non-lucid

I was on JMU's campus in one of the parking decks, I got into my car and it went uncontrollably backwards and off the side of the second floor deck into a parking lot. A cop pulled up and thought I was drunk driving so he tests me, I'm over by .02, I freak out and beg him to test me again, he laughs and tests me again and I pass, we both cheer, I'm trying to high five him but I'm falling backwards and to the side but I manage to high five him.

I'm in the stadium now and there's a graduation or ceremony going on, I look behind me to see B, we make quick eye contact before turning away. My family is there too. At some point I think I'm on spongebob's 4d ride from King's Dominion but it has been massively gutted and it looks really broken down now. I'm in mario kart 64 on Mario's track at some point racing around. Then, I'm at some sort of market and it's night time, we're about to drive back home from JMU so I grab a few snacks and souvenirs from shops.

18th May

Fragment:
Last dream, in a place like Azeroth, Westfall.

Something about Warcraft II and the Deadmines. Several passing thoughts about classic dungeons. Then a mix of STV and the dam at Dun Modr. But it had a lower tier which was ramped. There was a ship like the Juggernaut inside DM but it was more Alliance-like than Orcish. The front of it looked like an old 1800s steam boat or something. I remember having a view point from above the chimney and looking in and thinking that the model wasn't finished because it just looked like a tube with few shadows and straight cuts through into each deck of the ship.

I then became aware of my body. I was sort of crouching but sitting on my bottom and became aware or made note of my genitals. I think H was present as a voice and we were talking. I said something about how "at normal size I'd barely be able to push my tip into the top of the chimney", which made me realise my scale in the dream a little bit. Even so, being giant didn't make question reality either as it should have. The dream ended soon after.

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Notes:
- Although I often have passing thoughts that relate to this type of dream situation (being giant-sized and "playing" with things), it's rare for me to actually have dreams within these contexts and dreams involving some kind of sexual stimulation or play are not too common for me.
- I used to mess around in private server versions of WoW that I'd run privately/on my own many years ago and would often change my character's scale to the maximum possible (usually 10 times or something). This dream may relate to that in some sense, and admittedly I'd sort of forgotten about that until re-typing this dream on this DJ.
- I remember when I woke up I thought it was odd I could hear H as a voice but not be aware of H's presence physically within the dream. I remember it made me feel as though there was quite a deep level of immersion in physical terms.

I can't remember the dream scene but at some point I was walking and the dream looked very real and the idea came about that this was a dream, and I thought 'no that can't be true... wait is it?' and then I realized it was a dream and the dream exploded into vividness. The dream was a bit dark so I shouted "clarity now!" but the dream sort of warped, it reacted but did not necessarily light up, I was at the KC pool and a girl stepped backwards into me and was leaning on me.

At another point I went lucid again and was in a room on the floor looking up at someone on a bed, I started rubbing my hands together to try to get the dream to stabilize. I looked up at the person and said 3x3 is 9, 4x4 is 16 and they just sort of looked at me, the dream suddenly went very blurry and crashed.

I was in my bed on my back looking up, I was in that in between state where my body was stiff but I could move, I felt my left kidney tensing up and it was very uncomfortable, this happened a few times and then it switched to SP, I was in my bed and the room went dark, I didn't think I was going into another lucid, I suddenly thought 'Okay so this is when I astral project... astral project!" and I tried to will myself into getting out of my body but it didn't budge.

I also had a non-lucid earlier where I was in a house, everything felt off, it felt like I was alone there. My vision turned to an interactive overview map of a beach resort, my friends' faces were icons on different parts of the map, I felt like I hadn't been invited but then my face icon popped up at a location and I thought I had now been invited. Back in the house I needed to get ready, the upstairs seemed like an unfinished attic. A rat ran up to me and I thought that I didn't want to be sleeping and have a rat near me. I went downstairs and in my mind if felt like a very intricate basement that went deep into the ground, again it felt like I was alone, I went down into the basement through a hallway into a room and I could see a rat casually hop into the room and look at me. I felt strange and decided I needed to get out of there as the place felt haunted and I felt like it was going to be a struggle to find my way back upstairs, I walked backwards in order to keep my eye on the room, I could see another smaller room attached to the room lit up by itself.

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7/23/2020
Fell asleep at ~1AM.
Woke up at 6:30AM
Woke up at 8AM, wrote down 1 tag
Woke up at 9:30, chilled for a while and wrote down 1 tag

What to work on: Using SSILD and becoming lucid
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Dream 1: I was out front of our house and lou manillo came to tell me to water the grass this weekend. After speaking with him, his father came out and told me to water the grass this weekend too.

