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I am in another city. It is dark with skyscrapers everywhere, felt like NYC. I am on the edge of a roof of one building. A voice is speaking in my head. It is saying, "The crows are with you. They are attracted to you at all times" I am seeing a crow fly around me but unlike how others see it, I am seeing even it's eyes (like it has a personality just like us). I am feeling something behind me and suddenly I have 2 long, black, shiny wings and I jump off. I am flying and there is another one like me, I am chasing him but I am losing him and I am lured into the space between many building. Stuck there with no space to fly out, the crows find me. They guide me. I am following them and slowly I am rising. I am getting higher and higher even though there is not much space for my wings and in sometime, I reach the top- I escape. I am seeing the vast expanse of air around me and the eyes of the crow that lead me to it. They are telling me how to go and where to go.

Date: 19/06/2012
Place: My holiday caravan
Time of getting into bed: 11.50pm
During the day I drank 1 x 500ml Monster energy drink

WILD attempt (first ever)

Strangely enough I decided to try it without prior sleep (don't ask me why) this took a good hour before I really felt the effects, but here is the results;

Went to bed, relaxed, tried to get sleepy and restful. Took some time but finally felt in the right place. Found sleeping on my side the most comfortable (my sleeping position of choice)
Was continually interupted by random banging noises - was sleeping in a caravan and sounded like the walls moving / creaking? Never noticed this before so really annoyed me!!
Each time I was awoken I ignored it, and relaxed again - partners loud breathing kept me awake but after using it as a beat to keep my own breathing slow, it became unnoticeable. I found this bit easy.
After some time I was clearly getting close, I could not feel my body, I kept experiencing swaying / floating sensations and my 'mind' was totally immersed. It felt a bit like I was mildly drugged up, I couldn't feel my hands or even the quilt around me. I didn't feel the need to swallow (which I have a bit of a habit of doing) I continued counting to ten, and saying ;I am dreaming' each time. I often lost my place and had to start over but remained calm.

After an unknown amount of time, my body lit up as if on fire, but not painful. I had vibrations running through my body, which I tried to feel and control (sort of worked) it was not a bad sensation, but so real and intense that it did 'light' my brain up. Almost like going from sleepy and hypnotized to being conscious and SWITCHED ON. My ears popped as if I was underwater, and I tried to enjoy this strange sensation, telling myself I was about to enter a lucid dream!

This sensation was exactly the same as the sensation I had when getting lucid a few nights ago. I feel like I know that I'm lucid, but I have to DO something to break through the barrier. Last time I raised my hand and pulled myself out from my 'body' so to speak. this time I didn't get a chance to. My initial idea was to 'roll over' into a dream. I didn't do this in time.
Unfortunately I must have gotten too excited as I 'woke up'. I did a quick RC to make sure it wasn't a FA, which it wasn't. I jotted in my journal and tried to re-enter, but by then my heart was racing so fast and I was wide awake.

It did give me incentive to try WILDing again though!

Dream 1 - Non Lucid dream

I am at a festival, trying to get back to my tent. There are lots of people walking around, and a large queue of traffic blocking the way. It is also very dark and very muddy, however I am not worried, I just keep walking.

Dream 2 - Non Lucid dream

I am somewhere, and trying to get home with my partner. We have no money to get home, but a limo pulls up looking for some famous people. We get in, pretending it is for us so we can a free lift home. It takes us to the home of the famous film stars who own the limo. We get out the limo and go in their house. Their house is big, spacious and obviously they are rich. We help ourselves to their stuff but we are not trashing the place as that would be rude. Someone knocks on the door and we panic, and hide. They soon go away and we decide it is best to disguise ourselves as the film stars so that no body suspects us. We put on their clothes, for me this consists of a dirty, white string vest and some large boots. I then have a string necklace around my neck, with beads and random bits hanging from it, a bit broken and messy. I also wear a long, dirty, thick trenchcoat. We then put egg yolk all over ourselves. No idea why. I believe we got these from the fridge.

Dream 3- Non Lucid dream

I am going through a drive through, although the actual company is not one that I know of (made up?) the men who work there are nice, but incompetent. They wear police helmets, and apologize for the delay. I finally get the food and drink but after drinking the fanta, it is warm. I hand it back and complain and they are nice, and agree to replace. However it takes so long to get a replacement that we decide to go for a short walk. We step out the car and see a strange gift shop. It is clear we are in a place I am unfamiliar with in my dream as I sort of explore, like a tourist. The gift shop is brown and had a big skeleton outside, it appears to sell strange and bizarre gifts. I don't go in, however, I turn left towards the main shopping area, across a square where people walk / talk / go about their lives. Here I see someone watching me / staring. I try to ignore them but I have a feeling they are going to talk to me and I really don't want them to. I am not scared, but don't like them so I try to mingle with the crowd and hide. It works. Next thing I know I am in a pub garden, playing pool (or snooker) with a friend. I notice my partner isn't here and ring them, trying to get them to join us. He will not join us because he cannot bring his own beer into the pub. I tell him we have water and this sort of changes his mind.

Dream 4 - Non Lucid dream

I have got some baby rats as pets. They are in a cage but I take one out to hold, it is fast and I drop it on the floor. I then try to pick it up but it is so small I lose it in the fibres of the carpet, I then search for it and find it - it is now an insect but I do not seem to be bothered by this transformation in the dream. I follow it a while then carefully pick it up, putting it back in the cage.

