non-lucid

Success!! I was able to recall not one, but two dreams, although the first one's a fragment.

Dream 1 (fragment)
I am walking down a hallway. and I see someone. But before I can tell who they are, my alarm goes off.

Dream 2:
I'm in a.... Duel? It's a YuGiOh duel. I ply my cards for a while, but as soon as i try to go lucid, the dream ends and I wake up, and my heart's pounding, from excitement or other emotions I can't tell.

Both of the dreams were surprisingly vivid. Also, I think these were triggered by video games, because the last game I was playing before I went to bed was YuGiOh GX tag force, and both of these dreams matched it. So could this be a dream trigger for me?

At least my recall's improving.

Frag

I was in some park on a hill. Bjork was off in the distance singing and walking towards me with a cameraman behind her. She kept looking at me and smiling. I was wondering how she knew me and why she was walking towards me. she had hair down to her chin.

Money confusion.

I was getting a ride with C who lives with my aunt. My cousins girlfriend was outside the window and handed me a large envelope filled with cash to give to my aunt for a car payment or something. C offered to take it for me but my cousin's GF said that I should take it instead indicating that C might pocket it for herself. I agreed to take it instead.

C grumbled and let me out of the vehicle. I seemed only to be a block away from my house and started walking. I noticed K from work standing on a lawn and staring at me. "Are you stalking me?" I asked her. She said nothing for a long moment and said, "yes," jokingly? she started walking with me. I was saying, "nothing really to see here... After work I go home here and do basically nothing." I went in and forget what happened after.

stay safe

I was in my inner world house. Asuka and data were around. I thought there was going to be and earthquake. I saw some knick knacks on a corner shelf wobbling. I went into a door way and held on to it. Asuka asked me what I was doing. I said apparently this is the safest place to be in an earthquake. everything wobbled for a bit and then stopped.

Woke at 3:13pm...wish I knew the starting time, but sense it was an afternoon nap, I can assume it was two hours long. This means the start time might have been around 1:00pm.


It's winter here but I don't know where here is but I do know that mom and I are trying to get the little chicks, who are in an encaged little wheelbarrow, up a hill to a home. I'm not sure how but we managed to do it, then we went inside the little place after placing them in an open garage to the side of the house and turning on their heat lights which we strung around the encaged area. They kinda looked like a teal LED bright lite set. Once inside, the area changed to the inside of my current home, I was hungry so I searched the cupboard near the door for some food, at first there was only what I had in real life. But then I saw cheetos, flaming hot cheetos, cheeto puffs, and way in the back I saw slim jims. I took those and went outside to eat them, I ate two but they tasted kinda funny like it wasn't meat. Then before I knew it, I was waking up in a room of sleeping bodies. Naked and under sheets in a living room, it was a bit nauseating but I just grabbed a shirts and rushed to the bathroom. The bathroom happened to be my grandmother's bathroom, but the living room was definitely from my old home. Behind me I heard footsteps and someone rushing to get to me, I tried to shut the door on them but a lady just shoved it open. I was on my knees on the floor, still a bit tired, she pulled me up and away from the bathroom. I forgot what she said but it was I think a sexual question and I answered positively. She wrapped her arms around my waist behind me and we sort of swayed into another room, then collapsed on a couch or chair. I sat on her lap and she held me, blah..sexual stuff so I guess her dialogue before was asking for consent. Anyway, the sexual stuff was different this time because before it always stopped when the pressure of stuff trying to get inside was too much and woke me up. This time though, I wasn't scared and didn't shy away, I guess that's why it finally happened. The pressure built up until I was about to cry out and was trembling was it was over, but I woke up. In my head, rose said she'd be gentler next time. But then I woke up for real and realized the last time I woke up was a false awakening, I felt the effects of the dream for a couple seconds after waking, but then it went away.


NEW:
I realize that it may seem strange to some readers but I never actually got to the stage of penetration or release in a dream ever, it was always blocked and I think this moment was an amazing one for me because I gave my consent this time. It was like I was ready, so maybe I'm learning more or something? Another thing I've noticed, I had control over my actions through the second half of the dream and this has happened last dream too. The new control and experience is actually really nice and makes me feel like I'm making progress.

