non-lucid

Color: Grey

I was near a overpass over a two-way street. I wanted to cross. Or did I already cross? I was waiting for a jeep.

I took a jeep somewhere. Now I want to go back. I went back via a jeep. I asked the jeep to stop under the overpass but the driver didn't stop until a few meters later, saying that it's not allowed there. Then he said something about crossing the street. There's a pedestrian lane where he stopped, but I thought of crossing via the overpass.

I walked back to the overpass. I saw a siopao store.

Wow. I've really let myself slide here... I won't post every single dream from January, but I will post the more meaningful/impressive ones. I've been trying Calea Z recently, so I'll mark the ones I had with CZ.

January 01, 2015

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Poor Donna

There was a really surreal moment in one of my dreams this night. I had been with Zukin, planning to go up north. We were driving, and then I sort of blacked out, and then I am in the water, doing a backflip through an innertube, or something. It was all slow motion and when I surfaced, I am in a lake. I swim up to the shore, where Zukin is waiting for me. We were apparently part-way to the property. We had stopped for a break, and now had to get back on the road again. There was a random young man at the beach who told us where we were out of the blue (we knew, and hadn't asked him), and wished us well on our way out. Flash Forward five years, and this man is dating Donna Noble, but was about to break up with her.

January 05, 2015 (With CZ)

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Utter Forgiveness

I was in the woods, running from some kind of wild animal. It caught up to me and was going to attack me, so I tried to strangle it... But then it turned into a human woman (who was now unconscious) and we were suddenly in my Oma's house. I was suddenly very worried. There were others with me now, and I feared (I was almost frenzied) that they would hate me and cast me out if they found out what I'd done.

When someone came into the room and saw the woman, they calmly came to her and picked her up, carried her to the couch and set her down, and began caring for her. They didn't show any signs of being mad at me, and said no words of loathing, scolding, etc. They just understood. It was suddenly very calm and peaceful.



Monsters and Climbing Naked

I was in some sort of apartment building in what I think was my hometown. I was with a group of refugees, and we were watching for signs of the giants that were after us. They were a bit like Titans. We began making plans for how we would be able to get to a checkpoint of some kind, and then enacted the plan. After checking for an all clear, I watched the team zigzag across the lawn of the apartment building. The route was completely counter intuitive and it would have made MUCH more sense to just shoot right for the spot they ended up in... But oh well.

I ran to where they were now, and we ran down the road for a distance. I ducked down an alley, which ended with a blank wall save for a door. I opened the door to find it was a door on the side of a 6th-or-so-floor of a building. And I realized I had nothing but a towel on now. There were stairs leading to the ground, and I had to go down them. I knew I had to, but I didn't know why. I started climbing down the ladder in my towel, and at some point I had to swap hand-holds completely, and it terrified me so much.

January 6, 2015 (With CZ)

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Forbidden(?) Love

I was at a fancy party, but had gotten there with a friend very early. There was no body in the round ballroom yet, so I went to the bathroom, which was for some reason crowded. I was in a huge black dress, and there was a rack for women's skirt cinches. Like, you took it off, put it on the rack, went to piss, and then got it back. I remember the bathroom being a bit steampunk (this whole dream was, really) and claustrophobic. When I got out of the bathroom, the ballroom was packed, and I could no longer find my friend. We were part of a secret rebel group, actually. We were here on a mission. The mission didn't require me to be with my friend, so I wandered about and mingled with the gentry, trying to get information from them. Then, I met a young man in a dashing steampunk-ish suit that looked like it was made to be with my dress. He was a soldier, or a security agent for the government, so we were supposed to be enemies, but I found myself so attracted to him. It was like electricity (yay, Clichés!) He almost literally swept me off my feet on the dance floor, and I was so worried about whether my friend/co-rebel was watching, for fear of being punished by the higherups... But at the end it turned out this man was also a rebel under cover. So it was alright that I had wild sex with him that night :D



Forgot my Shoes...?
For some reason this was a really striking dream. I went to a movie with my little brother and his friends, but realized as I got out of the car that I'd left the house without my shoes, or my wallet, and so he had to pay for me. After the movie, I got back home by walking through parts of the hospital in town. Like, I crossed town inside the hospital. It was like using the Nether to travel longer distances in the Overworld... The hospital is the Nether...

January 07, 2015 (With CZ)

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Home for the Holidays

I was working at some large, private Christian school (which, for the record, is SO not where I would want to teach) and it was the last day before the winter break. There were four or five classes that were normally held right in this huge hallway in the middle of the school, but my class was in a room down one of the side wings. I was walking out of the building and saw some old students and their Christmas projects at their tables in the hallways, and waved at them. I exited the building through the freight entrance thing, where someone was dragging a huge Christmas tree into the building... I wished them all a merry Christmas, and then saw my current mentor teacher in the parking lot. She wished me a merry Christmas, gave me a big hug, and then for some reason offered to wash my windshield for me. It smudged.

I picked up my little brother, brought him to my place, and then our parents came and picked us both us. While in the car, my mom was telling a story of something I had done as a child. Apparently I had gone up to a boy in my class and told him we were going to pair up and do lots of shit together. I had used a specific phrase often, but I can't remember now what that was. During the story, I was showing my [b]MoonMoon[b] in the car; my head was like on the car seat and my feet were hanging over my face? We pulled up to the house I grew up in and my brother and I were fascinated by the renovations my parents had made; the retaining wall to the right of the driveway was now made of lots of petrified logs with the rings facing outwards. They were rainbow as fuck and shiny. The driveway itself was also different. It was now a sort of red brick cobblestone type pavement. There was an ultra hard and transparent bordering on translucent coat over it all so that it would not wear away ever. But there weren't enough bricks apparently, and so there was a huge gap in the driveway where they had dug out the space of the bricks but hadn't had enough. It was like a small trench, and the car had a rough time going over it. I got out of the car and inspected the bricks, really liking the way they sort of shimmered. My neighbor came out, and complimented me on my shirt (I don't remember which one I was wearing).

