lucid

LD 21: I tried a couple WILDs but had finally drifted off after the second one. I had got deep into some HH effects and started to be able to visualize my hands, then some how started a non- lucid dream that I don't really recall. I aproached a door at some point and a big lion came running out past me. I jumped back and did my levitation RC. Yep, I floated up into the air. I had that feeling that I was about to wake from the shock, so I decided to do something memorable as quick as I could. I turned into some kind of big cat but only as a image of a cat. I did not spend time with the transformation to really feel like a cat. I ran straight up a wall as a cat then pushed off doing a back flip and landing where I started. I quickly did it again. The very bazaar experience seemed to accually stablize the dream. Random imagery had place a big bath tub full of water in my path. I never tried to change back to human, it just happened when the tub distracted me. I said out loud to no one inpaticular, that I would make a geiser happen (water-bending) I focused on the sirface and as I pictured my energy reaching out and grabbing the water, it started moving around. I made waves and a big slaps rise out of the middle, I did the whole thing again. I said out loud, "see that's pretty cool." A womans voice responded, "that is not really a ggeiser, now is it?" Ok I put more focus into bending the water into a real geiser. I worked and looked good; it was about 3 feet high bubbling out of the tub.
She says "Ok, now what does that look like?" I lost focus and the geiser stopped, "it looked like a geiser." She asks, "why would your mind have randomly chose to do that? It is trying to remind you of something, think what it looks like." I made tthe geiser again and realized it looked like the base of an atomic bomb blast. OH! I had wanted to complete one of the tasks of the year, and had choosen to watch the atomic bomb test. Ok, how to go about it? I looked around and most of the scene was just unfilled in, so I tried to imagine what I should see. I knew they had trenches so I tried to some up trenchs with people inside and it started to form. Now, there would be something in the distance every one was looking at, maybe a small tower, plus they had cheap building set up to see the damage. All of these things started to form.
I suddenly was aware of my real lifee body and the pictures started to fade. I had never really to the time to stablize! Darn, I looked at my hands and rubbed my hands across my foore arms, they started to fade. I still felt a dream body so I tried dancing around blind pumping my elbows and knees. That kept me lucid for a few more seconds, but I ended up waking. Dur~4-5 min

3/5/12

DILD

I am hanging out in my room with a bunch of people. There are a few instruments and amps lying around. I pick up a bass and start playing with it. Every song that I try to play, I somehow find the right notes on the first try. As I do well, people are getting into it. Paul grabs a guitar. Two other people show up that I don't know. One guy grabs my saxophone and starts getting it set up. I am kind of grossed out by the mouthpiece but I hadn't played it in years anyway.

While setting up my sax, he finds something on a shelf. It is an old top hat. He grabs it and asks what it is. I run forward and grab it from him before he did anything. I said its a genie. As I rub the hat, I proclaim, "I wish this was a genie!" And the genie from aladdin came out. Everyone is amazed.

I realize I can fly with the genie's help. I grab my bass and amp and look to the sky. The genie gives me flying ability so I get in the superman position and take off. I land on the corner of Lake and Kenilworth and set my amp up. I start playing as a street performer. Some old lady says, "you should get a real, crappy job." I replied, "I have a crappy job; I do this for fun." She laughs hysterically as she walks away.

I finally become lucid. I look the sky and take off again. I get really high and try to level out flying forward. I end up just rotating my body in the air, as I start to lose altitude. I turned it into a big sweeping turn and I am flying close to the ground. I am going over grass and fences. I try to fly back high, but I crash.

No biggie, Ill just take back off again. I jump up and hit some netting. There is barbed wire about me. It is a white wire and has barbs, even though it doesn't hurt me. I look around and try to find gaps, but they are closing. I climb a tree, trying to get about the netting but that fails. I find out that my dad is behind all this. He is trying to trap me. I never get to escape before waking up.

3/5/12

DILD

The dream started with South Park animation for a bit and from 3rd person view. The earth had become inhabitable. We lived in some pods that are floating on top of the earth's atmosphere. Eventually, this becomes too polluted to live in also. Everyone gets into their ships and leaves. There isn't enough room for me and like 4 other people.

We are left in this space ice rink. I feel that we are going to die in awhile so I just screwing around. There is a car on the ice so I get in and start driving. The control isn't too bad. I can hit the handbrake and do 360s pretty easily. I would drive up to a cone and 360 around it.

I walk out to the outside of the ice rink. I am looking at the glass back in. Zak is there and starts to climb up the glass. I do the same thing. There is a bubble covering over the ice rink and I climb to the top. We see some guy who is God leaving the rink.

I become lucid and try to have sex with God's wife. She is also on top of the ice rink. I get into it for a bit and it fades to black.

I hold onto the tactile sensations and make it back in the dream. I wander around looking for another girl. I find one and start screwing around before I wake up.

Lucid Dream:

I had been talking to someone about this show that would be filming in an area close to where I lived. It was something that I thought would be shown on Discovery Channel.

Then I am at the place where they are filming. I am sitting at a table. It is a kids' show. There are a couple other moms there with their preschool aged children. I am sitting by myself, but I decided that I didn't care. I wanted to be there and was enjoying what everyone was talking about (which I no longer remember).

Later, after the filming, I asked where this was taking place at. I felt odd asking that question. Shouldn't I know where I was? I had to have gotten here somehow. The lady told me, "PJ Island, Utah." I repeated that a couple of times...."PJ Island...Utah??"

And then it hit me. No wonder things weren't making sense.

This is a dream.

I announced to the two ladies that were still there that this was a dream. I flew a few feet in the air to show them. I then flew back down to one of the moms. I asked her what her name was, It was Stephani B--something. I said, "Stephani--come fly with me...and later when we are awake we can talk about how cool this was, okay?"

So I got her flying a little in the air. Then a little girl who was about 4 wanted me to help her fly. I went to pick her up. She was extremely heavy. I tried to get her in the air, but the best I could do was to jump and slowly land. I was a little frustrated. Usually people I fly with are instantly weightless. But I did this for a little while because it was at least somthing the little girl could enjoy.

