lucid

After having been waking up at 3:45am for about a week, I am back on the afternoon shift at work and am sleeping in. As a consequence, I am having a lot of dreams. Now I have to try and recall them, but they are kind of weird.

Mirror (Lucid)

I am in a restroom. Finally, my habit of doing a RC every time I enter a restroom in waking life carries over to my dreams, and I do a nose pinch. I can still breathe. I double check by looking at my reflection in the mirror, which looks odd (a bit like a charachter I created for myself on Wii). I'm dreaming.

I climb onto the sink, repeating to myself "am I dreaming?" or "is this a dream?" to keep the question in my mind. The dream doesn't seem as unstable as others in the past, but it isn't very vivid. I think about flying, but a strange thing happens. I have been reading advice to lucid dreamers about how to fly in lucid dreams. It seems that others have a problem with this. Until now, I never thought about it but just did it when I wanted to. But now a doubt was created in my mind about whether or not it was easy to fly. Overanalysis seemed to interfere with me, and I had difficulty in flying.

Part of the problem was likely due to the ceiling though, because I had a hard time getting through. Anyway, I wake up somewhere along the way.

Caves, chasing, anxiety stuff

I am driving somewhere down a dark winding road. At one point, someone jumped out in front of me and I killed him. But I kept on going because since I wasn't responsible never having seen him coming. Later I go back to the area for some reason. It may have been to buy a Christmas tree, but I am kind of fuzzy on what was going on here. There was a whole part of this dream that had significance that I can't remember.

Anyway, we end up going into a huge building/cave thing. In this building there is a killer or monster or something, and much shooting and running. My brother (?) and I are trying to escape. I wish I could remember more, because this journal is not doing the dream justice. These things are just vague impressions that might not be the actual dream plot.

Superman (fragment)

I am in front of a mirror again. I put on some glasses that I find, and I like how I look with them on. I look again and I seem to look a lot like Christopher Reeves as Superman (or rather as Clark Kent). My face is stretched though, and I find that I can distort it with my fingers.

I found myself walking along a familiar pathway. There, in the pathway, was standing a cow which was untied, it appears to be waiting for me to attack me. As I walked pass the cow it came after me. I began running for my dear life, to a safe place.
Unfortunately for me there was a chimpanzee ahead of me waiting for me to get closer. It now became obvious to me that I was between the devil and the deep blue sea. By this time I had no option than to stop and think of the next thing to do. And all of a sudden it struck me ‘you are dreaming’, I smiled and the next thing I did was to fly which I did.
As I was taking off the ground I began mocking the cow and its accomplice, the chimpanzee. I can not remember the exact words I used on them but I said something like ‘you fools, come I get me if you can’
I flew high up in the sky when I noticed people playing football and down to the level where I can see and observe them. The scene was as real as reality, the players, and the spectators all were putting on colorful jerseys. I flew across and look for a place to land. Prior to landing I thought of closing my eyes, I decided not to because I might end up waking up. But I did close my eyes, tried meditating and reopened it a short while.
I landed and reality checked me. I packed and felt the texture of the soil when I noticed that five persons on my RHS were busy looking at me, and I said to my self ‘these guys might think am crazy’. I ignored them and continued. I counted my right hand fingers it was five. I counted the left it was the same, I got confused and decided to pinch my nose which I did and wow! I could still breathe. I stood up and continued observing the dreaming mind.
I walked to the North of where I landed, was looking around the scene. The scene appeared as if I was looking from a dirty transparent glass/wheel scream of an automobile. To my left were array of trees and beside it was seating on a bench a classmate. Abandoned scraps of tractors/caterpillars were packed beside some of the trees. A building was to my RHS and I walked toward it. There in the building, a tailor’s shop I saw a lady who seems to be leaving the shop for that moment. I said to her “please, can I ask you a question.” She looked at me angrily and ignored me. I beckoned on her again and she was wild at me, she said “can’t you see that I am in a hurry, she exclaimed!” I was shucked and surprised.
I noticed a little girl looking at me with eyes of pity from the same shop, and I walked up to her and said to her “can you answer my question”,
What is the question, she replied.
Are you my subconscious mind?
As the little girl she is she replied saying; suborconscious mine
No I said, not suborconscious mine but subconscious mind. Her childish behavior annoyed me; I had no option than to leave her alone.
I walked down the road to my right wondering the next thing to do. The scene is some how mixed up, it is partly familiar and partly not. It looked like a school environment that I know and I as was making these observations another girl with a school bag strapped on her back walked by. I tried to stop her but she would not stop. I said please, I have a question for you.
She said I am in a hurry
I have a bike I will take you home
She said no, that she is hungry.
I was very emotional that I had to kneel down and beg for her attention.
I said, please stop am on my knees. I will buy you food. She stopped, turned and started coming toward me. I began feeling the sensation of my body lying on a bed, I could not control the dream anymore but to wake up which made me sad afterwards.
Thank you for reading, any advice?

