non-lucid

I was on my knees putting my head over the railing in the spectator rows, facing the middle of some big arena.
The guy who was about to execute me tried to be dramatic and said "die in hell!" as he swung his axe over his head, so I exclaimed "wait wait stop".
"What?"
"You can't say that"
"Can't say what?"
"Die in hell. Do you realize how stupid that sounds? second, im not even in hell yet, i will be in hell AFTER I die."
"So what do you want me to say?"
"Just don't say something that is THAT stupid"
"Alright then I won't say anything at all!"
"Good then"
He then proceeded to separate my head from my body.

I think I am at the mall and there is a man that can grant any wish. Behind him is a timer displayed in green numbers and it is attached on the wall and seems to be counting down. My mother is here. She gives me these cards, I think they are ID cards and I am impatient and I want her to leave so I can make my wish. I ask the man "Do the wishes stay after the timer runs out?" The man says "The wishes are permanent" I wished to fly and all of a sudden I started flying to the ceiling and out a window. The scene changes to that of a garden. I see the man again. I didn't fully comprehend what is happening but I think that a woman that bounded this man to stay on earth has finally freed him. There are black flowers around him but they turn to green, which I think is their normal color. The dream changes again. I am laying down and facing up the dark cloudy sky. I grab a phone and proceed to call the man to tell him about the vision I saw. I said "In 2012 you will be free.." as soon as I said that I felt a powerful vibration as if the beginning of a WILD/DEILD attempt. I was completly paralyzed, I couldn't speak, I couldn't move I was just laying there looking at that black sky. I thought to myself, perhaps it was that strange woman doing this to me. I then begin to see a shadow up in the sky. It is the shadow of a building floating in the sky. I stare at it then I wake up.

Note: The most vivid part of the dream was near the end.
Felt a strong vibration, maybe I could've performed a DEILD if I stood still.

I said 2012 so perhaps I thought I was in the past.

"I'm so glad you are here"

My dear friend gives me a warm hug. I can feel the gratitude pouring out from her heart. She's gone through a great deal of pain in these recent times. I'm surprised to be here though. Where exactly am I? Oh right, we just moved to Ohio. We're staying with her parents until we manage to find an apartment. Right?

This doesn't quite look like Ohio. Does Ohio have mountains? I have the vague feeling I've been here before. Utah? But this isn't Utah. Why would I be in Utah?

"Where exactly am I, D?"

"This is Ohio, M. Don't you remember?"

"Oh right."

"We have to go"

We climb into my truck. At least I think it's my truck. Well I have the keys, so it must be mine.

The path into the woods is wide and long. The trees are tall and winding like vines. Spaces are carved out within their canopies as if designed to be the living quarters of some archaic entity within the forest. I even catch a glimpse of what seems to be a bed. Hmm. The trees are ancient. Their spirits permeate the air. The presence of the Gods of antiquity flows through my body sending a slight chill down the back of my spine. One could almost say the trees carry faces. That of laughter. That of sadness. Sadness for their lost brethren in the Amazonian jungle.

That one appears to have multiple beings within it crying out in anguish. Their faces and hands pushing out from the trunk as if to say "help me! Let me out!" The entrapped souls of human beings lured in by some force within the forest. The forest I travel so deep into. Am I being lured as well? Will I be trapped within one of those trees? My soul lost for eternity due to a yearning I can't subdue?

Well it's too late now. The sky grows dark and our new home shrinks behind me as I travel deeper into the woods, the past now but a shimmer in the distance. Fading with each step I take into the setting sun beyond the mountains. What awaits me there, I don't know. What I do know is that it is too late to turn back now.

