non-lucid

The fall of civilisation

A huge disaster killed many people and made all the governments to cease in existence. Survivors grouped together and made their own, small towns to start anew. I was a lone wanderer. I travelled a long way and stopped at a fortifications made by society of farmers.

I spent a few days there, and people were upset about me. I noticed that one of the farmers had trouble, and he was preparing his rifle. I asked him about that, and he told me that he has problems with wolves. I decided to help him, and readied my own weapon - a small, one gun made out of copper. It's magazine could hold only one bullet.

When the night time came, we moved to the fields. Wolves jumped out, and we started to shoot them. When I noticed that I used my whole ammo, I jumped straight into the group and wrestled with them. After a while we killed all of them.

The farmer asked me if everything is ok. I looked at my legs and saw blood spilling out of many deep bites. I told him that everything is right. We moved back to farmers city. It was nearing midnight. The farmer told me to wait for news from the local rulers.

I decided to not wait for him, and went away. I walked slowly, and when the morning came I spotted another city on the way. It was ruled by bandits, that weren't hostile towards me. I left my one bullet gun with guards, and went inside to see what I can find there.

I haven't posted in like a week. Foul recall everywhere. Anyways, I had a decent lucid come out of nowhere last night.

Some dream about space pirates who we were fighting. They had caputred our ship and imprisoned us in this big black fortress base on an ice planet. I remember getting into one of the gun turrets and destroying these fuel silos that caused the whole base to start burning.

Our ship managed to escape. It was this big zepplin-looking thing with all of these little white triangle shaped planes attached to the outside. They started to detach from our main ship and attack the pirate base.

-(Unintentional) WBTB-

I was with S on my university campus. We were walking around when someone approached us claiming to be Manei, though she was short and had blonde hair. We kind of brushed her off at first but she started following us. We started to run away from her and went into the men's restroom. She even followed us in there.

"Dude, is this girl seriously trying to get with me?"

"Doubt it. She's been chasing me for years, why should she start going for you all of the sudden?"

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I was outside running along the parking lot. It was a bright, clear summer day. (Contrasting the nightmare that was about to unfold.) The DC appeared again.

"Come with me, I have everything Manei has, I'm even good at archery!"

"The real Manei doesn't know archery..."

This was the first time I looked closely at her face. One eye had nothing in it, was just white. Her teeth were yellow and rotten, and wrinkles galore. (I know you're not supposed to judge based on looks, but-...ughh)

There was some legitimate explanation that I had from the real Manei that this was like an aspect of herself that she had created to separate out some of her flaws and insecurities.

I started to walk off.

"You're doing a really bad job of impersonating her with that skin... If you did your homework you would know she has black hair and darker skin."

I saw her head spin around her neck. When it came back around it looked really disturbing. She had a sort of mask of her face, but it sagged in places, notably around the eyes. Her hair color changed, and her skin tone got darker, but didn't quite match the mask.

I also sensed her energy. It was weak, but it was dark and rancid.

"Now, you won't hurt a face like this will you..."

"I've had enough of this!"

I jumped into the air and started flying. I remember seeing my red fire jet this time. (Hey, where were you last time?) Wind began to form a tornado around me, blowing some leaves around me. I manipulated the winds and picked up a couple of cars from the parking lot and got ready to throw them at her. I also made an air shield around me.

Her mask blew off, revealing her original face. I remember she tried to throw these little throwing stars at me. I dodged a few of them. (The wind sheild didn't block them.) One of them hit me in the shoulder though, but I didn't feel anything. I fought back by throwing one of the cars, but she jumped out of the way and threw another throwing star.

"Leave my dreams and never come back!"

I sent the other three cars down on her, one after the other. Three direct hits. I saw her get crushed, but when I threw them aside, no body. I lost the dream due to emotion (I was mad) and woke up.

Aaahhh.. I'm writing so late. Tonight I recall having lots of natural awakenings but not doing anything in them. Also, I can only remember some fragments of dreams which I want to keep to myself.

FA - Funeral Wreath of Quicker and Merciful Death

I woke up in my bed. It was dark everywhere. I decided to go to the toilet. When I wanted to turn the lights in the toilet on, I saw that there are some new switches and a plaque saying that it was made by European Union. I look at the first switches note, and it said "For Poles in European Union".

I used the switch, but it haven't done anything. I looked at a note for the second switch - "For smoking Poles". I used it and the effect was the same. The third switch was "For Poles that want to use toilet". I used the switch, and it haven't done anything too.

