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DEILD back to a dream.
I leave a huge store and see a lake. It is getting dark out, I find a family camping. I see two little girls (ages 7 and 10) and ask them if one of them is Nyxcc, and they both answer "no".
I follow them to a water slide and their dad is watching me. I slide down and before I hit the water I float back to the slide so that I land perfectly at the edge (shouldn't be possible. the older girl is amazed, the younger less so. I look at the amazed girl and say.
"You definitely aren't Nyxcc." Look at the other and say " but you are!" She smiles and nods. She looks like she is about seven and has brown hair. I can't remember eye color, they seemed bright.
"This is a dream." She says.
"What is your next dream goal?" I ask as I grab her hand so I don't lose her.
"I want to visit old central America."
"Ok... I am having trouble remembering anything from central America... That is like... Mexico and can't remember much else."
We walk into the tent where I see a TV. I go to the TV and change to the history channel. I try changing the words on the screen and fast forwarding and rewinding. I can't seem to get it to say anything except prehistoric turtles and all. I give up and look at Nyx.
"I got it, close your eyes." She says and puts her hands over my eyes.
I close and she takes care of the imagination and old Mexico appears. It is a place filled with ruins of native Americans. There are ziggurats as well as things that are and never were a part of Mexico. The place we are in is a bit of a jungle. Nyxcc looks my age now, still brown hair, but lighter brown and bright eyes, she stands at about 5'6. I tell her to get on my back so we don't get lost. We run around for like 10 minutes. I notice that the ruins are hot enough that some of the animals are being cooked as we run around. I pick one that looks like a huge snail, in the middle is meat (makes no sense whatsoever). I take a small bite and hand it back. She jumps off and seems to run away. The dream ends.
Looking up pictures right now it seems like it was a mixture of aztec ruins, amazon rainforest, and animals that are bigger than they should be.

first of all i would like to say that before i fell asleep last night i was watching the youarecreators2 youtube channel. with that being said i'll continue on to my dream. it started out with me laying in my bed as normal in my normal looking bedroom in normal night time lighting, everything seemed normal as far as my surroundings. i was telling my subconscious mine (with my thoughts) "this is my mind and my life i control my mind nobody else!" while "trying to visualize my modeling dream" and every time i did this i felt an enormous amount of pressure in my head it was soo much to the point where i felt like i couldn't handle it anymore. i said it again "this is my mind!" then i started visualizing myself on the runway modeling with camera flashes pointed at me and again the pressure started again this time it was too much and again it felt like i couldn't handle it so i let go of control then it stopped, i never saw my subconscious or heard it speak. i just felt alot of pressure in my head i knew it was my subconscious mind's presence it felt like something was being forced in inside my head like energy and power it felt weird but it was to much for me. it's hard to explain it was not painful only alot of pressure. the dream seemed so real because like i said before my surroundings seemed normal. the only thing that trips me out was the sheet i was trying to hide under after i let go of control but before i went to sleep i had no sheet only my blanket. so thats how i know it was a dream and not real because the sheet in my dream was actually sitting on the futon in my waking life. most of the time i have no control over any of my dreams and just going with the flow. whatever is happening it just plays out. when i wake up from some dreams i question myself "why did i do that?" but in the dream it would seem like the natural thing to do..... so weird i've never had a dream where i actually controlled how everything played out. i have the most weirdest dreams some where i see black figures with red eyes, one time i had red eyes with blood coming out like tears and blood from my mouth, i've been abducted by aliens where they were trying to give me a shot and kill me in a dream once, i've dreamed where my entire family (people i claim as family and people who claim me as family, i don't know my biological family) exiled me, friends family, everyone who ever knew me or people i ever knew talked about me, it was big time betrayal. i've had dreams where i can't walk straight like my legs area giving out on me. dreams where aliens walk this planet, dreams where the sky is purple and turquoise, sex dreams with people i don't know, dreams i've been kidnapped held captive and bitten by a mysterious bug that made me sleepy, and the second worst of all was when i had a beerbelly a mustache and i was short o.0 that one was too much for me in real life i'm tall, skinny and i have no facial hair. and lately when i have a dream i have thoughts. like i'm actually talking in my head in my dream ive never done that ever until recently i'll say like for a month now. this is too weird .....i don't know what last night's dream was about with my subconscious mind but it was soo weird,

Hey ,

Today i had a really crazy dream ...
It was about some campaign on a astronaut ship or something that i had to join or be there.
So what happened was i was inside there and we were about 20/30 people i think
so something happened and someone got infected from something and he turned to a creature or something
and we had some war about it , i dont remember everything lol.

