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This worked for me last night, combination of CAN-WILD and FILD, let's call it CAN-FILD (Custom Alarm Noise - Finger Induced Lucid Dream). This is my fourth lucid dream, ever, even though I have been trying for years. I think the trick is to get the timing and the details correct. I had quite a long lucid dream, had no trouble with waking up right away. Below are details of how I got it to work so that it may benefit others who are struggling.

Alarm Clock
I have a droid phone, and it use it as my alarm to wake me up in the morning. I use a distinctive piercing alarm to get out of bed. The exact ring tone is not important, it's the math problems i have to solve to turn it off. I have been conditioned to wake the f!ck up when I hear this alarm because it doesn't go away until I do a few math problems on my phone. I do this because otherwise I have the problem others have evinced on this thread, where you sleepily shut off the alarm and fall unconscious again without noticing, or sleep through it.
I got the app Alarm Clock Xtreme Free, and programmed the alarm to slowly rise to full volume over 10 seconds, then stay there for 5 seconds before auto-snoozing for 11 minutes. That means the alarm slowly gains volume and rings for 15 seconds, not jarring me awake and causing me to move. If it doesn't wake me up it goes off again after 11 minutes, then just loops that way forever.

Timing
Went to sleep at 11:30 and set the alarm for 4 hours later, 3:30AM. I was actually woken by the auto-snooze alarm at around 4:30, so that's 5 hours of sleep. I imagine this will be different for most people so this setup takes the guesswork out of it. Eventually you WILL wake up with this great app.

Technique
Upon hearing the alarm I lay still and did not get excited. Imagine if the alarm just meant it was time for you to do your homework, about that level of arousal. I did not start thinking of all the stuff I would do in my dream, I didn't even think about dreaming. Empty mind, concentrate on your fingers. I woke up on my back with my dominant hand on my stomach. This is the hand I practiced twitching my fingers with, so I used it even though it wasn't where I'd prefer (on my side or under my pillow). I twitched the fingers very gently, almost too little to move. I did not count the seconds, just focused on getting the motion right for moment to moment. I did this until I heard a faint buzzing in my ears and a mild sense of dislocation. In retrospect this may have taken 10-20 secnods, max. Again, I did not track the time or count anything.
I lifted my other hand to my nose and tried to breathe, success. I opened my eyes and was in my room, but everything was very gray and indistinct.

I imagine this is where most people wake up. A great thing to do is to deepen the reality of the dream by palpating your surroundings. I looked down at my bedspread and started looking at it up close and feeling it with my hands, moving constantly and not focusing on a single spot for more than a split second. Basically crawling over it like looking for fleas. Within a few seconds my vision became crystal clear and my surroundings solidified. From there I had a very fun lucid dream, it lasted around 10 minutes I think since when I came out of it my alarm clock was about to ring again.


Great technique, can't wait to try it again. If you sleep with someone and can't bother them with your bloody alarm ringing every ten minutes throughout the night, get a comfortable pair of in-ear headphones and wear those to sleep. They sell stuff out there that you can wear without end and not hurt your ears.

[Sunday, October 28th, 2012]
(This is the last of a series of dreams, and the only one I remember vividly. There was one dream of me on a desert reality show with a multitude of challenges. Before that I was at a strange shopping mall.)
I'm at my old house, everything is identical almost. Everyone is doing their own thing in the house, Brent is on the computer and playing games, Casey is watching TV in the living room, Mom is in her room. I'm wandering around the house.

I walked out into the kitchen and turn straight into the computer room. I want on the computer pretty bad. But I forget about it and walk away.

I walk to the bathroom.
I turn on the shower, as I need one bad. All of the water droplets that hit the tub turned brown. I couldn't explain it. But it must be because the shower floor is dirty already and its just becoming clear with water? I cup water in my hands and splash it on the tub until its clean and I get in.

After I clean myself and soak for awhile, I wrap a towel around my bottom-half and walk into my Mom's room and begin talking to her.

I was on a gameshow sort of thing for a week, but I got kicked off or fired the last day on a Friday. It was supposed to keep going and they'd add new members all the time but I didn't make the cut for some reason.
It took place in the middle of the desert.
I complained to my Mom about how I had lost, but how I was excited that I was going to be on a cartoon remake of the show that would air this weekend! I wondered to myself how I would be portrayed on a cartoon.

