non-lucid

So yesterday i was very tired and decided to just sleep with no LDs intention.. here's what happened..



Here's the dream journal i wrote:
"So it's been 12 days since new years comemoration but that kind of reflected on my dream.

First i want to make sure that i was not lucid (need to work a bit more on my aproach to LDs),So the in the dream i was in my bed (could be FA) and i looked at the window and saw the sky with a lot of balloons floating around every where.

So i went to the balcony and got one of the thousand balloons floating around that fell on my "deck",and at this moment my dog was trying to fly just like one of the balloons and it actualy floated a little but then i thought i didnt want to lose my puppy dog. Then i took my dog into the house so no tragity could happened.

Then inside home i was feeling kind of lighter (almost like i could hover) cause the balloon was between my legs.

So after that i went petting my other dog,and as i pet, it's head came off just like a puppet one.
I was like: 'DAFUK DID I JUST DO?!'.. and sundely i woke up."

What a fu#@ing weird dream huh? ~

I am in a room with some big black dudes with huge muscles. I am actually a black dude as well, with the muscles and what not. I have gained their trust. They tell me I am now one of their brothers as we put our heads together and do a hand shake thing, more like a hand grab.


Dream skip

I am in a room sitting at a table with some younger kids still in high school (now my normal self). We are playing a dare game. They dare me to get pricked by one of those finger poking devices that check you blood, where ever they decided to do it. I disagree to play the game and leave the table, but Jesse gets pissed and is almost threatening me that he is going to do it anyway. He has a knife out now teasing me like a fucking bully. I am threatening him now to stop, but he continues gesturing stabbing me with the knife.

Dream skip

We are in my kitchen now and he still seems to want to stab me. He has a double sided blade. I try to change his actions saying the knife looked cool. He jokes about throwing it towards me like a professional and sticking me in the neck with it. He then says he will take me outside and teach me how to use it.

Dream skip

He is at the door to my room now and is starting to become a bit nicer. He offers me a some sort of knife with the McDonald's logo all over the handle. I act very pleased and say it is an awesome gift. He is happy I am happy and it is like a truce. I am glad he is done fucking with me.

Dream skip

I am at my grandmas house alone. I am going to take a shit on the pot when I flush, but figure out it is not connected to a drain and just goes straight to the floor. I panic thinking goddammit this sucks, now there is shit all over the floor. I then think I have fixed it or something because I have to go again. I am done and get up to realize there is only a toilet seat and no bowl and the water and shit just covers the ground. I think I forget about it, I am not sure. I am in the living room now lying on the couch. I remember thinking about the toilet downstairs and the other one up stairs at my grandma's house IRL work just fine. I don't seem to realize I am dreaming though. Grandma asks me if I want to go with her somewhere and I see the person picking us up is from the black family at the first part of the dream. It is a lady in a blue vehicle. I don't want to be caught, because apparently I was undercover back at their place. I kind of forget about grandma because I think the dream just changes and I am somehow I at my house outside. I see a black car pulling up. I see it is one of the black dudes I grabbed hands with. I hide behind the garage. I watch him get out of his car and put something in another car already parked there which was a dark green grand dam which we don't have. I accidentally walk out into sight thinking he won't recognize me cause I am white now. I turn and see my neighbor's golf cart setting there. There is a dog in the driver's seat with paws on the wheel and bottom ones on the gas like a human. Dog looks exactly like this.


