non-lucid

Before the first WBTB was a pretty dry and unclear semi-lucid. I recall something having to do with an evil dream character making spikes appear and killing my cats and family. I became partially lucid, to the point of not caring because I knew for one reason or another that what was happening was not a part of reality.

-WBTB-

The second dream was really long. I remember my friend S's comic characters being involved. (But I cant give names or tell what they did at the risk of spoiling his comic. Not that I remember much of it anyway.)

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I was in a neighborhood with one of my college suite-mates. Someone started yelling that we should look at the sky because he saw a jet figher plane. I looked up and saw a small plane fly over followed by a whole squadron of big, slow moving green bombers.

Someobody was shouting that the United States was under attack by another country. The bomb bays on the planes opened and bombs started falling out. I said to my suite-mate that we should try to find a shelter or basement to hide in.

But before the bombs hit the ground they all began morphing into all of these different random things. One of the bombs turned into Santa's Sleigh. Another one turned into a Unicorn. I just remember a lot of colors, and all of the bombs-turned-random things shot off in random directions.

Somebody started getting really excited because they thought that it was the spiritual awakening where magic had returned to world, and all that they had foredcasted and all of the things that had appeared from the bombs were the changes in the world that they had brought about.

I did a nose-pinch reality check and became lucid. I told the dream character I was sorry, there wasn't some kind of spiritual awakening, but rather just my lucid dream. The dream character got really mad with me.

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I was at a train station, but there was no train tracks. This little futuristic pod came along where the train tracks should have been. The door opened indicating I was supposed to get on. But when I tried to walk in closer the door closed partway and a force field projected through it.

The voice of the DC from earlier started talking and was apparently very mad with me for ruining everything for him and telling him that it was just my dream. He told me that I wasn't allowed onto the train until I had an imagination again.

-WBTB-

The third time I fell asleep didn't yield any dreams.

Non-lucid / Lucid / Awake

#1.
I'm walking down some stairs, talking about a friend of mine. I say she's very bossy and annoying and when I look behind me, I see she has heard everything.
A little while later, the same thing happens. I talk about the same friend, say she's annoying and then I find out she's walking in front of me and has heard everything.
She takes me outside to look at an almost empty parking lot. At first I think she's gonna talk to me about what I said about her, but surprisingly enough, she doesn't. I'm mad at her but I don't know why.

.#2
I'm in a big hall, crowded with people, when suddenly Justin Bieber approaches me. I stay cool (I'm not a fan but he is pretty famous and shit) when he talks to me. He says some perverted shit and I get angry. Then he tells me he wants to have sex with me and normally, in a dream, I would agree to have sex with him but I'm still angry and tell him to go fuck himself.

#3.
I wake up in my bed and instantly know it's a dream. My bed, however, is very warm and comfy and I just don't want to get out. I look at a mirror on my desk to see if I can summon something scary because I'm in the mood for some scary stuff but it doesn't happen.
I pull my blanket over my head and just enjoy being in my bed. Then I realize I'm wasting my time in a lucid dream so I jump through the window.
The detail outside is incredible! The streets look just so real and so does the sky. I'm amazed and decide to find Castiel (from the tv show Supernatural). I approach two boys to ask them where Castiel is, but they run away. Before I can run after them I wake up.

Morning of April 24, 2015. Friday.



In a less physically defined state, I am “remembering” my completion of the most recent education progress report. Everything seems as is in reality except that I am aware I have added an mp3 file on the companion CD. It is the recording of Roger Miller’s “Walking in the Sunshine” which I heard very often in my childhood. I pause and think on this for awhile. The CD is already made (false memory) so I cannot remove it if I need to, because it begins to dawn on me that I should not have this recording in the report since I had not written and recorded it (typical goofy in-dream “logic”). Over time, I mentally “fix” this and the CD is as it should be.

