non-lucid

Dream Eleven (10.12.2022)

I had a dream that I was looking at a map of Russia. It didn't look like real life. Russia was divided into multiple parts that other countries were now ruling. I distinctly remember there was one part that was super tiny. Russia had retreated to a small section around Moscow. I got a weird sensation when I realized that was what that map represented. The dream glitched. My mom was sending me to the grocery store for her. I ended up in the theme park district but all the rollercoasters were by the road and impossibly tall. I was like "oops" and went inside SeaWorld. I promptly forgot what I was supposed to be doing and got in line for Mako.

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid FA / AP

Meeting Nighthawk at some party at a friends' place. We end up alone in a room and when I am sure no one is coming and the ice isn't breaking, I approach him and decidedly show him my desire to kiss him. He resists, saying he can't or mustn't, but I insist. He clearly wants it to, but he claims that if he caves in, his desire will become violent and uncontrollable and it won't be possible to turn around. I say I don't care, so we start kissing and unzipping our pants and we... fuck. It is very detailed and graphic, like at some point we talk about how deep he is in and I say he could be more. So, NSFW content... Then some nosy kid enters the room accidentally and sees us. We ask him not to say a word to anyone and he swears he won't, but we know he is going right away to tell everyone and soon a bunch of people will barge in this room, so we quickly zip our pants back and we run out of the room to avoid that embarassment.

I was in a dream location that felt something like the front of my old subdivision. There is no road leading into it though, just a grass clearing through trees where the road should be and maybe a paved walking path. I am walking around in the woods non-lucid collecting sets of glittering silver feathered wings. They flap slowly while remaining stationary in the air and sparkle while colorful wisps of glowing energy circle around them. I am collecting them as they are "elytra" or something. Items which are supposed to help with in-dream flight but also a reference to the dreamviews practice of getting "wings" for completing tasks.

I become semi lucid and set out to do a task. I have two tasks, one of them is a falsely-remembered DV task to seek out a nightmare and confront it. The other is (for whatever reason) to try and find DawnEye11 and ask her why she left DV. I fly to the front yard of my old house though this location is not an exact replica. It is much bigger and there are more plants in it. I ask the dream to show me a nightmare and it shows me a strange version of Toothless from HTTYD. Though he continuously gets more and more eyes and his body and posture become larger and more menacing. Even in its deformed state the creature still looks cute and harmless but I in my semi-lucid state decided to punch it anyway (old habits die hard, I guess). I remember i uppercut the beast on its jaw in a very cartoony fashion.

I then had a false awakening where i gleefully woke up and reported my "lucid" findings to dreamviews. DawnEye11 came back on the site. She showed me a comic about Jak's past, apparently shed had a semi-shared dreaming experience with my. In it the monster that i had just fought ended up seriously wounding him by cutting his stomach open. He, Jak, was depicted laying on a hospital bed with his father next to him. I thought it weird as she did not seem like the kind of person to draw a gorey scene, and though it was drawn in what sort of looked like her art style it had only flat colors and most of the gore was replaced with spaghetti with meat sauce and parmesan cheese. Though I think there was an actual intestine in there.

Jack at the property marker with Erik cutting

Found a gas line exposed in the middle of the driveway
no gas to property was a good RC moment but missed it.

Felt a sense of sadness as my father was sick and Jack was present.

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid FA / AP

Blown by a strong wind, get KO and when I wake up I am in a parallell universe. I am with the same partner but all my pets are different: the cats are dogs, yet I recognize them all and I have quite a few more than the ones I know.

Kidnapped and forced to detonate a bomb. Several people caught in the same situation refused to do it and blew the bombs elsewhere, hurting their plans. I want to do something similar, but I also want to survive it. At the last minute the bad guys realize my plan, so they send me with a handler to control me. I still manage to find the right spot, where blowing the bomb won't harm others and I manage to jump and throw the bomb away, so it blows while I escape it. I watch the bad guy being projected and his head smashing against a wall. I am only hurt but people find me and care for me. They know what I did and they celebrate. I get acquainted with the locals and I meet some autistic kid that I become fond of. We become friends and he loves to hug me and I love covering him in kisses.

