non-lucid

I was at my house in Blacks Land. Some girl was house hopping from house to house cause she must have been homeless. I think she went to our high school. She parked her car on the neighbours front lawn. She came inside and I remember her cooking food or doing something similar. She went into my bed room. A friend, Rizza must have went in the bed room with her. I was kind of jealous of it. I thought the girl was good looking and would have hooked up with her if the circumstances were better. I didn't want to take advantage of her cause she was homeless and I allowed her to stay.

I could see a phone in my hand, or maybe it was my iPod touch. I could see everything Rizza and the girl were saying, as it was like there convocation was being text to me word by word. I was scrolling through the convocation and noticed there was a lot of 2 or 3 words on each row of messages. Some of the texts did not make much sense.

iPod Touch.


I went into the bed room and I think Caleb and Ed (Big brother contestants) were on my bed. I was worried about my bed not being tidy as the girl was probably going to stay in it overnight. I got into the bed with both guys, but then everyone started piling in. I think there was at least 7 people all crammed in laying over one another. I could see Rizza and the girl really close to each other. I smiled at Riz and gave him the nod, to let him know to go for it. I got out of the bed and left the room.

Caleb + Ed - Big brother
I was in the kitchen, and I was looking at my iPod touch. I must have been looking at my Facebook messages. I noticed a message that was sent to Sam B. The message that was sent to her said ''Hey Sexy''. I knew that I wouldn't have sent that too her, as I don't find her attractive. I thought it may have been a friend of mine Josh D that sent it to tune some ladies for me. I was thinking of opening up the convocation and writing to Sam, that Josh D was talking to you from my account. I knew that I had cleared the option which shows the devices that have your Facebook on. I figured it may not have been Josh at all.

I was talking to an older women in the kitchen and said about the Hey sexy message which was sent to a girl. I wanted her opinion.

Dream ended.

I was at my primary school, standing next to a fence naked . I asked a few people that walked passed if they would climb the steel wire fence with just their hands and nothing else. I told them if we did it, we may get the Olympics in Australia. One of the guys I told was someone I knew, Matt H.

Steel wire fence.

I skipped part of my next class. I was wandering around the school for a bit, then decided to head back to class. I was trying to think of what I would say to the teacher on why I was late. I saw a kid in the distance getting medical attention, he must have hurt himself pretty good. He was getting taken away by the paramedics were helping him leave the school.

Someone came up to me, while I was still outside the class room. I think it was Brent's friend Brad. I said to him, I think this is our class room. It was strange, I knew it was our class but I didn't at the same time.

We walked into class, and I think it was my year 3 - 4 teacher. She reminded me of PINK the singer, a little bit in this dream. She said that I reached the injured kid after it had happened, meaning that I was just a onlooker, and should have came to class on time. I was looking for a seat to sit down on. I moved a chair to the front of a DC and was going to sit down, but it would have been both of us facing each other which would be silly as I would have had my back to the teacher. I again, moved the chair to another spot, this time next to the DC. I sat down.

Pink.

The teacher was writing stuff down on the chalkboard. She was thinking of a name to write down, as an example. I thought to myself and wrote down Tommy (can't think of last name). I was struggling to spell properly and my hand writing was pretty messy. The teacher had written the exact name as I did.. I was amazed that she thought of the exact thing as me. I looked over to the DC and was going to tell him what had just happened but I remember scribbling out the name on my paper as it was incorrect spelling and messy, so I didn't mention it. I think the DC was an old friend Devon L

There was a lot of stuff written on the board. She was writing a lot of Eminem (the rapper) on the board, I think she was a big fan of him. I said silently to someone near me, that Eminem once said ''something something nigger'', which I thought was funny. A few people laughed, but I think I offended some girls across the room. They had darker skinned boyfriends.

Eminem.

Dream 1(fragments):

There was something about some organization and protecting some cities, then i was controlling a plane and had to shoot down some enemy vehicles/planes using some kind of energy weaponry.

Dream 2(fragments):

I was with some group and we were going through some jungles, then temple and then we got attacked by a tribe of some furry creatures with spears and were fighting back.

Dream 3(fragment):

Something was going on in a large hall.

Dream 4(fragments):

I was with some group and we were traveling through some cities and were searching something, there was some talk about city named 'Greenies', which was the city full of money makers and scammers. Eventually after going through some other places we have reached it and on the way we also met anthro furry who told us more about Greenies. Apparently the most of the city was built of the same houses and there was some kind of scamming going on all over the place.
Soon we have found some kind of house where people were trying to heal kids from some mental diseases but truly they were just making money and doing even worse, there was one girl that was trying to kill everyone. We have started planning to rescue everyone but then dream ended.