There is another animal in the passenger seat, but I cannot remember cause I was watching the dog drive towards me thinking a person put it on there. The black guy is gone so I go into house. I pass our neighbor walking by as I look out of the window, watching her carry off two kittens. My uncle jay and his daughter is there which is a baby in the dream (a child IRL). I have her on my lap showing her outside through the living room window. I see my neighbor friend, Devin, playing catch in the yard with his little brother. The baby is pointing at a red door that is for some reason attached to a big rock. She is talking almost in full sentences about it now. I am saying to her "Ya that's a red door, but it doesn't go anywhere" which I knew somehow. I am eventually in a version of our house that has similar things in the right places, but they are different (like different fridge, features, etc). I am with my uncle Jason, my cousin Madison, and another girl who is supposedly our cousin. We have a pizza sitting out on the middle island counter in the kitchen. We are talking about what makes the quality of a pizza go down. Madison is saying something about toppings or whatever. I am thinking it is how long you wait to eat it which Jay pretty much explains exactly as I was getting ready to say it. I explain it makes the freshness decrease as you wait. We are still hanging out and eating as Jay who is fit IRL, is doing some sort of workout on the island counter (literally on top of it). I can tell he is trying to impress the girls. I am fit IRL but not as fit. I am just like damn as he doing some impressive Olympic shit. It seems as if he is hitting on Madison, but I can tell she has no interest because she doesn't pay much attention. My other girl cousin is trying to hit on my uncle doing some stretches to attract him and shit like that. We end up all sleeping in the same bed except for the other cousin who is on the ground. Jay is on the left side next to his daughter. I am next facing the opposite side of the bed next to their feet. Madison is next to me on the right side, but she is on the opposite side of the bed with her feet next to my head. I see Jay gently petting his daughter's head as she falls asleep. The other cousin on the ground is making moaning sounds trying to get Jay's attention. Madison looks at me with a blank stare like wtf. I look back at her and laugh trying to hold it in. Dream takes a weird turn here. I look up at the ceiling next to the wall facing my head. I see small piece fall out and blood starts dripping. It breaks off more and more as blood is now pouring onto the floor. I say out loud " Ugh, that is not good..." and Jay gets up in terror of whats happening upstairs. We both get up to run and check it out when I wake up.

I am spending time with my Dad, his wife Michelle, and my brother Miles. Some type of confrontation goes down in the parking lot I don't recall very well. We are at a Mexican restaurant eating and conversing. Dad is drinking with Miles when he says something that Miles doesn't like. Miles gets up and leaves. Dad is drunk at this point and continues to tease him as he is walking out. I hold him back which makes him want to act more like a fool than he already is. He is getting out of hand and yelling becoming increasingly pissed. I have a hold on his arm behind his back not letting him go anywhere. Some idiot states the obvious saying "This guy has had to much to drink" I look at him and say something like " Oh you think so" in a sarcastic manner, not taking it too seriously. He is becoming out of control as we make our way to the front counter, him pulling me as I hold his arm behind is back in an attempt to restrain him. He is just super pissed as I am telling everyone to call the cops knowing he will just get worse as he is drunk. At this point he is losing it and this part gets to me. I was thinking in the dream that he has gone a bit over the top this time. I am now in front of him holding him back from other people now. He looks as if he has been pushed to the limit of sanity, his face being beet red. He pulls out a gun and shoots right past me, being in the direction of his gun. I wake up still with some adrenaline pumping. I believe he was trying to shoot a person I was holding him back from. I remember thinking in the dream I just wanted to hug him to make him stop this madness because it bothered me seeing him act that way.

01-13-2013 -- [Any earlier bits are long gone.] I find myself waiting in a ride line at Disney. It is a very long queue and lots of people in line. Occasionally the line has fallen behind because somebody hasn't moved when the line does, and suddenly we find ourselves moving fairly large distances in the line, and sometimes passing people in the other line unexpectedly.

Eventually get to the front of the line, and it seems to have been the line for a roller coaster. The person seating people seems to be Shawn Spencer (Psych), and he is just about to get off work, and is upset they are forcing him to seat a few more people before they let him get off. But finally he is let off, right after he seats me in the front car, and he climbs into the seat behind me.

The ride almost immediately turns into a log ride, though it is a very simple (and not very great) one, since there is one tall ramp, followed immediately by the big drop and the end of the ride. Since Shawn is right behind me, unhappy, and seems to be trying to prank me or something, I am actually kind of turned around in the log, keeping an eye on him, instead of the ride, itself. When we are just about to drop down the ramp on the other side, I turn around fast, but because of the motion, I look really strange in the on-ride picture (which is projected while we are still on the ride.)

