10,25,14 Last night bed = not sure. I wasn§t gonna write this down, but I keep coming back to it all day long. DR I am on the bottom part of a bridge, that is like an overpass. It goes higher and then down on the other side. There is a lot of people sitting, leaning with their backs to the solid concrete rail of the road and bridge. I don§t know what are we doing there. I don't feel comfortable, but I'm accepting it because I think it's my new reality. Someone offers me a yellow pill. It's oval and something is written on it. Some kind of a drug thats taken illegaly. I don't really have any feeling about it. I don't think I'm thinking very clearly. Some kind of a shock from this new reality and just rolling with the punches. I don't know if I took it, but someone says he takes it for hallucinations. So i think I didn't take it, and I said something like pfff. Then we are still on the roadway. We find a bench to sit on, because we are going to eat soon and we want to have a place to sit. There are booth with food.
10/20/14 Note: It has been a long time since I have posted a dream. I have been having some serious issues with depression and I have been unable to remember most of my dreams and mostly not cared about the ones I have remembered. I think I am breaking out of the darkness of depression now and I will try to post dreams more often again. Fall Into Darkness I am somewhere I don’t recognize, but I don’t really care about that. I feel awful. I hurt inside, my depression is giving me serious problems right now. I don’t really notice anything going on around me, just the pain inside. I finally pull myself to my feet and I look around. The room I’m in looks abandoned. It looks like whoever had been here left in a bit of chaos. It looks like it used to be an office of some kind but now it is trashed. There is some broken computer equipment lying by a desk that is almost broken in half, papers are strewn everywhere, and none of the lights are working, leaving the room only illuminated by a street light outside the window. I don’t pay too much attention to the setting, however, I walk over to the window and look out. The window has been broken and I am able to step right out onto the ledge. I see there is a city outside, but there aren’t many lights on even though it is night time. I look down and see I am a long way up in what must be a skyscraper. There are people way down there, though there is something odd about the way they’re moving. Because of how I am feeling, however, I don’t pay too much attention to the people down below. I am just hurting so much inside. I know things will never get any better. I’m no good to anyone, and I’m no good to myself, there is only one way to escape such pain. So with absolutely no hope in my broken and dying heart I step off of the ledge and feel myself falling into the comforting embrace of death… But no… that doesn’t happen. I fall for a bit and then I feel I am being lifted back up into the air. It feels almost like flying, which is an exhilarating feeling compared to the crushing depression I felt just seconds before. I notice that someone has put their arms around me. Someone has snatched me right out of the air, taking me into a strong and comforting embrace… and we are flying! Or it certainly feels like flying… maybe it was just a really high jump because the next thing I notice is that my rescuer and I land safely on the roof of a building next to the one I jumped from. My rescuer sets me down and now I am able to turn around and see who it is. I turn around and find myself staring directly into the blue eyes of Alex Mercer from Prototype. From the look in his eyes it appears Alex is a mix of concerned and annoyed. He asks what I was thinking when I did something that foolish, do I want to die? I tell him that was the general idea. I tell him there really is no reason for me to continue. He looks at me for a bit longer and then asks if I even realize that I’m dreaming. He says he knows I can’t really die in a dream, but do I really want to? I stop for a bit and look at him, trying to comprehend the idea that I am just dreaming now. The pain inside has faded a lot now that I am here with Alex. He takes me into his arms and says he would love for me to be able to come to the dream state permanently so we could be together more, but not like that. He said he only wants that to happen when it is my time, he doesn’t want to see my life end like that, there is still too much that I can do in my current home world. I tell him there isn’t any hope. I tell him I can’t do it alone. I can’t face all that is against me all alone. He said I am never really alone, he is right here with me. And so is Altaïr… and Hetfield… and everyone else that is in my inner world. And even in the physical world I have my friends and my mom. I tell him that everything just feels so hopeless. He said he can help me with that… and he’ll no longer take ‘no’ for an answer. He pulls me back into his arms and holds me there, it feels comforting. I don’t even realize that he’s actually consuming me until everything around me fades to black and then I wake up feeling at peace.
