lucid

Last night, somehow I was able to have what felt like an hour long lucid dream in the span of 10 minutes. I must have gone into REM sleep almost instantly. I know this, because my friend Adam <username: Salamus> was going through relaxation techniques right next to me and told me so when I woke up, exhilarated.


As soon as I was asleep, I was lucid. I tried to yell out from my dream to Adam that I was having a lucid dream without waking myself up, and he responded, though I later found out it was just in my head.

Next thing I know, I find myself driving down a highway, expertly switching tapes in a portable tape player I had next to me without looking, suddenly remembering that I've gone through years of training for that one action. I said to myself:
"The cops can't catch me; I'm dreaming!" and consequently slam on the gas pedal. I must have been going 120 mph or so, but when I look down at the speedometer, it is still showing 50 mph. I shake it off: "Well, it must be broken."
I pull off to a gas station and walk in the door. Instead of a door chime, I hear a the bleating of a goat. Something wet and sticky is against my face. At this point I realize I've been on my hands and knees the whole time, and the thing against my face is the sweaty arm of a heavily tattooed and pierced dream character. Smartly, I stand up.
The DC says to me, "Say, did you know that this gas station's cashier will give out Robotussin for free?"
Intrigued, I say, "Really?"
He replies, "No, actually she only gives it to three guys that she slept with after this one party."
I say, "Oh."
My attention then shifts to the man at the front of the line, who is buying a Xbox 360 game, and seems quite upset with the allegedly slutty cashier.
She says calmly to the man, "I'm sorry sir, but the FBI requires a signature for any purchase over 10 dollars."

After that, I wake up to share my dream with Adam, who has not yet fallen asleep.

06-07-2013 -- [Dreams within dreams, connections to other dreams, lucid, false awakenings, all kinds of stuff in this one.] Stopping by Rosemary's to check for mail or something, but she says I look sick, orders me to bed (in a different room than the one that used to be mine), and tells me to see a doctor in the morning. I accept the bed, but I figure I'm not going to go see a doctor, because I might have a slight fever, but I feel more or less fine. The room I am in is messy enough to be mine, and there is a crushed orange juice carton on the floor that has been squished, and I am amazed that it doesn't stink, since old orange juice smells horrible.

I must have gotten into bed and fallen asleep, because I suddenly find myself dreaming. I know I am dreaming, and even recognize the dream, one I had a few months ago, here. Oddly, though, I keep claiming that it was somebody else's dream, and as I am wandering through this dream that I can remember from before, I keep talking about how detailed it is, and how large the area it covers is, and how amazed I am that this other person could have such a detailed dream, and wishing I could dream so well! [Lol].

Anyway, I find myself in an area that is kind of shaped like a backward E, with the long bar connecting the lines running down the right side, instead of the left. I am in a hallway that forms the bottom branch of the E, on the west side, heading to the east, and the hall seems impossibly long, like a mile or so, and I am talking to myself out loud about what a cool dream this is, and how great the original dreamer must be, and it is the same area from the linked dream above where I was chasing the imps. But in this dream there are no imps, just the hallway. Looking to the south I am looking out many windows into the outside world. Looking to the north, I am looking through big panes of glass to a very large swimming pool.

As I walk along, the hallway is getting shorter and shorter, and now the entire hallway is probably only about a quarter of a mile long, and I am about halfway down it. Though it is still the outside on one side and a pool on the other, there is the hint and feel of hospital quarters or laboratories, again, just like noted in the linked dream, that ties this into even more past dreams, if only lightly. As I am looking around, I find there is a slightly seedy guy walking next to me, and I am shocked to look down and find he has got his dick in his hand, and is unobtrusively trying to rub the thing against me. Ick!

I kind of hurry away from him, heading to the east and the north/south branch of the reverse E, except the actual area is starting to feel more like the corner with the bakery in the Van Thief dream linked here. The Dick guy is still following me, and I try to escape by making my way into a store that is located right about where the middle branch of the reverse E would be, except as I move further into the store, it actually turns into the middle E branch. To the north are a row of stores, and to the south are windows looking on the other side of the big pool that I could see from the other path. So my mind seems to be keeping the layout pretty steady.

Dick Guy is still right on me, but now the hand holding his willie is covered in white, sticky gunk, and he is really creeping me out, so I start an odd combination of praying against him and using a sort of mind power/spell to try and force him to forget ever even seeing me, and I start running off to the east again, wanting to get away before there is any chance the guy might see me again or remember me. As I am approaching the north/south branch again, there is a small ladder to climb to get out of the area (about like the ladder out of a pool) but rather than waste time, I just fly up the four or five feet to the main path, to escape the icky creep!

