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Two dreams from last night
The first I remember being in a large Petrol Station, I remember looking in the glove compartment and finding about 5 squares of chocolate from a box of chocolates wrapped in polythene. After eating them I decided I needed to go into the garage and get some more. Next thing I remember was being in a sub terranium corridor under the Garage with soneone, we knew were graves above us with vampires in, ready to wakeup. I looked about for any type of stick that could be sharpened into a steak and worrying about those graves where the dead had already decomposed.
The next dream was very fragmented.
I was walking arround a country area then led back to my room in a psychiatric residence. Jimmy and Cookie were there (my two cats, though Cookie is now dead in real life) and was worried that they weren't accustomed to their new residence and may wonder off and get lost, I put them in a basket to take them round the area outside, but after a time found that it was too much to carry. Next thing I remember was finding myself back indoors, my cats safely in the room, talking to one of the other residents, not sure what about, but he was writing something. At this point I woke up.

So, last night I got drunk. As in, really wasted. And went to bed around 12AM. I woke up at about 6AM and as usual couldn't go back to sleep. As time went on I sobered up. I got up, used the computer, still was tired, so I went back to bed. Around 8:30AM I must have drifted off again.

This was a false awakening and DILD. I woke up (in my head) and... there were cats everywhere! All over my room! Some were cute and wanted to cling to me, others were nasty and had sharp, pointy claws that hurt. They were all pretty dirty. There must have been 10 cats, running around, climbing on my things, etc. I remember one particular orange cat that would appear at intervals and drag some sort of child's plastic wagon from one side of the room to the other, leave it, and disappear until the next trip, as if it were a horse with a cart hauling passengers. Well, I was in no mood for this. I was drunk and cats were scratching me and not letting me sleep, and probably excreting waste everywhere! So I tried to kick them all out of my room. My land lady even woke up and tried to convince me the cats weren't that bad. (She does have one cat, but I hardly ever even see it.) Every time I thought the cats were gone, I'd find more, kick them out, and as I did so, more would try to sneak back in.

I remember saying to my landlady, "This has never happened before!" At that point, I realized I might be dreaming. So I stood in the middle of my room and stuck my index finger right through the palm of my hand. "I'm dreaming!" I screamed! It sounded deep and booming and distorted. Suddenly the cats were gone (except the orange horse-cat mentioned earlier and another friendly dark cat). I had trouble controlling anything here, but I looked at my hand and first I had 4 fingers, then 20, then 12... as if I were looking through a prism. The clock showed 12:333; I was looking for signs that I was dreaming. I had to remind myself with the finger-through-the-palm method a couple more times in order to maintain the lucidity. I turned on the TV (I don't actually have a TV in my room) and watched a cartoon that didn't make much sense. The sound effects were very cool, though, just like I remember from kids' cartoons in the 80's. After a while I got bored of that and tried humming some new tunes, seeing if maybe I could compose something; music is so clear to me when dreaming. I couldn't maintain the intervals though. I would try to sing up and then come back down to the original note and couldn't find it. That was a little frustrating, and that's when I woke up for real, at about 10AM. I tried to fly and imagine myself somewhere else, but that didn't work. Spinning didn't work either, to stabilize. The entire dream took place in my room and just outside my room (dealing with the cats).

I think cats were prominent in this dream because I had been looking at a whole bunch of lolcats someone had posted to Facebook in the time between 6AM and 8AM. It's Caturday, don't ya know.

01/31/12

Game Analysis 101
I am in school, it seems to be a game design class. Everyone is talking about some video games and comparing them. I am paying some attention, but I feel quite tired and I also feel like falling asleep. My eyelids are heavy and I close them just enough to rest them. I drift to sleep, and then I get poked by the person next to me. I look and I see that my ex-boyfriend is in the class with me, and he has poked me to wake me up. I stay awake long enough to hear everyone is now discussing Oblivion, and how it compares to Fallout 3. The subject of Skyrim comes up as the instructor asks if anyone has played that and how it compares. James says all of them blow ass. I comment he wouldn’t know a good game if it bit him. He gives me a strange look, maybe says something, but I am again drifting off to sleep. My eyes close and then I wake up.

