non-lucid

1. Rane throwing longer than usual and burgundy-colored packets of taco sauce at me. We were in a car? A girl from outside was throwing me some (maybe the right kind? I like Mild orange packets).

2. I’m looking at a collection of coins. There were Supernatural ones with Dean, Sam and Castiel on them. One coin was worth ‘122’. I wondered what guys thought of these coins.

3. False awakening where I go downstairs and see mom on the couch. I’m confused about what time it is and look at the clock, which says something like 10:59. I realize that it’s still nighttime and go back to bed.

4.
~Outside, a woman with short, cropped brown hair is between two arguing men. A third one comes along and pulls her off, and puts her in the trunk of a car. The first guy muses that she was ‘asked, not told’ to leave with him (so maybe it was willingly). I think maybe the kidnapper was her husband? A nearby woman hears her and sneaks in the back. She had shoulder-length wavy brown hair. She talks quietly to someone on a phone(?) about what’s happening, almost in an I’m-a-cop way.

~In a hospital, a woman with dark hair in a ponytail is talking to the lady from the trunk.

~The name ‘Jim’ on a cart and something about two dogs. An African-American nurse lies about knowing him. She had marked on his chart ‘-50’. (I feel like he must have been the kidnapper,)

~A song plays in my head like in a medical show drama. I recall the lyrics ‘you’re not something dying’. It sounded like the band ‘The Fray’. Actually the way the lyrics were sung reminds me of Our Lady Peace’s lyrics from the title ‘I’m Not Made of Steel’,

Notes: Ugh my dreams were so confusing last night, and I know I woke up multiple times. I think I need to focus on getting proper sleep for a bit instead of waking up during the night to type up dreams. Also, I can’t remember if I had an FA before, but wow, that was weird. It wasn’t very vivid though.

Dream 1(fragments):

There was something about 3D platforming game with lizard-like main character.

Dream 2(fragments):

I was playing some shmup and had to fight some damaged boss which had a name "Upgraded Black Heart mk2" but didn't looked like anything similar to 'non-upgraded' version at all, it was red colored spaceship. It had an attack that was 'shotgun' spread of beam projectiles. Also music from RefleX was playing.

Dream 3(fragments):

I was in some video game in some group and we had to stealth through some weird outpost place. We were 'stealthing' using some huge vehicles and then one of us accidentally exploded something on the outpost, and guards completely ignored that. In the end we managed to use vehicles as platforms to get to the place above outpost and there we started discussing further plan.

Wednesday, 9/18/13

Last night, bed 11:30 - 9:15

DR 1
I'm in NY. Staying at a hotel. I'm walking the quiet streets with older houses in residential area. Looks like it's starting to snow. I walk into the alley, or some passageway between buildings. There is a door to something I think may be a church. But it doesn't look like it. In front of it is a small fountain like structure. not much water, only some smooth rocks on the bottom. I see some coins there and more I look more coins I see. I figure people leave it there in hopes of having their wishes fulfilled by gods.

Now I'm inside of a room, that could be a restaurant. People are feeding their dogs, by throwing them balls of ground meat. So I start throwing some dogs that are in the middle of the room some raw ground beef. When they don't eat it, I go and pick it up and I realize, some people were giving them cooked meat.

I see some dogs on the street when I open the glass door and I think about feeding them too.

DR 2
I'm on my balcony, in house I grew up. I'm backing away from the door, because 3 people invaded my house. One of them, he looks like actor from movie I watched yesterday (and I even acknowledget it while in a dream) just walked out to the balcony and is approaching me. I started screaming from top of my lungs. I trully felt like I'm screaming very loud. (no idea, how I didn't wake up neighbors, thank god, I was not saying it out loud IWL).

I see a guy in house opposite to ours, on the corner. I scream "call 911", then when realize im not in US "call 155". "help". But he is playing some instrument, a guitar. He can't hear me. There is a thin black lady working in my auntie's garden. I yell at her. I know she sould hear me, but she doesn't. A young black boy is in another neighbors yard. I yell at him, knowing he is gonna hear me. But he doesn't.

The guy on the balcony is coming closer, with sinister smile on his face, scissors in his hand. Now I'm fighiting him, but I don't remember the fight. The fight is over, I have won. I'm tired and hurt, but I feel at peace and happy.