***NOTEWORTHY***
FIRST WILD ATTEMPT!
The sensation I describe as 'lighting up my body' was present again
Ears popped during WILD
I love rats and had many pet rats in the past
I recently attended a music festival
A festival and a drive through have been been in my DJ recently
I recently played pool with a friend

Hi There,

So for the last 3 days, I keep having this recurring dream. Some parts I can't remember, but these distinct few keep coming back, and I am trying to gain some insight into what they mean. I will try break it down into parts (that I remember in what order) :

Part 1: I find myself at this place where there is all these people i use to go to school with (going back to 2005 I'm surprised how clear I can remember them), and we have to pair into groups to do something (I don't know what) and I can't find any of my friends and get left with a guy and a girl i use to know (we weren't friends). I seem to get angry and storm off from everyone.

Part 2: I find myself talking to my mother near a river, and she show's me these underground hot springs in a cave. I find myself venturing through this cave & hot springs, and it turns into a nightclub, and someone (i don't recognise him) comes in. I walk through these springs.

Part 3: I exit through this door with some of the people that I mentioned in Part 1, and It is like this cave explodes and there is a massive Tsunami which I take cover under what is almost like a Patio roof covering. (NOTE: I don't feel scared or anxious when this Tsunami hits, but everyone else seem's to be frantic). I can almost feel the water from this Tsunami hitting me through cracks in the roof. There is this lady, and she is smiling and giggling and she always says "your going to be late", and smiles and when I try to go looking for her I wake up.

This has been a recurring dream for the past 3 nights now. I am hoping someone could shed some insight into the meaning of this dream (I only say this, because it has been happening for 3 nights now). Any Tips, Opinions, are greatly appreciated.

Thanks.

Dream One (Fragment): I dreamed of watching those youtube videos from last nights chats, lol.