January 08, 2015 (With CZ)

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Rich and Weird as FUCK

I was a member of a very rich but EXTREMELY eccentric family. We had lots of cuddle sessions with some large animal (I think they were Alpacas) and at some point I was flunking a class because I had a secret poor boyfriend, and so my parents docked one cuddle session per day for a whole month, and I was so sad. But I was really falling in love with who ever this low-class boy was, so I was okay with it all. We thought we had to keep it secret from my family because they would want me to date a rich man's son, but when they ended up finding out, the family was actually very okay with it. They even gave me back that cuddle session when they figured out I was only failing that class because of love.

My family invited him to come on our HUGE yacht (it was more like a personal cruise-ship) to play with the whales. We went to visit the whales at least once a week and they knew us well. they would do tricks and shit when ever they saw us coming. But this time they were all skittish and ended up swimming away from the yacht. We were confused but then a HUGE whale loomed out of the water and floated above the yacht. It had a shit ton of packed snow on its back somehow, and started slowly tilting sideways. I saw the snow start to fall onto the yacht, and panicked because it was enough to seriously harm us. I got knocked over the edge somehow but had hold of the railing, and managed to miss all the snow because of that. I apparently took a snap-video of the whole thing and sent it to my whole contacts list.

I ended up having to go to the bathroom at some point but accidentally went into the men's restroom. And I found out I was pregnant I think. That, or I was on my period and didn't have any supplies... Either way, I was REALLY embarrassed when I found out I was in the men's room. :D

January 13, 2015 (With CZ)

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Fuzzy Cars

I had driven to a clinic for my dad, who was there. I went inside but got scared of something, so I waited outside, where I noticed that there were lots of cars that were fuzzy and blue with brown hoods. Like, almost every other car was like that. It was weird. As if they were living things... A nurse came out of the clinic and offered me some candy to make me feel better since she'd seen me being uncomfortable before.


Sleepover

I was at home, and was having a sleepover in the hot-tub room so we could see a special comet that night. We saw the comet, and then also a double shooting star that arched all the way to the horizon, and stayed lit up for a few whole minutes. It was kinda beautiful!

All that SEAWEED

I was on a trip to Austria with my cohort. Apparently I had driven my car across the ocean, because when I got to the checkpoint, there was a bunch of seaweed all over my car and up in the rims. I remember driving through vivid, beautiful mountains, too.

New City?!

I was in Pokemon Omega Ruby, and was diving next to a cliff or something, and discovered a tunnel I had never seen before. I followed it and surfaced in a new city. I was ready to explore EVERYTHING like I always do in those games, and started talking to people. I ended up signing up for some sort of drawing, but knocked something over on top of someone right away and got disqualified, I think. I went into a store at the other end of this large town square, and talked to some cat-boy thing that had a piece of paper. He kept saying it said something, but every time I looked at it, it said something different. After three different paper messages, I got lucid for a very short time, and wandered around the town a bit. It was low-level lucidity and another of those ones where I just didn't feel the need to try to control anything and just watched what happened.

January 14, 2015 (With CZ)

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August Meals

I was on my way back home from a trip with my little brother, and two of my big brother's best friends, and one of my students who has Autism and his TA. (An odd mix of people)

We stopped at a McDonald's near home because my student. who was in my car in the passenger's seat, was saying he needed a break. He and his TA nearly opened the door before I stopped the car and got out to walk around and screamed a little. I went to the counter (it was like a food truck, but it was a real Micky D's... kinda weird) to order a double cheeseburger meal. I called it by the number, but the lady at the counter was a little confused, and then said, "Ooooh, you mean the August Meal?" I was confused, and she showed me the menu above the counter. Apparently they had started calling their meals by months instead of numbers. What I wanted was now the August Meal. I got a huge rubber car insert that would hold a burger as well as a rubber car drink holder, for free? It was some promotion they were having.

January 17, 2015

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Zuke's Acting Weird

I was at Zukin's place but she was talking to some other guy, ignoring me completely. I was a little upset by this, so I left and went down the road to a different co-op. There was some sort of small-scale party going on, so at first I was held up at the door, but then they let me in and took me upstairs. Zukin is there, in a room that was right above the porch I'd had to wait on. The floor was a really interesting pattern of black metal supports with sturdy glass bricks in them. So you could see down to the porch. It was pretty cool! I find out Zukin is also HERE, with the same guy. She is still talking to him, and it's looking like he is being way too flirty. Knowing that Zukin had her eyes on someone else, I tried to sit with them and deflect this guy's attention away from Zukin. I sat in a triangle with the two of them, so not in between them but not letting them in their own world, either. They started to cuddle, and Zukin was like, "It's all good Kestrel, we're just sharing warms." I said, "I can share warms, too..." But she ignored me and he like crawled over her and started kissing her neck. I sort of glared at Zukin, and she looked at me with this look that said "get lost."

I was so dejected by this that I just sort of wandered away wanting to cry. I looked around the room and had a strange feeling about the room... it seemed like something I had seen before, maybe in a dream... I had the inkling of something being off, especially with how Zukin had acted. She would never do that to me. I continued along the edge of the room and came to the entry to a stairwell with lots of stuff stored in it, and I tried to move stuff so I could go down these stairs... And realized I was completely naked. I tried to remember where my clothes had gone, because I had JUST been wearing them, and that feeling of things being off grew. I panicked, and rand own a different set of stairs to the bathroom. I was facing the door, wondering how I was going to get some clothes, when it hit me that I must be dreaming, which is why everything felt so strange. I looked at my hands and they were all nubby and gross looking.

I left the bathroom not really caring about what I was or wasn't wearing, and left the building and this weird anti-Zukin, to go flying. I had remembered the "go backwards" task just after taking a step forward, which was a little disappointing, but I jumped to fly in search of a crystal ball, instead. It took a few attempts to fly, which is weird because usually I can just do it easily. As soon as I was in the air, something shifted and cracked and the dream ended. I was back in my bed at home. This was either as False Awakening or I actually had woken up. I didn't RC so I don't know.



