non-lucid

4.27.15

I work night shifts now, and my recall is shot to hell. Not easy to dream or recall if you sleep 2.5 hr naps, once or twice a day. But today I managed a 6.5 hr nap from 1pm - 7:30 pm, and I had dreams. In fact, was dreaming the whole time.

DR
The theme of the nap was... work. Working the whole nap. Wasn't bad, kinda rehersing the plan for tonight. Who is gonna do what and if we manage to do it all timewise.

DR
I'm late for work and when I grab my phone to call that I'm coming in right now, the phone has all red text saying the batteries are very low, and can't retrieve the number I need to call. So I find a charger and plug it in. Suddenly there are people from work there telling me it's ok to be late once in a while, but I need to call to let them know I'm coming. The phone looked like the one I have now.

DR
I'm standing next to OpheliaBlue and we are talking about some cooking gadgets. She was smiling, all happy and content. I toot and I'm like oh crap she is so close, she will know.

DR
Somebody gave me a $100 bill and I was telling Ophelia I'm giving it her for something that she did for me in the recent past.

I could actually recall one short dream tonight!

Next class

I was in the gymnasium for my first class. It just ended and everyone seem to have left. The gym had around the same shape as my current one but there was a stage set on the far wall. A bunch of little kids, around 5th graders, came and they were getting ready to play pin dodgeball. I was leaving too but I accidentally knocked over a pin and bent over to pick it up. The bottom was slanted and it took some effort to set it straight. I was heading by the door and for some reason the teacher of my next period class was there. He was going to lead the class I just had over to the next. Bear in mind this teacher was the one I had last semester, he doesn't currently teach me. We were heading up these stairs and we went through these hallways which looked very similar to a basement. We then reached a three way intersection and we went through one way. But around 3 other people went the other way. I was worried they were going to skip so I followed them and they were just sitting around this area. I forget what they said but I wasn't worried anymore so I went back to the classroom. I had to sit in this very deep black chair, which I assumed to be painted that way, so I was about to sit down when a girl behind me left her chair and sat down there. I told the teacher and asked me if I think she was actually a girl. I don't know .-. . All her friends were staring and giggling. I said no and they all burst out laughing. The girl, who was just smiling at me with a mad expression just turned around and I went in her chair. I don't know what happens after here.

I think it's safe to say that school related things or people is my dream sign, but I'm not assuming anything yet. I'll give it another week (If I can remember any dreams during it ;-; ).

Black: non-dream
Blue: non-lucid
Red: lucid

Dream - House fire and investigation

It's night time and there's news about a terrible house fire that claimed a property on the countryside. I'd say there was a definite sinister atmosphere in this dream, one of suspense and mystery revolving around murder. I seem to be driving past and I spot the flames... I'm not sure what kind of vehicle it was, I think I was kind of influenced by the sand boats in the 'Sands of Destruction' anime. Anyways... We (me and 2 others, I don't recall ever seeing their faces) investigate to see if we can catch the criminal, we sneak onto the property and the police haven't arrive on scene yet. I get the feeling that we could be blamed if we get caught but the others said it's okay because of the security cameras or something O_O. We continue on, the property has two main housings in it, walking along the driveway we find the first smoldering heap of the incinerated building, the second was down another driveway to our left. We head down the next driveway and the property is intact, suddenly one of my companions runs up and attacks someone who's in the window followed by a loud crash and bang.. But it turns out they're laughing together, and it was just some joke my companion was playing on his friend who was crawling through the window. The scene and atmosphere change radically around this point, we walk inside the house and there's a group of misfits chilling out. I now had purpose of finding someone... I don't remember who, how or why I was looking for this person but I walked outside and lo and behold, the sun is out and shining and there's a bunch of people grouped up in a way that could only mean they were standing on bleachers. The colour pink is quite strong and at least a few of the girls (of which there seemed to be HEAPS) had pom poms. There were a few of these girls walking around nearby in an extremely ditsy manner, one girl saying "O.M.G. like where is everybody?" which reflected my current goal of finding someone... She was also waving her arms around which I had to duck under because she was such an idiot -.-. The strangest thing happened next, I had something in my left ear which I felt underneath my hearing aid, I try flicking it out which I think I did with success as I see a bug on the ground... But then I suddenly have something in my throat and it's making me choke, I start hyperventilating and my mind is like "wtf is going on? Is this even possible?" then I end up waking up...

Note: my unexpected lucids seem to have ended with the completion of my 2 reports and poster speech :/ I think it was mostly related to the fact that when I get stressed out I would wake up in the middle of the night thinking about the list of things I had to do, which raised my awareness and allowed me to have these spontaneous lucids without trying.