It's been a while... Since I have some time, I've decided to come back for a bit and try lucid dreaming again.
I mean, it's been like a year and a half or something, I think... Dang. How has everyone been...?

Oh well, I'm back. Here goes.

Recently just woke up from this dream... I was in an unusually big house. The only other person I recognized was my dad, but I remember there being a bunch of other people there with us. My mom may have been there too, but I'm not sure. There was a very dark kitchen, where there was something to do with me needing to make food...? Weird. The living room had some sort of big box, full of big RC cars... Huh? Rocket League? I specifically remember pulling the Road Hog out of the box... My dad wanted me to pick a vehicle so he could upgrade it or something. I went through the entire box, tossing out the different cars, until I eventually found one that I wanted to keep I guess. I ended up also finding a lot of small objects on the floor. Like... Things that I own. There were DS games, and other small/old toys and stuff. In particular, there were some DS games that were only the plastic case from the cartridge. As in, no actual game. I remember seeing Spectrobes 2 specifically. Huh.

That's all that I really remember.

In my time away from here, my dream recall has become a bit stale.

Time to get back into it...

July 18---11:30-1:25pm
In a store, buying clothes. Mom drags me outside the back, grabs a fish tail cutout of foam and goes back inside. Someone stops us at the door, I get kicked down. Big guy picks me up in a hug and give comforting words. In the store I look through racks of clothes, laugh for reasons forgotten and C says it's time to go. Go through door, get stopped by arabic guard who wants our IDs. I give mom her purse, he says I should have a tie for my shirt. I nod, but he says I'm not a boy am I? I panic, he reaches down to check and then gets shoved off. Pan out to him falling off a cliff, I say we shouldn't have done that but hippie type guy says it's fine. Pan down mountain to an asian looking through a telescope, he sees falling body and mistakes it for the sign they've been waiting for. End.

July 18---5:12pm-7:17pm
In old home at night, C is washing dishes he got from portal outside our house in the back. They are relics, I see one looking like a bowl pitcher. I put water in it, wash with soap and put water in it to drink. D enters room and sees me drinking, asks what is that and I tell him I think it's a drinking bowl. He seems skeptical, the water tastes bad like the soap I used and I see some of the pink soap residue on the bottom. I rinse it and put it in rack to dry, feel weird. Dizzy and nauseous, I stumble outside and see the world in a blurry. Look into portal and see outlined light blue squares on a white back ground. I scream as it freaks me out and wake up into a false awakening, C says shut up and I do. Talk in my mind to rose, mention dracula but I say it reminded me of a lucid dreaming vibe. End.

He gave us these little plastic? dolls to swallow and that would take us there, I had a hard time getting it to go down. I do remember thinking that this seemed kinda stupid, but then I did manage to swallow it and could feel it get caught slightly in my throat. After swallowing or going through the motions of swallowing a couple more times, I finally got it down and pretty much instantly saw the change after I blinked. We were in a room, appeared to be a dining room and I didn't seem to be familiar to the place. But then a voice spoke out behind me and caused me to turn about quickly to meet the face of the speaker who spoke from the shadows of the doorway, "Well if it isn't you", I of course was shocked a bit to see him there but for some reason also frightened a bit. I got the feeling that I shouldn't have come uninvited, but I also got the feeling that I owed him something. Anyway, he took me aside to another room to chat, I remember nothing of the dialogue except that I shouldn't be there. But sense I was here, I was obviously there for him. The rest of the dream is a bit hazy but their were other guests there and they'd been eating so I was to dress appropriately. After that I think I woke up.

