lucid

Dream recall from today's naps.

I was watching playthrough of some video game that was third person game and the main character was weird white robot thing with three antennas on the top of the head. There was one level that was in white city, there were a few buildings and it was full of secrets, but player decided to skip them. Then i was looking up those secrets and was playing the game, one of secrets was on the top of the highest building, and only way there was through some difficult platforming. . At the top there was an entrance into brown area with Doom-like textures and some items. While getting back down game transformed.... into a lego of all things and i broke antennas on character's head, i was confused. Weird radio like voice started playing somewhere and...
I wake up there's still this weird voice, so i must be dreaming, i am about to rub hands but i wake up.

Sleep Pattern:

Timings:
Time Awake - 08:30 to ~03:00
Lights Out - 02:30
Sleep - ~3:00

No attempts or methods, just trying to fall asleep.

1st Recalled Awakening - ~11:00

I think that I woke up earlier in the morning but I did not check the time or record anything.

Last Recalled Awakening - ~11:15

Woke up from a dream to my alarm.

Up - 12:00

Modifiers the Day Before:
-Halo 3 with friends.

Modifiers Going to Sleep:
-Still sick.
-Computer and phone.

Modifiers Getting Up:
-Class at 13:00

Dreams:
Tried to solidify dreams I recalled while laying in bed after first recalled awakening, remembering some 3 or 4 dreams or fragments. Forgot a portion of them since then... Not in chronological order, just in what I remember.

1) Some brief dream after 1st Awakening. Recall a reddish or greenish (or both) galaxy when I was woken up by my alarm.

2) Working backstage at or watching a show at a school. Mix of my middle school and high school. Walked through the halls and outside, found a friend and a former classmate. Semi-lucid / lucid.

Oh boy oh boy, have I been slacking. Somehow I managed to have a lucid and almost successfully get back into the dream with the FILD technique, but I haven't actually been on the forums for a few days. Damnit. I need to work on my consistency with these types of things. Really.
Let's start with a dream I had a few days ago that I now only vaguely remember due to my laziness. My older brother had gotten a new girlfriend and now we were all going to go to dinner with her, and the dream was two dinners. The first one went fine, and then during the second one I got into a bit of a fight with my brother and elbowed him.
That's it. Look how vague that is. That's what happens when you wait instead of writing down the dream as soon as possible. By the way, I probably had a lot of dreams before this about Game of Thrones, because I went on some episode-watching sprees before going to bed. I can't remember any of those dreams, though. So, on to the second dream and the lucid.
The second dream I can remember in a bit more detail. There was some event going on at school, I can't remember exactly what, but I wanted to bring in my guitar to play I think during lunch. Anyway, I bring it in and we have the event and I don't even end up playing it, I think. Then, when I'm going out of the school with one of my friends who we shall call M ( stereotypically, I know ). M and I are on our way out of the school to go and get into our parents' cars, I think, where of course our parents are waiting for us. By the way, the event takes place somewhere that is not actually in my actual school, and is a sort of warmly lit amphitheater type place. Anyway, on the way of going out to get into the cars and see our parents I realize that I've left the guitar back in the amphitheater so I think " Well, I'll just leave it and get it the next day I come in to school." But then I realize that this is the last day of school and I won't be back until about 3 months, so I say crap, I guess I'll go get it. M goes with me, I think I ask him, and I'm not sure if we actually go back into the amphitheater and make it that far, but I do have memories of seeing the guitar there, along with what was the tuner, which I remembered I left there too. But let's just say on the way, because I'm not completely sure, we meet this Asian kid who does actually go to the school, although I can't remember his name because he's I think one class above me so I don't really know him that well or see him a lot. Anyway, my friend M stops and talks to him and he's wearing one of those graphic shirts that says something like " My ( strange helicopter thing ) is better than you're " or something like that. The weird thing about it was, it had this plastic sort of round plastic thing that had the strange helicopter thing, which I can't remember the name of exactly, something like X10 or like that, in the box and foam or something under it and you were supposed to spin the helicopter thing around with a handle that was on it to clear out some of the foam, which I did. After that I just remember being a bit worried that I wasn't going to have time to get the guitar and being a little annoyed at M.
I think it was at this point that I went lucid, and lifted my hands to my face and then rubbed them, but I think I'm just going to try to focus on my surroundings next time. I think always focusing so much on my hands may be one of the reasons that I keep waking up.
The good thing is that when I woke up this time I tried to FILD with the technique, and I think I came close several times to going back into the dream. My ears kept making loud wooshing noises and my vision kept clouding up with white at the same time that the woosh got louder. I think that I would have successfully gotten back into the dream if it weren't for my mom talking outside my door. Damnit. Oh well, the next time I exit out of a dream I'll try it again. But let's stop the damn slacking! Yeeeeaaahhhhhhhhhhh.

Fair warning, this dream is a little graphic. If you are squeamish and have an active imagination, you probably shouldn't read it.

