non-lucid

1. I was on a trail at night. It was really dark, but I could still see everything clearly. I was with my friend's sister Emily, and we were both walking on the trail. As we were walking I looked back and saw a dark figure running in our direction. Immediately I started running. I cut through parts of the trail and jumped across mini islands of grass. Between these small islands(like the ones on freeways) there was water.
As I was running I grabbed my car keys out of my pocket and pressed a button that was supposed to bring my car to me somehow. My car never came, so I continued running and so did emily. I looked back again a few seconds later and saw that the tall dark figure was getting closer to us, and was catching up. I didnt give up though, I kept on running. Soon I made it to an opening in the trail that was right beside the road. I stopped and waited for Emily to catch up. She finally caught up to me and we both waited. I knew we couldnt run faster than this guy chasing us, so I was going to fight him.
Surprisingly, instead of that tall dark figure dude catching up to us, we encountered two hostile dogs. Whoever was chasing after us had disappeared. Now I had to face two dogs and try to survive. All I had to defend myself was a sharp blade of some sort, and it was relatively small. Just then the smaller dog of the two came up to me, but before it could do anything harmful I stabbed it in its side. It fell dead. The other dog of the two; the bigger one, just looked at the dead dog and walked away, he didnt try to kill us. Somehow, in my mind, I got this notion that the dog that I killed wanted to die, like a moment of some type of clarity or something.

2. I was driving with my dad near a forest. We were on the freeway before and had just turned into an empty lot. There were lots of leaves on the edges of it in general. As my dad drove through the lot, I focused on the grass around us. It depressed me(I never get depressed so this is random). I thought of how someday my dad would eventually die and I would have to face this world on my own. It scared me. All these depressing things I kept looking at, and it was only just grass and leaves. I thought of how one day I would have to face these depressing things on my own, by myself. It then occurred to me: I can overcome anything, and I will succeed no matter what. This is the part of me that showed in my dream from real life. A positive mind gives you a positive life.

3. I was in some sort of building and alot of my friends were inside with me. I was just chilling and about to go talk to one of my friends when all of a sudden, I saw a group of my other friends come inside with a girl. They dragged her into a corner and raped her. I saw it all before my eyes. These were all of my old friends from school(not my really close ones though). I couldnt stop what was happening, and I couldnt believe it. I remember trying to, and telling them to not do it, but when I did they tried grabbing me. I defended myself and was about to beat the sh*t out of whoever else laid their hands on me, but they all backed off and returned to the girl. The girl died after she was raped. I knew then, these were not my friends, these were hostile savages.

4. I was outside of a portable next to school. A lady was at the portable door begging for help. I could see that she was drunk, and even as she was begging for help she continued drinking. As she continued crying and begging for help, eventually a priest and another lady of the church came out and did something to her to help her.

5. I was inside of a really nice building, and it had marble flooring and a really decorative interior design. I went to this office area and got on a computer. My mom was with me and followed me too. I got on the computer an immediately as I turned it on, a naked model appeared on the screen and started doing some kind of sensual dance. It didnt seduce me because the model looked like a drag queen. My mom was next to me and saw what was going on and got a little upset and told me to exit off of this webpage "immediately". I clicked the X on the top right corner of the screen to get away from whatever this was, but even as I did, it didnt work. The drag queen model stayed on the screen and continued dancing. I thought it was some kind of virus and there was nothing we could do to stop it.
My mom wasn't liking this too much, but neither was I. As the model continued dancing a woman's voice started speaking out of the computer. Somehow when this woman started talking, I immediately knew who she was and what she looked like. As she was talking, I heard a lot of rolling sounds coming from inside of the desk which the computer was on. I looked down too see what it was, but I couldnt see anything, it was all inside of the desk itself. Just then, the lady talking through the computer told me that there was 100,000 marbles rolling out from inside the desk, and that I would have to wait forever for them all to come out. At this point, marbles started coming out and I contained them within a certain area. My mom had disappeared, and I decided to just leave the computer desk and walk away. As I did I ran into my sister. She was wearing a Halloween costume of the Flash. I told her, "great now you're wearing a costume too." I turned to my side and saw my cousin in a halloween costume as well.

6.I was in my room, and it was dark. I was sitting on my bed on my laptop. I decided to get off of it, and unplug it(because it was charging). When I unplugged it, I went around my bed and put the charger itself into the bottom part of my drawer. After I did this I turned around and noticed that my vision was fading. I was nearly blind. I remembered, "My vision isn't this bad when my glasses are off." As I said that and focused on my room while I looked around, my vision got better and corrected itself. I then went to my closet doors, and two of them were already open. I went to go close my 3rd closet door and did so. After that I went to go close my 2nd closet door, but I noticed it had already closed itself. My immediate conclusion was that a poltergeist was in my room. I become scared. I walked past my 1st closet door(I know, its alot of closet doors) and stood near the side of my bed. A tall wooden shelf, which was painted black was standing between my 1st and 2nd closet door. I looked at it and it started sliding towards me, and as It did I backed up, but it fell forward anyways. I fell to the ground and caught the top of the shelf with my feet, and it didnt hurt me. At this point, things calmed down. I laid on the ground for a while longer. Somewhere in here I picked up a REALLY small replica of a Supra TK Society shoe. It was black and really small and had red accents on it. It had a strap on the side of it that could be undone to take apart the shoe. This was alot different from the original Supra TK Society. The shoe was small enough to fit inside of my hands with room to spare. I put down the shoe eventually and looked up to see my sister standing in front of me, with a platform in front of her, and 6 packs of gum on top of it. She was mixing flavors of the pieces of gum to get a certain flavor. The packs of gum were either pink, blue, green, or yellow in color(Might have missed another color). She would take one piece from two packs of gum and chew them both at the same time to get the exact flavor that she wanted.

