non-lucid

As Louis, being seen as a vampire by someone who I didn't want to see that, fleeing the scene, and Lestat finding this much more funny than I think is appropriate.

Discussing a military operation, looking at a map of what is essentially much of India and Southeast Asia, although at this point in time - meant to be 6th or 7th century or so - the countries and their borders are significantly different than in the present; we're primarily discussing a trade route at the moment, but I've also been having a disagreement with the man in charge about our manpower. While discussing the trade route, we receive word of 500 archers spotted approaching from the north, in addition to the army we're already facing. I am significantly less confident about our ability to handle this than the boss is.

(Woke up. Back to sleep.)

As some manner of religious authority, I'm performing a ritual to help a group of people, a sort of blessing or summoning, making something sacred. At the start of the ritual I have to offer up whatever spiritual virtue I possess as a sacrifice; this will leave me vulnerable until the ritual's complete, so I'm relying on the two people who asked for my help to accompany me. With the offering made, we step through a portal.

This takes us to a dark and dusty room, a place I'm familiar with. I summon light into my hands, with an effect much like a dim flashlight. In the middle of the floor there's a large trunk full of false panels, something a stage magician might use; at the moment it's lying open so that all its tricks are clearly visible to anyone who might pass through. I didn't leave it like that. There are a few objects on the shelves of the room that weren't here the last time, indicating that someone other than me has indeed been using this place. This is something to worry about. I close the trunk properly, and we continue.

A brief memory gap - after the dark room, we came out into a field at night with a river off to our right, and what we did here I can't remember; but then we came to the cliff at the opposite side of the field, and the view here was so fantastic that I briefly went fully lucid to enjoy it. I'm looking down on an immense lake so still that I can see stars reflected here and there. In the far distance, there's an immense grey statue of a falcon submerged in the lake so that only its head is above the water - but that small part of the statue above the water is at least the height of a two or three story building.

Continuing the storyline, this is certainly the appropriate place to perform a sacred ritual, so I begin a prayer - something about the lake filling with stars. But before I get very far, that river off to our right rises in a flood. The two people with me are afraid, but I'm thinking this is convenient - we'll just ride that water down to the lake.

The river sweeps us over the cliff, which is great fun, and when I sink under the water of the lake I can see a group of hammerhead sharks swimming far below. They don't seem to care about us. Surfacing, although we've all separated, we're all making our separate ways toward that falcon statue.

Along the way, however, I bump into a seal; it considers me and then swims on. And then into a shark; the same happens again. And another shark, and this one seems more interested in my presence; and another that I have to physically shove away; and so on; I'm not concerned about my safety - though I am worried about the other two - but I become so busy fending off sharks that I can't continue to the statue.

Increasingly frustrated, I was trying to rearrange the objects on the top shelf of the refrigerator. This was made challenging by the downward slope of the shelf and the fact that there was no raised lip at the front to catch things. It was also quite full, so the weight of the objects in the back was pushing down against the things in the front and knocking them off. My dad walked up as I was once again moving things around trying to find a more stable arrangement, so I complained to him:

"The fridge is full of bread—bagged bread! And milk." I screwed up my face, pronouncing "milk" with as much disgust as I could put into my voice. I've never liked milk, but thought I should provide a better reason for my objection. "The milk's going to go bad in a few days and then we'll have to throw it out."

"Room for more bread!" My father kept a straight face, but I was pretty sure he was teasing me.

"Look," I said impatiently, "If this is some kind of survivalist thing, we'd do better to stock complex carbohydrates than all this processed crap."

First dream - fragment

I was in school. With teacher and classmates we were talking about structural organisation of forestry units.

Second dream

I was in home. We were preparing the attic to make bedrooms there. First we had to take all the trash from there. If we found anything of value, we took it to cleaning. Most of the objects were covered with cobwebs. There were gigantic spiders walking on them. They had random colors, like red or yellow. Two of them made a huge cobweb across the whole room.