DR 3
I'm in a large house. There are a few walk in closets. Full of things. Clothes hanging neatly on hangers, other things. But mostly clothes. Someone is throwing some folded up pullovers to the top of the 2 story high closet, but it falls out the other door. My job is to organize it all. later in the day, someone comes back and I realize I got preocupied with other chores and didn't organize the closets. I know it's gonna be a monumental job.

I was with Dennis, Max, and Para at this immensely huge college that literally went into the skies. We were walking into the corridors with them saying "wow I wish I had a dorm here it would be amazing" and everyone agreed with me because it was just so shockingly eye opening to another world. I started walking with them all over the place to check out the different parts of it since it was the first time either of us were at that location when I regain vividness we were sitting down at this library taking a break playing cards not sure with which types of cards it could of been yugioh or poker. I went with them to another building and saw that this one hallway had a water slide going down the entire center and I was like "whatttt, hell yea this is legit" so I started looking for any other events that were happening at that time to see what else blew my mind. I regained vividness when I was in a dorm eating pizza with everyone there saying "this is the life I cant complain about" so after words I remember I did a stunt at the college to gain a position but then after words some fellow not sure if old or young came to talk to me about wisdom. I think it was my spirit guide but not sure now but thinking back about it im pretty sure he was. He was telling me about all these things about electronics that are messing up are vibratory levels and that is what is keeping us in this frequency of reality since there is a vast awareness we are missing out upon. When he was telling me this I remember I exited the building going down a small flight of stairs with about only 7 steps down and 7 steps up and at the end of it on the floor finishing those steps it should a vast array of electronics ranging from cellphones to computers to tablets which the message I got from this was that these are all prohibited if any expansion of consciousness will to occur. Then after that I enter the giant building I remember Dennis holding the door open for me as a good friend does and Max holding open the elevator to get into with everybody. After that I regain consciousness again when I am walking with my cousin Samir and the scenery looked very much familiar to that of MDC kendall campus just with a lot more balconies circling more open areas. At this point me and him were on the second floor and I was going on the 3rd floor to get somewhere faster and he was going to the 1st floor to get to that same location but then after trying to convince him to go my direction I had to start following him to not lose him I guess. After that I remember I was running towards this fence that I jumped over and saw my mom on the other side and huged and kissed her. Once that happen Samir shows up a bit later and when he got there we were at this building off to the side of the college and were moving some scooters to go to the over side of the campus not sure why but the last thing I remember was that we were going down a couple of flight of stairs about 3 or 4 with those scooters so it was a bumpy ride.

I'm at a shrine at the top of a hill, and this girl's just shoved me down onto the ground, so I'm lying on my back looking up at her as she's spraying this canister of salt into the air between me and the shrine gate.

There's these groups of vampires, many different factions, and I've joined up with this one - on the one hand, I'm a little annoyed at myself for not checking out all the others first and just going with the first ones I found, but on the other hand, I'm certain this is the group I would've picked anyway. But there are so many rules I keep breaking, mostly because I don't know what they are - at one point I found a list in my contract, but having a copy of my contract is also against the rules. (Although I understood the contract, the text wasn't written in a real language and seemed like it had too many consonants.) Outside, under a bridge made of bones, I met a little girl looking like something out of Alice in Wonderland, who seems much more at home here than I am.

The word "Vendetta" being sung.

non lucid
*I over hear my girlfriend talking very sexual to another guy I know. I get really upset and threaten to break up with her.

*There is a huge dog that is about to attack me, but the owner says there is no need to worry. When the dog starts being nice and owner walks away. The dog begins to be angry at me again. I beg the owner to please stay because this dog will kill me.

Dream 1:
I'm in a long passageway, either on a ship or in a building. The hall is segmented by heavy steel doors. I'm having issues trying to make much progress down the hallway, because they are hard to open. The dream changes and I'm flirting with 2 girls in a crowded room in the same building. I get the urge to get Nice wih them, so we leave and try to find somewhere private. We are at a different room, and I go in to see if its empty, There's people here, but I go through a different door that leads into another hall that runs parellel to the first one. I start off in that direction alone, but the dream fades there....