How Does It FEEL?

I was on a bus in some city with a river running through it. The bus was under a bridge hen there was a siren. It was an air-raid test, apparently, and people started getting off the bus, even though the bus driver was telling them not to, because it as safer in here. About 6 people, including me, stayed on the bus, and the bus driver started driving us around the city more, not letting us off. He said the idea was to look natural, but that we shouldn't be outside at all. Inside the bus was slightly safer, especially if it looked like it was on its normal rounds.

We got to the ocean shore, where there were some docks. He let us off here, saying we should be safe at this point. I looked up and noticed that the clouds were ALL animals. Like, giant sea turtles and eagles flying through the air, or giraffes or lions roaring. Some clouds were pretty patterns when I looked more carefully. I was now only with the bus driver and a kid, who looked a lot like one of my students but didn't quite feel like him. Then shit went down. Three drones of some sort were flying in formation above us, from my left to the right. Then another zoomed past, but stopped, and turned back to us. The bus driver told us to run for the buildings, which we did. The kid and I ran to the nearest building, which happened to be a public restroom. The women's one was locked though, and the men's one had lots of weird stuff stored in it, like a large plastic horse head... We kept going, trying to find places to get indoors while the drones were hovering above people, threatening them.

Things seemed to be over shortly after the kid and I found shelter, and then we walked on a bridge over the river that went through the city. I told him that if we walked down a path by the water, we would get back to where the bus had been when all this had started.

Somehow I ended up at home. For some reason I was laying down on the driveway, perhaps just glad that the "test" air raid was done. My eyes were closed, and when I opened them, there was one of the drones right above me. Like it was hovering less than a foot above my body, covering me completely. It tilted so that the end of it was touching my inner thigh, and it as saying things like "how does it feel to be violated? you space is penetrated, how does that feel, eh?" I was so scared but thankfully I woke up.

I'm a passenger in a woman's car. She's a friend, but now I'm discovering she's tricked me. She stops the car in an unfamiliar driveway - not where I thought we were going - and there's a man in the yard, tall, heavyset, long hair, in need of a shave. I don't know him, but I recognize that he's one of the species that my species is designed to hunt. I resent my friend for tricking me into this - I'd quit hunting them. My friend disagrees with me quitting, so she's forced me into this situation. The man sees me and recognizes what species I am; he runs away, and I automatically chase him without thinking about it.

He ran inside the house. I stop at the door - I'm not sure whether I followed him in order to kill him or to explain that I'm not going to kill him. Since I can't see him running now, that gives me a second to think instead of acting automatically. I decide I'm not going to kill him, I'm just going to explain that and go. Through the door he's shouting that he's called the police. I respond that that was pointless, since I'm already here. I hadn't meant that to sound as threatening as it did, just as an observation - I really need to think before I talk. But I hear him running away from the door and going out a side window.

I see him running for the trees at the edge of the property, and I say out loud, "Why do they always go for the fucking woods?" I follow him again, and this time the thought process - such as it is - is definitely about hunting rather than explaining. It's the familiarity of going for the woods that tipped the scales - old habits are hard to break. I hear something moving in the branches, jump up to grab him, pull him back to the ground - and discover it's not him, it's a human. I've never seen this guy before. What was he doing up in the trees, watching us? Also, I seem to have injured his throat where I grabbed him.

Then there's a flashlight shining on us, and a cop telling me not to move. The man I'd been hunting is behind the cop. I'm exasperated by this - taking advantage of our human appearances to hide behind real humans, it really irritates me. It's understandable, given that the alternative for him was death; but it still irritates me.

*I recall brief moments.*

I was sitting in my room. Through the window I saw it was cloudy morning. It was raining. I was playnig an xbox game. I stood up, went to the kitchen, and took a glass of water. I went back to my room, played for a while, and drank. It tasted weird. It was kinda bittery. I went back to kitchen, and saw a colofrul cat peeing into all the glasses. Disgusted I cleaned the glass and brushed me teeth. Next my mother arrived, and we drove to the city.

I wound up back in the first day of fifth grade where I was given the opportunity to redo my life from here. I remember thinking about what changes that I wanted to make, mistakes I wanted to avoid making, etc.

I noticed that my friend CH was not in the class, and that was weird because I met him in the fifth grade.

The teacher had us doing icebreaker activities to get to know one another. There were some familiar faces from my fifth grade class in the room. The room also felt bigger than I remember it.

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We got assigned math homework.

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Time went by very fast. It was one of those dreams where it seems as though years have passed when you wake up. But there wasn't much filler in the years between fifth grade and now, my freshman year of college, or at least that I could remember.

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I recall being on a tropical vacation with my old crush from high school. We were swimming together in a coral reef somewhere in the Caribbean. The reef actually looked pretty lame. There was some garbage and it looked to not have a lot of coral, mostly rocks and stuff.

She screamed and told me that I had a spaghetti monster tendril around my leg. I kept trying to get it off, but it was tied in a knot around my leg. Eventually I simply broke it off and managed to get out of the water.

Now there was a reason I was scared of this. In the dream, Spaghetti Monsters were (now I know there is a user on this website named Flying Spaghetti Monster, I hope that he is in no way offended.) some kind of poisonous sea creature. Although their tendrils were painless, long after touching them you would start to swell up until you would explode.

There was some kind of history about these creatures, that someone had supposedly come to the island in 1850 and killed all of them in order to extract their toxin and use it as a terror weapon.

We had a big duffel bag on the beach. I first found a towel, then a bottle of 'Spaghetti monster ointment'. I had my crush (who at some point got replaced with my mom) help me rub it where the tentacle had been. My foot was already starting to swell. The ointment seemed to work though, because the swelling went down and I felt fine.

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At some point I tried to redo my life again from kindergarten.

01:06 ugh late, behind schedule

early:

There were probably more dreams, I don't get up, catching up on sleep

+ cooking steak for the family & cousins (on a grill / in a toaster oven?), they're impatient and I'm serving them

I keep slicing pieces of the steak off to serve them and so the remaining pieces will cook faster.

