lucid

Date: 1 Aug

Total sleep time: 7 1/2 hrs

Natural wake: 2x, impression of vivid dreams with fleeting memory after both wakes

Dream quality: very vivid, realistic and generally stable, lasted a while

Recall: I had to rush out of bed as was late, spent a few mins motionless after wake but the dream memory began erasing, reviewed dream during shower and wrote down 4 hrs later

Tech: snooze by-product. After the normal alarm I pressed the snooze button which was set for 15 more mins.

DILD+: The beginning of this dream is almost impossible to recall as were my very first actions while lucid. I think it was one of those from scratch dilds, where I suddenly appear in a scene.

The location is a non-existent room with an open view to the street of our first home. I look around and say something to the DCs in this strange room. There are a number of them, at least two are classmates. I have no idea what I said there, or what else I noticed in the first part of the ld.

Then I think that I'd better start doing some tasks as I worry that I will either lose lucidity or destabilize the dream by not engaging thoroughly. Haven't thought about tasks for a while, but look at my hand where I have mentally recorded my tasks irl. I recall 4-5 tasks. Any that involve leaving the room are out of the question, as I have the certainty that this lead to me losing control over the situation in this particular dream. So I decide to stay in the room and see what I can do here.

My personal "ask a DC" task comes to mind and I go over to the DC girl that looks like my classmate and ask her how to ld more often. She says a few words that don't make any sense. I repeat the last word she said, asking for a confirmation. While she is in front of me, she continues talking, but now I hear her voice coming from somewhere to my right. I find this kind of strange. Also, the DC of my dad, who only looks like him but has an aggressive nasty feel to him, is there. He behaves daringly, coming closer to me and then grabs me. For a moment I feel helpless as this DC is very strong. I struggle for a while, then recall a similar situation where I escaped a DC by thinking that he can't hold me because I have no hands/body. This works again so he lets go and I back away.

Hearing the girl's voice coming from a different location helps me remember I also wanted to do alternative voice experiments. I say a sentence, but I only hear my own voice. I gather more power and shout out. This time my voice sounds different and there is a pleasant resonance, a bit like echo, but not exactly.

I move on to the next task "transformation" and get ready do it, although I feel that my dream control powers in this dream are very weak. I notice that I am wearing my winter coat plus a hood and feel very warm. I just want to take those winter clothes off before I proceed with the transformation. I start unbuttoning the coat but then remember that none of my naked TOTM attempts were successful. I feel this will take too much time to execute and might destabilize the dream as well. I think about ripping my winter coat, but I just can't find the courage to do it. I go over to another classmate (male) and delegate the task to him.

My classmate does a very good job undressing me, the layers of top clothes just disappear in front of my eyes. Then I get carried away, sit on top of him and start kissing him, forgetting about anything else. A few moments later, I notice that I am sitting in the darkness, I guess kissing with my eyes closed?, but I still feel his body and the room. I begin wondering what exactly am I kissing, are these his lips or his tongue. Very confusing. I can see now, weirdly, his ears catch my attention and I zoom into some strange things there. I tell him that he will need to clean his ears later on.

I have no more sexy interest and think about the dream and that it was pretty stable and long. I am running out of tasks, and regret that I have no idea what this month's TOTM is. I decide that I will try to reach out for this information and my tablet magically appears in front of me. The browser as well as the virtual keyboard open and I want to type dreamviews.com.

The initial letters are fine, but towards the end, the keyboard letters are on the wrong places and reverse. I try to ignore the problem, tapping on where I know the letters should be. I type something close to dreamviews.cm and the page starts loading but the address changes to something like google, and the page that loads is google as well. Just instead of the google logo, it's something with less letters and reverse again. Disappointed I leave the tablet aside and look around.

I think at this point the dream ends, but instead of me going through the void, the dream skips forward to the next scene.

This leaves me a bit confused, as I expect to have a non-ld FA or wake up, so I passively start thinking about this. I remain disoriented in the room as the surroundings change and then gain back my clarity to realize that the dream continued in this strange manner. I am now in a very large furniture store, where me and my bf are the only "clients". It's a very calm atmosphere, crystal clear and extremely realistic. I wonder what to do in this room and see an empty champagne glass that I take with the intention of breaking. I am somewhat reluctant to do it, as it feels bad to be vandalizing this nice quiet real-life like shop. I playfully throw it high in the air, but instread of falling on the floor and breaking, it lands comfortably in my hand. I find this very cool and I do it again...

At this point the snooze alarm wakes me up!

Well CL, you were right. We recorded an in depth podcast, and it was like major fodder for my lucid early this morning.