Dream 2:
In a building, go up some stairs. Bunch of old people or homeless people? Anyways, there's a crowd sitting and reading books/newspapers. I start picking my way through, and see an old man who's mute hold up a sign that someone announces says Will You Marry Me. Everyone AWWWWWs .

Dream Frag. 3:
I'm on a mountain and heading down. I'm in some sort of training regiment, but I'm glad that I got a particular set of orders, becuse it ment the training would be significantly shorter that everyone else there.

Dream Frag 1:
It's stormy outside, which it was IRL, and I'm with a little girl in a large mansion or a lavious hotel building. She is watching the movie Princess Mononoke.

Dream 2:
I'm in a small studio room. Theres a ton of "magic cards" on the floor. I get the idea in going to steal a stack of them for w/e reason. Guy walks back in and I dismiss the notion.

Dream 3:
I'm outside in a snowy region, we just finished fighting some russians. I started flying and the other people in my group flew up beside me. I fly even higher, and strike a superman pose and everyone else is laughing.

note:
I'm happy I was able to recall and remember to write down 3 entries last night!

Had a few dreams last night, though I only remember fragments now...

First, the word was ending. Everything was turning black and white and I kept running away from it... then I ended up in a big ocean (that wasn't wet and I could actually walk on it) with teeth.

I had a dream I was singing a song. I only had four lines, but it was lovely and now I regret that I didn't record it when I woke up. It really was a very pretty melody and the lyrics were great too.

There was more, but I can't remember anymore.

Dream 1:
I'm in some super flat land. It's only me there, and has many small various shrubs, but is mostly empty. I'm looking around and consider moving some of the plants to the empty area.
[scene change]
I kind of wander into an empty gas station, and then into a large empty city. I recall thinking it appeared like a GTA video game, and was looking for something while walking in the deserted city streets. It never seemed eerie or strange that it was deserted.
Dream 2:
Somehow we're flying.... It's a family and myself and i think were on a plane or something. Then we're all falling from the sky but there's a pickup truck falling with us. The younger daughter is screaming, but the father just keeps saying that everyones going to be ok. We land into a huge tree in a jungle. Everyone is unhurt, but the trunk is smashed and skewerd on one of the huge tree's limbs.

The first part of the dream is kind of fuzzy. It involved mythological beings on an mountain island. We had arrived there with a sailing ship. I think I wasn't free, I was a slave or a captive. We talked with the beings who lived up on the mountain, they warned us about some kind of danger. I think I managed to escape, something about the ship sinking I think, and managed to swim to freedom.

I ended up living somewhere down in the south of USA. I managed to get a job, but that was somewhere far up north. I had no idea how to get to this place, but I had more then two weeks before the job started so I just began walking. I started out in a big and what looked like a pretty old city.

After I walked for a long time I got to a fairly big community. I got there on Monday, my work would begin next Friday. So I guess I had been walking for three days?

I went to a restaurant and ate lunch. The owners turned out to be extremely nice people! We talked and I told them about where I would be going, and that if I didn't find a bus or something then I would hitch-hike the rest of the way. They said it was a shame I had to leave the same day, since every Monday they have a movie evening. They were normally renting movies, but every Monday they showed one for free. I said that I might just stay for the rest of the day then, I was weary from walking and to be able to relax for a day felt like a really tempting prospect.

They were also in charge of the community's bus service, which meant that they from time to time drove a trip around the town in a big van and picked up people along the way. I decided to ride with them, I wanted to explore the town and above all find a place to sleep for the night. I got off in front of a mall that I explored, it was really big. I was amazed how this community could have such a big and high quality mall. I remember seeing a jewellery shop, and that there were fancy carpets on the floor.

That is all I can remember. This was a unusually vivid dream. I kind of miss that community, it seemed like such a nice place! I think I add it to the list of dream locations I should revisit.

Dream recall from today's WBTB/naps.

