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12/13/15

*dream
*lucid

I was in a pizza place, I orders a piece of pizza and took another one. But it just seemed like a compulsion cause I wasn't really hungry and the pizza was totally gross. I put it in the front pocket of my backpack and when I went to pay for my other slice, the guy ringing me up noticed the piece in my bag. He didn't get my in trouble but he made me feel super guilty saying "look I'm broke, too" and turning out his pockets, so I said I'd pay for the pizza. My mom was there sitting at a table, but I didn't have much interaction with her.

In a dark house with lots of rooms. Most of the rooms had beds in them. There were a couple of people, but the only one I remember clearly was my ex boyfriend Brandon. I remember that he went to lay down in one of the rooms, but I followed him in and asked him if he wanted to go to one of the lighter rooms with two beds, cause it seemed lonely and scary in the small room he had chosen. We were sitting next to eachother and I went to do a reality check, I was teaching him about them, maybe I thought it would pull him out of the sad mood he was in. My hand didn't go through my hand so I tried the nose breathing one. That worked and so I concluded that we were dreaming. After that I took that information and tried to walk through a closed door...it didn't work so I tried turning around and summoning someone. So neither of these things worked...and I think the key word is "trying" I was "trying to do these things" not believing they could happen. This is actually something I've been fretting over because after first reading about LD techniques I was super excited, but it seems like I've become worse at it because believing I could do it already has turned into trying to do something that I already could do! Does that make sense?

Blah.

SC1) 02:12 (my alarm had been going off for about 10 minutes)
I don't remember anything except waking up planning in my head and talking to myself in my head about a book I was reading.

SC5) 06:39
Dream - Bus crash
I'm on a bus driving around, it's a double decker with an open roof. I'm on the roof at the front and it seems like the driver is struggling to get through the narrow roads. Why is it so narrow? There are parked cars on both side of the road and the road narrows even more at an upcoming pedestrian crossing. The bus shakily goes forward and clips a car, then it scrapes through the pedestrian crossing. The other passengers are students like me, they all snicker at how the bus driver hit something. The bus made it out okay and starts heading downhill but it's veering from side to side and I feel like it's going to capsize. *Bang*, it collapses over and I smoothly hit the ground running. Glass shoots up everywhere, some of it gets in my mouth but it melts like ice. I think about spitting it out but it's just ice so it doesn't matter. Some of the other students go and start crossing the road, hmm good idea. We might as well keep going. There's a bus at a bus stop on the other side of the road that few of us get onto, I pay with a $2 coin I think.
Hmmm? My mate got onto the second bus behind us, as my bus starts moving I decide to run out the door just as it closes, Indiana Jones style. I run and leap, landing in the doorway of the next bus as it starts off too. Oh, my friend is asleep >_< what a waste. The other students look at me and I consider where I should sit since there isn't any space next to my mate. The bus driver is a lady who is crippled from the waist down and sits in a wheel chair. She looks at me and I get the impression she doesn't mind that I haven't paid because she knows I paid to get onto the bus in front of us.

Had some intense body fatigue yesterday from exercising too much during the previous few days, it seemed to really affect my recall. I felt like I barely dreamed last night as my body was spending more time restoring itself. I slept like a brick

NON-DREAM
DREAM
LUCID
FALSE AWAKENING
NIGHTMARE
FRAGMENT
(Unconnected dreams indicated by a *. Connected dreams indicated by a •. )
I did an experiment the previous night where I ate a banana before going to bed.

* I am in what looks to be a rec center. There are two DC's (I'll call them DC X and DC Y). DC X is trying to print something on what looks like an old-fashioned printing press. I try to help and I try to stick brown strips of cellophane into the printing press. Eventually we manage to print a picture of a dog. DC Y is impressed. As DC X is preparing to print another picture of a dog (a papillion), DC Y takes me over to this area in front of a large flat-screen TV. The environmenr is now my parents' room. I tell DC Y about printers from my time.

* I'm preparing to go for a walk. I put on my red duffle coat which somehow seems heavier than normal. I go on a quest to find some man's childhood home. I walk around in this neighborhood full of tall white houses with green trim. Some are like condos, others are five stories high. Presently, I come to a private club, with a picnic area, a pool, and a grassy feild. Moving trucks roam the area freely. Night falls suddenly, and people are gathering on the grassy area to watch fireworks. I decide I don't want to deal with loud fireworks. Two girls are told they must stay off the grass as they are not members, but they can stay nearby because they are the family of one of the members. Someone finds out I'm not a member and I'm escorted to the picnic area. There is pizza shaped cake and a tall square cake. I steal a slice of square cake from a young boy and laugh to myself. (I am not this evil irl)

* I am in my den and I pick up Angel (shown in my profile pic). She wags her tail and gets super excited... then poops on my shirt. O.o. I put her down then look in Reader's Digest for how to remove dog poop from clothes.

* A blue blob
* A narration from a fake Goosebumps book.

NON-DREAM
DREAM
LUCID
FALSE AWAKENING
NIGHTMARE
FRAGMENT
(Unconnected dreams indicated by a *. Connected dreams indicated by a •. )

I am finally back on Dreamviews to update my dream journal. I will be keeping this journal in sync with a private journal, that way I can get in an entry every day without having to worry about posting anything embarassing.