I woke up at 5:30 am when Danny had to go to work. I know that before that, I was tossing and turning for hours. Because I ate a bunch of cheese crackers right before bed. At some point after Danny went to work, I fell back to sleep. Then I had a brief FA, where I thought I had woken up, but to my left was Danny sleeping in the bed. But I knew that he'd already left for work, and Danny always sleeps on the right. He looked like Danny, and rolled over on top of me as if to give me a kiss, but by then I knew it wasn't him. In a split second I went from "Oh shit...." to this thing wailing all over me. My vocal chords were paralyzed, so I couldn't talk nice to it. I felt like something was holding my hands down, but the demon wasn't touching them. It was so weird. So I just started thinking happy thoughts. He started to kinda shrivel, and slide away from me, down the bed, in a sort of catatonic state. But I still couldn't move very well. So I started trying to move my arms, which I could a little, then ZOOoooommm, the creep was right back on top of me, screaming and looking all freaky. His head would shake back and forth really fast, like that Tool video (Sober). Before I thought to think happy thoughts again, I noticed that everytime he shook and convulsed like that, I could feel vibrations in my hands. So I just decided to close my dream eyes, and sure enough, my usual WILD vibrations swept over me. I opened my dream eyes again, an was alone in my room. I tried to slowly get out of bed, but I was really entangled in blankets this time. They were too heavy to get off me, then I woke up. Fortunately, the vibrations came right back, and I ended up in my room again. I got up, an went to the bedroom door, blankets all wrapped around my legs. But as soon as I left the room, they were gone. WHEW.

I knew that a personal goal of mine for a while (which is also one of August's TOTMs), was to create a portal to hell, and share a cold beer with the devil. I wondered that if, after all that DEILD Demon nonsense, if I would be too chicken to do it (since in the past, there was a TOTM where you had to go to purgatory and rescue a soul. But my portals kept going past purgatory and straight into hell, and I was too scared to go lol. That made me mad so I became determined to conquer this). Anyway, I didn't feel that scared. But as soon as I got to the living room, I noticed that the front door was open, and Danny was standing on the porch, looking as if he was waiting for the rain to stop before getting into his car to go to work. I questioned if I was dreaming or not afterall! I went outside and notice that it wasn't raining, just the sprinklers were on. I looked at him and we exchanged a few words, can't remember what. Then I noticed the skin on his nose was gone. Like a skeleton meets Michael Jackson kinda thing. Ah, ok lol. I went to give him a quick smooth before continuing with my task, but when I did, it was like kissing air. So creepy.

I went back into the house, and got on all fours on the floor. I had to hold my glasses in my hand, which kept falling of my face. I pressed my face into the floor, and it phased through. A huge, craggy tunnel formed, and went straight down for what looked like miles. It was illuminated with a fiery orange glow, and I could hear sounds from way deep, like, chains and heavy things hitting against rock. Just like the last 2 times. In waking life, I had already promised myself that the next time I found this tunnel to hell, I wouldn't be scared. I told myself, "It's ok Ophelia, nothing to be scared of. It's just a dream. And when you find the devil, he's going to be really nice and you're just going to share a beer together." I really felt ok with this. I began to descend, in a sort of rock-climbing fashion. But the dream environment didn't seem to match what I thought it should look like when you are climbing downward. Hard to explain, but it seemed like I wasn't really going anywhere. So I decided to just float down slowly. This worked, and I was slowly falling, not too fast, which would have woken me up. I probably SHOULD have looked down though, because I didn't really have a focal point. I should have looked down and visualized the bottom, because what ended up happening was, I just fell a while, and then woke up naturally.

If I had succeeded in this task, I wouldn't have counted it for myself, since I had a heads up on the task. Who knew that I would break a dry spell on the FIRST of the month lol.

i was standing in my living room with a few friends and my dad was sitting in the chair and i though i should do a quick reality check,i did the nose pinch test and could breath and thought "wait im i dreaming" then i tried pushing my hand through the wall but nothing happened so i tried the nose pinch test again (i usually do double checks) and it wd i waorked again and i realizes dreaming,everything started to become more vivid and i started to get a bit taller,then i woke up

I am playing Minecraft. Well, living it, not playing it. I am literally inside the world. I think suddenly, "Duh, I'm dreaming ." I plug my nose to make sure of this. Yup!

I don't feel any different. No "pop" of clarity. No sense of freedom. No excitement. Nothing. My sense of touch doesn't even work.

I get up off the ground and fly. This is easy, seeing as flying is a natural thing in Minecraft. But again, I don't feel any exhilaration in the act of flying...

I remembered people saying it was fun doing math inside a dream so I try that out. I end up saying, "2,4,6,8. Hm."

Not very fun.

As I'm flying around, I try and manipulate the generation of the world. I try making mountains form. Nope. Didn't work. I see a river and dive in, thinking about performing a RC. I dive underwater, and breathe. Yup, still dreaming.

I try twirling around to change the dream scene. (Who wants to dream about Minecraft?) I twirl around, and end up in another Minecraft world. I try about 5 times, and end up losing my lucidity.

On the last try, I end up sitting at my house in front of the fireplace, reading a magazine. "Hey," I think. "I could use this in my dreams!"

I wake up.

How lame.

Dream recall from today's naps.

Dream 1(fragments):

I was playing some video game with a story and i had to make some kind of decision in it, then i was interrupted by BSOD.