I had gotten my hair done because it was New Year's Eve and I was going out with a friend. I walked into the ballroom and saw Betty White and my aunt, Laura (she's 86 and lives in another state) - she's been on my mind b/c I haven't seen her in a couple of years and I'm going to go this summer at the very latest - I went to Laura, hugged her and asked her what she was doing there. Then, I saw Mom, started to cry fairly hard as I was walking to her because I knew I was dreaming b/c I've been RCing with my parents and my sisters. I woke up before I got to her...and was so disappointed b/c I want to see my parents (who have both passed away in the last few years) in my LDs, I tried to lie still and go back into the dream but I moved and couldn't go back to sleep right away. All three ladies were in floor length gowns and all three looked very pretty. In WL, my mother died three Christmases (two days before) ago and she died from cancer and weighed 90 lbs. and was frail and in pain when she died so I have these horrible memories and I can't hardly remember all the good years - I totally enjoyed my parents. So, even if it was for just a short second, she looked beautiful and healthy and I'm grateful to have seen that.

Dream 2

I don't recall what happened during non lucidity but something happened that made me lucid.
After that I became Lucid and started walking around a huge facility where there were military figures.But I didn't want to be there so I went somewhere else and started thinking about the book I was reading "The Diary Of Anne Frank". I started thinking about the place they were hiding in, how many people must have died, and became scared i might connect with something demonic. (I doubt demons can read minds unless they go inside of you though...That would be pretty unfair.) Its one of my fears anyways so i started thinking about it and suddenly I walk up to a metal silver door that has a small rectangular opening to the side of the door. I try looking through it a bit and see nothing but darkness and can feel the presence of something dreadful inside. I get scared and decided to move away from the door when suddenly I appear on a bed in a room.

To my surprise when I sit up there is a head of a girl attached to my stomach. I slide off and try to get the head off me but than I feel an intense pain in my stomach that makes me bend over. It hurts me too much even if its a dream. Its like having an intense period pain but in my stomach which is the best way I can describe it. I try to get my mind off it but than it feels like someone is stabbing me with full pressure into my stomach. I pray a little thinking about how I may have made a mistake in my way of thinking and wake up just after mentioning something bad about the dream.

After waking up I thought about the dream a bit and wanted to overcome the fear that I had. I wanted to see the good side to the story. After all the girl and family didn't seem like a horrible family in the diary. They sounded like normal people.

Dream 3

I was non lucid inside a school cafeteria with little kids watching them. One of them asked me if i wanted the silver chocolate coins I had. I said she could have it but when she opened it to our surprise it was empty. I walked to another nearby table after that and saw a little girl laying down on the table. I told her to get off the table but than she started looking more and more attached to the table as she laughed with the other kids.

After that I started thinking of how I wanted to see Dawn and appeared in a pretty looking wooden house. I began climbing up the steps thinking about him and began to glow really bright with white light surrounding me. I than started looking more like Dawn as I walked up the steps and had a long sword to my left side. I held onto the sword and began thinking about how good i was doing that I wasn't letting my fear of demons get to me. When i reached the top I saw a huge caterpillar type of monster flying in the air. I was thinking of how crazy it would be if it was a parasite but wasn't willing to fight it.

I backed up in the room I was now in and looked as a black/yellow caterpillar type thing flew in from above and started to swallow or grab onto the other green caterpillar. I was intrigued by the situation but than I appeared near a school [Maybe the recess spot or back of the school] in the snow not lucid. There were kids and parents who had finished exiting the school and were having fun playing in the snow. After I was looking around I decided to rush home through the snow because I didn't want to waste time just looking around since there was nothing for me to do there.

But too quickly I appeared inside my older brother's room with my cousin. She turned the t.v. on and I told her to turn it off because I wanted to watch my show on the laptop. Than after i turned around I appeared inside my parent's bedroom sitting in front of the t.v.There were people dancing on the t.v. and I thought it was Family Ties cast dancing on it. I saw the volume go down and turned to see my cousin. I got mad at her and told her to put it back up. She put it back up, reluctant at first and than everything in the dream disappeared but a old looking somewhat burnt paper popped up.

I realized I was in a dream than and was about to wake up but took the time to read the red sentence on the old looking paper. It said something about finding Wifely's thin cloth. I kept guessing for a bit and when I was satisfied I woke up.