1:10-7:54 July, 20th:
Old home, Walking through halls with C, checking rooms at night and playing a game. See D in bed and mom in bed. At beach in the morning, playing with people. Then the place turns dark and police come in, running people down and stuff. I hide in a necromancers tower, then rush back to home which is now current home. It is on fire, and the police have gone through the area and are still there. Mom is outside with a sword, I grab a sword and we both cut off one head out of the five guys outside. Then we leave markings on the other three, an open gash in one's chest, a slight scar on one's face and a cut off arm on another one; something I noticed is they bleed black blood or really dark red blood. We hide until morning or so they dream says, then we go access the situation and the house is now the old home again. The dream says we kill the remaining few. Then we grab food and stuff in boxes and put it into a helicopter, we even manage to put a box of chicks into it and the were specifically saved so the police weren't heartless after all. I keep telling mom to hurry up, we manage to fit everything and I shut off my phone so they can't track us through that. Then before we are going to leave, I say we could pick up D and C because they are alive. When I went to get the food, it was from grandma's kitchen fridge.
Things we gathered:
　clothes, small amount, mom was especially excited about a nightgown for her and lots of socks for some reason.
　frozen candy bars, nougats or something and also dry foods like crackers.
　box of chicks about five or seven.

July 1
-1-I went back in time to around 1994 in SE Canada, where I walked towards a house on the side of the road. When I got inside, I found the windows on the south side open with strong wind coming in. I shut one, but that allowed a pile of snow to appear. It tasted sweet and looked like sunscreen.
-2-I was being hunted by someone. I ended up in a building, using my camcorder to zoom in on snipers in the far distance. Also, there was a guy that knew some of the area there and we were walking somewhere, through piles of leaves on the way.

July 7
I was running around to find shelter somewhere during an F2 tornado. Then I ran around trying to find shelter during a tan, F4 tornado on a farm with a bunch of empty buildings, none of which were satisfactory. Sometime earlier, my brother and I looked for cereal. I also landed a plane, played some Mario Party, and talked illogically about Starfox.

I woke up this morning.... Bored??? Not something I usually wake up feeling (I usually feel sadness, with a few tears coming out of my eyes). I also remember a few flashes of color- coincidentally they were my favorites. I saw purple, red, and i think a flash of bluish-gray. Not sure though. Although being able to remember something on my first night of trying is quite promising, though.

Went to bed at 5AM and woke up at 3:40PM.

From what I remember, I was at some sort of camp. We're up very high in the trees with ziplines and our harnesses attached to wires. My mom is there. I'm trying to transfer myself over to another wire but the clips aren't working. There's an old man in the trees with me who I recognize from my pool who is trying to help me.

I wake up. I start to sleep again trying to go back to the trees.

I'm dreaming I'm back at college on this place called Devon Lane. There's townhouses with decks next to each other. I look over to the left and there's a fraternity and sorority next to each other talking on decks. The house I'm at has a bunch of my fraternity brothers out and about drinking and hanging out. I remember it felt like I had just woken up, but it looked like it was pretty much night time. People keep talking about how it looks like it's night time but it's only 2PM. It looks kinda like the sun is setting. I see my friend JP opening a beer. I ask if anyone wants to split a case of beer and three younger brothers on chairs jump up and come with me. We're walking up the street to the gas station. There's a pool to the left of us that we recognize some people at. We walk in and my friend Ali is there at the end of the pool, or someone who kinda looks like him. There's kids jumping like 30 feet in the air and then diving into the shallow pool but they're fine. I start to walk back to the door when I pass a girl in a white shirt. As I turn around, I see it's Dana. Someone asks me who she is and why we don't date anymore and I tell them a lie saying that she cheated on me. I wish I could have talked to her.

I walk outside of the gate and pass my childhood friend's mom Dorris and a posse of people including this famous girl that used to be in my friend group in high school. I tell someone that. Then, everyone in the dream starts to tell us to look up at the sky. The sky to the right is incredible, there's these really colorful and elaborate shapes in the sky moving in some sort of pattern, and they change every 10 seconds or so. People are getting their phones out and I get my phone out as well, changing the patterns with some sort of filter I have. I remember feeling like the world was going to end in this dream, like things were starting to align and everything felt so right in that moment. It was all making sense, the sky was acting up that day, someone famous was in town for some reason, the girl I had wronged in the past was there for me to forgive. And I was okay with the world ending in that moment.

