non-lucid

dream 1 - it was about my vampire comic Bit by Bit, but I dont recall anything. fragments of Amy, Bel/ Sel...

dream 2 - I was in a big bookstore. I saw new Muse album on the shelf. took one out, and there were several songs from Black Holes and Revelations. I was listening to a new song, dont remember the melody, but I heard Bellamy's first vocal sounds. near Muse album there were Muse and Evanescence Wii game(?) with fan art-_- jackets on them...

on the book shelf I saw Sonic Generation, and one big and 3 small BLAME! books. they were all Nihei's artbooks. book colors were orange and light green. the weird thing was that in the book there was Nihei's family portrait. one fine art I remember was this orange ski and some megastructures and linear jet-cloud thingy...(in the description, that jet-cloud was semen........wut. -__-) on the back of the cover, the price was $16.87. I really wanted to buy BLAME! artbook so badly but I didnt have money. I even thought of begging my parents. suddenly my brother appeared and said that we have to go somewhere.
"come on, sis! we have to watch Korea vs a country(dont rememebr which country) for World Cup, hurry!"
I wanted to keep reading BLAME! books so I said...
"I dont really care about World Cup... dude, that 2010 game sucked! I'm not interested in World Cup right now. I wont go"
"we have to count the goals and write down on the notebook! did you bring the notebook?"
he said with frowned face.
"the notebook? no"
"I said bring it before!!"
"I dont recall you saying that."
so I think he got away himself, frustrated.. I returned reading the book.

then a brothers-dad-family came behind me with a bluish-grey fur cat. the cat jumped on my lap, playing with my left hand with his paw. the cat was kinda young(I saw his cute little face^^) his paw had sharp nails; my hand hurt. then this boy who's the owner grabbed his paw, putting the nails in(?).. and he said, there you go. the cat again played with my hand and it didnt hurt. I gently stroke his head.

I think I was leaving the bookstore... my mom came in and she said something with this kind of line:
stop drawing cartoons already... so I thought, what the heck is the matter with me drawing cartoon? why is it a big deal?, whimpering.

scene jump

I was doing the Internet. I saw HHD's blog post 'Ghost Song has finally come to an end!' written. there was no reply so I replied to the post in English(it should have been in Korean..felt weird): Congrats! I'm really happy that you finished your comic ^^ how about publishing webcomic next time...?'. and when I clicked the reply button, there were already some 4-5 posts saying 'I'm first!!!' 'me first' idiots...

October 11, 2011

regular lucid
WBTB that collapsed and was reentered as an accidental, unintentional WILD

I slept from 4pm till 7 pm. Got up, watched the TV, had dinner, glass of wine, read the DV - AL3ZAY's "My WBTB Lucid Dreaming Techniques & Tip For Re-Entering A Collapsed Lucid Dream" tutorial, forgott to RC all day). Went back to bed at 10.40pm, feeling sleepy.

Woke up at 11.35pm after 2 LDs - second was reentered, after first one collapsed, thanks to AL3ZAY's WBTB tutorial on reentering collapsed dream).

Regular dream: Coming to a friends house. Lots of people inside, some kind of celebration. Walking through many rooms, getting a bad feeling. Trying to leave, somebody is trying to stop me. Finding a window and floating out. (Since started reading DV, I fly very easily just floating, before had to put some effort to it).

