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Sorry I was gone these past few days, I was on an awful, awful dry spell.

So we have all heard of a false awakening, but what about a false falling asleep?

I was having a dream that my life had reverted to the year 2003, meaning that I was a small child once more. My subdivision looked a little bit different. All of the cars looked extremely square and boxy. (Not to say a lot of older cars look boxy.) But I mean these cars looked ridiculously square.
A false memory rolls in: Apparently this was not the same reality as the one that I had experienced in 2003, but I had simply traveled to a different one, and in this alternate world having the most boxy car was considered prestigious. Our neighbors had a rotating table on their yard with an extremely square car on it. The car looked something like a miniature box and was one large red cube with windshields, windows, wheels and a radiator on the front. They were trying to show off the square-ness of their car.
I get very excited at the thought of having many years of my life back, and forget about the boxy car fad. I begin thinking of things that I want to do differently in this new life. Just as I do, my mom comes outside, picks me up, and takes me inside to go to bed. As we walk inside I notice that the sun is setting. I lay down and notice how sleepy I feel.
Then I think to myself, maybe in this new life I can start lucid dreaming earlier. Lucid dreaming is supposed to be very easy for young children to learn as their dreams are of better quality, and their minds are more awake. I lay still and begin thinking to myself that I will lucid dream tonight.
After a minute I find myself in a 'lucid' dream. (It was kind of funny, because I knew that this was a dream relative to the boxy car reality, but I didn't know that the boxy car reality was in fact a dream.)
The dream is that I am in a city street. There are a bunch of large white cylinders of varying heights made of a metal like material juxtaposed in the street. There are no cars or dream characters anywhere from what I can tell. I begin thinking about what the cylinders might be. Perhaps they contain something. I approach and touch one. It feels cold, it is covered with condensation.
The city breaks away but all of the cylinders remain. I am now floating in reddish-black a void with the white cylinders still scattered about. They begin to drift in random directions. I begin to hear a screeching noise growing louder and louder.
False awakening. Back into my 2003 alternate reality bedroom. It is morning and the sun is shining through the windows. I lose recall for some time after that.
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I am at my grandparents house with K. My grandparents want me to eat some strange new food, but I tell them I am not hungry.
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I false awaken into my bedroom, and my heart is racing as if something time-sensitive is going on. I am being shook by someone. Manei is leaning over the side of my bed trying to get me up.
"Wake up, Hurry!"
"I'm awake!, I'm awake!, Stop that!"
"No! Wake up!"
"Oh!"
I look into her eyes for a moment then wake myself up.
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I am on a beach. There is a terrace made of packed sand at the upper end of the beach with several small drainage creeks running into the sea. I realize that I am still dreaming and wake myself up once more.
...
Wheu! Not dreaming anymore.

First Dream

Me and a few others were in this area in which behind some massive wooden skirting boards there was this greenish-yellowish powder and some insects and other stuff that you wouldn't wanna touch. One of the guys had a torch and crawled in there, and then another guy, who I presume was in charge, ordered us to close the hole by putting the boards back on. So we did, shutting the guy on the other side. The guy said that once you get that close to the "cordiceps" you can't go back. And that we'll be hearing the guy's sobs on the other side for days to come before he turns into a zombie. Nice.
I then remember walking around a WoW-like MMORPG world and talking to the NPC's to get weapons to kill these things that the cordiceps fungus already mutated into zombies. I remember there were these weird small scorpion things.