Cats!
I am in a place I don’t recognize, it is a house, and it is a big one. I have no thought that I’m not supposed to be there, I am just wandering around and exploring. I enter a bedroom and see an adorable tabby cat on the bed. How cute! I turn to leave the bedroom and I almost trip over a tortie cat right behind me. Wow… where did you come from? I pat the kitty and head down the hall towards the bathroom. In the bathroom I find there is no human toilet, but there are four cat pans lined against the far wall. Am I supposed to use the cat pan? Even if I wanted to, they are all occupied. There is a cat doing business in each one and also three more cats patiently waiting in line. Wow… 7 more cats! I pat the last one in line and head out to find a human bathroom. I don’t find another bathroom, but I find my way back to the living room. I go to sit on the couch but I am warded off by a hiss. I almost sat on a cat! I look and see there are seven cats crowded onto the seat of the couch, all lying around each other. There are three more cats on the back of the couch and a cat on each arm. 12 more cats! I mentally count cats and realize I have found 21 cats so far. I turn from the couch and almost fall on my face as I realize I am about to step on a cat’s tail and I move awkwardly to avoid doing that. 22 cats… I wake up with a single cat purring beside me.

(Originally typed this up on Tumblr before I realized it was long enough to suffice as a DJ entry, hence the rambling style instead of my usual numbered neatness.)

Okay, so first I was playing this weird version if IRL Minecraft where you had to use a compass and some calculations to find the type of block you needed, and there were twenty different types of flowers, and there was a school test where you had to collect a certain number of each type of block on a list, but then halfway through, the list turned into song quotes and you had to find MP3s of those songs before time ran out.


And then I was visiting some relatives, and I had to sleep in the basement, but the cats kept bothering me (like one tried to mate with my pillow, and there was a kitten that kept crawling around in my pajama pants) so my older cousins and I decided we should make some food and go out for coffee. So I made a sandwich and some tea and a pickle, but when I tried to carry it back to my bed, my little cousins kept leaving obstacles in the way so the sandwich got into the tea. And then my sandwich went missing, and Benedict Cumberbatch was eating it, and I was so angry that I screamed at him and tried to stab his face with a tuning fork.


Also something about hiding under different parts of a tree, ketchup-flavored potato chips, and a bus.

feb 25 '09
There was an unusual amount of gore in this one. I got threatened at gunpoint in frightening detail, with the barrel right up in my face (so that I actually put my shaking hand up and brushed the tip of it, trying to shield myself) by a young woman with rainbow stockings and a shotgun, who proceeded to blow the heads off the other two people in the room: a professionally dressed man and woman. She had to chase the man, so I escaped while she was distracted, but then people started serving dinner while the bodies were being cleaned up, so when someone put a plate of steak and mashed potatoes in front of me, I just kind of pretended I felt sick, out of principle, even though it's always time for steak.

Then I stuck my kitty on my head and we ran around and everything was kind of super for a while. I went to get on the bus and looked for bus money in my wallet (after being at a fair or something where there were some demons and they ripped people apart and haunted a kid or something.) and I had a lot of $3 bills and ****ing coupon-dollars and irregular sized bills and stuff and I was like "is this normal?" to the bus driver and he was like "you're kind of stupid, aren't you?" and I was like "hey, my mom's friend is the one who paid me and I didn't expect her to cheat the **** out of me. Is it so wrong to have that attitude towards a trusted adult?" Then I found two real $1s and got on the bus.

It's a while ago that I'm here so I think it's a good think to post a little lucid dream at first action in the new year .

I awake early in the morning in the sleeping room from my childhood. I stand up wide awake and a very clear view up and walk to the window where I see the moonlight. On the way I see both cats from my childhood (Wuschel and Peterle) one walks away, the other sleep on the carpet .

By the window I stand in a very deep yoga position, look throught the window to the fullmoon which is so great how the window (2m x 2m) . I meditate in the moonlight and when I realised, that my body move oddish I realize that I'm dreaming .