Suddenly at my house. Hopped on a fence, realized I'm lucid. (First time that became lucid without looking at my hand). Started spinning to stabilize, but remembered, that in AL3ZAY's tutorial he spins to the left, so I changed direction and spun to the left. Licked the wall and ate a piece of a plant (didn't taste anything). Did RC finger through palm (my very first finger/palm RC. It really felt like my palm was from play-doh, strange feeling). Someone walked by my room and the footsteps woke me up. Dream mustn't have been stable enough, because also had not much clarity. Again, from the tutorial, I remembered how to reenter the dream. Stayed motionless with eyes closed. Started to have the strangest feeling of sinking into my bed really deep and keep sinking. I realized, somebody is screaming and woke up a little bit, when I recognized, that it was me screaming (silently), accompanied with a shrinking feeling). I let go of it and continued sinking into my bed. It was, as if my bed was 10 feet deep. Woke up on a sidewalk of a very busy town. I was excited and said Hi to a little girl, that was part of a larger group of people. She looked at me as if saying - get over it, you are not the first, and I'm getting tired of you guys getting so excited and talking to me. Behind me was a large area, looked like park/parking lot with a fountain, on left side was a big shopping center, in front of me was a row of tall buildings, and on the right side was a cathedral. All buildings were touching each other and looking crammed. I decided to walk towards the shopping center, but my idea was more to walk away from the cathedral. Then some nun bumped into me and I felt a pinch on my shoulder. People stopped and I was asking them what did she do. Then I was in different part of the town, less people, nighttime. I looked up and saw the moon. Decided to go there. Started lifting up. There were thousands of space ships, shuttles, satellites and stars were beautiful and there was so many of them. I started to cry from seing such a beauty. Then I woke up.

Regular dream: I'm in the dorm of my school. It's end of the school year and we are packing to go home for the summer break. Finding all kind's of different things. I asked my friends, if they don't want to come back and finish packing the next day, that I'll bring my car and it will be easier to move.

So last Thursday, my girlfriend dumped me for my best friend. Needless to say I beat him shitless and we're friends again, but she's out of my life.
Anyway, I had another dream about her, as always, even though I'd though I'd lost feelings for her.. but I was dreaming we were together again, not kissing like usual, but just happy to be together. We made passionate love on a rock afterwards, and I thought it was magical. This was non-lucid.
But I woke up and felt nothing for her. What's going on?

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I've decided to start an online dream journal... just felt like sharing my DJ with other people. I've been thinking about doing it for a while now and this dream made me want to do it, for some reason. It may have been short but it was quite interesting.
The dream started on a large, white place. It was completely empty except for some people and some platforms. Apparently some of the people had been frozen. A girl told me that someone named Blue (at least that's what I think the name is, I'm not very sure) did this. I promised to her that I would hunt him down. The dream ended shortly after that.
The dream wasn't very vivid and was pretty short. It's the only dream I remember because when I woke up I was too lazy to write the other dreams down so I focused on remembering only one dream. I choose to focus on this one because I was quite interested by it... I hope I have another lucid dream soon so I can find more about this Blue guy. Finding him is going to be my new goal!

My dream was in two parts, the first part being only a fragment of what i can remember, and the second half remembering clearly what had happened.

Part 1:

I was climbing around on an apartment rooftops in the middle of a park with a purple blanket. My cousin Cavan (3 or 4 in the dream), Alex and Brandon were all there.

*I remember how it felt to grab onto the roofs and the siding, the wood underneath my hands and how it felt when I would jump down onto the ground. Trying to keep my cousin from falling.*

Part 2:

My original intent was to go down an unmarked road off from the park to go and see Brandy, but a whole group of people got together to go on it instead. There was no path to Brandy.

*I completely forgot about Brandy after this moment.*

We walked around a small archway building in the river and had to cross over a rock pile to get to the other side of the river. We were heading to a cabin/house on the other side. Cavan had come with us without anyone telling his mom. I knew he would have to go back soon and that Alex wouldn't want to go back with me.

The next moment everyone is asleep outside except me. It was dark and I couldn't see anything. Alex wakes up and helps me get Cavan up and ready. He throws me a tiny LED flashlight that I don't catch because I can't see. He turns on a mag light to help me find it.

I tell him if I'm not back in half an hour to come looking for me since the walk wasn't that far. Everyone outside woke up and went inside the house.

I let Cavan go across the rocks first. As I go across I fall in and the current takes me in the direction I want to go so I don't get out. I go under the water and it's instantly hot on my back. There is a fire on the surface of the water. I swim under it and come up. There is a car in the archway building. A girl wrecked into it.

I go back under to swim beneath the the car only to find the water on the other side was also on fire. I try to swim under it.

Then I wake up.