7. I was in my room again and looked at myself in the mirror. As I did I noticed that my beard had grown a good 2 inches from the night before. I also noticed that I had a random patch of facial hair to the right of my right cheek. This hair was brown, when really all of my facial hair is black. I then pondered on whether or not I wanted to shave it.

8. I was downstairs in the living room with my dad. It was really dark, and it was also dark outside. The only real light in the room was coming from the 70 inch T.V. I was wearing a batman halloween suit with the cape and everything, but the cape was a little shorter than I liked. As I was standing next to the T.V I saw my shadow projected onto the wall next to it. I started doing really cool fighting moves, and poses. However, when I did I noticed that my shadow didn't follow my movements. It stayed the same, still and motionless. I told my dad and he didn't really seem to care and started pushing me in a joking mood.

...

3:31 am

I was with R. It was a sleepover of sort. He was saying something about trust. It was dark. Like a brownout. The room looks familiar. Our living room in our hometown. I looked outside through our glass window. I was looking to the front area of the house. Some people are there, coming in. I had the feeling they also live here, like it's a dorm. It looks like it's raining outside. One man saw me and waved (said "Hi."). I waved (said "Hi.") back. There was also a young man. He's semi-naked. They passed by close to the window to get into the house.

I was talking with Re and some others about chakras, and how some people went to the extreme and actually had operations inside their bodies to connect (or remove?) certain organs, which is supposed to help somehow. I thought that was ridiculous. While I was "hearing" (and watching) that, I was looking down at my body (torso down) speckled with golds at certain areas in patterns that supposedly corresponds with chakras (or FMA style, I couldn't really see). The idea was to melt them and reform, which will then somehow represent my chakras instead of taking something physical from inside my body. The guy who had operations was said to be having trouble breathing now as a result of his operations.

I was looking at the MRT station.

I was in the forest with some people. I somehow found some water up in the mountain and thought of bringing it down to the people to sell. But then, I thought that some people might go up there and do the same. Nobody's stopping them. Then I thought that I'm getting it from a special source, protected by the deity Cernunnos. Somehow, I have a piece of horn from him, which protects me from the creatures guarding the lake/water area. I had another guy with me to help me with the horn and gathering water. My process was to drop a wide cloth and then catch the water like fish (it's like a net), and bring it up. It somehow works, and there were big areas of water sticking to the cloth.

After a while, the water started to run out, but I already expected that, so I was already planning of doing other things to earn. I was looking at the creatures at the bottom of the quickly drying lake/marsh.

I was in a different country. Not sure if it was India or somewhere in the Middle East (I have never traveled outside of my country, and I only see other countries via movies). There's a guy running, escaping. He touched (literally just touched the skin, nothing blatantly sexual in the dream images) a female child, which is forbidden in that country, and he had another guy chasing after him. In another part/area, he did the same, but the persons who were there were Western born, who don't follow the same culture.

NOTES:

- Slept around 2 am
- Drank coffee (Cafe Blanca)
- Was reading chapter 2 of Social Psychology (D. Myers)
- Watched Final Fantasy: The Spirits Within
- Did the 26-minute meditation (Sam Harris)
- Set alarm to 4.5 hours (woke up in 1.5 hours)
- I received a message before sleeping that parkour training in the morning canceled due to storm

I'm at university attending a lecture about the basics of OpenGL.
The teacher doesn't really seem into it, and none of my classmates seem interested.
To be honest, neither am I, but for a different reason.
The other students are not interested in graphics programming,
whereas I'm already quite comfortable with both Direct3D and OpenGL.
Why am I attending this class again? Perhaps for some easy credit points?
That doesn't sound like me though.

Once class is over, I hear some people discussing that they wouldn't come back
and choose another course instead. If that many people leave, this course is
going to be cancelled, and I'll have to find another one as well.
I'm mildly annoyed.

Eventually, as the lecture comes to an end, I suddenly realize that I am dreaming.
I'm not sure what gave it away.
I touch everything in close vicinity to assert that the dream is stable.
There is some initial numbness, but eventually my senses appear to be working properly.
I leave the classroom, trying to remember my dream goals...
It's not working, I can't remember anything.

I'll go visit Yuya. It has been a long time since I've seen her because Faye is messing with my dreams.
But then, just as I want to teleport to Riven, I spot a familiar face.

It's Kate! What is going on? Why is she here?
(Not a real image of Kate. Kate is an ex-gf from waking life)

She smiles. And that is all it takes to stir up old emotions, which I left behind long ago.
I'm in love again. Great... I had enough trouble getting over her as it is.
Why does it all have to come back to me now?
I reluctantly decide to ignore her and visit Yuya, as I had planned,
but something goes wrong during my attempt of teleportation...