Dream 1:

I was playing some maps/mods for Doom, apparently i have reached some sort of final map in the particular mod i was playing. One area looked like big room with floating crates connected by some sort of jumppads and there was very long fall down. Then there was part of the map where player character was on the roof of the movng train and it was hard because i had not only to fight numerous enemies but also to go between train panels just i time so train would not run into walls. Also there were moments where i had to use jumppads to jump from train to train during the movement. The next area was in outdoors and there was huuuuge mecha that i had to board, heavy use of jumppads and long range enemies. After a while dream skipped.
I was playing different map now, i think i was playing multiplayer. It looked like base and there was as much outdoor areas as indoors. I was having hard time searching keycards/switches for doors for some reason. After i have reached elevator to the upper part of the map, dream skips again.
I was apparently watching someone playing the final map of the mappack that base map was from. It looked like he was totally newbie at Doom but he managed to keep his cool. Map looked like it was mostly using red textures, and the structure of the map was really bizarre in a ways. It was like it looked simple at the start, but it was in fact maze of teleporters and switches. The player had very hard time navigating this, and often ended up running in circles. Later on there was outdoors section near the end, and there was the car. In the car there was chunk of the 'Pain Elemental'(One of the enemies in this game IWL) and once player came close enough chunk got cloned all over the place, all of them floated up in air and then cloned into rocks, falling down. Soon the whole map was only rocks. Dream ended.

When i woke up i was doing some dream recall while not moving, and apparently managed to accidentally fall back asleep for a short period of time.

Dream 2:

I was preparing for bath and i remembered that i wanted to recall my dreams somehow. So i started recalling them while saying keywords to remember them better, because in the dream i did not had time to write DJ entry. Most of the keywords were relevant to the previous dream, like "jumppad, door, switch, mecha, train", one of the keywords was "joker" for some reason. Dream ended as soon as i finished the recall.

non lucid
*A movie about tapping into your unknown powers.
*Offering incense at the old oak cliff dharma center.
*I should of woken up to become lucid!

Football

IWL, I've been spending time at a friends house watching and throwing a football, eating and drinking, and so forth.

Last night I dreamed I was at this house, but didn't bring anything to drink. At first I was lying down. There wasn't enough room for me to lie down.

Then I was up and realized I needed to get something to drink for the party. There was snow on the ground, but I was determined so that I wouldn't be asking to drink other people's beverages. Others were advising against leaving under those road conditions, but I was going to leave.

Dream skip

I'm going to throw a football. I can throw my "The Duke" football, or another professional size football. I feel the other ball to determine which I prefer. I prefer my football--"The Duke," but I wanted to feel the other football well since I'd already made my decision. This was the best part of the dream. It wasn't so exciting, but I got a very good sensation of feeling from the football. It was really cool.

The End

My dreams followed close behind what I was thinking about as I went to bed.

I was in Universal, Driving my mom's car, trying to follow how to Park in the giant Parking Garage. My mom was in the passanger seat, being a mom and stuff, and I was just trying to gain the expereince of parking by myself.

I woke up early to go to school, had breakfast, and went outside the front door to see how cold it was. My mom was inside the living room with the cat, and when I went outside, Daniel drove his truck into the Rose Bush and Flower Box at my front door, nearly hitting me, and flashed his front lights, signaling me to get in. I got inside, and he wanted to go buy lighters.

I'm getting out of the truck, walking to an odd shaped convenience store, and Taylor Volkema walks past me, but we pay each other no mind, and continue on our way. I get in, and walk around. I find myself forgetting about getting lighters and such, and notice some cloth's I'd like to put on. I take off my shirt, and am shirtless, then my pants, now pants-less. Before I know it, I'm on the floor, naked, in a convenience store. Luckily, I was in an aisle where no one could see me, so I was quick to put my cloths back on before anyone came by, except my parents, Mom and Dad, who just appeared in the same store, who saw me, and alerted me of my new exposed situation. I love Family!

Furniture
Some furniture gets delivered (day residue). One item is a table which can be customized with replaceable tops. The saleswoman is showing me samples, trying to get me to buy some expensive table tops.

Twitter Racing Game
I'm with Ben and Dave. They are playing a racing video game that they control from their cell phones with Twitter. The television is very high, almost at the ceiling so we have to tilt our heads to see. I really don't want to play with them or be around them. I reluctantly watch. Maybe my sister is here too?

Dave and Daisy
I'm with Dave and his family. We are waiting in a big line of people to enter a mall or maybe a movie. It's already dark. In the dream, Dave has a sister, who is Daisy. I'm only interested in hanging out with Daisy. Finally the line starts moving toward the entrance. As we near the entrance, we see a sign advertising the filming of Star Search. Dave and I want to see that instead of what we originally planned.

