non-lucid

I'm just outside the front gate in front of my home. I'm going inside one of the families' cars and going to be waiting for the rest of my family to get inside. It's going to take them a while for all of them to get in.

I waited a bit longer but they still didn't show up. I then decided to start the car up making it easier for us to ride on the road already. Suddenly, something happens. A few seconds after I turn the car on, the car began moving. It moved in reverse for a few seconds and the mirrors on the front seat passenger's side was torn apart by a nearby wall. I was in trouble.

I immediately took control of the wheel to try and get the car to stop. Unfortunately for me I have a tendency to afraid of being insides cars in dreams. The car begins to take off by itself. I begin to worry, but still, I must make sure I do not crash as bad as I did before.

The car begins to ride itself down the road and I begin to panic. I have always been afraid of being left alone in a car in dreams. While inside this moving car, its speed begins to increase. There were a few cars coming my way but I tried my best to get out of their way. I hit a few other obstacles on the way such as trashcans.

I eventually found out this wasn't real but I was not fully lucid. I then began to think. There's a good chance that I may die now and if that's a possibility, I'm going to make sure I crash in to Trinh's home.

The car begins to go as fast as it can and eventually I knew I was going to die soon. I felt a sense of adrenaline and excitement, almost as if I wasn't afraid to die. I was soon able to see Trinh's house. Before the car could reach the home, I closed my eyes and began to think it was a mistake. I wanted to wake up, and so I did.

I didn't get much sleep (less than five hours), but I had one long dream that was crazy as hell.

My mum had told me I had to go on this trip, it was very important and I had to pack a bunch of different clothes (because I'd go through super cold and super hot places). I agreed to it and she told me to stay somewhere else other than our house the night before the trip. Again, I agreed to it.

Before I left to the apartment she had found me to spend the night, I had to have dinner with my family. It was the family from my father's side of the family and I think one of my great-aunts was saying that she was too old and was going to die soon. Somehow, I didn't care that much about that.

As I was having dinner, my cousin from my mother's side of the family sent me a message saying I could spend the night at her place. I said I'd love to, but when I left the dinner, I ended up going to the apartment my mother had told me to go.

The apartment only had one room, it was huge. There were windows everywhere (no walls, just windows), but no furniture. It was obviously very old and abandoned, the front door was one of those doors that run to the side, and on the back of it, there were stairs, so pretty much anybody could walk in. For some weird reason, I had no shirt on and I thought it was hilarious that people on the outside could see my boobs (even though I was on a high floor). One of the people outside went upstairs and he also thought it was hilarious I had no shirt on. We talked and he had boobs too, but he also had beard. I asked him how long he had been on hormones and he said only four months. I was happy to have found another trans guy.

Outside, I saw a group of guys who had also seen us. They came upstairs and I was very afraid of them. The trans guy and I picked up stuff we had found on the floor and hit the guys and we ran outside. I got inside a car by myself, no idea what happened to the guy, and there was a woman there too. I told her I'd drive while she handled the "challenges". There were three challenges and, as one person would drive, the other had to press the buttons on the radio. There were three buttons, one for each challenge.

The second challenge was a girl who looked like the girl from The Ring. She was in the middle of the street and all I had to do was drive by her and the woman next to me had to press the button for the next challenge. She didn't, and so it was game over for us. I got mad and told her to get out of the car, since I'd have to start it all over again because she had messed up.

When she left the car, I moved to the passenger's seat and two guys entered the car, along with a girl. One of the guys was my cousin. They started driving back to "my" apartment, and then my cousin went to the backseat (...he was sitting between the driver's seat and passenger's seat... and my cousin is HUGE!) with the girl. I noticed she was kinda passed out, but he wanted to have sex with her anyway. I got freaked out cause that was rape.

The police stopped our car and everybody was gone except me and the guy who was driving. They checked our IDs (and that included my cousin's and the girl's), and mine said "probably a mistake", as in I was just in the wrong place at the wrong time. That got me relieved, but then the guys who had invaded my apartment found me again and I had to run. The guy who had been driving the car started shooting them and I got inside my building right as one of the guys got his head shot. It was not pretty.

When I finally got to my apartment, there were two people there, one of them used to work in my high school. They were talking about how they had found a passed out girl outside of my apartment. They opened the door and the girl who had been with my cousin was laying on the floor and she looked dead. It was terrifying.

2013-10-04 (day city, night country alone)

exercise: weights & 30 mins cardio
01:07 bedtime
02:41 (still trying to fall asleep? Didn't seem so long, maybe slept and woke up)
04:02
In a car. Cars were parking but crashing into buildings on right side of road up against the stores.

