non-lucid

-(Dream from two nights ago) I'm in the hallway of a building near the ocean. I sit down at this abandoned table and chair. There's food on the table. It's leftovers from someone's meal. I find that there's still some edible food. Particularly, there's mayonnaise (possibly mustard as well). At one point I'm outside the building. It's nighttime. There's exercising equipment outside the building on a cliff. I think that it's not safe to use because someone might get me. I walk into the building, which has doors that slide open.

-I'm at my home in the hood (dream sign) with my mom and some other people. I'm about to participate in a go kart race with some of them, and my mom is hoping I'm the blue ranger. Unfortunately, one of the other people is the blue ranger and my mom is disappointed. We're wearing lacrosse helmets. My mom takes out an inflatable hammer and starts smashing mulberries in a very anime-esque fashion (like she jumps up in the air and swings the giant hammer down). I definitely have a memory of a looping something, either a track or the design of the karts.

-I'm with my work buddy (i've been wondering why he hasn't been in my dreams even though I see him all the time), and we're going to this school. I have a mohawk, which at one point I am trimming with my razor. I look in the reflection of the window on a bus, and I see myself. I look really feminine, and I'm shocked, thinking "dang I really could be mistaken for a girl". I'm not sure if my arms are skinny I think they are. I'm wearing some sort of loose tank top. I think it's mainly my eyes and facial structure that look feminine. My mohawk is baller tho and I'm trimmin some hairs that are comin out the middle (and falling down in a feminine way). I think this is odd, because my partner's gay and I'd expect him to be more feminine than me. I might also have a skeleton/skull tattoo. (At one point we're together walking through a crowd looking for a teacher). I wonder if my second grade teacher will be scared of me when she sees me. I step into the bus after my partner, Pickles. I step past the bus driver (Pickles is sitting in the front seat I think on my right). I tell Pickles that I'm leaving to go back to the school and ask him if today's his last day (if he's ever gonna be coming back to the school). He says something like he's not leaving yet, but this will be his last chance to visit the school. He gets out of the bus with me. We enter the school and have to go through security (like there is in the gym here). It's supposedly after visiting hours but a plump black lady past security swipes her after hours card and says it's ok for us to come in. (Pickles had first tried to go through security but failed). He now swipes his id on his left and goes through. I swipe mine right afterwards and go through as well. There's a little checkin/checkout black leather wallet type thing (like in the engineering lab), and Pickles puts his id in and signs ins. I follow behind him, put my id in, but don't sign in. We begin to go down an escalator.

-I'm walking in the grass to go to a restaurant (or a basketball event?). I see my wallet lying in the grass. I pick it up and realize how lucky I am to have come across it after apparently dropping it the previous day. I put it in my right pocket and continue walking on the grass. There's some sidewalk on the grass, so I start walking on that. It takes me to a locker that's in the side of this rocky cliff face. There's some pencils there on the ground. I think that they may belong to whoever owns this locker, but since they're just lying on the ground it would be morally all right for me to just take them. I pick up 3-5 pencils. Maybe not immediately after but soon after I'm putting things in my backpack. I'm having difficulty fitting everything in. I actually put my gym bag, which is larger than my backpack, into my backpack. Once I'm satisfied everything fits appropriately, I continue walking on the grass toward my destination.

-I'm at Fire in the Rain cafe. I'm waiting in their lobby. It's dark. I've apparently brought too white tables with me as well as a roll, which I begin eating. Ahead of me and to my right I can see a receptionist. A black lady helps me fit blankets on a bed (which the tables have now become), but she is eventually replaced by my mom. She's on the side near the receptionist and fits one corner of the sheet around the bed, and I fit the ones on my side. She makes a comment about the sheet already ripping, and I think about how I don't care if its ripped or not. I then see her and my dad sitting next to a bed. With a window behind them. There's light shining through the window as well as some see throughish white curtains.

-I'm with another person outside at this car lot. There's some sort of elevator coming out of the ground. There's also an ox that my friend is trying to anger or at least get its attention. It's not an ordinary ox though. I think it looks a little crazy. It eventually moves near the elevator, which I am also near. I ready myself for fighting it.

-I'm a sniper with a team of CIA agents (I didn't write this one down in my dj but I'm just now remembering it. Of all the dreams to not write down...), and we're trying to take down this group of bad guys in a building. I'm on top of a building across from it, and I see a woman? I begin firing. At one point I move down to the ground.