I had a DILD where I found myself in a scene that I could not remember and I willed myself to be in a familiar scene which was a success.
There in the new scene I saw and talked with a familiar person, I asked him ‘are you my dream guide, he said no and pointed to the direction where I can find my DG ’ he gave me advice saying that I should not pose a direct question but be indirect about the question. In the direction he pointed was a boy’s quarter with an open window. And I was able to see my supposed DG from there.
My DG was she; she tied green rapper round her waist with blouse which I cannot remember the color. I went round the house to pass through the front door and when I got into the room there were too many people in the room that seemed there were holding a meeting.
I got in, was a little beat confused which is my DG. I met the one I thought was the one and told her that I needed her audience and she said “I am tired while blowing a hand fan over her body”. I could not do anything but to let her be. With this I woke up.
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DreamLucidAwake

I learned 5 new abilities during a great fight last night. I learned the fire element, ice element, lightning element, earth element, and how to morph into a dragon.

Dragon Morph

I was in the sky high above the clouds in the middle of the day. I was being carried through the sky by some sort of wind current. I stopped screaming when I noticed there were many animals flying through it peacefully. There were buffalo, horses, and rabbits just flying along with it. I then made an attempt to gain control of myself and fly along with it. I noticed a sharp turn in the current ahead and I flew out of it before I could turn with it.

I started falling and screaming again. I noticed a small floating island below me in the direction I was falling. After falling for about 3 seconds I grabbed onto the edge of the floor. As I was starting to lose my grip I realized I was dreaming. I was about to activate super strength, but I fell before I could activate it. The funny thing is I'm great at flying but completely forgot about it in this dream. I decided to let instincts take over and save me. I did a roll as I was in the air and morphed into a dragon through it. I wasn't a very big dragon. If I were to stand on my hind legs I'd only be a little bigger than I am right now.

I started flapping my wings and I was now hovering a few hundred feet or so below the island. I started laughing because of how cool it was to have morphed and how it felt to have a tail and wings. I used my wings to quickly fly back up onto the island floor. When I got up there I met a strange man wearing dark robes. I'm just gonna call him shadow man for now. I then started to hear a woman's voice in my head.

"Be careful around him." She said.
"Why?" I asked.
"His magic isn't natural."

I saw his eyes glow yellow as he started charging purple balls of lightning in each hand. I charged towards him to try to stop his spell. I was too late though and he blasted the hell out of me. The spell knocked me back and out of my morph. He then taunted me with a laugh at how powerless I now was. I knew I wouldn't be able to fight him as just a human so I tried to recreate the morph technique. I jumped towards the ground into a roll. Halfway through the roll I quickly started morphing into my dragon form. I came out of the roll on four paws again feeling confident. He tried throwing anothing lightning bolt at me, but I jumped out of the way and started running towards him.

As I ran towards him I heard the voice say, "You're a dragon now, remember to use your elements. Try to breathe fire."

Instinct kind of took over again and I gathered an intense heat in the back of my throat. I took a deep breath and breathed this heat out slowly into a large flame. It looked like I damaged him, but he considered it nothing compared to his abilities. He quickly teleported to the other edge of the island to stay at a safe distance from me. I didn't let the distance stop me though and I started to shoot fire balls towards him. Unfortunately he was too good at dodging to land a clean hit. He then stopped and waved his arms in a downward motion. He flew away as the island started shaking violently apart. When I relized that the island was about to collapse I flew up high above the danger zone.

"You can't defeat me! I'm invincible!" I heard him yell with an evil laugh.
"Quick, get over to the other island. He's summoning something." The voice told me.
"I don't think I can beat him. I've never fought anyone so powerful." I said.
"You're a lot more powerful than you ever were before. You can do it." She said reassurring me.

I made a left turn in my flight and flew over the second island. There was shadowy village on the island that looked far from natural. I saw the shadow man fly into the village and hide in one of the houses. One thing I found strange about the village was the buildings were only about 4 times my size.

"Did he summon that village?" I asked the voice.
"Yes, you should destroy it quickly." She said.
"Why would he summon a village of all things?" I asked.
"It's best we don't find out." She replied.

I swooped down towards the village and flew close to the buildings. I started breathing fire on a few buildings. I soon landed inside the village because flying close to the buildings was becoming too difficult. I breathed more fire and it blew apart the buildings. Suddenly a bunch of soldiers that looked like mini shadow men came out of the houses. They came at me with spears and swords and surrounded me. I started to fight them off with my claws and tail until I remembered that there is more than the fire element. As several of them surrounded me again and got closer I charged the energy inside my body. A sphere of electricity started to form around me until I released it in a wave of lightning in all directions. It effectively wiped out my enemies.