I walked into the old bedroom-
Brent was playing Nintendo 64. "I wish I could play guitar hero though..."
I suggest to him, "Nathan has Guitar Hero for the Playstation 1! Maybe we could borrow it!)

Casey was telling me about how he wanted to play an American Idol sort of game that he used to play when he went to camp once.

Just then we looked out the window, the whole family, and we saw dark clouds in the distance, looming over the mountains. Mom had her boyfriend over, who was like a combination of Gordon, Ed, Dad and all of the rest of them. My Mom's boyfriend complained because he couldn't hear the storm, because of the all of the TV's and receivers and VCRs and DVD players humming and buzzing. I worked to turn them off, but had immense trouble for some reason. Only some of them would turn off, and some would just reset when I hit the buttons. I gave up as I couldn't turn off the last satellite receiver.

We worked to put the blinds and livingroom curtains back up. It was more complex than it should have been.

We went around the house fortifying all of the windows and doors and closing everything for sure. I went to the back bedroom, by the old computer room, and checked the window. The one on the left (that normally doesn't exist) was fine, but the one on the right above the bed was creaked open a little. I worked to close it as much as I could when I noticed it was raining... or leaking through the window or something. It was wet around the window.
I through my shirt off and tried wiping off the window and putting it up against where it leaked.

Casey walked in and said, "The whole bed's soaked!" He was right, the rain was dripping through the ceiling! It was happening everywhere. Water was leaking through everywhere. I grabbed a towel and set it over the bed to cover the blanket and anything else. I went to the closet just as my Dad walked in. I quickly made sure I was turned away so he didn't see my tattoo.

I thought to myself, "Had he seen my tattoo earlier?" I quickly put on a purple shirt I found in the laundry hamper. I grabbed more towels and layed them over the bed. I walked out into the living room and saw that the wall was covered in rain drops, continuously being dropped. The rain was getting in somehow, as if our house was made of paper.

<dream ends>

So Fucking Close [Non-Lucid]

This dream....

There was a lot of stuff going on in this dream, but I only remember the ending where I was sitting in what I'm pretty sure was some kind of auditorium, on the stage with my legs hanging over the edge. I think that's right, I just didn't pay a whole lot of attention to those details at the time.... But anyway, I was sitting next to Jesus and we were about to smoke a joint together. Yes, it was literally about to be that awesome, but then it just got snatched away from me.... I tried lighting the joint and it didn't burn correctly. In fact, the flame spread across the entire joint near instantaneously, though somehow I was able to shake it off and it looked perfectly normal again. In addition to this, I didn't get any smoke at all from my hit, so I knew something was wrong with it. I even let Jesus try to take a hit but the same thing happened to him and he couldn't get anything out of it. I tried one last time but then just gave up and decided to roll a new one. However, the bud didn't really feel like cooperating. I was breaking it up, but the pieces were becoming useless (like going from some crystally chunk to a totally bland green leaf fragment) or just warping all together into other objects, like tiny, colored transparent pieces of plastic. Before I could really figure out a way to resolve this situation, I woke up.

God damn it.

I didn't have an entry yesterday as I genuinely didn't feel like I'd dreamt the night before and when I got up I just got on with things straight away even though I didn't feel great as had a head cold.
My dream last night included smoking (something I've recently given up, about 3 weeks ago). I was sat in the living room watching telly with my parents & eldest niece. My niece had started smoking for some reason and wanted to go outside for a fag my step-dad told me to join her (not to smoke just to accompany her outside).
When we got outside we climbed the wall between the patio and garden and were looking over it at some guys having some sort of hockey game in the street (I used to play hockey when I was young and have also recently been invited to an ice hockey game). My niece was smoking in the dream and I remember feeling the urge to smoke too and maybe taking a drag on what she was smoking.
I remember a confrontation with the hockey players because they'd hit their puck into the garden and I think I told them to stop playing in the street and find somewhere else to have their game. I got surrounded by these guys, none of which I recognised, some had facial piercings and I remember one having really prominent features in a comical way like a huge long square chin! In fact all of them had exaggerated facial features like characters from the old British television satire 'Spitting Image'. Anyway the guys started moving on after our confrontation but for some reason I was walking along with them and talking to one of them about how I might be going to watch this ice hockey match soon.
Suddenly I woke to the smell of left over Chinese food & and succumbed to an overwhelming urge to eat some of it and attempt to fill out this dream journal!