And that's all I remember.

This was one of those dreams where I was a little mixed up in my thinking. Even those I knew that it was a dream, I was sure that Stephani was dreaming with me and that I would somehow meet up with her later to discuss this experience.

I was at some kind of an airport or something. I ended up seeing this short-haired blonde. Something about her wasn't that attractive, but something about her was very attractive. I think she was in my mind from someone I met at a Publix the other day.

She ended up leaning into me. My face was it her hair and by her neck. I was so close to her neck with my lips for so long. I was nervous to kiss her, or to even touch her neck with my lips, but she stayed right there. I got a little closer. Her neck was right there at my mouth.

I finally just barely touched her neck with my lips. It was wonderful. Then my grandparents were looking down from a window high up in the wall. My grandfather said something. I said, "Yes sir" hoping my respect would instill mercy for being "naughty" or whatever.


I was then outside at my friends house. I realized I was dreaming. I was with a beautiful woman, though I couldn't see her face. I started makinglove to her. I slapped her in the face as an RC. I continued making love to her. I looked down at her, which I never do in my lucids. I wanted to stabilize, so I slapped her again. I should have just rubbed my hands together.

Soon the International Police were buzzing around and they were after my friend. He stayed in his garage. I couldn't believe they were after him. I asked him, "This is real isn't it." It was in fact an FA. He said, "Yes, this is real."

I ended up trying to imagine myself making love again, but I thought I was awake and couldn't get back into the dream. RRRRR.

03/05/12

Countdown
I am in a space ship of some kind, and I am holding a very small explosive device. In spite of its small size, I know it will pack a lot of power if it is allowed to explode. I am trying to disarm the bomb, which is quite difficult considering the size and the fact that one wrong move will make it explode. I am moving a tiny wire carefully through a conduit when I accidently touch the wire to the side of the conduit… and BOO… no… I immediately load a "save game" from before the bomb exploded. Basically I go back in time a few minutes to try again. This time I am successful and I disarm the bomb. I hear someone laughing on the communications screen. There is a man there saying it did me no good, he has another bomb. He holds it up to show me, and it is an identical bomb to the one I just disarmed. He is being quite careless with it. He is shaking it in my face when it goes off. The screen goes blank, and I know the idiot just blasted himself into subatomic particles.

Fight Night
I am in an underground are where I am investigating a ring of illegal extreme fighters. They are known for getting fighters off the street and having them fight to the death. Some of the fighters are there of their own free will, others are coerced and forced into it. I am watching a fight, and one of the two combatants punches the other one in the face. The punch is so hard that I can both see and hear that the man's jaw isn't just broken, but shattered. I get in the way before the attacker can finish the job by killing the injured man. The man asks me what the fuck I think I'm doing, this is no place for a woman, get out of the way! I tell him if I can kick his ass, he has to let the other man live. He laughs at me and says if that happens, he'll give up fighting for good. I don't think he really expects me to try it… but I do. I fight the man, using the extra strength and martial arts skill I have in the dream state. And I kick his ass solidly. He and all the audience are stunned, clearly they had all set bets against me. I go over and heal the man with the broken jaw, he says he just wants to get home to his family. He leaves quickly. The crowd is still staring at me, stunned, when I wake up.

Hawaii Five-O
I am on a beach in what seems to be Hawaii, or at least it looks like the setting of Hawaii 5-O. Complete with Steve and Danny right there with me. I am staring at Steve, who is Alex O'Loughlin, and he is sooooo hot! I'm not sure what has happened to me, but it seems I am in need of having an IV hooked up to me. Danny is the one doing that, and I notice that the needle hardly hurts at all when he puts it in. I am then given the bag of stuff that has to be put into my body. I don't know what it is, but the fluid is red. It looks like red Kool-Aid. I am not paying much attention to that, just holding it up as Danny has instructed me, and I am staring at Steve. He is shirtless. I wonder if I might be drooling.


Sephiroth
I won't go into detail about this one, but I wanted to make note of the fact I had one of the most intense and memorable sex dreams ever! It was a hot and wild one with Sephiroth!


Midnight Storm
I am at the house I used to live in about 15 years ago, and I am sitting at my computer writing a program for a game. I am looking at the code on the screen and trying to find the source of an error. Outside, a thunderstorm is raging on. The thunder is so loud it really sounds more like bombs falling outside the house. It sounds so realistic that I finally get up from my seat and look out the back door, which has a nice view of the city below. I half expect to see the city in flames with bombs falling and exploding. Of course it is fine, and there are spectacular bolts of lightning flashing through the night. I look at the time, it is almost 1:00 in the morning. My mom will be home soon, though I don't remember where she has gone at this time of night. But she will come home hungry. I set to making some breakfast sandwiches. The sandwiches consist of toast with a light layer of mayo, a fried egg, a couple strips of bacon, and a small pancake. I make up two sandwiches for each of us. My mom comes in just as I am finishing. I go to cut one of the sandwiches in half with a knife but I discover it has already been cut. Did my mom do that, or did I do it without really thinking about it?

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Good morning! I think I just had the best dream ever to get my motivation going again. A few months back when I was at the peak of my LD'ing rate I had a very freaky dream in which I met this mysterious man. I met him last night again and I've decided to confront him face to face. I need to train myself in dream control first though and I've decided to let nito89 help me out. Here's a piece of another old LD I had in which I met a strange DC and the dream I had last night. The cool part is that he looks just like the guy from "Dragonage 2."

The next vehicle comes up, this time I'm stopping it before it reaches me. I hold up my hand and the horse cart (?) stops just infront of me with a screech. An old man is sitting on the horseless cart. He's got a black hat pulled down, covering his face. He smiles at me in a mysterious way. I lift the cart up and position it away from the road and push it away with my mind.

Possible first encounter?

07.10: Monica? DEILD - OLD
I'm waking up from my previous dream when I decide to give DEILD a go. I quickly enter SP as I can feel my arms twitching like I'm having a seizure. My hands squirm around and I'm sure if someone saw me in bed, they'd see me flailing around. I try to relax as much as possible. I can hear heavy gusts of wind blow in my ear. 'Perfect, getting closer.'