Dream Two: I only have vague memories of the first part of the dream. I know it was like a party or a restaurant or some sort of other loud dim atmosphere. The first point of the dream I can really remember I'm in a gravel driveway in front of a house that reminds me of my dad's trailer, but the house really looks nothing like it. I think the house is just where his trailer should be. There's a blond guy with medium length hair in front of me, dressed in the Shinsengumi blues from Hakuouki. I hear a noise behind me, and I see a zombie with green flesh stumbling in my direction. A man in a white lab coat and medium length grey hair was also behind me, and he turns quickly also startled by the sound. He tries to pull a knife out of his coat, but it does him no good against this zombie and it bites him in the hand when he tries to strike at it with the knife. The man behind me curses, and then tells me to stay behind him as he rushes forwards and draws a sword, the slashes the zombie in half. He says something like, "Looks like the good doctors experiments have escaped during our absence." and then he turns to me and tells me that I should scream as loudly as possible. I find this odd, and ask him why, and he informs me that the screams of a helpless woman will surely draw the attention of any other escaped experiments in the area. So I start screaming pretty fakely, but when I do the bushes start moving and I start screaming for real and scramble onto the covered bed of a nearby red truck. An arm reaches out of the back window of the truck and grabs my legs, I freak and kick it then jump on top of the cab of the truck hoping to be safe on the highest ground. The Blond guy gets all the zombies, then starts assessing the damage to the house. He tells me there's a lot of damage to the doors where they've no doubt tried to bang against them to get in, but it doesn't look like they were able to break in. He pulls a key out of his sleeve, and opens the front door. I hop off the truck and try to half carry the man in the lab coat (whom I'm assuming was the "good" doctor) inside, and then some headlights shine on the house. The Blonde guy curses again and says of all the times for an inspection of the house, this is the worst. I'm not sure why anyone is inspecting, but two women get out of the little car that pulled up with clip boards. I think the middle of the night is an awkward time for an inspection, but the women say it's a surprise inspection to be sure that everything is the same when they're not expected as when they are. Makes sense I guess, but I still don't know they were inspecting for. When we open the door, there's a woman inside as well, but she looks closer to my age, maybe even younger. She's holding a baby, and she's so happy that we're home. She starts to gush and cry to me about how those monsters were trying to get in and eat her and the baby, but then she sees the inspectors and the injured doctor, and she rushes me and the doctor into a room on the right. The inspectors start to follow us, but the blond guy tells them to leave us be because I needed to nurse the baby and the old man got drunk and hurt his hand and needed it cleaned and bandaged. The women didn't seem like they were very keen on seeing blood, lol. In the room, I lay down on the bed and started nursing the little baby whom I'm guessing by this point was mine. She was a cute baby girl though, probably just a couple months old. The doctor stumbled and fell onto the bed as well, and I noticed he didn't look so good. His hand was completely healed, but he looked like he was sweating and his dark grey hair was turning white as snow. I recognize these as signs of the fury blood lust in the game Hakuouki, and ask him if he needs blood. He assures me that he'll be fine, he'll get the medicine he needs as soon as the inspectors leave. I pull the baby as close to me as possible as if I could protect her from the man if he went crazy, then put an arm between her and him hoping that if the blood lust overcomes him he'll attack my arm not her because it's closest. Then I start saying , "Shhhhh, it's ok. It's ok, shhhhh." and petting his hair like I do to calm my kids when they're hurt. After what seems like an eternity the blond guy walks through the door and drapes the doctor over his shoulder and carries him out of the room. The baby is asleep, so I get off the bed and let the girl who handed me the baby to begin with sit with her. I start to follow the blonde guy out of the room, but he tells me he's taking the old man to his lab to get the medicine he needs, and some of the experiments might be loose still so I need to stay inside with another guy who's name I can't remember. The other guy had long brown hair, and he was leaning against the front door looking out the storm door, as if he was watching for something. He turns and smiles at me this huge goofy kid like grin and says something about how we're going to have fun without the blonde guy around, but it sounds more like a joke to lighten the mood than actually having nay meaning behind it. I nod, and walk back into the room with the baby, where I grab a blue robe like uniform like the guys were wearing, and a long staff with a blade on the end on it. I walk back into the living room where the front door was, and the guy in the door is shouting, "They're here! There's a bunch of them! They couldn't have all escaped from here, there's no way that lab would hold this many!" He dashes out the front door, and I follow. Lots of action ensues that I'm not even going to waste space narrating one by one. Lots of me stabbing these creatures through the throat and severing their spines and lots of me whipping the staff around and using the blade to slice their heads off. A thing I find weird now that I'm awake, I didn't have enough force to sever their heads unless I lifted my right hand and pushed extra hard against the staff closer to the tip than where I was holding it. It's wasn't a smooth motion like in the movies, ha ha. We massacre these zombies, and then start to go back into the house, but then there's another wave of them coming up the road. I notice that they keep going past us though, and start up my uncles driveway nearby. I start to take off to fight them, and the long dark haired guy tells me to come back or the blonde guy will had a fit. I tell him that's my family, and I can't let these things get them! I start fighting off the zombies on my own, and yelling at my cousins and uncle to get inside NOW! But they're having some sort of party (maybe that's where I came from in the beginning?) and they can't fit everyone inside. The brown haired guy comes over and helps me, but it's difficult to tell at points who's a zombie and who's not, so we're taking longer than we feel like we should to kick their butts and we're worried that another wave of zombies will arrive before we can even handle these. Just when it looks like we're getting ahead though, a short, skinny but built, and just generally hot Asian guy steps out in front of me. I immediately recognize him as one of our men, and start to lower my staff so it doesn't look like I'm attacking him, but he tells me, "I wouldn't do that if I were you. I'm not on your side anymore. These zombies are under my control." I raise my staff, but I know there's no way I can hold my own against him. Zombies are slow and can't really fight back, but this guy has been training and fighting for years and I'm just now learning. I decide I'm going to try using his honor against him, "If that's true, please wait until the others arrive. We both know I don't stand a chance against you. At least let me go down fighting your zombies. There's no honor in a fight between us." He laughs, and his hair goes white and I realize he's becoming a monster like the doctor was. He tells me he'll wait for the others, I'm not worth lifting his sword to. Then he jumps backwards, but goes much much farther than he should so its as if he's flying. He lands on the street where a new wave of Zombies is coming. The long brown haired guy tells me that He thinks he's got the last of the zombies, and what am I just standing around for? I tell him about the confrontation I just had, and he's pretty upset. We yell to my cousin that I think I've gotten all the zombies, but if they notice anyone turn into one, yell at us so we can kill them before they hurt anyone. Then we start running up the road to towards the new wave of zombies. Just as we jump into the wave and start fighting, the blond guy and another guy come rushing out of the house where the baby was and they jump into the fray as well. Soon all the zombies are down, but there's more coming from farther up the street, but before trying to fight them, the guys in blue all attack the Asian dude that used to be one of them. I stand back and watch as they are all yelling and attacking and dodging. Suddenly there's like a black wave that flies through the dream, like a shock wave but it's visible like a black cloud. It hits me, and everything goes black for half a second, and then I'm seeing images of myself being in a field of flowers typing on a computer about this dream, but I'm asking people how to defeat the dude and what I should do. Someone starts gushing out how cute the bad guy is, then someone gushing about one of the other guys, then someone says I'm so much luckier than I know to be there in the middle of that fight, and then the flowers fly and suddenly I'm standing dressed in a golden dress. In my arms is the little baby girl, and she's also wearing a golden dress. There's someone standing beside me with his arm around me, and it's the blond guy, he's also dressed in gold and he's wearing a crown. He kisses the top of my head and tells me that he's finally destroyed all the darkness and it's safe for me now. But then I see a little boy standing over a well, and he plucks a coin from it, then his face twists and looks evil as he shoves the coin into his clothes. Someone confronts him, and he says he was drinking water, not stealing. Then when he does try to drink from the well to prove this, he starts coughing like the water won't go down his throat. He spits the water back into the well and runs. Then the scene changes, and the blond guy and I are handing the little boy, all wrapped up in tin foil (LOL) to the little dwarf guy in Game Of Thrones. The guy asks what he's supposed to do with him, and we're telling him to take care of him, and teach him to be a respectable person so he doesn't bring the darkness back. He scoffs, this is something he feels is beneath him and a pain in the ass to do. But he takes the kid anyways, and the blond guy and I smile at each other feeling like we've just made a huge difference. And that's when I wake up, lol.

I really think that second dream was at least 2 dreams, but I don't recall waking up in between so I just wrote it as one. It was definitely a lot of fun in the beginning, but the end was very strange and probably symbolic. I half wonder if the blonde guy was Kurasawa. I don't recall having the over whelming calm feeling that I usually do in dreams with him, but at the same time I was very oddly calm through out the whole dream. Zombies terrify me... I can't play zombie games or watch zombie movies and I can't even watch zombie cartoons after 4 or 5 without getting nightmares at bed time. A lot of this dream is fuzzy, so I wonder if that overwhelming calming moment was in the forgotten parts. The role the blonde guy played as protecting me, the fact that he was quiet and rarely said anything like Kurasawa, and the fact that what I can remember of how he looked (because his face is fuzzy in my memory) looks like Kurasawa is pretty convincing, lol.