I now knew why the village needed to be destroyed. It was creating little shadow minions that would do the shadow man's evil work. I decided fire was too slow and I needed to try the earth element. I released green waves of seismic energy from my mouth at the houses. They blew apart and shattered quickly. I held this new breath for a while as I mowed down several houses. I stopped when about 20 more of those little guys showed up. I quickly flew up into the air to avoid them and surrounded myself with a green sphere of energy. When I came crashing down towards the ground it had the effect of a meteor strike. The wave of earth magic destroyed many more houses and killed nearly all of the minions. By this point I had destroyed most of the village and the shadow man gave up on hiding in it.

The shadow man then flew up to a third island above us and I flew after him. When I met him at the top he sneak attacked me with a spell that blasted me back into the wind current. I was thrown all over the place inside it but quickly regained control. I started flying against the current with all my strength to get back to the fight. With enough determination I soon flew back out of the wind current and back towards the island. On my way I decided to plan my next moves with ice magic. I knew he wasn't going to expect me to be back so soon and I would be able to use a sneak attack.

I landed on top of the island and he looked very surprised. I quickly focused the cold energy in the back of my throat. I took aim and fired 3 quick short bursts of ice magic at him. All 3 ice sickles hit him and froze his body in a couple places. I then charged in and released my ice breath in front of him. It knocked him back onto the edge of the cliff. He was hanging there by his hands unable to pull himself up. He was unable to fly because the ice on his body limited his movements.

"I can't be defeated... I'm invincible..." The shadow man said shivering.
"That shield on his side! That's what has been protecting him this whole time." The voice said.
"Okay, I'll get rid of the shield." I said.

I swooped down towards his side and swiped the shield off his side with my claws. I watched it fall down through the clouds. The shadow man managed to climb back onto the island when I wasn't looking. I landed in front of him to fight him once more. He tried to charge a spell, but I raimed him, swiped him with my claw, and then smacked him with my tail to combo. That's the last thing I remember. I know a little more happened, but I think I won.

End

15.01.2012

Tennis Locker Room, Become lucid Found a GUIDE, but they didn't say if they were my DG....

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Afternoon nap (~4pm-6:52PM) I slept while using the Mouse Plugin for the FIELD method, but I woke up with the mouse near the left side of my pillow (when resting on my head and look to my left that is) instead of being on the lower left side of my left hand).

Dream 1:

I was inside the Men's locker room in Cypress Lakes High School. There were a bunch of familiar DCs. I didn't know what I was doing at the time, but I was just standing there watching people do random things. They were talking about random things as well.

I found that the Tennis Section in the locker was located on the left side rather than on the right side in waking life. I see two racquets on a bench while DCs gear up to go outside I guess. Then the racquet vanishes. Everything in the dream kind of goes into these small skips.

After some randomness, the most noticeable thing here is I'm suddenly near some statue where I had to use Mangekyou Sharingan.

I think I asked a random DC if the statue didn't have Itachi's eyes instead of mine (like a replica of it I mean). Or maybe it was the other way around where a DC asks me.

Then I realize it's my own eyes because apparently some DC told me there's a little dot on the lower right and left-hand corners of the eye.

I actually started saying "MANGEKYOU SHARINGAN" on the statue, and when I fixed my eyes and kept them opened, they kind of diluted my vision. (Okay.....why am I exactly doing this??? As I'm typing this, I think I had a small argument with my father in a dream fragment because I told him I couldn't do something, but he said it's okay and that we'll doing something else or something like that).



After a few tries, I realized I just had to keep my eyes open and the statue would match my eyes. It opens up, and I just had to make sure my eyes were open all the time just to be safe. I can see everything slowly open up, the sides of some door expand to move apart from each other, and they had spiky stony ends to them.

Then I go in some random room where I sit down I think and listen to a DC give some slideshow presentation on an overhead. After being bored from the bull-crap they're saying, I just know I'm dreaming. I didn't do any reality checks, it was weird in fact, this state of mine at the time. I just went with the flow and saw the edge of the table and thought "Handgun" because I was about to shoot this DC spewing out random crap.

A gun forms pretty quickly, I grab it and then tried to shoot it, but nothing. But I concealed that fact to the DC and saw some random female DC on the floor. She looked pretty to be honest, probably Hispanic, and maybe resembled a colleague of mine in the Biochemistry Department.

She gets up, and I told her that she's going to show me my guide. (I'm not sure if I only said just my guide or DG, but whatever) She opens the door in front of us, nothing happens, just leads to another door. We walk in this small area of darkness and head for the door. Before I could even manifest the thought that my Dream Guide will be at the other side, the door already opens.

There's this black man in a black durag, a blue hard jacket with no sleeves and underneath was some gray sweater and he had some dark jeans on who looks like the same guy who wanted a chain when Chris from "Everybody Hates Chris" prevented him from snatching one.

(The guy on the right of the picture...LOL.)

At first I didn't want to go "WTF is this shit going on here?"