Non-Dream Dream I am meditating and it causes me to float. I float over to my parents house in Anaheim and pee in their shower. We start playing a card game that I am making up as we go. It uses baseball cards. One player puts a card down and the next person has to match the card #, team, jersey #, lefty/right, etc (players choice). My dad argues with me saying that David Ortiz bats righty.
My recall sucks again cause I didn't write it down in the morning. I remember that first when I started to fall asleep I heard and saw something about germany going against the U.S and becoming a world power. Than fell asleep and woke up not remembering what I dreamt about. After I went back to sleep though I recall being with a old friend I think...He was protecting me from something in the dream...Maybe from a monster that wanted my blood.Than at some point we were in my house and I was showing him some drawings and he was showing me his. But the drawings were all in jumbled small pieces of papers so I said it would be best to throw it out. But he told me not to because they were really good and I worked hard to draw it. I agreed and decided not to throw it out. Than something else happened and at the end I was at my house and I was mad at my cousins so I told them to move so I can eat cake at the table. They moved and fixed the table for me so I could eat. Than I woke up.
All non lucid of course ....Had a great dream early on so only the latter part I can mind ... In an attic, it was huge. there were soldiers or people in uniforms anyway ahead of me. I crawled along a floorboard and then the attic opened out into a huge well lit area, so well lit it looked like it was outside. There was even earth on the floor! There were various structures and objects against the walls but I forget. Ahead were three Chaffinch. I wondered how they had got in. A woman said we should close the windows until I told her that that would prevent the chaffinch getting in and out. I woke up, and tried to store the dream away in my head and promptly fell asleep. In my next dream I remembered the attic dream and was desperate to write it sown. Think I was at an airport. There was a comic on a big table and I found a space on it I could write. As I was about to do so a narrator said - 'The Bunty is the 25th most expensive comic on the planet. That's £1.25 of your money' I dinny think I've ever had a narrator before (apart from when its a TV related dream) Anyway, I tried to write 'In an attic' on the comic, but turns out it was made of plastic and my pen wouldn't work. Next dream, me and my wife went to a room, there was a strange drop on the far side and we sat beside it. The sprinklers were going and we were absolutely drookit! A fat man in a grey suit came in and jabbered something in a foreign tongue. My wife asked if he spoke English and he said 'These sprinklers play up a lot' Me , the wife and bairn in a hotel corridor. I said 'Theres a monster in the cupboard' I opened the cupboard, it went back maybe 20feet and the monster started pushing its way towards us. It was a ginger and white cat! It leapt and clung to my arm. I then said to myself 'We'll skip this part' which we did , - that's never happened to me before! The monster cat was ready to pounce. I looked up the corridor, the room at the top had its door open and a man I recognised was manhandling a dead naked body for some reason. I pulled the cupboard door open so it blocked the corridor and the monster ate the man I presume, he didnae sound happy anyway. The monster then appeared at a crack by the door. He had glowing eyes which burnt out and he started purring. I had a narrator again who said 'He is satisfied for the moment' Boring work stuff where a Ned and his bairn came bursting into the shop demanding a kilt hire just as I was away to close. Quite an interesting night...
I remember pretty much nothing about my dreams last night, I think there was a guitar at some point, a nice electric. Tried FILD and SSILD simultaneously, but nothing really came of it.