I hear the door open and close. 'Oh crap no! Monica's home already, I hope she does what I told her and don't disturb me.' I lie still and try different ways of making this SP into a dream already. I try visualizing but it doesn't work. Apparently Monica's going to cook something and she rattles with the silverware. It sounds like they're just next to my ear. I lie still and just wait.

"Hey babe!" she says and sits down on my stomach. I moan and hope it'll pass through to my real body. By this time I figure I can still hear what's going on in real life. "What was that?" she asks me and starts to crunch down on some salad. I can see a tiny bit of her through a slit in my eye. Once again I figure I'm still in SP but can sense the real world. "Let me sleep" I mumble.

'Phew, didn't wake up.' "What? You don't want me to do this?" she asks me and starts rocking the bed. I can feel my body starting to slide down towards the floor. "Weee!" she says and I land on the floor with a "thump." I still haven't woken up and I figure it's time to break loose.

I force open my eyes and I'm in the dream! In my room, exactly where I thought I was. I get up and grab a pair of pants from the sofa and a shirt from the table and put them on. 'Time for some exploring.' I head towards the door but when I reach it, I hesitate. I remember reading that some people have reported seeing their own bodies sleeping in bed, I've never seen that. I head back into the living room. Monica stands up with her salad. I look behind her on the floor and can see my body lying halfway under the bed. It's covered in papers and some salad. 'Awesome!'

"Hey, where are you going?" Monica asks me. "I'm going out exploring" I tell her, my voice is strained and a bit louder than a whisper. "But you have to look at these papers first" she says and tells me to sit down. "Wait, can you still hear me?" I ask her. "Uhm, yeah?" 'Hmm, she can probably still hear my real body mumbling the words I speak in the dream' "That's weird" I say and sit down. I take a look at the papers, it's full of hieroglyphs.

"Okay so this is not a dream?" I ask. "Nope, not a dream" she says. "Here, I'll prove it to you." I say and grab a paper. "Write me ten symbols and I'll guess which one you point at." She thinks I'm stupid and asks me how I could do that. "When I wake up silly, I'll tell you which one you pointed at." At this point a little dream logic enters the dream. By reading about Out of Body Experiences, you can pick a card from a deck and then name that card when you wake up, and it'll be the same card.

"But you're already awake!" she tells me, clearly annoyed. "Oh yeah? Then explain to me who that is?" I ask and point at my body lying on the floor. I can see that the question really disturbed her, like a computer that can't come up with an answer. I can practicly see the "Error" signs in her eyes. She turns her head halfway with a sly smile.

A wind from nowhere makes all the papers she's holding fly around in the room and obscures my vision of her for a second. She holds up one remaining paper over her face when it all settles down. The last paper goes away and I realise the person I have been talking to, isn't Monica, it's a dark haired man with white skin and a short trimmed beard.



I freak out. "WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU?!" I yell and grab his throat as hard as I can. We both fall down to the floor.

Ever since I had this dream I've wanted to discover what he wanted. I didn't exactly get good vibes from him, and last night I had a semi-lucid with some dream control and he was in it.

10.30: Sleep

05.30: Challenge
I'm walking down a corridor looking for some people. The walls and floors are made out of shiny wood. A room appears to my right and I look into it. There are two people there, a pale, dark haired man and his light haired disciple.



They're the ones I've been looking for. I thrust out my hands and jump back. I run down the corridor and enter my own room. "They're coming" I tell a few people in it. The two guys chasing me runs past and I thrust out my hands once again to block out their attack with telekinesis.

The dream skips. I'm now outside of the building and only the light haired guy is there. "You need to practice your control more" he tells me. "Oh yeah, can you do this then?" I ask and put my hand on his head, probing it with healing powers. I get a mental imagine of a shining ball of light, with loads of darkness surrounding it, hiding from me. "You're evil to the core" I tell him and remove my hand. He brings out a book. It's some kind of lucid instruction book. I flip a few pages and end up at a page with a few tiny trolls on it. "That's easy" I say and summon three of them infront of me. I can't manage to summon their queen though. "You know what you need to do then? You just pay one of them some money to become one" he tells me. I guess he's referring to passive control.

05.30: Wake up

Amount of sleep: 7 hours

Supplements: 100 mg L-Theanine

That's it! I know it wasn't much and that they didn't try to kill me but I know they're up to no good. I'm confronting them, and nito is going to help me out. Hereby begins my training.

Keep on dreaming, HARE BRA!

Sometimes I hate living with 2 people. They always get up early. My partner either moves or shifts position or an alarm goes off. It's really disruptive to my dreaming. Thankfully both of them had to leave early today and I was by myself for most of the morning and I was still tired enough to go back to sleep.

I am with Ashley and a group of random friends I don't know. We are going out to a club. When we get there it reminds me of one of the "open-minded" clubs that I go to where I live, where all sexual orientations and a wide range of flavors of people go - Everyone from goths to punk-kids. We go to the second floor. My sister hands me a beer. I down it pretty quickly, and then someone else gives me a cocktail (rum and coke) that I also suck down.Surprisingly I actually feel quite drunk in the dream after that - so much so that I feel like I need to sit down. I stupidly end up sitting at the edge of the stairs with my legs sticking out. A girl comes around the corner and then trips over my feet. She lands on a group of people who are also heading downstairs and they all tumble over. The girl I tripped gets up and comes over to me quickly.

"Don't worry it's not your fault. It's really theirs for not knowing how to prevent themselves from falling," she says.

(Wow, my subconscious really does try to shift the blame!) Another girl who fell that was with the group of people also walks up to me.

"Nice job," she looks angry, "Idiot!"

I don't say anything to her, I just walk over to a fire-pole, and slide down to the first floor. I hear her call my name as she throws something down at me. It hits me in the head. Before I can look to see what it is the dream ends and I am awake.

I turn over....annoyed that I didn't become lucid. I figure this is a good time to try WBTB. I close my eyes and concentrate.