Dream 2(fragments):

I was doing some stuff in the room and there was relatively small house in the room, like an actual brick house, it's roof was a bit broken so i started fixing it, because it's a dream as i thought, and i was pretty strong, but didn't actually realized that i was dreaming.

Dream 3:

I was playing some 2D platformer game and there was alot of dragon characters, then somebody interrupted me and said about some new zdoom mod. I checked it but it looked like some mod of brutal doom, except with custom enemies, i noticed dragons were enemies too so i decided not to play it. I was then searching for some other mods and checking out some weapon mod.
After that i found some dragon related story and started reading it, after a while of reading i got distracted and found another site, which apparently had pictures of dragons from that platformer and story, lots of pictures, and descriptions. Then there were also two big and detailed pictures of a dragon with scales of red/maroon color, two pictures were same except for that in one of them... there were no wings. Then after a bit i got back to reading story and some person came surprised that i am reading stories and asked why i wont read books instead, i explained that's because books don't have Ctrl+F function(Dream Logic!) and then tried to show it, but my keyboard was set to different language. I had to switch it through like 50 different languages to get back to english.

Dream 4:

There was some story, i had to visit some weird dark place that was like after carnival or something, i was talking to somebody about controlling people. Then i was back at home and i was reading some messages on PC, somebody was talking about dragons and there was picture attached to post of anthro dragon with blue and light-blue colored scales. Then i went to nap but ended up phasing between two different versions of the room(which is actually different room that mine) while in bed, one of which had some giant skulls.
I then wake up in my room and take off headphones, immediately my vision goes weird and i still hear sound(which were actually different binaural beats than which i was actually listening to...), but there's also high pitched sound and vision fades partly to white, then after a while it stops and goes back to normal.
Then suddenly some DC attacks me from behind while i am still in the bed, taking me by surprise. I react and punch him really hard, knocking him back, then i roar really loudly, right into his face, scaring everything out of him, and then i break his neck. Done with that i look around and notice room being different, the bed is in the middle and there's chandelier, i get up and shout some commands but dream suddenly quickly fades out, and i wake up.

So again, I got an almost epic lucid dream... well actually, it was epic, but my recall kinda sucks

Lucidity: 5/10
Control: 9/10
Vivacity: 9/10

I'm with my old friends; we' re going to the Coliseum, or an arena in that style. We get to a balcony and we watch a guy alone... I somehow know that he's a great emperor... Caesar. He's doing some mass telekinesis. Wait a minute... I check reality, I got six fingers !
After a little while I decide to go and fight him. I get down and I immediately know that he's actually real strong. Epic battle coming !
My recall isn't really good from here.
I remember having huge telekinetic powers; I made lots of walls fall on him, part of the Colosseum got destroyed ... even more. I also made him fly, and I threw huge rocks at him. In response he made me fly, and made walls fall on me too.
At one point I used a round object that was given to me in a previous lucid (not in this DJ) I took it out of my pocket. It's green and looks kinda like that ( yes, it's from ben 10... I used to watch that) :

http://www.google.fr/imgres?start=10...2&tx=142&ty=49

So I put it in my chest like Ironman's heart, and my control gets even greater ! I started destroying every single wall he was in front of, then throwing the blocks at him, lots at the same time ... just awesome.
I don't remember anything else.

lucid
*I realized I was dreaming being in front of two women. I thought in the dream how they respond to me tells me how confident I am. I went to the first girl and said how do I look? I said this with a lot of confidence and she said you look good. The second girl said good with a stronger response. I sat down with them for a minute to chat.

07/28/13

Tigress in the Springs
I wake up in bed and roll over. I am about to go back to sleep when I realize I am not in my own waterbed. I also notice that even though I have my eyes closed I can see the light is on in the room. I open my eyes and find out that I am in the bedroom of my dreamscape. I recognize the place right away and I sit up in bed. There is a black cat on my bed with me.

The cat comes over to me and purrs softly. I pet the cat for a bit and then get up. I look around the room, almost certain that something strange is going to happen. I'm not sure what I expect… something Templar related most likely. The cat jumps down from the bed and walks across the room to a door. The cat sits beside the door and meows. I open the door and the cat heads down the hall. It is a long hall with no doors on either side. The cat is moving rather quickly and I have to hurry to keep up. The cat reaches the end of the hall and scratches on a door. I go to open the door, but it is locked. The cat meows a bit impatiently. I focus on the door for a bit and then I use the alohomora spell from the Harry Potter books. The door clicks unlocked. I open the door and enter the next room. I recognize this next room from dreamscape as well. It is the living room area where my name is written on the wall. It says "Raven Knight Is Free" in black marker. That doesn't seem like what should be written there… it has changed somehow. I look around the room to find the cat. The black cat is grooming itself on the couch. Is this the destination room? I look back at the graffiti. Now it says "Raven Knight Is Infected" on it. Infected? Infected with what? The writing on the wall morphs. Now it says "Mercer Virus" in block letters. I think about that for a minute, but it seems I already knew that… clear to the point where I have used Prototype abilities in dreams. The writing on the wall morphs again. Now it says "Sometimes the disease is the cure," in fancy cursive writing. The disease is the cure… the Mercer Virus is a cure for something? A cure for what? The writing morphs. It changes to "Raven Was Here" which looks like what it is supposed to be. I hear an insistent meow from the other side of the room. I follow the sound and find the cat beside a staircase. The stairs lead up. I follow the stairs up and into a TV room. The television is a large flat screen, and it is turned on, but there is only static on the screen. This room also looks familiar from the dreamscape. The cat jumps up on a chair and curls up. I look at the television and will it to change channels. The image on the screen changes to show a hot spring. I remember saying I was going to meet Tigress there for healing.