I'm suddenly in this view of different regrets in my life coming before me. People I didn't like would come up, and I would simply just tell myself that I didn't care anymore and let the grudge go. Dana came into view, and I apologized and washed that regret away. Dirty things were appearing and I was just forgetting them from my life. I felt this high that I only get while in dreams. I felt like my body was floating upwards and I was telling God to take me away and I had tears coming out of my eyes.

And then I was paralyzed and couldn't move. Those dirty things were there with me in this small space, and I was struggling to move. In that moment, I started to take on the form of my friend Kolby. Then I jerked myself awake.

Cafeteria Cheating:

I was in a situation where I was being helped by my boss to either get free food that I wasn't entitled to, or more than I was supposed to be getting. He was kinda on board at the beginning, but then he said something about not really wanting to be getting caught doing it. I started feeling bad about it, and then work up.


Chemical Extraction:

In some food product or other mundane item, someone discovered that you could extract some potentially dangerous chemical could be extracted from it. This dream carried on for a while, but all I remember is seeing some guy at a table who was apparently carrying out the extraction.


Shiba Inu:
Someone had a dog that I wanted to play with. I was a bit worried that it would not like me, but it didn't get mad at me for petting it, so that was pretty cool.

It's been a long time since I made any entries, and I didn't do an immediate journal, this is just what I am remembering in the morning.

Some girl from a college class that I had met had brought me to her house in a very wealthy looking subdivision. She wanted to show me her new kittens. I think there were three of them. Something strange about her kittens though; they have the intelligence of small children and can say some basic phrases.

I continually revisit her house once or twice per week. One of the kittens, a boy who is a brown and black tabby with white paws and a white chin likes to play rough with me whenever I come over. We are pretending to be secret agents on opposite sides during the cold war and at one point in where I capture him, hiding behind a black SUV in the driveway. I pick him up by the neck scruff then he spins around and bats me with his paws (claws in) and I pretend to fall over and he drops onto my chest as though he has just beaten me at fighting.

The neighbor of the girl, a very tall balding middle aged man with a combover and cigar says that I am committing animal abuse and that he is calling the police. The police officer comes and tries to arrest me but I explain the situation saying that it's just play and when the kitten starts talking and explaining that he was the one who made up the game and he doesn't care if it gets rough, since he knows I wouldn't really try to hurt him. The police officer leaves and the dream ends.

-+-

I am visiting my aunt's new apartment. It is somehow merged higher dimensionally into our house, and by traveling through a specific part of the house in a certain way, you can access the apartment. The apartment actually has the same layout as my house but is much cleaner and has different decorations. I see my aunt's new husband on the computer eating and notice that he has a cartoony big belly from eating too much and ask my aunt about it, but she is busy talking to my mom's friend.

-+-

I am in a rock band with my friends; and we are preforming at my grandparent's house, or at least a location that feels similar to it. The rock band is kind of strange because of the instruments we have all chosen to play. I am playing a Hangdrum, S is playing a three-necked guitar and his brother is playing a keytar that is really small, like a children's toy. (I think I remember seeing the brand' Fisher Price' on the side).

All's I remember is we are preforming a song for an audience of 6 or 8 people in my grandparent's garage and people are booing us, until A runs into the garage dressed only in short-shorts and an unzipped leather vest and screams 'Penis' repeatedly. The crowd goes wild.

-+-

I get taken with my grandparents and parents to eat at the grocery store deli counter where there is a small sitting area (not present IWL). I cannot help but think what an unglamorous affair this seems like, as the four of them get involved in a heated discussion about complicated yet nonsensical political matters, and I continually try to indicate that I want to go home, and will walk home by myself.

My father complains of a flapping sound. There is a soft plastic sign above us that is flapping around and he can't figure out why. I look up and see the sign and there is a big green metal casing with an electric motor in it that is supposedly there to pull up the sign but the mechanism is broken.