Then the black guy tells the girl to quickly lock the door, as if he didn't want to be found out. Then the girl says "You're that same guy!!" in a shocked tone. I think he replies "yeah yeah yeah" in a rushed tone as if he's annoyed with the girl. I think I even see a T.V. above him when I went inside, and it was showing some kind of police investigation or something like that.

Then I move around a little bit, look back at him, and he gets up. I asked him if he's the guide (but I didn't say Dream Guide, I'm sure as hell positive that I couldn't say Dream Guide, even before the door opened). I move back as he comes forward to me.

I thought he was going to attack me since he made a quick movement picking something up, but he was just moving something out of my way. He goes on this wild tangent and I predicted what he was going to say. He questioned to me something like, "Oh you mean the who can keeps you whole" (he did it while holding on to the word "whole" like how you hold on to a part of a word when speaking like "Hola" or something like that").

Then I realize he's just spewing out things that a friend told me about finding out her life guide in a certain PM I sent to her, but I won't reveal who.

Then he talks as if he's asking me a question again, and starts listing things like problems I have, new thoughts, etc.

Then I started to get a little bored, or maybe just traumatic that a DC who looks like an ex-convict is talking to me about things I knew it would probably say.

But as I listened to the guy, I pretty much had this shocked expression on my face with my mouth slightly open, and probably one eyebrow raised up as I'm questioning this guy's existence.
Then I woke up. One thing I'm sure, and I'm sure I've made the right call saying this, I didn't not ask the DC if he was my Dream Guide.

I just questioned it if it was THE GUIDE, so in a way, he's probably just a guide to show me where my Dream Guide is, because he answers in a question as if it's some preview to something he's going to show.

I'm sure as hell right that I never dreamed about a black DC and asking if he was a guide, NOT a Dream Guide.

Only way to find out is to become lucid again. And I become lucid after like over 90 minutes of sleep? Which was kind of rare for me. I guess I can start having dreams and becoming lucid for a while during NON-REM, or maybe it's Rem rebound.

But ehhh, this just leads me with more questions in finding my dream guide. I'm not going to deny the possibility the guy may be my dream guide given the situation that he wanted to be hidden from something. But that means I'll have to question and DCs accurately rather than them acting like professional riddle tellers that will just piss me off more.

Finally, after several days of nothing I finally remembered a couple dreams, and one of them was lucid!

I was in what looked like a computer lab with several rows of desks/chairs and computers. I was on one all the way in the back only it wasn't a school computer or anything, it was my laptop. Everybody else had the same desktop computer but mine was the same as the one I'm on right now. I didn't really think anything of it and was just staring at my background typing stuff even though nothing was happening on the screen. Then, some kid in front of me turned around and smiled really creepily at me. I just sort of looked at him a little odd witha "what?" look on my face. He just chuckled a bit and turned back around.

I went back to my computer and noticed that some of the icons were missing. I then tried to get on the internet but nothing was happening, no matter how much I pressed the button. Then, I tried to open up microsoft word but that didn't work either. After a minute or so of trying to get this to a work a little pop up appeared saying something like, "haha, you've got a virus ." I looked up and the kid in front of me was staring at me again with a malicious little grin on his face. "Is this your doing?" I asked him. He just laughed and turned back around.

The next thing I knew I was standing in the doorway to the same room I was just in, facing all the computers. That kid was right in front of me just smiling again. Then, suddenly, he tried to punch me in the face! I quickly put my hand up and stopped his attack, fist in hand. He then tried to jap me in the stomach with his other hand but I deflected it again with my other forearm. At this point I found things a little fishy. I started to question reality and needed to do a RC but I was stopping this kid from hitting me. I looked around for something to do a RC with and noticed a digital clock in the corner of the computer right in front of me. It said 15:81. I figured this was enough to know I was dreaming, but just to be sure I looked away and then back. It now said 0:02.5. What? Decimals? Okay, it's definitely a dream.

At this point I realized I still had this kid's fists in my hands. Remembering what he did to my computer I twisted his left arm (the one he tried to hit me with first) until he started to exhibit pain. "What do you say?" I asked him in the same tone parents would when they're annoyed with their child. "Okay, okay! I'm sorry! Please! Stop! That hurts!" I let go and he immediately ran out the door. Suddenly, the dream started to get very unstable and it felt as if an earthquake was happening. I quickly rubbed my hands together and focused on my surrounding, trying to become hyper-aware. The shaking stopped and I proceeded to walk over to where I was sitting and grabbed my laptop. Didn't want to forget this!

I thought of what to do and remembered the TotY. I couldn't think of any to do, so I walked over to a DC sitting at one of the computers. "Hey, can you check or tell me what some of the TotYs are that I haven't done?" I asked him. "Uh, yeah sure. Dreamviews.com right?" He replied. "Yep, thanks." He typed away on the keyboard and after only about 5 seconds he told me, "Let's see, there's the first picture ever taken, first t.v. broadcast, fix that telescope in space, and base jumping off the world trade center."