*I am on my driveway. Two people come up to me and start critising me about my shyness. I try to threaten them by asking them where in my neighborhood they live, then tell them to lay off the mean comments.

• A cartoon boy and his dad shrink down very small and the dad is looking for the TV remote, all while blaming everything on his son.

• The parents of the same cartoon boy are vacationing in the jungle. A huge green boa constrictor wraps itself around them. The mom screams.

* I am watching a videogame ad that seems to be from the 80s, as it seems to treat home gaming like something cool and new

* I go to the bathroom while trying to remember my dream.

SC 1) 02:00
Dream 1 - Heroes of suburbia
I remembered A LOT of this dream, but as I rolled around in bed trying to get up and write it down I could feel the dream slipping away from my memory.. >_<
I was walking with a person on a road in a forested suburban area (like where I live in RL). Something happened, like a small bolt of light shot from the sky and hit a guy and then we were about to fight? It was pretty random. The dream shared a similar story to an anime I was watching yesterday.

SC 2) 02:25 - 03:26
Dream 2 - Passing familiar faces
I'm outside at a place that reminds me of my old high school (though it doesn't resemble it), I'm walking up a flight of stone steps and at the top there's a big green grass field. Somewhere off to my left there's a bunch of people sitting on chairs around a table talking and I recognize one of the girls there as Hannah. Hmm I better not say hi since she's hanging with other mates. I decide to skirt around them on my way over to a lunch bar on the other side of the field, you can get some tasty sandwiches there. There's a bunch of people here too but I don't think I recognize them. I feel a little awkward for some reason. I head back the way I came deciding to go to the pool room which is near the base of the stone steps I climbed. As I pass Hannah's group I overhear that a couple of them say they want to play pool. "ugh.. damn it.." I know that since I'm playing solo then I better let them have the table since they can have a proper game. I walk down the steps and head into the pool room, there's a couple of pool balls on the floor, a red and a blue one. I pick them up and hear the 2 people from Hannah's group arriving. I turn around and mumble out some words "oh you two are going to play pool? here go ahead" or something. I mumbled it so badly though, and I feel like they gave me a funny look. Geeze I wish my hearing aids weren't broken so I could hear myself speaking >_<. There's 2 pool tables in here, one is normal while the other is triangular and a bit smaller (Supposedly for 9-ball pool). I turn and see Lajja and a really pasty skinny guy walk in and stand next to the 9-ball pool table. I walk over to say hey and give Lajja a hug, but the pasty guy gets in my way. "hmm?" I look at him a bit confused, what's he doing? I try go around the other side to say hey properly but he kind of hunches over in the way. That's so weird? Why is he doing that. I look up and see through a small window my friend Ehsan. We notice each other and wave, I decide I should go outside and say hey properly but the guy next to me gets my attention, since we had been in the middle of the conversation. I notice he says something strange: "It's like everyone's trying to distract you"... Huh? I don't get to think about this properly but it does seem strange to me.

SC5) 08:17
Dream 3 - Danger 5
I'm in a kitchen (similar to the one at my parent's place) with the arab guy from Danger 5 and he's making a cocktail (like he does in the show). Random events were happening similar to the way they would in the show, at 1 point a plane crashed and the other members of the plane walked out of it.

I waited a bit too long to write down the last dream, I almost talked myself out of writing it down. I think this happened after the other sleep cycles during the night (SC3+4) and may be because I spent the night out at a mates place the night before.

SC 1 - 02:00
Dream - Music
This dream felt more like a series of images followed by the sound of classical music.
I see a blonde girl in a room, I think it's a hospital, there's the sound of classical music humming through the air. The room seems familiar somehow, and I feel like it's a place to take music lessons too. I think I can remember the wind blowing through the window, causing the white curtains to billow around. This dream wasn't particularly visual, but more auditory.

After waking up the first time I struggled to get up again. I think it's because I had a blood test yesterday which caused me to become unfocused throughout the day and a little bit dizzy.

SC 3 or 4 - 06:42
Dream - Save me
Another primarily auditory dream with weak visuals.
I see a kid and there's a song going "Save meeee, I'm looost" (which I googled, the song is called 'Show me what I'm looking for') playing in my head. I think I reach my hand out, which had something to do the song. Like I was trying to be saved/save someone.

SC 4 or 5 - 07:42
Dream - Sneezy approach
This dream was more visual this time.
I'm watching a movie called 'Sneezy Approach' which is some RomCom produced by Adam Sandler with Vince Vaughn as one of the main actors. I think he gets punch in the face and his teeth get all screwed up, he's always had bad luck with women prior to that. At the end of the movie he's a total boss when it comes to women, and a hot redhead walks up to him, pulls out his two front teeth and throws them away and they start kissing like crazy (as if it were the ending of a movie saying 'and they lived happily ever after'), it was like they had just gotten married.