... I'm in an apartment with Kate. I think that she is my classmate now, and that we're living together.
This is our apartment. Everything is perfect.
I am living with the woman of my dreams, we're both about to graduate,
and we have our future planned out.
It is late in the evening and I go to the bathroom to take a shower.
The water temperature knob isn't cooperating.
I seem to be dealing with something like this:


Kate joins me in the shower and she has no trouble adjusting the temperature properly.
The water is now refreshingly cold, just the way I like it.
Kate moves closer and kisses me passionately. I love her so much.
And she is so beautiful. I stare into her green eyes as we kiss...
Wait... this is not right. Those are clearly Kate's eyes, but... they feel... empty?
Oh no...
Why?
I am emotionally devastated...

This isn't Kate. This is Faye.
It feels as though I've lost Kate again. I am so sad.


Faye is now holding a rose and handing it to me.
I get the feeling that she is trying to apologize?
That does make feel a little better. Will I finally be able to reason with Faye?
I take the rose. I cut one of my fingers on a thorn. Ouch!
A single drop of blood emerges and falls to the ground.

Something is wrong...
I sense something moving through the small cut, into my hand, and then up my arm.
I get vivid flashbacks of the bee birthing blisters. Not again!
I drop the rose. But I'm too late.
Stems covered in thorns grow through my veins and sprout out of my body in various places, causing me to bleed.
More and more blood flows down into the shower. The water slowly turns red.

"Faye. Please make it stop!"
"No."
"..."
"Please! I'm sure whatever the problem is, I can fix it."
"There is no need for this!"
"I don't want the problem to be fixed."

What? Why? I don't understand.
I just barely manage not to freak out. The parasitic plant hardens in my veins making me unable to move.
The pain increases as the plant grows bigger.
Fuck fuck fuck.

"Faye! Talk to me! What is the problem?"

She doesn't reply. She just smiles, satisfied with the current situation.
I can't take it any more. I need to wake up!
I close my eyes, trying to think of my waking body lying in bed.
But I don't wake up...
Instead I begin to see, even though my eyes are closed.

She laughs at me and my inability to do anything.
Then she moves in and kisses me on the lips.
No. I don't want this.
My fear turns into anger.
I scream at the top of my lungs, wanting to push Faye away from me.
The hardened plant finally gives in under the force and breaks in many places within my body.
I push against Faye hard with both of my hands.
She is pushed through the glass shower door, which shatters into pieces.

She is cut in many places by the broken glass. She is bleeding and her blood mixes with mine on the floor.
This is so fucked up. She still looks like Kate. This is not right. I don't want to hurt her.
She again laughs at the current situation. She clearly feels like she has accomplished something.
She is satisfied. Finally, she gets up and leaves the room and I manage to wake myself up.

Well fuck. -_-
This is enough. This needs to change. Now.
I'm going to WBTB, probably do some meditation to focus my thoughts, WILD and tackle the problem with a hopefully clear head.

To mention something a little more positive, I have updated my Dream Journal Description.
I've also found this really cool painting by Sakimichan, which made me think of Yuya:

She obviously doesn't have the long pointy ears, but I thought that this painting just radiates so much energy, just as Yuya does.
There's also been a strong blue/orange theme in my dreams lately. I thought this was a pretty cool find.

No hypnosis - husband persuaded me again to watch two episodes and so on, until I was really too exhausted, very late in bed - 2:30 am to be precise. No WBTB - buut - a short lucid episode with doing nothing whatsoever... Damn.

LD #1: At the very end of dream #2, I gain the insight, that I am dreaming, look around, do a nose-pinch - and wake up, without the trace of a thought about DEILDing back in. This night will be dedicated to the comp, not to what my husband wants in the middle of the night!!

Dream #1: In a deserted former shopping-mall - half in ruins, with some male friends and they chance upon an electrics/electronics shop with loads of to me unidentifiable hard-drive like stuff and plates, these green ones with stuff soldered on and connectors and all sorts of things. Just lying on the floor, huge chaos, the whole place. They are very happy and collect their spoils in bags. We go further, and there's light in one empty compartment, and smoky glass doors opening and closing on their own, which irritates us a bit. In the end - exploring a commercial ruin - no dresses this time. Again I wouldn't remember this now, if I hadn't dictated a little bit about it upon waking for the first time.

Dream #2: Again on my way to this place with lake. But it's different - this time for example I discuss with somebody, how one could build a ship, which can also operate on the ice and take the waterway. And the nature and general optics are not as sweet as last time. I visit a little hut, squatted by a friend of mine - well lets say a former crush of mine and some friendly up to erotic activities ensue, not full out, though. I then go visit my husband and three more guys staying with him together with this ex-crush - and not that this happens irl or often in my dreams - it ends up in the beginnings of an orgy - and I get lucid, see above, but wake up.

Fragment #1: Coming out of a changing room, where I put on work-clothes - at least so I thought, but I find myself without a shirt or anything above waistline in terms of clothes when in the hallway - this could have so easily tipped me off, but didn't. I just swooped back in to try again..

