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I took the kids to school and decided to try the Drop and roll technique or whatever its called lol

I'm in a house, there is a Jamaican lad there, i am waiting with my eldest daughter for my hubby to come home, he came home at one point but then he went again , i ask her where he went and she says she doesn't know, anyway another man comes in , he has a dark complection and long blonde hair, i look at him and for a minute i think he is my hubby, i say "what you done to your hair" ((didn't even mention his skin colour had changed)) he says "its always been like it" then i realise he's not my hubby!! This man was like a king or something in Jamaica and he was throwing a party, i went to the door and lots of people all came into the house, i say "look there all coming to see you" they go outside and i follow them, there is lots of food on tables, i look and see small pieces of bread and can see ham on it i'm hungry and take some and eat it, it was nice, i said "heres some ham ones" i look at the others, its like cracker stuff with black stuff on it, maybe fish or something and something else mixed with it, i try some and it tastes bloody awfull. I go back inside and i say to my eldest "there is a party outside you coming" she says "it's not our party were not allowed" I take a gulp of horror and feel bad and sit down. The king bloke stands infront of me and says something, i chuckle at him as he is funny and say something back, a woman by him says to another woman "fancy talking like that to someone as important as him" by this time he is now bald, i look and think "knackers to ya" he walks past and sings and i chuckle again, i get the feeling he likes me and doesnt mind how i speak as he himself is down to earth. We are now in the garden and i see some dogs, a large white one, a large blacky-brown one, and 5 small white puppies, i walk to them and try and stroke a pup but the brownish one , the male, snarls at me and bites my hand, it didn't hurt but scared me. I back off and he keeps snarling so i move away.
((DREAM SKIP))
I am in bed, my eldest is trying to wake me up and suddenly i see her under the duvet with me i jump and say "what you doing here" quite amazed she got in without me knowing, she giggled and says "i don't know" ((DREAM SKIP))
I am back in the house and there are some more puppies, they are black and i pick them up and hold them, i feel very safe with them, they are very loving and enjoy the attention, the big black one comes along ((the mother i suppose)) reminds me of my Ellie ((our dog that died a few weeks ago)) she cuddles me and she feels just like her and i give her a big cuddle and stroke her and give her pups back to her. ((DREAM SKIP))
I'm lying in my bed and have my eyes closed, i could hear crunching noises mixed with some other odd noises and i thought i was still awake trying to get into SP, ((not sure if i actually woke for a few seconds or was still in a dream)) i felt a spinning sensation and twisting, i then remember what i have read on DV about rolling out of your body into your dream body, or rock forward and backward, not to physically do it but imagine yourself doing it ((only read about that last night)) anyway, i imagine rocking back and fourth, i could hear real crunching noises as i tried, very odd noise, i then stop, open my eyes and sit up, I hold my nose and try to breathe and TADAHHHH!!! I can breath, it is the weirdest feeling ever. I can hear like pots etc. claniging about downstairs ((i now feel my body in bed and quickly divert my mind onto my dream so i don't get pulled out..very odd feeling lol)) I get up and make my way down, i pass my daughters room, i see a small purple coat hanging from a blind in her doorway, i touch it as I pass, i can really feel the material. I turn and make my way down the stairs , i look down and can see beautiful crafted wooden frames at the bottom, they are all around the ceiling area, like small wooden windows, the detail is amazing i can also see the sun rays through the glass making it shine.. I remember thinking "maybe this is what it will look like in years to come" I carry on down and get to the bottom, I look around, it is alot bigger than my house, not like it atall. I need the loo so i make my way to look for the toilet, my eldest came out of a room to my right , it looked to me like the kitchen area, she looked at me and begins to yell out "ohh my god, its my cousin" i giggled inside and thought "yeah, sure i'll go along with being your cousin" I really did think this was soo funny. she hugs me and i say "look i need a wee" she looks at me with a serious face and says " you can't go" i then think to myeslf "shit to what you say, its my dream and i'll go where i like" I look at her and say "ahh, thats ok, i'll just fly up into the sky and take a piss there, no one will know" She opens the door and i walk outside. It's night time, and it's raining, i look up to the dark sky and put my arms up like superman and push myself off the ground, up i go, it's amazing, i had my wee and chuckled to myself about it I then land on a path, i look to my right and see 2 ponies, a white one and a brown one, one was a little bigger than the other ((these were in a few dreams i have had now and have spoken to me before)) they were standing on a corner just watching. I look up again and see lights, big blue ones hanging from a piece of wire, i decide to take a swing on one, i fly up to it a little and hop on..i begin to swing and get aroused from the feeling of it between my legs, i thought "i'mnot waisting my lucid having an orgasm" so i jump off and land on the ground. I decide to take a walk, i'm a little chilly and wet from the rain but i don't care ((never thought to change the scene..dohhhh!)) I decide to fly again but this time don't get very far, it is like a crash landing!!! lol, I decide to keep to my legs for now. I'm walking along a wide path and pass a few houses, the dream is very clear but for the hell of it i rub my hands together and call out "CLARITY NOW" The dream stays as it is but my voice is echoing, i don't like it and don't know how to stop it so i randomly call out "STOP ECHOING NOW" lmao then i say "echo" and it is still echoing, i then was back in bed, i can hear the crunching noises again and feel the spinning sensation, i concentrate on it but it goes then i wake up. Not sure if this was a WILD or a DILD anyone????