I approach the television and find it is a window I can step through. I step through the television and into the biodome near the hot springs. I look around to see if there is anyone else there. I see Tigress in the hot springs relaxing. I go over near her and focus on the song Voices to heal some pains she has been having. She doesn't seem to notice me. I slip into the healing springs, it is warm and comforting. I sink to the bottom. I look up and I see Winter floating in the water. I swim back up towards her and then float beside her while I focus on Voices again to help her with her fibromyalgia. When I stop swimming I sink back to the bottom. I swim back up towards Winter and finish the song before sinking yet again. I wonder why I keep sinking… but then I wake.
 
Moving Day
I am with my mother and we are driving through Tucson looking for a new house. I have no idea why we are moving, but it seems I periodically have dreams of moving to a new and larger house. We are looking for a rather large home on a large plot of land. We soon spot the house we are looking for up on a hill overlooking the city down below.

We drive up to the home and park in the long curved driveway. The two of us go up to the house and ring the bell. A woman answers the door and lets us in. She is tall, unbelievably tall, and has long golden blonde hair. She is holding an adorable little tortoiseshell kitty cat. I immediately think of Amber. My sweet little Amber. Apparently the woman notices me looking at the kitty because she asks if I want to hold her. I say yes, and she hands me the cat. The cat looks at me and begins to purr as I pet her. I tell the woman about the cat's resemblance to my lost cat Amber. My mom and I start looking around the house, I take the cat with me. She continues to purr. The house is even bigger inside than it looks outside. I finally put the cat down when she begins to wiggle. I look out the back sliding door and I see a pool outside. The view is great, I can see the entire city stretched out below. The air looks surprisingly clear today. My mom is talking to the woman. She is saying we will take the house. As we are leaving my mom tells me that we'll have to spend the night in a hotel because she already sold the old place. I wonder where the dogs and cats are. When I ask my mom she says they'll be fine but doesn't really answer me. She takes me to a hotel and then leaves. I go into my room and find I am not alone there. My ex boyfriend James is there with his new wife Tina. I wonder why I am there with them. There are two rooms connected with a bed in each room. I am to use one of the beds. Annoying, but for one night I can handle it. So I go into one of the rooms and lie down to go to sleep. I hear James and Tina having sex in the other room. Yuck. Not what I wanted to hear. Finally they go silent. Then I feel someone slid into bed with me. What the fuck? I look and see it's Tina. What is she doing here? Did she get pissed at James for poor performance? I am so tired I am about to put up with that when James joins us. What do they want? A threesome? No way! I get out of the bed. I'm going somewhere else. I'd rather sleep in a dumpster. James and Tina get up. James asks me where I'm going. A man enters the room and looks at them. I recognize Alex Mercer from Prototype, but somehow this isn't odd enough to make me do a reality check.

James says my new boyfriend there can join us… Alex looks kind of confused, then pissed off. I have enough time to think he is chronically pissed off before he goes right over to James and calls him a lying sack of shit, throws him on the ground, pounds the shit out of him, and consumes him. Tina rolls her eyes and says James has always been such a wuss when it comes to fighting. Alex looks puzzled and then grabs and consumes Tina. He looks over at me and says they weren't real… there was nothing there. I don't answer, I am too busy staring at a smear of blood on the ground that is all that remains of James and Tina, and I find myself laughing. They weren't real? Maybe they were never real… "I just made you up to hurt myself…" lyrics come to mind, part of the song Only by the Nine Inch Nails, I find myself singing a slightly altered version. "I just made them up to hurt myself, I just made them up to hurt myself… and it worked." Alex is giving me a really strange look when I wake up.