At this point the dream is switching again, to be like the Disneyland Paris dream I had here, in the area I met Dave D./Chris V. in that dream. (All three of these dreams took place in about a two week period, roughly 6 months ago.) It is seeming more and more like a shopping mall, though with hints of theme park areas about it. A little north and west of me is what seems to be a 3 or 4 floor version of the America Sings show building from Disneyland, except each floor is recessed a little further, and it isn't circular. Instead it kind of undulates kind of like a stretched out, really tall S. The funny thing is, it still seems to be rotating, even though it isn't circular. Instead it is almost like all the walls are kind of like the luggage conveyors at the airport, circling around the stationery, oddly-shaped building. Weird.

As I walk further north, I seem to be making my way through crowds waiting for a parade, and soon find myself catching up to the parade, itself. There are hundreds of characters, and most of them seem to be dwarves. Seven of them are dressed in colorful costumes, and seem to be the named dwarves we are all familiar with [Dopey, Doc, etc.], the rest seem to be just generic dwarves of the same people, but to set them apart, their clothes and faces and all are just plain white. It looks rather weird. They are singing some sort of silly song, and I find myself singing along while floating a couple of feet over a tall planter. Several of the dwarves are climbing on the planter, and some ignore me, seeing I am causing no trouble, while others seem to be bothered by my floating there.

I am now approaching the top of the backwards E, though it is now beginning to more resemble a T, with paths leading east and west. It is here in the Disneyland Paris dream that I headed East from what was a shopping mall sort of area into what actually became DLP. As I am wandering around, I glance over and spot a very short person with graying curly hair, and suddenly recognize Sharon K. I glance around and standing next to her is Joe H. [Actually I suppose she is Sharon H., these days, but I still remember her as Sharon K.] I make my way to talk to them, but they are vaguely unfriendly, and they indicate they are going to the TTC (Ticket and Transportation Center) to take a Monorail over to the Magic Kingdom, and this has turned into Walt Disney World. They have no wish for my company.

I'm a little miffed, and decide, fine! I'll just fly into the air, fly over to the TTC, and beat them there! Remember, through this whole thing, I know I am dreaming. (I just think it is somebody else's dream, oddly enough.) I fly easily, and follow the monorail tracks right into the TTC, just moving to the side a bit to avoid some guy who has borrowed Wonder Woman's invisible plane, and is landing in the same area. I am trying to figure out which trains are going to the Magic Kingdom directly, which are stopping at the hotels, and which are actually heading to EPCOT, but it is complicated. I have just figured it out and am about to land by the train going direct to the Magic Kingdom when it pulls out, so I decide why bother, and just fly along the track, following it into the park.

As I fly along the monorail beam, I am thinking about what I want to do, today. I think about stopping by Casey's Corner to listen to the piano player, or heading into the back portion of Frontierland to ride Big Thunder or the log ride (in a layout more like my dreams of Magic Mountain than the real layout of Disneyworld), but oddly, as soon as I think of these areas, I suddenly find myself hovering above them. I am just about to land and ride some rides when I 'wake up' back into the earlier dream ... or into real life.

For a few seconds I seem to find myself in both the 'wrong' bedroom at Rosemary's house, and in the room I am currently in at the roach motel I am staying at in real life. I think I halfway woke, really, then drifted back into the dream that I never fully left. Anyway, I find myself waking in Rosemary's. The room I am staying in does not have a door, but a sheet pulled across the door opening, and kind of velcro'd to the wall. Somebody has disturbed it, and it has pulled open, and I am hoping to block it off before Rosemary sees me and starts badgering me. TOO LATE! She's standing right there, and tells me to hurry off to the doctors.

I tell her there is nothing wrong with me, I am feeling fine, and she says "Yeah, right! With your face covered in blood and your nose all purple!" What?!? I turn around to find a mirror (avoiding the overturned dog dish and kibble on the floor), and find myself standing outside somewhere in front of a large wall of reflective glass, staring at myself. My nose is swollen to about twice it's normal size and colored a bright purple, and there is a huge (perhaps 1 cm around) zit on the end of my nose, while my face is, indeed, covered in blood. I am about to reach up and try and pop the zit when a baseball coach who is standing there warns me that I might not want to do that, as I might cause a nasty infection. But I barely touch it and the thing pops easy as pie. I take a wash cloth and wipe off the blood and puss and try to gently clean the stuff out, and everything still seems fine, so I still don't plan on visiting a doctor.

I woke around 4:30AM and since it was too late for a WBTB tried falling asleep with SSILD. I was more tired than I thought and didn't get past the visual stage. Sometime later I had a brief awakening and I went for DEILD. I've had a playing card that I blindly placed face up on top of the china cabinet in my house. I finally hit an OBE this morning and was able to take a look.


