lucid

My love for lucid dreaming is strong as I cope with the loss of a friend, but I cannot stand seeing their home inside the dream and wanting to be able to do what I never did with them in person whenever I would walk her to school.

It's happening on this street I currently live in. It's not a long street, as a matter of fact, it could take me about 10 minutes to walk across it in reality. It isn't like that in dreams. In dreams, the time it takes to walk down across this street is determined by how many memories I have within it, I assume. My father is driving me down this street in this blue car. He is going to take me near the other side of this street. As he does, I notice a few elements on the way.

On our way down I saw one of my friends' home. Her name was Trinh. Me and Trinh lived on this same street(a little funny because she is the friend of the girl who I tried apologizing to for a year). Unlike her real home, which was a little bit trashy(okay, a lot trashy), this home is as clean as a rich, suburban home. But I'm still not convinced that this may be a dream.

As we're driving on to the next houses, I see Trinh's house again. This made me to believe that I am in fact in a dream. After that my father turned at a corner and that was basically it for this scene. My dream was beginning to fade when I kept on emphasizing to my mind that I AM in a lucid dream.

So I repeated my WBTB/mantra method. I woke up around 4 am and went back to sleep at 510. Before I went to bed, I remember being doubtful I would LD two nights in a row. I reassured myself I would and built up some expectations and excitement. It seems being expectant and excited is key to success.
I had a full dream, but can't remember it, ugh. I think I might have been partially lucid. Slightly remember being mad I was losing the dream. Then I had a FA and caught it when I noticed that when i reached under my pillow with both hands, both of my hands grabbed a phone. I thought, 'I only have one phone!' and became lucid.
The dream quickly faded as I tried to change the scenery.
I entered a new dream
I employed a new mantra method i read on a post yesterday to repeatedly write a mantra. Unsure if this worked or if it was my WBTB technique, but I had an LD!
Going to try a shorter waking time in my WBTB tonight.
I drank about 1.5+ bottles of water before bed. It was too much. (I drink water before bed to wake up in the middle of the night to use the restroom so I can wake without an alarm)

Non Dream
Dream
Lucid

I've written out the nighttime routine I created. I'm trying to set it in stone, so to speak.

1.Fall asleep trying to think about as little as possible.
2.Upon becoming lucid, make sure the dream is vivid. If it's not, make it vivid by rubbing hands, looking around and focusing on details while saying "stabilize". Try to remember to keep it vivid during the dream.
3.Upon waking, attempt to DEILD by making the ringing in the ears as loud as possible.
4.If DEILDing fails, stay still and mentally back track as far back as the dream could be remembered.
5.Write down the dream in as much detail as I can going forward. Assess whether to get a snack or drink.
6.Repeat 1-5 until it's time to get up.
7.Type dreams in online Dream journal.

I'll keep a dream count going for the entire month to see how well the routine works. It seems to work well for me. I'm going to try to write down all of my dreams this month. My goal for the month 75 dreams, 20 of them lucid.

Dream #1-I was walking through a suburban neighborhood towards a somewhat elaborate one story home. I walked through the backyard of their house, through a side door, and through a quaint kitchen to find my niece and nephew. I asked my nephew how his trip to Santa Cruz was. He seemed to enjoy it. My attention turned to the television in the living room. On it was what looked like a commercial for a baseball glove. It showed a second baseman making great plays would the glove. He described the glove as being a 12 (out of 10, I suppose). The end of the commercial turned to slapstick comedy as it showed the second baseman and the glove quickly growing proportionately. Then the player threw another player through a distant mountain. I found the stupidity of this amusing. I woke up.

Lucid #1-I was in my bed when I felt something brushing me. I tried to do a nose plug but I couldn't move my arm. "Obviously, I'm dreaming", I thought. Next thing I know, I'm flying in the night on the broom that was brushing me. I quickly found that I could fly higher if I brushed the broom downwards. I saw a pool complex that looked familiar somehow, but I decided I wanted to fly to the ocean. I flew a bit higher and looked from it. I conveniently found I was just about flying over it. I dove into the moon lit water. Immediately I could see dolphins swimming around as usual. My plan was to ride one and transform into it. Out of the corner of my eye a spotted one that looked like it was going to pass me. I reached out my right hand and grabbed it's dorsal fin as it passed by. I got onto it's back and hugged it to hold on. The feeling of it's silky skin was incredible. I started to lose the dream at this point but could still feel it's skin. I tried to hold on to the dream like I was holding onto the dolphin. All of a sudden, the dolphin started biting me, it didn't like being held. My dream logic told me maybe if I let the dolphin eat me, I'll transform into it. I let the dolphin bite my arm off. The next thing I know, I can't move my arms or legs. Completely spent, I wanted to wake up. The scene changed to me being in a Japanese arcade. I was taunting a couple of kids at a game, explaining to them I wanted to wake up. I woke up.