Riding down a sandy hill on a (motorbike? bicycle?)

walking/riding down a dark road, half muddy on the right. I'm following some people, I ask "does anybody want to get the newspaper?". Someone coming up behind me on a bicycle, meeting us there. Nobody responding to me.

04:02 MILD based on last scenes
08:21 woke earlier, had some recall, didn't get it recorded. Woke up, read in bed.
11:12 trying for a nap
13:30

My cat turned almost entirely white. 80% of her lower body. Head and chest area is still colored correctly. I'm very confused, trying to think how this could have happened. I'm concerned it might be sick. I look at the fur and I run my hand through her short white fur backwards (from tail to head), I see the texture of her fur, looks realistic. Handed the cat to someone, here comfort her. The cat was batting a kitten's face. It was trying to get the kitten to do something. I was astonished that the cat was making intricate gestures with her paws (fingers?) to try to get the other kitten to do something. The kitten was slghtly sticking out its tongue. I mimiced these movements, like a "come here" gesture hooking a finger, first one way, then with the finger upside down. Imagined petting my cat while falling asleep at nap.

In a house with a crazy family, "Don't wake up uncle John," sitting on a couch in that house. Turns out it was the mother who was big fat and crazy. I see them emerge from a room above the living room.

Swimming pool down below me. Water polo, the coach had been fired. They're playing a game in the pool, coach bad-mouthed someone. There are a lot of kids in the pool, it's pretty full. A ball or something flies up and hits me? The young guy who has the ball in the water polo game stands up, he's working really hard to do something, physically,

At a large party in a large open house / atrium. There's an annoying guy in a blue suit. I pass him and say something about "blue man." He and his friends make some joke about me and start cracking up, he's literally ROTFL. I think shooting an arrow through his head or his heart to see how he'd laugh, then. I ignore them.

Teeth falling out. A bunch of teeth were falling out, went into bathroom, confused at what was heppening, I'm trying to put them back in, I feel the empty spot in my mouth with my tongue. Someone's bothering me while I'm trying to put them back in.

Walking by some woman, trying to push my way by. I had walked by her earlier and told her some numbers. There had been a show downstairs, (and a room near the show, where there was a teenage orgy?) where schoolkids were lined up sitting on top of a very wide 3-foot-high storage cabinet, each little spot had two holes. The kids were supposed to do a little presentation, say something to the kids in the room in order to prompt the kids in the room to come out and look at them, and then disappear down the hole into the cabinet, hidden, and the older kids in the orgy room were supposed to come out and wonder where the little kids went. A teacher arrives with a line of other little kids to perform on the cabinet (or watch). They said some numbers. The woman who stopped me said, "were those the same numbers that you told me before?" She (and I) was amazed that I had predicted the future with these numbers.

Woman in a nurse outfit, dressed up as an actor/performer. Outside on a street. She was going around getting people to sign up for her show.

With WW, watching an opera performance in a (cafe? room?). I see the singers keep entering the stage enter and sing. They look like 19th century fancy people. I see their hair. Sitting right in front of a stage. It had to do with speaking English, and rich people could get on the Concorde (airplane). Stewardesses said there still were some seats left, going to (Paris?).

Woke up slowly, still felt groggy, like I could have slept more, but decided to get up so as not to ruin the sleep schedule. Tried a bit of FILD. Thought of ping pong as a relaxation (first person view more relaxing), thinking about the sound as well as the visuals. Lots of little dreamlets, one which i brought back after fading briefly, they vanish when I focus on them.

Room was too cold at night, couldn't relax. Slept way better for nap once I put on warm socks.

Seeing scenes of dreams I saw many years ago and had forgotten as I'm falling asleep.

Stay positive about sleep!

Cat, and other parts of dreams came from incubation thoughts!

I wish I could have become lucid, so I could lightsaber chop the laughing blue man in half .

Late morning REMs are long and recall is great at this time!

NON-DREAM
DREAM
LUCID

I didn't see this dream, but I heard some dialogue. Apparently someone was apologizing because either I or they were being slow.

Dream recall from today's WBTB/naps

Dream 1(fragments):

There was something about minimalistic forum games illustrated by lazily photoshopped pics, one of which was about some midget and another one was called "ROLL TO BE TRIDE" or something like that with pics of some one eyed thing.

Dream 2(fragments):

I was playing some 3rd person shooter style game and it was happening in some sandstone maze, i've had to escort some npc which could open up passages that were blocked by wooden boards using crowbar and there were some stairs. Then after i've also had brief false awakening.