Fragment #2: I see an ex-boyfriend of mine sitting in a room and looking at a broken part of a big kaleidoscope, I had given him for present a long time ago, he seems sad.

Dream - Lucid

I was at work. I was putting together these big boxes with four big pastries each in them. The boxes were on the racks we use to bake. I was choosing random pastries for the boxes. I seem to remember a small chocolate cake being one I was using. I was calling the boxes "surprise boxes", since the customers would get random pastries.

~

My old (crazy) roommate, Katie, had purposely framed one of the cake decorators at work, who, in the dream, was the drummer's wife in my husband's band. She hid pieces of weed in between random packages on the sales floor, and she had told me that she had done all this like it was no big deal. She told me how she avoided the cameras very cleverly while doing so, making it look like nothing was going on. I "remembered" I hadn't seen the drummer's wife at work in awhile; now it made sense as to why.

I was then at work, but it was nighttime. I was supposed to be working an overnight shift, but it was some kind of drill. Many others were there with me. We filed into a room, like a tornado safe room, and I thought we were supposed to duck, but I don't know if anyone did. I was sitting on the floor, saying to myself that I knew who had really hid that weed, but I didn't know if I should say anything or not. A guy was then next to me, and I told him that I knew who did it. He said I should definitely tell someone.

We were then dismissed early, around 2am, even though we were supposed to be pulling an overnighter. I went home, and my husband was on the couch, watching a movie on TV. The movie was actually depicting the same type of situation, with someone being framed the same way. It was coming up on the part that someone told on the framer. I sat down with him, and started to talk to him about the situation with the crazy old roommate. He then straddled me and started doing small pelvic thrusts, just to be his silly self. The old crazy roommate then walked in from another room in the apartment. Um...what? Why is she here? She then sat down on a chair and started to talk to us. Dallas then turned the TV around to where I thought she couldn't see it, but the TV was a cube-shape, and had 4 screen on it, so she could see the big screen, and we were treated to a smaller screen. I knew that if she saw the rest of the movie, she'd know I was going to tell. I then fell asleep.

When I woke, I was on the couch still, but the crazy old roommate was gone. I thought for sure she had left, but I then heard her voice from the other room. She said
"I'm going to have to hear drums when I get home."
I knew she was referring to her drummer boyfriend playing.
I then saw a woman standing on a porch that was right in front of me, even though I was in the living room. She was talking on the phone. I asked her if we had all fallen asleep on the couch with the TV on, and she said we did, though she seemed slightly irritated that I interrupted her phone call.

~

I was in my apartment, and I knew I was dreaming. Not sure what triggered it. I saw my husband in the kitchen, loading dishes in the dish washer. I went to go take his belt and his pants off, but I guess I got too excited, and woke up. I fell back asleep again.

I was in a room somewhere, when I just knew I was dreaming. The dream seemed quite unstable, so I examined my hands. I started trying to call out to my spirit guide, Mike, but my voice wouldn't come out, no matter how hard I tried. I started to run around, trying to say
"Mike? Where are you? Spirit guide? Where are you?" but the words 'Mike' and 'guide' would only come out as rasps. I ran by a mirror on a dresser.

I then woke up, but it was an FA. I then woke up for real, and went right back to sleep and into the same dream, being fully lucid again. I was in the same room again. I decided to make my friend Ashley appear. It got kinda raunchy at this point, so I'll spare you the details. All I'll say is we fooled around with scissors, I think the point being that they would not hurt me in a dream. Throughout the experience, I kept examining my hands, as to not lose the dream again due to excitement. It worked, and I did not lose the dream.

I then saw this vial of dark purple-red liquid. I called it "dream juice". It didn't have much contents left. I looked in the mirror, and started to pour it on myself. I ran out, and made another vial appear in my hand. I thought about how looking in the mirror watching it appear made it easier to make it materialize. I then started to pour some of it in my mouth. White chunky stuff was in my mouth along with the dream juice. It was kinda weird.

Then, I started going throughout other rooms in the area, looking for Mike. Why couldn't I find him? I felt as if this shouldn't have been an issue. I ran into a few DCs, asking if they were Mike, or if they knew who Mike was. They all told me no, until the last one I encountered, who was an older woman. I asked if she knew where Mike was, and she said yes, and pointed to another room.
"Mike?" I called out.
"Yes?" said another voice.
A man then emerged, an older gentleman with grey hair, a small grey beard, and a mustache. He reminded me of a janitor. He had been working on something in that room.
We spoke for a bit, but I don't remember many details, other than he spoke to me about always changing his identity, always being another person. He then said
"Oh, there is an event I need to invite you to. It's taking place the 4th through the 7th."
I then saw something on a piece of paper that said it was to start at 7:08pm.
I never got any more details about this event, because I woke up.

~

I was on DV, and got a notification, a warning that someone had corrected one of my typos. I had spelled "sue" wrong? Proper grammar and spelling was supposedly a big rule. I then thought about other DJ entries from the past that I had been really tired when I was typing them out. I knew they were full of errors, but they never got corrected.

