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If you are reading this you have arrived at my ''hub''. I plan on using this to keep myself more structured, and link projects that i could be interested in viewing another time. If you are a mod/admin and this thread is in the wrong place, feel free to move it.

Notebooks
- Dream yoga: http://www.dreamviews.com/dream-yoga...-notebook.html
- Newbie lessons/ intro class: http://www.dreamviews.com/intro-clas...-workbook.html Questions? http://www.dreamviews.com/intro-clas...o-class-q.html

Projects to look into
Dream yoga: http://www.dreamviews.com/dream-yoga...esson-1-a.html
ADA: http://www.dreamviews.com/induction-...kingyoshi.html
Dream incubation: http://www.dreamviews.com/general-dr...-tutorial.html
Night-time preperation: http://www.dreamviews.com/attaining-...-lucidity.html
http://www.dreamviews.com/dream-yoga...ity-shock.html
http://www.dreamviews.com/dream-yoga...esson-2-a.html

Projects currently doing: Dream yoga: http://www.dreamviews.com/dream-yoga...esson-1-a.html
http://www.dreamviews.com/general-dr...-tutorial.html
http://www.dreamviews.com/induction-...cid-dream.html
http://www.dreamviews.com/induction-...hecks-rcs.html

Current RC program: Ask myself;- ''Am i dreaming?''
- Look at/ feel the sorroundings
- Examine my hands. Any abnormalities?
- Push thumb through left palm
- Nose plug
- Mantra: ''Next time i RC, i realize i'm dreaming.'' Do this 3 times.

Dream journal: http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/kaiern9999/

Non-lucid dream count: 5.
Lucid dream count: 3.
PS. Number from when i joined DV.

Sleep patterns.
Sleep: 11.00-12.00.
Wake: 08.00-10.00.

Supplement reward system.
3 LD's= supplements for 1 night.
Take melatonin 90 min before bed.
Take b6 right before bed.

I woke up around half four with a vague memory that I had dreamed, so I paused to think about it and remembered that I had become lucid and was walking through a sunny scene. I remembered that I wanted to try out as many RCs as I could remember. I tried to push my fingers through the palm of me left hand and it felt like walking life. I pushed harder and tried a twisting action. Eventually I managed to get half a finger through by wiggling.

That's it, about four seconds!

After that I decided to try WILDing but got memorable NLDs.

1. Playing tennis mixed doubles, our opponents make a tactical error by coming to our side of the net as I deliver a return. I congratulate my partner with a bottom spank. I note that that's not really appropriate but think that it would be OK if I was a girl, so I was. Then the idea of playing not-tennis excites me awake, boo! :-(

2. At a drama / history workshop, roleplaying with fake beards and moustaches, reliving some historic famine situation. I climb up a step valley side to the top of a cliff where I spot a mirage effect on one of the rocks. I shout down to some people at the bottom of the cliff and then reenact a daring rescue attempt of a girl stuck on the cliff face. Then I go back down to help tidy up the props.

SammyTheSnake

Only small dreams/fragments. Here we go.

1: I was in the gym with my friend, and his mom, when we found it closes early because of summer times :/

2: While dreaming, i was watching an episode of: ''Top ?(unknown number) Plays'' for lor league of legends.

3: I was in a league of legends game, playing renekton. Only strange thing i noticed was that i didn't have smartcast. I was dumb, and should have realized i was dreaming from that.

4: I was at my school, when i found a book i had not returned. It was math, and had a blue cover. I returned it to the person sitting in the library.

June 12, 2014

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Literally all I remember from any dreams I had last night was one fragment about being at my Aunt's house in Indiana, talking to my cousin. I have no idea what we were talking about or what we were doing.

10:30 PM
I was watching television, sitting on a ledge of a cliff of beds (the ledge was a single mattress that butted out of the main column). On the television was a series showing pornstars using their fame to raise awareness for animals. Each image displayed on the screen. Each image consisted of a hurt animal and a woman looking up, with a lot of cleavage, at the camera, in a manner such as "Shame on you." Some of the animals displayed were parrots or dogs. The pornstars would pet the animals in "sexual" ways (not to the animals themselves). At one point I believe there was talk of dead animals and necrophilia.

As a side note, I do not condone this nor do I find pleasure in any of that .

Later on I was looking up cars and writing SQL queries for a business (perhaps Disney). There was talk of giant corporations not needing coverage of 100% of their items.