The splash-down is fairly large, and I get nicely soaked, and soon we exit the ride. We seem to exit about where we would from the Matterhorn at Disneyland, and it seems we are at Disneyland, since there is a parade going right by us. We're trying to figure where to go next. The easy path to Main Street and the exit is blocked by the parade. There is a close parade crossing that we could use to head over to the Frontierland area, but it would be a long walk. Or we could head the other way and move on to Tomorrowland. Shawn is even thinking of leading me backstage, but we know that could cause trouble.

About this time, we run into Michael Murphy, whom I haven't seen (in dream or real life) in many, many years. We're just chatting for a few minutes, when he suddenly remembers something, and hauls out a sort of soda bottle, and tells me something like "It works. It still works." He explains that he fills the bottle daily with some red liquid that is not the soda I thought it was. Instead, it is some kind of gunk that he has kept in the freezer that I gave him many years ago.

It is something like the mushroom stuff that Pat had given me, that is supposed to continue growing, and be really, really healthy for you. I gave it to him, and he never believed it would work, but eventually it did, and for years since, he has taken some of it every day in the soda bottle and drank it during the course of the day. I ask him what it does for him, and it turns out he has no idea. But it is something Chinese, and he figures he can ask for information at a Chinese food cart right next to us.

It tastes slightly weird and quite sweet, and looks kind of like a sweet and sour sauce. He asks the Chinese lady at the food cart if she knows what it is, and what kind of health benefits it might have, but she only seems to be annoyed with him, and doesn't want to talk to him. Instead she tries to wander off. We try to follow, but she goes up a ladder and through a hatch, and as we are considering following, the hatch is becoming harder and harder to open, and the ladder is becoming less and less stable.

It has turned into the entrance into some sort of strange business involving buying and selling things. By this point, Geoffrey from Waiting For God is here, and is kind of in charge of the business. There are six people who each have a portion of the business. One has 3 clients, another has 4, 5, 6, 7 and 8 for the last one. Each client is represented by a coin or some other small token, and a different type of token for each person.

For some reason, though they are in charge of their clients, they are all being told to give me their tokens, so I will get the money and credit for all their work. They aren't pleased with this, of course. I am neither pleased nor displeased, but I can remember the last time I had to do all the work for all the clients, and got no credit, so this does seem to be balancing things out. Very strange.

Suddenly I find myself driving in a familiar area, perhaps on Harbor in Garden Grove. It is an area I have driven a lot in dreams, but I don't think it really is a place from real life. I think I have just gone over an overpass hill, and am now coming up to a light where I will make a left turn and head north to drive a couple of miles and reach Disneyland again.

I had a dream that my boyfriend and I went to the airport so he could catch his flight back home (he lives in Mexico; I live in the US). After we said goodbye and he left, I went looking for someone who could tell me when the next flights to Mexico were to have an idea of when we could get together again. Not too long after we went our separate ways, I turned around and saw him behind me. I was surprised to see him there, as his flight had already begun boarding. Surprised, I asked him why he was still here, but I woke up before he had a chance to reply.

After going back to sleep (I don't know what time it was when I woke up, but it was still dark), I had a dream that I was at a party. I saw a girl there who looked familiar; I recognized her to be Ashley (my tulpa Link's girlfriend, who has a different host). I thought that I should tell Link that Ashley was there, since he'd be happy to see her, but then I remembered that tulpae can't see other people's tulpae (somehow, it didn't occur to me that I shouldn't be able to see her, either).

Don't remember much of this dream, was woken up abruptly, thus was having hard time remembering stuff.

I was in some room, watching videos on the monitor. There were bunch of people around me, mostly random people, but parents were there too. Apparently we were watching some sort of news channel, there was stuff like planes crashing and ships sinking on it, i was laughing for some reason. That continued for some time until like half of people left to do some other things, then i switched to some animation video, which had mix of characters from different cartoons, animation series and games(don't remember most of them tho), in one of episodes that i remember, Duke Nukem was shooting at some enemies in the desert and then running super-fast into some sort of hanger. At the end of the dream i was thinking if i should go to sleep or continue watching(Ahaha).

