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Dream #1

I stood out on some covered concrete area, like between the entrances to two buildings that were a part of the same apartment complex. It was a grey day.

I stood out with a young girl who IWL lives in my apartment complex. We may have just come out from a set of sliding glass doors. Now the girl stood with her back against a concrete pillar.

The girl told me she wasn't really allowed to talk to adults anymore. She'd gotten involved with some adult woman who worked as something like an undercover agent for the FBI But the woman had fallen in love with the girl and gotten herself in trouble through distraction.

I saw in my mind's eye that the FBI woman was Latina, a bit overweight, wearing black jeans and a black and red jacket.

So now the girl's dad told the girl that she was no longer allowed to talk to adults. But I figured I could probably talk to the girl anyway. I wasn't planning on falling in love with her.

Dream #2

I was in a living room with a man, probably my brother-in-law, and two of my nephews, who were both babies. My brother-in-law had one of his kids slung up onto his shoulders, and he was saying something like, "Time for a diaper change!"

My brother-in-law walked out with that nephew of mine. The other nephew was still there. I now noticed that he was wearing only a diaper, which was really soggy. I thought my nephew looked a little too old to be wearing diapers.

My nephew jumped off the couch and cried, "Diapers are fun!" He then started crawling around in a skinny space between the coffee table and the TV.

Dream #3

I was at Victoria's Secret, for some reason, getting rung up for something. The items may have been lingerie, or they may have been the black slacks and jackets the Victoria's Secret workers wear.

Dream #4

I was at the end of some area that looked like a huge tunnel. The tunnel was lit up well and had peach-colored walls. It seemed like the area was used for something like a shopping plaza.

I was crouched down at the mouth of the tunnel, possibly with my back to some wooden barricades or police tape. Somebody may have come up behind me and annoyed me. I may have told him to get lost. Another person may have asked me for help with something. I may have given him directions.

Another man now approached me. He was an older, black man. He'd asked me if I'd given the other man advice about how to set up a shop in this area. I said I had. The man seemed to be mad at me. I knew people didn't like it when other people started working here. But the man didn't act too mad.

The man and I may then have stood near his own shop, which was something like a soup shop, set up in a little, wooden shack.

I was walking away. But I was now out on some plaza-like area like between buildings on a college campus. The blue moonlight shone down on the plaza.

The man now came up behind me. He was fatter than he'd been before, and he was wearing a nice, orange shirt and tweed jacket But he was now, apparently, a homeless person with no money. He asked me if I could give him some money. So I gave him some change.

Suddenly there were a whole bunch of old, fat guys pressing up against me, asking me for change. But I didn't have any more change. In fact, I didn't have any more money! I tried to tell the guys this. But they were all mad at me. They told me they'd get me soon.

I was now in some weird space like a house with a huge window looking out over a backyard area. But the backyard area, as the dim, grey morning light revealed it, was actually a huge area of rolling, grassy hills, small, brambly, tangled trees, and shallow, muddy ponds. Up to the right was a tall hill that towered over everything else.

I may have been out earlier in this area. I may have thrown the man over my shoulder and into one of the shallow, muddy ponds. While I had been standing over the pond, I'd heard my old friend R suggest that I just go ahead and kill the man.

I thought there was no way I could kill another person. I wouldn't like to do it, and I could never get away with it. But R told me that I should murder the man. He even had a place where I could bury the body.

I was now crouched down before a different hill, but in the same kind of landscape. I heard Camille Paglia and my friend R talking about how all people are at all different stages of mental development.

Paglia said that people who like a certain poet (or listen to a certain style of music?) are of an "older stage" of mental development, like from Edmund Spenser's time. They aren't as developed, Paglia said, as people with modern minds.

I now either saw or stood near the top of the hill. There was one large spot, maybe ten meters across, where the ground was extremely soft and slimy under the grass, compared to the rest of the rather firm, muddy soil. I knew this without touching or stepping into the spot.

Dream #4

I sat on my knees before a coffee table in a living room. I was all by myself. But suddenly my grandpa and my step-grandma walked in the front door.

I was surprised to see my grandpa: he'd passed away a few years back. But I figured that my step-grandma had done something to make it so my grandpa could come back for a while.

I was also surprised by my grandpa's hair, which was tight and curly. He also had thick sideburns, like lamb's wool.