I concluded that the energy is out, and decied to go to the kitchen instead. When I reached the room I saw my pal sitting on a coach and my mother taking something out of a box. The room was faintly lit by a candle. From the couch I could see a mirror in the corridor next to kitchen. The conversation started:

Me: What are you doing?
Mother: A Funeral Wreath of Quicker and Merciful Death.
Me: Who would want something like that?
Pal: Right. Who want's it?
Mother: I'm afraid that no one would like to see it, even if it helps some suffering people.

Then the mirror in the corridor caught my attention. I looked at it, and suddenly felt a cold chill going down my spine.

Morning of May 8, 2015. Friday.



This dream is a very good example of how even the best, most focused scripting can go awry once entering a dream state (though it depends on the form of meditation, “automatic” affirmation acceptance, and concurrent imagery). Although over the years, I have often noticed more and more “automatic” personal control over many dreams (even non-lucid ones) and the growing knowledge (with increasing levels of precision) of how my mind and attitude creates dreams, there is often another facet of my real-time (present) experience that becomes triggered somehow, though which is still solely of my waking character. In this case, it was probably being annoyed in real life by thoughtless impositions on our family by NBN workers. Aligning the transitions between different levels of consciousness to more fluidly move through them (from the onset of fully conscious hypnagogia I have had since early childhood) while remaining my true self is not that difficult at times (even at some levels of otherwise disruptive environmental noise), but the most curious thing still is how memory completely fails on such a grand scale even after only a few seconds in some cases. Sleep paralysis is still usually a very pleasant experience (unlike what I have read from other sources) and is automatically triggered by exertion or so-called overexercise, and oddly, overexercise, even at my present age, brings feelings of being healthier and more relaxed even if I had earlier felt ill.

In my dream, I am walking in an unknown area, which seems like some sort of composite between a part of this town (in the commercial district), the south side of La Crosse, and where I went to school in Florida. I am walking down the street, seemingly with the intent to study a large notebook I am carrying (probably a type of dream journal) while relaxing in a nearby park.

I seem to be walking on Bourbong Street on the left side, heading east, growing closer to the edge of the urban area. As I walk, I notice a young Asian male on my left, who is seated on the sidewalk and leaning against the outer wall (near a corner) of a business building, fairly close to an intersection. He seems quite happy. On his right is an unknown female (though her appearance is not that clear).

I soon find myself in a park that reminds me of the playground where I went to school in Florida. The park is very crowded though there are areas to sit down. I sit down and lean against a tree and open my notebook. Curiously, on the left side when I open it, there is a clear display page containing a large photograph (about two-thirds the size of the A4 page) that shows the imagery I had just seen of the male leaning against the building. I do not consider this as impossible or untimely at all. I look through my book and notice various pages that are “pieces” of my personal history and ideas.

After a time, I notice the presence of an unknown female on my right, possibly a college student who came to the park to study, and who seems to be fairly “dominant” and self-aware. I eventually notice that I am somehow sitting farther from the tree (with no memory of having moved) and feeling a bit imposed upon. I turn back to the girl and bring attention to the fact that she had supposedly been pushing me away from where I was seated near the tree (and I supposedly only moved little by little out of politeness and to avoid any potential confrontation). I seem a bit angry, but not aggressive in any way. She does not react other than giving me a curious look as if perhaps I have lost my mind and simply moved away from her on my own for no particular reason (in fact, she is facing perpendicular to where I am and had probably not really pushed me physically at any point). She remains where she is, appearing stoic and not offended in any way. I notice she has a notebook much like mine and seems to be studying the pages carefully.

In fact, I had deliberately scripted such a scene (up until the time when I become annoyed) where I would be given healing energies as well as answered questions and possible information about the future by a representation of the universe when “she” appeared. This is certainly not the first time that I threw a monkey wrench into my own unfolding script (though this does not happen in fully lucid dreams) and it likely will not be the last.