Dream Fragment:

I was in what was supposed to be my kitchen. I saw these lizards. I thought that I needed to get them out of the house. But them I saw that they ran over to a place under the sink where there was an anthill. They started eating the ants. Then I saw some ducklings there also eating the ants. I then realized that it was a good thing to have them in the house. I heard a funny rhythmic sound and saw that the ducklings were stamping their feet in unison to get the ants to come out of the anthill so they could eat them.


Very odd.

From yesterday:

Dream 2:

Very long and too many different parts. The theme was traveling. I was always on the go trying to get somewhere. I was traveling with different people at different times or sometimes along. I don't even remember the order of the scenes that I remember.

I was driving a car that had these strange handlebars (like a bike) they were very wiggly and I felt I had terrible control of the car. I felt like I was in Southern Arizona somewhere between Tucson and Phoenix and I was heading North. I kept going down the wrong roads and having to turn around.

Later I was in a gas station with Tanya and Marie. I was holding a bowl and a spoon. I took it in the little store, but worried that they would think that I stole it. At some point I was crying. The lady behind the register tried to make me feel better.

I was in a restaurant with several friends. We ordered this big meals.

I was in another little store with my mom. We needed transportation. A lady gave us these tricycles. We started to ride them. I saw how slow we were going. I knew that we would never get to our destination in time. I knew that my mom couldn't make it at all. Her handlebars were cracking off. And then both of mine broke.

I looked at the side ofthe road and was fascinated by these strange animals. At first I thought they were a kind of pig. But then saw that they we more rat-like. But they had wooly hair like a sheep. One was trangled up in some string. I tried to help it, but it tried to bite me.

I was walking through this town. I was alone and walked up this hill and saw a Mine. I walked closer and saw a man at the entrance. He started to talk to me, but I had this creepy feeling and wasn't sure if I could trust him. So I jumped down the hill. I remember thinking, "I'll bet this will surprise him. I'll bet he has never seen anyone jump down this big hill in just one jump before." I enjoyed the feeling of floating down the bottom. I knew there was something significant about being able to do that.

From Yesterday:

Last Night's Dreams:

Dream 1:

I suddenly was visiting my high school marching band. It felt like I hadn't seen them in years. But as I looked there was Ed, and Geoff and Kelly. I could see that they were all lined up for a competition. Some of the members saw me and we started talking. There was suddenly a map on the wall next to us. I started teaching them the "States Song" but for some reason all I could remember was the "Countries of Africa Song". Several time I started, but had trouble. Then suddenly I realized that half the band was gone. The competition had started with only half the band. I looked out and could see them on this big stage. I told the other members that we had to somehow sneak out there without it being too obvious that we were late. I tried to follow Kelly, but she ended up further ahead and I was behind the percussion. I slowly worked my way over towards her. I wondered if it was obvious that I had no idea where I was going or what I was doing. Suddenly the band started doing this whole part in sign language. I fantically looked around and tired to copy the people around me. I hoped I wouldn't be responsible for the band receiving a low score when it was judged.


Oh what a typical "unprepared" dream. I got to tell my friend Ed about it this morning and he got a good laugh too. So it was worth the temporary agony.