My step-grandma and grandpa sat down on a couch behind me. I continued to sit facing the coffee table, with my back to the couch. My great grandma may also have come in at some point, sitting in a chair to the left side of the couch.

My step-grandma told me to remain calm about everything, and just to perceive my grandpa being here, without any questions or worries. Getting too worked up would make my grandpa disappear.

I turned my head slowly back and tried to look at my grandpa. But now he looked really weird. I thought at the time that he was back to looking like he did before he died of cancer. But he actually looked a lot different. His eyes were huge, almost popping out of his head. And something about his face was almost plasticky.

I looked away. I thought, If my imagination made my grandpa look like that, then I can imagine him a different way. I'll imagine him when he was young and healthy.

But I was now in a room with my grandma, my grandpa's first wife. My grandma was talking to me about me and my little cousin A, and how the two of us are so special to her.

As my grandma spoke to me, she was playing with two or three cylndrical, but rough, pieces of wood, each about 20cm long and 5cm in diameter. My vision was really focused on these pieces of wood.

One or two of the pieces formed a man's body. The third had a smaller tab at its base, which was supposed to fit into a notch at the mid-point of the man. I thought that my grandma was trying to fit this third piece of wood onto the man as if it were his phallus.

Dream #6

It was early morning, with a clear, blue sky. I was drifting in, along a river, in toward a city, on a small, wooden boat. The river was big, but I was calling it a canal. I knew the city I was drifting in toward was something like a canal city, like Venice. But I may have also thought of it as a university town, like Oxford.

I now drifted up toward the buildings at the edge of the river. The buildings were all massive, beautiful, and made of red brick. The rising sun was just hitting the tops of the buildings, setting them in gold light, against the blue-grey shade.

I knew that a young man would be by soon to come pick me up. He was going to take me to a library, where I would spend some time studying. But I knew the young man was kind of resentful of me, and that he was reluctant even to come pick me up.

I passed toward or under some tallish, stone arch. I thought that it was still early in the morning. So maybe before I went to the library I could pick up a cup of coffee. I was sure there would be a Starbucks somewhere. I may have been thinking of this place as like the Financial District in New York!

I was now with the man in the library. We were in some kind of central spot. The place was massive, with heavy, wood walls. There was a wide balcony formed in a sqaure, looking down to the floors below. There was a staircase just ahead.

I knew the next level down was a quiet area. I may have heard a thin, grey-haired woman with glasses telling me, as if I were already down there, that there was no activity allowed in that area except for quiet study. It sounded perfect to me.

Dream #7

I was walking in the parking lot of a huge shopping center. It was a grey day. I walked past a McDonald's, with the lane for the drive-thru to my left.

Two white girls and a really short black boy came walking up toward me. The boy purposely got in my way, cornering me against the little curb separating the drive-thru lane from the rest of the parking lot.

I twisted my body so I wouldn't hit the little boy. I'd had to move fast -- it seemed like the boy was almost lunging at me. I lost my balance and stumbled into the drive-thru lane.

I looked back at the boy. It seemed like he was pretty amused at himself for what he'd done. People of all ages had done that to me before, and given the same amused look. But I decided this time I wasn't going to let the person get away with it.

So I walked all the way around the McDonald's building, so I could wind up behind the boy and girls. I snuck up on them and pulled the little boy toward me by the back of his shirt.

I thought I was really going to tell the boy off! But I said, "Hey, man, any time you need any help, any time you need me to do anything for you, just let me know, okay?"

Just woked up with "One Winged Angel" in my head.

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I was playing a computer game where you shoot a dragon with some kind of bullet to make it bigger. The goal was to have the biggest dragon. After that I was outside and there was a real dragon. There were people protesting against using dragons as workers and forcing them to do hard labor for us. One by one the dragons started to disappear. I tried to stop one dragon by grabbing onto it's wings, but they shrunk and then it disappeared.

11/17/2011
I wasn't even trying to WILD or anything when this happened. I'm thinking since I was experiencing a lot of stress might have been what initiated this.

I was just laying in bed with my eyes shut, I happen to facing down though I saw an image of a fan, rather than focus on it I relaxed since I knew I was fading from consciousness.This caused the image to become clearer. When my brain sent the signal to my body to tell me to move I ignored it and stayed still. Then the hallucinations started

It was two disembodied voice of children talking in unison.
This was my first auditory hallucination and if I hadn't understood what was going on I would have been completely freaked out. Even so, I was still kind of scared during the experience.