I remember after we arrived in earth .. i had to take some airplane you know those which only 1 person can drive
the fight planes. And flyyyyyyyyy above the woods etc and find some place..
while i was flying i had a great feeling and so i wanted to get down and stop to see the feeling , when i got
down somewhere .. near some city or village a monster came to me Lol , so i attacked it by shooting with the bullets of the plane and bombs but there were few more and one got my foot from behind and ate me and i woke up lol.

Peace

Four dreams last night, and couldn't reality check once. I'm still surprised, I guess. I remembered most of three of them. I went to bed after eating an apple, and I had "I want to dream about Mr. Gill's class." in my mind.

1. Began somewhere between 4 and 5 am
I exited my chorus class, then walked down the hall to reading. I went into reading and left it, then saw Miss Mitch and Miss Ally. One of them gave me a bowl of ramen noodles (which I hate) but I began to eat them anyway. Halfway down the empty hall to my 'next class', with my mother suddenly trailing behind me, I heard one of the teachers yelling at me to not eat the noodles. I handed them off to my mom, and then entered the classroom.
It was in the wrong hall, but oh well. I walked up to my friend, Maddie (she had a shimmery purple bandana pulled over her hair, it looked sloppy), and she smiled at me and pointed excitedly at a kid I knew last year, Jake. She kept saying his name but he only looked up to look at her. He did not notice me.
I sat down by him and Mr M (who for some reason looked like an old guy?) started the lesson, even though it was the 'first day of school'.
When we left, it felt like the last day of school.

2.Began somewhere between 6 and 7:30 am
I was heading home from somewhere in a van with kids from my classes. We were in a white van, and someone was driving. Then my friends made the driver stop and they pulled out guns and started shooting randomly. I grabbed my suitcase (it had a knife in it) and started walking home, but for some reason I left the suitcase there and went back to my friends. A cop van... or a patrol van? I don't know, started coming toward us. One of my friends shot at it and left about 8 bullet holes on the passenger side of the van. The van stopped and one of the people inside of it got out, a kid I recognized from my bus. He began walking around the van, and he pulled my suitcase back into the van. The patrol van drove off, and the kid stopped searching for our stuff and said "None of the teachers want to be late for the chiropractor". I was relieved he hadn't found my knife.

3.Began between 7 and 8 am
I was walking through the halls at school with the people I ate lunch with. I headed into Mr. Gill's class, which was in the wrong room. His TV was over the door and it had a lesson playing. The seat in front of me was empty, so I took it. Mr gill, who was sitting across from me, offered me a bottle of water. It was label-less and only had about a centimeter or two of water left in it. I took a sip for my sore throat and slid it back to him. I pulled off my grey polo shirt(i do not have any, even though i want them) and revealed my navy blue tank top underneath because it was hot. I began adjusting a jacket which was on some clothes hooks, then noticed the TV.
It was actually a Q and A video about how good interacting with people is. It kept replaying the scene while people had to guess an answer. Mr Gill picked some people, but they did not guess correctly. I looked at the answer on the screen- it was the only answer, and the people with me did not know to use that answer. I rolled my eyes.

I had recently woken from a short lucid dream, and I was thinking, am I awake in RL? And there my uncle who have left he’s earthly body some years ago, where sitting in a chair. This made me fully lucid again.

The time in the morning was around 8 am, because I had waken from a dream and gone back to sleeping and dreaming again in the exact same position before all this. I was sleeping at work.

I asked uncle, what are the meaning of you showing up in my dream. He answers. "Throwing up, and sickness.” (I think the last one was sickness. But I am not exactly sure of that.) I try to ask him some more about the meaning of him, but he gives the same answer. He then goes to the toilet and throws up in a strange way. He's body is all erected, but he somehow manage to put he's head in the bowl. I then ask him. "How it was to die of lung cancer (which was not the cause) or was it that?” I asked. He replied "that the pictures had left no doubt that it had been a lung cancer." He also explained something about how it had been, but I cannot remember.

I asked him how it was to die and being dead.

He said that it was sort of lonely.

He also said that for people who prepare, it can be very good.

I then ask him if he had some tips for me regarding dying. He answered that in a matter of fact he did had a note for me written down.