Third dream

With my siblings we went out of supermarket. It was starless, moonless night. We went to the parking, and looked for our vechicle. We've found it. It was a tanker. We climbed up to its roof. The driver probably wasn't aware of this. As soon as my siblings jumped up on it, they've fallen down. I was holding on, until it started to move. I've fallen to the ground, and couldn't move. A man in white radiation protective suit came, and started to kick me. I could see the footing of his shoes quite vividly when he kicked me in the face. Suddenly the driver of tanker drove over my siblings. He couldn't reach me with the vechicle, as I was lying too close to some buildings. When he tried to drive over me again, I could move again and I escaped by climbing up the roof and jumping straight into my garden. I've landed in front of gigantic cobweb with two spiders on it, one was red and second yellow. Both had six black dots on them.

Working on adopting a new night-time mindset focused more on lucidity, so just one dream.

Late to-bed

00:52 pre-bedtime
01:30 (?) bedtime

Many small wakings during the night. The mindset of "the night is for rest, and for lucid dreaming" quickly returns to me. I do not stay up long at these wakings, but return to "rest" resulting in sleep. I notice each time my wife is snoring, pretty much through the entire night, but this does not keep me awake since I do not stay awake for long.

I do not record during the night, just keeping "ducks" in my memory is enough

08:00

+ duck migration, frozen water, then fresh water, drinking, duck mated pairs; dildo school (for ducks?)

I'm flying DO over a frozen lake. Several ducks below land on the lake smacking into the ice and sliding to the edge of the shore. Narrator heard saying "ducks cannot tell if a lake is frozen from the air so they must dedicate themselves to a landing and take their chances vs. a possibly frozen lake".

I'm down with the ducks, there is "a rumor" of fresh unfrozen water farther on, I wonder how far it is and if this is reliable info? I fly DO right on the tail and a bit to the right of one of the ducks. Land at a small, fairly dirty looking unfrozen pool. There's another fresher pool nearby. I have a up close view on the ground in the face of one duck, I have a strong affection for this particular animal, I watch while it dips its bill into the water and takes a long drink. (I think about kissing this duck?)

Scene near a "hen-house" with ducks hanging around. Narrator talks about how these ducks (34, 40 years old) are mated pairs (for life?).

Inside the house there are a bunch of topless girls ("ducks?") with small breasts. There is a dildo class in session, an instructor (male/female can't tell!) is pulling out a long dildo from his/her body, it's mounted on the end of a 2-foot rod. The instructor moves to demonstrate insertion again?

View changes to a close up of a diagram from a text-book, showing a body canal in several different states, based on the different creams that can be put on the dildo. There is a "narrowing effect" that makes the canal tighter (I'm assuming this is the preferred effect), and an expansion effect that makes the entire canal enlarged. This option is marked with a warning that this can result in a requirement of dialysis. There are about 4 effects shown on the page in total.

Morning of January 29, 2015. Thursday.



It seems to be late morning and the weather has changed. It no longer seems to be of a continuous potential for thunder and rain. I am possibly the only one home at our present residence on W Street. The main wooden door is open but the screen door is closed though not locked.

After a fairly short time, two young Caucasian males come onto the porch, though the oldest remains on the top steps near the first porch doorway. The one closest to the front door is perhaps about twelve or thirteen years of age and somewhat chubby and the other perhaps about sixteen and quite skinny. They do not look like anyone I know. I sense that they are up to some serious mischief (possibly with intent to harm or burglarize) and thus I do not feel comfortable about the screen door being unlocked. However, I listen to their spiel for a few minutes while I stand in the living room. It has something to do with some sort of medicine, perhaps, but I am not clear on anything. They first need to do something to my hand, apparently. I am not really interested in this. The younger boy seems to be holding a container as well as some sort of smaller crowbar-looking object with a large hook on it, or perhaps some sort of candy cane and miniature wrecking bar composite.

I try to get them to leave the porch by pushing the screen door out rather violently as well as holding onto it so that they do not get in should they attempt it. Perhaps they are not really all that bad though. They are mostly dressed the same, in yellow and white, including yellow and white baseball caps (worn correctly with the visor in front). It almost does seem like a legitimate business at one point.

The youngest moves forward and lightly jabs the top of my right hand with the hook when the door is partly open, which really annoys me. When I look at my hand, something quite strange happens. A small singular branch-like form grows outward fairly quickly on the top of my hand between my thumb and index finger, twisting about and looking much like a woody vine with a gnarled appearance - about three inches high, with a single talon eventually coming out.