NORMAL DREAM
LUCIDITY
NOT VERY VIVID
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At the beginning my mother was around and her car I think was there. Then I was in a petrol station and was stroking a horse’s fur; Horsepower , there were these other people there too, one of the women looked at me as I was stroking the horse’s fur. I would not really go near a horse in real life and to add that it was in a petrol station.

I then woke up lucidly so I decided to go outside. I went out the back door at dad’s house and outstretched my arms and started to fly. I did not need to flap my wings or anything; I did move my arms flexibly around however. I saw the sun and it was huge, there were massive sun spots too. The sun was at least 8 times the size of the moon.

I thought about it and then decided to teleport to the sun, I said "take me to the sun". I was almost immediately in the orbit of the sun. I got a bit excited and decided to get back on earth but I only got in its orbit looking down on it. The earth looked slightly electronic with glowing hexagons on the surface.

In between teleports it was like travelling through a wormhole with the dream space/time whipping around into a vortex. I decided to go on a mission, my lucidity faded here.

Other dream characters were telling me not to go. I came to a conclusion there was something wrong with the planet (earth) so I decided to teleport to another one that did not belong to humans. I took note that I could teleport into trouble. As in in-front of a being that would not friendly towards me. I decided to go to a lab as a spy, to change something I felt was needed. I affirmed, along the lines of: 'take me to the lab hidden from personnel with access to equipment.’ As if i was an infiltrator on a secret mission.

There were loads of people running around in this building with loads of stairs leading up and down. I decided to go down, because of other peoples opinions. People where running in both directions. The stairs were made of metal and there was lots of wire fencing so the people could not escape. The atmosphere was quite Eerie. The people had mixed opinions saying they were coming from the top or the bottom. A grenade appeared flying from apparently nowhere and destroyed some of the stair case. Loads of vermin where inside the stair case and a green wriggly tentacle were also there and were now visible as the grenade blew a hole in the stairs. I still decided to go down as the explosion exploded the adjacent wall so the aliens were no coming from below. I got to the bottom of the staircase and I saw a room with vermin and loads of pigeons, there were cages and wooden structures like shelves, it was very dark down there. A pigeon occasionally pooped, it's as if nobody really went there.
The scene changed, it was as if I was in a video game because I missed a ramp and my 6% below average turned to 12% below average, the percentage was shown on my dream like a HUD display on a video game. I was not in a car. It was kind of like monsters Inc. PS-one game. I thought I had to average well again to get my score back up.
My brother was around. My Brother/someone else commented and said that I have been dreaming for about 3 hours, I said I should wake up now. I looked at the time and decided to end my dream and wake up (it seems my lucidity fluidly came back). The hand positions on the clock read about 5 minutes to 11:00, but the numbers were messed up, the time numbers showed the time at around 2:00.

I falsely woke up and saw the time and the hands were positioned further anticlockwise, but each hand was the same distance from each other (I failed to notice the sign however). The clock was about 2 feet diameter and was outside by the way, to add to that, it was light outside and not dark. I then talked about how dream time must be faster than real life and I got people to help me write, I got a person to write whatever I say down, I was going to write key words. I said "right” (as in ‘Right, let’s get going’) and my scribe quickly jotted down a note.
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Symbols (http:\\dreammoods.com) :

Petrol Station - "You need to reenergize and revitalize yourself. You may be running low on energy and need to take time out to refuel. Your ability to convert outside resources and use it for your own needs. Alternatively, you need to reach out to others and offer your help."

Horse - "Strength, power, endurance, virility and sexual prowess. It also represents a strong, physical energy. You need to tame the wild forces within. You may also be "horsing around". Alternatively,you need to be less arrogant and "get off your high horse". "

Woman - "Nurturance, passivity, caring nature, and love."