One of the later dreams:

> I pulled off I-80 to the right (Not off an off-ramp, Off to the side) to a greenhouse or some such place and while I was in there I knocked over a large slab of yellow melon (Which had no skin and was unprotected from dirt and such but didn't get dirty) and after I put it back up a small dog started eating it. I went to the other side of the building to talk with employees (Including one man who had a mustache and was balding a bit but who wasn't Jeff Yeager the Cheapskate) about buying the melon but couldn't as it was discontinued or something like that if I remember right. I notice now that there wasn't any highway noise.

Later in the same place I was in a room and watched Rescue 911 on TV and I said that the TV show was on from 1991 to 1996 (Though that's true I meant that it started in 1991 but it started in 1989) cried about something regarding a young child while an older woman watched it.

I was then later in another room which was fairly empty and then later went into another room where I spoke to a woman. The weather may have been slightly rainy outside and I saw that out of the windows.

> Later, I was in a Walmart carrying my Telecaster, Thinking of playing a song inside it and then while I was in there the intercom system on the house phone paged my phone and I answered it, And Father was on the other side of the line talking very faintly and said something about "My son" And I was alerted.

Two nights ago, I had a long, boring dream about my family... I didn't write anything down and now I can't remember anything.

Last night, I had a long, boring dream about driving... I don't even know if I had a goal, I just remember driving, endless driving. So boring.

I gain recall when Im waking with an old friend of mine from middle school his name is Walter who was a really cool person with everyone. I remember walking down his hallway and going through a door that led to some bleachers filled with a whole mess of people. I remember having a conversation with him and he was saying "I barely know and of these people" and I replied "thats because theres 4 schools on this cruise. So at that point I remember walking around the bleachers to see who I knew and I remember seeing Jazmin from my middle school with her lil possy of 2 or 3 sitting on the edge of bleachers and I told there was a group going to the club tonight called "Alcohol" which was the only club on the cruise ship. So then she was still thinking about it and I was like "hit it up if your down to party". Then after that I fainted remember taking some shots at a bar with a huge crowd partying around me and then regaining vividness when I am in this room with some people which I believed contained the best gamers in the world and we were drafted into a tournament which we were about to get out matchups for the day. I remember seeing one of my white friends Johnathan in a gray suit saying that hes dressed up as some unknown name that I dont remember. After I remember him saying the name another 5 people showed up in gray suits which was mad random. After that I notice all the televisions turned on in the room and it was like Bocampers where there are TVs are every where and they were showing clips of Tekken from playstation 1 and I remember seeing Jet Lii and Eddie the break dancer that I used to choose to beat everyone. At this point I remember I got hungry and started eating food in my dreams which at one point I was looking in the fridge and said "ima make macaroni " who wants some and walked out to the room where everyone was at and offered a bowl to my friend Chris which at that point I looked down at the macaroni and saw that they were infested with those lil black bugs that make holes in the macaroni.

I'm standing in a clearing filled with men in armor and horses, near some trees. The guy I'm talking to is psyching himself up, saying he can't get excited about fighting unless it's (the particular people we're about to fight) - with anyone else, why bother? I refer to Alexander, the man we're following, as "the undiminished king."

A woman in a modern setting believes she's being punished, looking up at the sky and addressing her father the storm god, "What have I done?" - but what she saw as a punishment was meant as a message, about a friend who she's separated from.

1st person, as a wolf, a woman stroking my jaw and debating out loud whether to leave me in that form.

A teenage boy having guilt-induced hallucinations about a man he'd hurt, seeing him with a face burnt black and empty holes for eyes, I can see the wall behind him through the holes.

A book with an illustration of a red circle covered in black markings has gotten soaked and the markings are washing away, and the boy who damaged it is apologizing, but the girl who owns it is saying it wasn't the real deal after all, if it would run.

Sunday, 9/15/13

Last night, bed 1:30 - 9:45

DR - It's at night, I'm on the driveway, showeling some dirt, dust from the blacktop street. I turn the showel around, to see which way it will make the least noise, so it doesn't bother the neighbors. Showeling or scraping.

Now I'm inside. The owner got a complaint from a person living few streets away. We don't even know why would she complain about our place, since she can't even see it. But I learn that she complains about other things that don't concern her too.