Now that I think of it I probably woke up because i thought it was the end of the dream but I could have probably changed it. Oh well, it was the last dream so it probably wouldn't have lasted long. I also felt a reassuring feeling because I didn't let my fears get to me in this dream. Since

Raphael from TMNT has a pet pigeon with great intelligence. He is out walking on the streets of New York with the pigeon in a cage, precariously balancing on his shell. Now before they had left Donatello had put a bird cage on Raph's to mess with him and to maybe get him to shut up when he was complaining back at the layer from being bored. Raph was annoyed but for some reason never took the cage off his head. He did continue to complain about being bored because of there being no trouble in the city. The pigeon chirped or whatever in response, making subtitles pop up saying its response. " ....... ... is over zaless [or zailence or some word with a zay sound in the beginning]"

"I know what you mean." Raph responded.

I watched as they walked around the corner, Raphael continued talking. "You see that melon on the corner it could've been a .......... POW!"

He repeated that sentence but ended it with a SPLAT instead.

I was in a forest. I was with some people. Then there was only me and a woman. We had sex. After that, I walked away and kept thinking if I used a condom or not and hoped that I did. I felt regret as I walked away.

Notes:

- Slept at around 10:30 a.m., woke up around 3-4 p.m.
- Was awake for over 24 hours.
- Had a lot of coffee.
- Met with a potential tenant replacement.

Morning of April 23, 2015. Thursday.

Dream #: 17,657-02. Reading time: 2 min 15 sec.



My sleeping dreaming mind is separate from my unconscious mind (and over twenty years of memory) in an altered version of Loomis Street. Instead of Marilyn dying recently (though she did not die while living at Loomis Street), it is about 1978. My brother-in-law Bob’s appearance matches that time. I am in their house, sleeping on the floor in the south room, with my head west near the windows. The bathroom is more like the bathroom of our present home. When I am in the bathroom, I vaguely recall my identity.

I am building a new foundation of instinctual dreaming practice (to deliberately enhance my dreams). I have placed about one and a half inches of blue electrician’s tape on the door vertically, on the right side above the doorknob at eye level. I test it by going close to make sure the tape center is at eye level. It may produce more personal and vivid dreams. I adjust it by sliding it around on the door like a magnet, which would be impossible. I vaguely think about my brother-in-law questioning why I put it there, but he does not. He passes me in the small hallway. I want to make sure it remains in place. If it does not, there is the concern that my next dreams will be less expressive of my desires. There is also something to the left of the blue tape (near the middle and at the same height). I am unsure of what it is. It seems like metal, related to the tape strip’s function.

Later, I am again lying on the floor to rest. There are many miscellaneous objects near my blankets, near cardboard storage boxes. I start thinking about why I did not go to Marilyn’s funeral. It seems strange I did not go, like lost time. It seems related to how only a few people (mostly female relatives) went. Perhaps her husband did not go. It does not enter my imaginary dream self’s erroneous mind that I did not go because I live in Australia.

While settling on the floor to sleep, I notice big ants close to the wall, near my head. There are also at least two big ants near my feet. I trap those under a Lego brick. I crush a few others, and none of them get close enough to bite. I slowly wake in the position I had been in my dream. My waking-life memory and identity slowly return, and I feel relieved and happy about being with Zsuzsanna.

My dream’s dynamics stem from a lesser urge to wake and use the bathroom, but the ants finally increase my attention to contemplate where I am, getting me to think more about where I am sleeping, and my emerging consciousness activates. Ants coming out of an anthill is an analogy to emerging from the dream state.

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The rest stems from instinctual dreaming and dynamics to prevent associations with waking life. Because thinking skills are not viable in subliminal space, there is confusion. I mix several concepts into an amalgam. The amalgam includes a loose association with my use of a cassette TAPE to script dreams. That distorts into electrician’s tape. It is additionally confused with the stickiness of magnets. A door isolates the imaginary dream self from conscious identity but can be used to exit the dream or vivify and sustain it.

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Dream journal

I was reading through dream journals list. One of them caught my attention. It was a dream journal of a russian dude. I felt that it has all the informations I'll ever need, and something told me that I should read it. His entries were built from brief descrition, and content of the dream placed in a spoiler. I looked at one of the entries.

Description was in English language, and it said about his preparation for the dream. Opening the spoilers I saw only some cyrillic letters. I opened a translator in a second window, and tried to translate it. When I typed it, I received more text in cyrillic as translation. I closed the spoiler, and tried to read another of his entries.