-My old roomie, Mr. Potato Head is singing a song about my sister. I tell him he needs to shutup and get pretty angry at him. I may shout some profanity.

-I'm in a car with my brother driving. We're in traffic and he's going really fast. I think my sister may be around because I have the feeling she's gonna get mad at him for driving so recklessly. I think there's a timelimit for when we have to arrive wherever we're going so that's why he's driving fast. He's pretty skilled and we eventually arrive somewhere. My mom is inside and my brother and I have to choose an appropriate screw from a wide assortment. I think I leave afterwards because I have to get to an exam?

-(unintelligible writing in my dj) "Someone's birthday restaurant c'mon"

Fragments (mostly from previous nights):
-I'm outside in a flowery garden. There's a white fence. There's an old shack. I believe my violin teacher is within. I go in and may talk to some people. I'm walking out at some point.
-Working out in this gym. Really futuristic looking. Leave and come back. There's a poster on the ground that I pick up.
-It's night time in a deserted seaside town. I'm walking around. I think relatives are visiting soon.
-It's raining and I'm exploring some sewers. I may be running from someone.
-I'm swimming in this tank with a shark. Eventually we become friends and we swim around the tank together.
-I'm with my mom at Ikea? (last night)

Last night I probably had the worst dream recall I've had in weeks. The only thing I remember, was that my parents got my sister and I these Nintendo DS's, though they were just GBAs wrapped in some case. We got a couple of games, related to Wario. I was with them at a restaurant at some point. I remember playing some game with a bomb, with my sister. I was nervous that my parents spent to much money on these.

I was brought to a basement where I met the Shipwright Tom and watched as he started building a shelf on this wall in this danky room. I was excited, as I think I knew I was in a dream and was going to tell HorseLime that I got to meet him. He was doing a terrible job, and commented on how he overdid it earlier. He grabbed one piece of wood and, though it was jagged and curved in most spots, it wasn't in one, completely ruining the shelf. He told me to search for a game. I found a game boy color game, with kirby on it (black and white), mixed in with "DS" games (they looked like GBA games).

My boss was telling me about risc, which is a reduced instruction set computing, but he was talking about it in something related to javascript, and how it was reduced complexity. I was sitting there, and he talked for like an hour. Another person, #507-7414, was there. My boss said if anyone needed to leave they could. #507-7414 said thank god, laughed, and left. Another guy came. Boss said its time to work, but the guy didn't have a shift today. The boss just revised schedule and now he did.

There was a preying mantis around this bumble bee. It was cute, because the mantis and the bee would be chilling at the restaurant and around the school together. However, one night, the mantis and the bee were on top of my roof, which was glass, so I could see them. The bee was being very jittery, and the mantis was throwing its hands down, as if in frustration. Then the mantis all of a sudden used its sharp claws to cut the bee’s head off and the mantis ate it.
From then on, I was afraid of the mantis and dreaded seeing it around the school. It’s eyes would follow me. Somehow, my mom caught it in a shoe box, and I stomped on the box until I thought it was dead. I thought I saw it roll away from under the box, but my mom assured me it was dead. Then, I was on the roof near my biology teacher, who was waiting to head down the stairs to her class. I asked “Afraid of the mantis?” She was. She was happy to find out that I had killed it.
We were building a house with screen, and we found another mantis. I was trying to explain to my Papa Harry that there were way too many holes in the screen of the door, and the mantis would be able to get it. It got in. And I jumped over the fence from my grandpa’s house to my house. It waited for a while, but it started to follow me. I would jump over the fence time after time. Then, the mantis turned into this muscular humanoid, kinda like the green lantern. Somehow, that was less scary, and we went over to talk to it. Apparently, it hadn’t been chasing me. It had been attracted to scents certain people were spontaneously making on each side of the fence, such as farts (yeah…I know).

