memorable

The time is late in the afternoon, walking under the cold rain. My parents are walking with me. We're walking towards a toy store in front of the parking lot as I struggle making my way through the parking lot. I feel some sort of weakness. I don't know why but my feet are half paralyzed, so it's going to take a really long time to walk to the toy store.

My parents are already there. "Keep walking!", I said to them. I made my way under a parking lot light pole and stood here for a while. I'm taking a rest here. It's such a really good feeling I have here right now. No one is bothering me which makes it even better!

It seems pretty calm. I see a few cars pass me by and there's a school I see in front of me. There's someone in the crowd. She looks a lot like Trinh. She's wearing a red/white jacket and blue pants. I'm positive it's her! I'm going to walk up to her and get a better look.

It is her! It's Trinh! It's really Trinh! She looks exactly the same way she does in the waking world! I haven't had this great feeling ever since I first saw Quynh in a dream! I can't believe this non lucid helped me find out the way Trinh really looks!

I walked up to her and hugged her and gave her all the love she can get(not too far). I see her face and automatically believe this is all a dream. I will never have her in the waking world, friend or girlfriend, so I know her just standing her is all just a dream.

I'm kissing the this girl and as she kisses me back, she makes those funny lip kissing sounds. Her lips feel nice as well. Nothing about her feels strange at this moment. And even though she wasn't the first girl I fell in love with, she is still more admirable than the first, and not so much like a bitch.

Thousands and thousands of clapping hands were heard on this very big, plain field filled with people. All whose faces looked excited to see the one face that popped in to the field. Me. Every single person on this field was applauding as I was riding on a carriage. It was beautiful! I didn't know whether to believe it or not, so I just accepted the fact that it was all for me!

As someone was riding the carriage for me, I was staring at all the people in the crowd and only thought of how unbelievable it felt to have so many people clap for you.

The carriage was almost on its way to the other side of the field. This was the last chance I was able to say anything to the crowd. I didn't say anything, instead I raised my right hand and made a peace sign gesture which made the crowd raise their scream even louder! It was truly amazing!

After my few minutes of fame past, things got worse. I was on a journey, with some of my other classmates from high school, to go through the woods and find the point for going in it in the first place. I walked in to the woods but found it all to be a challenge, seeing how I was in bare feet. My other classmates went on without me. That's when another problem occurred. My right foot had something on its bottom. I picked it up to see what it was and found out there was a piece of wood stuck to it. My foot was bleeding. I tried to take off this piece off wood at first but it only bled more. I could remember the way it felt taking the piece out! I was grossed out.

There was only thing I could do in a situation like this. I had to go and find a teacher on the other side of this area I was in. I did and I did so quickly. I hopped on my left foot and quickly hopped my way over to the teacher's area. On the way, I shown my cut to a few kids and they were even grossed out.

Once I made it to the teacher's area, I tried to find a teacher someone on the street. This area also looked a lot like the area next to the abandoned theater near the location I live in the waking world. There was no sign of teachers, so I walked in to a home and found things to have change a lot!

I walked in to a home and suddenly felt like it was now a Minecraft experience! I was in small room filled with chests. One of them was an Ender chest. I walked up to one of my chests and only saw a few non Minecraft items in there. That's when I decided to go in to the wild and explore.

I did so and found something interesting on the way. The wild I just walked in to looked a lot like a dream I had before, a dream where most of it took place next to a really huge ocean. I didn't like it at the start. I walked in to a big section of 1x1 towers , flew to the top of one and found a player hiding somewhere in the bottom. His server name was 98Brando, the one who always assumes he's better than everyone else. I jumped on to the ground in front of him and we were now standing on a border between danger zone and safe zone. It's obvious what happened here. I jumped away from the safe zone and jumped in to the danger zone to attack him. I done this repeatedly until he died and I took his armor and items. After he died, I picked up his armor and he had all Protection 4 armor as well as really good weapons and items.

Then I woke up for a short while.

i am standing in the middle of my drive way looking into the bright vivid sky then suddenly this cloud appears... it was shapped as an angel, i starting backing up away from the cloud as it fell on my drive way i am now looking at the cloud, i think it was staring at me i call my dad and my sister to come see it. my sister says "whoa" and my dad didn't do anything so then the cloud just vanished after i am yelling ANGEL ANGEL!!! so then my dad and my sister just left so then another cloud appears it was shapped as an angel and looked like a female, so i was watching the cloud come down to the floor and it started to fly around me about 10mph so then it wrapped some thing around my leg (in a good way cause we were playing) so then i took it off because i was starting to enter a new dreamscape, and before i could say goodbye, she vanished.

04.01.2013

Akashic Records Reading Real or Fake? (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I remember that I'm inside of a hallway where things are quiet but peaceful. There's a very big book in front of me, and the exterior is a brown color while the pages are slightly yellow.

The room was a little dark, but there was a window right above me that was conveniently placed right behind the book so that I could easily read it. I couldn't remember the first pages of this book, and I probably wouldn't have been able to decipher them if I wanted to.

So as I'm going through more pages, I finally noticed something comprehensible. For some reason, that page came out to me, like it tore out on its own or something like that. It stated about me having a 53% of something, and by doing these actions, I would an augmentation leading towards that event being more probable and in my favor.

It was kind of hard to bear at first, and I don't really recall embracing the magnificence of the Akashic Records, probably because I felt I was in the lower levels of my own Records. The paper showed a graph somewhere on the right, and then there's a table that shows actions I can take that gives me a certain percentage if I accomplish them.

Then I had this mentality where it was Thursday of next week I believe, or maybe Thursday that already passed for this week. But to be practical, I'm going to presume the dream or astral scenario was for the week coming up after this dream journal entry.

So if I wanted to be in the clear for the event to be in my favor I had to get at least 10% to make it 63%.

With the options below on the table, it seemed I had a pretty good chance in making this happen. After realizing this, it gives me a sense of relief, but I'm still not sure if this was simulated or not.

Then the whole experience starts go into dream like qualities, and I see random people like Nick from Young and the Restless, so now as I'm typing this, the Akashic Records reading was either:

- Real, but I dozed off and got the experienced intertwined with a random dream

-Simulated along with the random dream

- Real, but how I conceptualize it was associated with how I analyze dreams.