I encounter my uncle Filipe under the bridge in Alhandra. I throw a cup of nuts to his head and then try to hit him, but then he looks like my cousin João and I feel pity of him. He also looks scared and I tell him I want to forgive him. He burst into tears and we hug, but he still says he can't let go of my mom's betrayals, so I yell at him that he is insane and all my mom did was being a saint and done nothing but favors to him and her siblings by caring for their parents. He understands I am serious. Still he is not entirely sure I am saying the truth. I then leave to meet mom who is calling me on the phone, worried. But as we speak, I find myself in Vila Franca, looking for a bus to get back to Alhandra. The town is full of highschoolers and college kids all tanned in bathing suits and party clothes, but there is also a bunch of nerds dressed as Halloween characters. For some reason I end up fighting with the nerds with a bat while they brandish fake swords.

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid FA / AP

At some place that looks like Monchique, where I am attending teachings. I meet some old friends, like Berna. One of these acquaintances sees me on a street when we're in the town centre and decides to be playful, so she invites me for a dance down the street. People find it funny and artistic. Then we all head to the tent where we have the teachings, and it is on top of the hill where the city ends and the forest starts. For some reason the tent is also very steep and people have to hold on to poles and other structures to stay in place. At some point people are grabbing each other and packed as sardines in a can, to be able to stay inside the tent. Amidst the chaos, my teacher emerges in the middle of the crowd to be right by my side. He holds my hand and kisses my cheek and whispers something to my ear, like he is so happy to see me again.

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid FA / AP

At my mom's place and there is a big event going on. There are groups from several disciplines, from chemistry to politics. I am going around ensuring people have what they need. In the political group, there's this awful fascist guy who seems to have an interest in me. I hate him, but I am enjoying his attention and wondering how I can use it against him. I am picking up some of my personal documents from the dining room table by the window when the chemistry group barges in with lots of large posters and rolls of paper with formulas and in a frenzy about something urgent. I leave them be and I go around meeting other groups, when something bad in the chemistry group happens and some chemical or biological sample is released. It drives some people out of their minds and they start attacking others. Then it spreads and I realize it is a zombie attack. There is no escape from this full house, so I open the window behind me and use the rope from the shutters to rappel down the building. I enter through the window of some other house where apparently I have family or friends. They are just enjoying their rest and I tell them to gather food and prepare to leave because there is a zombie attack just starting. They don't believe me, so I go look outside and indeed many have already reached the streets and are climbing peoples' windows and balconies and going inside their houses. First we close all windows but one has some problem and I am unable to close it before having to fight off some zombies trying to come in. Finally we put some heavy furniture blocking it to gain some time and I tell the others that our best chance is to go up onto the attic and stay there with food and water for some time until the first wave attack is over. Some of them agree with me, some don't, and some girl starts making a lot of noise with her insistence in going out and I worry she'll attract more zombies. When we open the door to go upstairs we listen first if there is any agitation. There isn't, but then a couple ladies who don't look like zombies, attack us in a different way. They drop two ladybugs' bombs on us. Basically it's like two bombs full of ladybugs that release thousands of ladybug which immediately stick to our skin and orifices. I have my ears clogged. This is just a distraction, because soon after we start getting attacked by the zombies. Predicting this, I run to the kitchen to get a sharp knife and hand other knifes to the rest of the group. Then a couple zombies also bring knifes and try to get close to slash me. I fight them both and manage to stick the knife on the brain and neck of the first one. He makes some comment when he realizes I got him, like not believing I got him. The other one I think is his brother, so obviously he gets pissed. We fight and I win, but then I am overwhelmed by a constant flow of anime characters with katanas and other weapons and I don't understand why they are so intent on killing me. At some point I am fighting maybe ten at the same time but already managed to steal at least one katana from the arm I cut off of someone. On one hand the katana on the other still the kitchen knife. Then I start levitating to fight them in the air and only a couple of the have the same ability, greatly increasing my odds.

