non-lucid

dream
nondream

I'm in a flat with my cousin. We live there together with my son. It's fairly small but bright and open plan. I come up with a plan to redecorate it, removing some cheesy stickers that are on the wall. The stickers are very 80s looking, music notes and bars in a wave sort of pattern that goes up and along the wall. My plan in to paint the wall with the design I've seen on one of the tee shirts that my cousin wears, a brown one with yellow script writing that says "Retro". My cousin agrees but wonders how we will do it, concerned that it will be a difficult project.

Flash forward to the bathroom, I am giving my son a quick shower. He is playing around with the water, then gets a hold of the shower hose and then lets it go. Suddenly the water is on full blast and the hose is going mental, spraying everywhere. At first my son laughs hysterically, but not for long. The water has turned hot (I get the horrible impression that I turned it up???) and now it's burning him and he's screaming. I can't get to him at first and there is panic as all I can do is watch in horror.

After I get the hose to stop spraying I poor some cool water on my poor kid's skin, which is red and angry. There is an imprint of the bathmat from the bottom of the tub burnt into his skin. I wrap him in cool towels and plan to go to the hospital.

We end up at this strange cafeteria kind of place full of those fold out tables and chairs. I get the impression that there will be a wedding or something going on here (wedding is a dream sign of mine, I wish it triggered a RC, but nope) sometime soon. There are some nervous parents of the bride or groom milling around, one woman approaches me while I am trying to put my poor kid to bed (under a table!). She asks me if she can help me. I suddenly get a glimpse of some laundry hanging on a wire in a field and the dream ends.

Awake, Non-lucid, Semi-lucid, Lucid, [Commentary made while awake]

[I had several different dreams last night, two of which were lucid.]

[Dream #1] I'm playing Neopets. [In this particular dream,] Neopia is a fully-realized, three-dimensional world, but it's still a computer game that I'm playing using a mouse. The art looks just like it does on the real site. The game is played from a first-person perspective, and there are lots of rooms and areas to explore [just like the plot adventures on the real Neopets Web site]. One such area is filled with Neopets who are dressed in vaguely Arabian-looking clothes; they all have their noses covered with veils, which strikes me as somewhat ridiculous, since they all have such different shapes and sizes of noses. This scene makes me think, So Neopia does have something resembling an Islamic culture. I click my way into a hidden area and receive a special reward for finding it.

[Dream #2] I walk into my family's house, which is big and spacious and has two stories [and looks nothing at all like any of our real ones. House #2, our only two-story house, was nowhere near that big and was laid out very differently]. Suddenly, there are several men in the house with me. They're there to challenge me to a martial-arts tournament. I had known in advance that this challenge was coming. In the course of my conversation with them [which I don't really remember now], one of them eventually says that there is no challenge. Having become semi-lucid at some point during the conversation, I say boldly and firmly, “I have better things to do.” I begin making my way out of the house.

Then, I hear my mom yelling from behind me that the house is on fire and I should get out. I do so, thinking, I know I should just get out without stopping to try and rescue other people. I go out the front door and walk down a front walk that leads to a fairly high, steep flight of concrete stairs, which leads down a steep embankment, at the bottom of which are the public sidewalk and the street. I jump off the top step to get down to the front sidewalk more quickly. I fall in a long, slow arc, taking several seconds to get down, and land softly and gently on my feet. I had kind of known I was going to fall that way; I always do in dreams.

By this point, I'm definitely lucid. From the street, I take off and fly up over the neighborhood. Once again, it takes me two tries to take off. After the first time, I realize, I messed up – I wasn't concentrating right. I try again, kicking off with my right ankle and thinking about becoming airborne, as I always do, and this time it works. Flight feels like it always does, too.

I fly up and observe the neighborhood from above. I can see a little bit of the fire coming from the house I just left. After a minute or two, I land back on the street and see a little model of a single-story house standing on a table. I examine the model, concentrating on it, and succeed in making tiles blow off the roof with my mind. This action is directly inspired by the scene in Inception where they're at the cafe and the dream starts collapsing when Ariadne first realizes that they're dreaming. While I'm making the model blow itself to pieces, I think about how, when the characters from the movie are dreaming, they might use Michael Caine's name [*see Side Notes at end] in exclamations of surprise/anger/frustration, etc., as if he were their deity, because he was the inventor of the dream-sharing technology. I immediately dismiss this as a silly idea, though. I keep up what I'm doing, and eventually blow away all the broken-up pieces of the roof, exposing the interior of the model. It has separate rooms inside. There's a small, light brown, flea-like insect inside, with a sort of sail on its back. I know that the insect is my dad. [I don't even know.] I let it crawl onto my finger, rescuing it from the destruction of the model and setting it down gently outside the model.