Anyway, this is my first LD since joining dream views, and I actually almost forgot it, but luckily I remembered it on my way to work once I woke up all the way. I started off in my workplace wondering if I was in a dream. I thought to myself "No, of course this is real. But I guess I'll do a RC anyway." I pinched my nose shut, closed my mouth, and breathed in deeply. To my surprise, though, I could breathe! I found myself ecstatic, but quickly subdued this feeling and tried to calm down. I looked down at my hands, but not for nearly long enough. When I looked up I was overcome with an urge to leave the building, thinking that staying in a familiar place would make me lose lucidity (I think "Inception" may have been coloring my opinion here). The problem is, I was so worried about getting out the door that I didn't stop to think what would be on the other side. As it turns out, it would end up being a doorway out of lucidity. Normally this would be disappointing, but my subconscious saved me and placed me into a scenario that I was planning on LDing about, a scenario that was actually improved by me not knowing that it wasn't real. It placed me into a full blown zombie apocalypse.

The doorway teleported me into a school gymnasium. People were huddled on the bleachers and crowding the hardwood court, they seemed scared and shaken. A voice came over the intercom. It said that several riots had broken out around town due to a sudden outbreak of what appeared to be rabies. The voice advised the crowd to stay calm, stay in the building, and wait for the police to sort out the situation. I turned to the DC I was with and we exchanged a look of skepticism. We knew better. We knew that someone in the gym was probably bitten, and it was only a matter of time before they turned. The packed gymnasium was just a bloodbath waiting to happen. We opened up the equipment closet and each grabbed a baseball bat, then headed out of the building towards the parking lot. If our suspicions were right, the bats would come in handy.

Once in the parking lot, we headed towards the DC's SUV. As we got closer I noticed his rear window hatch was open, but other than that everything seemed normal. I climbed in the passenger seat while he started the car, and soon enough we were on our way down the road. As we drove I got my first view of the creatures. Their skin was mottled and gray, hair falling out in patches, shambling aimlessly. As we passed by their heads turned to us and they started to head towards our car. Suddenly, we swerved out of the way of a small group feeding on a corpse in the middle of the road. The quick jerk startled me so much that I almost did not notice the cold dead hand that grabbed my shoulder.

A zombie had crawled in through the open hatch and was attempting to bite the driver. The only thing saving the DC from sure death was the head rest between his neck and the snapping jaws of the undead monstrosity. I tried swinging my baseball bat at the creature, but there was not enough room to muster a swing powerful enough to destroy its brain. The DC yanked his emergency brake and shouted out "Grab the shotgun in the back seat!" I shoved the zombie aside, reached back, and grabbed the shotgun laying across the floor. As I pumped a round into the chamber the zombie turned its attention towards me. I tried to aim, but there was not enough room to shoulder the gun. Quickly compensating, I pressed the butt of the gun firmly against the passenger door. I leveled the barrel at the zombie's head and went to pull the trigger, but at the last moment its undead arm crashed down on the gun and pushed it out of the way. The shot exploded forward, impacting its right shoulder, blowing off chunks of rotten flesh and bone. With its arm now dangling at its side, the creature fell backwards into the door. Before it could recover I pumped a fresh round into the chamber, ejecting a spent shell onto the dashboard. Once again, I took aim at its head as it started towards me and pulled the trigger. This time the shot found its mark. The zombies head exploded with violent force, spraying grey matter and blood all over the rear window.

It was a close call, but my first tango with the undead had resulted in success. At this point, the DC handed me a revolver and told me to close the rear window. I clambered back over the seats and found two zombies shambling towards us on the road. I leveled the revolver at the firsts head and squeezed the trigger, its neck jerked back as it fell to the ground. I cocked the hammer back, aimed at the second, and it fell like the first as we pulled away. I put my head out the window and reached to pull it closed when I noticed a third zombie (missing its legs with its entrails hanging out the back) clinging to the bumper. A swift jab with the baseball bat knocked it loose, screaming at us as we drove away.

A short way down the road our SUV started to sputter and slowed to a halt. We were out of gas. The dream jump cuts to a different scene here. Me and the DC had joined another small group of survivors, three I think, and we were driving in a van. Down the road, we passed by an elementary school bus pulled over on the side of the road. There were children inside, but none were left alive. Some were slumped against the bloodied windows, their pulses long since gone. Others were clawing to get out, there mouths bloodied and agape.

We soon turned off onto a dirt road surrounded by foliage. Further down this road, we approached a pile of leaves blocking our approach. When the van plowed through it, we suddenly lurched forward and slammed to a halt. The leaves were concealing a massive pot hole that the van was now half submerged in. I tucked the revolver into my waistband, shouldered the shotgun, and our group stepped out of the van. As we examined the damage done, I heard a rustling in the bushes behind us. A figure emerged from the foliage and I leveled my shotgun at it. I quickly took notice that it wasn't like the other creatures. Its body was devoid of hair, its face misshapen and lopsided (It very closely resembled Sloth from the Goonies), but most importantly it wasn't attacking us. Without warning, it shouted out "Now!", and many more popped out of the bushes to surround us. Two were armed with rifles, the rest with makeshift spears and melee weapons. I dropped my shotgun to the ground and our group surrendered to these hideous creatures.