1. I was outside of my house at the front of my driveway with a few of my friends. We were just hanging out when suddenly we saw a Koenigsegg Cop car. This stunned me, I never expected to see one in my driveway before. There was one thing that I didn't like about this car though, it was dented and really messed up in the back. The car started moving forward and I thought that the cop was about to leave. When I saw through the windshield I saw that the driver inside was no cop, it was a random black dude, and he was hostile too. We got in the way of his car and started talking to him. I forgot the conversation but something made the guy mad and he pulled out a gun and threatened to shoot us. I backed up, my friends stayed right in front of the car. "If you don't get out of the way right now I'm going to shoot you!" He yelled at us. My friends continued standing in his way for another 30 seconds, the black dude was still yelling at them. I figured I had enough time to help out the situation a bit, so I went back up to his car where my friends were standing and looked at his license plate. I don't remember the exact numbers, but I think his license number was "2G3WW5" or something really close to that. I stood there for a second making sure I memorized his license plate, because I had nothing to write it down on. Once I memorized it I ran to my front door, opened it up, and went inside. Immediately as I got inside of my house I became lucid. I walked into my livingroom and saw my mom,dad, and my sister all sitting down on either the couch or the recliner. My dad was on the recliner and my mom and sister were on the green couch. Something was weird though, my vision was sort of messed up. It was as though my glasses were halfway off of my face, so I was seeing two versions of everything, one clear and one blurry. I pushed up my glasses thinking that that would fix it, but as soon as I let go of the frame the glasses would slide back down. I was not about to go an entire lucid dream with messed up vision, so I threw off my glasses. As I did so I expected my vision to be perfect, but it was exactly like it was in waking life when I had my glasses off, everything was blurry. Slowly my vision started to correct itself and everything became almost perfect. I looked at my parents who were just watching t.v motionless like robots and everything looked crystal clear! It was like the Dream World was actually real, everything looked SO real(maybe because it is, haha). I then remember walking into my foyer, looking around, and then walking into my laundry room where the trashcan also is and throwing something away. Then I woke up. 2. I was inside of some random house, and I was with 4 people that I didn't know, and a dog. At first we were all in a room together, doing nothing. Then, I figured out that these four people were actually two couples together. At one point, one of the couples walked out into the hallway and started making out. The couple that stayed in the room with my started having intercourse. They told me to keep watch and make sure the other couple didn't come back. I looked out in the hallway and kept watch. I saw the other couple making out furiously, and it looked kind of weird honestly. I looked back in the room at the couple that was banging and thought of how I could be banging the dudes chick. Suddenly the other couple started walking back towards the room. I told the couple inside of the room that they were coming back, and as I did the dude literally shoved his penis back into his pants, with no problem at all. It was like his penis was flaccid the entire time. I felt a bit sorry for him. Out of no where I became lucid. The other couple that had been furiously making out in the hallway finally made it back into the room, and the girl that was getting intercourse from her boyfriend was still naked, but the other couple didn't even care. I knew what I was going to do. I walked over to the dudes girlfriend that was already naked, and I put her in the doggy style position. I pulled down my pants and was about to go to work when I suddenly felt myself waking up. "Stay in the dream" I told myself repeatedly, but I knew saying that wouldnt work if my emotions werent stabilized, and I couldn't stabilize them at the time anyway because there was a naked girl in front of me, and my adrenaline was running. Eventually I woke up. 3. I was with my friends inside of my friends Ryan's car. Trey was with me, and a few others. I was sitting in the back left seat, just enjoying the ride. "We'll be there in a few minutes guys" Ryan told us. A few minutes passed and we made it to the haunted house. We all got out of the car and went inside. It was daytime while we were outside, but immediately as we got inside it turned nighttime. Of course though before we got inside we had to wait in a short line, but we only waited for maybe a minute or two and then got in. When we got in, I noticed that this haunted house was just a normal house, but made now to where it was haunted. A lady led us all upstairs and started talking to us a little bit about the house. Suddenly the house went dark. All of the lights were now off in the house, but surprisingly I could still see well. I stayed in a group with all of my friends, and we just stood in the room and waited for something to happen. Out of no where somebody in a really scary costume came out of the corner and started chasing after us. Suddenly I became lucid. I left my group of friends and walked around the house by myself. I was amazed at how real everything was, and the clarity of everything was stunning. I stayed upstairs for a little bit, and while I did I walked into a really dark room that no one was in. I walked around inside and something jumped out at me. It was a small rattling worm dog toy,colored blue and a transparent white, and it was alive. It would chase me around and touch my leg and try to grab onto it. I left this room and went into the room where we began and inside of this room was the scary costume guy that I thought was chasing everyone. He was just standing in the corner, motionless. I decided I was going to walk into the room, just to see what he would do. I wasnt scared because the atmosphere in the house felt more play-like because of all of my friends screaming(they sounded like they were having fun, not actual screaming). I walked into the room, and after two or three steps inside the scary costume guy jump scared me and started chasing after me. At this point I ran downstairs and looked around. Later on I remember leaving the haunted house and then coming back for a 2nd time, but the 2nd time we didn't get there on time so we just left and didn't go inside. As we drove back home we drove over a huge opening in the road with only white rope covering it. Ryan's car gripped onto the rope and drove over the opening.