I said that that probably would not help since this is a dream. He's hand writing was all mixed up, but the paper it was written on was not an ordinary blank sheet. It was a economic report from the Buddhist organization I am a member of. It was typed and I could read it. My teacher had slipped and hurt his leg and the organization was paying for that. The paper was full of similar stuff, and also a bill for filling out.

Now the dream went in another direction. It was a family event. There was a living room, where my uncle where sitting. A hall where the toilets where, and a big kitchen. My sister was there in the Kitchen. She told me something about going to a cinema, while at the same time showing me a fantastic lego house somebody had built with here. It had all the windows going outwards. It was a very nice and worm, “big family” setting with lots of people. I said that I already had arranged to go (home?)(With our dad?), so no cinema for me.

I am in a car with my dad. (I am often in cars in my dreams.) Now we are at the petrol station, and I am noticing that this car does not have a driving computer. There is quite a few details about the car. I am still sort of semi lucid, but when we drive of, my father has taken the wheel. The scenery looks very real, like the Norwegian farmers countryside. Suddenly somebody is knocking. (This could have been someone knocking on a door in RL.) I taught it came from the roof of the car. I asked my dad if I could open the roof, and he said sure. There my brother was laying and this was so strange that I became fully lucid again. I had just had a big lemon candy in my mouth, like the once my grandmother often gave me when I was a kid. I was tired from sucking it. I took it out and had it in my hand. My hand became sticky. Now I was asking my brother on the roof if he would like to have it. He would, so I gave it to him and licked my hand clean, very satisfied with the strangeness of the situation and the niceness of being together the tree of us.

We came to our goal. A house laying on the left side. We were going to set it up and the rest of the family would come. We did not go out of the car, because some people who looked troubled, met up with us. They said that we were late! We had a conversation about this in the car. It came to my understanding that in this place, no one owned a house. It was now the evening and even thou my family had many things there, the time was now so that others could occupy the place legally.
This information struck me as something important about the dream world. I was advocating that we should leave them in peace and go to find another place. We were leaving, but in the last moment, we saw somebody loading uncle Tom’s (I have no uncle in RL with that name) DVD’s player into something, and we decided there and then that this had gone far enough!

Now this turned in to fight. Sort if lie a role playing computer game. I where a full-blown flying lucid spell caster. I do not remember the spells I used, but electricity was part of it. Even thou thy where more people than us, my powers made it easy for us to make them go away. Our side had also turned in to more people. Some of my best male friends had shown up. Now the demons where coming. (As usual, when I go into a fight in dreams, the first one can be won, but then all hell breaks loose!) A flock of human like bad intended creatures where coming for us over the field. Before I could even word anything my brother and my best friend, Kristian, where going for them like computer game A.I characters. Maybe they were thinking that this would not be a problem with my powers. But I was thinking the opposite. These creatures where immune to physical harm and where throwing petrol and breathing fire. I tried to attack them with fire, but they soon had killed my whole family and chased me away. I tried to fly, but I only managed to go a meter or so of the ground. I was running backwards and defending at the same time, which were not efficient. There was a woman going after me. I decided to turn and run as fast as I could into a forest. I went up a tree, but they were burning the forest. I jumped down from this very high tree and woke to RL.

Notes:
My uncle who is deceased was named Tore. I have a LD task, which is to heal Tor, a friend of mine, which are very ill.
In the dream, I took the knowledge about not having any safe possessions as important information. Failing to help letting go of them, not being persistent enough about my decision to leave the situation.Letting other people influence me. In this dream, I was lucid, but I was following the dream much more than creating it.

21.06.14
I slept in a cabin in the woods. Slept from early evening and for nearly twelve ours.

Very vivid, and clear REM dream. The order of the events are most uncertain.

