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Awake|Dreaming|Lucid

I've been using some longer mantras lately and thought about how much the mantra actually does. I change it to a more simple mantra, "It's a dream, pinch your nose". I had two lucid dreams tonight so I guess it worked. I have been trying out the "summon a mirror and teleport through it skill" and I tried it out several times this night.

I'm in our summer place on the upper floor. I think about flying out the window but I sense that the dream is not stable and I think that I will wake up if I do anything crazy right away. I walk down the stairs instead and say to myself "this is a dream". I walk out through the door and try to summon a mirror in front of me. I say "take me to the place I want to go to". As the mirror rises from the ground and I start to see what is in it I am not satisfied. There are several worms that look disgusting in the mirror. I don't enter the mirror and keep on walking to the waters instead.

I'm walking outside our house and wonder if this is a dream, I think about it and don't find any reason why I would be walking the street outside my house. I do my RC and realize it's a dream. I summon a mirror and don't give the teleportation any directions. I walk in... I don't remember more but I think this next part is the same dream.

I'm walking the streets in a medieval town. I start to walk behind someone and I think to myself that I should not walk so close to a stranger because they might think I am trying to kill them. I slow down and walk at a distance from the person in front of me. He pulls out a flintlock pistol with a long pipe and shoot on me. He misses and I run away. I have a long adventure and my friend Albin is next to me. We run all over the place. I don't remember what we run from and I come to a white room with people in it. I grow bored and realize it's a dream. I try to summon a mirror in front of me without giving it directions. The mirror rises from the ground and I start to see something through the mirror. I walk in and see all these trampolines but they are all a part of the ground. There are people I know there. I have read a post about someone who talked about being nice to your DCs so I start to say hi to those I know the name of. It's a little bit awkward when I don't know the name of a person. I come to the last trampoline and the people on it act as if I have jumped with them before. There are beartraps on the trampoline and they play a game where you are supposed to avoid the beartraps. They invite me to play with them but I don't want to. They want to show me a new game they have made. I stay a little bit longer as they show me. All the people are supposed to jump except one. The last one rams the trampoline from the side and those on the trampoline are supposed to avoid the beartraps as they move when the trampoline is rammed. I grow tired of this place and try to summon a mirror without directions. A mirror rises from the ground and there are weird patterns on it. Mostly black and white. My reflection is shown when I move my hand up close the mirror. I try to enter it but it won't let me. I think about how I can use another medium as a teleportation tool. I look along the wall next to me and see a starwars poster. Almost like an instinct I go to the poster and open it up from below. When I open it up it's black on the other side. I enter and as I do there are space ships flying past me. I fly and try to come to the space ships. I succeed and I am faster than the space ships. It's a feeling of freedom. (I just shivered when I thought of the feeling because it was really nice.)There are two space fleets. The "good guys" and the "bad guys". I notice who are the bad guys because they have a big ship and the good guys have many small ships instead. I fly really fast to the big ship. I come to it and stop. The other ships fly past me and I wait some time. When the ships are far ahead of me I fly as fast as I can to race with them. I fly a while and I'm not sure if I am able to win anymore. I get some extra speed and pull it of. I come past them and there is a planet ahead. I fly and accidentally crash with another small ship. I see the small ship crash landing and when I have a closer look on the crashing ship I see that Yoda is holding on to the falling ship on the outside of the ship. It looks as if he is having a hard time holding on to it. I think Anakin is in the inside of the crashing ship. I am suddenly in a ship and I am about to crash in the water. In the last second I am able to steer the ship up and as I do the ship touches the water. (This is in third person and I lose my lucidity around here) I fly some time and suddenly it is a video game. I hear my little brother's voice. He is asking William for tips how to clean up his base in the best way. My view is like a screen and I see that it is my little brother who plays because I hear his voice as he makes his decisions. William gives my brother some advice and they sound to be smart. The game is a blend between two games. Starcraft 2 and a "tidy up your home game". My brother is preparing his base for an attack and tidying away some litter on the ground from his base. The enemy comes and my brother manages to survive with only defensive structures.

Possible recurring elements: Summer place, worms, walking outside my house, Albin, old classmates.

Notes: It's soon summer vacation and my dreams are affected. That's why I dreamt about being in our summerplace. It's to bad that the first strategy didn't work. "Take me to the place I want to go to". I had nothing in mind and wanted the dream to surprise me. I wanted the dream to give me an answer to what I wanted to do in my dream. I have been walking close to my house a lot in the past nights. I think I dreamt about the medieval town because my brother played Assassin's Creed some months ago. The gun the man tried to shoot me with reminded me of Assassin's Creed anyways. I dreamed about the trampolines because our summerplace has a trampoline. I only remember Oliver from my last class in the trampolines. The beartraps comes from a game I play with my little brother, it's called Dead by Daylight. The flying was one of my best ones ever. I had almost no restrictions and went on full speed with full control. My cousin William had a Starwars marathon with some of his friends and I dreamt about Starwars because of that. Now after the dream I realize that the big ship that was on the "bad guys'" team actually was the good guys' ship in Starcraft 2. I dreamt about Yoda because he is a meme that me and David likes. It is natural for me to dream about someone asking William for advice since I think that he is really smart.

