Men's locker room in Cypress Lakes High School. There were a bunch of familiar DCs. I didn't know what I was doing at the time, but I was just standing there watching people do random things. They were talking about random things as well.

I found that the Tennis Section in the locker was located on the left side rather than on the right side in waking life. I see two racquets on a bench while DCs gear up to go outside I guess. Then the racquet vanishes. Everything in the dream kind of goes into these small skips.

After some randomness, the most noticeable thing here is I'm suddenly near some statue where I had to use Mangekyou Sharingan.

I think I asked a random DC if the statue didn't have Itachi's eyes instead of mine (like a replica of it I mean). Or maybe it was the other way around where a DC asks me.

Then I realize it's my own eyes because apparently some DC told me there's a little dot on the lower right and left-hand corners of the eye.

I actually started saying "MANGEKYOU SHARINGAN" on the statue, and when I fixed my eyes and kept them opened, they kind of diluted my vision. (Okay.....why am I exactly doing this??? As I'm typing this, I think I had a small argument with my father in a dream fragment because I told him I couldn't do something, but he said it's okay and that we'll doing something else or something like that).



After a few tries, I realized I just had to keep my eyes open and the statue would match my eyes. It opens up, and I just had to make sure my eyes were open all the time just to be safe. I can see everything slowly open up, the sides of some door expand to move apart from each other, and they had spiky stony ends to them.

Then I go in some random room where I sit down I think and listen to a DC give some slideshow presentation on an overhead. After being bored from the bull-crap they're saying, I just know I'm dreaming. I didn't do any reality checks, it was weird in fact, this state of mine at the time. I just went with the flow and saw the edge of the table and thought "Handgun" because I was about to shoot this DC spewing out random crap.

A gun forms pretty quickly, I grab it and then tried to shoot it, but nothing. But I concealed that fact to the DC and saw some random female DC on the floor. She looked pretty to be honest, probably Hispanic, and maybe resembled a colleague of mine in the Biochemistry Department.

She gets up, and I told her that she's going to show me my guide. (I'm not sure if I only said just my guide or DG, but whatever) She opens the door in front of us, nothing happens, just leads to another door. We walk in this small area of darkness and head for the door. Before I could even manifest the thought that my Dream Guide will be at the other side, the door already opens.

There's this black man in a black durag, a blue hard jacket with no sleeves and underneath was some gray sweater and he had some dark jeans on who looks like the same guy who wanted a chain when Chris from "Everybody Hates Chris" prevented him from snatching one.

(The guy on the right of the picture...LOL.)

At first I didn't want to go "WTF is this shit going on here?"

Then the black guy tells the girl to quickly lock the door, as if he didn't want to be found out. Then the girl says "You're that same guy!!" in a shocked tone. I think he replies "yeah yeah yeah" in a rushed tone as if he's annoyed with the girl. I think I even see a T.V. above him when I went inside, and it was showing some kind of police investigation or something like that.

Then I move around a little bit, look back at him, and he gets up. I asked him if he's the guide (but I didn't say Dream Guide, I'm sure as hell positive that I couldn't say Dream Guide, even before the door opened). I move back as he comes forward to me.

I thought he was going to attack me since he made a quick movement picking something up, but he was just moving something out of my way. He goes on this wild tangent and I predicted what he was going to say. He questioned to me something like, "Oh you mean the who can keeps you whole" (he did it while holding on to the word "whole" like how you hold on to a part of a word when speaking like "Hola" or something like that").

Then I realize he's just spewing out things that a friend told me about finding out her life guide in a certain PM I sent to her, but I won't reveal who.

Then he talks as if he's asking me a question again, and starts listing things like problems I have, new thoughts, etc.

Then I started to get a little bored, or maybe just traumatic that a DC who looks like an ex-convict is talking to me about things I knew it would probably say.

But as I listened to the guy, I pretty much had this shocked expression on my face with my mouth slightly open, and probably one eyebrow raised up as I'm questioning this guy's existence.
Then I woke up. One thing I'm sure, and I'm sure I've made the right call saying this, I didn't not ask the DC if he was my Dream Guide.

I just questioned it if it was THE GUIDE, so in a way, he's probably just a guide to show me where my Dream Guide is, because he answers in a question as if it's some preview to something he's going to show.

I'm sure as hell right that I never dreamed about a black DC and asking if he was a guide, NOT a Dream Guide.

Only way to find out is to become lucid again. And I become lucid after like over 90 minutes of sleep? Which was kind of rare for me. I guess I can start having dreams and becoming lucid for a while during NON-REM, or maybe it's Rem rebound.

But ehhh, this just leads me with more questions in finding my dream guide. I'm not going to deny the possibility the guy may be my dream guide given the situation that he wanted to be hidden from something. But that means I'll have to question and DCs accurately rather than them acting like professional riddle tellers that will just piss me off more.

This dream happened a few months ago, but I wanted to write it down because it's my most vividly remembered dream so far. And also quite interesting.