Lucid part of dream are RED:

I am in a rural place north in the country. A few male friends and I have been bicycling there for days, but we also have a car there. We are at a cabin on a mountaintop. A path is leading down a steep hillside to a village on the other side of the mountain. A friend and I is sitting there, looking out on the scenery. My friend is toying with the car keys, just like my 3-year-old son, in a hole going into the mountain. I am warning him, but he loses the keys. We can hear them fall into the mountain for a long time. I am not very upset because of this, much less, than I would be in RL. We follow the trail down the steep side of the mountain and ends up in the village. There is a bus stop, a colonial store, a petrol station, a school and a house for gathering. We are taking the bus back. Later we are going to a culture show at the house for gatherings. My best friend Kristian, who is living in USA in RL and often occurs in my dreams, are there. Everybody in the village know each other. The design of the house from the inside looking out is magnificent. The lines of the windows, a higher floor and a “gelender”, is all lined up with the water outside. Wherever we are in the room, it is like the room is directly connected with the sea. When I think of it now it is a little strange that this not made me lucid. I am conversing about this design with Kristian. There was some music there and the major of the town where playing saxophone. It became a dancing parade through many small corridors. I was in the other end of the building from the major and where delivered a saxophone. The people there would like me to answer the play of the other side. I do alright at this.

In between all this I am driving an ambulance, (My work in RL) I am at the same type of rural community. The Ambulance are planning to go south. A woman I know from work in RL, is now younger and have bought a new pair of skies. I am washing a very bloody suitcase for the ambulance together with some female colleges. We go out on a call. I am calling Dennis, my former boss and sort of idol in this field of work, to ask for directions to the hospital or something. Dennis is at a party and are laughing and having a good time. I am explaining to him that I am sorry for calling him so late, and saying at the same time that I always call him when I wondering about ambulance related stuff.

I am in a place with a high sky and the environment is very calm. It is big mansions and gardens. Someone who are with me are informing me that this is a free area for prostitution and other shady business. There is a big commercial board outside a mansion where film clips of what is going on inside the house are screened. This has a ritual and sexual character. Right here I become Lucid. “I am dreaming” I am saying out loud. The first thing that hits me is that I now can go into the mansion without a special permission trough the wall. The second thing are that this, based on numerous occasions, is not what I want to spend my LD time doing! The third thing is that I want to meditate. Right there outside the gate and the house I am sitting down. I forgotten to stabilize the dream and woke. I concentrate on going back to the same dream and manage to do so in a semi lucid state. I meet the main lady from the film and the mansion in the street. My companion or her Butler, I am not sure what he is, has informed me that she own me some free time. She looks worried and stressed out. I am turning around to go after here and catch up with here. I am giving a comforting arm to hold and we are walking and talking together.

I am in a kind of a movie. Everything we meet on a linear way are directed objects. Mostly they are comedian stuff. We are entering a house and following corridors deep into the building. We are two women and a man, but I feel sort of being one of the women. There is also other people there and this is like a guided trip. The guide, and me gets away from the rest of the people. I am foreseeing that this would happen, and are anxious. The guide is rounding the corner and enter a door, which I just can see shut when I am rounding the corner. I can here flushing, as there is a toilet in there, so I wait outside. Nothing happens so I follow through that door, there is also many other doors. I enter into a hall full of long stairs, going around and back and forth in strange ways. I have sensation of fear and uncertainty about going in there alone, but I overcome it. I am leaping, floating and soaring down the stairs while I have a tingling sensation down my spine. I enter a big room where there is many happy people. I can fly and understand that I am dreaming. I am making up a song while I am flying around over the happy crowd. It is in English. “I can fly, I can touch through walls, (Doing this as I am singing it) I can see my soul.” After I have stated this, I am looking at my chest. I have a black sweater with some letters on. I can see some glittering light coming from inside my chest, like when the sun hits the water, silver or electricity is flowing freely. I wake up to RL.

A very interesting collection of dreams and fragments from last night.

Fragment: Music:
No crazy electronic music this time. Just a soft piano piece that I caught for a few seconds.

Fragment: School
I am at my old middle school. This large man approaches the school pulling a wheel barrow. He tells me that he is my ride home and I get in. A few of the kids from the middle school make fun of me for riding home in such an odd way. One of my old friends from middle school is in there and we begin catching up.

Fragment: Solar System
I am getting a guided tour of a solar system, certainly not our own. Whoever is guiding me shows me that it is a triple star system. There is one star and two smaller stars orbit it in a 1:2 resonance. Outward from that is a small rocky planet, a larger rocky planet, and then a orangeish brown gas planet, something like jupiter.

Art with C:
I am in what feels like the basement of my house. C is showing me some drawings she made after she attempted to have a shared dreaming experience with me and what she encountered in her dreams. I cannot recall all of the drawings, but I do know that one of them that was supposed to be of me and looked very strange. I had horse legs (not like a centaur with four, I only had two horse legs) and the upper part of my body was wearing what looked like the Danny phantom costume. I had really long hair that went down to my hips that had been made into dreadlocks.
Upon seeing it, I crack up. She laughs with me saying that the dream was not very stable.
She continues going through her drawings. I see drawings of some of my other recurring dream characters. These look much more accurate.

