lucid

This is my first Lucid Dream since I've been researching techniques etc.

(I think i experienced more when i was younger but never really knew)

I started writing my Dream Journal about three days after researching very thoroughly on Friday Night 10th May 2013

Tuesday Morning 14th May 2013

I found myself standing outside a train station somewhere, a random one. Out the front i was stood on a fairly high platform overlooking a courtyard type area. I took my time to look at my surroundings and that's when it hit me!

"Wait a minute...This is a dream!"

Now i had done my research, and i knew i had to be confident..

I took a step forward, followed by a dive off the platform! I went free falling towards the courtyard, but before i hit the ground i managed to pull up with the force from my hands!

This is how I'd been planning to fly. My inspiration randomly came from an X-men character called Sunfire, hence the name. He can fly by shooting like a flame jet out his hands (see profile picture), similar to Iron Man i suppose.

I was delighted. I then headed to the local park to practice my hovering and flying. Flying was a bit tricky trying to get my hands to aim properly, but i will work on that.

I then had the pleasure of meeting Simon Cowell who was strolling past

I caught up with him and asked him proudly,

"How does it feel to be in my dream?"

To which he gave me a shrug of the shoulders,

"It's alright."

I then proceeded to have fun with this character and asked him to sing me a song (expecting probably a pop song or something.) He obliged with..

"Dum Dee Dee Dum Dum Dum Dum Dee" (roughly) (whilst doing like a conductor thing with his arms!)

I thought this was most amusing!

After that entertaining episode i saw my sister Jodie running towards me across the park, not in an aggressive way, probably just to say hello. As she got within a few meters i couldn't resist it..I stuck my hand out (like in Star Wars) and 'Force Pushed' her back the way she came, very effective!

The next scene is where i lost my lucidity, i was trying to make my brother stand still so i could do something painful to him, Haha. Unfortunately he refused. Now i'm not an experienced Lucid Dreamer so so if anyone knows the answer to the next bit i'd be very grateful..

Did i lose my Lucidity because he said no and i was concentrating to hard?
Or had i probably already lost my Lucidity hence why he said no, because i no longer had any control? (i think probably the latter)

Anyway, thank you for reading, i hoped you enjoyed it! I sure enjoyed me Lucid virginity and look forward to dreaming and posting more in the future.

A bit out of time this week, an actually not so brief update:

13 May

- Me and a group of 5 kids decide to create a business. We go to register it, and the start up costs are only 100. We talk to some lawyer who says its is excellent because we are all from different countries.

- I become upset and leave the house of a friend wearing slippers. It is very hard to walk with these but I don't find this unusual.

- In our old neighborhood, there are lots of new stores. I go in a supermarket where they are making fresh carrot juice, it is green in color, I wonder a bit about that, but conclude that green carrot juice is ok.

14 May

- In our old place, my mom keeps talking, while I want to go to sleep. I tell her that her talking activates my brain and I cannot fall asleep. It is early morning, still dark outside and snowing.

- I see Dr dre on the street, he is smoking and I want to join him. Before I do, he has finished with the stuff. A skater boy pushes him hard and I think how rude kids are nowadays. I follow Dre to a building, but the cops are all over the place. I have a micro second of lucidity, remembering I read a part of Xanos's dream from yesterday and know it this the cause for this one. I lose my lucidity a second later and try to leave the building.

- I am in jail which looks like a normal house, my belongings are also there. A woman calls me and I think they are finally letting me go. She informs me that she allows me to go out, so that I can find a woman called Connie Flowers or something similar. A friend from school is also accompanying me. We look for the place where Connie lives, but cannot find her. I have another second brief moment of clarity and high awareness, when I am climbing a fence, while looking for her. I continue following the dream but get the brilliant idea to ask some old ladies to show me the way to Connie's house. They all point in one direction and that excites me a lot. I am absorbed back by the dream and we go to the place the women were pointing at.

- A false awakening where I jot down key words from the previous dream. I write Connie Flowers on a piece of paper. Had it not been this FA, I probably would have forgotten the name. It was so realistic that I actually looked down and expected to see it written in my notebook, but nothing was there irl.

- On a street, thinking about last night's dreams. I look at the sky, and decide to star gaze. I have my blanket with me. I get interrupted by a machine washing the streets. My slippers get washed away...

Note: micro-lucids, not counting
Pretty busy this week, I wish my sleep could condense, so that I still get some nice REM moments.

I'm back and more ready for Lucid Dreaming than ever before! I had great night a couple nights ago. A couple of awesome dreams that helped re-establish my passion. I have been lucid dreaming regularly during my absence, but I haven't really been striving to become lucid. My basic ADA practices, which are pretty much embedded into my brain, have kept me lucid even though I haven't been really trying. However, I now plan on rocking ADA in its fullest starting this very moment. I may journal some of the dreams during my absence if they happen to cross my mind, but I'm definitely going to be journaling my dreams from this point on. All lucids and some of the more interesting non-lucids. With that, I'll leave you the dreams that brought me back to the wonderful world of Dreamviews!

Since I enjoy keeping track of numbers and stats (its an OCD thing ), I'm going to guesstimate and start these lucid dreams at #500. I was at #244 when I took my leave and I pretty much go lucid every other night or more at this point. I probably have more than 500, but its all good.

These are both pretty damn long and very vivid, so I remember them very well.

May 12, 2013
Lucid Dream 500: The Power of the King
Series: The End of Days, Episode 4
DILD
Technique: ADA



I'm walking through a city with my friend, Diddy. I felt like I knew where I was going at the time, but looking back, I'm not familiar with where I was or where I was going. I see an attractive female a few yards up ahead. In the "classic romance comedy" style, a mugger takes her purse and starts hauling ass right at us. The lady screams for help and I immediately perform a "chop block" on the mugger.
A chop block is a blocking technique used in american football. It consists of waiting until the defender is within arms reach and then di
ving hard toward their knees. If performed correctly, the blocker strikes the defender in the knee caps with their shoulder on a downward angle. This causes the defender to, literally, flip over the blocker, landing on the ground in a "disarmed" manner. Aka, it fucks them up.