07/29/2012
9:56am

Buying Alcohol
I find myself in the back seat of Donna's PT Cruser. Anna is in the front passenger seat and Donna is driving. Donna pulls onto a slopped parking lot and parks in front of a cheap liquor store. The store had a metal railing to the left side that where the parking lot dipped down a few feet. Behind the liquor store and down the sloped parking lot was a large wall-mart sized warehouse.

Inside the store we met up with a a cleaned up version of Diana and "Pirate" Bob. We were going to go party somewhere.... I hadn't seen any beer that seemed to appetizing to me,, but while we were waiting in line I went to the back and picked out some vodka and juice. (note I had vodka and juice at my friends house the night before.) I then went outside for a smoke.

I stood by the railing smoking and when the group came out talking I wondered over to the warehouse to explore and the dream transitioned.


Unsafe Work Conditions
Inside the warehouse I was starting a new job as an electro-mechanical assembler. The lighting was extremely poor and there were people grinding, cutting, and welding all over the place. Sparks flew on to the floor which was cluttered with flammable materials. Power tools where left plugged in, strung across the floor and running by themselves. I almost let my leg bump into a running chop-saw that had no top or bottom guard leaving the blade completely exposed.

I walk over to a guy with a tape-measure and watch him for a minute. He makes several random measurements on the floor, moving the tape at different angles, and occasionally measuring off the floor. Then he makes a scratch on the concrete and repeats the process. I accidentally step on the tape measure and notice that it is completely worn out at the end. I ask the guy why all the power tools have bin left on. "To keep the flickering light down while I finish cutting this (pipe/thing)"

The scene transitions again and I'm back in the warehouse where I started but the lights are back on and everything is well lit. Carts with sheet metal, brackets, and metal frames are being lined up on the floor to build machines. Two random guys who need work instructions come over but don't draw my attention to much. Rob R. shows up too and we look over the plans hanging on an easel. An girl from the office comes out with signs with job numbers and due dates and tapes them to the carts. I find everything extremely disorganized and joke with Rob about who (him or me) is going to be in charge and take responsibility for leading the builds and completing all the paperwork.

Old Dream from when I was probably about 10 years old

I dreamed that I was sleeping in this old cabin. The bed was next to a window that had thin curtains. There was a large red moon flooding the landscape and my room with light. Outside on a grassy hill I noticed that there was a long line of cloaked persons walking along its ridge. Then One passed right in front of my window. Its face was dark and evil and he carried a large scythe.

I ran to into the local village and up to an old man who was sitting in his rocking chair out on his porch. He looked down at me and said in a wise tone that "It's the time of the red moon." I ran back out into the village where there was panic, bonfires, and utter chaos.

Castle dream 10/18
I don't remember much, just being in another country looking at this huge castle owned by my grandparents, then coming home and seeing a huge mansion where another family member lived.

Quest 10/18
This was sort of a mix of Heroes of Olympus and The Hunger Games. Seven people, including me, had to go on a quest. Actually, this is more like the Tri-wizard tournament, where they all come in, but only one can win. I remember looking around and there was about 3 guys and 4 girls. The portal to start the quest was through my closet. Someone said something about grabbing a hook to go through. I am second in line, watching the first person go through. They touch something then walk through an invisible gateway. Now it's my turn. I go into the closet, and try touching hooks on hangers utterly failing, then I reach for a pair of antlers at the top of my closet, and nothing happens. I grab a few different "hooks" and try walking forward, only to hit the wall of my closet.

I wake up, then go back to sleep, and see 3 girls flying on giant birds. Actually, I only see two, but I know there are three. One starts humming a familiar tune, then the other scolds her telling her NOT to hum, as it is very annoying. The girl in the back tries throwing the humming one off to rid competition only to have it backfire and fall off herself.
I wake back up and go back to sleep. This time I am lucid.