Note: also a note about this dream is how real all those feelings felt, it didn't quite sink in until that last part where I truly felt I was choking.

Non-lucid
Really long nap wow 12:30PM-2PM
I'm at a train station with Becca, Jarred, Agassi, my father's side, not including my grandparents, and Jessie, Jeronimo, and Layla. They're all following Becca, Jarred, Agassi and I. We accidentally get on the wrong train, then get off at the first stop to switch back. "Oh my God Alex, I can't believe you got us lost!" Jessie says jokingly, with a big grin.
Rayanna sits on the side of the platform. I gasp, and say "No no no! Don't sit there!" Her mother does too, and she finally leaves the edge. Brandon starts climbing all over things like he's a bored child. Aunt T comes over and says, "Alex, you think everyone looks the same!"
"I do not!"
Brandon and Rayanna both come stand beside her and talk to AJ, who is now beside me (but wasn't with us before). I start looking at my cousins profiles, how their faces are so different. Rayanna has a hooked nose (she doesn't in real life).
"See, I can see how they're different!"
My aunt just shakes her head like she doesn't believe me.
I faintly hear the train coming down the tunnel to greet us.
Then, I wake up.

Little People

I was trying to fall asleep on my bed. Than all of sudden the dream scene cut to this other guy who was wearing a long black jacket. He was telling me that when he goes to sleep he tries to find the right position and something about his characters. After that I was walking inside a library, at least i think it was and i noticed what looked like little people toys walking on the floor. There were a lot. I couldn't see where they were going because a book shelf was blocking my view.So I went to look and a guy mentioned how he was leading them somewhere. Than the scene cut to this blonde guy on the street telling a blonde lady she can't sing. She asked him for a mic and he gave her one. Than the scene changed to a basketball court where this old guy with messy hair had lice and everyone was running away from him.


The Eye Medallion

First I was with my younger brother talking to him about something somewhere but than I noticed I was in a dream. Think we were outside in a city when I noticed we were.The city I was at had snow on the ground and was foggy. I got the urge to summon Jade into my dream to see what he would do so that is exactly what I did. I thought of jade as I was flying and than I see him riding on a bike. I tell him to race me and he ends up pedaling really fast behind me. I laugh than tell him he wont be able to catch me and try speeding up my flying. When I turn around I can see him not that far away, below me. He has his hands reaching out for my foot to pull me down. I keep moving forward and notice a dragon pop out of no where. The dragon was getting in our way so we ended up crashing onto the floor. I sighed than blamed the dragon for ruining the fun I was having. Jade came up to me and said it was okay and that we could do it again I think but I said I didn't want to. I spotted a bread with a piece of egg on the floor, bit it, than told Jade I just wanted for everything to go well.

We than started walking away and ended up inside a big room filled with people. The place almost looked like the layout of the inside of my house but not really. I remember looking around with Jade and wondering what/who will be able to answer a question about my dream guides. As I was looking I think that is when a lady or my younger brother ended up giving me what looked like a medallion with a symbol of a eye on it. They told me to use it to find the answer to my question. There was no chain on it though. I went into a room that turned out to be my living room and asked Jade if he thought I should use it. He said something like "yeah, if its worth finding out". I looked at the Eye and suddenly it said "This is the all seeing Eye of the future!" than laughed in a evil manner and fire started to appear around the Eye. I got scared but decided to just try and read the purple words that formed on the medallion. First on the top it read something about how revenge would mean demise and than it said something about how "At the end you won't be able to turn back". Than I saw that the Eye had what looked like a pyramid around it now and what looked like a 66 number began appearing. I threw it and was really freaked out.

I started mentioning how I didn't know it was that kind of Eye. My younger brother was near and told me not to worry about it. Something was coming out of the medallion though.That is when I false awakened on my bed but than not being able to move made me realized i was still inside a dream. "I will be able to wake up from this dream starting now!" I thought and thought again. I than thought about how maybe if i blinked my eye and thought about opening my real eyes it would work but it didn't. I could hear something in another room near by and wanted to wake up even more now. I manged to break my arm free from the paralysis and started biting my fingers. They were chewy and this wasn't helping at all. " This is definitely not going to work. Maybe If i feel pain i will wake up." I thought to myself than started imagining my fingers solid as i bit them. It was working a bit but then I just reappeared on the bed again. " Please don't be a dream" I said than tried moving.Still asleep." If my mind doesn't want me to wake up, I guess I'll just stay here till I'm suppose to." I said annoyed.