I remember heading out side...I think I was on a Bicycle, and three preople approached me on the road. The youngest little girl stopped and asked me a question. I told "um...I'm not sure but how much". One of them sped off and told the to leave too. The little girl told me that she asked me if I'd be her friend. I told her it sounded like she wanted me to buy candy from her. Anyways, I headed back to my house. Animal Fest 2010 I get there, and there's a Cheshire cat there. This cat is rubbing all against me. It's pretty huge, and it's walking between my legs and brushing my balls. It's so WTF right now, and I'm about to head in the house, and I see all these puppies in the ditch. My friend R comes by on a truck asking me if I saw a certain dog. I told him he could have one of ours. D was there....he handed him a pup. There had to be about 20 or so puppies there, and two grown dogs and two cats. FA My house has a garage.....I'm dreaming FA I get in my car and I see this thick fog everywhere....almost like smoke....I say to myself "well it's obvious that I'm dreaming, but what do I do". FA I'm in some store with Tina Fey, and cameras were rolling. I think I was in an episode of 30 rock. We were just going back and forth ad-libing things just to see who would break character and laugh first. I got her a few times, and then she finally got me with one. It went into all kinds sexual innuendo, and I was fondling her breasts. And some kinda of way the sprinkler system went off. But the water was weird...like thick globs. That's when I knew I was dreaming again. It stopped, and I suggested we might as well continue what we started......and once again shit got WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEIRD. I'll leave out the details, but the dream faded out and back in, and things were normal. She got on top of me...started riding, and wanted me to cum so bad. I was still a little freaked out by what I saw earlier, so it wasn't happening. Woke up shortly after.

12/05/11

I am in my bedroom. I come out into the living room to say hello to my mother. She says the cat is outside and I need to help her catch her. I go out the front door, which is standing wide open. There is a cat on the deck, but it isn't one of the cats I have right now. It's a cat I lost several years ago, a cute little tortoiseshell named Amber.

Amber is sitting on the deck and washing herself, looking completely unconcerned. I head for the kitty to pick her up, but she gets up and jumps off the deck into the grass below. I go down off the deck to try to catch the cat. There are some kids in the driveway playing with a basket ball. I am afraid they will scare Amber. My mom asks how they got in the yard. One of them says there is a gate in the back that is open. I don't remember there being a gate… My mom says she wants the kids to leave before the dogs come out. She opens the front gate to let the kids out. I am yelling to her to not open the gate yet, I haven't caught Amber. I think there is more chance of Amber leaving if the gate is actually open. She doesn't seem to be paying attention to me. I feel something by my feet and I am relieved to see Amber is now rubbing against me and purring. I wake up and find out my waking life cat, Midna, is right by my face and purring loudly.

Oct.13,2011
Nap 1pm-3pm. Going to bed 10.30pm. Woke up at 2.30.am, 4.22am, 5.30am, 6.30am.
Regular dream:
Fragment: something about friend of mine, if I can take her cats with me when I leave; snakes in a backyard; something about me checking out 2 swords, for protection in dreams, I assume.

Oct.13, 2011.

dreamsigns

I slept from 9.50 pm till 3 am, woke up for an hour for a WBTB. I almost got a LD, but my dad was walking around the house and every time I was about to fall asleep, it woke me up. So I had this dream, where in the last part I had some control and summoned a lake (as I was falling asleep, i wanted to dream about swimming in a tropical sea and breathe under water). Remember thinking in the dream, if there was water, I would go lucid, because I can breathe under water in my dreams.

Regular dreams, fragments.

Large building with lots of rooms, I'm running with my guinea pig and two cats. Don't know who is chasing me. Get out through window.

Huge sleeping hall full of people. Modern day refugees?

Group of people outside school, they are mad at the principal and one of them gets into principals car and he is crashing it to things and trying to get me. I know we are in trouble and trying to get away on a shore of a small, muddy river with deep banks. Kinda wading in the shallow shore, in the distance I already see teachers waiting - I got caught.
Somehow I get away.

I keep thinking, if there was water where I can breathe under water, I would go lucid. So there was a lake with clear water, and I was breathing under water, but didn't go lucid.

Group of people (I had a feeling that they are the DCs from LD I had yesterday) was trying to save me from principal. I could swear that the nun from yesterdays LD was there too, although yesterday I thought she is a negative DC. They wanted to save me by putting me on their bus. I sat in the seat and next to me was this homeless man who sneezed at me. I had a feeling, he may just pretend to be homeless, for my benefit.

05.10.2011

Successful WILD! Trick or Treat and Questions About My Dream Guide (WILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I wake up at 8:24, from a dream about meeting a girl. I spend about 10 minutes writing it down, and lay on my front just to sit and think about the dream for a while. All of a sudden - BAM - I'm hit with a massive wave of vibrations. I of course, decided to go with it - and I decided to try using an AP exit technique. I stayed still, allowing the vibrations to deepen, and started visualising pulling up on a rope, and pulling myself out of my body. The vibrations intensified, and the lowered briefly. I kept going with the visualisation until I really felt myself start to slip out. Infront of my eyes, a hallucination started.