 
DDO Prototype
I am in a green field outside of a walled city. I look around to see where I am and I see there is a gate into the city that is closed tight. I wonder if I will be able to get into the city. I head over to the gate and look to get inside. There is a guard at the gate that looks down and asks who I am. When I don't answer right away he says I don't look like a minion of the Devourer. The Devourer? I am in a virtual reality video game! I look at the city wall, marveling at the graphic detail of this game. My thoughts are distracted when the guard says he can let me in as long as I hurry and give up any weapons when I come in. He says that goes for both of us. Both of us? I turn to look behind me and I see Alex Mercer from the game Prototype. I do a double take at that. He is looking around as if he is not sure where we are any more than I am. So now I have both DDO and Prototype? A virtual reality crossover game! Awesome! I look past Alex at the horizon where I see smoke rising. I ask the guard what that is. He says it is the Devourer encampment. He says he hopes those fires aren't burning the hostages… I ask what hostages. He says that they have taken some villagers as hostages. He says they will burn the hostages alive if they don't hand over the sigil stone… which they can't do… but they don't have the soldiers to get through the enemy forces and reach the hostages. Rescue the hostages. Sounds like that's the quest. I'm not sure what Alex intends to do, but I tell the guard that I'll bring the hostages back. The guard asks if I am crazy. I tell him I'll show him crazy. I look towards the smoke in the air and then head in that direction, taking flight as I go. I hear the guard say, "What in Tarinthia?!" as I get out of earshot. I look down below me and I see Alex is keeping up with me easily and then he pulls ahead. I speed up my flight using energy. Alex comes to a stop just before the land drops into a canyon, I land beside him. The smoke is coming from various camp fires down below. I see an array of enemies camped out there. Quite a few sahuagin gathered around a river that flows through the center of the canyon, which is quite wide.

The enemies on the other side of the river seem to be primarily humans dressed in Devourer robes. I see a cave on the far wall that is quite a ways up the side of the cliff, there are bars on the entrance. I figure they must have the hostages in there. Alex says it doesn't look like there's so many of them and then jumps off the cliff. He glides out over a group of sahuagin and drops lightning down on them. I hear the song Battery by Metallica. The sahuagin are water elementals, and particularly susceptible to lightning… fried sahuagin. I am thinking he just used Battery by Metallica… and that's not normal for Alex Mercer. He lands in the area that the lightning cleared and launches a tendril devastator attack that catches sahuagin in a larger radius and even some of the Devourer minions beyond the sahuagin. Now that's more normal for Alex Mercer. The enemies are just now managing to react to the new arrival, though they don't seem too organized. The enemies have officially been caught with their pants down. I jump out over the canyon, flying, and dropping Damage, Inc. fireballs down on enemies as I go. I land in a burned area where a fireball hit and use Phantom Lord to clear a larger area with a wall of fire. Enemies quickly start closing in again. I wish I could use the tendril devastator right now… but why not? If this mod allows for Alex to use Battery… so without really considering how I to do it I set off a tendril devastator and clear a large area of enemies.

There are far fewer enemies now, and they seem confused as to where the attacks are coming from since they seem to be everywhere at once. I see Alex grab a guy in Devourer minion robes that are fancier than the rest of them, probably one of the higher ups, and consume him. I form a sword with Witchblade and fight off two Devourer minions attacking me with spears. Alex is coming right at me now, he takes off and flies right over my head to land beyond me and head for the far wall of the canyon. He jumps up to the cave entrance where the hostages must be being held. I follow after him, fighting through a couple remaining Devourer minions on my way. When I get there I jump towards the entrance, intending to fly the rest of the way, but I reach the entrance with a jump. The gate to the prison has been pulled off of its hinges and tossed aside. I go into the inner cavern that is lit by torches in the walls. I get there just in time to see Alex push a couple hostages out of the way before grabbing a man and quickly consuming him. WTF? "What'd you do that for?!" I yell over the noise made by surprised hostages. I wonder why Alex is killing hostages. In response to what Alex did the other hostages are now clambering over each other in an attempt to get away making it hard for me to get through to Alex. I finally get through into an area around Alex that is now clear. He starts pushing his way into the crowd as if looking for someone specific. He finally grabs one hostage and drags him out into the open area. It looks like he is going to consume that one, too, so I yell at him to stop it. He stops and gives me a dirty look before throwing the hostage over to me and saying he is a traitor who set these people up to be captured. He says to just consume the bastard then I'll know the truth. I say no, I won't do that. The man says Alex is insane, working for the Devourer. A woman asks if he didn't see what happened to Brindle… then says she thinks Alex actually is the Devourer. Alex is just watching me, seeming not to notice the hostages climbing on each other to get as far away from him as the cavern will allow. I hear someone at the exit yell to stop pushing followed by a scream. Great… the hostages are making like lemmings. I realize I am still holding on to the hostage Alex threw at me. He says I can't possibly believe that insane monster, can I? He says Alex ate Brindle! He's not human! Damn… easily solved. I do a telepathic scan of his mind. I see him leading some people down into the canyon… then it is blocked off by the image of a mind flayer.