~

I was having to go to work, but it looked like I was just working behind a counter with shelves of bread and baked goods behind me. A woman came up and asked if we had any fresh-baked bread yet that morning, and I looked, and only saw some fudge and some desserts, but no bread. I guess we were behind that morning, so I told her no, we didn't. I then went out from behind the counter, and my manager, Shannon, took over. An older lady who was there with her young granddaughter asked her if she had any "peanut bread" yet. Apparently, this woman would come get this "peanut bread" a lot, and would scam us somehow. Shannon was quite rude back to her, and replied with
"How about no?"
I had NEVER heard her speak to a customer like that! Wow.

My 6-year-old nephew Gary was here at some point, but I can't remember what for. He was asking me questions.

I then was at a computer with Dallas, taking these timed quizzes. They were some sort of graded multiple choice assignment, but for what, I'm not sure. I was at the computer taking them, and I skipped over a the last part of a long section to come back to later. The timer was still running on it though. I went and did the final, three question section, and started trying to answer those questions. The timer on this one was mere seconds, though, and I didn't finish in time, only getting one out of three correct. I then had the option to re-do that section, and the questions were now about some area of Disney and Mickey Mouse. I was asking Dallas if he knew the answers. I had to guess on a lot of it. One of the questions was a three part question. I ran out of time on this one after answering two questions. I got two out of three of them right, and got a little screen that said so, like a congratulatory screen. I then tried to go back to the other section so I could finish, but I couldn't click on it at all. In fact, the only one I could click on was the last section that I had done twice now. I had run out of time on the other section. I then saw bars on the left hand side of the screen indicating how many questions we had gotten right. The bar by the section I had skipped some on was about 75% full. I guess I hadn't done too bad for myself, despite skipping questions.

I then was back in my apartment. I had to go out and meet Dallas's mom at this little building by the front office of the apartment where Dallas and I had taken the test before. I exited my apartment, and saw that the stairs were gone, but just from the third to the second floor. It also appeared that there was trash and random things on the second floor. I guess they were doing some type of construction. I carefully made my way down, hoping not to fall. I somehow made it down just fine, though I had to be very careful and precise with my movements.

I was then outside during the daytime with Dallas's mom. It was morning. We were standing in front of this huge, clear pool of water that was only supposed to be used for boats. It was not open for the day yet. There was a gate in the middle of it, and two small water ways for the small boats to pass through. I could see the small building where the test was in the distance. I jumped into the water, fully clothed. It was very comfortable, a little warm even. I think the water had been too cold before, and Dallas's mom was saying something to me about it. She then jumped in as well, and we were swimming around in the water, even though we weren't supposed to be in it. A small speedboat then came through one of the water ways. I figured we probably needed to get out before we got in trouble.

I then was looking at a computer at my typed up dreams from the night on my DJ here on DV. I could only see some of the text against the black background of my DJ; the rest of it was hidden. I highlighted it with my mouse, and I could see it again.

At some point, I became lucid in my apartment, but either it didn't last, or I just forgot what happened.

~

Wow, so either my subconscious was trolling me with the janitor Mike thing, or I dunno what. It didn't seem like Mike; his personality was much different. I felt like he was having to be incognito for some reason? I'm not sure. It was strange that I couldn't summon him, though. Maybe it was because the dream wasn't very stable? Though at that point, it had stabalized quite a bit. Hmm. Weird and interesting.

I will say, though, that it seems to be becoming easier for me to become lucid. I don't normally have this many LDs in the same week (knock on wood). I am being more intentional about becoming lucid, thinking about it before I fall asleep, and definitely when I wake up and have to pee or something, which is the best opportunity for me to do a WBTB. Hoping that this lasts; I am very much so enjoying all this lucid time.

I false awaken into my bed.
That's it. I don't move. I don't even open my eyes. It's time to DEILD. (Little did I realize that I was already in a dream.) I can feel where the blankets are on me. I am laying facing to the right on my bed, and there is a gap with cold air leaking through on my left hand side just below my ribcage.
I can sense that there are dream characters in the room. I don't know how, but I can feel there presences. 2 female and one male.
They talk for a few moments, then leave. One female and the male leave leaving only one female.
(Good, two of them are gone.)
I then can feel her leaning over onto the side of the bed. And by the title you can probably guess, she kisses me right on the lips. My eyes shoot open and I lose any sense of restfulness that I had while trying to lucid dream. I reel back to the far side of my bed and take a look at who kissed me.
She has long wavy brown hair and somewhat chubby cheeks, with huge green eyes and a large blemish under her right eye. Nope, don't recognize her.
"Who the-"
Then the false dream memories came. Apparently this was my girlfriend that I had met a few days ago. Also there was some party going on downstairs.
I don't have to be a part of the party, but apparently I do have to spend my time with this girl until the party is over, something her parents wanted me to do or something. So I get out of bed, and make my way over to the dresser. I'm already wearing a T-shirt and boxer shorts, and I find a pair of red&black sweatpants to finish the 'outfit'.
We start talking. She asks me about what I would like to do for fun. I tell her that I am building a rocket ship in the basement (False Memories talking here), and it is a black hole of my time and energy. I then ask her if she gets my joke, a "Black Hole" because a rocket goes to space. She doesn't laugh. I wake up.