"Awesome, thanks." I told him. I decided I would jump off the twin towers in NY. Haven't jumped from high places in a while so I might as well. I headed to the door of the room and thought to myself, "This door leads to the roof of the twin towers in NY." When I opened the door I was suddenly outside, hundreds of feet in the air on the roof of a building. Hey, it worked! I walked over to the edge of the roof and looked down. It was so breezy that I almost fell off when a gust of wind blew over me. On the bottom I could see a bunch of people crowded around the doors and a big ribbon. This must be that cliche ribbon cutting ceremony they always do. Was there even one for the world trade center? I figured I might as well add a bit more challenge and try to get down before the ribbon was cut, and maybe even do it myself.

I took a few steps back, gathered my breath, and sprinted right over the edge. I did a few acrobatic flips and such, until I leveled out into a normal sky diving position. The only problem was, I had only gone down a few feet. "C'mon gravity! I'm not gonna make it!" But I just floated there, nothing happening. I started getting a little annoyed and yelled as loud as I could, "Gravity on please!!" After a couple seconds I started falling straight down, like some body should when they jump off of anything. "Thank you!" I yelled. It took me about 15 seconds to reach the halfway point, at which time I heard people screaming down at the ground. I looked down trying to see something with the wind blowing into my eyes like this. I noticed they were all looking and pointing straight up at me! Well, they're going to be in for a treat!

I dove down, head first, into a full on dive. I waited until I was about 50 feet from the ground and quickly flattened out into a normal sky diving position again. I wanted to make a big crater in the ground since that seems to keep happening in all the fights I've been in recently. After only a split second since I had flattened out I hit the ground going full speed. It didn't hurt at all and felt like one of those big coushions used in movies where somebody jumps out of a building. Once I came to a complete stop I looked up and noticed I was in about a 25 feet deep crater. New personal record! I say everybody lined around the edge looking down at me with disbelief that I was still alive.

I got up, dusted my self off all nonchalant as if nothing had happened. I jumped up and out of the crater in one big burst. I landed on the ground in the middle of the crowd and just stood there for a few seconds while everybody stared. Then, one of them started clapping, followed by another, and another. After only a short moment it turned into a full on applause as if I had just preformed some amazing trick (which I pretty much did ). I just smiled and walked over to the podium where somebody whom I assume was the mayor was standing, as well as a guy holding those big, oversized scissors. I asked them if I could cut the ribbon. The man with the scissors replied, "Well, the mayor was supposed to do it," while motioning towards the man at the podium. "No, no," he said, "let this guy do it. He did just survive an incredible fall without even a scratch."

"Thanks!" I told him. I walked over to the guy with the scissors who gave the right to me. Wow, these were really light. They must've only weighed 5 pounds! The crowd gathered around waiting anxiously for me to cut it. I held them up to the ribbon and closed the scissors, which was pretty awkward given how big they were. However, the ribbon didn't cut! The crowd gave a sigh as if they were disappointed, while I took a closer look at this "ribbon." I found out that it was actually some type of steel cable! "Hey, whats the big idea having these scissors try and cut a metal cable?" I asked. "What are you talking about? It's just a paper rib--" The man who had given me them said, but was interrupted when he took a closer look.

"Oh, nope. You're right, this isn't the ribbon at all. It looks like it's rebarb from the buildings." It was at this moment that I could hear a few snickers and laughs coming from around the corner of the building. "Who's back there?" I demanded. "Nobody!" the voice replied. "Go away!" I walked over to the corner of the building only to find the same kid who had messed with my laptop back in the computer lab. "What the... what the hell are you doing here?" I asked him. "Nothing, go away!" He replied. "Seriously, who do you think you are messing with something as harmless as a ribbon cutting ceremony?" I demanded. I don't get why somebody would sabatoge something as meaningless as this. "Pfft, it was still funny." He said. "Besides, I bet you can't catch me!" He yelled as he sprinted off as fast as he could.

I snapped my fingers and teleported right in front of him. "Oh really?" I asked him. "I can't catch you?" He turned back, obviously surprised and started running back towards the crowd. I casually walked back following him. I could see him just enough so that I could tell he tripped right over and into the crater. Idiot . I strolled over to the edge where the entire crowd had encircled again. "Wow, how dumb are you?" I asked him. He sat in the bottom of the crater in a ball and just stayed there. I decided he was embarassed enough and I walked back over to the rib--metal wire-- and asked them if they had any sharper scissors. "No, sorry," they replied.

"Hold on," I said, "I have an idea." I took a step back and swung my hand back and around, karate chopping the wire. My hand sliced right through it as if it were butter. Everybody stood there for a second again, and then cheered... again. "Wow, nice hit!" the mayor said. "Thanks!" I replied. "Now what?" I asked them. "Now, we go inside!" he said. I followed both of them inside and, right as I walked through the doors, I woke up. Damnet, everything that used to help me in lucids are now waking me up Oh well, got one more of the TotY done .