Dream Ten (10.11.2022)

I was at Busch Gardens again in front of SheiKra. Then I went into a vast bathroom that was completely empty. All the stalls were blue and only went up to my shoulders. I went into a stall. What's weird is even though it was completely empty, I said "everyone raise your hands" and felt the presence of hundreds of hands being raised despite no one actually being there. Then there was some "story" of a boy and a girl. I was watching the dream in third person. The girl wanted to go back in time to the 18th century. At the end of this "story", she finally made it there. There was epic music playing (a mixture of rock and choir). The boy was smiling. The girl in the 18th century was also smiling as she walked through a fancy church and disappeared into a crowd outside. Then I woke up.

Also, do you guys ever ever have indescribable or near indescribable dreams? Because there's this dream I had years ago that still spooks my mind because its hard to describe. I just remember being in a computer lab and suddenly there was this strange shot of a unnamed girl on a boat. She was in some sort of... sea that could be compared to a chunky, synthwave grid but the colors were white and the grid lines were bright yellow. A texture, almost (that undulated and shook). I got the feeling this girl was sad and literally drifting through different realities on a spacetime grid. It's so weird. And it was weird because it had nothing to do with me, I was just seeing this girl briefly for some reason. My fiancé has had these sort of dreams before too. The most notable being one where he was a speck of dust floating near the moons of Jupiter. He said it's stuck with him since. The feelings the memory of these sort of dreams give off is also indescribable. A warm, melting feeling in my chest. Not happiness nor contentment. But not a negative feeling either. Almost a "how is our minds coming up with these images and stories?"

Another dream I had like this was many years ago when I was in middle school. There were beehives made of light nestled in a storm above my house. I would love to hear everyone's thoughts!

prelude: for those interested in the synchronicity between what is going on in the solar system & our dream lives, the planets of the unconscious are the three outer ones. right now pluto is stationary direct. pluto represents the deepest collective unconscious, death & rebirth, transformation, & volcanic emotion from the depths, as in social revolution. it can mean treachery & betrayal, deep resentment & hatred, jealous scheming. it is the worst of corporate politics: the plutocrats. it also represents the true survivor, the one who has been through the fire & back & lived to tell the tale. it can represent nightmare hell. don't be surprised if this kind of symbolism turns up in your current dreams.

i had two nightmares last night. ho-hum. in one that seemed to last all night, i was an actor in a movie that was being made up as it went along. the plot involved me being stalked. i would confront my stalkers & taunt them, coming very close to violence, but usually ended up having to run. the actors playing my stalkers seemed to have genuine animosity towards me. it was decided that the movie would end with the stalkers catching up with me & doing me in, which disgusted me. as the killer closed in on me, i wadded up a big bunch of paper money & threw it in her face, hard. then i woke up.

later in the night i found myself hurtling down a narrow freeway extremely fast. i started passing through a city & was getting to the edge of control, so i went for the brake, but the car had no brake. i woke up with my foot tangled in the blanket, trying to stomp the brake.

Woke up this morning without much dream recall, but I smoked some weed and ate junk food last night so that was no surprise. I only really remember an image of an ex-girlfriend (A. A), and drinking a soft drink that felt highly refreshing. In the afternoon I had a nap which included a small dream.

V. was in a rush to catch a bus to Coventry, and I was with her. The weird thing was, I knew that I wasn’t there – I was trying to get to Leicester from somewhere, and was a part of her bus journey somehow. It was like I was a fly on the wall following her getting her bus, and she was late. She arrived almost at the stop when she looked around the corner and said “Double Decker Bus!” and quickly made a run for a nearby bus stop – the bus stopped within plenty of time, and she got on. It was almost as if she was narrating her journey, like she was in a film or something.

There were some girls gossiping on the bus, including one I have recently seen on Tinder. They were laughing about a lady’s name, it was a random name like “Tina Jacketson” or something. Perhaps I was with Vicki after all, because not long after this, I was sat down with her standing on my lap somehow, looking for something. She looked down at me at one point and apologized for standing on me, which I said was no problem.