06.19.2012

Was that Eva? (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Oh if you see me say "blonde," I really mean "blonde female," I'm just too lazy to type "blonde female" all the time, sucks I don't know her name, because she pretty much saved me.

This blonde had to be a double agent.....and Eva was technically a double agent when she pretended to be a replacement for Adam in MGS3....hmmmmmmmmmmm, could the blonde had been her? Probably, but my recall is a bit horrible....visual recall on the blonde is what I mean by horrible...everything else is pretty much decent.


Seems I'm at the outside of what seems to be a fortress, and Asuka Langley Soryu is apparently the one who owns this place, because I've had several encounters where she finds me if I go to a certain spot, and I have to escape out of the fortress again until she gives up on finding me.

I believe I'm saving a blonde, that's for sure, but at the same time, there's other blondes, like Rika Shiraki, who ends up being a klutz, and some other random blonde that finds me at some point in the dream.

The amount of dream resets, or re-entering in the fortress is so crazy, that I wonder how important this blonde I don't even know is to be going through this.

Everything is kind of mixed, and my recall is a lacking a bit, but I'll try.

I go into the fortress, and it's really really dark, and I believe the fortress is most likely set out at some uncharted island. It doesn't have any trees, at least from what I recalled, because the fortress itself took up the whole structure of the area.

I tried sneaking in to the right side of the fortress, but Asuka finds me, and I get so scared of what she's going to do to me for some reason that I decided to make a run for it. There's some device floating above me that shining so many lights at me.

Like really, there isn't any point of shining that many lights on me for one little machine, the whole fortress already knows I'm invading....ugh.

Anyway, I have to go up a few stairs and descend down a bit to get out of the fortress, and I believe the dream resets itself. I think it takes me a few times to get it down, and to realize that Asuka chick is always going to be looking for any intruders on the right side of her fortress.

I don't know why I'm presuming that she's the leader/owner of the fortress, but her voice....it sounded so dominating, like that bratty older teenager kind of voice, almost the perfect candidate for a tsundere.

Spoiler for Tsundere Meaning:

A Japanese slang term to describe a person with a hot and cold attitude. Cold on the outside, but sweet on the inside.

After going at it with the fortress a few times, I get closer and closer to other areas. There's one moment where I think I'm following a blonde, but I only see the back of her, and her long and curvy hair. She senses that Asuka is coming, and prompts me to duck under a table to the right of us.

I just go with whatever logic this blonde is dishing out at me, and it seems the section of the floor under the table contains some weird objects, there's a lot of them, but I didn't bother worrying too much about them because Asuka is coming.

The blonde, or whoever it was, damn it, it was someone helping me though, tries to play innocent with Asuka when she comes in. Asuka, being the observant bitch that she is in this dream, and I'm sorry for using that word, but she really was a bitch, god, I swear she wants to kill me in this dream!

Or best case scenario, capture me, tie me up, and do sexual acts....something tells me that she was smirking every time she saw me....

Anyway, Asuka gets closer to the table that I'm under, and the blonde quickly walks a bit closer to Asuka, and there's a bottle of Ginger Ale on top, Canada Dry Ginger Ale more specifically.

Lol. Sweet, dream uses what I like to drink as a means for the blonde to save my ass completely. Even though I'm under the table, I'm able to change how I'm viewing the room with ease. It seems the blonde "accidentally" drops the ginger ale, and "accidentally" open it so that it sprays all over.

Good, using all the sporadic spraying to distract Asuka, I like this blonde! Or whoever it is that's helping me. Asuka looks at her weird, and even though I can't tell her facial expressions at the moment, I just felt she was trying to be cautious, since I entered the fortress like.....2-3 times, even more?

The blonde tells Asuka that everything is okay, and the blonde immediately gets on her knees and spreads her arms frantically under the table I'm in. She starts moving the objects on the floor surrounding me. I honestly thought this would be the moment where the blonde screwed up her clever tactic, but it's still going strong here!

Asuka has that look that the blonde is just being silly with the Ginger Ale, and her constant awareness of being cautious dies down a little.

There's a dream shift, but we're all in the same room again, and I believe the blonde that's helping me let's Asuka drink from the bottle of Ginger Ale. The moment Asuka gulps it down, she dies. Apparently, she was chewing tobacco, and since the Ginger Ale just fell from the floor, the blonde opened it, and the fizz combined with the tobacco being reactive somehow to it makes Asuka go crazy.

She falls down, yep, she's dead. By this point, Asuka looked like someone else, but I'll just keep labeling her as Asuka because of the orange latex suit she was wearing most of the time in the dream.

I believe there's another dream reset, and this time, I'm in the same room, except Asuka is not here. Rika Shiraki, the adult version of herself from Bible Back: New Testament *gulp* (I'm innocent here!!) looks at both of us.

She's wearing some green outfit, like a green military uniform. She asks the blonde or whoever it is I'm following why am I here with her.

Recall gets a little scratchy here, but I'm sure that if Asuka was someone the blonde could trick, Rika wasn't going to be that difficult.

Another attribute that leads me to believe that could've been Eva, because she did manage to trick Volgin in MGS3 that he was her little plaything/secretary type of role, when she was just doing that to get closer to the Philosopher's Legacy roll tape (which had the locations of where the total sums of currency were located).

Okay now for the part that still gets to me.....