Date:2st of June.
Total sleep: Unknown.
Daytime Techniques: Awareness, mantras, rc's, WBTN/DEILD.
Lucid Techniques: Memory, stabilizisation, sight, attempts.
Recall Techniques: DJ, tags.
Fell Asleep: Unknown.
Dream Title: The prophet.
Dream: This dream was strange, but great at the same time. I wont even try to explain the dream in chronoligical occurence. I will list the things i can remember, here we go: I start out at road, and i find a girl. I dont really think, i just act on instinct. I have however had this dream before, or atleast a similiar one. I put her on my back, and start walking. Now onto the events that happened after: -Me and the girl arrive at a restaurant, i put her in a seat and start talking to some of my friends. We eventually leave, but i notice something strange. Whenever i am not holding the girl, my gravity is messed up! -At this point i am lucid, and i try my best to ''fix'' the gravity, i eventually get it down and now i have normal gravity! I was super stoked over this, since gravity was one of my short-term dream goals! -I am in a car graveyard, i spot fredriksten festning. I look at the ground and at fredriksten. It feels strange having a dream this vivid and clear, and being lucid. -Me and the girl try our best to swin through some kind of water challange. -Me and the girl mow down some guy fighting a few kids. -Me and the girl arrive at stonehenge-like place with a mean looking guy in the middle, i realize the girl is some kind of prophet needed to beat this man. We scare him off and move on. Eventually we meet the same guy again, we defeat him using the girls powers. At this point the dream messes itself up, and it becomes some kind of pixelated jump game. Throughout this entire dream i woke up, and fell asleep MANY times.
Awake: Unknown.
Vividness: 10
Awareness: 10
Length: 10
Emotions/feelings: Happiness, temptation, success,
Dream Signs: Games, my city, friends, roads.

I am on the set of some Aliens /Dr Who / Star Trek mash up. Although we are all actors being filmed we are battling aliens for real. Eventually they over power us and we all die. After this we all get together and blame the screen writer who is more interested in $$$ than bothering to write an ending to the film for us…

Then I am alone and I am thinking sadly about all the teens watching the movie as their first date film, and recalling on their 75th wedding anniversary how pathetic their first date was. Then I remember my school ball decades ago, which I was not present at and was home watching the ‘Breakfast Club’ instead and feel sad I will not have an anniversary to share with anyone.

Next the really insightful dream…
I am in a stream of people walking in single file. We are walking the years of our life. Everyone is all stern and marching purposeful. I look down at my feet and delight in the feel of ocean sand between my toes. Then I get a close up of the sand squishing between my toes. I am totally amazed that all the grains of sand are completely beautiful miniature shells all the colours of the rainbow. They are all different and all are completely perfect. We are all walking on these perfect wee shells, but everyone else has their own pressing agendas and no one else cares. I feel at home.

The back of my car is packed full of random things. Behind the passenger seat is a stack of about 20 books. A few of the books are about lucid dreaming; two are about kids growing up with out a mom or a dad. My stepdad is here and I want to tell him about the books about the kids but realize it might be awkward since he grew up without a mother. He does notice the dream books and tells me he thinks I've been doing drugs in order to have lucid dreams.

Date:20th of june.
Total sleep: Not sure.
Daytime Techniques: RC's, dream yoga, awareness.
Lucid Techniques: Memory.
Recall Techniques: DJ, lying in bed remembering.
Fell Asleep: Unknown
Dream Title: The magical ring.
Dream: I am in a tower. It is a long way down in a spiraling staircase. I am a lower ranking person of sorts. I go outside the house, i find a lake, and i dive downwards into it. I find 2 silver rings, a green ring, and a gold ring. The green ring can crush anything that is hit by it, into a thousand pieces. The gold ring makes me invisible. The silver rings are just pretty/valuable. With closer inspection, i find that the tower is my house, just very altered, and that the outside with the lake, is simply my yard, slightly altered.
Awake:Unknown.
Vividness: 9
Awareness: 2
Length: 4
Emotions: Surprise, temptation.
Dream Signs: My house, magic.


Dream Title: The cluttery mess of the long-road city.
Dream: This dream was an INSANE mess, with parts of the dream scattered in my memory, and the dream constantly evolving and changing. I start out in the normal world, it seems like my ''person'' in the dream grows. Eventually i am somehow teleported to a different universe, the universe in new or something, since i am much higher ''level'' (level 13 to be exact) than everybody else. My friends were baffled how i was oneshotting every enemy. I eventually tell my friends in the new universe how i am actually from a different place. It seeems the new universe does not have the word remove or anything similiar. I was very popular in the old universe, but now i have to rebuild my relationships. I see a beautiful girl, we start flirting for a bit. She then takes something that is mine and run off (cant remember), i chase her and pin her to the ground. I give her a long kiss. I get up and jump over the brushes, i gain lucidity (actually i may have been lucid earlier, cant remember). I look at my hands for a second, and try to feel the ground. However i quickly lose lucidity since i was not paying attention. I end up in a house, where some man brutally murders this girl i knows' familiy. He doesn't kill me or her, however. We give him some eggs, and he passes out somehow (did i hit him?). We escape upwards using bikes
Awake:
Vividness:
Awareness: 1-9
Length: 9
Emotions: Happines, disgust, temptation, pride.
Dream Signs: My city, friends, games, supermarket.