I woke up and had all these numbers in my head. I know the numbers came from my dream and that it is about my current math assignment but I don't remember the dream details at all. There were a lot of decimals.

Being stuck at home so much at the moment is really messing with my lucidity (or maybe my intention to lucid dream). But I'm slowly getting back into it; some short (semi-)lucid experiences and one incomplete WILD in the last few days. Now, the first full lucid dream in more than a month - even if it was very short.

Woke up after only 3 hours of sleep and didn't feel sleepy at all. Took this as an opportunity to experiment once again, and put myself into a state of deep hypnosis. Used this to work through some things and progressively got more relaxed, after some time I fell back asleep. Next thing I remember is waking up again and thinking: "There'll probably be false awakenings....Like this?!"
I tried to RC but everything was already so strange that the dream state was obvious: Looking around my field of view appeared somewhat limited and the whole room was tilted by 45°. Nevertheless, I got up and walked towards the door. This was quite difficult because I felt very groggy. I noticed my mother sitting on my bed and asking if I wasn't able to sleep (again...).
Next, I felt pretty lightweight and so I started floating through the house. Once again I was astonished how realistic everthing can seem, e.g. when I slightly pinched my fingers in a door. Then, I got to the entrance and - without hestitation - proceeded to jump straight through the door. Interestingly, some part of me was surprised and got really scared by this action. I heard myself utter a fearful sound but didn't produce this neither in the dream nor in reality - as I woke up right away.

Awake|Dreaming|Lucid

I used the mantra "I am going to wake up after each dream and remember it". I woke up four times tonight and wrote down my dreams when I woke up each time.

"I know it's a dream but I feel obliged to help you!" I say to my brother in my room. He says something and I look behind my bed for important papers that are supposed to help me help my brother. I walk to the bathroom. I become more lucid and decide to do some experiments. I look on my fingers and they are almost normal, just a little bit small. I have wondered this week if I have my glasses on in my dreams. I got glasses two years ago and I'm not sure if my brain gives me glasses in my dreams so I check in the mirror. I don't have any glasses and my view gets a bit muddy. My brain understood that I didn't have my glasses and made my view bad. I block my view from the mirror with my hand and excpect the glasses to be on when I move my hand. When I move my hand I have glasses on me. But on the left side the glasses are inside my head. I adjust the glasses but my view gets even worse with the glasses on. I take of the glasses and my view turns back to normal.

I fly over the city I live in and William appears, I ask him if he is my dream guide. He replies. "I am not your dream guide. dream guides are only for those who have mastered dreaming." I keep on walking. This dream was a little bit lucid but not that much.

I am with my cousins who all eat cereals. I am the only one who don't eat. Some of them drink milk from baby bottles. Oskar asks me if I can sit next to him and I do. I put my chin to his baby chin and go back to my chair.

I wake up in the night and test out WILD. I suddenly have my arms in another position and I think I moved them without noticing. But I realize I fell asleep and moved my arms in the sleep. I try to remember if I dreamed and remembered this dream.

I'm sitting in the kitchen and mom is sitting next to me. There are some cookies on a plate on the table. Mom says that she got them free from her work. We eat them but I don't remembered the taste.

I'm walking fast to school and see Max B on the way. Our eyes meet when we are about three meters away but I quickly move on. He's talking with his friends and I don't want to interact with them. Max is waiting for the train but I walk to the bus. We have a math assignment and I tell the buss driver about it. He says that he knows exactly how it feels and I feel comforted. The bus is driving to my old school Rosenfeldt.

Possible recurring elements: My brother and chaos, my house, the city I live in, William, my cousins, school, math

Notes: I have had the theme of my brother in chaos very much lately. Today I spent time with him. I read a dream journal about someone who had their dad as her dream guide. I also watched a TV episode about a person who is dreaming and talking with his dream guide. That's why I dreamt about dream guides. I am with my cousins very much and it is only natural for me to dream about them. My mom have brought cookies from her job sometimes in the past but not this year at all. I thought I saw Max B yesterday when I got my food from school but it was someone else I didn't know. That's why I dreamt about him. I have had a hard math assignment about proving a math theorem about matrixes and eigenvectors that I worked with a lot yesterday with. I proved it today and I'm so relieved.

Of One of Four Dolls

Morning of May 28, 2020. Thursday.

Dream #: 19,519-02. Reading time (optimized): 3 min 30 sec.



My dream’s initial setting is a unique variation of our current home (with much of my waking-life identity viably modeled), but the focus is mainly on a distortion of the second house from ours. (That house has been empty for a long time in waking life.) Zsuzsanna and I are going to go and look at the inside of the house. I remember it is smaller than ours, but in my dream, it is unrealistically inadequate at first. However, in the final scenario, the setting is a mostly empty lounge room that is bigger than our lounge room.

When I am in the house in its lounge room (before it transitions to its larger size), I consider how the back room, as the house only seems to have two, has walls covered with an unusual dark material. It is somewhat like pairs of insect wings evenly and vertically covering all of the walls, additionally reminiscent of fish scales. It seems to be a result of the room being unused for so long, giving the impression of unsuitability for a potential tenant.