This scene is immediately followed by an animated sequence of two foxes romping around in a grassy field and falling in love. I know that this means that both of my parents are still alive and got out of the burning house all right.

[Dream #3] I'm outside, in the daytime, on a series of tiled walkways, terraces, and stairways, elevated and built into the side of a hill. Some boy is following me around, singing a creepy version of some children's song at me, changing the words all around to suggest that he would like to do something sexual with me. At the end of the second or third repetition of the short song, I stop, sing the end of the verse for him, then smack him in the face. Then, a passing man helps me throw the offending boy over a wall and down a long flight of stairs. I see him get up after he reaches the bottom, and am glad to see that he can still get up and that nothing's broken.

The scene shifts slightly, and now I'm on the surface-level streets, walking around a city that I remember visiting in a dream before. [Except now I don't – false memory, apparently.] The city is bright and clean and filled with big trees. There is a train station across the street from where I'm walking. On my side of the street, there is an enlarged replica of one of the stores on Main St. at Disneyland. Upon seeing the prominent train station, I remark that my dream city doesn't necessarily have to be in the States; it could just as easily be in the UK. [This, despite the fact that said train station had a sign on the outside that very clearly read “Amtrak.”]

I walk in the main entrance to the store that replicates the one from Disneyland, and find myself in a shop that is part of a mall. I walk through that first shop and into a second one that resembles a Hot Topic (all the walls are painted black), only it's girlier (there are a lot more dresses). This store also has living mannequins that look exactly like the ones they have at Old Navy. One of these mannequins tells me that she wants to try on the dress I'm wearing, which I had gotten from that store earlier. It's a strapless, knee-length black sundress with little pink polka dots, pink lace decorating the top of the bodice, and a pink tulle underskirt part that makes the skirt puff out. There are lots of similar dresses on the racks in the store. [For some strange reason,] I'm wearing mine over the T-shirt and shorts I was already wearing. I'm really enjoying just walking around, exploring this dream. I exclaim aloud, “My mind is so awesome!”

I walk out of that store and around a corner, through one of the hallways that form the connecting core of the mall. I find myself wishing I could change out of the shorts I'm wearing under my dress, and just wear the dress. I go into another store, this one a Sephora. While I was in there, the dream ended.

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Side notes:

*Michael Caine's character's name is Stephen Miles (per the shooting script); that's what the other characters would say if they were to do that. I forgot that while dreaming, though.

Last night, when doing mental affirmations while falling asleep, I focused more on recalling the memory of what it feels like to be in a lucid dream, recalling past lucid dreams, and visualizing and imagining what it would have been like if I had become lucid in one of my memorable non-lucids. It worked really well.

As I was taught when I first tried to ski, people who are right-handed are generally right-footed as well, and are instinctively inclined to lead with their right foot and do most of their controlling of their movement with their right foot when skiing or snowboarding. I'm very pleased and not at all surprised to discover that this principle applies to my flying in dreams as well. I'm right-handed (and right-footed) in real life, and from the beginning, I've always instinctively used my right foot and ankle to kick off from the ground and launch myself into a takeoff.

20.02.2011

Hotel Bust and Scary Lady (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Log: 01:00am Sunday, February 19-20th, 2011
11:00am
Hours: 10:00m Alarm: None Audio: Stephen LeBerge
(Trance Induction)

This dream is short and i have had one like it before. I am a woman cop, similar to the one in Law and Order SVU, and i am at a hotel with my partner. We broke into a group of rooms in a hotel and we were busting down doors. Overall, it was fairly blurry and hard to comprehend because i was moving so fast. I yelled to my partner, " That's the one!" and then we were both hiding around a wall, and the crazy psycho woman was on the other side around the corner. I knew i had to do something so i grabbed a chair and went around the corner to find her making a spear out of a knife and a broom handle. It was scary. We "danced" for a minute before she lunged at me and i hit her with the chair as hard as i could. She was down. And the it ended.

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20.02.2011

Super Market School Rave (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

This dream happened after i woke up once and decided that i wasn't done dreaming so i went back to sleep. I was in a school, and i was with James hill. There was a dance going on and at the center was a dark rave like group of corridors. In the middle people were dancing, and the hallways led to different things.One of them lead to a bathroom. and another one lead to a super market like area. I was running from room to room. I ran into the super market room and saw the cardboard walls that made up the tunnels i was running through prior to running into this room. In this room i found James Hill and now he was following me around everywhere. I ran into the bathroom trying to get rid of him. It didn't work. I was really annoyed. Then it ended.