Flying - "A sense of freedom where you had initially felt restricted and limited."

Sun - "Peace of mind, enlightenment, tranquility, fortune, goodwill, and insight. Radiant energy and divine power. Abnormalities and peculiarities to the sun's appearance represents some sort of pain or chaos occurring in your waking life.
+ Spots - imperfections, but OK.

Vortex - (I Don't know)

Electronic earth - "You need to be "grounded" and realistic. Perhaps your sense of stability and security is lacking. Consider the consistency of the earth for additional significance on how you are feeling (electronic - robustness). Wholeness and global consciousness. You are interconnected with the world."

Teleportation - "Your desires to escape your current situation or to move more faster and easier through it. You may be expressing some frustrations with how your waking life is proceeding and the slow speed that it is moving at."

Spy - "Your mistrust of others and your tendency to be in everyone's business and affairs. Perhaps you have recently stumbled upon some information that was not meant for your eyes."

Going down stairs - "Your repressed thoughts. You are regressing back into your unconscious. setbacks that you are experiencing in your life."

explosion - "Your repressed anger. The rage that you have been holding in has come to the surface in a forceful and violent manner."

vermin - "sickness and trouble. You will be faced with many disappointments and obstacles. Alternatively, the dream refers to some dirty situation."

Darkness - "Failure in some work that you are attempting. Darkness is synonymous with ignorance, the unconscious, evil, death, and fear of the unknown."
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Interpretation:
You need to reenergize and revitalize yourself. You may be running low on energy and need to take time out to refuel. You need to reach out to others and offer your help and stop "Horsing around" and be less arrogant. You need to tame the wild forces within to become Strength, power, endurance, virility and sexual prowess and have a strong, physical energy, Nurturance, passivity, caring nature, and love, and to have a sense of freedom where you had initially felt restricted and limited.

Imperfections are covering the great Peace of mind, enlightenment, tranquility, fortune, goodwill, insight, Radiant energy and divine power. Perhaps your sense of stability and security is lacking. You are interconnected with a world which is modern and high tech Wholeness and global consciousness.. You need to be "grounded" and realistic. This is shown in Your desires to escape your current situation or to move more faster and easier through it. You may be expressing some frustrations with how your waking life is proceeding and the slow speed that it is moving at. Your mistrust of others and your tendency to be in everyone's business and affairs. Perhaps you have recently stumbled upon some information that was not meant for your eyes.

Your repressed thoughts and setbacks that you are experiencing in your life, and your repressed anger. The rage that you have been holding in has come to the surface in a forceful and violent manner. Which will cause sickness and trouble. You will be faced with many disappointments and obstacles or another dirty situation which could lead to Failure in some work that you are attempting, or ignorance, the unconscious, evil, and death.

Very assuring Hope you liked this. If you've got any improvements regarding the structure of my journal I will be willing to accept. Thanks.

So I 'woke up' in the dream about 15 minutes after I went to sleep, I hardly felt SP besides a little spinning in the head which was weird. I had the lucid dream at first in my room which is very normal for me. I did like five different reality checks because I couldn't believe that I was in a lucid, they all came out positive of course. Yet, I still didn't believe I was in a full lucid so I tried to close my eyes again and get deeper which is where the craziness starts. I visualized a new scene which was my full upstairs and kitchen. In real life I was about to bring some alcohol to my friend Nate's house so I had it sitting on the counter. So in my dream I pictured the alcohol there also, and it worked I appeared in my kitchen and my mom had just got home. She asked me why I had her alcohol on the counter. At that point I had the weirdest feeling I ever had in a dream I felt like I was super, super drunk. I was passing out everywhere I went like I was too tired and drunk. I couldn't answer any questions and I knew it was a dream so I felt no need to. I stumbled over to a wrap around table and laid my head down while she was still talking to me. She grabbed my face and started lightly slapping me and say Derrick come on wake up... What should I make for dinner tonight? I couldn't even respond I was passing out but I was still fully lucid the dream was not fading.
I then appeared in my bed again, with some crazy sensations. By third eye area was going crazy with tonsss of pressure my body was waving like I was smoking weed, I was hallucinating like I was on shrooms and I still had the drunk feeling all at the same time. I also felt SP hitting me while I was in the lucid don't know how that happened, but the waves were going through all of my body, and certain pressure points hurt really bad. I tried to stand up in this false awakening which at the time I thought was reality, I managed to stand up but then I fell STRAIGHT on my face directly on my nose. At that point I knew I was in a dream because I felt like I floated before I hit the ground so I wasn't hurt, but it was a complete loss of muscle control.