The Anteater in the Woods
This is the only dream really worth reading about here...
I cannot recall what happened beforehand, but I did know that lots did happen before I came to this part of the dream. I am walking around the shore surrounding a large lake. There are some sand dunes and rivers running into the lake, as well as boardwalks to walk across.
I am walking around, climbing over the sand dunes when a peculiar creature approaches me. It looks like an anteater or a hairy elephant. Walks on four legs with a stout chubby body. Has a long trunk with a single opening on the end that it can use to grasp objects. And two big white eyes with no pupils. Finally it has long brown fur, making it look similar to say chewbacca. What an interesting creature... I've never seen something like this in my dreams before.
As the creature approaches, I am frightened. I get pinned by a steep wall of tree roots and sand. I close my eyes and get ready for the worst only to find that the creature merely wanted to smell me. After several seconds I lower my guard and just allow the creature to study me. I look into his eyes and I could only assume that he was looking back.
The creature turned and left. As he walked away he began talking.
"Bah, you're not who I was looking for! Your claws should be ten times as sharp!"
I follow the creature.
"Wait what are you talking about?!"
The creature paused.
"If you want to know more, go to the woods in Calyot. And what your looking for, 'New York' is spelled backwards!"
kroywen...?
Anyways, the dream carried on rather normally from there. A storm started to blow in and I tired to find shelter amongst the sand dunes. Some of the boardwalks got washed away by the rising lake levels. I woke up a few minutes after meeting the anteater.

Morning of June 27, 2014. Friday.

Dream #: 17,357-02. Reading time: 36 sec.



Several times in my dream, I wave my hands to materialize small statues out of nowhere. Most are about a foot high, but many are shorter.

The statues are mostly Hindi that I make at random. I am moving my hands about and “spinning” them into existence. There is also a point at which I weave Sanskrit writing in the air. Zsuzsanna is present in a way that links to another dimension. Some of the statues look Thai or have other composite cultural elements. One looks like a carousel atop an octagonal box or base. They mostly all have a pale (semi-matte) golden appearance.

Someone near the table’s left side, at the front from my perspective, knocks a statue off and tries to fit a broken piece onto a different one in a suggestive adult way as if it were male genitals. I am only slightly annoyed by his humorous act.

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Setting my alarm to wake me up after 6 hours really seems to help me with DR, as it wakes me up right in an REM-cycle. I won't write it in any of the dreams but upon wakening up the second time I think I hallucinated the sound of a glass object falling and breaking. After writing in my tag-book the second time I walked around the whole house looking for the shards but I didn't find anything.

1. The sky is the limit

I'm flying an old WW1-era plane high up in the sky, the weather is nice and very blue. I'm chasing another plane, I difficulties controlling the plane and I keep missing it with my shots. After some time the other plane starts shooting me, I do a lot of dodging and the next time I shoot back I think I hit him, however it didn't critically damage him. Suddenly I stall and start crashing down, I'm not panicking cause it feels like I'm in some game, moments later I jump out the air plane and land on a tiny sky Island with some cows on, then I jump to another sky Island which is litterally a few square meters large and has holes in it but there's also some sheep standing on it. Then I'm suddenly in my own bedroom, it is night but I can still see quiet well. I'm preparing bombs for my airplane and have one in my hand, they are no larger than a pen. I am worried however that if one of them explodes I would lose my hand so I'm very cautious with them. I put some sort of activation device into the back of one and accidently the top (which has the explosif stuff in it) falls of, I can catch it and put it back on.

2. Highspeed waterslide

I'm on a very fast waterslide with many other people, we sit in little boats that each fit 2 people. I look back and see a man with food in his hand, the speed and acceleration of the slide makes the food fly back into the face of the man who wears sunglasses. Note that this is all indoor, after some time we land in the pool, barely. We nearly overshot the pool and landed on the floor, I see other people flying out of the slide and one of hits the floor with his leg but falls in the water with the rest of his body. In the pool I talk to some woman that seems to be a brony, immidiatily I exit the pool and walk away.