So some of my actual goals are summon fire in my hand and to teleport.
i tried both now several times and have more or less difficulties with it. i thought about how to approach this goal or problem and how i could solve it. i longer thought about to ask a dc to help me but i never know who might be a good candidate because either i dont know them or they are not practiced in lucid dreaming so it would be "harder" to convince myself that in-dream this is THE right person to show me something.

i had some days ago a low level lucid/semilucid where someone showed me how he uses fire with his hands with channeling his energy thru a ring. i liked the idea. but again thought about where to get a ring with a history (not just summon out of pocket and expect it to be special but have a story for it) i thought about an antiquarian where i would "find" one but it was too much incubation and too locationdependend... so i forgot about this for some time again.
yesterday i talked to Fryingman and how he tried to summon Sensei...
later in the night i had a micro-wbtb and thought about some goals i want to do in my next lucid. suddenly i had THE idea i could summon Sensei. i had a lot of contact with him so i kind of know him and he is very experienced in lucid dreaming, he can teleport so i dont need a special place for him and so on. he seem like the perfect in-dream-mentor! i was pretty exited so i needed to focus on my mantra and not get too awake from this thought...

Here comes the dream:
i am in a university library and have 3 books in my hand i want to borrow. i also have my phone in my hand and read a message. one of my (not so liked) Professors stands at a computer and wants to search for a book? he has some problems. i see it and out of reflex snort with laughter. he turns around and i look fast down on my phone. he starts choleric to complain: "i am sick of it that people are laughing about me, that is it, its enough blabla" i justify myself telling him that i dont laugh about him but i got a message and laughed about that. he dont belief me and keeps complaining. after some time i finally can convince him that it has nothing to do with him and he should stop... i turn around and want to go. i say "have a good success finding what you are looking for!" he answers " yea i need more luck that success..." i look down and suddenly have only two books in my hand. i see the third on a shelf right next to me... wait a minute that makes no sense. i pick it up again and it looks different. i do a nosepinch and i am lucid. my first thought is: "Ah this lucid is not worth it... it is over soon anyway..." but then i am like "wait you dont know you can atleast try."
i go out of the room put my hand behind my back and say:
"hey sensei take my hand"
i nearly immediately feel a small rather soft hand. i turn around and a big guy is standing infront of me. he is atleast 2m big. he has short blond hair and looks rather calm and reserved. he looks younger than me and smiles softly.
i start right up
"Hey senei... wait you are sensei right?"
He just nods and smile calmly .
"okay so you helped me alot and i know that you have persistent items and among others a ring right? and you now are very experienced and have over 1000 lucids so would you give me your ring please and show me how to make fire with my hands?"
He nods again and give me a 2€ coin.

i look at it and i am a little confused because its not a ring but i dont hang up on this thought and look at him. he starts telling me something and says i should put it on. i try to but i cant get the coin on my finger. i tell him:
"Sensei this is a coin, i cant put it on my finger?!"
He just answers
"This is all in your mind"
i get it and tap some times with my finger against the coin until it feels a little liquid and sticky. i then just push my index finger thru it and the coin/ring sits on my finger. i am exited and tell him:
"Hey i got it i just need to tap some times on it and it gets permeable"
He says something like:
"Yea the frequency and combination of tapping is relevant"
Suddenly a woman i saw some times IWL turns to me and says:
"Yea i use tapping too sometimes."
I turn again to Sensei and say to him:
"Now show me how you make a fireball in your hand."
He starts bending is hand and concentrating but i just dont wait and do it on my own and without any effort a little fireball instantly appear in my hand. I freak out of excitement and am super happy and i hear him say something. i dont get the words but i feel like he regret a little he gave me the ring and want it back when i am done with it.
because i am sooo excited i wake up prematurely like it didnt happen for month^^

This was sooooo awesome because everything fitted exactly and perfectly together i didnt have to convince myself about anything or belief in the result because it was consistent. sensei can teleport, i know he has persistent items and he is very experienced so he can show me new dreamcontrol and should have no problem with sharing his item with me. it worked like a charm!
i think i will summon him from now on way more often to show me stuff. he is already my mentor so why not use him as a mentor in my dreams too?
i also thought now that he handed me a ring and i kind of know it is a "persistant ring" i should summon it out of my pocket and just know that it is THE ring and not just some ring. the only thing is that it is a coin maybe i will use it nevertheless and find someone who can craft it into a ring for me
but now i have a really good starting point in creating my first "persistant items" and how i can channel my power when i might have some problems with any dreamcontrol i can take my ring and see if i can fix my doubts then and straighten my expactations