Now the dream shifts where I'm planning out some of the activities on the paper that's torn out (this was obviously a simulation or something, because I don't recall your own pages actually being able to be ripped off or being able to be torn out.

It was mostly things related to college, and then it felt like it was Friday, and I didn't have any kind of awareness on any percentage increase. I felt my time here was limited, and that things would start crashing down for me.

Going into this self-induced pit of negative emotions, I start to phase out of my planning, if I had one, and I can't recall the rest of this experience.

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04.01.2013

Trying to Call My Father (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm inside a house I'm currently residing for the New Years break, and I find myself trying to call my father. The phone starts blanking out pretty frequently, which irritates me.

My father picks up sometimes, but most of the time I can't even hear him at all. I didn't bother to check if the phone volume was on mute, but I didn't really want to do anything but to call him.

The house itself has the kitchen light turned on and the T.V. on the left is on as well I believe.

There's someone wearing an orange shirt and brown leggings or velour pants in the house that starts becoming annoying after a while and starts screaming, and I'm not sure if it's at me or my father.

But when she's screaming, I hear the response from my phone. I get confused, and I can't remember what happens after that.

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04.01.2013

Weird Creature & Dave Chappelle (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

There's a creature consisting of orange and a slightly green tentacle. It's as small as a human fist, and it's moving around like crazy where I'm too scared to do anything.

Dave Chappelle randomly comes into this dream, and I'm trying to throw a ball at the creature, but Dave catches it with his butt cheeks. He starts going random mode on me, and I'm trying to look the other way before things go into the shitter for this dream.

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04.01.2013

Kaomea PMs me (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Kaomea PMs stating that I could PM her every now and then.

Huh?

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04.01.2013

Alyzarin makes me Respond Quickly (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Alyzarin wants me to respond to a thread with preset responses, and I do it quickly because she says it to me in a rush.

I thought I created the thread, which was something related to putting what describes you as a tag or something, but it seems Erii created it before me.

After reading my reply the second time, I felt this didn't really describe me. Then some random user below me with a Kid Goku picture for his avatar stated how he was going to describe himself, but I pretty much took part of what he was.

A lot of people liked this, and I feel confused on what I actually did to "steal" part of his identity in the first place. I felt guilty either way, and then as I'm scrolling up to see who liked it, I saw Kaomea and 6 other people liked it.

I was still speculating what I did wrong, and I felt guilty....lol...guilty over people who liked something that basically makes me look like the bad guy.


I turned to Alyzarin and told her that she shouldn't have made me do that, and she instant messages me with (paraphrasing here):

"I tend to do that a lot, get used to it."


Huh???????????????

This dream so random and incomprehensible to piece together.

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04.01.2013

Don't Bold, Italicize, or Underline! (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

It's pretty much the whole dream; someone tells me not to bold, italicize, and underline.

It wasn't like that exactly, she made a blog post on how "Brandon" is violating the Terms of Service by doing these actions. Then she goes on to ramble on and on and on and on.

Then I looked at the comments that seemed automated and a bunch of one-liners. Then after speculation, I realized this whole blog post was a bunch of BULL, and this didn't make sense AT ALL.

Could've done a reality check, but nope.

This night I had a very profound dream.

I was at some kind of festival in a field, there was a tent, within this tent were simple tables, square bales of hay, and through the middle was a large electrical cable with a thick plastic cover. Next to the cable was a table, sat at this table was my eldest sister (my sister dearest to me), she had carelessly thrown a cigarette butt onto the plastic cover of the cable. The cable began to melt and catch alight and sparks started to fly. I hurried to the cable and tried to put the fire out.

The next thing I know I was sat opposite my sister at the table. My sister was trying to tell me something that had happened to me as a child, something terrible. She seemed very distressed by it and kept saying "I'm so sorry Rob, I'm so sorry.". She did not know how to begin telling me.

Just as she was about to get the words out of her mouth a small child came up to the table and so my sister had to change the conversation to something cheerful and not depressing to pretend everything was okay to the child "..And then we cleaned up the mess and everything was okay.".

As the child went away, she started to say that she was sorry and that she was going to tell me now. I was then awoken by my alarm clock.

This dream left quite a big mark on my mind for a while, I've been trying to figure it out but I can't.
I think it might be about a repressed memory that I have had as a child but I have no idea what it could be.

End of journal.

The Road

I was in the back seat of a car with another older gentleman. Our boss was dropping us off at our cars. The other guy in the back seat was told that he was being demoted or fired-I forgot which. I felt bad for him.

The old guy got out, then my boss told me it was my stop too. I said, "Oh, yeah." I got out with a beer in my hand. I went with the old guy who was looking for his car. Then I needed to get where I was going.

I went to cross a street to catch a bus, but I had apparently waited until after a light had changed below. Now traffic was coming on. I wanted to beat the traffic and run across, but it was several lanes, and some huge vehicles were coming. Yeah, a couple war ships!

The road was brightly lit, and the two war ships went screaming by. Then a couple tractor trailers went by. Then I think a fire engine or something went by. It was all these huge vehicles.

Eventually I was just across the street, and walking right at someones yard. I needed to finish my beer before the bus came, so I started guzzling the beer. It was pretty good for dream beer. I was going to have to dispose of the bottle when empty, but I didn't want to throw it in the persons yard. I didn't want to toss it in the sewer grate, so I started thinking of where to leave it gently at the edge of the street.

I tried to poor the rest out, but a cop drove by or something, so I only poored out some. Soon, the alcohol in it caught the ground on fire. Shit! I drank the rest and put the bottle by a tree. I then moved the bottle to be in the shadow of the tree. I thought I should move the bottle to another place because the car head lights would shine on it as they drove past. I couldn't find a good place for it, and I was afraid my bus would be there soon.

I woke up then. I hope to dream more tonight.

I had probably the most realistic lucid dream I've ever had, it was just unreal, all of it was. I had 5-HTP before going to bed and did a WBTB+4hrs and stayed awake for 5m, with 8mg galantamine and 400mg choline before going back to bed.