Dream fragments/parts of the dream i cant pinpoint: -I am biking with a large group of my friends.
- I am in car
- I buy GoT in a supermarket.

Dream #1
I was standing on the tarmac of a small, mountaintop airport waiting to board a 6 seated plane. There was a man, whom I assumed was the pilot helping the few of us on the plane. He wore a WWII styled US Army hat (the kind they would wear in boot camp), the drab olive Army fatigues pants, and a deep red Hawaiian shirt. His beard, though cut really short, was nearly all gray. He had an unlit, 3/4 smoked cigar in the corner of his mouth.

The door to the small plane was at the rear of the craft. It opened, rather than from the rear midsection of the plane, from the back toward the side (hard to explain, this is more for me to remember I guess). I thought it was an odd configuration since the props were on the back of the plane as well and we were walked around the blades to get into the plane. My seat was in the back right next to the door, oddly just across from where the pilot's seat was.

Once we all got on, the pilot latched the door closed, took his seat and started up the plane. We taxied to the runway, he spooled up the engines and we took off. I got really nervous when the attack angle started to rise above what I have normally experienced (it was damn near 90°, if not more!). I looked over at the pilot and he seemed unphased by the weird angle, which made me feel better and I just assumed that it must be normal for props that push the plane rather than pull it.

After having that though, I suddenly felt gravity tugging on me. So much so that it moved me from my seat and pushed me against the door of the plane. I heard a click and the door flew open. I quickly grabbed onto the back of the seat that I had been sitting in and held on for dear life. My heart in my throat, I looked at the pilot, as if silently pleading for him to do something. He took one look at me and said, "Alright... Hold on a second. I'll take care of it." He seemed really calm, which confused me a little.

The next moment I was standing in a small mountain village with everyone that was in the plane. The pilot was making suggestions as to what we could do there and reminded us that we would have to continue on with wherever we were going in an hour. He also said that he would leave without us if we were late.

Dream #2
I was buying an old beat up truck. SM was with me. After the purchase, I was driving it home. We reached an intersection and stopped at the red light. I was watching the left turn traffic in front of me move when their light turned green. There was a gray Honda Accord looking car that had just broken it's turn when a white BMW looking car passed me in the lane next to me, obviously running the red light. The white car attempted to skirt around the gray car, but failed when it struck the gray car. Both cars stopped. My light turned green and I moved to drive around the accident. As I passed the white car I saw Geraldo Rivera looking back and me. He was shrugging at me as if he was trying to say, "Help me out. You saw what happened." At first I was just going to ignore it, but I figured that Geraldo is kind of a douchebag, so I will help the other guy out. Yeah... I saw what happened alight.

The white and gray car moved to the side of the road. I turned around and parked my new, beater truck behind the gray car, which was parked behind the white car. I got out of my truck and headed passed the gray car. This is when the driver of the gray car got out of his car. He was kind of staggering around. I grabbed him by the shoulders and asked him if he was OK. He looked at me and I instantly knew him. It was WL, but he didn't seem to recognize me because we haven't seen each other since I was in my late teens.

I was totally surprised by this turn of events and I asked him if he recognized me. He seemed really confused and said that he didn't. I walked him over to the curb and sat him down. I asked him again if he was sure that he didn't recognize me. I just shook his head. I sat on the curb next to him, which is when I had the thought that he was drunk or high. He was acting so weird. He was struggling to keep himself upright and kept trying to lay down. I asked him if he was hurt, but he just shook his head no. I asked him if he was drunk or high. He said that he had taken some medication recently. He said the name, something like peralitan(?). I asked him if that was some kind of barbiturate and that maybe he shouldn't say anything. I told him that I would handle Geraldo for him (because Geraldo is a douchebag and I didn't want him to win this one!).

WL laid down when Geraldo walked up to us. I again asked WL if he recognized me. This time, he took a long look and I could tell that he finally realized who I was. After a brief moment of recognition, he gave me this "oh shit" look. But I told him not to worry. I will take care of this for him.

Geraldo gave me the folded paper and asked me to fill it out. I sat down on the curb and looked at it. I began filling it out, but at some point I realized that it was some order form for CDs. Geraldo had gone back to his car as I was filling it out, so I went up to him and asked him what this form was. He took it from me and agreed that this isn't what he meant to give to me. I reached over to his glove box and opened it.