Suddenly I am back in the club. I hear this really cool music. It sounds like a punk girl band. I am pretty impressed that my mind can make this stuff up. Then the dream fades again.

I am back in my bed and I decide I have to do it again.
This time it's harder though. I close my eyes and I can feel my head coming out of my body. Everything is black but I can feel the process. First my head, then my arms. I basically feel like I climb out of my real body. I try to concentrate on going back to the cave where I met that mysterious DC who knew about lucid dreaming. It doesn't quite work. The dream scene appears and I am in a nice village with lots of small streams and ponds. I start flying. For some reason I feel like the cave would be located next to the ocean. But there is no ocean around..and I wake up again.

Even though the dream was kind of boring. It was my first WBTB so I note it as a big achievement and had to post it on here.

Last night was a bunch of random mess dreams because I took Nyquil before bed (my cold goes from being tolerable, to better, to bad... I can't wait for it to actually go away and stop faking me out!) The nyquill knocked me out so hard that I fell asleep trying to get my daughter to sleep, before I even put her in her bed. But, I managed to have my first ever lucid where I stayed int he dream long enough to control it and everything It was AWESOME!

Dream One: The earliest point of this dream I can remember I am at my great aunts house. She has a couple of shirts with butterflies on them and a matching pair of plaid shorts. She's giving them to me because she thought I'd like them. I really do love them and wonder how she had such good taste as older people usually don't pick out stuff younger people like very well. I get in my grandma's truck and we are on our way home. We pass a house that has some sort of plastic fence like structure and Grandma asks me about it. I explain it's to keep the kids in the yard without having to worry about small critters and nosy neighbors bothering them. I briefly think I'd love to have something like that so I could keep the neighborhood kids out of our yard and keep my kids from seeing them and wanting to play with them. Then Grandma starts talking about her old house, the one I grew up in that she had to sell back in 2007. She starts saying that it was the house my grandfather built (I know he designed it, and it was their dream home, but she was only able to buy it after he died and she used his life insurance to buy it) and she was saying that if the people who bought it ever wanted to demolish it she wouldn't stand for it. She says this several times before I wake up. It's dark when I wake up and I am so sleepy I fall immediately back to sleep without noticing my daughter is still in the bed with me.

Dream Two: In this dream I am a teacher at a school for special needs children. I am trying to get a little girl to sleep (the little girl is a special needs child I grew up with at my school. She tried to hug me once, and ended up knocking me down and breaking my arm. I was always a bit nervous around her after that, sort of scared I'd get hurt again. In the dream though I'm much bigger and she's still small so I'm not afraid of her) Me and another teacher are trying to get her to sleep, but she keeps wiggling and moving. The other teacher tells me that she's already given the girl two milligrams of Mirror Mist (whatever that is? At least my dream made up a pretty name, lol) and that if she doesn't go to sleep soon we'll have to give her something else. Then I wake up and realize that my daughter is asleep in my bed and the wiggling and kicking I felt was my daughter wiggling and kicking me because she didn't have enough room to sprawl out wedged between my husband and me. I put her in her bed, so throws her arms and legs out taking up the whole bed, and doesn't make anymore noise the rest of the night

Dream Three: I'm in a cab with a guy, I think to myself he reminds me of the architect guy in how I met your mother, and it's been a few years since I've seen that show. I don't know who he is, but he acts like my friend so I play along. We get out of the cab and we're at a bar. When we walk in everyone looks right at us. The place is dark and there are multicolored lights flying all over the place like a dance club or something. I notice the music playing is Sailor Moon! And I'm wearing a sailor moon back pack! Awesome, no wonder everyone is staring at me. I'm either the coolest person in this place, or the lamest. We make our way to a seat in the back of the club, and there's a little girl with pink hair there. I say hey to her like I know her, and she starts saying she wants to wear a costume too, and points to a stage. Suddenly the bar is actually an amphitheater, and it's located at the lake in front of my dad's family's cabin. I tell the little girl to shhh, that we are wearing costumes, normal people costumes. I tell her this is a disguise so people won't know she's really a sailor scout! She seems happy with this response, and I realize she's Rini, Sailor Mini Moon! (Sorry peeps, I grew up on the dubs, never saw the subs!) Then the little girl starts to go bug a girl a few chairs over. She wants a drink, and the girl is saying she'll get it, but Rini wants to get it herself. The girl gets mad and tells Rini she's impossible, then I call to Rini and tell her she should ask me for a drink and wink to her hoping she'll get the idea that I will let her do it herself. She comes back over, but before I get her a drink Sailor moon calls from the stage that there is a demon at this concert! Then she calls to Rini asking her if she wants to exercise it. Rini says no, she is thirsty and needs a drink, but sailor moon isn't paying attention because she just goes on saying, "You don't want to do it because you are the demon! I'm going to sing a beautiful song to exercise you!" and then she sings a song. I remember thinking in the dream that the song was so pretty, and I grab hands with the guys sitting beside me. The guy on my left is my husband and he squeezes my hand, and i in response squeeze the hand in my left. I turn to see who it is, and its someone I don't know, but he reminds me of this Cherokee guy I had a crush on in high school. He smiles weakly at me, and I feel sad for him. I turn to look behind us because I see some flashes of color. There are several native american looking guys dressed in nothing but body paint walking behind us into a large gate. I get the feeling that behind the gate is some sort of promised land, or some place special to these people. The guy follows my gaze and looks at the gate longingly. I squeeze his hand and bring my face to his ear and whisper to him "you'll get there some day, I know you will!" A tear falls from his eyes and he says thank you, he hopes so. Then the song is over, and my husband isn't happy my face is so close to another man. I try to play it off, and the whole crowd starts lineing up. Suddenly I'm part of a class, and my husband and the other guy who was holding my hand are fighting. The teacher yells at them, "All right, the two of you are going to jail! This is the last time your going to fight like this!" Then I wake up again.