“What did you do to my thumb?” I ask. “I have already had an infection in it.” (This being in reference to the unusual ganglion cysts that started to linearly accumulate in my thumb and wrist in August 1976 as a teenager.) In a way, it reminds me of the spur of a rooster, at least in potential function (or the human equivalent thereof).

Apparently, this is part of the intended demonstration and the “medicine” they wish to sell me will heal this “wart” or whatever it is. I want none of it, though, and do not intend to buy anything. It reminds me of people who invent problems just to con people with “solutions” (and in fact, this is actually what is happening here).

From here, I tear at and punch the first youngest boy (having the new talon helps) and the other male looks horrified. I only vaguely feel that my actions are unjustified. I then move on to him, seemingly causing them both to completely disintegrate or evaporate from my dream, still mentally “punching” as my dream loses cohesion; even as I wake (in fact, I am still “mentally punching” a second or two after being fully awake). My dream was quite vivid, and strangely enough, did not really feel all that negative or frustrating.

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1/26/15:
In my dream I ate an Egg and Cheese Omlet with Buttered Toast.
(I ate it in the morning, I didn't know about Omlets for Breakfest but it happened.)
1/27/15:
I checked my grades, I had a F in INT Algebra.
(IRL I don't got a F in INT Algebra but, it's possible I may get one if I flunked that test)

Dream 1
I am at an Opthalmology Clinic, that seemed to bear a vague similarity to the clinic I worked with during medical internship. I visit my 3rd year resident, and I ask him to give me an eye exam even though I knew that my vision is perfectly fine. He gives me the visual acuity tests and lie about the results, making them up and even pretend to have a bout of headaches as he is giving me the tests.

(Hmm, is it a dream about me deceiving myself? pretending not to see something? Am I failing to see the bigger picture? Or do I merely make myself blind to something?)

Dream 2:
I am running through an underground tuned that looks like It was an inside of a Volcano. (The entire dream looks like It was being viewed from the side, like how we see tunnels in an ant farm). Rock was black and interspersed with glowing and flowing red magma. I am running for my life, not only because I am being chased after by a flow of hot magma, but because there is a Lion running after me. I run for my life and I surprisingly bypass the flow of magma and the lion by passing through a tunnel that runs deeper. I enter it through a hole on the ground of the first tunnel.

The deeper tunnel runs to the opposite end of the first tunnel and I exit from above entering the first tunnel again. I suddenly exit the tunnel system from the side (like I float to the side and see the entire tunnel system )and jump to the end of the passage, barely catching my steps as I land on the rocks.

There is an earth quake.

The dreams end.

I'm entering a large garage, looking for the owner. Off to the right I see a white truck I recognize from the first time I met him, when he'd kidnapped the queen. There are three vases full of red roses sitting in the truck bed now. The man I'm looking for is further into the garage, off to the left, along with another man who I also met during that kidnapping incident. I exchange the usual greetings with this second man, then walk up to the one I came to see. He's an incredibly big guy, tall and muscular, and he doesn't turn from what he's doing to look at me. Neither of us say anything for a moment - I have a hard time deciding how to talk to him - and then when we do speak, both of us start talking at once.

He asks about the queen at the same moment I say, "(the queen's name)'s sick." Dying, most likely.

He's shocked and horrified, as expected, and asks me a bunch of questions about her. As we talk, we raise the question of whether her sickness is a reflection of the state of the land, or whether the land's sickness is a reflection of the state of the queen - that they're linked is obvious, but which one started it, which is the cause, that's the question.

The other man joins in the conversation at this point. They'd been tracking the changes in the land on their own, not realizing what was happening to the queen; and comparing our information, the two of them become convinced it started with the land. That second man shows me one of their maps on a computer screen, showing when a giant creature associated with cold moved into the far northwest and burrowed deep into the earth - that was the first one, the one that started it. They'd already been planning to remove or kill it. It goes without saying that I'll be coming too.

As I'm looking at his data, I'm thinking, amused, how convenient, making this into a problem that can be solved with our skillset.