Had this dream this morning:

I am in a car with my boyfriend, A, and we are driving on the road to the barn. Once we are there, we see his mom, and an ambulance. There is screaming and someone is crying. I don't see her, but I know A's sister is in the ambulance. There is a general feeling of oppression and fear around the place. The EMT's figure out that A's sister was possessed by a demon, and they "fix" her.

The scene switches to the inside of a large building. Everything is dimly lit by a source-less, blue light. A has disappeared, and now there is a blond-haired girl with me. She has a very sinister look to her, and I know right away that the demon found a new host. There are some other people around, and the demon-girl tries to convince us that we're safe here, all we have to do is listen to her. I argue otherwise, and say outright that she is a demon. Everyone gets really scared, but the demon-girl keeps her cool.

The scene changes again, and me and the other people are standing in front of the girl. We're in a very similar building, but it looks more ominous, and older. She is explaining something to us; a challenge of sorts. She tells us that we can leave if we can find a way out. I don't think she mentions what will happen if we can't find an exit. It seems pretty obvious.

I go off with one or two other people, looking for a way out. The two others with me disappear after a short while, and I find myself in a underground tunnel system. It looks eerily like the inside of some giant monster's intestines, but I feel confident and reassured now; I know the exit is near. No one else is near me, and I haven't seen the demon girl for some time. I'm safe.

I wake up just as a purplish light comes into view at the end of the tunnel.

I'm walking through a desert at night, heading south. I was traveling with someone before, and we're meant to be meeting up again later, but she's driving and I'm on foot, and there's a lot of territory between here and where we're going. We've been heading south along the west coast, and I'm thinking of the area I'm in now as Butte County, and also the northern edge of the desert in California. This desert is incredibly beautiful by night, and there are walkways cutting through it, no roads. I come to the top of a little hill and see a large city in the distance; the walkway splits to run north and south around the edge of the city. There are a few other people walking here, and I'm putting serious thought into just walking along these paths forever. (Similar theme came up in an earlier dream this week - a girl impatiently waiting for me to wander the world on foot with her, me pointing out the reasons I couldn't just drop everything and start walking this instant.)

Yeo-Wool's blindfolded herself with this white cloth I think of as a veil - it's transparent, but it's folded over and over so she can't see through it. She's sworn to wear this until (a certain thing I can't remember is accomplished). She and some guy she travels with are stopping at this fortress, and in the halls they meet a man, someone important. Kang Chi's with the important man - Yeo-Wool, blindfolded, isn't aware he's here. Without letting her know it's him, one or the other of them (can't remember which) says something to establish that it's still not time to take the veil off yet, much as they'd like to. He's smiling as he watches her - the majority of the dream just consisted of me, 3rd person, looking at her. I wondered something about the school - it was clear she wasn't associated with it at the moment - and the dream switched over to show Gon eating in his room at the school, which he's inherited from her father.

* I don't recall the non lucid parts so i didn't write it down.

1st Dream
[Lucid]
I was in a apartment I don know trying to get iced cubes for my drink. I opened the fridge and tried to get it out but the cube tray fell from my hands and ended up touching the bloody meat in the fridge. I emptied the cube try and poured new water in it than closed the fridge. After that I appeared in a school with my mom and younger brother. I looked at my mom and said I was dreaming and that its possible that we could be sharing a dream. I'm always open minded about it even though I know it can't be true. She was like okay and just went with it. I saw a little girl from the tickling feet dream and said she looked like a mix of these young girls i use to know but the dream character was more younger looking. I told my mom that the girl dc was a character i enjoyed and I like being in the dream with them. I hugged the girl than left to the auditorium where my brother was with a group of people. They were about to take photos. The little girl held my hand and we sat next to each other near my father. My father told me to get in the picture and I was like just for the fun of it I'm going to yell that this is a dream. I did yell it out but than the little girl covered my mouth and whispered to me to be quiet. One of those people could have jumped me after i started yelling that. I was like oh...I forgot. Everyone started leaving and i started to yell if anyone wanted to be my fighting buddy just in case i ran into some trouble. No no one volunteered though. The little girl shrank so i carried her outside the auditorium. I left outside and saw my brother waiting outside in the rain with a black umbrella. I was like aw man...its raining. He wasn't covering me with the umbrella and just said lets go home. I told him to cover me with it and i woke up.