Dream 1(fragments):

I was in some minecraft game and there were creepers attacking everyone, i felt one behind me but just ignored it, creeper didn't exploded and everyone else was panicking, haha. Then i was randomly in the bed in my room at home and that creeper turned into miniature creeper in my hand and was kinda cute, then it turned into some random object and i was back in minecraft and it was some race for wool level with sandcastles, we somehow managed to catapult chest from enemy side to our side using a lever and then there were lots of explosions to the left for some reason.
Then i wake up again and room is different, i am about to realize that i am dreaming but i wake up properly before that.

Dream 2:

I was in some game that looked like Doom, i was going through some laboratory complex, fighting enemies and using panels to open doors. I was playing coop with SilentEternity and the complex was pretty mazey, also there were multiple levels and stairs, and some colorful liquids in tubes. Then as i reached some place that looked like made from nether brick from minecraft, but with multiple fire pits that looked like from spiral knights and huge central one. There was also gates like in spiral knights and i suddenly had 4 battle sprites at same time together with me, two of which were dragons. I've had to fight two bosses one of which was big brown wolf-like beast that could vanish and teleport and i was using firebolt which was really overpowered and was able to destroy bosses in 5 hits. Then i went back to lab area searching for SilentEternity since he said over chat that he found something. Though then i got a bit lost with some switch puzzle-operated doors until dream faded out. Then i woke up twice, and woke up once more, properly.

The following is a formal rewrite of a 2013 online dream journal entry with added supplementation on Tuesday, 14 August 2018.



Wooden Bridge Mishap of a Friend

Morning of September 18, 2013. Wednesday.

Reading time: 4 min 58 sec. Readability score: 63.

My dream contains features, in a typical composite, from two recurring settings that always vary, as do all settings. One has the appearance of an area in Wisconsin near Chipmunk Coulee (where I lived as a child), and the other is a partial model of the fishing pier in El Jobean, Florida (pictured above). It is inherently a model of subliminal dream state awareness. It is caused by deliberately entering into the dream state with lucidity and expectancy, the setting being a manifestation of this process, but losing the essence of the consciously aware self on the other side of liminal space, though while still maintaining the thread of dream state awareness and wonder if only subliminally. Its foundation is from the Enchanted Forest from Harvey Comics.

The wooden bridge in this dream is a deliberate form of both dream state induction and potential exit upon which the basis is the vestibular system correlation of the otherwise illusory dream body. It stems from the concept of crossing over into a different level of consciousness while maintaining the balance of illusion and elevation from the real physical body. As with a porch, it is one of the most common buffers as such. This reactive representation developed from before I could read and write.

Part of an offset dream before returning to the induction point involves me hand-washing about five darker pairs of my socks in the Loomis Street house in Wisconsin. (This is a subliminal thread of awareness that I am not wearing socks in my sleep.) I think that I will travel north. I have a familiar idea that I have had in many previous dreams - that I will fly about and live and sleep in the trees and fly around mostly only at night in a cloak or bed sheet. The false memory of paying $15.00 a month to live with undesirable males does not appeal to me.

Eventually, I become aware that I will be exploring the Enchanted Forest with Rick, a friend from Chicago during my young-adult years in La Crosse. As we approach the wooden bridge, I see that it does not seem suitable for cars, as the wood is thin plywood. It also does not seem wide enough for cars and people to cross at the same time. I am aware, though, that they are probably still working on building or repairing the bridge at this time and the plywood is only temporary.

Rick and I jog over the first sections and curves, heading east to the wondrous place, but there is concern from Rick that cars may be approaching from behind us from the west, though I do not see or hear any. I move along confidently, running over an area where a small section of wood is missing near the railing to my right. It is about as wide as a person’s waist, big enough to fall through if not paying attention. I soon realize, though, that Rick may not see it if he is not watching where he is going. Sure enough, when he reaches the small open area, he falls through to the ground below only a moment before I start to warn him, about twenty feet, immediately beginning to scream and moan in pain. For a short time, I think about going on by myself, especially as I am aware of a farm below where people may help him.

I look through the gap to see that Rick had picked up the section of plywood that had fallen from the bridge a few days ago. He uses it to saw off the tail from a dog that is watching a flock of sheep. I feel embarrassed by his act as I see an unknown woman approaching him (from the east) to see what is going on. I consider that he will get into trouble. However, she does not seem concerned about the dog. I ask Rick several times if he had broken his leg, but I do not get a clear answer. Eventually, I reach down, and with the help of the woman, we manage to get him back up through the hole. At this point, the distance to the ground seems only about six feet, despite the view from moments before, when it was a very long distance down.

