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Morning of January 8, 2015. Thursday.



My family and I seem to be living back in Brisbane on Stadcor Street. The annoying neighbors are seemingly ones we have had more recently, though. I am looking at a magazine but sometimes seem to be more present at the actual location where the (mostly newer and in color) photographs were taken, but not with any interaction or acknowledgement of my presence by anyone in the photographs. At first, there are a few images of a younger nun looking at a mummified nun that had been placed near a doorway (to the right of it). It is in some sort of catacombs directly linked with or inside a larger church. Later on, there are platforms that display mummified bishops, cardinals, and popes. Many are well-preserved, but there is one where the back is arched and the head turned back at an odd angle with the mouth wide open. It is mentioned how some remains had not been maintained during certain time periods or within certain groups. Some bodies and heads are much more skeletal than others. This possibly represents my complete disinterest (since early childhood) in anything relative to churches or organized religion. Mummies and statues seem to have similar in-dream meanings, though oddly enough, statues have proven to be more likely to come to life than mummies. I think statues reflect stronger or more recent associations with potential of what they represent while mummies represent non-potential. In fact, one of my first better-documented lucid dreams as such (from age four) related to the statue of “The Thinker” coming to life (yet at the same time not wanting to be seen as such by the general public).

Later on, there is some sort of frustration regarding the neighbors, but it is not clear. I end up with some sort of gorilla costume, which I wear at first to protect myself from their antics. This in fact does not seem that logical in afterthought - as one wearing a gorilla costume would be far more conspicuous. However, the costume also has some sort of advanced internal technology which also makes the suit bulletproof. This bulletproof nature seems based on some sort of redirection using advanced technology. Apparently there is an active invisible layer around the suit that instantly detects proximity of any kind, which also instantly reverses any projectile - perhaps based on some sort of magnetic inversion in some sort of field around every point on the suit, though works on any kind of threat including nonmetallic. I do not have to do anything as it is automatic.

Eventually, there are military officials involved. Some who shoot at me are victims of their own weapons when the bullets redirect back to them. I am more annoyed at being followed around, including down an alley in town, than being shot at. Even a rocket launcher is ready to be used on me, but there is no effect. In fact, the bigger the weapon, the sooner it redirects. Thus, the rocket explodes as soon as it leaves the launcher when it is fairly far away from me in the alley (and on the opposite side). This seems to vaguely remind me of some sort of physics law relative to gravity. The men following me mostly only appear in groups of two or three at a time.

I am vaguely remembering that if I find the portal to the Pascal-triangle-like phasing of reality (related to the “event horizon” of reality) I can then be invisible to all but the most intelligent members of human society, though invisible to all depending on how far I go.

I was playing with legos. Somehow or other I had legend of Korra lego figures and I had made a spaceship that all of the main characters could ride around in. I was doing that thing that you always see kids doing with Lego spaceships where they spin in circles and run around making laser gun sounds for no other reason than it could be done. I was really enjoying myself as well.

I was playing outside at night for some reason. I believe it was summer.

Just then I stopped. I noticed that the moon seemed to look strange. It seemed like there were no craters and the whole thing was just flat gray maria. My view seemed to zoom in on the moon. It came back to me, and I thought of how strange it was. Then I noticed that there was a second larger moon right next to it.

I thought for a second about what that might mean and realized that extra celestial bodies was a common dream sign. I preformed the nose pinch. Dreamin', baby! I had good lucidity too.

I looked up at the night sky. It was a clear night with no clouds. I thought about the stars for a few moments. There was a very bright one (might have been a planet) right above me.

I realized that I might want to try and stabilize the dream, seeing as I've been losing my lucid dreams a lot this past week or so. So my first priority was to get daylight. I tried my old trick of swiping the sky like an Iphone screen, but it didn't work. I tried swiping it the other direction and it still didn't work. I tried swiping it north-south (though this makes no sense) the sun came up directly south relative to my house.