later that night i had another lucid:
i need to bring two things to someone i go up the street and to a busstop here i need to deposit the things. i did it already once (dejavue) but i cant remember to whom exactly. there is more than one person. another girl seems to need to do the same thing and she asks around. a girl with a cart seems to be the person of interest. i give her my dreamjournal. and say "ah with all this dreamjournals you know a lot secrets about the persons right?" "Nah they are boring" "i dont read my dreamjournal too often" i say. "why not what sense does it have then?" "i just dont have the time but it still helps me LD." i go away with her into some basement. i want to get my botany book back i forgot last year... some book is missing and she thinks someone stole it. they first think it was the girl who asked around whom to give the DJ. she is there and says "i feel uncomfortable hearing you talking about me..." "no we know it was not you we think it was this guy" and they point at me. "he seems poor so probably he stole it"... i tell them "I dont care about fukkin botany at all i did only two semesters my basic lectures i needed to do and i just dont care about your field of science AT ALL!" she is pissed a little because of my attitude but she seems to belief me. i go to a bookshelf and find the book i was looking for. i try to recognize if it is really mine. i look into the pages and on one stands the name of a friend of mine. i show it to her and say "this is my book i taking it. here you can see the name of a friend of mine so cya" she is not amused but dont stop me. i go outside to "my" car with a backpack where i put the book in. i want to open the trunk. i suddenly think wait is this my car? (IWL i dont have a car xD) i turn around and expect the car to be blue instead of wine-red. i turn around but it is still the same car. nevertheless i do a nosepinch and can breath clearly. i already opend the driver door and put in the key. a girl comes and is like "hey this is my car right?" I tell her "yea whatever drive away with it" and go away. i want to summon sensei again but i am not in a relaxed mood. i put my hand behind my back and say "hey sensei take my hand" but i am unsure about the result and fair enough noone takes my hand... i keep going and enter a bar. i go to the counter and see an old friend from school. i ask him if he knows where sensei is and describe him as a big guy with blond hair. he nods and starts walking with me and point on a random big guy at at table. "no its not him" okay we keep going and he points on a lot of guy that are random but tall. we go in the direction of the exit und suddenly a lot of people are coming and all are atleast two heads taller than me. even the girls are huge. i start feeling overwhelmed and pressed. i want to get out of the throng and shout out "Sensei" i hear somewhere a "Wuhu" and i go in the direction but the dream gets unstable and i wake up.

so here again i was to much in a rush... i sometimes have this dreams where i want something to deperate and it just dont work i get hectic and the dreams get an unpleasent touch. next time i will try to ground myself first and then do it "Zen-Style"

I've decided to commit to dividing my dreams into sleep cycles since I can now remember my nREM dreams. I didn't really understand how people could recall so many dreams before, but now it makes sense. I think there was ~6 dreams last night that I could remember, I know there was another but I couldn't recall it since I didn't write anything down about it.

Sleep cycle 1
Dream 1 - Flat (03:34)
I woke up to my 2am alarm but I just let it ring for ages and fell asleep again without turning it off. After writing this into my DJ I decided to kick it for the rest of the night. I let myself rest a bit since I've been feeling sleepy during the day because of my night time drea journaling.
I'm in a block of university flats standing on the driveway, it's quite nice here. My friend Giles is renting one of the apartments and I end up moving next door. It seems to be night time when I do and I seem to get pretty ecstatic about moving here. I'm happy and I end up running back and forth moving things into my room. I think I might be prepping for a gaming binge. I look up and see through the window my mate Giles, he's looking at me with this funny look that makes me laugh a bit. I end up shutting the curtains and hunkering down for the game/TV spree.

Dream experience: 2 (pretty happy but not too vivid)
Dream awareness: 0 (No real awareness)

Sleep cycle (?)
Dream 1 - (?)
This dream was pretty damn sexually explicit soo I won't write any details. Pretty much just me and a girl having some fun, I remember a lot of it but I won't write it up ^_^.

Dream experience: 5 (for obvious reasons, and vivid)
Dream awareness: 1 (I had a moment where I realized that things seemed a little off, but I was too caught up in it to care)

Dream 2 - Dragons
This dream was so vivid.. Everything had a certain crispness to the detail. I was in a large glacial-eroded valley which looked very barren and was filled with craggy rocks on the flood plain. I think there was a river flowing through the middle of it though the area I was in was quite huge and I was a ways off from this stream. On either side of the valley were towering mountains, and behind me (kind of like the entrance to the valley) there was a large structure where everyone was hiding. We were hiding because... There was a powerful dragon around. This dragon was really ferocious looking, it had these craggy looking demonic spikes all over its body and a long neck which made me think it resembled a chinese dragon from the neck onwards. Previously we had managed to all run inside and escape, I believed that the dragon had gone now. I was standing outside, the weather was overcast but it looked so cool. *RROOOARRR* Oh shit... It's back? I look up left towards the mountain peak in the distance, but a different dragon swoops into view. Oh, wow... This really is not good. This dragon is a different colour and slightly different in size and shape, but it still has that insane, crisp, sharp detail to it. Its wings have a certain blue hue to the underside which seem to resonate a sort of magical power. The beast turns its gaze onto the valley, I start running hoping to make it back inside. There's a bunch of other creatures in the valley so I hope that the dragon won't spot me, it's already leapt into the air and started flying down lower. I get the feeling that it will spot me as it gets closer.. I'm too far from the safety zone, the dragon has spotted me and it's swooping up behind me gliding really fast. I stop and get as close to the ground as possible.

Darkness.

I open my eyes, I must have been knocked unconscious, what happened to me? I'm on a narrow path with two steep cliffs on either side of me, they're somewhat flattened. In front of me is a human shaped figure, but I know who it is. It's the dragon in human form. I have to follow him, he walks down the narrow path in majestic looking robes while I follow behind him.