[COLOR="#FF0000"]I became lucid at some random point, I remember it was not something that I even needed to do a reality check for I just knew. This was a very intense DEILD (atleast I think it was a DEILD) where I spent most of my dreams putting my fantasies aside and just going with the flow of the dream. The first dream I remember I was with a big group of people who seemed like they could all be my friends but they were not nor have I ever seen any of them. I drove some strange white car that was VERY fast, I remember a Ferrari pulling up next to me and then I slammed the gas and cut it off. After I got out of the car and I wanted to see what I was driving, it was a car where the whole body was a music stage... Their was a band playing on the car the whole time I was driving, weird part is they make no sound but all the actions of singing and playing on the instruments. I eventually left them and went up some stairs in an ally into a big apartment full of 15-20 people who knew me but I didn't know them. One guy called me smoker for some reason I have no idea why (I don't smoke).

I hung around and basically just mingled with all of these DC's as I would in real life, surprisingly enough they were all very convincing in being real people. I announced to all the DC's that I was dreaming and proved it by flying around the apartment, I tried to convince them that they were dreaming too and that we could all be real people sharing a conscious dream simultaneously (I don't really believe in shared dreaming but I wanted to humour my self). I don't why but some times all of a sudden my dream would become very blurry and then just become blackness, and then I would have to refocus a recent event that happened in that dream and then suddenly it would come back, this happened probably 20 times the entire night. Sometimes when my dream would fade to black and I would try to bring it back but I would be thrown into a new dream with completely different people in a totally different environment. But all the dreams were essentially the same, me on some balcony or in some apartment with a bunch of people I don't know.

Eventually after switching landscapes and people for the third time, I found my self hanging out with some people on a street at night, my brother was inside the dream though! I approached my brother first and said we are dreaming and none of this is real, and after that I don't remember the conversation, but my dream went blurry and I came back into a new dream at some balcony, this time my brother was their also, and he remembered whatever we discussed in the previous dream. On top of that we both saw my cousin wandering around and I remember saying "Holy shit! its Eyad!" my brother started to laugh. We both walked up to him, he looked either high or drunk. I of course started to explain to him none of this is real that we are in a dream, he doesn't believe me, so I prove it to him by flying around a bit. I told him that we might be all dreaming at the same time and sharing a conscious state and here was our chance to test the validity of shared dreaming, I told my cousin that after he wakes up he would text me the keyword 'DOG' as proof that we shared the dream, he said this is scary but he would do it.

Again the dream blurred up again and this time I was on an elevated platform outside with a train connected to it, everything was plain and I was alone this time. A train came by but it was a slow moving train with no walls just seating for the passengers, the passengers were all not moving and passed out, I looked closely and it was all of the people I was hanging out with in my previous dreams, I was thinking WTF is going on. I ran onto the train when it stopped and threw as many people on to the platform as I could before it left again, for some reason Master Chief was also on the train passed out and I threw him on the platform. He looked a little bit different though, as if he has been infected by the flood. The train started moving and I had no time to save anyone else, the people I saved woke up and one of them said "Smoker!!!!" in a stoners voice, he was the guy from the first dream that called me smoker. I asked him whats going on and he said he had no idea and just walked off with everyone else. Then all of a sudden Master Chief gets up, nods at me, then jumps on the train before it finishes passing by. He morphed into a giant flood monster and started eating the train till he ate all of it....After that the dream went blurry and I just passed out. [/COLOR]

There are some references to Naruto in this entry that can be considered spoilers, so read with caution if you are watching or reading Naruto and are not caught up.

So In my dream I'm with my best friend at what appears to be a dorm room in a college of some kind. For some reason my brother is there. My friend pulls out weed and a pipe and hands it to me. I debate smoking it though because my brother is there. It doesn't really matter though because then someone walks in talking about how there are puppies in the other room and they want me to keep them from leaving. I go into the other room and start playing with the puppies. There are like ten of them and they each keep trying to escape but i won't let them.

A girl walks in about the age of ten. she had blonde hair and was wearing a red dress. Beside her was older dog in a wheel chair. It's face resembled a dog version of Jack Black. The dog was talking to the girl and i was highly confused. The girl was surprised i could hear the dog talk because apparently people thought she was crazy for talking to the dog because to everyone else it was just a normal dog.

I continue to watch the puppies and the girl and Jack Black dog leaves. Later she comes back crying and says her dog died. I feel bad and decide to take her to the park. While at the park we walk around and talk and i pushed her on the swings and that's about it. On our way back we pass a tree. In the tree I see a bird in a wheel chair who looks like Jack Black. I look at the girl and say " Look, your dog was re-born as a bird!" The bird and girl look at each other and recognized each other. The bird started crying and said how much he missed her. Then the bird flew out of the wheel chair and landed on the girls shoulder and they went off together.

About that time Kakashi from Naruto ran up to me and said he needed my help stopping Tobi from taking over the world. To do this he was going to send me back in time to kill Tobi before he was a threat.

I go back and time and end up at a camp of some kind. I meet young Kakashi. I ask him where Tobi is and some how he knows I'm there to kill him. At the time him and Tobi (Obito) are friends so Kakashi refuses to tell me. I walk around the ninja camp and find that no one knows where Obito is or they won't tell me.

My dream slows down there and I woke up

And greatest recall as well, i don't remember myself recalling so many events from single dream ever till now.

I was in the small room with some sort of passage in the ceiling, and i was playing some RPG-like game on my comp(which apparently was there), i had some problems, so i guessed it's time to get the book that describes monsters attack patterns, behaviors and weaknesses. I walked through the door, apparently that room was somehow part of the house i live in(and it appears that it replaced my room), i go to the bathroom(it's quite large) and start waiting.

The dealer comes into bathroom soon, he dressed into black sort of robes with hood. He has the book, the book that contains the information i need, the book looks special, it's dark and it feels alive. Then two monstrous creatures come right after him, i react to them like "meh, whatever" and ask the dealer what would be the price, he lists bunch of random stuff, the creatures look surprised. Speaking about creatures, one of them looked as dark and strong humanoid thing, the other was giant spider-like. I go out of the bathroom, monsters are trying to talk me out of going for the deal, but i respond with "no". So i collect this random stuff from the rooms, parents are getting annoyed by me taking a few things but i ignore them. I get back to the bathroom, the dealer is not there, but the book is, as well as the monsters. I dump the random stuff i collected into the bathtub and go for the book. Monsters are not trying for stop me for some reason.