I'm sitting at the desk, holding a tiny kitten. The complaining neighbor is coming over. So the owner of the house gives me a small bottle of milk to feed the kitten. I guess to soften up the mean neighbor, to show her, that we are nice. But the kitten tells me that the milk is a bit sourish. I tell her I may have milk in my apartment, I'll go get it. I know I don't have milk, but Half&Half. But they don't need to know it.

anthony was at my house for some reason and he has a bunch of acid which i asked him for. i asked what would happen if i took the entire role and he saidi that i would have ceisure.


i gave a piece to natt and apiece to myseelf. within minutes we both felt very euphoric and all the colors felt brighter. i went in my house and felt really high and my mom said she needed help with the grocieries. i panicked but played it cool and yelled back noooooo i cant help...because thats wat not high mat would do and i didnt want her to be suspicious if i helped with the grocieries.

when i went back into the garage nat was playing some facing game and we both giggled at the screen which was mor[hing colors and such into pinks and blues. i was like yeaaah lets play.

but than and old friend caleld and was asking for urgent help. i called and he was asking for a name of someone i didnt know. he hung up.

i yelled at natt for when i got of the phone for cheating on the video game. i told her to wait tll i got off the phone but she defied me and kept playing.

at one pt i realized i must be dreaming cuz anytthony would never come over to my house....i ignored these thoughts and kept being high

next thing i know natt and i are in a big group of people. natt reasured me that its cool and we somehow end up in a sky skraper with natts friends mom. nat was wearing a robe but she decides to get naked. the mom doesn't care.

i talk to the group asking if they thought i was talking weird to my mom in the kitchen? they saidi i was normal and ireplie good cause i felt like my eyeballs wer guna fall outa my face and i wasnt sure if my mom noticed. we stay in the sky skraper and i forget what the rest hasppens.

I’m racing Rane around the yard of grandma’s house. I’m going really fast, it’s so fun. At one point I really push myself and feel the strain. On the fourth lap, I see she’s not far behind me so I concentrate really hard on getting to the end mark.

I remember seeing a bunch of vivid green leaves on the trees on the left on one lap.

-Lost a dream due to not realizing I was awake. I got a glimpse but lost it before I could try and coax it out. :/

Inspiration: Rane was over last night until late. Can’t believe I didn’t have ‘running’ as a goal already since I love it so much IWL.

Edit: Just this could have come from Cheetu from Hunter x Hunter since I had just seen an episode with him, and I had added running like him as a goal recently.

Notes: I stayed up an hour late hanging out with my besty since it was her birthday. It’s probably when I’m really tired, but I noticed that sometimes I won’t realize that I’m awake and going through my dream in my head until the memories start fading. Sucks!

I joined the Intro Class yesterday evening, and am going to be working on the DILD technique for a while. :3

Dream recall from today's nap, had some problem of not being able to fall asleep at first but in the end still got lucid for a bit.

Dream 1:

I was playing some shmup and it was final stage. It was happening over some kind of futuristic base and there were lots of very hard enemies which i've had to stream along the screen almost op to the upper right corner. It was pretty hard and i was on last life in the end, the base segment of the level ended with a descent into darkness, there was an final boss warning, then it faded out.
I wake up and i feel that i am dreaming, i look at my hand and it's a bit weird, then i get up but dream fades, and this time i wake up properly.

Dream 2(fragments):

I was playing some kind of FPS that was a mix of different games, namely Quake 4, Doom 3 and Prey(Funnily fitting since they all use same base engine), i was going through a bunch of 'testing' maps which were mostly bland rooms with weapons and enemies, i was fighting Doom 3 enemies using quake 4 weapons, then quake 4 enemies using prey weapons, and so on. Then there was another similar map, i've had rocket launcher thing from prey(forgot how is it called) and some ammo, but enemies were quite unique. There were a few enemies that looked a bit like 'harvester' enemies from prey, except they didn't had robotic parts and were fully organic, then there were also jumping mutant pigs, some kind of three headed mutant and some another humanoid enemy. At one point i was out of ammo for rocket launcher thing, but i've had some huge bomb that finished the rest.