A boy(I felt like a child/teenager in my dream) I liked was going to take me to a special place. He showed me a lake with an island in the middle. The way to get there was by a wooden boat. I remember becoming slightly lucid. I wanted to cross the lake but the water was dirty and I didn't trust the boat enough. I tried to make the water clean but it didn't work.

A man told us there were other boats on the other side. Suddenly I was at a swimming pool with two of my cousins. The youngest one was way younger than he is now. Nobody was flirting with me and I thought that was strange. (sounds so arrogant now I'm awake) I felt ugly and was wondering how I must look like today. I also felt very white and thought I must have had break outs all over my face. We wanted to rent jet ski's to go to the island but it turned out to be fake ones for children. I became a little bit lucid and wanted to turn my plush monkey into a real one. -I have no idea why I had a plush monkey with me at a swimming pool-
It didn't work.

I was sitting next to a woman in the pool and she took my legs over her lap and the man next to her start massaging my feet. I wanted to leave but they told me I didn't have to worry. I looked stressed and I was their 'sister'. I asked them if they were going to convince me to become religious.

The swimming pool was closing and I wanted to finally see how I looked. When I was walking to the mirror I became lucid and did reality checks. -While awake the first reality check I always do is pinch my nose. I never done this in my dream.- My hand looked very weird. I couldn't stop myself of looking in the mirror and I saw myself with a big forehead and the vision(?) was hazy.
It was hard to control my dream. I tried really hard to change things but It didn't work too well.
I tried to stay lucid by spinning around and rubbing my hands together. The thing I did manage to do after that was to make a car appear and drive with my friends. After that I woke up.

I do remember it starting completely no where on this deserted land. There was no signs of stores or utilities anywhere. All I was able to see was a few people, people who lived in the city. There was something interesting about this city. This city, although not having the appropriate places like stores, rest rooms, homes, it was a city just originating. It was kind of western was still felt like we were the first city the world.

There was this desert I was walking on. The hills to my right were pretty high. My left side had a river streaming all the way in to the ocean. The river looked cleaned and so did the river. There was something that scared me about it. I saw the river and it looked a little too deep. I often saw people jump in to it but nothing bad really happened to them. I was probably exaggerating.

After a few minutes of walking or so, we finally reached a stop. The place we stopped at was a luxurious home. That was my curiosity. What was a beautiful home doing in a place like this? It never occurred to me to be a dream.

This home, it had people in it, a lot of them. I looked at most of them as upper class only because there was security at the front glass doors. I walked in to the place and found things to chance differently. There were these people who were talking about dreams, or how scary it would be if one of us entered a deep sleep while paralyzed. I talked about my recent experiences in this place, not real ones but fake ones. I told one of the people my dream about Amnesia. I was stuck in a castle haunted my ghosts/demons. Falling asleep was the worst part only because I knew what I was going in to.

We talked about that for a while and often times I would see images of dark areas of the castle in Amnesia. After that, I walked upstairs of this nice home and found nothing for me upstairs. All I really saw after dream talking was people having a good time being at this place. There was nothing left for me here.

I walked back outside of this home and saw a person, a girl. She looked to be around her twenties but then again you'll never sure because a lot of teens now in days look like they're in their twenties. This woman wanted to talk to me but as she tried to, I was flying on the other side of the river and back using a tool like the one I use in Just Cause 2. Often times I would fall in the river and there was in fact one time when I encountered a sea creature in it. I accidentelly fell to the river floor and hurried my way back to shore. A few seconds after I reached the shore, I saw a white shark coming after me. It was a relief to have survived this possible attack.

After making my way back shore, I decided to ride a horse, or something like it. I was riding this horse up to the first area where the dream first started. There was something behind us. There was a pit bull, it didn't look to happy. As I was riding, the pit bull was attacking my horse. He killed it but I never collapsed to the ground. The pit bull then attacked me with its mouth. I felt its bites but they never really hurt me. I petted the dog and it seemed to have calmed down.