We were marched in a single file line to the edge of a quarry. Inside I could see regular humans in shackles swinging pickaxes at block of white rock, with more creatures armed with spears keeping close watch. We soon found out that these creatures were actually infected humans, but discovered that drinking pepto bismol kept them from turning (oh, dream logic. you crack me up). The then told us that we were now their slaves, and we would be put to work mining bismuth (the active ingredient in pepto bismol) in order to keep them alive. This didn't sit well with me, however, so I pulled out the revolver still tucked into my waistband and put two rounds each into the rifle bearing guards. My group made a break for a nearby river, as I covered our retreat, brandishing my now empty revolver at the poorly armed creatures. They did not give chase.

I was the last to jump in the river and experienced another jump in time. We washed up on a boat ramp downriver in an industrial park. As we clambered onto the dock, we saw a warehouse with two zombies standing out front. One of the dream characters grabbed a rebar club (a loose piece of concrete with a rebar steel rod hanging out) and approached one of the zombies. He swung the club at its legs like a warhammer, sending the zombie to the ground, then lifted the club over his head and brought it crashing down, crushing the zombies skull with a satisfying crunch. I bum rushed the other zombie and shouldered into it, also knocking it to the ground. I proceeded to curb stomp its head over and over until there was nothing left but a flat mash of bone, blood, and brains.

We entered the warehouse to find a machine shop devoid of life, undead or otherwise. I began scavenging for weapons and the rest of the DC's followed suit. I managed to find two crowbars, and fastened some sharp pieces of metal to broom handles to make spears. A few minutes passed and our group was well armed, just in time to see a zombie horde approaching our warehouse. We readied our weapons and opened the bay door to meet our attackers, but as the dying light of sunset entered the building....


I unfortunately woke up. What a shame, it would've been an epic battle. Still though, this was a great first lucid experience and I'm glad I could share it.

Date: 7 June

Total sleep time: 8+ hrs

Pre bed: SJW, B6

Sleep quality and WBTB: I have been sleeping like a sloth all week long. One thing I have changed in my WBTB routine was to switch from using an alarm to using natural wakes. This has worked out partially fine. I do wake up naturally 2-3 times after sleeping 4-5 hrs. I think that in this way I am allowing my body to determine the best time for WBTB, instead of me forcefully using the alarm. The only problem is that, out of fear not to cause insomnia and possibly due to laziness, my WBTBs were not as serious as they should have been, thus not raising alertness to desired for LD levels. Will have to work on that.

Dream recall: While my recall has been somewhat reduced by my sleepiness, I have additionally been skimming my dreams. I have been putting only keywords instead of journaling, which has allowed me to...sleep more. The dreams weren't too interesting, so there wasn't much that I have missed apart from a brief lucid yesterday, that I couldn't access at all. I think that's fine so far.

WBTB: peppermint oil capsules

Dream1 DILD: I missed the transition. I suddenly find myself in front of my parents' place but the way it was a few years ago. I spend some time looking around, feeling happy. Then the neighborhood begins to morph into other buildings from my home town, so I stop staring at them, because I feel that I am causing the change. I check out my hands and they are in a mudra. After yesterday's discussion, I now wonder if I should try meditating in the dream or try to recall a past memory. I spend too much time in idleness and the dream escapes. I find myself in the void.

I feel that if I wake up I can successfully DEILD back. I am in the void and not back in bed yet but get confused because I feel my body? Obviously this is my dream body and some dream is starting to form, but I think that I am in my bed feeling my real body. In real life I am sleeping in my bed, but the body I feel while in the void is sitting in a chair. I am too dumb to realize that this is my dream body, get irritated with the strange position I have assumed, try to change it and lie down? I struggle in the dark. Then I wake up in another dream.

Dream2: Short FA, where I am in bed, reviewing the event and now completely sure after the dream that whatever I couldn't remember yesterday was indeed a very short LD where I didn't get much done.

I wake up (left side) for real and take key notes

Dream3: An elegant Asian woman talks about investment opportunities. She recommends that Western countries allocate 50 percent of FDI to China and the other 50 to Malaysia. This interview happens during some event. While this is happening I hear a piano playing. It is part of the melody from Mika's Grace Kelly. The sound is astonishing.

Fragment4: A classmate follows me around kissing me. While it feels pleasant I try to avoid him because I have a bf.

Fragment5: Me and a friend enter in a luxurious store where they sell toothpaste. It slowly changes and is now some kind of bar full of hookers.

Fragment6: I look into the nearby building and Christian Slater is there with more hookers having some night party

Fragment7: Me and bf, no comments

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Progress with this month's goals:

- Do 100 RCs (added)
- notice real life DS 100 times and RC (added)
- 10 proper WBTB attempts -> days (3/10)
- 10 morning RCs (1/10)
- 2 proper WILD attempts (0/2)
- task flexibility
- journal flexibility

Last night, somehow I was able to have what felt like an hour long lucid dream in the span of 10 minutes. I must have gone into REM sleep almost instantly. I know this, because my friend Adam <username: Salamus> was going through relaxation techniques right next to me and told me so when I woke up, exhilarated.