He sits down to rest to look at his leg. I become annoyed that my dream may end before we get to the more secluded area that has beautiful scenery as well as healing energy. (This is interesting, as my dream self is not lucid.) There may also be treasures there. The left side of his left knee, by the kneecap, comes off in four or five smaller ceramic-like pieces that he turns around in his hand with a slight concern. I am not sure if we will be going to the hospital from that point when my dream fades.

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Most of what is in this dream is from autoscripting, developed over a lifetime, though which remains primarily subliminal after moving beyond liminal space. Unfortunately, people who believe in “dream interpretation” seem incapable of understanding that, so I will explain some threads here.

Rick’s entry into my dream is a factor of the continuous persistence of dream state indicators (the subliminal, liminal, or lucid awareness of being asleep and in the dream state). For several months, one of the only status updates on his Facebook timeline was “Rick is going to the mattresses,” including a few times on the date of this dream. That was from updates from a Facebook game he played a lot. It is, of course, a play on going to sleep and dreaming of which I could not block once going beyond liminal space to a point beyond where viable lucidity could exist. Therefore, “Rick is going to the mattresses” was unintentionally part of the autoscripting, and his appearance resulted, not as the usual preconscious avatar but as a projection of my dream self. (The woman who helped him up through the hole was the preconscious avatar in this case.) I am often aware of what is scripting my dreams in real time, though without viable lucidity.

The cutting off of the dog’s tail is from an induction affirmation, “I am made of the healthiest energies in the universe.” It unintentionally stemmed from “puppy dogs’ tails…that’s what little boys are made of.” His left knee being ceramic is a reminder that the physicality of the dream state is illusory. (Left is associated with the direction of sleep induction and dreaming, as I most often sleep on my left side.) It also ties in with one of my first recalled dreams about a ceramic chicken. In real life, the healing of Zsuzsanna’s right knee (beyond medical possibility) had been the result of healing affirmations and, by her belief, my presence (and us finally meeting). It all fits even as a typical distortion, as my original companion on the induction bridge was Brenda, who was proven to have been a stand-in for Zsuzsanna. In childhood dreams, I deliberately (for drama and adventure) fell from the bridge, landing in a prehistoric world, though there were many resets and alternate versions of that series that I used for years.

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09-18-2013 -- Running around in England, half with a local girl, half with my friend BC, who has decided she wants to be a sort of slayer, running patrols and trying to protect the people in the area, except that she has no super strength, no powers, and really not much to defend herself with.

So it is kind of late in the evening, and we're running around some dark, cramped, and dirty streets, some bad sections of town, and we've heard some sort of prophecy about some dangerous rocks or something, and we're running up and down these streets, looking for any trouble. But as we make our way up one street, checking the shops on both sides of the street as we move along, we reach the end, and start back down the same street.

We get maybe two or three shops down before I realize that we checked both sides of the street on the way up ... it is wasteful for us to be checking the same street on the way down again, so I lead us through an alley to the next street over, and we start looking through it.

There is a small sort of statuary here, and it feels like it might tie in with the rocks a little bit, but we find no sign of any bad guys. But as we keep making our way through, we start to notice some of the Adventurers Club performers around, and they are doing some sort of craft thing. I think Graham is leading it, but Philip and Joe are also here, and though Graham is kind of friendly, the other two seem a little more stuck up, like they really don't think we can do much with these crafts. Unfortunately, they may be right.

It seems to involve taking logs (that are very quickly turning into very small twigs) and twisting and bending them into interesting shapes. We have no supplies because we didn't know we were going to be here, but I grab a small log out of a trash dumpster, and start peeling off spare branches and the like. Problem is, as things are shrinking, they are also becoming more and more brittle, and soon instead of a nicely bent up little creation, I simply have a handful of inch long twigs. I toss them aside, and get back to hunting trouble-makers.

We run down another street, where BC kind of warns off a couple of her girlfriends, and finds some guy who is hitting on her and wanting to date her. Since it is late at night and a bad area, and all the rest, even if this guy isn't too bad, I can't help but feel that her parents are not going to be too happy about this, and as they kind of start to materialize next to me as I think about them, I'm right. They aren't happy.