09:16

+ earthquake while sitting on floor talking to guy; wrapping a present package/book; inspecting/pulling thing out of toenail find a huge rotting cavity in toe with rotten teeth growing in it; mini-portable washer/dryer, runs on a hose, can I take it home?; spreading out the soap in a running washing machine; see books on wall, kids would feel nostalgic about their old rooms

I'm sitting on the floor in a room talking to some guy when I think I feel the entire floor moving. I say "is that an earthquake?" I'm sure it's an earthquake. The whole floor is moving back and forth, up and down, it's doing this for a while.

I'm inspecting my toenail on my big toe (same place, with same guy?), I see a little "chunk" of something (fluff? nail? tooth?) at the right corner where the nail meets the toe, I pull it out with some tool. I see a little hole see some black rot and look closer and discover a huge cavity there it's like the entire toe is hollow, inside there are soft rotten teeth growing I'm digging around in there to get them out, it's nasty.

I'm looking at a cute little portable washer/dryer machine, it's sitting on top of the full-sized washer and dryer, I'm talking to my parents about it. I think it's just large enough to be able to wash a single piece of underwear and a single shirt together. There is a coiled up garden hose around it, this is the water supply. It's cube shaped and about the size of a bowling ball polishing device or microwave oven. I wonder if I can take this back home with me on the plane.

I'm standing in a room in my old house, I see a book/toy shelf on the wall and think my kids would be nostalgic for their old/childhood rooms if they came here. I'm not sure if I'm in son S2's room or the office, probably the office I decide since there's a book shelf there.

I'm wrapping a present, it's a book, I pull off a piece of tape from the roll and it gets folder over on itself and isn't sticky any more. I pull it apart then attach it to the wrapping to the book, then pull off another piece of take and do the other side, it's not very well wrapped.

+ annoyed by noisy motorcycle, he pulls up, his wheels are shredded, sis and bro-in-law are helping him

Talking outside with sister and brother-in-law, a really loud motorcycle is riding around it's very annoying, he rides up to us and stops right next to us, I start to tell him off but I say "Hey,…" then the words catch in my mouth and I decide not to say anything more. His suit/motorcycle are blue and orange. I notice the tires on his wheels are entirely shredded, that's where all the noise is coming from. There's some rubber/left on the front wheel but on the back wheel he's riding on the bare rims basically. He mentions that he's in line at the free motorcycle repair clinic at the park but in about 50th position. My sister/brother-in-law move to help him with his wheels.

+ order a chili dog with soy sauce

In a cafeteria line, order a chili dog with some soy sauce.

+ walking up a street and see "cave paintings" outside a bar on the wall, local "Cossacks"

I think, "Where there Cossacks in B.?"

+ in a restaurant with an asian young man friend. The restaurant is packed, every table is full. He's pouring me drinks and we're drinking. Purplish drink (IWL I was in an asian-themed restaurant for dinner yesterday and had a tasty hot purple fruit/berry tea). I drink from the spout on the irregularly shaped rim of the glass and he says "if you drink from there then (….ARGH forgot what he said)," I jokingly responded "yeah that's what I'm doing". He offers to pour me some "nutrient boost?" which is also purplish, then he pours a huge amount in my glass, I'm concerned about that much, I don't want to get diarrhea.

I'm struggling to get myself in a lucid dream. That one time I was lucky, but since then the dreams have been pretty much controlling me with the occassional attempt at the end of me telling myself this isn't how I want it to end and able to change the ending slightly, but that's about it. Instead I've been having disturbing dreams.

Dream 1

Several nights ago I dreamt I had found a small snake in the house. It was red and white and I wasn't sure if it was poisonous or not. It kept striking at me as I tried to find a way to get it out the house. I then found a long stick with a hook that looked like a massive key ring on it and I found a way to hook the snake on it and then threw it outside. But the metal was strained like it had been prised open and was quite sharp, and it cut the snake into 3. I looked outside to see the tail and head still moving, the head was severely damaged and exposing muscle. Seeing it was still alive but in pain I quickly picked up a small tupperware box and put all 3 parts into it carefully, then called out to Tony saying "Tony, we're going to need to take it to a vet." We got to a vet and when I opened the box I saw 2 heads. The vet said the second head was just a ghost head and nothing to worry about. The tail had somehow reattached itself to the body but it wasn't on properly and I could see into the tail and it was hollow, the head was still moving and I could sense that the snake knew we were trying to help it so it had calmed down to let us help but it was in a lot of pain. I was starting to take control of the dream as it was coming to a close in wanting to separate the tail from the body and reattach it properly, and seconds from waking I managed to see the part where the vet had severed the tail and was now pressing it against the body to reattach it and another vet went to get some bandages to hold it in place.

Dream 2

I was playing a prank on my cousins who were back as children except for the eldest one. We were walking down a street and I was creeping up behind them as if to scare them and then hide my hands again as if I wasn't up to anything. We neared a building and my eldest cousin was in a room that was his. His sister came in knowing I needed money and said she would sell her guitar to get me some money. I told her not to do that. We went outside and saw down the street a massive alien pod that had opened up. My cousin told us all to get into a giant spaceship that sort of looked like the one in Battlestar Galactica. My mother was there too and a few other people who were related or meant something to us. When we got inside he was able to control 2 other smaller ships that were hovering around the alien pod. One looked like a giant christmas bauble and the other was a very small ship. "Let's see what this does" he said, and the huge bauble began to flash rapidly and shot multiple thick beams of white light into the middle of the pod making a very loud noise. The smaller ship began to swing around the pod and was shooting blue lazers at it. The pod began to flicker rapidly and made a loud noise as if it was charging up and the world began to shake. "Let's get out of here!" he said, and sent the ship to go upwards into space. We sailed past the moon and my cousin said "We should be safe here." I heard a loud high pitched sound coming from Earth, outside the Earth was glowing bright and then it exploded with a loud echoing bang, sending out a massive shockwave through space. I suddenly realised we would be in space for a very long time as we hadn't yet found of a hospitable planet that wouldn't take several generations to get there and we didn't have any resources like food, water or oxygen to live that long. As the dream was coming to a close I began to take control and was thinking to myself won't the shockwave shatter through the moon and still kill us or the chunks of Earth pulverise us? We're not going to avoid it, and trying to rewrite the dream as us getting as far as Jupiter and hiding behind it, but we weren't gonna get there that fast as it took a long time for man to get to the moon and Jupiter was a lot lot further away. I woke up before I could rewrite the ending to make sense.