Dream #3-On a hilly open field next to an amusement park, there was an explosion which started a fire. Fire trucks rushed to the scene to put out the blaze. As I was watching this near the fence, a camel walked by. Since it was on higher ground than I was, I was a bit concerned it would poop on me. Next thing I remember, I was in the amusement park with a new backpack watching a mine train roller coaster. A boy asked me if I could guard row 8 for him. We then decided we would ride together. I woke up before we got the chance.

I have been practicing a mix between ADA and SAT throughout the day, increasing my general awareness. I did a WBTB, taking a short nap around 10-11pm, and then went to sleep at about 12:30am. As i fell asleep i used the mantra,"I am constantly aware of my surroundings."
I caught a false awakening. It seems lucky to me. I normally use the nose plug RC but I also remember inspecting my phone and watch. I was unsure I was dreaming at first, i wasn't very lucid, but a routine RC caught it.
I lost the dream due to excitement.
After I had ANOTHER false awakening, that's right back to back FA's. In the FA I was writing in my DJ, I keep a pocket book beneath my pillow.

I will be using my DJ here to explain how i induced lucidity on lucid dreams I have. Sorry, but my dream content is personal.
Combo of WTBT/MILD/DILD
I went to sleep after staying up for about 80 minutes from waking up in the middle of the night to use the restroom. I did homework and some reading. I then used a mantra as I fell asleep.
When in my dream I realized I was dreaming by noticing something in the scenery was off. Can't remember what it was.

I was in my room with my Sister Karen and my Brother Erin. My finger-biting RC worked and I became lucid. I love proving to dream characters that it's a dream, so I began flicking the switch on and off, but oddly enough, it actually worked. My siblings stared at me in confusion. Then, I realized that the switch was also controlling the sun outside! (It coming up and down). I told my sister to explain that and she goes "It's just some faulty wiring." I angrily stormed out of the room. For some reason I desperately wanted to have sex, so I began to head towards this girl Dee, but before I got to her, I saw this girl Shawna. I went after her. She stops in my kitchen with a wedgie and on her phone. I put my penis between her butt cheeks for a second, but quickly put it away because a part of me still feared that I might be awake. Then, I woke up. I fell right back to sleep and the dream continued. To prove to myself that I was dreaming. I began flipping the kitchen light switch and it wasn't working, but instead it was turning the outside Christmas lights on and off. Right as I was ready to seduce Shawna, my brother Kane came busting in the door and chanted some odd chants and scared the hell out of me and I woke up.

I was in my kitchen and my Mom and Brother Jon were talking. I interrupted them when I realized I could breathe even with my nose being pinched shut. I showed them and my Mom didn't believe me but my brother said "Oh sh*t, you must be dreaming!" I got excited and began getting in everyone's face and saying "i'm dreaming!" But, due to my dream recall being horrible at the time, I don't remember ANYTHING else. Besides waking up that is.

I was in my kitchen looking at the clock on the microwave. Instead of time, or even numbers for that matter, there were pictures of Power Rangers and the like, so I showed my brother Erin who couldn't explain it, but said he'd figure out what was wrong. I became lucid, and for some reason I always get this tingling, warm feeling of excitement which can be unbearable at times when I become lucid. I began running around trying to summon people and failing and jumping off of chairs in a failed attempt to fly. I got frustrated, and didn't know what to do. Then, Aaron called me over and had some odd explanation for the clock not working right. That, plus my failed attempts at lucid induced fun, I actually thought I was awake and this realization actually woke me up.