I than managed to get up after a bit of force. When I got up I felt strings around my arms and got that weird vibe. I closed the door in the room but it wan't working. The dc from the medallion was coming closer. I recognized its voice and it started scaring me. The only comforting thing was that there was a girl dc in the room with me sitting on a floating chair.I know I should be use to this by now but I just prayed to God again telling him I was afraid in a lucid dream again. Suddenly the girl on the chair got some kind of telepathic message asking her what she saw." I see a picture of a moon" she said as she looked at what was a picture of a moon, on a wall above. "Maybe this moon is a way to comfort me" I thought. Than the girl started mentioning something about there being other moons i think. I still tried closing the door fully though but it wouldn't help. After that I turned around and saw a opening in the wall where you could see the outside.

IT was raining and there was a squirrel on the ground that was carrying a nut. I flew outside above some boxes laying around and to the front of my house. My family was outside on the porch looking out at the rain. I thought about how nice this place was than somehow appeared in my older brother's room. There I began to jump on the bed to try and make it upstairs but than the guy from the medallion came inside the room. He looked like a chubby, kind of short, white american man. I jumped on a tall empty book shelf that was present in the room and threw a glass vase at the guy's head. His head rolled off smoothly and he laughed as he put it back on."Is this suppose to scare me?" I thought than jumped off. I looked at the dc carefully and he smiled than said something about me not wanting to do something else. He said "What this girl wants is to get pregnant!" than my stomach grew really big and i felt a pinching feeling in my tummy. "Stomach turn back to normal!"I said than my stomach shrunk. I saw a brown belt to the side of the dc and thought about how I wanted to continuously whip him with the belt but decided not to since that would be really cruel. Even God would not be proud.

The guy than lay on his back on the bed and looked at me with his head up. I felt sort of bad for the dc but at the same time i didn't really care for him. So I put my hands over his eyes, wanting him to close them. He sort of in a way looked like a puppy that was begging to be pet or something like that. I took my hands off than took note of how the dc's skin felt than woke up.

Hands(Little fragment of the third dream)

Two dream characters are inside a futuristic looking ship. The older man asks the young guy to look at the back of his hands than says" Not much people get the S on their hands but it means that their a star".

I went to driver training center, to start training for driver's license. I went inside a car, and started the engine. I drove slowly through the roads leading nowhere. I couldn't drive straight at first, but I managed to driver properly later on.

I remember becoming lucid and some stuff happening, a few minutes went by. I think I was inside my own house for most of it.

I only remember the conclusion of the lucid dream where I went outside in my neighborhood. I saw two moons in the sky and they both had cracks filled with magma running across the surface. I decided I wanted to fly to them. I started flying. I knew that I had flown to a nearby moon/planet before so this shouldn't be too difficult. However, I lost the dream. I tried to stabilize and come back lucid, but I woke up instead.

-WBTB, woke up for potty-

I had a dream that I was a character in a comedy movie that my parents were watching called 'Gregory gets drunk'. (Funny that isn't my name IWL or in a dream.) I was actually a little kid named gregory in the dream. This caused me to be partially lucid, that coupled with the fact that I knew I was a character and not a real person.

The bad guy made me wear this helmet that caused my consciousness to be dissonant from time and took me into the future where I was an adult, but still the same person. He then forced me to drink this alcoholic beverage, some kind of fruity soda that had whiskey in it. I started feeling woozy and clumsy and started bumping into things around the house. The house was the same as my house as a kid and the same as my waking life house.

The bad guy wanted to put the helmet back onto me so that he would send me back to being a little kid and then I would be drunk as a child. This had something to do with a ploy to get someone in trouble. But he couldn't get the helmet back on me because I was all loopy and running around.

Toward the end of the dream, I ended up going blind and having to make my way around on sense of touch alone. I started to become more lucid as time went on, too.

Non-lucid
I was in the mountains with a bunch on people I know. AJ had a cold sore-like thing on her tongue, and I looked at a diagram of medical issues of the mouth, and jokingly said "it's the black plague". AJ laughed but mom didn't.
Then, I wake up.

Morning of April 27, 2015. Monday.



As I have stated in other entries, I have come to learn that many in-dream events (especially those in final scenarios) are little more than a metaphor for the sleeping, dreaming, and waking processes themselves (though may have other viable and eventually validated associations, including precognition and visually exact remote viewing). This was obvious to me even as a child and this dream is a good example of that.