Second Dream

This dream was far more lighthearted. My brother, my dad and I were at some log cabin by this river in some field. We had our bicycles parked in front of the cabin. It was dark and we were outside, my dad and my brother were looking at something on the laptop. My dad says something about his compass on his bike not working because it required power from the dynamo on his bike, and obviously his bike wasn't moving. I told him I had a working compass and went over to my bike. On the right handlebar there was indeed a little circular compass with a grey compass hand in it.It was pointing the same way that my bike was - North, towards the river next to the cabin. I turned my bike around but the compass hand also turned to keep pointing to the river. My dad looked like he didn't hear me.
Then somehow we were inside the cabin, with the lights off. Then sounds of engines and voices could be heard from the direction of the river. I looked at my brother who looked surprised and scared. The sounds passed us and we went outside, and there was train tracks running along the river, only the river wasn't there anymore. The tracks had forest either side of them, and our cabin was in the woods too. A train was speeding away from our cabin and my brother and I sprinted after it.
We caught up and jumped on board, and inside were Germans with semi-automatic guns. They looked very surprised to see us. My brother pulled an emergency train stop lever (with his tongue) and pushed me out of the door. The train was going quite fast so I rolled on the floor for a while before getting up and running in the opposite direction, in the direction of the cabin.
I looked back to see the train stopped unbelievably fast, and my brother was on the floor next to it, face down on the ground, and they were putting handcuffs on him. One of them turned around and saw me and shouted something, but I turned my head and kept on running. I didn't pass the cabin. I thought of maybe running into the forest on the right of the tracks, but just then I ran out into a city square. And I suddenly had a flag pole in my hand, and I was running with it, getting increasingly tired. I saw behind me a black van pull up on the road, and another one in front of me and then one to my left. They had "Top Gear" written on the sides and I saw Richard Hammond getting out of the one to my left. I suddenly knew I had to get the flag to a specific point of the square and that it was all a game. I looked in front of me and there was Richard Hammond again, and about 15 metres behind him Jeremy Clarkson. I managed to run past Hammond but then Clarkson got me.
I then remember looking at the square from the side and seeing three Polish flags on one flag pole standing where I lost the game. The pole was much longer than the one I had been carrying.

Third Dream

My family owned a massive mansion with loads of staircases which sometimes led to nowhere at all and swimming pools and slides and such. We had invited over loads of kids for some reason, and I was eager to show them our mansion, except I myself had only been in there a couple of times at best and I still got confused as to where things were. I went up a flight of stairs but then they led to nowhere so I turned and there was another staircase leading off the staircase I just climbed, only I didn't see it before. So I went up those stairs and got to this narrow corridor in the wall that you had to almost squeeze through. Behind that was an even narrower pipe leading to the swimming pool and slides and all sorts of fun stuff, except that it was filled with water and very, very narrow so I didnt go in because I was afraid I would get stuck.
And then the children came, a few boys aged around 12-13, and some younger girls, all in their swimming gear, and started going into the pipe. Which wasn't safe, since I knew that it was easy to get stuck in there and that it was completely underwater. I went to get a lifeguard, of which there were two and both female, and they were at a smaller pool at the foot of the stairs. My mum was already telling them off for not being at that pipe and they were arguing. Then we went back upstairs and it seemed everyone was having fun except my mum said that an 11 month old girl drowned in the pipe. So then I lied down and started crying because I felt guilty for her death, and everyone was telling me it wasn't my fault. Yeah. Go figure. Weird dream.

Fourth Dream

It was some kind of school prom and I was sitting next to some girl who wasn't exactly fat, but chubby, and quite pretty. The whole of the dream was highly inappropriate. At one point I even became lucid, but willingly gave the lucidity up because I was having so much fun and didn't wanna think about lucidity. And we didn't even get to finish because the dream screwed me over, so now I'm kicking myself for not keeping the lucidity. Still, the dream was fun in a very adult way.

I'm sitting in class and interrupt the teacher two times in a row. I resolve not to do it again but find the urge almost overwhelming. I also notice some jaw pain, which is one of my dream signs, and decide to do the finger-push RC. My hands end up in a configuration with weird geometry and I realize I'm dreaming.

I leave the classroom, which has become a room in my childhood home. My goal: finally take a bite of that Krispy Kreme burger. Things appear a little flickery, and I attempt a light stabilization by feeling my forearms and paying attention to the scenery as I walk. This seems to work, and I realize that the flickering is just a result of the fluorescent lighting.

I briefly attempt to look for the burger in the fridge before remembering I don't want it to be cold. Next I try the pantry. Before opening it, I close my eyes and picture the bag the burger will come in. But then I get nervous that I'll wake up if I keep my eyes closed for too long and stop. I open the pantry and the bag is there. But by this point I think I'm rushing, and things are not very vivid.

I look inside the bag, but instead of the fat donuts and juicy patty I'm hoping for there's a really sloppy burger with a disheveled, stale bun, a greyish patty, and two tiny strips of limp bacon. I'm a little disappointed and resolve to re-try the summon, with more concentration.

