memorable

I was on some kind of flying bus or other multi-passenger transport vehicle. Outside it was dark and stormy. The vehicle was flying over a city. It looked pretty run down -- a very dystopian sci-fi vibe.

I realised we were heading straight into the centre of a storm. It was like a hurricane and epic thunder storm combined. I knew it was dangerous and started shouting at whoever was driving to avoid the storm. It was too late though. The vehicle was shaken and vast amounts of water were pouring in to it, filling it up.

Mostly everyone was knocked unconscious. Only myself and another guy were alright. I told him to help me open the back window. The vehicle was still flying and had passed through the storm but was almost full of water and heading towards the ground. We opened the window and I pulled out some kind of breathing apparatus and swap through the vehicle waking people up.

I was telling them that they had to go and jump out of the window because we would crash. It seemed like it was somehow the safer option? I came across N, an old enemy from school. I was tempted to leave him to his death but decided it was wrong and saved him. Most of the other people on in the vehicle were people I knew but I can’t quite remember the specifics.

We must have all survived because we were know in a deserted city centre. Everything was so brown and dirty. The storm could be seen off in the distance, it looked like a scary destructive force yet really beautiful and natural. I was worried that it was heading in our direction. I was talking with someone and they disagreed with me saying that it would move off another way. It suddenly began to move at a rapid pace to the right of my view and was far enough away to not worry about.

There was a girl with me. She was really beautiful but not someone I know from reality. She was either my girlfriend or someone I was in a sort-of relationship with. I felt like I trusted her a great deal.

I found myself sitting with some people talking about what we should do. I said that we should go to a nearby town to look for something -- possibly other people or supplies, it wasn’t clear. I was told I had to take someone with me. I said I would take the girl, but the idea was shot down for some reason. It was commented that I trusted her too much. I insisted and it was agreed except that T, an old school friend, would have to come wit me. I didn’t like the idea because I didn’t trust him. I also knew that T wasn’t his real name. I considered him to be a slippery character that kept changing his identity. He was with some random girl who laughed in a knowing slightly sinister way that made me feel uneasy.

I went to find the girl from earlier. She was sleeping in a make-shift shelter made of road signs. I touched her exposed belly gently and woke her softly. She smiled and I stroked her arm. I said I was sorry to wake her but we were going to scout out a nearby town and that it’d be good to spend some time together.

Im surprised i havent posted this dream yet,

from the 6th:

So my bf and i and about 20 DC's were at a Gorillaz concert.(which is happening IRL in two days) The set up for the concert was very confusing; there was some 4' tall chain link fencing around the perimeter of a cement patio area where we had to stay inside the fence. There was curtain behind us and the stage that the Gorillaz were on was really far in front of us, for some reason.


There was a part when i snuck to the front of the patio and people were positioned there to grab at me and scare me back behind the fence. And next thing i knew, the curtain behind me had opened, and everyone was off to the side now and D12 was there, rapping. I noticed that my bf had disappeared, he fell behind the curtain. For a second i could see from his perspective where he was, so i knew he was hurt and scared and had an idea of where he was, but when i looked behind the curtain he wasnt there. So i went looking for him in a hallway. I found him in a storage room in a mountain of boxes.

My dream collapsed when i helped him out from the boxes, but i fell back asleep immediately into the same dream. We were now in a hotel room and i was watching the concert from the window. Some one knocked on the door and opened it, telling us we had to get out because they over booked our room, and the cleaning lady had to tidy it for the next people. I remember arguing with her about it, and ended up telling her we will pack up to leave. O.o

7th, was up for over 21 hours, and had 4.5 hours of sleep:

Had one recall about Sentaku. LOL, had a very distinct "im dreaming" moment, but i was probably too exhausted to turn lucid, unfortunately.

8th:

I did the Chest Technique to meditate before sleep, and everything was fine until the chest started rattling and jumping. It burst open and all of my negative thoughts that were locked in it came shooting at me. Was crazy.

10th:

Crappy recall, could only remember one DC, no dream, no commentary. Fail.

We were going fishing, my fiance and I. we were deep in the woods, redwoods, the ground was warm and the sun was filtering through the canopy of needled branches. He was at the front of the car, unloading our bags, and I was walking around to the back to get something out. As I went to open the handle, I noticed two eyes staring at me. Dark eyes with dark hair that was covered in a fine mist of the same dirt I was stepping on. Burrowed into the dead pine needles so I didn't see, so we didn't notice. I couldn't see anything but his eyes up, but I knew that he was smiling, a devilish grin. I remember choking on my words, trying to yell to my fiance to help. I couldn't get the words out, and the man was crawling out from under the bumper, like a spider extending its limbs to hunt its prey. I backed up, started running around to the front of the car, yelling "Stop, leave us alone!"