As soon as I was asleep, I was lucid. I tried to yell out from my dream to Adam that I was having a lucid dream without waking myself up, and he responded, though I later found out it was just in my head.

Next thing I know, I find myself driving down a highway, expertly switching tapes in a portable tape player I had next to me without looking, suddenly remembering that I've gone through years of training for that one action. I said to myself:
"The cops can't catch me; I'm dreaming!" and consequently slam on the gas pedal. I must have been going 120 mph or so, but when I look down at the speedometer, it is still showing 50 mph. I shake it off: "Well, it must be broken."
I pull off to a gas station and walk in the door. Instead of a door chime, I hear a the bleating of a goat. Something wet and sticky is against my face. At this point I realize I've been on my hands and knees the whole time, and the thing against my face is the sweaty arm of a heavily tattooed and pierced dream character. Smartly, I stand up.
The DC says to me, "Say, did you know that this gas station's cashier will give out Robotussin for free?"
Intrigued, I say, "Really?"
He replies, "No, actually she only gives it to three guys that she slept with after this one party."
I say, "Oh."
My attention then shifts to the man at the front of the line, who is buying a Xbox 360 game, and seems quite upset with the allegedly slutty cashier.
She says calmly to the man, "I'm sorry sir, but the FBI requires a signature for any purchase over 10 dollars."

After that, I wake up to share my dream with Adam, who has not yet fallen asleep.

06-07-2013 -- [Dreams within dreams, connections to other dreams, lucid, false awakenings, all kinds of stuff in this one.] Stopping by Rosemary's to check for mail or something, but she says I look sick, orders me to bed (in a different room than the one that used to be mine), and tells me to see a doctor in the morning. I accept the bed, but I figure I'm not going to go see a doctor, because I might have a slight fever, but I feel more or less fine. The room I am in is messy enough to be mine, and there is a crushed orange juice carton on the floor that has been squished, and I am amazed that it doesn't stink, since old orange juice smells horrible.

I must have gotten into bed and fallen asleep, because I suddenly find myself dreaming. I know I am dreaming, and even recognize the dream, one I had a few months ago, here. Oddly, though, I keep claiming that it was somebody else's dream, and as I am wandering through this dream that I can remember from before, I keep talking about how detailed it is, and how large the area it covers is, and how amazed I am that this other person could have such a detailed dream, and wishing I could dream so well! [Lol].

Anyway, I find myself in an area that is kind of shaped like a backward E, with the long bar connecting the lines running down the right side, instead of the left. I am in a hallway that forms the bottom branch of the E, on the west side, heading to the east, and the hall seems impossibly long, like a mile or so, and I am talking to myself out loud about what a cool dream this is, and how great the original dreamer must be, and it is the same area from the linked dream above where I was chasing the imps. But in this dream there are no imps, just the hallway. Looking to the south I am looking out many windows into the outside world. Looking to the north, I am looking through big panes of glass to a very large swimming pool.

As I walk along, the hallway is getting shorter and shorter, and now the entire hallway is probably only about a quarter of a mile long, and I am about halfway down it. Though it is still the outside on one side and a pool on the other, there is the hint and feel of hospital quarters or laboratories, again, just like noted in the linked dream, that ties this into even more past dreams, if only lightly. As I am looking around, I find there is a slightly seedy guy walking next to me, and I am shocked to look down and find he has got his dick in his hand, and is unobtrusively trying to rub the thing against me. Ick!

I kind of hurry away from him, heading to the east and the north/south branch of the reverse E, except the actual area is starting to feel more like the corner with the bakery in the Van Thief dream linked here. The Dick guy is still following me, and I try to escape by making my way into a store that is located right about where the middle branch of the reverse E would be, except as I move further into the store, it actually turns into the middle E branch. To the north are a row of stores, and to the south are windows looking on the other side of the big pool that I could see from the other path. So my mind seems to be keeping the layout pretty steady.

Dick Guy is still right on me, but now the hand holding his willie is covered in white, sticky gunk, and he is really creeping me out, so I start an odd combination of praying against him and using a sort of mind power/spell to try and force him to forget ever even seeing me, and I start running off to the east again, wanting to get away before there is any chance the guy might see me again or remember me. As I am approaching the north/south branch again, there is a small ladder to climb to get out of the area (about like the ladder out of a pool) but rather than waste time, I just fly up the four or five feet to the main path, to escape the icky creep!

At this point the dream is switching again, to be like the Disneyland Paris dream I had here, in the area I met Dave D./Chris V. in that dream. (All three of these dreams took place in about a two week period, roughly 6 months ago.) It is seeming more and more like a shopping mall, though with hints of theme park areas about it. A little north and west of me is what seems to be a 3 or 4 floor version of the America Sings show building from Disneyland, except each floor is recessed a little further, and it isn't circular. Instead it kind of undulates kind of like a stretched out, really tall S. The funny thing is, it still seems to be rotating, even though it isn't circular. Instead it is almost like all the walls are kind of like the luggage conveyors at the airport, circling around the stationery, oddly-shaped building. Weird.