Description in the entry was made of three cyrillic letters, and the spoiler was empty. I looked through the list of his entries, and got only confused. I closed the browser and turned my laptop off. I looked through the window. It was midnight, I couldn't see anything.

Suddenly I spotted a shape looking from the outside, through the window. It just stood there in place, without making any moves. I felt it's gaze upon me, but I wasn't afraid. I closed the blinds on the windows, and took a lantern out of my pocket.

Then I could see the room I was in. It had wooden floor, and cracked concrete walls. In the middle of the room there was a table with my laptop placed on it. The table looked like it's going to collapse. There was no chair, or anything else in the room.

I couldn't see the door, the window was only way out of the room. I opened the blinds, and then opened the window. I went out of the room, and the shape appeared again.

Wasted Earth

I was inside a crypt. I was working with an expedition to discover secrets of a forgotten civilisation. I was searching for rock slabs that covered knowledge about it's past. I've found one, and took it to one of the researchers - an old man with long, grey beard and grey hair. He told me that they received an information about placement of one of the slabs, and gave me electronical device similar to PDA.

I went out of a crypt I was inside before, and looked around. The world was highly devastated. Toxic gases filled the air, I could see green clouds on the seeimngly dark brown sky. I could breathe normally though. The soil was barren, and there were only a few oasis where any vegetation could survive. I could see distortions over the horizon, and then I've received a message from researchers that I should move quick, as a huge heat wave was coming.

I had no weapon or protective suit. My only chance was to get quickly to the place where slab was seen, and get back as quickly as I can. I moved on. The air became more dry over the time, and distortions over the horizon were getting stronger.

Going through dry river valleys and entering a plateau of barren land I looked at all the skeletons scattered around. They must've died in one sudden event. Suddenly I spotted an oasis in the distance. It covered a hill and a valley. It wasn't too big area. Seeing that heat wave was getting much stronger, I ran towards it.

I got into the oasis just in time. I saw that heat wave gathered enough strenght that soil started to burn. The anomalous heat wave haven't had any effect on the oasis though. I looked at the sky. Dark brown colour transisted smoothly with red and orange.

I sat on the ground. Looking on the PDA-like device I saw that the slab is Then I heard someone cursing at the sudden heat wave. I went there, and saw a man in blue protective suit. It was reinforced, and some mechanisms were added to make it more of a protective exoskeleton. The man wasn't wearing helmet. He had dark hair and brown eyes. I started the conversation.

- What's going on?

- Man!? Where have you been for past few months?

*silence*

- Alright then. Any other questions?

- Where did you get that protective suit?

- Found a few kilometres away from this oasis. It belonged to a dead mercenary.

- Who killed the mercenary?

- You should ask what killed him. Beasts. Horrible creatures adapted to live in this hostile environment.

- What can you tell me about those beasts?

- Probably there are many species of them, but we know about only a few. Example of them can be sliders. They have strong exoskeleton, and razor-sharp teeth. When chasing their prey, they slide on the ground. They are dangerous alone, and if you can meet group of them - good luck. The second beast you need to know about are bone breakers. They don't attack you, and their meat seems to be edible. You must be carefull when hunting them, as they have muscular limbs, able to break femur without using their full capabillities.

- How can they survive in the heat?

- Sliders dig holes and hide deep in the ground. When heat waves are over they wait for a prey to walk over the hole. Bastards can feel you coming from long distance. Bone breakers live close to caves, but they also visit oasis from time to time. Deep in the cavernous lakes they are safe from heat. You must also know about more dangerous species. Two most dangerous beasts are predators and wild horns.

- I guess predators are the most dangerous?

- Nope. Predators are weak, and live only in upland regions, where they can find suitable for them conditions. Their only strenght is their speed and powerful limbs. They can tear your limbs apart. Wild horns are the most dangerous beast you'll ever encounter. The mercenary belonged to a group that was attacked by one wild horn. The beast's exoskeleton is stronger than any other substance found in the Wastelands. Eyelids of the beast are protected by transparent layer of this substance when eyes need protection. Bastards can survive strongest of heat waves. When they see their prey, they shoot horns out of their backs. The rain of high speed horns made of strong, sharp substance can go through any armor. This was the only armor that was in quite good state. I had to throw away the helmet, as one of the horns hit the mercenary in the head. I have a helmet in my stuff, ready to be put on when going out of the oasis. Anyway, what are you doing here?