Dream Four (LUCID!): I'm in the car with my husband. I think we're going to a store. Instead, we end up at a house with an old man. We get out of the car, and my husband is carrying a box, telling me he has to drop this off. The old man lets us inside, and my husband gives him the box. The old man opens the box, and inside it are my kids favorite DVDs. My husband is saying these are movies we don't want anymore and that he hopes the old man's grand kids will enjoy them. I get mad and tell my husband those are the kids favorite DVDs, how dare he give them away without consulting me first, because I would never have allowed it in the first place! Then I storm out of the room and outside. Somehow, as I'm storming off into the woods, I realize wait, am I dreaming? I stop in the middle of the road, and think to myself, this has to be a dream. I don't remember how we got in the car, the kids aren't with us, this must be a dream! I decide to test it out and run through the woods. When I run the woods fly by me like a tunnel or like the flying stars screen saver from the computer I had as a kid. It's awesome. I stop, and decide this is a dream, so I'm going to look for K. Then I think to myself, before I do, I'm going to go back to that house, see what I look like, and try to dress nice and tell my husband off while I'm at it! I run back through the woods again, getting that tunnel vision woods again. I notice the trees look black, and the background looks brown, similar to a note book I have. It's really cool. I stop and I'm in front of the house again. There's a tricycle in the yard against the house. Thinking I'm going to test this dream thing one more time to be sure, I push the trike against the wall thinking to myself, "It's going to go right through the wall as long as I believe it will." And it does! It gives me a bit of resistance when there's only an inch or two of the seat left to pass through the wall, but i give it a good push and it completely disappears into the wall. SO FREAKING AWESOME! Then I remember I'm mad. I storm inside and find my husband sitting in a recliner chair, and I walk right up to him and tell him, "Your just a dream. I don't have to put up with your crap right now! I'm not even going to bother fussing at you for giving away those dvds because you're not worth it. Instead, I'm going to dress up and go find someone who makes me happy in my dreams!" I then try to concentrate on changing my clothes. I can't seem to do it. It feels like my bandana is different, but I can't change my shirt and pants. I look in a mirror. I'm wearing a blue checkered print shirt that has puffy sleeves and the front is all sewn with elastic (i think the term is smocked?) so it's clingy but stretchy. The shirt doesn't cover my stretch marks and that bugs me, I try again to put on my favorite black dress that also has smocking but as it's a dress it doesn't show any belly! No luck, so I'm just like, fuck it, it's a dream, no biggie if I look weird. I'm sure I've worn even weirder in my dreams. I walk over to the telephone, it's one of the old kin that you set the receiver in little hooks above the rounded square phone. Luckily the numbers are buttons not rotary! I pick it up. I want to call K, so I wonder how I can. I decide I'll just press the numbers that correspond with the letters in his name. Oddly enough, it's actually the right number of digits in real life. The phone rings, and then I hear him say, "Hello?" I say, "Hey it's me!" he sounds confused for a minute, "Who? Wait, M...? B is that you?!" (note here, my real name starts with an M, but I go by a shortened version of my middle name, which is why dream peeps always refer to me as B ) I excitedly reply, "Yes! I'm lucid! I'm actually lucid dreaming right now! Can I come visit you?" his voice on the other line says, "Sure! I'd love to see you!" I'm thrilled. Then I realize, I'm not exactly sure how to get there, so I ask the telephone, "Hey wait, can you like come and get me or something? I don't know how to get there!" There's silence. The phone is dead. I start to think he probably doesn't have a car and can't come get me. The I realize this is a dream, why would he need a car? I hang up the phone, and then decide to walk outside and try to figure something out. I start to walk, and remember that supposedly you can make someone or something appear in a dream if you expect it to be around the next corner or something. So I decide to try and give it a shot. The trees become a wall, but then I realize that all the trees are walls, so I am suddenly in an endless hallway. Crap, how can I reach a corner if the hallway is endless?! Then I remember the trike, and think, "what if I walk through the wall expecting his house to be on the other side?" It's worth a shot, so I start to put my hand through the hall first, not wanting to faceplant in it. It's like the mirror scene in the matrix at first, the wall wobbles in round circles like thick gooey water. It looks weird because the walls are yellow and brown pin stripped wall paper, really ugly, lol. Then I step right through it and I'm standing in a kitchen. It's got linoleum floors made to look like tile, but obviously fake. Theres a stove and fridge and sink on the wall I just walked through, then in the middle of the room is a table with three chairs facing a tv on the far right wall. I see a guy sitting at the table. My first thought is it's no K. I just don't get that feeling that it's him. Something seems off. But I notice my hands are filthy, they've got wall paper goop on them still even thought it's not anywhere on the rest of me. The guy says hey, and i say hey back. I walk to the Sink and see no hand soap, but there is some green dish detergent so I decide to use that to wash my hands. I notice then that his hair is much, MUCH shorter than it should be. I ask him as I wash my hands, "why's your hair so short?" He responds without looking at me, just staring at the TV, "it's easier for spying." My dream self knows this make sense, if your a spy you want to be as unmemorable as possible. I don't recall him being a spy though. I dry my hands and go to look at him once more. I notice his hair has turned bright pink! My jaw drops for a second, then I remind myself this is a dream, and something's definitely not right here. I walk over to the chair he's sitting in and I as K if he knows this is a dream. He says yes. I ask him if he is lucid. He says no. He doesn't even look at me, just stares at the TV. I'm really frustrated because I think I walked through that wall expecting to find K, so he should be K, but he isn't. He doesn't feel like him, he doesn't look like him, he doesn't act like him. WHat did I do wrong? Then I think maybe it is K, but because it's a dream I've got to get through to him to wake him up or something. I decide to straddle him in the chair, that'll get his attention. No luck. I grab his face with my hands and pull it up to look at me and not the TV. He has a blank look like he's looking right through me. The chair suddenly has rollers and he rolls the chair towards the tv. Frustrated, I lean backwards so my head is upside down and I can see what he's looking at. It's the stupid TV! I close my eyes tightly because I'm getting so frustrated. I wanted to get lucid so I could get some answers from K, but I'm getting no where even though I'm supposed to be in control. Suddenly I lose everything. I 'm no longer in the chair, I'm just seeing black and swirling colors. I realize I'm awake just seeing swirling colors of my eyes closed. Damn. But wow! That was an amazing experience. I can not wait for my next lucid! I'm going to try not to waste it looking for K and answers, but instead see what other cool things I can do. I feel so bold and empowered in the dream, like it didn't matter what I said so I could tell anyone exactly how I felt and do whatever I wanted. And, I was totally blown away by how real it all felt. I really felt like I was awake, even though I knew I was dreaming, everything was so real. Enough random squeals of how awesome this was, I'm sure most peeps on this sight are past that sense of wonderment. Last time I'll say it, this was awesome

I don't remember the order of all my dreams last night, so I'm just going to itemize what I remember.