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Was switching from being lucid in one dream to not in another. Its long so as usual I don't remember the becoming and how I got lucid. I was on a giannnnttt bean bag with Leo and dina. This thing was red and was flying to any destination. I decided to let it surprise me. We were flying super fast for a long time looking at different sights. I wasn't buckled in so it was a bit scary when it started going fast. We saw another one that was bigger than ours and dina and Leo talked to the family. I didn't say much this dream because I was just taking in the amazing sights. This dreamscape was a mix of some tropical paradise and Alaska. I laid down and had a false awakening . I woke at home. Baron had to go poop. I went and Leo had a new dog. I took him too. They went poop and I picked it up. I went to bed for a second before meeting up with Leo. I saw more poop on the puppy pad and told Leo he has to clean the poop. He laughed. We talked about how his new dog was so well behaved and perfect and how luna was evil. The floor was suddenly lightly on fire. Leo got me some water yo put it out. It was going to take a while so I left. I laud down and opened my eyes. I was back in my lucid and fully Lucid. We were still on the flying thing and going fast. I laid down and felt the wind on my face. They water was swooshing below me and the beanbag got closer to the water. It wasI am amazing feeling. Like being on a carpet ride. We landed in some random place. Leo and dina said something but I ignored them. I think it was that they were going to go Into a building ahead. I wanted to explore. I was climbing a big oil rig to get over to the other side. I kind or hurt myself and felt surprising pain. I ignored it and kept going. I once again got the idea that this was a super long lucid. Every time I think this it normally ends. It started destabilizing and it faded to black. I didn't move and imagined the scenario and I was back. I kept climbing rigs until I got to the top. I took in the sights and decided to check out the apartment Leo and dina were at. I wanted to fly but was already high up and a bit too scarred so i walked. I had that idea of dream time again and it destabaliazed. I came back and climbed up the apartment. I got inside and realized it was blurry. I took the time to stabilize. I wanted kara there and she came around the corner and sat down. She had black hair. I loved the way it looked and just watched her talk. I pulled her close and we made out. It was so real and joy filled my heart. I pulled her ontop and we grinded while making out. It was fading. I knew I had to stop but didn't. It faded fully but the grinding and kissing didn't stop fir a while. I knew I had tostop write it down quickly before more was forgotten

Was driving with kara to get a burger. We couldn't decide what to eat it took us forever to finally decide on burger master. I was driving crazy and kara said that I was a horrible driver. I got pissed and walked home. Kara Leo izra and g were there. Kara wanted me to hang out with her while she did homework but I didn't want to. Leo wanted me to take g to the airport the next day with him. I wanted to but it was really early and I said I would if I could get up. I would do gross things to g and izra to gross them out. Dina was pooping in the bathroom behind me. It looked like we were at mothers. I left with g izra or Leo to spirit. But I don't remember who. We were at my old apartments. They looked haunted. For some reason I went to try and get my check back from the office but it was haunted. I got spiderweb all over and ghosts started coming out of nowhere. I had a gun and shot a couple. One had me by chains. The person I was with solved a mystery of one ghosts murder and they thanked him and disappeared. We had to solve their mysterys or they would kill us

Was at an outdoor bbq style party with a lot of random DC's and lots of allens family. The party took place on a wide river that had trees popping out in the center of the river. It was really sunny out and everyone was dressed really nicely. I had on a yellow and white summer dress. A group of us kept trying to float a boat over to the trees in the middle of the river. We struggled a lot with rowing the boat but we were having a good time. I don't remember what I said exactly, but I made some funny snide comment and one of the DC's got really man at me. He kept glaring at me and shaking his head. I for some reason found it really annoying and I left him in the tree and rowed the boat back. For some reason I found this super funny. While at the part, allens cousin g was there. He was sitting with his knees crossed and his eyes opened wide like he did when he was on shroomz. He kept looking at different people and telling them about how much he loved them. Stephia was next to him and giggling. I sat down at the table and g told me he loved me too. I laughed and said love ya too g and patted him on his back. He just sat there with a huge goofy grin on his face but we were didn't say a word. It was super funny and I started cracking up. I walked away from him and just kind of walked around the party observing people. Everyone was enjoying their beer and making hot dogs. I decided to check myself out in the bathroom. I walked in and it had light blue stalls in it. Izra was in a shower stall, vigorously washing himself. I could see his face over the stall and he looked super serious. I asked him what he was doing. He responded by saying "im cleaning myself for the ladies". This cracked me up to and once again I started to laugh. Izra however wasn't laughing. I really QuickTime rinsed my hands and walked outside. I found allen and told him that his whole family was so strange and hilarious. He agreed. I told him about g and Izra and he laughed. Then we walked around with his arm around me, looking at the pretty house, green grass, and river

Dream 1

I was in Central London, the streets were busy and so were the roads. There cars everywhere it was really bustling. I saw my friend near a bus and went up to him. His hair was shorter than real life he's got a more or less mane like a lion but in perspective. The dream had it very short, clean cut and he was wearing a read cap and read belt on his jeans.