#189 - 5:23AM - DEILD/OBE

I waited and I got that special feeling that made me realize I was close. I remember Monroe's tech but since I was so close I skipped a few steps. I went straight to focusing 6 feet off the top of my head and pulling energy in. The vibrations started. I concentrated on it for a bit noting the frequency and intensity.

I tentatively and slowly moved upper body just to check. Every felt right and my physical body seemed locked in so I went for it. I took off and phased through the bedroom door without a thought and went straight for the playing card. I reached the top of the cabinet and pulled thinking I would float up but instead it feels like I tipped it over. There was a strange brief vertigo and I'm not sure if I actually floated or I tipped it over. Doesn't matter.

I look around and see various scraps of paper but no playing card. Everything seems a little blurry and I think I just need to look harder. I say, "It IS here. I WILL find it." Then I see a card pop up in my face. It is the queen of clubs. I study it to remember but then it fans out into many cards all laying on top of the china cabinet. I see a couple of aces and a jack and I think a 9 and a 10. I decide that since I saw the queen first that I'll go with this one. I try memorizing the rest just in case but when I look a the jack it some how seems red with a black suit. I call it a red black jack. Then I realize all the other cards are doing the same except for the Queen. It's clearly queen of clubs. This HAS to be it! All this thinking and studying quickly causes me to wake up. I try to lay still for DEILD but it doesn't come and I have to pee.

The actual card was the nine of hearts. The entire experience was probably only a minute or two.

Partly lucid dream:

I was in the car going somewhere with a few friends and people I knew and this girl who is with someone now but who I've wanted to be with for about 2 years and care about alot was there too but we weren't talking really. Then the driver(Can't remember who) was going a different way so just me and her had to walk together, and she was like why didn't you call, and I asked the same and then she sat down and started to cry. I hugged her and we kissed and I told her I loved her and it was like super emotional.

End of dream.

The first involved me getting out of bed to go make myself breakfast. I made myself three slices of toast and made my way back to bed. I then awoke for real and noticed that it was still dark outside so that must have been a dream so I relaxed and tried to stay as aware as possible in case this happened again.

In the next one I woke up and went to the optometrist with mi madre. I was trying on glasses when I realised that my sight was fine as I'd recently passed my eye exam. I raised my hands and looked at them to try to stabilise before I tried to do anything else but then I moved my hand in bed in reality. I did more checks just in case it was another false awakening but this one was real.

These are all of the lucids I've had since I went on vacation. It's good but I really need to get back on track with journaling, all of these have been high vividness but vanish so easily when I wake up. My ability to enjoy a lucid is high, but my recall is terrible. I definitely need to fix this....

But in the meantime, dreams! It's been a while since I had some of these, so my apologies if my memory is a little shaky on them.

May 21

Right before my eyes!! [DILD]

The first thing I remember is hanging around my neighborhood. I was hanging out with a couple old friends, I believe a couple who I went to elementary school with, and we were staring at where the elementary school used to be and reminiscing. It had been replaced with a college campus, though in reality it still stands there. I became lucid when I separated from them, and I headed down the alleyway that leads to my house. The main thing I recall about the beginning of this lucid was that there were a bunch of DCs chasing me like screaming fangirls. They were all cute, somewhat chubby white girls. I was fighting one of them off near my garage and I decided that I needed some kind of weapon. I held out my hand as if I was holding something and just stared at it and visualized a wrench being there, and it faded into existence right before me! It wasn't really that useful to me though, I'm not exactly sure why I went with a wrench, so I just tossed it at her and ran back out into the open. On my way out I also tried to split my body in two and summon fire but I wasn't able to do either. I was also able to reach up to my face and remove a pair of glasses, twice without putting any back on, that increased the vividness of the scene each time.

When I got out of the alleyway I was still being chased by the girl, she tried to jump me and I ended up accidentally groping her, but then I got away and she seemed to disappear. I turned down one of my neighborhood streets and saw this girl who looked like ML, that I knew all throughout public school also since elementary, but she looked almost like a porn star. Also, I have no earthly idea what this means, but in my phone notes at the end of that last part I added "and apparently it was an ongoing procedural thing." I believe I picked her up as I walked by her and started inviting her to my house, but then the dream faded away.

May 22

Good thing we're not.... [DILD]

I don't remember too much about this one. TB, a guy from elementary school, and some other guy were there, and at one point I was walking with this girl MH who people used to think we were related back in like first or second grade. I was thinking about making out with her, but then I realized that this all was odd and became lucid, but then I woke up.