I eventually notice four dolls standing in a row. Each is about a foot high. I focus my attention on one that represents a girl wearing roller skates. This precursor to the vestibular-cerebral handshake (the fundamental waking process to alert the sleeping mind to comprehend physical awareness to move and rise from bed) exponentially vivifies my dream, as is usually the case, even when witnessed rather than inherited.

Although the doll can stand on its own, it seems to be somewhat rickety at first. There is a button below its chest that will activate it. When I press and rub it, the doll continues to quiver (which results in a vestibular-somatosensory-cerebral handshake, vivifying my dream to the next stage) but soon rolls away, moving in an arc.

My auditory cortex becomes active as the final dynamic of the cortical handshake. The doll vividly speaks in a young female voice as it circles the room. “Ooh, I am moving. Ooh, what’s that? Ooh, it’s a box.” The doll bumps into an empty cardboard box that matches its height, though immediately turns, rolls a short distance, and bumps into another one opposite the first.

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I awake with a slightly shaky feeling from being overheated.

Most dream content (excluding liminal and enigmatic integration as well as modulation by my conscious self identity) is always a unique rendering of the same waking processes, simple as that, that is, imaginary compensation for the vestibular-cerebral handshake (and as here, additional somatosensory cortex and auditory cortex activity). Ever since I was a child, it has remained mind-boggling that I have rarely seen anyone comprehend this no matter how clearly it has been explained and validated thousands of times since I first wrote extensively about dreams at age eight.

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I will present here another rundown on this in my 5,100th Internet entry.

Dream content is fundamentally co-occurrent with the dream state. As explained many times before, “Similarly, he (Herbert Silberer) has shown that the conclusions of some dreams or some divisions in their content merely signify the dreamer’s own perception of his sleeping and waking…in persons who are gifted philosophically and accustomed to introspection it may become very evident.”

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It should be self-evident that the shaky doll was a simulacrum of my emerging awareness of my physicality that needed addressing. It was upright and on roller skates (in contrast to my concurrent physical status), with similarity to my “Annabelle” dreaming experience from March 4, 2020. In that instance, the doll was bigger. Additionally, I decided to wear roller skates to enjoy the vestibular experience.

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Now, some clarification to wrap it all up.

Why was the activation button below the doll’s chest? It was because of co-occurrence with my mild indigestion, where I typically press on or rub the same area for some relief.

Why was the doll on roller skates? This feature is the result of vestibular cortex activity that has not quite correlated with the emergence of my physical status during REM sleep (the same factor that causes sleep starts, in other words, the transition of atonia to myoclonus).

What is with the empty cardboard boxes? They are concurrent with the absence of full cortical integration, as virtual walls always are in the dream state, and ultimately with every other factor of liminal modulation. (For example, one person told me how he crashes through a wall to wake himself, though I often use a virtual door, and one of my more vivid early childhood dreams ended with a bull crashing through a wall. There is no need to pretend it “means” something else.)

What about the small room in the back with peculiar walls? I just explained what “walls” are, but the pairs of insect wings are more about a potential increase in neural energy. Their dormancy correlates with the absence of a cortical handshake and no anticipated myoclonus at that point.

Why was the doll female? I am more likely to associate a doll with feminine attributes, even though it is an analogy of how my body does not move while sleeping. However, I have not done the thousands of correlations needed to confirm that vestibular simulacrums are more often female than male.

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Dreamt that I talked to an old friend, like if we were friends again. I was suprised that they messaged me on discord all of a sudden, but we had a good time on catching up on eachother...we dug the battle axe. And everything was alright.

Monday Night, 4/27/20

I was playing in the ocean along with one or two companions. "Come on!" I said, rushing headfirst into the water, swimming as fast as I could. I was half experiencing, half simulating the ocean waves. Upon realizing there were no large waves crashing over me, I began to expect them which then led to their creation and my experience of having large waves tumble me about. The part of me that was scared was drowned out (no pun intended) by my overall sense that I was perfectly safe. A female friend came along with me past the large waves. We were then rapidly pulled far out to sea where the waters became deep and calm. My mind offered up a couple practical concerns. Aren't you worried about dangerous sea creatures the longer you're out here? How far off is land on the other side of this ocean? Won't you get tired of swimming and drown? I decided it was best not to think of dangerous sea creatures. I should simply focus on not splashing around too much. As to getting tired, I found I was able to easily swim at a fast pace with barely any effort. Later we transitioned to walking and gliding along the surface of the water.

As night approached, the Narrator said that we would need a place to rest for the night. A dark blue door with orange trim around it appeared. I knew exactly what it was the moment I saw it. I opened it and we stepped through, into my room. Inside it was arranged a little differently than waking life, with bunk beds and a couple random piles of blankets, pillows, and sheets laying around, but it was still fully recognizable. I also found there was a second door which I could open to the rest of the house. I walked around in the upstairs hallway then went back into my room again. Strange. I thought, while my friend just seemed obsessed with playing in the blanket pile and rubbing her face against the pillows. I opened the blue door once again to see that, indeed, it still led right out to the middle of the ocean. "You can change where the door leads." The Narrator informed me. I closed the door and reopened it to try it out. It no longer led to the ocean, now it led to a random room. I closed it for good this time and prepared for sleep, though I don't think I actually did fall asleep.