Vague memory of dream fragments. I remember sitting with my father. He wanted to wear my socks. I thought it was weird cus my socks are dirty but he did take them on.

*fuzzy*

We have arrived at our grandmother's house with the car. There's some kind of party, we go inside and my granddad is sitting in his chair. The furniture was moved tho, the whole building looked different. it wasn't the real house. I kissed my granddad in the cheek and as i did that i realized... My grandfather is dead. This can't be, it's a dream. I try to pinch my nose not really sure if i could breathe. I COULD BREATHE!. Holy cow this is a dream. My heart starts pounding. I say to myself relax, don't get too excited just do what you have to do.
I want to go outside and i mentioned this. My neace wanted to go with me so i took her with me. We walked down the street and i thought i'd try to fly. I take a sprint and i lift off. I can barely fly, i floated a little but fell to the ground. My neace and passer-by's didn't seem at all suprised that i was able to fly. (barely)
We are riding a bike. My memory is vague but we arrived in my own town. There where loads of people going around their normal business. It was a busy street near the mall. I remember looking around and thinking. This is so real. This looks exactly like it does when awake. I wasn't even sure if i was really dreaming , nothing was really different than when i'm awake.
I remember i wanted to go to the moon. So i decided to try and draw a portal on the floor. I moved my nails and tried to make a circle. I was a little bit embaressed doing this in a public area because goddammit this was so real. All those peope that pass by must think i'm a lunatic. Well... no portal ever appeared. There was a drain in the middle of the circle. The one u find in cities. I thought maybe i can push it like a button and a portal will appear. Nothing. In retrospect maybe i should have opened it and went inside . how dumb.
I thought about my body lying in bed. I was suprised to be still dreaming. But i woke up.

Jumped out of my freaking bed to write this shit down. Loads to learn. But this was exactly what i needed. It was actually my birthday yesterday so i suppose this was the best birthday gift i could ever have. Saw my granddad AND i went lucid. WINNING!

I was at a friends house doing some things, then suddenly some music started playing. I can't remember what song it was, but I know that it was pretty awesome. I went back to my house and a bunch of people came in, so I decided to go into town.
I was standing near a shop and noticed that there's a huge TV on a wall that was never there before. I went lucid after seeing the time on it. I saw the girl from most dreams walk to near my location, I ignored her and chose to watch some weird golf show on the giant TV. What felt like a few minutes later, I heard a voice from behind asking what I'm doing, it was the girl. We decided to spend some time with each other, I reckon I could've had more fun if I decided not to. She wanted to buy a drink, so we went into the shop and she couldn't decide what drink. When we left some guy said something about the drink, and she needed to go to a bus stop, so I went there with her because it was on the way to where I wanted to go. After I said bye I woke up.

This was sort of a weird false awakening induced lucid dream, I'm not sure how the dream transitioned but I remember being aware as soon as it did.

I had a dream about some sort of race to Candyman's house - he was having some sort of gathering with a bunch of friends from school, and we all had to make our way through a forest to get there. Toby and I were grouped together, and as soon as everyone entered the forest it got very dark. I decided to hell with the forest, I'll just fly across and beat everyone there - so I did. Toby and I waited in a small room, it had grey walls and was only lit by the light coming from the overcast sky. Inside was a large stack of presents, which I believe Toby and I accidentally knocked over. We picked them all back up in time to turn around and find people arriving from the forest.

I went out the sliding glass doors and found Sally, I told her 'Sal, I flew here! Haha! That only happens in my dreams, but how crazy is it that I can fly when I'm awake!" I remember thinking to myself how much stronger I must be. I'm not sure how it happened, but the dream transitioned to my front yard, and I was lucid. I recognised how clear it was, and how it didn't feel like it was going to fade. I knew I had complete control. I rubbed my hands and looked around at the trees in my front yard. It was mid afternoon, there was a bright sunlight shining from behind my house, indicating it would set soon.