Dream 2(partly lucid!): I was at some school and had been working out really hard. I did some sort of circuit around the school. After I wanted to go home and had to use Evans car. After starting his car I couldn't find a brake. I went slowly and just avoided things, I wasnt able to stop often. I played around by pressingthe park button to stop, I tried lifting the gas pedal and also dropping the steering wheel. The steering wheel idea worked. I was driving and was vividly taking in the scenery. I was in an urban area with lots of homes. The roads were very inconsistent, sometimes pavement, sometimes really sketchy dirt roads. I recognized some landmarks every once in a while and tried to get home. I realized that the geographical area makes no sense, its always changing. This combined with my experience of the malfunctioning car made me lucid. I wanted to get home as fast as possible and it started flooding. At this point the car was basically a floating cushion and a steering wheel. I floated up with the car until the floot brought us to the top of a tall building. I grabbed the top and the flood started to recede. I climbed on top and wanted to fly home now. I was looking around and thinking about how I could fly because I knew at that point that if I tried I wouldn't make it, I would just fall into the water. The flood started rising and falling again. Thats the last part I remember from the dream.

Lucid Diving

I am watching something that one of my friends posted on social media. It is a video of herself talking about how you should not limit yourself to just one boyfriend or girlfriend. As long as you don’t do anything to make the other ones jealous, you can have three of them or so until you get married (three at once, that is). She makes an analogy to buying a car. This speech surprises me and kind of upsets me, because I didn’t think she was that kind of a girl. I think about making some reply to her…

…I am sitting somewhere looking at a picture of a house on the internet. I realize that this house looks just like the one that is in front of me across the street. What a coincidence! Then I think that perhaps I should do a reality check. Sure enough, it’s a dream.

I go down to a pond (or river, perhaps). I decide that it would be interesting to go under water. The pond is kind of dirty and murky, but that doesn’t matter too much since this is a dream. I dive in. It is difficult to see, so I call out for more clarity or visibility, or something. The water lightens up and it is easier to see. I think I also do another reality check to reinforce my lucidity. I dive down to the bottom. I think it would be neat to see how far down I can go, even through the bottom, so I kind of start digging into the sediment. Then I think I have a false awakening…

…(Not sure if this is the same dream. I feel like it was.) Instructing students in a lab. Part of the lab involves using a microscope (in my dream it’s called a laser scanner, or something). I don’t really remember how to use it, and I try to get someone to show me…

Fragments

…There is a mem about some political figure. I look for this online, in the context of Star Trek…

…Something involving a scene that, earlier, I was supposed to remember and sketch for some reason (I think). There is a stop sign hanging from the ceiling, and some tough superhero-type guy there. I know at some point he is going to knock the sign down…

Awake/explanation
Normal dream
Lucid dream

I have a slight dream fragment from the earlier in the night where I was moving around in some kind of winter tundra station filled with cameras and automated patrols. I don't know what I was doing there but I kept destroying/hacking cameras and trying to get deeper and deeper in. I think this was influenced by a recent playthrough of BioShock.

A more complete fragment from right when I woke up: An older (say, 60) white man enters into the office of a younger (say, 30) black man and they begin discussing some kind of manuscript for a book that the younger man has written. He offers it to the older guy, who sits down in a chair and begins to read, and quickly he tosses it onto the desk and seems disappointed. He says something like, "why are you wasting your talent writing something like this?" and I realize (as an outside observer) that the relationship between the two is that the older man was a mentor to the younger at some point, and he feels the younger man is selling out with this writing.

They begin having a back and forth discussion, with the older man suggesting things like that the writing is using a basic structure and that it's totally derivative, and the younger man pushes back pointing out great works that use basic structures, but he also seems like he is self-conscious about it too. At some point in the discussion there's a tipping point and he simply asks the older man to leave his office. The older man stands up sadly/angrily, and walks out.

I see him some days later wandering into a literature class at a community college. Now I'm with him, and as we enter the room there are 4 students sitting at a semi-circle table, with their professor in the middle, and they're all holding books and seem to be having quite a good time. There are three girls, one boy, and the professor is a woman. As we walk in, the older man apologizes for joining the class midway through the semester and the professor waves it off, saying that the focus in her class is more on finding your own way to connect with literature, and that you don't need to see some curriculum to pull that off.