I also had a view of an angel trying to fly, or giving the illusion of flight. The view consisted of images shoddily ran through like in a flipbook. I was told by someone that by moving the angel in each image, it looks as if its flying.

3:30 AM
I again attempted a WILD and had the following dream:

I was walking behind a girl, naked (her as well), down a street behind another naked girl. I would accidentally brush up against her butt periodically, which resulted in me getting an erection. Suddenly she was on the other side of the street, taking a shower, and I turned away to hide myself. As I turned my eyes fell upon a field in which a lot of different people were playing around. A midget and a taller woman seemed to be in a relationship laughing around, and lots of kids were playing. At this point I was clothed and forgot about the two girls. Amongst this crowd were two pygmies playing with rockets. They would shoot fire at the ends and propel the rockets at people intentionally trying to hurt them.

They were doing a poor job and the woman with the midget pulled out her own rocket launcher, shooting at a building and blowing off parts of it. The pygmies, not wanting to be shown up, decided to shoot three napalm filled rockets in quick succession. Two went off into the distance but one fell short and landed near me. I was able to avoid it, but I saw my sister was also close by. I yelled at her to get away but the napalm caught onto her skin- she turned into a piece of paper that then floated by me and burnt away.

I became enraged and grabbed the pygmies by the scruff of their necks, one in each hand. I found a pond and shoved their faces in, drowning both, though I intended to only get them near drowning so I could repeat the process ad infinitum. I then grabbed a shovel and beat one of them into dust with it. Later on I was with someone, and I lamented to them about the fact that my sister not only died, but suffered greatly during the process. I turned to a tunnel and began crying, and the person with me came in and consoled me. He later described some of his own losses.

I later ended up in a classroom in front of a former teacher. I was still thinking about my sister, and would have to try and stop myself from crying. The teacher then drew an odd toilet on the blackboard. It had a faucet out of the top, where the closet would usually be, and instead of a bowl, it had two drains level to one another. I believe one was for solid waste and the other for liquid. I also think the faucet was meant to serve as a bidet.

The goal was to come up with a marketing strategy to discuss why someone would want to buy this toilet. I started trying to come up with reasons (I don't remember what it was), but the girl behind me decided to start dancing, followed by another dude sitting where she was and poking my head. I told him to quit, as I needed to make progress on this paper.

I return home and come across my mother and my sister, unhurt. I was amazed by this, but it turned out I had an identical half-sister named Nash (I have no idea where this name came from) who died, not her. My mother began talking about a boy and his grandmother, and a similar event that happened with them (one dying presumably). During this talk I poured myself a bowl of curly fries with milk. My mother thought this was gross, but after trying a curly fry, agreed it was good.

Lastly, and disjoint with the rest of the dream, I remember Madison Ivy and Geoff Ramsey with some other girl, creating a porno in a very cheesy way. He was complaining that he needed a bigger butt to rub his moustache in, which was the cue for the other girl to walk to. My view jumped from these two to an elevator I was in, with my dad. It was manually powered, and to operate it required moving a lever vertically (up to go up, down to go down). It was very fast though, and we had to be careful not to hit either the ground or ceiling. Later on I led him on my hands and knees through a scavenger hunt or something.

Date: 06 June

Didn't plan to wbtb but woke up super alert and couldn't fall asleep for quite a while. Had to rush so left only key words and wrote the entry much later. Apart from that I can say that this was probably one of the longest lds I've had.

Ld: I appear on the street in a car, some guy nearby. For some reason I decide to think of my physical body and panic as not to wake myself [have been reading about this on the forum and got some sort of schema infection]. I try to ignore it and concentrate on the dream, get out of the car. On the street, I run into a chick with a black dress, try to kiss her for totm but wake up.

I wait for another dream.

LD: In an apartment with my mom (this dream lasts super long, I don't try to memorize the details though). Mostly spend it in the apartment, walking around and talking to mom, trying not to control or influence her. Very stable. Mom is talking like a normal person. I kiss her on the cheek for totm.

I examine the living room, the objects - wooden Mayan statues like the face of Pacal. Kids collectible toys on nearby shelves - I start to recognize them, false memories, they are mine. This place, I have been here before. I face mom and start questioning her about all this. She explains something about this being in the future and our new place.