I began walking down a sidewalk near a school building. I soon started thinking to myself that if I found myself randomly walking in a place I had no idea about, I most likely am not really here. It was sunny, and as I got closer to thew school, I realize I forgot my bag. I lost my previous train of thought and continue inside the gym where there were other students attending. I confronted one student and had a short talk. Soon after the scene change. Lucidity Time: 7 seconds

I was in a hotel being chased by someone. I wanted to escape really badly so I hopped in an elevator. I knew this elevator is special but I don't know how. I pressed on a level button, and I was immediately on that floor. I peaked out from the door and it was a eerily dim hallway lit with fluorescent light. It was completely empty, and narrow. I went to another level. Same setup but with hospital beds this time. So that was even more creepy. I went to another level, and I was immediately in a room. Somewhere along the levels, I realized this is virtual reality. That whatever is happening isn't real but I could feel everything. A nurse told me that she could find out what's wrong with me, and I agreed to it. She explained that she will scan my whole body, and it will hurt a lot. I thought for sure the pain would be nothing. But when she was scanning me, it was very painful with a lot of vibration. I remembered that she had the device over my chest, and my head for a while. After the scanning was done, I asked her what's wrong with my head. She replied "Nothing, nothing's wrong with you". I wasn't satisfied with her answer because I had a rush of negative emotions and memories during the scan. The scan got me really angry and violent inside. It made me want to find the person that was after me, and tear him to shreds for what he did to me.

MILD's working great! I was able to wake up earlier than I did before (or at least I think I did, didn't really check the time). Last time I woke up at 6:00 a.m. , and today I (think) I woke up around 5:00 a.m. . Even though I centered my MILD more around gaining lucidity than to wake up, I'm glad I'm getting better. Too bad I didn't take the chance to do a WBTB. (Couldn't I have at least done FILD? )

Without further ado, here's my dream tonight:

Surprise meeting

I was in school. It was the end of the day, and I was packing up. Before I left though, there was a boy and his sister in the gym who were staying there for after school practice. They were practicing a sport which I couldn't recognize. I only remember that it involved a ball and going through a maze. For a strange reason, the girl had a very low level of confidence and thought she couldn't do anything in the sport. Her brother couldn't help her either, though he wasn't there at the moment. I forgot how but I cheered her up/helped her and she was back in action. I went to my gym locker to get some things but there was the coach standing in front of my locker. She was talking to some other people next to her. I was about to say something when she asked, "So you want to play for our team?" I replied with no and just said I wanted her to move so I could get to my locker. She did and I got some things and went out to the field. I went to practice for another sport which I couldn't recognize either. It involved an american football, and the name had the word "one" in it. I'm pretty sure it was either rugby or Australian football. I never signed up to try out earlier so I was asking the coach if I could try out now. He said I couldn't so I just went, sad, to the bus stop to find a friend in waking life, who I haven't seen for around 3 years now but we're still in contact. He was the same as I last saw him in waking life, of course. He had a navy blue shirt and was just staring at me from the bus stop. I, in contrast, was about to greet him and ask him how he's been. But the bus came, number 8, and he just went in the bus and it left right before my eyes. Now, I can't remember which part of the dream comes first so I'm going to just tell you both.

I was back home. My friend was there with me. Contrary to his attitude last time, he was cheerful and was talking with me. My mother was with us as well and we were both playing. My friend suddenly went towards my mom and I felt lonely at that time. When my friend found out I was lonely, he rushed back to my side. I have a good feeling I was reverted back to my friend's age during this time as well.

The bus came back around. It was bus number 8 again. I recall a girl with long brown hair flowing, but that's the best I can describe her. At the time I was convinced that she was the friend from earlier. She stood against the doorway of the bus and threw books towards my direction. I picked them up and started skimming through some of them, and I recognized one as being about anime. There was a lot of content about a specific one, called Magi, and I was wondering why, but realized that it was a book about Magi, not anime in general. I came to tell my friend and by this time he appeared as he did before. I can't remember how he reacted.

FA - Night of the rats

Midnight. I went out of my bed and took some clothes from wardrobe. Next, I went to the kitchen and looked at shelves. They were occupied by hordes of rats. When I came closer, thay started to make squeaky noises and chased me. I ran outside through the door.

It was dark and cold. The weather was rainy. I decided to go for a walk onto a hill that's just behind my house. I got to my destination in a few seconds. When I turned around to look at my house and it's neighborhood, I saw sun going up.

I told to myself "It took me much longer to get here before." And ran towards the house. When I walked through the door, everything looked like a 3D animation. I entered the kitchen and saw my siblings sitting on chairs, and a weird man. He had burned face, and was wearing black leather cape. He looked like Freddy Krueger.

He moved to the shelves, opened them and got attacked by rats. I asked siblings "What's going on?" And my sister said "It's the night of the rats... now animated in 3D!" Then the doors opened and a girl from my class appeared.

She asked me if I can go with her to her birthday party at my neighbor's house. I told her "But I've got no shoes!" She said "Don't worry, I'll give you mine!". She gave me shoes with spike heels and we went to the neighbor's house.