Second dream:

I remember sitting in my bed and seeing a large figure of words that spelled out something along the lines of FREIDEAY. Friday, maybe? I couldn't tell, but there were lines going through parts of it, so it looked like FR//EI//DE//AY. I had no clue that this meant and just layed down and went back to sleep.

15.01.2012

The Dream of the Mall Shoot-Out (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I went to the bigger island next to mine to meet a local woman whose young daughter was in the hospital. I decided to accompany her to the hospital. We drove there. The hospital was in a giant mall which was partly underground.
Once there, we got separated because I went to buy a magazine for the little girl. I was in the shopping part of the mall, outside the checkout lanes, when people started firing. It was a small squad, about a dozen people. I ducked being a checkout counter. I could only hear them, so I had to guess what they were doing. They were coming from my left and getting closer, shooting people as they went. I heard the victims scream.
There was a dead female cashier close to me so I crawled there, put some of her blood on my shirt and played dead when the squad passed by.
When I was alone, I tried to think about what to do. Other gunmen joined the first squad, it was a little army and they were obviously professionals. They occupied the whole mall, stoping the country's forces from liberating it.
I met other survivors in the mall and we started a resistance. We gathered a few weapons, for instance I had my commando knife with me. Some of the men were older men whom I met in real life about a week before. There was also a man about my age which seemed to have war experience. We fought the invaders, it was a real mall guerilla, hiding in boutiques and between shopshelves. Many people died on our side. Everybody fought, mothers, children, old people.
There were also a few conflicts within our group. I had misunderstanding with the man of my age when I thought he'd stolen my knife, but it was a close-looking one.
In the end, after a few days, the country's army managed to get in the mall but they realized we'd done most of the work. We were tired, dirty and hungry, so we roamed the mall for food, and the police had the nerve to tell us to stop stealing!
Flash forward a few months: the mall has been abandonned following the blood shed. The state has decided to convert the office buildings into nice flats, and me and some of the other survivors are imagining our future life there, the landscaping, etc. As for the shopping part of the mall, it will be turned into a giant market like Rungis for the whole south of France.
End: I'm at home when I receive a phone call from a British woman. She says she wants to meet me to make a film about the attack. For some reason I can't make out a third of what she's saying, but in the end I understand that she wants to make a film and not a documentary, and would like me to star as myself.

DJ Log: January 15, 2012 – 12:30AM (USA Eastern)
• NON-DREAM • NOTES • DREAM • LUCID •

(Note: I wasn't feeling very energetic yesterday, so I took a short nap in the early afternoon. During this nap, there was a brief dream, but I had no recall. By 11:00pm, I was falling asleep in my chair as I was surfing the 'net.)

I went to bed and my body fell asleep very quickly. I felt a couple waves of rumbling vibrations, so I opened my eyes for a moment and could see my room. I closed my eyes again and the vibrations returned for a brief moment. After the second set of vibrations had passed, I feel a strong lateral shifting. It felt as if there were an earthquake and my bed was rocking sideways. I struggled to remain motionless and enjoy the ride. During this time, I could hear a sound which sounded like a heavy train was going at full speed down the tracks. After a moment, the feeling of motion subsided and the sound faded out.

(Note: I'm marking this first segment as non-lucid, but I already had a low level of lucidity. I usually don't flag anything as lucid unless I'm fully lucid.)

I am standing in absolute darkness, listening to a loud partially squelched screaming in my ears. It sounds like a mixture of microphone feedback, white noise, and a low rumble. The sound crackles and fades in and out quickly. I reach up and cover my ears, but the sound just gets louder.

I look forward and can barely see that I am standing in front of a mirror. The light is very dim and I can see my face in the mirror, but things get a bit interesting. As I look into the mirror, the sound fades away. The edges of my face are irregular and are moving slowly. I become fully lucid and attempt to stabilize. I lift my arms so I can see my hands in the mirror. Upon examination, I count 6 fingers on each hand. I look back at my face and it is melting in the mirror. My nose falls off and my eyes are turning sideways and melting off my face. Suddenly, I remember that there is something I am supposed to do.

I remember the basic task of the month, so I look around for the right place to set off some fireworks. There is nobody in this area, so I momentarily look at the ground and teleport to a crowded library. Looking back up, I can see that I made it to the library. There are ~100 DCs in there, some of them just staring straight at me. I guess I startled them when I suddenly appeared in the middle of the room.

I reach into my pocket and pull out a lighter. Looking in the shelf next to me, I see a huge roll of firecrackers. I flick the lighter and light the fuse. As the fuse sparkles and smokes, I look around the library and see that nobody seemed to notice. The fuse burns into the roll and the first firecracker pops. I suddenly wake up, cussing.