Just getting back into dream journalling

1. I remember seeing my possible future employer standing there looking at me

2. I remember being with four of my friends

In my dream I found what looked like pieces of scrap paper near the printer in our home office. I looked and they were pieces of copies of my family's birth certificates with highlighted notes on the back on sections of information that we still needed to provide. I recognized my mother in law's hand writing. I "remembered" that she was doing some project for us that required paper work with birth certificates.

That's when I noticed the "original" white out on my certificate. I got upset and told my husband "Your mother cut up the only original copy of my birth certificate." Him "No she didn't." Me "Yes, she did. Look at the white out." Him "Well, this is their fault." Me "What?" And that's when I woke up.

Notes: My birth certificate does not have any white out on it. My mother in law would not make such a mistake as to cut it up. I have not given her any such project, and she is currently in another state where she lives. I would not recognize my mother in law's handwriting by site. Whose fault was it supposed to be at the end there??

Dream 1(fragments):

I was playing some game and it was about some town in the desert which was attacked by some mutants and there was some time limit, i was using some kind of jeep alot and levels were very branching with multiple characters/storylines. Later i was playing some 3D platformer that was like mix of some that i've played before, there was a global map with central island and four smaller islands, filled with level select areas and in the middle of central place there was an observatory where game started, then i've had to setup alot of controls and i was sitting strangely far from monitor.

Dream 2(fragments):

I was playing some 2D puzzle game.

Dream 3(fragments):

There was some story about two kids finding out about some organization and deciding to join it. There was a subway near which some of people from that organization were hanging out, kids came here, one through subway, another found way through rooftops somehow, there was some talk and some of people had special abilities but then kids apparently had them too and they were accepted. Then everyone went somewhere else.

Dream 4(fragments):

(Kinda continues story from dream 3)
Some members of the organization were showcasing abilities in the forest and there was some talk and something about lady with knifes and a survival 'game'.

Dream 5(fragments):

I was playing some game on extra hard settings and i had to defend the hill from very powerful by controlling bunch of characters and tricking enemies into traps. In the end i've had one character left and i've tried to use whole lot of mines to stop enemies.

Dream 6(fragments):

(Kinda related to story from dream 3 and 4 as well)
I've had interface, kinda like XCOM2012 and i had an army of Cyberdisks and Sectopods in some city under my control, then i've found enemy army but most of them had like 3-4 HP so i've used cyberdisk's grenades to take bunch of them out, enemy also had special character that had powerful effect when it died and global buff when alive but couldn't do anything else and i was trying to figure out what that effect was before killing it, so i was looking for organization profiles and found out that it was not so dangerous. Then there was a cutscene about that character, which apparently was related to lady with knifes.

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid false awakening

(...) I'm travelling abroad, work reasons, I think. There's a strong unusual flash of light from the sun, that few people notice, but I grab a couple pair of sunglasses and take a look at the sun and notice there's a CME coming straight at us. It will take a few days to hit the Earth, I think, but I believe the effects will be big. So I leave the city centre and find refuge in an abandoned hotel in the outskirts of the city. While there I get to know my surroundings, I close all windows and shutters and prepare to avoid the outside for a few days.
I can feel the temperature rising and the air drying. I predict the amount of radiation will be bad enough to affect those who stay outside.
Then, all of a sudden, the secondary quiet road passing nearby is full of cars with people fleeing in a hurry. I wonder where they go. A dad with two kids appears at the front door and asks if they can stay with me. We sit on the living room and they tell me the authorities have warned people about the potential impact of the CME. Blackouts, potential fires from electrical circuits, radiation. Many people were evacuating the city, to escape a possible chaos, but this dad and his kids really had no place to go. Later on, a black guy who doesn't talk much, also joins us, but he doesn't interact much, he just choses a room as farther away from us as possible. We see him occasionally on the corridor.
We find a working tv and we follow the news.
Then we feel small but increasingly stronger earthquakes. Are these related to the CME? That's when I start thinking maybe it will be worst than I initially thought. Then, the tv blacks out. Electricity is gone.
Then I wake up...

I had way too many dreams last night and I'm late for something, so I'll just write down summaries.

Birthday party of an ex of mine. She was talking to my mum and it was awkward. My cousin was there and she said my mum had told her that she (my mum) was fake. Weird.

I was in my high school, but it wasn't really my high school. The school places were connected by an underground tunnel. The tunnel had a few "rooms", where you could eat and stuff.