But it turns out the guy is bad, and one of the problems we expected. He pulls a knife on BC, and she knocks it out of his hand with a kick. So instead he grabs a gun, and starts to try and aim it at her, and I start running for the scene. He's rather incompetent, and his first couple of shots miss, but he is getting closer and closer, making dodging more and more difficult. Meanwhile, the gun is getting bigger and bigger. What started out as a pistol or revolver first grows into more of a rifle or shotgun, then some sort of very large mounted gun, perhaps about 12 feet long, with about a 90 mm diameter gun barrel that the thug is only aiming ... his partner on the other end has to 'pull the trigger' so to speak.

BC is trying to throw herself in front of this thing, to protect others, not realizing she is the one who needs protection, and I am trying desperately to get there first. I know she has no powers, but I just have this feeling that if I focus on it correctly, I can sort of adapt my bad luck to turn it into bad luck for others. I manage to shove BC out of the way, and throw myself in front of the barrel, and there is a loud sort of crack as the guy shoots. The huge shell explodes through the barrel and reaches me at the end, and ... nothing happens for a few seconds.

The crook aiming the gun sort of looks at me like 'Huh?' but his partner realizes that all that energy is going to have to go somewhere, and turns around and starts to bolt! Seems like a good idea to me, and I throw myself at BC, trying to cover her from the explosion as the large gun blows to bits, taking the thug who was aiming it with him.

BC's parents are there almost immediately, laying into their daughter and having it out with her about this foolish idea, while I can't help but think that just because we took out one or two thugs doesn't mean that there is no more trouble around here. I start to look around and find indications of more problems, but as I try to get BC's attention, she doesn't seem to be interested, anymore.

So I wander over to a small shop where I hear voices raised, and find four elderly American tourists laying into a Middle Eastern looking fellow, about the evil thing that he was just doing. Somehow they don't seem to realize that he could do evil things to them. Meanwhile, he is crouching over a large barrel of water, and as he works with it, the swarthy coloring seems to be washing off of him, and he turns out to be a pasty white Englishman who has been disguising himself as a Middle Eastern guy to hide his identity. And since they know this, they are in trouble.

He is reaching for the first of them, seemingly about to strange him, when I jump in and grab him. His three partners are also approaching. I start to wrestle with the guy, and the four old tourists keep telling him off, and I stare at them in amazement before telling them to shut up and run, before one or more of them get hurt. They finally seem to realize they are in danger, and start to scatter. Three of their fellows follow, as I wrestle with the fourth, but it takes me a couple of minutes for me to put him down, and I only succeed when I break off one of his hands and leave him in a crumpled heap on the ground.

I start down the alley that the tourists ran down, followed by the other three crooks, but I am a couple minutes behind, and am afraid I will lose them, so I leap into the air and try to fly, hoping I will move really fast and be able to catch up. Unfortunately, while I can kind of float, I have no speed, and it might be even a tad slower than running. I can't see any of them (the crooks or tourists), until I finally run into a sort of Arab laundry or something (or at least something pretending to be), and find one of the bad guys, who becomes no problem as I quickly break off his thumb. Then I wake up. Fun dream.

9/18/2013, 10:00-6:00

I tried to say mantras to LD in bed before going to sleep, but no lucid dream. I woke up once at 1:49 till 1:52.

Dream 1:

My family and I were driving to Connecticut. We ended up at a forest. There was this temple. My dad was driving on top of the temple when he said that we've made it to Connecticut. I wanted to get out of the car, so I did. Then the car fell onto the other side of the temple. It started to tumble down the temple and into some trees, with my dad, mom, and brother still inside. They were then outside of Connecticut :/. My family was perfectly fine.

I then found an opening into the center of the temple (Connecticut) and I jumped inside. I found this little statue, a few pedestals, some statues on the pedestals, and a window looking outside. My brother J was then outside the window. I grabbed the one statue not on the pedestals and put it on one. Immediately, there was a Canadian goose that flew down and started attacking my brother. There was blood everywhere. The dream had a sad feel to it.