We're at the same room again, that same room that seems to be like an office of some sort. I'm under the table again, and this time, I don't have the ability to go into another perspective while I'm under the table. I tilt my head, and I see a blonde come in, she's in a green military outfit as well like Rika was.

She turns around, and she already know I'm under the table.

Shit. I felt as if I was going to be captured, but she just smiles at me as she turns her head at me. Seems like she's going to talk to someone.

And she pretty much looks like Eva with her hair tied up....and it's not even me wanting it to look like Eva. I've tried suppressing the possibility of it being her, but my mind just keeps locking in on her smile that she gives me.

Just add a smile, and bam.

Okay...

From this point, the dream shifts to another location, you know, going to the right side of the fortress and finding Asuka yet again...but you know what? I'm tired of mentioning her all the time, she's just a thorn on my side.

Things get random after that Eva lookalike.

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06.19.2012

Tyler Perry's House of Payne (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm googling on the ratings for "Tyler Perry's House of Payne."

I don't really have a liking for that show, guess I must've been really bored. One of the characters that I'm looking for a rating for is Malik Payne (Larramie Shaw). I read what one site has to say about his performance in the show, can't remember though.

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06.19.2012

Gardening (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm outside, and I'm 50 feet away or so from getting close to the entrance to an academic institution. It felt like a college, but the atmosphere was completely different, maybe it was, it's just my perception at the time, and the randomness with the dream that distracted me a lot.

There's seems to be some kind of outdoor convention of some sort, or maybe all of the resources, chairs, furniture, etc. are being moved outdoors to fix something inside the building. I walk around a bit, and I see a table that had huge books resting, and I a few sketching pads with drawings of head models.

I decide I should go ahead and sit down somewhere, since other people are sitting as well, and there seems to be an elderly lady who is probably a staff member, a teacher most likely, that tells everyone that they have to show that they're doing some kind of work.

She doesn't want us fooling around, so I take that as pretending to study for something. I'm on the right side of the section outside, and there seems to be a mini-garden in front of me. Some student is watering the plants, but I'm wondering if that constitutes as "work."

I look at the elderly lady to see her response to this student, but she doesn't really mind her at all. After that, I only remember the female watering the plants having a little difficulty setting the hose to the right setting.

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06.19.2012

High School Biology Class (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm walking down a hallway, and had that feeling that this classroom I'm entering would be one that I haven't gone to for a few days because of some circumstance.

I see the Biology Pre-AP/K-level teacher I had as a Sophomore in High School looking and smiling at me. I think she asks me if everything is okay, and if I finished the Biology lab.

I say yes, but I'm not really sure if I did finish it. I sit down in front row of the class, and that's all I remember.

06.19.2012

Solomon Moto is a Grave Robber (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

It's dark at night, and I'm near some graves, and I think I'm being informed that grave robbers are coming.

So to find a place to hide, go inside a hole where a coffin was contained, and cover myself in dirt. I see Solomon Moto from Yu-Gi-Oh with 2-3 people wearing masks coming to take the coffin I placed above me.

After they left, I quickly remove the dirt and get out of the hole.

Weird...

Method Used : MILD combined w/ couting self to sleep, leading to false awakening, leading to dream realization

Note: THis dream was actually on the 16 but I don't know how to put it into my journal as such. Also, I was really tired the 17 and coudln't recall any dreams.

In reality I had fallen asleep but in the dream I it felt like I was still counting to try and have WILD. Then in the dream I remember my dad randomly coming upstairs and ruining my efforts by saying he was going to go pick up donuts and coffee for breakfast. *lucid dreaming cue # 1* My dad wakes me up at 11:00PM to go get donuts and coffee???? Well, feeling frustrated that now I had to recount myself to sleep I decided I would just get up for a while and read some out of the book because I was pretty frustrated at having been woken up so close to success. As I went to get back into bed though I looked down for a second and when I looked up my bed had moved clear across the room to where it was before I rearranged and cleaned my room the week before. *lucid dreaming cue # 2* I began to think that I was possibly in a false awakening and began to question whether I was dreaming and had actually fallen asleep. Before I came to a conclusion though I decided I needed to brush my teeth. (You know how dreams are. It feels perfectly logical to do some completely random thing.) Anyways, when I had finished brushing I got a drink out of the sink to rinse. When I brought my head back up though all the stuff that had been on the counter (razor, toothbrush, etc...) had vanished. *lucid dreaming cue # 3* I began thinking, "OK, this HAS to be a dream". Still not completely in control though I decided to go back to my room and go to sleep and try to have a lucid dream. (wierd huh? i knew it was a dream but wanted to go try and enter another one). Anyways I climbed back into bed and went to set my MP3 player for 15 minutes. When I looked at it though it was playing movie soundtracks. (That particular player though only has the binaural beats on it.) *final cue*This is what finally made me fully aware and in control. I realized what was wrong and was like "screw going back to bed... IM DREAMING!!!!"

I instantly thought "hmmm.... what should do now that I FINALLY am having a lucid dream?" I came to the conclusion that I would go visit my favorite movies and video games. I ran downstairs and out the door. As soon as I got outside though the dream started to fade. It was probably due to the fact that I was SO excited and that I just went from being inside a dark house to dawn outside. Thankfully though I had just read how to counter this in the book. I just looked at the ground and and told myself that I was dreaming over and over and that THIS was where I wanted to be, not awake. It worked and the landscape stabalized. I began running down the street not entirely sure how to get to Green Hill Zone. (ya I started with the video games) I figured if I kept running I would make it there. I wanted to see how fast I could run in a dream. It was probably about double my actual running speed. I just remember when I was running how vivid everything was. I wear glasses and in the dream I remember looking through them and everything was clear. Then I looked to the side and it was blurry, just like in real life!