Dream experience: 7 (really vivid, cool plot and generally just a cool theme)
Dream awareness: 2 (felt naturally aware, but not of the dream itself)

Dream 3 - DC talk
I think I woke up and fell back asleep, and this dream was a sort of 'continuation' with some massive differences. But the idea that I woke up in a strange place kind of remained and my mind told me that the dragon delivered me to this place.
I seemed to be in a huge casino building, and the higher the floor you were on the higher your supposed level of power. I think I see a small little cat, poor thing probably hasn't been fed enough, its ears are huge too. I walk forward and I know that I'm on a really high level but I shouldn't be here. I look at a card I'm holding and it says level 0 part 6. Geeze that's weak >_<. I decide it's best that I don't act suspicious, better play it cool for now. I walk around in the level I'm in,

There's beautiful women everywhere.. Hmm I should go talk to one, but they all seem so busy :/. I start getting the inkling of the fact that I'm dreaming, and as I'm walking I turn and see a man standing behind a bench, maybe he's a barman or something. He's a bit old and dressed rather impeccably. I realize I'm dreaming, I mean... Of course I'm dreaming? I just seems so obvious all of a sudden. I don't even need to RC since I feel like the dream is really stable too.
"Hey can you show me something" I say to the man, I seem to convey to him that I'm not from this level and I got here by accident. The realization of me dreaming kind of happened simultaneously to the thought of saying this, and I had another thought that I actually wanted to ask another question instead. Damn. Too late :/ I wanted to ask him to let me meet someone. I had the intention that I would talk to a different DC but in proper length and ask them lots of questions for my dream goal.
The man says a few things and I interact with him a bit, then I get ushered to the elevator by another man and they send me down level 0 part 6. Guh, I shouldn't have done that. I walk out into the new floor, looking around me I see that the women are pretty average. I really shouldn't have left that floor >_<. There's a bunch of people playing casinos, gambling is such a waste :/. I decide that there must be at least some pretty women to talk to. (For some reason I get the feeling the a pretty woman is the DC that will be able to answer my questions ). I wake up really abruptly, like I kind of just realized I was in my bed.

Dream experience: 4 (semi-vivid and lucid, glad I got to talk to a DC but overall pretty meh)
Dream awareness: 3-6 (at the same time I felt like I was highly lucid, I also felt like there wasn't a lot I could do about being lucid. I should have done a RC)

Sleep cycle 5 - (>07:00)
Dream 1 - Red car
I remember walking with my dad, we're talking about stuff but I can't remember what. We walk through a car park and it's a sunny day. We make it to his car, but it doesn't look like his car. It's a red hyundai rather than white, hmm that's strange.

Dream experience: 1 (we were just talking and walking to his car. meh)
Dream awareness: 2 (might have become lucid had I RC when I realized he had a different car)

Dream 2 - Car park
I seem to be in the car park of the casino building I was in earlier in the night. I'm with my dad and we're heading to get the car (like a prequel story to the last dream or something). On the way we're near the exit of the car park area (our car was in a different car park) and we see a couple of girls that are advertising the casino place. There's a crowd around them and there's an overseer who's making sure they're doing their job. That's screwed up, they're in such skimpy outfits, they must be freezing. They huddle together and shiver as if to emphasize this thought. Me and my dad step up and try to help them out, we're like protesters or something.

Dream experience: 4 (seemed pretty emotional and vivid)
Dream awareness: 1 (not very high awareness)

it has been stormy all weekend, when I woke up. I went on the motor route with my girl friend delivering papers. We do a split she goes in the car a bit and I go on foot. I tested a theroy and based on past events I've encountered.
I attempted to clear the sky I waved my hands in the air as I walked puting as much energy as I could into the sky. That and positive thoughts and emotions. It appeared to be working after some time of doing this. I worked up a sweat.lol iI even pictured bright colors coming from my hands and I was whistlin.
Then when I was more in tuned with it i was able to take a more calm aproch using less motion using some visual tactics. I sang my own song about the stars and after that the sky opened up for a clear big circle of clear sky to view the stars as it turned night fall.


The dream.
I was supposed to box for a championship. The dude was much taller. We were in our cars racing down the free way. Singing we will rock you. Or somthing it was me and my crew in no top jeep and the other dudes crew in his car driving down the free way. I had my hood on.
At this point the parts of the dream might be mixed up I don't know. I clear the sky before or after I got out of the car. But I clear the sky with my hands and thinking happy thought. It soon reveled the moon it was a half yellow moon at first then it turned into the sun.
Then we drove again But this time there was a cloud entity taking on the aperence of many faces and moving very swiftly I tried to point it out to some one. but every time they would look it would move somewhere else it was staring at me and wanted to make sure only I seen it. It did not look or feel good. Then instead of boxing a man. This was my opponent I was to clear him from the sky after it turned into a small tornado. There was a big shadow of a man controlling it.
The people that was driving me were talking. One said let's get out of here or get him out of here or something. The other said he's not afraid we can take him. They were right I was not afraid I cast my fear aside. Then it aproched the hood of the car. It wasn't even a full tornado more like a big dust devil with a shadow of a man by its side it was as tall as a two story house but only as wide as a car.
It came strait into the car. I got out and yelled at it. And thought wait I have to aproch it differently and convert it. Then I said its OK you don't have to be angree any more and I said something else I don't remember. But I think it dissipated and the alarm woke me up I was lucid in this dream not high level but an upper mid level.