I had a few thoughts that I hadn’t even considered where I was going or how to get to my city – I was just aimlessly following Vicki, which could be some sort of symbolism of what I’ve been doing for the last year.

Dream Eight (10.5.2022)

Björk was hosting some kind of three day weekend rave for her new album ("Fossora") at her house. Everything looked blue and psychedelic (like the album art). I asked my best friends if they were coming and but only my fiancé was able to come. Then there was a scene of me facing off against a random lady in front of Björk on who could drink more straight tequila. A brief, trippy subatomic scene (like from "Ant-Man") played after I drank. I woke up. (I could see almost Björk and also Grimes doing something like this - crazy rave at their house - because they've both DJed extensively before. You know it'd be a crazy party but I feel they would actually care about their guests. And not just because I'm fans of both. I just feel like they're genuine creators. Legit only the only wild party I'd ever attend if it was real. I know they'd have the best DJ material! This dream felt so warm and fun. Also, love the new album! Was able to get it on release day and was so excited to see it in stores immediately.)

Haven't remembered any dreams the last couple of mornings, but I had a mid-afternoon nap today and had a funny old dream. I kinda stupidly had a Monster energy drink at lunch time, and those things have a weirldy opposite effect on me where they make me want to nap hard. I guess the stimulation from the caffeine keeps me slightly awake when I dream too, so I often remember them. Certainly won't be making a habit of that though!

I was on holiday somewhere really nice with a very random group of people. Much like my last dream, it was in a fancy villa with tiled floors and lots of natural light. It felt a bit more exotic than Italy this time though. My parents were both there, my sister and her fiance might have been there, but strangely my ex-girlfrined (we only broke up yesterday, sadly) was there as was another couple. Bizarrely, the other couple was my ex-girlfriend's best friend's parents, who I met at a birthday party (awesome people, I would deffo go on holiday with them IRL!).

All I really remember about the holiday was one scene - everyone was slowly getting ready to go out. Everyone was either freshly showered, showering, or getting ready to shower. I remember rather a lot of nudity, everyone seemed very comfortable around each other. This probably stems from me recently joining a spa/gym where everyone in the shower area is very comfortable with nudity. One of the showers was even right in the middle of the main hallway, which my ex-girlfriends best friend's dad was using. I was wandering around naked with a towel over my shoulder, on my way to the shower too.

I passed through a dark bedroom where my ex-girlfriend was sleeping in an armchair. I gave her a tap and sung her name, and she hazily woke up and I told her it was time to get ready to go. It felt like we were going out for dinner, but the way I said this suggested we were packing our bags to leave. I walked out of the bedroom into a garden, which felt very African. Exotic plants, red dirt and dry grass, not to mention there was a damn elephant!

I remember being very comfortable with the elephant - he was the neighbours pet, and in fact he wasn't like an elephant at all. Whilst he did have a trunk and he was large, it was very slim in the middle and weird gill-like features. It actually reminds me of a real animal or sea creature that I have seen before, but I can't quite put a finger on what that is. I walked around the garden to a large house gate which was the neighbours, where I was going for my shower. I never got to the shower though - I just woke up!

Well, that was everything! It was a pretty neutral dream - I remember some people having bad vibes about the elephant, but I knew it was safe.

I haven't been able to dream journal much lately because my dreams take on a strange intangible feel where not much of it really translates well to journal form. Last night my girlfriend and I did a staycation at our favorite hotel and the beds there are magnificent. Weighted blanket and a down pad.

I got very good sleep and even woke up naturally 10 minutes before the wbtb alarm I set. Nothing much would come from it because I fell back asleep to quickly without trying WILD or MILD.

10.04.2022
7:00 AM

Dream Watch (non-lucid)

I am in an unfamiliar bedroom. It is dark but I see a nice watch on the nightstand. I pick it up. It has dark leather straps, a dark face, and grey metal case. I check it against the clock on the wall and realize it is two and a half hours slow but it is ticking at the right rate. I pop out the knob and start adjusting it but it's hard to see the dials clearly in the dark.