Spoiler for Additional Notes:

This one was so close to becoming a lucid dream. I had the awareness of dream control abilities, noticed the oddness of what I was observing, and then there was the presence of the Narrator dropping hints. The Narrator is a disembodied voice that shows up surprisingly often in my dreams and I've referred to it as my subconscious in the past. I'm starting to notice a clear pattern where it shows up when I'm either lucid already or I'm very close to becoming lucid. The ocean is another pre-existing dream sign of mine that's been showing up a lot lately. My relationship to the waves in dreams has gone through an interesting progression over the course of 20+ years of having those recurring dreams, but that's a post for another time. Apparently I'm plunging headfirst into them now.

10 ОС. Конец света. (23 Октябрь 2011)
Суть неосознанного сна была в том, что связи тяготения в галактике стали распадаться и планеты, солнечные системы стали беспорядочно разлетаться кто куда. Мы со знакомыми были подавлены случившимся, так как мы находились по сюжету сна на планете колонии, где всё добывается искусственно, и в случае подобной катастрофы нам было не выжить. Выжить могла только Земля, где всё натуральное.
Несмотря на сюжет сна я шёл по бульвару, который существует в реальном мире как раз таки на Земле.Тут я начал вспоминать, как мы узнали эту новость, и понял что до этого я ничего не помню. Я говорю знакомым, чтобы они не расстраивались этой катастрофой, так как я не помню, как я здесь оказался, зато помню что я вчера дома лёг спать, так что скорее всего это сон и всё происходит в моей голове. Несмотря на понимание, что это сон я хотел продолжать действовать по сюжету. Лица знакомых, после того как я это сказал, помрачнели. Я пошёл впереди них, и попробовал проткнуть столб большим пальцем насквозь. Сам отвернулся от столба. На ощупь столб был не бетонным, а какая то плотная структура. Проткнуть так и не получилось, хотя я держал так долгое время. Тем временем я увидел, что вместо моих знакомых идут трое бомжеватого вида мужика. Я отошёл от столба и пошёл дальше. Впереди был дом, захотелось пройти сквозь него, но в последний момент подумал что не получится и обошёл его. Проснулся, заснул тут же заново. Осознанного сна больше не было, но сюжет был тот же. Я со знакомыми был в какой-то комнате и мы изобретали что то чтобы выжить. При этом надо было взять с собой важные вещи и мне было жалко расставаться со своими столовыми приборами: ложкой, вилкой, ножиком.

Выводы:
1.Осознанность была слабая. Тем не менее про план вспомнил.
2. Проткнуть столб не получилось.
3. Удалось вернуться в сон. Сюжет был тот же: "скоро конец света.


10 LD End of the light. (October 23, 2011)
The essence of an unconscious dream was that the bonds of gravity in the galaxy began to decay and the planets, the solar systems began to randomly fly apart. My friends and I were overwhelmed by what happened, since we were on the plot of sleep on the planet colony, where everything is artificially mined, and in the event of such a catastrophe we could not survive. Only the Earth could survive, where everything is natural.
Despite the plot of the dream, I walked along the boulevard that exists in the real world just on Earth. Then I began to recall how we learned this news, and realized that before that I did not remember anything.
I tell my friends that they should not be upset by this catastrophe, since I don’t remember how I ended up here, but I remember that I went to bed yesterday at home, so most likely it is a dream and everything happens in my head.
Despite the understanding that this was a dream, I wanted to continue acting on the plot. The faces of my friends, after I said this, became gloomy. I went ahead of them, and tried to pierce the post through with my thumb. Himself turned away from the post. To the touch the post was not concrete, but some kind of dense structure. It didn’t work through the poke, although I held it for a long time.
In the meantime, I saw that instead of my friends there were three homeless-looking peasants. I moved away from the post and moved on. Ahead was a house, I wanted to go through it, but at the last moment I thought that it would not work and went around it.
Woke up, fell asleep right there again. There was no longer a lucid dream, but the plot was the same. I was in a room with friends and we invented something to survive. At the same time, I had to take important things with me and I was sorry to part with my cutlery: a spoon, a fork, a knife.

Findings:
1. Awareness was weak. Nevertheless, I remembered the plan.
2. It did not work to pierce the post.
3. Managed to return to sleep. The plot was the same: "soon the end of the light.

I went to sleep at 1:52. Before bed i meditated for about 30 minutes to calm my mind.

I woke up at 6:52 a bit sweaty because i had clothes on and a lot of blankets (i noticed that i have better dream recall like that and more vivid dreams).

I dreamt that i was visiting some elderly people in my family. It was nap time, and it's like they needed visiting because they needed to socialize otherwise their minds kind of like deteriorated. It was like 2 hours before we visited them though, but Teresa, my mom's aunt, held up really well, got herself entertained in solitude until we arrived. Maria, her sister, on the other hand was watching TV and of course her lucidity wasn't as good as Teresa.
I just remember arriving, sitting at the table and talking a few things, but i don't recall what we talked about.