I am outside our house. It is summer. I am writing some music. I listen what it sounds like and it sounds good. The tomatoes we were growing in the summer are there. I touch one of the tomatoes and notice they all have gone bad. I become lucid. I decide to do the 1900s TotY. I jump into the air and start to fly. The sky turns black and I'm in space. I see a spiral galaxy (Milky Way?) in front of me. In the spiral arms there are numbers for different decades. I go nearer towards the beginning of the 20th century. Now I have a tape measure in my hand. I look for 1900. I get there. I appear in a castle. There is an unfinished painting in front of me. I start painting, but then I realise that I've come to the 12th century. I even have a 12th century outfit on. I try to get to the year 1900. I close my eyes and try to teleport, but it wakes me up.

In a second dream I am also in our front yard. In this dream I had travelled back in time to 2008 with my family and ended up in wild west. A friend of mine had also been there. When we got out of the house in which we were accommodating, it turned into our house. I had just realised that I shouldn't go near my friend because he might notice that I am 4 years older. So, we are in our front yard looking at several Moons when I become lucid. Again I jump into the sky and get the tape measure in my hand. Now I search for 1900. I find it and teleport. My eyes are shut. A voice tells me that I should get a confirmation that I have arrived at the right place. Someone takes my hand. I become aware of my body... and wake up.

Sunday, January 15, 2012

I just had two dreams before I woke up.

In the first dream I was at a friends house trying to work up the nerve to talk to this girl I really like. Her name is : C
The only thing I can remember is we were stitting around hanging out. My brother D was there as were several other people I did not recognize, two black guys, and Don. Don was trying to spit game at C and I reacted and punched him in the face. He crumpled to the ground and this time I picked him up and slammed him to the ground again.
(For some reason C was no longer present after this.) One of the 2 black dudes got up and said "go for the knife rack", I quickly grabbed 2 knives of my own and attempted to defend myself but I was caught and they cut me on my arms several times before letting me go. I ran out of the house pissed off that they got the better of me . That is when I noticed C and a few other people pull up. I started to ignore them and go to my house, but I couldn't resist and I confronted C. Memory fades on what she said exactly but it border along the lines of "I'm sorry, I know you like me, but I won't break up with him for you." I was bummed out and asked "Who?" that was about the time I woke up.

It should be mentioned that the majority of the dream took place at the neighbors house I grew up next to.


The next dream was a little mixed.

I started out in my grandmothers backyard the way I remember it growing up. I cannot remember the majority of the first portion of this dream other than to say It had something to do with me professing my love for another friends long time girlfriend only to realize I meant it for C. The second half was especially bizarre. I don't know where we were but by all observation it looked like a school. I once again cannot remember the first things that happened. What I do remember is being in love with this certain girl and trying to please her. A woman at the school helped me (though I cannot remember how) to get the girl to like me. The next thing that happened was incredibly strange. The headmaster of the school began rounding everyone up. Some were to stay and others would be put on boats, ships really, to go to who knows where. I was standing in the hallway when all of a sudden a man came from behind and, without a word, began to lead me through the chaos of the halls and into a boat under the hull in a secret hiding place. It seems strange even to me that I would let this man, whom I do not know, lead me somewhere I don't know I am going. However for some reason I had a feeling that this man was pure good and that he was saving me for whatever holocaust was sure to come to me for staying at the school. Indeed even as the headmaster took one final look at the boat before it set sail from his school, I glanced up and out and caught sight of him- looking more than vaguely like Adolph Hitler. As we began to sail away I faded to black and next thing I remember was standing with the girl I so adored outside of a bunker in the dark somewhere. I was confused why we were there and when I asked the girl told me that we were looking for "Her", the woman from the school who helped me "get the girl" so to speak. I felt a presence of danger for some reason so I grabbed two hammers off the wall and readied myself for whatever happens next. Now memory fails me again and the next thing I remember is the fact that the woman revealed that she and the girl were related. When asked "How?" by the girl, she responded: " They said you couldn't have your child so I had it for you " The dream then ends without any resolution other than that sentence. I will say that I had the eerie feeling that the woman was not normal and was either dead or never truly alive to begin with.

I should probably note that the girl "C" I refer to is a girl I have had a crush on for 4 years. We have never been together though at one point I revealed some of my feelings for her. I rarely talk to her now but I think about her everyday.

Nonlucid, Lucid, Partially lucid
December 31, 2011:
I am riding in a car on a long trip. I am tired and worried about the driver (female?) being tired. We stop on the side of the road. It is raining. I left some suitcases under a bridge. Lots of other people are around too.
A guy (thin white male, wearing a beanie/tuke?) with a knife is now robbing us and is going to take my suitcase.
I ask him if I can get some stuff out first, some things he wouldn't want anyway. He attacks me with the knife, we fall to the ground. As I defend myself I wonder if this is a dream. I kiss the guy on the mouth (to check if I dreaming?) and then pinch my nose to reality check.