Just then the dream started to destabilize. I laid down on the grass and grabbed onto it with both hands. "I will not lose the dream, I will not lose the dream, I will not lose the dream, I will not lose the dream, I will not lose the dream!" I began to feel like I was spinning. A golden light passed over me, and I phased through a number of blurry environments but retained the grassy bed below me.

I got up and pulled up the grass. I put it in my mouth to try to stimulate taste or maybe hold onto the dream a little longer, but it tasted like having metal shards in my mouth. I spit it out to see that the grass was in fact a bunch of small X-acto blades.

I looked around. I was in a perfectly flat meadow. All around me were equally sized and spaced tombstones. They were huge, about ten or twelve feet tall, and they didn't have any writing on them. And they were all on forty-five degree angles leaning toward a huge tree that the sunlight shone through. There were a couple of clouds in the sky.

I began to feel Manei was somewhere in the dream. I felt like I should focus on her, bring her forward, but the dream was slipping quickly.

"I want to know why the dream is so unstable!"

I began to lose the dream again, and let it slide this time. There really was no point if it was going to fight me this hard. I did my best to hang on to staring at the huge tree.

I'm driving my mom's car for the first time in a while, and am having a grand old time doing 360s on the snowy road, while avoiding crashing into the other traffic on the road. I turn up a hill to my right and the back end of the car whips around half way, I turn the wheel the other direction, slam it in reverse and put the pedal to the floor, causing the car to do 2 complete spins. I'm heading toward a big snow bank, so I turn the wheel the other way and keep the pedal to the floor. The car starts going back down the hill toward the road. It's really slippery, so I start turning about a hundred feet before the road. Sliding sideways pretty fast now, I keep my foot on the gas and power slide out into the main road. Another car is coming the opposite direction. I do some fancy maneuvering with the steering wheel to get out of the power slide and just barely avoid the oncoming car. Close call there. Now on the main road, I'm just driving normally. Another car comes, but it is really straddling the center line. I move over to avoid it, but it's too far on my side. I spin my car sideways to avoid a head on collision, and just tap the front headlight of the other car with the rear bumper of mine. I pull over into the nearby store to see if the other car is damaged or not. She has already pulled in, and the store owner and her are looking at the car. I get out, turn the car off, and walk up, seeing a bunch of fluid pouring out of the other car. It looks like radiator fluid. At least it's coming out of the radiator, it really looks just like water. The store owner says, "You might want to add some oil or antifreeze to it." The other driver looks at her, gets a really upset look on her face and yells back, "Really?!? Obviously I'll have to add more coolant to it! How could I not?" I notice a pipe has come completely loose. If that pipe could just be welded back on, she'd be good to go. I think about possible repair costs and mechanic labor. Looking at the pipe again, a new pipe might not be that expensive, it's a straight tube going between two fittings. So one pipe, one fitting, and an hour tops to weld it, can't be much more than $200. I'm relieved that it won't be very expensive because I'm broke. Although it's really ironic that I didn't crash at all while messing around, but only when I started to drive safely that something happened...

In a group of people, we are all taken prisoner. Our captors try to get me to give out information to help them capture and kill more people, but I refuse. They threaten to kill me if I don't tell them. I think that's a good reason to die. I get pushed down to the ground, and they threaten me again. I close my eyes and go to my happy place. I hear machine gun fire, and feel bullets ripping through my flesh. My shoulders, arms, legs and torso are all hit repeatedly, and I can tell the bullets pass right through me. I'm in shock. I can't open my eyes. I don't want to open my eyes. My visual awareness starts to swirl together and then get all whispy. Although my eyes are closed, even the glittering blackness begins to fade. Then I see horrible faces all around, like dark gray demons scowling and growling at me with menacing faces. I don't feel that I have a body anymore, just a consciousness. I generate my best mind of Love for all the demons, but it's pretty clear that regardless of what I do, I'm going to a very bad place right now. I pray for help, confident that no matter how late, there's always help to be had if I'm open to it and want it. The demons fade into a dark gray for a bit and then come back. This definitely feels like dying. It also feels like I'm going to hell or something like that, but I'm not terrified. I'm a little bummed out because I don't think I'll like it, but I think it's worth it to help everyone. With what seems like my last moment of this stream of consciousness, I sincerely pray for everyone to attain enlightenment. Suddenly it all seems hilarious. I get a few brief visions of Vajrayogini smiling at me. Then I wake up.