In my dream, I am in my home (though rendered as being much larger and more spacious for where the game console is) and I am playing some sort of first person computer game which is probably projected halfway up onto the southwest wall so that the top of the image of the playing field is near the ceiling - this setup of which is sparsely recurring but which I have never witnessed in reality. As I have rarely played computer games in real life over the past several years (other than “Doom” and “Age of Empires”), my dream is lacking more significant real-life associations. I am not even sure if it is a first person shooter. There is someone else in my dream, a younger unknown male, and I am possibly testing the game for him or his company as the game seems to be in a debug mode.

As I maneuver through the maze-like game, there is really nothing to do except move and turn through hallways, though sometimes with unusual transparent “rods” at a corner stopping me from more freely making a turn - it is almost like moving past and pulling at a passive diagonally positioned wire-frame sea anemone (positioned near a set of about four wider steps to another hallway entrance) though nothing breaks; everything falls back into position if my maneuvering stretches parts of the environment (which is not that often). The look of the game is similar to the setting of “Doom” (though without any enemies) except there is no weapon in the foreground and the scenery has a semi-transparent appearance with wire-frame rendering in some areas (though not very extensive in detail) and mostly everything is a very light blue. Still, I am enjoying my success in getting through many hallways and ninety-degree turns though again, little else happens. In some cases, a wall facing me is slightly hard to distinguish from the entrance to a hallway.

Finally, making one turn to my left, a fairly short human-like furry “monster” of a darker blue emerges from a normal wooden door (not a real threat as it is just imagery in a computer game) though just stands in the doorway, and I soon begin to wake, being somewhat annoyed that this means that the game is over and that I need to start again from the beginning even though the figure (vaguely seeming more human-like over time) does not do anything. There is no option to shoot anything or even “attack”, apparently.

Playing a computer game in a dream could be a metaphor for a type of less involved dreaming and separating yourself from a deeper or more personal dream state (in this case, likely from sleeping a bit too long and literally needing to wake up and stretch - as my game involved walking around and exploring and wire-frame structures that were stretching) just as dreaming of watching television is not being directly in one’s dream but being an outside observer and not integrated into one’s imagination more intimately.

Doors opening most often represent waking or the need to wake - especially leaping through the doorway to escape from something and waking up at that exact moment (though sometimes relative to shifting in in-dream awareness when going through a particular doorway, which could actually draw you deeper into the dream). There are exceptions. “The Furry Orange Monster” (from October 30, 1970) ends in a very similar manner as this dream (though that one had two distinct layers of precognition). At any rate, the appearance of the monster in the doorway represents my conscious self waking my dream self (even though I do not see myself as a “monster” - this is likely just an incidental association with the computer game scenario and not having seen any characters in the game prior to this - though bear in mind it did become more human-like during the waking process). As one added note on “The Furry Orange Monster”, I strongly detect an in-dream “replacement” metaphor. This time it represents me, although in my older dream, it turned out to be my older brother Jim wearing a Halloween costume. I have experienced many replacement metaphors in my life - it is another aspect of dreaming (though probably not that common) that I have never seen anyone else write about.

This becomes more obvious from a common lucid dream ability I used to use a lot in the 1980s and early 1990s; that is, closing a door with a wave of my hand and using telekinesis often made my dream far more “automatic” in my control of it in general, as I had then “closed” (”weakened”) the metaphor for waking up, causing a higher awareness in my dream self each time I performed the act.

A very vivid dream with high continuity. My dreaming personality is a little more extravagant and dramatic than my waking personality. I also have a nice little freak-out when I forget that in a dream, people communicate telepathically/empathically. Weirdly enough, it is only when I type this entry up six months later that I realise that the family at the end are very familiar.

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I was in a large, detailed town. The landscape was shaped like a bubble, with the edges of the town curving up towards the sky as though it were situated within a basin. The town proper was quite dense and centralised, comprised of public buildings and several private homes. Apartment complexes stretched up the far side of the basin on the outskirts of the town. I had a home here, several levels tall. I shared it with room mates. Behind my home were several statelier buildings and quiet winding streets.

My recall begins in my bedroom on the top floor. The town is sunny and pleasant, but I am routinely aware of a presence observing me through one of the windows. When I look out, my vision zooms to a location on the other side of the town. I see a shadow shift on a ledge as someone leaves the area, but I am not fast enough to catch a glimpse of my observer.

I walk out onto my balcony. It overlooks a public sports oval. There is a crowd gathered there, some of their number are wearing costumes. They are rehearsing for an event the next day where many would come to revel in their self-pity and cling to their vices. They were a harmless lot, ultimately likeable, but foolish. For many years I had known them well, and counted myself as one of them, but no longer.