What's interesting is that I feel super alert. I scan my awareness and I feel this wakefulness - very alert and just as if in real life. I think it's impossible to be dreaming this alert and yet I'm here. There's an Asian DC in place of mom now and a second DC next to her. I intensely question the first about the dream and place but she only smiles shyly. A moment later something happens super fast - there is some sort of an open box and the Asian woman disappears into it - like genie into a lamp sort of but vanishes to leave the empty open box. The other DC turns into some weird objects - it's hard to tell what they are, they turn to little plastic soldiers then transform into other plastic colorful objects.

I remember the meteor task and go to the window, stare at the sky to see a meteor form out of the nothingness. It then moves from the distance following a twisted trajectory, decelerates to fall in front of the window and into a shallow water that covers the street where it disintegrates. I'm a bit disappointed that there is no showy splash or damage, so repeat the process with two smaller meteorites that fall and dissolve in the same way.

The dream continues and I turn back to the apartment where I hang out more. I begin to feel possible lack of ability to stay here, so I go into the kitchen to drink a glass of refreshing cold water. This helps me feel better and focus. A moment later I decide to fully immense in living in this other place and have breakfast. My mom serves me some eggs, they weren't as delicious as I had hoped for but ok.

At some point my bf arrives, where we discuss the place and future but I lose lucidity.

The next part I recall is that we are strolling on the beach and I'm lucid again, reshaping the beach and calming down the waves.

My recall is completely fragmented at the end but after some more on and off lucidity I end up in a church watching DC wearing weird clothes.

(This may be a more boring entry, but maybe it gives some newbies an idea of some of the things you can run into)

6/12/14* wake up after about 5.5 hours of sleep needing to go to the bathroom and afterwards I do my SSILD cycles and I start to get HI's but fall asleep. Later I am having a dream where I am on the field after one of my games and the game after ours looks like a forfeit, perhaps not enough players. It seems like I'm very tired and I believe what happened is that I lay down on the field and went into an in-dream WILDing-like session where I immediately start getting strong HI's and vibrations which I start to play with including a woman on the field whose clothes I pull off with telekinesis and some motion based dream entry. I find myself in my bed (possible false awakening) but I can feel that I'm still fully in the dream world. I decide I should take off all my clothes and get into some mischievous activity. It feels like I am struggling with taking off my clothes and I start to worry a little bit about using my real waking life hands and possibly waking up or exposing myself
while sleeping. But I do get it together and take off my clothes and I'm hanging around the bed when I hear my wife coming up the stairs again and it reminds me of the false awakening last time and I remind myself "okay FA FA FA" (in other words don't get fooled by the false awakening-like scenario). My wife comes into the room and she's holding my laptop and it's on my email account and I get sidetracked from my lucidity for a moment concerned of what she might have read...perhaps some of my updates from dreamviews related to some of the crazy dream adventures I have which she may not like...But then I hear a song playing very clearly (later when I actually woke up I could hear music coming from my son's room but it wasn't where I could hear lyrics or anything whereas in the dream I was definitely hearing lyrics and a song that I seemed to recognize, all much more clearly than what I heard when I woke up). Anyway, I closed my laptop and looked out my window for the source of the sound and I could see some of my teammates outside getting ready for a game and my first thought was why am I not there, why are they playing without me but then I realize the scenario is highly unlikely, especially a game right outside my house...oh yeah this is still a dream this was a false awakening like scenario. I specifically remember "J" & "K" being out there and a little scene played where someone was asking J if he had ever been an ex-WAIF (unsure what this means) and a scene of J sitting at his current job with a desk full of papers. I think that I'm forgetting some details throughout this lengthy dream because I specifically remember thinking that this lucid dream is going fairly long. I find myself back in bed and I wonder if this is another false awakening but then I can feel my wife being amorous and I start to wake up for real. My lucidity level was obviously low throughout or I wouldn't have had such a hard time retaining it or remembering so much of it. Because of this I put the dream through Sageous' FLD test of proving lucidity to yourself and came up with the verdict that I was definitely lucid in spots. I tried to go back to sleep and got some HI's or dreamlets of Cameron Diaz leaning over showing off her cleavage (saw her in a movie last night). 160