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid false awakening

I am invited to go down a wormhole and on the other side I find a "Wonderland" type of place. As I walk down a hallway, I encounter tiny doors, which open to tiny worlds or encounter strange living paintings that suck people into really dark places. At a gate I find some guards and some stalls with weapons and all kinds of acessories. We are to enter an RPG game and must "wear" the character of our choice. But the best weapons are gone, I look for a sabre and can't find any, nor long swords. All there's left are big knifes and whips. I grab the nicest looking big knife, a handbag and then I look at the shoes and instead of all the heavy boots, I go for the only pair of white vynil bowling shoes that match my black with white stripe outfit I am wearing. Inside the gates, is not like I expected. It's a complex world, with flying palaces and I end up in one. Everybody is dressed up like for a ball and I feel dislocated. On this palace it seems to be happening some kind of event with workshops and I find it all so odd. I decide to attend one workshop to see what's the topic and they are discussing the "Theory of Everything" and I hear them advancing the explanation for the link between quantum physics and general relativity. It has something to do with dark matter and I am wowed because it makes sense and appears to be so simple.

I did not have sufficient system access to do differential comparisons.

Hmm, I had the strong sense that this DJ entry was just like another one I had recently, but I cannot find it, so maybe I had another dream like this recently and did not write it down?

9/15/2013, 10:05-5:50

I got off the computer at 8:25 last night. Didn't meditate, too busy talking with my family. Went to sleep at like 10:05, couldn't fall asleep till 11:00.

Dream 1:

I was in a town, and there was an arena in it. I went into the arena and forgot the rest of what happened. There was also the number 20 somewhere.

Wake-up (3:42):

Got up to go to the bathroom and drink some water. Thought about having an LD and stayed up for 3 minutes till 3:45 (numbers are in order ). Then, I fell asleep around 15 minutes later, and had a "lucid moment". Woke up a few seconds afterwards, probably too excited.

Dream 2:

This one was pretty long. I was in a barn at first. Well, a barn that was somehow turned into a bar. I saw these four suspicious people. They were all fat; really fat. One was an Indian guy, another was African-American guy. There was also a fat white woman, and a fat white guy with glasses. They were all staring at me and talking to each other.

So I left the bar and met my dad. We went to someone's house (a redneck-ish person) that looked EXACTLY like mine! Dad and I stayed there for a few hours, talking with the guy. There was also this cute curly blond daughter the guy had. I think I talked to her. All was well when, eventually, I saw the four fat people again! They were on the back deck of the house. My dad and the redneck guy were in the living room, talking, while I was with his daughter standing, staring at the 4 trespassers. They tried to quickly open the sliding screen door, but I quickly locked it with every lock there was (which, apparently, was that driving lock thing and three regular door locks on the side, more than it actually has). The 4 people then got angry, and entered the house through a secret door that I NEVER NOTICED before (sarcasm) that somehow went into the basement. I started screaming, "THEY'RE IN THE BASEMENT! THEY'RE IN THE BASEMENT!" Our parents and us quickly got up and went into the master bedroom. The redneck guy was trying to open the gun safe, when the four fat people came into the room, each carrying a pistol.

The Indian guy then started pointing his gun at everyone, along with the white guy. The Indian was talking about something, probably to do with this being a robbery. He pointed his pistol at me, saying, "I'll shoot him!" (or something to that effect) and I then crossed my arms and rolled to the side, thinking he doesn't know where my chest is, if he shot me (lol what the heck was I thinking?). I then realized my arms were crossed and put them behind my back, palm in palm against the wall. My dad then said, "Okay. Let's go sit in the living room and negotiate something." (or, again, something like that) and all the adults left, leaving me and the girl in the bedroom.

I tried to open the gun safe. It had a fairly sharp point at the top, and the top number was 2000! I then saw the girl go into the closet. I asked, "Why you going in there?" She said, "I don't want them finding me when I come back." I then decided to climb in with her. I then got this feeling we were gonna end up making out, and the dream ended.

NORMAL
NON-LUCID
REALITY CHECK POTENTIAL
REFLECTIONS

So I went to bed at i dunno, 1am or something last night! I woke up about one or two hours later, and i was having an awful sleep. NIGHT TERRORS!

1)I felt like I was having 1,000,000 thoughts every second. It was mentally exhausting and I felt like it was never going to end. I would drift in and out of sleep, each time feeling relieved that it was gone, only to realize it was still there. It was as vivid as real life, but as terrifying as a nightmare or a bad trip. I reckon it may be cos I haven't smoked in a week or so.