The hostages are freaking out… gotta get them out of here. I focus on opening a portal leading to just outside the city gates. It opens. I tell the hostages that is their way home. Being used to magic, no one questions that and they all go through the portal quickly. The man I'm still holding tries to go but I don't let go of him. He tries to pull away but I hold him easily. The portal closes leaving Alex, me, and the one hostage remaining in the cavern. The man says I can't possibly believe that monster over there… I use a quick song spell of Liberate by Disturbed and try to scan his mind again. Maybe the mind flayer was controlling him? This scan produces no more information, just an image of a mind flayer. Of course the few images I had gotten do look a bit incriminating… He tries once more to get free before pulling out a dagger and trying to stab me with it, calling me a fucking bitch and saying the Devourer will rule all. His stab is blocked by Witchblade. When the attack fails he seems to be panicking, though he really just seems to be afraid of Alex. He keeps saying to keep that thing away from him. He then stabs himself with his dagger, apparently preferring to die over being forced to talk. But damn, I wanted to know what had been going on! Without really thinking about it I consume the guy… and find out he had been working for the Devourer willingly, no mind control involved, just simple greed. He and his friend had actually prevented an earlier escape attempt, resulting in three of the hostages being burned alive. Alex says that wasn't so hard. I curse at myself for doing what I said I wouldn't do. Alex asks why I automatically assumed he was lying. I don't know what to say about that. I have to force myself to look into Alex's eyes. It looks like he is somewhat annoyed, but I can also see an inner flame. It seems to be burning pretty bright. That's something I am glad to see. He still wants to know why I assumed he was lying. I still have no answer, then I wake up.

#203 - 4:24AM - WILD/DEILD

I wake from some dream. It feels like nothing but hypnagogia. I roll to my left and take a peek at the clock and see it's 4:02AM. I decide to do breathing meditation. After some time I see a lot of hypnagogia and my body feels different. I focus on relaxing my body more and it starts to feel like jell-o. Suddenly I get strong vibes.

I try rolling but nothing really happens. It feels a little like I am spinning but not very vivid. I can't "get out of bed" so I just visualize walking in the living room and am very pleased when I see the dream slowly turn "on" like a dimmer switch on a light. I take a few steps in the living room and become annoyed by the feel of something like a hood on my head. It starts to obstruct my vision and instead of fighting it, I just ignore it by rubbing my hands and then feeling the floor.

My vision clears up and I see my cats near me. I reach out to pet them but they dart away from me. There is a third cat that I don't have in waking life and I reach out to pet it as well but it shies away like the others. Finally I reach out a littler faster and more determined and grab Stella. She tries to get away at first and then yields like she finally recognizes me. As I pet her I try to remember my goals but as hard as I might try nothing comes to mind. I decide to just enjoy the moment and let it go. I soon wake up.

I lay still recalling the dream. Suddenly I remember that I wanted to find my guru in the dream. I have been reading a lot of Dream Yoga material and like the idea of getting wisdom from my higher self. I decide at that point to go ahead and try to DEILD. I totally relax my body now and get vibrations straight away.

I wait a moment and let the vibes intensify and then fade a little. Instead trying to move I just tell myself there is someone at the front door. I think about opening it and the dream materializes once again. For some reason I feel like I am losing lucidity and I remind myself to be aware. As I try to open the door I think I have to unlock it first. The dead bolt isn't working right and I remind myself how silly this is. I stop messing with the lock and just open the door.

The air outside feels cold on my bare skin. I feel embarrassed by the idea that I am just in my underwear. I decide to let that go and step into the yard. I look up to call out to the dream. The sky has a partial moon obscured by clouds. I call out, "Where is my guru? Guru, come here!"

A helicopter roars by and then hovers above me some at a normal distance in the sky. As I watch it, it morphs and distorts. I am not amused. This is pretty normal for my dreams. Then, I hear a car drive behind me in the street. I turn to look but only catch the tail lights as it blurs past.

I call out the dream again, "Rinpoche! Can you please come to me?" Something makes me want to look down the street to my right. At the end of the block, there is a shadowed figure of a man standing motionless under the yellow glow of a street lamp. He is just looking at me. This not that creepy as first so I smile and motion him to come to me. The begins slowly walking and I think faster. Suddenly, his movement blurs a little then blinks out and reappears much closer all in an instant. The look of it is a little creepy and like a horror film. As I fight the instinct to be afraid and run, he zoom walks like this several times until he is standing before me. (Thinking about his after the fact, isn't this how we all move in the dreamscape without realizing it?)

Now I see his face. I am surprised that he is a clean cut dark completed Italian man who looks a lot (but not exactly) like Shia Labeouf. The very non-Tibetan-Buddhist looking man promptly sticks out a hand and says his name is "Dolce" (dōl'chā'). I shake his hand and before I can speak he says, "You are Straight.
I am confused by this and dumbly say, "My name is Straight. OK. And you said you are Dol...?"
"Dolce."
"Dolc?" I repeat this over and over in my mind to remember. I also note his strange manner of speaking. He sounds a little like he is from the Bronx but also very foreign. (I had never heard of Dolce that I can recall until now and I didn't know it was an Italian word at the time.) I also note he is wearing blue jeans and a gray hoodie, hood up.
He nods at me and says, "I like how you were all like..." and makes a mocking gesture with his hands that I don't really understand. With out a moments pause he continues to ramble about being concerned for his family. He wants to know how they are doing. He asks about his sister and mother and...
I interrupt him, "Can you just tell me something wise? I really don't have much t..."
Now he cuts me off "In a moment." Now, he begins pacing back and forth seeming preoccupied with something.
I let out a quiet. "Oh my God." as I realize that this is not going to happen. He continues talking so fast that it begins to sound like gibberish to me. I begin to have to fight to stay focused on the dream and in a few moments I wake up saying to myself REMEMBER

I already wrote that, it didn't post. It' s real annoying...
But yeah, I've had other lucids, but they wern't interesting or had really low recall or duration.
But now I'm back (!) with an awesome lucid to write down !