Anyways, as I was running one of my friends passed me on a bicycle and asked me where I was going. I said "What are YOU doing here? This is MY dream and I dont' remember asking you to show up! (I sure can be rude in my dreams can't I? But you know, kind of wanted to explore on my own) But ya, I'm headed to Green Hill Zone. Wanna come?" I started running again and then my friend stopped me and reminded me to fill out the necessary paperwork. I asked him what the heck he was talking about and he said I needed special passports to get there. I told him he was crazy because in real life such a place wouldn't even exist and since this was MY dream I could go wherever I wanted. Then he asked me to help him fill out his paperwork. I told him I was going to leave and so I did, continuing my quest. As I came to an intersection where there is a big hill and you can see the county road go for miles, the dream started to fade again. I ran back a little ways to try and stabalize things. I tried spinning and layed down on the ground. It worked! The dream returned in all its glory and I started running again. Then my friend passed me on his bike and insisted I help him fill out his papers. I tried to make him just disappear so I could get going again but I wasn't able to. Frustrated, I told him to go away and let me enjoy my dream in solitude. Then a big gust of wind came and blew all his papers away. Soon after the dream started to fade again. I went to collect his papers and hoped that reading all the scrambled letters would help. I found one of the papers and the dream was nearly gone. They were legible at first but as I spun to regain lucidity they scrambled. In the dream I remember conciously thinking that my brain was being a real jerk and playing tricks on my attempts to retain lucidity. With one final spin I tried to stay lucid but fell to the ground. I accepted the fact that I was going to wake up and passed seamlessly to laying in my bed. I woke up and the recording took 20 minutes!

P.S. If someone knows how to change the date on the entry please let me know.

As I climbed the glacier that I used to climb every night, I think hard about the task at hand. Once I reach the top, I am at my school. There is nobody there - which is odd - as I walk around, I hear nothing, see nothing, feel nothing. I come to the quick realization that this is because I did not want to adventure tonight, I simply wanted to complete the tasks at hand. I decide to have some fun and fly to my house (I tried flying with wings for the first time; I prefer no winged flight) in order to fall asleep and dive deeper within my subconscious. When I fall asleep in my bed, I wake up in a very old room. The room seemed like it could be in a castle somewhere, but the technology in the room seemed out of place, since there was a Brownie Camera (the first TOTY) sitting on top of a small wooden desk. Directly in front of me, was a mirror. I could see what I was wearing: A black spy suit, with a hood over my head (very splinter cell-esque) and the camera in my hand. I took a picture of myself looking into the mirror with the camera. Since this is a dream, the camera functioned like a Polaroid camera (I actually have no idea if this is how the actual Brownie Camera functions) and instantly gave me the picture. There was no dimension in the picture, it was simply flattened and very 2-D. The strangest part, however, was the fact that I was not in the picture. The mirror did not show my reflection, but simply what was behind the camera, which was a picture of a knight in a suit of armor. After I put the camera down, I knew it was time to enter my reflection. As I got closer, I could see the outline of my body slowly shake. I put my hand inside of the mirror, and I felt a cool sensation. As I went more and more inside of the mirror, the sensation grew, until I was fully emerged in a cool liquid. When I opened my eyes, I noticed that I was surrounded by water now. I could see the sunlight above, and swam towards it. Around me, there were icebergs and nothing else. I quickly teleported to safety, and awoke from my slumber.

I haven't posted in a while.
It's kinda difficult to find the time to do so with my current health issues. (It's nothing too serious I think, but it impedes me from doing activities that require a decent amount of brain power)
The few moments where I feel alright and I'm motivated to write, I spend it trying to somehow finish my masters thesis in time.
It's quite frustrating to know that it is going to take some more time until this will be resolved, because apparently it's perfectly normal to have to wait 10 weeks to get an mri done in this country. :/
Then again, we got fantastic healthcare, so I shouldn't complain.

Anyways, I don't really have the motivation to properly write down things that have happened in relation to the Templar story arc, but I figured I'd at least post something.
Something that is much easier to write.
So here's a random dream from last night which I thought was really cool, though I now realize that I'm going to have a hard time explaining why.
It's weird how that works, sometimes a seemingly normal event can be very emotional in dreams.



I'm in my bed, trying to fall asleep, when I notice that something is off with the lighting.
Normally my room is really dark at night, there's a few very faint green and blue lights from a switch and a file server in the room, but that's about it.
You really have to navigate the room by memories (if you don't turn the lights on), because it is too dark to make out anything.
But for some reason I can distinguish everything clearly, even though it's all pitch black.
What a contrast!

Fortunately I know this look very well.
Dark dreams! In my dreams darkness is usually compensated by a ludicrous amount of contrast, so I can see very clearly, even though it is really dark.
It is rather astonishing how many shades of black there really are, and how easily they can be distinguished if you aren't limited by the human eye.

I get out of bed and start exploring the house.
I don't bother thinking about my current situation or dream stabilization because I'm under the impression that I'm fully lucid.
This is however not the case.
I'm not thinking clearly, as I would in a "fully" lucid dream.
Yes, I'm aware that this is a dream, but I'm not thinking about doing cool stuff. No epiphanies or anything.
Just a mindless zombie strolling through the house, hoping to catch a glimpse of something extraordinary.