The man didn't talk, circled the car, I was standing in front of my fiance, he was trying to stand in front of me, a dance of protection. The stranger had that startling smile on his face and began to approach us. I suddenly rushed forward and pushed him, flat hands on his chest, but he barely moved. Barely indicated he'd felt anything.

I knew my fiance would try to protect me, but that's what this stranger wanted. I could tell he wasn't going to do anything, just his presence would be enough, and then once the first blow had been thrown, he would react, claim self defense. He would rip my life from my hands. I didn't know this stranger, but I knew what he wanted.

I started slamming my fists into his chest as my fiance moved toward us. "Leave..us...alone!" I cried out, feeling tired, sluggish. The shock was coursing through my veins. My mind was starting to grow fuzzy. As my fiance stepped closer, the stranger suddenly reached out, moving like a well calculated animal, grabbing me, pulling me toward him, and then fleeing. He had to be taller than me, for my feet didn't drag, but his arm around my waist was hard and he ran like a gazelle through the woods. I was beating him, trying to kick him, but it was as if he wasn't phased. I looked at his face, the vein on his neck pulsing, and his eyes wild. He was breathing heavily and yet he ran at a dizzying pace. I heard my fiance screaming for me, running after us, and I realized I was screaming too. Screaming for help.

And then, somehow, he dropped me, ran into a small town, and threw me down in the bushes, and ran to an open vehicle, turned it on, flipped on the lights, and peeled out, heading away. I remember laying there, in the brush, panting and shaking. I thought the worst was over, he'd stopped. But then I realized why. He didn't want me. He never wanted me.

It was with a sickening and sinking feeling I watched my fiance run past me, his eyes wide, his body set to kill. He was running to save me, but he didn't see me, ran right past me, saw the stranger peeling away in a car, and stopped thinking; started doing. He ran up to a beat up old pickup, barely hanging together, and somehow the keys were in it, he got them, I don't know how, I was barely aware of where I was, yet alone what was happening, but I saw him leap into the cab and take off, the truck's engine whining loudly.

I ran into a store, bewildered, told them to call 9-1-1, didn't tell them why, didn't know what it would do. That there was a strange man that had grabbed me, had driven off. A woman inside, large and unhappy looking, began to grumble. The stranger had stolen her car, she suddenly realized, and began to complain how she hoped he didn't scratch it. I remember standing by the road, frantic, watching the pickup reach the top of the hill, start to careen beyond view.

And then a loud POP. It echoed through the trees, reached my ears, made my heart stop. I saw dust rise up, beyond my view, a few miles off, where the road snaked, and I began to pant heavily. My heart began to beat loudly in my ears. The woman in the store was crying and mumbling about how she just knew her car was dented. I turned around, to the few women in the little store, it looked like a little convenience store like you see in the mountains, and I whispered, "Did that sound like a gunshot?"

No one met my gaze and I turned to look, watched people looking as the dust continued to curl up from the forest. I didn't hear the whine of the old truck anymore. I heard a woman quietly whisper to another that it sounded like a tire. I began to shudder and I started trotting down the road, aware it was miles between myself and whatever lay ahead, knowing I could barely stand, let alone run, because I was so frightened; shock settling in.

Sirens blared as two sheriff's vehicles barreled down the road toward the 'scene'. I couldn't even fathom what was there. I couldn't bear to consider that it was even a 'scene'. I stood on the side of the road, breathing heavily, watching; waiting.

After what seemed hours, I saw a familar car coming down the rise. It was my fiance's car. I felt a flood of relief rush over my body. And then, as the car neared, fear began to trickle back into my veins and my hands and face began to tingle as I realized much too late that he hadn't been driving his car. That he'd taken that pickup. As it rolled up to me, I saw a woman in the front seat, a clipboard on her lap.

She opened the door as I ran over to it, tears beginning to fill in my eyes. There had to be an explanation. Maybe he was being held for questioning. Maybe the stranger had crashed. Maybe it was a gun. Maybe...maybe a thousand possibilities.

The woman looked up at me, dark hair, a white shirt on, but a large gun in the holster on her hip. She had a hardened face and her large fingers grasped a pen as she wrote on a clipboard. I was staring at her, and she looked up and said sternly, "Ma'am, it seems the tire pressure was too much, the thing popped, truck went off the road." I felt an icy cold horror begin to pierce my body. "The truck hit, cab came clear off...the cab's badly dented, we're trying to get to it, but we can't be sure if he survived."