May 24

Hammerspace trial. [DILD]

I was back in high school talking to M's friend C at the end of a class and the beginning of break, then I left to find someone else though I forget who now. All I know is that I was done with classes at that point. I became lucid while walking into a classroom and took off my backpack and randomly decided to just drop it through the floor so I could store it for later. When it actually worked and the floor swallowed it up, I got kind of distracted and decided to toy around with it a little more. I stuck my hand into the floor and tried reaching around for the bag but couldn't find it anywhere, so I pulled myself back out and tried to summon it directly into my hand like the wrench from before but I couldn't get that to work either, and since I focused so much on it the rest of the dream faded away.

June 4

#1 - Acid carnival? [DILD]

I was lucid outside at night at some kind of bizarre carnival. This whole section of the dream had a very strange psychotic feel to it. I was bursting with energy and the random chains of events happening around me were unfolding in a way that made me feel like I was in an acid trip. Everywhere I looked I had to fight off a good deal of sexual temptation to avoid getting too swept up into the dream and losing track of the lucid. The main ones I remember now are the barber shop girls and the girls getting their hair cut there, and then some beautiful performing girls including LK from middle and high school who wer just singing and dancing. There were also some weird guys here and there, and I specifically remembering sticking out my hand at one of them and yelling "Bang!" Other than that it's really hard to remember what all happened in this dream, it was very frantic and there was a lot going on.

#2 - Maybe I'll just wait.... [DILD]

This is an interesting dream to me because I'm pretty sure I accidentally incubated it while falling asleep due to what I was considering doing. I'm fairly certain the dream just kicked in with me lucid while walking down a hallway with the intention of masturbating. I seem to be in some kind of school or something and I come upon the bathroom so I head inside and notice that it's massive and there's a huge line of girls waiting inside, and even a few guys. I just decided to fuck the system and walk past the line all the way down to the end. I look in the stall and I try to throw this one girl out but she won't budge. She says something about seeing a "nasty phallus" or something like that, and then immediately holds up this suitcase with three fake but realistic and damaged-looking penises just sitting in it to show me. They looked like they were diseased and rotting or something, and it really grossed me out and I woke up.

June 6

Sort of like being drunk in an out-of-body experience. How can you beat that? [DILD]

The first of this lucid is hard for me to recall now which is annoying because I know it was cool, but mainly what I remember is starting out in some high up apartment building out in the hills somewhere and flying out and above a city scape for a while. I also saw this old abandoned building on the ground I was approaching at one point so I did a twirl in the air with the expectation that it would be inhabited when I turned all the way around and saw it again, and it was successful. When I got there I just flew around a bit and through walls to see what all there was to do, and I came upon this very attractive girl, just a little bit younger than me by the looks of it. I picked her up and just carried her in my arms with me for a little bit and got distracted talking to another DC or something. I can't remember what was said now, mainly because of what happened next. I focused back on her again and looked down at her body and noticed that she was completely naked. That combined with the fact that I was only somewhat lucid and already pretty horny, and my prefrontal cortex must have taken a big hit. I don't remember much about the next part other than basically becoming an animal. Seriously, I could get addicted to this. >.>

The bummer though was one part when I looked up from my partner and noticed that we were being swallowed into some sort of pit of darkness that was taking the stability of the dream along with it. At the last second I realized that I hadn't been able to keep focus, but there was no time to try to save it before my awareness vanished. The dream became a third-person, non-lucid scene of a woman who was escaping some thugs or something by jumping out of a window of the apartment building from before and realizing she could fly too, and I saw us flying next to each other while I told her that we were in an astral projection together. Then, I suddenly had a false awakening in that same building. I got up and noticed that my parents were talking right outside my room, and figured that that was probably what woke me up. But after that I actually did wake up.

I can't remember exactly what the situation was. I can remember I was staying in some kind of pier or industrial park area. I can remember there being shipping crates that had been converted into houses, and in that sense it was kind of like a slum. I think that there were some people drinking and doing drugs.
It was nighttime. I was sitting around a campfire with some other dream characters, and I fell asleep, Inside the dream.
Only moments only after I fell asleep, I re-awoke into the same dream. It was daytime now, and I could make out more of the area that I was in. There were some warehouses and cargo ships docked nearby.
Then I can recall coming across some dream character. He seemed alot like Bane from Dark Knight Rises. (In fact, he was exactly like Bane from Dark Knight Rises.)
He wanted me to make a decision in his evil plot, and he told me that he was going to have me do it. He led me to the other side of one of the warehouses, where he had wired up three yellow buttons.
For some reason, I wasn't really scared of this character, despite him being a villain. He said that each of the buttons was linked to a bomb, and if I didn't press one of the buttons, he would kill me.
One of the buttons was labeled a remote place. I wanted to press it, but I realized that the button was fake, and it was just painted onto the side of the warehouse.
For some odd reason, the button painted onto the warehouse triggered lucidity. The Bane character disappeared.
I walked around for a minute and focused on stabilization. I eventually came across this fenced off road, and there was a bleacher set up, as though the road had been converted into a raceway.
I found my parents sitting in the bleacher. I can't exactly remember what sort of interaction I had with them. I wanted to try and find my dream guide and get in some lessons. I think I found her just before I awoke.