My dream started with me appearing in my room. I was on my bed and it was dark but there was still some light there so i could see. A tall, skinny looking alien with a elephant like nose walked in the room. It was speaking in its own language and tried to saw me open when its nose changed into a chain saw.I grabbed its head and started screaming really loud.To try to break the dream scape. I woke up with the TV on and it was daytime already. On the TV it was giving the Fairly odd Parents. But I noticed something wrong with a face and knew i was dreaming. I got up and went to the living room.
I saw my bro, Eye, Dawn and other people there. I said Hi happily knowing i was in a dream and turned to see people talking to a girl and a little boy on the computer. I said to the girl she was in my dream and to come out the computer.So I pointed to her and tried to bring her out. At first we got excited but than she said her world was spinning around like there was a earthquake. Than the computer crashed...I heard a girl/s voice say she didn't like the outcome. Eye got annoyed and was like who is she to say she didn't like it. Just cause it didn't work. I apologized than went to look outside the window.
I saw a man near his car who looked like he was waiting for someone or something. I opened the door to go outside and Eye came outside with me. He took out a really small grenade and showed me it. I was like you better not throw that thing and took it from him. But by mistake it flew from my hand and landed in the guy's car. He wasn't there though. We joked about how funny it was cause it only made a small fire and we knew it was a dream. We went back inside and looked outside the window and saw the guy trying to put out the fire. A guy came by and asked us something. Than Eye snapped his finger and the dream changed a bit. The fire was no longer in the car and the guy was going to drive away.
I turned and saw Dawn and went up to him saying i have something to tell him. He said okay and walked with me as i held his hand. But when i looked back I saw Eye staring at a knife on the floor. I got scared he would hurt himself or someone so i said never mind and grabbed the knife. Eye got mad at Dawn and said something to him. Than Eye picked me up and put me in a corner away from everyone's view. He tried to make Dawn jealous but he was really struggling in a way to make it work. So he ended up falling flat on his face. I told him it was going to be okay and to stop getting emotional about it.
I walked to the kitchen and saw a plate of pizza.i was like oo~ I wonder how it will taste. I grabbed the pizza and bit it. It tasted like bad pizza so i spit it out and saw that the dream froze. Everything was starting to fade so i said i have to stabilize the dream before everything fades. I started touching a person who was still apparent in the dream and everything began to reappear. It took like 3 seconds for everything to come back and to start working. I was like yay! the dream is back. Than i ran to Dawn and said I was going to tell him now. He was on my bed eating chicken nuggets. I sat near him trying not to crush his legs and took a nugget. He asked me what i wanted to tell him. I than noticed eye was now in the room and told Dawn to call Kiro.Dawn laughed a bit and said alright.
He dialed a number than was talking to someone on the phone. I saw his expression on his face change to a sigh, disappointed face. He said he had to go. I was like awww. He left and I was shocked to see something on the paper change. I was shocked cause i thought it might be a secret code and maybe Dawn had to be sent on a dangerous mission or something. Eye said it was nothing to worry about though. That's when the scenery changed and i was in my house alone...The rooms were smaller though. I heard a zombie like moaning and suddenly pillow/blanket monsters started coming up to me and tried to suffocate me. I started running around screaming for Eye, Dawn and Kiro. My voice was suddenly lost though and i decided that it was time for me to fight my own fight. So I went up to a few of them and started punching them. A few of them exploded and died but one of them got me and tried to squeeze me so i couldn't breathe. I broke free and started screaming for Eye again and he came out of a pillow monster from the other room and proceeded to beat a few up. I than saw a room where there were lots of fish tanks and fish hooks and was distracted by it. I walked into the bathroom and suddenly i felt heavy and like i was losing consciousness. I couldn't get out of the tub i walked into and woke up. Tubs are like my weak spot for some reason. Whenever i walk into them i faint. : P

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Okay.Now for my second Lucid dream. I was walking in the city with my younger bro and mom. I looked around and observed the people interacting. Thinking what if one of them was a real person. But i got separated from my family and decided to just have some fun. I hovered down a hill and suddenly ended up in my house downstairs. I ran back up and decided to look for Dawn. I somehow ended up in a beach and ended up hugging Dawn.But when i did Eye came out of no where and pushed him.They were arguing and i fell in the water. I started to drown and i couldn't get back up. Someone eventually picked me up and took me to a hospital. A Lady doctor said i had to be more careful and that i caught a cold. She gave me a small shot on my finger and i ended up feeling better. I talked to Eye and suddenly i felt plastic in my mouth. i removed it and I think i woke up after that or the dream continued.