I the man flipped over me, landed on his ass, and Diddy ripped the purse from his hands and proceeded to rough him up a bit. The man, scrambled to his feet and took off running away. We let the bastard go. The female approached me and I noticed she looked like she was in really good shape and seemed to walk with a certain swagger about her. She told me and Diddy that we passed a test and have been chosen by the government. I sensed that she was telling the truth, so we followed her at her request.

We soon arrived at a somewhat hidden staircase in an alley between two trashy/abandoned looking buildings. She escorted us through the doorway, and to my amazement, the inside was marvelous. We were in a small lobby with a clerk standing behind a white counter. The floor was white marble, the walls were white, but appeared to be painted with some sort of high class substance. They looked like mirrors, but there was no reflection of the room. They were only reflecting the color white (if that makes any sense). Hard to explain, but it was awesome to look at. At this point, I'm right on the cusp of lucidity. It "faded" in and out while I examined the wall, but it never set-in. Back to complete non-lucidity now.

The man at the counter was my friend, P. He looked excited and said, "Zack! You came here?" I had a brief chat with him, but can't remember the details. Without being told, I knew this place was a secret government facility that ran tests and performed surgical procedures to give their patients superhuman abilities. She led us into a fancy elevator and three men wearing black suits, black sunglasses, and hardened spiffy hair-dos, (aka Shiny Spiffers) joined us. Suddenly, I was horrified by this elevator. There were now thick spider webs on all sides of the elevator and many spiders crawling throughout the webs. Me, being deathly afraid of spiders, started freaking out. I stayed in the middle as it descended and tucked my arms close to my sides. I freaked out a bit when I brushed against a spider web and the woman told me that this was part of my test. She said the elevator will not stop until I can fully calm myself and accept my surroundings. I took a deep breath and the spider webs slowly began to vanish. I focus on the webs and imagine them vanishing. It worked wonders and BAM! I struck lucidity as I was performing this task.

I didn't even bother to stabilize because this dream was CRAZY vivid. The elevator stopped and I proceeded to follow the lady. I figured this plot was interesting enough, so I figured I'd follow it until it got boring. We walked down a hallway that reminded me of a hospital. People were wearing those hospital gowns and appeared to be performing physical therapy-type exercises. In truth, they were getting used to their new abilities. I saw a guy who could run incredibly fast and another who could stretch his body like rubber (or Luffy from One Piece). The woman hooked me up to a machine in a room at the end of the hall. Diddy entered a different room. She told me that the "higher-ups" had chosen me for a unique ability. My hand was placed in a machine as she explained that I was being given the "Power of the King." I immediately thought of "Geass," but I've had this power before in dreams and I wanted something else. I focused on the lady and willed her not to say that my power was "Geass." It worked.

She told me my power was to telepathically control metal, Aka Magneto, lol. First, though, I had to pass a test. This test cycled through my mind and could tell my history. She said, "As long as you aren't a normal person or have had an easy life, you will pass." Lol, no worries there. I pass both criteria with flying colors. I started playing around with the ability in that room. There was a clock with three "hands." I pointed my arm toward the clock (for focus assistance) and begin moving my fingers. I was able to control each "hand" of the clock using a separate finger. I was actually pretty amazed with the level of control I had over the "hands." I was moving each hand in the direction and speed that I wanted. I began stopping, changing directions, and changing speeds of each "hand" individually all in unison. I now noticed the lady looked horrified at my level of control. She said no one had ever grasped their ability this quickly. I could sense fear in her from my level of power. To my surprise, I really struggled to move anything that wasn't made of metal. In fact, I could really only get non-metal objects to quiver or move ever so slightly. I lost my lucidity at some point during this time.

The lady told me that they were keeping a device that monitored my ability and they could shut it down at any time. My first thought was, "Yeah, I'll be stealing that device." I then began to imagine the different ways I could use metal. I asked her to provide me with a large bag of metal in powder form. That way I could make any object movable. Beer Pong gave me this idea, lol. I imagined putting a little powder on the ball and making every shot as a result. Brandon entered the room and I told him my power and asked him what his power was. He acted strangely and said his power was top secret. He said he refused to ever tell me. I knew this was all a show and he was going to tell me as soon as we left. I found out that his power was directly linked to me and every other person with abilities. He had the ability to monitor my power, engage it, and shut it off at will. In fact, his ability trumped the device they kept in the lab. Not only could he do this to my ability, but to all people with abilities. I laughed after he told me. They had trusted one of my most faithful friends with this ability. I was 100% free from their control AND we could hunt down the rest of the people with abilities because he could monitor their usage. The world would soon be mine. We were planning the takeover amongst ourselves when my memory of the dream ends. I either lost the memory or woke up.

Series Details
In the dream series, "The End of Days," the world is coming to a close. With the hype surrounding 2012 and the current economy, many of these doomsday dreams have been popping up. See the events of the apocalypse unfold with more entries to the series.



May 12, 2013
Lucid Dream 501: It has...BEGUN!!
Series: The End of Days, Episode 5
DILD
Technique: ADA



It was later that night when I had another dream. I was in a large warehouse with me Diddy, Mike, and Creed. There was some sort of faction holding up the warehouse and pointing guns at us. I made a smart-ass remark and one of the men put a gun to my head. He pulled the trigger and I felt the pressure pound the side of my head and I fell to the ground. He shot me over and over, about 10 times, as I laid there and timed my flinches with the gun blasts. I became lucid as I was getting shot on the ground.

I waited until he stopped shooting before acting. He turned to my friends and said, "Your level is pathetic. You thought you could take us on?" I jumped to my feet and threw out my hand. The guy froze and remembering elements from the dream earlier that night, I used the iron in his bones and blood to control his body. I raised him in the air and said, "You are very unlucky. Not only did you run into someone very powerful and not know it, but you actually ran into The King!" I twisted my hands and could hear all of his bones breaking within his body. He screamed, and fell completely limp before I tore his body apart with my mind/ability. The room was full of these men, aka Shiny Spiffers. It became a massacre as I proceeded to perform the same kill on them all. Bullets flew as Diddy, Mike, and Creed joined in on the battle. There were several civilians also in the warehouse and we finished off most of them as well. We can't have witnesses of course . A couple women were left and I raised them into the air. I said, "Congrats, you get to live. Never, speak of this incident or I WILL find you." I let them live as we exited the warehouse. I confirmed with Diddy that we had taken out the two warehouse workers with abilities when they noticed I was bleeding.