The ice hit my heart and I began to hyperventilate as I slowly asked, "What?" I blinked, my hands shaking violently as time seemed to move without taking me with it. I wasn't aware of time or place or myself, just of the beat that was my startled heart. Then, as the seconds ticked by, devastation flooded my body and I screamed, "What?! WHAT?!" I began to feel like I was suffocating, grabbing my chest, a sob stuck in my throat, screaming in a shrill voice, "WHERE IS HE?!" I looked up to where the dust was beginning to clear and imagined him, the truck at the bottom of a ravine, the cab stuck, smashed, to the point of no return. I imagined him having a few seconds, bleeding to death, trying to get free as the life dripped out of him. I started to run, dragging my feet, my mind unable to comprehend what I would do if I weren't there and he died. If he had already died. What I would do if I lost him.




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I woke up gasping, my heart thundering in my chest, tears welling in my eyes.



A dream.

He was the most handsome man I have ever seen or imagined. I can still see his face, but somehow my photographic memory is a bit blurry. I remember the main features, dark, long shiny hair, thick dark eyebrows, strong nose, soft lips, the whole tall dark and handsome cliché. He approached me and we were outdoors somewhere but I don't know where. Keep in mind I was able to see myself at times while at others I was seeing through my eyes. I remember my appearance being slightly more flattering than my actual appearance, but it was definitely me. He approached me and began to tell me how much he loved me. I didn’t know who he was, he didn't look even remotely like anyone I know or any celebrity, but immediately felt the same towards him. I remember being aware that I had really bad morning breath (which I later awoke to find that this awareness was more than correct) even though I was dreaming, and was somewhat aware that it was all a dream. I wanted to kiss him but wasn’t sure if he wanted to be kissed. Some of the hesitation was becaus of my selfconsiousenss of my bad breath, but he didn't seem to notice. It was almost as if he only wanted to kiss me if that is what I wanted and I didn’t want to make a move in case he wasn’t interested or it was innapropriate, because I only just met him and didn't know who was or where we were. I just remember staring into his eyes for what felt like a long time, then finally as if I was aching for it we began to kiss the most passionate kiss the memory of it gives me chills even now. Then suddenly, and here comes the really weird part, a shadow was cast upon us, I look up to see a large flying craft. It wasn’t the typical disk shaped UFO, it was quite elaborate for the imagination/dream of someone like myself who knows nothing about even cars let alone air craft. Not like anything I have ever seen before and I can still remember it fairly vividly and if I had any artistic ability at all I would try to draw it. I am so ignorant to mechanical functions I wouldn’t even be able to describe it. Moving on, I remember asking, or somehow communicating to him, not certain that it was verbal, what it was. He takes my hand, next thing I know we are in a room with yellow walls (I don’t know if this is significant but yellow is my favorite color, and that is probably the only part of this dream I might have any explanation for.) We began kissing again, as passionately as before, I remember his hair being so soft, and there was this overall softness all about him like a feather, I couldn’t take my hands off of him and he couldn’t take his hands off of me. We began to have intercourse and it felt so good, so real, and I didn’t want to stop but I felt this overwhelming guilt (I suppose because I am married but I don’t recall any clear thoughts at the time as to why I felt this guilt) and after about a minute I pulled away. He was still smiling and he didn’t make any move to stop me from ending it, he seemed indifferent about whether we continued or stopped. He told me (again I don’t recall any verbal communication, just knowing that this communication somehow took place) that he only wants whatever makes me happy. I awoke feeling as though I’d had the most wonderful orgasm and there were signs that my physical body had quite enjoyed the dream as well. I have never had such a vivid dream, at least not a good dream. I have had some pretty crazy nightmares, but never a happy dream, let alone a sexual dream such as this one.

This happened completely by accident!
oomg thanks!!!!!!!! i dont care hah this is important to me. --- First of all I guess i should add, I've NEVER tried lucid dreaming or done any techniques to obtain it. This just happened to me by accident tonight the reason im posting is because my mind is blownnnnnnn. I just a crazy dream I had my first Lucid dreamtonight!!!!!!!!!!!
I was about to fall asleep when my friend called me and was like hey see if i left my wallet in this dudes car after the party last night.
I was like ok and started to try to sleep again i remembered and texted the guy about the wallet, then this girl texted me again as i was falling asleep.
I texted her back she replied once more and i then got a text from the guy with the wallet haha.
So then I rolled over and just tried to sleep i guess.
I feel like I should have had a jumping awake dream, because i almost notice a few patterns about my dreaming state now that I've had this dream.
a pattern that I've had jumping dreams or falling when i keep texting and waking myself up rite before i fall asleep multiple times.
Or for instance, I have never been able to consciously wake myself up.
I've also never been able to realize that it was day time in my dream and that I know it's night time in real life.
So anyway, idk if I was just thinking and eventually crossed into the dream state,
where your sort of daydreaming then realize ur dreaming and jump awake.