As soon as i pick the book up, big demonic dog-like head and 5 skeletal clawed arms grows up from the back of it and pins me down to the ground(seems to be some sort of protection). It asks if i am permitted to read it, i say "ofcourse" while trying to point towards the stuff in the bathtub. It says "fine" and allows me to read itself, but still keeps me pinned down. After a while of reading number of pages(I have not much of recall of what was in the book other than so called information about monsters i mentioned earlier), the book starts to doubt that deal went fine and prevents me from reading further. I manage to free my hand and i somewhat break one of book's skeletal arms, it reacts with "ow", i explain that i would not have done that if it let me read. The dealer appears to be back, says that the deal is fine and vanishes somewhere again. I fix book's arm and continue reading.

After a while monsters start panicking and saying that i should not see SPIDER's weaknesses(SPIDER(yes in caps) is one of my RP characters, apparently i did not know that in dream), i tell them that i am going to only look through non-bosses, they continue panicking anyway. I read a few more pages, but then they attack me and take away the book, i start fist-fighting them and during the fight, the book gets dropped into the water, it transforms into normal book. I am like: "Nooo, i haven't read what i needed yet", but everyone seems to be left already, i am like: "meh", still trying to check pages of transformed book, but they are all empty. I go back to room.
In the hallway i think that all this what happened can't be real(but i forget to do an RC), then i think: "nope, this is waaaaaay too vivid to be not real" ( ).
I get back to the room and play some more of that game, with the information i got for now it gets a bit more possible to do. After a while i get stuck in game progress again and i decide to go do some other things. Soon some girl appears out of nowhere and teleports both of us to some sort of medieval castle. It seems like i am now in some different RPG-like game. The girl explains that i have information and they need my help apparently. I equip weapons and armor and go fight stuff and complete quests(My recall gets very blurry at this point for some reason).

Days pass, i am somewhere outside, looking at the cool landscapes and thinking: "this can't be just a game", the party gathers and we go to final boss dungeon. It appears that final boss is one of monsters i was reading about from that book, it looks spider-like, but not like spider-like monster from earlier, also it's huge and brown. I was using my scarlet magical bow, which was made from pure energy, to shoot magic arrows at it, but for some reason i was failing epically and only was able to create smallish arrows. Then people from the party cheered me up and i was able to shoot giant arrows from bow, eventually killing the boss. Everything fades out.

I appear to be back at my room(the changed version of it), for some reason i decide to go outside. I reach some sort of subway area, on the way i see some scammers trying to trick people into giving them stuff in various ways, and failing at that. Then i see that dealer and begin chasing him, but he vanishes behind the corner. Then i see a girl similar to the one which teleported me earlier, i kinda start following her, but then i get interrupted by scammers, which apparently know about the book somehow and want to exchange it for some item, which obviously looks fake. Some other person interrupts that and i talk with that person about "the other dimensions", we go away from scammers but they follow us and they get some melee weapons as well, preparing to attack us.

Suddenly scene changes to some sort of grassy field, scammers and person are still there, but apparently both me and person got pistols out of nowhere. As we aim at scammers, some sort of guards appear out of nowhere to protect scammers apparently, they aim pistols at us. Suddenly the whole lot of warcraft 3 peasants appear out of nearby farm, guards start shooting at them, killing them with single shot each. Then some other warcraft 3 units appear as well, both me and the person retreat towards the farm.

Viewpoint switches towards the farm, it seems like two minecraft characters are there, which do look like minecraft characters of Lewis and Simon from the Yogscast. Simon sings his "diggy diggy hole" song while digging dirt using a boat from minecraft and there's a pig from minecraft jumping around as well. Dream ends.

As i wake up i check the clock, to my surprise only 2 hours have been passed since i went to sleep *cue myself doing bunch of RC's to be perfectly sure*.
Note: i wish i could select 'memorable' option twice.

The dream starts out with me riding in a jeep talking to a few people. In retrospect, I should have become lucid because I don't think I knew these people. The driver was a man, and there were two girls and me. Anyways, I glance out the windshield from the backseat and see a comet. It looks utterly magnificent. It's probably 20-25 times larger than the sun in the sky, right near the horizon. I point it out and we're all watching it when it hits the ground. We brace for the shock-wave and when it hits our little jeep is hurled backwards about 50 feet but manages to remain upright. We're all okay, a couple scrapes and bruises and psychological trauma, but okay. We get out of the car and head to the nearest house. Then owner lets us in and we're all pacing around his house excited and euphoric because we survived a comet strike. I remember pieces of our conversation.
"Did you see the comet?" we asked the home-owner. He laughed and replied,
"Well duh it was bigger than the sun!". The conversation went on a bit. Then he asked me about the impact. "How big was the mushroom cloud?"
"It was all I could see." I said. We were laughing and singing and partying all night, getting really drunk and celebrating the fact that we survived.

I remember this dream having some ridiculous storyline, but sadly i only remember the end part of it.

Anyway, i and some other people were in some sort of tech lab, which apparently was controlled by enemy. In one of the rooms we ran into enemy and both sides had guns so we started shooting. As we defeated the wave of enemies we found some sort of pod, which we have opened and freed an girl. She was aggressive and almost killed one of our people until we managed to calm her down, she could transform her arms into very sharp metallic blades. Then there some other girl appears(probably from our group) and says that she will cover our retreat.
Dream skips to that we are retreating in some sort of car, there are some conversations(which i don't remember), eventually we reach some sort of pyramid. Apparently we are still being chased by the enemy so we split our group, most of people continue driving the car while me, girl and some other man go into the pyramid. There's a long maze and some more conversations happen during the walk, about who enemies are and about the girl(Again, can't remember convos themselves, only themes).
Eventually we reach the exit and we are in some sort of deserty landscape now. There is gas station we stop at. On it apparently the girl figures out how to control her powers, she concentrates on the arm and it transforms into sharp metallic blade and back. Then weirdly, my viewpoint changes to her viewpoint for a second and i am able to feel arm transforming into a blade and back, huh. Then she manages to transform into robot form fully, and it's not very humanoid type of robot apparently, with caterpillar tracks, those sharp blades for arms and some weird detectors/visors on the head. The dream ends there.