I made my way and got off the so called horse and walked with a few other groups of people. We walked to an area where something new had just happened. For some strange reason, we had just discovered something I already knew about. I forgot what it was. Everyone else felt excited about this new discovery. I did too. I felt really grateful that the discovery was able to help us living in a time when everything was harder to work with.

There was something about this group of people that caught my attention. This group of people, most of them were another race. Most of the people I hear from, they called them white. In this dream, it felt as if the white people thought they were better than everyone else. There was only one black person there, and me, not black but Hispanic. I always think of this. Especially when I go on a server that's filled with people who have the money to be able to buy donation features or have the time to play the game. But while I was in this area, no one seemed to had shown any form of hatred towards me.

After this experience, I walked back over to where I first seen a white shark and appeared in a huge area. This area was a bit strange, hard to describe but I remember watching my father go out with another woman, not his wife. I had no anger towards him and I even saw the woman doing stuff to him. I felt a little disgusted after I saw my father lying on that couch with no shirt on. I never saw them perform any sexual activity but it bothered me a little.

I'm realizing that I don't remember my dreams as well as I used to, so I'm going to have to start at the beginning again on this site.

Somewhere in the middle of the night I had a dream that me and some cousins were walking around a large mall. It looked pretty high class somehow. As we were walking past some windows for a shop I saw my two aunts, another lady that I recognized at the time (but can't remember now) and my Mom sitting in some salon chairs getting the gray died out of their hair. I walked in and they were so happy to see us! It's almost comical how happy they were to see us. I can't remember now what was said, but we didn't stay long. I think my cousin Sara was asking about the technique that they died their hair because it was covering the gray so well and she wanted to try it for her hair (she's younger than me and has no gray so this makes no sense). I woke up after some point and remembered more than this, but this is all I remember now.
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This morning I woke up remembering part of a dream where I was at work (not really my work). I was driving around a grocery store suppose to be picking up packages at the registers (I guess I was suppose to be dock attendant, but at a grocery store?). All the registers were clean though, so there was nothing to pick up. I started cleaning up garbage instead; old cups half full of water/pop that I had to dump out, half eaten bags of chips/cookies, ect. I found a few bags of chips and a packaged donut that weren't opened yet, so I kept those for a snack some other time.

I also remember at some point in this dream watching a girl with blonde hair talk to a man that she had a crush on. He was intentionally being mean to her telling her that the girl he was seeing was better than her; that the girl he was talking to was stupid and fat and so on. I knew he only said these things because he liked her and was trying to talk himself out of liking her. That girl wasn't phased by it though, she knew he was just being a jerk. She had gone to school and worked in medicine, she wasn't overweight, and she spoke several different languages, so she was pretty confident in who she was. That's all I remember about that though.
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This morning I had several glimpses of images/dreams as I woke up and drifted off again. I remembered them when I woke up and tried to hang on to them to write them down, but it seems I've lost them now.

Sleep - 11:05pm
Wake Ups - 1:15am
Finial Wake Up - 9:00am
WBTB - N/A

Dream Fragment

- Me and my brother were planning To take pictures of a massive house that was nearby. We were getting the cameras ready.

No recall.

So this is my first nightmare I had. My bf and I were down in the basement in my dads den watching tv. Now as a normal teenage girl, if somebody rubs my arm I WILL fall asleep in a matter of 2 minutes. And I did and he eventually fell asleep too. Now this is where things get weird..