But anyway I was long boarding down a semi familiar parking lot in an apartment complex. I had two long boards.
I was riding them like one foot on each vertically. like I had them longways.
I was riding and it felt completely normal to have two long boards and be riding them like that. I then like went into a parking garage or something, and Inside was a station wagon.
I kinda wanna say I got creeped out by it or maybe I didn't want to run into it so i got off and started long boarding in a different direction,
I then was outside again on the other side of the garage, when i encountered a slightly chunky, tallish guy in red.
I don't remember the exact chain of events here.
I think I was totally creeped out by him and like did a spin kick to him and it kinda pushed him back a bit but he was virtually unharmed,
and quickly recovered.
I turned to run away, with an almost invisible friend who was with me (after fighting for a sec).
He would sometimes be there but when I think about him, he wasn't there and would appear and help me fight the guy in red.
As I turned the same man in red was behind me. He sort of appeared.
I sort of just realized I was dreaming, I think because of the illogicality of the double man in red. So about the chain of events,
I don't remember if he appeared and then i decided to kick him because i knew i had control of the dream,
or if I was creeped out. Kicked him then realized.
But anyway one of the guys came at me and in a split second I realized I was dreaming,
and sort of made a mental command for him to stop. He instantly froze.
The other guy came and I did the same thing. Then I got this crazy wavy feeling inside me, almost like sleep paralysis,
if i could imagine what it would feel like to have it. I almost felt like maybe I was waking up into sleep paralysis,
even though I've never had it, but it was more like i felt like the cover of fear and loathing in Los Vegas.
I felt like a pulsating wavyness inside me. All throughout my physical body,
but i felt it in the dream and more of a reality distortion waviness.
Almost like in movies when someone wakes up from a dream they see that visual wavy rippling effect.
I have no idea. But I felt that physically and visually sort of.
I felt wavy and like an incredible surge to wake up, like I was being ripped out of the dream.
Like I was still fighting the jumping awake feeling.
Like as i kept realizing my consciousness within the dream I felt as if it was triggering me to wake up.
An inner sensation invigorating me to wake up.
I then maybe opened my eyes slightly or maybe caught myself just in time.
It was almost like i was rising out of the dream but had time to think about it.
Not alot of time but it was like instead of jumping awake i had a chance to barely catch myself.
I remembered something about, thinking of an object in real life or something,
I don't remember what i thought about but I thought about fire or something
and like I sort of was sucked back into the dream or never fully left.
Then I was back at the dream, it was like the setting I was in originally on the front lawn of the apartment building,
but I think the red guy was still frozen or gone. But I still remembered I was awake or re realized again,
and I got the wavy feeling but i kinda overcame it.


So then I was like well if I'm in a lucid dream I can do anything.
So I was like " Ninjas!" I said a verbal command which I felt symbolized the image I was simultaneously creating my head.
I imagined a detailed dojo and a little squad of ninjas. It took a split second to create this image.
then there was a sort of outdoor monastery or kungfu place, with high walls and mountains peeking over them. and a squad of ninjas in the middle. Then I thought about fighting them, since that's why i created them. DUH! haha and they came at me in a sort of characterized manner.
I began fighting. But I'm not sure if I actually was fighting or if i assumed I was
because I almost feel like moving made that wavy feeling come back.
So I was fighting and if I ever started to lose or get hit I just said stop.
Thought a command at the same time. everyone would stop.
I think I either don't remember part of the dream or lost control for a sec,
because I was kinda cornered in a bathroom with all the ninjas masks off.
But I was only fighting one.
I said stop and he stopped and i started to walk out,
but became distracted and for a split second he started moving again but i reiterated the stop command in my mind.
Anyway, I then realized that i had been dreaming for 5-6 minutes probably, and i sort of felt the ability to lift my head.
I tried, and it felt possible, but my head felt heavy, and I'm not sure if i was even moving it.
Even though I only tried for a split second.
Then I sort of just decided it had been long enough and I should wake up
and like got the feeling again and like woke up, but then I wasn't sure if I was awake,
so I had an instinct to look at my hand to see if it was real for some reason.
Then I remembered hearing something about like reading stuff,
and it looking weird or being like indistinguishable or a different language seemingly.
so I looked at my clock.
as I was sitting up and looking over, I saw my phone charger on my pillow or a portion of it and jumped because i thought it was a bug.
So I'm not sure if i was awake until that point or if i was awake before.
So I looked at my digital clock and realized it had been an hour ( if not 2). and I could read it and i felt awake.
But i wasn't sure still kinda. so i sat in awe for a minute thinking about what just happened,
as a mind safeguard so I feel uncomfortable passing it kind of.
This dream also felt distinguishably different.
Then i was afraid to sleep for a while but I finally went back to sleep around 7am and had at least 2 more dreams, one of which involved my girlfriend which I'm taking a brake with.

This has been my longest lucid to date. The dream itself felt like it lasted probably around 30 minutes or so, but reflecting on it, it feels so much faster than that.