Once I am downstairs I notice that the scenery outside has changed rather dramatically.
This is not where my house is in waking life at all!
I go outside to explore more, and find that my house is now placed right next to a rather large lake.
It is perfectly still and reflects the sky like a flawless mirror.


Cool!
I start walking over it, something I often do in dreams.
Walking on water is really pleasant, if you do it barefoot that is.
The water is really cold and I get chills up my spine during my first few steps.

The sky is cloudless. It is perfect! There is no light pollution whatsoever. What a sight!
But then I realize that I'm not really lucid.
Or rather, I realize that I'm not thinking.
Exploring your own thoughts is an amazing thing to do in dreams, and has become my favorite way of stabilization.
If you're thinking clearly, dreams receive a huge boost in stability.
It's also a good way to calm down if you are easily excited.

Anyways, after some thinking I feel like I've gotten my brain to work adequately.
But oddly enough I'm not in the mood to leave this place, even though I am now fully aware that I can.
There is something very special about this scenery, and I'd like to stay for a bit longer.

I take off my t-shirt, noticing that it's a bit odd that I'm wearing one.
I never wear shirts to bed, especially not in the summer.
I lie down on my back.

It feels sooo good. My back touches the extremely cold water surface, which carries me easily.
I feel very floaty and stretch out my arms.

But even though this sensation is very enjoyable, blissful even, I cannot help but feel sad.
Because in this sky I can see so many stars.
Billions of them. And beyond them are billions of galaxies, containing billions of stars each.
And I'm here, on this rather insignificant piece of rock: planet earth.
Insignificant. That's really all I can think off.
In comparison to the size of planet earth we have explored less than a single grain of sand.
I feel alone. I feel stuck. I want to leave this planet.

I stretch my right arm out and grab onto the stars in my field of vision with my hand.
It's odd how I feel compelled to make this gesture even though nobody can see it but myself.
I want to go there one day. I want to go within my lifetime.
I want to explore this seemingly endless space.
But I realize that I have most likely been born too soon.
Why could I not have been born later, in an age where we are space explorers?

...

Well, that is just fucking depressing.
What is wrong with me?
I'm dreaming. It's all about experiencing the unimaginable. It's about having fun.
Yet here I lie, acting all melancholic.


But then one of the stars becomes slightly brighter.
For some reason I know that this is a super massive star that has just reached the end of its lifetime.
Its core has collapsed, releasing a massive shock-wave. A supernova!
During its lifetime it has fused hydrogen into heavier elements.
Helium, Lithium, Carbon, Nitrogen, Oxygen and many more.
And now, as its final act it is launching all of it into the vastness of space.

But these elements will inevitably find others. They will attract each other and slowly but surely clump together.
Some of them will turn into planets over the course of millions of years.
And with a lot of chance, one of these planets will be at a certain distance from a sun.
Maybe another smaller body will orbit it. A moon.
And maybe, if everything goes right, some of the elements this planet consists of will combine in a certain way.
And then there will be life... there will be another earth.
Because that's what life is.
That is what we are.
We are all made from stardust, forged within the cores of super massive stars.

And that is a really beautiful thought.
Because even though we might appear insignificant compared to the vast size of the universe...
we are special!
I mean seriously. What are the fucking odds?

And that makes me feel really great and I cannot help but smile.

I don't remember anything.

Oh well.



I love this woman.

woke up around 9am, moved around for a bit and laid back down. I put on "Astral 2" isotone and laid on my back. I slowed my breathing and waited. After a bit of time, I felt my body become heavier and my awareness of my limbs became mostly spatial versus sensational. after a bit more time, I felt lighter, like I was floating. at this point, I reached my arm up (to grab a rope with my astral arm), but my physical arm lifted..

I was in my secondary home, in the living room, sitting on the big chair my father usually uses. He was sitting on the couch and I was playing and testing around with the TV. I faintly remember some bloody stuff and that I was thinking that this movie isn’t for children. I noticed he was trying to record the movie which was about to start, and all I knew about it was that it was about Coon City.

Coon is an abbreviation to raccoon; I guess my dream wanted to avoid calling that place Raccoon City for obvious reasons (no relation to Resident Evil). The use of raccoon in the name also had a specific reason, all the people had some certain features of raccoons.

Over the next minutes I’ve seen some scenes from the movie, actually everything was in a forest, and there were only very few buildings, the movie was a strange but well working mixture of anime and real. One scene I saw was of one of these buildings which had an unprotected staircase outside of the building. There were a bunch of people walking, most of them “Coons” (that’s what I call the original inhabitants of Coon City) and at least 1 human, the human fell down and pretty much blew up to red pieces. Along with that scene I learned that somehow that place was really dangerous for normal humans and that the Coons generally don’t like them.
In the next scene I was actually present myself, I wasn’t watching the movie anymore, I was part of a real story. I was a (relatively normal) human and I was together with a girl, she was a Coon and she was really cute. I don’t remember how exactly she looked like but I think she had long hair with a color somewhat like lavender, she had a cute face, and probably some raccoon features I don’t remember. In a gentle but demanding voice she whispered something along these lines into my right ear while holding me: “Please stay here, I know it’s dangerous but I want a man I really like to be with me”.
We were standing close to an acclivity and after she told me those words I gave her some kind of positive reply, then I picked her up carrying her on my arms and started sliding down the acclivity. There was a lot of ivy on the ground and there were a few books lying around in one place. After sliding a good 100-150m we were standing up again, in front of us was another part of the forest, it was really dark and I knew it was a dangerous place. Without saying something to each other we went into different directions, planning to meet again. The last thing I remember was that I was trying to shake whatever was watching me out of those dark woods, then unfortunately the door bell woke me up… Yes how I hate this City (B) and this cursed door bell...

