non-lucid

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I have somehow become part of an acrobatics team comprised of a mother, father, and their two children. The parents were acrobats back in the day, but have come out of retirement recently. Though I am not a performer, I am at the table as they discuss their plans for the future. Soon, their agent arrives and there are two heated arguments I step away from - there is a lot of tension around their age and ability to make their act work.

Sometime later, I am with the family when an explosion goes off in a nearby park. No one is injured, but I am made aware that it was a 'sex bomb'.

Later still, I am with the family and arrive at a road-side diner. There are spider and web decorations on the windows. I remark that it is early September and that they must be desperate to start with Halloween decorations so early.

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I am at a party in the hallways at work and the security door has been opened, so reporters are mingling with us. I am supposed to have an important conversation with someone and am waiting for a sign or a specific time, but am soon drunk off of a mere two drinks. By the time I find myself out back, I realize I have missed the opportunity my boss was looking for.

3:30AM - Lightning gun - NLD
Fragment shooting people with a lightning gun. Have a buddy helping. Looks like Borderlands.

6:00AM - Demons - NLD

There are square shadows floating in the air above us in a church. I turn around and pull out a long Obsidian dagger. I look around and everyone has blades of many shapes and sizes all made of the same material and all glowing. It begins to glow blue as I ready myself. The demons are afraid and don't come any closer. I slash at one and cut it in half. I take the other half and rip it up. I use dream control to make it dissolve into nothingness.

I am ridding in a car and the driver has a large envelope with one of the demons in it. It begins to moan and complain about trivial discomforts in a womans voice. The driver mockingly calls it his god. I wake up.

Time unknown - Micro Lucid - DILD
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I walk into the living room and see my son running up to me. I pick him up and yell at my wife, telling her he was walking. I know this has to be a dream. But unfortunately I either woke up or lost lucidity because I remember nothing else.

I'm in a house that does not exist in real life but in the dream is my house, i walk arround the house looking for clothes because i have to catch the 7:10 bus so i don't get late to my test ( i'm really having this this friday ). While i look for clothes i'm talking to my older brother (is the more more consistent dream sign i have) about he having to study more because is grades are to low ( is not even in school anymore), for some season we go outside to the garden, is a giant garden, i'm steel talking to him but when i look back he's gone.

Instead of him is a gardener working behind me then i hear someone crying for me, i go to the front door of the house and their are a group of 5 korean guys, i recognize thim as being my room mates, one of them tells me i'm late, i ask him what time is it and e tells me 6:46. I go inside the house and start looking for something decent to wear but i can't find anything.

I go to one of my friends room and i see some sweats in the floor ,i know they are not mine, suddenly i hear a noise, i look back and i see a shadow in form of a bicycle, after that i person appears and i realise is is a colleague of mine.

I ask him if he's not going to the test... he says it depends and starts laughing... i find that strange because in real life is widely applied, once more i ask for the time ... he says 7:04 and i realise i'm too late.

After this i wake up and right down the dream but when i good to bed is to late to WILD so i just say my MILD mantra and fall asleep again ... the dream is the continuation of the one before.

I'm arriving the house i discribed before, in the middle of the corridor is a mattress and sitting in it is a girlfriend of a friend of mine... she is upset about something, i go to her and i realise in the room by her side is my crush from college and some guy that rides the bus with me... next thing i'm hearing my friend's girlfriend complaining about something and i start changing my clothes in front of her.

After this i wake up.

Dream 1(fragment):

I was in some place that was built of simple colored geometrical shapes.

Dream 2:

I was browsing forum games on another forum and decided to join one, there was some discussion about starting conditions and soon i was actually in it and it was like video game/another dimension. I was on some kind of paradise island, talking to some people about this dimension. Soon the ocean got filled with countless amount of people swimming and jumping out of the water dolphin-style, i commented on that and then i grouped with an squad and we teleported somewhere else. I had some abilities(which i can't recall much) and we were going through a few places, some of them were steampunk style corridors, and we were fighting enemies.
Then we finally reached huge outdoor area, sun was setting and there were two sides fighting each other in huge battle near the temple ruins. At first we were helping in the battle but then we got to the temple. We were discussing something while going through ruins and soon we have found some kind of chamber, we did the ritual and summoned some kind of god-like entities, then after talk with them we went outside, there was an enormous dragon in the sky. View switched to more cinematic cutscene camera and the enemy forces were wiped out by the dragon.