My face had a cut on it and was bleeding. Mike told me that they could find out I was there if they found my blood somewhere. I responded, "Then we torch the place." We entered the building again and we flew up to the balcony. I held out my hands and performed pyrokinesis. The building caught fire as I began to control the flames and made them dance around the warehouse. I hit some barrels and there was a large explosion. Suddenly, the warehouse doors busted open. A large black man wearing a preacher's outfit stormed in followed by a slew of Shiny Spiffers and one man who looked like a hobo/starving artist. I lost lucidity somewhere around here.

We immediately darted into a small room in the rafters. Diddy, Mike, and Creed were freaked out. Their eyes were solid black (like demons from the show Supernatural). They said, "The Reverend saw us!" I knew he hadn't saw me, which was the most important, so I told them we had to flee immediately. We flew in separate away from the warehouse. My dream now entered a strange sequence where I was flying around in a slow down like motion as music played in the background. It was soft atmospheric music and everywhere I flew, the hobo-looking guy was investigating. I did my best to avoid him, but he kept showing up everywhere I flew. he never spotted me. It was almost like a symbolic sequence within the dream. I was flying in a landscape that changed over and over, and he was popping out of nowhere in every direction. I decided to just land and casually walk by him, because he didn't know who I was. This worked perfectly. He smiled and nodded at me as I walked by and I did the same. I I knew he just looked at me as another random citizen walking by.

Later in the dream, I'm in a supermarket. I'm buying milk at a register that is in the back end of the store. Right next to the milk section. By protocol, the cashier had me stair into a camera and take a picture before purchasing the milk. I smiled in my picture.

At this point in the dream, its several months or maybe even years into the future from the earlier portion of my dream. The pictures were taken to identify demons. Their eyes showed up in the special film. A biblical type apocalypse was in full motion in this dream.

After the picture, I looked into the soul of the cashier. He was a despicable low-level demon. I was able to manipulate his perception and he began freaking out. He pulled out a shotgun and began blasting everyone around the area. I walked away laughing at the mayhem when I noticed the hobo-guy from before rounding the corner. I immediately turned into acting-mode. I acted as if I was fleeing in panic. The hobo-guy shouted as he ran passed me, "Hurry up and get out of here!! I'm an exorcist, I'll take care of it." I immediately knew that this man was the most famous and most powerful of all exorcists. I hustled out of the store. Outside, I acted like a normal concerned citizen and a lady spoke to me. She said, "You have something about you. I'm not quite sure, but I haven't noticed such a beautiful person before. You are just like those two I met at the bar last night. Their names were Diddy and Mike. Do you know them?" I told her I didn't and took my leave thinking, "Out of hiding already? Stupid move..."

Next thing I remember, I'm at a huge party/club. Its in a real nice, futuristic type building. Its a demon club (I've been watching a lot of Supernatural lately, if you haven't noticed already, lol), so the people there are mostly demons or those who associate with demons. Less than half are unsuspecting humans. I meet up with Diddy and Mike there. I also run into several of my other "friends" who are all actually demons. We are talking in a glass hallway in the back of the club when we see (through the glass) the police pull up outside the club. Suddenly, the doors lock all around us. My other "friends" have locked me, Diddy, and Mike in the hallway. It was a set-up. They had made a deal with the cops to hand over Me, Diddy, and Mike to the cops and exorcists. I regain my lucidity at this point.

I grab the nearest door handle and began a fake panic on it. I secretly use my abilities to unlock the door and exclaim, "Wow, I'm lucky the door lock is broke!" I then grab one of my "friends" by the chest and slam him against the wall. I focus on his mind and change his perception of my eyes. He now sees that my eyes are black (even though they actually aren't). He says, "Please, we had to. They have a demon that has changed sides and is working for the exorcists." I let them live because we had no time to deal with them. I knew I had to get Diddy and Mike out of there quickly, so I turned the glass into liquid for a moment as they flew out. I then changed it back to glass and entered the main area of the club.

I was curious to see what was happening so I submitted to the police. They had us all sitting on the floor and lined us up. The hobo-guy exorcist went down the line, checking for demons. I was first in line. He looked at me and I immediately knew he remembered me from the street and market before. He checked my eyes with his exorcist abilities and, of course, I passed. The guy next to me had been talking to me when we were first lining up. He told me that they didn't have any high level exorcists, so we could hide easily. I knew, however, that the hobo-man was the highest of the high levels, but had been "in the shadows" his whole career. This was how I continued to set-up the dream plot in my head. The hobo-man performed a pretty brutal looking exorcism on the guy beside me after easily detecting he was a demon. He proceeded to wipe out half the line. Some ran, but were killed immediately.

I was scanning the policemans minds carefully as to not to draw attention from the hobo-man. I was searching for the demon in disguise and I found her. I made a point to finish her off after she left the building, but the hobo man had a similar plan. He darted toward her after finishing the line in an attempt to finish her off. She used her demon powers to throw an officer in front of her as a shield and she took off toward the door. From that power display, she seemed to be a pretty high-level. She rampaged toward the door, killing many citizens as she exited. I took off after her, as did the hobo exorcist. I wanted to finish her, but knew I couldn't with the hobo man in sight. Suddenly, Mike, Diddy, and the two animal shelter stoners from the show Parks and Recreation, pulled up in a SUV. I faced the direction of the demon chick and telepathically grabbed her attention. She turned in my direction and I gave her a death stare. She looked scared as I jumped in the SUV and we drove off.


Now having lost lucidity again, I talked to Diddy and Mike about what happened. I said, "They actually tried to set us up. They think I'm just a low level demon. They would shit their pants if they actually knew." We laughed and Mike said, "Well, you can't blame them for not knowing really. The only ones who know the truth are those you WANT to know the truth." We talked a bit more about our next course of action, but I can't remember the specifics now. I woke up shortly after.