As this dream begins I'm not really sure where we are, but I do believe we are at my fathers fiancees place. It's me, the mother of my children and my soon-to-be-roommate. There are other people there, some of whom I do believe I've met in previous dreams. There's a total of five or six people in the apartment.

The room in which we are at the moment is scarcely decorated. There are blinds covering the window, white walls and a bed with white sheets. There's a TV turned on and a nintendo 64 connected to it. Me and the mother of my children always do a battle royale when there's a N64 present and we do this now to. My soon-to-be-roommate joins in, and as usual he is not competitive while me and the mother of my children and I are competitive to the point where we might just get into a fist fight.

At this point I start to realize that we should get ready for going off to the concert, but the mother of my children and my soon-to-be-roommate kept playing video games. Since I am the kind of person who just puts on my shoes and I'm ready to go anywhere, I started exploring the apartment (which wasn't really my fathers fiancees, even if that was what it felt like). Then my phone rings and it is my father who is going to pick us up, since the concert is in 30 minutes and it takes about an hour (!) to get there. And so, I put my shoes on and tell everybody to get going and I myself run out the door.

I stand outside the apartmentbuilding for quite a while waiting for the mother of my children, but she is taking alot of time getting ready. I call her to see what's up and when she answers the phone she tells me she is trying on outfits. I tell her that we need to get going and in my mind I just know that we're gonna miss "Born to run", which is probably on of the Boss' best songs.

Somehow I end up in a cab. Or a bus, but when I arrive at my destination it's a cab. Although I do remember the bus seats from my hometowns public transport in the dream. Anyhow... We're going through this huge system of roads, with tunnels, bridge, ramps and what have you, and I don't really consider it. I have my favorite cap on (which is now lost) and my wallet in my backpocket. I put the wallet on the seat, right next to me, since it's uncomfortable in my back pocket. I also take my cap off.
In a turn that is tunneled I see a really weird car. It's only got two wheels and it seems like it has disintegrated through rust. The driver is holding a wheel, and there's no motor hood, no roof and almost no body at all, just the skeleton of the car... Except that you can see where the rust has eaten it. For some reason that's the car I end up in when we reach the destination, which is an underground parking garage. When I'm about to pay the driver, I realize my wallet is missing. Ofcourse it fell out while lying on the seat, since there was no doors or walls to keep it inside the car(!).

Thoughts = Blue Dreaming State = Red Awake = Black

I went to sleep at about 12:15 a.m. Just before I went to sleep I drank some apple juice, which helps getting lucid.
I can't really remember my first dreams, but about 2 hours after I went to sleep I think I got into a sort of sleep paralasis. [COLOR="red"]Everthing turned black, and to "options" appeared. I could choose the top one, which said follow me, and the bottom one was like an old theater screen with some zombies walking against something. I wasn't quite sure which way to choose, but I knew I had to follow so that I could explore my own mind, though I still don't know what it's telling me at this point. A red text appeared and told me to go with the zombie one, which I then of course did. Everything turned black but I knew I was still moving forward. I thought to myself, shouldn't there be some weird stuff my mind is telling me? So all sorts of random stuff appeared. I summoned a button that could get me the hell out of there is shit went down. I knew that I was getting closer to the target and thing got really uncomfortable so I pressed the button .
I woke up a bit scared but of course also happy, because I hadn't been able to lucis in about a week. I remembered a funny vid on yt, where ppl dressed up as zombies and pranked ppl. So I thought of that so I could calm myself, and then I went back to sleep.

ARE YOU DREAMING??

This is a past dream i had long ago,
I was in a city, looked much like New York.
Everything was destroyed and smoking, a complete disaster, i see zombies feeding on people and what not.
After observing the place for a minute, i realize.. i have a gun in my hand, my clothes ripped up, dirty, tattered.. my arms scratched, no memory of how that happened.
A zombie sees me and tackles me but i grab him and throw him aside, then shoot him. Another zombie runs towards me, and i aim my gun at him, he quickly knocks it out of my hand and i fall down, the zombie gets on me and tries eating my face but i held him back like leonidas did to that big Persian in 300. As he tried biting my face off, i yelled and that was the end of the dream, VERY SHORT, SLIGHTLY BADASS, A BIT SCARY.

*** This is my first lucid dream ***
I'm in a hallway that's poorly lit, few doors on each side of the hallway. At the end is a door that's slightly open, light on. I walk towards it and find out it's a restroom.. well i see a mirror and decide to look at myself. ( at this time i have no control of the dream nor do i know I'm dreaming ) All of a sudden after looking in the mirror, i become heavy and i glow a bright golden color, at this time I'm granted control of my actions and I'm aware it's a dream. I'm then transported to a new hallway and it's much wider and well lit unlike thelast one. The hall way has a checkered floor black and white.. red curtains on the windows, everything is fancy. At this time I'm , " you're dreaming, you can do anything, just focus." And i clench my fists and open them quickly on an attempt to make fire, but i fail and make sparks and smoke instead. I try a few more times with the same results.. then i snap my right finger like the human torch from fantastic four, and create fire. I see business people walking around so i decide to have some fun, as i walk past them i snap my fingers and flick some fire balls at them, one guy called me a " douche" i laughed. Once i reached the end of the hallway, the dream ended.