I try completing one of my goals, but nothing is working. I see a circular castle tower and try removing the top off with Telekinesis but it doesn't work. I try flying, but I can not take off. I decide to continue with the dream. I have 5 others with me, and one spots this small house. We go inside. They all sit on couches while I go to the kitchen. I see my brother eating salad and my mom has a small pizza in front of her, cut into 4 pieces. I go to grab one, but then get picked up by my dad by the scruff of my neck. He sits me into the living room and asks what we have done so far, what we are doing, and what we will do, battle plans. I get woken up shortly after.

Creatures from the other side 10/20
I was in this grocery store with my brother and after getting a few things I see this door in the corner of the store. Various black strage shaped things go inside and outside, with others on waiting chairs outside the door. The door reads "Employees only." After watching for a bit, the dream ends.
There was more, I just don't remember.

Short dream before waking 10/21
I was told I did not have to take a shower and was wondering why not, then I got woken up by my mom... telling me to take a shower.

Tubing 10/22
I walked into a lake then realizing I couldn't swim. Well done genius. Luckily I found an inner tube. I laid on it and floated on the water relaxing until the dream ended

Church remodel 10/22
The church I go to had a completely new look to it. Irl they are working on a new worship center. I remember the entrance looking real cool, with glass etc. There was a coffee shop inside with an interesting floor. The coffee shop was really suspicious, and a name I had never heard of before. There was more, but alas, it has faded.
There was a lot more, I just don't remember because it has been a few days. :/

Abandoned store 10/23
Me, my mom, and my bro walk up to this strip mall. Once inside, on the left side I see this abandoned store with no signs, no security, nothing. The doors have like 3 strips of rubber over the door in a horizontal fashion. I squeeze inside, and find some cool stuff inside. But there are no tripwires, no locked doors, no price tags, no cameras. I take some stuff and walk back out. I remember at one point seeing 3-4 pizzas, and tasting one. It was really good tasting, and filling. We went back to the store at a later time and it got a name on it, with someone inside, but no items inside. They say they lost all their stock and can no longer open.
I know there was more to this.

The bar 10/23

I worked at a that gives you patches the more you drink. The more you buy their alcohol the better rewards you receive.
This too was a very detailed dream, but I forgot.

A minecraft store 10/23
There is this mall owned by an admin on a minecraft server I used to play, and I looked around seeing my and my brother's shops. Nostalgia hits since the shops no longer exist. I remember at one point looking outside seeing everything colored gray. There was this pyramid and many mannequin looking things come off of it and walk toward the mall. They come inside and walk inside clothes displays inside the mall. One looked like Beethoven the dog as a statue inside of some clothing.

Working at a school 10/26
I walk into this school that only has one room. There is the teachers desk, various student desks, and then a small chair and chalkboard in the corner. Turns out I work here, but never come in for work. I should be there 5 days a week, but I come in maybe 1-2 times a week, or whenever I feel. The teacher says she doesn't really need my help, but wont fire me. However, I won't get paid unless I show up. She tells me I could very well sit in a corner and play my laptop, I just have to be there. I sit in the corner and wait, then this other guy comes in. The teacher and this guy discuss this book that I happen to have with me. They tell me I must study this book and recite things from it. I get pissed off that I have to actually do work. After work I return home to a trailer park. I see two people that look like bulk and skull from power rangers, so I follow. I see this huge stage, and almost everyone on stage is dressed in all blue. There is a guy in the middle getting a helmet put on. I look around and see a couple of people dressed in red and many people dressed in yellow. I conclude this is a power rangers convention or something. As I take in my surroundings two guys dressed in red signal me their way. Guess I'm a red ranger. The two that look like bulk and skull walk by us and the dream ends.

Assasin's creed III Time travel 10/27
I get the game Assassin's Creed III (Never played an assassin's creed game irl) while helping out my parents with storage stuff. If I recall correctly, I am taking things out of storage, and then my grandparents' friends come over with food and the game. I start playing the game (I am part of the story, instead of just watching a screen) and I am on a dark street. I see these collectibles and information bubbles, but I walk right past them, collecting some coins. I eventually go back to collect more coins, then get killed by something. I realize the game is set near the end of the game, right before the final boss. I reset the game, and find myself in an empty old room. I look in the closet, and there are tons of shelves, but they are all empty. I notice the whole room is just...empty. I see one bookshelf with stuff on it, but it is full of dust.