1. The Russians who hacked DV turned to be the ones who made the DreamViews.org site as well, in order to trick us. Everyone was soooooooooo sad, I felt horrible. That's all I remember from that fragment. That and being relieved when I woke up briefly from it hehe.

2. I randomly became lucid in the middle of a dream, a DILD due to WBTB. I was in the small, cozy fire-lit living room of a cabin way up in some mountains. There were a few nameless people on the sofa, and I pondered some lucid sex, but then I thought naaaah, I want to try something else for a change. Of course I forgot them all in the moment (of course), so I just defaulted to flying. Unfortunately I suffer from vertigo sometimes, even in a lucid dream when I know it's not real. I get that woozy feeling in my stomach that's unbearable. So I rarely fly, or jump high, or jump from great heights in LDs. Which is unfortunate, because after I got back down, I went to this large window in the room, opened it, and about 50 - 100 feet below was this vast, icy tundra. It was dusk, so everything looked blue and silvery. And cold cold cold. I wanted to explore it SO BAD, but.... vertigo. Also, after I flew, I started to lose the LD because the vertigo sensations were causing me to lose lucidity. So I stopped, spoke my 'more lucidity please' mantra. Looked down at my hands, and went to my ever obedient lucid mirror. I looked close, opened my eyes really wide like I always do, but this time it was a bit different. Instead of the pupils shrinking down to the size of pinholes, they were slits, like a cat's or a snake's. And instead of that glittering, emerald color, they were golden yellow. I laughed to myself and said, "Wow, I just had a Voldemort moment."

3. I left that room at some moment, and ended up in a room that was completely dark. I yelled "Lights" .. "Light PLEASSE" .. "Let There Be LIGHT" .. even "FIRE!!!" But it wouldn't light up. So I kept walking and ended up in the same living room, same boring people on the sofa. I turned around and saw a bright kitchen. I went to the kitchen and saw a pretty brunette preparing food on and island counter. I thought, meh, why not. I did her in 3 different positions, but I didn't get off. Mainly because I don't really like women as much as I like men I guess hehe.

4. Then some dream fragments that I may add later but I gotta go make lunch.

That's all.

My recall's starting to get pretty poor, I think I need to start reading up on some ways to increase it, and also some lucid stabilization guides. I had two lucids, but it seems like every time I have one that lasts more than a few seconds it's spent fighting the dream to keep it alive, and often failing, and I don't get to focus on anything like finding Linkzelda41 or exploring powers. :T Hmm.... (Though, I guess I did get to briefly attempt one thing that would be useful for that this time, but it didn't really work.)

Fragment - "K, tripping, freak out fan on/off, zombies, his phone too warm."

Fragment - "Giant valley filled with water, pink Star Fox fighter battle, on DS. Water level dropped at end."

#1 - Fight To Survive [MILD]

I'm in high school with O and D, a history class I think, and our teacher is giving us a lesson along with some humongous white snake with no eyes that still somehow stares into your soul. Some guy in class was browsing the internet (on his laptop I guess, kind of hard to remember) instead of paying attention, so the snake caused him to become a cartoon and switch bodies with a female anthropomorphic bunny. o_o After class we're getting ready to leave as if class was totally normal, and I became lucid after talking to them about the snake. O walks through a door with some girl on the way out (like literally, they phased right through it) and I follow him (phasing through the door as well, the first lucid power I actually had to work to get good at, and can now do flawlessly ) to try to get him to come back but he still walks off. I decide to open the door to change where it leads to, and it kind of works but not really, it just leads me to a different school hallway. The dream starts to fade so I start rubbing my hands together and feeling the walls and looking all over the place for new input but it's not really working, so I jump forward and start licking the wall as well, three senses stimulated! It doesn't taste as bad as I would have imagined, just sort of neutral. I start walking down the wall (never removing my hands or tongue from it) trying to find something to do, and the dream clearly doesn't want to last. My limbs are slowly failing as if I'd been fatally poisoned or something. Finally I see one of those little bins they had at stores with different ice cream cones and bars in them, and I run over there and just grab a regular vanilla ice cream cone. I started eating it and it actually tasted pretty good, but then I woke up. I guess it wasn't a total waste.

#2 - False False Awakening? [MILD]

I was talking to K about some politics related to lucid dreaming (mostly gibberish I think, but something about how some politician was claiming that lucid dreaming was equivalent to passing through the gates of hell ), and then I get a... well, it's odd because I can't remember far enough back in the dream to know if this was actually true or not, and I want to say it's not, but suddenly I had a feeling of clarity and said "Oh, this is a false awakening." and that made me lucid. I just looked at K and said "You're not even going to remember this conversation." And he smiled at me, then I woke up. On to the couch in my den, which seemed perfectly normal. I thought the conversation we were having was funny so I wrote it down to tell K about it later, but once I finished I actually woke up in bed, and I don't really remember much about the conversation now.

I was thinking about dreaming for a while without falling asleep. I tried following my breath and counting it by saying "this is a dream" on each breath.

First

I loose consciousness. I find my self in a room a moment later. I'm clearly more lucid than usually, although I do not clearly understand that I'm sleeping. I try flying, or floating upwards. First i just float a bit and stop. I gather my concentration and float trough the roof to another appartement, and on all the way to the top floor.

I stop in the top floor because I cannot imagine what going trough the foor would be like. I'm only dimly aware that I'm dreaming. I try jumping from the floor and pushing myself up using a windowstill and a bookshelf, but I always stop at the ceiling. I think I should go outside if I want to get higher.