This dream is an extension from the previous dream but i thought it deserved it's own slot as a seperate dream.
I was scared of Mario now that i know how he got his scar. SO i decided to go the other direction towards the store. There was an ice-crema machine, similar to the one that was recently put into the school. I figured that if i could go over to it, i could be safe from Mario and i could get a frozen treat, so i did. I was inside i eating my ice cream when i saw that my friends who were now outside were acting sort of weird, so i gotout and saw what was going on. Mr. Castagna was coming from afar, and with him was a little girl. He came over and told me that i had to help her get some ice-cream, and i thought nothing of it as i helped prop her up and help her into the machine. (The machine was a like a photo booth in the way that you sit inside it while eating your ice-cream.) As i did so, she turned into a sort of toy almost. It was as if i was putting her into the seat of a motorcycle or something you would put a toy into, except for the fact it was an ice-cream machine. Then without warning, aparently, the girl thought it was the bathroom or something, for she started peeing all over the machine and all over me as well. I was astonished at what she was doing. I knew i had to do something so i took hold of a bunch of clothes that were in the back of the machine and started putting them on her, suffocating her almost. I was above her now as i said, "How's that?!" And then as i started to take the clothing back off of her, i noticed that it was Hannah... It was really weird because, first of all, she aws tiny, and second of all, she was a zombie. She was laughing excessively as she slowly fell out of the machine and to the ground. As she finally hit the ground, her head broke free from her body. I got out of the machine, and as i turned around the machine was full of clothes and Graeme and Kurt (From Glee) were both inside it, sourrounded by a plethora of clothes. I saw a shirt that was appealing to me so i grabbed it and told them that i liked it, then i turned it around to reveal and Army logo on the back. I quickly set it don and stated my immediate disgust and we all laughed together. Then is was, oddly, over.

Original Date: Today!
Type: Ordinary - Non Lucid
Dream:
I was in my bedroom which had a table and a tv, not a bed and not like my real bedroom and there was a makeshift kitchen behind it where the wall would be. I was talking to Nick on a walkie talkie and I was startled by someone appearing in the doorway, it was my neighbor's girlfriend. I was shocked how she got in cuz my door is always locked. We sat and talked for a bit then my neighbor came over to get her. As they were leaving, he turned to hug me and said he would be back over later. (We've seen each other in passing, but never spoke a word to one another) I just said "uh huh, sure you will" while rubbing and patting his back, not understanding why he would say this when he had his girlfriend. They left and I locked my door. I went back to the room, was talking to Nick and suddenly after a time the neighbor was back in the house, he said he wanted spanish rice and pulled a bad from the cupboard in the makeshift kitchen, but it was dry lima beans with rice mixed in it. At some point, he was gone and there was a stranger girl in my living room in front of the door. That's when I noticed my door was broken, like my neighbor broke it when he or his girlfriend had left! It's hinges were off and there was rust on a broken piece at the bottom. I was very panicky about this while talking to Nick about it over the walkie. The neighbors I could see outside sitting on chairs playing with my dog while the stranger in my house was talking to me about stupid things my neighbors would do or talk about and how they'd act in the car. (I think she was a friend of theirs and at one point I actually saw her in the car with them while she was talking about it) (in real life I never see him with any friend) Then my dog was in the house, I was in the kitchen, and saw her squatting to take a crap on the floor, I started to go to stop her but then was just like fuck it and just kept talking. (My ex was in my kitchen, he used to be a cook, he took off his shoe to show me giant mushrooms that he cut and put in for padding. This was supposed to be my boyfriend Nick because of his arduous job, but turned into my ex.) Then the dog went to the living room and crapped more in front of tv. I went around to pick it up and throw it out and when I went into the living room there were people bringing in chairs and there were pieces of jewelry sitting on white pieces of cloth like for gifts or a display or party and I think it was being organized by my ex's mom, but I did not like this in my house.

Objective Context:
I heard my neighbor and girlfriend talking loudly when I first woke up at 430am (no doubt from them). Not wanting to go outside or back to work in 3 days. Feeling safe and content in my home.

Age of Dream Ego: 26

Associations to the Dream Settings:
Invasion of peace and privacy, feeling violated with loss of control. No control over my home, where I feel most safe.