I re-stabilize and go into the living room, expecting to find a better burger on the piano bench. It's not there. I take a couple of seconds to visualize the kind of burger I want and tell myself it will be under the bench, but again I get nervous about closing my eyes and rush the summon. The burger is not under the bench.

I decide time is running low, and I should just take a bite out of the burger I already have. I do. If it had a taste at all, I don't remember. Likely I wasn't focusing on it at all.

My goal achieved, more or less, I don't know what to do next. I notice a small package on top of the piano. After doing a quick RC just to verify I'm not going around opening other peoples' mail, I open it up. There's a chocolate inside! I take a bite, and this time I think it does taste like chocolate.

Now I don't know what to do, and decide to try to summon my girlfriend. But before I can, I feel myself start to wake up. I prepare to do a FILD/DEILD but my IWL girlfriend is moving around and I wake up for real.


Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

NLD:
I'm outside a building I don't actually turn around to see but appears to be a train station. I have my bike with me and I'm planning to cycle home, but feel like I should show my train pass before I go anyway. I hang around in a fenced of area just over the road where a bus is due to arrive to replace a missing train, muttering under my breath about how poorly arranged this train station appears to be (I do this in real life, too!)

When the bus appears, I have to squeeze past to get to the door to show my ticket (thinking back, the location if the door means this bus was left hand drive) The conductor chap is puzzled by my explanation of why I'm showing him my ticket, and I feel like a chump for waiting around when it seems I needn't have bothered.

I go back across the road to get on my bike, noticing that it's just starting to get a bit dark, just enough that I'd rather have my lights on to avoid SMIDSY.

I reach over to get my helmet (hanging on the fence) and when I turn back my bike has been replaced by a large silver car (a Mondeo, I think) This doesn't phase me at all. (I have a memory of going to buy the car but I think this is a retrospective justification or an insert from a different dream) I get into the left hand side of the car and have to reach quite far forward to pull the door shut.

I think I ought to drive super gently because this is a new car and because I don't want to give Emma any excuse to criticise my driving. I briefly think that I should put my bike lights on, but remember that my bike is a car now and has headlights!

I head off on a dirt track, because it's too tight to turn around and take the obvious route home. I try to work out how to get from the dirt track to the main road and see several other cars on a parallel track looking like they know the way but I can't get to their track. I decide that I can just keep going on this track and that eventually it will turn into a residential area and beyond that will be a main road. I have to dodge a couple of mutters coming the other way at high speed. Just as the track gains tarmac, I catch up with a couple of other cars, who then look like they're turning off to the left into a race track. I can't resist joining them out of curiosity. I think this might be a prefect chance to satisfy my need for speed in a low risk environment.

Coming up the drive I have some difficulty with the gears, accidentally ending up in third at very low speed, then struggling with clutch control, feeling like a early as I hold up the car behind, given that I'm trying to drive impeccably.

I get to the track and park my car as out of the way as possible so I can find somebody in charge and find out what the costs are etc. They'd a sign up saying entrance is free, so I have a look over the fence to see what's going on. There are people racing around on skateboards, so I won't be able to drive today and I turn around to leave.

My car seems to have taken on board my desire to park out of the way and had shrunk down and transformed into a motorbike helmet. I briefly pounder the dream physics of getting into the car on is reduced form and turning around when the full sized firm would be overlapping with the building I parked next to. I turn the helmet sound and move it away from the building so that there won't be a conflict when it returns to full size.

I drive off on a tarmac road, following a series of junctions while trying to get a grip on this new car. There are a variety of controls around the steering wheel, one of which spears to be some kind of military device, but I can't work out what. There's a key for it in the driver's door pocket, and even the key has a little lock on it. I have no idea where the key for the key lock is. Also in the door pocket are some audio tapes, the car soars to have a take player, how quaint.

After following the road around a bit, I pull into a supermarket carpark over a huge speed bump. The car skids a coupe of times barely missing boards and other cars. I manage to react to the skids and avoid crashing, but only just. I think how it would be a good idea to find a nice open part of the carpark to practice, but it's a very small carpark. I head out passing an employee of the supermarket on the way out.

