lucid

(COPIED FROM WORKBOOK)
Date: August 6, 2013
Method: WBTB & MILD (WILD)
Total hours of sleep time: 6 hours (WBTB 1 hour)

Well, I have a lot to talk about so let's get to the good stuff!

I went to bed at my usual time of 12:00am and I have to get up to fix breakfast and wake the kids. After getting everything done and the last child out of the house, I looked at the clock frustrated because I just knew I couldn't count this as a good WBTB method. According to what I have read on DV, I should not do to much activity during WBTB and I should try to be silent and keep the lights dim. Well, with this being the first week of school, this morning my house was grand central station ! I was up cooking, waking up people, shouting that the bus was coming and every damn thing...sigh!


When everyone was out the door, I looked at the clock and realized a whole hour had passed. As I turned off the lights and got back in the bed, I said to myself, "You have done far to much to count this as a WBTB, no way are you going to become lucid now...chalk this up as another loss." However, my inner self told me to continue to say my mantra and just get a few minutes of sleep (It was 7:11am and I had to be up in an hour to get ready for work).

This is when the magic happened!

It seemed like mere seconds before I noticed that I was standing in front of my door screaming at my kids telling them the bus was coming. I had my hand on the couch which is in the living room by the front door, but I noticed that the couch was in a different position on the other side of the living room. Instinct (and I mean pure instinct) prompted me to do a RC. I told myself to levitate...AND I DID!!! That's when I felt the vibrations, and I knew I was lucid! I'm am not good at my dream control, so I told myself to calm down and the next thing I knew, I was back in my bed. I stayed still and played sleep and like magic again...I was back in the living room! "Oh GOD, please tell me what to do!" I thought as I just floated there. I remembered that I wanted to gain some dream control so I started to touch the living room wall by the front door. As I was looking at the wall and the front door, I thought it would be fun to see if I can go through the wall...AND I DID!!! As I was going through the wall, I'm not 100% sure, but I think I saw like lights? sparks? flashes? Hard to explain, but also, as I want through the wall, it felt gooey . I did come out on the other side of the wall to my front yard and then I faded to the dark again and was back in my bed.

Well, you know my method for this by now DV, I laid still in my bed and DEILD my way back out of myself. This time, I was in a different scenery, but it was still my house. Everything was not quite right, so I knew I had to do something, or I would be back in my physical body again. So I'm standing there and my husband is just looking at me. He says, "Aren't you suppose to do something?" I look at him strangely, but for the life of me I couldn't think of what I was suppose to do (once I woke up, I realized for the TOTM, I was suppose to ask a DC what is the meaning of life? )! I stood there wondering what my husband was talking about and I realized I was losing my lucidity by getting wrapped up in my husband, so immediately, I refocused my attention on getting out of there! For some strange reason, one thing I can always remember is trying to teleport to Egypt and that is exactly what I tried to do.

Canis Lucidis told me to close my eyes and imagine Egypt down to the very last detail. I closed my eyes (tight) and kept thinking about how Egypt looked with the pyramids and the sand (kinda how it looks when I watch the Discovery Channel or National Geographic). I kept repeating these images in my mind and then I began to hear music, or people singing (this isn't the first time I have heard beautiful music while lucid, but every time I wake up, I can't remember the music or the songs)? Slowly I open my eyes and the first thing I see (hard to explain) is like a wavy image (you know how you look in the distance and it is really hot and you can see the heat waves?). The image clears up and I hear people say that Pharoh is a crook. I look down and a child is telling me to follow him (he looks like my God son in RL, but now he is my God son in Ancient times, his clothes are rags also). So I follow him. He stops by men that are working and building something and they are wearing tattered clothes and they look like prisoners. One of them looks like he is eating something and he gives him some of his sandwich to eat and the child says thank you. When the child let go of my hand to get the sandwich (I saw bread and meat, so to me, it's a sandwich), a new scene in front of me appears. I look back at the child who is running toward me and I start to walk toward the new scene, but the closer I got to the scene the more the scene moved further away. I guess I began to get too tired of what I just went through, because I faded to the black and opened my eyes to see my clock on my nightstand...7:46am.

I got up and lunged for my journal and wrote down all that I could remember. I have no idea why I am able to WILD in three's, but by the third one, my mental energy is shot!