As I walk further north, I seem to be making my way through crowds waiting for a parade, and soon find myself catching up to the parade, itself. There are hundreds of characters, and most of them seem to be dwarves. Seven of them are dressed in colorful costumes, and seem to be the named dwarves we are all familiar with [Dopey, Doc, etc.], the rest seem to be just generic dwarves of the same people, but to set them apart, their clothes and faces and all are just plain white. It looks rather weird. They are singing some sort of silly song, and I find myself singing along while floating a couple of feet over a tall planter. Several of the dwarves are climbing on the planter, and some ignore me, seeing I am causing no trouble, while others seem to be bothered by my floating there.

I am now approaching the top of the backwards E, though it is now beginning to more resemble a T, with paths leading east and west. It is here in the Disneyland Paris dream that I headed East from what was a shopping mall sort of area into what actually became DLP. As I am wandering around, I glance over and spot a very short person with graying curly hair, and suddenly recognize Sharon K. I glance around and standing next to her is Joe H. [Actually I suppose she is Sharon H., these days, but I still remember her as Sharon K.] I make my way to talk to them, but they are vaguely unfriendly, and they indicate they are going to the TTC (Ticket and Transportation Center) to take a Monorail over to the Magic Kingdom, and this has turned into Walt Disney World. They have no wish for my company.

I'm a little miffed, and decide, fine! I'll just fly into the air, fly over to the TTC, and beat them there! Remember, through this whole thing, I know I am dreaming. (I just think it is somebody else's dream, oddly enough.) I fly easily, and follow the monorail tracks right into the TTC, just moving to the side a bit to avoid some guy who has borrowed Wonder Woman's invisible plane, and is landing in the same area. I am trying to figure out which trains are going to the Magic Kingdom directly, which are stopping at the hotels, and which are actually heading to EPCOT, but it is complicated. I have just figured it out and am about to land by the train going direct to the Magic Kingdom when it pulls out, so I decide why bother, and just fly along the track, following it into the park.

As I fly along the monorail beam, I am thinking about what I want to do, today. I think about stopping by Casey's Corner to listen to the piano player, or heading into the back portion of Frontierland to ride Big Thunder or the log ride (in a layout more like my dreams of Magic Mountain than the real layout of Disneyworld), but oddly, as soon as I think of these areas, I suddenly find myself hovering above them. I am just about to land and ride some rides when I 'wake up' back into the earlier dream ... or into real life.

For a few seconds I seem to find myself in both the 'wrong' bedroom at Rosemary's house, and in the room I am currently in at the roach motel I am staying at in real life. I think I halfway woke, really, then drifted back into the dream that I never fully left. Anyway, I find myself waking in Rosemary's. The room I am staying in does not have a door, but a sheet pulled across the door opening, and kind of velcro'd to the wall. Somebody has disturbed it, and it has pulled open, and I am hoping to block it off before Rosemary sees me and starts badgering me. TOO LATE! She's standing right there, and tells me to hurry off to the doctors.

I tell her there is nothing wrong with me, I am feeling fine, and she says "Yeah, right! With your face covered in blood and your nose all purple!" What?!? I turn around to find a mirror (avoiding the overturned dog dish and kibble on the floor), and find myself standing outside somewhere in front of a large wall of reflective glass, staring at myself. My nose is swollen to about twice it's normal size and colored a bright purple, and there is a huge (perhaps 1 cm around) zit on the end of my nose, while my face is, indeed, covered in blood. I am about to reach up and try and pop the zit when a baseball coach who is standing there warns me that I might not want to do that, as I might cause a nasty infection. But I barely touch it and the thing pops easy as pie. I take a wash cloth and wipe off the blood and puss and try to gently clean the stuff out, and everything still seems fine, so I still don't plan on visiting a doctor.

I woke around 4:30AM and since it was too late for a WBTB tried falling asleep with SSILD. I was more tired than I thought and didn't get past the visual stage. Sometime later I had a brief awakening and I went for DEILD. I've had a playing card that I blindly placed face up on top of the china cabinet in my house. I finally hit an OBE this morning and was able to take a look.


#189 - 5:23AM - DEILD/OBE

I waited and I got that special feeling that made me realize I was close. I remember Monroe's tech but since I was so close I skipped a few steps. I went straight to focusing 6 feet off the top of my head and pulling energy in. The vibrations started. I concentrated on it for a bit noting the frequency and intensity.

I tentatively and slowly moved upper body just to check. Every felt right and my physical body seemed locked in so I went for it. I took off and phased through the bedroom door without a thought and went straight for the playing card. I reached the top of the cabinet and pulled thinking I would float up but instead it feels like I tipped it over. There was a strange brief vertigo and I'm not sure if I actually floated or I tipped it over. Doesn't matter.