I dreamed that me and some friends had some kind of drunk party adventure. To put it simply there were a lot of challenges that each and every one of us would have to complete, with some help of the others.

The only one I remember was to be suspended above a river in the middle of a forest where you would be able to meet a river spirit! I remember it because while hanging there my "friends" got bored and left me there. I got to meet the spirit though, it was cool. It looked like a shape made of the water that was rising up from the river. It looked a lot like this, except it did not have a face:



I don't remember how I got away from there, but somehow I managed to free myself. I have some vague memory that the river spirit played a part in helping me get away from there.

When I returned home, which was some kind of building complex that we were all living in temporarily, I was really angry and bitter. I tried to show the others just how angry I was at them but they thought it had just been a good joke and did not take it seriously. I remember I was slamming my fist in the wall out of pure frustration, but they didn't even care about that.

The funny thing is that when I woke up I was still feeeling just as angry, even though I knew it was but a dream.

Legend: Dream , Semi-Lucid , Lucid , Side notes.

Fragment #1: I remember being in a restaurant at night, it had a lot of open space, i can't remember what i was doing though.

Fate/Zero: I'm at the top of a stone tower, i'm acting out a story similar to the anime Fate/Zero ( in fate/zero, like 6 people are chosen to fight for the holygrail every like 10 years or so, and they get to summon a servant to fight for them ). I'm up there with some other enemy servants and i just summoned mine, saber, the strongest of them. They get mad because i was able to summon her and because i supposedly won the last grail war so they like cut a tendon in my arm and so now i can't move it.
I remember somehow getting like a tendon from another person using it to fix mine, dream logic, don't ask me how xD. We get out of there fast and head to my farm, my friend and her servant is there and they tell us to meet them at a trailer. We get there and they give me fruit punch but i soon spit it out because i think they poisoned it, but thankfully it was safe to drink. Next thing i know, i'm flying in a helicopter with them and i eventually land and find myself at the dojo i learn martial arts at.

Fragment #2: I'm playing some phone game that's similar to temple run. I have a friend over, and he wants to play so i give it to him. Next thing i know, he's trying to change the way my phone accepts keyboard input.

Fragment #3: I'm at the top of a hotel with a group of friends and some girls that don't take the least bit of interest in us. I start running down the hotel stairs and find myself at a giant pit at the bottom.

Monday 6/10/13

DR morning nap
There was a power outage. Telling everybody to check his watches and clocks. There is a 45 min difference and I'm gonna be late. (IWL, I had to go someplace in the afternoon)


Tuesday 6/11/13

DR 1;53am
Chat is messed up. Leading group of people to "chat", which is a living, breathing, physical place.

DR 4:30am
Chat is a real place. I'm giving a necklace to my brother, beatiful golden with blue stones.



Wednesday 6/12/13

last night bed 11:20

I kept waking up just a few min too late. I knew I had a long dream, detailed, remembered a few feelings and words, but couldn't make much sense of it. Been drinking water before and upon waking up.

DR1 - 1:30am - something about DV. Here my cat woke me up and I stayed up for 10 min.

DR2 - 4:50am - I'm a teacher in kindergaten or school. There is a bunch of small kids. We are taking them someplace. At the end of the dream, I suggest to take them to the tide pools.

WBTB 6:40 - 6:50 - got up at 9:45am
Again, a long dream. Little better recall. I'm at a recycling center turning in my aluminum cans and plastic bottles. I see someone from my family brought bags of stuff too. I go through them and there is a sleeping bag there, a little thing that can hold your sunglasses around your head that I have not seen in a while, and some apples. I decide this is not to be thrown to trash and I'm gonna take it to our storage unit just around the corner. I'll the apples to the bunnies we have on the way there.