I just got somemore fragments about family coming over.

*Two* holiday parties tonight, lots of sweets, wine, champagne, cake. To bed around 2-3am? Don't feel particularly buzzed but wake up with a small hangover feeling. Lots more dreaming than listed here, a number of the scenes around the school (karate, girl shorts, menu item) faded away.

Looking forward to the end of the festivities and getting back to a solid schedule! Still several more days to go.

+ huge tarantula / crab spider catches a big fly in my parent's living room, I'm terrified/fascinated

I'm walking from the living room to the dining room towards the kitchen in my parent's house, and I stop in my tracks because I see a rather large fluffy fly just sort of floating there in the air, I look closer and see it's caught in a spider web that stretches in a line along the path I'm walking. I think at first I should just swipe it down but think then that I should let the spider eat it. I look and see another insect, like a large wasp, to the right of the fly about 6 inches, also caught in a web. Then I think about the spider and I see it down a long tube of web, it moves to pick up the fly. The spider is *really* large and freaky looking, like a fist-sized tarantula, how'd a tarantula get here? I never really get a good look at it but I see what looks like a large crab's claw on the front. I call to my wife to let her know about this several times, I keep looking at the spider to get a better look.

+ karate class, where's my yellow belt?

Walking towards P.E. class, it's a karate class. There are other students around me, seems like a college class. I'm wearing my white ghi and so are the other students, you're supposed to come wearing the belt you achieved from previous karate classes. I look down and see I'm wearing a belt, too, but it's a white belt. Where's my yellow belt? I earned in in that class I took long ago. Should I go and get it? Will we have to demonstrate the "moves" we learned when we earned the belt?

All the students are now arranging themselves in rows and columns on a large outdoor field, standing on large white plastic tarps, about 2 students per tarp, I'm towards the back and there's a guy to the front of me, I am remembering punches, blocks, and kicks, and perform them. The kicks are supposed to have a nice "snap" to them, and I do a nice snappy front kick. I try some side kicks but I can't quite achieve the "snappiness" that I want to.

I sort of have to go to the bathroom. The field is along a fairly busy street to the left, and across the street is a gas station, will I have time to run there and get back before class starts?

Class starts and someone introduces the teachers, they're fairly well-known, I see them moving into view, they're sort of short and dark/hairy.

+ following the girl who's shorts are way down in back

I'm walking along and come upon a girl who's also walking and my eye is caught by the fact that her butt is fairly exposed, so I fall into line behind her and follow her and enjoy the view. We go up some stairs, and reach some branches in the path and I keep on behind her, I notice that this is actually the way I wanted to go so she shouldn't be freaked out but I don't want to be too creepy so I decide at one point to stop following her. I notice her short shorts are rolled up in a bunch and really showing off her behind nicely.

+ the menu for today reads "noodles here"

There is a folder, I reach inside it for the menu plan for the week, and pull it out. There are lots of words (that seem fairly clear/easy to read), today's item is "noodles heure".

+ trying to enter the forbidden area on a powered scooter/sled

There's a fence and there's a higher obstacle. The obstacle is specially designed to be 4 inches higher than the scooter/sled thing can jump. I think about trying to get in anyway but there are probably guards.

+ messing with the guy watering my parents' front yard

Turn on and off the water and the electricity, the flow of water out of the hose stops and starts. I turn off the electricity thinking that shouldn't affect the hose, but realize there's a pump attached to the hose so it does indeed turn off the water, I turn it back on.