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid false awakening

I'm at some airport, but not a conventional one, either it's interplanetary or interdimensional. I was with some girl friends, but I loose them in the crowd. I end up in the restauration area and from there I walk out into an open area that I recognize from another dream I had some day. There's a stage and a girl is rehearsing for a concert later on. I keep walking up a dirt road because nature looks alien: there's a tree with raspberries the size of big apples and the soil looks like a creamy chocolate cake. As I watch the trees, their roots and branches and the river to my left, I notice patterns overlapping. The branches of a certain tree fit precisely against certain stars in the sky.
A guy appears behind me and says "Can you see the patterns, repeated and interconnected?".
"Yes, but if I move to a new position, I stop seeing this overlapping pattern, so it's just coincidental."
"Look again, you'll just see new patterns emerging. No matter what angle you look at things, you will always find repeating and overlapping patterns, just different ones, infinite numbers."
As we keep walking, I know I am dreaming, but it requires no reality check to confirm it or stabilize it. It holds very naturally and very clear. I actually feel that I can stay there forever. I realize how much I could learn if I decide to stay. I am decided to stay and unravel all the secrets of all the universes.
But then I wonder what will happen to the girl body I have left sleeping on a bed... Will "I" enter a coma? Sleep for the rest of "my life"? What about my family and loved ones? I don't worry that I'll miss them, I worry that they'll suffer not understanding what is happening to "me". I feel obliged to come back. (Damn!)
But for now I keep walking with this guy and he takes me to a really nice hostel in the mountain. My room faces a terrace over the river, that connects to other rooms. All is well on this peaceful place, I'm just contemplating nature, when a couple of men in black come out of another room, dragging my friend. When I approach to ask what they're doing, they tell me to go away or they'll take me to. One of them has some kind of weapon that points at me and I wake up.

LUCID
*I realized I was in a dream when I showed this two kids how to fly. For a little while we are flying laughing. Then I notice that something fell out of the sky and fell on the ground. I was scared it might one of the kids who fell while flying but was actually my friend roberto. When I observed closer it was a whole scene of him laying dead next to a totaled car. I thought should I warn him when I wake up? Where is this information coming from?

Then I thought about my goal I wanted to accomplish. I reached in my pocket grabbed my phone, the program set up was different but more or less the appearance was pretty accurate. I dialed the operator by pressing zero and hitting send. I asked to speak with padmasambhava the operator said ok. Then he repeating something back to me that wasn't correct. I thought this guy isn't listening and he seems to be having a bad day. At this point it felt I was talking to a real person for some reason.Lost lucidity, I woke up in my apartment with day light. I had the thought I wish I could be in a lucid dream for ever. False awakening and then woke up foreal.

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #150: Eden

I'm in a vast, quiet white void. There's a woman here as well, long brown hair, late 20s. She's not a romantic interest but rather a colleague and collaborator on some kind of important project.

We're looking down from high above at a nearly featureless white room floating in the void. Two DCs are in the room, one male and one female, both of them controlled by us. The male is my avatar and the female is hers. While I'm thinking about this, the notion of dreaming crosses my mind and I become lucid.

She says something like, "This is how we create everything." I know she means that this is how we create a dream world.

There's a door in each wall of the white room and we each guide our avatars out through separate doors into two different new rooms. A nearly identical scene takes place in each room: each avatar steps into another nearly featureless white room that contains a DC of the opposite gender. In each room the female gently places one arm around the male's shoulders and lays him down on his back. Then, the female straddles the male like something sexy is about to happen, but she only sits like this for the briefest moment (both of them fully clothed.)

Now the couple stands up, accompanied by a newly created, fully-grown DC! (My avatar produces a "daughter" and my collaborator produces a "son".) Then each of the three DCs exits through different doors into a newly-created room, each of them encountering a DC of the opposite sex. And then the scene repeats again, the woman in each room laying her arm across the man's shoulders, lowering him to the ground, and winding up as a trio.

Each round of this doesn't take long and in just a few moment what was once a single white room is this sprawling network of hallways and chambers where DCs walk outward like ants. Some of the DCs eventually come to doors that lead them out onto a grassy hillside. As they spread further out, the hillside grows along with them. Soon there's land everywhere with DCs walking all around.

My view pulls further and further back and I see dirt roads, a stream, a little town. I'm having a hard time keeping up with how quickly all of this is happening. I make some remark about how beautiful this is and I sense something like silent agreement from my collaborator.

I decide that I want to explore this world more closely and immediately I find myself standing in the middle of one of those white rooms. I walk through a door up ahead of me and emerge into another white room. The idea of trying to complete some tasks finally occurs to me, but the dream ends pretty soon after that.

Date: 19 Sept

Pre bed: 200mg valerian

WBTB: 60 mg caffeine (RB)

Non-ld fragment: I am trying to take a shortcut at night in this familiar from previous dreams city. In one of the dark streets, I run into criminal DCs with very bad teeth. A number of young people sitting on a bench agree to defend me if necessary and I go sit there. I find one of the guys extremely beautiful. We talk for a while, but they are leaving soon. I notice that his whole body is covered with small, shiny clear droplets of water and stare in fascination.