I saw a CRT computer monitor, perfectly square, with a bunch of symbols on the screen, one was a clown face, then others just squares, spheres, a pyramid. I began to feel the vibrations lower, and the hallucination solidified properly. I asked it - "Who is my dreamguide?" A picture of my cat appeared on the screen. I asked again "Who is my dreamguide?" A picture of the music teacher from the Simpons appeared, an older man with grey hair around the sides. It is possible that I asked again - but I can not remember correctly if I received a reply.

I decided here to take a chance - I wasn't sure how deep in the dream I was, and I didn't know if I would wake if I tried to move. I threw off my covers and stood up. I could feel my body but I couldn't see - am I awake? My eye mask fell down on my face, and I shifted it, and took it off - my bedroom appeared before me. It was night, I stood in the middle of my room, I looked in the mirror - whoa I look weird, I must be in the dream. I tried to count my fingers but it wasn't working - screw it. I plugged my nose and breathed in and out, I forgot how much fun this was! I used body awareness to stabilise further - centering myself into the dream.

Oh! The Task of the Month! I faced my bedroom door, "Trick or Treat!" I said, and opened the door. It was just my family room - nothing abnormal and nothing to receive. Damn. I walked up the hallway to my parent's room. "TRICK OR TREAT!" - I reached out and went to slide the door open, and it flew off as though I had kicked it down - awesome! Inside, they are both asleep. Dad rolls over and turns on a lamp next to his bed, and I notice that as the lights come on it becomes day - that saved a bit of effort.

I walk over and stand next to my mum's side of the bed, Dad rolls over and searches next to his bed. I look at my hands - I needed to shape shift aswell, one of the gods? Zeus. I try and make a large lightning bolt in my hand, but get a blue glow and a few sparks. I don't even know how to shapeshift! I'll just do it later.

"So who IS my dreamguide?" I ask
Mum starts talking about something strange - about how when someone is sick, there is an association people make with them within society. She's rummaging through a small box, and I see a pillow with an apple sticker with "Sick - Sam" written on it - probably from my cousin being sick here sometime. Is that what she's talking about? I still don't understand. I end up holding my luggage bag - what dad was searching for over the edge of his bed - my trick or treat gift. I use the texture of the leather on the handle to stabilise while I talk. I didn't look in the bag.
"Who is my dreamguide?" I ask again.
"Well, you've been told.. me, cats," my Dad replies
"Yeah, uh.."
"Old Man Fudd" - a reference to the Simpsons music teacher - that's not his name.
"And who else, I can't remember! I can't remember!"

The dream instantly dissapears as I wake up drawing a sharp gasp.

The messages in this dream were quite confusing. I'm not sure what to think of it. I've always thought of my cats as highly spiritual beings, but I've never thought of them as helping me with my dreaming. My father isn't my dreamguide, but has led me spiritually throughout my life.

The music teacher, with greying hair is interesting though. In the last lucid before this, I became lucid after an older man, in a police car yelled out to me 'Isn't this weird, Alex?!' When I think back through my dreams, I can note significance of an older man. He was there when I questioned my dad if I could learn to fly, he was there when I landed from my first power slide, he was there when I met Alex for the second time. I feel that he could play a significant role in my dreams, though I haven't spoken to him more than once. I will continue to find my dream guide, speak to Alex again and find out more about this old man.

[COLOR="red"]I'm talking to my friend, Caitlyn on Facebook. She sends me a link, and tells me to click on it. The link I notices has the words "silly-poo-brain" in it. I click it, and on Facebook loads two profiles both called James Fowler. They both have my picture. I click the top one, and there is a picture of me when I was two. There are comments, one calling me ugly. Then there are others, as if the photo has changed. Somebody wrote an acrostic poem about parents killing a girl, and her cat! Then mum came in saying the Cat (I'm assuming a stray, I don't have one) was badly injured. She came in and said this twice. I told her "That's going to be expensive!" (It needed something to do with its eyes). She replied "Don't even get me started!"[/COLOR]

1. I was cleaning up a grave yard. Someone had tipped over all the tombstones and I took it upon myself to right them. At some point I also fell into a grave that was half dug open.