I was stressed about work. How am I going to complete all the obligations piling up this month, which is already getting shorter? I figured it would be best to prioritize. I should be able to finish the map in an afternoon if I get the right materials together. I thought about what I would need to finish it, and came up with vellum and archival paper. Fortunately I knew I already had these somewhere and was pretty sure where I had last put them, in a box in the storage area. I could see it in my mind's eye. I had woken up early and wanted to go retrieve them, but the rest of my family was still asleep.

My mother, brother, and father were all staying with me in the house and I didn't want to disturb them by walking through the building and rummaging around in boxes. I decided to go outside for a walk instead. I walked down the stairs, which were littered with all the discarded santa masks. This struck me as odd at first, but I reasoned we must have had a holiday party yesterday.

Outside it felt like early morning, and there was a narrow stream of clear water nearby. Next to the stream was a small building of naturally weathered wood, a sort of shed. Just after I entered it, it occurred to me that even though I know I'm awake, I should practice some RCs to instill good habits. No one else was around and there was no reason not to do a blatant one, so I jumped. Yes, just as I thought, it's obvious I'm awake, because that felt perfectly normal. But just for good measure I should do it a few more times in order to internalize the feeling of what a proper jump feels like in waking life.

So I jumped in the air several times in succession, concentrating on that critical moment at the apex, when the upward motion reverses and gravity takes over. I knew that I would be able to tell if I were dreaming because the timing would be off, that moment would feel drawn out slightly, extended. Hmmm.... it isn't, is it? Was that a touch of hesitation at the top? No, I'm pretty sure this is natural. I've just never concentrated on it sufficiently before, my attention is making it seem more pronounced.

And yet... it does seem a trifle too long. Could it be...? What if...? I had just begun to seriously consider the possibility that I might be dreaming after all, when I woke up in bed. Only very slowly did I come back to myself and realize that all the things I had taken as evidence that I was awake were wrong or askew, signs of false memory. The building and surroundings that seemed so familiar at the time were pure dream space, unlike any place I know in waking life. It made sense at the time that my whole family was there, but the only accurate part is that I'm currently sharing a hotel room with my mother. The anxiety about work is real enough, but it was only well after I had written down my initial notes that I realized that in the dream I had felt responsible for an additional project that didn't exist in WL, in addition to the real ones. Finally, as I initially lay in bed reviewing the dream, I didn't even notice how I slipped back briefly from genuine waking into an FA, and briefly found myself another place entirely, which only transitioned again to lying back in bed once I reached the point where I felt I had enough grasp of the memory to get up and write.

I was in my father room and became lucid when going up against a man. He was extremely small and had found himself trap between my fingers. Another person watching, ask me how long I could stay lucid. I told him usually not long. I continue to say that it could be longer if I didn't have to put a lot of focus during the meditation. He then said oh and smirk about how well I had been handling my opponent. I then suggested to the guy that I will gain lucidity again before waking up. I didn't enjoy how low the quality has been in this dream.

The guy who had been trap between my fingers escape with only his head alone. He had a sadistic smile but I could tell he could do no harm at all. I pick him up and slam his head on the bed in order to make him unconscious. He however regain consciousness and soon began laughing. He also has long hair so I grab it and it and started spiraling his head around, till I toss his head to a wall. This time he became unconscious. I could hear one guy yelling at me about what has happened. I close the door and became non-lucid.

I walk up the stairs and saw my brother and mom. Then I saw another guy who had my name on his shirt. My brother told me he and I had the same name. We debated about whether it was partially spelt different or was it the same. I got a closer look and confirmed to everyone that it was my name. Then we all got in to the car with our father to go to a store. As the car was moving, I notice a man running while on the driving lane. I laugh because he became his own car since he was very fast. My father notice this guy and decided to park next to him.