A boy from my school walked up my driveway, with a huskie/wolf on a leash, with a clone of him with another huskie right behind him. I knew that I should ignore whatever the DC wanted, because it would likely put me back on the plot of the dream, but I figured I might ask him a question. I can't remember what I asked, but I remember I dismissed the answer because it was nonsense. I then remembered my goal of trying to find my dreamguide! I said to the dream "when I turn around, my dream guide will be behind me.' I turned, and a large black man was standing behind me. He was wearing clothing somewhat like a genie, with short sleves embellished with gold trim. He was extremely tall, perhaps 7-8ft, and extremely built. I asked him
"Are you my dream guide?"
He laughed, and replied
"Of course not, When you find your dream guide you will know it for sure."
I realise now that I should have asked him who he was, and how he was connected to me, because I did feel some form of connection. He had a very positive presence, he radiated happiness and seemed so carefree. I plan to find him again and introduce myself properly (and a lot more politely..)

I spoke to the dream again "When I turn around, my dream guide will be behind me." ad turned, to see my father. He was blurry and out of focus, I'm not sure if it was my vision or just the rendition of him. I was confused
"what, are you my dream guide?"
He smiled, and said no. Things started to blurry, but I could still feel my dream body.
"No, Stabilise!" I yelled, rubbing my hands together and noticing how real it felt. The dream faded, and I woke up in an FA. I told sally about my LD, how I'd been flying and told her in my dream. I hadn't written in my DJ, but I figured I didn't need to because it was all so clear in my memory! The rest of this dream continued on briefly, with an uninteresting plot about presents and an ex girlfriend.

I was with a female companion. She was wearing very tight underwear and I could see the undulation underneath it. I kissed it.

She asked me to carry her, so I picked her up upside-down. It was reasonable in my dream. Her leg were apart and it was
right there in my face. I held my head up and looked away so someone wouldn't think I was happy about what was unfolding.

Once I was clear of danger, I kissed her again. I felt the warmth and the wetness.

I had other dreams and I worked to remember them, but I eventually forgot them.

It started in a snowy field, a crowd of kids had dug out a race track. Me, the tough and routy tomboy fought fiercly against the other neighborhood kids. This dream was set out sometime durig the 1800's or early 1900's. Once called into town all the kids scattered to their homes across the town. I rememever seeing fires with food cooking over them outside (the ground was nothing but dirt roads and paths) along with wells and other little shops. As I headed up the wooden stairs to a taller brick building which was a pub sort of thing. I met up with an older sister. We dreaded the thought of going home and seeing our mother. We walked through the dimmly lit pub and up another tight flight of stairs; up to our small apartment type home. We opened the door and walked into a lightless hallway. Everything in house was dark and cramped. I felt the atmosphere was sketchy and almost dangerous. Then our mother decended from the darkness of the main doorway. I saw that something was metally wrong with her, I saw that she was somehow crazed. She frightened us as she took me by the shoulders and got up in my face. Although i cant really recall, I think she said something about how glad she was for us to be home and that we need to change out of our dirty street clothes and into something nice. She was in a panic and had crazy eyes. I sort of shrugged her off and huddled into our room. My older sister had long beautiful dark brown hair and a gorgeous face. I would guess she was around 16 or 17; i between 12 and 14. Our room was small and was also dimmly lit. We rushed to change out of our everyday off white dresses and put on these lovely blood red gowns. I struggled to get the clips on the corsette like top on properly. Suddenly an older woman bursted through the door to makee sure we were ready. Im not sure why we had to get all fancied up but i had a feeling it had to do with the pub down stairs even though it was really late. The woman laughed at me and scolded me for not getting my top buckled up the way it was suppossed to. Me, being so tomboyish, tried to stand up for myself. Then the dream faded out......Oh but i guess i shouldnt forget to mention the music that started to play in the background in the last few moments of the dream. It was metallica and other kinds of music along those lines.....



PS. Please forgive my horrible spelling, im too lazy to proof read to so if some parts dont make any sense...mah bad X]

I'm having very intresting dreams at the time being, but not so much recall. So I decided to post one of my key-dreams from couple of years back. This really did change something in me.

So this dream was played in two acts. They both were long and complex.. but I remember the first act only vaguely.


APOCALYPTIC PARTY AND MENTAL HOSPITAL

ACT I - The Party

I was at this underground festival wich I did partisipate in wakig life many years ago (when it did happen I was in delusional state so the experience there was quite psychedelic also in real life). The parties in dream were parties of apocalypse. All kind freaky stuff happened but in a somewhat "normal" way. I was acting as a ringmaster and tried to keep the spirit up, help people to find their way there and help the world to change. I was wearing tailcoat and top hat (I own over 100 year old tailcoat and did have over 150 years old top hat in waking life). At one point I slipped and fell into deep woodstocklike mud pit and got a moment humblening. I remember thinking how on earth I can get these clothes clean, how much it will cost and is it even possible etc.