Using this topic to write a few of my dreams down from the last 2 months.

11/2/12- Gay friend
I am at a friend's wedding and the best man comes up to me. I know this guy to be very wealthy, and I have known him for a long time. We talk for a bit, then he tries kissing me. I push away, telling him I am not gay. I hear news that he is dead days later.

11/2/12- Godfather fighting arena
Don't quite remember. Only thing that comes to mind is a big dirt track, in which me and someone else are fighting with guns. Appears to be right outside a huge mansion. Third person dream.
Vague dream involving a me and a stranger fighting each other with guns while driving on a big dirt track. I recall seeing a giant mansion overlooking the track. It was a third person dream that felt more like a crazy movie than an actual dream experience.

11/3/12- Caught my dad cheating on his wife :/
I go to visit my dad at his place of employment (His dream location, he does not work there IRL). It appears to be an office job, seeing as there were cubicles everywhere. I looked everywhere for my dad but couldn't find him. I heard a noise coming from outside a window and saw a rather unpleasant sight. My dad was in the process of having an affair with some woman from his work outside. She was propped against a car and dad was taking her from behind. I quickly looked away and sat down crying because I never would have expected my dad to do such an awful thing to my mom.

11/3/12- Parents divorce
My mom finds out about what my dad has done and they end up splitting. I try to keep them together by telling them they should try to work through, but it was all for nothing. My mom ends up getting custody of me and my brother, and my dad is basically left with nothing. He leaves the home a broken man and me and my brother were left feeling awful for what had happened.

11/10/12- Famous dude in town
Someone famous was in town. I lived in a really small town, no more than 200 people, and this celebrity is visiting because he was born there. I remember going outside of my mobile home and seeing the celebrity down the road. I'm like "cool, it is just another guy." I then went back inside and the dream got creepy. I picked up my pillow from my bed and it was stuffed with bees and ants. I of course drop it and run like a little girl. As I leave the house Slender comes up to my face and I wake up.

11/10/12- "Fun" at the arcade --Dream edit. WTF is that supposed to mean?!

11/13/12- Secret room in the mansion
I was exploring a mansion when I found a secret room behind a huge painting. The room was not very big, only about 15x15 feet. It seemed cozy enough though with a stove a table, and a robot. I also saw this beautiful chandelier above the table. Oh yeah, did I mention the robot? He started telling me a story about how he was created. The man who made him hid him away in this secret room to keep him from the evil designers of the castle. It was only meant to be temporary, but sadly the creater of the robot slipped and died on wet concrete outside the castle. He was paved over and his dead body is still mixed deep into the walkway outside the castle to this day. The robot took the liberty of showing me where the man had fallen. I could see no record of him being in there, but the thought alone was sad.

11/14/12- I was talking to Randy D. about AWANA. I was on this hill at a camp I went to a few times, and then out of nowhere I hear a sound. Coming from over the hill came a bunch of Indians, some with guns, some with blowdarts. One yelled through a bullhorn that the end is near. I run for the camp at full speed, trying to hide. I tell everyone else to run, but I just try to find a hiding spot.

11/16/12- Failed non lucid sex in 2 different dreams.

11/17/12- Assumptions
I was hanging around a 12 year old girl playing games but people around me start assuming I am doing bad things to her. I try to defend myself, but nobody seems to want to listen to me.

11/17/12- Mocking
My brother laughs at my failures while I play a video game. It appeared to be a racing game, but I got myself into quite the car crash. I was unable to recover.

11/17/12- Calvin and Hobbes cancelled??
I know this cartoon strip is long gone, but this was the center of the dream. I hear news on tv that the famous cartoon strip got cancelled by the author, and I take the news badly. The guy who made it happened to live on my street, so I talked to him about how his comic has touched so many people and a lot of people love his work. I convince him not to stop making it, and he makes a television broadcast explaining that someone on his street showed him just how much people love his work, and that he was just so touched. He said that he swears he will never make the comic again, no matter who wants him to.

4 years later and I am not 100% certain this is the same dream. The world is in a mass panic: Fires, chaos, people turned evil, anarchy. One of the worst of the worst people was crucifying people in a mall parking lot. I know the guy as a Christian from a few years back in the dream. I end up getting caught and put on the cross. I start reasoning with the guy and eventually he allows me to leave. His friends tried to stone me but he stopped them just in time. He distracts them as I make my way out of there. I see some more of his followers and they start acting like I'm their friend. They decide to try to help me, but I am cautious. The dream continued on to a fight with some monsters in a huge castle but I have forgotten the details of that part unfortunately.

11/25/12- Keno
Parents were playing a 4-player variant of keno, I volunteered to play, but they said it wouldn't work with only 3 people.

11/27/12- Choices for homes
My parents make me a deal. I can get either of two homes. They both cost $350/month, and they would belong 100% to me. I just have to decide which house I like better. I was faced with a 2 story fixer upper, or a really nice, small mobile home. I have to literally crawl at some points to get around on the inside of the houses, because for some reason I had a problem with movement and the hallways were narrow. I was considering the small mobile home when my mom yelled at me to choose the larger one. I ended up with the larger home.

11/27/12- Leadership role at church
I am only 17 years old, but I distinctly remember being in a nonexistent part of our church that was located next to where the bathrooms are now. I was leading a high school group, but I never did any work. There were 2-3 other adult helpers, and I just got them to do the work. I then walked out of the room, and saw a teen boy and girl run into a room together and lock the door. Knowing myself, you can probably guess what they were up to. I then went down the hall, and saw many rooms, and people in each one. They looked like sex rooms, like a girl in each one that would do you sexual favors for free. They were there by choice, not by being forced.

12/5/12- Went to camp!
I have had a few of these kinds of dreams. Just out of nowhere, on the day camp starts we decide to go, unprepared, hoping for the best. Apparently I almost missed going to the beach because I had to study for something.