I was in an abandoned place, looked a bit like a supermarket, but they were having classes there. I walked up to someone and told them I couldn't see things straight in my dream (I knew it was a dream, but AGAIN... didn't get lucid/take control), like I couldn't open my dream left eye. A woman dragged me to a room and said "you can't go around saying stuff like that out loud! You're a dream guide now, what will people think about us if one of our dream guides can't even SEE in their dreams!?" I was torn between feeling ashamed and thinking that she was overreacting.

Last dream, I kept waking up and going back to the same dream. I again knew it was a dream and I changed some stuff, but not really lucid. I was trying to have sex with a girl, but we kept finding ourselves inside of abandoned buses, with zombies about to "get back to life". Whenever that happened, I'd change the scenario around us, but I didn't get lucid. Nor did I have sex with her.

Okay, so maybe I didn't have WAY too many dreams as I had first thought... but I did remember four dreams, so yay. I guess I really did get my dream recall back!

So I woke up in the morning for school at about 6:15 am and lol I almost got late looll....at first I didn't remember anything....but there was something in me telling me that I had a dream.....and after some like 10 minutes it all just came into my mind like from nowhere ...the whole dream.....so here it goes....

DR 1:
I was in a some sort of a shop with clothes. At first it seemed like I was levitating or I was viewing from a camera and I could see some lingerie in front of me actually it was like I was viewing from a hill in some angle downwards. And all around was some clothes and random people going back and forth and looking for clothes. On the right of me there was like a pile of some white plastic boards that I climbed on and sit. I was looking around and as it seemed I was looking for my girlfriend I think. Suddenly some middle-aged lady appeared in front of me being nervous and angry and asking me what am I doing here. I got of the pile and told her that I was looking for my girlfriend or something like that or waiting for her. Then suddenly her mood became better. She became very cheerful and happy and she was moving somewhere. I started to follow her and she was like singing all of a sudden and telling some things about lingerie....and singing and saying nonsenses and was very happy lol. And I think she said something like my girl is sexy or something and it seemed like she saw her in the shop but I don't know how or what lol. I am not actually sure about anything. And then I could hear police sirens in the distance ....and everybody became very anxious and she told me to run. I went through the metal door straight out to the huge empty parking lot. I started to run but there were police cars rushing towards me and they've arrested me I don't know what for. Then I went with them somewhere and the next thing I remember is that I somehow managed to escape. I was suddenly in some house hiding from the police. In the meantime they started the pursuit after me. I was leaning over the doorway and when the patrol car went away I got outside of the house and into the fields. It was already night. I had a flashlight and I started to went through the fields. It was really cold and windy. Then I got to some kids playground and I passed next to some swing. In the front of me there was a building with outer walls on which you could clearly see bricks. There I turned right and got to a mud road. I started to go along with it and in some moment I started to move through the bushes on the right side to hide from the sight. At some point there was some abandoned police car on the other side of the road and I think I escaped from there I don't know why. I continued to follow the road path and came to a curvature. On the left side there was a cliff and on the curvature it slightly went more into the road space. The curvature was like 70 degrees or I don't know. I continued along with the road. And then suddenly after that curvature I found myself in a some room with a concrete-like walls. There was a rectangular opening in the ceiling from which the bright sun light came in. I didn't know what to do. But suddenly I had a portal gun like from the game Portal 2. I shot two portals the blue one and the orange one and I somehow managed to shoot myself through the opening on the ceiling by using them. Then I woke up.

Friday, 10/4/13

Last night, bed around 12:30 -1am - 9:45am

Morning full of dreams.

DR 1 - I think I had a dream with OpheliaBlue's cat Sophie. She was fluffy and very light beige mixed with white. But first she was a bunny. There was another bunny as well. I was feeding them greens from my bag. I was pulling out all kinds of grasses and flowers and vegetables I knew bunnies like.

I'm pulling out weeds from my bag and there were some that I was not sure if not poisonous, so I put those back and I'm wondering why the heck are they there. There is nightshade I recognize by it's small black berries. And another poisonous plant. Then I pull out this huge, gorgeous white flower, like a daisy. 4-5 inches in diameter, so symetric, not a single flaw on it. I gave it to the bunnies/cats. They loved it. Then I fed them some fresh corn husk and corn silk and they were loving it. They dragged it out all over the place.

DR 2 - I'm with my auntie and she is telling me, she is getting a job. There was more talk going on. The job will be downtown in store with textile. I'm telling her, "great, I'll be driving you, because that's the way to my work". I guess this is because I'm thinking of getting a second job IWL.