In love: Very deep sleep and my recall is not very good.

We are moving in the dorms because it is much cheaper. There are six beds in the room and a guy who already lives here. I ask if only two of the beds, ours, are going to be used. He confirms.

The dream goes on for quite a while with all kinds of thoughts about clothes, bathroom etc. Then it looks like more people actually live here and we will be sharing the room, now apartment with them. Someone opens the door and lots of DCs come in, new roommates, I think. This girl asks me questions about the admin, I don't understand what she is saying.

Bf is gone and this guy comes and talks to me. I realize that this is a dream but my mind is kind of foggy. I remember having thoughts about me being in deep sleep and that this is good for stability. The guy leaves and another one appears, I like him very much and remark that he shows some persistent DC qualities. He comes and goes several times but looks the same, gray t-shirt, black hair, some eyeliner even, a bit like Mark Terenzi. He also gives me a kiss. We talk for some time but my memory is really bad. The dream starts to fade, I lose my sight but I can still hear him. I tell him to keep talking to me, I will hold on to the sound. I can feel my eyelids and am careful not to mess this up, but soon the image returns. He gives me another kiss. The dream slips away again and I struggle to bring it back. He is on the other side now but looking totally different and there is another guy dressed with the same clothes and holding a similar colorful object. The dream fades and I fall into oblivion.

Falling: I am walking down the stairs talking to this DC. It looks like I have forgotten my handbag, I turn back and see it at the top of the stairs. I make it fly directly to my hands. The DC remarks that I am not supposed to do this while abroad. I have this warp-like feeling and realize that I never woke up from the previous dream. The B6 woman is also here in the background and I wonder if I should go and talk to her, examine her energy, and ask why does she always behave like that. At the same time, I don't want to waste too much time with her and risk things getting out of hand, so decide to just ignore her.

I am looking at a large modern glass vase that they are selling in this now shop and try to move it with tk, but not much success. I also try with an elegant china tea cup but I feel that I don't really want to be breaking these things. Finally, I remember Angel Falls and follow the plan of "here and now". The main idea is to use the turn your back technique. I already hear water running just behind me (like a fountain in a mall). I am in some sort of not very well lit mall too. I take a few steps back, concentrating on changing the surroundings. I actually slip backwards a few steps, which feels kind of weird and not very effective, but the surrounds begin to change a bit. I decide to facilitate the process of getting rid of the old scene and into a new scene by falling backwards.

As I do this, it's as if something immaterial swallows me and I enter void weightlessness combined with motion. I shortly see lots of greenery in front of me that is very similar to rainforest vegetation, but it quickly vanishes. I am speeding backwards in the void with this weird feeling of traveling through space at high speed. For a second my mind is totally blank and I feel stressed, I try to remind myself to keep cool, be patient as it seems to be taking too long and shortly pretend I am meditating. Then I try to concentrate on one of my visualizations and build the scene as I had imagined it. During the entire time of the experience, I hear the sound of falling water. It is much harder to concentrate and visualize than I thought, but I succeed in having lots of water flowing on me in the darkness now. I try to prepare the scene again even though it's not the right place where I actually wanted to start from. I am still flying backwards through space, this thing doesn't stop even if I expect it to. I briefly see the top of a barren hill with a non-human castle in the negative mood of some game or a game related dream. I don't want to be there. The falling continues and I finally find myself in bed. I stay still for a while but nothing happens.

Comments: is it just me or is it really hard to concentrate on anything while in the void. I have noticed this another time as well. The moment everything disappears, my mind also goes totally black and if my mind is blank...then there will be nothing to project around me. Maybe I need to think about stuff, rather than struggle to visualize.

There was a waterfall and i tried to move my cat through it. I understood that its a dream, went to the wall and opened a door handle thinking about the south pole. It was dark for a minute and i found myself in the room. i understood that teleportation failed. Two guys came to me and wanted something. i concentrated all my attantion on my feet, to avoid the dialoge, but didn't succeded and soon lost awareness.

Dream recall from today's WBTB/naps.

Dream 1(fragments):

I was talking to dragons in skype chat and somebody posted a pic of some skull.