I wrestle with the gears again, the clutch send to be reluctant to grip at low speed and I think about what people will think about me buying a car without checking such basics. The dashboard of the car has lots of gizmos, glowing lights that react to my driving, a fuel consumption disk that shows me when in using too much, a radio that appears to be from my old Mondeo and is still tuned into my choice of station.

Fragment:
Discussing the former dream with my dad, then waking up to find I'm running late because I turned my alarm off instead of snoozing!

SammyTheSnake

00:00 Wednesday 2014-08-06

01:23 pre-bedtime

01:40 bedtime

A frag-a-licious and dream-y night again, finally. Lots of WTF moments, should have caught at least one, oh well!

+(f) an unattractive woman is making out with her dog (is she really doing that?), I'm walking by her looking at her trying to see if she's really kissing/licking its face erotically or just very enthusiastically

+ mowing a large field, the field has lots of thick stalks sticking up, the mower gets stuck, I try to move it with all my strength and kick the wheels with my feet

+ technology conference for young people, one company has selected a team, hey they should have chosen me, I walk in to a classroom to use the restroom on the other side it's occupied

+ Meet with ex-fg DB she doesn't want to get back together, I jump off a cliff and fly

+ large cafeteria room people sitting at the table, I'm looking for beverages to pour for everybody, I think there may be Martinelli's but I find huge stores of unfiltered apple juice, I go around pouring it for everybody, I see suddenly that my pants are entirely unzipped (how'd that happen!?), it must be a prank, my dad walks by guarding his fly

+ someone's lighting the hillside on fire, putting out fire drills with the boy scouts, they pour out of the base and on to the hill, discussing strategy with woman director (tarps or dirt first), loose pipes fall down near me

+(f) gearing up for a fight, I'm wearing puffy light green coat, I put a small yellow sticker on my coat, the boat we're attacking is well guarded so I also recruit some female fighters whom I normally don't like

+ fly in to a university student work office, there's no room the desks are tight, small building, some have workstations set up on the sidewalk, they're playing games, watch one game it goes full-vision, it's a hard game

+(f) back to DB, her heart is set on another guy

+(f) large woman trying to hide on the side of a cliff, she's trying to pull turf over herself, she does a bad job

+ sneaking through large stone hills avoiding guards back to our base, I'm in the lead, I find the path around the edge of the bluff, it is through a stone tunnel that morphs into ancient stone structures, there is a guard in the distance around the left I'm carefully advancing, I gesture to my friend we turn and run for our group to the right

12:35 a.m.

I was waiting for a jeepney along the street. Not sure where. I felt somehow it's in Bacolod, near the North Terminal area. I was going to the Libertad area. There were a lot of jeeps but none of what I want. The mood seems a bit gloomy, but not cloud or rainy.

Finally, when I found one (that goes through "Sandayan", which I "saw" as near Libertad), a lot of people ran for it, mostly working adult males. A kid tried to ride as well. He asked if someone will let him set on their lap (which is usual for kids so they get free fare, but usually done with parents). I pointed out instead to a small gap in the seats, and the other adults pointed it out as well, but he refused, wanting only to get a free ride.

NOTES:

- I used 26-minute meditation by Sam Harris.
- I used Subliminal 2.0 after as I fall asleep (I didn't notice when it finished as I fell asleep already).
- I went to sleep around 6:30 a.m.

August 05, 2014

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I only had fragmented impressions of dreams during a nap today. None during the night, which makes me sad. When I woke up from the nap, I had the feeling of being in a forest, but that's all I got from it.

So I was in this hotel room with my friend and we get to have a room with no adults but we have stay with a bunch of these kids. My friends dad is driving and were on a scavenger hunt. Towards the end something bad happens so I have to drive me and my friend to finish this scavenger hunt. At the very last stop there's this Chinese pool with a man standing next it. I go to look at it and it turns red then dirt then goes back to normal. The man looks at me and says you have to respect and honor it.
P.s I've just recently received a gift to look into the future with my dreams. As everything happens I remember seeing them a dream. Sometimes I even remember looking at the future as I'm dreaming. Or where i stand as im looking into the future. Lately I wasn't sure if I should close my third eye and get rid of the gift so i believe the man was talking about my gift.