Then in another fragment, i was in a room with some people, sitting at a table. And i don't know how we got to this topic but i was trying to explain that body contemplation (like Buddhism teaches it) is benefitial. There was a microphone in the table and it was like i was giving a podcast, but also while i was talking with these people in the table. There was a girl who i was adressing this message, but again idk why. Anyways she was listening attentively. As i was explaining though, i couldn't convince her nor myself of what i was saying. It was the way i was saying it, because within i'm already conviced of this. I was trying to describe the body parts to contemplate, but meanwhile i was asking myself why? So i was speaking and internally i had this kind of dilemma. So i tried to reason some purpose in my mind and i started repeating the messsage all over again, from the basics. So i mentioned the purpose of this kind of contemplation, that it was to counteract lust particularly with the body, and that you should contemplate the organs, the blood, the nerves (as i was thinking what else, i was saying it out loud. That was kind of cool because i was exercising my memory & thinking in a dream). Then it seems the girl understood the idea, and she replied something like "oh, it sounds much like the Sufi religion" and in my mind i was like "no, not at all... I don't think Sufism actually teaches this. I would believe you if it were Hinduism or Jainism, but even then no."
After that (or while i was hearing that) i was watching a fight scene of a girl about 20 years old with a guy about 40, by the door. They were practicing freestyle wrestling but the guy was destroying her. In one of the times he throws her to the floor, she falls with her head and she cracks it open and her brains get splattered over the floor. I was in shock. But immediately doctors come out and operate her in the spot putting her brains inside again like it was nothing.

I recorded some dream notes so i wouldn't forget and went back to sleep. Then at 8:55 i woke up again.

I dreamt i was meditating in my father's house. There was like a coaching retreat, but it was like i decided i would not participate so i could meditate. And my father was cool with that.
Then i was in like an island. I think it was the same retreat, but we were going to do a parachuting activity. I was standing in a cliff but not so tall, and down you could go to the beach of the sea.
I was there until it got dark. I noticed that i would get hungry soon. And my dad went to look for me by that time.

Then i had a false awakening. I was in my room and i got up and out to the living room. I spoke a bit with my sister. She had the TV on because since my older sister watched that program (which irl she doesn't actually so idk where that came from XD) she left it on for me. But i don't watch TV so i replied kinda angrily (because i felt like she was trying to manipulate me or something).

Then i woke up.

9 ОС. На огороде с другом (22 октября 2011)

Я нахожусь с другом "АСом" и другими знакомыми возле деревянного дома. Дом двухэтажный. Часть людей находится на улице, часть в окне на втором этаже. Мы с "АСом" пошли вокруг дома. Весь остальной народ куда-то исчез. Я подумал странно, может это сон. Взглянул на руки - точно сон. Местность стала походить на мой огород. Тем временем мы с "АСом" ступили на деревянный тротуарчик, который пересекал огород. "АС" шёл впереди. Я стал его догонять при этом наклонился и дотронулся до тротуара и его кромки. При этом не переставал двигаться. Дерево ощущалось нормально, я даже испугался что посажу занозу если не уберу руку. Догнав "АСа" стал хватать его и трясти, но он продолжал идти вперёд. Тогда я развернул его (при этом заметил что на нём зелёная рубашка), и сказал ему: "АС, мы во сне"

"Нет ни в сне", - ответил он.

Я его отпустил, и он растворился в воздухе. Я решил пойти в обратную сторону, предварительно ещё раз дотронувшись до тротуара. Но качество ОСа всё равно было не очень, не то что в предыдущем сне. Если смотреть вдаль изображение искажалось. Поэтому я сосредоточился на ближайшем окружении: тротуаре, огороде, и виднеющих впереди двух дачных построек. До них я так и не дошёл.

Выводы:
1. Персонажи исчезают.
2. Тактильные ощущения в ОСе реальны.
3. Спрайт друга отказался поверить, что это сон.

9 LD. In the garden with a friend (October 22, 2011).

I am with my friend "AS" and other friends near a wooden house. The house is two-story. Some people are on the street, some in a window on the second floor. "AS" and I went around the house. The rest of the people disappeared somewhere. I thought weird, maybe it's a dream. I looked at my hands - just like a dream. The area began to resemble my garden. Meanwhile, "AS" and I stepped onto a wooden sidewalk that crossed the garden. “AS” was ahead. I began to catch up with him, and bent over and touched the sidewalk and its edge. However, I did not stop moving. The tree felt fine, I was even afraid that I would plant a splinter if I did not take my hand away. Having caught up with "AS" began to grab him and shake, but he continued to move forward. Then I turned it around (while I noticed that he was wearing a green shirt), and told him: “AS, we are in a dream”
“Not in a dream,” he answered.
I let him go, and he disappeared into the air. I decided to go in the opposite direction, having previously once again touched the sidewalk. But the quality of the LD was still not very good, not like in the previous dream. If you look into the distance, the image is distorted. Therefore, I focused on the immediate environment: the sidewalk, the garden, and those who could see in front of the two summer houses. I never got to them.

Findings:
1. Characters disappear.
2. Tactile sensations in the OS are real.
3. A friend’s sprite refused to believe it was a dream.