Series Details
In the dream series, "The End of Days," the world is coming to a close. With the hype surrounding 2012 and the current economy, many of these doomsday dreams have been popping up. See the events of the apocalypse unfold with more entries to the series.

Dream recall from today's naps.

I was in the bed, but in different location(I didn't noticed it until later), i keep having an HH(Or at least HH is the closest to how i can describe it, it was bizarre), that i was getting up but it lasted only a few seconds and i was back to normal, it repeated like 7 or 8 times and then i noticed that i was in different location in the bed, somebody entered the room but before i could look i woke up properly.

lil 15 minute lucid nap

I was drifting in out of the dream, it wasnt quite established so i was trying to really rub my hands. Jet lee was there, some guy was shootng me and i was screaming "i am conciousness"

then a thought of doubt would come and it would start to fade, i fought for a while like this


later i was on a play strucucure playing a game with my dad and shannon. not sure how it really went but i just no my dad was wearing like motorcycle gear trying to chase me or something. then irelaized it was a dream and like he would speed up when i thought he was gone or like what i believed thats wat he would do

Lucid Parts in blue
Non-lucid in red
Before I went to sleep, I chanted "I will become lucid" again. This time with more enthusiasm. I then got a feeling in my chest. My friend, Jayden told me if you get that feeling, you will have a lucid dream.
I don't remember a lot of my dream, but I do remember the lucid part.
I was in some grocery store and there was some other random girl there. She was being a jerk I wanted to insult her. That's when I remembered "Oh, this is a dream. I can insult her!"
As usual, the dream started to fade right as I said that. I tried rubbing my hands together. Jayden also said that will make the dream last longer. Thanks a lot, Jayden.
I remember nothing of my dream, or when I woke up. But I do remember the lucid part First one in almost a month!

Although I didn't get my goals accomplished in this lucid dream, I did meet my first supposed "dream guide". Not as... competent as I might have expected.

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #94: The "Dream Guide"

I'm walking down a sidewalk past a construction zone. One of the construction workers is crouched down low to measure something. I notice that he's using our diaper bag to make the measurement. I wonder what on Earth is going on but I'm in a hurry. You know what? I don't even want to know. I wait until the worker isn't looking and then just swipe the bag, throw it over my shoulder, and forget about it.

A little further on, I pass a couple walking with their daughter, a blonde girl of about 7 or 8. The girl glances at me as I pass. I think nothing of this at first, but after a few steps, I'm overcome by this feeling of being watched. I turn around to look behind me and the little girl is following me now, floating a couple of inches off of the ground. She has an unsettling, dead-eyed expression, and I hurry to get away. She's faster than I am, though, and as she seizes my hand, a horror movie "dun DUUNNNN!!" soundtrack plays. At first I'm spooked, but the effect is so ham-handed that I become lucid.

"This is just a dream," I tell her.

She smiles happily, no longer the fright figure of just moments ago. "It is!" she exclaims, dropping my hand and raising her arms over head triumphantly. "And I'm going to help guide you through it!"

Cool, I could use some help... "So that means you're a Dream Guide?"

"Oh, okay!" she says, not inspiring my confidence.

"Can you help me out with teleportation?" I ask, walking down the street with her. The road soon turns to cobblestone as we move away from the construction site. There are fewer people around now.

She shakes her head. "I haven't learned that kind of stuff yet..."

"Okay," I say. "Well, my goal for this dream was..."

She interrupts and speaks really rapidly: "You're going to summon NewArtemis and have her turn into a werewolf!" She grins, proud to show off her ability to read my mind. (She refers to Art by her DV handle.)

I smile, amused. "That's right... [NewArtemis]. The plan is to use a handshake summon. Can you help me do that?"

"Oh no," she says. "I haven't learned how to do summoning yet."

The street seems to be ending so I hop casually over the buildings at the end of the street, float over them, and land on another cobblestoned street just beyond. The little girl follows, floating just slightly behind. We're at a T-intersection and to my left is the mouth of a dark tunnel. I say, "How about I show you how to do that handshake summon?"

She nods eagerly and I extend my hand off to my right, out of sight, and repeatedly imagine NewArtemis performing the handshake. After a while, I feel the beginnings of a handshake. The little girl gasps and claps her hands. "What's it look like?" I ask. The girl doesn't answer and as I look at her now, I realize that she looks like a teenager and that her hair has lengthened and changed color. "Am I changing you?" I ask, starting to feel confused. It occurs to me how confusing it is to look at the girl while trying to imagine NewArtemis. It's like trying to remember how a song goes when something else is blaring on the radio. I feel like I might be morphing the girl into NewArtemis but I'm unsure whether I should switch to trying that. I'm becoming distracted.

I feel an insistent tap in the palm of my hand, as if the middle finger of the person I'm shaking hands with was repeatedly poking me and trying to get my attention. My mind races between the summoning effort, the tapping in my hand, the girl's shifting appearance, and my own indecision as to whether the summoning is ready for me to turn and look. Soon, the dream collapses.

Dream recall from today's nap.

I was talking on skype and doing some other stuff on PC, then i was distracted and was taking a break listening to binaural beats, then mom came to the room saying that some sound is too loud, i could not hear any loud sounds and only sound i could hear were binaural beats, then i was like 'wait a second' and i took off headphones, and could still hear binaural beats, i tried to rub hands but dream faded out.