Lucidity: 9/10
Vivacity: 8/10
Control: 8/10

I'm in a car, with my dad, and pretty much my whole family. I notice an unusually big moon, and tell the others about it. There's another moon next to it. The memories of my older lucid dreams hit me. I check reality once, and twice to be sure. I got six fingers. I get out of the car, my dad arguing that he saw the moon first (wut?). Surprisingly it doesn't feel like I just jumped off a car at full speed, it feels more like getting out of a vehicle that's not moving. I turn around a see the car rolling away in the opposite direction. I begin rubbing my hands, and I notice that it's night. In most of my lucid I try to avoid the dark, because I was told that it would wake me up; not now though.
Now It feels like it calms the dream down, like it was calming me down. I keep on rubbing my hand and, without really wanting to, I swipe my finger in the horizon and a day landscape appears under my finger, it's like my finger's a "background brush". It's only after the first swipe that I realize what I did. Well, seems like I'll have some control this time. I finish repainting the scenery and get going again, rubbing my hands. I walk for quite a while on the road, it looks all flat, with grass everywhere but on the road. When I finally start to get a little bored, I suddenly remember the plans I had back in real life. Aaah... so I do have something to do !
I start running, not looking back, until I get to an oriental city. I take a turn in a street, and stop for a second. Maybe it's wiser to check if it worked... I throw a glance in the street and... well, let's just say the guys falling and climbing the wall are Zombies :



The Zombies are falling from the wall, and dozens upon dozens of 'em are running towards me. You would think that everyone would be screaming, that everything would be a mess, but no one is here, I'm alone in the streets. All I hear is the Zombies' grounding footsteps. I try to act horrified, but I can't hide my excitement. I start running, but the Zombies catch up close to me too fast, and I have to use telekinesis to slow them down. I get running again, one hand behind me doing telekinesis, and I get to my sister. I take her with me and we take a turn in a street again, it leads us to an empty room, and the zombies soon enough join us. They are like a wave, just a wave of teeth and skin. One of 'em bite my sister.
I hesitate a bit.
"It's contagious" I say. I know that it's only contagious if I decide it to be, but I want to make it more "interesting".
"I know"
I have no choice but to run. The zombies are not following me. I got to a place, Western European. Beautiful. I talk to a girl for a while, then I choose to jump off the cliff, into the Ocean. The girl tells a real clever pun. And my subconscious came up with that. I can't help but let out a grin. I don't remember the pun, but there was "liquefy" in it.
I get over the fence, then jump. I enter the clear blue water, there are bubbles everywhere. My hair is like dancing in the water... I wake up. I begin writing my dream down and notice I already did. Hey, but I'm still dreaming !
I wake up, for real this time.

Dream recall from today's naps.

Dream 1(fragment):

I am in my room then i wake up and try to DEILD, the HH image of my room starts slowly spinning into my view until fully in view, but then fades out.

Dream 2(fragment):

There were three mosquitos on the table doing weird stuff.

Dream 3(fragments):

I am doing something in my room then i realize that i am dreaming, i rub hands and go to balcony. I take off and feel my wings, i fly upwards, shortly outdoors turn out to be larger copy of my room, i fly higher and as i fly through ceiling it turns out there's even bigger version of my room, then i reach ceiling once more and dream fades out with weird noise.
I wake up, forget to RC and go type dreams into text file then i wake up properly.

Having a bit of a dry spell right now so I thought I would share one of my LD's from my journal. Hopefully spark some activity.

Setting: Bedroom.
Method: WILD
Induction: Guided relaxation CD
Lucid dream number One: after a nine year gap.

Popped into LD straight from my relaxation, an amazing feeling of knowing you are asleep and yet totally conscious. Extreme clarity and detail, I could liken it to a comparison between a VHS cassette (RL)and a blue ray disc (LD)

I'm sitting up and forward a little, looking back at my girlfriend on my left, she is heavily pregnant right now and in my dream her stomach was flat. A huge reality check for me. I floated over to the door to explore the house and reached to turn the bedroom door handle to let myself out, my hand passed through the handle ( felt surprise and amusement) so I leaned into the door with my shoulder and floated through to the hallway. Dream ends and I awake. I am really excited and want to try again right away...

I manage to slip straight back into another LD ( not sure how or I would share) the only way I can explain is it was though I put my focus point at a certain feeling? From the last LD. (If someone knows what I mean and can explain this feeling to me I would appreciate the input)

...sat up in bed again, floating with arms and legs crossed hands in my lap, I hear a mocking laugh in my head, it was echoey, far away? and it unnerved me quite a lot, I decided It was my subconscious and if it was, I could make other sounds, so I tried to imagine music. What an truly amazing experience! I could hear the most beautiful symphonic music playing in my head as I was thinking of it, it started as classical, I heard beautiful choral voices and then electric guitars like some awesome rock anthem solo. Can't describe how good it sounded, really like the best music I ever heard, so weird.

floating over to the window now and passing through the glass entering into a browny grey nothingness with the consistency of thick soup or porridge, definitely texture, movement, particles, liquidy yet not wet. My instinct is to swim, and I do in no particular direction, my brain thinks water and there is a slight panic as I am concerned I can't breath, instantly I realise I can breath and panic passes.