Plans: I didn't have any special plans for the night, just to have some lucids and remember them. I am continuing to try to make myself do a RC every time I wake up, but I just never think of it… no matter how much I try to focus on it. I will keep trying, I'm not sure what else to do, though.

Maze of Webs
I am in the laundry room of our house, looking at the door that leads out onto the back porch. I look back into the kitchen and see that there is no one there, and I am glad there is no one there. I open the door and walk out onto the back porch, closing the door behind me. I almost head blindly down the steps to the carport, but I stop suddenly when I see there is a wall of cobwebs blocking my way. I shudder at the idea that I almost touched those cobwebs… there are spiders crawling all through the webs, they are big, about the size of golf balls. This scares me, even though I am not normally scared of spiders in waking life. I turn to go down the back stairs, but to do that I have to cross the entire porch… which is covered in more cobwebs, walls of cobwebs, everything is covered with cobwebs… and more of those huge spiders. I am momentarily scared into not moving at all, then I snap out of that and I look to the door I just came out of. I go to open the door, but I stop as I see the spiders have already covered the knob with more cobwebs. I need a stick of some kind to pull cobwebs out of the way so I can get out of there… I look around to try to find a long stick, at first I think there is none, but I finally find one. I pick it up, moving carefully to avoid touching any cobwebs or spiders, and use it to scrape the cobwebs away from the doorknob. The cobwebs come easily away from the doorknob, but now there are spiders crawling on the stick towards me… I throw the stick aside and grab at the knob… but it's locked… and I'm out there surrounded by cobwebs…


Real Life Models
I am in the yard outside of our house. I am designing a small building, designing it in a 3D modeling software, and the building is forming itself right here in front of me. It turns out that there is someone there building the shed as I am directing. We continue designing the building, which is going to be a part of a new game I am working on, and soon it is finished. I go into the house because I need to get something, though I don't remember what that something was because I go back outside without it. I look at the shed, the man who has been helping me says everything is all done. This isn't good… I am upset with him, I tell him he shouldn't have converted the structure into an editable poly until after I unwrap the UVW map and add the textures to it. He says I need to calm down, there is nothing wrong. I say that there is something wrong, I won't be able to add a texture to the shed now… it will all be the same dull color, which will make it unusable. He says no, all I need to do is add the new modifier to it… then add whatever textures and colors I want. I stand there for a minute, then I realize he is right, I shouldn't have gotten upset.

Note: An editable poly is a format for 3D objects in 3D modeling software such as 3DS Max, the one I use. UVW unwrapping and a UVW map is a process used by 3DS Max or other software to place the colors and patterns in the proper places on that object… such as coloring most of a door brown for wood and then making the knob silver.


Death Maze
I am with a group of people and we are on the run, there are others chasing after us. The people after us are part of the mob or drug dealers or something like that, they are after us because we stole their money. We go into an old abandoned subway system in an attempt to escape our pursuers. We are going through the passages when one of the people I'm with finds a hidden passage, it had not even been visible from a distance. We get inside and head down one of the passages, but we come to a dead end… that's not good… had the entrance closed behind us? No… it hadn't. We head back for the entrance but the people after us are blocking the way, they are standing just inside the passage. Now the entrance slides closed… a lot of good that does now. One of the thugs is trying to figure out how to open the exit, the others are threatening to kill my associates and me. They are pointing guns at us, saying to hand over their money or die. We don't have the money with us. They're going to kill us all? One if them looks like he is about to fire… but he doesn't… and blood starts coming from his mouth… I look and see that a bunch of needle thin spikes are coming from the floor… and all of the thugs have been impaled. The passage is now turning, it is really disorienting… it is rotating around until it looks like we're standing on the wall and the floor is somehow up above us… the ceiling is off to the right… blades come from the walls and are cutting anything and anyone in their path… one of the men with me is caught by surprise… the blade shreds off about an inch from his back… he falls to the ground screaming in pain… the next blade removes his head. The rest of us run down the passage in the other direction, but it's a dead end… I have no idea how we are supposed to get out.

Hello this is my first dream journal so here it goes. Unfortunately this wasn't a lucid dream.