Someone comes in and tells me what is going on. Turns out I am dead. Not only that, I died in August and it is now December. I was resurrected. I remember nothing about my past, but I do not feel I belong here. I go downstairs, and talk to some people. I am in the 1800s. People know me and wonder where my memory went and why I don't remember anything. I remember doing things others thought was strange, because I am from the 21st century but present in the 19th century.
Everything is so strange to me. I remember having like 4-5 powers. One was taking chakra from people, one was giving. Then there were 2-3 types of stuff I could send shooting out of my fingers at people. One was purple, one was red. I forget what they did. At one point I had like 4 swords. One was slightly longer than a butcher knife, and I gave it away. Another was actually two swords, twin swords. They were also kinda short, but they were curved and looked really cool. Another was a longer sword, one that I truly loved. It had an amazing design on it, and I held it well.
There was a lot of fights in the dream, lots of action. I recall at one point being given 4 books to read, all 300-400 pages, but with big text. I was told to read them all, out loud, in that day for story time.
Lastly, at one point there is this man that appears to be Gandalf, but I am not completely sure. He has a large, white beard and a huge cloak on. He staggered about a foot or two higher than me. He is talking to this enemy who says that he was here first. This is his people's land not ours. According to him we should not be here. We were in this huge ship that looked like it was crashed outside the village. Gandalf says that he has a boat in the West, one in the South, one in the East, and one in the North, in the wide open area of the North Pole. He explains where the other three are, but i forget what he said. The enemy then seemingly kills Gandalf. I then put a wand to the guy's neck and say "Avada Kedavra!" And he falls over dead. Gandalf wakes up and asks what I have just done, and that they had just called a truce. The dream ends.

i was the mother of my one sibling....and we went to a thanksgiving dinner......and the walls moved and room order changed a bunch....and the adults yelled at me for not acting like an adult and said i had to pick if i were an adult or a child and i couldn't be both.....and that i was acting like a child by talking to kids like they were on my level and not beneith me and telling them the truth....and i went the the bathroom and couldn't figure out where to pee because it looked like 3 fountain things and a tub....but the path outside was pretty.......you know the shadows waves make on the ground below really clear pools and shallow lakes and stuff?......the walls were made of that

i also had a dream that i had to go back to kindergarten......and they gave me a bad grade on coloring because i couldn't stay in the lines......but i kept trying to tell them that my hands shake and i'm doing thing best i can....but they kept yelling at me to try harder

So last night I meditated for about 30 min. after a few hours of sleep and to my surprise when attempting to go back to sleep. I started seeing weird flashes of light in my vision followed by an intense feeling of vibrations throughout my entire body. Through my hearing I heard an accelerated wooshing sound like as if my ceiling fan was on high and the volume was increased. As this feeling got more and more intense, I could feel my spiritual body raise up from my physical but at this moment i started thinking about the womans hand that reached out to me the other night and i got scared. With this fear i seemed to have woken myself up or just interrupted the process. I could no longer repeat it and i was disappointed but at the same time im happy i got to finally experience this again.

I had a mix of random dreams. One of which me and some people were performing bike tricks down a long set of stairs. We would occasionally take huge leaps and even start to glide with our bikes.

Another sequence I had to go on a journey to find a fire gun but woke up shortly after I found the correct trail. The dreams switched to where there were the Stonehenges around a pool and they seemed to be communicating with one another. I cant remember what was said but one stone told the rest to dive in the pool. After the first stone fell in, the rest followed.

Thoughts | Non-Lucid | Lucid | Techniques/Aids

Some Alcohol

Bedtime midnight-ish - Wife, her mom and sister were up making Halloween costumes for the kids. I got cranky tired and took Riley to bed with me.

To tired for inductions
WBTB 4:00AM alarm too tired to even get up to pee.

I wanted to sleep later but after a 7AM feeding he snoozed and I sort of fell into a half LD half daydream with lots of really strong HI. I can't say for sure if I was actually asleep but time seemed to pass quickly. I was slightly uncomfortable the way he was snuggled against me. I didn't dare move him. I have been really tired and 6-8 hrs sleep is no good for a person that requires 10. I just enjoyed him letting me lay in bed a little longer. It was nice bonding time nevertheless.