I don't know exactly when my lucidity hit me, but I just know it did. However, prior to being lucid: I was in some lodge like area with someone I didn't recognize. out of the blue I was told that Iron Maiden (and more specifically Steve Harris) would be arriving momentarily. I turned crazy with anxiety. The moment they arrived I asked them to sign whatever I had, and they ended up signing my Zero shirt. I don't remember much else, except at one point I couldn't walk and collapsed to the floor because I was so filled with joy.

Somehow, the dream transitioned to a concert arena. Like I mentioned, I don't know exactly what triggered lucidity, but it happened. I started walking around trying to meet people. There was a loot of people obviously. I remember walking through a crowd at one point and I saw a completely original face of a girl-- not one from my memories-- and she just stood out. I don't know why, but I felt she was another dreamer, somehow in my dream. She looked just as confused as I was to see her. I walked up to her, held her close and whispered in her ear "I'm Markus. Remember this moment." as I leaned back to look in her eyes they widened greatly, and she simply dissipated-- maybe she woke up, maybe I'm crazy and it was all me from the beginning-- who knows!

I went back to a seat and sat down to see if my dream would make Iron Maiden perform. and they did. a strange moment followed where a row behind me, several people started singing the lyrics to a song (I can't remember which), but they were horribly monotone. I also remember it wasn't one of my favourite songs. After this occurrence, Maiden went off stage for the encore part and the crowd was restless. I realized it's my dream, Maiden doesn't get to have a break! I shouted "Play another song!" and bam, they were back on stage, playing music again. I listen to a lot of music, and one thing I've noticed about my mind is I really have songs engrained in my brain. when I'm in dreams, I can have music playback to me just like an MP3 player. I kept shouting "Next!", and Maiden would switch to a completely new song. it was exhilarating. Eventually they finished and I decided to walk around and check out the crowd some more.

somehow, in the midst of walking around the giant rows and rows of chairs, they started to shrink more and more until there was about 2 rows of chairs, and the setting changed to my room. I didn't want this to be where I was, because any time I'm lucid and it's in my room, I end up thinking about waking life too much which ruins my lucidity and wakes me up. I've tried the spinning method before to change locations, but I've never been successful. Until now. I thought of traveling to a Forrest type location, and spun and spun. I could see the faint imagery of trees and clung to it. I was teleported to one of the most visually stunning landscapes I've ever seen.

It was a majestic looking country-esque location, seemingly in the middle of nowhere. Rolling grass fields in the distance, and closer to me where two houses, both with interesting log-cabing-esque looks to them. I went past one into the 'backyard' per say (there were no fences or boundaries)..and saw an amazing view. The season was somehow a mix of summer and fall at the same time, and it was gorgeous. Trees had no leaves, but there were many of them--and all across my field of vision, these strange sunflower things were floating around-- I'll try and recreate an image. It was as if the heads of the sunflower plants were just floating from the sky, and it was beautiful.

They looked roughly like this (sorry for quick and sloppy photoshop) :


I kept walking through this beautiful scenic field until I came to a mountain. I gazed up at it, and already knew what I was going to do. I thrusted up from the ground and took flight. As I flew over it I was speechless..I started loosing altitude, but I realized it's because I was too focused on trying to fly-- I just had to know that I could fly. and it picked up again. After that, I remember mumbling to myself "You are the one, neo" (I'm a huge nerd). I came upon a city scape quite fast and landed in it. I remember I was changing a bunch of things completely on the fly-- the city seemed to have a lot of police and SWAT members in it for some reason and it was giving me a bad vibe-- so I just willed them away. Poof. gone. The city also looked kind of dark itself, like it was build some time ago, not like slums per say.. but just old. I decided to change that. I said "lighten up these buildings" and they were transformed into newer looking gray skyscrapers. I kept changing small things here and there until I was distracted. I realized I should probably have some sort of goal, and was put off that I didn't know what the DV task of the month was, because it would have been an excellent time to do it. Shortly after I spent time thinking about goals, the dream collapsed and I woke up.

This was my longest lucid to date. It was absolutely astonishing. I cannot wait for more.

Its starts with Wishbone walking around Oakville. He got picked up my someone who WASN'T a dog catcher. Latter that day when Joe came home. He discovered that Wishbone was missing.And with David and Sam's help all they discover is Wishbone's collar (and that was AFTER they had checked the Shelter 2x). When Joe came home, he ate some new cereal he got (despite the fact he had several open cereal boxes in the cupboard). Than he wanted to head out the door again. When Joe was outside and near a truck, he got inside. The next day Ellen notices her son hadn't come back last night. SO Sam &David go over to the Talbot's house and when Ellen is cooking pizza, David&Sam talk and they said they saw someone on the other side of town who had Joe's build all they heard was something about a cave and meeting someone there. Ellen really doesn't want them to "tackle" this problem alone-but she does tell them to be careful.