A Special Thank you

To Canis Lucidis,
Thanks for sending me to Egypt, you (along with all the other facilitators, moderators, members, and friends) are appreciated.

WOW! I am pretty sure that I had 3 lucid dreams in one night!!! The first one wasn't very lucid, but the second one was more so and he third one was very but it ended straight away . My recall also got destroyed by me brother turning on the light 5 seconds after I woke up and walking noisely around my bed, but I'll write what I remember.
DREAM 1: (kinda lucid)
Length: average length
Detail: Average
Awareness: A bit more than average but not totally lucid
In this dream I remember walking through these tunnels and rooms in the this kind of chamber, and I remember something about being chased by something and having to solve puzzles and stuff. I got kinda lucid for a little bit bu this dream was early on so it just kind of faded away a little bit after that.
DREAM 2: (More Lucid)
Length: Average
Detail: Above Average
Awareness: more lucid but still not completely.
In this dream I was at my grandparents house preparing for lunch or dinner or something. I was undergoing some kind of training, and at some point the house changed into something different, and I kind of got lucid again. The direction of the dream changed, and I was put on this other training thing, and then stuff happened, I can't remember that part too well, then the dream faded (I'm surprised I didn't wake up with my bit of awareness there.)
DREAM 3: (non lucid)
Length: Long
Detail: Above average
Awareness: Minimal
This wasn't a lucid but it was a cool and long dream. In this dream my family and I were staying at a cross between a beach resort and a water park, right at the edge of one of the islands. The place was split into rectangular islands lines up in a row with paths and bridges connecting them. I remember walking along these going from one side to the other. I saw some fountains and pools and people in spas that were right up against the paths. I remember turning back for a bit, then getting a bit lost and kind of wandering around aimlessly. I don't really remember to much else, apart from really boring stuff or hazy stuff, but this dream was quite long. Again this dream just sort of faded out and merged into the next dream a bit.
DREAM 4: (Lucid yay!)
Detail: Average - Above average
Length: Short
Awareness: Close to full lucidity, if that makes sense. Ill explain soon.
So in this little dream at the end of the night I was dreaming about a kind of card game/rts kind of thing in real life where you move around the map with your guys and take over parts of the map to win, kind of like Dota 2 (which my friend has been obsessing over a bit) Then for an inexplicable reason I got lucid, but the dream scene blacked out and I started feeling my body more. I tried to stop thinking about that but the feeling got stronger, so in a last ditch I span around to try and keep the dream, but everything was shaking crazily and then I woke up. When I got lucid I had those few seconds of clarity, then it was almost like a fog was trying to stop me being lucid as I was waking up, but still retained consciousness, just that it was harder to keep it.

3rd person following a woman, and I'm aware this scene is about to become a nightmare, something involving a husband who came back from outer space wrong, carrying something inside him that will manifest in the house in strange ways, killing him and trapping her here. It's already starting to feel like a nightmare, so I take over and steer her toward the front door to change the scene. It takes two doors to leave the nightmare/house.

Outside, I'm my IRL self, and I'm walking out of the mansion I'm temporarily staying at, walking down to the road to see if my IRL sisters have arrived yet. I follow the road toward town, and I pass Tilda Swinton walking the other way and rubberneck shamelessly, walking backwards until she's out of sight. Eventually I come to a fair, where a few people are in costume, including myself, something patriotic-themed. I spot my sisters in the crowd but don't want them to recognize me while I'm in costume. The crowds push me into one of the tents showing various curiosities, and one of them, something about a man who fell from the skies, switches the scene to something more stable.

3rd person following a man who observed that if you trace every human interaction you've had throughout your life, and all the interactions those people had and so on, it creates a fractal pattern which he used to warp time and space around himself, condensing it all into a single point with himself at the center, the God of this world. The ground loops over his head to meet itself in a single vividly-colored sphere. Although he's the only creature that can exist in this sphere, there's a door through which he can watch or enter the old world at any point in time or space. The world's been completely transformed by his actions, all throughout its timeline. At the moment he's observing the writing systems that are developing. He's been translating the various markings that he's seen through the door, images made by different cultures throughout time and space, but as far as he can tell, none of them are using a written alphabet. All the markings translate into numbers.