- I was sent to recover a slab.

- You mean this? I took it from dead mercenaries. Why do you need it?

- I help researchers of forgotten civilisation. I need to give it back to them.

- And they've sent you on suicidal mission for a slab? Nevermind, take it.

I take the slab in my hand, and put it in a backpack. I ask.

- Why did you cursed at the heat?

- I wanted to move on, when it stopped me from getting out of this place.

- Why do you want to leave the oasis?

- It's too peaeful in here, people just can't live without their problems.

*I'm surprised that I could recall such amount of dialogue. All I remembered in the morning were brief moments. By trying to recall more of the dream a few times this day, I was able to recover some lost information about the dream.*

I wasn't really interested in my dreams tonight but I'm just going to write a bit about the last dream.

I was with a group of people in an unknown room. Maybe it was a classroom. I took a look at my hands and the tips of my fingers were turning a bit blue. A guy who I considered to be a close friend and older than me told me that he would heal it for me. When I looked at my hands they were turning purple now but than the guy put some weird tiny sea creatures that looked like eels on the tips of my fingers. He told me he had finished healing me and than someone announced that we had to hurry up or we wold be late for the wedding. A girl who I know was present and mentioned that we were lucky to go to Las Vegas to be married and that she wanted to go with us. I said she could and on our way to the plane I saw a box filled with delicious candy. I stuffed my mouth with sour gummy worms but it was so chewy so i spit t back out.

Than we entered the air plane which was a private plane. "Do I really want to go to Las Vegas now?" I thought to myself while looking around. Someone had asked if the plane was safe to the pilot and he said " Of course its safe! Haven't you ever heard of time dilation!? I do it all time." This scared us so we decided not to take the plane with the pilot. We left and were now at a strange tunnel with stone tiles and people walking around. I couldn't find the guy I was suppose to marry than realized that i couldn't because it was just a dream. I ended up seeing a old friend around and just for fun told her it was a dream. She looked at me unsure than just kept walking away. After that I decided to go to a different scene. A tropical island scene. So I went through the walls and imagined myself jumping into a tropical island.

The island appeared and i could see what looked like water rides all around the island. Cartoon people that looked like they were from "The Wild Thornberrys" show were sliding on the rides. I wanted to go inside the water but my butt was stuck in the other part of the dream scene. I did my best to let my mind go and managed to free myself and was swimming inside the water really fast. I ended up in a huge undersea stone building with some modern technology in it though. To make matters worse a red shark appeared out of now where. It looked so real in form that i didn't want to get near it. So I kept swimming away from it and ended up in a really tall tower where I kept swimming around and up. Than I appeared back inside the room where a gray shark was. But it disappeared quickly as soon as i thought about how I already dealt with the other shark. I than noticed a guy who looked Indian cowering beside a computer down below. I felt sorry for him than swam for a bit and woke up.

BTW I took the google Earth Day quiz today and it turns out i'm a cuttlefish. xD Who knew.

Non-lucid
I watched an overweight teenage girl have an eating contest with a young boy while I was on a cruise ship.

I was in a school of sorts, but outside. We were practicing parkour. There's a yellowish building/clock tower, with a blue sky as a backdrop. The kind of blue that seems unnatural though. Jem was there. I was training with beginners but I moved to the advanced training.

Notes:

- Slept at around 2 am, woke up at around 8:30 due to alarm, slept again till 10:46 a.m.

Tonight definitely wasn't favorable. I could only remember fragments of dreams, and as such I won't give any titles.

I was trying to get something from a doctor because either I or someone else I knew was sick. We were in this park under a tree. I was also with my grandma.

I was walking back towards my house. I found this woman who seemed like a family member, so I hugged her. I then remember that sometime later I was walking elsewhere, and my destination was across the street. But because there were no intersections from where I was, I walked backwards from my destination to one so I could get across the street. While there, my brother appeared at the other side of the street, where I was before, and threw something at me.