A lot of the things they said were kind of random, but I was able to manipulate them a little bit by expecting them to say things. That's why I was so sure it was an hallucination.

One of the things said was something along the lines of "I don't mean to complain but this guy is down my throat"

The last thing I heard the children say before I came back to normal consciousness was"the belly of the beast is right behind you!"

I think being scared had raised my heart rate to the point it woke me completely up.

I'm on a large commercial passenger plane dressed as a stewardess but sitting in one of the seats like a passenger. The plane has no walls between the cockpit or the bathroom and everyone can see everyone doing everything. Instead of a second officer beside the pilot, that seat is the toilet; you have to go and sit beside the pilot at the front of the plane to relieve yourself and all of the passengers can see you because there are no walls.

The plane is high in the air over an ocean. I am sitting in my seat drinking champagne from a crystal stemware. I drink a lot and eventually have to go to the bathroom. No one else on the plane has tried because they are too embarassed and are trying to hold it. I know I can't wait that long and go up to the toilet and relieve myself. I am not filled with anxiety or embarassment like I would in a similar situation in waking life.

The pilot strikes up a conversation with me and orders me more champangne. The toilet seats turns into a regular pilots seat and a curtain appears and divides the passenger area and pilots area. The pilot says he is bored and for a while our conversation goes on and I cannot remember what was said, but at the end of the dream I kneeling beside the pilot's chair fellating the pilot.

I was with someone. Sis? We went to a mall. I ran to the second floor and checked what movies are showing. The tarps are on the corridor, and I remember one has the word "gay" on it. I looked down at sis on the ground floor, some distance away from the base of the stairs.

I was on the top floor. We have a class there. My classmates were there. There was a talking animal, but I forgot what it was. I also recall leaving, for some reason.

Dream/non-lucid |*Lucid |*Extra notes

So lately I haven't been able to recall my dreams. I started using Puffin's SAT a week ago but only had 1 LD so far... I'm still hoping that it works!

I'm down a slope. It's made of grass and trees are on either side of it. It's very sloppy yet I can walk up and two friends come from nowhere. There's one holding a PSP UMD, and he says something along the line of "MegaROMs are ten times smaller than a PSP UMD". So we walk a bit up a hill and we see a small battlefield. There are "bunker houses" and bridges.

Right then I get on the roof of a house and I've got a sniper, with a thermical detector. I can see my enemies coloured in red, blue and green. So I kill a few ones but they keep coming back and they've spawned me. I'm still too quick for them and they can't get me.

That's all I could remember... Now some older dream fragments have came back to me. There's one where I'm in my apartment hall, and everything's black outside. There are a few people near the POs and we all get in the elevators.

Also, speaking of elevators, there's a dream that I used to have (happened a few times) that came back to my mind. It's one where I'm in the elevator usually with someone else or alone, and the elevator just goes in the opposite direction as you tell it to go, or it even reaches higher storeys than the building has. If I'm not mistaken, I think I had a LD by realizing that it was going nowhere.

6/28/2011
A rundown shack with a convenience store nearby. There is some kind of secret history. A baby the size of a couple of fingers is growing in a butter dish.

I am at my old house. I find some sort of secret space behind a broken mirror, but my flashlight isn't bright enough to explore it, so I leave, intending to come back later. I do my hair or something.

I'm in the backyard now. It's raining very heavily. There is a garden with spots for many things, but only a single cabbage and a couple other things are growing there. I am given a sheep named Jeanie. There is some sort of emergency. I call for Jeanie to come, but she won't, so I go inside without her.

In the kitchen, my brother M is explaining about our defenses, such as not having the kitchen blinds closed the wrong way so we can't see. Brigands break in. I fumble around desperately for a blade. I find a long, skinny blade with a too-small blue handle on my dresser. I clumsily block a couple of attacks by a brigand with my awkward sword and retreat into the back room. I close the door and open it again only to see Draco Malfoy attacking. I somehow manage to partially close the door at the right time so that he stabs the door instead of me and gets his sword stuck. I stab him in the shoulder. I am very proud of myself.

6/27/2011
I am at some sort of outdoor eatery. I am a secret agent or spy or something. There is a monastery and bones of a large animal or dinosaur. I? we? are resisting some sort of evil force in the city.

I am working for/with a king. I make a knife/dagger that has a bone handle with a sapphire in it.