DILD
7:00am
I'm in a game and I see the enemies shooting their shock rifles towards me. I fire back and try to combo their energy balls before they reach me. Im up higher now in a building and still fighting. I think I become lucid or semi lucid around this point and must wake up shortly after.

I catch the False Awakening. I'm in a house and decide not to do anything fancy but just stay aware of my surroundings and check stuff out. I see a fridge with writing on it and have a look at what it says. It looked like if made sense from a far but as i get closer, I don't think it makes sense. I hear someone in the kitchen and go and check who it is. As I'm about to walking towards the kitchen I think about eating some chocolate. There's shopping bags all over the floor in the entrance and decide to step around them. I see my brother in the kitchen and don't bother worrying about him too much. I look in the fridge and see a cake. I try to get it out but I almost drop it. My brother comes up to help. I forget about the cake and think about something I wanted to do in a lucid dream. I'll try and convince my brother his dreaming. My speaking in lucid dreams as been slurred since starting again and I try to talk. It works no problems this time. I sound pretty clear. I begin to try and work on my brother. I grab him and tell him his dreaming but he tries to walk away and doesn't want to hear it. I tell him to watch what I'm about to do, which was going to be levitating/flying but I never got the chance to do it. [i felt the dream fading multiple times. I didn't stress too much about it and just focus on what I was doing and it bought back the dream clarity]

Dream Fragment:
1. Im with Kayley and. Marleigh. I need to buy a letterbox. I check a few out as there's all diff sizes. It's a factory.

2. Dad must win some money on the horse racers and I ask him about the other week if he had won. He didn't win.

3. Dad fills the dog bowl with tap water.

Side Notes:
Struggling to remember dreams. Woke up at 5:30am and couldn't sleep for an hour+ which probably worked as a WBTB. Took sleeping mask off as I struggled to get back to sleep and it seemed to do the job and woke up with eyes closed without the assistance of the sleeping mask. Pretty happy with the small progress in lucid dream length as they usually last under min. This one felt as if it lasted 3 mins. Mantras for RC upon awakening is paying off.

Dream
Lucidity
Nightmare
False Awakening

I was having a nightmare and woke up. I said "Wow I had a false awakening; if I would of wrote on my dream journal, I would of known it was a dream!" I thought of the nightmare and figured I was stressed out. Suddenly, a monster came into my room. It was a Black warewolf-like creature and it started attacking me. I was scared and said a prayer but it didn't work. It kept on attacking me and I tried to talk to it but I couldn't move or speak. I was finally able to speak and ask why it was attacking me. The warewolf stopped for a second and showed me empathy but quickly began attacking me again. I got up and started fighting it. As I used magic, I realized I was dreaming.
I tried using fire magic to kill the wolf but my magic didn't work until I started using water magic. I tried drowning the wolf but nothing would affect it until I wrapped a circlet of water around the beast's waist and snout and said "Once I pull this string, the wolf will be cut in half". As I pulled, the water tightened around the warewolf until it cut it in half. The snout didn't cut so attempted to use a sword to kill it. I swing my arms but I had no sword in my hand. I had an image of what my sword would look like, which I remember imagining it when I first started lucid dreaming. The sword was a longsword but the cross-guard had white angel-like wings and between those wings, there was a blue orb, which in the waking world I wanted it to have water in.
The wolf wasn't a problem anymore so I thought of what to do. I asked my dream to show me someone so I closed my eyes and when I opened them, there was no one there. I walked out of the room and saw Valery and took her into a bathroom where there was a bathtub with clear water in it. The bathtub had water stains and I asked what the water represented. She said "It represents the happiness you have with your community" "The happiness I have with my community," I repeated. I said it a few more times and said "I need to wake up!" so I closed my eyes and woke up.
I went into Valery's room and asked her if she woke up. Then I really woke up.

Dream
False Awakening

I was playing counter strike but against aliens in space during an invasion on Earth. I was awping and so were they. Eventually, we planted a C4 near one of the black holes they had. When the bomb exploded, their mothership got destroyed. I then watched endings of Golden Sun. This happened twice and each ending was different. The black hole was close to Earth so it made alternative realities, which is why there were separate endings. I woke up and my alarm was off and I had not service on my phone. I started writing down my dream and the beginning part said Megan was part of the dream. Then I really woke up
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I was with Tim working on the job at an airport.