There was a scene of spongebob playing in front of me. I forgot what happened though. After that i got lucid but i don't remember what caused it.I was on my bed and remembered i wanted to talk to Dawn in my dream.I started focusing on Dawn appearing but than all of a sudden i was pinned to my bed. I tried to get up but the invisible dc just grabbed me tighter and pushed me down, telling me it wasn't going to let me go. I waited there for a good two minutes thinking how long i could go just laying down in the dream doing nothing. But than i decided to get up and look for Dawn. "Let go of me! I need to look for Dawn!" I shouted trying to break free. The invisible dc began to laugh saying that i didn't need Dawn. I managed to break free but than i was pushed onto the floor. On the floor i saw two of my earings and one more duplicate.

Than i got up and saw that it was a girl with straight hair in a pony tail and she was the shade of blue but transparent. "Why can't you just let me see Dawn?" I asked nicely. "All i want to do is talk to him" i said. But she just pushed me to my bed and said i wasn't going to see Dawn. She than started humping me and asked me if it felt good and told me i was going to like girls now. I'm not gay though so i pushed her away and started calling for Eye but my voice started fading.

The dream than changed and i was now in a camping site with my family. I was trying to remember what i forgot back home. But when i realized what i was missing after going into the tent i realized this was a dream.

I've only been camping once and its highly unlikely that in my circumstances i would be camping with my family.I than remembered the girl and quickly appeared in my parents bedroom. But this time it was in the basement area.I suddenly felt a strong feeling. I didn't know if i should stay inside or go outside. The feeling began to move me without me even moving myself. I was unsure why but i let it take me. It took me out the window into the backyard. When i tried to go to the corner of the yard i saw a portal appear. There was a little blond boy with medium length hair taking a rock with a rope and swinging it on a bicycle. Than i heard the girl's voice saying i wouldn't get away. I imagined the scene stopping though so nothing happened to me.Woke up after that.

I think this dream represented the side of me that doesn't want to see Dawn. But oh well. I'll try again another time.

A concerned-looking woman and a businesslike man are checking in on a man who's recently been dug up from a grave - not his original one; someone else had decided to lock him up for a while. They'd been able to find him and retrieve him, but he'd needed some time to recover. The man he's staying with stops them at the door and says, "I don't know if he's ready for this yet." The businesslike man says something to the effect of "ready or not" and comes inside anyway. It's very pleasant inside - an open plan, wood paneling, lots of plants, dim lights with a slightly orange tint. There's a phonograph playing an old string quartet at a ridiculously loud volume. This is a modern setting, so the phonograph and the choice of music indicate the man who'd been buried is trying to calm himself down by turning to things from his past. The volume, as if he's trying to drown something out, implies it's not going well.

The man who'd tried to stop them at the door backs up so he's sort of standing guard in front of the door to the bedroom, but before the guests can force the issue, the man who'd been buried comes out on his own. Superficially looking completely recovered, friendly and open, neatly and formally dressed as usual - though as a disembodied observer, my first thought on seeing him was along the lines of, Was my hair really that short? What was wrong with me? Anyway, though he seems composed, he gives me the impression that it's just an act - that he's trying too hard to be his usual self.

The guests are surprised, wary, to see him seemingly doing so well, and he explains to them that so often when he's gone into the ground, he'd miss out on years, decades, centuries, and he'd expected the same thing to happen again. "Tonight I am an immortal," he says, by which he means the experience of having 'died' and returned without having missed anything, with his old life and identity still in place, "and I intend to remain that way. So I've had to squash some of my plans." The implication is that he'd spent his time buried coming up with revenge fantasies - but since it turns out he's only missed a few days, he's not going to destroy the identity and life he's constructed here just to carry that out.

23:49 bedtime

00:00 2015-01-21

A number of dreams, didn't record, still catching up on sleep

06:14

+ monitoring some countdown across parallel screens high up from the ground; they say don't eat the green pizza (I ate it anyway)

+ (f) (brother in law and sister at concert?)

+ fight! chrome-mirror armor black fins morph inside; disarm woman, partner and I fight her

It starts with a close up view of my (guy) partner's armor: I see the chest and shoulders. It is full-body plate mail that is so shiny and reflective that it looks like polished chrome. It has a lot of (blackish) wavy/frilly ornamentation/fins on it near the joints. These "fins" are a disadvantage in battle since the opponent could use them to get a grip on you. So in preparation for the battle, I observer as the armor morphs, "sucking in" the fins inside the armor and closing the gaps so that only shiny chrome remains. This happens 3-4 times.

Then the battle begins. It's me and armor-guy against a woman. As soon as the "go" signal is given I instantly bat my hand at the woman's weapon and disarm her. We are fighting on the outside of some sort multi-story structure with many different platforms of elevation. Her weapon goes clattering down to the "moat" around the structure on the ground, I jump/fly down to pick it up to make sure she remains unarmed.

The partner amor-guy is pommeling the woman and gets her "down to 3 hit points" left, at which point she inexplicably recovers and goes on the offensive.

06:18 back to sleep

06:47 can't sleep, wife's snoring/breathing loudly, get up go to kitchen, drink milk, work on laptop/chat a bit with Sensei

I'm really upset that I can't sleep. I'm missing the best REM of the day! But I start to feel tired eventually then decide to rush to bed before it gets too late. Wife is still a bit noisy and traffic is starting outside for the morning rush but I feel tired and I aim directly for sleep and I fall asleep in just a minute or so.