At this point, the boy (wearing a backwards cap and a black t-shirt, he has some stubble as well) speaks up and points out that I looked like I had my reservations (I guess I did, any class I've ever taken that wasn't a strict teacher/student relationship has usually been a nightmare) and in response he simply held up a piece of paper with a watercolor spiral on it, blackish-green. I blinked, and he said, "when I first tried this I was embarrassed, but I found out that something that helps me focus on a book and think more deeply about it is to draw or paint something simple like this with one hand while I'm reading it. I don't think it's really art, it's more like a fidget toy, but sometimes I choose colors that remind me of the story."

The older man seems impressed by this and we exchange looks, then the blonde girl wearing a white top on the very right side of the table nervously smiles and says, "Hi, I'm... Serenity-- you can call me Serenity if you want-- my middle name is Hannah?" Everyone at the table laughs. "Nobody calls me Serenity," she finishes. The girl to her right (one space to our left, with shoulder length brunette hair, and a burgundy top) begins to speak too, but in the middle of her speaking I woke up, and couldn't tell you anymore for the life of me what she had started to say. She started with her name too but it's now lost to the aether.

I thought the idea of drawing repetitive art while reading was pretty good too when I was asleep, but now that I'm awake I'm not so sure, lol, in theory it sounds nice but in practice it seems like a pain in the butt and like it would just make it way harder to focus. Maybe if it was an audio-book.

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid FA / AP

Attending my teacher's teachings, sitting front row. There are 3 Asian ladies, including his current partner EC, attending to his needs, but there is the rumor that I might be trying to steal their position. I assure I am not. My teacher exchanges just a few quick looks with me, his eyes eager to see me, but nothing else. Later on, some lamas or monks take me for a walk and say they heard I am an humble person and want to know if that is true. I say I am not sure and think about it for a while. I reply that I am aware of who I am but yes, I am humble in the sense I am also very aware of my character flaws and I don't feel like I am better or above anyone else. They take me to a kind of room in an attic. When I am there I recognize it is the meditation room of JKCL. I kneel on the floor and touch some pretty tiles where he sat practicing, feeling emotional. I then see a journal on a table with his notes about travels and some old pics of exotic places he went. I am met by two of the ladies from before (but not EC) and they are now being kind to me. They invite me for a weekend at some really nice place, to make plans with them about something. I accept.

Created Tuesday 21 July 2020

What a relief. Thought I was on another dry-spell.

Spoiler for Kinda a long read:

Scrap Group 1
In a swamp during a clear day. A temporary structure made of steel frames and scaffolding was set up. I was part of a security team sent to guard the area from threats. At one point, my cousin Naomi stops by to talk with me. We spoke of the presidential election and finance. Later, a horde of deformed mindless Titans (as per Attack on Titan) appeared out of nowhere. I used superpowers to blast them. However, a few slipped by, doling out casualties before I could deal with them. Much later on, a train fell out of the sky, and plowed right into the dirt. The other guards and I hurried to rescue any living passengers. Most people were surprisingly in one piece. That is, besides anyone in the cars most deeply buried in the ground, in which only the conductor survived by miraculous circumstances. I then 'remembered' my compiling a list of the names of everyone that was in that train some days before this accident happened. Figured I'd unwittingly taken part in a conspiracy to have one of the victims killed off. I felt really guilty and ashamed for this. The other guards tried reassuring me I wasn't to blame. Then, cut to a scene from Fullmetal Alchemist. Something about Colonel Mustang preparing to ascend to a much higher position within the government.

Spectator mode. A man was going to a train station located deep in a swamp. Suddenly, a blue gorgon (the kind with a snake tail instead of legs) rises from the fountain. She goads the terrified man into getting closer. The guy's soon wrapped in her coils, and is swallowed whole.

Dream 1 - Clear Aqueous Golem LD - Part 1

The visuals were clear. FA on the bed of an unknown home, daylight seeping through the windows. There were very few walls, or even rooms, revealing the structure's surprising width. Distinctly, almost every table and similar furniture in the area had at least one small vase of purple flowers on each of their surfaces. Various different views could be seen out of each windows. On one side, there was a cityscape. Out another was swampland. And out from another, the colorful tents of an amusement park could be seen in the horizon. Several unseen figures could be heard chatting in another room.