He walks through the door into the same point in time/space that he'd originally lived, modern times. The place has been through something like an apocalypse as a result of his actions, but it's mostly recovered now. He seeks out a friend who'd tried to stop him, and they talk about the changes in the world, and about what's happened to his older brother's estate since the funeral. 'For a madman, he was alright,' the other man says.

Dream recall from today's naps

Dream 1(fragments):

I was typing up some DJ entries and then was discussing spirituality stuff with someone, then i started watching some let's plays and one was apparently let's play of old Spyro 2 game, except intro scene went kinda different and there was different draconic character instead of Spyro and some other new characters, they talked about learning how to use different forms of something. Then i was back at my room, i was about to realize the dream but it faded out and i wake up. I keep eyes closed and try to DEILD.

Dream 2:

I am suddenly in the forest, there's a huge tree, i think something about future i realized that i am dreaming and i have incredible temptation to make huge tree fall down(dunno why), and i literally will it to fall down, and as it does, ground shakes a bit.

Dream 3(fragments):

I was at home and i couldn't fall asleep for nap and i try to find something to do, suddenly Oreo comes in and we have some talk(that i can't recall much), then he leaves and H. apparently comes in and annoys me with some talk about glasses and leaves as well, and then comes back, talks about it again and leaves again. I stay confused for a few seconds.

Non Dream
Dream
Lucid

I don't remember how I got lucid (probably MILD) but I did. I was in the kitchen of a house with my brother in law and my crush. I tried to change things up a bit so I went into another room to summon another girl using my usual behind the hand trick. I couldn't summon anybody. I went back into the kitchen and went to my brother in law. He's real intellectual so I thought he would provide a more interesting answer. "What's the meaning of life?" I asked him. He said he knew and seemed confident. He started by saying "It's all about the pretty things" before talking about random stuff I couldn't understand. Then, he started talking about the anatomy of the earth itself. In the end, the final answer which I confirmed with him was that was the meaning of life is the earths core, mantle, crust, and all of the things on top. After that I decided to have a thumb war with my crush which she won with her small, quick little thumb. After that, I lost lucidity as indescribable nonsense and chaos (I won't bother) ensued before I woke up.

#206 - 4:00AM - SSILD

I am having some NLD talking to a female DC and changing clothes in front of her. I realize this doesn't make sense because the last thing I remember is rolling over to my right side doing SSILD cycles. I decide I have to be dreaming and start to wonder off but quickly remember the task. I go back into the bedroom of some version of a house I lived in once. The woman does not really look like anyone I know but I think she must be my wife. I say, "Hey, DC."
She is sitting on the edge of the bed in an all white night gown. She looks up at me and responds, "Yes?"
I quickly ask, "What is the meaning of life?"
Her answer, "Something good."
Knowing that this dream feels like it's about to collapse already, I turn away and say, "Thanks DC." I suddenly wake up.

(Technically lucid, in the sense that I clearly knew I was dreaming, but there was no more control than usual and no particular moment of becoming lucid that I remember, I seemed to have simply started out that way. Then again, I can't remember how this scene started. Background info: I recently read something claiming dreams usually don't include all 5 senses, mostly just sight.)

I want to test out that bit about how senses work in dreams, so I float up to my bedroom ceiling and run my fingers over the ridges of the plaster. My sense of touch seems to be working fine to me. I even break off a piece of the plaster and taste it - the taste is probably not what plaster really tastes like, and it's very bland, but the sense of taste is certainly present. I decide I need to wake up to write this down.

(And I did. Rather than being any more aware than usual, it seemed more like I'd unintentionally programmed my dream self to complete this task, and my dream self was just carrying out those orders, without me having to take any active control of the dream. I went back to sleep for a few more hours.)

I'm playing the role of Louis de Pointe du Lac and watching a performance of Les Miserables in french. The girl playing young Cosette reminds me a little of Claudia, which makes me remember the songs she used to sing around the house. Their voices are similar. But Lestat's distracting me, talking as we watch the performance, telling me about his run in with Daniel and how he'd given him that 'choice I never had' line. And then he says to me that really, that was something of a lie; Daniel was already 'for the blood' as he puts it, since he'd met me.

Date: 5th Aug

Total sleep time: 7 hrs<

Pre bed: Calcium&Magn, 100mg B6

Natural wakes: 6x, vivid dreams after each, lazy to record, also mislaid notebook

Early dream(+3 hrs?): a memory of a lucid, where I didn't do anything in particular? We were gathered on street around a fountain/pillar?