In fact, this may be an ideal wake/sleep pattern on days when I can sleep in. If I had tried MILD I may have had a good shot at lucidity since the dreams were fairly aware. But I was so concerned about getting to sleep that I just aimed directly for instant unconsciousness, and I nailed it.

08:27 back to bed

10:42

+ adventure with guy with power shoes who can enter pictures, I show him the power can work even without pictures

He finds these magical shoes, I'm walking around with him and look at pictures/scenes with roman-looking column work. I'm telling him that he can use the power without needing images, it's up to his imagination.

+ wife chastises son S2, he's with his GF and one guy friend, they give wife nasty look, his GF writes me a message

My son is playing a video game with his girlfriend and another friend. My wife chastises him for wasting time, they stop and come out of the room, his girlfriend gives my wife a nasty look. I receive an (email?) from her and read it, it has something like she really likes fathers that "….???…" I think about this message later on in the night and wonder if she "liked" me.

+ see son S2 in small room with another girl, playing with animals, I enter, play with animals, huge black bear outside room wearing a gas mask

I see my son S2 in a little play house in a room, with another girl, and they're playing with some animal. I go in and look at the animal (like an otter?). Then it's a sort of a dog, and I'm taking off some underwear with scratch mark/poo on it, and the dog gets its nose tangled in the underwear smelling it, and I'm trying to get it away from the dog thing when I glance to the left and THERE'S A HUGE BLACK BEAR sitting just outside the playhouse. I think "oh man I'm a goner." The little playhouse will crumple with a single touch of this massive bear's giant paws, then this huge bear will surely maul me. I see wavy like white things where the claws should be. I think of my pepper spray and start to take it out of my bag to try to scare away the bear by spraying its face, then I get a better look at its face (it's wearing a hood?), and I see IT'S WEARING A GAS MASK! Argh, there's no hope. Some point later I'm outside the play house and the bear is reduced to the size of a small stuffed animal.

+ waiting to go to toilet in middle of room, more cleaning women just keep entering, shoo them away, room bounces on waves

I walk into a room, it's a fairly large indoor room, in the middle of the room on a sort of a raised platform is a toilet. There is some writing on the closed lid of the toilet and I'm walking around the toilet to try to read it. There are also some red "alignment marks" on the closed lid, and there are matching red alignment marks on the floor. Cleaning woman come in from a staff room to the side and tells me that I need to stand on the red floor marks to use the toilet. I tell her I understand this and I'm trying to read the writing on the lid. I'm walking around the toilet waiting for the cleaning people to leave so I can pee. More and more cleaning women come in. After waiting for a while I tell them in a foreign language, "I NEED TO USE THE TOILET." Most leave to the utility room except one. I can't wait so I whip out the thang and start to go, but now I'm standing not over the toilet by in an area closer to the windows and this utility door. I imagine she may get a peek at my (ahem). It's out and I see it, longer than waking (woohoo). The entire room/building starts rocking violently up and down like it's riding on waves, and I look up and out the tall glass wall windows (dream sign) out on to a lake. I think big waves come in from that lake and cause this entire building to move like this (I don't see any waves on the lake though).

+ see stunning topless masseuse/escort walking outside going into another building, building a rug store

I'm walking outdoors towards an entrance to a fairly large high-tech style building. A woman has left a door to my left and is also heading for the same entrance as me, our paths will intersect at the door we're heading for and she's on my left. I notice she's a stunningly beautiful young lady and her top is entirely open and her lovely breasts are completely exposed. I imagine she works in a masasge/escort spa and is on break, and that she doesn't care if she's exposed.

I enter the building and a large store within the building. I glance at another naked young woman who's running by, and see her (fairly small) breasts and also her exposed v-jay. I enter an opening in a railing to the (checkout area?) of this store. I glance behind me and see a man doing remodeling work in a large enclosed store-within-the-store and think this will be a rug factory/store, and they'll have trouble because there's already another rug store in this complex.

+ altercation with annoying guy in aerobics class who taunts me

I'm in an aerobics class. The teacher and the students are all shuffling to the left, then come back shuffling to the right. I'm standing in place because I think this shuffling is stupid. I'm standing, with my legs spread out and leaning far forwards doing a stretch. The class moves around me, and some guy behind me starts taunting me about the fat around my ankles (!). I stand up and face him, he continues to insult me, and I respond with some insults to him (forgot the dialogue), at some point I push him down(?).

+ kissing a girl

Quick kiss at first, she's responsive, I go for more lips action, get lucid as I wake up moving my lips?

+ surprised by old house cleaner woman who slept on couch, enter garage girl's passed out, she's naked, I carry her to the bathroom in my arms, have some fun

I'm striding in to the kitchen of my prior adult house (I recognize the location only after waking up). As I pass the opening to the family room on the left an older woman quickly strides out of the family room into the kitchen ahead of me. She's wearing a (pink?) robe and looks like she's wearing rollers in her hair and looks like she just woke up. I'm a bit surprised/startled at her presence, I think the's the cleaning/helper woman and she must have arrived last night and spent the night. I glance to the left into the family room and notice a makeshift bed set up on a couch. We both go to the garage door and open it. Standing immediately inside the door with her face pointing to the right is some other woman. She looks stunned/woozy. She immediately falls forward flat on her face onto the ground behind the washer and dryer, she's passed out. I'm trying to pick her up. I eventually get her in my arms with her head to the left and her feet to the right.

Spoiler for sexually explicit:

I notice she's naked. I'm a bit concerned about the other woman but I get bold and forget about her and think this is a great opportunity. The woman I'm now holding seems extremely attractive, with really beautiful breasts. I cup her left breast fully in my left hand (while still carrying her) and it feels FANTASTIC, firm yet soft, amazing, I really like this. I take her to the hallway bathroom (to rouse her in the shower?) and I notice we're alone there. I'm still carrying her and standing directly in front of a large, wide, tall mirror which seems to be the shower door. Nobody has followed us, again I think this is a great opportunity, and spread the girl's legs widely and get a perfect view in the mirror. I reach down and rub her v-jay briefly, I get concerned she may wake up and remember so I stop (and cup her breasts once more?)

then wake up.