3. What have I done!?

I'm walking around in a supermarket and I know the rest of my family is somewhere looking for stuff to eat. Next to me is my cat following me around, I play with him using a small stick that has feathers on it, I'm having a lot of fun when I notice my cat runs away, I chase after him and find him with cuts over his face, 2 on his nose and a very deep one in his cheek. Then I realize that it was my fault, I accidently poked him with the stick! I saw blood coming out of the wounds and when my sister picked him up I saw a small puddle of blood where his head was. I felt so guilty that I started hyperventilating and after 10 seconds I got paralysed and felt to the ground in complete shock. (IRL I'm not that scared of seeing blood, although now I understand what people feel when they freak out when seeing blood.) My sister tried to calm me down telling me it wasn't that bad and he would make it but I didn't have any control anymore and was unable to move. After that she picks me up and carries me to another part of the supermarket where I manage to calm myself down. Then I walk a bit around and stop at the books, I saw a gossip-magazine that talked about 'Lau', a well known person who played a reality show here in Belgium.

4. A worrying task

I'm in a city sitting at a bar with some friends and looking outside, I see some students passing by on bikes. It's a schooltrip to 'Overijsel' I think, we exit the bar and walk around for a bit. Then we return to the bus and take a seat. After a long journey people started getting bored and the atmosphere in the bus got quiet tense, some of my friends started beating each other neck with a belt for fun, I tried avoiding this because I noticed it was pissing the supervisors of. Then one of the teacher exploded and walked back to punish everyone who was using those belts. A friend who sat next to me actually started eating the belt to get rid of the evidence. Then the teacher said "Okay, because everyone is so full of energy I'll give everyone a task. Take XTC and write down what your experiences are, atleast one paper full.", I thought how this was actually really dangerous, why would she give us the task to take drugs!? We stopped, I got out of the buss and entered a building. There I saw some students who sat in another buss that had already arrived there. They were standing near a pool table and I walked up to them, they asked me why it took so long for us to get there but I ignored them and they walked away. I saw that the balls on the pool table were rapidly moving around without any external cause for it which amazed me. Then I picked up a cue that was on the table and looked for the white ball to start playing. A friend joined me and wanted to get the first shot but then he said that I could take it cause he wanted to prepare his cue first. BEEP BEEP! There my alarm went of at 08:00.

After tagging these dreams down I fell back asleep...

5. The holy war

I sat in the back of a car and it was just a family trip like usuall, I looked at my IPad and watched some movie-clip or something involving cars crashing and flying through the air in an chase while music playing was 'Don't let go' from the film 'Gravity'. We stopped at some buildings next to the road and got out, there I met some weird girl who had some psychic powers or something. I got back to the car and we drove away to the city. We took a short cut through the park but were stopped by a large group of people who had some party there. I saw a student driving by on a scooter and we slowly drove down the same road he took, slow to make sure we wouldn't run anyone over. Then when we want to drive up a hill/bridge I get out of the car and suddenly there's a massive religious war between Catholic priests and Protestant priests! For some reason I'm on the catholic side and we fight up the hill using guns. We manage to drive the protestants back but near the top we're pinned down and under heavy fire. Then one the of the priests shout "LOOK THERE, THE CARDINALS ARE HERE!", I look back and see Cardinals in their uniform walking up the hill carrying heavy machine guns to help our advance. We manage to take over the hill and have a clear line of fire down on the protestants. I look of the edge into the distance and see muzzle flashes coming from the city, bullets fly over my head and we all lay down on the ground to avoid being shot. I fire down hill to a group of protestants and look back seeing one of the priest got badly wounded.

He shouts: "Don't shoot slenderman!"

I respond: "Why!?"

He: "Cause he'll rape you!"

Me, while looking back at the other priests and pointing to the protestants down the hill: "WE GOTTA MAKE THEM SHOOT SLENDY!"

Suddenly I see slenderman's tentacles emerging from side of the hill crawling over the railing.

I wake up...

NOTE: I'm not religious nor do I hate any religions, I don't know why I had such a weird dream!

I attempt a WILD after a small awakening - not quite successful, but I GET LUCID anyway, woo!