Dream 1 - The Mall (02:00)
I remember sitting at the mall thinking that I had a chance to be chosen for something. There seemed to be limited spaces (about 4) and they were selected by a god-like figure. I think the area I was sitting in was the outside courtyard in the new segment at the mall. There were some emotions of anxiety I think about whether or not I'd be selected, I knew I had a chance, but I was still nervous because I wanted to be chosen.

Dream 2 - Animal Alarms (07:00)
In the same courtyard as the previous dream I'm at a meat restaurant that me and my parents went to yesterday. My mum was to my left and my dad was in front of me (the same as the seating was in RL). We had asked someone about these animal shaped alarm clocks and they went to get someone to explain it to us. Hmm? A little girl comes up and explains everything to us, she starts listing down the different colours and shapes of animals available. I think she had to do it as like a learning thing for her school or something, but I was impressed by how she memorized so much. I only recall 2 of the different animals, the beetle and the giraffe, but there were many others. I don't think I was listening properly and zoned out when she was talking and then zoned back in when she was finished.

I think the animal alarms dream happened a bit earlier in the night but I managed to remember it when I was getting out of bed. Also my dreams seemed to be restricted to the mall, probably because I spent almost my entire day having to meet people there. I had a few beers which affected my recall too ^_^. The intensity of waking up and writing a full dream out on paper is a bit strenuous on the sleep cycle, but it seems to be working really well.

I didn't manage to get 3 dreams (it was the last night needed to complete my dream goal) so it's reset again.

Dream 1 - Carny (02:00)
There's a park and forest, a few snippets of a carny that I walked past (it resembled one I had seen a couple days ago). I also remember there being something about a dinosaur fossil in the ground, reminded me of a t-rex (probably due to going to the museum recently).

Dream experience: 0 (meh)
Dream awareness: 0 (meh)

Dream 2 - Black Leech (04:04)
I remember a meandering river flowing in a flood plain near some mountains. The flood plains were lightly forested and the river had some large rounded oval pebbles in the river bed.
Later I was in a neighbourhood where I live (not in RL), I remember thinking that some creepy guy might end up attacking me with a black leech/slug (it was about the length of a persons hand and quite thick). I looked out of my window to the neighbours house and saw that there was a black slug doing a little sideways scuttle up the inside of their window (it looked like it was trying to 'walk'). Poor thing, it's retarded, and it's struggling at the corner. I wake up (FA) and reach around to my back (with a pseudo arm) and touch the tip of what I imagined was the head of the slug. Ugh, I might die :/ damn. Though I'm not too panicked for some reason, like I know that nothing bad will happen. My reasoning is also that it's only halfway up my back so I can pull it off before it reaches the place it's supposed to bite to kill me. I think that creepy guy must have ordered it from the deep web. I kind of realize that all this is going on in my head and wake up properly.

Dream experience: 5 (pretty vivid, the leech was pretty interesting)
Dream awareness: 2 (a little more and I may have been lucid)

Dream 3 - Tripppyyy (05:33)
I woke up and tried recalling my dream, doing a mediocre job at it. I don't think I actually moved, and ended up doing an unintentional DEILD (does this mean I win Emnition? ). I was thinking about another lucid I have had in the past about Adventure Time (never happened). We were in a cart being pulled along and I was Finn, next to me was Jake the Dog (in full cartoon mode too). From the get go I was semi-lucid, knowing it was a dream without really properly thinking about it though. Things were a little.. trippy. Hmm, I want to be me though. I change perspective and become Jake now. Still not what I wanted, I look at Finn now and see a little mini Jake jumping around slowly, his colour looks darker than it should be, and I know that he isn't Jake because I'm Jake right now. I want to try be me again, so I slowly will my own body to be formed, I separate from Jake and move in between Finn and Jake, sitting between them on the moving cart. It's a weird thing to describe because I felt a bit.. formless, and things around me were still a bit trippy, I guess I should elaborate on the 'trippy' thing. Basically everything had a liquidness to it, seeming to have slightly shifting forms, unstable. Ugh, everything kind of intensifies slightly in that trippy state, to my right I look at Finn, hmmm? His chest now has... Boobs. They're growing and shrinking and moving around in slow-mo (not at all like a boob should). It reminds me of a slime monster or something. Both Finn and Jake are asleep on either side of me.. Things become way more lucid and I know I'm dreaming for sure but I have no way of taming the intense instability and liquidness of the dream. I reach out and grab Finns boobie. I feel it slightly but my sense of touch is a bit dim. I involuntarily float forward and turn towards him so we're more or less facing each other, but he dissolves into a new image. The whole world is changing around me like crazy. Colours and spiraling stuff.. It reforms into me looking at the side of a red car, just at where the petrol goes into. The cover over the petrol tank has a flat red face on it and it's smiling at me (same red as the car). What the? I give it a little slap/pat on its face and it keeps smiling at me. This is so weird. I try to properly stabilize the dream now, 'Stabilize!' I shout, I clap my hands, but did I? I feel like I'm clapping them in RL. Am I waking up? I open my eyes. Hmm.. That was, something? I decide not to move and keep my eyes closed, not because I wanted to re-enter the dream but because I wanted to listen to it fade away and feel the other sensations.
"tzzzzzzzzzzzz" a static fills the air and there's black and white tv-like shimmying lights in front of my eyes. Did I just DEILD again? Lots of faces start forming in the static, just black and white outlines. This scares me quite a bit and I feel like my heart sped up. "Calm down, something bad will happen if you think it will" I manage to quell some of the rising tension about my current state. The faces kind of dissole and the black and white static merges to a dark background. In the middle is the statue of a pharaoh looking at me, unmoving. It begins floating off to the side now, out of my line of sight. In front of me the dream world forms once more and I see a wrist resting on a table. The wrist has a watch on it, and I think it might possibly be my wrist. It must be late at night since the background is still quite dark. On the watch there are glowing numbers since it's digital, the number '7' sticks out to me. There are other things on it but it changes a bit too much so I don't bother with it. I think I tried getting up and moving a bit but I can't remember anything else and I think I woke up shortly after. It was still a bit unstable but not nearly as trippy as the last.