We all got off and combine down a broken stair way. I then leap a huge drop but landed on another stair. I had to jump one more time which almost made me land on another person. After getting all the way down I started wandering off in till my father told me it's this way as he pointed to the far north. I turn my head and realize it was done. As the sensation occurred, I transported myself in to father room and became lucid. The lights were off, I began to try to get up from the bed however I started feeling sharp pain all over my body.

I then waited to adjust and got off from the bed. I went over to the lights while saying I am aware that I am in a dream. I attempted to turn on the lights but it did not work. I then open the front door but heard a loud screeching yell and closed it for now. When I close the door it echo around the room almost as if I slam it. I went over to one of the windows and notice the house was high up in the skies. I then lunge up on the bed and look at what was inside the top bunk bed. However I found nothing strange. I went over to the front door and open it.

I enter the living room and saw there was a huge poster picture of a city in the afternoon. I proceeded to the kitchen and then to the back door. I open it but for a second the door would not budge any further. After managing to open the door I notice the house outside look much more older as if I was in the early 1900's. It seem to be a bright morning and I saw a trail I could begin following. As I kept going to the high fields I reminded myself that I am in a dream. I drop the two items that I notice have been in my hands this entire time. I turn back around and felt this immediate response that I will wake up. The entire place froze and I woke up. Lucidity Time: 6 minutes.

In this dream I was at swimming pool play wrestling with an invisible dream figure. The objective was to throw the opponent into the pool, which didn’t have any water, just gymnastic crash matts. I had this dream figure in a headlock, but I was really struggling with the fact that this person was invisible. I put 2 and 2 together and realized, Bingo, I’m dreaming! I let go of the dream figure’s head and I stood up. The invisible dream figure never did appear. A couple of other dream figures, standing off to the side, asked me to follow them, so I did, and we went through a doorway into a hallway. The hallway went for about 20 feet then turned right. At the corner there was closet, and inside was 2 foot tall man standing on a bench talking to an East Indian man. I introduced myself to the small man first, and asked his name. He said, “___??___” (I can’t remember). I then asked the East Indian fellow his name, but I couldn’t understand what he said because of his accent and his name was totally foreign to me. I just nodded and pretended I understood his name. The East Indian guy then asked me to leave because “___??___” (the short guy) was helping him out with something. I apologized for interrupting, and I continued on down the hallway, but my vision started to fade to black. I started to swirl to bring back my vision, and I was saying, “Somebody, please help me!” Somebody answered, “I don’t know how to help you.” I asked them to grab my hand and swirl with me, but they didn’t answer. I swirled faster, and faster, and faster!

Stars started to appear around me, faintly at first, and they then gradually increased in clarity until I found myself floating in a dramatic view of space. It feels so strange to be floating in space, kind of a mixture of excitement and loneliness. I could feel the sun beating on my back so I turned around to face it, and I momentarily saw its brightness, but then a black disc moved in front of it. I looked away and decided to repeat what I did, but really fast. Sure enough, it was the sun! And once more a black disc quickly moved in front of it so it was hidden. Interesting? That gives me a good explanation why I rarely see the sun in LD’s. I could see the Milky Way arching across space, and decide to fly at high speed right at it, and soon a pinkish nebula came into view, and then I came to complete stop to admire it. Wait, what’s that? I could see outlines of several human bodies against the pink nebula, distorting the nebula just enough, that I could see them. It appears some dream figures decided to accompany me on my journey. I’ve never been in a Nebula before, so I decided to fly right through it at high speed. The nebula never really became clearer as I flew through it (not what I expected), if anything it lost its vibrancy, but I could feel the particles hitting my body, like standing in a sand storm, and the impacts were luminescing reddish blue. This gave a cool visual effect on my arms!