I am in the dungeon or sewer underneath the palace/castle. I find some sort of portal to another dimension and go through it. I talked with many of the people there. On my way back out, I am in a strange chamber. It is flooding with lava or water. I find a strange statue and sit on it. I get some sort of hoverboard and use it to escape.

There is a usurper, protected by strange technology (a force field). We fight.

6/26/2011
I am at a boarding school. Chris (a friend I haven't seen in a couple years) is there. He and I have some sort of argument but remain friends.

It is winter and snowy. We are having dinner at a special house. There are chocolate peanut butter cups. A girl there wants to get back at a guy in chem class, for some reason. She bakes a cake that gives unusual confidence.

Chris and I are at my room. I try to find the dishes I need to return to the house and to remember what dish I left there.

There is a large lake, and a metal bridge with hand rails goes over it. The weather is very stormy, and the bridge is constantly swaying. Chris and I try to cross, but we reach a place where the bridge turns into just a pipe with a couple ropes to hold for support. There is a wide, circular area in the bridge just before it turns into a pipe. There are two thick vertical poles blocking access to the pipe. I can't fit through them and going around would risk a fall. I stop Chris from doing something reckless, and we give up and go back.

We eat some of that confidence giving cake from earlier. It is intoxicating. We head back to the lake, but it's a trick. There's a demon swimming in the water below. I don't ever get a clear view of it, but it has tentacles, and I know it's deadly. The witches are trying to trick us into falling in. They get paid if they lure people into the lake. The demon offers sacrifices to some sort of god. The cake is witch magic as well, but the girl who made that isn't in on this scheme. I had let Chris go on ahead without me earlier, and I hurry and catch up to him in time to warn him about the lake. We fight the witches. I find a jar of stored trinket/spell things. I throw handfuls of them at the witch, but only succeed in making her fly. I dump the rest of the trinket spell thingies in the lake, thus ruining all the hard work they put into making them.

We head back to the dorms, which are more like a ski lodge than actual dorms. There are theaters in the dorms, and I get lost in them on my way back. I find my way to the house of the vaguely parental character, who is male and has long blond hair. I throw some residual witch-stuff out a window. The parental-type character takes pictures of me in a photo shoot sort of manner. I suddenly realize I am naked* and try to hide it.

Out of order bits: Chris has my walkman and I have the headphones. I run off, but he doesn't let go of the walkman, so I just have the headphones. I return later and demand he give me the walkman and candy back. He does, but is offended. I vaguely remember being in some sort of tech store at some point.

* I don't mean literally naked, but that is the closest I can approximate what I mean without going into a bunch of details that I don't want to go into right now.

Delted

6/25/2011
Dream written later in the day as part of a waking journal entry.

I am in a labyrinth, standing on the edge of a chasm that I never look at. There are several doors to open. There were others there, a team, but I don't remember anything about them. At first I just tried to open each door, without going through. Each door had a trick. One door had a giant horned guardian beast with a half deformed head. We tricked it into falling into the chasm because it could not stop quickly enough. I don't remember the tricks for the other doors.

I pick one of the doors and go through it. I have in mind to explore the way I usually explore the map in an rpg- I go down every single passageway just to see where it goes, and I backtrack to find all the paths I haven't taken yet. It doesn't really work that well in a dream, since places don't always stay in the same, er, place.

The rest is pretty fuzzy. I remember a house, a shopping mall, buying some bread, a service elevator, and how very confusing the passageways are.

Just got back from the beach in Mexico. I had previously had a dream in which a shark turned into a young woman, pearl diver and at nearly the same time Auron had a similar dream.

While we were at the beach my friend Michael, who was fishing with me in my dream, had this dream: We were in the house at the beach and there was a man there who had a very odd facial feature. His nose ridge extended all the way to the top of his head. He launched himself thru the air and transformed into a sting ray and stuck himself to the wall.

btwi know this isn't an actual dream journal but I just have to do something about these expierences I've had

So the first dream I had, I was in my school and I was collecting something for a teacher (like notes or something) and then I walked out of the school office. Then I ran into a girl I knew (who strangely should of been in college, not my high school).

NOW TO THE IMPORTANT PART. Then I wanted to sit down or something and I was told I couldn't. It was a little annoying. So I walked outside and I saw like a tiger or something (though I like to think of it as a wolf). He felt familiar. Then he told me "You can sit down out here". It took a second for me to understand what he was saying, but then I understood and I laughed and was surprised he could hear me.