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In the next dream I was in my house and a older man came to visit my mom. My older brother was there too. I was semi lucid at the time and noticed i had a boy chest. I thought putting a few staples on my body would make me look cooler. So i put 4 staples on me but not near my heart area. I became fully lucid as i noticed how stupid i was acting and removed the staples from my body slowly. I than changed into my girl form and went to look at myself in the mirror. I fixed my hair a bit and out of no where i saw my big bro looking at me.
Than all of a sudden he leaned on me so close. I screamed at him and told him why would he do that! I told my mom and my bro said that he didn't do it. My mom said something to him than told me and my younger bro we were going on a trip to outer space. I thought it might be a fun lucid adventure so i agreed to go.
My mom drove us to the spot. But it looked liked a place filled with stores to the side and a huge parking spot for cars. Me and my younger bro climbed the ladder and waited for the count down to finish. The rocket ended up being really small but it was a dream so it was possible for it to still take us to our destination. The rocket was taking a long time so i just walked down the ladder with my younger bro and said i wasn't going anymore. My mom drove us a bit further and we got out the car to a place where there was a old lady with another lady playing golf. Me and my bro walked to a city like place. It looked like we were behind a building but still apart of the other setting from the rocket scene. Suddenly I heard a lady's voice taunting me from the sky. I walked a bit and saw animals tied all around me. Under branches, boxes, on the ground. I told my younger bro to help me free the animals. I untied the cat, squirrel,parakeets and other animals. I even saw a few parakeet eggs. They were so cute. When me and my younger bro finished we went to search for the lady who had done such a bad deed.
I called out for her to come out and she spoke again. Me and my younger bro walked to a building where a lady came out with her large stubby black rottweiler dog. I was like why did you do that to all the poor animals! Even if it was a dream it was a stupid idea. She taunted us and introduced us to her dog and said that we forgot about the stapled animals. I said no we didn't!I don't remember freeing any stapled animals but i was sure there were none. The lady signaled for her dog to attack us a few times and stopped it from attacking to show us her control over it. I remained calm and alert and thought about how i would deal with the situation. She laughed at us and said she knows that we are scared of her dog and to watch out. That we don't know what might happen next.
I got mad cause i saw the dog get close to my younger bro and grabbed the mouth of the dog. Than i ripped the dog open into half of itself. the lady was shocked and than i killed the lady. I screamed for help for the cops to come and they came. i told them how the lady tied up and stapled poor animals and if i didn't kill her and her dogs others would get hurt. I also told the cops to free any other animals in the area. The cops said it was ok and they would take care of the rest. I was than happily greeted by someone and my younger bro brought me to a house. It was like the world was all happy because i stopped the lady who was hurting the animals.
I heard my cousin and her dream friends shrunt and yopo. I heard shrunt laughing in one room and suddenly i was in a towel. I yelled for shrunt to come so he could find me clothes. He came and was like what are all the boxes for? Apparently I was moving in with them. i was so happy than i was like wait. I flew around the room and checked in the closet to make sure the lady didn't come back. My cousin was like it was safe and said to yopo remember the time we celebrated the day we met or something like that. Than she joked about me and yopo dating and being a couple for 7000 years. I laughed as she was trying to convince yopo i would be perfect for him. Than i woke up. That was such a awesome dream for me.

I ran away from home looking for someone to fck. I saw a cheer leader sitting down along with another girl aand a guy in a house close to mine. We saw something about cassie charlene ( a missing girl) than we later saw and different styled ups truck. This ups truck had long boxes that said, "long and upwright, Cassie Charlene" we said.."What if cassie was in that box ..we didn't beileve it at first ...until we kinda saw her aand the truck started heading our way to get to us. We started running like hell thru woods and shit and aat one point I think the truck actually got one of my friends. But knowing me xD I didn't stop at all! Than later ( I think in anoyher dream....) I couldn't turn my light on for some fucking reason but it seemed as if all the other lights in my house were all reaady on.. So I said "dad I can't turn my room light on" he comes over ... Turns my room light on... Than BAAMMM I'm awake!!!!!!! So now I sit here thinking "fucken hell, I was almost Lucid.". That was basically my dreams from last night, I think there worth telling on here right? XD

This isn't a single dream.