In the next scene we see Sam and David hanging upside down in a cave. They hear talking and they recognized Joe's voice but they also notice its more "flat" or not-normal (and that's has nothing to do with the helmet he's wearing). and they see him take a bag (that was moving a lot). In the next scene we see him on the steps of some fancy building trying to sell puppies. Sam&David calls to his name when he's on the steps and he takes the puppy back. And there was a bit of a chase scene since Joe want though a soccer game (accidentally scoring), interrupting a American Football game and came to his senses when he got to a playground and took off his helmet. After this everyone is back home.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Good morning! I meditated for twenty minutes before bed last night, and it felt great! I focused on my breathing and tried stimulating the "chakra pathways" a bit. I don't want to start storing energy before I'm fully "warmed up" yet. Anyways I also took some B6 and omega-3 just before bed. Two hours later I woke up from one of the worst nightmares I have ever had in my life.

2.14: My nightmare
I don't know where I am, but I cannot move. I get these flashes of raw emotions from every direction and from what I can make out, I'm lying in a bathtub and I'm dying. The sheer terror of it all makes me scream at the top of my lungs and my voice amplifies tenfold by the bathroom walls. I black out...

I wake up a few moments later and the same thing is happening. I notice the bathtub is filled with money and there's a shotgun nearby. I still can't move and it's all very frightening. I black out again...

I don't know how many times this happened or for how long, but it went on for a LONG time. When I finally wake up and could move again, I was exhausted. The shotgun is still there I notice but it's not a normal shotgun. "It makes your memories go away. You won't die if you shoot yourself in the head with it" I think. I decide to leave it where it is, and I send a text message to my friend Jonas. I check the time: 22.00. "Damn, I've been sleeping for like 24 hours" I say to try to stabilize myself. I am still very groggy and I fear I will go back to that horrible state. I call my mom on the phone and she answers. I tell her what happened and expect some sympathy. "Oh well, you continue sitting by the computer!" she tells me like it's the computer's fault. I wake up.

4.00: Fragment
*I'm drinking different kinds of whiskey with my sisters and my brother. We're measuring the liquid with large syringes.

7.30: Fragment
*Something about outdated milk-based drinks. There's fudge, strawberry and something else. Only one of them was good enough to drink.

Amount of sleep: 7½ hours

Food before bed: 150mg B6 and 2 omega-3 pills

That's it! I was pretty shaken up by the nightmare and I couldn't go back to sleep for like 40 minutes. Anyways it was a cool experience, but I don't want to have that experience again. A dream within a dream, in which I am having a Sleep Paralysis.

Keep on dreaming, HARE BRA!

10.10.2010

Recent WILDs (WILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Lately I've not had much of a sleeping pattern, which is handy as far as lucid dreaming goes. What follows are a few short accounts of WILD experiences I've had in the last few weeks.

I was dozing very lightly on my back when I started to notice the imagery I was seeing get stronger. I heard a beat as well. I automatically took notice and the beat developed into a song. It was "I Love it Loud" by KISS. What a tune. I listened and looked around. I was in the passenger seat of a car, driving along a road I know well. I punched the dashboard a few times in time with the music to try and integrate myself more fully. Then I sang along. I was really belting it out, so much so that I got out of breath. I took two big gulps of air, and wondered whether I was taking these breaths in real life. I knew eye movements in dreams are sychronised with real life, but I haven't heard anything on breaths. The car sped on around a corner. I looked at the driver, and didn't recognise him at all. He was a middle-aged dude with a receeding hairline and very small rectangular glasses. Just because I wanted something to do, I grabbed the wheel and swung it hard to the left. I was reminded of a previous dream where I did this and crashed, after which my recall vanished. Thankfully though, this time we swerved into a church car park. Somewhere around here I got out of the car and lost lucidity through various distractions.

Just earlier today, I was hungover as hell, and went back to bed after breakfast. I lay on my back, as I find it seems to be conducive to sleep paralysis. After a while, I felt my body fall asleep. I literally fell asleep fully. My body was exhausted. But my mind was still 100% awake. No dream formed up immediately, it was very strange. My breathing went on autopilot and I heard myself snoring very slightly. If anyone had been able to observe me, it would have appeared that I was sound asleep, and I suppose I was. I found it remarkable that I could observe the process of falling asleep and remain fully conscious throughout. A few minutes later, hypnagogia finally started. First came the sound of someone else breathing, then I felt my right arm move. I knew this to be part of the dream, since my real body had been paralysed for a while now. I took control of it, and felt my way to the bedside table. After that, I rolled out of bed and onto the floor. Only then did I open my eyes to see the blue carpet. I took a short walk around my floor, pausing to have a look in the kitchen. No-one was around, it was a bit lonely.