Dream: An emotional personal dream with a rather unpleasant outcome. Sadness and anger.

Dream: Sitting on the table of a local cafe. My high school classmates smoke cigarette after cigarette. I am thinking about that, blowing out clean air in front of me.

Dream: A bit like a FA, or was it a dream, this was more hearing the dream than seeing it. Mom is talking with dad that she regrets not noticing the details of her dream, because this is the third time she actually has a lucid.

LD: After trying to fall asleep for a while after the natural wake, I catch myself in the midst of a dreamlet. I see my bf already in the dream on the street, but I am still there more of a side spectator than an in-dream presence. My bf starts doing repetitive movements with his hands as if he is entering the dream as well. I concentrate and soon my hands and body appear in the dream. I have a little trouble moving, feel my body slightly paralyzed, but am relaxed about it and just wait. Bf gives me a hand and pulls me closer, which helps me become more solid. He is very friendly and nicer than most of his DC appearances and I wonder whether this could be a shared dream. I walk on the street for a bit, but things destabilize, then the dream is possibly back again. Memory gap?

I have no idea what happened but now am on the roof floor of a building with lots of kids around. I think I lost my lucidity or am quite distracted at this point. The kids are playing with two balloons, one red and one blue, and I am getting closer to the edge of the building as they almost throw one of the balloons too far. I have worries about falling down. Then I go over one of the kids and tell her to turn off/change the music. Here I regain my lucidity as I try to go down while I get a strange fear of heights. I conclude that when people feel this fear they enter a similar to the dream state while awake. Some sort of exaggerated anxiety mood.

I am now one floor below, with my bf and a number of DCs next to me. I decide to ask my bf about the meaning of life. Again, he looks more like himself here. At first he answers something about "going forward", which I very much like. I tell him to repeat it again but instead he says "I like going back and forward" and then blurts out "Money". This disappoints me a bit. I want to get more and better answers so ask another DC. This guy looks falsely familiar and initially gives me the impression I might have encountered a real dreamer as he begins to ponder the question. But then he just keeps repeating "mmm" and "mmmhum" and doesn't say anything. I am annoyed and feel the dream is slipping away as I have been waiting too long. The dream stops but instead of going through the void, I lose consciousness. It takes maybe about 10 seconds and I am back in the dream.

I was in some sort of a corridor before and now I go into the next room where there are a lot of DCs from my class. I want to ask once again, so I organize those DCs which are now around 20 to gather in front of me as if I am about to take a picture of them. I then make an intro and ask them what the meaning of life is. Lots of my classmates raise hands and I select K. who is smiling to answer. She starts a long speech about happiness. She doesn't say anything exciting, just tells me about her life. I have no more interest in getting the question answered. I then address the whole class and ask them if they know what a lucid dream is and if they have had one. A few try to say something, but it is really hard to concentrate as there are too many DCs in the room. I tell them that this is a lucid dream, but then begin to worry that I might actually be having a shared dream with someone and they might think I am crazy. I leave them to talk with one another. I lose consciousness again, the dream is back in a few seconds. (no void)

I am trying to think of more tasks when I see this pretty Asian girl maybe around 20 years old. I start having distracting side thoughts and want to get close to her but she looks scared and tries to run away. I relax a bit and so does she. She lies on my lap as I marvel her beautiful hair and caress her. When she stands up, I notice she is wearing a knee-length dress. I know it is a bad idea to do it temptation-wise, but I just can't resist and start licking her leg. (Yes, I have a problem!) I notice how super real her leg looks, feels and tastes (a bit salty). I am still considering whether I should fully indulge or try to remember and do other tasks, when the dream suddenly ends. I stay still, but am too wakeful to DEILD or fall asleep.

Comments: I did some quick reading related to neurotransmitters and noticed that B6 plays a role in the synthesis of five: serotonin, dopamine, epinephrine, norepinephrine and GABA. So, after the intake of B6 it is likely that my levels of these increase.The usual effects for me are earlier onset of memorable dreams (today first wake was at plus 3hrs), emotionally loaded dream contents (often aggressive DCs, sometimes me running away, i.e. fight or flight response, also some sexy moments), reduced sleepiness/increased alertness. After thinking about the effects, it looks like one neurotransmitter receives a significant boost and influences the overall mood of the dream - dopamine. I feel that this information finally coming to my attention is important as it increases my understanding of dream intensity and may help me eventually achieve better control during lds.