Slight fear and concern now at the void and space so decide to do a Loving Kindness meditation in the porridge ( something I had been practicing during the week in RL, I had experienced some strange physical sensations and wanted to try it whilst in the LD. ) I leaned back opened my chest and said 'take my love' don't know why, just popped out, It sounds a little urgggh but there we go, as it happened..

Pop I'm falling, blue sky, and passing through white clouds, sunny day, falling and flying, controlled fall?Feel the Wind, is noisy in my ears and eyes watering a little, I can see super vivid trees and grass, countryside fields, small roads and barns as I fall closer. I wonder how high I am, I drop past a passenger jet, I remember seeing the wing and engines, rivets and paint texture as I fell past.

Getting close to hitting the grass but have no concern about an impact. levelling out now and floating over the country side, looking at tops of trees and the odd roof, nothing much but grass and hedges small roads, farms. I try to look behind and my body levels to sitting, still travelling, floating backward, am able to rotate in all directions, looking at the countryside, sensation changes from flying to floating and being pulled, I look around some more and then I wake up.

Was quite an amazing experience and started researching LD's in the morning, found DV's that day.

Brief Lucid Dream:

I was doing a WBTB so lucidity was on my mind. I was waiting in what I think was a room or hallway. I had this thought that I might be dreaming because I thought I could do that thing I always do in LDs where I fall backwards and right before I hit the floor I bounce right back up (I need to come up with a name for that so I don't have to describe it every time.) But then I doubted it thinking that I had already tried but couldn't. Finally I gave it a try and found that indeed I was dreaming. Then I think I tried to do something with my lucid powers, but all I remember is feeling somewhat disappointed.

And then it was all over.

How lame.

Dream # 4

Lucid Dream? - YES

Dream Topic - [Lucid Dream] Mad Dream Characters?

Dream Plot - I don't remember when I became Lucid but when I did I found myself at my beach house, with some people that I knew, and some that I didn't. I could tell that they were mad at me so [I am really happy I was able to fly this time] I flew upstairs to try and avoid them. I went to my porch and remembered that it was just a dream so that maybe I could just make them disappear. When I tried this they just got madder and said "Tell us where it is!". I didn't know what to do so I just flew up and out onto the street. They all ran downstairs and 1 said, I can fly too. That 1 flew and started to chase after me. I tried to teleport myself to the city where I usually live, but it wouldn't work. I just kept flying away from them, now trying to teleport myself to the moon. For some reason I was scared to fly to high so I wouldn't just fly to the moon. Then somehow we were all teleported to the moon. Somehow they stopped being mad at me. We were all teleported to one of my old schools. I was actually apologizing to them because they werent real. They all got sad and started to walk down the stairs. That is when I woke up.

On a quick starting note I want to register the different approach I will be taking to my DJ. I wanted it to be about the cool adventures and accomplishments I end up having in my lucids making for a mostly entertaining reading experience, because of that I haven't been recording most of my lucids. From now on, every lucid I have will eventually be here, unless of course it involves something I'm not comfortable sharing.

Moving on

30/07/2013 - DILD

I was walking with another guy who like me was a shapeshifter, we were aware of a group of men following us and we decided to make a run for it. They catched up to us and grabbed the guy that was with me, he could shift into a wolf and they wanted him to run with them (similar to the concept of shifters in True Blood), they were bad news and we didn't want nothing to do with them so I told him to escape first, I would divert them and when it was time for me to go I would use my ability to loose them.

I ran but they easily catched up to me everytime. At some point I faked falling and even let out a little scream to make my point more convincing. When they got down on the ground to pick me up and make their capture I quickly ran away thinking about how I would make my shift happen. I just remembered "If I stay calm, have no doubt and just move accordingly I will shift easily". In a fraction of a second I took a little jump into the air and instantly shifted into an owl, from running to flying, no breaks.



I landed on the top of a building of the pretty village I was in. Due to the nature of events, I was lucid. The scenary around me had a very blue feeling and appearence to it, mostly due to all the rooftops of the many houses around being that colour. There wasn't a single soul to be seen on the streets (get it?).

I decided to stabilize. I looked at my hands throughly, they looked mostly normal and along with the scenario they increased in detail and vividness as I inspected them. While I did this I was making affirmations like "Clarity now. I anchor myself to lucidity and the dream". I was satisfied with the feel and added details of the dream but I suddently started to feel like some "wind-like" force was shaking me a little bit back and forth on the top of the building, since it wasn't really windy I wondered what that could be. I would soon find out since... It was precisely 5:30 am and my alarm was waking me up to go to work.

Sweet dreams!