There was a satanic cult that operated in a small rural community close to where I live. Their order of ceremonies insisted that at each service the members of the society must watch Wes Anderson's film "Fantastic Mr. Fox". It was a requirement. Not a single service went by without a screening of it. I remember thinking to myself, "This should make some awesome trivia on the movie's page on IMDb. Those cultists must know that movie inside and out! I wonder why it's so important to them." This blond-haired boy gymnast was hanging upside down by his feet in a gym. He was wearing some tight-fitting athletic garb that looked sort of like a speedo. Then this girl came up to him and started kissing him. She also kissed him in some of his more private places. It was embarrassing. Then I was sitting in possibly the coolest room I've ever been in in a dream. It had an extremely low ceiling, so that I had to bend over even when I was sitting cross legged on the floor. Everything was made of wood and painted black. The only light came from the ceiling which was covered in these glowing, multicolored geometric designs. They looked sort of like Indian henna art, and it covered the whole ceiling and sort of swirled around. Then that same girl that had kissed the blond boy came in through a trap door in the floor. She sort of started flirting with me. She mentioned that sweethearts like to lie on their backs together and watch the ceiling as the designs swirled around. She also mentioned several times that she just wanted to "eat me up". I was driving down a busy interstate at about 80 mph very late at night. I was going around a big turn in the road. I was passing people right and left, so I was having to swerve a lot. Nobody's tail lights seemed to be working, so I just had to guess at where they were. It was freaky. My family and I were shopping at Walmart. My mom forbade me to ever use DreamViews again. I protested that it helped me in learning how to lucid dream and I had a dream journal there. But she forbade it. So I left a notice on the site that I wouldn't be posting anymore, and deleted my account. Hagrid from Harry Potter was standing by what looked like a laundry or garbage shoot. He shouted, "All aboard for Hogwarts!" Then Professor McGonagall appeared carrying about five little kids in her arms. They all yelled in delight, "Yaaay!! YaaaaY!!! We're all going to HOGWARTS!!!" Then she shoved them down the shoot. She started laughing and said, "oh, they're so cute! Bless them! They wanted to go to Hogwarts, and we sent them there!"
I was chronically ill, and this girl I like was taking care of me. She and I went to this hugely fancy gala at a big mansion. I made a VFX shot in which I cloned myself multiple times. A lady was very sick and needed a back brace. To get her one, a man removed all his ribs and made her one out of them. This kid had a flamethrower and was walking around with it. Then suddenly he DIDN'T have a flamethrower, and instead he had a can of beans. He set it down on a chair, but it floated about a foot above it. Then I went over and picked up the can and set it back down. This time it floated about five or six feet in the air. I figured the can was resting on the head of some terrifying five-foot-tall monster standing on the chair, and I got irrationally scared. I woke up. I was at a church on a rainy day. A 12-year-old girl was giving a sermon on an impending stock market crash. My sister didn't like the sermon so she left and went outside and started collecting acorns that had fallen on the ground. Then I dreamed I texted the girl I like and told her about the dreams I had about her earlier that night. She said she had dreamed about me too.
I owned an antique shop called Little Ghost.
A hillbilly set himself up as the self-appointed god of the world. He called himself "The Right". His daughter was his most faithful follower. One of my friends had a really weird picture of a fox hung on a wall in his room. I had these HUGE biceps, but I was sorely disappointed because they weren't big enough. I was reading a children's book based on the Pixar movie Brave.
This girl I like turned herself into an animal for fun, and she suggested I do the same. I met her out in a field by a fence row. She was a beautiful exuberant fox, and she was excited to see me. I tried turning into a fox, but I ended up as a... fish.
I dreamed I was working on a farm with a good friend of mine and his father. His father was pulling something with a tractor. Suddenly, he made a sharp right turn and the tractor tipped over on its side. The father wasn't hurt, but my friend was. I started crying and ran to him and picked him up in my arms. He was pinned under the tractor and unconscious. He had been very close to being crushed by a tire. It seemed, though, that he would probably heal in time. I was showing director Wes Anderson around our house, and he was entranced by a moving picture of a train that we had hanging on our wall. He commented that he "liked the framing". I'm not sure if it was in reference to the composition of the picture or the picture frame it was hung in. Another of my friends and his sister and I and another guy were sitting at a table in a cold room with a radio. It was raining outside. The guy turned on the radio, and a classical station came on, playing Bach's Air for G String. The song made me soooo sad, and I started to cry. The sister moved closer to me and comforted me.