I return inside. I am with a small group of my friends, none of whom I know in the waking world. They are all male and dressed in Victorian-era clothing. They seem taken aback when I announce that I will not be joining the festivities this year.
"Tomorrow, I will be out on my balcony, smoking. If anyone should care to join me, then they would be most welcome," I say, taking a puff from my cigar. One of the younger gentlemen piped up in response.
"Smoking? Whatever for?"
"For grandeur." I declare. They chuckle. My closest friend is sitting beside me. He shakes his head at me, but laughs all the same.

I go outside onto a lower balcony with him. The evening air is enlivening. I get a better look at him now that we are alone. He is a spritely, middle-aged man with a grand moustache and a quick wit. He is always impeccable dressed, but never too extravagant. He sits in silence, drawing from a large, glowing cigar.
"I'm going to miss these, you know," I say to him, fondly lighting a cigar of my own.
I look out across the town. The lights are off in the apartments across the basin, but the town below is still full of life.

I find myself down in the town proper. Three single-levelled buildings are arranged around a common square. The left-most structure is the workshop of a local artist and jewellery designer. She has wicked red hair, and a strong but gentle presence. I notice a young girl smoking cigarettes and dawdling around her building. When the girl finished smoking, the artist burst from her workshop and berated the girl for the lingering smell.

I had known better, but it struck me as odd that I had already known without being told. I walk around the side of the building. One of my teachers approaches, a wise woman, well-revered by the town. I addressed my concern to her in regards to my own foresight. I was so shocked that I could know what somebody had been thinking without interacting with them. The artist was passing by as I was speaking, and stopped out of curiosity. I had asked the wise woman many questions in the past, but this one surprised her. They exchanged a curious glance, and then looked back at me, puzzled. I felt that it wasn't my experience that they found bizarre, but why now I should fail to understand it.

I was going somewhere. I would lose something.

"We should sit over there and have a smoke," a youthful friend suggested to me. I had been deep in thought. We were in a large hall with others, waiting for the rain to pass. Night had fallen and I had been gazing out the great, vast windows before me. This was a familiar place.
"They're covered in water," a female friend replied. She was right. A few benches were situated on the wooden verandah outside. It artistically swept around the extended wings of the house. But for all its clever design, the walkway did not extend far enough and the eaves were too shallow; rain water dripped down onto the benches.

I returned home, sharing a few friendly words with my house mates. I proceeded upstairs to my hammock. I was uneasy about the open window through which I could be viewed, but was relieved to find it had already been closed and the blind pulled down.

The dream shifts, and I am on the rear-most carriage of a speeding train, right where I expected to be. I had caught this train many times before, and even had a good rapport with the rear guard. I rushed to the back of the train. Below the raised platform where the guard would sit, there was a thick, steel archway with a blue, metal door. It served little purpose other than my own.

I was reaching my end, somehow content with my own undoing. I had known this was coming for a while, and now the time had come to the face the music. I began to speak, a conversation I can hardly remember.
"We all come to our end eventually, don't we?" I say.
"What do you mean?" the guard replied from above. I rushed behind the door and fastened it behind me. The train was picking up speed, but I wanted to delay my moment of passing for just a few minutes longer.
"We degrade, don't we? It's a natural process. Why should we fight it? Would it not be more logical to embrace this demise?" I continued my rhetoric. I had already resolved that it would be this way, and chosen this place because it would quicken the process. Despite my verbose monologuing, my stomach still sank when I began to see the effects unfolding before me.

I held out my left arm and rolled back the sleeve. It was fading away, turning bony and pale, but also ethereal; shrinking and vanishing before my eyes. I tried to remove my watch, but it too was disappearing and hanging limply around my skeletal wrist.
"Surely it would be better not to fight it, don't you think?" I asked to my final witness, captivated by the sight before me.
"I'm sorry, I didn't quite hear what you said," the guard replied. I was snapped from my self-indulgent trance. The wind was roaring, but the guard's ears were keen. They heard every one of my final words, knew in their heart that I was misguided, and would feign deafness now rather than extend advice. My ego was inflamed.

We were slowing past a station. I deftly rolled from the train and skidded for some metres before coming to a stop near a family of three waiting patiently with their luggage. The train slowed to a halt beside me, the guard and driver both now in the engine. The guard, while distinctly the same person, was now a young female with straight brown hair. I stood up and marched over to them in rage.
"Fuck you, you piece of shit!" I screamed. They seemed rather unfazed.
Though still angry, the next few moments were filled with remorse for my behaviour. I felt compelled to apologise to the mundane folk - a rotund man and his wife - for shouting obscenities in front of their son.