After that and also scattered around the I act I tried to contact people (spent much time in phone etc) so that they would know that parties are happening and get there. I moved in dreamlike manner across the communication lines. In one point I had moved to the town where I live in waking life and I was in phone booth talking to someone in festival. He/she told my that one person I know had arrived to the festival. In the waking version of those festival he wasn't there and I remembered that. It came clear to me that he has arrived from present to parties that were in past. It was absolutly clear in dream that this was what had happened. I became thrilled that things were finally working and the first act ended.

ACT II - The Sanitarium

I found myself at the mental hospital. I was patient there (I've been hospitalized iwl). My girlfriend from that time came to visit me. I said to her that let's go to my room so that we can be in peace. So we get to this room and in the back of the room is another door that hasn't been there. We go through the door and after a corridor we come to this room full of mirrors and old paintings. Paintings are somewhat romantic but also impressionistic. All of them symbolise some theme or situation in intimate relationship. Situations are universal and about the crisis, glings, disconent, frustration and situations you end up reliving from time to time (loops). We deside to go deeper into this knowing that they are only loops. So we go deeper this time travelling through mirrors and paintings. Every time we go through one we end up to act the situation in our life, but in some level we are lucid that this is what we have to do to get to the end of this road. After every passage we end up to new room full of, yes, paintigs and mirrors.

Then we get to this one painting. It's quite small and from 18?? I think. It's a holiday and tourist town in French normandy. There are houses that are cafeterias, inns and restaurants. There is a promande and in the side of it a low wall, by the wal there is stairs that lead to beach. In the middle of promenade there is a phone booth (not realistical at that period of time) and in the phone booth there is a gentleman talking to phone. He is wearing top hat and tail coat. After a decent distance there is a woman waiting for her man. She is leaning to her umberella. We decide to go through this painting. We end up to relive many symbolically analogous sitution from our relationship. In those situations either one of us is talking on a phone or using computer. The other one is jealous for attention that other is giving to outside world and at the same time hoping that he/she could be on computer/phone conncting to outside world. These scene goes on too long. The whole labyrinth that we have travelled inside the sanitarium collapses and we are back in my room. My girlfriend is shouting at me for some obscure reason that I don't understand. She doesn't have any memories of us travelling in that maze of realtionship. She leaves from the room and bangs door loudly.

I end up wandering around the sanitarium. Group of three or four patient come to talk to me. One of them woman, other are men. They want me to go to a room where some of them live. I'm cautious cause you never know how to trust other looneys but in the end I decide to follow them. So I get to this room and they start to talk to me very entusiastically. They have difficulties to remember not to talk at the same time. They tell me stories and try to make me remeber things that I have blocked out. Their message is this: they are group of reality revolutionaries (not the kind that want to rebel against reality but the kind that want to fight for new, better, reality. In fact I'm one of them. We have done many missions together before. There are many more of us. Some of us (like me) don't remember this.
As the story goes on I start to remember bits and bits. And as I remember their appereances start to change. I get to see glimbses who they really are. Some fantastical features in their looks.

After they have downloaded this information to me they say that it's a time of next strike. It's now. So we go to common areas of department, and strike starts. It is a fasion show. So the nurses happen to be caring and motherlike and have allowed the patient to keep little fun. Patients get to arrange fasion show and the nurses are sitting in the audience. Everybody is dressed in blankets and pillowcases and stuff that is avaible. My comrades ask me to sit on a ground and hold a flashlight. So I sit in lotus possition and held the lamp like a torch. I start to get tired and doze off. As I start to get closer to dream (in a dream) I see glimbses of my fellow model patients inner shelves. Not just how they are but who they experience to be. Then I fell asleep.

I wake up to this large dog licking my neck and get scared. Wait a minute. It's not a dog but a dragonlike being whose tail is around my neck. And it stays there. I'm still among the models/patients and the nurses are watching but this freaking dragon stays there and freaking nurses are staring right into it. So I realise that reality is quite leaking. Divine intervention (lights and stuff) put this large book into my lap. The books is about cracking the code of reality. I open it from random spread. The other page has this chart about history: years, periods, rulers and things. The other page has a map of time were every time periods are not separeted by time but by geographic distances. There is island called 1960's and a city called French revolution with suburbs that are like American independence war and other too. Large nation called Archaic and everything else. When I read the both pages simultaniosly the timeline of world starts to collapse to a one hypermoment where everything is simultaniosly.