When I was nine, I started dreaming of the same boy in every dream. He aged with me. We grew up together. I loved him, but not as a romantic love. I knew him by the way he felt only. Sometimes he would bring me somebody new to meet or talk to for a while. Sometimes he stayed away for long periods of time. I speculated for years on who he might be and what it meant that he aged with me so perfectly. From the time I could talk I would tell everybody that I had a younger brother, but, of course, nobody wanted to hear it. My friends thought I was nuts and my parents just got tired of my "game."

I don't remember exactly when, but he finally told me that he was my twin brother. He had died before I was born. It's called "vanishing twin syndrome" and even my mother was unaware that there had been a twin, or so she said. About a month ago, I finally told my mother about the dreams and his name: Michael. I remember messing it up earlier and saying Miphael. She told me then that when I was born, less than 3lbs, two weeks late (to the day), and barely alive (placenta had partially detached), the doctors and nurses were looking for the twin. The twin never came. He never would. Not to our parents.

He hasn't been around in my dreams for months now. It has been the longest stretch for years and it hurts. It aches. I will move on, but I think all he wanted was validation that, yes, he did exist, and yes, I did have a twin. I have wanted to seek him out deliberately, but... part of me recognizes that it is not right to always expect others to be there for us when we cannot be there for them. If he has found new life, he needs to live it. If he is resting, let him rest in peace. I am grateful for the time I have had in my dreams with my twin.

I've been having pretty disturbing dreams about my ex these last few nights. See, we were in a healthy relationship for three years and a half, but we started going out when we were almost 15 and we simply grew apart. I broke up with him over two years ago and we haven't kept in touch since, even though it was a clean break-up. Now I have been happily in a relationship with another guy for a while. Thing is, I bumped into my ex last Friday and we had a two-minute interaction, the typical "how's it going". The next day, sacred coincidence, I bumped into him again at a concert, but we didn't talk much either. Both times it felt quite awkward because we never meet anymore and we hadn't even seen each other in almost a year. Then the series of dreams started.

They started two days ago. I dreamt he sent me a Fb friend invitation (he removed his Fb profile some months ago and made a new one just recently, so we're not friends) and left me a message asking why I avoided any chance of talking to him. Yesterday, I dreamt he tried to cut off my legs with a chainsaw. And today I had a dream which involved him and his mother in a pretty nasty way (sexually, somehow), but I can't quite recall the action, I just remember I woke up feeling quite disgusted. Seriously, unconscious mind, what the hell are you trying to tell me?

Of course, all of them were non-lucids. Had I been lucid, I'd have tried to find a way to figure out what was going on.

Last night's dream was not entirely lucid, but once I got there it was fantastic. It has been a long time since I recalled a dream in a journal, so there needs to be some practice there, and I was woken up by external things so that bothered me a bit. So things I need to work on are: lucid dreaming, dream recall, dream re-entering (yes, I can do that), and, of course, writing skills.

First, There was the warehouse that I used as a shortcut, like I owned the place. I can't remember what I was running from the first time, but as I entered the building I was given two choices. The men of the warehouse would let me pass if I modeled for them, or they would kick me out and hand me over to whomever I was running from. Actually, as I write this out, I was hiding from my husband. Hrm, that's strange. Yes, I'm married (almost 12 years), but hiding from him is one thing, modelling for strangers is another, and put them together it's just weird. This is the part where I became lucid though and managed to change a few things around. Modelling was fun and it felt good to be appreciated. In the "real world" I am overweight and not happy about it (hence, the closeup of my fact in the profile picture). In my dream, I was hot stuff.

The dream shifted when my sister came to get me for exams. Did I want to sit my college exams or skip them? I chose to sit them. Again, a difference in dream and awake worlds. I don't sit college exams in my current school; it is all online and exams aren't necessary. I got to choose the location as well, and chose Seton Hall. No, I have never been to Seton Hall, but the process of signing in and sitting an exam was exhilarating. I knew the instructor from previous dreams.

That's something worth mentioning. I dream of the same people a lot. That's another entry, I suppose.

At the end of the exam, we were all treated to a performance from the orchestra, led by a student composer about five years my junior. He had dark hair, an electric smile, and bright eyes. They instructor kept bringing up me during the after-party (type thing) and mentioning to the composer that I was lesbian. In a way, that's true, but after a few minutes he leaned over and whispered that he saw my wedding band "glistening in the light". "That's because I'm married, to a man." I replied. His eyebrows raised and I said the obvious "I'm bi." I felt truly uncomfortable at that point and walked away, back to the warehouse.