We talked but I can't remember anything else.

Side Notes

I am beggining to notice certain things in dreams and become lucid or atleast semi-lucid.

I kept seeing Kevin Mask from Kinnikuman/Ultimate Muscle.
I'm sure I had a dream about Kinnikuman but I can't remember.

11-10-11 Was a bit hyped, so did my best to cool down a bit while going to sleep, which meant not a lot of focus on goals. After the first couple of dreams I decided to go free running, though it didn't happen.

“Designing Games – City in the skies”

I am setting up a computer game, and I somehow have a sunny background on a road called Tendrupvej in the town I grew up in. The background to the game is blue for now, and the intention is for my friends to join up with in this game. The primary focus I have for now though is to turn it into 3D and make it into full screen.

The game is a simple mix between shooting above blocks away while avoiding the shots fired against you. The main difference to classical “shooting blocks away above you while the blocks are shooting at you” games is that the shots are fired from the side and the game itself is progressing to the right in a linear fashion. I keep resetting it to get my friends to join and get it all rolling.

Skip?

I am getting a mental image of a futuristic city in the light of sunset with quite a fair amount of clods in the background. Furthermore the buildings themselves are emitting quite the amount of light. I get the feeling that there are three main roads leading in and out of the city from and to the centre, in the shape of peace sign.



Pretty much like this, though without the river and the mentioned roads leading into the centre where the tall building stands and most of the building emiting more light. Otherwise pretty much exactly like this the natural light looking very much like this picture.

This image is presented just after having discussed setting up the game on the point of what to allow people access to and what not.
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“A perceptual moment”

(Short dream with a lot of detail, not that interesting)

I am lying in my bed and there is a television in the upper left corner of my visual field. In this television there is a presenter wearing a tie. I pull the television towards the center of my vision wanting it to encompass my entire perceptual field. However the picture disappears and then something strange happens.

I get this really warm feeling in my entire body accompanied by some slight pressure. The feeling is really nice and I am thinking to myself that it is probably some effects of sleep paralysis. This feeling keeps intensifying up until the point when I feel like I can leave. So I sit up while noticing that I am leaving my physical body behind.

I am thinking to myself that this reminds me more of an AP (Though admittedly I have no experiential basis for thinking this) than a WILD and I have more confidence in my abilities than normal and I start crawling my way out of my body. To my surprise I am able to fully leave my body behind.

“Holy shit! I haven't ever done this!” I think to myself, at least not while being conscious about it being a dream. My dream body is really heavy and I have to sort of drag myself across the floor. I am in my room (obviously) and it is really dark. I notice that where the TV normally is there is a smoke alarm. Furthermore there is quite the amount of blue light intermingling with the natural darkness of the dream. Everything looks a bit off due to this.

I get over to my coffee table and it looks like it does in waking life, with loads of papers scattered on the surface of it. I try and use the table to stand, but as I am placing my hand on the table in order to use it as a support to get up, the weight of my hand makes the table warp downwards, inwards on itself. Meaning that my hand is causing the table to sort of stretch downwards in the centre warping all the papers and stuff lying there as well. As if the stuff is all of a sudden made of rubbery materials.

I manage to get up and I look out of the window. Down on the right hand side I can see a starry sky joining the horizon. The funny thing is that I am actually looking downwards on this and also the sky (or the other way around) is superimposed on a pattern. Basically think the windows logo but with triangles all pointing towards the centre and a bit more vibrant. Although the stars are out the lighting is fairly bright outside.

There is a dark curtain on the window with square holes in it. Like a mosquito net, though the holes are a bit bigger. I am trying to get out the window, but as I am making my way towards the window it seems like there is an infinity between myself and the curtain so it takes quite a lot longer than anticipated to get to the window. I find that a tad strange, but when I start thinking more about it I arrive at the window and climb through the glass and curtain, quite confident I can do this based on the fact that I have just crawled out of my own body and jump out.