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2nd Dream
[Lucid]
I was in a house with a few people. I don't remember if I know them or not but we were all hanging out and they were about to leave. I was going to stay with a guy who I thought was Eye but I don't think he was. Cause he didn't have his appearance but I ended up appearing at my house after a while and there was a group of people taking pizza out of the toaster and from the plates. I took one but i saw others getting two so I was like heyyyyy. Than I was like whatever because there was no more to go around. I left the place and ended up in a park where i saw a old friend from middle school. He was talking to others about how he got a blond girl pregnant when he didn't mean to. The other guy kept asking why and i was like if you keep asking him why your going to make him go crazy. Than I noticed the ground was up and it felt like I was going to fall down. I tried to get myself comfortable enough so i can trick my mind. I jumped down I think and was walking in a building where there were machines that looked like escalators. AS I walked something invisible came up to me and started tapping me in between my neck and shoulder. I thought they were trying to annoy me by tickling me. I grabbed the person's finger and said i was going to break it if they don't leave me alone. The person ran again and i noticed that the person looked like a old lady. I lost her and noticed my nephew and another little boy fall into the escalator machine. I grabbed both of them and pulled them up. I knew it was a dream but i don't like those violent scenes and decided to save them. I appeared home with my nephew told my sister to check her son cause he fell in the machine. She checked and we saw his head was dented. She said it was going to be hard to show his father this and I woke up.

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3rd Dream
[Lucid]
In the last dream I was in a house with my cousin. We were talking and something was odd so I said I would call her dream friend Shrunt. I said hi and he asked who I was. I told him who i was and that i wanted him to come. As I was walking I appeared in my yard. There was a really really tall boy and my mom there. Something happened there and i left and appeared in the streets again. I saw people flying on gates and being blown by a strong wind. It reminded me of my other dream where the ground was facing up. I was waiting for the person causing the strong wind as i was told by a dream character and someone came out. I tried to grab or punch them but it didn't work. I don't really remember this part of the dream so i might have missed a lot. I recall we ended up in the escalator place again and as i was chasing the person i got stuck in a machine. My legs were getting crushed but it didn't hurt cause i knew it was a dream. My legs came out just fine as i kept going up.I was imagining myself as a person with the ability to go through things like a ghost. I got up just fine and confronted the person causing the chaos. I asked if they were in the other dream with the escalators and i think he confirmed it. He said he didn't know I uploaded youtube videos and showed a video of my character from my original story kissing another character of mine.[That does not appear on my youtube videos though xD lol] I was surprised and thought about how weird the kissing looked too. I said how did you know that I uploaded youtube videos. Than i thought about how its not that hard to figure what my youtube is since this is a dream world from my mind. I asked him if he wanted to meet my dream guide. He said " yeah, who wouldn't want to meet a dream guide if their destroying the person's dream world". [ I really just wanted to see him spar with Eye]I grabbed his arm and started walking with him. I took a phone and he said he would call for me. He typed a few numbers and gave it to me. I said no that wont work and he gave me a are you stupid face and so did other dream characters next to him. I guess it could work but when i answered it there was a girl and she said Eye was around but talking to someone. I was like oh than i heard a sound like the world just paused and woke up.I don't know if the guy was real or not but I found it a cool dream nonetheless. I also need to be more confident with my dream abilities. I couldn't even catch up to the guy. : P I'm pretty good at defending myself though.

It was night and my little sister and I walked out of the house to watch the bus come, which was supposed to be filled with money. I was also holding the trash can that we were supposed to take down the hill. Then we heard dog barking. Morgan took off running into the backyard and I saw it follow her up and down the hill and through shrubs, but it was like the trash can was holding me down and I couldn't stop her. My mom came out and opened the garage and I started yelling for her help. For some reason, the dog hadn't bit my sister. In my dream, I thought this was because she wasn't filled with anxiety like I was when she was being chased. She was simply determined not to get bit. I let go of the trash can and picked her up bride-style, and I ran her through the garage and into the house.

I was following Kelcy down airline road, and he was on his way to get some strawberries. I decided I could get a free lunch. I somehow got onto this spiraling stairway that led down to where a bunch of lunch ladies were working in a condensed, layered, factory setting. The bottom of the stairs were touching a window from which Styrofoam boxes of food were coming, each box made by a machine and lunch lady I could see through the window and brought by the conveyor belt. A lunch lady spotted me and told me to leave, but I didn't leave until I stuffed one of the boxes up my shirt.