In a recent (and seperate) dream, I became lucid out of the blue. It was during a dream where I was a passive observer of the action. Set in medieval times, I was watching a knight defend a castle from attack by a dragon. I was incredibly aware of being in a dream, and wanted to get involved in the action. But I had no physical body. And no matter what I tried, I couldn't force one into existence. This was the very first lucid dream where was simply apprehending the scene and not participating. I could switch viewpoints, rewind time and have an event happen differently, but I could not participate. It was rather frustrating.

So i have failed to post a longer dream in between my last posts and this one. but i am without my DJ book atm so im using this for it's purpose right now.

its kinda a jumbled mess because i woke up and typed it into my memos on my shitty phone.

the first thing i remembered was :

i was in this big dark room with tables around and there were a few people around, but i only took notice to one DC. he was about 17 maybe, and had short blond hair and dark eyes and was really pale(now that i think about it, looked like ninja). he wasnt wearing a shirt, and he was running around in the dark, sneaking up on me and giggling. it was creepy, but apparently i liked it. i took a moment to sit on one of the tables a little further away from everyone else and "touch myself". That didnt last long or finalize its self, so i tried to chase the boy down, to see if i could ask him what he was doing. Then i noticed a room with light so i went into it. I was determined to find a mug, i think i wanted tea... but when i found the mug i heard a familiar voice. It was my first fashion teacher from highschool, so i went to go talk to her. I dont remember the conversation but my friend from college was there all of a sudden and my highschool teacher was talking to my friend like they were remembering times together. It was nice, then i woke up without waking totally from the dream.

I was now in a mall with my mom and aunt and uncle, but they were teenagers.. and i was trying to convince my uncle that he was to fall in love with my aunt, not my mom. That was odd, i woke up, and fell back asleep to another dream.

I was running through the streets, with a crowd in a big city, probably toronto, and i could sense a panic in everyone else. the more we ran the more people showed up and the more anxiety bubbled up. so i branched off and ran to the top of a building, i dont remember being inside it, but when i got to the roof i could see what everyone was panicking about. there was a giant boy, with dark hair and annggerr, as tall as the sky scrapers and he was only 4 buildings over. so i spotted this huge intricate structure that i knew i had to climb to be safe. out of no where i had a guide DC who i knew irl in grade 7(almost 8 years ago) who helped me climb. when i got high up through the twisted bars i saw a platform and i saw my mom.. i yelled at her not to follow me, that i'd be fine and she should go back down. (forgetting that where i was heading was safety, and that means i just sent her back into danger) so i turned a corner on the platform and found a big water slide. there were three slide tunnel options and i was scared. i jumped into the left one and screamed for dear life all the way down. i can vividly remember going through the tube flipping on my stomach and back, it hurt and i was soo afraid. i landed at the bottom with an odd feeling of calm.

i found myself walking through grass near some houses, and i found the boy again from the dark room. he was standing still and silent, with his eyes shut. i walked up and gave him a kiss. waited for his reaction, and kissed him again when he looked at me.

i woke up, had another pointless dream but after recalling this, i couldnt remember the last short one.

I woke up with the feeling I wasn't supposed to remember this...
well I did, so tough luck.

(All of this happened so quickly I'm not 100% sure if it's in the right order...)

There was a man in front of me in business attire, I wanted to say the word, "Templar" when I saw him, I'm not sure if I did or not though. He asked me what the password was, I told him I didn't know what he was talking about.

I noticed the presence of someone behind me, a seemingly friendly presence that made me think "Ally" I also noticed the area around me was Grey and full of fog, kind of like the animus from Assassins creed without all of the floating symbols.

The guy that made me want to say Templar mentally assaulted me (for not telling him my password?), I don't remember what it felt like as of waking up, but whatever it was, it made me clutch my head and double over.

-Happened at roughly the same time as above-

I am looking at my yahoo mail login, the fields are blank, and I can't remember my password, or what I changed it to.

Lucidity: 6/10
Vividness: 5/10
Length: ~2 Min.

So I went upstairs and fell asleep next to some girls that were talking, then I saw this girl that had words next to her. Then she jumped into the screen and disappeared. Then a card flew in front of me and it had her bending over and it was very cartoon like. Then some guy came up and stuck his hand up her ass multiple times, then so hard that he went through it and somehow joined hands. Someone yelled out like "Pussy strangle" or something. The End.