Off in the distance I could see a planet, and I slowed down for a controlled entry and landing (Don’t fly full speed into a planet!). The planet looked like something from the movie Dune. It was covered in desert and mountainous rocky outcroppings. Below I could see some gold structures, so I flew in for a closer look. When I fly, I usually do the ‘Superman’ with my arms down, but as I approached these golden structures I started to fly in a standing position. It’s a more relaxed position for viewing, but does look a bit odd, no doubt (as one dream figure told me in previous LD). The gold structures were actually golden temple domes sticking out above the sand dunes in a mountainous valley. There was a natural rock archway extending from the side of mountain, which I flew through as I entered the “Valley of Golden Temples”. I discovered this place, so I’m giving it a name – lol. There was a woman in a flowing dress standing on one of sand dunes and she watched me as I flew by. I should have landed beside her, and asked her what this place was, but I wanted to get a closer look at these golden temple domes sticking out of the sand. Then I could hear East Indian style ancient music playing all around me, with singing to match. Honestly, I don’t think I’ve heard anything like it. I landed on a sand dune, beside a golden dome, and there was warm colored light coming out from openings immediately below the dome. The sand was right up to these openings. Everything quickly faded, and then I woke. I really wanted to go inside!

In this dream, I was sitting in a bus with my dad, and I gave him a big, long hug, and shortly after I fell asleep in his arms. I woke up (in the dream), behind the same parked bus, holding a bicycle pedal sprocket. I had no idea how I went from sleeping in my dad’s arms in the bus to being awake behind a parked bus holding a sprocket, but anyway, I went with it. I put the sprocket down on the ground, and then it morphed into a bike frame and sprocket. Okay, I get it! I’m definitely dreaming – Lucid again!!! I picked up the bike frame, and I was surprised at how light it felt, and added the wheels, seat, and handle bars (by thought), and then I jumped on it to go for a ride. One problem, my feet couldn’t reach the pedals! This didn’t stop the bike from taking off down the road though, so I only had to steer it, because it was powered by dream magic. I hadn’t seen my daughter in a few days in a LD, so called out for her, “Daughter, where are you, I’m lucid!” I repeated this over and over as I rode the bicycle down the street. I came to bridge crossing a small brook, and on the other side I could see some girls sitting on the front steps on a brick apartment block. I figured one of them must be my daughter! But without warning, the dream went completely black, but I laid perfectly still in bed to try and recover it.

What happened next wasn’t a typical LD re-entry for me, because the dream instantly came back perfectly vivid and clear. It was like somebody opened the theater curtains. There were three girls sitting on a motorcycle right in front of me, and I was also sitting on a motorcycle. The girls were all looking at me giggling and smiling. I asked if one of them was my daughter. One of the cuties spoke up and said, “No.” Sometimes my daughter appears in my dreams as someone or something else, so I always check before I assume. Then I could feel somebody sitting snuggled right up behind me on my motorcycle, and their chin was resting on my left shoulder. I asked if she was my daughter, and she said, “Yes!” I spun my head around to face her, and it was totally her to the finest detail! I instantly told her I loved her, and I wished her Merry Christmas and Happy New Year because I hadn’t remembered to do so in an LD up until this point. It’s much more special when you can do this face to face. We then took off on our motorcycles down the street, but the dream started to fade, so I began to swirl. Strangely the motorcycle, my daughter and I, were all swirling together, and unfortunately I woke up. Cruising on motorcycles would have been a lot fun!

Wowee! I remembered 8 different dream scenes last night, which is insane for me! I woke up twice throughout the night and had 4 scenes each time.