At the entrance I met with her boyfriend, gave her shoes back and stayed outside with him. We talked about nothing in particular. After a while she came back with other girls from my class. I told "Oh, I've got to go now. Bye!" and went away.

When going straight the wet, cold road I heard them saying "Is he drunk?" "No. He just appeared... and went away.". I entered the kitchen and looked at the shelves, witing for rats to come.

Tried MILD again today with no luck as well, only this time I could remember a short amount of one dream and fragments of others. Along with yesterday though, I woke up in the morning before my usual awakening time. Maybe I'm getting better at waking up in the night?

Bus washroom

In this dream I recall going from one bus stop to another and going back again, or at least it involved riding the bus lots of times. I can't really remember where I saw them but I remember having the presence of my father and other siblings. I finally stopped at a stop and really needed to go to the washroom. So I went in from behind someone, and there apparently was a shower out in the open of the room. It turned on and to my surprise, instead of water, it was bringing out liquid human waste (you know, THAT). To add to my surprise the guy in front of me went and started drinking it. So I went past him, avoiding the liquid, towards a stall.

Dream Fragments

I recall washing the dishes at one time. I left and went back to find plenty of dirty cups in the sink, and they were cups that I have in my own home IWL. My mother was telling me that I shouldn't leave it like that and wash the rest.

Aaaahh... there was so much more fragments but I can't recall them..

Morning of May 6, 2015. Wednesday.

Dream #: 17,670-01. 56 second read.

Zsuzsanna and I are walking in a metropolitan area in daylight, probably a mix of La Crosse (America) and Brisbane (Australia). We are looking for a bookstore or a video rental store.

A tiger walks on the sidewalk on the opposite side of the street in the same direction as us. However, the animal is never closer than about half a block away from us. I do not feel threatened by the tiger’s presence, only vaguely wary.I eventually talk to an unfamiliar young woman standing behind a small unsheltered table adjacent to the curb. It seems to be both an information stand and a sales counter. She is selling small jewelry items and possibly train tickets but is mostly giving directions to pedestrians.
She sees the tiger across the street, about one block down at this time. She seems wary but remains at her table. I soon see a second large tiger approaching her from behind, without her knowledge, from about ten feet away. I wonder whether I should tell her and how she might react, but my dream fades from here.

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Animals primarily correspond with my anticipation of achieving physicality upon waking, with wild animals more of a waking alert regarding my need to move.

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Interestingly, both Zsuzsanna and someone who lives in Brisbane whom I have never met in waking life also dreamt of tigers on this date. (Tigers are common in my dreams.)

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I was in an office. There was an opening for promotion, and the management said that those who think they are eligible for the promotion should go in front. There were a few who went. One of them said that I should also go. I told her I'm not interested. Besides, I'm not into people management and leadership.

I went outside with some friends. We went to an Internet cafe and found that it's closed. I then just realized I don't have time to play because I still have work to do. We went out looking for another cafe but I was already thinking I couldn't join.

I was walking around alone. I passed by Keith talking to another guy. I went ahead and walked on all fours on a bridge. A few more steps later, I found that the bridge is ruined. I'll have to jump to the other side. I decided it'll be too much trouble to have to jump back again later so I went back. I passed by Keith again, but this time he's completely nude and lying flat on this stomach while still talking to the other guy.

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Notes:

- 3 a.m. to 11 a.m. Alarm was at 8 a.m.
- Spent a day barely doing any work.
- Recently saw an ad for job opening at work.
- A couple of people declined a job.
- I remembered how I declined a job opening for a leadership position.
- Keith posted about fangirling on a Backstreet Boy event.

Baby orcas and dolphins are swimming everywhere by the shore. I want to get in and swim with the dolphins but I am scared of the orcas, which outnumber the dolphins. There's a dog the size of a rat following me and I want to return it to its owner. They're already on a plane preparing for take off. There is already "caution" tape wrapped over the door. But the owner sees me and reaches her hands out for the dog.
I am Walter White from Breaking Bad (recently finished that series, so I dream about it) and I'm at my mom's house. In an attempt to evade police I got some kind of substance sprayed all over me. They catch me and I say "You caught me." The wife from the show or my mom tells me to change clothes and shower. They talk about how they sang a celebratory song on the public bus.

I'm on my bed ordering subway sandwiches for an event. An instructor and some classmates are there. I order turkey sandwiches with lettuce and tomato. The instructor says, "I don't like lettuce." I say, "Well...we have to put something on them. I think other people will like lettuce." I look around and everyone else agrees. A young boy comes up to me and reads the paper I have that has feedback on him from his teachers. The last sentence reads, "He is weird." He starts telling me that he's not weird because what people don't know is that "I'm actually one of the last powerful beings on earth." I think he's crazy and making up that story to inflate his own ego.