It was a dim lit hallway. It had no ending so it seemed. I looked around me and saw nothing but the walls and some light. I saw him, standing there. I was happy because I wasnt alone and I knew he would protect me. I ran to him but slowed and slowly approached him. I looked down to see both his wrists were cut, and bleeding. He looked at me with sorry eyes, and a tear fell from his blue eyes and whispered to me, "I'm sorry..." and turned and walked away. I started to cry and ran after him but he just kept walking. It seemed like a glass wall or an invisible wall seperated us. I tried escaping it but no use. He continued to walk down the no end hallway and soon faded off. I pounded on the wall and screamed and cried but nothing changed. He never came back. I soon heard a loud bang and a scream. I stopped wailing and soon saw a face come up close to the glass wall and awoke in fear. I jumped so high that i scared him too. I asked how i was and he said that my breathing was unsteady and that my chest went out very far that thats when he knew something was wrong but he didnt want to wake me. I started crying and layed my head on his chest, curled into a ball and wrapped my arms tight around him never wanting to let go because i felt safe, knowing he was actually there. Untouched and not hurt. This soon became a re-occuring dream for the both of us. Twas a true terror I would never want to experience or witness ever again.

Torture

A naked man is strapped to a chair. They're torturing him. In the course of three brief scenes, they basically cut a tunnel through his abdomen. It's nauseating.

Some Salsa Dancing (5:53)

I'm messing with the wiring in my car so I can do a power cycle on it and fix something. Then I realize I've been doing a lot of extra work. [My dream journal says that around now I "park and check car" and "Mom strikes," but I don't know what this means.] Later, I'm with my sister and we're trying some salsa dancing. We manage some really cool flips and barrel rolls. I feel like I'm inventing an all-new kind of dance.

Basement

I find myself in a crawlspace with periodic rectangular holes in the floor, leading to staircases that descend into darkness. I'm trying to find a lighted staircase so that I can escape from here. Eventually I find one, but there are other problems. I become lucid somehow, and risk looking into the darkness. The dream fades palpably, and in desperation I try to turn it into a sex dream. I suppose it works, after a fashion (no visuals), but I wake up soon afterwards.

Takeover

A villainous man takes the whole building hostage. Most of us are penned up alone in small rooms, separated from each other, but we can see what's going on in the building by looking at the various TV screens on the walls. Against orders, a naked woman in one room talks to the man. Smirking, he pushes a button that blows up the room she was in. I'm scared that there will be gore all over the room when the smoke clears, but fortunately, there is not. Then there are some explosions along the outside walls of the compound, and I know that the outside resistance movement is trying to break in and depose the villain. I wish they wouldn't try--they have no realistic chance of winning. But I leave the room to try and help them somehow.

I meet up with someone on my team and we run into a problem. There are no nearby enemies, so we try to solve it in a few different ways. After the last attempt, I say, "It's no use, we tried this last year." (This enemy takeover is a yearly occurrence, one we are cursed with until we find a way to escape it.) Suddenly, a door opens above us and an enemy comes out. When we get a clear look at his face, we see that it's "The Law" (from Rocket Jump's VGHS). He smiles nastily.

Saturday, October 8, 2011
Strength: Neutral
Type: Creepy-Solid
Lucidity: No

I know it's been a while, but I feel like this dream is worth writing down. I'll try to get back into the schedule.

I'm waiting for a ship at it's port. I don't specifically recall what my destination was, but I need to get on it. It finally arrives, and I get on. It starts out as a peaceful voyage, but as time goes on, the sea begins to get rough. Soon, we find ourselves steering away from waves and trying desperately to stay on board and keep the ship afloat. Sadly, we don't succeed. As a mighty wave crashes against the ship, our boat capsizes, sending us all overboard. I find myself swimming through the rough tides, searching for others. I finally find a few of my friends and we begin to swim to shore. After a while of swimming, we come across an odd, carnivalesque island.

We're greeted by an odd looking man, who's tending to the entrance of a roller-coaster. He welcomes us and informs us that the only way to reach the center of the island is through the roller-coaster. As I get on it, I can't help but feel that I've been on the ride. The ride is horror-themed, and pretty basic, providing weak scares and basic horror elements, up until the end. We round a corner and see a bloodied woman, whispering to herself in the dark, when she sees us, she lets out a blood-curling scream. Our trail then turns away and goes down a drop before ending. While I'm exiting the ride, I awake.