I see someone on the balcony, apparently the owner of the appartment. I hope he doesn't see me. I'm not quite sure anymore how it was that I got the ability to fly, and think that I might be an invisible ghost. He sees me, though. Try to go out trough the balcony door, but he comes towards me. I hide in a small room and lock the door, but there is another door that opens to the balcony, and he opens it.

The man says something and I tell him I can show him something cool. I take his hand and jump of the balcony. He falls on his back four floors below and I land next to him. I try flying upwards again, and rise above the rooftops.

I land a bit farther away and try again. This time I cannot fly very high, but putting my hand forward like the Superman helps me fly forward quickly. There is a store in the second floor and I wonder about this.

Second

I take a kid to a daycare and talk with the people there for a while. I go outside to do something, don't remember what, and come back. The daycare workers have some sort of a filosophy that they like to explain to everyone. I don't feel like talking about it too much, that kind of people get upset too easily. Instead I walk around and look at the interesting decor the daycare.

"Destiny" is a recurring dream scenario.
It is the name of the first faster than light spaceship, on a controversial mission to investigate a signal that can only be of alien origin.
Here's a summary of current events:
Recurring dream about a spaceship mission to find extraterrestrial life. - Dream Journals - Lucid Dreaming - Dream Views

I have had a few more dreams about Destiny, but none of them drove the plot further.
I always find myself in the cockpit starting at instruments, but nothing ever happens.
Tonight something did happen.


We're all strapped tightly into our seats.
It is time.
A female computer voice is counting down to zero.
Once the countdown runs out we will begin the breaking maneuver to get out of ftl.
It will last approximately 20 minutes, which will most likely be rather unpleasant.
The artificial gravity system will compensate most of the g-forces, but if the acceleration maneuver was any indication
then there will be a considerable amount of vibrations.

My assumptions weren't off.
The first few minutes of deceleration weren't too bad, If I had to venture I guess I'd estimate that we are experiencing about 2 g's right now.
However, after more than 10 minutes, this gets tiring and stressful.
The skin on your face feels like it is trying to peel itself off.
And that's the time when the vibrations start.

The hyperdrive is designed to operate at a specific speed, and it turns out that it does so surprisingly well.
However during the acceleration and deceleration phase, when the ship is still at ftl but far below the optimal operation speed,
saying that it is running sloppy would be putting it mildly.
Imagine an old car engine with a rough idle and a piston not firing properly.
Now imagine that engine having enough power to propel 400 tons with ease.

It's not just the vibrations, it's being shaken around what really wears you down.
The noise of the ftl drive is phenomenal though.
It is the sound of raw power; The sound of a thousand lions roaring over the echo of a thunderstorm.

I can barely appreciate the view. My eyes are focused on the main console, expecting a warning light to go off any second.
I miss most of the spectacle right in front of me. Slowing down to the speed of light, the view gradually shifts through the color spectrum, producing all sorts of fractal patterns.
But no alarm goes off. No warning light. Not even a check light.
As we drop below the speed of light, we are shortly blinded by a flash of light.

The vibrations and the g-forces gradually decrease.
We are back in normal space, coming to a stop.
Finally! Those 20 minutes felt like an eternity.

"Initiating hyperdrive cool down phase."
"Hyperdrive will be available in approximately 20 hours."

We'd better hope so.
Without the hyperdrive it would take a few thousand years to get back home.
It is safe to say that without it, we are screwed.

Everyone's pretty nervous. Nobody knew what to expect, but we were all expecting something.
We find ourselves not too far from a blue gas giant.
It doesn't seem to have any moons.
I find this a bit disappointing though I have no idea what I had in mind.
An inhabited planet? That would have been a bit ridiculous I guess.

But then a vague beep catches my attention.
The most important beep I will ever hear in my entire life.
The HUD highlights a location close to the gas station and has it marked as "UNK_00000"
UNK stands for unknown artificial object.
Non-artificial objects are marked with AST for asteroid instead.
UNK can be anything from an unofficial or military satellite to space debris.
But this time it is none of those.

It is in fact an alien space station orbiting the gas giant.
This is the only time where calling something alien is not premature.
Who else could have built an artificial structure orbiting a planet hundreds of light years away from earth?
We plot an interception course and point all of our sensors at the structures.

Catching up with the planet doesn't take very long, but synchronizing the orbit is a more time consuming task.
You can't just point the ship into the general direction of the space station and hit the throttle.
If you go too slow you get caught by the gravity of the planet, if you go too fast your orbit becomes elliptic.

The wait is painful. There are so many questions.
Is there anyone there? If so, how are we going to communicate? How will we make contact? ...

... We sit in front of the station for a prolonged period of time, trying to find out all sorts of things with the on-board scanning devices.
The station has begun to light a path towards what appears to be some sort of hangar bay.
It is clearly inviting us in...

... We have landed inside of the hangar, which surprisingly seems to be pressurized.
There must be some sort of force field in place keeping the air inside.
The air mixture is mostly nitrogen / oxygen... just like on earth.
A single hallway leads out of the hangar.
It is again lit by lights inviting us to step inside...

... I am walking through the corridor in a pressure suit, accompanied by our language and culture specialist.
We're not wearing the suits because the air isn't breathable, we're just afraid that if we do encounter any other living organism in here,
we might be contaminated by potentially dangerous bacteria.
The atmospheric scanners on the ship found the air to be sterile though...

... We enter a big, well lit room.
It is divided into two by a transparent wall...

... We are not alone ...

On the other side of the wall, a humanoid being is waiting.
I become so incredibly nervous that the feeling becomes so intense that I can no longer feel it.
I just walk forward.
Thousands of questions answered within a split second.
Are we alone? Is there other intelligent life?
But those are immediately replaced by an identical amount of new questions.
Why would other intelligent life be humanoid? Why do they look so similar?
The odds for that are so insanely low.
Anyone who knows the basics of evolution would tell you that the likelihood of extraterrestrial life being similar to us is so low it is ridiculous.