I look around and see various scraps of paper but no playing card. Everything seems a little blurry and I think I just need to look harder. I say, "It IS here. I WILL find it." Then I see a card pop up in my face. It is the queen of clubs. I study it to remember but then it fans out into many cards all laying on top of the china cabinet. I see a couple of aces and a jack and I think a 9 and a 10. I decide that since I saw the queen first that I'll go with this one. I try memorizing the rest just in case but when I look a the jack it some how seems red with a black suit. I call it a red black jack. Then I realize all the other cards are doing the same except for the Queen. It's clearly queen of clubs. This HAS to be it! All this thinking and studying quickly causes me to wake up. I try to lay still for DEILD but it doesn't come and I have to pee.

The actual card was the nine of hearts. The entire experience was probably only a minute or two.

Partly lucid dream:

I was in the car going somewhere with a few friends and people I knew and this girl who is with someone now but who I've wanted to be with for about 2 years and care about alot was there too but we weren't talking really. Then the driver(Can't remember who) was going a different way so just me and her had to walk together, and she was like why didn't you call, and I asked the same and then she sat down and started to cry. I hugged her and we kissed and I told her I loved her and it was like super emotional.

End of dream.

The first involved me getting out of bed to go make myself breakfast. I made myself three slices of toast and made my way back to bed. I then awoke for real and noticed that it was still dark outside so that must have been a dream so I relaxed and tried to stay as aware as possible in case this happened again.

In the next one I woke up and went to the optometrist with mi madre. I was trying on glasses when I realised that my sight was fine as I'd recently passed my eye exam. I raised my hands and looked at them to try to stabilise before I tried to do anything else but then I moved my hand in bed in reality. I did more checks just in case it was another false awakening but this one was real.

These are all of the lucids I've had since I went on vacation. It's good but I really need to get back on track with journaling, all of these have been high vividness but vanish so easily when I wake up. My ability to enjoy a lucid is high, but my recall is terrible. I definitely need to fix this....

But in the meantime, dreams! It's been a while since I had some of these, so my apologies if my memory is a little shaky on them.

May 21

Right before my eyes!! [DILD]

The first thing I remember is hanging around my neighborhood. I was hanging out with a couple old friends, I believe a couple who I went to elementary school with, and we were staring at where the elementary school used to be and reminiscing. It had been replaced with a college campus, though in reality it still stands there. I became lucid when I separated from them, and I headed down the alleyway that leads to my house. The main thing I recall about the beginning of this lucid was that there were a bunch of DCs chasing me like screaming fangirls. They were all cute, somewhat chubby white girls. I was fighting one of them off near my garage and I decided that I needed some kind of weapon. I held out my hand as if I was holding something and just stared at it and visualized a wrench being there, and it faded into existence right before me! It wasn't really that useful to me though, I'm not exactly sure why I went with a wrench, so I just tossed it at her and ran back out into the open. On my way out I also tried to split my body in two and summon fire but I wasn't able to do either. I was also able to reach up to my face and remove a pair of glasses, twice without putting any back on, that increased the vividness of the scene each time.

When I got out of the alleyway I was still being chased by the girl, she tried to jump me and I ended up accidentally groping her, but then I got away and she seemed to disappear. I turned down one of my neighborhood streets and saw this girl who looked like ML, that I knew all throughout public school also since elementary, but she looked almost like a porn star. Also, I have no earthly idea what this means, but in my phone notes at the end of that last part I added "and apparently it was an ongoing procedural thing." I believe I picked her up as I walked by her and started inviting her to my house, but then the dream faded away.

May 22

Good thing we're not.... [DILD]

I don't remember too much about this one. TB, a guy from elementary school, and some other guy were there, and at one point I was walking with this girl MH who people used to think we were related back in like first or second grade. I was thinking about making out with her, but then I realized that this all was odd and became lucid, but then I woke up.

May 24

Hammerspace trial. [DILD]

I was back in high school talking to M's friend C at the end of a class and the beginning of break, then I left to find someone else though I forget who now. All I know is that I was done with classes at that point. I became lucid while walking into a classroom and took off my backpack and randomly decided to just drop it through the floor so I could store it for later. When it actually worked and the floor swallowed it up, I got kind of distracted and decided to toy around with it a little more. I stuck my hand into the floor and tried reaching around for the bag but couldn't find it anywhere, so I pulled myself back out and tried to summon it directly into my hand like the wrench from before but I couldn't get that to work either, and since I focused so much on it the rest of the dream faded away.

June 4

#1 - Acid carnival? [DILD]

I was lucid outside at night at some kind of bizarre carnival. This whole section of the dream had a very strange psychotic feel to it. I was bursting with energy and the random chains of events happening around me were unfolding in a way that made me feel like I was in an acid trip. Everywhere I looked I had to fight off a good deal of sexual temptation to avoid getting too swept up into the dream and losing track of the lucid. The main ones I remember now are the barber shop girls and the girls getting their hair cut there, and then some beautiful performing girls including LK from middle and high school who wer just singing and dancing. There were also some weird guys here and there, and I specifically remembering sticking out my hand at one of them and yelling "Bang!" Other than that it's really hard to remember what all happened in this dream, it was very frantic and there was a lot going on.