10.10.2010

Kissing and bombing... (Non-lucid)
10/10/10 (hehe)
NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

First Dream:
I am in the center of Athens. I am with a guy and a girl. Suddenly we see on a tv, that this guy is a child-raper... So we run into a cafe and there are many children, who obviously know about him and start screaming! We panic and run ouside again. So we are trying to find a safe place. The roads are full of cops. The cops are short and fat police-women... We are scared of them though. :p So we sit in a quiet road. The dream changes. The guy and the girl change with two friends of mine. A. and J.! The place changes too. We are in a bar or maybe a party in a house, i don't know. We are sitting with two girls we don't know and chat, maybe flirt a little. I remember their names. It was Vassiliki or Angeliki and Thalia. So i am chatting with Ang. and J. is chatting with T. I don't remember what A. was doing. Anyway, at some point i see J. kissing Ang. and they leave towards a room (wonder why..??). I sit there with T. We stopped talking. Suddenly we look at each other, and we both lean (pretty fast) towards each other to kiss... But we miss... xD hahahaha Then i said: "Ok, aim my mouth" and I laughed. She laughed kinda shy. In the end i just grabbed her head cause she just couldn't do it... We kissed for a while, then i woke up.

Second Dream:
I am in my car (dream sign, i didn't notice) driving pretty fast, considering the road i am in. Suddenly i see a sign in the middle of the road. I avoid hitting it and try to remember what that sign means. Then i see an electricity pillar standing in the middle of the road. The is no way avoiding that. So i hit the break, and pull the hand break (really smart -.-). The car turns 90 degrees and stopps in front of the pillar. There are many cars that do the same thing and many others that crash on cars behind me. Next thing i remember, we are (the drivers) in a room with policemen. They say we shouldn't pass that sign. One of them asks me if i had drank any alcohol. I say: "Just a beer". (Yesterday I drank two vodkas and a beer. I remembered that in the dream, but i chose to say only about the beer! ) The cop says : "Yeah, we 'll see...". :p After a while i suddenly see nazi soldiers outside the building fighting with cops, shooting, breaking things and there is panic. I grab my ID, keys, cellphone and run outside. I try to find my car. I press the button to unlock the car, so i can hear where it is. I find it, get in and leave fast! Next thing i remember is being in the center of the city and hearing that a nuke bomb by nazis will hit the city. I start running around in panic. And BOOM. I wake up (second false awakening) hearing that i lost my right eye and right leg. I open my eyes. (My right eye felt like it was stuck exactly like it felt in my first lucid. You can read about it in my DJ.) I am really worried and think: "I really hope this is a dream". I am so worried that i don't care for a reality check. I just open my eyes and wake up. With a huge feeling of relief that i could still see, i sleep again.

I saw another dream, where i was in a fast-food restaurant. They made some really strange type of burgers, but i don't remember very well.

This is a dream that is important to me because it reminds me of how much of a jerk I was and maybe still am and how much remorse and regret I feel for past mistakes.

I was my old school playing field. It was different; there was a large gate where there was not one before. I was walking through the gate and B was there. I was eager to talk to her but she strangled me with a bicycle chain. It was cutting in to my neck slightly.

B is a girl I used to be friends with and had a massive crush on. I haven’t seen her in years and we parted on bad terms because I was a complete asshole. Anyway...

I was then sitting at a large table, still sore from the chain. My neck was red and bleeding slightly. I was really upset but I still wanted to go and find B and apologise to her for what happened in the past. Also at the table were some old school friends. I looked around and saw that we were in a big hall and that there were lots of tables with people sitting around them. It was loud; people were chatting and joking around with each other.

I noticed that I recognised pretty much everyone in the room. There were people that I knew well and people that I barely knew. It was sort of like everyone I had ever met was in one big room for some kind of event.

I mentioned to my friends that I wanted to go and find B. For some reason they didn’t want to let me go. They dared me to make out with a girl sitting at a table nearby us. I recognised her, but she was someone I barely even knew. She was pretty ugly and I had no desire to make out with her, but I got the feeling that it was the only way my friends were going to let me go off and find B which I really felt I needed to do. They called the girl over and she came and sat on my lap. We made out but she was a bad kisser, although for some reason I had a hard-on.

Finally I was free to look for B. The next thing I knew I was sitting at a table across from her. She was wearing a black suit jacket and a red low cut top. She was just staring at me sternly. I felt really bad about what I had done in the past and felt so desperate for her to forgive me. I was struggling to explain to her how sorry I was about everything. She just kept staring at me. I continued to apologise but she didn’t react.

Lucidity: 5/10
Vividness: 8/10
Length: ~5 Min.

I was on a school bus and I was trying to put toothpaste on this girl named Tristan. After I did, she appeared up a few seats. Then my friend Kaleb asked her if he could see her boobs and feel them. She let him. Kaleb was sitting next to this girl named Trisha. The seat next to them was empty so I sat there. I looked at Trisha and she looked at me. She smiled and asked me a question. I asked her to face me and spread her legs so I could see her Vagina. And to my expectations she did. I also expected her to be wearing Jeans but she had panties on instead. It was very realistic. I said "I don't have forever!" And tried to grab her panties. Just then I woke up and I tried to DEILD but failed. The End.