So I watch a T.V show called weeds which is about a suburban family whos father died in the first season and the Mom whos name is Nancy is a pot dealer. So anyway the dream started Silas who is Nancy's son in the show. Me and him were talking about weed and after what seemed like a minute of talking he got out a bong and I took a hit off of it and he did too. Then Nancy walked into the room and caught us and then she god all mad and sent us to summer camp which resembled a camp resort i go to with my family every summer. and while we were there we met these girls one was chubby and the other was skinny and they were like the tour guides of the camp. So Silas asked the chubby one who seamed to be the leader if she knew where we could get some weed and she said "You either have to grow your own or buy it from me and mine is some ghetto shit." then she laughed and silas said that he was just going to grow his own.Then it jumped forward to where we were in a cabin and the plants were grown most of the way and then the camp rangers were doing like cabin inspections and so silas like tried to hide it and the didnt find it. then two girls named gaby and alexus who i go to school with in real life came to the camp but they didnt talk they just showed up. And that is where i woke up.

Here are some nightmares, probably not a very long list, and some dont seem particularly scary, but these freaked me out so bad a sat in a cold sweat for hours before i went back to bed. (they get worse as i get older too.)

- Wolf dreams: the only one that repeats (very infrequently though), not as scary as the rest though, i can fall asleep after but its one of those ones where you need to force yourself awake. basically im playing alone in my backyard, close to my woods and abandoned shed and dog cage (big square of fence with a dog house in it, the dogs are now dead). then i notice the wolves. they are black, and are watching me silently with yellow eyes. its not a look of rage, or if they were stalking prey, or calm, they were eerie large eyes that never blinked and seemed to look into my soul. they would growl and i would know they were going to rip me to shreds. i would try to run, but i couldnt, my feet were rooted to the ground in terror. (the last time i couldnt move but punched one when it lunged, the other times i wake up.)

-Deadly flowers: from this point on these are one time deal nightmares, and were bad for me, this one is from when i was little. i am spectating a man giving a woman a present from her front door. she takes it out of the box and there is a large beautiful flower with very thick leaves that seem wet. when she touches it her eyes roll back into her head untill they are completely white, her face contorts in pain, and she emitts the most bloodcurteling loud scream i have ever heard, it gave me chills and woke me up.

-Homer simpson: in a car, backseat, homer simpson is driving. he falls asleep. but not in a normal way, his head sags back over the back of his seat, his upside down face looking into mine, with completely white eyeballs. it was so creepy, he looked dead and his white eyes and creepy round teeth added to the fact the car was going to crash made me wake up, later on i wondered why i was so afraid of a simpson.

-What the hell is in the basement?: climb down into a basement from a latter. only a square of light from above provides a bright square of light in a black room. i see something moving. it comes closer, its a pale demon child thing, and all you need to know it was creepy. whoever was with me on top when i went into the basement alone slammed the hatch to the basement. in the darkness i woke up.

-zombie children?: im older now, but in this dream i was a toddler again for some reason. i was with my mom when i went to a party at my friend toms house. she put me in the basement to talk to his parents, and i stayed in there behind a child proof gate with some other kids my age. i didnt know these kids but in this dream i was little and i didnt care. the kids were all quiet and huddled except for one kid in the corner. "Hi, my name is Be..." "SHHHHH!!!!". for the first time i looked at the lone child. the whites of his eyes had a sickly yellow tint to them and black pupils., he had black hair and was unnaturally pale. His blood was black, and dripping from his mouth like drool. he took strained breaths and looked up. if i could describe this kid in one word it would be rotting. he walked over and the kids were silent, unsure of what he would do. and he grabbed one, and started bitting his head. the other children screamed as the monster child bit into the kids head, taking out chunks and sending a spout of red blood out. then i woke up.

-The serial killer: last one for this post. walking through the woods alone. its not really dark, but its dreary and eerily quiet. then i start to notice the trees, or more specifically what was on them. someone had been nailing fingernails, toenails, toes, the ends of fingers, eyelids, and other various bits of flesh and organs to the trees. then as i looked i noticed a dirty, creepy old man standing conspicuously in between the trees staring at me unblinkingly. "hey kid, watch out, someone has been killing in this part of the woods, i just found a body, want to see it?" its a dream, so for some reason i go with him without uttering a word. we go into the forest, and the trees thin a little. then lying on the ground is a mutilated corpse, the bottom part missing, entrails pouring out, a look of horror on the face as flys landed in the gaping mouth to lay maggots. i could only say "who would do this" and looked back at the man. at that point he gave me the biggest, most sinister smile, and blew out his lantern. yea thats when i woke up.

short dream:
(apparently in my dream i had schizophrenia with multiple personalities) i was at a friends house in his kitchen, and my friend was asking me to do something, but then i switched personalities and started to walk out the house but then became myself again and walked back to the kitchen and tried to explain to my friend that i was schizophrenic. he just looked at me confused and i woke up while trying to explain.