April 25, 2015

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My New Mommy
I was in class with the kids but we were in this weird room. I sat in the corner with my computer, and I greeted the kids as they came in because the door was right in my corner. I remember that the room was made with light wooden floors and walls, and was very open to the outside; there were big windows. We all had on headphones with microphones that were all connected, so all we could hear was each other. I was checking kids' papers (we did research papers) and sources. M and T had the same source for their paper about women's suffrage. I walked around a little more and then sat down and turned on my headphones. K said "if i loose my mom and I'm all tragic will you be my new mommy Ms. Kestrel?" And I pretended I didn't hear it, because I wasn't sure what an appropriate response would be...

I was with K, T and M later at recess or something and we walked around the back of the school. There were interesting stairs and weird structures so I climbed the stairs and came to a pretty hill overlooking an orchard of sorts with some forested areas surrounding it. It was sunset and very pretty. It reminded me a lot of the space Zukin and I found in Germany while biking one day.



The Next Level Cult

I was in some kind of survival game, or a spiritual/intuition test. A bunch of people were let into a big room with about 7 holes in the ceiling and ladders hanging down from them. We had to pick one of the ladders to go through. N (one of my students) was there but I don think I recognized anyone else. He was trying to reach one of the ladders but couldn't because he was too small. I lifted him up to it and then went to a spot where two ladders were in the far left corner. Almost everyone was choosing the ladder that had a platform to reach it, but something drew me to the other one. It wasn't a lot harder to get to or anything, so I didn't know why everyone was going up the other one. I had to fenangle just a little bit to reach it, and climbed up...

I came up into another room with a really tall ceiling. There was also some ledges. It was as if the room before had a huge box over it, if that makes sense. There was a very short (maybe a foot tall) fence down the middle of the room, which was made of spaghetti, or something else that wasn't all that strong. There were about 15-20 people on my side and lots of people on the other side. There was a voice through a speaker somewhere. It told us that anyone who tried to cross the fence in the middle would be thrown off the edge, into something deadly... The voice also told everyone on the other side of the room to go back home. Then the guy in charge of this event came up the ladder on our side, and greeted us as people who had good intuition. The ladder test was to weed out the people whose intuition wasn't good enough for the following tests and trials.

We all sat in a circle and he explained the point of this all to us. He said we would be feasting tonight... he was sitting between me and a guy I had met and been chatting to, and he seemed to be favoring us, like talking mostly to us, or at least looking at us more. Anyway, he said we'd be feasting and then looked right at me, ran his hand down my back to my waist. "Feasting," he repeated and I was just like "No." Very firmly.

He seemed put off but in a good way, as if I had impressed him, and moved to the girl sitting next to me and said "feasting?" She said hesitantly no. He tried a few more girls and then said something about us "not liking vampires too, I guess." I rolled my eyes and we were all thinking, ugh, Twilight. The Master said, "well, I mean, I read the first books." I had to confess that I had as well in high school. Then he talked about Bella birthing Renesme and this is where it got even weirder... He got on the floor and spread his legs, pretending to be giving birth, scooting around on the floor on his butt and making weird faces. "You'd pay to see that, right?!" We were all a little disconcerted. "Right?!" He was a little crazed here, and then he zeroed in on me again which made me feel super uncomfortable. It was as if he was targeting me more now, and planned to get me pregnant, then keep everyone here for 9 months to watch me have his baby... That or like he knew I was already pregnant or something. I was starting to think this guy was an insane creep... But this test was somehow important to complete.

We moved on to a new conversation though I can't remember the topic. I know that we broke off to do a series of tests but that whenever the Master stood up and held out his hands we were to create a linked circle. It got more and more cultish. Eventually we ended up at my house; we were competing in my driveway. One of us had a little chocolate-ish blob and the other was supposed to try to squish it. I was partnered with H (one of my students) who had just appeared there. H's blob started going down the driveway hill and I was able to pretty easily squish it, so I won and started up the driveway again. It had been all nice and warm and spring-like, but once I got to the top of the driveway, in front of the garage, there was snow on the ground. I was walking through it barefoot (we were all wearing barely anything by now; short shorts and tank tops with hair pulled up) and then the Master threw snow at me and it got in my left ear. He started throwing snow at all of us, and we weren't quite sure what to do about it. None of us were sure whether this guy was a mad creep or a genius.