DR 3 - this is the earliest I remember. Could have been around 7am.
It's very explicit and will stay in my paper DJ. Best sx dream ever.

NON-DREAM
DREAM
LUCID

First, I am walking down a narrow alley near my school with my sister. We walk past a gray pitbull with white patches. The pitbull is laying in the gutter looking very content. When we walk by it stands up and starts trotting after us. When I reach a section of the narrow path that requires going past a long haired collie in a dog crate, the pitbull manages to get my leg in it's mouth. (I am wearing jeans and sneakers, btw). The pitbull is not aggressive, and does not bite hard, but my mom and sister are still worried. I try to tell them the dog is trained to do this (IDK why though)


The dream skips, and now a few of the ponies from Friendship is Magic are walking along a path trying to avoid something. Later, they're all in bed, but the thing they're trying to avoid is still there. They all sing "Hush Now, Quiet Now" to try to scare it away. The singing order, I believe, goes Apple Bloom, Applejack, and Sweetie Belle. Rainbow Dash is also there but she doesn't talk or sing.

I believe this part of the dream actually comes before the My Little Pony dream, but I'm not sure. I am playing a video game and I am on the last mission where I have to get the main character (who looks like Ness from Earthbound, only taller) to a time machine within a time limit. I have to run through what looks like an office and jump over obstacles. The time machine looks like a small TV or computer monitor with blue static.

Lastly, I am bowling and using the gutter guards. A boy in the alley is taking interest in some wierd things about me. I grab a peice of buffalo fried chicken and eat it while bowling.

Recalled one more dream from normal sleep

Brief false awakening in the bed and getting distracted.

Dream recall from today's naps, i need to fix my schedule again.

Dream 1(fragments):

I was in some place with a river, and (from what i feel) i was in dragon form and there was also another dragon.

Dream 2(fragment):

I was playing some forum game.

October 4, 2013

Challice Strategy
I'm watching medieval/fantasy soldiers talking about what they need to do. There are lots of large "challices" scattered around. Somehow, hitting them makes the area safe from a dangerous gas, and if the challices in the area are close enough together, the effect chains.

They're coming up on an area where one of them is missing, so they'll have to cross a dangerous space, and when they reach the next one, it could be dangerous to hit due to the buildup of gas. The leader points to a tiny guy - probably about a foot high - and says that he'll be the one to hit it, just in case. He reaches into his bag and pulls out a shirt of chainmail that's sized for the tiny guy (I remember hearing it clinking). He seems sorrowful as he hands over the mail.

Now I have more of a tactical view and I can see units moving around the 'map'. At the top (north), there's an opening into another area. For some reason, I can't scroll through it, but enemies are coming from it. Towards the south-east of the map, I see some greenish swirly stuff that's slowly growing. I realize it's our spent resources that are somehow regenerating. It's regenerating, but it's also moving towards the enemy's pass, and it would be bad for them to get all those resources! Somehow, I (or maybe the commander) redirects some of them to our troops, but some still make it to the enemy.

Now I realize that I can't scroll into the pass because I can't scroll past where the challices have been activated, and there's one near the pass that's inactive. Now it's active, and I can scroll up through the pass.


Sick pastor
I'm at church, sitting near the front-right. Our pastor is walking around near the chairs - this is unusual, since he's normally behind the pulpit, but I don't give it much thought. Instead of his normal almost-invisible mic, he's got a big announcer-style headset, but I don't think much on that either. His voice is off, and he explains he has a cold. He got it from Ben ... Ben ... he points to one Ben and says "not that one, the real Ben" and "that one"'s father is mock-offended. He finally remembers it was Ben C that got him sick.


Popcorn at the vacation house
I'm at a vacation house with my wife and her parents. Things are overwhelmingly white. She's in the kitchen with a huge bowl of popcorn. Her father and I start munching on it, and she's not happy with us. I do something with a bottle of BBQ sauce. Someone says something about a family watching a baby, that it's a bit unusual but that it'll be good for them.


The train
It's dark. I'm going to try to sneak onto a train - one of the little ones like you find at amusement parks. As I'm nearing the crossing where you get on, it's just pulling away, and I'm annoyed. I end up waiting with a few people for the next one.

Now I'm on the train, near the back.

I think the train was pink.


Recording dreams in a false awakening
I have a false awakening in which I'm recording my dreams. I'm using my bluetooth keyboard as usual, but I'm surprised that I'm recording the dreams on my phone instead of my tablet. I don't think much of it.

I'm really pleased with the recall I'm having. I'm getting good detail from many different dreams.

Then I wake up for real and most of it is gone