He asks if I want to go with him. I say yes, as long as it doesn't cost like 1000 dollars. We see that the tickets are $89 for "2 point" seats and $111 for "3 point" seats. We buy the 3 point seats and enter what looks like a movie theater. When we get in, it's open seating and the theater is already mostly full. We see two open seats that aren't very good. We realize paying extra for the "3 point" seats did nothing for us.

Then the scene changes. Instead of a movie theater, we are in a club. The layout is very strange. There are many small rooms connected by corridors. Every walks from room to room in a clockwise circle, stopping briefly to mingle, then walking to the next room. The experience feels something like a theme park. It's mostly dark and the walls are black. Loud music and laser lights. I'm walking with Dave in a crowd of people walking from room to room. Somewhere ahead of us Daisy. I want to catch up with Daisy so we can hang out. Dave is slowing me down by stopping to talk to people. He talks with one guy about getting a close shave. He finds a mirror and quickly shaves his face to demonstrate. The other guy warns him not to do that here.

I separate from Dave and get closer to Daisy in the crowd. She looks back and sees me. We almost meet but the dream fades.

My house is massive. Julian built a new kitchen with tall, exposed beams, dark wood floors, and red stools. There are random people there. Julian is on a lower level and someone is asking for his autograph. He looks up at me and then signs for her. She tries to kiss him and he kind of pulls away and gestures my way. I just laughed. I entered the stairwell (like in my junior high school) and all the entrances keep changing and I can't find my way back (House of Leaves). I finally find a floor that will let me out - and I'm on the opposite side of the kitchen than where I entered. That was nightmarish and should have triggered lucidity. At one point I'm having a conversation with others about the Id, Ego, and Super Ego. I admitted to talking to my subconscious while lucid dreaming (trigger - hello??!!!!!). Nice Kitchen, though.

This one never turned lucid, but I'm posting it here anyways since it was particularly memorable.

The dream started with me driving in my car on windy mountain roads, but it was still in a deserty region, no trees. As I was driving around a bend, a car came blasting around the corner on the same side of the road as I was, and swerved away into his lane just in time. He was followed by a bunch of police cars speeding after him.

I thought to myself "damn, he's driving like an idiot, I hope nobody gets hurt." And right as I passed around the next bend, I came across a police car and another car having been in a head-on accident, with a bunch of other cops around it directing traffic. I slowed down to get around the accident scene, and as I drove past, I saw the guy that was driving the crashed police car hanging out of the broken driver's side window, blood all over him.

I drove past, and saw a bunch of other accidents one after another, cars off the road, run into each other, etc.

Mountain roads are dangerous, guys.

First Dream
I was bored,talking to someone in a old telephone,and teleported to where he was.It was a beach place,there was people I know from different schools,and a teacher I have a bit of a crush on,he hugged everybody as we were coming closer to him.Later I was in this room in a colorful square pattern(ground,walls and ceiling)mainly of blue,red and yellow.There was some videogames there,but it was suffocating,and I decided to leave.The hallway was the same pattern,and suddenly I was in a pine forest place,with long bodies of water with a bridge to connect the land.I tried to go back but fell into the water.A guy helped me,I asked where I was,I was worried on how I would go back home.He said it was a viking country in Central America,and dunno why,I got relieved.

Second Dream
I was on a family meeting,the house was a fancy beach house with bright colors on the wall such as red and purple,dark wood furniture and moroccan design.I was in a room talking to my mother and the same teacher from the first dream(it happened the night before this one) came into the room and started to talk about something

Those dreams were not lucid,but very vivid.They happened a few night ago.

I'm in a kind of hospital room where a young man is immobilized on a bed with his family and two children who seem to be twins. The children are blond , about 4 years old. I begin to play with one of the children and it disappears. Then I started playing with the other. I lie on the floor and lift the child wiht one hand and he begins to laugh. All of the sudden the child goes to the bed where the young man lies. He jumsp on the bed and falls to the other side.I managed to lift the child but soon he seems to have difficulty breathing as if he was choking. The Child's nose begins to ooze and then I ask one of the family a piece of cloth to clean it. The child's head is tilted and I tell the family that the child has trouble breathing. The family is angry. They take the child and put him under the bed. I leave the room angry. I wake up.