Dream experience: 8 (Wow so trippy, I think I've had trippy dreams before but this one takes the cake)
Dream awareness: 4-5 (I was completely aware I was lucid, I could control things but I couldn't stabilize or actually do things properly)

Dream fragments
- I remember there being a really long rope suspended like 100m in the air which a whole bunch of people (including me) were standing on, there was another rope above it which you could also hold onto. I remember seeing a video a while ago about a woman in a gym straightening her legs on a weight machine which caused her leg to uhh.. bend the wrong way? And pretty much snapped. It really grossed me out, why do people post that stuff on FB :/. Basically in the dream there was a guy who had a similar thing happen to him, he stood underneath the top rope and straightened his legs pushing it up, but the rope was too strong and pushed down.. It broke his legs and they bent the wrong way and he fell off and died. I remember thinking that he was an idiot though

-Something about alien civilization which has been buried, they had the ability to teleport.

Dream 4 - Heroin (07:38)
I remember thinking that the Nazis had one big regret during their time of power, I turn my head and look at a bunch of high school kids bustling to get into a big auditorium. Some had been locked out, but everyone was organised from tallest to smallest so the really short people were at the back (this meant mostly girls were at the back). I'm now a part of the school, and for some reason I had an idea to flirt around with those chicks who got locked out. I approach and the idea is gone and I'm now thinking of a way to get inside and decide to just teleport. I teleport in and open the door for everyone else. I think I'm a little annoyed with everything, and plan to hit the fire alarm and then make a run for it... There's cameras around though. I manage to find a way, I smash an alarm in then bolt out a door on the side of the auditorium just before the teacher could turn and see who did it. "Phew" I think, now I just need to avoid the cameras. I run around and skirt the edges of the auditorium to avoid the cameras, but they're the black orb type and I have the feeling that they can see everything around them. I rejoin the masses evacuating from the main entrance and follow them. But I see some students getting told off for doing their Maori dance hobby. "what the hell? Why can't they do it?" I wonder, I walk over to a white roguish character who seems to be in charge, and he tells me the story (which occurs in a flashback with me present). The teacher tells them they can't do it it for some lame reason like "it's because it's not official you can't do it as a playtime hobby" or something. I was annoyed, since I thought it was impressive for these guys to group together and form a dance group without any supervision. I can't remember what happens next.. But I think I'm talking to the white guy leader of the group, he's gotten into heroin now since they can't do the dance group. I try and smack some sense into him, he's going through withdrawal and wants another fix but I stop him. "Do you even know how much pain you'll be in when you're going through withdrawal? The spasms haven't even started yet. This is why people don't even let themselves do it once, because they get F*cked up" (I said something along those lines...). I also remember thinking of analogies, like how people say to try everything once, but I told the guy he shouldn't do heroin even once. I used the analogy of me falling off a cliff and how it can effect you for the rest of your life. Then I make heroin sound worse since it causes neural injuries rather than physical ones. There's another skin head dude hanging around who keeps squeezing heroin out of needles and shooting them like water pistols at me. What a dick. I think I end up doing heroin but I'm not sure why? When I wake up he's hovering over me and I get the feeling like he may have stabbed me with a dirty needle while I was passed out. This guy really is scary looking O_O.

Dream experience: 6 (felt pretty emotional during this, passionate about the dancers and trying to help them, it was quite vivid)
Dream awareness: 2 (only a little bit more and I may have been lucid)

I think my awareness rating is 0-2 = non-lucid and 3+ is lucid.

[Notes]:
- About to try WBTB for the second time. I figured I'd try to document the dreams I'd had so far before diving back in
- Goals for LD (if I have it): Talk to a DC, ask him/her for a good ToTM, maybe a joke! Try pushing my finger into my hand as well.

[Fragment]:
There's something about these buffalo chicken/fruit leather sandwiches. JS has something to do with it. There was something about eating it giving you your powers n' stuff.

Something about these bloopy childish blue birds and JS that woke me up.

[Natural awakening.]

I'm going in.