8 ОС. Реалистичность ощущений (20 октября 2011)

Я был с мамой, обходил дом друга. Подобрал с земли бумажку. Реклама какая-то. Стал читать, читалось нормально. Однако слова я не запомнил. Но подозрение, что это сон, в моей голове не исчезло. Я повернул бумажку и так и сяк - читается. Потом отвёл взгляд, посмотрел заново - буквы поплыли. Всё думаю точно сон. Посмотрел на руки. В локте стало больно. Думаю, отлежал. Тут обстановка меняется и я оказываюсь у себя в комнате. В комнате горит свет. Мама в воздухе висит над моей кроватью. Почему- то я думал, что она хотела залезть по ступенькам и, когда обстановка сменилась, то так и застыла. Тут меня начинает выкидывать из сна. Я пробую щупать листок бумаги, который читал, потом щупаю одежду, себя самого - не помогает. Тогда я начинаю тереть руками дорошку. Ощущения чёткие, как настоящая дорошка. Дотрагиваюсь до шкафа - дерево деревом, снова дорошку. Потом дёрнул маму за ноги, поставив её на кровать. И только после этого изображение стабилизировалось. Я разгибаюсь с пола, при этом поднимаю бумажку - это оказывается закладка из книги, которую я читаю. А поначалу точно была реклама. Мама каким-то образом оказывается лежащей на своём диване. Не заметил, как она туда переместилась. Иду в сторону окна с целью посмотреть в него. Обстановка в комнате примерно такая же: мой диван, мамин диван, шкаф - всё как наяву. А вот стол не разглядел. Подошёл к окну смотрю на улицу. На улице ночь. Этаж тот же, что и в реале. Видно деревянный дома за окном, там горит яркий цвет. В реале тоже деревянные дома, только выглядят они немного по-другому, во сне я на это внимание не обратил. Я пытаюсь просунуть свой палец сквозь стекло - не получается. (Действовал левой рукой указательным пальцем). Хочу просунуть тогда голову. Вижу в оконном отражении своё лицо. На мне очки, до этого я очков не чувствовал, но стоило только мне дотронутся головой до стекла, почувствовал и очки и стекло. Ощущения реальные, что я даже подумал: "А я точно сплю?" Заставил себя усилием мысли почувствовать своё физическое тело. Получилось, успокоился. Развернулся, пошёл обратно по комнате. Спрайт мамы лежит и смотрит на меня. Я говорю ей: "Смотри, я сейчас сквозь шкаф пальцы просуну". Пробую обеими руками (опять указательными пальцами). Не выходит просунуть пальцы сквозь шкаф. Пробую ещё раз только помедленнее. Бесполезно, даже наоборот - почувствовал небольшой удар электрическим током. Пришлось облизать пальцы, как при ожоге бывает. Хочу взлететь, но передумал, вспомнил, что хотел позвать друга. Подхожу к двери в другую комнату. Заметил, что там телевизор работает. Дверь была приоткрыта, наяву открыта полностью. Просовываю руку за дверь, сам отворачиваюсь. Зову его три раза по имени и фамилии. Никто руку не берёт. Тогда я решил просто так руку из-за двери выдернуть, вдруг материализуется. Не вышло, проснулся.

Выводы:

1. Осознался из-за надписи. Поначалу читалась нормально, но после того, как отвёл взгляд, и посмотрел заново, буквы поплыли, невозможно было прочитать. Саму надпись не запомнил.
2. Посмотрел на руки - стало больно в локте. В прошлый раз было больно ладонь.
3. Спрайт мамы завис в воздухе над кроватью.
4. В неосознанном сне персонаж мамы со мной разговаривал. В осознанном нет.
5. Ощупывание предметов, и сдёргивание персонажа на пол, помогло подольше удержаться в ОСе. Все ощущения настоящие, от реала на первый взгляд не отличаются.
6. Стоило отвернуться, как персонаж мамы мигом оказался лежащим в кровати.
7. Просунуть часть тела сквозь стекло не вышло.
8. После попытки просунуть палец сквозь дерево получил удар током. Очень натуральные ощущения электрического удара.
9. На голове сами по себе возникли очки. Потом они исчезли.
10. Сумел из сна почувствовать своё физическое тело. И при этом я не проснулся.
11. Реалистичность обстановки заставило меня усомниться: "А точно ли это сон". Казалось, что я не сплю, и действительно хожу по комнате.
12. Метод двери в поиске персонажа не сработал.


8 LD. Realistic sensations (October 20, 2011)

I was with my mother, went around a friend’s house. I picked up a piece of paper from the ground. Some kind of advertisement. I began to read, it read normally. However, I did not remember the words. But the suspicion that this was a dream did not disappear in my head. I turned a piece of paper and this way and that - it reads. Then I looked away, looked again - the letters floated. I think everything is a dream. I looked at my hands. My elbow hurt. I think, lay down.