So I was in this prison, I sat with all the other convicts around some tables. Then I started thinking: what have I done to deserve this? and I came up with nothing, and whoah, I started thinking it was a dream. I checked my hands, both sides, and both of them had stubby fingers, like 1 cm long only.

So I thought: yay lucid! Then I got up, and thought I should explore a bit of this prison. So I went out of the main cell block and went up the stairs, no one even looking at me, like they would if the people in a dream sees me do something out of the ordinary. I didnt think of that at the time, but then this cute girl came running after me, while I was in the middle of the stairs, never seen her before in my waking life. (well, probably don't remember that I've seen her) so I asked her something, I don't remember what it was, but then she jumped to the top of the stairs saying she had seen me before and complimenting me on my "rock hard abs" those were her words, also not spoken in my native language, she spoke to me in english. then I asked her something and she giggled, then she leaned in on me and started making out with me. And boy did it feel real. the tounge, she also licked me on my cheeks and stuff, and it felt so wet, so real. now, my dream changed and I went non-lucid again I think.

The reason that I think she was my dream guide is because she was not one of the other convicts, she had the same hair as the girl I have seen be my dream guide before, all though a lot younger. It looked as if I was gonna follow her, since she went before me before we kissed. Anyway, it was a quite bizarre lucid dream.

but wasn't it kinda awesome though?

The time is late spring and for some people that means it's time to look for colleges. I'm not one of those people. That doesn't stop me though. Why? To this day I'm still not quite sure. It's one of those days where things just happen - no reason. The sun is shining and the flowers are budding. You're just there.

The area seems oddly reminiscent of my elementary school. Or was it? The walls of the courtyard are overgrown with vines. The grass hasn't been mowed in a long time. A stillness in the air creeps down my spine.

Mel, Trav, and I walk. Leaves glide through the air in slow motion. Then we see it.

A bear, dead ahead. Standing right up on its hind legs, glaring straight at our faces. It doesn't phase us too much, however, and Trav continues to push Mel and I on the tire swing of the largest tree in the courtyard. It's a wonder, extending what appears to be miles up into the air. Then the bear begins its approach.

I'm standing face to face with it now. It still has yet to make a move so I take the initiative and make it first. I kick the bear right in the face with the force of ten Optimus Primes.

Shit. Did not know I had that in me. Fuck, that bear is pissed off now.

>:O

That's my illustration of its expression. The sound that came out of its mouth sounded something like my dad sleeping after a night of Taco Bell. Except with artillery involved somewhere in the mix.

The bear roars right at Mel, sending a stream of bear phlegm all down her face. She doesn't scream. Damn, girl's got balls. But she does run (probably a wise decision). We run like fucking hell. Like the devil is chasing us. Or a fucking bear.

We arrive at the parking lot of the highschool, the bear tailing not far behind us. Everyone rolling blading in the parking lot notices the bear. Panic ensues. So I get Mel into the lobby.

The principle walks in and sits down at the table. I look up from my art project and notice how much he looks like the dean from Community.

"You know you really look a lot like that dean from Community."
"Is that so?"

A knock on the door.

"Matt, your documentation is ready."

Weird. What the fuck am I doing back at the highschool. Didn't I graduate college? Fuck these documents. I'm in trouble...

"Matt, it's been a long time! How are you?"

I look to my left and see Mr. Morgan, my 9th grade art teacher. With him is Mrs. Perry. We make small talk. Turns out Mr. Morgan and Mrs. Perry are married now. Whoop dee doo. I find it weird when teachers marry other teachers. Well not necessarily weird. Apes marry other apes after all. And clown fish marry other clown fish. Tree stars marry other tree stars. Wait, do they?

Who the fuck is Mrs. Perry?

The teachers and Mr. ...? Whoever he is, he's the guy who tried to get me to read a book on ethnic diversity senior year for making jewish jokes during class. But then he decided that was a fucking retarded idea and committed himself to a mental institution highschool

Anyway, that guy is trying to keep everyone in the lobby calm and the guards aren't letting anyone outside. Too dark to tell what's out there. Gotta wait I guess. Oh well, rules are rules.

Hisssssss.. CRACCCK. SLEEEUAAGRGGG

The FUCK? Great. Some weird fucking creatures are outside now. I hate it when this happens. Now I'm gonna have to wait the amount of time it takes Oprah Winfrey to lose fifty pounds until I can get home.