I was at a party, and they were serving drinks. There were lots of men and women partying. There was an area of the place that wasn't very lit up, and I was walking around there. I then walked across a hallway and was looking around rooms. There were people doing various things in there that I can't remember.

Mail Game

My family and I were a city, not a big one, more like a medium sized one and were passing by this large maze shaped thing. The entrance to it was like an entrance to a rollercoaster while the exit was a game on a board with poppers. The whole thing was a dark rusty color and had dead roaches and other insects on it wit dust/dirt coating the whole thing. It was so familiar I didn't understand why though or how. Until my mom asked if I remembered it, she said that it was the old game I used to play at my Aunt's house.

And as if that was the magic word, my aunt walked out from behind the thing and greeted us. Not sure why I thought she was my aunt, she didn't like any of m aunts (at least not like any of the ones I've met or seen pictures of). She was in either her late twenties or early thirties, her hair was dark brown and reached down to her shoulders all wavy. She even seemed nicer than most I've met too.

She also talked about how I would play this game, and even asked if I wanted to play. Curious as to what made the game so fun or what it was about I nodded. My aunt pointed to the entrance and told me that's where I start. I ran over and entered through the wooden archway.

Inside it was like a huge little neighborhood and the game was you were a mail truck, delivering mail throughout the town but you had to do so on time. There was many obstacles. I got to the halfway point and stopped to just look around, it seemed bigger now. I walked over to a shelf that closely resembled a tree. A bright blue bird hopped around on it, I raised my hand and set it in front of the bird. At first the bird did nothing but chirp but soon hopped onto my finger; I smiled. I've never held a bird before and this one was so cute! It was just a ball of fluff with a tiny beak and legs.
Sadly it flew away at a strange sound, I frowned and ducked under the branches and walked back into the open. I walked the rest of the way to the end where the popper game was at the exit. It sorta grossed me out since in some of the slots on the table were dead roaches, though the others did have poppers, it didn't help.

When I left the game a tall man in a dark blue suit approached my aunt and offered to buy the game from her. She glared at him and refused, it appeared this man had tried this before and my aunt was not happy to see him. They spoke back and fourth for a bit, I didn't quite catch what all they said, but I remember hearing my aunt say.

"I put new books in there for the kids...."

And other stuff on how she replaced old stuff in the game with new. She pointed to the entrance where two kids came out to wave at them. Then when my Aunt looked back at the business man she said one other thing and marched up the hill in anger to her mansion. The last we saw of her was when she slammed the front door shut behind her. I just watched in silence, unsure if I should do something or not.

The business man looked at the kids in the entrance and at me, then he perked up. "that's it! we can make a 'mail city' game!" and with that he ran to the mansion.

Shadow Star

Wires shot out of a large 8 pointed star and either wrapped around or attached to Shadow, yanking him to the machine. Shadow yanked one arm free, breaking the wire and did the same with his other arm. So at first it seemed like he was the one being attacked but since I was powerless I just stood by the car and watched. But then the next thing I knew Shadow was the one controling the starbot. Now the star was black like him with streaks of red on the points. He began the destruction of the village.

I ran off to warn people, so I went to the most populated place in a nearby running distance...the mall. When I got there I tried to warn people or maybe get help, but nobody was listening to me. Everybody was just talking amongst each other and shopping for overpriced stuff as usual.

When I spotted my friends I thought for sure they would listen to me, but when I tried to tell them they wouldn't listen either. I walked alongside them trying to tell them for twenty minutes, but all they talked about was the clothes here. I rolled my eyes and told them I get the same clothes over half the price less than the clothes here. Though I must admit I got a little side tracked when we passed a cute strapless black dress that was sparkly on the top and just solid black on the bottom.

When the dress was out of sight I tried again once to tell them but gave up and ran off. If nobody was gonna listen to me I was gonna have to stop Shadow myself! But then I ran into one of my friend's mom and talked to her at the other end of the mall. Again, just talk about clothes at the mall and the prices.

I was getting annoyed with this and cut the conversation short by running from her, trying to get outside so I could somehow stop Shadow from destroying the place!