12/7/12- Powers, grandpa dies
I do not remember a whole lot from this dream, but it has impacted me a lot.
I visit my grandparents every Tuesday, and sometimes it just gets boring and irritating, and I suppose I just got kind of sick of it.
In the dream, I was kind of grumpy, and not having that great of a time at my grandparents house, then we just kind of left without really saying goodbye. Next thing I knew my grandfather had died. It really hit me hard, since I left him on bad spirits. The last time I had seen him, and it was like I didn't even care. I didn't want to believe that he could just pass away whenever. Later in the dream I was talking to people about powers and stuff that I had. I remember seeing someone levitate above the ground, and I said I have been able to do that all my life. I breathed in, and I jumped in the air. I soared forward until I ran out of breath. I then fell to the floor. The guy talks to me and tells me that it is all a matter of holding your breath. It has nothing to do with control, powers, etc. Just hold your breath, and jump. It was cool to finally hear an explanation on my flying abilities in my dreams.

12/11/12- Went picking Jalapeno-cherries, got in the way of someone, then started picking broccoli.
12/11/12- Visited the newspaper place I used to work at, someone was parked in back stuffing their van with thick papers.

12/14/12- Secret B&B mansion
This is a dream that spread over a few days, perhaps even weeks. I am assuming I just had a few dreams about it in the same night.
I remember hearing about a mansion with many secrets tucked away inside. I heard someone was plotting something vile and my family just had to know what they were up to.
I went with my parents as they spent time with the owners of this establishment, meanwhile I was getting into some trouble. I remember getting a tour of the place, but most of the time in the beginning was spent in one room. There was a very fancy dining room table in the middle of the room my parents and the owner of the mansion had dinner over. I sat in a corner and played a gambling game involving cards and a magician's hat. I listened in on their conversations and everything sounded right, but there was just something wrong. I looked over my shoulder and saw a door in the next room over open, and there was like a toybox with stuff coming out of it. I stood up, walked over to the door, and was just about to look in, when someone stops me from behind. He tells me I must be 'one of them' to use their stuff. I do not quite understand. The next meeting time comes, and we come to the same room. They flip the table over and it turns into this big royal pool table. It looks really neat, and the four of us start playing, but for some reason they kick me out and I go back to my gambling game. I end up making a few bucks, but my parents leave without me noticing. I look outside the door and see a dresser in front of that curious room. A man comes up behind me and says that I must be part of 'the brotherhood' in order to have a room here. I ask what that entitles. He tells me that the brotherhood is basically a family that helps each other, cares for one another, and does not want to see another harmed. They do their daily chores, but in return get freedom and friendship. I for some reason want to move out of my current house, and see this place as a really cool thing. I ask to join the brotherhood and they give me a room. I see into the room next to mine and inside is a teenage boy with a computer and a bed. He just kind of welcomes me to the brotherhood without leaving his bed. I go to my room practically leaping for joy as I can now have my freedoms.

I can do whatever I want on the computer whenever I want, I can go whenever I please. I have near to no responsibilities. Time-skip a few hours. I am now downstairs. This is a large room, probably about a 30 foot roof. There is a really nice marble counter with dimmed lights. The kitchen is inaccessible to the normal person living there, but the maids and workers and butlers can access freely. I see 3 people standing around, and someone calls out that it is bedtime. One of the girls gives the maid who was in the kitchen a hug and starts bawling because she has to sleep. It isn't that she doesn't want to sleep, it is just that she does not want to be alone. I feel much sorrow as I see this girl crying, just at the thought of not seeing her friends for a few hours. This scene starting from when the time-skip happened replays, and I end up going to bed. The next morning is here, and I am already outside on the porch, with all the other residents beside me. I decide that this is not the place for me, this place is designed to house: the Lonely, the homeless, the orphaned, the broken. I had a home, both parents, and everything else I could need. These people had nothing. I didn't have the right to live there. I saw many teens standing around. They say we can take a walk, play in the yard, etc. We were free to do whatever we wanted. They had just one rule at this point though. Let the ladies go out first. If a lady leaves, then we must wait 5 minutes before we can leave. So a few women leave, then it goes for 3-4 minutes with nobody leaving the building. Just as it is about to hit 5 minutes, another girl walks out. I start talking amongst the guys about how this one girl Cheyenne looks cute. I stare at her from across the huge yard. I start thinking about her, then the dream soon ends.

12/16/12- Celebs are in town!
This all took place in what felt like an abandoned mobile home park. I remembered spending time with some celebrities, which if I remember right were Demi Lovato, Selena Gomez, and Miley Cyrus. I felt as if it was just last week I had so much fun with these three, just hanging out, being friends. They promise they'd return one day and they finally do. I see them and we meet up and sneak into this abandoned mobile home. Inside is the motherload. Alcohol and drugs of many kinds. It was a loser's paradise. The place just looked like a wreck. There was nobody else inside, so we just kinda enjoyed our stay. We all did drugs and drunk a bit but I was not really too much in favor of it. The dream ended up with sexy time with one of the celebrities.

12/21/12- Bible study strangeness
I do not remember much. I just remember this huge lion thing. It seemed like it was a dude in a costume or something, and it licks the back of my neck. Our group has dinner, and then this thing transforms into this huge worm, eats the leader of the study, then shows himself to be a demon king.

12/22/12- Lucid- "Hey DC How do you know me?"
I realized I was dreaming at the beginning of the dream. I asked myself what I should do and the first thing to come to mind is ask all the people around me how they met me, or how I knew them. I was in a restaurant and saw some people I recognized, but many I didn't know. I came up to Mario and asked him about our first meeting each other and he said it was a Christmas service at our church. I talked with another older couple and they said they didn't know me. I talked with another person who went in depth on how they knew me. Successful experiment.