Yet here I am, approaching this woman who looks more similar to humans with every step I take.
Eyes, eyebrows, a nose, a mouth, teeth, ears, two hands with 5 fingers each, thumbs.
Her hair is very different, it looks very organic, almost plantlike.
Her skin texture is also slightly different, but the only thing that is really obvious at first glance are her hair and her clothes.

She smiles.
I am so close now.
I look into her eyes, without any plans on what to do.
I just follow my curiosity.

Her eyes... they remind me of something.
They are so vivid. So detailed.
I need to see them more clearly.

I unlock my helmet and take it off.
I don't worry about the consequences, I don't even think of them.
I have to see.

I approach the transparent wall until I am nearly touching it with my face.
I take of my right gauntlet and press my hand against the wall.
She does the same with her left hand.
Our hands would be touching if there was no wall separating us now.

I can now see her eyes clearly.
I know those eyes.
Those eyes so vibrant and colorful that they defy the capabilities of human vision.
Those eyes with an unlimited amount of detail.
The deeper you stare into them, the more details you can see.
It would be so easy to get lost in them.

I have only met three woman with such eyes in my life.
One is Yuya, another is the "hibiscus girl". http://www.dreamviews.org/blogs/hyu/...verload-23438/

The last is a mysterious woman from the future. A "twinner" as MoSh would say... http://www.dreamviews.org/blogs/hyu/...s-women-15610/

Is is her...
Those eyes I wouldn't forget in a million years. They are so unique and the memory of them so powerful.
It is her, in the form of an extraterrestrial being.


This leads me to the obvious and only possible conclusion.
I am dreaming.
This is a dream.

I am not sure whether to be sad or amazed about this.
I feel both, so strong that I cannot distinguish between them.

She whispers something, but her voice cannot penetrate the wall.
My desire to know what she said is so incredibly strong I can only barely bear it.

The wall slides away and she hugs me tightly.
I am so confused, so full of joy, so ultimately sad.
My hands are shaking, I can barely stand. I have no control over my body.
She whispers in my hear with the most gentle voice I have ever heard:

"Soon"

The dream fades away.

I wake up still full of confusing emotions.
I can't decide whether I am overwhelmed by this amazing experience or by the sadness of the feeling that this "story" might have come to an end.
I think "This is why I dream"

Feels good to be back, expect some crazy dreams very soon. Will update with every new dream

Regular dreams will be posted in BLACK
Moments of lucidity will be highlighted in BLUE
Achieved goals will be marked with RED

DREAM GOALS
[] Fly
[] Jump extremely high
[] Hang out with someone famous
[] Hang out with Tyler Durden
[] Commit a robbery
[] Drive a car
[] Smoke weed
[] Visit my hometown
[] Breathe underwater
[] Exit one dream and create a brand new one
[] Create a portal
[] Play with my childhood dogs

LD19 since 02-19-12: A nice lucid with walk through walls, teleporting, object summoning, flying, and spiderclimb. The only problem with this one is I was heavily sedated and recall only about 20 minutes total of what seemed like a 60 minute LD. Being a work day I again took Ambien, antihistamines, melatonin, and 3 glasses of wine. I should be thrilled to have a LD at all under those circumstances! I have big blank spots in this DILD, but it was still fun.
I am not sure when I became lucid, but the first part I recall is looking out my bedroom window and a car is running by the side of the garage. I should not be able to see it from that window. No need for a RC as I seem to be fullly lucid already. I walk through the exterior wall. If I needed an RC that is a pretty clear one. I walk around to the garage and the car pulls out. Someone tells me my mom and stepdad are going to through a huge party here. I know in real life I am 40 and don't live with my parents, so I just shrug. That car leaves and two more vehicals pull in full of people excited for a party. I decide I would rather go do LD stuff than have the dream progress this way. I would have anxiety about my house getting trashed even though I knew it was a dream. I walk off........missing section, poor recall.....I go up to my dad's suv that is parked along a street and get in the passenger side. He pulls into a parking garage. A car is crusing up slowly, and I suspect it is gangsters or something. I materialize a pair of hand guns and give one to dad. The car goes by slow, yep it is hoodlems. I let them see the gun and they drive away. I talk with DC dad for about 1 minute. A family pulls up. A new car of gangsters pulls up. We show them our guns, so they leave us alone. They get out and are robbing the family. I tell DC dad that I am not concerned with stopping them, as this is just an LD, and I am not interested in a gangster shoot out dream. He tells me not to lower my gun but to tell them we have money to give them. I never say anything, but keep the gun up and they walk over to his window and get money. He is telling them it is tribute money for operating on their turf. They tell me they want me to come meet their leader.
I may be a dream spoil sport, because I often refuse to participate in dream scenarios my brain devices. I decide to leave this stupid scene and pick somewhere exotic to visit. I decide on Iserial. I teleport by blurring the scene and it reforms in a market full of camels and middle eastern booths. ......about 10 minutes of recall all blurred here, it involved looking at stuff and interacting with DCs........ when I regain recall, I am on a dock near a big speed boat. A woman in the boat asks me something, but I don't recall what. I decide to try and accomplish some sort of goal. How about visit the great pyramid? I fly up off the ground and look around. I assume I will spot the pyramid and eventually do.
I try to fly to it and find my way blocked by a very crazy high wall. I spider climb up it and it has all sorts of obsticals like carved faces and loose stones. I find a window and decide to just go inside and look aroud. I know I had all sorts of experiances inside involving three people asking for help with a vampire, and other random stuff, but again most is lost due to poor recall. I awake after about 10-15 minutes of random running around , flying , spider climbing and at least 1 more walk through walls. The fuzzy recall is sort of a shame as what may have been a 60 minute LD is reduced to about 20 minutes recall, but considering how sedated I was, and that I made no special effort to LD, I guess I am thrilled and should feel lucky. Duration ?60ish min, but only ~20 minutes recalled. That makes 19 LDs in the 14 days I have been posting a journal on Dream Views, so even if I have been to sedated to do many of them as good as I may have been able to, I am very pleased.