I now know I'm dreaming and I push the guy off or something.
Now I am in my parents' house. I remember my task and say aloud that I want to create a mini-universe (from my difficult goal list). I get a head of lettuce from the fridge and smash it on the ceiling, shredding it to little pieces, which fall on the floor. Then I sprinkle some white liquid or powder on the floor with the lettuce, to be stars.
Then I jump and dive into the stuff on the floor. My secondary task was to enter the mini-universe. But I'm not really in it at all. It's like I am just looking at it really close and pretending to be part of it.

I become less lucid. I find that someone had left a little fire in a bowl in the living room and the front door is unlocked. I hear someone in the garage and I run to my parents' bedroom, where I was sleeping in a chair.
I think "I didn't have to run back here, because I was asleep here all along."

Notes on lucid dream goal:
The mini-universe did not come out like I had hoped. It wasn't actually anything but stuff spilled on the floor. I just pretended it was, just like I would in waking life. This happens a lot in my lucid dreams. The things I try to do don't feel real, but like I'm just pretending that it is.
I need to use magic in the dream, or advanced science to create a mini-universe that actually looks like a living galaxy, or something similar.
The secondary goal of entering the created universe is not as important right now. I am glad that I remembered it and attempted it in the dream, although I am not satisfied with the results.

Nonlucid, Lucid, Partially lucid

Dec. 28, 2011:
I am in the back yard of my old home, climbing a thin tree. The tree bends until it is on the ground and I am still "climbing it by walking on it on all four.
There is a small monkey. I start to pick on it. It bites me and a bunch of other monkeys show up to attack me.

I become lucid. Now I am inside. There is a grey cat-like monkey. I don't want it to be angry anymore. I ask the cat/monkey if it wants to be my companion. It sort of follows me but I don't see it again.
I remember my task and I say aloud that I want to create a location. Through the window I see the landscape change to a snowy place. Then it turns into a desert. But I don't feel like I chose those places.

So I say I want to create/go to a lava place [not sure what I called it]. I then go outside and it is like a giant cave full of lava and rocks. The place is dark, lit only by the glowing hot lava.
I jump and climb down a rock path as I sing the Mario music, first the above ground theme, then the dungeon theme. The rocks that I am jumping on are not secure. They move and break and the lava flows over them.
Jacqui, Monique, and Eddie (about 9 years old) are there. I am stuck on a rock surrounded by lava. I jump and start to fly by flapping my arms and making Mario flying sounds. This kind of feels like cheating.
Eddie is holding onto my leg. I tell him to fly on his own. I float backwards, on my back. I say something like "I'm glad I was able to make this location."
Then I talk to Jacqui and say things I wouldn't want to in waking life, fantasy things. I then say "I know it's stupid and not true." Then we have an extreme kiss, her whole face is in my mouth.

Jacqui disappears and it's just me and Monique, still floating in the air. I say that we will be in a forest when we land. We float down to the ground, into a clearing surrounded by trees. I say "It's kind of like a forest."
We walk, I'm following Monique. I almost say something to her but then change my mind. We come to a pond with little ducks swimming in it.
I lose lucidity. Some kids are swimming in the pond. David and Anna are there. David is going to show Anna his tattoo.

Nonlucid, Lucid, Partially lucid

December 19, 2011: I become lucid and remember my goal to create and control fire. At least twice i create fire and it spreads through the house. I hold my hands out and create fire in the palm of my hands.
But the fire doesn't look very real, and it is not even warm. I go to a computer and press a key on the keyboard, trying to create fire like in Minecraft [although fire isn't actually created that way in the game]
Then I am outside and n a van. Still lucid, I drive the van backwards while upside-down. I drive the van backwards into a lake (I expect to wake up?). Then I continue to drive the van on the water, like a boat.

i suppose this needs a slight explination. when i was twelve my uncle died he was the most important persom in the world to me. it hurt my family quite a bit.
im in the back seat of the van and megan and jonny are im the seat ahead of me and we are all talking. about half way through this dream i realize that it ia a dream, i also realize jonmy wont turn around when he talks to me. i beg him to turn around i touch him (ive never been able to before) he finally turns around, i begin to cry and ask why he left say i miss him. but ill he says is we both know this isnt real carina wake up. then the seat below me is gone and start to drop down i hold onto his hand but i slip. he says he loves me.

At first I was reading the paper and there was an article about a girl/woman who went missing and her remains were found in the back of a van outside a hotel. Than I was somewhere else.. I think a castle/musuem..well it seems like I had walked into an office when a robbery was going on. They saw me and told me to sit down in the corner. I did so. I was really frightented. They took me with them when they left. Than I was at church for the "anniversary" of the church. I was late..so I had to sit with a dark-skin family..(I guess something like that mom, dad and eldest son who is on trial for killing 3 daughters and another wife referred to publicly as "auntie"). The Rev lighted the candles on the "stage"? Than I was a dective..looking at a box of jewerly. That box still had jewlerly but all but one piece was a fake. All the jewellery was donated by Queen Victoria. Someone in the dream (not me) said that it seemed like Queen Victoria was a crook too.