05/11/13

Search for Nomad
I am on a long driveway in front of a nice house. I am thinking it's mine even though I've never seen it before. There is a huge yard around the house. I see rolling fields of grass and wild flowers with a forested area in the distance. I look around a bit more, the grass is tall and blowing in the wind. There is a tree with a wooden swing hanging from it. I can hear the birds singing all around though I can't see any of them. I entered this place through a hypnosis program so I am already lucid. I think I have plans to continue healing Winter since I don't yet know if she is feeling better or not. I focus on opening a portal to the healing glen. I go through the portal into the healing glen. I see the crystal golem in the glen seeming to be tending to something. I don't see Winter or Nomad. I ask him if Nomad and Winter are around. He says no, but if I need healing... I say I'll be back after I find Nomad and Winter. I focus on a portal to the healing springs on the moon. The portal opens and I go through. I am alone again. No one is there. The pools look very inviting. But where are Nomad and Winter? I wonder where they might be. Has something happened to them? I focus on a portal and on finding them. I will open a portal to wherever they are. I focus, but nothing happens. I wonder what could be wrong... I decide to try to bring them to me. I focus on my altered lyrics of Dream On by Aerosmith. The song plays through, but still nothing happens. I try again, focused on Nomad. Still nothing. I wonder what could be wrong. I wonder if they are sure ok. I am trying to think of another way to find them when the dream slips away and I wake up.

Dark Tower: Defenders
I am near a small camp just near a rundown looking town. It is night time and the stars shine brightly above. I am not alone there, I am there with Roland, Eddie, and Susanna. One of the first things I notice is wrong is Susanna has her legs. I think that is really odd, as in the Dark Tower books she is missing the lower part of her legs. In spite of that difference I still recognize these people from the Dark Tower series. They apparently realize I am there because Roland motions me over. He says the people of the town are too scared, and they believe there is nothing that can be done about the attacks that come. He says they are also too afraid of being infected, which is actually a valid fear. He asks if I, an assassin, will stand beside them until the end if needed. I hesitate, wondering how he knows I am an assassin, but then I tell them I will stay with them. He asks if I would happen to know any other assassins I could call on, we will be seriously outnumbered. I think of several. My first thought is MoSh. I use Dream On by Aerosmith and focus on MoSh. MoSh appears out of nowhere, much to Roland's surprise. Eddie and Susanna are talking to each other off to the side. I focus on the song and this time I try to summon Nomad. Nothing happens. I focus harder but nothing happens. I focus on summoning Spike. He appears, then asks where the bloody hell is he. He asks if I just teleported him. He says he's always glad to see me, but next time give him some warning before pulling him in. I think about that and decide he is right, it is kind of rude to just grab someone… Now I am hesitant to summon anyone else, and Roland takes my pause to mean I am done. He says the only direction the enemy can approach from is west, so we need to guard the narrow approach from the west and not let any of them pass. Everyone spreads out, the area is mostly desert so vegetation is sparse and I can see the others take up positions. There is some light coming from the east and I can now see that we are in a narrow canyon, and there is indeed no way around us. Things are approaching. They look like big trolls. And there are a lot of them. The silence of the morning is broken by gunfire. I check and realize I have a gun. That's a first… so I start shooting at the trolls as they charge through the desert. They seem heedless of the fact they are dropping as fast as they can come. I shoot one as it is about to reach me and it practically falls at my feet. In the brightening day I can see worms wiggling around in the head wound… YUCK! Its whole body is covered with those worms. I can see why the people in the town were worried about infection. The trolls just keep coming, it almost seems unfair to be using guns on them when they don't even seem to have the intelligence to realize they're dying. Finally they seem to get the picture and the ones farther away are retreating. I wonder what will keep them from coming back, or if they will actually remember this canyon as a bad place to be. I am thinking about asking Roland when I wake.

I had this dream in 2006. it is as vivid today as it was the day I had it, but I wrote it down in my journal then, and I'm copying it over here to share. this was the strongest dream I've ever had. I've always been a dreamer, but never anything quite like this.

I had a dream that I went to sleep. and in my dream I was floating over an intersection with a hill on one side and a school on the other. it was a very busy intersection. I could not hear what was going on, but men in hoodies stood on the hill, and they were chanting something I could not hear what, then all of a sudden they came out of the cover of the hill and started attacking the people on the street in front of the school, as I passed over I watched as people were being hacked to pieces, and I saw a stone that said Oxford. it was very vivid. then I woke up in my dream, but still dreaming.

I dreamed that I was moving to a yellow house with children in the yard, and an antiques business in back. we bought the house and moved in. and I went to sleep again. I dreamed again of the intersection but this time I could hear. there were rioting and yelling "Obama Nation of Desolation" they all had weapons. no guns, but hatchets and swords and sticks and such. and just like before they suddenly attacked in front of the school like before I floated above the scene and watched and this time heard the screams and horror of the scene.

I awoke fully. this time realized it was all a dream and went back to sleep.
when I went back to sleep I was in the same dream, it was continuing. I was dreaming I was at home in the yellow house and my mom called me on the phone. and said she and my brother had had the same dream of the hill and the massacre. we decided this was a call to gather. and that we were being warned and we should meet at grandma's house.

so I quickly gathered my 2 children and packed the car. my husband came with us. my daughter was adamant we bring her pillow so I did. we got on the road heading towards grandmas house. and the traffic was heavy. there was a feeling and atmosphere in the air like everyone had had the same dream, or everyone was fleeing to their refuges.

we decided to take surface streets to avoid the freeway, and suddenly we are at THE intersection. I instantly knew what was about to happen and I through the pillow over my children. (I don't have any further knowledge of what happens to my children) and my husband and I get out of the car. we run through the massacre as its happening and a woman is bludgeoned to death in front of me. we hide under some school bleachers where a man in a hoodie approaches us.

he talks to us and my husband listens. he explains that the bible was changed. and it is not the righteous that will inherit the earth. and he opens a bible were many words are blacked out so that it reads that God loves the wicked and the righteous will burn as stubble. my husband listens and joins their group. I'm devastated, but I run away. , still trying to make it to my grandmas on foot. I stop at a minimart and find a group of people who are willing to give me a ride. we drive through side streets and all around is desolation. we get to my grandma's city and all seems normal. I'm relieved to get there. as I get near my grandma's house I see my parents and brother going into her house. I'm so happy I made it. but I notice an exterminator van outside her house. they are plugging some hoses to the vents in the house. I start screaming for my family to get out of the house but its too late I get out of the car and try running into the house to get them, but they are all dead. someone hits me over the head from behind and I black out.

when I awake from the black out, but still in my dream. I am in a building that looks like its been bombed out. and I can see the city around me is similarly destroyed. I'm on the ground, someone is beating me and asking me questions but I don't know what they were asking me. I find a paper and pen and write something on it and hide it beneath me. and then I'm killed.

when I awoke fully I was in an almost euphoric state. or a complete state of shock. I fully expected the news to show some massacre. but of course it didn't...