I went into the porch but noticed a circle gathering in the garage, so I dropped my stuff and went to join the circle. We were all standing. The Master was standing opposite me and said, "everyone sit down." But even though i heard him clearly, at the same time there was a crystal clear, loud, strong voice in my left ear that said "Don't. Move." So I stayed standing. 3 or 4 other people stayed standing and the rest were sitting. All the sitting people closed their eyes and seemed to be asleep. The Master looked at each of us (one of them was the guy I met at the beginning and had a slight crush on) and was about to give further instructions (I knew now that I had passed some sort of spiritual or other-worldly test... I had been chosen, but I don't know what for) but I woke up.

It's strange, because I think I was in and out of waking throughout this whole dream. Like, I knew I was awake in bed even as I was in the dream. Two places at once, almost. It was strange.

26.04.2015

Shuffle of dreams - summary only (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

As usual, I am missing to write a ton of dreams... I am traveling and that halves my time, so I summarize a few ones from previous days:

- There was a military boat with all the evil of the world. I had a cannon to sink it and all the evil of the world would end.

- I could "bond" with birds holding them on their paws. I did with a tiny bird and I could fly, the little bird lifitng my wight.

- I was a monkey in the sabannah.

- I had people sleeping in my own hotel room.

- I merged somehow with a video game and I saw giant creatures around buildings.

- I saw a huge forest that had a ton of Ganon walking around. It was dangerous to go around even though they did bother no one. People ended up killing them and I felt how pathetic was the human being.

Bloodbath and alien hunting

With two friends we took sawed-off shotguns, and wanted to make a small bloodbath. Everything looked like a DOS FPS game. We were chasing eachother in an old village. Running through old cathedral, empty streets and abandoned sections of the village.

It was quiet. I knew that they have allied against me, and are preparing an ambush. I decided to enter sewers, go out of it in a nearest building, and take dark alleys. I wanted to make my own ambush at a crossroad, on top of one building.

I got out of alley, and something jumped in front of me. It was xenomorph from Alien movie. I tried to shoot it down, but it resisted my shots. It grabbed me in its hands and eaten me. After a few seconds I respawned in a place far away from that crossroad.

I heard screams. They must've met the alien. I waited, but they haven't respawned. Mad, I wanted to avenge my friends, and went on a rampage against the alien.

Morning of April 26, 2015. Sunday.



I am completing an algebra ii task on a TI-84 Plus graphing calculator. It is the most recent task worked on in real life and results in the drawing of a dragonfly using several graphed equations. However, the apparent result is an actual dragonfly that emerges from the front edge. I feel slightly guilty at creating a couple malformed dragonflies that may suffer for a short time before dying. One is too big since I forgot to reset the zoom to the default and as a result, its wings are slightly truncated though it seems to become more intelligent and manages better than the other ones. I am unsure if the buzzing that begins to occur is coming from one of the dragonfly’s wings or from the calculator shorting out, as a small flame shoots from the side with a “pop”. Perhaps a battery has exploded, but this does not seem to be the case.

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Typified as having exit flight waking symbolism as the dragonfly emerges from calculator and flies away. Critical thinking skills waking prompt present (calculator). No failed flight symbolism as first malformed dragonflies not verified to have died. There is an association with neural energies as the “buzzing” insect

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Video Games

I was inside a room with my brother's friend watching me play what was suppose to be
a Wii U game I think. But instead of using the remote I was controlling the character with my body. I was on
rainbow road running and jumping trying not to fall as I collected the rings. The game made me think it was a mix
of Mario kart and sonic. Than after that the game and room changed. I was now playing a game where i was a cave man and had to collect clothes and meat until i arrived at the end of the game.There were obstacles in the game too so it
was kind of difficult. Than my cousin came and asked me if she could play. I told her no and she asked again so i had
to tell her no many times till she stopped.

After that my younger brother came in and my older brother switched the game to what was supposed to be a new super smash bros melee game. I was excited because my younger brother came in and was going to play. I hugged him than chose my character which was a big male jaguar/wolf that could walk. My younger brother chose the character 114 Parakeets. I was surprised and asked him if he chose the 104(Even though it read 114) Parakeets character because he was playing with me. Than i laughed and said how weird it would be if there was actually 104 parakeets flying around in the game.(The 114 Parakeets character was just a guy with a shirt saying 114 Parakeets, not lots of birds flying around)

After that we started fighting on a plane that seemed like star fox's ship, flying in a clear sky. I used the Jaguar/Wolf character I had to pick up my opponents pressing down and B.(We had game cube remotes in hand playing the melee game) Than I was going to throw them off. The Jaguar/Wolf began talking about how it was eager to throw them down and laugh in their faces. My brother's friend and my older brother began screaming telling me not to throw them down. I didn't know how to release them down hard so i tried tossing them but they were able to jump back on the ship. I told them it was cause i didn't know ho to do it than woke up.