Dream - Driving about (woke up at 3:00am)
I'm in my parents house, I think I somehow made the alarm go off and it's wailing loudly... I punch in the code to turn it off but nothing happens. Argh, I must have put the wrong code in. Everyone is waiting outside. Why is the alarm going off anyways?
I remember there being a Tuatara at some point...
Later on I'm in the car with my mom, she's driving and we turn into a house to pick some people up. The house looks simultaneously like my neighbours and our house combined. We're waiting for my dad and some other person to hurry up, they should already be ready by now. They must have forgotten we were heading out, there's no lights on in the house at all. It's already 9pm.. Geeze :/. We beep the horn loudly and my mum is impatient now, she's driving in circles in the driveway of the property. I look up at the window of my dads room (it's not his room anymore) and see that the light suddenly turns on. Finally, I think to myself that they now know we're here at least. I tell my mum that they've noticed us. We start talking and discuss her going back to university. She wants to study some ecology papers as she's found that she's interested in that field of study. I tell her that I can help her review her essays if she needs me to.

Dream experience: 5 (pretty vivid and the dream felt long. I remembered it pretty clearly and I didn't wake up feeling foggy, which usually leads to me forgetting my dreams).
Dream awareness: 1 (not enough to be aware that I was dreaming, but there was some definite conscious thinking involved)

I think my cat woke me up from this dream... She jumped on top of my face.
After I woke up I decided to get up for a while, so I spent 40 minutes researching random stuff and then reading a comic before heading back to sleep.

I also remember a really strange WILD last night where I seemed to naturally just slip into a dream consciously. But the whole thing felt delirious and uncontrollable, I had visuals at first but they disappeared. The interesting thing was that I was more involved with other sensations like touch and sound (the sound was more like a humming noise).

[Notes]:
- It seems that during the week my quality of dreams and recall drastically decrease, and that on weekends and holidays its the highest. Here's what has happened over the past couple nights:

[Fragment 11/29/15]:
I was looking at an alley, much like the BackAlleys map. Some girl in a daft punk mask turned and ran towards me from the end.

[Fragment 11/30/15]:
Don't bend it.

[Notes]:
- So the first half of this takes place in my normal sleep, and the second after having tried WBTB for the first time.
- I can't be sure of the order of events in the first half, but I can in the second.

[Dream begins]:
I'm on this course out in the woods in the mountains. We're all practicing archery drills. See picture below. You shoot at a target, run to the target, and shoot the next one in a square path. I eventually finish up with a few and I go and hang out at the chillout spot, which was an open flat area that jutted out of the mountain we were on, so we could see all the other mountains. I talked with some people here; possibly AW?
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Note: Throughout the dream I had been getting closer and friendlier with this AW, initials for a person I know. Now, in the dream it was a slightly different version of her, but it was still her.

I'm waiting for the morning bus, and it seems to be running late. I head up the hill towards where it should come from, and a couple things fly by... I think one of them was a hang glider. Eventually the bus comes over and I go and hop on (the middle line lunch lady is driving).

So I'm talking with AW. It turns out we both have to get out of school for some reason (dentist's appointment?) and be on the interstate (actually 13). Eventually I get out of school and hit the road with someone. It's raining really hard as we go eastbound, and we take a look at the toll booths as we go by. They had windshield wipers on them that were flapping vigorously so the booth people could see what the driver was doing. Eventually we're on our way back and we see each other in the road.

Suddenly, I'm at this abandoned industrial building with the rest of school, and suddenly we're all told to move into the building by Darth Vader and the emperor. A ton of troops surround us and direct us into the building. As I'm going up with WC, I'm holding a blaster and take a look out the window, thinking they were going to shoot me. They didn't. I lose the rifle and keep going up. Eventually I meet with S (and AH?) and we talk for a bit. SH is slapping his mom on the butt and she's slapping him on the abs and vice versa, telling each other how nice their butts and abs are... then SH tells her that it's the nicest part of her and goes back into the building. She goes and talks with us, and says "I'm not perfect?"

[Wake up.]

Note: At this point, I woke up in a natural awakening at ~7:45AM. I figured I'd try doing some WBTB since I figured I might still be able to have a dream. I logged the previous dream, then decided to go back to sleep with lucid dreams and goals in mind. For probably fifteen minutes straight I kept on waking up from discovering I was in HI dreamlets. Hopefully I can figure out how to get past this. Eventually, I had the following dream.

[Dream begins]:
Dad and I were going somewhere. I get in the SUV. Sweetie jumps up on the (other) SUV and I tell her to get off, then dad comes over and tosses her off, but she lands on the Leaf. Dad gets in with me and we start to drive away. She follows us down. I look back, and she's waving to us! She trots down by the creek pines and lays down and keeps doing it. Then I realize that it was a peacock making it look like she was doing that. We drive up the hill and dad says "Yep, she's a good dog". Then I thought about peacock feathers for a little bit (and a bundle of them).

I found myself in a mansion. I walk around for a bit and I find J from MPC chillin' in a closet. His mom is in the living room. I look at him and say, "Hey man, what's up?" He doesn't register me, and just keeps looking off into the distance. His mom scolds him lightly for being so rude to a visitor, and he acknowledged me. He pulls out two DVD's: one is Star Wars and the other is Star Trek. He says "Hey, at the next MPC meet we're gonna watch these." I look at him and his mom questioningly, and say "Yeah.... I don't think so..."

[Wake up.]