Morning of June 20, 2014. Friday.



In the first part of my dream it seems as if I am in a region where there are several isolated temples. The people who look after these temples and surrounding area (who are possibly the ones who built them) are of a fictional race and culture (though somehow related to Bangladesh) and mostly do not mind our presence in the area. A few other people are there including my wife and children as well as classmates from many years ago, including Steve J and Steve W. There is some sort of upcoming threat, seemingly an expected nuclear attack, and so we have to evacuate the area (to a city to the west).

A bus comes and when we are almost ready to go to the bus, I have an odd in-dream “premonition” that we need to either stay where we are or even all go in the opposite direction than the direction the government claims we will be safer, thus I send my wife and children in the other direction - because now I somehow “know” that the attack is more likely to occur where we are going. Even though almost everyone is getting on the bus to evacuate, I refuse to go. I am chased by a couple people, including Steve J and Steve W as they want to force me onto the bus (for my own good, supposedly) but I manage to escape through a combination of running, leaping, and flying. Eventually, the bus leaves. At one point, a large dog attacks me and I feel its teeth in my hand but then I am able to swing my arm around and lose the dog over a hedge. I end up going to the city anyway after this.

After a short time of a few events and conversations about the supposed war and terrorist threats, some sort of unusual nuclear explosions occur. It is almost like a series of several smaller bombs going off in the sky (all at the same time, almost like fireworks) in an odd matrix-like pattern a little farther to the west, yet it is still seemingly the result of a nuclear missile. I turn away to feel a forceful energy sweep over me and most people are killed by it. However, I and a few others start running as fast as we can away from the shockwave, down the main street and over bridges. The area reminds me of Gillette Street in La Crosse in the eastern area where there are not many man-made features; mostly sparse trees, tall grasses, and wild shrubs.

Eventually, I end up in the area where my wife and children had gone. There is an unusual large building which seems to be part of a resort covering a large area and a very large lake and small island in the direction opposite to where the earlier nuclear event had occurred. There is a point at which I decide to go outside again from one larger room. I try to go down a staircase but the second open area past the doorway to the staircase is too small for me to fully fit in and turn around in the cramped stairwell to go to another floor and then outside (recurring) so I pull myself out with a little difficulty and go out through another area, which leads me to the lake’s shore. I still sense danger, so my wife and I and an unknown girl (and I think a couple others) fly into the air and then fly, with great joy and happy harmonious interactions, easterly to the small isolated island in the center of the lake, which is covered mostly with ice and snow. It is exhilarating and very enjoyable and the most vivid part of my dream.

Later, we seem to be in a different town (smaller than the city where the bomb was dropped). There are more random conversations and uneventful scenes, but then the side of a large apartment building begins to collapse. It turns out that terrorists, for quite some time, had somehow managed to build missile silos in a number of different buildings inside a secret area just inside the outside wall. This seems hard to believe, but everyone is running around now in chaos as the threatening events unfold. I watch the extraordinarily clear detail of the outer brick wall collapsing (but almost as if in slow motion), the revealing of one missile as it is taking off - and I also notice large business buildings farther away partially collapsing with missiles lifting off from hidden areas inside the walls. There are at least six or seven missiles that are now airborne. Oddly, instead of going a fair distance, they actually start exploding fairly close to where we are.

Again, I feel the sweep of the destructive nuclear energy from the explosions, as I and only a few others survive. I am not sure where my wife and children are at this time, though I assume they escaped quickly as before. I eventually sit down in a park-like area on a bench facing west, after running west again and seem to be the only immediate survivor after a time - several bodies lying about, some still on fire - and yet I feel quite healthy and well. The city I ran from was completely destroyed. I look on the bottom of my left foot and notice two numbers that seem to be some sort of organic “computer display” but possibly using some sort of semi-organic or inorganic implant to show the values. One number is twenty-seven and on its right, the number one - both in “portrait” orientation - that is, upright across the narrow area in the middle of my foot. This is some sort of “built-in” display showing my health and vitality (or life energy) or how many minutes (27) I have left to live, perhaps. (J. Boehme supposedly called this number “the death”, though there are other myths about it.). Because my life energy is only at one, it likely will not take much more to destroy me, although I am confident that this could not happen even if it read zero later.

However, there is a transparent plastic bag of blueberry muffins to my left and I then realize I had not eaten for some time, and so, as I start eating, the numbers on the bottom of my foot increase more and more, just as with a character in a video game (of which I have never been much of a fan of even when young).