Legend: Dream , Lucid Dream , Side notes.

Bunker Scientist:
I'm underground in some metallic looking silver bunker. I'm walking down a corridor and as i pass through a doorway, i notice two guys on each side of me. They instantly spring forward in what looks like an attempt to attack me, However they stop before they actually hit me. They realize i'm not the person they were waiting for. There's also some other people around me, they seem disappointed, they must have been waiting to see a fight. There's one person that is especially mad and he decides to try and lock me in a jail like cell with some creepy looking guy in the corner, i fight him off and continue down the corridor. I eventually get to a room with a mix of kids and adults. There's lots of advanced looking equipment scattered on the walls and about the room. I notice a screen with all the sub-atomic particles on it ( the ones from the standard model of physics ) and my dream self some how comes to the conclusion that they are all here using a particle collider to perform tests and do research. I also see that the collider itself is just in the next room. next thing i know, a thief sneaks into the collider room and steals all the equipment, everyone rushes out to see and the scientist here starts to cry and yell. The thief must have be generous because everyone but the scientist magically received envelops with money in them.

Blockbuster:
It's late and i'm tired. I'm on the bed in some house i don't recognize. My friend calls me up and asks me to come over and spend the night. So i go over to his house and notice that he is really really poor. I even start to wonder if he has clean running water because his house is so rundown. Anyway, for some reason, i leave my stuff there and go home. My grandmother is there waiting for me and makes me go to blockbuster and rent some game i've never played nor heard of. So we pull up and i walk inside blockbuster. I tell the man at the counter what i want and he hands me a bag with the game and...clothes in it? (i guess they want me to wear a suit and play the game at the same time xD) I say to myself forget about it and i keep moving. We keep home and i spend the rest of the night on the game.

Lucid #5:
I'm in a city like area, it starts off as a normal dream and i'm standing on the corner of a street with my friend and two girls. Then i suddenly take in the surroundings and become aware. I then do a reality check, and after that, the fact i'm dreaming really sets in.
I become lucid, However there's still some dullness to my senses, like my ability smell isn't all the way there. My ability to feel is mostly there and my logic is still lacking a little. I also have no control except for what i do.
As i realize i'm dreaming, i really focus on what's around me. I'm in a huge city, there are tall skyscrapers everywhere, and people moving about the streets but there aren't that many people which gives me some room. After i look at the surroundings, i notice my friend and the two girls around me. Me and my friend are sitting on a bench while one girl is literally eating out this other girl in public (giving her oral sex). It's odd but it's a dream so i go with it and wait for her to finish. one of the girls walks off and i make a remark to the girl doing the licking. I say something like "I thought you would never stop" (she was at it for a while) in a joking sort of voice. I remember her saying something back but i don't know what she said. Anyhow, we start off walking to my left and i ask her for a blowjob and she says no in a determined voice (well screw you too dream character!) and we arrive at like a residence for women only. This girl with us is not a member of this place so my friend says "Wait, they won't let you in" or something like that and she replies "If i take my clothes off, they will think i'm changing clothes and won't dare stop me". That was bold of her xD but there was nothing we could do to stop her so we head off. I wanted to check out more of the city so i head to the backyard of a nearby house, it's grassy and in the distance, i see a huge vast forest with a big river running through it. it's very beautiful. As i turn around to look at the this persons yard, one of my other friends tell the friend with me to shoot me in the back of my head and before i move, my friend shoots me ( what an ass ), i instantly lose my vision and my body violently vibrates for a second ( it actually hurt a little ). I still can't see but i can move and hear so i turn around and tackle him, i grab the gun and aim it back at him and pull the trigger, but to my luck, there were no more rounds left. So we sit there and wrestle for a bit and i eventually get him up and push him to the street and i get my vision back. Now that i can see ( i still have hold of both his arms ) i go through the kicking combo my martial arts instructor taught me. I kick him about 6 times and then i kick his chin and while that forced his head up, i then go for his throat and then BAM! he's done for xD I drop him wounded on the street and walk back over to the corner. I decided i really want some sex so i start to head over to a town square/park like place because it looks as if a festival is going on and since there's a festival going on, there's going to be women. So i walk over and as i'm about there, i start to lose it. My vision starts to fade, i realize i'm waking up and i try to hold on but it's no use, the dream fades.