First dream

I was in school. I was sitting in the IT room on the second floor. The lesson ended quickly, and I went downstairs. I looked into the other classroom, and went towards the cloakroom and exit.

Second dream

I was in my home. Mother told me that my uncle is coming back from U.S We drove to the uncle's possession in the nearby town. We were waiting near his house. It was cold, winter day. Everything was covered with snow. He finally arrived, but he was too tired to meet with us. We drove back to home. I took a bowl, somehow filled it with blood and pretended that it was a soup. I spoiled a little on my legs, and when I was just about to eat, my mother arrived and told me that she'll cook something.

Even with me being lazy and not really dream journalling I've consistently recalled 1 or 2 dreams practically every night for the past few weeks. I found this dream to be interesting, vivid and quite insightful actually, ripe for interpretation. I know a fair bit of what signifies what, well along with the emotions I felt during the dream.

Dream 1: Fragment, I'm sure I was among a big group of people in some sort of wasteland/fantasy land, leading them perhaps, but not sure.

Dream 2: I was reading a book in my Media class, it was illustrated beautifully depicting a man and two kids fighting a fire in their house. I finished reading the book and our teacher said goodbye to us and started giving back some tests and some cards. I got 4 cards and the the bell rang and school was over. I then walked to my the train station with my brother before I opened up two of the cards. One of them was from a classmate and the other from the teacher, for some reason I didn't open the other two. I went on the train and I saw the student who had given me one of those cards and started talking with her. I saw she had a big sack full of cards and some presents which I inquired a bit about. After we talked a bit she said goodbye for the rest of the year. I was puzzled and asked her why she said that, as school still had one more day left before he holidays, but then she told me it was a public holiday and so today was the last day. I suddenly realized that I hadn't cleared out my locker or anything like that and panicked a bit.
Fast forward to the start on the next year, and I arrived at school trying to find a top locked (I'm 6 foot 5 and sick of bottom lockers ). I tried searching for one but the few which still didn't have locks on had people stuff in them anyway. In fact, I couldn't really find a free locker anywhere. I was looking around for help a bit when I heard an alarm go off and I saw someone I know breaking into a classroom with the key. Their accomplice got taken away and then n I woke up.

I was travelling through a fantasy land (or what I thought was fantasy, it just looked like countryside really but I got the impression it was "ye olde times") and I came across a house. I entered the house and I met a man and his mother, I told them I was on the run from someone (I had the feeling he was in a position of power) the son and mother knew who I was talking about and agreed to let me stay the night.

I remember looking for something in one of their kitchen cupboards but the one I opened first was full of ice. (like a freezer) The mother got a bit flustered so I tried to lighten the mood by joking about how because this kitchen was so similar to my own at home I thought everything would be in the same place.

I remember sitting down at the kitchen table talking to the son but I can't recall what was said. Eventually it was "known" (I can't recall it being brought up) that I had to go out with the son to pull carrots for the stew we were having for dinner. I followed him outside and we walked over to some....troughs on legs (not sure what to call it) that were full of soil and large knobbly carrots. I pulled some and carried them in my arms. I saw a HUGE round carrot that in hindsight looked more like an orange turnip. I joked to the son that you could make a whole stew out of that one carrot. He muttered something under his breath that I didn't catch.

At this point I jumped and saw some kind of map interface. I could switch between multiple maps where I could zoom in and watch people walking about. (It might have been the same world where I was on the run) I got an impression that each map was an alternative version of the same world but I'm not certain.

At this point I jumped again, I don't remember anything about this part except I watched some people fly into the sky and explode into socks. Up to that point is everything I remember.

I only just started attempting to recall dreams yesterday, so it might be a bit weak and screwy right now. These were all non lucid dreams.

28.01.2015

My twin flame helps me with a scavenger hunt to enter a synchrotron (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Full Dream Recall (1 pts)
Non Lucid Dream from WBTB (failed) (2 pts)

I was in a big hotel and it was spring. The hotel had huge gardens and a massive pool. Around the gardens, there were smaller pools just to wet the feet and there were tons of flowers and grass.