Just a few especially fun dreams from the past:

-crocidile swamps and lakes: these come up every few months, they started off as a swamp, where i noticed a crocidile close to my feet, and then another, and another, untill i realize i am completely surrounded by the beasts. at one point i was on a short rickedy dock when i saw a monsterous one that could swallow me like a tic tak. since then the dream has slowly turned into more of a lake, where i can see them lining the bottom, looking up at me, and sometimes i fall off the boat/dock im on and have to swim frantically away from them for some reason (they never move except for the big one, aside from being a little to close to some theyve never attacked). these dreams arent really scary but more of fun. (p.s. the effect where i notice more and more creatures that i wasnt aware of also happens with frogs, also pretty fun dreams since they get bigger than my head)

-Tital waves!: Title says it all. sometimes they pull me out in the water and smash me, sometimes pull me down, other times i escape, but one thing for sure is that my dream ocean is always violent. over time they havent been as tall (one litteraly went past the clouds, some force was pulling the water straight up in the sky, the wave was 90 degrees and at the top water rose up into space, and then as i ran i got hit by the wave.) now they are very violent, still huge, and i love playing in them like in real life (added bonus that i cant drown.)

-Storm dreams: something is just great about these. the ominous feeling, the sheer power, its like a real live storm (no rain lol) with giant lightning strikes that blind, shake, and make you near deaf. the feeling is amazing and indescribable unless youve done it.

-The leviathan: i was at a giant lake on top of some strange plateau or mountian thing. the sky was grey and there was mist everywhere. i went into the lake, it was deep, dark and clear. i could see a bottom of dark sand and weeds, and rising out of the bottom to just at or a little below water level were giant pillars of stone. i looked down and saw the leviathan, bigger than any animal id ever seen, even from a distance. it was way below me but i could see its smooth black body winding in between the pillars and its glinting white teeth. needless to say i got the hell out of there. had this dream once but it still goes down as a favorite.

-Good sex =) : not gonna go into this much, but it was my crush, in the shower, and it was good. ruined by some dc but it was worth it. ( also when i later looked up how to have more sexual dreams i found out about lucid dreaming, so that put it in my favorites.

-Under water Dream: started out with me fishing for really agressive fish, they looked really creepy and ready to bite off my hand, i fell in for a min, and saw purple goo, which turned out to be their eggs. after i got out i saw an expedition team going underwater in a sort of base thing that looked like a metal trailer with no wheels and a side made of windows, and i volenteered to go with them. they were trying to find out why the fish were so aggressive, and we went really deep underwater (after the shore went out a little there was a very steep drop, also it was a lake but extremely deep and huge.) we went under and the first thing i saw was the sharks there, they were pretty big. they tried to attack the base, which was against a side of the lake, which looked like an underground mountianside. anyway we had to man the guns, and shoot of cannons that shot darts at the sharks with a chemical that repelled them. then we saw a big one. and by big i mean a whale shark, doubled in size, with a hammerheads head. we shot at it and it didnt stop, i stopped shooting out of fear, and it barreled into the glass. it shattered and water leaked in, and the shark carried off the girl next to me, while we put on scubba gear and replaced the windows and pumped out the water. while this was happening i viewed the girl and shark outside of my own body, since they were far away. the girl missed being eaten, but slid down its back, getting cut on the skin, and held on to the tail, the shark swam up and made a cresent shape with its own body, and bit her. i watched a mangled peice of flesh float down as the shark began to swim, before it turned around and ate that too. little did i know that this was the 2nd largest shark, the 1st being a bit fatter and longer, but not by much. at this point, i was in the base, and i went into an airlock and turned into a fish and swam out. i felt human but to the fishes i was one of them. i saw amazing coral and fish, both with fantastic colors, and found some really cool luminescent things in these small caves in the sand. i talked to the fish and found out that since the giant sharks were eating everything, everything was in a frenzy to survive and reproduce, so they became aggressive in finding food. i was avoiding the larger sharks this entire time, which occasionaly appeared, leaving an ominous shadow, and i knew if it saw me i would die. eventually we talked to a large shark (not as big as some of the others), and convinced him to let me talk to the large shark. i couldnt tell him not to eat anything, or kill him, but i told him to not eat pregnant things so there would be food later, and dissuaded him from eating a seagull. later i went back to the airlock, but fish followed me. they had suspicions i was human, but i told them i wasnt. then a boy who quit the team from shock at the shark attack, but hadent had a chance to surface yet, came down and said i was human. the fish were in a rage and i quickly went into the base as a human. we were about to go up, but we noticed how agitated the fish were. then i saw the shadow, and the great shark came out from behind an underwater mountian-pillar thing. we freaked out when we saw its size, and the darts were ineffective. it barrelled into the base and we all died.