2. I was at a house helping someone with repairs. We came into a room to discover hundreds of cat pelts laying all over the floor. Some still had the heads attached. I had to find out who would do such a terrible thing.

3. Lucid: Woke at 3:13am, drank, back to bed
Dream started off OBE like. I floated out of my body and into a vertical position before landing on the floor. I began looking through drawers and cupboards with the feeling that something important was waiting to be discovered. A hallway closet was empty, a void. I picked up a shoe and tossed it into the void. It disappeared into the darkness. I don't hear it land anywhere. I decide to just do it and jump in. But I didn't fall down. I fell forward and horizontally into the blackness. I keep falling and I do not recall if I fell into a new dream or if I might have awakened.

4. I was outside when a vicious blizzard decides to strike. I can't even see a foot ahead of myself. When the blizzard finally dies down I am surrounded by giant snow drifts. Shapes adorn the drifts. Some are just hand prints. Others are names. One is a large heart that is a message to me. I can't remember the message but I stomped through the snow to write a message back that said, "I know. See you soon." I then tried to find my way to shelter.

07-09-11 I am in an airport with a woman on a raised walkway that leads out to the gates. It is nighttime and the walkway we are on is very narrow and not surrounded by railings, which disturbs me and makes me wonder slightly.
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I am in a car with a woman. She is a vampire and has hostile intentions either towards me or someone else and I plan on stopping her. However I have some sort of relationship to her and don't want to hurt her.

She might be Pam off True Blood. The way I subdue her by holding her by the neck but she refuse to lay off. In the end I start calling out for Xavier, who is her maker, telepathically for him to come and pick her up.

I manage to get hold of him, which is a weird conversation taking place in utter darkness inside my head. He comes to pick her up and as he does so he stuffs the car full of duvets and mattresses and then procedes to shove her in.
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I am in a house unpacking speaking with my dad. As we are unpacking my parents' neighbour's cats emerge and start making themselves comfortable.

They don't particularly want to go back to their owner though they are supposed to. Castello, though a darker and leaner version of himself, start climbing up a closet.

Clyde is lying on the floor under a table.
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Speaking with my dad, he is drunk and he is talking about the amount of stuff Freddy bought in a shop.

I had a dream last night that I moved into a new neighborhood.. it was more like a town since there weren't many homes around..lots of trees. In my dream I was living with this one guy who was my husband and no children. I did have a dog in my dream a small white one.
I woke up in the night in my dream and walked into the living room to look out this huge window that over looked the woods.. I look and I can see down a hill.. I guess my house was at the top of a small hill looking over the woods.. I heard branches breaking and to my left I saw this guy sneaking around trying to be quiet.. he motions someone else to come over to him but he is on my property. I see I have the front door open but was so scared to close it because he was on the other side just over the balcony ..I was scared he would catch me. I couldn't take it anymore and decided to make noises like coughing.. don't know why that was my choice and I make my way to the door to slam it shut.. but strange there was an open door on the other side of the wall and now a different guy was standing in front of it making his way in.. I start to scream and run in the bedroom.. my so called husband is dead asleep and this guy comes rushing in the bedroom holding a large bar bell... ones that people use to lift weights and he starts swinging it around at us but it was too dark for him to aim good.. the guy in my dream who is suppose to be my husband jumps out of bed just in time to avoid the hit of the bar bell.. this guy is wild in the eyes and heavy set.. I am screaming at the top of my lungs...
Scene switches..
Back in the same living room with the white dog and I see these cats at the front door.. I open the door to let what I think is my own cat in but these 2 race inside along with my own cat.. one is black and white the other is white and tainted brown.. the white cat has liquid coming out of it's ear like it was sick.. the liquid was brown and I didn't want the cat in the house... so I get some food and try to trick them to leave out the door.. all of a sudden the cats claw at me.. and I am squeezing it's back trying to get it to stop.. it was weird and I literally felt the sting of it's claws..
Scene switches and I am in this trailer park all the trailers are metal and I am walking through with some guy and his mother.. I don't know who they are but I am trying to hide from someone and they are helping me.. the woman opens a trailer door and tells me there is a creature in there slamming the door shut.. We are running and that is all I could recall since waking up