It didn't take long for me to get aware. I walked out the bed, past a living room, and to a kitchen in the far end. Had a bit of trouble moving around at first, but I got used to it. I approached the largest window there, which had inexplicably been covered in blinds. False memories led me to believe there was a beach outside. I opened up the blinds, expecting to find as much. Instead, I found a stream within a grassy slope, mangroves growing on the other side, and
urban buildings visible several blocks behind that. Despite how bright it was, there was an overcast sky above.

I invoked more false memories to make me 'remember' my encountering a bizarre creature in the stream: a woman made of ectoplasm (let's call her, Clarity). Heedlessly, I jumped back-first into the water. Only when I was floating in it did I realize how murky this stream was; I couldn't see deeper than a meter. Still, it was at least refreshingly cool.

Not long after, I sensed something viscous surrounding me. This soon rose as an odd, transparent, colorless sludge rippling against the stream. A head formed, mostly featureless, but feminine, much like a mannequin. Seems my conjuration worked. I didn't quite expect her to appear this way, though it wasn't an unpleasant surprise.

For the next minute, I thoroughly observed the ectoplasm composing Clarity, squeezing and rubbing it between my fingers. In addition to being very gooey, it was quite cold. Yet, it quickly softened up and evaporated in one's hands. This was all unusually... soothing.

Concurrently, I thanked the odd woman for showing up in my dream. I spoke about some big plans I had for the dream. Can't remember what, only that I needed her help. Clarity spoke in compliance to my schemes, her voice deep and a bit echoey. I then levitated out of the water, though her slime weighed me down considerably.

Just then, the dream collapsed. Made a DEILD attempt after recalling all of the dream's details, but I dozed off.

Scrap Group 2
Short scene of being in an urban area during an overcast day. I walked over a small bridge. Talked with some supposed acquaintances as well.

Dream 2 - Clear Aqueous Golem LD - Part 2

Scene 1 - Titan Eating Construct
The visuals were mostly clear, and became more vivid over time. FA in the house mentioned above. Although I knew this wasn't reality, I only suspected I was in a daydream or dreamlet at the moment.

I darted around, seeing clear twilight skies outside the windows. It was then that I noticed a full moon. On a closer look, the moon was fractured, if not shattered,yet its parts retained cohesion. I glanced out another window to see yet another moon, also fragmented.

By now, I was sure I was dreaming. I had a lot more trouble getting out of bed than before. It took almost two minutes before I could float myself off from the mattress.

I quickly flew outside and back to the stream. There, I waited for Clarity to return. For the fun of it, I conjured a 6m titan, which flashed in from nothingness beside me. It slowly closed in. But, I wasn't afraid. At that moment, Clarity erupted from the water. She then enveloped the hideous titan. Seconds later, the monster was completely assimilated into her mass.

Now, the slime construct had a more definite shape. She appeared as a lithe woman made entirely of clear ectoplasm, standing about 20ft tall. As before, she was mostly featureless, not even having a face. Her liquid form also gave her trouble standing straight; her torso writhed and pivoted if she tried. Thus, she spent much of her time hunched over.

Noticing the moon above us, I opted to fly us both there. I grabbed her by the shoulders, and tried blasting off. But, I couldn't get much higher than about 10 meters. So, I dived back-first to the ground to teleport to the moon instead. Warp.

Scene 2 - Blind Moon Elevator Ride
The visuals were terrible. I only had part of my left eye open before I lost vision completely. Before I got blind, I noticed black text scrolling by on a white screen, and I could catch a glimpse of being in a cave. I felt around, worried I'd lost the dream. But, catching hold of Clarity' large, gooey hand reassured me a bit. So, I tasked her with leading me around until I regained my sight.

"Where are we?', I asked her. "What do you see?"

Clarity hesitated a moment before speaking. "We're... somewhere underground. A stone cave. I see... panels. There's blinking lights on them. And, there... an elevator! There's an elevator over there!"

The creature dragged me around. Soon, she crammed the both of us into a small space. Shortly after, I felt us being translated all over the place. If this was an elevator, it was capable of far more than just move up and down.

My vision soon returned. Although it was dark, the glow of blinking lights let me see enough. I was indeed in a lift of some kind. The goo construct was crouched beside me, her form occupying much of the space. I could hardly move, or even breathing. Soon, the dream collapsed.

11th May

Dream:Earliest dream. I was in some place in the countryside, the dream was very vivid. I had my boots on, some pants, some t-shirt and my leather jacket. H was walking with me, I remember feeling the gravel beneath my feet.