23:30 bedtime

00:00 Friday 2014-06-20

02:00 really early recall, woken from music playing outside

+ car chase in B hills, police cars chasing my team, we're driving muscle cars (Camaros) trying to evade them, up and down roads, while driving I'm trying to put a plastic stencil with a round hole on to some console around the console/gearshift to the right and having trouble doing this. We're listening to the police scanner. Heading down A ave. two cars pull together to block the road. Go DO at this point and one of the drivers (man) is trying to convince the other (man) to have sex with him, who resists the idea.

+ walking through dark hallways I enter an (elevator? entry room?) and open the door on the far side leading to a pitch black hallway, I'm hesistant to enter since it's absolutely dark and I may not find my way back. Then a guard comes out from somewhere and asks "who opened the door?" I say something like "oh is it disallowed?" he comes to me at the door and the entry room is then lit and we're fiddling with a mechanism on the wall the guard wants to turn some key in the mechanism, I think I have my own key just let me use it.

+ in hallway with SB, leaning forwards against a strap attached to waist, laughing and "remembering" (false memory) how we used to do this, and say funny words (said a few)

+ walking through dark hallways, I'm drunk / drinking / nauseous almost throw up, decide to stop drinking. Look forward to meeting with girlfriend and getting drunk because we'll probably "get down to business" afterwards.

+ in a place like a big science museum, I noticed the temperature (first time ever!) and it's really hot. I go into a copy center / administrative office and it's cool in there because I think that they have A/C, it feels much cooler in there, and I feel a strong wind in there. I say "dang how do you guys deal with this heat?" There are some girls inside this office, and I have to pee. There are some guys, there's a car windshield separating me from the office girls, the guy says "just pee here" indicating the windshield, I'm resistant since I think it will splash everywhere, but he says "she likes it, she likes to look at it afterwards."

07:00

+ night-time driving get separated from dad go back meet up again on a corner S2 is there talking about how some people were in a car with a big couch on the roof and he couldn't get on it because it was full of people.

+ album story two women: walking outside in the daytime in a quiet suburban neighborhood, I see what I think is a sign for a memorial, I think this is for NB my old scout master who passed away (true IWL), I enter and speak with them and see the album. Then I'm outside, I'm looking at the neighbor's gate, and see multiple pool payment notices on the ground red/pink/white, I think they're really behind on their payments. I see the landlord, and I speak to him briefly. Then I'm talking to a young man outside, we're talking about how so many people leave to cheaper places (New Jersey?) (I think we're in California). I look up and see the blue sky with light/whispy cirrus clouds and gesture with my hands and say "yeah, but here you get this blue sky all year round. You won't get it in places like Seattle which has grey heavy clouds all year round." The guy agrees with me.



I visit TZ in her room, she's younger than now, thin, wearing a beautiful dress, she's happy to see me and she gives me a long warm hug. She's having a big party in here room there are lots of kids there, everyone's having a good time, she seems really happy. TZ hands me her dress/underwear at some point and I'm reluctant to take it, she's still fully dressed.

Standing in that outdoor neighborhood area with a group of people talking about the two album women, someone says they're (the women) immensely fat. I/we peek over a fence and see the women for a quick glimpse sitting down right on the other side of the fence. I imagine one of the two women is evil because there's a cloud/vapor covering her face when I see it.

I was playing counter strike but in real life. I recognized some people and my team was losing so I would stay back with a Glock and my vest to try and kill someone. I saw a few people and shot at them, making them take cover. I went after them and recognized a girl. I tried doing something but I shot her and she fell to the ground si I started hitting her and kicking her. She got upset and I left. I turned around and shot someone in the forehead, which revealed we were using airsoft guns. The girl's dad then started whipping me so I turned around and started beating him telling him he wasn't shit. The dream scene looked to be a harbor or dock. There were boats on water.
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I was in a small house on a tall hill or mountain. There were a few pets around and I was watching a news channel because there was nothing else on other than news. I heard someone pull up and looked to see my car arriving. I quickly changed the channel because I wasn't supposed to be watching that news station. Kristy came in and she was very sad and went to the bathroom with Lucy. I wondered why she was sad and waited for her. When she came out she said she was infertile and she showed me the paperwork from the doctor. I was sad also and thought maybe I was infertile also? I found out that on her paperwork it said I was also infertile, and that made me feel even worse. Apparently Kristy and I were together. Kristy had long brown hair