was in a building white/cream stone walls was with mum and toddler .Putting toddlers shoes on and a woman comes behind me bends down slighty so she can stare in my face trying to get my attention i notice the toddler agitated by her so turns to look and it was a friend i had known who has now passed and in my mind i said this is a dream because i knew my friend had died. She then changed into few diferent women before changing to Cleopatra she said i have been told by the powers that be i can come back if become pregnante can you help me find someone i said no i asked her who was the powers that be who did she mean she was speaking but couldnt understand her only one word i understood was twins. Then i asked her what where would the babies live if she succeded. At this point i was scared still trying to put shoes on toddler she moved futher back from us rose in the air and changed to what i think was egyptian paintings then back to herself she ran into corner of room where there was few people she was going crazy shouting bring me the fetuses i was terrified that the toddlers dad was going to come to meet us and she would get him so we had to get out before he met us and i picked up toddler i had no shoes on as wouldnt put heels on as wouldnt be able to run i was worried about cutting feet and not being able to get away then found some pumps and and an old buggy to put toddler in and run

I decided to post most of my lucids here, so here' s the one from tuesday night. I feel like it was pretty good and long (I'd say around 30-35 minutes or so) but I don' t remember much of it.

Lucidity: 9/10
Control: ?
Vivacity: 8/10


We're in a small room with a creepy bed in it; that' s where I' m gonna sleep for the rest of a trip. I prepare for the night in it with an even creepier girl who appears at random times and who freaks me out. At one point I get out of that room and become lucid. I check reality on my fingers, and as always, I still doubt if the check was made well and it takes me some more time to understand that six fingers' too much.

[...]

After doing something I don’t recall (telekinesis?), I remember that I wanted to fight a Titan, the colossal one. The dream fades and I am forced to abandon the Idea for now and rub my hands. I begin running thinking about how realistic the dream is. The building transformed into a more medieval architecture, like in the anime. After a while running I get to a big plain with trees surrounding it. In the middle of it there’ s this guy, Armin. Blond, long-ish hair. I run to him and take him with me. I decided to fight the Titan again. I randomly throw a fireball in the forest and we keep on running.

[...]

I wake up and fail to DEILD. I took too much time deciding whether I should just wake up and write the dream or DEILD; I tried the technique and failed it.

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #101: Choke

I'm sitting in a car with Dad at a place that's a cross between Sonic and a Chinese take-out restaurant. We're pulled up next to one of those mic/speaker combos where you place your order and I'm debating whether to order sweet & sour chicken or just get a giant bucket of tater tots. (I don't actually eat like this. )

A guy who looks like Mako Iwamatsu sticks his head out of the main restaurant building and shouts something about "three orders of sweet & sour chicken". I get out of the car and approach to hear him better. Then Mako makes some remark about our order and something about dreaming. It's semi-amusing, so I chuckle politely and look up at the night sky. The stars look artificially bright and the moon has been replaced by a flying saucer! "This is a dream," I say, and immediately start walking.



I leave the restaurant parking lot, moving through an alley that dead-ends at an open door into a house. I go inside, exploring the house for a bit. It's nicely decorated and very realistic. I'm pleased with how vivid it looks -- classy carpeting, great lighting, really tasteful decor. I wonder why I suck so bad at decorating IWL if I can imagine scenes like this. It occurs to me that no matter how many LDs I have, part of me always thinks They can't really look that good, right? But they can and they do.

I'm a bit lost in the house and as I turn down one hallway, I suddenly find myself in a noisy European street scene. It feels like Germany. The fast transition surprises me and before I can think to speak gibberish to these DCs for Task of the Month, I round another corner and wind up back in the house again. Well that was weird.

For some reason this reminds me of my intent to get to the Alamo and meet up with Art. I decide getting outside will be the best way open up the map and get where I want. The closest internal wall of the house is brick (oddly enough), and without hesitating, I phase through it. There's nothing on the other side of the wall, though, and I wind up in the void.

Rubbing my hands together, I continue walking through the void. I imagine that I'm walking along a street outside. I can feel the roadway underneath my feet (which feel like they're in nothing but socks.) I keep walking forward, waiting for the new scene to form. After a while, I see a pattern of squareish lights that coalesces into the window of my darkened childhood bedroom. I leave immediately, phasing through the window into the street.

It's late at night and I'm outside on the street where I grew up. I try to figure out which way San Antonio (and the Alamo) would be from here... and totally get it wrong. When I look out at the horizon, I see a huge observation tower surrounded by some scaffolding, like it's under construction. Was there some kind of tower in San Antonio? (Yes, it turns out -- the Tower of the Americas.)



I start to zoom-teleport to the tower but the moment I begin to move, I swallow my gum. Swallow my what?? Did I go to bed chewing gum? I try to remember, worrying that it's now lodged in my throat IWL and that I'm about to be in big trouble. I freak out and the scene goes black. I manage to calm myself at the last minute but the dream is too far gone and quickly ends.