Then the situation changes and I find myself in my room. The light is on in the room. Mom in the air hangs over my bed. For some reason, I thought that she wanted to climb the stairs and when the situation changed, she froze. Then it starts to throw me out of dream. I try to feel the piece of paper that I read, then I feel the clothes, myself - it does not help. Then I start rubbing my hands on the powder (carpet on the floor). The sensations are clear, like a real powder (carpet on the floor). I touch the closet - a tree with a tree, again a powder (carpet on the floor). Then I pulled my mother's legs, putting her on the bed. And only after that the image stabilized. I straighten up from the floor, while lifting a piece of paper - it turns out to be a bookmark from the book that I am reading. And at first there was definitely an advertisement.

Mom somehow finds herself lying on her couch. I didn’t notice how she moved there. I go towards the window in order to look into it. The situation in the room is about the same: my sofa, my mother’s sofa, wardrobe - everything is in reality. But the table did not make out. I went to the window looking at the street. It's night on the street. The floor is the same as in real life. You can see the wooden house outside the window, there is a bright color. In real life, there are also wooden houses, they only look a little different, in a dream I did not pay attention to it. I try to stick my finger through the glass - it doesn’t work. (Acted with the left hand with the index finger). I want to stick my head in then. I see my face in the window reflection. I have glasses on, before that I did not feel glasses, but as soon as I touched the glass with my head, I felt both glasses and glass. Real feelings that I even thought: "Am I exactly sleeping?" I made myself an effort of thought to feel my physical body. It turned out, calmed down.


Turned around, walked back around the room. Mom’s sprite is lying and looking at me. I tell her: "Look, I'm going to put my fingers through the closet now." I try with both hands (again with index fingers). It doesn’t come to put your fingers through the closet. I try again only more slowly. It is useless, quite the contrary - I felt a slight electric shock. I had to lick my fingers, as happens with a burn.

I want to take off, but changed my mind, I remembered that I wanted to call a friend. I go to the door to another room. I noticed that the TV works there. The door was ajar, fully awake. I poke my hand out the door, I turn away. I call him three times by name and surname. No one takes a hand. Then I decided to pull my hand out of the door just like that, it suddenly materializes. It didn’t work, I woke up.


Findings:

1. Confessed due to the inscription. At first it was read normally, but after I looked away and looked again, the letters floated, it was impossible to read. I did not remember the inscription itself.
2. I looked at my hands - it hurt at my elbow. Last time, my palm hurt.
3. Mom’s sprite hovered in the air above the bed.
4. In an unconscious dream, the character of my mother talked to me. In the conscious no.
5. Feeling things, and pulling the character to the floor, helped to stay longer in the LD. All sensations are real, from the real world at first glance they do not differ.
6. Stoilo otvernut'sya, kak personazh mamy migom okazalsya lezhashchim v krovati.
7. Prosunut' chast' tela skvoz' steklo ne vyshlo.
8. Posle popytki prosunut' palets skvoz' derevo ya poluchil udar tokom. Ochen' natural'nyye oshchushcheniya elektricheskogo udara.
9. Na golove sami po sebe voznikli ochki. Potom oni ischezli.
10. Sumel iz sna pochuvstvovat' svoyo fizicheskoye telo. I pri etom ya ne prosnulsya.
11. Realistichnost' obstanovki zastavilo menya usomnit'sya: "A tochno li eto son". Kazalos', chto ya ne splyu, i deystvitel'no khozhu po komnate.
12. Metod dveri v poiske personazha ne srabotal.
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6. It was worth turning away, as the character of the mother instantly was lying in bed.
7. To push part of the body through the glass did not work out.
8. After trying to put my finger through the tree, I got an electric shock. Very natural sensation of electric shock.
9. On the head, glasses arose on their own. Then they disappeared.
10. I managed to feel my physical body from sleep. Nor did I wake up.
11. The realism of the situation made me doubt: "Is it really a dream?" It seemed that I was not sleeping, and really walk around the room.
12. The door method in the character search did not work.

Awake|Dreaming|Lucid

I used the mantra "I am going to wake up after each dream and remember it". I woke up 05.15 with the first dream and 06.10 with the second dream. 05.15 I tried out WILD and it was the best I have ever had!

WILD attempt 15: I wake up 06.10 and write down my dream and drink some water. I go back to bed. I lay still and focus to relax my neck and tongue mostly. I have to swallow two times because my throat is so dry. After about 20 minutes I get some insane sensations in my left part of the body. It's like super fast vibrations. After about 25 minutes I am almost not conscious and on the verge of sleep. I am suddenly in a dream but I still feel my body in the bed. I wake up after a while, maybe after some seconds maybe after a minute, but can't remember the scene I was in. I enter my normal sleeping position and go to sleep.

I'm in a party in the left up corner of the room. I feel much older because the company I'm with are all as old as my parents. I speak with a younger lady (perhaps 20 years old) and we introduce each other. She says she is from Germany and I think I said that I was a Jew(?). We talk about bread baking and I talk about my bread(??). I get the impression that she is flirting with me. I walk down to the dinner table and my family is already there. The young lady sits two chairs away from me and she has two friends next to her. I see that her friends are pretty stupid. Suddenly my mother accuses her for flirting with me even though she has no intentions of wanting me. My mother says an advanced word that no one understands except she and the young lady that flirted with me. I understand that the word describes the situation me and the girl are in. Suddenly the girl who flirted with me becomes black and she leaves the table. I think to myself that my family is going to think that I fancy coloured girls but it doesn't bother me. I follow her to talk with her and she says that she is sorry because she flirted with me even though she didn't fancy me.