My husband and I go to a hotel with a nice garden. We request room 333. That room is not available but room 233 is. D is annoyed because he thinks they lied to us. I go around trying to get free candy from the old quarter operated machines. One of them requires you to wash the quarter away with milk.

Walk through the rain to get into the hospital. I am in the ER and I have to initiate administering blood but I don't know how. D is there telling his coworkers how great I am. He gives a speech in the lobby but I leave because it makes me nervous.
Friend has a baby boy named Opie. I always mistake it for a different baby girl. It's customary to send the babies to a nursery for a couple days while the mother sleeps and recovers from labor. Her baby is inconsolable until she walks in the room and then it instantly falls asleep. Later the baby waves to me in a store.
At the Wailua stoplight turning right onto the highway. I look at the ocean and start thinking that maybe I do want kids. I remember the feelings I used to get when I had baby dreams. It scares me to think about. The logistics of it makes me decide I don't want them.

Meat shopping with my mom. We buy pork back/spine from an Asian man (funny we both dreamed of Asians and food). Went across the street and there was raw ground turkey all over the street. More things involving a man in a truck and the park from my hometown. Also a group of people wanting to explore a haunted basement.

Non-lucid

I appeared on a weird looking house, it was full of artefacts and bizarre stuff. I was with my two best friends Ale and Ana Victoria and there was a man who was supposedly a wizard. He wasn't mean to us, he talked to us very politely and happy inviting us to his birthday party but i still had a sense of mistrust.
We went out of the house and encounter a lake, on the middle of the lake was a kind of round boat.
On the boat Laura, a old friend of mine, was discussing something with a guy.
I jumped into the water and started swimming.

Blank space (No memory)

After that i remember entering to other house with the friends i was with at the beginning and encountering a guy who i was in kindergarden, we said hello to him as if we knew him from now and we talked to him. I dont really remember what we talked about but i do remember that he knew a lot of this wizard. We were going to his party, but it was kind of a mission to know if he was evil and to debunk him. The house was weird, it had many rooms, and it was almos a fun house, very magical.
The place had a little "roller coaster car" ride that would take us to the party, so we sat on it and i was on one of the corners. There was a guy who was giving us the tour around the magical house. I remember we passed through a table full of desserts. there was little pink cakes, a jar full of icecream and cake pinchos and other delicious desserts. I started eating and it tasted fantastic. The car started moving and we headed out that room.


Blanck space (No memory)


Now i was standing somewhere with Ale and A.V., we were talking and Ale was telling me that she was now friends with Laura, i started looking for something on a pencils box when Ale told me that Laura said that she wanted to be in the same college major as me. And I just thought "Oh no!"

WOKE UP.

Well I guess after four days of consecutive lucidity, I burned myself out. My dream recall dropped off the face of the earth, not only because of burnout but waking life reasons. I should get back on track very shortly. I can start by telling you about last nights dream, even though it was non lucid.

-Something to do with Manei appearing. She was bald and had elf ears and vampire fangs. (Still working on keeping that appearance steady, I see...)

Manei cropped up a couple of other times that I can recall. I recall in a boring dream, I got texted a picture of her.

I remember seeing her on my Skype contacts as well as a member on Dreamviews.

I also recall seeing her on a Minecraft server. She was however registered under the name 'Jade'. Her character looked like my dream self and seemed to be twitching. I think Herobrine appeared.


I was on the forums. There was this newcomer who had registered under the name Bulldog29. He was avidly learning the ropes of lucid dreaming and very excited, but he did come off as rather annoying at times.

He started a thread called the 'Dreamviews Veurses Series' where he would analyze lucid dreamers' abilities and have dreamers of similar ability fight one another in set-up fights. He would do one each week. I remember:

Dreamer vs OpheliaBlue

Hyu vs WakingNomad

OnieronautZero vs Auron

there were many others, but the one that I remember actually taking the time and reading was the one that was me vs DawnEye11. I was looking through the thread, and there were a lot of people complaining that it was wildly inaccurate. I couldn't even find the OP's post to find out who won.

I remember a post by Sageous who was absolutely livid and spouting profanity that Dreamviews had come to this. His post was written in big font all capital letters. I can't remember the wording but he was talking about how dreamers shouldn't be made into pointless deathmatches and that this destroyed everything that Dreamviews stood for.