Because the warehouse had been previously dirty and "manly" I created an elaborate dressing room for myself to hide in so I could change into something less formal and leave. I had just finished packing up my belongings and clothing when somebody opened the door and scared me half out of my wits. But then, I saw behind him, at a distance, the composer, and I wondered what he could possibly want coming towards me. Unfortunately, I didn't get a chance to find out, for I was woken up from first my alarm, then my husband's, then our cats. Half the dream is missing in my head because of those continued distractions.

The half that remains lingers, like they always do, like these people are real and tangible.

I have, in fact, met people I have dreamt about, and been places I couldn't have possibly seen prior to. Like when I traveled to Australia, I knew my way around a shopping center having never been there before. I knew what kind of temporary table was set up around the corner. What are the chances? I knew it all like I'd been there a thousand times, yet I hadn't been there even once. And that table, was temporary, just set up, even my friend didn't know it was there.

The same thing happened in Toronto. I knew my way around because I'd been there in my dreams. I knew my friend by the way he walked and the way he "felt."

I'll stop here and make another entry soon.

Last night I wasn't able to fall asleep until 02:30 while I had gone to bed at 23:30, and next day I had to get up at 06:00 to study some more for the exam so I barely slept at all.

I know I had some dreams but they were either too blurry or my REM-cycles were simply too short for a vivid dream.


The exam went well (Chemistry) and tomorrow I have English which I'm learning right now as I'm typing this! So today I have nothing to do, I'm exhausted so why not try a WILD in a few minutes?

Date:12th of june.
Total sleep:10 hours.
Supplements: B6 and melatonin.
Daytime Techniques:RC's, mantras, sensory awareness training.
Lucid Techniques:was not lucid.
Recall Techniques: Mantras, dream journal.
Fell Asleep:12.00
Dream Title: sex scandal at the supermarket.
Dream: I only remember bits of the dream, some of it being: Having sex with someone named Suzie? (wtf) Outside of a supermarket. And finging she posted pictures of my penis on the internet to get back at me, for what, i cant remember. Also being by a trailer at the highway, before eventually swimming out to raft in the ocean with my little sister. After we arrive at small raft, we spot a bigger one, and swim out (my little sister clinging to me). When we reach the raft i see a familiar face, Hannah. My memory stops there.
Awake:08.00
Vividness:9
Awareness:2
Length:8
Recall: 2
Emotions/feelings: happines, shame, aroused.
Dream Signs: common DC's (Trym, familiy)
Objects/places/DC's: Supermarket, highway, ocean, trailer, raft, people, alcohol, Trym, George Clooney, Suzie, Hannah, Mia, Video.

Dream fragments: Have a faint memory of a ''beauty and the best'' kinda scene.

Non-lucid, lucid, SP-awake and/or observations

Nap after Work:

.../I'm in the middle of this dream world routine, before going to school. I've just get out of the house and I'm about to go to the bus stop when I realize it's not my waking life and I have dream this sequence before, including the lucidity part. I decide to go on with the plot, so I keep on walking to the bus stop. It's a little bit far from my point of view but I don't mind walking in order to stabilize the dream. I see the bus is already there. I think perhaps I could summon a particular DC in the bus to have some sex. But my body slowly starts to fading out when I realize I stopped feeling my legs.
I'm lying on the bed with my eyes closed. I can partially feel every movement I think about my body although I cannot see it. It's not too difficult to imagine things in this stage. I know I could get back into the dream, so I go on remembering part of the routine I was dreaming before/...
.../I'm getting out of the apartment which is on a higher floor. I realize I can see again and better feel my body. I don't remember other thing but to stabilize the dream. I don't want to lose it thinking too much. I start going down stairs. My body is a little bit blurry and I can still feel myself lying on the bed. so I start slapping my legs and arms to feel them in stead of my real body. It apparently works, so I start going down stairs exaggerating my movements to feel this body. I got to go a couple of floors down but it's too loud out there and I can feel other things which don't make sense in the dreamscape and my body fades out again. I can still feel what I think, but this time it's too loud out here. My wife is making too much noise and I cannot go back to sleep.

* I barely remember I have been shortly lucid in this world before, but it's too blurry to have a proper recall.