I was extremely relieved to realize this had all gone after I actually woke up, went to the loo and got back into bed. Honestly one of the worst experiences of my life! The rest of my dreams were nicer :- )

2Tom, Will, Ashley, Charlotte and I were seeing yung lean live in Sweden. It was cloudy but warm, and we were walking across a courtyard area of a primary or secondary school. It looked like England, but I knew it was Sweden somehow. In addition, my mates dont like yung lean much so why we would all travel across Europe to see them I do not know XD It was in a very familiar setting; the school courtyard looked like my secondary school, although at the same time it looked nothing like it, same goes to the church. We'd been there previously to see Yung Lean, hense why I recognized it. It's great that you can get nostalgic or vaguely recognize something existing only in the dream world There was also a grand piano next to a grunden, which in particular looked similar to my secondary school. Inside the church, it was suitably light. We were all sat on plastic blue chairs. I remember hearing them playing Ginseng Strip 2002, and it was excellent. They did the usual dances, it was more chilled out though than their online performances. More like the Hurt video performance. Mum was sat with my Nan a few meters to the right of me, and Mum thought it was funny.

3) I was in Tom. R's living room with Latham. C, Luke.Y and Harry.H. It was late, must have been about midnight. It was light in the room but very dark outside. I was getting bored and was ready to leave, but I wanted to stay at the same time as someone had weed and I wanted to smoke up big time. I decided to bare with it for a while, and asked Latham over politely if I could blag a lift off of him later on in the night. He said that was fine, but started to get ready to leave. I didn't want to leave anymore as I knew they'd be smoking up soon, but I didn't want to be rude as he was going out of his way to drop me home. Harry. H had been meaning to drive home too, but claims he accidentally ended up getting really stoned which was a problem as he wanted to drive home. In the car with Latham it was dark other than the red lights of his dashboard. It was awkward and naff as I didn't want to leave but I appreciated his effort, and he wasn't going home - literally dropping my home then returning to Tom's! Latham didn't have a clue where I lived which was kind of a kick in the teeth, as we were best friends as children and were always round each others houses. When I explained to him where I lived, he mocked me as it was only a 10-15 minute walk away, calling me lazy. This was true, but I didn't really care. Tom's house had moved - it was now where Ollie.P used to live! When I got home, I sat on the sofa with my Dad. Everything was cool with him. The setting suddenly changed from the familiar living room to an unfamiliar, grey, but welcoming doctors surgery during the day. I feel like this may have been a completely separate dream. We were still sat on the sofa, and the television was still in front of us, but it was higher up on a wall bracket now. We were watching some sort of weird, Japanese advert for stopping racism. I said it was so dated, but my Dad just said it simply wasn't my cup of tea. It was my cup of tea though! The people were in some sort of large metal tank, much like a boiler, and it had a modified robot brain inside it. After a while, Dad said to me, "I hate to ask this, and I know it's boring. I know you quit the fags, but what about other stuff? Like weed?" There was a long pause here whilst I tried to figure out something to say. Normally I would just deny it, but something felt quite casual and honest about this experience, even though I knew it wasn't. I was going to tell him that I just smoke occasionally, which is true, and that I can turn a joint down these days...not so true The pause made it extremely awkward and obvious. My mum said something, but I didn't hear it, so to speak. It was like sound inside my mind, saying "Everytime Tracey and I walk past you she asks 'Is that smell what I think it is?' and I can't just keep lying to her!".

4) Luke A, Liam C and Gary. P were all very stoned inside one of their bedrooms. It was a small room, and very dark. The haziness of the hotboxed smoke made it even darker, making the view of them almost grainy. Luke A had been told to put some very large headphones on, and was listening to something.

5) Bryn had invited Tom, Will, the girls and I round his house for a smoke up. I was in the back of my parents car on the way home from somewhere. It was a nice day - sunny and warm, with a few clouds here and there. I knew I wanted to go to Bryn's and so did my parents, but they drove straight past his house as they wanted to go home first, for some reason. This was annoying, as it would mean we would have to make another trip, and I didn't see the logic in it. When we got home and I was in my living room, my parents decided they didn't want to drive me to Bryn's. No particular reason, just didn't want to! This meant I had to walk - LONG! I realized that if I ran I could probably be there in 15 minutes. Bryn, Will and Tom and maybe the girls were already there, in a room I'd never seen before. I was hoping they'd not start smoking before I arrived. Bryn claimed his bud was extremely potent, but he had very little of it.

6) I was at my local Green with my manager Lynsey's daughter Emily. It was about 7pm on a summers evening, and the weather was beautiful! It was still quite light, with the light glimmering through the trees. Lynsey's car pulled up by the back bench, so Emily and I walked towards the black large car. I went to Lynsey's side of the car - she was driving, and she had her window winded down. She recently had a miscarriage, and this was the first time I'd seen her since, but she looked well. I found it strange that she was driving and not her husband, who was in the passenger seat.