Dream 2:

I was watching some video where a dragon challenged some spaceship pilot to fight a mechanical copy of him. Then it turned into game that looked somewhat like fraxy, the ship surely looked like default fraxy one and mecha dragon was made of red parts, the fight was going in cloudy skies on very quick speed and was lasting quite long, going through various attack patterns and phases. At one point video randomly switched to something about cookie recipe, and then back. Game switched to more horizontal-style and there was something about weakpoints, then there was another phase and then video just faded to black. It faded in and was showing some bar, and a dragon was here and his scales were multiple colored. Then pilot came and they started talking, they were friends now, then pilot says that it's too bad that he can't make cookies right now and dragon reminds him about recipe.

Dream 3:

I get woken up by a DC and i feel that i am dreaming, i go to balcony but it's closed, i try to phase through but curtain gets in the way and i kinda get stuck, then dream glitches and i no-collide fall through the world into blackness, i land onto something and then wake up again, still feeling the dream, i try to get up but DC gets into the way, then dream fades and i wake up properly.

I am driving on a road while talking on the phone with my mother. She sounds very upset and she keeps talking about how she is not able to find a job, how she thinks she may have to declare bankruptcy, and how my dad won't help her with her bills. I was trying to help comfort her, but as I am talking the entire road I am traveling on unravels and causes me to crash into some brush. I hung up on her because I needed to get out of the current mess I was in. I get out, the car is destroyed, and I try to make my way to find some help.

There is a lot of greenery. Everything is lush, and almost tropical, like I had been transported to India or something. I come to a backyard with a lot of junk in it. A brown pit-bull is in the yard that keeps barking at me. Thankfully the chain fence keeps him from actually attacking me. I walk around to the front and open the gate. When I do this I hear yelling and a man comes out of the house trying to chase me out. I don't know what to do so I just start running from him. I get far enough ahead and I see a shed that I quickly jump into and hide before he sees me. The dream fades out.

I'm in my bed and I realize I am really deeply tired and know I can stay in the dream awhile. I close my eyes and I'm able to do a WILD. (I am lucid, but it goes in and out a lot. I'm only semi-lucid.)

I am back in the big shed I ran into. Near the doors I see another person. It's another guy, and thankfully he is not the one that had been chasing me.

"Hey, come with me." He motions me forward.

When I reach him he kind of brushes against my chest before grabbing my hand. I get the feeling that he had more than friendly intentions - But it is gentle and completely non-threatening. I feel a comfortability around him that is rare when I meet people. He takes me out of the shed and out of that junkyard of a place and right up to another building. When we pass through it there are a lot of auctions, of people. I don't know why but people would get up on platforms and others would bid for them. I couldn't really process it because before I knew it we were leaving and on the steps of another building

I look around and it is actually a Monastery-like place. The architecture is beautiful. I see lots of people sitting on pillows around an elongated table. They all wear ceremonial robes, very eastern traditional garments that monks normally wear. There were women too so it was a co-ed spiritual place. I really enjoyed it as it felt incredibly peaceful.



The young man that brought me here looks at me, "My name is Zee. Normally outsiders are not welcome here, and I brought you against regulation. Come quickly and try not to be seen."

I follow him urgently to his room, which was incredibly small. Just a bed and a tiny set of drawers. As soon as he closes the door behind him I hear an older lady yell, "ROOM INSPECTION!!"

Shit

I look under the bed to see if I can hide there but it is standing only about 3 inches from the ground and there is no way I could fit.

"Stay there!" Zee says.

I stay and curl into a ball next to the bed. Zee dumps a bunch of sheets over me and makes it look like I am just a bundle of unfolded fabric. The dream fades out and I wake up.

(I'm back in my bed but I am really excited about this dream so I keep my eyes closed and I am able to WILD again). I am back in Zee's room but he is gone. I look out the window to check and make sure I am in the right place. Sure enough it is the same temple. I think about trying to magically make him appear but then feel that that would be "cheating" and the dream would lose it's authenticity. In the corner of the room is a young pretty blonde girl who has features similar to Zee's. It clicks in my head that she was his sister.

"It's a good thing you disappeared when you did. You weren't found out. Zee could have been in a lot of trouble you know."

"Where did he go?" I ask.

She shrugs her shoulders, "He's outside of the room somewhere. You should go look for him."

I am already wearing ceremonial robes like the others. That's a good thing because I will blend in more and it would be less likely that I was questioned outside. I walk out of the room and down the hallway. I come to a room where there is a large circle of people weaving different fabrics.

The dream ends and I wake up again. This time completely.