In the dream I was recognising the place. I'd been here before in some other dream. This prompted me to tell H about it and he sort of dismissed it and even though I tried doing some reality checks with my hands, I didn't become aware of the dream state.

In my dream mind, this place wasn't exactly like how I remembered it from the other dream anyway. There was a gravel road and some buildings and some gravel plots along it, but the original place I was remembering had a normal road and it carried on, it didn't end abruptly like this gravel road. It reminded me of the southern areas of my country. There were pine trees and short grass that looked a bit dry. The dirt was fine and dusty and caramel coloured. The sky was a little bit cloudy but mostly clear and it seemed like the sun was setting. I remember looking all around me to try and identify anything from the original dream, but I felt there was nothing. The surroundings looked vast and vague at the same time.

After walking along the road with H for a while, we eventually came to a very large gravel lot, like a parking lot, clearly meant for that use. I remember H telling me to wait here. He had to get some book, or something, from town? I said I'd wait. I didn't know what I'd do in the meantime and I had the feeling that it would be a long time. Then my awareness transitioned to some other place.

A dream city. H wasn't here and though I have forgotten the dream plot exactly, there was something about a family that had to get to where I just was (the gravel/pine tree area). I was here to speed things along somehow? Something about a gang going after this family.

Then details are missing; I remember getting into a car, a silver convertible and also trying to fix down a panel on the boot or something. Then the mom of this family, who was driving, started the car before I'd even sat down and put a seatbelt on. She raced through the streets and I had little balance, tipping backwards and holding the open and swaying door with my right hand. I was partially sat on her son's legs, eventually he managed to help me in, but it took a while.

Some other part of the same dream. The chronology of the sequences is muddled. I went into a tall building and I remember carrying my black backpack and climbing lots of stairs. I didn't feel tired at all and my legs didn't hurt. Along the way, some young adult (early 20s) tugged on my backpack to have an easier time climbing. I resent that he'd done that but I said nothing and only gave him a look that made it clear to him not to do it again.

The staircase was very much like the one from my university. Very narrow, but no lift at each landing. Eventually I got to a pretty high floor, and it looked like my virtual gallery in some sense. There was a high open space that my fear of heights creep in a little, because there were no railings at all. I remember wondering what H would think of that.

Just behind the stairwell I'd come from, was a platform/floor and I climbed over its ledge without too much effort. It led down a dark unlit and narrow corridor. At the end of it was another stairwell, to my left. It went both up and down. There was a door directly in front of me. A white service door to my right after a short and narrow yard-long hall. Light came through the edges of this white service door and the stairs going up also allowed some natural light in from above, but not much, as it was still very dark in here.

On the stairs, a bunch of young adults (early 20s again) were sat on the steps. They looked at me, but more like through me. I looked back for a moment, but then ignored them. I tried opening the door in front of me but it was well shut and locked. I went back through the narrow corridor I'd come from and then skipped over the gap with the stairs and took a left turn. My mind blocked out the open space with no railings.

There were corridors and rooms this way. Many contrasts of dark and narrow halls with natural light from some windows. The floor was carpeted, not sure what colour, but I remember a cleaning lady. It just looked like a hotel in many regards but the rooms belonged to specific people who worked here or something, like an office area in a university. I can't recall the rest of the dream.

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Notes:
- In many ways, the last part of the dream was just some mish-mash of my first university's building and my general concepts of offices and temporary living spaces. The presence of the people in their early 20s ties in with the "university" feel.
- It can feel a bit annoying to ask H about the reality and have him only make me dismiss what I'm thinking about, though since then I have tried to imagine the situation occurring differently.
- My leather jacket seems to have been a recurring feature for some recent dreams but I haven't found any particular reason why just yet, since I have not worn it in a long time. The only thing that comes to mind is that feels like a bit of a shame that I just let it sit unused for quite a long time, but on the other hand it is usually too hot for me to wear it.
- Dreams where physical activity occurs are always refreshing for me in some mental sense. Being able to do intense physical activity such as climbing many flights of stairs can feel rewarding and the amount of inordinate pain I would get from doing it in real-life makes it feel like a waste of my energy and time. In dreams my low thresholds of pain don't really materialise and it is often the only time I get a break from feeling pain and discomfort throughout a day.

More catching up...