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Sleep time: 9:00 PM Awake times: 2:00 AM, 4:30-5:00AM
REM Period 1:
-I was playing a game with a German woman and two other people called 'Extreme Parkour" or something similar, where we were jumping around a Mayan ruin bouncing between the walls and breaking off some things,generally having whale of a time.
-I was at Disneyland riding around one of those little trams that they have there, and there was a man there who got off and played this shooting game, where he shot small bullets into a leather saddle like thing. Afterwards he complained saying "how big are these bullets?" which the woman replied "7mm" and he went crazy, yelling "WHAT! Those aren't bullets, these are bullets!" and pulled out giant bullets the size of his hands. (My own Crocodile Dundee moment ). After that the tram sorta morphed into a bus a bit and there were some rather racist acts going on against african americans, can't quite remember how that turned out.
-I was in a persons house and they had 3 children, their natural son, and adopted Chinese boy and a boy who appeared to have a mental condition/disability. Very little detail in this one.
-I was at my Dad's house and when I walked out of my room I could hear (I think my little brother) playing a song from Agalloch's The Mantle (Great ablum by the way ) on the keyboard. I was amazaed and asked my Dad what was going on. He said he'd found the cd on a bench and taught my brother to play it. I asked my dad whether he liked it or not but before he could answer the dream dissolved.

REM Period 2:
-I was in a post apocalyptic sort of Hollywood, where Soviet Russia were trying to invade. There were tanks and debris everywhere and me and several other people were playing some sort of wargame there. I remember the landscape was really vivid and well constructed, it looked a little bit like a desert from Mars crossed with a abandoned city.
-I was having a swimming race with 2 members of the Yogscast (I don't even) in a crazy long aircraft hanger style place decorated like the bottom of the ocean and I ended up beating them.
-I was having a weird sort of Chinese exam were the room was split into different sections for the different parts and there were random substitute teachers coming in to take it. I was rather stressed as I thought I wasn't ready and I couldn't bring my dictionary and didn't know how it worked and yada yada. I can't remember too well how it went too well, but I think I did alright hehe.
-I was playing a sort of extreme minigolf with about 20 other people at least and it was fairly competitive, with the rules being super tight. The competition had to go on until tomorrow but I didn't get the message and continued playing a little bit anyway. Some people realised and I had to try and set all my stuff back up so it was like it was before, which was a bit hectic.

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Theres my record number of dreams recalled, hopefully this is a good sign of things to come. Unfortunately no lucids but tomorrow's the day!

I was watching a scene unfold of "Tribe Cool Crew" characters Kanon and Haneru trying to escape a secret base. There was a girl who isn't from the show communicating to her brother through a device that showed the city of what was going on. As Kanon was trying to escape they found out she was a robot and her creator was the brother of the girl with the city map in the secret room. The place was soon flooded but the brother managed to meet up with his sister.The scene ended with the robot girl meeting the guy who was her creator and who she loved.

The setting than began changing into a hall way where i soon walked around to see people playing arcade games. There was one with a 3d cartoon fish. I told my mom to try it out and she said okay than put the money in. She lost though."Let me try one more time!" She said eager to put more money in."No mom. Just forget about it."I say but she puts it in and the fish takes her money.We than step aside when a lady and her mother want to try. It looks like they put a cash card game in."89$!" says the mom putting it in the game and apparently she won too."Just like i predicted!"she shouts.The daughter compliments her mom and tells her"Play again!But this time with 100$!"

I feel that their excitement is overrated and want to mock them. I mock a little to myself than walk to the side. I think I looked at a map with someone and was reminded about dream maps after that.Than i was in a room where I saw a man sitting down appear. He starts talking about parakeets. A basket than appears in front of him."Parakeets are tropical birds. When it gets really cold its important they stay warm. But not too warm. You see the basket's material allows the basket to get really hot over time. Which many owners forget." I can see him holding a parakeet and getting a blood sample now. "I really need to get my parakeet checked out" I think to myself.But than i stare at the long needle and ask myself "Why does he need all that blood?"

The scene than ends and i'am now in a house with my cousins. Apparently the younger one is annoyed at the older for leaving her."Why don't you talk to me anymore?"the older asks."Because you don't care about me."the younger one says.I decide to go somewhere else and to leave them be. They have to fix their own problems. As I'm walking around what seems like a base i'm thinking of what to do. My older cousin comes in but i find her annoying and tell her to leave. She asks why and i tell her it doesn't matter.As i'm fiddling around with something and jumping from place to place i realize it is a dream.