12/22/12- Lucid- Sneaking into my neighbor's house...
Okay, I was a little pervy on this one. I was at my house and had the bright idea to meet up with my neighbor across the way. I sneak across the street and behind her house. I go into the window and in her room. She is barely dressed. I start talking to her and she doesn't seem to find this strange. The house seems kind of nice and they seemed pretty well-off. I give her a hug just because it was nice to see her, and she kinda gives me a strange look. I wonder what is wrong and she tells me she probably would have given me a hug willingly had I asked. So I then asked and she gave me another hug. I thought I heard one of her parents coming closer and I panicked causing the dream to end.

12/26/12- I'm sharing the details of a movie I recently watched with some children from AWANA

12/26/12-At a restaurant with family. Someone comes up and starts complaining about their incorrect Figis order. (My parents used to work at Figis)

12/28/12- Thrift store
Me and my family walk up to a thrift store. I forget why we came, but I ended up talking to the guy who owned the place for a while. There was some cool stuff there. He had his kid with him. After a while, my family started to help move stuff out as people bought items. We basically did volunteer work for the guy so the customers wouldn't have to carry their heavy items. After a few hours, I walked outside with my brother and then a woman asked me for money. She spoke as if I promised her money but I didn't have any myself. I walk past her, and end up going into a big wal-mart that had a fun-zone. After a long walk into the arcade room I saw about 3 kids inside, and a bunch of games. Kris started playing a game, as I just watched.

12/29/12- Deathmatch game
This whole dream takes place in a big building. It felt kind of like a warehouse. There was two floors, but the second didn't have a full roof, it was more of a platform. The building had bathrooms, and shelves that lined the walls. As I walked into the bathroom, someone stops me and notices me from making Epic Rap Battle videos. I say it is nice that he knows who I am, but to not tell everybody, and I go about my business. I tell my brother about this, and we agree that we have probably made more Epic Rap Battle fan videos than the original guys. The rest of the dream is all about a game of deathmatch with non-deadly weapons. Think laser tag or nerf fights. There was about 8-12 of us running around with various weapons: Rifle, pistol, knife, saber, swords, sniper rifle, and more. There were two rounds. I remember two specific events: One, between rounds I saw this extendable saber (Kind of like a light saber, but solid and not a laser) for $0.99, so I pocket it. The other event is I had a rifle and shot someone 2-3 times in the head but they weren't eliminated. In this game you get shot and even though it doesn't damage you, if you sustain what would be a lot of damage, you fall over and act dead. The guy didn't want to play correctly so I ran the other direction and he shot me twice in the back. I fell over dead because I actually cared about the rules.

The next 4 are verbatim from a physical DJ.
12/30/12- Future children
Dream about children. My mom took care of our kids with us. I was grumpy and asked for advice with the one child I had, whereas Kris (My brother) was creative and fun. I looked back on my parenting skills and thought that I was not a very good parent, but my mom said I was doing just fine. There is some strange scene about a wall coming apart, and Kris fitting it over the room in a creative and awesome way.

12/30/12- Nightmare, Harry Potter dream

My first nightmare in months, before that, years. Harry and Voldemort are fighting, doing the whole Expelliarmus vs. Avada Kedavra thing. Harry wins, then the dream repeats. Somehow something in the story shifts, and Draco is going against Voldemort. Harry is following behind, but he seems different, weaker, not as confident. Voldemort easily kills off Draco, then goes to Harry. He uses a simple Avada Kedavra on him and kills him. Then Voldemort sees me. He shoots the curse on me, and I die. I roll over in the snow, and am alive again somehow.He kills me again, and it hit me bad this time. I open my eyes to see him right above me, staring right into my eyes. He is wearing a black hood, all skeleton. His eyes are the most horrible shade of red. He is a black skeleton. His appearance is loosely based off of this I believe. He Avada Kedavra's me again, and I roll over in the snow. He hits me again, then again. I try rolling in the snow, but he hits me twice in the back, right where my heart is, and kills me instantly.

12/30/12- FA/ paper route

Suddenly I find myself doing paper routes near my old house in Marshfield Wisconsin. It is just me and my dad in the car, and I start to talk to him about my nightmare, and how scary Voldemort was when he appeared right over me. As we turn into a cul-de-sac, I see this huge transformer looking thing coming down the road. We continue doing papers, and it comes up behind us. I miss a tube, and have to go out and put it back in. Turns out the driver is friendly, and that transformer thing was just a decorated bobcat tractor. We talk for a few minutes and the dream ends.

12/30/12- Random discussions at starbucks.

So the whole reason I can see myself as being here is to wait for my mom to pick me up. As I am drinking a slushie, I am talking about some dude's performance that I just watched. I ask someone nearby if the guy is new or something, and they reply that he isn't, he just sucks. I tell them that I have been practicing with my yo-yo for about 3 years without much progress. Then someone, Gracen I think, starts leading the conversation with provoking questions and comments. I respond to one of his questions and he notes my response as being a good one. The others tell me to keep quiet so I don't give too much information about myself and to keep making statements such as the one I just made. I saw Jessie with a Bible, and a book inside about understanding girls. She explains that it is just as difficult to understand girls for her as it is for guys. I explain that I understand girls a lot more now than I used to. When the dream ends there is a conversation going on about how bad smoking is. I share that my mom smokes and that she puts small amounts of baileys in her coffee every day. Just as I bring this up my mom comes in and I have to go.
I suppose this dream was about the future as well, because it doesn't correlate well with the way my life is now.

12/31/12- Various fragments
1. Something about like an evil neighbor, had some invincible minions
2. Was supposed to do some dance in front of a bunch of people
3. (Same dream as previous, different scene) Some game about stopping kids/dogs from touching chairs
4. Was promoted from 1st to 2nd grade in a school that felt like it was in a mall.
5. Some girl sits down on a beach while she strips

That was a lot of writing... I Hope I keep the dream journal up to date from now on.

Bedtime 9:40PM - 10:26PM
No Aids
SSILD / Meditation

112 Creepy Fun House - OBE at first of sleep.

I fell asleep earlier for about an hour in the recliner. We get to bed and I have a hard time going back to sleep. There were a few disturbances and I was up an down for a while. Finally I meditate to get relaxed. I end up doing SSILD a bit later.

I find myself in SP. I have a hard time at first but I forcefully get out of bed. Though it's dark and I have a hard time seeing, the room is lit pretty close to real life and I noticed that I opened my eyes. If feels real but what I see is from the right perspective. I wonder if this feeling is always fake and I have been having blind OBEs for nothing.