So the dream starts out with me walking home. Some guy pulls up in a truck. He looked sort of shady and he was carrying a gun. I then started trying to wake myself up.

Then I realized, wait, I'm trying to wake myself up? I tried to imagine the guy turning into some sort of a gummy bear. It worked, but it was more like a pile of green mush.

At this point I'm really exited, I start to remember the task of the month. Which is teach a DC something you don't know how to do. My thoughts were, my mom was a DC, so I would teach her something. I flew over to her work, then realized it was night time. I closed my eyes and tried to imagine the world being light out. It worked! My mom was pulling up in her van.

I stopped her at the door and said "I'm going to get you a better job, you hate your job." This was true, she complains about her job a lot. She smiled and said OK. We both got in the car and she started driving. She passed her grandparents on the street, and said "I'm going to be a flutist ". So then the problem of finding out something for her to do was over. I don't know a clue about the flute.

As we were driving down (it seemed like a short time) she veered off into the woods. I started freaking out but she remained un-phased as we flew through trees.

Yes. Through them.

I closed my eyes, for no apparent reason, then opened them just as quickly. We were in a new place! I had teleported! I then tried it again, only ending up at the same spot we were at 5 seconds ago. I tried it one more time, this time imagining a music place...

And then I woke up.

Damn it.

I guess I learned my lesson about how NOT to teleport.

But hey! I did:
Transform someone
Fly
Dilate time
Go through things
And teleport!

Oh, and fail at a task of the month.

Seems pretty good to me.

Type: WILD

I saw that I'm in a a sea beach and in about 0.5 km's away I saw one of Pyramid of Egypt in the sea
Then I decided to swim in that water. I had a good swimming experience in lucid dream. It was very real. I needed to take breath when I was under water
Image source: https://www.facebook.com/thepyramidsofegypt

Dream recall from today's nap. Lucid started with ultralow awareness and with each FA awareness got higher, though each FA also ruined my recall somewhat apparently.

Dream 1(fragments):

I was going to nap but there were some distractions, and then radio randomly started playing and i was trying to turn it off.

Dream 2:

I am doing some stuff at home, then i wake up in different room, take off headset and sound is still here, some DC starts distracting me and i think about my room. Dream fades out.
I wake up in my room, but it's different, also mom's here, i take off headset again, still hear sound and i feel headset still on me, i take off a few more headsets off my head and throw them on the floor. I go to balcony but door's closed, before i open it mom starts talking about something and slowly turns into that DC that attacked me before. Before i can do much i am teleported back to bed and some force binds me in place, DC says something about some video game and shows images from some platformer, i try to fight the force but dream fades out.
I wake up again, room is exactly the same as IWL, doubtful, i go to balcony and take off a few headsets, i am indeed still dreaming, suddenly outside changes greatly and i am now on balcony of some different building, which looks much older and much more interesting in structure. I take off and fly, i feel my wings. I fly along the wall and then under some kind of arch/bridge that links that building and some tower-like structure. I also try to do some other dream control, like summoning, but end up only making my voice really different. Then soon dream fades out.

LUCID

*I became lucid and got into a mortal kombat battle with some DC. I shot fire balls street fighter style. I also manifested a cup of water and threw it at him, random. I woke up. I went back to sleep with the intention to complete the TOTM.

*I became lucid in some random house. I reached into my pocket to take a lucid pill to make the dream stable, vivid and long lasting. I took two pills and the dream became clearer after that. I thought of the task of the month, so I found a random person and took them outside to show them how to fly. First I pointed to the sky saying look you can go in any direction even the stars. I noticed there was a planet similar to saturn, it suddenly exploded showering blue water everywhere. I thought wow that was amazing! I went back into the house to get my brother so he could fly with us. He took to long. The dream ended.