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid FA / AP

Attending some teachings, some place up in the mountains with an amphitheatre. Some old students and western lamas are conspiring to betray my teacher. They are exposed and they are sent away. Joakim was not among them, but he concerns me a lot. I know that he is no longer a buddhist, has some new non recommended friends for company, so I suspect he is around only to cause harm. I stay close and keep an eye on him.

New series on TV with Keanu Reeves. He plays a lawyer with a split personality. He sometimes dresses up to match the personalities, but it is highly disturbing. One of them is a dog and he wears a dog costume and walks on four legs and looks weirdly like a real dog from the uncanny valley. Some other of his personalities are of black guys and he paints himself in black face. The makeup is so perfect that all we see is really a black guy, but we know who's underneath and I am shocked that he is actually doing this on a show in 2022. Then an episode in which he is the dog becomes a real life experience for me and I meet dog Keanu on the street. Although I know there is a person in there, I pretend I don't know and I pet him and talk to him as if he is a lost pet. He never says a word and then he runs across the street away from me and enters a bulding. I go after him. I walk through a long twisted corridor and I see many families gathered in rooms, mourning their loved ones, or just visiting them and realize it is some kind of hospice. Dog Keanu disappears at the end of the corridor and I get lost inside the last room, only to find my mother and my aunt Ludovina laying down in beds. At first I think they are restrained because my mom has an eye mask and for a while it seemed like she had a mouth gag. Turns out she is just taking a nap and she wakes up and moves freely. She explains that my uncle Francisco managed to get some legal document saying they both are insane and needed to be committed so the hospital complied. But she says that the situation is being solved right now and she is just resting before she leaves this place. Then my dad and aunt Lisa arrive and they say they just challenged the decision and are awaiting their release. Then both my uncles come by to confront them and for some reason I have a really big heavy pan on my hands and I threathen to smash it against their f-ing heads if they come any closer. They actually get really scared and go to a corner at the back of the room. Their kids also come, namely João, Sara and André and they are shocked with my behaviour but I also feel that they understand it. I hear my uncles talking in the background with other people, arguing they need the family money because sometimes their kids go hungry. I feel sad for my cousins, but it's their parents fault and not my mother's. I wanna reach out to them, but every one is staying quiet in their places so I decided to do the same as we wait for the legal fight to unravel.

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid FA / AP

On a hot air baloon with my boyfriend and another friend (not the same as in RL, I don't really know them). It crashes in the sea and we're rescued by sailors. They treat me ok, until the captain lusts for me and says he wants to possess me. My boyfriend does nothing and says nothing and I start loathing him. His friend also stays quiet, they just want to get out alive. I end up at home somehow with no recollection of all that happened in between.
At my old bedroom in my mom's house, trying to sleep. But the room is haunted! The furniture is moving to the middle of room, the drawers open by themselves. I go wake up my mom, she doesn't see anything, but she helps me put things in their place. Then she leaves and one of my dolls is possessed and starts making sounds. I gather my courage and confront the spirit and ask what they want. They say they want me. I dare them to appear. They do, they look androginous, sexy, remind me of Desire of the Endless, appearing both male and female. We have a long talk, they want me to sign a paper, I refuse. They say I'll be their sexual slave, wanting or not and they taunt me by describing what they'll do to me. I confess I start to feel a bit horny and decide to twist it and I seduce the demon instead. I expose my breasts and dare them to lick them. They do. I put aside my disgust when I see their long triangular shaped tongue and I get closer and kiss them. I caress their breasts too and then their dick, until I cause an erection and make them cum. I feel like I avoided the worst but then they say I'll be coming to live with them in some place underwater and show me it on a map. I say no. They laugh and say I have no choice as I am carrying their baby. I am confused. Then the captain who had rescued/kidnapped me before appears out of nowhere and they reveal he is an extension or avatar of the demon. They laugh and say they didn't need to impregnate me now because I am impregnated already. I say no way and I run to the bathroom. I know it is possible, I am trying to feel if I can feel it inside me growing. I want to abort, I also know they'll never allow it. I panic.