#2 - Maybe I'll just wait.... [DILD]

This is an interesting dream to me because I'm pretty sure I accidentally incubated it while falling asleep due to what I was considering doing. I'm fairly certain the dream just kicked in with me lucid while walking down a hallway with the intention of masturbating. I seem to be in some kind of school or something and I come upon the bathroom so I head inside and notice that it's massive and there's a huge line of girls waiting inside, and even a few guys. I just decided to fuck the system and walk past the line all the way down to the end. I look in the stall and I try to throw this one girl out but she won't budge. She says something about seeing a "nasty phallus" or something like that, and then immediately holds up this suitcase with three fake but realistic and damaged-looking penises just sitting in it to show me. They looked like they were diseased and rotting or something, and it really grossed me out and I woke up.

June 6

Sort of like being drunk in an out-of-body experience. How can you beat that? [DILD]

The first of this lucid is hard for me to recall now which is annoying because I know it was cool, but mainly what I remember is starting out in some high up apartment building out in the hills somewhere and flying out and above a city scape for a while. I also saw this old abandoned building on the ground I was approaching at one point so I did a twirl in the air with the expectation that it would be inhabited when I turned all the way around and saw it again, and it was successful. When I got there I just flew around a bit and through walls to see what all there was to do, and I came upon this very attractive girl, just a little bit younger than me by the looks of it. I picked her up and just carried her in my arms with me for a little bit and got distracted talking to another DC or something. I can't remember what was said now, mainly because of what happened next. I focused back on her again and looked down at her body and noticed that she was completely naked. That combined with the fact that I was only somewhat lucid and already pretty horny, and my prefrontal cortex must have taken a big hit. I don't remember much about the next part other than basically becoming an animal. Seriously, I could get addicted to this. >.>

The bummer though was one part when I looked up from my partner and noticed that we were being swallowed into some sort of pit of darkness that was taking the stability of the dream along with it. At the last second I realized that I hadn't been able to keep focus, but there was no time to try to save it before my awareness vanished. The dream became a third-person, non-lucid scene of a woman who was escaping some thugs or something by jumping out of a window of the apartment building from before and realizing she could fly too, and I saw us flying next to each other while I told her that we were in an astral projection together. Then, I suddenly had a false awakening in that same building. I got up and noticed that my parents were talking right outside my room, and figured that that was probably what woke me up. But after that I actually did wake up.

I can't remember exactly what the situation was. I can remember I was staying in some kind of pier or industrial park area. I can remember there being shipping crates that had been converted into houses, and in that sense it was kind of like a slum. I think that there were some people drinking and doing drugs.
It was nighttime. I was sitting around a campfire with some other dream characters, and I fell asleep, Inside the dream.
Only moments only after I fell asleep, I re-awoke into the same dream. It was daytime now, and I could make out more of the area that I was in. There were some warehouses and cargo ships docked nearby.
Then I can recall coming across some dream character. He seemed alot like Bane from Dark Knight Rises. (In fact, he was exactly like Bane from Dark Knight Rises.)
He wanted me to make a decision in his evil plot, and he told me that he was going to have me do it. He led me to the other side of one of the warehouses, where he had wired up three yellow buttons.
For some reason, I wasn't really scared of this character, despite him being a villain. He said that each of the buttons was linked to a bomb, and if I didn't press one of the buttons, he would kill me.
One of the buttons was labeled a remote place. I wanted to press it, but I realized that the button was fake, and it was just painted onto the side of the warehouse.
For some odd reason, the button painted onto the warehouse triggered lucidity. The Bane character disappeared.
I walked around for a minute and focused on stabilization. I eventually came across this fenced off road, and there was a bleacher set up, as though the road had been converted into a raceway.
I found my parents sitting in the bleacher. I can't exactly remember what sort of interaction I had with them. I wanted to try and find my dream guide and get in some lessons. I think I found her just before I awoke.

Legend: Dream , Lucid Dream , Side notes.

Bunker Scientist:
I'm underground in some metallic looking silver bunker. I'm walking down a corridor and as i pass through a doorway, i notice two guys on each side of me. They instantly spring forward in what looks like an attempt to attack me, However they stop before they actually hit me. They realize i'm not the person they were waiting for. There's also some other people around me, they seem disappointed, they must have been waiting to see a fight. There's one person that is especially mad and he decides to try and lock me in a jail like cell with some creepy looking guy in the corner, i fight him off and continue down the corridor. I eventually get to a room with a mix of kids and adults. There's lots of advanced looking equipment scattered on the walls and about the room. I notice a screen with all the sub-atomic particles on it ( the ones from the standard model of physics ) and my dream self some how comes to the conclusion that they are all here using a particle collider to perform tests and do research. I also see that the collider itself is just in the next room. next thing i know, a thief sneaks into the collider room and steals all the equipment, everyone rushes out to see and the scientist here starts to cry and yell. The thief must have be generous because everyone but the scientist magically received envelops with money in them.

Blockbuster:
It's late and i'm tired. I'm on the bed in some house i don't recognize. My friend calls me up and asks me to come over and spend the night. So i go over to his house and notice that he is really really poor. I even start to wonder if he has clean running water because his house is so rundown. Anyway, for some reason, i leave my stuff there and go home. My grandmother is there waiting for me and makes me go to blockbuster and rent some game i've never played nor heard of. So we pull up and i walk inside blockbuster. I tell the man at the counter what i want and he hands me a bag with the game and...clothes in it? (i guess they want me to wear a suit and play the game at the same time xD) I say to myself forget about it and i keep moving. We keep home and i spend the rest of the night on the game.