I open my bedroom door and I see (I get chills just typing this) that creepy ass ring girl from OpheliaBlue's dream. She is peaking around the corner at me from the kitchen. I pause. I am scared shittless but I have the courage to confront her. I say to her, "Oh no you don't. You just better stop it!" She seems afraid of me. She backs away and steps fully into the kitchen and out of my line of sight. Emboldened now and pissed, I say, I'm going to kick your ass. Get the fuck over here and I will kick your ass." I want to follow her but I am afraid I will be stuck in the dark with her and plus I really am a chicken at this point. I decide this is not the direction I want to go and I close the bed room door forcing the thought of the evil girl out of my mind.

I think maybe I can use the mirror to teleport since I have one right here on the back of the door. Solid. I start to concentrate on the mirror being a hole in reality an not solid. I get distracted for a bit and see my reflection. I have a painful and strained expression on my face. I look closer and it distorts into a fun house mirror. Then it get dark and I can vaguely see that I look like a werewolf now. I am amused and shocked. That's why she was afraid?

I relax and concentrate on falling into the mirror. It works. I feel myself go into a small opening. I feel like I am spinning with my arms and legs splayed like a starfish. When it stops I find myself in bed and SP again.

I think I hear my son crying. I grumble. Then, I feel and hear my wife quickly getting up to go check on him. I wonder if it was real or not as I am still in SP. Not caring much at the time, I get out of bed with a struggle. I get curious if I can spy on my wife so I go through the bathroom into the other bedroom. As I step into the bathroom I recognize that I have never been in here during OBE time. I feel the cold tile on my feet. I continue to the other side but the room tilts now. I am struggling uphill to reach the door. I stretch my left arm out and to my surprise my arm stretches to reach the door. I close my eyes and get both hands on the door knob. I opens and I have to fly upwards to enter the room.

I float over my son. I can see him sleeping in his crib. The lighting again is normal and I can see how the room is dimly lit with the night light. I wonder where my wife is.

Then I feel a presence or something pass through my torso. The shock of it sends me back into my bed. I hit SP again. Now I remember the demon girl and wonder if it was her that sent me back. I feel worried about my son.

I decide this dream just sucks and want to wake up. I think I can hear sirens of emergency vehicles outside. The sound gives me a sense of urgency and I really feel the need to wake up. I can't move. I say "Wake up." like some sort of command. I really thought it would work. Then I remember something I read about how to wake up from SP. I never thought I would want to use it but I do now. I hold my breath for a few seconds. The feeling is awful like suffocation. The suddenly, I watch and feel my awareness shift from the dream world to this one. The feeling is like no other. It's a different feeling from fighting to stay in the dream vs. fighting to exit the dream. I am still afraid and realize I am panting. I was very shocked when I realized how little time I just spent being asleep.


I wanted to record this experience right away as I was now not at all sleepy and kind of excited that I had an early REM lucid. I was still very afraid and It honestly took me a while to muster the courage to open my bedroom door again. All I could think of was what if I really see this evil entity when I open my bedroom door. I know it sounds silly but this one was just freaking scary!

There is some long bit about Dracula, Harry Potter, and stuffs that I'll recall later, or not. Anyways, some crazy Death Eater trapped me, Lupin, and probably Kingsley inside some green-tinted world. He then said from outside that we're in the Uber Bottle. Lupin told me that the way to get out is to find the opening of the bottle, and we spread out to find them. I went to the bottle-world version of the death eater's original office, and found a cork stuck onto a computer screen. I tried staring inside the hole, but it didn't bring me back outside. The screen is on, and somehow I remembered to do a reality check with texts. I became lucid, and did some more reality check, but I'm on the verge of waking up so I stabilized and observed everything in great detail until I could see things. I began talking to myself, but then decided to stop it as it would make me lose lucidity. I decided that saving Lupin and Kingsley really isn't that needed since they're just DCs. I spun around and teleported to some mall with glass wall. I'm standing on the second floor on a mezzanine. I jumped off the railing and flew! I didn't have a goal in mind since I never expected to get lucid today. The feeling of flying was so exhilarating I was afraid I would wake up. I stopped mid-air because I lost some control, but then finally managed to propel myself forwards,and phased through the window-wall. My parents were waiting outside. My dad congratulated me on flying, but apart from that they don't seem to be aware of the nature of their world. Having no goal, I decided to follow them. I woke up later while in the car because to moving IRL.

I actually recalled the dream in a lot more details, but it's mostly tidbits that I can't even explain with words.

I guess this is technically not a dream fragment since the whole stuffs on this dream are actually several dreams combined.

I haven't updated my online dream journal in ages. I've been keeping a fairly consistent paper one, recalling at least a single dream on most nights.

This one, however, was rather interesting.

I wasn't quite myself; it was as if I was playing a character, a role. I was the son and sole heir to a rich and prestigious family. This seemed to be set in a time before electricity at the very least. However, there was a strange circumstance; for the inheritance of the family to be passed onto the heir and not entailed, it must be given to the daughter of the family (who never did exist). As a result, I, as the son, had to dress as a woman. I recall a very tidy blue dress with a white pinafore, and attempts to make my medium-length hair look more convincing.

In any case, this seemed to continue on for some time; cut ahead to a scene of chasing the father around a garden, passing by some decorative tiles in the garden which struck me with their beauty, and eventually, meeting someone. This is the part I remember best. A very, very tall and fairly broad man with unusual features. His face was deformed somehow, noticeably asymmetrical. He had a short but shaggy beard, glasses and possibly a lazy eye. I'm unsure if his features were distorted as a result of being an unclear dream character, but I have never seen anyone like him. I was rather drawn to him; in spite of his possibly frightening appearance, he was very kind and rather intelligent. Unfortunately, he was of a lower social standing. In spite of that, I disregarded societal norms and sought his interest, to be rewarded with it in turn.

It was quite interesting to me. It seems to play a lot on gender identity and overlooking outward appearances (or first impressions) of other people to see what lies inside. It was certainly memorable.