Another Dimension

I was inside a room with a little boy and his sister. The boy was misbehaving so the sister tried correcting him but he didn't want to listen. There was also a little girl that came into the scene and she wasn't listening either. Her dad came and made her listen. After that I don't really recall what happened. I think I left and started thinking about dreams and an old childhood friend who I will call H.

The dream began to change and I ended up finding H, my brothers, dad and tall, cool looking anime boys that had purple, light blue, black, red and yellow hair.They were supposedly rich and from another dimension that was a secret. I thought they might have entered from another dimension into the dream world and was excited to meet them.

I started talking to the guy with red hair and he seemed interested in me so i decided i would do my best to make him my bf. I sang a song with him, ate food with him which i thought was Japanese curry and rice and played with him riding on his back. But when i went to another room to talk to H or my younger brother and went back to the room he was gone. I asked the other guys where he might have gone but than decided to go look for him on my own.

I left the place and started walking around what seemed like a beautiful mansion where rich people lived. I start to think where the rest of my family might be inside this huge place and go into the bathroom. I stay there because i start to notice that what I'm wearing is a bit too short. I walk back outside and can hear my cousin and brother's friend talking in a certain room. Than i race down the stairs and end up running into a man who thinks of me as a circus slave/Prostitute. He wants me to go on stage. I tell him no and that i could do what i want in my dream state. I run trying to escape the group of people he shouted to grab me.

I become even more aware after that and decide that when i get outside i would stop running. I end up inside a outside yard. Not much grass but mostly cement and fences around in the rectangular yard i'm in. There are other buildings around it and I find a character that makes me think of Jadegreen. We end up talking about something than I start to notice as I'm hovering in the air another character. I tell her she looks like a shorter version of Manei and overall feel like she is. I tell her to follow me as i'm flying and say "Achi, Achi, Achi! follow me!" without really thinking about it. I apologize to her for calling her that. It just came out. She doesn't seem to mind and I start to think about how maybe i called her that because i heard the word in japanese "Achi" when i watched a video talking about "kocchi" a long time ago.

Anyways I think about Dawn than suddenly a dog runs up to me. I hug the dog that is now licking my face and start to think what if Dawn is the dog. Manei and another person now look at me with a weird look on their faces. I tell the dog to stop licking me than think about looking for that anime character again. The scene ends up changing though and I'am now viewing a news report of a school building in japan that has caught on fire. There was a Japanese girl on the floor thinking of her best friend as she lay on the floor with her broken leg. After that I appeared near what was suppose to be the school but in the future when it was rebuilt. I noticed a girl character staring at me from the park.

A narrator figure announced that she was from the past and that she was madly in love with me. I was upset with that thought and started thinking what if Dawn was really a girl on the inside and wanted to be with me but in the form of a girl. It made me feel uncomfortable to think about that so i decided to fly far away from the dc. I flew through narrow places as the girl chased me telling me to wait and to come back. As I was flying the place was getting darker and it made me feel kind of scared but I decided I would be brave in this dream.I ended up flying into a huge car tunnel and saw a anime boy trying to turn away a large fish that was flying in the area. It was pretty cool to watch but I got the feeling that I wanted to go home and find Eye or the real Dawn.

I flew out the tunnel with home in mind and ended up downstairs. It was dark and I felt like really calling for Eye but decided not to. i ran up the stairs and looked at the window. There was little light outside. I opened the front door than saw a transparent thing in the small hall that had the stairs that led to the other neighbors place. I closed the door and decided not to go outside. I went into the middle of the living room and decided to pull Dawn into the dream through a floor portal. I concentrated on Dawn's energy and put both my arms through the floor. I felt something and i slowly got a signal of a red energy. I thought this was a bad thing because i didn't want Dawn to be a bad entity.

I let it go but than decided to just pull it out full force anyways. The person I pulled out was all red and i felt it was taking my energy so i let go of it. "Dawn, are you stealing my energy?" I asked. It transformed into a small baby and tried hugging me. I pushed it away and thought about where i went wrong in my way of thinking. I made a small prayer for my dream to be clean when i couldn't get the baby to go away. A small piece of the dream setting broke when i did that and the baby fell in and didn't move. As if it was dead. After that I appeared in a small kitchen where a lady asked her daughter if she wanted tuna fish for dinner. Than I woke up.