I recall only some fragments. I saw barbaric hordes running towards the beach. They were escaping from an army. I was a wizard, and entered a cavern, where our outspost was made. I was attacked by a group of barbarians, but I used levitation to escape. I flew to the upper caverns, and watched as knights appeared inside to deal with them.

A really vivid and graphic sex dream. I'm gonna skip this one.


I was buying a candy bar and some juice at a convince store in an airport.


A city had come under attack by extra-terrestrials. This was in the distant future, and they used some kind of gravity wave weapon that would slowly lift every building in the city into the sky then drop them, destroying them. Also, the wave lifted the buildings in fast pulses, often crushing the bottom most few floors.

I somehow found myself in a pet store. I was on I think the fifth floor of the building, so the pulses were pretty bad but the floor was staying together. One of the first pulses destroyed the fish tank though, and the water spilled out onto the floor.

The fast lifting pulses were spaced by ten or fifteen seconds giving me enough time to make my way across the store to where the other animals were. There were not many. There was a very fat full grown cat, a small golden retriever puppy, some kind of mole or stoat creature, and a mouse/gerbil.

I put all of the cages on the floor around me. There was a grey and white kitten, no more than a few weeks old without a cage. I picked him/her up in my arms. He/She was purring.

The dream became very emotional as I realized that I was going to die alone with these animals when the gravity wave dropped us. All of the other people in the building were killed because they were on the lower floors. The owner of the store had been killed by a falling shelf when the first pulse hit.

The pulses started getting harder and with less time in between. The windows began to crack and the supports were about to give out. I could tell that the building was over a mile up at this point, when the pulses stopped, the fall was not going to be survivable.

The pulses just stopped. I thought that I had gone into free fall. I made my way over to the window. It was nighttime out now, weird because it was daytime when the gravity wave started just a few minutes ago. I looked down and saw that the bottom four floors of the building were almost completely gone, and that I was in a meadow on top of a hill.

I looked around and there were no signs of human civilization or the aliens. I began to feel very confused about what had happened. I found another building that had been moved by the wave, with about a half dozen survivors in it. None of them were injured. I asked if they would give me a hand with the animals.


Continuing on the theme of animals, I somehow found out about this group of criminals that partook in illegal dog fights. They preformed some kind of scam where they would act like they were a cheap alternative to a vet, then take your dog into the back room and not give it back. Then re-train it to fight in the ring against other dogs.

I saw this unfolding with a young woman who approached with a medium sized white dog (I couldn't tell what breed.) Approached them. (In the back of a warehouse, come on lady, what vet holds their services in the back of a warehouse?!)

She tried to run when she realized that something was up. The thugs started to chase after her, but she ran though the back alley where they kept all of the dogs. This place was disgusting. There were dogs in cages everywhere, and they all looked starved and un-cared for. Many of them had scars or missing ears. There were a couple of corpses (both human and canine) in the alleyway and a huge pile of dog feces nobody bothered to clean up.

I somehow wound up running alongside the lady. I went to jump over a pile of dog feces when I floated several feet into the air. I realized that I was dreaming and caught myself on my flying jets.

And you had better believe that I am gonna get these crooks. I looked down at the (roughly 100) cages in the alleyway. I raised both hands and broke all the locks. All of the dogs jumped out and into the alley. They looked at me as if they were expecting me to do something. Some were barking and whining.

I held my hands up, blocking the group of dogs from view.

"I want you to go in peace. I want you to go back to your owners or back to where you think you belong in the world, and I wish you all health and happiness." The barking stopped. I lowered my hands and everyone was gone.

One of the criminals came around the corner with an handgun and started firing on me. I swooped in low, dodging his bullets, then spun around and kicked him into a pile of wooden palates. I was now in the back area of the warehouse. The other criminals could see me now, and strangely, their leader seemed to be a large white cat.

(Oh no, don't tell me this is a play on the whole cats verses dogs thing.)

Some of the goons charged me with pistols and AKs. I went back up and flew a half-circle around the camp, it consisted of a couple tents and some cars. I simply swiped most of the bad guys away, hoping I sent them somewhere unpleasant like an active volcano or the vacuum of space.

I swooped down low and destroyed their tents. I pulled back up and saw that there were a few guys still firing on me. I spun around in the air dodging them. (Don't know why though. I've tanked bullets while lucid before.) I looped up and landed right in front of the guy. He emptied the clip of his assault rifle at point blank.

I looked up at him. He was a big bald guy with round grey eyes. He looked half-asian. He dropped his weapon, terrified.

"You don't deserve to live!"

He faintly sputtered and dropped dead.

I looked to the cat. He was a large white Persian cat. I read him and saw that he was known for winning cat shows. I cursed him, telling him he would never win anything but last place in a cat show, then swiped him off to his owner.

At one point, I killed some guys by manifesting several handguns that were suspended in mid air and firing all of them simultaneously.

I looked to the last man. He didn't look as criminal as the others. He had freckles and orange curly hair. He was small and scrawny, and wore a ridiculous plad jacket. I could sense the DC's energy. He was by no means evil. I sat down next to him on the steps. He told me a short story about how how his brother got him into the group, and he always thought that they were crazy-abusive. He then said that it would be best if he left and looked for a way to amend his dark deeds as a part of the group.

...

I somehow wound up at Marcus' house. They were hosting some kind of celebration for my heroics. Manei was there and the two of them wanted to give me this really big present, but another DC who was there told me that I should wake up and not get the present. He/She gave me the dream ending feeling. I really wanted to hang on, but nothing happened.

Well screw you too, random DC.