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12th May

Dream:

Dream recall faded somewhat. In the first dream I remember being at a house with H and someone else, a girl our age, but not sure who she was. We were all very hungry, and it was about noon. Someone suggested ordering pizza, but I didn't want to for some reason, so instead I got on the phone and ordered a man made of food or something, like synthetic food. He was supposed to get there by two in the afternoon. I figured when he arrived, I'd "butcher" him for the synthetic meat he was made of, wondering which bits H would be picky about, but as time went by, it seemed like he wasn't going to turn up at all, which made me regret not ordering the pizza in the first place.

Then I remember going through some sort of tunnels or halls, in an old style (20-60s) building. No natural lighting, just incandescent lights. Gave me the impression of night time. I was still hungry, but I came to a room where there was something written over its double doors (I forget what) that suggested I could eat there. I went in and there was a bar-like counter and I talked to a woman in her 40s and asked her about eating or something. I told her I realised it was late but I really needed something and she was kind and tried to figure something out. At some point my parents showed up and start commenting on the food-making. I forget what else happened.

Dream fragment:

A different dream or perhaps after a different segment I've forgotten. Only small bits, many of which just ordinary. But in the end of this dream I was walking around a downtown area with my dad, H and someone else I think. There was a man announcing that free testing for a certain genetic or auto-immune disease or something would be available. I muttered to myself about it not being available to me freely in the past and then the man approached me, unconcerned by my complaints but addressing them; he began to inspect my nose with his hands and as he did he said "normally we wouldn't check people who have infections on their nose because this excludes them" or something to this effect. His attitude and face while going over my nose and talking to me suggested (some medical) curiosity. Just as he was about to move on to inspect some other part of my face or body, the doorbell in reality rang and I woke up, having to answer the door.

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Notes:
- Of these two dreams, as I am re-reading them, I actually remember the second fragment better than I do the first dream. There was an underground parking lot or something around the middle or beginning of that dream, which was where me, my dad, H and the other person had come from, out onto the downtown street area.
- I remember in the first dream I had visualised or seen a picture of what the synthetic man was to look like. For some reason I have the memory of wooden flooring in the first house of that dream.
- The part in the second dream where I was muttering to myself is probably a crossed over feeling of frustration at the lack of help I receive for my condition from official systems. The follow-up interaction with the man is probably representative of some of my hope that with chance and timing I might actually get someone to genuinely be interested in giving me the help I need, rather than the help that gets pushed onto me.

Date of Dream: SUN 19 JUL - 2020



Dream No. 691 - Back To Croatia

I don’t remember how this dream started. From where I do remember, my mum was mentioning something about her and my grandma going to Croatia. The dream made me think like they were going to be gone forever, however they were apparently only going for six months. In addition, my grandfather was also going to be going with them (who is deceased in real life). I had to make a decision on whether to stay home with my dad and my brother or go with my mum, grandma and grandpa.

I decided I would go but then I also realised that I would lose everything I knew. I had very little time to get my luggage packed and I also had to label every single object or the airport would lose it. I picked up a laminated Riku and stared at it, wondering how I could put a blue label on it to say that he was mine. Eventually, the laminate morphed to give an extra spare space tabbed above his head so I ended up using a hole-punch, tieing the string through the hole, and attaching the blue tab to the string.

I then also made another realisation; that we could still be in Croatia when it was my birthday, so nothing would be the same. I packed frantically. I can’t remember anything else about this dream.



Dream No. 691
Dream Guide: None
Lucid?: No

Date of Dream: SAT 18 JUL - 2020



Dream No. 690 - Warioware Dream Eater

I don’t remember much about this dream. From what I can remember, I was in an unknown house and was drawing on some sort of device which seemed like a cross between a phone and a table. I seemed to be drawing horribly rough sketches of some of the Warioware characters. First of all was 13-Amp and she was almost non-identifiable due to how messy she was. Next was 9-Volt and he only looked a little bit better. Last but not least was 18-Volt and next to him I also ended up drawing the Dream Eater sigil from Kingdom Hearts. And then the dream used this illusion to make me think that the sigil was placed on the back of his jacket. That’s all I can remember about this dream.



Dream No. 690
Dream Guide: None
Lucid?: No



18-Volt was still identified as a dream guide by me due to the Kingdom Hearts sigil, but because he didn't actually help me in anyway, the dream guide tab remains as 'none'.