I jump down and notice that I am not really flying and gravity seems strong enough. I notice that there is a building to my right and there is a roof over my head supported by some thin white columns, yet I am outside.

There is grass under my feet and the scenario is fairly different to how I normally perceive the outside of my flat in dreams starting inside. I look down on the grass and out over the lawn to see the flowers. There are quite a few and I notice that they have spherical heads in white and purple, though I also notice that the detail of these flowers are not good. Though upon closer inspection the level of detail increase.

The grass on the other hand is fairly rich in detail. I can see dirt between the straws indicating that it has been recently sewn. I kneel down and start running my arms through the grass and as I am doing this the density increase. The grass feels soft and chilly under my skin, but no way unpleasant, in fact it feels like it is somewhat sentient and reciprocating my gentle strokes (AWSOMENESS!).

I now look up to my right looking for the flowers, which again have taken on additional detail. Furthermore I can see the wind is making the flowerbed form into small waves, like ripples, and as I am seeing this I feel the wind on my skin (by the way think I am naked as I jump out, but decide not to care about it). The wind feels like a chill breeze on a warm day that could never be anything but pleasant.

Notes: The dream was in fact fairly short, but I was somehow more present at every moment, meaning the detail and perceptions I encouraged makes the dream look like one of my longer ones.
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“Brief beach adventure”

I am having quite a lot of mentations involving Carsten J. Some in particular strike out to me where also Ronnie is included.

We are on holiday and we are comparing beaches.

I am at this one beach and the water is looking rather milky, though it is very warm. The air is stupidly hot like 70 degrees Celsius, you wouldn't be able to be there and I somehow notice this, though I don't “notice” it. Around in the edges of the water there are brown volcanic stones, or cliff formations might be more accurate due to their size.

I am jumping around making an effort not to land on one of these stones as I understand them to be immensely hot and will burn me quite severely should I touch them.

something is happening but I'm not sure what it is, there arent many people left around and i get the feeling i am in danger.
Its evening, i come across a house and see shadows behind the curtains, this is the first sign of life i've seen so i walk up to the house, the door is open so i walk inside.
Raspberry is there with her mum, i tell them we need to get out of here cause something bad is going to happen, Raspberry agrees but her mum doesn't trust me.

Raspberry explains that she already knows me and its fine but her mum is still suspicious. I manage to get them out the house and we travel on foot for ages. I am talking to raspberry about building an air-ship, she thinks its a dumb idea. They go their way and i go mine.

I am at my uncles house, with a few friends in the living room, the carpete is a cream colour with red walls and there are 3 sofas about but nothing else. my friend sam hands out these weird looking spliffs, a normal spliff but with a round bit at the end full of some substance he says is awesome. He tells us about a game we should play where we put this sheet down with random circles displaying different percentages on it. We have to stand on them with one foot and smoke the weird joint. We get all the furniture and move it together, put the sheet over them and all pick points. I stand on one leg, smoke the weird joint and feel myself struggling to balance, i say something like "ooo its kicking in now" sam leaves the room and i get off the furniture and follow him out the door.

"you leaving, bro?" i ask and see he is heading upstairs with a girl. I smile and walk back into the living room, "hes gone off with claudia" i say, the sofas have gone and one is left so i sit down and finish the joint.
Kate picks up my phone and tells me she is talking to Raspberry, i ask what she is saying? Kate gets annoyed and says "Not much, she only wants to speak to you"
I get the phone and sit there, typing to raspberry, not sure what i typed but by the end of the conversation i was determined i was going to scotland to meet up for something.

I was traveling in a cruise. I was with Cool Cat. I also recall being tagged in pictures, and liking something. I also recall Fahad.

I was attending a business seminar in our city. I thought I was late, but when I arrived there were no people. There was one lady blocking my way. She was looking the other way. I went around her. She politely said hi when she realized I was there. I sensed failure.

I remember Ribo.

Doni was there. He lent me a book (I forgot the title, but it has something like "Why" on it). Ms Sol (she looks different) was also there.

A sense of change. Overwhelming. Couldn't describe it. Just too overwhelmed.