>I was in the basement of a building with a blond Caucasian girl who looked to be 13-15 years old. We were both near a battery, she got sprayed with acid on her right hand and maybe on another part of her body then I quickly started to move her toward a sink while she didn't move on her own accord. With the water on, her hands went into the water (Either I put them in or she did) and I saw some blue on her right hand. Then, she dissolved before I realized what happened.

This is perfectly in line with a conversation I had with someone on Youtube; she was literally saying "Let's pray for someone to burn in hell" and I was attempting to correct her, it didn't look as if she accepted it. The battery acid represents Vitriol; This word means acid, and it also means harsh criticism. So, I think she was harshly criticized. She did say she was part of a "Lutheren Whanau" (what is that? I know what "Lutheran" means to some extent though.) Also note that I wasn't sprayed.

>Later, I was driving in a red 1970s Station Wagon with someone else in the front passenger seat and was looking at some people nearby at what I think was a picnic table. They were conversing about something which I believe I didn't want to conform to and I said something to them, then we drove off in the night.

Hellblazer, I/Constantine had been working with this teenage girl in the previous scene; now she's gone alone to a hospital to see her kid brother. He's in a ward with a lot of beds, and he's kneeling up on the end of his bed to talk to her. He's saying, "Is it possible that Grace is only after Constantine?" Grace is a surname - the Grace in question is a middle-aged man. And when the kid says Constantine, 'uncle' is implied. "Because he's not exactly a... us anymore." 'Us' meaning a person, a human being. I'd made one deal too many. Which has made it possible for me to be summoned up and controlled, used as a tool - that's what they suspect Grace is after.

(Woke up. Back to sleep.)

After an unsuccessful night looking for blood, I have to rely on Elsa, a sort of servant. Last resort. We use transfusion tubes to draw out the blood, to avoid any unwanted side effects on her, and I alter her mind to make it pleasant for her. I compliment her on the quality, she's changed her diet since the last time we had to do this. I'm speaking German-accented English.

(Woke up. Back to sleep.)

I'm climbing up a stairwell, climbing up through years. As I pass the platform that will lead to the 1990s, getting close to home, I hear voices up ahead. I come across a man and a woman leaning against the wall; the woman's saying, "No, it's 203. They changed the calendar - finally. I was starting to lose track."

Further up, another group having a conversation, talking about the cracks in the walls. A woman's saying, "They're glitching so bad a man could get in."

I reach my door, present day. But just beside my door, the cracks in the walls are so severe that they've formed a sort of second door - I think I could walk right through. The black sort of skittering motion that appears in all the cracks is more visible here. But the scene just before I entered the stairwell had involved accidentally intruding in a place where I shouldn't be, disrespectfully, and trying to make up for that. I decide against stepping through the cracks. I take the door to the present day.

I step out into what's meant to be an apartment where I live, distorted in a sort of cartoonish representation of hallucination, like you might see in an old music video; it seems to be underwater. Then my field of vision pulls back - now I'm looking at a screen containing an image of this room. It's labeled as a game preview. I'm aware that if I'd stepped through the cracks, the scene still wouldn't have lasted for much longer, since this is only a preview - but that's where the real storyline would begin.

(Woke up. Back to sleep.)

I've taken my clockwork heart out of my chest to work on it. I have a mental association with the Snow Queen. I'm in my workshop, full of various clockwork devices, and I'm carrying on a conversation with my apprentice. The image changes to show the subject of our conversation - a bird whose flight over the desert is taking it over a pair of dark horses at the moment. I'm saying, "It doesn't matter if the bird is clockwork or flesh and blood." Either way, it'll fly the same repetitive pattern every year.

Boy In Bag

My brother showed me into a big room filled with books and magic items around. The place felt like a bad place to be in so I told my brother that we should leave. But just as I was about to leave I noticed there were lots of items in the living room and the front of the house.As if there was a garage sale.My brother went outside than came running back to me saying that our neighbors killed a boy and left him in a garbage bag in the front." Wait. Calm down. Show me proof that there really is a dead person in that bag." I said to him. We were thinking of when would be a good time to check the bag but than the scene changed. I was in a garden now and my brother grabbed pieces of chicken from a bag and put it in my mouth. It sort of felt like we were hypnotized and acting crazy. I than heard a voice describing how the white and green anime bushes in the garden are planted next to each other to create another type of rare bush.

The feet

I was inside a school with my mom and older brother. My brother said he wanted to take pills for his head ache but I felt like he was about to take too much. The next thing I recall is going to a room where I found viking people I think. I was drawing a anime girl character for them but felt like I kept messing up the arm.When I tried leaving the room I appeared on my bed doing a WILD.

When i felt like i was inside the dream fully I started thinking of Dawn and how I want to ban him from entering my dreams. But than I changed my mind and just tried to get him inside the dream. As I was focusing though it felt like I was falling out of myself. I was thinking about how this was going to turn out to be like those OBE dreams and decided to just let it happen. But this time I would let a DC pull me and take me somewhere like in Tihiti's dream. I wanted it to be Dawn but I started thinking about how scary it would be if this dream turned out to be like the old dream I had where i wanted to see Eye but found a creepy invisible DC that reminded me about Germany and a fiction holocaust book I read. I decided to just let it be. If the DC was interested in Germany so be it.

I than felt myself being pulled and fell on the floor. The DC dragged me as I pretended to be asleep, opened my door and dropped me in front of my door.I moved so that i was on my knees and looked up a bit.At the corner of my eyes ,not looking straight at the DC,I could see a black like cloth flowing above me. Afraid I looked down and saw the feet of a light skin woman with white painted toe nails, wearing a black long skirt decorated with light blue designs. I think my mom has a skirt like the one in my dream but I can't recall. I was too afraid to look at her face so I said hello facing the ground. She said nothing though. I started regretting thinking of the Holocaust and thought what if her face was ugly,torn and bleeding or what if i made a bad connection with a evil holocaust spirit because i was too focused on it.(Fear logic lol)I than started to see blood dripping on the floor."OK. This dream is over" I thought. I than reappeared on my bed and couldn't move. After trying to think of waking up and trying to move I woke up.