Date of Dream: FRI 17 JUL - 2020



Dream No. 689 - Training At Disney Castle

The dream started with my at my house; the surroundings outside seeming like it was very early, like it was still night time but I could see. Back to what was going on in the house; my aunty had come over for a visit. Both my parents were at home but only my mum was seemingly around at the time. My aunty was talking to us about an opportunity she had for me as some sort of work experience, it had something to do with all these photos that were now all of sudden lying on the floor. I thought the project was a bit corny and so I didn’t like the idea of it. However, my mum got angry and in-fact, both my parents as a collective were angry (my aunty was just disappointed), so I realised I had to get out of there as fast as I could.

I only had a little bit of a head-start to scramble out of the house once I then realised that my parents were chasing me! I rushed out the back door and then scampered around the house to try and get to the front. Though I realised though that if I exited through the streets, my parents would detect me and be likely to get me. So instead, I flew what felt freakishly high, and went over the roof, escaping from the back blocks of my group of houses. As I then went back down towards the streets and started walking again, I called for Dreamy WB but she didn’t respond. I then tried for 18-Volt, no response from him either but there was this energy suggesting that he was still angry with me. I thought I had run out of options, so although I couldn’t get help, I had to keep moving or my parents would catch up with me.

However, as I started walking up the hill towards the milk-bar, I saw Riku casually walking on the other side of the road (in his KH3 appearance) that the milk-bar was on. I then remembered that Riku was my third option and so yelled out to him so he could hear me across the street. It took quite a lot of tries but he eventually noticed me, quickly turning his head sideways to see me and then he crossed the road to come to my side.

Riku looked at me like he could tell I was anxious from my parents, so he came and hugged me. However, when he put his arms around me, both he and I ascended into the air and I realised he wanted to take me somewhere. For a while, it just seemed like he was transporting me casually within my area, but then he paused while in mid-air and told me to make sure I was holding onto him tightly. I realised that he wanted to fly me to Kingdom Hearts. So then I made sure I was holding onto him for dear life; my arms around his neck, my body pressed into his chest, and my head perched over one of Riku’s shoulders.

However, Riku seemed to hesitate his next move, as if he noticed some sort of risk. He gently pushed my head off his shoulder and put it ‘behind his’ in regards to the direction we were supposed to be facing for this action to work. Once he made sure I was secure and ‘out of harms way’, he flew extremely fast with his head slightly backwards, however swinging it forward at the last minute in order to have enough impact to bash the sky open, forming an inter-dimensional hole. At first, the hole seemed to be nothing but ‘darkness’, but as he flew back and put me back into a normal position, we could actually see into the other world. It was at that point that I realised he not only wanted to take me to Kingdom Hearts, but ultimately to Disney Castle which was a sub-dimension of Kingdom Hearts, so he had to take me through yet another ‘rift’.

Once Riku had taken me through all the necessary ‘holes’, I realised we were finally at the Disney world, but it didn’t look cartoony; rather it was quite a realistic setting. The grounds looked the setting in the Lord of The Rings / The Hobbit movies where they’d have the major battles; the grass was a very lush green, the field being wide and mountains being seen in the distance. As we were going across the field, I noticed Riku’s altitude getting lower and lower until eventually, he landed us right in front of Disney Castle (which did look like the actual Disney Castle but smaller) and released me.

I realised that there was an event going on at Disney Castle in which Riku wanted to utilise to help train me for how I could deal with my parents. It was something called ‘Ninja Battles’, even though it had absolutely nothing to do with Ninjas. It was some sort of physical game but I cannot describe the specific actions. First it was just me and Riku and although we were battling each other, I didn’t mind as it was only for training and no one was actually going to hurt the other.

I was stopped though with the realisation that my parents had found their way into this realm. I ran in a panic to see my mum walking down a now visible road in the distance while looking down at her phone (suspecting she was in contact with my dad). I ran back to Riku and was talking at him like at motormouth, asking him what on Earth I should do with the knowledge of my parents finding their way in. However, Riku’s calm response and unique perspective surprised me. He said that they may also have come here to improve themselves and to just leave them be.

We were than able to get back into the ‘Ninja Battles' and I told Riku that although I was going up against him, I found it fun as I knew we were only training. He gave a slight smile and then we got back into it. However this time, others also seemed to join us and it was now between 6 people rather than just the 2 of us. The other 4 were random, unidentified Disney characters. After continuing to playfully feud for awhile, the dream ended and I woke up to an early time at dawn.