Okay, lesson learned, dream girlfriends don't like bad jokes.

I had 6 dreams last night that I can remember. I don't remember being lucid during any of them.

dream 1. I was on a plane, looking out the window and writing in the notebook

dream 2. This one was weird. I wasn't me. I was a man. I remember sitting on a couch and having an eye sewn onto my forehead. I lived in the house with a little girl. I wrote in the journal that "I was a genius" and that "I was the bad guy and I was planning something evil". I remember cooking bacon and getting the little girl to feed me ice. Also, there was another man who came to the door. I wrote that "he wanted something and thought he could outsmart me to get it".

dream 3. My brother saw that I had been looking at porn on my mobile phone.

dream 4. I was trying to ride a bike down the dirt road I live on, but I was worried about what the schoolchildren would think if a school bus drove by. Also it was rainy and wet, and the road was bad and I'd forgotten how to ride a bike.

dream 5. Was a question. I remember asking "Am I dreaming for my health?"


dream 6. My brother had a girlfriend who had been recently pregnant. It was a girl I used to know named Ashley (who is not his girlfriend irl). She told me that "your face changes after you give birth", like you get uglier or something.

8/1/14

Last night bed past 11 - 8:30am?

DR
This was very intense. I'm on a shore of a wide river. Think Danube in northern Hungary. The water is very muddy. Some parts seem to be calm, but others have churning waves, small whirlpools and even tall waves going in direction from the shore. It's very fast flowing. Someone tells me that my brother is going to swim across, just because he wants to go to the other side. No serious reason. That makes me mad. Why would he risk his life for something like that.

So I'm running on the shore, yelling his name out. He can't hear me. I think I see him in the water. Somehow I am now on the other side, waiting for him to emerge. You can't really see him in the water, because of turbulent water.

I am really worried. Then I see him walking out of the river. He has some kind of a full body neoprene suit, including the hood, and something else over it.

Now I'm in some kind of a catle, or ruins rebuilt for turists, walking down a hallway built from large light - gray stones and I'm walking on sand.

DR
I'm walking with more adults and kids on some path in the outdoors. On a hill, no trees. We decide to split into 2 groups and I'm leading one group of kids into some summer camp.

DR
I'm standing on the city square in my hometown. It's in the past, maybe 50's. Communists rule the country. Everybody is dressed in period clothes and also eqipment is from that era. Some kind of commie action is going on. Parade or speech.

I look up and some confetti and propaganda flyers are raining down on us. My mom starts climbing on top of a bus or a van that's right behind us. There is a TV crew with camera on top, filming the event. My mom wants to look at the TV screen they have upthere.

DR
I'm with my best WL friend. In the dream, I can't remember her name, and after waking up it took me a while to recall it.

I'm giving her a single rose as a thank you. I gave some potted bluish plant to some other people, also as a thank you. She gets mad at me for giving it to her. I'm telling her that it's from some people that appreciate her's and mine work, and I'm just relaying the message from them to her.

Then I learn that she changed her name to Ophelia93. And I'm like "whoa, so you are Ophelia, and how about the other Ophelia, and is this just one person, or what is going oooooon?"

DR
I'm watching a canal in Venice from some higher vantage point, like a window maybe. I see a gondola with one gondolier. There is a large fish approaching his boat. It's like a giant goober. It's so big and fat and colorful.

8/1/14 restaurant with a spinning ride. Trying to cut through to restroom I plan to go through ride platform but end up riding with BrM from work and barely hanging on with just my hands. First try to go through exit door and I'm stopped by waitress. / pro baseball game. Great pitcher won it for other team. I'm on field afterwards. Baseball again..? / I feel like I was not that far off from forgetting this one too: I become lucid when I am at a party in a cafeteria setting that seems to be in (a particular foreign country I will leave out for now because of the tie in to FryingMan). I see "A", daughter of M who lives about 90 minutes north and I realize it would be very odd for her to be in this country at the same time as me and that it is a dream. Everyone is speaking the national language it seems and I try to think of a phrase that FryingMan said before so I could see what their reaction would be. I am also wondering if a DC of him might have been there. I just talk to the daughter that I know telling her that this is a dream and she looked on like she was listening but not surprised or anything. There are two long tables that I go to in this cafeteria like setting, probably residue from the party I attended few days ago. I walk up to this other table with about 6 people at it. The previous table had maybe 8 people. I was trying to think of some foreign phrase to say to the people sitting there but decided to move on and went out through the exit and into a hallway and got down to the end of the hallway and the dream went dark. I remained patient and focused stabilizing the dream and soon the visuals came back up and it seemed like I was in the same hall. I decide to go back the other way and I could hear a party going on in another door to my left and I decided to check it out and it was definitely a different party. They had disco lights going with some people dancing but mostly standing around and this time it was a very diverse crowd. People of all colors. I thought about going in there but decided to go continue down the hall and was just relishing the vividness of this dream. It started to fade again but this time I found myself fading back to bed. Probably the end of my REM cycle. 180


Some notes from Night 4 where I think I got lucid but I am not sure...ugh:

7/31 11pm, 5am violent shooting scene day residue from "Shoot'em Up" movie opening sequence before bed. Mole steps out of compound to save himself. Another guy is drawn out and blinded by bright spotlight. And shot with high powered machine gun in slow motion from midsection to head with bullet after bullet tearing through his head. I slowly peel my eyes away from this scene. Survivor going through multiple surgeries is tough as nails but also affected mentally - in one scene looks in shock. /Poor recall lately. As mentioned on the competition thread... I think I became lucid noticing that I was downtown just like I told myself to watch out for as a dream sign because of train sounds. Earlier I remember riding the train and getting on the wrong train just a minute early...just a minute before my actual train came. I was trying to look out the train window to see which destination I was heading to instead but the destination was illegible. There was at least one false awakening where my wife is getting ready and I can see her naked. I remember trying to go back into the dream (I think from the beginning of the (first?) false awakening) and having vibrations. I was so happy to see the vibrations back but I think it was all in dream (maybe it always is).

I've been getting lucid at times but I'm not really motivated to write them honestly. But I'll write it now. In last night's dream I was watching adventure time with my family and it was pretty creepy. After my cousins left words appeared saying ingredients to a dream. I remember one ingredient was Biley. Which I thought of billy from the bucket list episode. After reading it I left the room and appeared in a huge place outside with seats outside and a fence and lots of teens and college kids. I flew to where I thought was the entrance for the college fresh men's or w/e. I heard a kid behind me say or in front of me say" I want her". I was nervous at that point and without control bumped into the kid and grabbed him cause I couldn't control my flying. Then all of sudden we flew really high. We screamed as we went up. I apologized and screamed for someone to save us. But than I landed back on the ground with the guy safely and let go of him. I apologized and he shouted if I was crazy or something. I said no I just couldn't control my flying but if he still wanted to date me. XD He shouted no and got the paper from the guy in the front booth or w/e it was. I was dissapointed, took my paper and looked at the guy to see him looking back at me smiling. I was sort of happy at that moment and looked at my paper. It looked like a Christmas holiday paper and said 25$ to the side of it. I was like "dang it!I only have 20$ in my pocket so I can't pay it off now. " I also doubted my mom would give me the money. I walked wanting to sit with the boy I bumped into but was too nervous so I walked way up to see old friends sitting at a table. I asked if I could sit down and the boy said yes. I than waved to another old friend who was a girl sitting across a table.Out of no where China Ann McClain from Disney channel came up to me and showed me a special paper she got where they offered her free pork,potatoes and ribs but her friend said she would choke if she ate it. I was excited for her at first but than said "well..."Than a huge guy landed on the ground holding a huge girl from behind. I said "Look" to point out the guy who I thought saved the girl from choking than woke up.

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Old dreams

I was in my house hanging out with someone. Than my sister and family went outside and told me to dance with them in the front. I said OK and tried to dance on the stairs like a idiot. Than my sister out of no where said my dad broke my mom's hand. I looked at my mom's hand to see it bleeding and in bandages. I got mad and was lucid at that point."I'm going to have to fight you Dad." I said and got into a fighting position. Suddenly my dad did a bunch of fighting moves and I was like "OK.OK. I give up. I can't fight you,your too good."Than I saw a crowd of kids and followed them through a door on a line.I was sort of scared and saw sodgers with hammers giving kids instructions. I knew I wasn't one of them and tried going down the escalators. I was afraid of all the people hammering around me. When I got down I saw a lady sodger shouting at my dad saying my dad did not have the acceptable blood in him to be apart of them. My dad ran and my mom shouted that she was after my dad. I ran and jumped trying to find them. Than flew in the air to see a huge statue of a girl and saw people talking below. I was mad I couldn't find my dad that I landed on the ground and used ice power. I was going to freeze all the sodgers when I realized there was a picture of Mozart under me. I summoned him as a giant wanting to crush the sodgers but the dream broke apart. Than a character gave me a sticky note saying The End and I woke up,

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I was in my kitchen with my family and my cousin brought a alien from TMNT to the counter. I shouted at her not to put the alien on the table. My mom shouted back at me after that and I was lucid at that point. I used my powers to blast them away and ran outside. My mom tried chasing me and when I tried running off the porch I was sooooo slow. So I rubbed my hands than let myself sink through the ground. After that I ran and saw a crowd I thought was tourists. I walked with a guy up the hill and he asked me if I was in my RPG avatar. I asked him what he meant but suddenly he told me to run cause a group of dangerous guys were coming. We ran up the hill but when I got up I was so slow and the bad guys were already catching up to me. I stood there ready to fight. The good guy came back though and started fighting them but than the bad guy grabbed the good guy. I shouted for him to stop and punched many times but it was no good. The man said it was my fault the guy's teeth were going to get pulled out. He tried pulling and I kept punching. The good guy dissapeared after that and I ran. A group of girls grabbed me and tried giving me a needle shot. I shouted and tried punching until I broke free. Than suddenly two Spanish lady's cornered me and were talking like nothing. I kept punching them till I broke free. I was happy and ran. A guy with shorts screamed No! and ran after me. I was like "Cya later sucker!" than woke up.