I was excited because even though it was warm, there were no bees or other flying insects. I saw a few spiders but I like spiders so I had no problem with them. I saw some signs around announcing a Yugioh tournament with the photo of Pegasus







I also saw Olga, my twin flame who was hanging out with a friend, and I believe her boyfriend was around there too (15 x 2 = 30 pts) and it seems there was some activity of a scavenger hunt going on. I was very delayed because I just noticed it. Olga came to me and kissed me a few times and was very amotional. She told me she would help me to catch up.

I had to get some coupons to be able to join a synchrotron and do some stuff in there







I had to go to fast food restaurants and do surveys in exchange of coupons. I needed to rush because Olga's friend was a bit rude with me and she did not want to get delayed (it seems she was in Olga's team or something.) As I did the survey, it was five pages long, but most was text. I also had a folder with a ton of paper masks that apparently I used in a different dream (note: I was not lucid) so I tossed all the masks. When I gave the survey, I could say that a lot of papers were scratched. The guy from the place gave me a ton of extra coupons because he liked my energy as well as 100 euro because it was the payment for the survey. I felt it was an easy way to do money. I went to two or three places more. It was getting close to 7pm, due time to enter the synchrotron. Olga went with me to a mall while holding my arms and her friend was grumpy. We went to a huge mall and we needed to go to a five story store called "Dohuwk" (this store was made up, it seems not to exist) and it was a clothing store. I just had to do a small purchase to get the last coupon. As we were walking to it, I said something about Oklahoma. Olga's friend said it was to be said with a different accent and she said it in a strange tone of voice. She also said that she was going to buy a Nissan 15.

28.01.2015

Intimate moments with wife (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

This is a full dream recall (1 pts) but I will not share details due maturity content as well as personal content, but think of a pretty long sex scene with my wife in different rooms and even different places (some public)

Morning of January 28, 2015. Wednesday.



This is mostly an impersonal dream of going to a college with unknown students with various personality types. I seem to be there almost as a token student who watches the class activities, though I feel somewhat like a teacher at times (but not that defined). There seems to be an odd underlying mood as if the college is a place for additional invasive government-related experiments of some kind, which are not shared with the public.

One year has apparently already passed. There is one outdoor graduation ceremony where someone is killed (by an unknown sniper) and their shirt is covered with blood, which touches me as we are both on the ground at one point (though I am not hurt), a circle of people around us, some waving off others in the area. This scenario is not focused on for very long and there are several shifts.

One room I am in at one point is reminiscent (in conscious afterthought only) of my middle school carpentry classroom, which also had leather-work in the year that followed. There are only about four students in the room (who I lightly converse with). There is one area that also vaguely reminds me of Eco 3 (factory) - though the area is not filled with old tires. There are remarks about nuclear physics. In fact, I make a few comments connecting the flavor and essence of coconut with work in nuclear physics. As nuclear physics and bombs are sometimes plays on sexuality, it makes sense in light of the fact that my wife had the scent of coconut soap on her prior to my dream, which was nice.

Over time, however, I again sense a government involvement in the student being shot earlier. Each larger lab table (of which there are three longer ones in the room) has enclosed two-tiered shelves underneath, and for some reason I open one end to look in - and at this point it seems like one of the last days of school where people are cleaning out their belongings. A picobot, but more like a miniature robotic insect, rectangular and on at least six legs (instead of wheels), is discovered on the upper shelf behind something, but it immediately leaves the area upon being seen. This picobot was supposedly designed to both observe and somehow influence the physics students. (This is nothing new; I first dreamt of something very similar back in 1974 as well as the plot and detailed look of the Tom Selleck movie “Runaway” years before it came out.)

I and the other students follow it down the hall. We eventually come to an open elevator shaft (which seems at least seven floors down) and the picobot deliberately walks into the area and over the edge and falls into the elevator shaft, to intentionally destroy itself, it seems (so that there is no evidence of its programming). It does not explode however. My dream loses cohesion after this.

> A bit about me looking on the screen of a portable (and monochrome or set to monochrome) device showing a 1972 Oldsmobile Custom Cruiser (Clamshell) Wagon sitting around in a little valley without windows and with moss in it, but still drivable for a Demolition Derby. Some people stood nearby.

I know there were more dreams.