Morning of June 6, 2013. Thursday.



In my dream, we are back living in Brisbane. Our house is different and does not have higher steps, the inside being much like our real place there, but the front porch area being most like the King Street boarding house with the upstairs apartments. Our son Lorenzo is playing with three younger blonde girls, racing around inside and out, who are happily going in and out of our house while being yelled at by a slightly older girl not to be in our house. They are dressed very formally with fancy hairstyles, as if for a formal event for the very wealthy.

I soon notice that something dramatic is going on next-door; there are a lot of people, for some reason, standing on top of wobbly old wooden step-ladders, watching the action as if at some sort of baseball game at the park. The house next door is on fire, but I do not see any actual flames or smoke. It seems that a Christmas tree had somehow caught fire in their attic. The people with the hose (no firemen around, but a couple policemen in black wandering around not doing anything) are aiming the water up and directly through the small attic window from a fair distance away. I hear a young couple crying loudly and holding their hands together, but there does not seem to be anything to really cry about, as I see no actual damage anywhere at all.

It seems strange that all these people are just standing up on ladders and balancing on the fence just to look at that house when nothing is really visible, even the supposed fire. I call out sort of absentmindedly to the nearest man standing atop a step-ladder, “Oh, I didn’t even know about this…”, but most of these people seem more amused or entertained than having concern for the owners or tenants, even though it also seems they were there to help at first.

I become semi-lucid and notice something strange regarding perspective. Their house, on the side nearest to our house, seems to go past my line of sight towards and behind me - to seemingly take up the same space (from my viewpoint near the corner of our house) as our house would otherwise be, an “impossible” perspective, yet somehow at the same time, it also seems to be a completely empty region or undefined area where neither house is.

This last part with the ladders relates to typical waking metaphors. Someone on a ladder relates to getting closer to waking consciousness, a fire relates to growing conscious awareness, and something going through a window implies leaving the dream state. The water though, indicates a subtle desire to become lucid (though goes through the window instead, similar to the “water getting lower over time” waking metaphor).

Dream recall from today's naps. Got lucid but again nearly no waking memory, also greatest false awakening chain so far.

There was something about a game that was mix of Doom and Unreal Tournament 2004, there was a map with some Doom items and one hard to get Megasphere, some AI like announcer was describing map and was telling that there are secret ways to get score, i assumed that Megasphere was one of them.
Then i wake up and look at hands, they are normal(Well, that was random), i get up and then family enters the room and there's some talk.
Suddenly i wake up again, and i have feeling that i am dreaming, it's hard to move so i manage to summon some kind of creature in a doorway, once i try to get up i...
Wake up again, i still feel the dream and trying to get up leads me...
Into another false awakening, i get random idea that keeping eyes closed will keep dream stable and i manage to finally get up, i open the eyes and see Chandelier, i am a bit surprised and then it multiplies number of lamps as usual, i say hi and...
Wake up again, i hear some weird sounds and feel the dream again, i look around and see some weird shadowy figure, i try to move and...
I wake up again... I quickly turn into same direction as previously and figure's still here, i decide to punch it, and as i punch it it turns into some dude that i haven't seen before, he tells me that we should read some book, i say why not and get up, but everything fades.
I wake up again, i get up and i feel the dream again, also gravity is weird, i decide to try levitating to keep the dream stable and it works(First time without wings i guess), it indeed does keeps dream, i hear TV in another room and decide to check, i levitate through corridor into another room(everything looked pretty similar to waking life), family's watching TV(that's where similarities to waking life ends, we don't have TV), i levitate around a bit and then look at TV, image on it is blurry but there's something red. Fade out.
And i wake up again and see that some female DC is searching something in the room. Then i wake up properly, confirming it by lots of RCs.

5:18am

So there I was at a counter at a bar, still trying to vote, and out of some reason I thought one could vote at a bar. I was looking in my purse either for my credit card to pay for the purchases at the bar or for my license as proof of identity so I could vote.

My husband was saying how this election was to show George Bush that he could not limit elections to just some voters. But while I was still rummaging through my purse, my husband left.

Suddenly I heard my mother on TV trying to tell about a dream she had had. She was much younger, like when I was a kid.

And then it clicked. I shouted "This is a dream!" And I started doing sumersaults in the air above the bar. Out of some reason though I kept closing my eyes, and the dream was fading. I managed to notice that my husband was not there, so I expected to find him right outside the door, and so I opened the door and there he was. "This is a dream!" I shouted. But then I woke up.