I'm in the very beginnings of a dream scene and I try to use a dance-like physical anchor. I'm doing a little dance up some shallow sun-soaked sandstone stairs, I turn to the right to see an almost ladder like very step section which I feel and start climbing. At this point I realise that I'm in the dream already and GET LUCID! I decide to take a quite passive role in this dream and just explore. I climb to the top of the ladder like section and there's a broad covered walkway with a view over a castle where the original stairs were heading to. I look at a few features but forget to hold on to my lucidity and rapidly lose it (grr!) I wake up shortly after that :-(

Dream Fragment:I'm standing in front of the tv in the living room just staring at the wall behind it, then my mom walks in and starts talking about how she's been talking to my dad, and me and my sister become angry, but then she says he has throat cancer then I become somewhat concerned, but only somewhat. I think to myself it's probably from all those cigarettes he smokes. I tell her to tell him to poor his urine down his throat and then to stop contact because it might be one of his tricks again.

The last dream I remember happened 6/19 ;w;

It started off with my father driving like a maniac in a weird field with a bunch of dirt to get away from someone. Then, for some odd reason I associated that with school, and the dream switched to a completely different place.

We were sitting in some weird room in the middle of I don't even know, and I was sitting with a kid who I knew a couple years ago. He was smiling oddly at me, so I asked him why he was doing that.
He turned to his group of friends and began glancing behind his back at me and laughing with his friends. I got confused and touched my hand to my head. I was wearing a helmet for some reason. I took it off and touched my forehead.
I must have literally touched it, because I felt it and imagined pain, and I jerked awake with my hand on my forehead...
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It was just really weird because he was caring for me and he had acted concerned before laughing at me, so... pff.

Dream began with me being underground in a metal bunker I recently avoided a couple of overgrown mole rats. I notice two guys at the far right and was planning to ambush them but didn't have the right weapons. So I pulled out my pip boy and realize it was partially broken. After I focus on how odd the pip boy was I became lucid and realize this was a dream, however as I became lucid the two men notice me and was ready to attack. I tried to shoot one of them with a gun but the gun wasn't working , the closest guy threw 1 punch at me as I barely dodge it. I then lift him up by the shirt and began punching him relentlessly as I continue to do so he began to insult me so I decided to kill him. I look at the other guy and told him I do not care that this is a dream , I will kill you just like your friend over there. The guy had a lamp as a head so I use a poor telekinesis to blast him knocking his lights out. I went over to continue punching him intill I was positive he was unconscious, after the fight I no longer wanted to be in this metal underground as there were way too many monsters and people for me to handle. I move some stuff out of the way so I could find a clear wall to create a door that will take me out of here. I tried to make it appear by just thinking about it but it did not work, I decided to place my hand on the wall and try to shape a door which did work. As I see the door I open it to only find a lot of books staple on the wall. I look at a corner to try to phase through but I stop the prcess as I remember in my previous Lucid dreams that my eyes can get blinded during the transition. Having a limited options I decided to close my eyes and imagine being in my Father room and there I was lying on the bed. I got up and look at the time it stated 7:57 AM I look around and decided I wanted to know what the outside looks like, I began to lift up the orange curtains and saw that it was very icy and snowy. The sky had a very magical orange morning sky as 1 of the branches block out the sun from my sight. This surprise me as I wasn't expecting the dream to make the outside to look like winter like it was an ice age. I then reach out my hand to touch the tree and as I did it did not feel cold at all I actually felt warm when the feeling of the wood occured. I then look at a glimpse of my dream journal thats when I thought about how I would write out this dream I am experiencing into my dream journal but then a non intended thought of my brother came and said you shouldn't start out your dreams with " My dream began " I thought it was weird that thoughts also lead to dreams. That's when I began thinking about how I know the brain must be at Gamma waves right now and that I wish my brother could measure so he could fully continue with the conversayion we were having yesterday. I then wanted to leave Father room and open the door to the living room it was a hit darker now as the windows aren't litting out sun light. I then assume that the sky was no longer early morning and was turning in to another ice storm. I then see my grandmother coming from outside in her work clothes. She seem to wonder if its too cold for her to go to work. This intimidate me on whether there's a chance I am actually awake in waking life but as I open the unlock front door knowing my grandmother would always lock the door I felt certain it's a dream. Right after I went out the front door I check my hands to see if they look wrong and they were wrong. I look at the roads inflanted with snow and a huge building broken on the road. As I walk I wonder why the place is torn apart now, as I continue walking on the road I tried to see if I could manifest a dream character but it didn't work. As I came up the road it began to lag a bit so I rub both my hands together and continue walking, then I saw 3 people in my way as I approach one of them I get tackled and thrown to the ground as I see one huge guy coming I struggle to maintain control over the dream but before I could do anything else I woke up. Lucidity Time 3 mins

Date: 25 Jun

Pre bed: 40mg B6

Woke up a million times during the night, but not once attempted to deild/wild, etc.