Underwater Dream 2- I started out looking at a huge lake that was so clear I could see all the way down into it from the road. I went to the shore and saw some normal but pretty big fish swimming. I head out to a rock island a bit further out. There are all these kids on it so I decide to get out of there. I have on glasses, and then realize they are goggles. I decide to go exploring down into the lake, and realize I can hold my breath really well. Right a way I see a barracuda with creepy eyes and teeth, but it is non threatening. I keep going and run into bigger fish. I start to see sharks, not great whites, but the smaller more common ones. I get pretty far down to a sunken ship that resembles a small titanic, with coral and rust growing over it. Here I am uneasy. Two eel-shark type things come out, they look like http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mneDhOtVEQw but are brown with creepy eyes. One of them bites me, it doesn't hurt, but I know I need to get out of there. I turn around and start swimming, and notice that as I got deeper the fishes got bigger. A huge manta ray goes by me, and two medium sized sharks go by. They are more aggressive now, and disturbingly they all have the same face. Bulbous black eyes pointing forward, not to the side like normal fish, with a small mouth with huge needle like teeth. Finally I get back to the island.

Original Date: 12/12/10
Type: Ordinary - Non Lucid
Dream:
I was at work in my office and I went to check the board (schedule). As I walked back into my office my supervisor called my name and I went to her, she asked why I was always leaving my office acting like I had nothing to do and I told her I went to look at the schedule because I was supposed to be on record reviews while someone else was teching for my provider. My other tech was in the room sitting in my super's chair and I said to her "so I'm teching by myself?". She nodded. (I remember making some mention about my foot being painful and someone just scoffed) - Then I was out in the front of the clinic where there was some meeting, and after it ended I made a joke about being in the back so I could cut out of the crowd easily. - Then my ex and I had an apartment on a second or third floor and nearby my car was parked in a lot with other cars. At nighttime I had gone down knowing I had parked beside his green honda accord, but when I got there my brand new car was gone! I was pissed and panicked, I came back to tell my ex. Later I went back down and it was there, and I saw a man with a cowboy hat and boots lighting his cigarette and I just felt like he had something to do with it, so I went to tell my ex. The last part of the dream, I left my work midday, and walked through a peaceful little city that could be similar to somewhere in Asia. Not quite sure where I ended up, but I was then trying to get back and realized I didn't have my uniform on, I must've left my clothes, so I started to panic and went to the apartment for anther uniform. (I was going everywhere on foot) It was daytime and now this was me and my current boyfriends apartment. (Same apartment, different person) There was a women outside that at first when I asked him, he said he didn't know her, but I later found out he lied and it was someone he rode with to work, was upset about that. I got home and all I had were a shirt and pants! No shoes, socks, so I had no choice but to run back to the place to retrieve the clothes I left there. I had a feeling of panic because I knew I was going to be late for work, it was far and this time going there felt even farther. I was running. I ran past school kids in uniforms eating there lunch under big shady trees, and they turned to look at me. I was running in ABU pants without socks and shoes (I thought about my foot, surprised it didn't hurt to run). I got to the place and walked passed what looked like a gym with people playing basketball. Into a back room I found my clothes bundled up and tossed behind something in a corner and everything was there, shoes, top....but no socks.

Objective Context:
Going back to work tomorrow, won't be teching, and the scheduler is on leave. Being frustrated yesterday for soon being out of a vitamin. Losing good amounts of weight on new diet, difficulty with urges to eat bad goodies.

Age of Dream Ego: 26

Feelings:
Anger, irritation, frustration, trapped, detest, unfair, disrespect, not being believed, panic, running out of time, betrayed, searching.