I open the book from another spread. It talks about multidimensional masters that have reached the fifth dimension and effect the world from there by telling stories. They use codenames to let the awake people know what's the story about. There are names of waking world playwrights, songwriters, comic writers, book authors, poets and other. Code opens up who they really are, who tell the same story, what other aliasses those master use in waking world. As I read this code the optional storylines start to collapse in one hyperstory with all possibilities. I got this strong sensation that now the reality is really open. Mental hospital has mostly faded away. We (and there are many of us now) desided to make one last effort to really crack reality up.

(this part is very hazy.. so I don't even remember how I experienced the last effort. Was it a party, orgy, battle, chessgame or what.. maybe all at once)

We win (kind of). Reality has changed into Orwellian Nazi Germany where our side wears uniforms of SS officers. Some of as start losing their memories and act like their roles. I'm alarmed and depressed. Something must be done. I pick up a piece of paper and start writing. Asking questions from remaining resistance about what should we do. After I've written those things the letters reshape into answers and suggestions. They so me this one sigil that I remember from somewhere and suggest that maybe we should use it. I think for a moment and then agree. I use the sigil and the dream collapses. Error message appears in English (it's not my native tongue). I'm not sure was it a mental or visual text. It says:

FUNNY THING JUST HAPPENED
THERE IS NO FANTASY THAT HISTORY HAS FOREWARNED US
YOU HAVE TO CONSTRACT EVERY PARSEC OF STORY YOURSELF

I wake up and have this surrealistic feeling for the next couple of days

Dream #1

I am at a bar in what i thought was a hotel. I am sitting on a bar stool with my mother next to me. My sister was sitting behind the counter and a woman was standing with us who i perceived to be the hotel manager.

We talked for a while which i don't remember and then there was something stuck on my sister's arm which i also don't remember what it was. I let my fingers move across the object and it let go of her arm. I made a sexual joke about that i have magic fingers if u know what i ean . Then i thought, shit they aren't gonna think this is funny. I looked at my sister's face and she was starting to smile widely. My mother burst out laughing and all four of us started laughing out loud. I woke up.

Dream #2

I am in a backyard of some sorts with my neighbour who i never talk to. This backyard was covered and there where a few gates and fences . I was with my little dog and my neighbour had 2 large dogs in his part of the fence. Then he brought another dog with him. This dog was HUGE, like 4 meters tall and basically very big. I had to be careful not to let my dog near those dogs. Somehow my dog was able to open the gate tho so i blocked him from going in there. It was all very strange.

At some point there was a party going on and there where loads of people. I had a deep conversation with my neighbour wich i recalled when i woke up but i forgot to write it down (goddammit) i actually remembered the entire dream but i didn't write it down. Now i have forgotten it.
At some point my sister was there standing behind us. And she burst out laughing again. I wake up.

Dream #3

I'm in my living room with my little nefue. In the dream i thought i was talking to my friend but when i woke up i realized this was my nefue i was talking to.
We where watching tv or something and something came up about stoning a woman to steal her money or something. My nefue said, i do this sort of stuff.
I told him that's very selfish, it's completely unfair. It's just pure greed. You don't even need the money.

We talked about this for a while and he mentioned he was a crackjunkie and he needed the money . I told him that's no excuse, it's still greed to steal the money just so u can keep loading up. Once you start hurting people at one point it will be fatal. You will be fed with guilt for the rest of ur life. He broke down and he cried. We hugged and i closed my eyes.
In my closed eyes visuals i could see a hand made entirely of light reaching out to me.
I woke up again.

Dream #4

don't remember goddammit.

a
6-18-2011


Type: Unknown
Lucidity: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10
Vividness: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10

I was laying in bed. I had just had a dream of being at a carnival and walking in front of a group of guys and one of them gave off this offensive/mean feeling towards me when I walked by.
It was all black now but I willed the dream back.

Only the images came back and they were black and white only, but in like a kind of negative color scheme. I wasn't sure if this was a working/running dream or if it was somehow frozen because there was no sound and I didn't see anything else moving.

I was where I was when the dream collapsed so I walked back to the group of guys again. As I walked I became in third person view but my physical feelings were 1st person. I watched myself from a lower right hand side. There the guys sat, I targeted the offensive guy with my mind and I threw him with my telekinesis toward the horizon. I could see him falling end over end, flailing his arms and legs trying to get control of himself while hurtling through the air. I calmly watched as he flew quite a distance before falling out of sight. I was amazed how I had no effort in throwing a 190 pound guy about 200 yards away, all I had to do was focus, believe, and move my hand a little.