Then I woke up.

Now what was just SO F**KING AWESOME was the lasting emotion I felt from what the wolf/tiger said. I don't know how to describe it. It was like rebellion type emotion or something. Its the feeling you get when something just feels SO, FREAKING, COOL, that you can't stop thinking about it? Yea.

And the other dream was about last night. These two guys who sit behind me I. My Spanish class, I had a dream they both had aids, and it seemed like it wasn't news, and that it was common knowledge. They had gotten it by being exposed to blood while helping a person who was injured or something (or I might of told myself this happened after I woke, I can't remember for sure...).

It was such a weird dream but it has been creating all sorts of feelings in my head all day, emotions I also can not describe well.

I would love to creatively express these things, but I don't really know how to do it other than through music and lyrics (which I am hesitant of, as I feel it would not do these dreams justice). Plus, I feel this would be best for some sort of short writing, but I can not write too well, and me writing would not turn out well. Also I'm not an artist, and besides that's definitely not a medium I would want for this.

Somebody please say something.
Wow I really needed to say this... xD

11/10/11
First new journal (DJ Restart)
Very vague, simply remembered me and Olivia hugging and cuddling together in the front seat of a school bus, left side. (no other details whatsoever.

11/11/11
Best dream of my life (no joke it was on 11/11/11)
Semi Lucid:
First dream:
Started in the setting of my Outward Bound trip to Colorado, in a glacier melt lake(similar to lakes I saw on my trip but not an exact one) I jumped into the water for fun and it wasn't cold and it didn't have feeling. I vaguely remember it suspending me a little like jello. At this point I was semi-lucid(still not in control mostly passive watching what my brain wanted to do) and decided to climb up the mountain nearby above the lake. The climb up changed slightly towards the floating mountains of Pandora mixed with base jumping cliffs in Europe.
When I got to the top I think I was para-sailing for sometime between 3-6 hours, before landing on the coast of a (large) island shore, next to an elementary school. When I looked inland I saw skyscrapers that reminded me of Inception mixed with modern day New York.The city was approx. 10-15-20 miles away, it might have constantly been changing distance, my depth perception wasn't perfect. So I guess I rounded up some people to safari with me up there, we passed the mountains again probably 2 minutes later(or I teleported back to the top) but instead of going down on the other side of the mountains it continued slowly uphill with semi-thick trees. Eventually(after following a river riddled with waterfalls) we reached a bridge and we crossed it. It probably wasn't more than 30-50 feet across the river. Once on the other side there were stone steps leading up to a spa where there was either 1 or 2 guys that I said "We're gonna (come back and) be the king of everything (and all of this)"(inside these was what I was thinking not saying aloud or was questionable whether or not it happened) and then almost got in a fight but I think I used my brain to will them not to fight. Then we got to the city and there was something going on, like a wedding pre-party thing but it was in no way generic. All I remember is tossing a ping pong ball from 2 stories up and made it in a jug some girl was carrying without looking. Then I tried to explain (Idk to whom, maybe my conscious mind?) that someone broke their wrist because there were girls (some looked like bridesmaids) jumping off of a 15 foot or so playground/playplace then climbing back up. The play ground changed back and forth in between a playground and a (10+ story) sky scraper. At one time when I climbed a ladder up to the 2nd story of the skyscraper, there was a flatscreen on the glass next to the ladder(outside surface of the building) on which someone tried to refine my task of what I was searching for, for me. But I soon forgot that and proceeded to turn the dream into a mix of GTA4/GTA5/real life/ and the movie "Authur". I bought a cargo ship(as a rich spoiled kid), and was driving it through the harbor of what seemed to be the graphics of GTA 4. Then someone in a harbor crane (the voice of the nanny from "Arthur" tried to pick up my cargo ship, and I used a corrosive cannon/weapon on the ship to melt the bridge on which the crane used to move across the harbor(kind of like train tracks). I think that was the end of that dream.
Dream 2(kind of a fragment):
Me and the cross country guys on my team (I physically saw the form of at least 5 of them and felt the others' presence, including one Italian exchange student who doesn't even run at all but is in my AP PHYS with me) were running north on A1A, the north-south highway that runs up the east coast, and probably went about 20 miles in around 5 minutes.
Then I woke up.