Original Date: 12/10/10
Type: Ordinary - Non Lucid
Dream:
This started in a field with snow and frost and pumpkins. Some of the pumpkin stalks had been burned. I was with someone, a guy. He walked to the left and I continued to walk straight. I saw a rabbit with some gray on his nose, sitting on a stump. I went over to him, laying on my right side and put my hand out to let him smell it and he did. Then I was brave enough to touch and pet him. He darted away up a hill, and the grass was now green and visible. He came back and I pet him some more and he ran again, this time I followed him. Up the hill he had run to a house, one that I remembered, it was very old and no one lived there. There was a huge sunroom, with shining through the first and second floor screens. And off to the side was a door with a walkway leading to maybe the driveway. My boyfriend followed and I told him this was the perfect house. We looked at the sign and it said it was part of the pizza beside it. We went inside and then I was with my stepmom and my dad. I found an inlet with wooden walls and upon pressing the wall a door leading to the basement popped out, I showed my stepmom, then continued on in the house. We walked up the wide staircase, dad was ahead of us, and my bunny was back, he was on the stairs with dad. At the top there was a door and a hole in the banister where the stairs would continue going up but they just stopped and dropped off. The bunny just turned like he expected more stairs and fell down to the lower lever below, we chuckled. I darted past my dad on the stairs to go into the door first, inside was the attic and it was huge! There were 3 very large beds and stuff was scattered everywhere, the beds had bedding on them but were mismatched and not made. Then I realized that the steps were the only thing to lead to this, no other doors, so I went downstairs to search for other rooms. With my stepmom, we found another room, which I think was similar to a bedroom. The cool part was that there was an opening in the ceiling, that was like huge wide steps. Using my forearms, I hoisted myself up and realized this took us back to the attic. Then I was back downstairs and wanted to show my father the basement. When we went down it was pretty decent, not terrible old, a little messy. While down there for some reason my dad captured my bunny and submerged him in liquid to preserve and do tests on him. I was very upset, I saw my bunny's face staring back at me through the jar. Then my dad took him out and wanted to put another chemical on him. I was boiling mad! The poor rabbit had only about 4 hairs left on his body, he was blue and then he looked orange. At one point a thought had gone through my head to leave the bunny there as we walked out the door. And I felt very horrible for this, then I thought I never should have gone to pet him. I was very sad.

Notes:
This was sad, I felt like it was my fault and that I lost something precious, because it was a life. The house was familiar to me in some ways, maybe dreamt of it before.

Objective Context:
I discussed houses with a coworker. My boyfriend told me he wasn't ready to be married anytime soon. Work drama/stress. Still needing to study. I was telling boyfriend about my house pet spider Max.

Age of Dream Ego: 26

Associations to Dream Setting:
This was a familiar place to me, the house, I visited it before. The outside was relaxing and had great potential, but it was a neglected fixer upper house.

Feelings:
Happiness, discovery, reluctance, curiosity, excitement, disappointment, anger and loss.

1. I'm hanging out with an old friend of mine who I haven't seen in years. She pulls out a bag of this chunky powder and pours it out on the table. She starts pushing the powder into lines and then snorts one. I ask her what the powder is, and she tells me that it is spore dust. I don't really want to snort the spore dust, and I suggest that we just eat it instead. She is very insistent that it must be snorted. I forget if I ended up doing it or not.

2. I'm on the train going to school. I have to tie my shoe, so I bend over. Some guy behind me grabs my ass, and I freak out. Suddenly I have extreme strength. I throw him against the wall and hit him repeatedly, leaving him with dark purple bruises.

Original Date: 12/7/10
Type: Fragment - Non Lucid
Dream:
I was in the living room in our apartment, possibly sitting in a chair or standing outside of the bedroom door. Looking in, I saw Nick (my boyfriend who is currently now here with me) lying in bed, the head of the bed was up against the wall closest to the neighbor. Nick was looking back at me, we stared at each other, but weren't in the same room, like we could see but not touch one another. We were distanced.

Objective Context:
Spoke minimally to him on the phone the previous night, I'm missing him very much and it feels like time isn't going by fast enough. I'm getting ready for some stressful weeks ahead at work.

Age of Dream Ego: 26
Dream Setting:
At home, comfortable and relaxed. It's my place of solace, my sanctuary away from stress and military.

Feelings:
Neutral, happiness, distance, separation but closeness, love and warmth, desire and need.
Interpretation:
He is close in my heart by talking on the phone and our love, but he is still distant and far away by the fact that we were separated by a single room, like we could move, but only see each other, not touch and feel.

Original date: 12/6/2010 (when I started my journal in my phone)
Type: Fragment - Non Lucid
Dream:

I was suddenly on a boat/ship in water/ocean. The water was somewhat choppy and it was night, a lot of grey, dark blue, some green and slight moonlight. Then far in the distance, an island appeared almost as if it was coming up out of the water and it was dark. Once it appeared, there was an unexpected almost anxious or panicky feeling. I also felt that I was seeing this from a man's body on the boat.

Objective Context:

It was a Sunday night, I was preparing for work the next day, felt a bit anxious. Started second day of my low cal diet.

Age of Dream Ego: 40