There were still 3 guys there and I tried to think of experimenting with another power but oddly I couldn't think of any, not one! I tried still harder to think of them, I knew they were there but couldn't access them! Then the dream started to fragment, I couldn't concentrate on both with all this intensity and then dream collapsed leaving me in the darkness. Instantly my memory of my powers came back shortly followed by a feeling of "too late now"

I am doing math problems at a Nazi labor camp. (I have no idea what was going on there, but I wrote it down so it must have happened. Weird.)
Scene Change.
I am at some sort of sports facility where middle schoolers would have their birthday party. I see an old friend of mine, Dallas, and his family. I ask them how they're doing with a smile, and notice the setting has changed to a funeral. They are deeply grieving for the loss of his mother's sister. His father wants to talk to me in a separate room. I enter, and he disappears. Here I become lucid, and for the first time it is actually pretty vivid and stable. Unfortunately, the ceilings were too low to fly, and I was kind of trapped. I got too excited, and woke up. It was the longest I have been lucid so far, and the most vivid.

My friend Elijah and I walked downstairs into the kitchen. I saw a commercial for what I thought was a Nintendo remake of the N64 (An earlier discussion of me and Elijah in real life), but turned out to be some dumb special edition magazine thing. He mentions a party at his friend's house. (Note this passive control). I say "Oh, doesn't he live next door?". He thinks, and says yes. (Once I awoke I realized that his friend does not live even close to next door.) I see my parents, and the four of use walk into the park.
Here the scene changes.

I am now sitting in the back passenger's seat of an SUV. My parents (Who knows where Elijah went) say they will be back in a second. I see my Dad's friend drive by and wave. Then, a middle aged man I've never seen before jumps in and starts the car. He floors the gas, and I try to yell but nothing comes out. When he finally slows down for a little at a red light, I barrel roll out of the car. He heard me take of my seat belt, and leaps after me. Here I become lucid, and lose a good amount of vividness. The last thing I remember was facing him in comic book style fashion. I did a nose plug RC and woke up.

Cylon Reconnaissance 6/13/11

I was part of a Two-Man recon mission from Galactica to a planet (probably Kobol). My partner was a female. I think we came down in a Raptor, but I don't recall the beginning that well. We were walking through some dense jungle/forestry, and soon found ourselves at the edge of a cliff, and we dropped down into the grass for cover.

The female pulled out a large sniper rifle, and I took out binoculars to aid her. There were a few of Cylons (human variety and toasters) in a clearing below. For some strange reason I wasn't able to assist her in targeting; I blanked. They soon saw us and we slid down the cliff side and into the valley, along the wall until we hit the tree line.

There were weapons all along the ground. My partner manage to pick up a working weapon. I however, picked up two sepearate weapons, neither of which were in working condition (Oh yeah, love my luck =P ). One of which looked like a longbow...I assumed it was an energy weapon, but apparently it was just a bow, or it was busted. The second was a sort of mechanical rapier, with a second blade running from the hand hard, and meet at the tip of the main blade.

We darted back into the cover of the woods and were running REALLY fast--inhumanly fast. I realized that WE were Cylons ourselves! (Twist!) The other cylons were a few yards behind us, firing at us, but missing. We leapt into the wreckage of another raptor and set a beacon (which marked the a target for Nuking from the ship in orbit) and were "beamed up" to Galactica.

From this point, it switched to a movie style dream...I saw the other Cyclons looking at the beacon apathetically just as a massive mushroom cloud appeared, shockwave and all. It was pretty intense. After that, it switched to President Rosland doing something...the dream got a bit illogical after that.

Saturday 18th June 2011
I was sitting in my room in the university halls of residence with my sister. I suddenly felt blood seeping out of my nose and it gradually worsened.

I ran to the bathroom and let my nose bleed out into the sink; it showed no signs of stopping, so I gathered some tissue and held it to my nose. I took this chance to look into the mirror above the sink. My eyes were no longer their normal, dark green colour. They were an icy blue and it seemed to look like the colour was fading further.

It was then that I thought to myself "I'm dying."

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Car Journey
Saturday 18th June 2011
It was late at night and I was gazing out of the car window to the starry sky as we drove along a motorway. I could only see a few stars in the sky, so my gaze fell back into the car.

However, I decided to look up again and the amount of stars multiplied and their light intensified. It was then I realised that I was dreaming. I sat still for a moment to compose myself and looked out of the windscreen of the car. Suddenly, everything started to fade. However, I managed to stabilise my surroundings and readied myself to fly out of the window. I began to float, but I woke up.