Memory of previous dream:

The rummaging in my purse for either my credit card or license reminded me of a dream earlier that night, where I had the hardest time finding my credit card in my purse in a store, but then I remembered, I had just bought chocolates in the store next door, and I had them in a small paper gift bag, so I looked inside, and they had put my credit card with the chocolates! The person at this place said that this is what the store next to them has a tendency of doing. As I was walking out, I noticed that she had named the store on the other side of hers, not the one I remembered shopping in, but in my dream I rationalized that the two stores on both sides must then be owned by same owner.

Seems to have been a quick transition into becoming lucid, only several days after finding this site, but thinking about it today maybe it is not a surprise and that this site has simply helped me reawaken what has already been there, I am starting to remember today that when I was much younger being lucid all the time, or at least on many occasions in the past trying to be lucid. Coming here and all the information available seems to have just throw a lot into place, anyway to the dreams.

First what I recall is being in this type of courtyard area, possibly on the steps of this old style church, but this outside area is actually like a place for practising doctors about to start work, for some reason they are starting around 10am as well which sort of made me feel comfortable (probably because I do not like getting up early), remember my own doctor being there and I was telling her how nice it must be to have this routine (I lack day to day routine). Now I am walking into a room of people who are waiting to see the doctors, unbeknownst to me I have scrambled through this crowd and accidentally bumped into several people who I have upset. This one girl is quite upset, crying and I go over to apologise, explaining it was an accident, that I had no idea what happened and then we are sitting holding hands, she is becoming more relaxed. I remember being a little self conscious that we were holding hands, like some people would see and snicker but I overcame this and became quite relaxed with it and with her. As I became more relaxed with her, holding hands, talking, we kind of made an intimate connection and the people around us became aware of this as if we would be a couple in 5 minutes. While this is happening I am taking more notice and interest in her sister who is sitting next to her who is more attractive, much more confident looking and who I was really desiring but sort of confined to accepting the girl who I am already attached to. Weird thing here is we are now talking and she is asking me about eating elephant meat, hinting at how good it is and that I should try some, I regress saying this is an endangered species but maybe it is ok to try, or for the local people of the area to use the meat from an elephant which has been recently poached. Then the girl seems to become emotionally aggressive, her face warps into this tight warped grey alien mess which leans into my own face, I feel a bit overwhelmed, fragment ends.

Now I am outside in the street in a nice business/commercial district, in front of a nice office building when I hear my RC meowing, an old companion who passed several years ago which makes me aware that I am dreaming. I find this very comforting and a lovely moment, I pick her up to say hello and have a pat for a while before moving up along the street. Now that I know I am dreaming I guess I do something very predictable and trying to fly but to no avail, I get up off the ground a couple of meters but meet too much resistance and come back to earth, guess it is something that will just take more time? Then I am back to walking along the street, run into this nice mother type figure, I am a bit nervous of this stranger but realise I am dreaming and that there is nothing to be nervous about, she is very accommodating, lovely and goes off to her car to leave where I see her two children, ask if they are hers, which they are and I mention how that is very nice. I continue on up the street and come to the end of the block where there is a pedestrian crossing with many people coming across and past me when I see three people who I use to go to school with, the always acting tough type, one I share a glance with who totally disregards me and another I end up brushing up against which turns into confrontation. Of course I am aware that I am dreaming still so this does not bother me, expecting to give this guy a major beat down but again am met with resistance, can not overcome him and fragment ends.

Now I am sitting at this table in this lovely high end home with three other people who are like of the highest importance in the MMA world, the only one I recognise is Dana White and we are all dining out on this beautiful meal, we are especially impressed with this lovely crisp roast turkey. Then I leave the room into another where there is like this kiddies table where less important people are sitting around eating, one who happens to be GSP (lol), I kind of feel slightly sorry for them. Now I am in another room sitting at this long thin table, like one at a school camp or something and across from me is Joe Rogan and I am asking him how he is getting on with his lucid dreaming, we seem to have a nice friend chat. Now the room turns into like a bedroom of like this 7 foot really athletic basketball guy, I realise this fantastic property is his and he is this incredibly athletic and skilled guy but he is depressed and upset because he is dying of cancer. Outside there is his mattress, propped up in the air, for some reason it is out there getting clean or to keep it perfectly clean, bacteria free, pure and unspoilt I guess but it starts raining. So several people then, including his wife are out there trying to cover it up to protect it but all his wife can manage to do is put this too small sheet over it which does very little and he is disgusted by this, thinks his wife is basically pathetic and useless. Now we are back in his bedroom and he is starting to pretty much lose it, like meth psychosis crazy, I see him running around and then grab some washing powder which he is eating/drinking which is making him more insane. Thankfully I am aware I am dreaming because when he stands in front of me, about to go at me I channel power through my hands to subdue him and bring him down.

I do recall another couple of dreams but I was not lucid in those, plus no way I can keep writing like this; think maybe I am overdoing the detail?