My mother and sister and I were watching a movie together. It was kind of a creepy show. Then my sister gave a sort of whimper, reached over to me and pointed to something behind me. I looked. There was a shadow on the wall that bore a striking resemblance to the evil monster thing in the movie. I got scared and woke up.
I went to sleep around ten last night and woke up at five. DF: Something about a man in black standing in the distance. I stayed up for an hour and went back to sleep, and then woke up at eight. DF: Something was going on and I wanted to sleep, so I went in a bedroom and did that. Dream: Several of my friends and I went to a camp that was most likely located in Tennessee. I remember Jasper (my best friend), Cho, and Jackson (from school) coming with me. My parents were also there, except being there forced them into younger bodies and mindsets. After she spent a little time there my mother was ready to return to the real world, but Daddy wanted to stay. Campers stayed in fairly large cabins, most of which were bigger than a lot of houses, and they were all separated depending on age and gender. At some point during the night Jackson's group picked their cabin from the inside and moved it to where we were. The girls and I seen it from the windows and were mostly impressed as they managed the feat again. In fact, I was so impressed that I wanted to see if I could do it, too. I walked over to one of the walls (wooden, of course, and a very dark brown) and placed my palms on it, pushing it upward. I'm not sure if it worked or not, but it may have. The next day we were eating (I'm not sure if this was breakfast, lunch, or supper). The cafeteria looked very much like my school's, except campers were allowed to eat in the back (and at my school they aren't). I wanted to speak with Jasper but it was very difficult to find him, so we talked on the phone while we both walked around the cafeteria, attempting to locate the other. At some point I did find him, yet he always walked away from me even if I told him to stop, and I think he changed his appearance a tiny bit so that it was harder for me to find him. Finally, camp was over and we were meant to go back home. Everyone crowded out into the afternoon. There were quite a few cabins, which I hadn't realized prior to then, and also an oak tree in the center of the camp. Forest was all around us, but there was a dirt road that went into the area. We were waiting for our rides to come pick us up. I was by Cho. Well, we seen cars driving fast and a camp-cop stopped many of them and let a few through, and the campers who were going to ride with them hopped on in and they all drove off. This happened a few more times, until finally Cho and I were the only ones left in the camp. We realized that we were going to have to walk all the way back home, and stated going down the road. It was very steep, but thankfully at a certain point a fence that was meant to be barbed wire in the dream appeared to our left, which was good because it was easy to hold onto it while we climbed. Occasionally there were holes in the fence which led to certain things, though I'm not sure what. Eventually, right before Cho and I hit an extremely steep hill, she said, "I'm so glad that we found Liberty Land." Now, the Liberty Land that she was speaking of is shut down now, but I went to it twice or thrice as a younger child with my parents. I was in front of her, facing the hole (she only knew it was there, she couldn't see). Although I don't remember there being a ceiling, or any other cover, it was nighttime in the hole and the afternoon outside of it. It was a huge circle, and I could make out stripes of red and white and squares of blue with stars in them, and the entire deal was covered in white fluffy stuffing--the same stuffing one finds in stuffed toys. I realized that it would be easy, so easy, to hide in Liberty Land to rest. I climbed in, but didn't get far. An elderly woman with gray-white hair, elastic light blue jeans, and either a pink or green shirt materialized in front of me, and told me that it would not be wise to stay there. I understood and believed her and turned around to go just as Cho was about to climb in (it didn't seem as though she could see the woman). I briefly wondered who she was, and thought that she might be the ghost of one of the people who died from the rides. As soon as we got out, we turned behind us and seen several girls getting into cars--neither of which had been there previously. We joined them. I'm not sure if Cho turned into Gail or if Gail was merely already in the car, but she and I went to my place, where I ate stale popcorn and she watched the Bonds Naruto movie. DF: My parents are fighting and I warn them that if they don't stop I'll call the cops, but they don't mind me. I grab my phone and walk out the door, which opens up to the break area at my school. My phone doesn't seem to be working at all, because I can't get to where I need to to dial 911.