My father complains for several minutes about why the store needs such a mechanism. I tell him if it bothers him so much he should tell the manager, but he says he won't do that because the manager would kick him out of his favorite store and it's better just to complain about it. My grandparents join in in finding things to complain about the store. I decide I've had enough and leave. (For some reason deciding to leave by walking behind the deli counter, into a storeroom and out the back door of the sore.)

I head outside. It is nighttime and I am now on a beach. I see two Jacks out there who continually flex their muscles and strike symmetrical poses attempting to impress some girls. I say 'hi' to them and high five both of them simultaneously before walking past. I look at the moon and see that it is irregularly shaped and smaller than it should be. It looks like a large asteroid. I become lucid.

I use some stabilization commands, and then start moving my feet in a skating motion to get across the water, the water turning to ice beneath my feet. I get to a small island where there is a swimming pool and a small building, presumably a locker room. I decide to practice water manipulation and with relative ease am able to force all the water to one end of the swimming pool.

I then realize that I have to go poo and decide I should wake myself up to do so, hoping I can do a WBTB and follow up. But upon waking up I realized the feeling was some kind of illusion created by the dream.

-+-

In one of my least-favorite brands of dreams, I was playing Minecraft. I was killed by some kind of enemy monster that was like an animated pool table that shot pool balls at me. I became disproportionately emotional, like a small child would, and started crying with outrage at my character's death.

-+-

I was at some kind of animation showcase. Rebecca Sugar (the woman who created Steven Universe) is there. She shows me a new Steven universe episode. I don't recall much of the episode, other than there was a part in where Steven was a young toddler, maybe about 2 or 3. This was when he said his first words while Pearl was feeding him ice cream and he licked it off her fingers. It seemed like the typical cute SU moment but there was some off-putting music playing and I thought something scary was going to happen.

...

Later there was a portion of another animation that had two people climbing a huge stone face underground. They looked like some re-interpretation of Milo and Kida from the disney atlantis movie. Milo got a metal spike in his arm and started bleeding profusely but then discovered he had some type of healing ability and was able to heal the wound.

2017, 07-18

Snakes!

I am at my house with my mother. It isn’t the house we currently live it, rather it’s the one on Calle Kino where we lived quite a few years ago. We go outside to take the garbage and recyclable bins to the end of the driveway. I push one and she pushes the other. We get them out ok and then turn to come back in. When I turn around I stop so quickly that I fall on my ass. There is a rattlesnake not far in front of me. I am probably within striking distance right now. I start to move slowly away from the agitated snake. I glance behind me to make sure I wasn’t heading towards anything dangerous and I see another rattlesnake behind me! Looking around I see a total of five rattlesnakes around my mom and me. I manage to get to my feet and then my mom and I take the only opening to get away from the snakes.

Once we are back safely in the house my mom seems to completely forget the snakes ever existed. I, on the other hand, am paranoid of finding snakes in the house. I look around the rooms but I see no snake. I then hear a bark from outside. We have an enclosed porch on the back of the house and the dog is waiting outside the sliding glass doors that lead outside. I recognize the dog as our current dog, Max. My mom opens the door and goes into the enclosed porch. It is getting dark out now so I can’t see into the corners of the enclosed porch. I get a flashlight and shine it into the darkness at a suspiciously shaped object. It’s a snake! There’s a snake in the enclosed porch now! I tell my mom and she urges the dog to hurry from the outside door into the main house. We go in after and close the door. I look at a cage on a table and see my hamster inside. I am thinking I haven’t fed my hamster for far too long. I sprinkle food into the cage and the hamster eats happily. I am wondering what to do about snakes when I wake up.

1. I returned to California and my old job in the housekeeping department at a resort. I was about to go to work, talking with a dream character roommate, when I remembered that I wasn't able to do that job anymore due to health issues. I wondered how I was going to be able to do it, decided I would have to start slow to keep from ending up in the hospital again.

2. Still in California, but the dream shifted. I was a companion of the Doctor-- Tom Baker era. I had witnessed or heard something in some building (I don't remember what), and told him about it. He said he believed me and we began traveling all over the world to investigate: first Venezuela, then London, and finally Galveston, TX. We traveled in a car, but the car was able to instantaneously arrive at our destinations.