#180 - 7:07AM - DEILD/DILD - 3 of 3

The alarm clock went off at 7am. I let my wife be the one to hit the snooze because I wanted to go for a DEILD. I was a little disappointed that I missed so many opportunities to become lucid after the first two LDs. I didn't move a muscle or open my eyes and focused on the back of my neck. I got weak vibrations right away. I continued a little longer hoping that they would get more intense like usual. Another bad idea.

I found myself non lucid in a public restroom that looked a lot like a home bathroom. I take a leak in a normal toilet (not a urinal). A miniature version of Ms. Page (I'll leave the first name off to protect the innocent. ), an ex girl friend of mine that later became a good friend, is sitting on the back of the toilet with her boyfriend chatting away. I say something about privacy and go to a row of sinks to wash my hands. There is a soft soap pump bottle and when I squirt some out I knock over the bottle. The top was loose and liquid soap spills all over the counter. I notice several men on either side of me washing their hands. Embarrassed, I say out loud, "Ooops. Sorry, I'm still half asleep." I pause. Still... asleep. DING! The light comes on.

I realize I am dreaming and for fun, look into the mirror. I smile real big at my self and make funny faces. I'm really excited that I am lucid and it shows on my blurry face in the mirror. I leave the bathroom with no real task in mind and go exploring.

There's a slight memory gap but I was basically running around what looked like a shopping mall laughing manically and being overly hyper. I end up busting in some door that went into some office space in the back part of the mall. There are several women sitting at a conference desk. For some reason the song Hey Ladies by the Beastie Boys pops in my head. I confuse the lyrics a little and loudly sing, "HEY LADIES! WHERE'S ALL THE SINGLE LADIES IN THE HOUSE!?" My intentions were never sexual and judging by all the bored and disinterested stares that I got in reply, I think my subconscious knew it.
I say, "What? Really? Nobody?"

Then I remember that I saw Ms. Page in the bathroom and began to regret that we haven't talked in a long time in waking life. I see a corded phone on the conference desk and pick up the receiver to page her. At that moment I realize I have no idea how to page so I fake it. I dial 'star' 'eight', thought about it moment then, 'nine'. I hear a tone on the loud speaker and I speak, "Umm..." I hear my voice over the intercom and to my surprise it sounds very realistic. "(first name) Page please call.." Oh shit what extension? I look on the phone and see some random letters and numbers printed in white on black. I see '*16' and decide thats it. "... extension one six". I thought 'one six' was a little short so I add, "six six." Sure I'll add a few 6's. Why not?As soon as I hang the phone up it rings.
I answer. "Hello?"
I hear a very lively and smooth female voice reply, "Hey! What are you doing?
"Oh", I said. I'm surprised at how much it really sounds like her. "I just wanted to see you. You know... nothing weird. Just wanted to chat and see how things were going. Can you come here?"
She sounded happy about the idea. "Sure I'll see you in a minute." I hang up the phone and decide to walk out of the office into a more public area to keep things from getting awkward.

I find myself in a busy food court and take a seat on a bench looking around for her face in a sea of strangers. I feel the dream getting distorted and hazy so I get up and pace around. I still feel really amped up and decided the pacing was a good idea. My legs feel tense and energetic and what I really want to do now is go for a run but I force myself to calm down and wait. I'm curious if she will actually show up.

I come up behind one woman that I think might be her and quickly give her a friendly hug from behind but when she turns around it doesn't really look like her. I just go with it hoping she will change. I say, "Hi! It's good to see you again." The woman just glares at me. I notice now that she is a blond and my friend was never blond and now her face is all wrong. I say to her, "Oh sorry. I thought you were someone else."
She hatefully and sarcastically replies, "Uh yeah.. You think?" and storms off.
I shout after her, "WELL WHY DIDN'T YOU SAY ANYTHING?"

I search around some more and spot Ms. Page sitting on the bench that I was just at. I walk over and sit next to her. She is holding a toddler and I remember that she was pregnant the last time I talked to her in walking life. I study her face for a moment to make sure. It looks just like her but her face is a little shifty. I shrug that off as normal.
"Oh hi!" I said. "I forgot that you had another kid! What's her name?"
She starts talking excitedly but now the dream is fading. I take her left and and hold it in both of mine. I don't care anymore what she is saying and I begin to softly stroke the back of her hand for stability. It's not working and I shush her so I can concentrate.
Showing real concern she asks me, "What wrong?"
I say, "Oh nothing really. It's just that I'm waking up now and I don't want to." The scene fades to black.

I see another scene forming but force myself awake as I know my time must but almost up. The dream felt like it went on for a long time and I was afraid to forget.

The alarm goes of for the second time once I start to DJ in my phone.