Wbtb: 1/2 latte but was somewhat less wakeful than necessary

HI: with Sensei (only team colors this time, my name in green, his in silver )

Fell asleep in rather heavy sleep.

LD: I'm using the tram without a ticket and am worried about that but don't realize it's a dream till later.

At some point I'm on the street lucid and do some spontaneus flying again. I see this guy from school and decide to fly towards him, where I focus on my hands being on his shoulder and speed fly/zoom to move there. I recall to seek Sensei but decide the dream needs stabilizing and spend a few seconds feeling the texture of the guy's jacket. He says a few words and I probe whether he can talk but he mostly replies with gibberish.

We continue down the street and there's another guy with him. It gradually gets darker till it's as dark as night. I gaze at a distant light that's so bright it leaves an after image. I think about asking about this on DV. This doesn't make things better for my vision as everything around fades into darkness. I address the guys and tell them to fix this, that we need some color but the they don't help much. The physical sensations are still here, so I decide to bring back the scene by engaging in action and begin to strip one of the guys.

A scene appears in full color but for some reason this has the effect of an FA and I become very concerned about what I'm doing. A moment later wake up.

Woohoo! Today it was the verdict and I was along the best for the year, most of my scores were higher than the average and I'm able to procede to the next year without any problems, my last year.
This morning my alarm went of at 07:00 and although it hurted a little bit getting up and grabbing my Tag-book I'm happy to announce that my DR is climbing back up.

1. Justice

I'm walking around in houses and through basements of old houses in the Middle Ages, while also talking to peasants who have to work way too hard for their liege. I feel as if I have to do something for them, fighting for human rights. It all feels a bit like a game (Crusader Kings 2) and somehow faith is an important factor. I also tagged down that I had made a letter to the king and I remember seeing flashes of Filip (Current king of Belgium). I help the peasants with their hard work and somehow guns and fighting were involved according to my tag-book but I can't really remember anything of that.

2. Left behind

I'm in a weird deserted shopping mall and I see one of my fellow students, I go up an escalator and suddenly I'm standing on a nice road somewhere in the country side of what I think is France, although it still feels very familiar like it's near where I live. I walk past a house and see another fellow student walking out in sport-gear and ask him what's he's up to. He talks about an important marathon everyone's participating in, I don't know anything of this marathon and walk away. I see hints of this marathon and read somewhere that it was 310 KM long, goes through France and ends in some place called 'Helmet'/'Hemlet'.

3. Infiltration

I'm with a team of armed men standing infront of an old building ready to breach in. One of them calls me and offers me a rifle, he asks "You know how to operate this?", I respond "Yes, that's an M1 Garand." and I quickly practice reloading the rifle and aim it at the door. The door opens and we storm inside, suddenly it all feels very much like a game, I have difficulties aiming the rifle as it seems to have a life of it's own. My vision switches to a strategic overview of the whole situation and I'm able to see the whole team including myself from 10 meters high. First we fight some sort of digital glitch, a pixilly being that acts like some sort of wall preventing us from advancing any further. After shooting it for a bit it suddenly starts to violently jerk around and then it splits up into multiple small fragments of itself, we continue. Behind the door in the next room is a giant Sumo-man or giant Baby you could almost call it that tries to hulk-smash us, we can dodge it's attacks for some time but then it corners me and I get crushed. I react in the same way like I would do in a Co-op game with friends and sit back, I keep watching the rest of the team fighting in an observer-mode where I can fly around watching the battle from all angles.


4. Be silent

I'm walk in a rebel-camp and see a lot of young people sitting on the ground eating I think or just talking to each other, in the distance I see Vaas who seems to be the leader. He walks over to the group I'm sitting at and people seem to be intimidated by his presence, he calls everyone to meditate and not make any sound. When I mean not making any sound I mean not even the sound of your own breathing... After some time I and someone else start to get problems controlling our breath and we start breathing louder and louder, I notice Vaas seems to become more and more aware of this and then he stands up and tells us again not to make any sound.

Now that any distractions are gone it's time to fully use my 2 months of freedom to master Lucidity and hopefully become so good at it that I will be able to continue it when school starts again. See you next time!