Non-lucid: Don't ask me how i know it was Italy, I just knew. I am sitting in a car in an alleyway. It's really bright out, in fact, there are no shadows at all. The car takes off full speed, the person in front driving through what looks like a market-place. The local DC's are getting angry with the reckless driving, but most ignore it. Next thing I know I'm standing in the center of town with a good friend of mine. We seen a man on a horse with a sword and bolt. The man on the horse, who's wearing black robes and whose face I don't remember (I think he was a representation of "The man in black" from Stephen Kings "The Dark Tower" which I am currently reading), hacks at my friends head. She's dead, I begin to run over to her, but then turn and run the other way as I realize the the man is now coming after me. Sure enough, I'm stabbed right in the back of the head. I fall stomach to the ground, and this is where the dream get's weird.
I start rising out of my body, spiraling upwards as the man rides away. Now I'm in some giant, blueish cube. Before I go any further, I'd like to point out that I am an atheist. In this cube, there are many floating, clear platforms with people climbing up them, some sort of "stairway to heaven" I guess. I huge man, and I mean absolutely massive, speaks to me. My best guess is that he was a representation of God, because I constantly find myself questioning my own beliefs. He tells me that I can either go back to earth and spend eternity as a spirit there, or I can spend eternity in the cube. I choose Earth because, hey, at least there's things to watch there. The dream ends immediately after I choose earth, and I wake up.

Recall is showing signs of improvement. I'm also still biphasic, though my sleeping times are shifting a bit - I'm not actively mantaining it, but for some reason I can't seem to sleep more than four hours at a time. Time-wise that's actually good, as I need only 6-7 hours of sleep this way instead of the 9-10 I normally sleep. Anyway I don't have anything particularly good to tell you at this point, so I'll share this quick dream from 2009 again:

America's Next Top Model
Date: August 11th, 2009
Lucid: No

I was a competitor in the show, and in fact, I had made it to the last three. I am a guy though. Pretty inconceivable even with my long golden hair and angelic face.

Most of the show was just sitting in the sofa for me. Instead of the standard elimination I was just handed a letter that I had been eliminated. Well that sucks. In the letter Tyra tried to console me by saying that I am a "teen". I was 21 at the time... That said, it appeared that the word had a different meaning for her. Judging by the rest of the letter she meant more like stubborn and she was happy that I had been like that.

Then the dream cut to much later. I was in home and watching the show I was in. Some of the judges were saying that I have awfully thick lips. C'mon, they're not that thick. Besides, wouldn't that be a good thing? Then the screen cut to an edited version of a picture of me where the lips had been photoshopped even thicker! Come on! Then other judge said that "such a pervert couldn't even win the competition". Well yeah, I'm a pervert, but how would they know it? Does thick lips mean pervert?

All in all a total brainfuck of a dream.

Sunday, January 15, 2012

I just had two dreams before I woke up.

In the first dream I was at a friends house trying to work up the nerve to talk to this girl I really like. Her name is : C
The only thing I can remember is we were stitting around hanging out. My brother D was there as were several other people I did not recognize, two black guys, and Don. Don was trying to spit game at C and I reacted and punched him in the face. He crumpled to the ground and this time I picked him up and slammed him to the ground again.
(For some reason C was no longer present after this.) One of the 2 black dudes got up and said "go for the knife rack", I quickly grabbed 2 knives of my own and attempted to defend myself but I was caught and they cut me on my arms several times before letting me go. I ran out of the house pissed off that they got the better of me . That is when I noticed C and a few other people pull up. I started to ignore them and go to my house, but I couldn't resist and I confronted C. Memory fades on what she said exactly but it border along the lines of "I'm sorry, I know you like me, but I won't break up with him for you." I was bummed out and asked "Who?" that was about the time I woke up.

It should be mentioned that the majority of the dream took place at the neighbors house I grew up next to.


The next dream was a little mixed.

I started out in my grandmothers backyard the way I remember it growing up. I cannot remember the majority of the first portion of this dream other than to say It had something to do with me professing my love for another friends long time girlfriend only to realize I meant it for C. The second half was especially bizarre. I don't know where we were but by all observation it looked like a school. I once again cannot remember the first things that happened. What I do remember is being in love with this certain girl and trying to please her. A woman at the school helped me (though I cannot remember how) to get the girl to like me. The next thing that happened was incredibly strange. The headmaster of the school began rounding everyone up. Some were to stay and others would be put on boats, ships really, to go to who knows where. I was standing in the hallway when all of a sudden a man came from behind and, without a word, began to lead me through the chaos of the halls and into a boat under the hull in a secret hiding place. It seems strange even to me that I would let this man, whom I do not know, lead me somewhere I don't know I am going. However for some reason I had a feeling that this man was pure good and that he was saving me for whatever holocaust was sure to come to me for staying at the school. Indeed even as the headmaster took one final look at the boat before it set sail from his school, I glanced up and out and caught sight of him- looking more than vaguely like Adolph Hitler. As we began to sail away I faded to black and next thing I remember was standing with the girl I so adored outside of a bunker in the dark somewhere. I was confused why we were there and when I asked the girl told me that we were looking for "Her", the woman from the school who helped me "get the girl" so to speak. I felt a presence of danger for some reason so I grabbed two hammers off the wall and readied myself for whatever happens next. Now memory fails me again and the next thing I remember is the fact that the woman revealed that she and the girl were related. When asked "How?" by the girl, she responded: " They said you couldn't have your child so I had it for you " The dream then ends without any resolution other than that sentence. I will say that I had the eerie feeling that the woman was not normal and was either dead or never truly alive to begin with.

I should probably note that the girl "C" I refer to is a girl I have had a crush on for 4 years. We have never been together though at one point I revealed some of my feelings for her. I rarely talk to her now but I think about her everyday.