I will not say more old dreams because two others I recall were about a scary little girl that I had to defeat. I was so scared cause she seemed so scary and evil in the first dream.But I destroyed her in my other dreams and the dreams of her stopped. Haven't had her in my dreams for weeks. She came in my dream in only 2 days but those dreams had so many false awakenings its crazy. But the more FA I had, the more chances I had to conquer my fear. :3

Dream
8:30am

I give an old lady a DVD player to keep. She sets it up herself and must of had a few problems with it. I try it out and notice that everything is working fine for a moment until it starts playing up. I check behind the DVD player to see if she has connected it up properly. I notice that she has only connected one cable up. I grab the box that all the cords are in and tell her she forgot to connected the rest of them. I see a cord which is only used for a car, I tell her about that cord and what it's use is for. I remember that I needed a HDMI cable which wasn't in the box, I must have left it at home. Instead I use the other cables instead.

Dream Fragments:

1. Im waiting to get a haircut. There's people waiting also, about 3-4. The barbers call out names when they're ready for a haircut.

2. I'm looking into the mirror and see that I have an eyebrow ring. I start to clean it and I see layers of scabs come off of it.

I was in the Province of Tamriel, running around doing quests as usual. I finished a quest and got another few that were part of the main questline. One was titled "Slay Hand" and they each popped up in front of me in big white letters, as they would in the actual game. After getting these quests, I traveled to the location that they asked me to. It was some kind of either farm/temple/castle thing. I'm not really sure. Either way, it looked entirely different depending on where you were seeing it from, (as in, whether you were outside in the front, in the back, inside in the main room, out in the courtyard-ish thing) though it was never really that "grand" however you looked at it. Some kind of fairy queen lived there and there, as well as a family. I continued completing and receiving quests there but I never seemed to finish the "Slay Hand" quest. A few of the quests involved me helping the residents of the farm/castle/temple bring in their goats or rams or whatever before "something" happened. It was either some kind of storm or an attack. I can vaguely recall part of the questline involving some monsters who wanted to attack the fairy queen, so that might have some relevance to that particular scene. I also had to travel away from the farm/castle/temple for a few quests. One of the quests involved me partaking in one of their family games where one of the girls (she was somewhat tomboyish) would throw insects out of a bag and I would have to catch them. Being that I have a fear of insects, I never caught any and instead tried to dodge each throw. When one got stuck on my face, she asked if I was scared of bugs ( she was very clearly having the time of her life here) and told me there was one on my face. I tried to shake my head to get the bug off and ended up banging my head on the wall behind me in real life. However, there are a few more details I'd like to take note of here. Throughout my journey, I had some kind of party with me. One of the party members was a woman who reminded me of a fusion between Carol and Andrea from The Walking Dead. At one point, when entering the building, I tried to act polite and gentlemanly letting the lady go in first and though, "What a bitch!" as she shooed me off rather viciously, preoccupied with another member of the party. I then questioned why I never really treated her as a girl or even though of her as one and inferred that it was because she acted like a man quite often. Also, I was completely aware (for the most part) that I was playing a game and even told the characters something along the lines of "Man, I really hope this questline doesn't end soon. This place is awesome!" At this point, I was thinking about the later quests (which, aside from my "added details", actually are in the game) where you

Spoiler for SPOILER ALERT:

have to capture that one dragon and go fight Alduin in his other dimension place thingy.

Although I had the general gist of the quests in mind, the whole memory was tainted by memories of other dreams I'd had and thoughts of the game Myst. (I somehow thought the ending of Skyrim took place in some kind of Treegate-ish area.) Finally, I remember noticing I had on some white and gold armor with a velvet red cape, suggesting to me that I was a noble of some sort.

Don't remember much.

I'm in some sort of underground network, mining or digging or something with some other people. I notice a tunnel that goes very far. I wonder who could have made such a tunnel. My friends think I'm looking for the bathroom.

I'm walking down a street and there's something about a guy telling me that his mom lets him sleep on a filthy mattress or something like that.

There are these mini gargoyle things everywhere and I'm putting bird wings on them with the object gun from Garry's Mod. I can't get them all because I'm on the move, but all the gargoyles come with me and we fight these dragons that are on the raised walkway of a castle, like the great wall of china.

~7:15 PM - 750 mL, oral, Cabernet Sauvignon red wine
~9:00 PM? - 2 shots, oral, whipped cream-flavored vodka

These drinks were not intended to be taken as supplements, I was just drinking with friends.... However, I figured I'd mention them as they actually had an effect on my dreams, albeit not a positive one. This is just a fragment in any case.

I was at an apartment with my friend M, which makes sense because I fell asleep in that particular setting after a night of drinking. I remember seeing her in her kitchen and asking her if she had any Tums to help settle my stomach, which was feeling a little distressed after my night of drinking and not being able to get dinner. There was more to the dream than that, but that's where my memory cuts off.

The only reason I even remember this fragment is because when I woke up this morning my stomach was still aching, and I though to myself that I really wish M had had some Tums, not that they would have helped. (Maybe dream placebo?) This is the second time a hangover has seeped into my dreams.... The last time I just had a headache and felt really weak, which made me sit out on a forest adventure.

My thought for the future: probably better not to drink and dream.