The cool thing about this WILD attempt was, that sometimes when already awake, eyes still closed, I decided to get the falling/flying feeling that I sometimes get just before a WILD. I got it. Was falling, then flying really fast. I got an idea to go to the nearest galaxy. I saw black space, but not the outer space, I think. This was interesting, because I got this feeling when I was nowhere near WILD, or attempt. That's surprising.

Had many very short dreams, I kept waking up due to my leg hurting.

1. [non-lucid]
Just Fragments

Fragments:
My dream friend got slapped, he was crying so I told ssomebody, they came over to have a look in which I explained what happened.

2. [non-lucid]
Forgotten

3. [non-lucid]
Forgotten

4. [non-lucid]
Forgotten

• I had some car trouble yesterday that scared me a bit.
• I woke up to use the bathroom and decided to cycle.
• About a month and a half ago I was shoveling fertilizer and got stuck in a mud pit.

I was at the end of a neighbor's driveway talking to a cop. He was going to help me with my car as it was giving me trouble.

The cop got in and started my car and ended up going off the driveway onto the soft ground, where we got stuck. I started crying saying, "What am I going to do now" over and over.

Then I realized I was dreaming. I did a hand rc and went through my usual routine where I had 5 fingers, but after staring at them I had 6. I sat there and counted a few times to be sure and they went to 7 and then 6 again.

I decided to punch the cop in the chest, and then I asked if he wanted me to pull his heart out. I reached my hand into his chest, but couldn't find his heart.

I may have had a false awakening. At one point I remember trying to go back to sleep and feeling my body buzz, and trying to relax and go with it, but I was having trouble falling back asleep. I think that was an FA.

Dream Skip

I'm at school and can't remember what the class is doing. Everyone leaves except this one girl. I look to her for help but she doesn't want to help. She gets up and leaves also.

I got up and feel stoned and nervous that someone is going to question my red eyes. I went to the bathroom to wash my hands but there is no sink. Where there would be a sink, there is a Port-a-poti urinal. I left disgusted.

Dream Skip

I am in some other building and I'm getting something to eat. I see this older black lady feeding from another woman's breast. She is a vegan, so she didn't want to eat any of the food at the cafeteria we were in. I was thoroughly disgusted...again.

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I had another dream where I made it with some hot chick. She was so hot that when I was done, I was trying to do it again.

Date: 11 June

Comments: A bit behind on journaling, today's entry to be posted later, and sorry for any typos.

Total sleep time: 6 1/2 hrs

Pre bed: multivits, l-arginine

Dream quality and recall: dreams were vivid, started earlier (3+ hrs after sleep), dream content was normal this time (referring to l-arginine). Recall - I was lazy

Early Fragment1: I was left with the impression that this was lucid, but very little memory of it. It had to do with seeing some objects from Xanous's OBE? The only more or less clear visual memory is of small cotton-like object/s. >>> goes to category suspicious

Fragment2: In my parents' place, some disturbing noise

Dream3: I thought it was interesting and easy to remember. We all know how this ends.

WBTB: missed the usual natural wake, woke up a bit later, and I drank the whole latte although I knew it was not such a good idea. Struggled for quite some time, but did not look at the clock as not to add up more anxiety.

Dream4: In my parents' place, aunt is also there and starts eating, this distracts me. I casually lie on the couch, three blankets and a bottle of plum sauce.

Dreamlet5: some rasta guy

I drift in and out of sleep. In bed, I want to sleep. I continue with my efforts to fall asleep.

Dream6 WILD: I'm in those strange states where I am semi-consciously controlling what I'm doing, trying to have the dream form around me and hold on to it. The first thing I notice are my hands, clasping a bottle. Slightly confused as I think for a second I am still in bed, I keep my eyes closed. Still not fully in the dream, I know that the key to my integration today has to do with me holding the bottle of I think then alcohol or plum sauce, so I apply as much pressure as I can. Then the surroundings become clearer and I know I am successfully there.

I am sitting on a bench in my neighborhood, no DCs in sight. I begin touching the surface of the white bench to stabilize. I look up and see a few ghost-like transparent but black birds in the sky. I check out my surroundings but I have an issue moving my head, and then identify that the problem is coming from my right eye, which gets some sort of tunnel vision. I don't want to move my head too much to avoid waking up, so I ignore this and decide to walk on the street.