I'm running after people while people are running after me, I have trouble running, like I can't run fast enough, so I put my arms in instead of out confused as to why my arms were out in the first place, then I become aware and realize I am only running poorly because I am in a dream, and that I should be able to control my running now that I am conscious, so I try and suddenly I begin to speed up with swifter strides that are more deliberate and I begin to pass people, but then suddenly I am in my body (false awakening bit) and try to get back to sleep to continue lucid dreaming, but then my body get extremely itchy allover, so I give in and scratch, and then I do weird thing in my bed such as curling up so bad that my head is now on the other side of my bed but it seems so comfortable, and I get so frustrated that I can't reenter a dream and everything is distracting me, like suddenly my mom is standing at my window trying to look at me and I scream at her "what!" then she walks away, so I try again but realize I far to awake now, but then I fall into more dreams.

Non-Dream
Dream
Lucid

Making out with my crush has been a lucid goal for quite some time. I've been intending to summon her for a couple weeks but haven't remembered to do it till now.

Lucid #210-I was in my bed trying to remember a dream I had. I couldn't remember anything which was frustrating but also unusual as I've had above average recall lately. Something didn't feel right so I did a nose plug. I could breathe. I can't be dreaming, I thought. I must have not done it right. I did another nose plug and could breathe. I got up out of bed and turned to my backup reality check, which is flying. I went out of my room, down the hall, got a running start, and flew, phasing through the sliding glass door into the backyard before landing there. I thought this would be a nice romantic spot. I put my hand behind my back and called for my crush. My strategy was to wait for her hand and then hear her voice. I stood there for a few seconds before my patience ran out and I looked behind me. I could see somebody walking in the house. Then, the sliding glass door opened. The beautiful, young, short, blond girl with medium length straight hair came out. I summoned her perfectly. I gave her a hug, which she surprisingly refused at first, but eventually gave in. I woke up.

Darn those short lucids! Luckily it was early in the night and I still had time to get lucid again.

Lucid #211-I was waiting on a couple of old ladies. They reminded me that they had ordered the French onion soup. Darned soups! I keep forgetting about them! I tried to go to the kitchen to get their soup when I realized I wasn't at work, I was in a sporting goods store. I went back to the ladies and let them there wasn't any French onion soup because, you know, this wasn't a restaurant. They told me to go to Bundy (which I assume is a supermarket as I live by one named Lucky). I told them I would. I walked a safe distance away, making sure they weren't aware of me. I tried summoning my crush again, using the behind the hand trick. I waited for her soft little hand this time. When I felt it, I asked if it was her and she said it was. I turned around to find again I had summoned her perfectly. I hugged her again. This one was much better, a nice full body hug. We hugged for a few seconds. "Why don't you kiss me?" I asked her. She gave me a full kiss on the lips which was incredible. We then made out, kissing each other repeatedly as the dream faded away.

During the night I had been having dreams where I couldn't move at all or open my eyes very much. I had woken up and decided to lay there for a bit. Soon I had fallen it of bed and tried to stand up but whenever I did I fell down like lag in a video game. I held out my hand and tried to close the door without touching it, and it closed. I was dreaming!

I kept trying to stand up but it was still glitch isn't up. I wondered if this was happening cause I was in between the two worlds, awake and asleep. So I yelled "Fall asleep!" And I could finally move a little more. I yelled it again, and soon I could jump out the window. I jumped out and glided to the ground, the blinds were wrapped around me for a second, but were soon gone. I was finally outside.

I still didn't know how to fly but I looked up and like, brought my weight up and soon I was flying. I turned around to see the ground and saw that I was flying backwards so I got a little scared that I might crash and turned back forward. I controlled my flying by tipping my shoulders to the way I want to go, and how much I tipped the, was how much I would turn.

I was flying around for like five seconds when I heard a lawnmower and I saw someone mowing their lawn. I flew over to him and pick him up by his armpits, and started to sing "A Whole New World" suddenly an Arabian man appeared and started to sing in the background with me. I realized my voice sounded awful so I shouted "Play A Whole New World" and amazingly it started playing after about a minute, the guy faded out and so did the music and the scene slowly shifted into a pure white building with rafters.

I left the building which turned into my local mall. I saw a girl from my school hanging out with a girl I didn't know, and I went over to her and started to feel her breasts. I lifted her shirt up, and started to kiss her but I started waking up. Before I realized it I had woken up and almost yelled "Fall asleep" but it was too late.

Lesson here is that I cannot have dream sex ever, cause this always happens. This is also my first one in a couple weeks, so I broke my dry spell.
I also have if this was a WILD or a DILD or what...