This dream starts off with me standing at Kendo/ninjutsu school.
My outfit consists of traditional Japanese clothing.
I take a look behind me and there I see many of my friends in the same outfit.
They are waiting for me patiently to walk inside the school. I have a feeling I'm their leader of sorts.
I walk in and they follow, as I enter this school I look to my left and there for some reason I see Arnold Schwarzenegger.
I look at him un-baffled and continue with my student/ friend's. A woman awaits me and hands me a white sheathed Katana.
My friend's are all excited and we are told we will be taught things from ancient times. She tells me to step up.
She says I must now walk up a series of walls upside down without falling into the dark abyss below the ground besides me, if I am to be accepted.
I start to walk up the mud wall, then onto the ceiling upside down. I do this for 30 minutes until I arrive to a part where the ground is there. I have finished the first lesson. My friend's do as well.
Day 2
I am walking around the city with my unit I guess and we are on our way to the school again.
We again must learn too walk up walls to avoid falling into the dark holes on the ground and do so.
We are almost at the school.
We are all joyful and while walking I see a guy holding a new born baby in the street next to a dumpster, accompanied by a white Escalade with a man and a woman inside...
I inform my friends we must go through here to reach the shortcut to the school. We do so, yet, while walking I felt uneasy of their presence around my friends.
As we arrive at the school the city-scape now turns into a hill with grass, a dirt path, and short wooden fences.
Our teacher greets us saying this is our next challenge. Ahead of us is an old style Japanese village.
We all go forth and know that we are going to be fighting for some reason.
As I draw my sword, all my friends disappear and I am now with what seems to be more experienced ninja/samurai like people.
We all are attacked and we are fighting with others. After the ordeal I have completed the challenge.
I'm now standing with my teacher and so are all of my friends.
I tell the others to follow me and that we are done for the day now. Everyone is happy and feeling energetic.
I drop everyone home.
Day 3
I have forgotten the little details outside of the school just to let you all know. Anyways.
I walk in with few others, we are the strongest apparently in the unit.
we arrive in a field full of grass that extends at least a mile.
Across we can see an old japanese castle/mansion of sorts with people fighting more aggressively than what we are used to.
She(my teacher) says "this is a place that is not like any other school. It was designed to train in levels and terrain just like in the battle field. I have brought you to the place in the middle of where the most fighting should ever be." (below the hills where most warriors would fight and the archers would be above.)
For some reason I am suddenly standing outside the school with all my friends waiting.
One of them says they have to go home today and others say the same as well.
I tell them ok and as I walk, a security man smiles immensely and says if I would like a small blunt of a cigar.
He says its tobacco with a chocolate flavor. I smoke it before I leave. It was pretty great. I wake up before I could do much more.
I dreamnt of this last night and I am usually able to remember every detail of the dreams I have.
I'll try going back into this dream again when I go to sleep tonight.

Total sleep time: 8 hrs

Pre bed: Q10, probiotics, and cup of green tea (no problem falling asleep after yesterday's insomnia)

Other stuff: The guys had a planned event for today morning, so my chances to get some decent sleep and lucid were minimal, and yet...

Recall: As soon as I woke up, so did my bf and realized he's really late, started running around and talking to me as I tried to remember and write down the dreams. Took me a while to finish that.

Dream1: My parents have abandoned our home, and the place is falling apart. I go to the restroom and try flushing, but there is no water. It is because there was a leakage, so they have stopped the water. I wonder why don't they just fix everything instead of leaving it like that. My mom appears and says it is time for us to go.

On our way out we see an older friend of ours and ask her how she is doing. She replies very briefly, so I ask her about her son, I actually say the wrong name, but in the dream that's his name. She then begins a very long story that I don't feel like listening to, and I regret ever asking her. I tell her to send my greetings to him although I could contact him myself.

Soon her son/my friend comes by and we are drinking apple juice. As I pour myself some juice, I notice that there are insects like a dead yellow ladybug and some insect eggs the jug, and decide I won't be having any more juice. My friend is a bit offended that I don't want to drink the juice and we now have to throw it away. I leave the building, he remains to deal with the juice, but will join me later.

I am on the street, I hear music and I see native Americans perform at the end of the street. The come to the front, wearing traditional costumes. I also see some bright spots with different colors about half the size of a person above each of them and assume I am seeing their aura. I enjoy the show, they sing and perform some stunts. When it is over, I notice that I am the only person clapping hands so I feel a bit embarrassed. Why is nobody applauding? I conclude that if you do applaud, you are supposed to leave some money, and as I check my pockets I find that I don't have any.

Dream2: My bf is negotiating with my dad about a place we want to visit. Actually I have not told my dad about this so it gets a bit awkward. We postpone the discussion for another time and my dad is on his way home. He is taking a bus, and I am looking at the back of the bus, expecting to wave goodbye. He finally looks back and I see that he is talking to a friend of his, and there is also some unknown woman that he is friends with.

I suddenly find myself sitting on the backseat of the bus, and two of my friends are also sitting with me there. We propose an explanation that this bus is very spacey, so when we thought we were outside, we actually never left the bus. Ok, but we need to get out, especially that we know that this is a travel bus, and won't be making any stops until it reaches its destination. We go to at least try to inform the driver we need to get off.

As we move forward, we are in some kind of a building, but in our minds, we are still in the bus. Our goal is to reach the reception, so once we reach it, we will be able to leave the bus. The building is very strange, I am looking at some building plan, trying to navigate and find the way out. There are lots of doors and lockers, it looks really puzzling. I remark that everything looks so strange, it almost feels like in a dream. We continue looking around, I see some women working there as janitors and ask them where the reception is, but they can't help us.

One of my friends comes up with the idea that we need to inject ourselves with a time travel serum so we can escape this place. We prepare to do so, we have some syringes, the green time travel serum and start injecting ourselves with it. I get the largest dose, the serum is visible on hands, and our veins get extra green.

I am on some unknown street, and we have succeeded in changing the course of events and going back in time. I look at my fingers and notice that the knuckles have swollen, my fingers are bent in a very painfully looking way. This is strange, but I remember that some portion of the serum was in contact with my skin, which is what have caused this temporary side effect.

I take a brief moment and contemplate about time and what has changed. I look at a clothing store and I see that a guy that used to do something else before we changed time, is now famous and has his own label. I wonder about my memories because things have changed, would I know what has happened. I answer to myself, that I wouldn't but everybody else would have the new memory in place and I will learn what happened just as if I am listening to the news, that way I will get updated.

Dream3 DILD TOTM: I think this directly followed after our time travel. I enter in a room and notice a very old TV of a known brand and something that looks like a retro computer. The brand of the computer is also there, but it doesn't look familiar. I am in uplifted mood and say to some DC friend of mine. "Now we are going to have a look, have some fun reading the brand name and see if it changes". I stare at the logo, try reading it and expect to be normally able to read it.

Instead, I have difficulty focusing on the letters and it finally hits me! I really did not expect to become lucid today, but anyways I am happy about that. Oh right, once again time to concentrate on the tasks. My mind is a bit hazy, so I think I need to set the room for this, looking around for the items I need. I turn way too much and it feels more like spinning than looking around. I expect some mythological creature to just pop up while I do this, and mistakenly to see an egg as well. Nothing of the kind.