I'm in a hospital and I walk into the only door I see. My brother is laying there but he doesn't seem to be that sick. We talk and he says he is okey. I wait out the night outside the door and in the morning we see each other again. I suddenly have no shirt and I only have a towel around my waist instead of pants. I hold my other clothes around my arm and I walk outside to change clothes. For some reason I change in the middle of the corridor. There are two heavy nurses by my little brother's door and I see them through a mirror as I change. They also look at me through the mirror. One of the nurses starts to change clothes and looks at me. She is naked and when I have changed clothes I walk away from the nurses. I see some showers and go in to wash myself. My smaller cousin is there and she talks with an older man. When I stand in the shower my cousin suddenly harasses me by hitting me and I can't stand up because it hurts so much.

Possible recurring elements: Parties, family, hospitals, brother and chaos, showers, cousins.

Notes: I have noticed that I dream about parties pretty often and that it is one of my dream signs. The girl I met in the party was German because yesterday I saw an educational video and the teacher spoke with a german accent. Maybe I said that I was a Jew because I think of jews when I think about Germany. I dreamt about breadbaking because yesterday I made russian pasties and my dad thought that I made the bread to them but it was premade bread. I have dreamt about my brother and chaos some nights now. I want to help him fix his life more. I have also dreamt about showers lately. I often dream about my cousins.

Thursday Night, 11/7/19

I was hiking through a forest and I came out into an open field, accidentally spawning a large bear as I did so. I had to run away from it using video game controls. It morphed from bear, to wolf, to lion, to jaguar and long story short I couldn't increase the distance between me and it no matter what tactics I used.

Gradually the environment shifted from video game to realistic until I was running in my own body rather than using controls. Knowing I stood no chance remaining in the open field, I dove into the deep river to my left and swam across. I pulled myself out onto the opposite river bank and found myself back among the trees. But of course jaguars are excellent swimmers so the big cat followed me easily. As it came out of the water the jaguar transformed into a woman. She was beautiful and lithe, dressed in flowing white, with the cold expression of a seasoned killer. We came out onto a wide and empty paved road that cut through the trees. I walked backwards and shot invisible arrows at her which made her health bar go down - a remaining feature from the video game - but she was otherwise unfazed. She was slowly walking toward me holding an already bloodied sword which she didn't even bother to raise. She said, "It's always hard to kill something for the first time." Clearly she was not referring to herself. She seemed to be implying that any reluctance to kill on my part would give her the advantage.



We both stopped walking and she informed me flatly that I was out of arrows. Her health bar was only at half. I knew I would have to use my sword and hack away for my life. I wasn't very skilled with a sword. That is to say I'd never used one before. As the jaguar woman raised her own sword it was immediately clear she was in her element. My alarm went off, yanking me out of there and into a waking state.

Gerçekten lucid rüya üzerinde uğraşan ve başarabilen bir Türk olsa iletişim ve öğrenme açısından daha iyi olur diye düşünüyordum. Eğer varsa lütfen benimle iletişime geçin.

I'm in some sort of underground cavern, in a bathing suit, in shallow water with two other people, a man and a woman. Only the lower half of our bodies are in the water. I'm playing footsie with the woman and then the man sticks his foot in between ours. I can feel the silt on the bottom of this body of water. It's gross. I'm starting to feel pretty grossed out and stand up to get out of the water and onto some smooth, flat rocks. I look down at my legs and there are tiny slugs all over me!!!! I start just running and freaking out and pulling these slugs off myself. Then it's as if the underground cavern was attached to a building, and I've run into that building and now I'm in some sort of strange never ending hallway of dressing rooms. I am zig zagging through these dressing rooms, all of which are different and have different themes, like, Japanese, one of them was blue, one had a lot of mirrors, one was red. I'm not frantically running anymore, but it feels important to get out of this maze. When I finally do, I am met with.... a giant seemingly holographic black and white and gray face, with eyes closed talking at me extremely loudly in a language I do not understand. It is subtitled. I can't remember all of it, but it's saying something along the lines of it's God, and I met the challenge, or there's a task for me, or something. I don't remember much of what was said, or if I talked back to it, I was honestly so freaked out by the loudness of it all.

Second part of my dream, I'm in a parking lot and someone comes up to me saying there's a half off sale at this store. I go in and it's kind of a dispensary/drugstore. There are candy edibles - just rows and rows of them, neon colors or gummies and hard candies. I look at the expiration dates and they are five years away. So I start grabbing handfuls of them. Then I go down a toy aisle and look for something for my youngest nephew. I thought he might want an action figure or something. There are a lot of Lego sets and some other toys. There was one action figure with a face that kind of reminded me of the face from the previous dream. Then I look a little further and it's a balcony up ahead. Over the edge there seems to be some sort of situation with air blowing up from underneath so that everything over the edge is floating. A guy with skis jumps over the edge and floats down to the bottom very gently.