Dream No. 689
Dream Guide: Riku
Lucid?: No

Date of Dream: THU 16 JUL - 2020



Dream No. 688 - Insult Competition

I don’t remember much about this dream. From where I do remember, I came into some sort of very large theatre, with groups of people I have interacted with throughout all stages of my life; the majority though, were those from my high school. I remember we were going to watch some sort of movie but I have forgotten what the movie was about. There was all this time before the movie and I noticed people were moving around the large room, with lots of floor space, and interacting with each other.

Lea/Axel from Kingdom Hearts approached me and he said that I was going to be facing him for Round 1 of this competition where we had to try and insult each other as brutally as we could. The winner was obviously who affected the other the most, and Lea said that the winner would then face the final boss, Riku. I had my wits about me and knew the dream was manipulating them, so even though I lost against Lea, I was glad that I wouldn’t have to go and face my otherwise influenced dream guide.

Later on in the dream, I was in another scene; on the ‘lakeside’ boardwalks again that seems to be a recurring area across my dreams. This time, I seemed to have a concern about my brother and so decided to call out for Dreamy WB to come and help me. She wasn’t coming at all though. Eventually, I saw Riku (KH3 appearance) and so called for him, but he actually didn’t stop. Rather he kept walking on and so I actually had to chase after him. In-fact, he left the scene and that’s when I realised that although it looked like Riku, it actually wasn’t in; the dream brought in a fake to trick me. After that, I woke up.



Dream No. 688
Dream Guide: None
Lucid?: No

Date of Dream: TUE 14 JUL - 2020



Dream No. 687 - The Dream's Unethical Employment

I can’t remember how this dream started. From where I do remember, it seemed a cold rainy night but then the sky was lit so I could still see from natural light. Along with my brother in the car, I had to drive my grandma to the seemingly local hospital for her to get some tests done. Compared to real life, the hospital grounds were a complex maze of roads and roundabouts and it was hard to find where the right building was.

The dream did a weird shift with time. I was still driving the car but now my grandma seemed to be in the hospital. I ended up for some reason slowly driving past the hospital and through the windows, I could see nothing but elevators everywhere and all there doors were open, all the elevators large and having a very ominous look about them. As I was driving past, I had the passing thought of ‘guess I need Riku again’ but the thought was nowhere near strong enough to warrant a scene change or an appearance from Riku himself; the dream continued its course but I wasn’t disappointed.

I was then seen to be leaving the hopsital grounds and I had to find a way to get back onto the correct side of the freeway to get back home, which in the dream was a completely different suburb to IRL. This was the part of the dream where my brother seemed to be very bossy in the car and so he was telling what to do but not helping me. Eventually, I didn’t manage to find my way onto the freeway and ended up in this unknown suburb.

I then seemed to be by myself and that’s when Riku appeared in his KH3 appearance. He didn’t come to help me with anything specifically; rather he came to share something with me as a friend, in-fact it’s like he was hoping I could help. He looked disgusted as he told me “the dream’s making me work for a strip club!”. Instead of trying to help Riku find a way out, I thought it’d be easier just to cooperate with the dream, so I reassured him that I would go and work at the strip club as well. Riku still wasn’t impressed with the idea of his forced employment but his energy was suggesting he felt better about it with having me for support.

However, after this, the dream quickly moved me on to another scene and it was said that to prove I have what it takes to work at the strip club, I needed to work at KFC first. I was indeed shown in a KFC uniform and I was approaching the oven full of chickens. As I picked up a pair of tongs, I was shown flipping all the individual pieces of chicken over, one by one. That scene then ended.

There was then a scene with my mum and we seemed to be on this odd looking flying ship and was flying through this really cool dark cave with occasional glowing crystals of blue light. As we got deeper in though, it became just an empty black void and in-fact, everything outside the ship felt empty, even myself inside the ship felt weightless. I was freaked out, but at the same time, because my mum was with me, I felt fascinated and like the experience was so surreal.

I was then on a beach and I was working at a seaside restaurant. My job was to serve the customers on the tables but in a weird way. I had to purchase the food and then give it to them. I asked a staff member how to do it but they weren’t helpful and were telling me things I already knew. As I paid for apple juice and then took a bottle out of the fridge, about to give it to a customer, I asked; “and how am I supposed to make money from this?”. I suddenly noticed Australian singer Taylor Henderson sitting at a table and he piped up and said to me, “the money they give you is what you make”. I can’t remember what else he said and I can’t remember anymore of the dream.



Dream No. 687
Dream Guide: Riku
Lucid?: No