She Doesn't Trust You - 5:52AM

This dream was way longer but I only remember the last bit. I am in a cow pasture and there are two unpainted barns. Cows are all around and I am moving living room furniture from the right one to the left one. There is mud in the barns and I am stepping in it but I see I am wearing rubber boots so I don't mind. I see a rainy misty green countryside out side. I have a folding chair in each hand. They are black metal. The cows freak out and get scared of them. They act skittish like my cats do and some are small like dogs. One cow gets its head caught in a folding chair and trashes about to get free. I make it to the other barn. There are couches, recliners, other folding chairs, and an old cabinet style TV. I am moving furniture around and I keep seeing my deceased grandfather as a reflection in the TV glass. I make a mental note to investigate when I am done. I see and old black leather recliner. I think I ruined it by putting it in a barn. I look closer and see that it is cracked and the color is worn in places. It was trash already. I make a final adjustment and look at the TV. Pawpaws reflection is sitting down in the chair. I am partial lucid here as I dream of the dead a lot but it feels so natural that I don't totally get it. I look at him and ask him, "Where is Nanny?"
His simply says, "She don't trust you yet."
"But...Why?"
He is looking in the distance and I get the feeling that he can see her and hear her. He says to me, "Because."
Then the world folds in on its self and I totally and consciously experience every detail of waking from a dream. I was a very odd feeling and one that would be hard to describe. I thought to DEILD but I had to pee really bad and the clock was 8 min away from my wife's wake up time so it was pointless to try.

This is odd because the last time I remember her in my dream I became lucid. See: http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/xano...d-deild-37105/ And a brief NLD:

Dead Grandma- Fragment
I experience strong HI untill a full non lucid dream occurs. Funny there was no SP
I am looking in the filing cabinet on the bottom drawer. My wife comes close to me and bumps her pregnant belly on my head. I look up and caress and kiss her belly. Then I look at her face and it VIVIDLY distorts into my dead gramdma. I am reminded of how it happens in Grimm. She telepathically tells me that she is reincarnated into my unborn son. I ask her how can that be he is a boy and you were a woman. She tells me things like that don't matter. I wake with a startle.

I am not sure if I have seen her since my son was born. That's some Goddamned crazy shit!

The Voice in the void

Later I am in strong HI I manipulate and interact with it hoping to actively WILD. It feels like a LD but I feel my body in bed still. I thin about the past dream and want answers. I see my grandfather and ask him why again. I can't remember what he said to me but it wasn't an answer. So I ask, "Will you be my dream guide? I would be nice to have a relationship with you and be something we never could have when you were alive." I think about how religious he was.
I don't really see anything now. I an in a black void. I hear a voice reply, "Yes, I will be your dream guide." The voice sounds flat and emotionless. I does not sound like my grandfather did. I ask to be clear, "Will you be my dream guide?"
The same voice, "Yes."
"You are not my pawpaw are you?"
"No." Now the voice sounds deep and sort of like a high class English man.
"Who are you?" He replies but it gets garbbled. I ask a second time.
"Edward Godrich the second."
"OK will YOU be my dream guide?"
"I told you yes."
"OK when?"
"When you let yourself go in a dream, I will be there."

There was more of the conversation but I can't remember it all.
My son squirms and wakes me out of my trance.

That wasnt the type of LD I wanted but both the NLD and the interaction later was fun as hell. I don't really know what to make of it. I suppose it's all just in my head but I hope Mr. Godrich helps me out tonight!

Oh, I'm making a Tulpa. Sounds like fun, and it can help make college less bullshit.

10.27.2012

Dr. No can't get his Thing up (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Pretty sure is a dream frag.

Okay, Dr. No, who looks nothing like Dr. No, apparently, based on what I'm recalling on random images, he has ED.

Yeah, weird. Dr. No's Thing is basically saying No to Erection.

LOL.

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10.27.2012

I can Duplicate Money & Eva is a Miner (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm near a brown table, pretty generic, nothing added to make it look a ltitle more appealing. I can make money appear by holding it with my left hand, and then take my right index finger and thumb to flick it around the center.

Flick....money....another flick, MONEY. MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEEEEEEEEEEEHHHHHH!

Literally.