I walk out of the place and it feels like i'm at the back of a building where a parking lot is.I can see my dad coming out and walking past me. As i'm pondering what to do suddenly i see a person wearing a black cloak like the reaper.Didn't see the face at first but than i noticed it was a guy. There was another younger looking guy next to him and another one who looked older."Finally! Lets get this over with!" says the younger looking one. "What are you talking about?..."I say keeping my guard up."You signed a contract that you would be apart of the group. But you broke that contract by not being active in the group! So we have to kill you now!" says the younger looking one laughing.

I jump from a car to somewhere else dodging their attacks one by one."Woah! No! I never did that!" I shout at them."Maybe she doesn't remember"says the older one."Lets just kill her already!"says the younger one."No! She really doesn't remember!" says the older one. Than the three of them make a agreement to leave and disappear. As I walk I start to appear in a room with my cousin.My brothers friend comes in and she removes the white hoodie shes wearing and becomes an alien girl with purple hair.

She starts taunting me and asks if I understood her. I say yes than she says "No you didn't! I spoke in another language you don't know! What? Did you use your powers to translate my message!?" She asks. "Yeah" I say but she just laughs than turns around and puts her butt to my face. "Ew!" I say than turn and walk away. I'm now in a wooden hall where people are walking around. There's a girl wearing only her black bra and pantie walking with a guy somewhere. Than I walk further the narrow hall to see a guy spray shaving cream in his eye. He screams than wipes his face at a sink with water.I walk further and now see a screen with the name family guy appear. After that a Futurama character appeared. Than I woke up.

I haven't had a nightmare in a loooooong time.
I watched Silent Hill for the first time yesterday...

I was watching a movie with my parents and some other people. The movie was so horrifying that I had to close my eyes at parts. For example, in one part, there was a mother who lost her child and screams of terror came out of her. There was blood running down a path, the blood from her daughter, and it turned into dark ashes. At another point in the movie, it was like a war scene from Lord of the Rings. After the movie, some people laid down on the ground and the director of the movie asked who wanted their legs sawed off. It was apparently just for show and not real. A guy volunteered. He was overweight, had brown curly hair, and wore dark clothes. The director got a saw and started sawing through his leg. It looked pretty real to me. We were forced to watch this movie twice, and the second time, it became real...

I was with Niki and was popping popcorn. A black guy and some other guys came up to us. The black guy asked me if I wanted to "hang out" with him and of course I was hesitant so I said no, but for some reason eventually agreed. We started walking away and then he told me what we had to do. We had to sneak up on these guys and kill them before they would kill us. We were in a huge clothing warehouse and the guys were sitting on a window ledge. They saw us and came towards us. There was lots of fighting. At one point Lindsey Stirling and I were throwing darts at each other(lol).

Then sirens went off...

Everybody ran away. It was me and a group of people left, consisting of the black guy, one girl, and a bunch of other guys. We didn't have time to run back, so instead we ran forward. It was like a game and we had to get to the end. We ran towards a window that was facing a brick wall. It was night time so we couldn't see much except the reflection of us. The "creatures" were coming. I was so scared I closed my eyes. The black guy said, "don't close your eyes, look at my finger," for if I closed my eyes they could get me. He told me to look away and stand still and that way they won't see you. The "creatures" came up behind us, but they appeared as a copy of us. The girl turned around to see them. Big mistake. When she did that, even more appeared. She tried stabbing one of them but it was no use. They were surrounding us. They were about to attack...

I woke up and it was 6 am. I was too frightened to go back to sleep because I didn't want to go back to the dream. Everytime I closed my eyes I would see dead bodies and blood and scary creatures. So I wrote in my DJ and left the light on and finally went back to sleep.

I will start a dream journal here. Hopefully most of the posts will be more interesting than this one.

I am back.

Real life was getting in the road.

So last year, 3 lucid dreams in total.

I can do so much better.

Lets start with last nights dreams......

Erm.... Damn!!!

Nothing!