I make a few steps and then my right side is paralyzed, so I lose balance and fall. Oh, no, not this thing again! The feeling is very hard to describe, but it's like I am feeling the physical body's atonia with my dream body, which makes me lose control over parts of the dream body. I try to ignore the issue, drag myself forward a bit and think that maybe concentrating on some tasks will fix it. I remember four tasks. I don't think I am able to get to Xanous at the moment. There are no DCs around to interact with. I think about transformation but nothing seems to happen. What did the guys say to do in such a case? Try floating up. Doesn't work. I have no dream control at all.

It is also cold, and I notice my blanket is nearby so I want to reach for it. The last thing I remember is looking above a building and seeing a large dark military helicopter above it. It is also ghost-like transparent. I am not very interested in it, I look down, struggle for a little while and then give up. I wake up. I am too caffeinated to fall asleep although I try.

Note: This was not scary in any way, but it was really annoying.

Comments:

1. Yes, drinking the whole latte was a mistake!
2. Starting an ld from scratch can be a pain in the b. I need more practice.

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- Do 100 RCs (8/100)
- notice real life DS 100 times and RC (9/100)
- 10 proper WBTB attempts -> days (4/10)
- 10 morning RCs (1/10)
- 2 proper WILD attempts (0/2)
- task flexibility
- journal flexibility

LDs: 6 (official count) as of 11th June
micro-lds: 1 (not counted)
suspicious events: 2 (not counted)

I am standing looking up at a greet building, this dream scene is from a Lucid dream many years ago, the city itself is dead, there is a dark grey hue to the world, something that I have not paid attention to in some time. I am standing looking up at a very tall building again it is a dark grey, the city is lifeless.

I am not aware that this is a dream and I shift into an un interesting pattern of tasks. My recall fades and I awake.. its four AM in pain I move and collapse into again an unrestful sleep.

June 11
10:30-6:00

Fragment 1: Dreamed of how to pick off rice that has spilled in bathtub, and how picking it one grain at a time may be the recommended method.

Fragment 2: Asked my mom to being lots of winter clothing next time she comes to visit. She was reluctant. I offered to ship it back to her if only she brings it. (She is coming in the summer next. And why would I care which of her clothes she brings?

Fragment 3: there was a new favorite vacation spot we discovered. Also in this dream there was something about the staff who clean the hotel room doing something unusual - don't remember what. Also there was a vacation where my husband had to go alone with our kids, and I had to work.

Dream recall from today's nap.

Dream 1:

I was in some weird subway, it had weird layout and two tunnel entrances/exits were made higher than others and trains were falling from here. This caused trains to fall from here and many trains were crashing into each other, also nobody was controlling trains. There were some people with me and a weird girl, we were discussing something and then we moved through a few dark passages to some other stations, we were trying to find out answer to some questions but soon some other person started chasing us and i with the girl ran off somewhere through secret passage, which was also dark, we reach another station but out way gets blocked by some guard and that other person was still chasing. Girl said something weird to the guard and he let us go through.

Dream 2(fragments):
I was in some weird shaped room, there was a pool, some people and a dog. Then later i was on PC watching something about Sonic and downloading something, then it appeared that some episodes of something were missing and later i was in some kind of a cave.

Dreamed I was in some place for singles to meet. Eyed some girl whom I spoke to. She looked at me but looked like she had nothing to respond with. She walked toward me, and in my dreamy state I thought she weas going to hug me, but she stepped to the side to hug a guy behind me instead and left with him. Felt extremely bummed out. The dream printed a clear message in my head, almost like solid letters: "You are not attractive and you are incredibly uninteresting on first contact encounters. Do something about it."

I took a walk past a big hill not too far from my home, named Jernhatten (The Iron Hat). Past Jernhatten I found a giant mountain, complete with snow at the top and everything. On the side of the mountain was engraved a massive plasma-screen. I looked around to see if I would disturb anyone by turning it on. Nobody was around, so I turned it on and put a music video on. I then walked around the mountain till I came to the beach. I swam across the shore, and found myself in my kitchen, putting whipped cream on a half-eaten ice cream cone, while having my mom send me mean looks.