I started out with coins, pennies, nickles, then quarters, and finally dollar bills, 10 dollar bills and ultimately 100 bucks. The 100 bucks came out of random when I was flicking the 10. Then I looked at the money duplicates, and they were fake. Either way, I'm still having fun creating fake money.

I'm REALLY into this, it's so amazing destroying the dream economy like this, keep flicking and raising the inflation rate Link!

I do a nose plug reality check, hmmmm, can't breathe through properly, or maybe I'm just not plugging it hard enough and breathing in.

After a while, I head to an office to the right of me, it's a casual environment, quiet and empty. The carpet layer seems to be a mix of smoky gray and violet. The walls are probably a light gray color, and I stumbled upon Julia Louis-Dreyfus from Seinfield.

She's wearing a black office suit, with a white dress shirt underneath. Her hair is tied about a bit.

I literally asked her, with a full awareness for once,

"Am I dreaming?" She holds the office phone, which is vanilla colored, to her chest, and does a nod.

Guess who's dreaming? This guy.

Then I finally, for once, get the urge to ask Julia if I can meet Eva right now. She responds,

"Um, she won't be here until 17 minutes?"

I asked her, "Why for such a long time?"

She replies,

"Because she's a miner."

Me: "What?!?!?"

I just stand there for a while, and then started to walk rapidly into some door to my right that led to some dark area, probably the mining area she's in apparently.

I lose lucidity from this point, I think, maybe I'm semi-lucid, but whatever.

I'm at the mining area, and there's this black cave hole to my right. It has Minecart tracks coming out, and SWOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOSH, in comes Eva.

Now I'm seeing things in third person or spectator view, Eva is wearing her default costume from MGS3. I think she's coming close to me, and then wraps her arms around my waist and looks up at me.

I look down at her, and I can't remember anything else after that.

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10.27.2012

Alyzarin and her Vision (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I meet Alyzarin apparently, and she tells me how it takes a while for her vision to come into full color.

First she starts out with Red, Blue, Green Vision, and the Purple finally comes in to make her see things perfectly in full color.

There's some other thing I did with her, but it was random.

I was sitting on a huge hill overlooking a city, a complex of villa-esque buildings behind me which I knew to be my school. It was a good view where I could see each street and building but not get a lot of noise. A map flickered into mind, indicating the location of the city.

Then I turned to someone sitting nearby, not caring who, and said: "Hahaahaha, this isn't real, is it? I live in England, this is like New Jersey or something." I didn't look at who it was or pay attention, but he just acted confused, I think.

So I immediately ran away, not losing breath or bumping into people or attracting attention. I knew I could do anything but didn't care much, I just ran and sometimes made a jump to see if it would set me in flight. After a few bridges and footpaths I ended up on a steady route. I noticed something and said: "What are you?"

It said: "Antagonism."
I said: "Like your inner darkness or something."
It said: "No, just resisting things. So I"m working against running further and going back and other small things."
I said: "Oh, okay then." and talked to it for a while.

Over 10 years ago.


Dreamed that I was in an infinite bright white space (kind of like the Matrix simulator). There was a large white statue of a horse wildly rearing up and though it was motionless, I felt that it was alive.

As I approached, monk like beings cloaked in white robes began to gather around. I remember trying to speak to a few of them but they formed groups and whispered amongst themselves. Then I noticed one that was different than the rest. He was slightly taller than, had more power and was to ultimately decide what was done with me.

The being came too me and I felt evil in him and a sense that he was the celestial equivalent of an emperor. I could not see his face but I knew that he had decided that my fate was to die.

Just then the horse grasped me with his front legs lifting me up off the ground and squeezed. No matter how I tried I could not free myself and the pain and panic was growing. I couldn't breath and soon became woozy and the world darkened. After that was a black nothingness.
There was existence but I had no sense of self or any other thought.

Old dream when I was probably about 10 years old.

Dreamed that I was up in the air and when I tried to walk I would rise just as if there were stairs under my feet. I tried to walk down but I kept going up, up, up. Eventually the air got thin and I was having trouble breathing. I woke up face down on my pillow.

Long time ago when I was about 4 or 5 years old as I went to bed after watching the wizard of Oz

Dreamed that I began to spin wildly and was lifted out through the window of my bedroom. I shook myself awake and told my Mom what had happened. It was scary.