Fuck this. I'm not waiting. You know what? I never pulled the fire alarm during highschool. This seems like as good a time as any.

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE EEEEEEEEEEE EEEEEEEEEE

Huh. I guess weird slithering creatures with that look like they have leprosy hate the sound of fire alarms. Awesome.

So Mel and I leave. I'm walking her home through the neighborhood now when I notice she's not by my side anymore.

"Mel?"

Now that I think of it, there aren't ANY people around. Is this one of those Twilight Zone episodes where I've been transported to another planet by aliens or something? Because that would be cool, but the problem with that is they never seem to give you any music either. It's always so goddam quiet in those episodes. Wtf is with aliens and their opposition to music?

I look back and notice the road is gone. 100% total dead end. Well that's confusing.

Woosh.

I turn back around and a hagrid old lady in black robes and large pointy hat stands in front of me. Great, wicked witch of the west imitators. Of all places why did the aliens have to drop me on Hollywood blvd? Then she rambles on about some shit how if I ever want everything back to normal I have to do some weird shit for her. I don't know what it was. I tend not to listen to people dressed as witches in the middle of a suburban New Jersey neighborhood. Especially when they're holding a broom that looks like a vacuum cleaner.

Oh and she says something about people's lives being at stake.

I'm not the biggest fan of people messing with me every since the new england clam chowder prank in elementary school so this kind of pisses me off. I tell her I'll do her thing though. Whatever that is. Hmm, maybe I should have listened to her. I hope pleasuring her isn't involved or something like that..

Regardless, Mel is gone and I have to help her.

Either way, I'm not sure what I really did, but everyone reappears and the road is back to normal. Now this lady witch person is ANGRY. I mean like Stewie-being-put-in-a-high-chair-and-having-his-bazooka-taken-away - angry.

Shut the fuck up.

I punch her in the face. Damn, there's that Optimus Prime force again. I gotta figure out how I'm doing that. Punching witches is strangely satisfying.

Mel and I continue our walk home and she doesn't seem to remember a thing that happened.


Funny how the people close to you never realize how much you do actually care and how much you go through to keep them safe.

Even if it all was just a dream.

It was raining heavily, and I think we (me, mom and dad) decided we needed to stop at grandma's because it was too bad to drive in. I think I was worried about driving on her road when it was so wet, because it's so narrow and gravelly.

Apparently we hadn't heard from aunt Dimple in two days. We were really worried and it was like we already knew that something had happened, that maybe she was close to death and this meant she had passed away. One of us brought up the question that, "wasn't grandma sick right now?".

However, we got a text from Dimple just as we were pulling in to grandma's road. Just as we saw that it was her, we passed by Dimple's white car.

We're in grandma's house, and we brought our cats with us. Only there are some kittens too. I see one of us trying to put down a kitten near a dog. My automatic reaction is, 'No, our cats don't get along with dogs at all!'.

I was in my grandma's room, settling some kittens in I think (I remember a fluffy orange and white one), and there's someone sleeping on the floor. I look over to see that they're naked, and I look away and head towards the door to leave.

I'm nibbling on a corndog on the porch but I don't want it anymore. My sister suggests I use it to get the dogs to go in their kennels. I tears off a chunk and throw it in one 'kennel' to get her dog, Duke, to go in, but he gobbles it up and leaves it. (They don't look like dog kennels at all, more like scrunched up boxes)

My sister is like, "no, no, you have to use the *something I don't remember*". She touches a yellow mark on the wall, and Duke stands at attention. Then I do the food thing again? Don't remember.

I repeat the treat-throwing exercise until a few more dogs are in kennels. I remember feeling frustrated dealing with all the them.

Real life notes:

Dimple is passed away.
Grandma doesn't let any dogs but her little one in the house, and they only have one other dog anyway.
We only have three adult cats.
I don't like corndogs.
Grandma's road has caved in before so it was a valid fear.
That's a lot of dreams involving water lately. I don't think it's because of having to use the bathroom - I just have bathroom dreams then.
I didn't take a melatonin last night because I was worried it was causing nightmare flashes again, but I did end up taking a small piece of a sleeping pill.