Lucid #5:
I'm in a city like area, it starts off as a normal dream and i'm standing on the corner of a street with my friend and two girls. Then i suddenly take in the surroundings and become aware. I then do a reality check, and after that, the fact i'm dreaming really sets in.
I become lucid, However there's still some dullness to my senses, like my ability smell isn't all the way there. My ability to feel is mostly there and my logic is still lacking a little. I also have no control except for what i do.
As i realize i'm dreaming, i really focus on what's around me. I'm in a huge city, there are tall skyscrapers everywhere, and people moving about the streets but there aren't that many people which gives me some room. After i look at the surroundings, i notice my friend and the two girls around me. Me and my friend are sitting on a bench while one girl is literally eating out this other girl in public (giving her oral sex). It's odd but it's a dream so i go with it and wait for her to finish. one of the girls walks off and i make a remark to the girl doing the licking. I say something like "I thought you would never stop" (she was at it for a while) in a joking sort of voice. I remember her saying something back but i don't know what she said. Anyhow, we start off walking to my left and i ask her for a blowjob and she says no in a determined voice (well screw you too dream character!) and we arrive at like a residence for women only. This girl with us is not a member of this place so my friend says "Wait, they won't let you in" or something like that and she replies "If i take my clothes off, they will think i'm changing clothes and won't dare stop me". That was bold of her xD but there was nothing we could do to stop her so we head off. I wanted to check out more of the city so i head to the backyard of a nearby house, it's grassy and in the distance, i see a huge vast forest with a big river running through it. it's very beautiful. As i turn around to look at the this persons yard, one of my other friends tell the friend with me to shoot me in the back of my head and before i move, my friend shoots me ( what an ass ), i instantly lose my vision and my body violently vibrates for a second ( it actually hurt a little ). I still can't see but i can move and hear so i turn around and tackle him, i grab the gun and aim it back at him and pull the trigger, but to my luck, there were no more rounds left. So we sit there and wrestle for a bit and i eventually get him up and push him to the street and i get my vision back. Now that i can see ( i still have hold of both his arms ) i go through the kicking combo my martial arts instructor taught me. I kick him about 6 times and then i kick his chin and while that forced his head up, i then go for his throat and then BAM! he's done for xD I drop him wounded on the street and walk back over to the corner. I decided i really want some sex so i start to head over to a town square/park like place because it looks as if a festival is going on and since there's a festival going on, there's going to be women. So i walk over and as i'm about there, i start to lose it. My vision starts to fade, i realize i'm waking up and i try to hold on but it's no use, the dream fades.

was in a building white/cream stone walls was with mum and toddler .Putting toddlers shoes on and a woman comes behind me bends down slighty so she can stare in my face trying to get my attention i notice the toddler agitated by her so turns to look and it was a friend i had known who has now passed and in my mind i said this is a dream because i knew my friend had died. She then changed into few diferent women before changing to Cleopatra she said i have been told by the powers that be i can come back if become pregnante can you help me find someone i said no i asked her who was the powers that be who did she mean she was speaking but couldnt understand her only one word i understood was twins. Then i asked her what where would the babies live if she succeded. At this point i was scared still trying to put shoes on toddler she moved futher back from us rose in the air and changed to what i think was egyptian paintings then back to herself she ran into corner of room where there was few people she was going crazy shouting bring me the fetuses i was terrified that the toddlers dad was going to come to meet us and she would get him so we had to get out before he met us and i picked up toddler i had no shoes on as wouldnt put heels on as wouldnt be able to run i was worried about cutting feet and not being able to get away then found some pumps and and an old buggy to put toddler in and run

I decided to post most of my lucids here, so here' s the one from tuesday night. I feel like it was pretty good and long (I'd say around 30-35 minutes or so) but I don' t remember much of it.

Lucidity: 9/10
Control: ?
Vivacity: 8/10


We're in a small room with a creepy bed in it; that' s where I' m gonna sleep for the rest of a trip. I prepare for the night in it with an even creepier girl who appears at random times and who freaks me out. At one point I get out of that room and become lucid. I check reality on my fingers, and as always, I still doubt if the check was made well and it takes me some more time to understand that six fingers' too much.

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After doing something I don’t recall (telekinesis?), I remember that I wanted to fight a Titan, the colossal one. The dream fades and I am forced to abandon the Idea for now and rub my hands. I begin running thinking about how realistic the dream is. The building transformed into a more medieval architecture, like in the anime. After a while running I get to a big plain with trees surrounding it. In the middle of it there’ s this guy, Armin. Blond, long-ish hair. I run to him and take him with me. I decided to fight the Titan again. I randomly throw a fireball in the forest and we keep on running.

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I wake up and fail to DEILD. I took too much time deciding whether I should just wake up and write the dream or DEILD; I tried the technique and failed it.