I notice at least five DCs sitting down, their backs facing me, as if they are all working on their PCs. I begin shouting, asking them to help me set the room and everything I need. Nobody is paying any attention to me. I become upset at this and finally decide to tell them they are not real. No reaction, their backs are really stiff. I repeat this again as if I am insulting them with those words. Finally, a girl with dark hair and vampire teeth answers back. I can barely hear what she is saying, she repeats it again " Oh, I am bla bla with fear". Bla bla is actually some m-word that does not exist at all. You are what? I ask her again. I repeat the strange m-word a few more times, trying to memorize it. It works but I begin to forget the dream. The vampire girl starts to laugh, and makes me laugh too. Overcame by happiness, I am able to control the DCs in the room and everybody bursts out laughing.

The dream fades and I am back in darkness, in my bed. I feel tired and heavy so no point to DEILD. I want to get up to journal, but fall asleep instead.

Dream4: I am in a classroom, and recognize at least one guy from school there. He is trying to tell me something, pointing at him, then at me. Me and him? No way, I tell him, then I realize that he is just pulling my leg. He continues with this strange stupid behavior and now tries to match a friend of his with another classmate of mine. These guys are crazy... (end)

I wake up, my bf wakes up, the whole world wakes up, and everybody is rushing around as I try to hold my dream memory and write it down. Finally TOTM!

#179 - 5:38AM - DILD - 2 of 3

On this one my memory is a little vague. I became lucid but only for a few moments. I've forgotten much of the detail so I'll be brief.

I am watching my wife give birth to my son for the second time. But this time she is in the bedroom on the bed and there is a midwife. She has the baby crowning the she suddenly flips over with her butt in the air. I see him pull an arm out and wave at me. This so ridiculous that I become lucid but only on a low level. I didn't decide to change anything or leave. I just stood there watching my son being born. After he was born I got a good look at him and noticed this face was completely purple. I didn't freak out as I knew none of this was real. My wife says to me, "Well, are you going to hold your son?"
I reply, "Yeah later after I wake up."
Then I wake up.

#178 - 4:13AM - WILD/DILD - 1 of 3

I focused on my face and body and fell away very quickly. This WILD was very different as I had no vibrations or OBE like experience. I watch the dream form and find myself standing in the kitchen. I feel really wobbly and the scene variies in darkness and clarity. I lay down on the kitchen counter and wait for the dream to finish forming. That was a bad idea because I fall straight into a false awakening.

The bedroom light comes on and my ex-wife was out of bed. She is holding needles and tubes that look like something from the plasma center. She is totally freaking out and goes on about taking two hydros and a B6. I ask her, "what are you talking about?"
Then she tells me, "I took all of the hydros and I have a drug test in the morning for school."
I feel confused. She's already been through the police academy but I guess she has some other class. I realize the implications of a cop failing a drug test but I am so tired that I just want her to stop whatever she's doing.
As if she was reading my mind she says, "Do you think I like having to do all this?" She holds up the large needles and tubes and continues rambling.
I interrupt her, "Can we just talk about this in the morning?"
Suddenly she stops talking and, while holding my son, gets back into bed.

Seeing her with my son brings me back to lucidity. This is just all wrong and I feel a little sick to think I was still married to her. I remind myself that the woman next to me was not her. I feel very relieved at this and at this point I thought I had really woke up and maybe I did. I'm not sure. I go for DEILD but it seems that it came way too easy. I feel vibrations right away and then quickly fade. I focus on the back of my neck and they come back but only briefly. The transition was so quick that I was fooled by another FA.

I see a light from a TV on in the room. There's a strange half partition with a 'window' next to the bed. On the other side is a large old TV and brown leather couch. My bedroom is so totally different than waking life but I catch on to none of it. All I can think was this messed up my DEILD and I need to turn it off.

I walk over to the TV. Even-though it looks like random words and images I recognize it as stats on my current Galantamine and DMAE levels. I paused at the TV for a moment looking for the remote but it's too dark to see by the light of the TV. Suddenly the lights came on (Thanks dream) and I look around. I see the bed and the lump under the covers on my wifes side. Daisy our dog is perched on top of her. I think about all of this for a second and let out a "Pffft" sound. I fell dumb for falling for this FA so easily. I rub my hands as a reality check. It feels vivid but a little numb like always. Yep that feels right. I open the bed room door and step out. I notice that I am coming out of the wrong side of the house. I can see the living room and the dining area but I am right next to the front door. Suddenly the lights go out. I say to the dream, "Light's please." Nothing happens but I hear a loud shushing sound coming from the table. I turn and find a working light switch. I look at the table but no one is there. I say, "Who's there?" I want to shout and scream and whatever it is but my throat feels blocked.

I am answered by another loud shushing sound but now it's coming from the bedroom behind me. Then the door starts to close and it pushes hard against me. I feel really scared now. "Who's who' who's", is all I can say. I feel like my ability to speak is fading away. I push hard on the door and get it open enough to look behind it but there is no one there. I feel really creeped out. But I'm laying on my right side not my left. I decide to bail rather than let the dream turn into a lucid nightmare and bolt out the front door.

Outside, there is daylight but the sky is overcast and gray. I'm fine with that. At least it's not dark I remember my task to summon Falkor and fly to China. I walk into the street and begin whistling. I try the two finger whistle like a cattle rustler but it sounds like too much air and is faint. I try several different styles of whistles but none of them sound right and I eventually settle on calling him like a dog. "Falkor, come on boy. Faaaallllkor!" I wait with full expectation but I don't see him. I tell myself to keep moving while waiting and calling. I know the dream always fades into something else or I wake up when I am too idle. I look to the southern sky behind me. There is a red star and a wide white streak. I tell myself that that is Falkor and ignore the red star. After a second I see the white streak begin to move like a fish swimming in the sea. I wait with anticipation as I see him begin to take on more detail and slowly work his way toward me. I notice that my feet have become painfully cold. Am I bare foot? No. I remember that I put my feet out of the covers when I rolled over during my WILD. I try to move my feet back in the covers and continue the dream. I feel like I was successful but at that moment, I suddenly and with out warning wake up.